#I'm sure I've even missed some of them

[teaandinanity]

This is SO interesting, my Dark Urge character in BG3 sometimes just.... does not have the moderate and sane options that my blank slate one did. I definitely feel like this ought to be a second playthrough NG+ kind of thing but also I’m having so much fun with him that I do not WANT to finish my other playthrough first. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[little-pup-pip]

Hello! Are you able to make a Stim/mood board based around the “Fruitbat” episode of Bluey? Like with some little bat plushies, and fruit squishy’s :3

Yeah!!

[nipuni]

So I just decided to render the speedpaint videos for this month's Patreon rewards and instead VLC corrupted all my files when I tried to convert them from mkv to mp4 and it overwrote the originals so now I have nothing, lost all the process of the two illustrations I had done and it's almost the end of the month and I have to paint and record the process of two new illustration in a couple of days before I have to leave on a trip 🙃

[bitchthefuck1]

It's always so funny to me when people call Kaz a serial killer or a murderer bc like. boy do I have news for you about the other crows.

[kindnessoverperfection]

Lately, when I talk about someone I strongly disagree with, I think about my friends.

When I interact with someone who regularly rants about people, and tends to take things in the worst ways (without any attempts at self-reflection or grace), I feel more on-edge. I'm nervous to voice opinions. I'm always over-thinking everything I send them, worried about how they'll receive it.

On the other hand, I feel much safer during conversations where someone is speaking neutrally about those they feel at conflict with. When they feel upset about a situation, but without talking aggressively about the other person. Because I know that if we're ever in a disagreement, or have some sort of conflict or misunderstanding, they won't hurt me or suddenly hate me*.

I used to speak much more aggressively about people. My personality disorders, combined with online toxic environments, were big factors in that. I was stressed and angry constantly, and I felt justified, and I felt afraid and ashamed to respond with anything but anger. But to make a long story short, I had several big painful interpersonal experiences where I realized how my attitude was impacting my friends.

I remember the nervousness in my friends' eyes. I remember the people I've met who are much older and never grew out of that reactive communication style, and I don't want to be that person. I want my loved ones to feel safe around me.

So nowadays, I do my best to speak compassionately (or at least neutrally). Because I want to signal to my friends that I'm not going to be cruel to them, or to automatically believe the worst of them, during a conflict or misunderstanding. I try to vent about situations and my fears instead of people.

I wish I'd realized this before.

*(I discuss splitting in the tags)

[loumauve]

a little more disorganised exploring

[passthroughtime]

yagami, WHY do you have to be such a bitch around kuwana. i'm going to strangle you.

(P.S.: he didn't tell kuwana that tesso said not to feel bad about it. obviously.)

[guinevereslancelot]

decided to leave my job and i'm gonna fr gonna cryyyyy

[cypresstrees]

inspired by @darlingofdots and this post, since it is in fact only evening where i am and i am thus more awake, please have a sampling of laurence's Worst Bad Days (my memory is not good enough to provide a definitive list or an actual ranking, pls add the ones i'm sure i've forgotten):

obviously, the number one spot goes what must definitively be laurence's most terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day: when his marriage proposal is rejected by jane, he gets served a 10,000 pound lawsuit for freeing the enslaved in benguela, and then he commits treason by bringing the cure to france

the rest in vaguely chronological order:

meeting with the chinese embassy while severely injured to hear just how badly yongxing wants him separated from temeraire and how little the admiralty cares

getting lashed by the tswana to near death, separated from temeraire with no hope of rescue

tharkay bringing him to his senses deep in the invasion of britain to realize he's been leading temeraire and the other dragons in summarily executing french irregulars as a result of his own self-hatred

sinking of the allegiance, being left with only the worst of the sailors and absolutely no real hope of survival

being marooned on an island with said worst sailors with extremely slight rations and the bleak hope of maybe being alive to be taken prisoner upon de guignes's return

while amnesiac, learning he is no longer a naval captain, is in fact temeraire's captain, and has lost eight years of memory (second place in this saga goes to finding out about the treason while amnesiac)

getting shot in the chest by a man he challenged to a duel despite being extremely forbidden from dueling, by a shot that was fired before the signal

a separate list could be made of laurence's Worst Bad Dinner Parties, which have certainly given him much grief but don't pose enough threat to his life relative to his usual day-to-day to make the Worst Bad Days list

[queenlucythevaliant]

All I want for Christmas is nothing but my favorite carols in church

[auphelia]

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[sciderman]

i relate to peter parker because i’ve had six crushes this year alone

damn son save some for the rest of us!!

[la-galaxie-langblr]

what is going on w my brain

[nobodybetterlookatme]

I've never heard of emts working only at events? What's that like for you if you don't mind my asking?

Yeah, there are ambulance companies that staff certain events, but there's some event specific companies out there lmao. For me specifically, it's almost entirely college events, whether it's happening on a campus or not. It's not great, usually pretty boring, but it's better than being on an ambulance or in a hospital. We do get actual emergencies sometimes, but usually it's just getting drunk people to the tent or giving out water and bandaids lmao. Again, boring as fuck, but I chose this over working on a 911 rig, so that's on me 😔 if I'm being so real tho, other than my coworkers, the best part of the job is the food lmaoooo it's so good and all the food trucks/food booths give discounts or free food to us depending on the location and event. And there's almost always a ton of downtime, so I basically just get paid to sit there and vibe for the most part

[vraska-theunseen]

aughhhh. aughhhhhjhhhh

[monty-glasses-roxy]

For some reason, this round of meds (same dose and everything as last time) is making me have very violent Realisations and Remembering Things moments. And by that I mean the Thing I Forgot and/or the Realisations show up with a bat and see how hard they can make my brain hit the wall. So anyway.

YOU GUYS REMEMBER SPIKE THE WETFLOOR BOT??? YOU GUYS REMEMBER HER??? THE FIRST FAZBEAR ANIMATRONIC TO BE BORN FROM LOVE INSTEAD OF PAIN??? YOU REMEMBER HER???

CAUSE I JUST DID