#I’m breaking

[idk-maybe-i-did-it]

This is for the survivors

TW: PTSD, sexual assault and trauma

nobody talks about the rougher side of PTSD.

like how your trauma could be ‘not as bad as someone elses’ even though everyone’s trauma is different and nobody needs to compare because it’s unhealthy even though a lot of survivors do anyways (me) and that’s not the rougher side im talking about

im talking about how maybe it wasn’t as bad and maybe ‘nothing actually happened’ because its ’not as bad’, im talking about how that’s what we tell ourselves and that’s why we pretend we don’t feel any symptoms and that’s why we mask

im talking about how, yeah no penetration actually happened, but the physical memories still exist all over my body. im talking about how even though ‘nothing actually happened’ and i dont get nightmares about the actual event, i get the physical memories.

I am talking about how nobody talks about the fact that when assholes are invalidating us, they fail to notice that even though ‘nothing actually happened’ we can still feel EVERYTHING, we can still remember EVERYTHING THROUGH OUR BODIES, we might forget in our brains but the PHYSICAL PAIN AND THE PHYSICAL TOUCH IS STILL LIKE A WHISPER ON MY SKIN

I am talking about the rougher side of PTSD where it’s the most invisible side ever that you can’t explain, where even though ‘nothing actually happened’ it doesn’t stop my mind from imagining everything actually happening with random ass people in my life.

nobody talks about the terror, the absolute Terror that grips your heart when you can feel the memories on your skin. Nobody talks about the terror when you think about some random person on the street taking advantage, nobody talks about the unhinged thoughts of Something happening again with Anyone you See.

nobody talks about the pain.

this post is for the people who invalidate themselves and say ‘nothing actually happened’, ‘I don’t get nightmares’, and ‘it’s not that important’ because I want you to know that I fucking see you. I can see through all the lies and all the faking it.

You are hurting.

It is okay.

Please do not downplay your symptoms, maybe not everyone can understand but there will always be someone who wants to help.

please just tell that little person inside you that it is okay to acknowledge how you are feeling. please tell them it is okay.

[trickortreatmeout]

I’m so so so so tired. Please. Idk how long I can be under pressure and not break. I want to fall apart. I want to not be

[color-ns]

Sometimes tweeter people know their stuff- this is the right kind of toxic angst I want to read.

[hotvampireadjacent]

https://x.com/treborrhurbarb/status/1819855330232480252?s=46&t=kvJFP3BjKnMEl5NO2bJUMA

[mangozic]

my dead goth son and his friendly neighborhood personified concept of insanity

[alexandria-alexis]

I’m about to cry

MEXICO MEXICO

22 24

their happy place. ♡

[rinneycanon]

WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKK 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[girlnephew]

[spacerockband]

Quetzalcoatlus! poised to spear her prey!

[lotus-pear]

11/20

[chloesimaginationthings]

FNAF Monty and TADC Gummigoo are so alike!

[adaki]

Do you draw Nina the killer perchance..

Yes and I end up disliking the drawings every time without fail but I thugged it out to give u this

[the-phantom-peach]

horrible art burnout so it’s 4 am and I’m scribbling Mouthwashing <3

they make my brain tired

[mercuryflan]

“Checkmate dance”

Just them walking around after one of their adventures.

[whalesharkstho]

thinkin bout how jazz was taller than orion at the beginning of the movie lol

[mangozic]

the wettest of cats