#I’m insignificant

[silvermoth0]

I’m experiencing the horrors

[yoimiyabow]

I know no one’s going to see this post. I only use tumblr to read fics so I can go to sleep.

Not one of my friends remembered my birthday. Not a single one.

I wfm so I have no work friends. My friends now (from college) they’re my only friends.

My only friends have other friends. That’s normal. I’m fine with that.

But I don’t have other friends. It just hurts to think that my world revolves around them and I’m not even in their orbit.

I have so much love and energy to give but I rarely receive it. It almost feels like I’m desperate for like any sense of companionship. No matter how much they disappoint me I always welcome them with open arms.

Before, I use talk to my mom on the phone while I work. She died last year.

It’s fine to be alone. But I’m not just alone, I don’t exist.

I just want to disappear cause it seems that I’m already invisible.

[sunnibits]

okay wait wait wait hold the fuck up. I may very well be reading into this too much but like. this picture is from the very end of ep8 right,, ARE THEY FUCKING WEARING IZZY’S GLOVE?????? or at least mimicking it???? um????

[jellyjamheadobb]

[ravenbronze]

Christmas in the Undercroft

Trying something a bit different! And thought I’d get festive with it since it’s December 🎄

[wynandcore]

Okay I wanna show my favorite piece of Uprising concept art, it’s been in the back of my mind ever since I saw it

Look at that.

[caterpillarinacave]

I’m just gonna leave this here.

[spacemancharisma]

[stripedstarsblueflags]

let me be clear: this blog is NOT a safe space for lando haters. i’m sorry if that rubs you the wrong way, you’re free to block/unfollow.

“he bottles his starts” “he’s not as good as max” “he’s only good cause he’s got a rocketship of a car” “piastri has more potential” “he throws away opportunities” “he should’ve won and he fucked himself over” YOU DON’T THINK HE KNOWS THAT? even with all the PR training he has no poker face in interviews. he has moments, more and more frequently, where he radiates self-hatred. he isn’t out here protesting all the criticism, he’s taking it personally– way too personally– and people keep heaping it on harder and harder as if that makes a difference??

jesus christ people are coming after him like he’s making mistakes on purpose to spite them. i get it if you don’t like the fans– i don’t like them either. i’m talking about the hordes of mainly girls, often underage, who treat him like the next harry styles and drop really creepy/inappropriate comments in his posts and overall contribute to the “overhype” image. but then your beef is with the fans.

scraping the bottom of the barrel for every single excuse to put him down, to deny his performances, to nullify any single good result he comes up with is not going to change the numbers. he’s second in the championship. he’s won two races. he’s one of three drivers out of twenty he’s won more than one race, and lewis’s second win was after the disqualification and max is max. “he got a free pit stop in miami” “he just has a better car than max” okay, take it up with the FIA if you’re so upset.

i don’t really share my opinions on socials. i mostly just share other people’s memes and drop charlos-themed comments on instagram, and i’m new to tumblr but i try to stay in my own stupid little rpf lane. but now i just need to vent. if that makes you mad then like don’t read this far i guess??

my voice doesn’t matter. like, at all. i don’t have the full picture and i never will, and i physically can’t have any more of an objective opinion than anybody else who’s experiencing this all from the other side of a television screen. but i don’t like bullies. i personally don’t like it when people take it upon themselves to find the chinks in someone’s armor and sharpen their teeth. confidence, self-assurance, faith, the ability to silence everyone else’s voice is just as vital to an athlete as their strength and endurance. max verstappen has shown the power in mental/emotional invulnerability. lando doesn’t have that, and if anything it’s getting worse.

f1 isn’t structured to be fair. it is what it is. if you don’t like who’s winning, watch a different sport.

[gravity-knight]

I’ve been wishing for Big to finally find someone to love him back. My man has been the neglected side of too many love triangles

I hope that this show doesn’t disappoint

[idontmindifuforgetme]

So true what you said about letting people go. I got dropped by a friend group when I was in a depressive episode and then emberassed myself by going to each and every one of those people to try and 'talk things out' when one of them literally told me 'I honestly just forgot you existed'. Relationships are a two way street, don't let abandonment issues get in the way of letting them go when they turn into a one way

omg anon I am SO sorry….. that’s such a fucked up thing for someone to say

[empyrangel]

I can’t find my post from a few years back about the crk fandom’s reaction to Affogato, but anyway, Peach Blossom just released and I’m here to make my Why Can’t the Cis CRK Fans be Normal About Gender Nonconforming Characters Part 2 post.

Seriously, what the fuck? I don’t think the reaction is as bad as with Affogato, but maybe it just looks that way to me because I’m not nearly as active in the fandom as I used to be.

Of course people are sexualizing him, disappointing but not surprising. Before he released, everyone seemed very insistent that he was evil/would pretend to be helpful but later be revealed to be working for Mystic Flour (which is funny in hindsight considering he turned out to be literally just some guy with 2 minutes of screentime). But their justification for why he was so obviously going to be evil was his feminine appearance, which like way to reveal your biases I guess.

I straight up saw one person say they knew he was going to be a trickster type character because of his “deceptive appearance.” What an absolutely unhinged thing to say. Please tell me y’all don’t say shit like this to real people. Imagine seeing a gnc person and going “you don’t look like what I think a person of your gender should look like, therefore you’re manipulative and a liar.”

There’s been a lot of trap jokes as well. Most of them seem to be ironic/self-aware so the people doing them don’t think there’s any harm. But it really doesn’t matter if you’re genuine or not, it still perpetuates a harmful mindset if the joke is the mere existence of gnc people, especially gnc men, being inherently deceptive/outrageous/confusing.

Edit: found the post

[coffinwoodx]

i love the disco fandom on twitter whenever someone posts a new piece of DE art it’s like. “everybody in here rn huh” everyone in the fandom just swarms to it like flies 😭

[lesbianboyfriends]

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[ayoarticulate]

also, carmy isn’t even sitting down when he text syd and reads mikey’s note. bro is just crouching down outside of the building

[khrysalisposting]

gonna try to rationalize a timeline rq

so p101’s battle of trafalgar was against the armada.

irl battle of trafalgar was in 1805.

valencians and monquistans in novus basically state the armada is a thing of the past, so we can assume that marleybone as a world is specifically within the 1810s time period.

HISTORICALLY, rococo fashion came into popularity in the 1730s and died in the 1770s (and probably even before the 1770s in Britain). it is also originally from france (so polaris).

rococo is very pastel and has all the gold accessories/frills/etc purely for the glitz and glam of it all. ESPECIALLY venetian rococo.

venetian -> venice -> italy -> valencia.

who is the ONE PERSON in novus who wears pastels w/ gold accessories and white frills and all that.

so not only is rottingham an imperialistic dick, he’s wearing polarian/valencian (his enemies) clothing, and he’s OUT OF FASHION. BY AT LEAST 30 YEARS. pick a fucking STRUGGLE