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I also need planned parenthood to stop calling me to tell me they need a referral or I'm going to have to pay to see them. I KNOW. Not that anyone told me that before the first appointment, but like. Look at where we are living. I don't have a pcp I trust not to hate crime me in the name of the lord if I ask for a referral. And! That referral is required to be specifically for trans care! The longer I can go without telling insurance or the government that I'm trans, the happier I will be. I told the lady this is the third time I've gotten this call and I appreciate it but would she please note that I've been made aware. And I told her my reasons and mentioned that in Texas they're trying to pass legislation to get access to the names of everyone who has sought trans care and for now I'm better off paying out of pocket.
And she was literally like. Her whole demeanor changed and it was "okay thanks bye."
I'm glad to have access to hormones and whatnot, but I can't stop thinking about how everyone's laptops were decorated with "power to the pussy" stickers and "no uterus no opinion" and how they asked extremely outdated and even offensive questions. I can usually keep my head up but sometimes trying to navigate between the cracks of a world that not only isn't made for me but is actively trying to exclude me - sometimes it wears on me. Especially right before my period, which I'm trying to not keep having.
#The doctor straight up asked my deadname#All my stuff has been legally changed#She was just curious#So now I get to pay 130 bucks for them to see me for 10 minutes and take my blood and 90 of that is for the 10 minutes#If I thought it was worth the risk to ask my pcp I would thanks because I don't want to pay#But it's not worth it#And the very flat okay thanks bye put a fire under my ass#They don't care in any substantive way#I'm paying to use them#They're not actually helping#They're just enabling harm prevention which is not actually the same thing and I'm settling for even being happy with that#Sdk has thoughts#I am irritable today yes but I'm also fucking correct
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"..to die by your side is such a heavenly way to die"
I am on my third rewatch of Dead Boy Detectives and I have no intention of stopping sooo have some sketches (the rest is @marty.artdump). Watch this series and let's hope Netflix will renew it for a second season 👻
#dead boy detectives#payneland#edwin payne#charles rowland#I would pay billions to see them together netflix please#they could give us finally a sweet bisexual boy netflix I'm begging you#Berlin pride month starts in July so I'm still celebrating it#my art
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On average, what is the total MONTHLY amount that you spend on dining out*?
*(This doesn't only count going out to restaurants, but also stuff like picking up fast food to bring home, getting a coffee on the way to work, getting a premade sandwich from a grocery store deli during lunch, buying a quick snack from a convenience store or food cart whilst walking somewhere, ordering a pizza or any other food to be delivered to your home, etc.)
*(If you often dine out in groups/as a household: calculate and divide the costs so that you get a Per Person average. This is for YOU individually, NOT the total household/group costs)
(I'm sure polls similar to this have been made before (very common topic), I just haven't personally seen one that I can remember, so, I was curious to do my own! I was discussing this with a group of people today and it was very interesting to see how widely the number varied between individuals. :0c )
(Reblog for bigger sample size if you can, and feel free to explain your answer in tags if there's anything extra to add!)
#polls#tumblr polls#I'm mostly in the 0/1 - 25$ category. Maybe the rare month is a bit over $25 if there's something specific going on like birthday.#Which I'm NEVER eating in an actual restaurant (erm... covid... plus I just hate restaurant environments. i would rather pickup#the food and bring it home to a peaceful quiet environment that I control lol). But more typically like stopping by a grocery store deli#section or something. I don't have coffee that much. And I can't eat fast food much due to my health issues/diet restriction stuff#so if I'm out like coming back from an appointment and I start feeling really sick and weak. I know that a hamburger will just#blow up my system and cause nausea or something. So I try to pick the breadiest most#neutral looking turkey sandwich at the safeway deli to eat during the hour ride home or whatever lol#I actually kind of wish I could do stuff like get food more often vecause it would take the burden of cooking everything off of me#but.. alas... Money... and Health Things... T o T#I still wouldn't do it ALL the time but like... once a week instead of once a month or something.. or maybe turning into a coffee#person.. I do love drinks A LOT .. i am a drink person who will have 5 different drinks sipping on at all times#But i just have to make them all myself mostly lol#And I cant really have too much coffee since it will make me sick. so like.. teas and juice mostly#When I inevitably become a millionaire by never using social media never networking and only finishing one#sculpture every 5 months which I dont even post about or sell - then I shall... get more drinks..#I will somehow wean my body onto coffee and drink one a day solely for the ritual of it#Though even then... I would still probably just like.. buy the mateirals to make it at home or something#Like if you had a million dollars you could just buy a kitchen grade ice cream machine and other stuff to make your own milkshakes and#coffees and smoothies and bubble teas. Genuinely I think even if I were a BILLIONAIRE I would still look at playing likr $8 for a single#coffee and go .. uh.... I could just buy the equipment to make this and then save that money. PLUS. its in my house now so no need to#have to leave. I can make my own drinks in the comfort of home. .. ideal..#Like no matter how rich I ever got I would still have the lingering scroogey stinginess. like i am NOT paying for that. I will jus#make it myself. Especially if it was an Everyday thing. Anythign thats part of my routine I try to optimize and make as efficient as#possible... ANYWAY.. In an IDEAL world I would get treats. but probably not that much. as on a daily basis it would start to get#to me and I would just save up to buy kitchen machinery if I was rich lol
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No cause it's not funny at all when perisex trans ppl pretend to be intersex to "avoid trouble".
Being visibly intersex didn't protect me from trouble when I was 5 years old. It brought me trouble. I was 5 years old and people already made unwarranted comments about my lack of easily gendered features. I was never allowed to exist without my gender and sex characteristics being interrogated and punished repeatedly.
You're not protecting yourselves at all. Those who hate trans people hate us for not existing within their narrow scope of gender and sex. Intersex ppl have to face this from birth. I would know, man, I'm literally both.
If people are willing to call a child a "eunuch" and physically grope them as an act of public humiliation because they're intersex, as was done to me... Do you seriously think you're doing something by pretending? You're making things worse for yourself and for me. Stop it. I'm sick and tired.
And using intersexist terms while doing it, too, like "hormonal disorder/deficiency"... I'm not disordered or deficient for having a different body than you. Go directly in the bin if you think that's an okay thing to say.
I'm so tired of it. You don't understand. The violence inflicted on my body has happened since before I was old enough to know what my body parts were all called. You have no idea. You really, truly don't understand how exhausting it is. I'm not outraged anymore, not even upset. I'm just tired and want it to stop.
I want people to stop exploiting my body and I don't think that's too much to ask. Especially of other trans people who are supposed to hold community with me. The fact that other trans people are openly flaunting the fact they exploit bodies like mine for their own gain makes me want to throw up. You people are foul.
#intersex#intersexism#trans#yes I'm angry. Because I have been seeing intersexist bias in action in my own local trans community#And it sent one of my closest intersex companions into a severe psychiatric episode#Because people were using her 'masculine features' to paint them as violent and scary. And trying to ruin their career#An entire targeted harassment campaign trying to destroy my close friends livelihood#And they've turned on me for actually listening to him and making sure they were alive and well. This is the price we pay for having bodies#We fear for our lives and prospects because someone who doesn't like us can simply use our bodies as an excuse#To treat us like monsters who aren't capable of reason or emotion
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Side effects of wearing your Kaiju suit too often ,,,, Part 2
#narumi gen#kn8#kaiju no. 8#my art#kn8 spoilers#idk if this actually needs a spoiler tag since it's mostly AU but eh#if nothing else my tags need a spoiler tag lol#biblically accurate narumi i have created him#himm always watching#I like the idea that when all his funky 1 eyes close you can barely see them#want him to walk around like a normal little guy#and then something catches his attention and bam#suddenly eyes everywhere lookin around#I also think the sclera of his normal eyes might do a colour change depending on if he's in normal boi or 1 mode??#idk i'm still workshopping this a little lol#the hoshi10 merge i had figured out in my head weeks before i drew him but this literally just happened sdkjfhsf so ......#I would pay money for a proper reference picture of 1 because there is so much of the design i don't get sigh#will probably have reno done tomorrow as well he's almost there ehehehe just need to clean up a little#kaiju boyfriens all together <3#I wish i could have incorporated his suit more :c#i like to think of this au as the suits actually merging into their bodies + some funky kaijufication#but the 1 suit doesnt have any cool features like the 10 tail ;;#except for the spine i guess which i will defintiely use but stillll
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noticing in your vents—
is your sister okay too?
We laugh, sure, but we both know we're not ok.
#messyr#vent post#we have separate fams and both of us are the eldest. She mostly stays at mother side and I stay at my father's although dad is never home.#The rest of the members in my father side can put quips here and there to make her feel guilty and she does get guilty mostly about money#I ALSO provide them and HER financial support while also trying to pay for myself. I'm VERY exhausted.#unlike me she's not caged up here- but with a few restrictions still#while im BOUND to my family (father side) and they always target me so that's a pretty neat deal than seeing my sister suffer the same#just thinking of it makes me want to throw up HAHAH#there are times- she does things by action or words that makes me feel like- yknow. she loves me back. that's enough for me
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The basegame wedding dress has a pregnancy morph??
#I can never be positive if something in my game is like. a third-party launcher addition#but this is so funny and I had such a strong hunch#because rushing to have your Sim get married before they give birth is such a thing so many players would do!!#and it would be so funny to pay attention to that detail by having the wedding dress show the bump!!!!#all your sim's wedding photos very obviously giving away the reason for the rushed date HAHA#the dress with the pendant at the back that everyone default replaces off (the one with the knife texture) also has a preg morph#which I know because it's the one your Sims get forced into if they attend a wedding#but it's kind of unusual because pregnant Sims don't have the opportunity to change into formal wear?#like pregnant Sims get new undies pyjamas and swimwear in addition to their maternity outfit#and if you direct a pregnant Sim to change into one of them then it changes them into the appropriate maternity fit instead of their usual#but you can't direct them to change into formal and if you use a hacked option like the shop any-wear rack it uses their usual non morph fi#so it has to be something external like a wedding that triggers them to change into formal. and I have no idea why#does this mean there's a BG suit with a preg morph for men??#or did maxis not think that pregnant male Sims would be quite so desperate to get married#anyway I'm probably the last person to know about this LMAO and I'm sure no one cares bc everyone uses wear-anything mods#but I'm a scrub who still prefers to use the default maternity meshes so this is yuge to me#also if you've never seen this dress b4: in the early game all Sims getting married under an arch used to be forced into the same outfits#actually I can't remember if the men got forced into the same suit or if they just used their regular formal#because most BG formal outfits for men were mostly wedding-appropriate#but at any rate. all women wore the same wedding dress. and it was this .... beauty#and I don't remember with which EP it changed but probably pretty early on they just let Sims use their regular formal wear for weddings#so you could pick their wedding dress yourself#but this dress remained hidden by default (I think?) so ironically it meant you COULDN'T use the wedding dress even if you wanted to#also this is completely off topic but you would also go away for your honeymoon#which meant the Sims getting married would literally get driven away in a limousine and stay off-world for a while#it was kind of cute because it really was like they took a vacation from the player too. got up to their own mischief away from your contro#then with bon voyage they introduced ACTUAL vacations and they turned honeymoons into an actual game mechanic#but again these offworld honeymoons are no longer a possibility#kind of like teens 'going out' with permission got replaced by going out on actual outings/dates even though it was a cute event#wow this note section is long and irrelevant. anyway enjoy picking up your wedding dress from a store called 'It's Not Too Late'
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((Leo and his fake ass confession tears that anyone who didn't know him well enough might think were real, in case you wanted to see him cry))
#leo kurosagi#ooc#((i could've made icons out of them but i was feeling lazy))#((i promise i'm gonna do my other tags my brain just decided 'i want a new stimulus pay attention to new thing instead'))#((they increased the strength on my meds so maybe i'll be able to be more productive once my body gets used to them!))#((assuming they work at all because the starting dosage did nothing))#((or it felt like it did nothing anyway))
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I am once again thinking about how odysseus who witnessed the horrors that the captured women went through (one of his main duties in the iliad was taking the women back home and making sure they were as comfortable as possible and safe because he was the only one trusted not to violate them further due to his devotion to penelope. And in the odyssey part of the reason circe sent him to the underworld was so that he'd have to listen to all these women's stories (before he could talk to the prophet) ). Who was one of the few that saw women as people and respected their space and opinions. And was then put in those exact same situations. I don't have the motivation right now to do a full literary analysis of this (I'll site the sources too) but oh man one day I'm going to write a full essay on this.
#The odyssey#iliad#Odysseus#Tw: rape#Tw: sex slaves#Tw: camp slaves#Tw: That one time Calypso kept odysseus as a sex slave for 7 years#circe#Something about the inherent trauma of witnessing how your friends treat women#Watching them keep sex slaves#Then having to bring these girls home hearing about their stories seeing the aftermath#Then living in a situation where you have to let a powerful witch use you as she pleases half in payment for lives/food/medicine#Half because she has the equivalent of a gun to your best friends head and if you don't keep her happy then youre all dead#And then that witch sends you on a quest to the underworld where granted you'll benefit too but first#You have to listen to every single captured women from the Trojan war that you didn't Shepard home tell you their stories#Tell you that you're a horrible person while you are living in a disturbingly similar situation#And then later finding yourself trapped as a sex slave for seven years to an immortal nymph#And then being labeled as a horrible cheater for the rest of history#And none of this well historically everybody cheated or it's up to interpretation bullshit#Because it fucking isn't and granted a lot of abridged versions skip this shit#But if you read the full original stories and still think odysseus cheated then you just have an issue with men being victims#Or weren't paying attention i guess#Where's that meme where's it like the text was up to interpretation cut to the text where it very bluntly states what's happening#And I'm not saying odysseus was a good person or that he didn't have slaves because he did. And he wasnt#But first off nobody deserves to suffer that violation#Second they weren't sex slaves they were all nurses/maids/spys and I'm not getting into the ancient culture slavery issues rn#Third there's a lot you can pick to hate odysseus for but cheating/disrespecting women wasn't one of them#They literally invented a new word to describe his and penelopes love and it means to be so in love that you think the exact same way#Also forcing this narrative of odysseus cheating and penelope leaving to be a single girl boss is#Just the fake feminist mindset that stay at home moms are weak and wrong and live awful lives
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Did papyrus get a canon age?
nah, i just go by the 95 in his undernet handle, which would put him at 20yo considering undertale came out in 2015. i know frisk didn't fall into the underground in 201*, but you spend the entire game going through the story with that impression and that's how papyrus is presented to you. i think doylistically it's meant to give a general idea of his age to the viewer and show that yeah: he is an adult, not a child.
#HE'S MY AGE!!!!!#srsly papyrus makes so much sense now that I'm actually 20 myself#how can i afford to live in my flat??? idk my parents pay for it#but I'm also going out making my own groceries and making my own food and living without them and handling my own documents#we're learning how to be people. that doesn't make us kids#answered asks#undertale#papyrus
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a little thing I did for a friend I got for a secret santa 👉👈
something something, they signed a treaty and have to take part in an official celebration
issue:
fwhip has no idea how to dance AND is a gay mess about it
#jimmy is extremely smug about it#because he is decent at dancing and loves making fwhip embarrassed and or flustered#I DEMAND FOR FICS OF THEM!!!!#I'm very glad people write for s2 too but my boys :(((((#i still don't understand how s1 fwhimmy is not more popular#it got enemies to lovers. mutual pinning. denial. two idiots not knowing they are in love. doomed by the narrative.#isn't it like???? what people always use as aus for other ships????#and u got it canon right here?????#also you can do arranged marriage and all that#who can i pay to write me more fwhimmy s1 /srs#anyway#KAHIDJSJDBSUA rant over#fwhimmy#empiresshipping#fwhip#jimmy solidarity#solidaritygaming#empires smp season one#fish husbands#my art
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Men just being themselves, being comfortable and secure enough to just be themselves, REGARDLESS OF THEIR SEXUALITY, is not queerbaiting!!!!!!!
Just because our society has been so deeply steeped in toxic masculinity does not mean it's queer if a heterosexual man shows affection for another man.
Men can be gay and be affectionate with other men. Men can be pan, bi, etc. and be affectionate with other men. Men can be het and be affectionate with other men.
Stop playing into fucking heteronormative binary gender role bullshit and just let men be affectionate without reading into it.
#seeing way too many posts about how we've all become too accustomed to queerbaiting that we didn't notice DJ and Ty were a thing#I'm over the moon happy for DJ and Ty and wish them a long life together filled with happiness and love#but us not paying attention to them being flirty has nothing to do with queerbaiting#the world needs more affection so can we please stop being weird about it
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Autism be damned, my they/them can work a grill
#jjba#jojo bizarre adventure#jojo no kimyou na bouken#jojo golden wind#jojo part 5#jojo giorno#giorno giovanna#vento aureo#il vento d'oro#autism be damned#they/them#guys guys am I funny guys chat guys guys guys#jjba golden wind#jjba shitpost#thw sixth dimension opens to reveal Bob from the hit comedy fifty shades of grey using a Christmas tree to bring forth the rabid goat melvin#Im flopping so bad#Its actually insane how awful I'm doing now but hey that's the price you pay for being cringe n unfunny lol💀#funny but not funny haha funny 911 black box recording
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you know i have no stakes on this. i'm a casual viewer at best. if i don't like this i just don't pay. but learning that patreon is still up, that they didn't get any notice in advance of any these changes, and they don't even get free access to the "normal" content, but only 40% off (with normal viewers getting 30% off, so basically just 10% discount), like if someone has the right to complain right now is the patreons who have actually been paying for their content this entire time
#like you can argue that us normal viewers give you nothing of value (not true but let's imagine for a sec)#but you essentially slapped all of your patreons in the face#changed their perks and the tiers and told them to give you MORE money#like not even the people that are already paying you get at least a free trial???#like just. sorry asksfdjgsh but i'm fascinated by this. what made them think this was a good idea?#people can argue all they want about artist getting paid. this is not about that#they were getting paid!#they are either astronomically bad with their money or they have truly lost their minds#i understand people defending them on some shit. but the way they have been handling this entire time is soooo bad#watcher#god sorry for still talking about this. it's just so much going on asjhdfjksh#my post
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Mikke in his ig story saying that they wanted to do an exclusive material thing from euro tour last year but couldn't find a way to do it, but now they have
Like.... my guy. Dude. Patreon has been a thing for forever now. Fucking use the OF that people are already paying for. There are really good options available that don't include blockchain and NFTs
#head in hands THEY'RE SO STUPID#käärijä#it was probably sold to them as like “the safest way” to do something like this because every purchase is individual blablabla#but that won't stop people from sharing an account saving the material sharing it etc#like no matter what they do people will find a way to save and share that material#i feel that now even more than if they had used say Patreon#bc even though ppl might not like that they're putting shit behind a paywall at least people have enough respect for patreons TOS#to not share material posted there#but NO ONE has any respect for nfts#if you pay for it and share the material online im shaking your hand thats exactly what you should do fuck nfts share that shit#and I'm not saying that bc i wanna see what they post I don't care im not paying for it i dont care to see it#its just out of my pure hate for NFTs
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Is it too early to be making predictions like this
#lane speaks#like. I'm just saying Every Platform is dragging them rn and i highly doubt the revenue theyll earn from watchertv will be enough#i give it a couple months tops if that#watcher#watcher tv#also if anyone ends up making a video like this you can use this thumbnail all you have to do is pay me 6 dollars
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