#I’m just venting into the void

[greenhorn-teacher]

I hate being a teacher sometimes.

Like, I love the work. I love getting to talk about my content, I love the kids, and overall it’s a career that I enjoy.

But I’m just

So

BUSY

All the damn time.

While at work this week, I’ve been working nonstop. Outside of my 29-minute-long lunch, which was typically spent working, the only chance to relax and properly breathe was when all the kids left my room on Friday and I took a 20-minute Guilty Break before cleaning up my room and prepping it for Monday.

I’ve put in more than my fair share of work this week. I’ve stayed in my classroom at least an hour and a half after my contract hours ended every day this week (except Friday, where I only stayed an hour after). Hell, one day I stayed three and a half hours after the school day ended. The only people left in the building by that point were the janitors and roving packs of theater kids getting ready to head home. All to grade, or do paperwork, or prep for a group project the kids start next week, or design upcoming lessons, or or or or…..

And I’m still not done. I have to grade 150-some-odd short-answer-response tests that the kids did this week by Monday morning, because that’s when grades lock for progress reports. To grade each test well, I would need to spend at least 5 minutes reading each response and evaluating what they wrote.

But that would take twelve and a half hours.

I have yard work to do. I play Pathfinder with friends. My spouse and I are having a friend over for dinner on Sunday (and, on a related note, the house needs to be cleaned). I do not have time to do this.

Add on errands, and meeting up with family, and so many other things that happened this week. The most relaxation I got this week was the two hours I spent on the couch putting together my lesson for Friday because I’d never actually gotten a chance to make it.

Everything that happened this week was something that needed to happen (like grading), or was something that I wanted to happen (like meeting up with family). But now I’m so damn tired, and I’m going to have to grade those tests fast in order to make the Monday morning deadline, and next week promises to be more of the same.

I genuinely, truly, absolutely love my job. But sometimes it feels like the only way for me to finish everything I need to do in a given work day is to not have to teach kids. Which, you know, would kind of defeat the purpose of the work I’d be doing in the first place.

[zukosdualdao]

the “just following orders” crowd when it comes to azula is so aggravating to me at this point. A) you realize that line’s been used to attempt to justify atrocities throughout history, right? it’s not the flex you think it is.

B) so many of these people show their hand because they apply that ‘logic’ to azula but not zuko. and to be clear—they shouldn’t! zuko trying to capture aang may be “following orders” but it’s still wrong. the difference is that zuko actually LEARNS this and atones for it. a huge part of his arc is realizing he CAN’T justify the wrong he’s done by following his father’s orders.

so the hypocrisy is kinda staggering.

[yourchemicallyimbalancedromance]

Having imposter syndrome as a writer is a bitch

“What if I release this and I don’t get the reaction I was hoping for?”

“What if it’s not good enough?”

What if what if what if like omg I’m gonna lose my mind

This is one thing I really didn’t miss about writing tbh

But yeah this is why I haven’t released anything in almost a month lol, but im pushing through and still working on things despite all of the negativity my brain likes to throw my way sooooo 👍🏻

[mellowluka]

Why did the Christian streaming service have to take my silly K9 crime show 🫠

There’s at least two whole episodes missing [that I’ve found so far] and so much censorship that it’s… barely watchable.

This is a known issue with them and a majority of the shows they broadcast, but I’m still going to scream about it for a second, bear with me-

So you can show the blood, the murder, the violence, and… all the other things traditionally shown in crime shows, since that is their subject material, but “hell” and “damn” [and trans people] is too much?

Besides the questionable censoring, it’s completely inconsistent, and they don’t censor things you’d assume they would

Mind you this is also only a problem because I live in the US, I’d have other options for watching it if I didn’t live here 💀

Again to the fact that crime shows aren’t typically rated for children for obvious reasons, so trying to dumb down a crime show for them seems a little… odd to say the least

[ygodmyy20]

Maybe if I drink more coffee that will make today better

[2-b-art-blog]

*sweats*

[squuote]

it’s weird to feel extremely chatty but not really want to talk to anyone. or I guess not want to chat with anyone in particular, but maybe it’s just cause the emotions I’m feeling borderline as venting and the idea of venting to anyone (at least at this point in time) makes me feel actually sick sometimes

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

does anyone else have this issue where you belong to a group, you know you do, but whenever other people of that group talk about shared experiences across that group, you suddenly have the horrible and unmistakeable feeling that you are some kind of fraud? that you hear things that should promote camaraderie, but actually leave feeling less assured of your place when everyone else looks bolstered? that you need to be alone a long while to remember you belong, and feel confident enough to rejoin the group, only to sit there feeling like a hollow wax figurine, shifted and placed to sit just slightly out of line, just a little too close to the fire?

[charlataninred]

Sometimes I worry my sister is getting a bit too close to some terf rhetoric

[mrsblackruby]

Maybe I’m wrong but from The looks of it the sonic fanbase just didn’t like Amy making the moves. And half of y’all would still hate Amy’s guts if she was overtly fawning over sonic and if sonic ended up actually having a more positive reaction to her crush Instead. from what I’m seeing which might be wrong y’all just wanted Sonic to be more domineering and Amy to be more subservient and watered down. I don’t hate Amy’s new characterization at all but some of the takes I’ve seen just give off this vibe to me. We can talk about Amy’s flaws sure but Amy being open, truthful, and passionate about sonic being her hero isn’t one of them. Once again I’m open to being wrong but damn like what’s wrong with being a fangirl?

[floral-hex]

woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

[aggressivedaikons]

”your mental health is bad since you’re always on that phone”

Hush

my device is the one lifeline I have

If I’m left alone with my thoughts I will hurt myself

it’s a form of escapism but if if do not possess it I will do something drastic

I am so, so close from having a mental break and my access to the internet is the one way I can prevent it

is it unhealthy? Maybe

but it’s a better coping mechanism than anything else I could do in this shit mental state.

[fireis-catching]

WHY do they always pop up out of nowhere when you start to move on?

[meowthiroth]

the spambots won’t fucking leave me alone moodboard

[galaxicalphoenix]

Tumblr is the best place to scream into the void. it doesn’t hurt quite as much if no one gives a shit because that’s ok. it’s just Tumblr.

[junos-cacophony]

Why the fuck do I exist? Did God create me just to ruin others? I’m the cause of so much problems. If I didn’t fucking exist maybe things WOULD be better. Why the actual fuck did I do this. I’m a terrible fucking person. I wish I could just go to sleep & never wake up. Everything I fucking do ruins others. I ruin everything. Literally. How the fuck did I even get here? How am I still alive? Fear of death? Spite? I’m not sure. But I don’t want to be here anymore. I wish I could jump from the school rooftop & never look back. It’s so tempting. One day, I’ll try. Maybe by then I’ll have fixed all my mistakes.