#I’m still doing ok

[perfectlyvalid49]

The world post October 7th is worse in so many different ways, but one of the ones I’m really struggling with right now is the sheer amount of assholery that is being directed at Jews.

I went to therapy for YEARS to try to learn that 1) the world is not a terrible place and 2) people (in general) will not hate you/be mean to you for no reason. I still struggle with the idea that people are fundamentally good. Like, decades later, that idea is not something I believe, just something I remind myself is (hopefully) true when I’m feeling otherwise. I’ve gotten compliments for how patient I can be with people who are being antisemitic, and a lot of that stems from actively practicing looking for explanations other than malice for people’s behavior and knowing that giving people the benefit of the doubt is good for my own mental health.

But for the last six months, people have been hateful for no reason. I’ve given people the benefit of the doubt, and they’ve shown that they were choosing malice all along. Even large institutions that are supposed to be working for a better world are showing that their definition of a better world is one that doesn’t include me and those like me in it – that they’d rather side with the people who chose hate.

And it makes all the bad stuff want to come back. The cynicism, the nihilism, the part of me that wants to lash out first to gain a sense of control – they’ve all reared their heads in the last six months, and the longer this goes on, the harder it is to put those parts of myself back to sleep. I’m not going to let them win, that’s a choice I get to make, but it sure would be nice if they weren’t being actively encouraged by real life.

[incinerated-vestiges]

average british activities (techno is mildly terrified)

@hennagrace

[madbard]

“I hate that I fell in love with you.”

But she didn’t. She found him lying on the beach, and he was real, and he was there, and she wasn’t alone anymore, and she responded with such desperation and carelessness that she hurt him and drove him away.

She’d been alone so long that she mistook the relief of not being alone for love. She felt connection for a moment - and through her own actions, she messed it up.

(Even if she hadn’t, he still would have left her. She still would have ended up alone.)

“Why in the world won’t you love me too?”

Because you can’t control who does or doesn’t love you - but how would Calypso know that? She doesn’t know what love is. Chances are, no one will ever love her again.

[qualityrain]

call out my name when you need me again

if you know who I am, why won’t you call my name?

[collapsethevillain]

Two reasons for my mother to roll her eyes over me still not being over fnaf. I’m not sure if I’ll ever be over it tbh

[were-wolverine]

things in DC canon i’ll literally never get over

1. dick finds out batman replaced him as robin (without asking him) from the NEWSPAPER and simultaneously finds out bruce adopted a new kid without telling him (to make things worse: bruce didn’t even adopt dick)

2. dick finds out jason died from the newspaper (AGAIN? REALLY BRUCE?) and bruce had the fucking funeral WITHOUT HIM while he was still in space

[inumbrapugnabimus-maybe]

did I ever mention how much I love these two?

(based on @birb-boyo’s wonderful post)

[dulcewrites]

I think the thing that shocks me the most about the discourse, if you can even call it that, around book Alicent vs show Alicent, is the idea that people think book Alicent had full autonomy over all her choices and she wasn’t a “victim” like show Alicent.

Now first, I put victim in quotations bc the way people who do not like her have almost bastardized that word. Alicent is a victim, and those things (rape, abuse, neglect) were done to her. That says everything about the men who did that do her and nothing about her. But people are hellbent on throwing Alicent, a woman in a violently patriarchal environment, being victimized back at people as if it is moral flaw of hers. Which is just terribly ironic bc the same folks who say Alicent “did it to herself” or “deserves what she is getting” also seem to think the crux of the story isn’t about generational trauma catching up with itself, how far people will go for power, or even how all girls and women are harmed - albeit to different degrees. But more the fact that Rhaenyra is the only woman to be harmed - and the only harm done is not getting the throne easily. Those same people wouldn’t be caught dead admitting that Rhaenyra is also a victim in the way they shit on Alicent for being. From the father who sets her up fail, to the baby daddy that’s been eyeing her since she was barely 18, to the uncle that grooms her. It takes away from the fantasy projected onto Rhaenyra if she too is surrounded by men that use her and she never escapes that.

Second, it’s funny how F&B gets heralded by some as this exploration of how history is skewed depending on who is telling it. But people can’t read between the lines (you honestly don’t even have to do that much work) with book Alicent. Showing 14 year old Alicent being preyed on, 16 year old Alicent being pregnant with her second child, and 18 year old Alicent being raped is somehow the show needlessly making Alicent a victim. But reading about a 13 year old bathing, dressing, and taking care of a king who mistakes her for the daughter he abused and neglected, and then that same girl, at 18, marrying another king that killed his previous child bride is just girl bossism on book Alicent’s part?

People hate conceptualizing the idea that (even book) Alicent is caught in patriarchal trappings bc to some that takes away from Rhaenyra’s plight…. Bc they can’t wrap their heads around several women *gasp* all going through hardships, and that ultimately people will respond to trauma differently depending on tools/knowledge they have at their disposal. Alicent neither being gleefully evil nor picking herself up by her bootstraps to somehow end years of patriarchal violence is not the neat box they want for her.

[flicklikesstuff]

“Maybe the flash was to blame. Or maybe it’s his shrunken state that gave the looming witch the illusion of being exactly 10 feet tall.

Whatever it was, it had flicked something within. Suddenly, he was no longer a lizard. Nor a great, powerful wizard. Not even “Rick Shades.”

He was a little Gourami.

Only 12 years old. Eyes wide and unobscured. Skin smooth from the lack of scars. But most of all, untainted by the horrors.

And unlike that little Gourami, he was entirely aware of what’s coming for them. He could warn the 12 year old. Maybe save them even. Tell her that continuing this approach is a bad, BAD, VERY TERRIBLY BAD IDEA!!

…

But he couldn’t.”

My inspiration pieces: :)

[pixlokita]

Part 29 ✨ 🍅

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[ricky-mortis]

Curtwen Week Day 5: Disguise

[timethehobo]

Been thinking of my Inquisitor again. I’m so excited to see him back in Veilguard. 😭

[checkadii]

I think I’m normal about him

[forgetmenautical]

guy mcweirdson

[fallstaticexit]

Would you guys be mad if I continued The Art of Being Seen after the holidays? 🧍🏽‍♀️🥹

[thatorangedrank]

Little is Alyx 👎🏻

Little is Penny 👎🏻

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