#I’m also realizing I have no idea how I’m going to upload this video to Canvas omfg 😭😭

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The first half of this video will be SO good. The second? Um 😅

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Double Down ⨳ Yoshida, Denji

“Didn’t know you were into that stuff.”

warnings: fem body/pronouns, nudes posted without permission, drug use, exhibition, creampie, videos taken with permission, stepcest, infidelity, masturbation, handjob, some spit mentions, premature ejac, implied fuckery, implied theft, if there's more i am just too wacked out to see it so lemme know!

event: @bastardblvd 's slimeball alley collab !! my first submission of who knows how many to come, im gonna try to not go crazy with it, promise

notes: didn't realize until it was done that I could've made it much more slimy but its okay. We'll get 'em next time babes 😩 this idea is expanding on a little blurb I put in cassie's inbox once, i included it in the fic itself with some itty bitty changes

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Your fist slams on the bathroom door. “I swear to god, Denji! Where the fuck did you get those! Delete them now!”

“I already told you, Power found them online!” Your stepbrother yells back through the door, keeping his weight against the handle so that you can’t force your way in.

“You’re full of shit you fucking perv! You took them off my phone or something.”

“Wanna fucking bet? The real perv is that prettyboy bastard you call baby,” Denji sneers back, yelping as you get a good shove in on the creaking wood.

Your efforts to break the bathroom door pause. “The hell’re you talking about?”

“I told you he was trouble the day you two met. What—you think I was lying?”

You growl under your breath at the barenecked taunt in Denji’s voice. Yeah he told you, one time before he got high out of his mind. The only reason you even met Yoshida Hirofumi was because he hooked your stepbrother up a couple times, and you begged to tag along once. That situation ended with your brother counting stars on his buddy’s ceiling while you saw them on the backs of your eyelids with the guy’s lips wrapped around your clit. 

One thing led to another, and that “prettyboy bastard” became your boyfriend. He’s a bit of an ass, but Yoshida’s also sweet and funny, doesn’t roll his eyes at your music choices, doesn’t bat an eye when you want to go out with your friends, and is full of sexy, smirky sass that makes him so fun to be around. Sure, you sent him some photos, but he wouldn’t have put them out anywhere.

Your anger deflates, but your indignance does not. You step away from the bathroom door. “He’s got nothing to do with this.”

Denji throws the door open with a toothy grin, repeating himself. “You wanna bet?”

“You know what, yeah!” you snap at him, crossing your arms as he leans in the doorway, still looking smug. 

“Your boyfriend put your pics up on OnlyFans, and he’s using the money to pay for his xanny. If I’m right, you two gotta upload a video. Together,” Denji states, his eyebrows furrowed in twisted delight that makes you sneer at him.

“You’re disgusting!”

“Yeah? Tell me what you get if you win.”

Caught up in his childish bullshit, you push at his shoulder. “You gotta start an OnlyFans if you’re wrong, which you are. And you gotta wear lingerie.”

His smirk full drops at that, and he glares at you, cheeks darkerning. “Now who’s a perv.”

“This whole shit was your idea!”

“Lingerie?”

“How is wearing lingerie worse than telling your stepsister to fuck and post a video about it?!”

“Shut up!”

“And since we’re on the topic, I swear to god if you don’t stop taking my shit out of the laundry I’m gonna tell that redheaded lady at the DMV that she’s at the very top of your fap list.”

His blush deepens and he palms your face backwards in a light push. “The fuck she is. Shut up.”

“Yeah well, me and the thin fucking walls in this apartment would have to disagree.”

“Go find your boyfriend.”

“‘M gonna.”

“Fuck you.”

“Fuck you.”

“Fuck him,” you hiss in barely supressed rage, gripping your boyfriend’s phone so tight you’re disappointed when it doesn’t crack. 

You’d waited for his high to hit him and let him drift off before going through his phone—what’s the point of asking him outright if it’s not true, right? No reason to stir the pot. But your stomach had dropped with unease when the account site was in his search history; you tried to brush it off as maybe he gets off to a set of camgirls, but the moment you saw the login info presaved—as in frequent entry—you began to forget the bet altogether.

Now your jaw is clenched, seething as you scroll through every racy picture you ever sent him. Each have thousands of views, hundreds of comments and jeez—so many subscribers. The heat of betrayal simmers through you. Your jaw drops at the total that’s set to drop into his account at the end of the week and resist the urge to slap Yoshida awake, but instead you set about trying to change the banking and login info, only to get halted by an infowall. Frustrated, you slip off the bed and call your stepbrother, edging into Yoshida’s bathroom so you don’t wake him up.

“You were right, and you fucking knew it, didn’t you? You set me up.” you hiss into the device as soon as he picks up with a mumbled ‘sup. You can hear voices and music in the background, paired with light explosions. You assume he’s out with his friends, probably gaming like usual. 

“You didn’t have to agree. Wait—” there’s the sound of the phone moving around and suddenly the music is gone. “Does that mean you’re gonna do it?”

“That’s besides the point, Denji!”

“Oh fuck, you are!”

“Chill your boner,” you snap, “‘m not gonna do it unless you help me!”

“Help you? What, like you want me to hold the camera or something?”

“Denji, I swear to god—”

“I’m kidding, jeez.”

“I can’t change the account info. They’re my pictures, and they’re already out there! He shouldn’t get to make money off of me.”

“Wait, so you want to keep the account?” He asks curiously. You hear a door slamming and wonder if he’s still moving, or if his friends are.

“Dude, we’ll have rent and anything else covered for the whole month with a single week’s drop from this thing. I don’t see a reason not to. I can quit Mcdonald’s!”

“Shit, for real? Lemme talk to Denki, ‘m pretty sure he knows a guy.”

“Thank you,” you coo into the phone.

“Yeah, yeah, just make sure you pay up.” You can hear his pervy smile, and you grumble a sulky fine at him.

“Ok. But he’s gotta do it soon. It pays out in a couple of days.”

“I’ll give him some cash to see if he can do it tonight. Don’t see why he’d say no—" Denji sounds a lot further away from the phone now, "—Oi! Don't bro! Give it back."

A familiar voice purrs into the receiver and you roll your eyes. "Heyyy, princess. You with that Yoshida guy still or are we allowed to hang now?"

"Byeee, Kiri. Tell Kat hi f'me." You hang up with a smile and leave the bathroom, glaring at your supposed boyfriend still sleeping. You never heard him say he was working and you always kinda wondered where he was getting his cash, but you always just thought he was dealing or something. Not the kind of think you ask about. You obviously should’ve asked.

You crawl into his lap and begin sucking on his exposed throat, admiring the sharp lines, the bob of his adam’s apple as thick lashes flutter open. 

“Mmm,” Yoshida moans. “Damn, was I out long?”

“Nah,” you hum, slipping your fingers up his shirt, smoothing over his waistline. “Got bored without you, that’s all.”

“Yeah, baby?” He grins up at you, dark eyes fuzzed out and sultry, and his hands come up to settle on your hips, easing you into a slow grind. “Wanna do something?”

“Mm. Maybe,” you tease softly, pushing his shirt up his chest and leaning down to wrap your lips around his nipples. He groans at the warm, slick suction, arching into your touch. 

“Fuck, baby,” he breathes out, his cock swelling beneath you. 

“Maybe I wanna do something…different.”

Yoshida grins up at you, half-lidded. “Yeah? Like what?”

Your nails make pink lines down his chest as you lean in to whisper in his ear. “What if you fucked me, and we let some people watch?”

His fingers dig into the fat of your waist, his dick thumping beneath you. “Anyone I know?”

Yoshida’s pupils have overtaken his coal irises, and you give him an inviting smile. “No one specific. I was thinking more like…a video or something. I wanna be able to see it later.”

“Holy fuck, baby. That’s sexy,” Yoshida grins up at you. “Didn’t know you were into that stuff.”

“Me either,” you breath softly, rocking yourself over his covered erection.

You’re left to yelp as he displaces you from your seat on his lap and pulls you out of the bed by your wrist with a wide smirk. “Come on.”

“Wait, where are we going?”

“Don’t worry baby, I just wanna pick something up at the Malmart first.”

“Fine, I guess,” you pout at him and his smirk only grows.

“‘S okay, baby. I’ll give you something too.”

“This is not what I meant when I said video, Hirofumi!” you gasp out. Your fingers are splayed out on the hood of his car as you try to stay upright. “Someone could actually see us!”

"If you don't wanna be seen, you gotta cum. Cause I'm not stopping til you cum."

"Fuck, fuck please, just hurry up!" You plead, half your words caught between whines and whimpers as he pounds into you from behind, your skirt flipped over your back.

"You think I'm not fucking you like I mean it?" There's so much smile in his voice that you want to call him on his bullshit for once, but the solid smacking of his hips into yours, the head of his dick pressing as deep as it can go with every thrust quickly makes you forget what you're snapping at him for.

"Just‐just, fucking make cum– ‘fumi!" You're desperately telling yourself you don't want to be seen. It's the middle of the night, so even here, parked under the one of the many lightposts that don’t work in grimetown's 24-hour walmart parking lot, the risk of anyone seeing is slim.

But not zero. Especially with the light from his phone camera shining down on your exposed lower half. You’re like a slutty beacon for whoever might be looking this way.

"I'm working on it baby, you gotta relax." His fingers slide around your waist, brushing past your clit and forcing a frustrated whimper past your lips at the neglect, to drag them through the slick dripping obscenely from your pussy lips. It's dripping to the rusted black hood, making it glisten. He aims the camera down at them before moving it back to the way your pussy clings to his cock. "You're so fucking wet for this, you'd think the whole thing was your idea. Well, most of it was."

You don't answer him, trying to work yourself back on him, chasing that fluttering heat twisting itself tighter and tigher with each passing second.

"Good girl, look at you. Fuck, look how bad you want—"

"Oi! Get the fuck out of here before I—"

Your whole body locks up at the tired but authoritative voice that rings across the lot.

Your boyfriend calls back. "C'mon man, have a heart. Let me finish her off and I'll give you a look." Except his last syllable staggers off with a groan, broken with a laugh as his grip on your hips tightens to a bruising pressure. The vice grip of your cunt has him looking down to sees your juices gush around the girth of his cock, dripping down your thighs to dirty the hood of his car even more. The sight pushes pushes him over and he calls out again, his voice tight but smug.

"Nevermind, we're done here."

He gets one last shot of his cum dripping out of you before closing out the livefeed.

“It’s like four in the morning,” Denji grumbles, rubbing one of his eyes as he cracks his bedroom open further at the sight of you. “Thought you were Power or somethin’, jeez.”

Denji blinks the blur from his eyes, zeroing in on your screen, and you just about hear his pupils expanding. He pulls a shaky inhale and you roll your eyes.

“Done. Bet over, and here’s your damn proof,” you grumble right back, slamming your phone against his chest and shoving your way into his bedroom to flop down into his bed. It had taken over an hour to convince Yoshida back to his place and get him to fool around enough for him to pass out and you to sneak back home.

"Also Kiri wants you to call him back. He's mad you hung up on him."

A small grin curls your lips but you don't respond, wiggling deeper into his mattress until you're comfortable.

He throws himself down in the bed next to you. “Turn on my speakers.” 

“Or you could just wear headphones, you freak.”

“Nah. Turn ‘em on.”

With an exaggerated sigh, you stretch out to reach up to his desk, turning on the bluetooth speakers that he usually uses to be a nuisance when he’s smoking. “If your dad was home, I’d kill you for this.”

“You’re not even breaking up with him, are you?” Denji chortles, ignoring your bickering. His eyes are glued to the screen as he shoves a hand into his loosened shorts. “What the fuck, you guys were outside?”

You shrug. The video’s only been up for a couple hours and it already has triple the views and donations of all the photos Yoshida has put up so far. “Looks like he’s gonna be making me lots of money, so why not? It’s the least he could do to pay me back.”

Your stepbrother doesn’t answer you, his breathing getting heavier. You close your eyes and sigh as the sounds wet sounds and your own whiny moaning starts bouncing off the walls of his room, wondering to yourself if you really sound like that or if part of you was exaggerating because of the camera. The mattress creaks every now and then as his hips jump, his arm brushing your side as he grinds into his own fist. 

You roll to face him, taking in the sound of his stuttered breaths, the muted slick sound of his fist pumping in his shorts. “So what about this gets you so riled up?”

Denji groans, stomach rippling where his shirt is pulled up around his midsection. “I’nno, it’s hot, isn’t it?”

You keep prodding, “What is? Yoshida? Or me?”

He gives a small whine that has your pulse picking up in sick interest, so you continue. “Was Power really the one to find it? Or…you were subbed to the account, weren’t you Denji?”

“Mm- maybe?”

“Shit,” you whisper to yourself, listening to your own voice begging to cum, shifting your weight onto your arm so you can look at him. A strange curiosity has taken over your body. He looks wrecked but his eyes are still on the screen. “Denji, look at me.”

Your body tingles as his eyes tear towards you, but he’s still got a hand around himself, hidden from your eyes. “Can I touch it?”

“You wanna what?” he moans, just barely, teeth digging into his lip.

“Can I jerk you off?”

You’re a little surprised when he actually hesitates. You’ve tolerated it all this time; as much as he pervs out on you, and your stuff, yet somehow he’s got a little crumb of morality left in there somewhere. And right now…you wanna kill it.

“My panties, my pictures…is this really any different?” you ask softly, sweetly, as you run with this electric current, placing your hand over his covered groin. You grin as his hand immediately goes slack at your touch and slips out of his shorts, and you get to feel for the first time how hard he is, rubbing over the smooth fabric, feeling out the shape of him.

“I mean…I guess not.” He sucks in a breath as you grip him over his shorts and give a couple experimental strokes. “B-but what about—?”

Denji’s head drops back to the pillows with a groan, phone in a death grip as you tug his waistband down, his dick slapping free. It’s pretty and slender, flushed deep red.

“What about what?”

“What about prettyboy, huh?” He finally gets it out as you spit in your hand and take him up again, stroking him steadily from base to tip, squeezing at the top with a gentle twist of your wrist. Yoshida always seemed to like it, seems like he does too. 

“That’s what you’re worried about? Not the whole stepsister thing?” You shrug. You’re still stung about Yoshida’s betrayal, so this feels like a little bit of retribution. A little bit. You still need to find more ways to make him pay first, but this is a good start. “Yeah, he’s my boyfriend, but ‘s not like you and me are dating, Denji. It’s a handjob. What’re you gonna do, marry me?”

Denji splutters and his dick throbs in your hand. “Don- Don’t say stupid shit!”

You coo at him and his lips part, panting hard as you work him faster. 

“What– haa, what if it wasn’t just a handjob? What then?” Denji gives a low moan as you settle over his lower thighs so you can gently cup his balls. They seem to tighten under your touch, before he relaxes and he tries to look at you. 

“What, like my mouth or something?” you ask playfully, leaning over and showing him your tongue, letting a strand of spit drip down to his dick.

A litany of curses tumblr from his mouth as Denji squeezes his eyes shut, fingers twisting into the pillow beneath his head as his cock jerks and shoots a load of hot sticky white into your palm, getting smeared down his throbbing shaft as you slowly work him through his high until only a couple dribbles get pressed out by a final pass of your thumb over his slit.

“Wasn’t expecting you to finish already.” You wipe your hand off on his comforter and try to ignore the throbbing in your panties. You feel like you can still imagine the slick from earlier tonight seeping out of you, but it’s as if it’s no longer enough.

“Holy fuck,” he mumbles under his breath, digging the heels of his palms into his eyes as he calms his breathing enough to raise himself up on his forearms. He watches you as you take your phone and flop down next to him. “I didn’t even get to see the rest of the video.”

“It’s online now, freak. You can watch it whenever.”

“Yeah...” 

You’re too busy trying to go through the account settings to notice the way he’s eyeing up your thighs; he hasn’t even put his dick away yet. 

“Hey,” he mutters softly, ignoring your glare when he puts a hand on your thighs and pulls them open. “If you can touch me, does that mean I get to touch you?”

Your pulse jumps and you try to keep your true thoughts hidden as you hide back behind your phone. “I guess that’s fair. If you wanted to.”

You can hear the click of Denji’s throat as he swallows, and you can’t stop the low whimper as his calloused fingers brush your inner thigh, right at the edge of your panties. 

They’re warm as they brush over the seat of your panties, timid but curious as they explore the surface, stroking over the tempting warmth and wet seeping through the thin fabric. A bolt of pleasure bursts and has your gut clenching as he swirls over your clothed clit

“H-hey, wait,” you say suddenly, nerves getting the better of you as you try to make sense of Denji taking control of your body. “It got switch but this isn’t my banking info. Is it yours?” You flip the screen towards him, and his brown eyes squint in the pale blue light.

“Uh, nah, that’s not mine.”

You mewl as he pulls your panties to the side and traces a finger through your folds, delicate, hungry. “Who did you say– mm, h-hacked the account for me?”

“I told you. M’friend Denki, his buddy did it. That purple-haired guy who works at the smoke shop.”

“The one wi—” you suck in a breath as he sinks his index finger into you. “With the tattoos?”

“Yeah him,” Denji mumbles, hardly paying attention to your words. He’s grinding against the bed as he pushes his middle in alongside it, imagining the tight squeeze around his dick instead.

Your groan is part pleasure, part dismay as you realize just who he’s talking about. “Oh fuck me.”

Denji bullies his way between your thighs in an instant.

“N-no, Den– that’s not what I meant!”

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NMTDaily: All Round Great Guy

- Hoo boy, get ready to cringe, folks. This episode, man.

- “So, some people seem to be upset about something that apparently happened at Pedro’s costume party” This opening is interesting in that it could easily set us up to think we’re getting Bea’s side of the story on her argument with Ben. But actually, she’s here to defend Pedro and Hero.

- Right now, Bea and Pedro are a united front. He defended her to Ben last episode; here she is defending Pedro to her audience because, as we see in the video description, he asked her to.

- This is a parallel to the eventuality of Bea having to make videos defending Hero from a situation Pedro’s involved with later. She starts defending them both, but ends up defending Hero FROM Pedro (and Claudio).

- Bea is about to unintentionally make the first big crack in the foundation of the Bea-Pedro friendship in this episode, sadly.

- We find out that Pedro won the race for Student Leader. This does make his asking Bea to make and post this video for him feel a bit like a politician caught in a scandal, trying to cover his ass and avoid damaging his image.

- Pedro, like Ben, cares a lot about what people think of him. He also doesn’t feel like he really is the person he presents as to others. For Pedro, though, it’s about living up to the ideal leader figure people already see him as. For Ben, it’s about trying to impress people because he doesn’t have that ideal popular guy image- he’s kind of still the New Kid who has to prove himself.

- Are double peace signs a bisexual stereotype like finger guns? (Are finger guns even a bi thing or am I misremembering the memes?)

- “You know that he’s actually a really nice guy and he knows his shit.” Love dramatic irony that only becomes dramatic irony upon rewatch!

- Pedro going overboard with praise for Hero while trying to tell us how he DOES NOT have feelings for her is definitely funny. It also says something given how quickly he’s going to turn on a dime about her later. His regard for her here is just words.

- There’s a really good meta by @thebirdscomeback about how women like Hero can never win because if you’re so nice and kind and sweet you must be hiding something, and that is really going to become apparent in future episodes.

- “Everything you may have heard on the vlogs of Benedick was not the truth.” Pedro is acting like he wasn’t IN two of those videos. He didn’t make an effort to clarify things with Ben or ask him not to upload them. He could have.

- Also, Bea has no way of knowing Pedro was in those videos because she doesn’t watch Ben’s channel. So he’s omitting that information to keep her on his side.

- Pedro has taken the note from viewers in the comments on Ben’s videos that “people aren’t property.” But he hasn’t internalized that truth, because he will definitely go on to support the idea that Claudio’s claim to Hero’s body has been violated, when the eventuality happens.

- Meanwhile Ben, who casually uses objectifying language about Pedro stealing Hero from Claudio, will step up and believe and defend Hero. That’s it in a nutshell.

- Claudio and Hero are now officially together! Being sickly sweet together down at the park. And the audience that doesn’t know the plot of the play is happy for them, awww!

- Bea is even happy for them, because she likes that Hero is happy. That’s big for her, and very sweet.

- “Now they’re coupled, and I’m the only one left alone in this mean old world!” Beatrice is being sarcastic here, but Pedro isn’t picking up on that, because he doesn’t want to.

- He’s looking at Bea very fondly. I do feel bad for him, this is brutal.

- “I could be your Prince Charming.” You can actually see him consider and make the decision to take the plunge and say that.

- You can also literally SEE Pedro’s face fall, in real time, as he realizes Beatrice’s answer is to laugh at him. Caleb Wells is excellent at facial expressions in acting.

- Now, for Beatrice, this whole conversation has been a joke. She’s been kidding around about being lonely, he’s been kidding back about finding her someone. I think she genuinely believes at first that Pedro is making a joke. They’ve been so platonic for so long that of course the idea of Pedro being her prince romantically is a joke. So she laughs.

- Pedro chuckles a little, trying to play it off like it was a joke. But he hesitated way too long before laughing, so even without seeing his face, Bea knows she messed up.

- Bea is immediately very uncomfortable, making a ‘yikes’ face and babbling and waving her hands. She feels bad about laughing at Pedro. I also think that she laughs and smiles when she’s nervous, so she keeps doing that here even though she’s making it worse for Pedro by doing so.

- Basically, I maintain that Beatrice didn’t mean to hurt Pedro in this scene. If he had very seriously asked her on a date, she would still have been caught off guard, but would have calmly let him down easy. But because she thought they were joking around, she didn’t know until too late that she was in a delicate situation where not laughing in his face would be preferable.

- To her credit, her first words after this are to offer not to post this online. She doesn’t want to embarrass him further. It’s Pedro who insists she post it, probably in large part just to save face in this moment. (This is confirmed in the comment section, where Bea literally tells someone Pedro ‘wanted this posted to show how fine it is’. Cue the meme: they ask how you are and you say you’re fine but you’re not really fine…)

- “People will laugh about it” = “I’M laughing about it, you definitely didn’t hurt me at all by rejecting me, go ahead and show the world, I’m totally fine I promise”

- I do still read Pedro through the lens that his crush on Bea was real. I do think he was also starting to feel attraction to guys, and feel confused by it, and that makes asking out Bea a good way to distract himself from that. But he was into her, at the same time. He wasn’t deeply in love with her or anything, it wasn’t that serious, but yeah. Pouring your energy into a genuine straight crush to minimize your still-present queer attractions is a huge closeted bi experience. (In the play, how much Pedro is actually interested in Beatrice depends entirely on how the role is performed by the actor, so it’s up for interpretation there and here.)

- “I just can’t take you seriously” is the line where I’m like, okay, you didn’t have to tell him that, Bea. That was a little harsh, but in a way that’s very in character for her.

- Pedro tells us that he apologized to Claudio (even though he didn’t do anything to make Claudio think he was into Hero?) and that it’s all okay between them.

- Pedro and Bea both acknowledge that Claudio has a jealous streak. “But it’s all okay now” or is it???

- I have to wonder whether John is watching the videos at this point. The knowledge he’d get here of how well his plan worked in terms of upsetting Claudio is definitely a big push toward continuing to use Claudio’s jealous streak against him and Pedro. John knows he was right about Claudio’s weak spot now.

- Another thing that lives rent-free in my brain: Benedick is still watching Beatrice’s videos at this point. He would have seen this video. He would have been extremely confused about why it filled him with angst and annoyance to see Pedro ask Bea out. What I’m pitching to you here is Jealous Ben. Who definitely breathed a sigh of relief when Bea shot Pedro down- and was immediately like “wtf, am I happy about this? No. No. I have No Feelings About This At All, Actually.” *punches the air anyway*

- Interesting that after being falsely accused of pursuing his friend’s crush, Pedro then immediately actually does ask out his other friend’s crush. To be fair to Pedro, not even Ben knows for sure yet that Ben likes Bea, so Pedro isn’t knowingly asking out Ben’s crush. But it’s funny that it happened anyway.

- “Pedro’s a great guy, we’re just friends, and there’s no confusion anywhere.” - Bea, doing damage control

- Comment awards: Beatrice the character replying to a commenter that called this “the worst friend-zoning I’ve ever seen”, by going on a rant about how the friend zone doesn’t exist and is an anti-feminist concept. Perfectly in character and true.

- Comment round-up: people praising the excellent acting here; someone noticing that Beatrice is wearing the necklace Hero made her; a WILD amount of Pedro/Beatrice shippers who apparently existed, one of whom coined the ship name #pea; many people just hoping Pedro finds someone, including early Pedrazar shippers and people volunteering themselves as tribute.

- I am so glad this fandom never had any x-reader fics, on that note. No harm to people who like reader-inserts, but it would just feel weird, you know?

- It’s also really interesting to me that there WERE Pedro/Bea shippers, but their interest never coalesced into any significant amount of actual fanworks. Funny how some noncanon rarepairs flourish and others fade once the canon outcome becomes apparent. It’s probably because of their falling-out making fans reevaluate the viability of their relationship, and also just people finding other ships more compelling over time.

- Sad to see the first blow to Bea and Pedro’s friendship. It’s hard to get rejected, AND it’s hard to feel a friend pulling away because you couldn’t reciprocate their feelings for you. I feel bad for both of them.

💖🥭🦩

[bakathief]

I'm a little shy! But I would like to express my amazement and admiration! A while ago I found your Shadow Chase art, I loved it and became a fan, you create very funny stories and your art is beautiful, but that's not the point, I started following you because of that, but then I realized that you have many others projects and You are also very busy with your personal life. My question is how is everything organized and planned to advance a project despite academic/work responsibilities? I've seen that you even have collaborations with others and I keep thinking "this person is great." As a final note, I just want to leave my good wishes and hope you have a nice week. <3

Gosh, so many compliments in one ask, I‘m still a little loss for words. Thank you so much for reading my work and looking into my other projects, collabs and art! I hope you‘ve been enjoying them. ❤️ 

I think there is no denying that I need to organize myself a little bit to make everything work. I think I‘ve always used drawing, especially drawing comics, as a way to breathe and when I started uni I promised myself I would continue drawing somehow. The first semester was hell, but I finished all the way. 💪 And I had the same mindset for working, so when I started this year I was very motivated to draw. Lol I think it also helped that I had several different projects to work on so when I wasn’t in the mood for black and white I would move to something colorful. Comics also offer the possibility to work on different parts. Do I want to work on the story, on the storyboards, on the actual drawings or just editing…? A lot of options. And this is something which I heard on a video on AI but artist and creative people in general don‘t create in other to have more content but to get something out of their head and feel the satisfaction of creating a certain idea and I felt that very much. And then there is the joy of collabs and while there were unfortunately more failed attempts at collabs I’m very glad for those which eventually resulted in great projects. ❤️ I might have to take actual breaks from drawing when I get back to my thesis. I finished all the work but need to write the discussion part and wow, how much I don‘t wanna work on that. 

Currently I use my time on commutes for drawings digitally or making storyboards. In the evening I finish private stuff and when time is left I work on traditional art. Shadow Chase is the only project where I try to have an overview on how many pages I have done and want to finish before the next upload. Other works can usually go up once finished. When I create something for fan projects like zines, bigbangs, etc. I usually just try to finish said project right away. I don‘t like procrastinating (except my thesis I guess) and rather have stuff than can be finished done right away and focus on my other projects again.  Shades of Tourmaline was definitely my biggest collab project yet and with the amount of art planned it took like 3 years to finish because that was something I couldn‘t get done right away. 😂 fortunately clef was very patient with me (and kept me distracted with new collabs, oops). 

The short answer would be I try to draw as much as possible because it is just a lot of fun with the additional bonus of entertaining a few people. ❤️ 

[sadnightforus]

RINGING YOUR LINE  (CTY)

ex-turned-bf!taeyang x gn!reader 

SYNOPSIS: The breakup was almost a year ago, but he still can’t forget you. It’s very much expressed through the song he produces and posted out of impulse, secretly hoping that you’ll listen to it. 

WORD COUNT: 3K.

WARNINGS: hinting that the reader is a cold person (even though they’re not), one cuss word. In the song, the artist uses the she/her pronouns but the reader’s gender is never specified. Not much tbh but it can be a bit emotionally draining. Mentioning Shota as the MVP friend (thx q 💪🏻). 

INSPIRED BY: LESSON (โค้ชลงเล่น) BY YUNGTARR.

A/N: well…. I’m not so proud of writing these short stories instead of working on the ones for my series but my brain is not working. Also I deeply apologize if the translated lyrics are not correct. I use google translate for it. 

reblogs, comments and likes are appreciated!

 In the dimming room of a small studio room, there sits Taeyang, whose headphone is glued to his ears while his eyes cannot tear itself away from a folder that has only one song in there. 

 He is hesitating, rather more anxious than anything combined as he clicks on google, then looks at the opening tab, displaying his YouTube channel with over 360K subscribers on the site of YouTube studio. 

 He knows it’ll be a bad idea, a terrible idea even. His mind screams at him to not do it, but the need of expressing his honest feelings is eating him up. 

 Normally, when his friends ask him how he has been doing, he’ll simply answer with the usual ‘I’m fine.’ but he knows he’s far from being okay. The breakup with you has been hard, even though it was a mutual agreement that you guys are better off not being partners and parted ways on neutral terms that is. Everyday since then, he feels like he doesn’t want to live anymore because he regrets that decision so much. 

 He should’ve stopped you. 

 Just like how he should’ve stopped himself from uploading the new song onto the YouTube channel where you can obviously see that. Heck, he thinks you’d think he’s weird for still being unable to get over you. 

 But too late for that as the new video ‘THEO - Ringin’ Ur Line (Official Audio)’ being posted and he just sighs in defeat, realizing that he makes such a fool of himself with the way he didn’t think of making the video unlisted or even private before it uploads onto the account. 

 And at the same time, you’re mindlessly scrolling through some apps when you see a notification from the channel called ‘THEO’ uploading a new song pops up on the screen. As much as you pretend not to care, you click onto it, ready to get your heartbroken, knowing that he most likely will never mention or even talk about you in his songs. 

 Who would get over someone who makes music and especially a catchy one anyway? 

 But what surprises you is the fact that he makes the song and sings with his own voice in this one, mainly because he’s a music producer. Although his appearance screams very ‘celebrity-like’ due to how good looking he is, he claims that he just wants to lead a normal life with no pressure that comes between his personal life and professional life. He chooses to work behind the spotlight and produces some of the greatest hits for well-known names in the industry. Never once does he put his own personal works out like this. 

 So what changes? 

 You sit up to hear the lyrics and observe the song more carefully. 

และสุดท้ายรักมันคืออะไร baby เธอตอบฉัน

And finally, what is love? Baby, you answer me.

 You scoff at the thought of him having someone new he might be possibly singing about. Clearly, he wouldn’t really sing about you, would he?

บทเรียนสุดท้ายและครั้งที่สองเธอไม่พลาดพลั้ง

The last and second lesson, she didn't fail.

 You wonder what he could possibly refer to. What does he mean with this exactly? Love lesson that gives him the kind of pain that is unforgettable? 

 It’s your cue to go because it’s not even about you. 

 You feel pathetic for ever assuming that it was about you, the person he sang about. You feel foolish and you’re mad at yourself for that. The cold wind doesn’t help much with warming your body either. 

 Somehow, you continue to listen because of the charming lyrics and melodies. 

เธอตั้งใจทำอย่างนั้น

She did that on purpose.

เธอตั้งใจให้ผมเจ็บ

She intended to hurt me.

 You wonder which girl really hurt him and how she managed to do so. Deep down, you wish to have the same effect that whoever did to him in this song. 

 You sigh as you continue listening. 

baby เธอเองก็รู้ว่าใจดวงนี้มันสามารถซ้ำ

baby, you know that this heart can repeat itself.

เธอหยุดได้มั้ย baby ถือว่าผมขอร้อง 

Can you stop, baby? Consider that I'm begging you.

 Taeyang looks at the time on his phone and realizes something, he’ll forever sit alone and let you slip away from his life for good if he didn’t do something tonight. 

 He needs you in his life. He needs your love. He doesn’t want to continue to imagine the way you could only say those ‘i love you's' that his brain could only replay of the way you said it so much in the past that it deeply engraved in his mind like a clockwork. 

 He doesn’t want his heart trembling at the way you look so beautiful in the well kept polaroid of you two in his wallet anymore. He is done with torturing and lying to himself. 

 Grabbing his car keys, he impatiently waits for the engine to start working and looks around for the blind spots to make sure that the parking spot is empty before driving away. 

pretend ว่าตัวผม strong

Pretend that I'm strong

ในสิ่งที่ทุกๆวันขณะในใจผมเจ็บขนาดนั้น 

For something that every day in my heart hurts that much

 He stops at a flower shop, owned by one of his good friends, Shota. Shota has a talent in rearranging flowers, although he wouldn’t need to utter a word for the customers to roll in because he’s adorable. Taeyang remembers that his first flower ever given to you was from Shota’s flower shop and now that he wants to reconcile you both, he figures that he should do that too. 

 He pants, upon the hurried travel to his friend’s store. Shota eyes him blankly, but continues to say nothing, waiting for the other person to speak first. 

“I need a flower that says forever love. Not roses, obviously.” 

“Was that for Y/N?” He questions, although he already knows the answer. 

“How do you know that?” 

“You can pretend that you’re fine and be strong for our sake, although you’re not really. You still think of them.” 

 Was the pain so obvious that even Shota, who normally just doesn’t comment and not caring about things most of the time can see? 

 He really realizes that you’re his better half. 

 And as for you, you find yourself relating to the lyrics he sings in this song. You truly dislike how reflective it is to your state of mind because you’ve been pretending you’re strong and you’re not hurting everyday. 

 Both of yours and his heart are aching for one another, wanting to belong as one again. 

แค่เห็นที่ต้องเจ็บซ้ำ

Just seeing it hurts again.

เป็นเธอไม่มีสายใยแม้ไม่มีเธอเองก็ไม่ต่างกัน

It's you, there's no connection, even without you, it's no different.

 There’s something you can never admit to your friend or anybody else. You’re ashamed to still confess out loud that you’re thinking of your ex boyfriend and that you read both of your text messages with each other.

 You can’t understand it. Why can’t you get him out of your mind if he’s not exactly the most ideal man there is? 

 You sigh, it’s truly unpleasant to be having these late night thoughts where it betrays what you stand for. 

 Similarly to Taeyang, who also does look at the text messages you both shared, but with a different thought. 

 He used to take you for granted, but with you gone, he realizes that he had a gem but he was too blind by his own insecurities. 

 And if there’s no you, then nothing will make sense to him anymore. 

“Hyung, your flower is ready.” Shota places the flower on the table, in front of where Taeyang keeps zoning out. The producer grabs the flower, amazed that the younger florist chooses pink asters, knowing that it represents eternal love, innocence and devotion for a person you deeply care about. He then stands up, slams the 10$ and 20$ on the table and screams out before exiting the shop. 

“I know you’re gonna charge me 25$ but just accept 30$. Keep the change.” 

 Shota just shakes his head, sighing before going back to work. 

I think about everyday, baby we used to talk.

Now you run away.

But baby I'm still walk.

 Driving as fast as he can, he makes it his mission to place his vehicle in a place he knows it all too well. Nighttime has never looked more unexpected and almost scary to him because he can’t predict what is going to happen next. He can only hope that the music he mistakenly and might be posted under the influence of his idiocy conveys what he truly feels about the seperation. 

 Just only a month and 19 more days until it’ll be marked since a year you both break up. But yet in those days before it approaches, you occupy his thoughts every day and night. 

 Frankly, you’re the first and last thing he thinks of every single day. 

 He’s thanking the universe that he didn’t just crash and die right here with the way he’s speeding to you. 

คิดถึงแต่โทรหาไม่ได้

I miss you but can't call.

อยากจะเรียกเธอมาช่วยเชียร์แต่ว่ามันทำไม่ได้

I want to call her to cheer me up but I can't.

 Whenever he’s having a hard time, he wants to call you. But he can’t. 

 Whenever he’s happy, he can’t also call you. 

 And whenever he thinks of you, he can’t do that because you guys are not together anymore. 

 He wants to hear your voice, soothing his worries or cracking some jokes and laughing out so delightfully. 

 This trip to your house might be the last time he’ll get to see you. Or his wants will finally be granted. 

Baby เธอตั้งใจ broke heart

Baby, you accidentally broke my heart.

 You’re supposed to hate him, with the way he sings in this song. This line, a particular line, just like he said, it accidentally breaks your heart into pieces too. 

 You’re gritting your teeth in anger, were you never that important to him? 

 Had he never loved you enough that his heart could possibly break at the thought of you, of this too? 

 Were you the only one feeling this way? 

 You feel really start to resent him. God, what a fucking scumbag. 

 The love has never been reciprocated, so why can’t you let the thought of him completely slip out of your mind? 

ย้ายความเจ็บปวดเข้าไปที่ broke heart 

Move the pain into a broken heart

 It’s only around 10 minutes, if without speeding up, until he’ll be at your door, making a fool of himself, without knowing if you still want him back. He doesn’t know if you’re seeing someone new. Because if you do, that flower in the passenger seat that he is meaning to give it to you will be left to rot, as a proof of his undying love. 

 He doesn’t think that he can ever move past the pain of not having you if the rejection comes through. 

I'm still ทิ้งลงถังมันไม่ได้ baby

I'm still can't throw it in the bin, baby. 

ทำลงไม่ได้ baby

Can't do it, baby. 

Standing in front of the trash bin, you’re facing the most difficult of your life; whether to throw or not to throw every polaroid of you both together. 

 The song keeps playing, you’re holding 6 polaroids of you and him, which are taken on his birthday. There was a whip cream on his nose that he didn’t bother to wipe before taking the photos because he wanted to look cute and have fun, which you let him. It’s one of the fondest memories, out of every celebration you both had done together and you’re about to throw it away. 

 But your hand freezes, gripping onto those small pieces of pictures a bit too tightly. 

 And what happens if you throw it away? Would it only exist in your memories now with no physical evidence? Is that what you’re looking for? 

 And would you be happy to only have events that exist in your heart now? 

 What good would it do if you do anyway? You’d still continue to see the ghost of him everywhere you turn. 

 You can’t throw it away, you really can’t. 

มันตัดใจไม่ได้ baby

I can't get over it, baby. 

 He can’t get over your smile, your voice, your personality, humor or you. 

 He almost feels sorry for himself that he acts like this, let alone letting you know how he feels. 

 It’s what he thinks as his car has come to a stop, safely parking itself in an open space era. He then opens the car door, holding the flower bouquet to his chest before closing it and locking the car door. 

 Something in your mind tells you to stop standing still and keep the polaroids hidden away if you’re not gonna throw it, burn it or even destroy it. 

 So you listen to your guts as you gently tuck your upper lips, anxious and confused on why did you back out on it last minute. 

 You know the answer way too well to that question. But you didn’t want to accept it. 

เพราะผมรักจะตาย baby

Because I love you to death, baby.

“Ding!” 

 Your doorbell rings, startles you out of your trance when you’re so busy putting the polaroids back into a hidden box. 

 You’re confused on who would come to your door this late at night. It’s almost midnight, just only roughly 19 minutes to be exact as you look at the time displayed on the digital clock. 

 A gut feeling tells you that you might need to open the door as it’ll reveal the answer to everything you’ve been hoping for. 

 You’ll regret it if you don’t. 

 Most importantly, you’re hoping it’s him who is behind that door, ringing your doorbell, asking you to be back in his life. But you shake your head at the ridiculousness before you stand up, taking slow steps to get to the door. Your palm grips tightly onto that doorknob, not knowing if you want to do so. 

และสุดท้ายรักมันคืออะไร baby เธอตอบฉัน

And finally, what is love? Baby, you answer me.

 Is the last phrase you hear before your phone dies. You sigh as you twist the doorknob and you’re met with the man you thought you’d never get to meet again. 

 Choi Taeyang standing in front of you. With a bouquet of pink asters in his hands. 

 He wears a white sweater for tonight, a casual look but it makes him look almost breathtaking because he is simply the most beautiful guy you’ve ever known. He looks anxious, not knowing what to say at first as he hands you the asters and you gladly accept it. 

“Did you hear my new song?” 

 The question catches you off guard. Because what game does he want to play now? 

“I do.” You nod, face lack of any expression, opposite to the male in front of you who looks unsure and almost on the verge of tears. You can sense the anxiousness radiating off him but you choose not to ask about it. 

“Well- what do you think about it?” He looks at you, hoping you’d respond to it differently than you do now, because it’ll kill him if you continue to be standoffish like that. 

“It’s nice.” 

“The song… it’s about you.” He confesses, observing the way your eyebrows quirk in confusion and the gleam in your eyes that plead him to almost repeat whatever he just said. 

“Ever since we broke up, it’s never been easy on me. I want to call you so bad but I know you wouldn’t pick up those calls. Every day that I live, the memories of us haunt me so bad, it’s like you intended to hurt me and to make sure that I’ll never get over you. It’s lame that I can’t move on and I’m still in love with you. And now, here, making a fool of myself, asking you to be mine again.” 

 You stare at him, a bit dumbfounded and losing yourself in the moment that all of this happens in real time and it’s not your imagination anymore. You let each of the phrases that escape his lips sink into your mind and process itself into your brain as you can only admire him, no words being exchanged. 

 Taeyang is scared, preparing for your rejection already as you go absolutely silent. He could die right now, if not for the fact that he hasn’t heard the final word that determines whether he’ll continue to live in misery or start a new chapter with absolute happiness. 

“Y/N, please say something. If you’re gonna reject me, please do it fast!” 

“Idiot, I never stopped loving you.” Your face breaks into the biggest grin he has ever seen and every tension and worry just completely escapes from his body. 

 He takes a step forward to hug you, losing himself in your embrace. He misses your love, your warmth. His home, his livelihood all just connects back to you as he feels like the happiest man in the world. 

“Thank god because I thought I’ll live with regret for my entire life.” He mumbles, feeling so content by the physical contact for the first time in months. You try to gently peel yourself off from him, he pouts at you sadly, pleading to be in your embrace for a little longer but before allowing that to continue happening, you scold him. 

“Get off of me! What kind of house owner would I be if I let my guest stand outside for this long.” 

 He smiles, showing off the adorable eye smile that you love so much. 

“Is that your way of inviting me inside?” 

He teases you back, taking off his shoes as he observes you and every corner of your living space, happy to have you back in his life again. 

“Oh shut up before I kick you out.” You give him a stern stare, with your now boyfriend trailing behind you to chill in the living room. He only grins at you teasingly before responding back. 

“Fine.” 

COPYRIGHTED BY SADNIGHTFORUS, 2023

[italiansteebie]

Love On Screen

Episode Two, Episode One, Also on ao3 (preferred format)

Steve started his next live with a giddy smile. 

“Guys. I’ve got a new muse, and he’s given me some positively grand idea’s. I’m literally so excited.” His eyes scanned over the chat, looking for the responses. “Ooo, okay ‘dustybun04’ asks ‘who’s the muse.’” Steve tried to hide his blush but he was unsuccessful according to the chat. “Okay, okay. He’s a twitch streamer, I watched his compilations like, all day yesterday and oh my god,” he gushed, feeling like a downright middle school girl at a sleepover. “His name is Eddie. Corrodededdie to be specific, I’m pretty sure his twitch name is the same thing. Guys. I’ve got a whole ass crush on this guy. I think it’s the chaotic energy. That’s why I keep Robin around, y'know?” And Steve knows that clip is going to be sent to Robin but he can’t even begin to care. 

He said bye to the stream, ending the live right as Robin texted him. 

‘stevo - u, me, collab.’

‘yes, when?’

‘now’

Steve sighed and packed his stuff. He knew how insufferable Robin could be when she got a new idea, and he knew that if he didn’t show up to hers in 15 minutes she’d be royally pissed. So he grabbed his stuff and headed out. Once he got there he knocked on the door with a fond sigh, this Eddie guy really got under his skin. “Get in Dingus, we’ve got much to discuss,” Robin said, shoving the camera in his face. “Are you already filming?” Robin nodded excitedly. She ran over to the couch, flopping down, ever so gracefully, and patted the seat next to her as she set up her camera on the coffee table. 

“We're going to play a game! What’s the last text you sent?”

“Oh so we’re jumping right in?”

“No time for games, Stephano, let's go,” she said, snapping her fingers impatiently. Steve eyed the camera and pulled out his phone, tapping the ‘messages’ app and sighing. “Okay… The last text I sent was… To you. Oh god, Rob. Do I have to read this out loud?” Robin cackled maniacally, “Yes, absolutely, yes.” Steve squinted at her before his mouth dropped open in realization, “Did you plan this?” Robin mimed ‘who me?’ while looking around. Steve sighed, she wasn’t going to let this go. “Okay. So, it was a few days ago and I said, ‘Rob, I think I am going to pass away if I don't find this guy's instagram. Please help.” Steve placed a hand over his face, hopefully hiding his blush. 

“Now show them who it is!”

Steve blanched, “No way!” 

Robin immediately went to grab his phone, eventually wrestling it out of his hand, showing the screen to the camera the screenshot of none other than corrodededdie in all its glory. “Stevie has a crush!” She sang, before smiling at him. “Okay, bye, Steve.” Steve’s jaw dropped once more, “Is that why you invited me over? Rob? I hate you so bad,” He groaned, and Robin just laughed, pushing him to the door. “Okay, I’m gonna go have sex with my girlfriend now, bye Stevvvee!” She sang as she pushed him out, slamming the door behind her. 

Steve faced the now closed door. “Okay then,” he muttered to himself. He knew if he talked about it, it was only a matter of time before Robin caught wind and spread it around like a disease. (It being his totally shameless crush on a chaotic gaming streamer). 

     He contemplated life during his journey back to his parked car, and just as he was about to call the whole thing off, his phone chimed with a notification. ‘Corrodededdie has uploaded a new video’ and it was almost embarrassing the way his breath got caught in his throat. He made the courageous decision to tap the notification while he was still in his car, parked in the parking garage of Robin’s apartment building. 

And he almost shit his pants when he saw the title of the video.

“Compilation of me freaking out over Steve goes to hell.”

That was him. He was Steve goes to hell. Oh my god, Eddie, the Eddie freaked out over him? Oh shit. He was really in for it now.     

—

Eddie was pretty much hyperventilating at this point. 

He knew the ramifications of mentioning someone by name in a title like that, but honestly. That was probably the most interesting part of his whole 12 hour stream. He should know, he lived through it, and then sat through it again to edit it. 

His job wasn’t the most glamorous, okay?

He only hoped Steve took it as a compliment and not that Eddie was a huge creep or something. If something were to happen, and this Steve guy really hated his video, then well. He was in deep shit. 

And that got him panicking. Should he take the video down? Change the title? No way, it’s already been up for like thirty minutes. And taking the video down won’t do anything, because he knows his viewers probably screen recorded at least part of his stream and those clips would be floating around before he knew it. Hell, they were probably already floating around. Oh shit, shit, shit.

And just as his finger hovered over the ‘edit’ option on the video, the almighty notification appeared on his screen. Someone had tagged him in something, this was not uncommon at all, but for some reason, he was inclined to see what this one was. Maybe it was a morbid curiosity? Either way, when he tapped the notification, it almost put him in the ground. 

It was a screen recording from one of ‘Steve goes to hell’s’ lives.

“His name is Eddie. Corrodededdie to be specific, I’m pretty sure his twitch name is the same thing. Guys. I’ve got a whole ass crush on this guy.”

He wasn’t proud to admit that that caused him to squeal like a teenage girl being asked to prom. He was outright giddy at this point and he only hoped his next move wasn’t too presumptuous. 

He found Steve’s instagram relatively quickly, and tapped on the messages option. ‘Hey, Stevie. I saw your live, and by now you’ve probably seen my comp… would u wanna like… meet up? Or something?” And before he could second guess himself and back out, he hit send. He was practically shaking in his boots awaiting the response, and luckily for him, he didn’t have to wait too long because the longest 30 seconds later, Steve had replied, rather enthusiastically. 

‘Omg yeah. Whtever you wanna do i am 100% down.’

‘sorry that was probably intense. I’d love to meet up. <3’

And oh god, he was even cuter over text. Eddie couldn't help the smile that spread across his face. He typed furiously, planning their… date? Oh god, it was a date wasn’t it? And that just made him more nervous. 

—

The date had gone well. Really well. 

They had met up at some hipster restaurant that Steve had suggested and it was actually pretty good in Eddie’s opinion. And they hit it off. It was like an instant connection. You know when you see a friend you haven’t in a while and it just picks up right where you left off? That’s what it was like. 

They instantly became best friends, much to the dismay of Robin and Nancy, who they found out over dinner were their mutual friends, Steve having gone to school with Robin and Eddie having met Nancy when he was first starting out at a streamer convention. It was kind of crazy how small the world is, and how some cosmic force seemed to bring these two together so well. And it was an extra benefit that the pair of them seemed to really piss off their best friends respectively. Both Eddie and Steve found their dislike of the pair together hilarious. 

And so with the date having gone as well as it did, they planned for a collab in the near future. And Eddie was sure it was bound to create an awful lot of chaos that honestly, he was looking forward to.

[slamvan]

Ok I gotta introduce myself at some point. This’ll be kind of long till I can fix this blog up.

Hello! You can call me Chey I’m 27/F/. I’m an artist and a goth, I play a lot of games and I fucking love the gta series. I’ve been into gta v since 2013, lurked on here for 10 years and on and off was waiting for dlc I realized was never coming (I hope they prove me wrong.)

Mental health and school got in the way of me drawing or ever uploading my art but I’m doing better and I decided to finally open up about it. A friend once found a pin up drawing I did in 2017 of Trevor and that memory gave me so much shame I tried to forget about this. But I couldn’t.

I’ve been on Tumblr since 2012 but dipped out of social media because of school and needing a break. I came back way after the porn ban, which is why I’m slow to update because I’ve been behind with all of Tumblr’s changes. Not sure how I’m gonna post nsfw on here. Give me a bit to fix it up here.

I’ve lurked for so long I remember the radiopappa days. Her work really inspired me, and everyone else’s in this fandom. And the fan fiction? My god. I’d love to write some up too.

I dunno, I guess I’m kind of coming on here at an awkward time but. Whatever. Hi guys I’m also hopelessly sucked into this video game as well for 11 years. I have to face my desires and draw. In all my years being on the internet this truly the first time I’ve attempted participating and showing my art in a fandom 👉🏼👈🏼 that’s how much trikey is to me.

Some things about me in regards to the fandom:

-I love trikey and have 11 years worth of ideas stuck in my head

-I guess I’d call myself a bit of a Michael apologist

-They’re switches to me, but as I got older I really gravitate towards Trevor topping Mike lmao

-I wish dlc was made for them individually as well as a North Yankton dlc. Or at least give Franklin some dating options, like in gta4.

-Vice City was the first one I played as a kid

I don’t have any plans on leaving or ever abandoning this, I mean it’s been so long I might as well dive in. I just want to make a steady stream of art. Let’s see where this will go~

Enjoy :D

[luvdzu]

what i'm thinking about this whole thing is what if eun is actually namjoon's informant? also namjoon working out in his new video!!!! do they workout together?

one more round

211015 - - - ♡ eunseo realizes that coming with namjoon to workout was not a good idea, as it leads to either a lot of progress or a lot of teasing, nothing in between

june hc! ๑ since they began dating (early 2021) eunseo has been sending memes and tweets about namjoon from armys online and have complied a list of some questionable, and shocking revelations from armys in twt

a/n: my first request!! hehehehehe i hope you enjoy this, thank you for the idea as well, the photo was when namjoon uploaded his workout photo on weverse, left everyone trembling skdbskdjd also joon is such a major flirt, like heireally pushing all of eunseo's buttons and i'm living for it!!!

“I can’t do this anymore!” Eunseo moans as her legs shake in pain, making the female fall on her feet. Namjoon shook his head and extended his arms in Eunseo’s reach, before scolding her lover who was currently lying on the floor, tired, and catching her breath. 

“You’re overacting, you’ve taken a lot of harder stuff in comparison. Get up and continue.” Eunseo scoffs at his remarks before sulking on the floor, “I can’t get up, my legs won’t work. I’m tired of doing another round, you’re too harsh.” 

Namjoon shakes his head, stifling his laughter before moving towards Eunseo, “This is why you shouldn’t skip leg day. Come grab my hands, let me pull you up.”

Raising her arms, Eunseo let’s Namjoon carry her up with little to no effort, before setting her down on one of the free bench presses letting her lower body rest. Eunseo expected Namjoon to sit her up and continue doing his own sets, instead, Namjoon kneeled in front of her to check on her legs.

With a worried look on his face, Namjoon looks over Eunseo fondly, with a sudden feeling of guilt seeing her struggle. “Are you really in pain? Have I been harsh towards you, love?” 

Eunseo shakes her hands in front of Namjoon in an attempt to remove the doubts in his head, “No! I swear it’s not your fault… Well, your workout is extremely hard in comparison to mine, but it’s understandable. I just don’t want to do another round, I don’t think I’m fit for this level of workout.” 

Namjoon stays silent, drowning in his own thoughts, before nodding them off. Immediately Namjoon stood up and removed his shirt, “How about you just sit there and you watch me workout. Seeing as you probably reach your own quota. I still have one more round, you want to watch me?”

Eunseo smirks at Namjoon’s words, “Love, I didn’t think you’d flirt with me in the gym of all places, but sure, let’s see you show off your skills in front of me, seeing as you’re so much stronger than me.”

Namjoon laughs at your statement, shaking his head in embarrassment, “It’s about time I flirted with you in a gym setting. We've been doing this for about a year now, I think we’re ready for a little bit of flirting.

“Shut up Joon, you can’t be hot, cute, and respectful all at the same time.” This time it was Eunseo who folds her flirty expressions at hold. Looking away at the view up front.

“You’re acting like you haven’t seen me topless, are you really going to be flustered everytime you see me looking like this?” Namjoon laughs in between his sets, as he takes a few glances over Eunseo, clearly looking away from him.

“You look good every time, it’s unfair. I don’t think I’ll ever get used to you looking so pretty in front of me like that, and shirtless? Namjoon I don’t think you know half the stuff your fans say about you.” 

“Oh darling, half of the tweets you send me are enough to convince me. I know what they are saying, and I don’t want to say it outloud, but I definitely enjoy some of the stuff you send me.”

“JOON! You can’t say things like that so casually! Think about my heart! I can only take so much from you” Eunseo groans, hiding her face in her palms, with her grin rising up her cheeks.

“I’m sure you can take a lot more from me. Why not have my whole heart while we’re at it?” Namjoon flirts back, causing Eunseo her own sanity, rushing straight to the locker room of the gym she leaves Namjoon dumbfounded and left in his own amusement.

“I thought your legs were in pain?” Namjoon shouts as he hears the sound of the showers turning on.

“Shut up Joon! I swear I won’t drive you back to the company if you don’t cut out the flirting!”

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[superfishuniversityeagle]

HYPNOVIDEO INC.

(Featured girls are Alexa Collins, Katelyn Ernst, and Ktlordahl)

“Katelyn, are you listening to me?”

Katelyn snapped out of her trance and looked to her friend.

“I’m sorry what did you say?”

“I asked you if you would maybe want to try a modeling gig with me?”

Katelyn was caught off guard. “What kind of gig?”

“Well this one is unique but it pays really well. I just thought you might want to make some extra cash.”

Katelyn knew that she was pretty but she had never thought about modeling before. Her friend Alexa was an influencer on instagram and she did modeling gigs all of the time. The idea of modeling herself actually sounded kind of exciting to her.

“Uh yeah that actually sounds fun. How does it work?”

“Well this gig is a little unorthodox. It’s going to be a hypnosis shoot.”

Katelyn immediately became alarmed, “Wait what?”

“Yeeeah so I got a message in my dm’s the other day asking me if I wanted to do a hypnosis shoot. At first I was like no way but then he told me how much he would pay and I got curious. So I asked him all sorts of questions about hypnosis and he gave me a ton of details. And after I talked to him about it I realized I might want to try. So I asked him if I could bring somebody else with me you know for safety but then I thought it might be fun if we both did it. I asked if you could participate too and he said yes and that you would get paid as well. I haven’t agreed to do it yet because I wanted to ask you first. So, I know it sounds weird but what do you think?”

Katelyn was completely caught off guard. She wanted to make some extra money but hypnosis?

“I don’t know Alexa? Getting hypnotized by a guy for money just sounds a little creepy.”

“Yes I know, but for how much money we would be making it might be worth it.” Alexa pulled out her phone and then showed Katelyn the message with the promised payment on it. As soon as Katelyn saw the number her eyes went wide. “Holy shit Alexa! That’s crazy! Why is he offering so much?”

“Apparently people pay good money for his shoots. His business is doing really well and he works with new models almost every month.”

“I’m sorry, did you say business?”

“Yeah he makes his money by hypnotizing other girls.”

Katelyn thought it couldn’t get any weirder but she was wrong. “So does he like make them take their clothes off and stuff because it all sounds a little shady.”

“That’s what I thought too. But I asked him and he said that he doesn’t do any nudity or anything like that.”

Katelyn was still unsure about the whole thing. “Is the video going to be online?”

“Actually no, that’s the other good part. All of the videos are sold privately. And everyone who purchases a video has to be authorized by the hypnotist guy. He told me that so far he hasn’t had any issues with videos being uploaded illegally or anything like that.”

Under normal circumstances Katelyn would have said no way to Alexa. But it was really hard to turn down the amount of money that was being offered. “Does he have footage of other models that we can watch?”

“Yeah. He sent me a sample shoot. I haven’t watched it yet though.”

Katelyn stared hesitantly at Alexa. “Um ok, let’s watch I guess.”

Alexa opened the link to the video that the hypnotist had sent. The thumbnail showed a gorgeous blonde girl who looked to be in her early twenties. Katelyn stared at Alexa and asked, “What in the hell are we about to watch?”

“I don’t know but we’re about to find out.”

Alexa turned back to the screen and hit play.

The video opened with the young blonde girl in the thumbnail. She was sitting on a couch in what looked to be a pretty plain room. A man’s voice off screen asked, “Could you please introduce yourself?”

“Hi my name is Katie and I’m from Newport Beach.”

“And what do you do Katie?”

“I am an influencer and I also model.”

“Awesome. So Katie what do you think about hypnosis?”

Katie smiled, “I don’t know. I’ve heard of it before but I don’t really know anything about it haha.”

“Are you excited, nervous?”

“I’m a little nervous but excited to try something new.”

“Cool, well that’s a good attitude to have. So you said you have never heard of hypnosis before. So does that mean you’ve never experienced it before?”

“Uh no I don’t think so. This is my first time.”

“Are you sure?”

“Um yeah I think so?”

“Are you really sure?”

Katie looked confused. “I mean I think so?”

“Katie, sleep.”

In an instant Katie’s entire body visibly slumped, almost like she was unplugged. Her eyes rolled all the way back in her head so you could only see the whites of them, and her entire body fell back into the couch.

Katelyn was stunned. She looked at Alexa,“What the hell was that?! She just like passed out!”

Alexa, equally shocked, turned to Katelyn and said, “Yeah, I’m not gonna lie that was freaky.”

“How did he just put her out like that? Is that what we are going to look like?”

“I don’t know, but let’s just keep watching ok?”

Katelyn was starting to doubt this whole thing. “Are you still sure about this?”

“No, but let’s just keep watching.”

“Fine.”

Alexa turned back to the screen and hit play. Katie was still laying on the couch, her body lifeless. The voice off screen continued to speak to Katie.

“Now Katie, the next time I wake you up you are going to find that whenever I say the word hypnosis, you are going to instantly say I am deeply hypnotized. You will not know why you say it, but you will instantly repeat this mantra every time I say hypnosis. And 1, 2, 3 eyes open wide awake.”

Katie woke up like nothing had happened.

“So Katie, how do you feel?”

“I feel really… relaxed, my body feels amazing.”

“Nice. So you like hypnosis then?”

Katie’s face went blank as she said, “I am deeply hypnotized.” She became visibly confused. “Why did I just say that?”

“I don’t know. Maybe it has something to do with hypnosis?”

Katie’s face went blank again as she said, “I am deeply hypnotized.” After saying it again the shock on her face was evident. “Why am I saying that? Are you making me say that?”

“You just keep blurting it out whenever I say hypnosis.”

“I am deeply hypnotized. Ok, this is really weird haha. How are you making me do this?”

“I’m not doing anything. Really try to not say anything after I speak ok?”

“Ok I’ll try.”

“Ok Katie, how do you like hypnosis?”

Katie’s face instantly went blank again as she repeated, “I am deeply hypnotized.” She threw her arms up in frustration, “Why do I keep saying that? It’s feels like I’m being forced to just like blurt it out haha.”

“Sleep.”

Katie’s eyes immediately rolled back into her head as her body melted into the couch.

For the remainder of the video, they watched as the hypnotist made Katie do all sorts of crazy things. He made her go completely blank with her eyes rolled back, he froze her, he posed her, he made her repeat more mantras, he gave her amnesia, he put her back under with a pocket watch, he made her see him as her favorite celebrity, and he even performed a full body catalepsy on her. At the end of the video the hypnotist made sure that Katie remembered everything from the session before awakening her.

“Now Katie I just want to say thank you for shooting with me today, and I hope you had fun.”

“Yes I did thank you so much!”

“Now if you could just look into the camera and say bye please.”

Katie looked at the camera as she waved and said, “Bye.”

“Sleep.”

Katie stopped waving as her eyes rolled back into her head once again and she fell back into the couch. The camera showed Katie entranced and then slowly faded to black.

Katelyn and Alexa stared at the screen in complete wonder. It was unsettling to see someone have that much control over another person. Alexa turned to Katelyn and said, “Wow, that was pretty insane.”

“Yeah. It was like she had no control over what she was doing. And how did he make her do all of that stuff?”

“I don’t know, but it was actually kind of cool.”

Katelyn was still uneasy but she kind of agreed with Alexa. As creepy as it was at least the hypnotist didn’t make her do anything really crazy like take off her clothes. And he even made sure that she remembered everything that happened. Katelyn said, “I am willing to admit that it was pretty cool but I still think we should be careful. I mean we don’t know this guy at all, and we’re going to let him play with our minds like that? I just think we should be cautious.”

“Ok fair enough. How about this, we’ll go to the shoot and we’ll meet the guy and if we decide we don’t want to do it then we’ll just leave ok?”

Katelyn agreed. “Alright that sounds like a good plan.”

Alexa smiled, “Ok, I’ll let him know!”

Two weeks later

Katelyn and Alexa arrived at the shoot location. Before they got out of the car Alexa said, “Alright so let’s just go inside and meet the hypnotist. If we decide we don’t want to do it then we’ll just leave ok?”

Katelyn nodded, “Sounds good.”

Katelyn and Alexa made their way to the entrance of the studio. When they arrived at the door Alexa knocked. The door opened and revealed an average looking man who looked to be in his thirties. He smiled and said, “Hello, you must be Alexa and Katelyn?”

Alexa said, “Yes we are! And you’re Alex right?”

“Yes I am! Come on in.”

Alexa and Katelyn made their way into the studio as the door shut behind them.

Alex said, “Thank you guys so much for making the trip. How was it?”

Alexa said, “Not bad, it was about a 30 min drive.”

“Oh ok great. So can I get you guys anything?”

Both Katelyn and Alexa said they were fine.

Alex said, “So I understand you guys still have some questions about what we are going to be doing today, so let’s just head to the studio and I’ll answer any questions you might have ok?”

Alexa and Katelyn both nodded and then followed Alex.

When they arrived in the studio, Katelyn and Alexa noticed the same couch they had seen in the sample video. Alex made his way to the couch and said, “Please have a seat.”

Katelyn and Alexa sat down as Alex pulled up a chair in front of them.

“So whatever questions you have I will answer. And go ahead and ask me whatever you want.”

Alexa and Katelyn both nodded.

Alexa said, “So all of the details you sent gave us a good idea of what we are getting into but we just wanted to make sure that we will be safe?”

Alex nodded then said, “Of course. So under hypnosis you will be completely safe and there are no dangers to being in a trance. You can’t get stuck in hypnosis or anything like that and you’re mind won’t be changed or altered in any way that will cause you harm.”

Katelyn said, “So you’re message said that hypnosis is not mind control and that we can’t be made to do anything we don’t want to do. Is that really true?”

“Yeah so hypnosis only works if you want it to work. If you really don’t want to be hypnotized then you won’t be. No matter what I say or do I can’t put you in a trance if you’re telling yourself you don’t want to get hypnotized. So the most important thing is that you tell yourself that you want to be hypnotized and that you believe that you can be hypnotized. Now once your under hypnosis however, your mind will reject any suggestions that you don’t want to act on. So if I ask you to punch someone for example, your mind won’t accept my suggestion if you don’t want to punch someone. It’s that simple. So really you are in control but you have to be willing to allow yourself to experience hypnosis in order for it to work.”

Katelyn nodded then said, “So what made you want to do these hypnosis sessions?”

“Well hypnosis has always been fascinating to me since I was young and I’ve been hypnotizing people since I was 13. Then about a year ago I thought that I might be able to make some money if I did shoots. So I decided to see if there was a market for it and it turns out that there is. So for about three months I have been hypnotizing girls on camera and have been making good money. I do it for the money yes, but I do genuinely enjoy hypnotizing people.”

Alexa said, “Have you ever had any horror stories or anything crazy happen?”

Alex laughed then said, “No I haven’t. When I was younger and first starting out it took some time for me to learn how to hypnotize people. But with time I now know how to do it safely.”

Katelyn and Alexa were feeling a lot better about the hypnosis session. Alex seemed like a decent guy and they felt pretty comfortable around him.

“So do you guys have any more questions?”

Alexa said, “Do you mind just giving us a second to discuss.”

“Yeah no problem take your time. I’ll step out while you discuss. Just shout my name when you’re done.”

Alexa said, “Ok sounds good.”

Alex got up and left the room.

Alexa turned to Katelyn and said, “So what do you think?”

“Well I feel a lot better than I did before. He seems like a pretty decent guy. How do you feel about it?”

“Yeah I feel the same. He seems decent enough and it sounds like he knows what he’s doing. So do you want to try it or no?”

“Yeah, you know what I think I want to do it. As long as you do too.”

“Yeah, I want to too. So I’ll let him know that we’ll do it?”

Katelyn nodded then said, “Yeah, let him know.”

Alexa called Alex back into the room. When he walked in he asked, “So what did you decide?”

Alexa said, “We decided that we want to do it!”

“Awesome! So we just need to work out some paperwork real quick and then we’ll go ahead and get started.”

Alexa said, “Sounds good.”

Once all of the paperwork was done, Alexa and Katelyn waited on the couch for Alex to return from his office. When he arrived back into the room he asked, “So are you ready to get started?”

Alexa and Katelyn both nodded.

“Ok, so the first thing I want to do with you guys is what’s called a suggestibility test. This is just to gage how well you respond to suggestion so I can decide what will be the best way to hypnotize you. So go ahead and clasp your hands together out in front of you with your fingers interlocked, and stick your two pointer fingers up.” Alexa and Katelyn did as they were told. “Now spread your pointer fingers apart so there is some space between them.” Alexa and Katelyn spread their fingers apart. “Now I want you to focus all your attention on the space between your fingers, and as you focus on that space I want you to imagine that you have a magnet on each of your pointer fingers. When I say so just feel those magnets automatically began to attract to each other until your fingers touch. Feel those magnets began to pull now.”

The effect was instant. Katelyn and Alexa could feel their fingers pulling towards each other without any effort. As their fingers moved closer and closer Alex kept speaking instructions to them. Then all of a sudden they each felt a sharp tug and the next thing they knew was that they were melting, deeper and deeper.

Katelyn awoke in the same spot she had been in before. She felt very… refreshed and amazing. In fact really amazing. Did she feel this good when she got here? It didn’t matter, all she knew was that she was here to do a hypnosis shoot. She looked to Alex who was seated behind the camera.

“So ladies, can you please introduce yourselves for the camera.”

Katelyn had completely forgotten about her friend Alexa until she spoke, “Hey my name is Alexa.”

Katelyn looked at the camera and said, “Hi my name is Katelyn.”

“And where are you guys from?”

Alexa said, “I’m from Carlsbad, California but now I live in Los Angeles.”

Katelyn said, “I’m from San Clemente, California and I also live in Los Angeles now.”

“Awesome. So what do you guys think of hypnosis?”

Alexa said, “I’m actually pretty excited to try it. It seems really interesting so I’m curious to see what it’s like.”

Katelyn said, “I don’t know. I think it looks pretty cool though.”

“Ok, so have you guys ever experienced hypnosis before?”

Alexa said, “No I have not.”

Katelyn said, “Me neither.”

Alex asked, “Are you sure?”

Katelyn and Alexa both looked confused.

Alexa said, “Uh yeah I’m pretty sure?”

Katelyn said, “Yeah I’m pretty sure too?”

Alex said, “Are you positive?”

Alexa and Katelyn didn’t understand.

Alexa said, “I mean I think so?”

Katelyn said, “I mean I don’t remember a time no?”

“Oh ok, so nothing will happen if I say sleep.”

Alexa and Katelyn’s eyes rolled back into their heads as they sank deeper and deeper.

“1, 2, and 3. Eyes open wide awake.” Katelyn and Alexa awoke once again. They were still on the couch but now they were on opposite sides. They each felt just as incredible as before.

Alex said, “You two were wonderful subjects. Do you remember what happened?”

Alexa and Katelyn looked at each other, as hard as they tried to remember they just couldn’t figure out what Alex was talking about.

Alexa said, “I literally don’t remember anything.”

Katelyn said, “I can’t remember what happened.”

“Watch this. When I snap my fingers you will remember everything that happened.” SNAP.

Instantly, Alexa and Katelyn recalled the session. Alexa remembered how she kept repeating the mantra, “I am deeply hypnotized” whenever Alex would put a pocket watch in front of her face. She also recalled her body being fully spread out in between two chairs as she was completely stiff and rigid. Katelyn recalled doing the same things. She also recalled when Alex froze her and how she could not move until he told her to. She remembered forgetting her name and also being in love with Alex because she saw him as Harry Styles.

Alexa said, “Oh my god. I can’t believe I did all of those things?”

Katelyn said, “I can’t believe we didn’t remember any of it. That’s crazy.”

“So did you guys have fun?”

Alexa said, “Yes! I also feel really good right now too?”

“Oh good I’m glad, hypnosis can do that.”

Katelyn said, “Yeah I feel amazing too. Thank you.”

“No problem. So thank you guys for coming in today. To end our session can you just say goodbye for the camera.”

Alexa and Katelyn turned to the camera.

“Bye.” They both said.

“Sleep.”

Alexa and Katelyn’s eyes rolled back into their heads once more as their bodies collapsed into the couch.

Katelyn awoke yet again. The first thing she noticed was how aroused she felt. God, why did she feel so turned on? Then she remembered where she was. She looked around in a panic. She and Alexa were still on the couch but… then Katelyn saw Alexa. Alexa was in an incredibly sexy black lingerie set. Why is she wearing that? Katelyn thought. Then Katelyn looked down at herself. She was in a very revealing blue bikini. She and Alexa looked at each other in fear.

Katelyn said, “What the hell is going on?”

Alexa said, “I don’t know? We ended the shoot and now we’re wearing these outfits?”

“I think I might be able to help.”

Katelyn and Alexa turned to see Alex still sitting behind the camera.

“What the hell is going on?” Alexa said.

“Oh the shoot is going a little longer than expected.”

Katelyn said, “What does that mean?”

Alex grinned, “Now is the point where things start to get more.. erotic.”

Alexa and Katelyn went to sprint out of the studio, but they were stopped by.. nothing? Katelyn and Alexa couldn’t free themselves from their seats no matter how hard they tried. It was like they were glued to the couch.

“Why can’t we move?” Said Alexa.

“You’re hypnotically glued to the seat. Pretty cool right.”

Alexa and Katelyn continued to try desperately to free themselves.

“You know what Alexa I think it’s time for your alter ego to come out. Alexa bot activate.”

Alexa immediately stopped struggling. She stood up and said, “Alexa bot activated. I am programmed to serve.”

Katelyn looked at her friend in horror.

“What the hell did you do to her?”

“Don’t worry, you’ll join her soon. Alexa bot activate pleasure sequence.”

Alexa said, “Pleasure sequence activated.”

Alexa walked over to Alex and began to remove his pants. Katelyn watched in shock as Alexa took out Alex’s shaft and began to seductively lick the underside of it. Then she took it in her mouth and began sucking.

Katelyn continued to feverishly try to fight her way out of her bondage, but was unable to free herself.

“Stop struggling Katelyn, don’t you want to join your friend?”

Katelyn violently struggled to escape.

“If not I know someone who will, Katelyn bot activate.”

Katelyn’s resistance left her in an instant. She stood up at attention with one thought in mind, to serve.

“Katelyn bot activated, I am programmed to serve.”

The rest of the night was filled with deep hypnotic conditioning and pleasure. At the end of it, Alex made sure that Alexa and Katelyn would tell their friends just how amazing his sessions were. His business was thriving and he couldn’t wait to see the next beauties that would be added to the Hypnovideo Inc. collection.

[3mixs]

Oh, I'm glad you liked my request! I'm looking forward to where you'll go with it. I'm also excited that you've been working on your ghostface!minayeon idea. :) Hope you can beat the writers block soon, (I'm not a writer, but I can imagine how frustrating it is) but until then we'll all be waiting patiently.

Do you mind sharing your hc for camgirl!sana if you have some time? I like hearing your headcanons. Have a good weekend, and take care!

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sorry to get to this late but i just needed to take a mini writing break for a few days and i’m back in the zone! i’m having so much fun with the wife swap request so i really hope you end up enjoying it when i finally post it. and thank you so much for always being so kind and supportive it really does make my day!! 

as for the camgirl!sana au i haven’t thought about it in a while so this is a super loose idea of what i was thinking. if anyone has any suggestions or directions you think would fit this au i’m all ears! 

sana has always known she’s pretty - and not just your every day kind of pretty, i mean the kind of pretty that people can’t look away from. the kind of pretty that everyone in the room is captivated by. most people probably wouldn’t like to be on the receiving end of constant attention but sana thrives in it. she noticed early on that pretty much everyone wants something from her to an extent. whether it’s to be like her or to be with her - all she knows is that she stirs up emotions in people just by seeing her. which is a power not many people possess. she likes power; just knowing she can make anyone do just about anything she says if she presents it in the right way. 

i kind of picture her like maddy perez from euphoria to an extent- not as outspoken or with the ultimate goal of doing nothing and being a trophy wife - but as someone who knows how to get exactly what she wants. over the years she’s learned how to be the best version of herself. she knows exactly what to wear and what features of her body to highlight that bring her the most attention. she knows exactly what to say and how much to give someone while still being a total mystery. she’s perfected the art of allure.

when she was 18 she initially tried to become a fashion model, but her height was never really her strong suit. it was her charm that really drew people in. so she had to pivot career choices and with social media’s constant growth she found her niche. she started off as a typical influencer- posting pictures in trendy places with trendy clothing. she gained followers pretty quickly and after countless dms begging her for dates, nudes, attention, etc; and the opening of onlyfans she realized just how much she could profit off people looking at her.

like you would be shocked just how much people are willing to spend to see her. so she became a camgirl - a very popular one at that. i’m thinking she does general streams, private video calls/private chats, and uploads exclusive content (pictures and videos) she’s basically living her dream: getting paid while also receiving constant praise and attention. 

[miinxpid]

tired of " you copied me " simblr"

Hello, I hope you are well, quite good. Today I am going to talk about a topic... and that is what I have seen in this community and in others... and also through experiences of my life throughout these years and it is about the topic of "copy" I know that many people make houses, sims, gshade, videos on YouTube, cc and many more things! I know that there are more simblrs with more likes or reblogs than others because they have their own unique content, their creativity ... I know that for example we come to fashions such as creating an autumn gshade or sim with an autumnal outfit or anything related to autumn with some colors or with some effects and boom! Let's imagine that a person has many likes and reblogs... then millions and millions of people look at the content of that x person and try to recreate it in the same way... in such a way that it seems that all the accounts are the same as his or hers or its format is the same... it's because he was inspired by that person because he recreated it...

Well, now I'm going to talk about copying... it bothers me sometimes in this community and in others that they start to do it, you have copied my sim, you have copied my house... and like many things... let's see... .for starters...it's very easy to "copy" everything since everyone has the same game! most! of players we have the same cc of x creator! the same presets! all! even if our "content" is different... also if you get to "copy" someone it's because you like something from that x person and you want it to look the same or similar in your game, you like a style, you admire someone or for some reason simply... and I'm talking about the sims as if I'm talking about clothes! Yes, how do you read it? Clothes... there are people who say you have copied my sweatshirt or shoes... and it's like I hesitated... how did you copy? So...if I copied you because Zara or Berskha make millions and millions of units of x clothing for their stores, if people go and start following you, you have copied this...you have copied that...well The same thing happens with the sims if you all get into it, you have copied this style... you have copied this cc... what fun would that have for the community? I don't know... I just... we all have the same game. .the same cc...everything...also...what would happen to the simmers youtubers who all upload challenges, or CAS or CC folder or so...if they complained so much about copying each other then they would not upload the most i have in cas or game, my fav skins details + cc links .... etc...also the creators of cc if we got to it are you doing tattoos too!? you are copying me !? eyes or etc... there would only be one x person making skins or tattoos only 1 person...

I know that copying is making something exact from something that already exists but... I can't stop recognizing that copying also inspires other people to make or recreate their content or that deep down they admire someone... but I know that it also has its bad side....

What I want to tell you with everything is to stop saying that if you have copied me in x thing if we can all access the same content, game or x thing... and stop enjoying people with the style or x thing that they like: )

Also, a friend of mine told me that: Oh, I wouldn't worry if someone accused you of copying something. It seems that the message came from someone who doesn't realize that each idea is a copy of a previous idea.

tell me what you think :3

please,reblog or share to reach more people <3

[struggle-but-its-all-ocean-floor]

Am I the only one who’s not really enjoying chapter 2 so far? I feel a tad guilty for saying it but apart from Jimin’s album, none of the solo work we’ve seen so far has really made it for me 😕 Objectivity I found Indigo really good but I realize I never really reach for it. Face has been the only album I’ve listened to loads of times. I like Layover, but I know it won’t be to the point of listening it again and again. I was a bit sad because I was excited for Jungkook’s album but I really don’t like Seven at all. I miss Jin and Hobi’s humour and energy. I guess I’m much more a BTS fan as a group rather than the members separately. Jimin is my bias, I have a soft spot for him, but I would still choose the band as a whole over him as a soloist. I feel a bit bad for saying it.. I hate the way the fandom is right now, all the competitiveness, and oftentimes I catch myself thinking I want this chapter to be over so we can get the band together again. I just want to see them live at least once, as I became a fan at the beginning of 2020 and as I live in Europe I didn’t have the opportunity to see them. I’m also bored about how they tend to focus so heavily on the US market now..of course I understand why, but still, it’s annoying. I don’t know if there’s anyone who feel the same? I just want the solo area to come to an end.. sorry for the rant, I know I’m being selfish but I’m getting bored with this area😫

I understand where you're coming from. I miss BTS like crazy. Nothing tops how much fun they are together and how their love for each other is a balm to the soul. I miss them dropping music and their performances. I miss the excitement of a BTS comeback. It's really not the same with them solo. Nothing is as exciting, everything is rushed, and we have no time to even anticipate or feel excited about new music dropping because it happens too often.

Indigo is a great album but I haven't listened to it much either, V's debut was my least favorite in many ways, I didn't like JITB as a whole, I didn't care about Face either. I like Seven but I've many, many complaints about it, and am feeling very apprehensive about JK's next single and debut album. I would've been happier if I had more performances to look forward to. When BTS have a comeback, they perform their title track so much that we get tired of it. But Hobi and Suga were the only ones who performed more than a handful of times, and doing a tour isn't the same as having performances uploaded to BANGTANTV every week. I miss group performances, Bangtan Bombs, Run BTS, the random promotional videos for Chuseok or whatever, Bon Voyage, Winter and Summer packages, ITS, etc. Photoshoots and variety shows aren't the same, I don't care for them... I miss the excitement of waking up and seeing them all at a certain event or at the airport. Nothing is as fun with only one of the members, and I know they're all looking forward to 2025 as well!

It's insane that it feels like BTS was an hallucination. Before 2021 the idea of the members not being seven was just fucking crazy, but now BTS don't even feel like a group anymore. I can't even imagine them together now. You're definitely not the only one who prefers them as a group. Most Armys do. It's okay to be bored by their solo ventures. It is what it is. It's not selfish. You're allowed to not like the way things turned out. I'm sure you're not blaming BTS and that you understand their current situation.

Also, I've no plans to seem them live. I know it won't happen and I'm more afraid of having the opportunity than not. If they go to Spain, for example, it will be relatively simple for me to see them live so I will feel pressured to buy tickets, but it's so fucking complicated to do so. Plus, there's traveling, the waiting at the venue, and all the stress that goes with it. If I don't get tickets, I'll be sad, and if I do, I'll be nervous that the experience won't live up to my expectations. I honestly prefer it that I've never had to worry about missing a chance to see them live because it's never come up. But I also get your pov haha. I hope you get to see them at least once!

Thanks for the ask!

[robo-mox-motley]

[Video ID: Gorg, a tall blue mech, runs forward brandishing the blunt grip end of his tank gun. He lifts the whole long gun upwards by the barrel before striking down on the top of a tank. The original sound of the tank being hit is replaced with a coconut bonk stock sound. End ID.]

Always Gorgin' time at Mox(ter)'s

Mox(ter) reporting. Firm believer that Pink Lady apples are superior to Honeycrisp. These are some things you might want to know. Or not, your choice ┐⁠(⁠´⁠ー⁠｀⁠)⁠┌

Things that keep me up at night:

The camaraderie of the Autobots in Armada.

This loser

How some versions of Ironfist are supposed to sound Aussie. Try rereading Last Stand of the Wreckers like that.

Tokyo Ska dropping a new song.

Trying to make up transforming figures in my head that don't exist for certain characters and getting annoyed the next morning. Only thing stopping me is lack of access to a resin printer.

I am Mox/Moxter and have been a bot nerd since I was an anklebiter. Mostly gung-ho about other stuff like practical effects, costuming, figures/models, 3D modelling, old tech, lizards, and birding. I do art a little too, but I’m not too fond of the idea of putting it out on here quite yet.

Couple years of Spanish under my belt but also picking up and learning bits of Japanese and Welsh when I can. Considering others like Yoruba and Korean for in the future, but sadly I suck sometimes and can be a slow learner. Someday, I guess. I apologize beforehand if you see my dumb ass getting long-winded about Tailgate (full reason being too long to explain here).

I’m generally invested into anything related to toy design—mostly TakaraTomy, HasTak, and Sunrise bot stuff is my focus though. I am hooked on the design development surrounding Binaltech and Alternators for better or worse.

And wouldn't you know, a bunch of car robots helped me to realize what I should re-prioritize my career track to be. That's the power of my dumb interests at work ( •̀ .̫ •́ )✧.

Got tired of updating which music artists I like at the moment, but I tend to stick to ELO, Tokyo Ska Paradise Orchestra, hip hop, rock, metal, J-punk, ska, funk, and EDM. Q-Tip and A Tribe Called Quest are great too. I don’t mind getting music recs.

Delighted owner to my little shit of a gecko. A lot of what I reblog is aesthetic posts, robotic nonsense, and other things. If you want to go ahead and block some of my tags, I’ve got a list of them linked in my pinned post. I try to put alt text in the majority of images I upload. May need a poke on that though once in a while because I can’t remember everything.

Sometimes there's 18+ content though that's once in a blue moon and it gets tagged. Block the tag if you need to. Also be normal about bi and pan people, or I'm conking you on the head.

Please do not ask me my pronouns. Like sorry, but I don’t know you. Just use my name and no they/them-ing me if we aren't all too familiar. That's all I ask.

Don’t be stupidly obnoxious around here; shit-stirrers get Gorg'd:

Things I like or have watched/read. Not exhaustive. Strong favorites are bolded.

Games

Bomb Rush Cyberfunk

Destiny (Well, it was good up until every update following Witch Queen)

Fallout 1, NV, 4

Guilty Gear ΛC+, Strive

Halo

Lethal League Blaze

Mass Effect

Rhythm Heaven

Subnautica

Titanfall

Comic Stuff

Astro Boy

Atomic Robo

Dai Dark

Dorohedoro

Hellboy/BPRD

IDW Transformers

Kaiju No. 8

Shimanami Tasogare

Shows

Brave series: Might Gaine, J-Decker

Farscape

FMA 2003

Giant Gorg

Lupin the III

Kamen Rider: Ichigo, Gaim, Zero-One

Stargate

Transformers: G1, JG1, BW, JBW, Unicron Trilogy, Prime, RID 2015, Cyberverse, Earthspark

My MAL profile (I forget to update it though)

Blocked and still rooting through here?

I applaud your tenacity, but I don't get it. Have a little cheer in your life and go watch Iron Leaguer or Kamen Rider or Beast Wars or something.

Signing out.

[giggleshit]

Hi hi!!! I participated in the picrew you made (I LOVE IT SO MUCH. VERY GOOD JOB <333) and wanted to ask how long it took you, and what issues came up during the process?

I’ve been wanting to make one for awhile but I’m kinda intimidated. I honestly can’t tell how long of a project it would be (probably very long) and I’m trying to anticipate what the best way to go about it would be

HIIII!!! THANK U SO MUCH FOR UR ASK :3!! i really appreciate it :')

i'm glad you love it !!!! i love it too hehe

i'd be happy to talk about my process! (also i highly recommend making one it was so fun !!! (and frustrating lol) , and i'll be making another soon!)

so the total time between starting and finishing up uploading it was probably around 15? 16? total hours? some of this was because i accidentally made each and every picture the wrong size :') but my project was also a bit simple, so a lot of the time will be typically spent on making the actual art itself (while mine was just figuring out how to upload everything lol), so yours and others will probably take a lot longer tbh ;/ (depending, of course)

the biggest hurdles were figuring out how to upload it all, and also the actual art pieces themselves. but it is SO fun to be able to come up with like 20 different ideas, and because of the nature of picrew i get to use all of them!

i created spammed chitter chattered some of my advice and very basic overview of what the process is like below! but the tl;dr is to look up actual guides and videos from people who know what they're talking about and they can help you with specific steps and issues that come up! and especially if i mentioned something and didn't explain it very well, youtube/video tutorials is really helpful!

my picrew process :3

brainstorming

this is typically the really fun part, especially because you get to use so many ideas! like you don’t have to choose which color the eyes will be because you can make like 10 different options lol. for this stage, just play around with a BUNCH of different stuff, you won’t use it all but playing around with ideas usually creates even more, fun ideas!

some things to think about:

the main idea - like, what you’re making lol (most people make avatars, i made a slime one lol)

what parts will change? like hair, eyes, clothes, (slime texture, mix-tins, labels, etc.)

and for each of these parts, how many or what kind of alternative options will there be? like how many hairstyles will there be?

as well as, what color options will there be? you might want to consider a main color palette to choose from so that it’s easier for each combination to look more unified/match(?) ig? , ah, more consistent too lol

creating

my guide isn’t super comprehensive and i had to look up a bunch of stuff too. start by going through picrew’s guides on creating image makers

this will help you start to understand the very basics on how it works! it will also help prevent you from making 60 different parts and then realizing you were supposed to do/not do something (like me making every single image the wrong size :’) ), and of course, make every layer transparent

one of the most important things to keep in mind is the size of the canvas, pls for the love of GOD, make the canvas size the right one :’) 600x600 pixels is what you’ll want to do, if you make it too big, it won’t show the full image/you can’t zoom in or out when you upload your image. i think there’s another size somewhere you can use that’s not square, but i don’t remember

LAYERS

layers is the most important part of the process, and it can be hard to keep track of them and keep them organized. i usually never label my layers but for this i had labels and folders within folders within folders (LABELED folders). 

using clipping mask is very helpful as well as you can then easily change the color of your layer without worrying about coloring everything in (essentially you create a layer above what you’re working on, set it to clipping mask, and you can fill in the whole layer with a color, but it will only show up in the shape of the previous layer. this helped a lot in the uploading process because i didn’t have to recolor anything in by hand, and it made it super easy to change the color, save the photo, and then move onto the next color (like i had purple hearts, coloring in the clipping mask to blue, now i have blue hearts, save that, repeat the process with a new color)

also, for a part with multiple colors, like my sucker, for instance, that had a base color, the darker strip across the middle, and highlights: create the base as a separate layer so that you can easily control each parts color. i had a clipping mask layer for the base of the sucker, and one for the strip and highlight. that way i can use the base color, and the darker and lighter versions on the strip and highlight layer. 

oh, another good point, it helped to create a basic rainbow palette of colors, and then create a lighter version, and a darker version. good to use for things that have shadows and highlights. this also helps with consistency and keeps things looking more unified and put together

uploading

this was such a pain in the ass i’m not gonna lie, but that’s just because there’s a huge cliff you have to fall off of and then it’s smooth sailing! 

watch this youtube video that will explain everything to you before you get ahead of yourself and think nahhh i’ll just figure it out (i didn’t), can’t be that hard right???? (yes it can)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JwKCVq-yFMw

use the clipping mask layers that i mentioned earlier to make the process of uploading all the different colors easier

also, take your time! i had over 200 images to upload, so staying organized was extremely important

i created duplicates of my main procreate file and got rid of everything except the part i was working on. this felt like essentially clearing off the table before i started changing colors and uploading everything

transferring these to my computer was kind of a pain but it helped that i was able to upload everything onto google drive (making an insane amount of folders), and then download the zip files onto my computer

you’ll be able to upload things in bulk on picrew but that process is also a little confusing and just accept that this will take a few hours regardless

this is also a good time to create your thumbnails! there will be the main title one, one for each part, and one for all the options in each part. see how there’s one that says container (the part), and then the red square (the option for that part), and these are different from the actual image that shows up for the red container. KEEP IN MIND, you don’t actually technically need these, you can just use the actual image, like the red container, but at least for the thumbnails labeling each part it can help clarify which part is which for the user

for the different color options, you choose a color, not an image

it’s a pain in the ass to type in the color codes each time but i wasn’t able to properly figure out how to use the color palette feature without it changing multiple parts at once (maybe you can figure it out and let me know lol)

and just know that it will become an easier process as you go, but you will not survive this without patience lol

ALSO

ik it’s cliche, but PLEASE let yourself have fun with this! i got frustrated at some points, and i overthought things at another time, but don’t let this discourage you! i promise people out there will LOVE it! and you can always go back and edit it! but finishing the project makes it all worth it, and seeing people use it has made me a type of happy i haven’t felt before honestly !! 

and thank u if you read all of this :> i am a chatty person, especially when it comes to writing lmao. idk if this is much of a guide but it is definitely a collect of my experience/advice ig! i’ll probably learn a lot more next time!

[tamaradoubraomonibeke]

RSA (Deconstruction of the brief)

Deconstruction: reduce (something) to its constituent parts in order to reinterpret it.

After re-reading and re-reading the brief I finally sat down and took key-take-aways.

3 words

Skin condition empowerment

5 words

Empowering skin condition teens/youth.

10 words

How can we empower skin condition youth/teens and spread enlightenment?

20 words

How can the confidence of skin conditions youth/teens be improved alongside enlightening others about their daily predicament (getting people to care)?

Target audience

Skin condition youth (16 - 25) olds.

What I discovered

Twitter, Facebook, Instagram and Snapchat have more negative impact on 14-24 year olds in UK (Studies shows). YouTube was the best (Not surprising, no-one was seriously addicted but managed their time and learnt more things rather than getting insecure). YouTube is a video platform and didn't advertise filters which can garner insecurity.

https://www.rsph.org.uk/static/uploaded/d125b27c-0b62-41c5-a2c0155a8887cd01.pdf

Skin care is not about the skin care products but can be affected by your daily life decisions (drinking water, clothes, food, etc). However, people’s skin types are different.

Skin conditions are an unrepresented community. When we speak of marginalization in society, it's tied to these main groups in the following order; gender, race, sexuality. I say main, there’s discussion for disability but this has started due to mental disability. Not because people care, we only care when it affects us or to be trendy.

Perceptions of beauty vary from country. There are a lot of skin-brightening (carrot) products from my home country (Nigeria). The fairer skin, the prettier you are. I’m brown-skinned so I don't receive light or fair skin privilege, neither am I seen as too ‘dark’.

Due to different skin colors, it’s difficult to diagnose certain conditions in the medical field. Ahem, racism

Create accessible & inclusive outcome. This may come as a challenge. Most of my respondents were similar e.g females but understand it’s a result of the university’s magnificent population of women. (I’m very grateful people responded, they could’ve just ignored my email.)

Real life consideration (funding and effectiveness). I’m going all out for this brief. I’ll send another email and gather more individuals to help my idea come to fruition, I mean concept.

Consider the socio-economic backgrounds of the target audience (do not approach it as skin-condition individuals, they have more of an identity (gender, race, sexuality, ethnicity, etc) than that).

Creativity; how's my idea different? It's a plethora of ideas. I wanted to do a social media and portraits of my target audience. From the questionnaire, I realised the respondents want more connection, normalization of skin conditions and representation in art, design, movies, music, etc, etc. Okay let me explain.

Explanation (Why)

It doesn't stop there

I’ve decided to combine a networking platform where;

Skin conditions are discussed in the general community (unfiltered and darker)

Posts can be made to express other things (their skin condition is not their whole identity, this can also humanize them and show others they are just like them inwardly (to reduce any form of marginalization you need to sit with the ‘other’ and realize they shouldn't be the ‘other’).

Instead of filters, a portrait can be made of the individual. With the portraits, not everyone felt confident but I’ll still commence with the idea to be different. Then, I’ll interview them and literally write a story based on them on the platform (depending on how comfortable they are, I’ll change their name.) Hopefully, this will inspire others to tell their stories.

Resources related to skin condition media is shared e.g movies, influencers

I know, it's a lot but I’ll pull it off.

LO1, AO1 (Research)

AO3 (Resarch Autonomy)

[kadan-acm]

Reflection 11

It’s been a crazy few weeks! I missed my weekly update due to the holiday weekend, but I accomplished quite a bit in that time. I decided to omit the Voice module due to time constraints. I chose this module because the concepts within this module can be found in all three of the other modules. The idea behind “Voice” is to encourage students to educate visitors and kamaʻaina alike with aloha (which can be found in the Hawaiian Culture module). This concept in combination with the ways to “tread lightly” and care for our land (which can also be found in the Natural Resources module). Through their class discussions, the concepts of “Voice” are already integrated into the lessons, therefore I felt it might also be seen as repetitive.

Since my last update, I was able to complete the resources, about, and contact pages. I also created a footer. My biggest hurdle these last few days were the adjusting for responsiveness. I didn’t realize that the images weren’t translating to different screen sizes until I tested my website on another computer. While I did account for bugs I didn’t anticipate allocating this much time to it. Another big issue I ran into was when my site had a “fatal error.” Wordpress alerted me of this error and I had to troubleshoot to figure out how to get it up and running again. There were several steps I had to go through to resolve this by changing my site settings and in the end I have to revamp my main Modules page. The table I was using caused the main issue so I had to delete it and find a new layout. Even the footer gave me issues. For some reason the global themes page wasn’t working and I had to create a second footer from scratch.

The other issue I ran into was creating my illustrations. While I did mockups of my website, I didn’t anticipate the fine tuning I would need to do and the multiple revisions I would have to make. Overall, each page took hours of fine tuning, especially the modules. Even now, I’m still testing and tweaking here and there. I probably should have documented more of the issues, but I didn’t think about it until later. Instead, I've attached one of my Illustrator WIP screenshots and a video of the mobile version. There is also a tablet version that I will try to upload later on as well.

Anyway, here’s the link to my website! https://koacademyacm.wpcomstaging.com/