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Smile :) Or don't. That's ok <3
anyways the Narrator but doodle. I'm not dead. yet.
#listen I wanted to add more details but I'm lazy#it was meant to be a doodle for my discord pfp so.#but take it anyway#narry say hi to my tumblr friends#they'll be nice#The Narrator tsp#Narrator tsp#tsp narrator#tsp#the stanley parable#tsp the narrator#simon draws#would anybody be interested to hear my dump a bunch of info about my Narrator onto theM?#also ask questions about my design choices if you want. i'll answer#I'm desperate to talk about him
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WWDITS;; 5.02
#what we do in the shadows#wwdits#wwdits spoilers#wwditsedit#wwditsdaily#matt berry#harvey guillen#i have so many emotions about this interaction#the way laszlo talks to guillermo when he knows he fucked up#THE CONSEQUENCES!#guillermo holding onto laszlo's coat as he tells him to please don't tell nandor#THE DESPERATION!#guillermo's tears...#i'm breaking things!#1k
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oh oh since you like priests, have you seen sunday from honkai star rail? he's like a fucked up angel bird priest who ppl repent their sins to, i think you'd like him! (his sister is v v cute too)
Him ??? Yea I really like him and his sister's design !! I do play the game (when I take the time to bc I have many gachas on my phone so it's hard to get organized :") ) Has his banner been up yet ?? I hope not I'll try to get rolls in stock for him afehdzj I love angel and/or priest-coded character so much eee
#I have like.... at least 10 priest ocs ?? my sk8 oc is a priest on a cross shaped skate....#and i have one priest oc I love so so so much but I don't believe I introduced him but he's a delusional bitch and my favorite#I promise I'll eventually post art of him here#while I'm at it (again) if you like priests vatican miracle examiners is great and Trinity blood (the manga) is fantastic#Shibamoto thores did the art for both Vatican and Trinity blood novels and she did 1 halloween fanart of twst !!! I love her art eee#yeah I'm desperate I have no one to talk about my fav priest series with that saw/like them too
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smoke break & a familiar customer
more fanart of @brofightiscancelled & @awittlebabbyboy's postgrad plan au! no matter what, i'll always be obsessed with kara and had to draw his au design. he's so cutes and weighed down by so much regret, i'm absolutely captivated by him.
also, since a certain someone rides a moped, i hope it's alright if they stop by his mechanic shop. 👉👈
#in every universe i want to swing him around like a bag of oranges and it's no different here#i'm desperate to see more of him like i wanna know what his work life is like so bad. does he get along w/ his coworkers & bosses?#how do the clientele feel about him? i hope his s2 biker buddies are regulars at the shop...#does he enjoy his work? does he do a good job at it? is he singl— * i'm escorted outside *#sorry i don't know how to be normal about him ever 😔#and ideas for kuroba in this au has been rattling around in my brain for a bit#they're fresh out of college here so it's a bit before the brother's reunion#it's also a little before a major loss in kuroba's own life so :)#i'll talk more about kuro in this au later bc it's giving me a chance to expand on parts of their backstory a bit more which is fun!!#anyways i love this au so freaking much it's been on my mind a lot#osmt#karamatsu#mj ocs#oc : kuroba#postgrad plan au#mj draws#tw smoking
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Neil's mother may have been abusive, but that doesn't stop him from missing his mom and Abby is right there to pick up the pieces.
Or in other words, Abby gives great mom hugs.
#I'm just imagining post-canon#Andrew manages to convince Neil to talk to Bee and it brings up a lot of repressed grief over his mom#something something#Abby does something traditionally motherly that Neil's mom used to do for him and he breaks down in tears#she strokes his back and kisses his forehead and tells him everything is gonna be okay#aughghgh......#she can't replace that void in his heart but she sure as hell can give him that love he's missing so desperately#mom Abby my beloved#if anyone could write a fic about this I would love you forever.#aftg#neil josten#abby winfield#aftg fanart#all for the game#post canon
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The Third Traffic SMP Jimmy Slash Prediction Poll!!!
(Note: In the previous polls I don't think I filtered the fic numbers, but I don't remember.)
Martyn obviously married Jimmy last time, so he's out. I eliminated Scar and Skizz this time based on “have more than ten full length fics mostly about their ship”. Which, y’all called, they were the top three for winner for the Secret Life poll!
How the fellas performed on ao3 after the Secret Life poll last year:
Absolute Winner: Martyn
A-tier: Scar and Skizz (I will be haunted by the "Pretty Woman" rp for the rest of my life)
B-tier: Impulse
C-tier: Etho, Ren, Mumbo, BigB
F-tier: Bdubs
And heading back to the Limited Life poll:
(in case you haven't heard, either Gem Impulse Grian and Jimmy are hinting the next season is recording next week, or they are sadists, and not in a fun way.)
Reminder: Jimmy gets gay married in odd numbered seasons and is in a gang of schoolyard hooligans in even seasons!
#And by reminder#I mean... remind him?#i don't know#gosh i'm desperate for this#if ANYONE is missing i'll be upset#i personally would love for more and more people to keep joining#the only two people i have watch talk about wanting to join in a serious way are False and Oli#and now that jimmy's not the canary it would be amazing to bring oli in#he even said he'd hire an editor for specifically this#cause it would just be a couple hours footage and he wouldn't be making musical numbers#or would he?#this was back before secret life i think#anyway#he and grian spent a week skiing together#who knows what happened#there's actually a VERY cute picture of them on a ski lift or something#okay you add false and you add oli and they average out to a reasonable player#so you make them wear a best friends tshirt and stick together all the times#or like oli on a leash#i think i've seen them in the same group picture#jimmy solidarity#solidaritygaming#trafficshipping#trafficshipblr#traffic shipping#shipping#mcyt shipping
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apparently moze is just hanging out invisible on the skysplitter
also this might be a bit of a leap but it's entirely possible he doesn't know what a cycrane is
#hsr#honkai star rail#moze#hsr moze#hsr spoilers#kinda???? just in case i guess#i know the cycrane thing is a huge leap but it would be really funny if true so i'm choosing to believe it#could you imagine#big scary shadow guard and he doesn't know what the fuck is up with these small talking metal birds#he knows they do important work but where they come from and how they do that is a mystery#jiaoqiu desperately trying to explain but moze just never listens long enough for it to sink in#none of this is true but it's so funny to think about#what was this post about#also after he left the “invisible person” special effect never went away#so i'm also choosing to believe he just went “i'm leaving” and then just went back invisible hoping i'd believe him and leave first#anyway for real what was this post about
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We're going to save your brother.
#mario movie#mario movie spoilers#super mario bros#super mario bros movie#super mario bros movie spoilers#princess peach#mareach#cherrysip edits#I FEEL LIKE THIS MOMENT DID NOT GET THE ATTENTION AND APPRECIATION IT DESERVED ON HERE#man i could write you an essay about this#i do think that the 'i'm not afraid! i'll do anything for my brother' line actually ISN'T said during this scene - it's probably earlier#but that this line IS in the right place (peach's mouth movements match)#which means that scene is going to break me because it just seems like a very vulnerable sweet moment between them#where peach and mario get to talk about the situation they're in and their fears and how big the stakes are for both of them#peach fighting to protect her kingdom and her subjects - the immense pressure on her to stop bowser because of her role as a leader#and mario desperately trying to save his brother - not knowing if luigi is ok or not and not being able to keep him safe is so painful#i think that's why mario doesn't have his hat on - the adventure is starting to weigh on him and he opens up to peach for the first time#about him and luigi and their closeness and how he CAN'T lose his brother he CAN'T let him down when he needs him more than ever#and peach reassures him and it means the world. even in this quick clip there's something a little sad about his face#but also there's relief and gratefulness to her for saying that. they're the absolute sweetest :) :) :)#i could be off base but that really does seem like the vibe of this scene from what we've seen and i am ALL ABOUT IT
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I'm just gonna say it again real quick:
Yes!! Iron Man is a tragedy! It has and always has been since the very first appearance in 1963 which describes itself, Tony's life, and legacy, as such.
Tony causes most of his issues himself, he is his biggest villain, a majority of his rogues gallery are caricatures of the worst versions of himself brought to life (when they're not just being racist cuz...60s...). The worst thing about being Tony Stark is that he can't stop being Tony Stark (he tried!!) That is the point.
The majority of pain Tony goes through, is pain he inflicts on himself, whether intentionally or inadvertently. That is the point.
He is not A villain (at least. Not usually. There are...some rough moments and arcs that are. Not great. As there is with any character as old as he is). But he is his own main antagonist.
#I—just—*slams fists on floor*—I WANNA PUT HIM IN A PIETRI DISH AND VIOLENTLY SHAKE HIM#tony stark#iron man#616 tony stark#marvel#marvel comics#*screams cries throws up* IT'S NOT HIS FAULT HIS CHARACTER WAS ASSASSINATED IN 2005 IN A WAY THAT HASN'T BEEN RECOVERED FROM YET#***starts openly weeping*** if the next main IM series is bad it'll have been 20 years of this shit make it STOOOOOP#being his own antagonist! his actions and mental state and poor judgement calls reaonates with people!!#I'm wildly under qualified to talk about this stuff but#I feel like that's *why* people with mental health issues. self esteem issues. addiction issues. flock to him.#he is not a BAD person. he is a person. who makes mistakes. and devastates himself. and even leaves himself half dead sometimes.#who doubts himself. is simultaneously oversensitive and alarmingly oblivious. he is a mess. that is a fundamental requirement of being him#that. resonates with people. it's *relatable*. Tony Stark is a lightning rod of interest for people...like him. hurting. sad. desperate.#and he brings *enjoyment*. he brings jokes. comfort.#he brings hope#because if a guy like *that* can be *iron man*...maybe we'll all be ok too#it's solidarity but also it's a kick in the right direction. it's saying ''it's ok that this is how you feel. I'm right there with you.''#''but you can't stay here forever. we always need to try''#Iron Man is and always has been about the future. after all.
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Baldur's Gate 3 targets the mentally ill. (I am the mentally ill)
#baldur's gate 3#astarion#my ocs#I haven't stopped thinking about this game since I bought it#My character is a Teifling tempest cleric named Circis#He worships Oghma#I love him so much. I cast spirit guardian and have him walk around like a beyblade 😭😭#I also love astartion sm I want all the good things for him#There is an astarion voice line where he says smth like “Sorry I'm not cuddly astarion right now”#And a few other voicelines where he mentions cuddling#living rent free in my mind sdfghjhgfdsd#Circis#My art#I am in desperate need to talk to anyone about this game asdfghjk
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Uhm so... I have something to say about Lilly... (and Vengestone.)
Don't you guys also find Lilly incredibly interesting?? I can't be the only one?? I mean, so much happened in her short life, and there are so much I still want to know. Everything we know about her just intrigue my interest more. Especially after seeing she not only has a shrine in Shintaro, but also the City of Temples. I mean, what are the odds? It makes me wonder why would Temple City keep her stuff and not only that but have her statue? And how, despite being so legendary, people know very little of her?
Ok so. I might be delulu here, but what if, the reason Temple City, and maybe some other sacred place kept track of her, is because her story was erased from the history for some reason. No one tells her story out loud, so places like Temple City kept evidence of her story and her stuff. Maybe she did something she shouldn't have, maybe used some forbidden magic, maybe she knew some stuff and they feared she would share it so they kept her silent and erased all her story from the history?
My take on this story, is that she used Vengestone. I know it sounds so "the hell?" but hear me out on this. A lot of people here talked about her statue in Shintaro and mentioned the possibility of her merging with her element. But my take is her statue looked like that because she was able to use Vengestone, or at least resist the stone's magic and used her earth powers regardless.
I can see her being confused about why a stone, which is a part of her powers technically, would make her unable to use her magic. And talking to other EMs, she realises the effects of the stone is indeed different on her. While other EMs feel their connection to their element is cut, Lilly still can feel the stone. She can feel how Vengestone effects her, but from what she knows from other EMs she was supposed to feel nothing. This makes her curious and she starts to think she can master the stone and resist. She tells some EMs about it but seeing how they react, she decides not to tell Wu, thinking he will forbid her from experimenting and even worse, forbid her being near the stone.
Eventually, she starts to secretly try to control the stone, or use her powers around it. She only goes a tiny further with these practises. But when she visits Shintaro, being surrounded by the stone inside the mountain, she faces a great challange and finds herself succeeding in resisting the stone. Though this proves to be very painful. Glowy scars, just like Vengestone cracks, appear on her arms, hands and neck using the ability. Though they disappear shortly.
She doesn't tell anyone other than Lou, who realises it's dangerous but trusts her when she says we will never do it again. After that, she keeps it secret for a while. Until... she can't. During one fight, she uses this ability again, this time in longer amount of time and stronger. With everyone, the EMs, and civilians watching. After that she starts feeling overcharged and stays still on her knees trying to regain consciousness. Using this magic causes the same scars again, but this time even after healing faint "cracks" are visible on her arms and neck, making her unable to lie or keep it secret.
This is the time Wu learns about everything. He knows Vengestone acts different on earth elementals, that's why he never told her nor any other before her. Because in the past it did not do any good on the user of the magic.
Aftermath of everything, Lilly quickly recovers, though again, scars visible. But a council gathers, and they should punish her for her actions, for using forbidden spells (because you know, her doing it recently makes it harder to keep secret, endangering the next generations because it paves the way?), so they punish her with her existence in the history. It's hard to find anytging about the time she was a ninja, because they hid her from stories.
This drives Lilly angry, she drifts apart from Wu's alliance because she is hurt by his lack of support during this whole time. And she thinks keeping such secrets is doing more harm than good, because hiding the forbidden Vengestone abilities did not protect Lilly from using the magic, in fact, it only made her still use it but with no knowledge, thus no precaution.
After this, Lilly starts going on missions by herself, being her own solo thing. Which is why, in canon, she still went on missions after Cole was born and she lost her powers. She took orders from only herself, so she did what she wanted.
I don't know if this was a contributor to her death, I'd assume she carried some inherited illness that only started showing once she lost her powers and no longer had a super healing, but I'd also say using such magic many times did tire her body greatly.
Oh and, about how she used her powers with Vengestone. I don't know if I am able to explain this correctly, but it's like... the stone allowed her to use her magic, it's like she made a connection with it. I wouldn't say it's like merging with it, not like how Nya did it, but you could say there was some merging in terms her magic, like the stone sharing it's with her. Which is how she became mostly immune, mastering her abilities around the stone.
On the other side of the story, there is Lou, who I need to mention. Because whatever happened, he knows EVERYTHING. And that's canon. Because he met Lilly before she even unlocked her true potential. He was there in every step she took. He knows every single one of her adventures and everything.
When this whole Vengestone incident happened, he was also deeply angry at the reaction everyone had, and he believed it was terrible to just erase her from the history just because she wanted to save people. He wanted to do something but... well, what you can do in this situation, even Lilly couldn't stop it as a part of the Elemental Alliance. He could only watch it unfold, and it was eating him inside.
After everything, he lost his own trust in Wu, getting sick of his secrets and being heartbroken at the reaction, or lack of reaction let's say. Which... is actually the real reason he tried to stop Cole from being a ninja. It was to prevent Cole from becoming one of Wu's ninja.
Because, I know this might as well be a plot hole, but if you watch S1, in ep2 Lou sends a letter to the Monastary, despite Cole claiming he lied to his father and never told him where he actually is. This just proves Lou knows more than we think he does, he knows the Monastary because Lilly have been there too. He knows Wu, he most likely knows the parents of the ninja too. He knows so much, which he briefly shows in Quest for the Lost Powers as well.
I swear y'all always mischaracterize Lou, making him the bad guy and making him a terrible person. Which is sooo wrong, if you look just a little closer to the story you'll actually see it. And we might think he knows very little, but I think he is just really good at playing oblivious.
OKAY that was a long run. I hope I made sense, English isn't my first language lol. I just have this idea in my head, which I'd actually love to write as a fic. There are a lot of aspects to Lilly's story that are canon, or most likely canon, that makes me get so interested in exploring her story. Like how her father was on Chen's side, willingly or not, and how this canonically labeled him a traitor (As Garmadon says in Garmadon #1 or 2), and I wonder how this effected Lilly. In that one canon Ninjago magazine issue, I believe called Mother Earth, we can see a little inside to Lilly's personality which is a plot twist in itself as she is no saint as many people tend to think. She is not just a nice persona, she is actually a lot meaner and daring, like think of it as Cole's playful bullying. She has that to her.
Okay, now I'll shut up about her, FOR NOW. I hope this reaches to people who are interested in Lilly's story as much as I am lol.
#I swear I'm gonna clean Lou's reputation in the fandom lmao#y'all are too mean to him he is just a guy#also I live for more Lilly stories Lego please I beg!#please enjoy this y'all I wanna talk MORE (desperation)#ninjago#ninjago lilly#lego ninjago#ninjago lou#ninjago cole#theory#I'm writing silly stuff lol#I DON'T KNOW HOW TO TAH I BARELY USE THIS APP#I swear I'm only here because I see people talk about Lilly I need to reach you guys so bad!
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(trying to make DN fandom friends on FB)
me: hello
(several 'near is a bad copy of L / should've lost to light / an ipad kid / actually a child' posts appear in a row)
me: ah! nevermind actually
#I saw bad takes on near and immediately ran over here where I know it's (slightly more) safe lmao#LISTEN i know FB isn't exactly the world's best place to engage in fandom#but there's literally no easier way to find DN mutuals who live in the same country as me 😭😭#I just wanna cosplay DN with people I'm getting desperate lowkey HAHAHSHDBDJF#I have so many cosplay mutuals and either they don't care/know about DN#or I've already tried to invite them in some way and they never followed up with me 🕴️#I just wanna go as mello for a halloween event this month already I dying to cosplay him since most of his cos is already complete 😭#clawing at the walls of my enclosure#someone cosplay DN with me before I lose it 🕴️🕴️🕴️#elle is talking again
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Too 🌟stupid🌟 to be his partner.
#mike rotunda#varsity club#world championship wrestling#wrestling fanart#my art#i've talked about it before but 1999 VC!Mike has got to be the sluttiest gimmick#you can smell the desperation. way past his prime#but slap some late 90s “i cause a scene at your local dick's sporting goods store” sunglasses on him#then all of a sudden I'm [redacted]#it's also his dad mullet 🥴❤ (affectionate + derogatory)
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Honestly Ryomina makes me fucking insane like everytime i think about them i start to combust and fly around like a rocket
Just .. Them being together ever since Minato was ten, i imagine them as childhood friends of sorts, but in a extremely gut wrenching way, Ryoji learned everything through the eyes of Minato, and even when there was nothing but sadness in Minato's life, im sure Ryoji just saw all that with so much wonder
and i imagine Ryoji not understanding everything in his surroundings, but everytime Minato feels bad, he himself feels as if his entire being is set on fire
SO IMAGINE, Minato crying on the floor, back on the wall, hes just a little child with so much sadness within himself for whatever reason, and he just hears a voice that seems like his own, but also completely different "I'm with you, it's okay." and he doesn't understand, but he knows it's true, the only person who's with him through it all is himself, and for some reason, he feels it really is okay.
YEAH ME TOO ANON ME TOO 🤝🤝 YOU UNDERSTAND YOU GET ME if i think about them too hard i feel like I'm gonna explode. I'm internally bouncing around the walls.
ALSO OUUUGGGH WHY DID U HAVE TO COME INTO MY INBOX WITH THIS :(( <- /POS ryoji feeling everything minato's feeling with so much intensity... (bcs he's never experienced anything like emotions before) AUGH... I love them being unaware childhood friends, but also something so much more intimate than just childhood friends soso much, I'm nodding. you get it anon. ough. (also I'm not gonna get the image of little mina being comforted by ryoji out of my brain orz) The strange familiarity when ryoji and minato "meet" and the inescapable feeling that they've known eachother their entire lives and they know eachother like they know themselves. yeah.
I adore the idea death being minato's only comfort throughout those 10 years... death took so much and yet it was the only sort of companion mina had. death was right there with him for every dark hour he had to experience alone for those 10 years of his life...
thank u sm for the ask anon ^_^ I'm gonna spend the entire day brainrotting about this 👍
#I'm so glad u guys here are just as insane about ryomina as i am#I've been so desperate to talk about my silly little guys with others so i got so excited seeing this in my inbox :D#i love your take on the kinda relationship ryoji and minato had as kids so so so much#augh death and his special little guy who taught him how to live and feel :(#ryomina#ontos.text
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daffodil + chan
a song
the prompt: daffodil (a god bows before a mortal)
read it on ao3
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"You have no power over me."
running through his hands like water, and suddenly the earth is not his to control. The skies do not turn with the twist of his head, lightning does not fork in the air when his eyes, dark as night and yet still lit by some unearthly light, fall upon you, his mouth wide as if to gasp for a breath he cannot take-
And yet, still, it shivers down your spine; the magic that draws you here even as you rip it apart, the prize of your conquest to rip the world into two.
"Take it back," he hisses through his teeth, the ground trembling with every syllable that slides down his tongue. You watch his mouth as it forms the words, the flash of teeth behind thin lips reminding you of the way that the swordsman you'd fought through to get here had smiled at you - the last of his seven challenges, the last of his demons, or angels, or citizens of the sprawling, damned city he claimed as his kingdom.
And here you stood, at the pinnacle of the eighth, and stared him in the eye without cringing away because now you knew the truth. Now you knew that what he whispered in the dark was a lie and what you saw with your eyes wasn't always true, and though he may be a god and a king amongst beings that you could never hope to rival, a god can only hold as much power as you give him. A god can only claim dominion over a beast that bowed to his dogma.
You see now that you are no beast. You are no believer in any lie he utters to the darkness.
"Take it back," he says again, the note of his voice changing. He pleads, his brow furrowing and his shoulders curling in as if waiting for the final blow. "Take it back now, before it's too late."
"I can't," you tell him, and you watch him fall to his knees, and you know that it's wrong and your heart pounds in your chest and it
like the ground does at the impact of his knees, crumbling into the pieces it was in when you first took his hand, alone on the side of the road with only one thing to call your own. And what was that thing, the little warmth you'd held to your chest in the dark and the cold? What had you traded away for the comfort of the house that crumbled around you now? Why had you destroyed him to get it back, where was it now, why did it not appear within his hands at this, the hour of his reckoning?
"Please," he spits into the cold ground, the dirt and the leaves and the curl of ivy that grows up the walls around you, old and ancient and not yet sprouted from its roots all at the same time. His hands curl in the dirt like he can reach down and pull the earth to him, like he can stop the wane of his power if he just tries to hold on a little bit tighter. "I know what you want, and I don't have it. I can't lose-"
Broken, fragile thing. Small god of limited earth, crouched at your feet like he might worship you instead. You'd thought him all-powerful once, and then you'd thought him severe and his servants and beasts and playthings petty, and then you'd thought him
because he'd smiled at you in the garden that bloomed from his own hands when you expressed your desire for a flower to tuck in the braid of your dark hair, and his hand had been soft in yours, and when he looked out across his kingdom and the clamouring faces of the people he'd brought to live there, he'd looked at them the same way that he'd looked at you.
Beneath your foot, the ground cracks, fracturing outwards like a spiderweb. It's your heart, you realise morosely, sinking from your chest and into the depths of the earth, disappearing with whatever he'd taken from you; and it was a wretched thing and it had betrayed you a hundred times over, but you still mourn at the loss of it and all the dreams it had carried with it. It blooms in your flowers in the corners of the room, embeds itself into the land and sings along with the song of his power, a thing you can hear but cannot touch, a beast once born that now does not belong to you.
"I'm sorry," he says, his breath like mist in the cold air, and even without your heart, you can't bear to see him so cold.
Your hands reach for him without permission, your body kneeling in the dirt before you can stand your feet firm upon the earth and refuse to move. He flinches away, but your fingers are soft upon his chin and the curve of his jaw, gentle when they brush the soft dip of his neck. "I only wanted to know what it was," you tell him with a voice that cannot hold itself steady. "I thought if you loved me, you would give it back." It's the only voice you have - you are not like him, or like Felix, speaking with many tongues. You don't have any power of your own.
"It's because I love you that I can't give it back." His voice is hoarse, every word a knife that he swallows without ever once flinching. "It's because I love you that I couldn't tell you what it was."
"But didn't I deserve to know?" you question. "Doesn't my life belong to me?"
Finally, his eyes rise, looking up at you with a fire that belies the cold of his skin. "Of course it does," he gasps, and his hand reaches up, dirt-stained fingers dragging at your cheek. "That's why I gave it to you, and I never asked for anything else."
"But you wouldn't give back what you took in the first place."
The sudden violence of his voice crumbles the walls and fractures the sky, the clouds blooming te dark colours of a bruise. The absence of his hand on your cheek stings in the cold; his face turns away, screwed up in regret and a pain he won't allow you to feel. You lurch forward before he can disappear, drawing him into your arms; stiff shoulders, spine of beaten steel, slow beat of a heart you once held in your hands.
He'd stood so tall and unmoving in the morning light, when you'd first walked down this path, and now in the dark of the setting sun and the ending of the earth, his weight slumps into your grasp, his resolve melting into the warmth of your body. "I didn't want you to suffer again," he says to the soft cotton of your shirt and the curve of your collarbone, his breath a whisper against your skin. "I couldn't watch that, when you asked me to make sure it would never happen again."
Surprise comes in the pause of your breath and the still of your arms, the jump of a heart you're not sure you still possess. "I asked you to make me forget?" you question the world behind his back, and into your neck, he sighs.
"You couldn't forget," he murmurs. "She was dead before I found you, and when I took her from your arms - you couldn't forget. There was nothing I could do to fix what had been broken. And then you begged me to let you forget, so I remembered her for you." He pauses, his throat hitching like he's swallowing something down. A sob maybe, or the tears he will never let fall. "I can't give her back though. She's not here anymore."
You push him upright, your hands on his shoulders, his neck, his face. Brushing away the hair that falls in his eyes, wiping at the blood that drips from the cut on his cheek. "Why didn't you tell me?" you ask, because the answer is incomprehensible. "Why did you let me go this far?"
"Because I was scared," he admits, and his teeth clench and his spine stiffens against the urge to hide away from you again. "Because I'm a wretched, evil, stupid thing who thinks they can-"
His words die in your throat; vile, wretched things that you store away to spit out later, into the ground where they belong. He is none of that; he is soft, and hesitant, until your fingers find the sharp curve of his hip and the lines of his back, dragging him closer and his lips open like there is nothing in the world to devour but you and
#sorry about the images everyone but tumblr wouldn't let me keep my aesthetic#and i refuse to bow to any shitty website#how tf do you align text on here#anyway#stray kids#bang chan#stray kids chan#bang chan x reader#stray kids x you#y/n without the y/n#lee felix#is mentioned#lee know is also in here if you can spot him#roo writes#the fight i had to a) finish this and b) post it#anyway 7k written for the last three days#a lil treat for#well for me because keeps refused to write me a fic and i got desperate#but for the love of god please someone read this please someone talk to me#i feel like i really cooked with this#one hour of my life spent going down a rabbithole#oh what else was i going to say#vaguely inspired by labyrinth#we went way off the labyrinth rails but#it's there#alright shit alright i'm gonna post it lets go i'm nervous
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thinking about,, how sega managed to unintentionally make a character that is so Autistic and Gay
#AND put him in a super heteronormative setting! AND desperately try to convince themselves that he's straight!#this post could be a fill-in-the-blank tbh but i'm specifically talking about kiryu#he's just like me fr#sega “we made you so unintentionally gay that now we don't know how to write you properly when you *are* with women” corporation#amespeaks.txt#<<<< gonna change my rambling tag to this brb#kiryu kazuma#rgg
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