#I wish he was my brother or smth

[sforzesco]

DO NOT BE AFRAID

this is combining Ovid's Heroides and the Excidium Troie because I can't stop thinking of Hermes telling him not to be afraid. what the fuck!! Ares is wearing the crown that Paris gave him.

I have. thoughts. about Paris. he's almost got this Troilos parallel in my mind, that the event that defines him in detail exists in a lost narrative that we don't have (the Cypria), but everyone else knew. the event that defines Troilos is his death (murdered, butchered by Achilles, the violence of which haunts everything after. Achilles, child killer, you can't escape that!), and the event that defines Paris is the Judgement. what's a lost text but a kind of grave!!

idk I don't think that Paris before the Judgement would recognize himself after bc when you become god touched, it rearranges your guts. you become transformed in the worst way possible! how could you recognize yourself! but I also think that all the Parises after the Judgement would recognize each other because that event is so locked into the trauma of war and the scar it leaves on the land, it's like a scar on the narrative too. it exists like this forever, over and over again, so you exist like that forever too. Troy collects grief and despairs.

Troy as trauma: Reflections on intergenerational transmission and the locus of trauma, Andromache Karanika

and Paris is like. a miserable little god/corpse-puppet or something, like a match for the gods to throw onto gasoline.

The Excidium Troie + Ovid's Heroides:

Excidium Troie, trans. Muhammad Syarif Fadhlurrahman

Ovid, Heroides 16 (trans. Harold Isbell)

a collection of things regarding Paris that made me go 😬 but under a cut bc this is getting. very long.

The Divine Twins in Early Greek Poetry, Corolla Torontonensis

Iliad 24 and the Judgement of Paris, C.J. Mackie

Elegy and Epic and the Recognition of Paris: Ovid "Heroides" 16, Elizabeth Forbis Mazurek

Ennian Influence in "Heroides" 16 and 17, Howard Jacobson

Paris/Alexandros in the "Iliad", I. J. F. de Jong

[goldentigerfestival]

I repeat, I am a sucker for soft, gentle Yuri, and the way Yuri goes so soft for Karol because Karol just wants to be believed and is sad makes my heart a little puddle.

[dreamertrilogys]

as a fellow trans grade 12, can i ask where u got ur suit for prom? idk where to get something that will fit and also not be super dysphoric lmao

yeah ofc! i got my suit at moores which i thiiink is canadian so sorry abt that if ur not. but my friend (also trans guy) got his blazer at the thrift store & just bought dress pants elsewhere. my button downs r both from uniqlo (they have good small sizes which is rly helpful for me) but tbh decent button downs aren’t that hard to find (try old navy, h&m, etc). ok wait back to the suit -> i did get a 2pc set (suit jacket + pants) but ngl its also not super difficult to match dress pants (again, old navy has some p decent ones) to a suit. hardest thing to find was def the suit jacket so imo ur best bet is to find any local men’s clothing store n try to find the smallest blazer they have or even look in the boys section tbh. as for the tie i just googled “tie” & found some store at the mall to go to (but first check ur male relatives’ closets tbh. if my dad had a rly nice one i wouldn’t have bought one)

[the-king-of-lemons]

i need to bring back my dood-les for sdmp bro... so many funny bits i could horribly recreate in mspaint

[dandyshucks]

i was going to email my accordion teacher i had a few yrs ago to ask for advice on fixing my accordion but then remembered she is quite old so ... i went and looked her up just to make sure there were no obituaries or smth for her and uhm. instead i found out her brother is like. super famous. bro that guy taught me some piano stuff and i played music with him holy shit help ??? i sat on the same piano bench with him while he showed me some piano stuff oh my god. i think he also maybe taught me a bit of accordion bc he plays like a million instruments. he's won multiple awards and has travelled worldwide to perform ???? HELLO ???

and now im too scared and intimidated to email her hdsgjskdgjkl

[deadrlngers]

i will never get how ppl use books in a way that will have them fall into pieces, if my books aren't pristine i will fucking lose it so bad

[yourstrullyme]

tanthamore enemy to lovers spies au

[pawjamas]

i love how big most black cat eyes are they’re always like O_O

[t4tbedehopmar]

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHA >:D

[hvrrycameron]

[shoveitevil]

ugh its starting to get a lot worse again

[onesweetbeautifulsong]

augh

[victory-cookies]

people assuming I get my nails done when I’ve painted them myself is such a point of pride for me it’s so silly but every time I’m like “oh I actually did these myself!” :D

[whwie]

he doesn't want a relationship.

wow what a pattern with ppl I like.

me and my crush's mutual guy friend interrogated him if he wanted to date and shit and my crush said no. This guy friend of ours is like a messenger, bc my crush said to him 'here's what u can share with her' and 'here's what u can't. '

And its like dude I fucking knew, after I confessed to him I said "don't give me an answer" bc in the back of my mind I already knew what the answer was.

God why didn't he just say it to me without this messenger thing.

Fuck I mean like shit I was going to delusional and was like 'I'm going to pull him!' AND YK WHAT OUR GUY FRIEND TOLD MY CRUSH "she wants me to wingman her" AND LIKE BRO THAT WAS A JOKE/I WAS ON THE FENCE FOR THAT AND FIRST OF ALL THATS NOT HOW U WINGMAN PPL.

WHY WOULD U TELL HIM THAT GOD.

anyways I cried a lot last night and now I'm going back home for winter break.

I wished me and my crush were closer on friendly terms bc I wished he would just break my heart completely and just tell me straight up.

I get delusional everytime he looks at me.

let's hope these 3 weeks of no close proximity gets me over him.

[humbleanger]

sometimes you just dig up old memories in the shower and then have to be normal about it

[the-kneesbees]

my brother says he doesnt want to listen to me and my mom talk about boys??? shes literally never given me dating advice in my life- we were talking about superwholock...