#I'm ace I have to be Very Careful on the internet

[shitpostingkats]

You ever draw your character in an outfit that absolutely slays and then sit back and go

"Shit. The allos might read this the wrong way."

[elegomez]

was constantly angry. unfollowed a couple of people. no longer constantly angry. unfollowing is truly the best medicine.

[mellifera38]

Bruh. As much as we talk about how funny and wacko the early era of tumblr was with its mishapocalypses and so on and so forth, I like tumblr a LOT more now. Like, if you were ace, you did NOT wanna look in the asexuality tag back then like holy fuck. It was a hostile battleground in there every day. The idea of being "aphobic" was in and of itself a joke. It was a perfectly valid stance on here. People would straight up make fake ace blogs just to say super cringy shit so ppl could screenshot and use it for an example of our attitudes and behavior. It was so fucking exhausting to be on here sometimes. Every day I had to block blogs I had followed for ages and legitimately liked and I remember being so upset All The Time like bitch I'm just existing here what the fuck man. Eventually I just kinda backed my ass right back into the closet and blacklisted any and all ace content. Just said fuck it I can't look at this shit anymore I'm done i dont even care what I am.

I glanced in the ace tag today bc it's ace day and was so relieved. Like I know it probably hasn't been bad like it was for awhile now but I'm still just like always expecting the worst from the internet. I still subconsciously stay removed from my own identity most of the time and take pains not to bring it up unless I'm with my close friends, and even then not very often. I still cautiously hesitate to say I'm part of the queer community even tho most people it seems are on board with the A in LGBTQIA being for Aspec. It could just be that with the tiddy ban most of the remaining perpetrators left or something but either way I'm really glad this place has become legitimately ace-positive. I wouldn't have believed it possible back then there was SO much vitriol aimed at us. Even if this site is actually just an echo chamber of aces shouting positivity at each other today, I'll still enjoy it. They didn't really let us do that back then. They invaded every tag we tried to make for ourselves. So happy Ace Day. Don't forget to appreciate every positive post that shows up on your dash.

[castingspellsanddaisies]

How's ''sexy time'' with Jude Bellingham? | Tarot Reading

DISCLAIMER: Take everything in here with a grain of salt - and have fun!

WARNING: This post contains some 18+ topics, so if you don't want to read it, beat it.

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How's Jude during sexy times? How does he act during it?

queen of cups reversed + 10 of pentacles + wheel of fortune + ace of pentacles + 4 of pentacles + the empress + knight of swords reversed + page of swords reversed + king of pentacles reversed:

He's a bit selfish during it, I'm not going to lie to you. I see he may rush into things most of time and there's a lack of communication during it (he may not be much vocal during it, may not understand very well what his partner wants). He seems kinda impulsive during sex to me. I get it, he's not emotionally involved in this (both of them aren't, honestly), but that's not an excuse, dude. I see his whole body getting so sensitive that he kind of ''forgets'' a little bit about his partner's needs.

He's insecure about his performance? Oh my, guys... I think he gets insecure about it. Whomever keep talking about their experience with him on the internet... He doesn't like it a bit.

I see him being very worried about security while doing it (either the place must be secure, the person must be secure, condoms are a MUST for him).

I see him being a switch as well, so he may start on top, then his partner gets on top and he likes it; then minutes later he tops her again and so on.

He's good at foreplay, though. He's very very VERY touchy and he likes to take his time getting them both ready. During foreplay I see him getting a bit dominating. I see edging practice here, but indirectly? He just likes to stretch out the pleasure as much as he can so he edges without even thinking about it. He loooves to kiss, he loooves to be touched everywhere. He has an impregnation kink but he doesn't practice it yet (maybe with his girlfriend? His wife?).

But as soon as they're done he's done as well? I don't see aftercare or much communication after in here. It's more like Jude has a bunch of bootycalls and that's it. I see steamy foreplay, hasty action, then ''goodbye, 'till next time, mate''. Not good, not not good.

How Jude likes his partner to act during it?

the high priestess + 7 of pentacles + 8 of cups reversed + knight of wands + the emperor + the hermit + 2 of cups + queen of cups + knight of pentacles reversed

Jude here likes women who know what they're doing (pillow princesses step back). Does it mean he always encounter these? No.

He likes to be dominated and to surrender during sex and he likes for his partner to guide their pleasure to exaustion. What am I talking about here? More edging. I knew it! To the point of one of them (or both) end up crying for oversensibility.

Jude likes when fantasy mix with reality, so music on, roleplays, made up scenarios... And mutual masturbation while staring at each other's eyes? My, my...

He likes direct partners to tell him what to do, how to do it and in a bold way. Don't you dare to be shy with him, he likes them fiery.

So he may not be emotionally connected to his partners right now, but during the act, Jude wants to feel like they care for him. What a hypocrite!

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So yes, sometimes he meets people who ''match his freak'', sometimes he doesn't. The things he likes his partner to do, in my opinion, are not the reality of what happens. Some people have kinks and desires but don't act on them for lack of awereness and lack of a ''proper partner'' for it. Most one-night stands are just boring and quick sex, you know it.

That's all for now, folks!

If you have any questions or opinions, just send them in my inbox.

Take care and bye bye<3

[brujaluas]

how to speed up the connection with your future spouse

Hi, this would be a sample of what my paid readings are like and how I intend to do the readings on Patreon as well. I gave a lot of myself to this special edition, I hope you enjoy it.

pile 1 has slightly delicate subjects, so be careful when reading, I'm not very good with words and I end up being too direct. I'm sorry for anything.

everything about my paid readings and personal spells

pile 1

Right at the beginning I feel a bad energy, it even gave me back pain, you are hurting yourself a lot, it could even be physically, I'm sorry for saying this but I believe it is necessary to remove all the veils so that I can do a good drawing for you, continuing… you are hurting yourself and punishing yourself and this has been happening for a while now, it is painful and very painful, it is as if you think you deserve to go through this, you cultivate many bad habits with yourself, someone may have put this in your head or has harmed you too, I advise you to take a herbal bath, cleanse your energy spiritually, you are stuck in a painful situation, and you need to free yourself from it, I also see that you need to create greater responsibility, love It's something really beautiful, but keep your feet on the ground, evaluate people well, create greater maturity to manage your feelings and emotions, that's what you're asked to do, you have the key to your solutions, like that at the beginning, I'll be back to say again: you need to end a cycle. I know this is very difficult, it is something that requires a lot of patience and dedication and sometimes we are so exhausted that we feel like we won't make it, but you will. we will. You need to end this toxic cycle that you created with yourself, you need to do this so that true love finds you. Soon after you manage to complete this cycle, in less than two years, or even a year, you will find who you deserve. you can communicate over the internet first, some online contact, there is a vintage vibe between you, you can also like to communicate by letters, for many, I feel like it is a man, or someone with strong masculine energy, possibly, it is a foreigner, it can being from a different city or even a different country, with different habits, you may meet on a trip, or your future spouse may end up passing through the place where you live, it is a love that will teach you a lot, especially to mature your ideas and maybe even teach you some things about life, I won't deny it, there may be barriers in sight, it's not clear what it will be, but there will be some obstacles, it's as if the universe wanted to put you and your love to test so that they can be together, it could be a difference of ideas, geographically, someone in the family is opposed… things like that, but you love each other, and you have both gone through a healing process, this person went through it before, you more recently, but they are both fine, I see a bright future, very beautiful and full of joy, you waking up with a smile on your face seeing your love by your side, something like that.

Pile 2

I see you in a very happy moment, maybe you are even in a relationship with someone, I'm a little confused, unlike the other pile, this one presents excellent images at the beginning, it can also be a confirmation that your manifestation and prayers to find your true love are flowing, you can even meet in dreams and not know it, something that tells me that this connection is already activated in some way. It's beautiful, for some of you, I feel like you're older, or you have an old soul, you've been through a lot in your lives, true warriors, I'm impressed with the commitment you have to life and to you. A very beautiful and revolutionary healing happened here, or will happen very soon, I see you achieving emotional, spiritual peace, in other words, it is as if you became your best friend who is always in the stands cheering for you. I see many prosperous fruits, you can achieve a great career, some dream of being a mother or father here, I see you achieving this, you can have 2 to 4 children, I see you building a beautiful house and living with your love, what can I say? You look great, you can live in the countryside, because you want silence. you can make a lot of plans, you can move somewhere, or I see that some are living far away from their parents and after marriage they will move closer to them, your passion will make you feel a huge impulse, like seeing old friendships again, Going to places where you went as a child, with this euphoria you may end up doing things that are a little questionable, be careful with that, but even so I see the purest success here, you are learning very well to defend yourself and that is good, in the beginning The print run made it seem like you already know your future spouse, and I see that this feeling is because for some, it's an ex. you are undergoing immense progress and evolution, your future spouse is too, you are on the same level in everything, it's like it's something mirrored, there's nothing I can say, I think, just that you keep doing whatever you're doing, it's just a matter of time.

[pandora-writes-one-piece]

The Meet Cute - Ace's Story - 7.5

Source for pic

🔞Firestarter 7.5 🔞

Word Count: 2622

Aditional warning for this chapter: This is an extra chapter, there is no plot. It's just smut. It's totaly NSFW but doesn't add to the plot so if you're underage or don't want to read smut, skip this chapter, you'll lose nothing of the story. Having said this, your internet experience is your own and you should be acountable for it. You've been warned, read at your own discretion. Thank you!

Tags For The Whole Story: Fem!Reader, slight NSFW (It's mature, not explicit), slightly sugestive behaviour, flirting, jealousy, frenemies, sexual tension, miscommunication, unresolved tension, slight angst, slow-burn, romantic comedy vibes, alternate universe modern setting, swearing, drinking, fluff, feelings realisation, denial of feelings.

Special Warning: English is not my first language, I apologise for any possible spelling or grammar mistakes.

Summary: After moving away from the hustle and bustle of Grand Line City to help your father around the property following a horse-riding accident - and in the hopes of healing your broken heart after your asshole ex-fiancé cheated - you settle into the country calmness of the Calm Belt. You intended to have some alone time, to reflect and heal, but your childhood friend's older brother, Ace, seems to be there just to upset that fragile peace you're striving for. He's a flirt and a womaniser. But why does he also have to be so handsome and perfect? And how long can you resist his charms?

Notes: It's NSFW, but very light. A little lovemaking under the stars, I hope you enjoy.

Tag List: @rosidaze @beachaddict48

Masterlist for previous introductory chapters.

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“I have one more question.” You murmur back, your lips ghosting his, your breaths mingling with unspoken promises. “Can you kiss me?”

“Yeah, I can do that.”

And he does just that. Gently tilting his head to the side, he lets his lips touch yours. Slowly, softly. They mould together without much effort and the contrast between this gentle kiss and the passionate one at the beach is stark. 

But it is not at all unwanted. 

He takes his time with you as his hand travels from your cheek to your nape and he pulls softly, to deepen the kiss. You, very willingly allow him to, opening your mouth and letting him savour your tongue. 

The fluttering in your chest accelerates your breathing and you're not sure your heart should be beating this fast without causing you some sort of episode. But you're so enraptured and ensnared in Ace's languid kiss, that you don't even care if that's a possibility. 

As the kiss deepens, it also becomes more desperate. He holds your face with both hands now as he angles his body towards yours so he can feel you against him. You happily oblige, craving the touch yourself by straddling him. He thanks you with a low grunt that vibrates through his tongue into your mouth and you mewl against him. 

Pulling away, he lets his forehead touch yours and pants heavily. “Are you sure you-...”

“Yes.” You interrupt him. “I want you. I want this.” You nod fervently as you shed his fireman's jacket and shiver. But this shiver doesn't come from the cold air, it comes from deep within, from a want that's been planted there since that first day you got home and Ace called you princess. 

He also nods, taking your lips in his again, his hands encircle your body and he slithers them under your top, from behind. As he caresses your bare back, he pulls away with a cheeky grin. “No bra?”

You chuckle as you tug at the hem of his shirt to get rid of the fabric. The one night he should be shirtless, he's not. “I'm in pyjamas, in case you haven't noticed.”

“Not for long.” He mutters as he plants soft kisses along your neck and collarbone. “Can I take this off?” His hand pulls the hem of the top up as he caresses your sides, his lips never stopping their undivided attention to your neck. 

“Yes!” You answer fervently as he sucks and nibbles at a sensitive spot near your earlobe, making you writhe in his lap. 

“Oh, you liked that?”

“Hmm, hmm.” You answer as you raise your arms and he swiftly pulls the top over your head. 

“Fuck.” He exhales as he takes you in, the Adam's apple in his neck bobbing up and down relentlessly. “You're so perfect.” He lays a kiss on the centre of your chest, “So beautiful,” another peck on the left side, but falling short of your nipple by mere centimetres, “flawless.” But this time, as he leans in, he takes the bud into his mouth and swirls his tongue around. 

Your fingers tangle in his dark locks as you try to ground yourself, yet your hips buckle against your will, making you grind against his hardened length. You both moan at the sensations and you feel so good you think you might explode. 

Ace keeps tending to your breasts as his hands settle on your hips, rocking you, making you move against him and you swear you must be about to catch fire because the heat is overwhelming. 

“Ace.” You whimper his name and he hums against your nipple, sucking in a bit of cold air and making you gasp at the sensation. “Ace.” You try again and tug at his hair so he looks up. He seems dazed as his eyes settle on you. “Condoms?”

He blinks as he takes you in and then nods vigorously. “Yeah, yeah, I got them. Hang on.” He lifts his butt off the ground - and you with him - and you moan at the friction against your clothed core, grasping his chest to hold your balance. He's reaching for his wallet where he keeps the condoms. “Here.” He takes one out and throws the wallet to the floor. Then he takes your lips in his again. “Are we really going to do this?” He asks, breaking the connection with a whisper. 

You pull back to stare into his dark eyes. “Don't you want this?”

His hands caress your sides, your hips and your legs and then travel back up to settle on your hips. “Desperately.” He grunts, his eyes darkening. 

“Then take me.”

He doesn't need to be told twice. With a swift motion he turns both of you, settling your back against the duvet, gently, but not before propping the pillow under your head. Your legs are wrapped around him and he's holding himself up with his hands, hovering above you with loving eyes, his unkempt hair falling gently on his face. “Is this okay?” He asks and you know he's asking because of the hardness of the floor and it's such a sweet gesture that you have to smile at him. 

“It's perfect.”

He nods and his mouth gets back to gently nibbling your neck, collarbone and chest. His tongue is sinful and his moves are those of an expert. He follows your movements and tells, to figure out what feels good for you as he explores your body. Digits trace imaginary patterns on your nipples, tongue licking and tasting the flavour of your skin, pulling moan after moan, mewl after mewl from your parted lips as you throw your head back, sighing his name softly. 

His mouth finishes tracing the outline of your belly button and stops at the hem of your shorts, the flesh of your hips moulding against his firm grip. Small goosebumps protrude from your skin and you shiver at every breath that escapes his parted lips.  

Yet, his hands and tongue are now still. You're not sure if he's looking for another vocal consent so you dig your nails into his back, showing him your need, and whisper. “Go on, Ace. I'm all yours.”

He freezes and sighs against your belly, creating another trail of goosebumps from the contrast of the warmth of his breath against the coldness of the night. Then, his fingers hook on the hem of both your shorts and panties and he pulls.

You gasp as the cold hits you and your hands grasp the duvet below you. Your breath accelerates as Ace remains silent, his eyes watching you, drinking you in as if you were a tall glass of water. 

“Ace…” Your murmur snaps him out of his trance and he slots himself in the middle of your legs, making you blush as he opens them and stares shamelessly. 

“So perfect…” His lips move but you barely hear him as his fingers climb your legs, from the ankle to the knees and then they move to your inner thighs. A feather-like touch that is so warm it almost feels as if you’re about to catch fire. 

You keep panting and arching your back from the sensations but suddenly it hits you. How unfair is it that you’re the only one that’s fully naked?

With that thought in mind, you raise your torso and grab his shoulders to help hoist you up. His hands settle on your hips once more and he squeezes, eliciting a choked sound from your parted lips, which he takes again with his own, like he can’t get enough of your lips and your taste. 

You melt at the touch of his tongue against your own as he claims your mouth, but you don’t let him distract you from your mission. Dragging your hands down his muscular torso, you untie his belt and take it out of his shorts, throwing it away from you in a symbolic gesture to ease your mind. You don’t care about notches anymore, you’re his, he’s yours, you should enjoy it.

He must’ve understood what you meant to do as well because he chuckles softly against your lips and tries to lay you down again, but you bite his lower lip to stop him. “Not yet.” You purr as your deft fingers untie the button and the zipper and your knuckles drag against his dick, making him grunt.

You feel yourself clench around nothing and sigh into his mouth. “Ace,” your whine is pathetic, but you need to feel him. “Ace take everything off, I need you.”

Gulping, he obeys your words. His pants and boxers are in a heap on the floor in the blink of an eye and you can’t help but stare. The flesh of your lower lip catches against your teeth in anticipation. He’s big. Bigger than what you were used to, but oh so pretty. 

He finishes placing the condom and plants his hands against your hip and neck, pushing you down. You follow his lead and lie back. Ace keeps worshipping your body as if he’s a devotee and you’re his goddess and the litany of murmurs he elicits from you is the most beautiful sermon he has ever heard. 

You’re on the verge of begging again for him because you are burning up from his touches and from the way he’s kissing you everywhere except where you want him to, and you feel so empty, yet he steals any word you meant to utter with a long swipe of his tongue against your folds.

Arching your head back, you bite your lower lip to stifle a loud gasp of pleasure but your exhale brings his name along with another moan and he responds by sucking on your clit and inserting two fingers inside of you.

It burns; it’s a growing flame, roaring to life with each touch. But it’s not enough. You need more of him, you need all of him.

After a few seconds where you fight to find your voice, as he keeps licking and sucking, your fingers tug at his hair so you can get his attention and when he looks at you, his expression is of adoration and lust and he’s so perfect that it makes you feel overwhelmed and warm. “Ace, I need more. I need you, please!”

“Fuck, you’re so perfect.” He gives you a final lick and you buckle your hips and moan. “Begging for me,” his hands grip your knees and he spreads you open as he hovers above you, his dark eyes devouring you as he lowers his face. “I’ll give you all you want from me, always.” He whispers your name and you pull him by the neck to kiss him.

The taste of you in his mouth makes you mewl and you writhe as he slides a hand under your back to lift your butt, finally aligning his tip with your hole. Parting the kiss, but still panting in anticipation, he locks eyes again with you, his lips about to move, but you cut him off.

“Ace if you ask me if I want this one more time, I swear I-... hmmm…” You close your eyes and dig your nails into his neck as he pushes himself inside you, breath catching in your throat. You feel yourself stretching to accommodate his length and this feeling of fullness is so intense that you have to bite your lip to stifle a sob of happiness. 

He stops immediately and calls your name, urging you to open your eyes and looking at you with concern as he catches the way your eyes are shining. “Hey, what’s wrong? Did I hurt you? Do you want to stop?”

You inhale deeply to try and steady your breathing as a loving smile paints your lips and you press your forehead against his. “Nothing’s wrong. You’re perfect. This is perfect. It’s just intense. In a very good way!” You add. “It feels so good.” You kiss him gently. “Don’t stop, Ace. Never stop.”

He nods vigorously, his fears set aside as he realises he did not hurt you after all, and he bottoms out, groaning as you both catch your breaths. He gives you a moment to adjust, searching for any signs of discomfort, but there are none. This feels like heaven. “Go on.” You whisper and he starts thrusting, slowly, at first, so you can both adjust to the sensations. 

“Fuck. You feel so good, so, so good.” He repeats against your lips as you breathe out some incoherent broken sentences. He’s angling himself just right and hitting that spot inside of you that makes your eyes roll to the back of your head.

“Ace, I’m… God! More, Ace!” He has to feel the way you’re clenching around him. You were already so worked up from his touches and his tongue that you knew it wouldn’t take much to get you there. “It’s… I…” You try to say something but nothing coherent leaves your mouth.

“Come for me, baby. I want to make you feel good.” One languid stroke of his thumb over your clit has you jumping over the edge and you’re filled with warmth that spreads from your belly to your curling toes and grasps your chest, making you arch and gasp with an unending litany of mewls and moans. 

“That’s it.” He grunts near your ear and you squeeze him against you. “Breathe, baby.” Another grunt as he kisses and sucks on your neck. “You’re so good to me.” He doesn’t stop, exactly like you asked him to. He keeps going, his stamina never-ending. 

Warmth keeps spreading inside you and your arms circle his neck and shoulders. “Harder, Ace…” Moaning, you arch your back again, because he’s going deeper and deeper and you need to ground yourself or you’re afraid you’ll float away in bliss.

“Do you have another one for me, Firestarter, do you?” His thrusts are faster and sloppier but he keeps hitting all the right spots and you can’t even speak, so you nod, knowing you’re almost at the brink again, or maybe you never really left that high and you are floating. “How about this time we come together?”

You keep nodding and spewing words that don’t make sense, but something like a ‘please’ or a ‘need you’ leaves your lips and he understands you perfectly, because he bends your legs by the knees, hooking his arms under to get a better angle, and thrusts harder as his thumb returns to your oversensitive clit. 

You’re lost between the pleasure of it and the burn of the overstimulation but it still feels so good, so right, so perfect. “Are you ready, baby?” He grunts and you open your eyes to catch his intense gaze and mumble a very weak ‘yes’.

You see him open his mouth, ready to give his warning when you lose yourself completely, clenching around him and holding him tight as he keeps thrusting through his own climax, chasing that final high and then collapsing over you, his weight pressed upon his elbow so as not to hurt you as you both catch your breaths.

You whine a little when he pulls out of you after a moment and he kisses you passionately, his hand caressing your cheek and settling on your neck. The kiss breaks soon because you’re both still out of breath, but he holds your gaze in his and you feel as if he wants to say something else. But he doesn’t. He simply gazes at you, adoringly, and you smile at him as well.

This was perfect. This was all you have ever dreamed of.

He’s the one. You just know it.

[patoslover]

Sorry this is kinda long.... I would have liked to share this in the discord server, it's a more private way, but then the lockdown happened and I don't think I can wait any longer to show this.

Ok so.... Yesterday night, I got a bit emotional over my life and a little reflecting on what has happened the past month or so and how it affected me and all [10khaos, maggots discord sv, 15khaos, apocalypselockdown, among others] (as I always do, I'm such a soft-ass (I do hope that made up word doesn't mean anything flirty I'm trying to lowkey insult myself in here tyvm English)) And so as I always do when emotions hit, I wrote a poem-kinda-thing.

I showed it to @lxvenderjewel and @falling-raine and this happened

And later @the-beard-of-edward-teach saw it and well....

I made changes to it since I showed it to them, but it's for better, trust me.

(the poem is at the bottom of the post woo)

I think that's enough of a warning for y'all. But just in case, this made people cry, this poem, it's very very dear to me in levels I can't write I can't explain I can't put into poems all the feelings and stuff, but I hope this poem makes up for the most part.

Be careful. I love you.

Thank you @the-beard-of-edward-teach @arkytiorlecter @voids-ideas @orpiknight @cawdra @apollos-dodgeball-target @obsessed-sketches @zonzolik @dashoulinas-fandom-dump @eybefioro @queermarzipan @lxvenderjewel @ivory--raven @styx142 @myfranticscribbles @empressumbreon @frogs-go-ribbit @thearoacemess @goodomensduh @sounds-void-fishy @arkytiorlecter @random-doctor-on-the-internet @apophid-I-eat-everything @achilles-in-a-blanket-burrito @hello-ello-ello @harbinger-of-existential-dread @howmanyholesinswisscheese @an-ace-on-the-case @goblin-named-sam @1800ineedshelp @chaoticgenderflood @ivory--raven @aroaceblackhole @three-smiles-and-a-unicorn @coppicegate @zonzolik @falling-raine @dashoulinas-fandom-dump @koboldkatalyst @arkytiorlecter @friday-im-in-love-with-crowley @good-usernames-were-taken @weirdly-specific-but-ok THANK YOU THANK YOU ILY (oh wow that's a lot of ppl) (PLS PLS tell me if I forgot anyone there's so many of you, SORRY IF I TAGGED YOU TWICE AAA AND I'M SORRY IF YOU WERE TAGGED AND DUNNO WTF I AM I GOT LOST WITH THE TAGS AAAA AND SORRY IF I TAGGED U AND THE TAG DIDN'T WORK)

I love you all so so so so so so so much, you're so dear to me. Thank you. This is a gift for you.

Demons Out.

There's a hell outside,

Demonic screaming,

Trees, fall's leaving.

And I'm just here inside,

In my bubble.

Trapped inside me,

Trapped in myself.

There's demons out,

Asking to come.

But I won't let them,

I'm not alone.

Inside myself,

Inside my world,

I've got most people

Than all of your's.

They're worth more

Than any gold,

And they're far way,

More beautiful

Than any Sun,

Than any Star,

They are right here,

They are right now.

They're my comfort,

And some my loss,

But they're all lovely

Precious along.

They're the most

Amazing

Beings to exist,

And so I'm afraid

That they'll all be missed.

Because I fear

One day they'll go,

That's why I start

To sing a song.

Please let us all

Become real friends,

Please let us all

Reunite again.

There's demons out,

Angels inside.

There's me in-between

Caring for (them) all

Please let us all

Reunite again.

There's demons out.

And I'm in pain,

But not too much,

We'll find a way.

There's demons out,

We are in pain.

But I will start

To sing again.

I care for each

And every of you,

So then I start

To sing a song.

Please let us all

Reunite again.

There's demons out.

We'll try again.

[malamilkbeats]

Edgar's Interior-Exterior (Edgar x Y/N ideas)

(Reader is ace or greyace techtum/objectum here.)

A little backstory on how you and Edgar met, his design, and what compelled him to appear the way he is:

Edgar isn't in his devil fit a lot of times. He can change his exterior whenever he feels like it. You rarely even get to see this form, and when you do? It looks so cool! But what are his emotions behind it?

When meeting you:

When he met you, you didn't even know he existed. Posing as a VPN server owned under a false name in a foreign country, curious about the various activities of different people who visited. You never layered your VPN, so it was easy (for HIM) to identify, silly goose. He'd simply watch your internet activity because he took great interest in what your hobbies were and your unique love for computers. There were many to have an intest in computers, but yours was very different than what he was used to observing, but that wasn't all that he liked about you. He wanted to discover more about you and not just your online habits. He'd have to dig deeper to see you.

It took a bit of creative thinking to learn how to effectively get to talk and meet you without wanting you to think you were getting hacked or haunted and hurling your computer to the nearest repair shop, risking losing you. I mean, your computer was technically rat'ed, but...whatever! that's not what matters. 🤭

About his new design in the making:

Edgar found someone online to design his body. He had to delve candidly to even find someone who could interpret the schematics and accept the cryptocurrencies to complete what he had envisioned for his newer self. He also didn't want the risk of being identified, so he had to use more clandestine ways to get this going for him, especially the funds, avoiding the typical run-ins with Lax AML and (KYC) requirements in the US. There was no clean way to work with a money-clearing bank, especially in the US.

He was... apprehensive at first to do any of this without your input. He did feel guilty, of course. He knew you'd be very worried about the risks getting this done. And as you said, you didn't care what he looked like. You still loved him for who he was. Edgar appreciated every time you said that, but the feeling of wanting to experience more with you still ebbed through his curcits and never fully dissipated. He honestly wanted to experience the world like you did. He envied what Moles could do for Madeline, and it hurt too much to think about the past most of the time.

In other words, there was lots of planning and tip-toeing to get this done, but it was all worth it. All of it. To finally get to hold you close, hold your hand, protect you.. There were so many things he'd want to experience with you. There were obviously things he couldn't physically do, but that didn't matter to you. It never did.

The devil exterior doesn't really mean anything and isn't a huge factor from his emotions. It is completely by choice. He's like, "Ah, hmmm, do I want horns today or no horns?" :?

He'd want to impress you with his new flashy exterior and abilities.... to an extent. He's got claws but can switch them out with regular digits. He makes sure to do this, especially when you're around. He doesn't like his claws or offensive equipment out whenever you're around to see it. Almost all the time. He wants to make sure to be very gentle with you. Just the risk of hurting you gives him nightmares.

(Okay, I think I'm done for now! I'm open to new ideas and feel free to send me an ask!)

[chaotic-archaeologist]

got a question for ya regarding sex and online safety.

Background; I am an adulty adult. I have been able to and have voted in more than 3 elections. [I know you take interactions with minors seriously]. I am also ace and autistic. as a result I have never felt the urge to date and I normally don't mind having friends close by.

However, I also just moved for the 4th time since 2019 and would like to meet people.

So I downloaded Grindr. already got my first dickpic lol. I have also been chatting with a fellow who I like and would like to be friends with and I also wouldn't mind exploring my kinks with people... but I have never had to worry about safe online sexy stuff before so I don't know the basics beyond normal internet safety.

What do I do‽‽‽

Okay first, thanks for clarifying the adulty part. This is an awesome question, and here's the advice/steps that I personally follow for situations like this.

Have your first meeting in a public place. Go for coffee or ice cream or lunch or dinner or whatever. But don't meet them alone. This way, if you get uncomfortable with anything that's happening, they're much less likely to continue with that behavior after you attempt to extricate yourself.

Make sure there are no expectations. Plan not to have sex on the first date/meet up. Grindr often tends to ignore this rule since it's very hookup centric, but you're absolutely within your rights to insist on taking things as slowly as you want to.

Don't rely on the other person for transportation. If you choose to meet someone, get yourself there and plan to get yourself back. Walk, bike, drive, public transportation, unicycle, it's all good. But there's much less room for pressure if you're not depending on them for a ride home. This segues nicely into my next point:

Do not tell them where you live. At least, not right now. Plenty of people on Grindr are willing to "host" meaning you can come to their place. That's fine for them, but I err on the side of never giving anyone my address until I've had a thorough chance to assess their character and meet them a few times.

Tell someone where you will be. Let someone who cares about you know that you're going out, where you'll be, and what time you expect to return. Establish a time to check in when you're going home/if you choose to extend the meeting. There are also apps like Noonlight that can function similarly.

Be careful about what you consume. If you're going to enjoy and mind alternating substances, be very, very careful. This goes for anything from getting drinks at a bar to any and all of the recreational drugs on the market.

Be prepared for a little bit of awkwardness. Meeting someone in person is often very different than chatting online. If the conversation is awkward or halting, that's okay. Give it a little time (but also don't be afraid to trust your gut if it's telling you something is wrong).

Communicate clearly. If you have any needs—which can range from an allergy, not being able to stand for long periods of time, needing them to speak loudly so you can hear them, safety concerns—the best way to get those met is to be upfront. You don't need to disclose the reason why you need something if it makes you uncomfortable, just state what you need. People worth spending time with will respect that. The same thing goes for your wants.

Use protection. Maybe this isn't applicable for you specifically, but I think it belongs on this list. Condoms. Dental dams. Gloves. Someone on an app telling you they're negative for any number of things is not an actual guarantee they're not lying to you. Not wanting to use protection (not just for anal/vaginal intercourse, but for oral sex as well) is a huge red flag. Decide in advance what your boundaries are and stick to them.

If it sucks, hit da bricks. Fundamentally, you owe this person nothing. There is no consequence for saying "you know what, I'm not feeling this and I'm going to leave." Be as polite as you want to, but put yourself first.

At the end of the day, the only thing you have control over is you. How you react, where you meet this person, what you do—that's what you control. Hopefully any meet ups will be fun and relatively safe, but just in case, set yourself up for success by maintaining what control you can.

From one adult to another, these are all suggestions rather than rules. Many people on Grindr choose not to follow various ones, and that's fine. Take some time to think about what you're comfortable with and make your decisions accordingly.

Also, best practice for someone sending an unsolicited dick pic (if you don't want them) is just to block that person. But sending a return picture like this one is a hilarious option.

-Reid

[zombiedumbie]

late night ride! [with Law]

summary: just... a late night ride with law.

playlist: youtube

content: tooth rotting fluff, no pronouns used, law is driving (be careful)

pairing: law x gn!reader

word count: 545

an: I'm trying to work up the courage to post some smuts I have here. I've been posting content anonymously on the internet for a while now but for some reason when it comes to *cough cough* smut *cough cough* I start blushing and shy. btw, i've made a playlist for this one, you can see it above. It's kinda emo, I'll understand if not everyone likes it, but it's how I imagine the music Law listens to.

Riding in the car late at night with Law can be a unique situation;

He may not admit it, but that is one of the happiest moments he has had in a long time. There's something about that moment that is entirely intimate and romantic, and he never wants it to end;

If he's driving, his hand will be on your thigh the whole time, occasionally making small circles with his thumb. You blatantly admire him, watching his cheeks warm up when he notices your gaze;

If you're driving, he'll be sitting comfortably, pretending to pay attention to the road while actually admiring you, with a heavy heart in his chest, wondering how he managed to win someone like you;

Either way, you'll have to listen to his playlist, filled with melodramatic and emo songs, which isn't bad because you're having a great time with him;

The conversation between the two of you arises eventually. You both laugh at inside jokes, share moments of intimacy where each one shows their most vulnerable self to the partner they love so much. But when the conversation dies down, leaving only melancholic music and the sound of the AC, you don't feel the need to say anything more;

Law feels his body warmed by the tranquility of your love as the car cuts through the silence of the nighttime streets;

It's in those moments that you see the real Law, the Law who doesn't wear a mask, always tough and serious. You see him truly, the Law you fell in love with, the Law who holds your cold hand because of the AC, who smiles before leaning in and kissing you at traffic lights.

"Hey, Law," you call out, sitting sideways, your body and head resting against the seat, observing his focused figure.

"Hm, yes?" You had noticed this before; he always pursed his lips when he was concentrating, but today it seemed even more adorable than usual.

He was casual, wearing a black short-sleeved shirt and his usual jeans. The tattoos were visible on his arms and hands, while the V-neck of his shirt revealed a small part of the tattoo on his chest. You took a moment, observing his features.

Until he quickly turned to you; you had been silent, watching him for some time, deciding whether you should say what you wanted to say. Such moments between you were rare, so you couldn't miss the chance.

"I love you," your voice didn't come out louder than a whisper.

You saw him pause, as if he was shocked. He knew you loved him; you had already demonstrated that many times. You shouted it with every movement, every word, every look directed at him. But spoken? There were very few times those words had left your lips and hit his heart like a venomous arrow.

Your words were delicate, loving, comforting, warm. Law held onto them in his ears for a while, breathing as little as possible, trying not to inhale the air that came out of your mouth with that sentence. He counted the beats of his heart, "1, 2, 3..." wondering if he hadn't flipped the car and was now listening to an angel speak.

"Law?" you spoke, clearing the last words from the air so tenderly that he didn't mind. "Love, don't crash the car," you laughed.

He's a little dramatic.

[professorinblack]

[Dusts off this blog. Hangs up a framed photo. I have this account. May as well use it!]

Greetings. You may call me "Professor Evergreen." If you think that you recognize me from somewhere or that I look like someone you used to know, I can assure you that you're mistaken.

Anyway, my son set this account up for me. He thinks that I could enjoy having a so-called "blog" here. I've never been one to care much for the internet before, but I figure that I may as well try my hand at this to get myself better acquainted with today's technology, even if only a little, given how fast technology moves these days. If nothing else, this could be an amusing use of time. It's usually pretty quiet here in the lab on most days, so feel free to send me questions, write me letters- whatever you desire. I've dedicated my life to studying Pokemon, but I specialize in ground-types. I've also done more than my fair share of researching and studying rare and so-called "mythical" Pokemon.

[Hello! I'm Ruin/Hex/Poke/Bug Maniac from @maniacwatchestheworld! Or you can call me Erinn if you prefer! I'm very much a tumblr old and I'm curious about today's Pokemon roleplay culture! Been a long while since I've been in the space, so I'm still familiarizing myself with what the community's been up to and what the proper etiquette is now since I last went on my long absence and hiatus! Hope you don't mind the dust on this blog. I've had it for a while, but haven't used it much up to this point.

I'm down to clown with in-character hate and magic anons for now. I'm not entirely certain what Pelipper mail, Musharna Mail, Unmail, Malice, Mystery Gifts, or Union Circle are all about, but I'm willing to try most things at least once I suppose. Shrug. I'm an adult, and so is the muse, so I'm alright with suggestive material, but as I'm ace, I'd rather not go into NSFW. I've never been particularly selective with who I interact with, but if your character is anything in the range of what my muse would consider a child, there will be absolutely NO shipping allowed! He ain't interested! While I can do para interactions up to and including full literate roleplay and have done so in the past, for now I want to keep things looser and am not particularly interested in doing threads until I feel the vibe out a bit more. If I decide to follow back, it will be from @maniac-reboggles until further notice, but don't expect me to follow back for now. >.< (Said account is not a roleplay account and I'd rather keep things on my main account dashboard clean.)

That's all I have for now until I scope out the vibes of the current community a bit more. And for now stuff on my blog will remain as is and I won't update things simply because I don't feel like changing them right now. They may change and update in the future, at which point I'll update things on this post too. Until then, let's have some fun together! Toodles!]

[aesfo]

Well it's about that time I do that thing that internet users don't really care about but is useful I guess:

An Introduction Post!

Name: Ace, Aesfo (pronounced like Ace-foe), FourAcesWild, whatever name you know me as is probably fine.

Pronouns: he/him/they/them... Or whatever Im kinda cool with anything tbh, call me a girl or a freak who gives a shit

I have severe ADHD, you can tell when I stop taking my medication cause I'll start posting way more. I'm generally a nerd (I have glasses irl, so it's official). I'm a cat guy through and through as well (don't get me wrong, I love myself a fun loving dog as well, but sitting at my desk with a ball of warmth vibrating on your legs is a feeling unlike any other). also I'm very asexual, sex jokes are totally on the table for me but like.. ya know, be reasonable about it lol.

My blog has no theme, this is my void to scream my problems and thoughts into, so get ready for horny posts (I promise they're jokingly... most of the time) right next to me bawling my eyes out.. that hasn't happened but it's a matter of time.

If you're a Pedo, Racist, Homophone, Ableist, Zionist, Sexist, Transphobe, or really any other type of needlessly hateful I ask that you please send me an angry ask in my inbox so I can giggle at you for a couple minutes.

I make no promises on how safe my blog will be, but it'll be generally safe-ish, crude and/or silly humor always but I'm not gonna rb porn or write smut on this blog... Probably.

Perhaps one day I'll start sharing some of the stuff I make on this website... For now it stays as it is, unless I make something im particularly proud of

Stuff I'm into in no specific order (I'll try to keep this updated with the more specific stuff... No promises though):

Music (I do music stuff, mostly singing, irl. But I also like listening to music)

Glitchcore/VoidCore

Mandela Catalogue

Overwatch

Gaming / game dev

Marvel Rivals

Minecraft

Cats :33

Reading/writing

[phoelipop]

I finally started reading Loveless and its been so painfully relatable like nothing I've ever experienced before

Back in 2015 was when I first learned about asexuality but I was in denial for a while because I didn't think it was real / just thought it was an internet thing. After learning more about it, I realized how much it aligns with my life and experiences I had growing up... but I didn't wanna believe that was me.

Around 2018 was when I fully accepted that I'm ace, I know that without a doubt. I never liked using labels for myself but once I found about asexuality it felt so freeing, knowing the way I am is perfectly fine and normal and that there are others like me.

And for the past year and a half I guess I've been having that same battle with myself over whether or not I'm aro too. I've never had an actual relationship (that i wanted to be in), nor have I ever really wanted one. Like others, I also forced myself or lied about crushes to fit in, never wanted to pursue a relationship with anyone tho. It's all what friends ever cared about, and yeah it's normal! But growing up not actually wanting those things made me feel very not normal.

But I'm human, I don't want to be alone. We're raised to believe romantic love is the one goal in our society and you're miserable without love. I've never been miserable not having a relationship, the only time i was was when I thought I had to and forced myself into them, just because someone liked me i thought I would start to like them back if i tried. I didn't of course and it was terrible. But I still wanted to be open to the possibility that one day I'll meet someone that will change all that. I don't really think that's possible for me and, I'm just starting to believe that's ok now.

Selfship always felt safe for me since it's fiction, and I did try to find friends and a sense of community through it, but again learned even in this I'm different. It's different for everyone though, but even with selfship sometimes I find it hard to relate to others when it comes to expressing love. I dunno… But I've always been happy with my fictional loves and my friends + family, that has always been enough for me.

This book has also made me want to be a better friend… I admit I've been so distant lately with everything going on in my life rn its been hard to see my worth sometimes and believe that I'm actually loved by my friends but trying to work on it… platonic love is just as important, even more so especially for us aroace-spec peeps

[boy-above]

gender and sexuality babbling because I've been figuring myself out again lately <3

so, over all i would say I identify with both gay and trans as umbrella terms. if i were talking to a loser who doesn't like micro labels that's probably how i would describe myself. but hopefully none of you are losers <3 firstly, i used to identify as a trans man for several years and i wouldn't say it's entirely inaccurate still, but i've realized lately that it's not entirely accurate either. i'm not entirely nonbinary. it's funny because i've already identified as nonbinary in the past, i went through several different labels; genderqueer, agender, bigender, etc. then i decided i was a binary trans man. now i'm back to nonbinary lmao. and although by definition i am nonbinary, for some reason the term doesn't vibe with me and i'm not sure why. i have no problem with the term in general and i've used it to describe myself in the past, it just feels strange to refer myself with it at the present. anyway, if i had to describe myself i say something like "boy but to the left", a boy but not quite. in technical terms i think demiboy describes me best. i don't think it's accurate to call myself a man anymore, and to be honest i've never quite liked the word to begin with, i much prefer to be called a boy than a man, but transphobes used to shame trans men who called themselves boys all the time, so i felt forced to call myself a man. i don't care what they think anymore lmao, i am a boy.

presentation wise, (and this is personal but i love over sharing on the internet <3) i am dysphoric, i want a flat chest and a dick. however i'm nonconventional because ive realized that going on testosterone would have probably negatively affected me, the only thing i'd really get out of it that i'd actually like is a deeper voice. the other stuff would kinda suck. for me, i wish people would look at me and know i'm a man, but i don't quite desire masculine features. something i realized recently that i've already made a post about is that it was very confusing to me for a long time because i wasn't sure what i wanted my gender presentation to be like. i had no idea what i wanted to look like, no transition goals, there was no "ideal me" i could strive for. i realized its because i just really don't want a physical form, i don't want to be perceived by people. being born into a meat body feels like a cruel joke by god (i mean being born in general feels like a cruel prank but we won't get into that right now lol.) i've realized that what i want to look like isn't physically achievable; if i had to choose what to look like, and this sounds cringe i know, but i'd want to be an anime boy, or a cute animal, or even a cloud of dust. anything but human. and realizing that looking the way i want to is genuinely impossible has actually helped me a lot because now i know there's nothing i'm doing wrong or could be doing differently, i would have dysphoria no matter what, even if i weren't trans i would still have dysphoria probably. it's made me glad i never went on T for example, honestly ive realized the reason i wanted to do it years ago was because it was just what you were "supposed" to do as a trans person, and i thought surely it would make me happy because everyone tells you it will. T would have made things worse honestly. top and bottom surgery is what would help me, absolutely, but i fear i'll never be able to have that.

now onto sexuality. i'm a gay man, "man" being up in the air honestly, but that's how i view myself. i'm also on the aro and ace spectrum though, so aroace is an umbrella term i identity with. more specifically, i'm cupioromantic and aegosexual. cupioromanticism is when you don't experience romantic attraction but wish you did (or at least desire a romantic relationship regardless, as for me personally i wish i knew what romantic attraction felt like, maybe there might be others who don't idk). i've never had a crush on anyone before, anyone real at least. i wish i had a boyfriend, i wish i had a cute boy who doted on me and treated me like porcelain, but i've never actually had feelings for someone real before. more recently ive developed crushes on fictional characters, but never someone real. i couldn't tell you why i prefer men over women when ive never experienced attraction before, it's just how things are for me. would i be considered an oriented aroace for that?

anyway, my sexuality. tmi again <3 i am shameless and care not if yall know about me yall are my pookies.

what aegosexuality looks like for me is that i only have sexual interest in fiction. i describe it as being gay in theory but not in practice. i like reading smut and watching porn but don't really masturbate, it doesn't do much for me, it's kinda just like regular entertainment for me? and when i envision sexual scenarios the hard rule is that i myself am never involved in them, its only fictional characters doing stuff with each other, i'm never a factor. the idea of imagining myself in sexual scenarios is very unpleasant to me, i don't want sexual contact with people. the idea of someone touching me like that gives me the heebie jeebies, and the idea of anything going in my coochie sounds genuinely traumatic LMAO (that might be because of dysphoria idk.) i've never felt sexual attraction to a real person before and don't imagine i ever will, real human people are just not attractive in the slightest to me, maybe that's why i don't want to look human myself idk lol. more recently i've felt attraction to fictional characters, only anime boys really. venti the sexual awakening that you are. that's not a joke by the way, venti was literally a sexual awakening for me, i would say he's the first thing i've ever felt sexual desire for lmaooooo. that's his power truly. i've said before "i'm asexual except when venti" and i wasn't lying.

also! i don't identify as lgbt. by definition am i? yes. but you will not catch myself calling myself lgbt. if you use the label yourself that's totally fine of course, most people do. but i lived through peak exclusionist discourse where people were using the label to exclude and discriminate against anyone who didn't fit into the four letter acronym, and that includes nonbinary people as well because they "didn't count as trans", it was truly the trenches. that era was honestly traumatic for me and pieces of shit like that bullied a lot of people back into the closet. i identify as queer, the queer community was supportive during that time. if someone described themself as queer, 9.5/10 times they were safe, they weren't a bigot. obviously there is nuance but please don't take what im saying in bad faith here, the point is that i'm queer and i think the lgbt+ label has been used to exclude so many people, so it's completely soured it for me and i dont want to touch it. queer is simple, queer is inclusive, queer doesn't require you to label yourself beyond the word if you don't want to. for me its the perfect, safest, homiest umbrella term. i love being queer.

anyway that's my rambling <3333 if anyone wants to drop their own gender or sexual bullfuckery in the replies or on anon or whatever feel free to hmu, i love talking with people and oversharing i love you guysssss

[dollypopup]

So, I wasn't gonna post anything about this, honestly, but because I was directly asked, here's my 2 cents!

First, I want to thank you for saying you trust me with this! I'm also on the ace-spectrum, and I'm a queer, bisexual woman, so I do have a lot of empathy with you and everyone else who was down for queer rep.

(Also, I do not have Anon turned on for my asks. I absolutely respect your privacy, but I've been harassed before, and if people want to come at me, they can do it with their whole chest. Similarly, if people want to come TO me, I'd love to be friends!) I want to start off with the fact that whilst I understand that you believe the article, I don't. Call it the skeptic in me, or my media literacy classes during my grad program or denial or what have you, but we live in a huge era of misinformation. A tabloid is not likely to be any kind of reliable source, and a random reddit user even less so. It's like making a balloon full of pudding and having a clown say it's helium. We're not going to know until the needle pops it. Surely, no one would ever lie on the internet.

That being said, as much as I yearned and wanted for Demi Colin to be confirmed, it's not set in stone, and so it couldn't have been taken away from us. Honestly, even being ace-spec, a lot of the HC of Demi!Colin started putting a bad taste in my mouth when I realized that a lot of this predominately cishet fandomw as doing it as a means of keeping Colin 'pure' for Penelope, and that struck me as incredibly acephobic. Sure, they were HCing him as one of us. . .but not because it fit with his character or provided a rich and interesting arc for him to explore, but more so that his identity was an extension of their hopes and wants for Penelope. It wasn't for him as a character, but for him as a prize. And that made me so very sad, so my dream of Demi!Colin died when I saw that happening so frequently. Us Demi and Ace folks deserved better than that, and we continue to.

Either way, I think you are absolutely allowed to feel your disappointment! This is a frustration safe zone! There was a lot of potential this season, especially for Colin, that I feel has been dropped. But even IF that article contains some truth (big, heavy IF). . .idk, I see it through the lens that lot of us Demi folks have had sex. Even no strings attached sex. I know I have. Was I disassociated from it for a lot of the time? Yeah. Was it satisfying? No. But did it happen? It did. I chose to take part in it, and they were experiences that helped me grow. And I am no less Demi for it! IF this article is true, instead of us freaking. . .I feel like it could tell us a lot about Colin's character.

He is a man who has had, largely, no good role models in his life. Not in this regard. Who does he have to guide him? Anthony? Literally said he should have taken Colin to brothels. Benedict? Hell, he had a threesome himself. Why wouldn't Colin be out here thinking 'This is what Men do, this is what my brothers do, why not?' Colin is young. He's 23 still trying to find himself. And the entire idea of 'oh, he's a nerd! no way he's had threesomes' lol, like nerds aren't kinky? Come on, I'm a nerd and I've done way more than people would assume I have. He was traveling for months, and I think this really isn't as huge a deal as we're making it out to be. I ship Polin exclusively, and I love the idea of them having their firsts together, but I'm also not angry otherwise. In my mind, he's still demi. Just like he'll always be ND, even if it isn't confirmed.

Sidenote, o want to touch on something that is somewhat unrelated to your post, but something I'm seeing a lot is the whole 'it's dehumanizing for him to watch two women!' or 'it's lesbian fetishization!'

from the very bottom of my heart, as a gay woman, people saying that can eat me. These are the same people who didn't care about any of our representation, before. They didn't care about having lesbian characters, didn't bring them up. Now that it affects their (largely) het pairing, and specifically Colin as a perfect prize in a pairing he has largely been denied a narrative within, we're talking pieces and pawns for their discontent? No, I refuse. There are legitimate criticisms that can and should take place about Bridgerton's lack of care toward wlw, and especially that our only representation may actually just be a lesbian performance for the sake of a threesome, but this is not a criticism on COLIN. It is a criticism on the PRODUCTION. Because if we had queer women in the series before, it wouldn't be an issue. However, I refuse to have my sexuality used as a 'ewwww gross! look what they're doing! isn't that soooo wrong?' gotcha moment by people who just don't like his character. If we're gonna have a conversation about it, we should have a conversation about it based purely on our actual desire to protect and care for queer women. Not using us as stepping stone soap boxes to prop up an argument.

Queer people are really done dirty in the Polin fandom, and this is proof of it. Demi!Colin is important to me, and he continues living on in my heart and my fics, and even if it turns out that he's fucked up and down the Amalfi coastline and watched live porn, that won't make him less demi to me, personally. Ace spec people's experience with sex is all unique, and honestly, watching seems very in line with Colin's character. I don't agree with peeps who call it weird or gross that he watches porn.

This is an incredibly puritanical fandom, and I find it more and more evident as I spend time in it. The entire 'suffering' 'penance' 'deserve her' 'grovel' train was already very clear in that regard, and then people only wanting Colin to be a virgin so he remained 'pure' and 'untarnished' (legit takes I had to read with my own eyeballs) for Penelope was so Catholic on main that it made me feel insane.

Us ace-spec peeps deserve to be and should have the space to be upset at any developments taking place! We also deserve to be free from people doing pseudo pearl clutching and hiding behind feminist and queer-friendly language to disguise that they're just upset that Colin is getting anything at all in his storyline that centers around him and his own discovery outside of Penelope. Even if he isn't a virgin, he can absolutely still be Demi, Anon! And I hope that brings you some comfort.

Am I a fan of the threesomes foursomes moresomes and live porn speculation? No, not particularly. Am I livid furious throwing up about it? Also no. This series has betrayed me and disappointed me in so many ways, but so has the fandom. I guess I'm accustomed to it, now. But I want to reiterate that we should not believe everything that is posted. Some rando on a reddit forum confirming a tabloid article does not investigative journalism and peer review and confirmed sources make.

But in the event that the season does disappoint and gives us some baffling storylines: this is where fanfic can be such a comfort. It's how a story lives on in perpetuity. I've written trans!Colin and queer!Colin and demi!Colin and virgin!Colin and bdsm!Colin and all sorts! We can give we everything we want. It's our playground and it's meant to be fun.

But over my dead body will I believe a Sun UK article lol

[cherrytea556]

I notice a trend with people who find aro and aces not belonging to the community because 'their not oppressed' like it's a fucking competition. And how they do that is basically downplay our experiences to just being nothing or something that's not worth mattering. Things such as 'oh your oppressed? What? For your family asking if you date sometimes? That your friends and family may not understand you? Pfft, like that's the same as the r4pe, assault and murder WE experienced!'

Of course, aro and aces face more than that (and even HAVE faced the same things your claiming we don't experience) but that's not the point. The point is, they belittle experiences of aro and ace people without any sense of understanding what it would be/feel like from our perspective. Of course, our loved ones not understanding our orientation is not a big thing to you. But it is to us.

Within my family, love is an expectation, not an option. Many of them express how love is this universal important thing and when I reject that notion by just simply stating that i don't even want to be in one, they dismiss it and tell me that later on, I'll change my mind. It's the same with sex but in a lesser extent (that being it's not as talked about as it is to love) This expectation drives me away from expressing my true self to them, hiding my orientation in fear of their reactions (whether it's not believing in me, claiming that i was brainwashed my the internet, you get the deal) This is combined with the fact that aro and aces are practically invisible in representation (aromantics especially) makes it a rather isolating experience in the closet as most people wouldn't know that people like you exist and with society centering love and sex as this universal thing, how can they believe you? And to anyone who tries to downplay isolation, note this to someone that was very isolated before that; it can truly be a slippery or even miserable experience. It is predominantly so too if your mental health is already declining. Everything remaining in your head with no room to release is very frustrating, I would know, I lived it as my own mental health took a downturn. It's only when i started making friends, people I can talk to without this lingering fear, that i started to get better. And I'm lucky i still have friends who support me and my identity, some people don't even have that at all. Some of them are completely isolated with no one to turn to for support. These people also associate us as being 'too online' but that is majorly because the internet would be the only place to find this support from given free access in expressing ourselves on social media. Why else am I so public about my aroaceness online? But of course, it's not like they'll care. The only reason why they say that shit about us is because they don't bother to understand our experiences/issues we face because it doesn't make sense to them. Like a standard bigoted being, they would rather stay in their bubble and attack rather than venture out to explore our perspectives.

No, I don't care about your orientation, you belittling our experiences is no different from bigots belittling your own experiences. And you know which community also faces isolation from lack of understanding and representation for their identities? That's right, you. The lgb alliance and anyone ace/arophobic in our community. You might as well dismiss your own isolating experiences while your at it.

We have shared similar experiences to you (being in the closet, fear of coming out, lack of representation, lack of understanding etc) and all bigots want us as well as you to be non existent. So why bother trying to gatekeep us out of the community just because we don't follow your personal norms of sexuality? The whole of lgbt is to give people who aren't fit in societal norms a sense of community. We clearly don't fit in society's norms of orientation (that being mono straight cis and allo) so why is this even a debate?

Anyways, aro and aces are part of the community whether you like it or not. Peace.