#I'm sorry little vent

[s3rrrpentine]

someday i'll get it

[feelbetterlove-books]

Even when you have a hard day just remember, Bucktommy "has anyone ever told you you're a vision in a cone?" will always be there. Tommy Kinard looked at his adorable boyfriend with a silly party hat on and thought Evan, you're beautiful, you're stunning, you're ravishing, you're a sight for sore eyes. I could never get tired of looking at you. I cherish you. There's nowhere I'd rather be than behind this couch at your side. And he was so real for that.

[solitaireships]

I feel like I should say since there's been a recent uptick in a lot of communities I'm in/see stuff from a lot of white people pretending to be Asian, but you are not welcome here if you are in anyway stealing from Asian cultures for clout or the aesthetics of it

This includes if you're white and you give your self inserts Asian names, I truly do not care if your f/o is from an anime, you should not be using an Asian name under any circumstances. I hate that whenever I see someone using an Asian name online, I feel like I have to start searching their account to see if they're actually Asian or just a white person who likes the aesthetic of it bcs far too many white people will use Asian names here just bcs it sounds cool, with no regard for the actual cultural meaning behind it. Meanwhile actual Asian people will be mocked for their names, or treated like their names are too hard to learn to pronounce, or discriminated against based on their names

Asian cultures are not a fun little costume for people to dress up with. They aren't just a nice aesthetic, they aren't just a thing you can borrow from bcs you think it sounds cool

[edgy-senju]

I hope you're playing around in the garden with the other kitties again.♥︎

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

me stubbornly forcing myself to drink green tea and rest from my THIRD COLD THIS MONTH

[a-scary-lack-of-common-sense]

I am exhausted, good heavens.

[itsamenickname]

No one:

Not a single soul:

Me: You know, since Luigi's first official appearance was in 1983 while Bowser's debut wasn't until 1985, that technically makes Luigi canonically older than his 10-foot dragon-turtle boyfriend.

[call-me-copycat]

I just need to be told "You Can Do It" right now.

[pigeonstab]

Epic showed up to the kotatsu party this morning lol

Also!! How’s it going? I hope you’re having a nice day <3 also I was thinking about your second college au writing again, how did Cross know Epic? Was he also in need of fostering or was he a foster parent that had Cross for a bit? :o Will they ever get to meet again?

That's such a cute coincidence TwT.

I am doing... Alright. Well not very good admittedly lol. Been flip-flopping between wanting to quit college and not, and I spend basically all my time trying to distract myself so I don't start feeling things. Otherwise I'm all good. (That cross post yesterday might've been some or maybe a lot of projection lollll)

About the college AU! Epic was indeed an older kid also in fostering, he was older than Cross by quite a bit and had more experience, he was less 'problematic' than Cross for a lot of families, since he just basically knew to keep his mouth shut where Cross was all outrage and spitting in authority's face. I like to think if Cross hadn't been kicked out of that last house he might've been able to end up living with Epic as his guardian. Since Epic was basically almost old enough to get out of the system. Just another direction Cross's life could've gone in.

If they'll ever meet again I don't know. But I think yes, if only just because it would make me happy lol.

[taisho-era-secrets]

Man, I am so touch starved right now and I really just want to be intimate with someone, but years of bad relationships just got me shutting down when I think of being naked in front of someone again. I'll be damned if I get one more person making fun of my body or nitpicking small shit that I can't help.

Self shipping and reader x fics are so healing in that way, like just for a moment I can be someone else and not have to worry about someone I love humiliating me at my most vulnerable moment. Sigh.

[pxme-granate]

anxiety posting hello

[musette22]

So turns out being sick + seasonal depression + sleep deficit + work-related issues + the world going to shit in general amounts to me not feeling so great at all, I am both shocked and appalled by this outcome 😔

[luckylunatix]

"How sad, it seems this Jigglypuff can't bring herself to sing. Perhaps she lost her voice?..."

I'm absolutely heartbroken over the news of Rachael Lillis' death. As someone who's loved Pokémon all my life, her voice has been a huge part of my childhood. I have such fond memories of the characters she brought to life.

A lot of people will miss her. I'm gonna miss her.

🩷

[fuckingguide]

god I'm so tired of feeling so hopeless all the time. occasionally something good happens and I feel okay for a few days but something always goes wrong right after and I'm back to feeling hopeless. I'm drained. I miss my old life. I think moving countries was a mistake but it's too late now

[capricioussun]

I was really thinking about if I would ever be comfortable merging my art accounts and I don't think I will. At least not unless I did a full rebrand which I'd really rather not since I'm very happy with how things are situated now.

But I think it boils down to acceptance seeking. I've been socially isolated for a very long time and it's difficult. Even back when I first started drawing au stuff years ago, I contemplated making a separate blog for it because I knew how many ut fans didn't really like the aus. I didn't want to alienate any of the "audience" I'd already built but I also knew there would be a turning point I would just wind up barely posting on one account or the other and it would feel like trying to limp half the time on one leg and then limp the rest on the other, which would be pointless.

But with mirrorshipping (selfcest) being a much more universally contentious topic, I got worried it would only deter people even more. I certainly didn't want to lie about it, especially bc I don't associate it with prshipping the way some others do, so it's not really that im "ashamed" of it, or want to hide it, just that I know it's the kind of thing that's very likely to make some who just walked in turn right back around.

To some degree, as someone who hopes to one day make a career out of being an independent artist, it makes sense to prioritize "growth" over personal satisfaction, but on the other, I've always struggled to care about that sort of thing. Any time I've cared about "alienating" a potential "audience", it's always been more about personal acceptance. I don't want people to see one little aspect of myself or interests and judge me entirely based off of that, even though that's all anyone really can do on the internet. I don't take blocking personally, despite how the prior sentiment seems to contradict that, I get it, I block all the time too, for a variety of reasons. But if there's a chance there're others who don't really mind that I mirrorship, they just don't want to see it or have to block the tag, I don't want them to feel turned away or annoyed, and so I kept it all to a separate account.

There are a few other reasons I won't really get into, too, like how people often do associate it with prship, and how I don't really want to draw that type of a crowd to my main blog, either, but I know in my heart it's the acceptance/approval seeking that was the biggest motivator.

I really honestly wish I knew how to connect with others beyond just trying to "do things right" and hoping that earns me positive attention. I really wish I didn't always feel like my only chance at affection is to improve what I can offer in return.

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

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