#I was in serious cope mode tho

[dear-space-cadet]

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[noa-ciharu]

Hi

I'm sorry for so many asks but i'm feeling kinda down due to the nintendo 3ds eshop closure... ;-;

So gonna distract myself by asking how each of the tb/x characters would comfort themselves on a bad day (like talking to someone, eating comfort food etc.)

Thanks 👉👈

Oh, idk what that eshop closure thing means but *sends hugs*

Hmmm let's say some mundane daily issues stressed them out and nothing too grand. Ofc 300% serious per usual:

Kamui - goes into full 🥺 mode and waits to be comforted by men. His stress reliever is crying in man's arms or overal physical + emotional comfort. 6/10 on healthy scale and 🌈/10 on gayness one

Sorata - meme it all away. Deals with stress via humor. King. 9/10

Arashi - looks like a type to bottle up. May try some hot tea and meditation so 4/10

Yuzuriha - has no poker face whatsoever, can't keep stiff upper lip to save her life. Will end up bawling her eyes to someone and getting comforted (not in gay 🥺 way like Kamui does tho). Maybe will have Inuki comfort her a bit. Effective overall plus she's 14 so 7/10

Karen - will bottle up and put up a fake smile :< also do some self-deprecating and self sabotaging thing like drug her teammates and go out to fight and die alone :< although her style rocks so 4/10 on common sense scale but 🔥/10 on vibes and sexiness

Aoki - idk rly, guess go to soap lady's hotel room one late at night. To chat with her about protecting kekais duh, ofc no funny business. Happy family man with ounce of common sense yes but can he resist the temptation? 9/10 on he should deal with stress via hooking up with Karen scale

Kotori - cries herself out and gets comforted by her brother or slips into insanity and wants to get crucified no in between. 5/10

Good boy Fuuma - deal with stress by comforting and protecting Kotori and Kamui. Especially Kamui tho, the more touchy feely they are the better Fuuma is feeling. 8/10 on healthy scale since bottling up but 🌈/10 on gayness one

Antichrist Fuuma - I can't possibly state here post will get flagged as explicit. But let's just say it has to do with all kinds of explosions

Subaru - he doesn't deal with stress in any productive way possible, he mops around, smokes it out or sufferes in silence masochistically. That's how 🤕 kinks got as bad as they are, king tried to repress them. Alternatively he deal with stress by wanting to be stabbed. If he dealt with stress by getting railed I would have given him higher rating but this way 1/10 for the masochism and every BDSM-5 mental illness

Yuuto - he fucks it out, no questions. 10/10, Subaru this should be your role model

Kanoe - copes with stress via being sexiest person ever, flirting with absolutely everyone and having sex every day. Also while having them government salary and not doing jack shit beside dreaming in dick throne and having ominous prophecies. Dream coping mechanism 11/10

Hinoto - lies for funsies and makes false false prophecies. She sends seals into death for fun and apperently has a thing for making Kamui's life as hard as it can possibly be. Zero coping mechanism she gave into her dark side but at least we've seen some hinoto-cest pics so for that 2/10

Kusanagi - idk about him rly he seems like most rational one? So something about spilling sorrows to the bartender. Idk let's rate it 7/10

Keiichi - only boy with common sense in this manga he deals with problems resiliently but actually talks about them. 9/10

Nataku - guess they go out and die?? 0/10 on any scale

Kakyou - his coping mechanism is looking pretty and ominous ambiguous prophetic lines. Also I guess eternal pretty boy looks since how does he look the same in TB flashbacks and in X, Kakyou plz reveal me your secret?? 7/10 cuz of L'oreal hair

Satsuki - guess she either does carnage or gets all touchy with Kanoe. Also gets comforted by Yuuto from time to time. Girl has the range and taste so 8/10

Seishirou - god forbid something upsets him cuz he will try all of these, in this order:

Mental gymnastic

Staking Subaru

Manipulate

Mansplain

Manslaughter

Drown himself in cigarettes

"Shit I felt something?? Is this an emotion???"

Plot most manipulative non sensical scheme ever that will somehow turn out to work cuz 😎

Go die

[ksen-noodles]

Random but- uh... pro and cons of using Photoshop or MSPAINT as an Art Program.

Strictly personal opinion that probably shouldn't be taken as advice:

Photoshop:

Pros: 1. Has layers! Omg yay :D

2. Very nice color wheel

3. Layer modes, and extensive color editing, and has brush modes too. You ALSO can add cool brushes and MAKE cool brushes

4. Gradients...

5. Filters go brr! Also the tools are Decent

6. Technically u can make gifs n animate, good luck figuring it out

Cons: 1. MY PC GOES EEEE immediately. me no likey :/

2. Expensive. That gets fixed by pirating the shit outta adobe. AND ALSO PHOTOPEA (the site)

3. SLOW. AS HELL . defeats it in a cool battle

4. It's hard to grasp :/ you gotta have experience w PC art programs. It's also better suited as a photo editing tool, so perfect for editing a finished work, not making one

5. No stabilizer! Good luck

6. Shit fill tool

Ms Pain:

Pros: 1. FAST. ITS SO FAST N EASY :D And intuitive ofc

2. It's like crunching a lil snacc but art... sometimes you eat a lunch's worth of snacks and then regret it tho lmao

3. FUN.

4. Funny Manga black+white mode

5. Pixel art!!!!!

6. Brush fills for shapes are super fun for bg,,,

Cons: 1. FFFFUCK there's no good brushes. Fuck around find out draw with a pencil or with a funny brush but fill EVERYTHING with it

2. No brush pressure aside from FEW CHOSEN brushes and tablets. They are literally mostly incompatible w ms paint

3. Shit tools

4. No layers!!!!!!!

5. No layer modes, brush modes, filters OR gradients GOOD LUCK SHAWTY

6. Art tends to look crunchy due to canvas size and brush physics :p

7. Serious art requires a lot of effort to look good. I mean it. It's a doodley space!!!

8. Oh the fill tool is shit in here too lmao

9. OH AND NO STABILIZER, NATURALLY

Drawpile:

Pros: 1. YAY STABILIZER

2. YAY DECENT FILL TOOL

3. Brush modes!!!!

4. Layers!!

5. ONION SHEETS. DECENT N QUICK ANIMATION PREVIEW. very basic tho. Not super good for animation. BUT ITS INTUITIVE YAY YAY YAY

6. YOU CAN DRAW WITH FRIENDS.

Cons: 1. NO WHY IS MY TRANSFORMATION TOOL SO SHITTY NOW

2. The layer options are. Poor.

3. No good brushes again :///

4. Tbh most tools and canvas redaction things are shitty but I can cope for the animation and shared canvas prospects

[uno-writing]

Hello! I saw your matchups and thought they looked fun! I haven’t thought about this series in like a year I need to go binge read it what have you done- anyway you can write whatever kind of matchup seems most fun for you. S/Os are more like best friends ADVANCED MODE for me anyway lol. I’m tall, pale, and wear glasses and thats pretty much all that stands out about me but it be like that sometimes 😔👌 I don’t really like talking to people I don’t know because ~✨Trust issues✨~™️ Am I right gamers lol- but if someone comes up to me I’m not about to ignore them that’s rude >:( I’m really loud with people I’m relatively comfortable with and I hate being serious (haha running away from problems go brrrr) though that can cause problems since my sense of humor can be pretty dark or not make sense at all to most people lol. Apparently threatening to burn down Taco Bell’s until they bring back cheesy fiesta potatoes isn’t “a healthy coping mechanism” (btw cheesy fiesta potatoes came back like 4 hours after I said that COINCIDENCE??? lol) I thought it was funny tho so that’s what matters. I can’t stand people who can’t understand what I’m trying to tell them, or people who doubt what I know/what I’m capable of. Also people touching me but I can tolerate that if I really like the person, however I will not hesitate to hit them purely out of reflex if they don’t warn me first lol. I overheat easily and can’t see all that well when it’s bright, so I prefer to stay inside. I love to play video games or just any game, especially friendly competitive games or strategy games. I also like listening to music and drawing because I’m not unique so tragic so sad. I like people who are confident because that’s probably the only way we’re going to talk lol, who can join in on my jokes because fun lol, who are above average intelligence so I don’t have to explain every other word I say or have them just stare at me blankly, and just respectful people lol. Sounds like a lot but it’s a pretty low bar lol. My zodiac is Libra but I don’t really care that much about it, and my love language is quality time. I don’t remember the characters so I can’t say ghat there are any I don’t want lol. Feel free to write spoilers if you want to though, I don’t really care that information is probably stored back in my mind one way or another. Alright that’s all I got hope you have a nice day sorry this was so long byeeee

Hi! I totally get that. I won’t think of this series for months and then there’s one thing that just drags me back into the rabbit hole 😂😂

I would match you with Isen for both platonic and romantic! I feel like the two of you would compliment each other well.

*Isen strikes me as someone who’s more on the extroverted side of the spectrum. He doesn’t really seem to have a problem talking to people and (aside from people he’s scared of) he’s pretty confident.

*He also strikes me as the type of person to make a lot of jokes or to use humor as a coping mechanism. I don’t think he would start off with dark humor, but I think that after a while of making jokes back and forth he would progressively get darker as time went on.

*I think he’d be a mix of wanting to stay inside and also wanting to spend time elsewhere.

*I can confidently say that he would carry one of those tiny fans that plug into the bottom of your phone and any time you mentioned anything about the heat he’d whip that sucker out.

*I can also guarantee that he would burn the taco bell down with you while Remi and Blyke would just be NO-

*I mean, the first thing he did when he found out about ability amps was talk about how easily he could beat Arlo up.

*He doesn’t seem very touchy in my opinion, maybe only when he’s like really sleepy he’ll try and lean his head on you.

*I think he’d really enjoy writing while you draw. Just having some music on in the background and you two doing your own things.

*If you ever drew him, he’d ask if he could have it and carry it around. He’d CONSTANTLY brag about it to Blyke

*I feel like he sucks ass at video games. Like he brags about how good he is and then makes a whole bunch of stupid mistakes and barely knows the controls.

*I feel like the two of you would be quite chaotic together and probably stress Remi and Blyke out.

[skimblyshanks]

I'M GOING TO BE MEAN, SKIMBLY. 2 (What their love letters look like) and 3 (Which one outlives the other, and how they cope), for Tuggershanks and Alonzoffelees (in either order).

2.What do their Love Letters look like?

Alonzoffelees: almost exaggeratedly formal, and long. Probably have a good few innuendos in there but most looking over their shoulders would miss them bc it's all just so many fancy looking words. No one knows when either of them finds the time to write them, but they write them frequently.

Tuggershanks: Bold of you to assume the first mode of contact isn't mainly “u up?” Otherwise, Tugger writes about what he means to very...bluntly, no matter what it is. Skimble will try to spruce up what he'll write a bit more, but is still rather straightforward; romantic ways with words is not a forte for either of them. They do have a game tho where Tugger makes sure his letter ends up in the mail to be sorted onboard; Skimble will write his response and, on disembarking, give it to Tugger saying they found a strange letter with no address.

3.Which one Outlives the other, and how do they cope?

Bold of you to assume I haven't thought out timelines where either one of a pairing has died first. These are in universes sans the kids, though, as that's just too many variables hjffjhdsj

Alonzoffelees:

Mistoffelees dies first: Alonzo becomes a lot more somber; faster to anger, too. Cassandra and Munkustrap are his only real communicants. He throws himself full-on into work as a protector (bc let’s be honest, Misto wouldn't be dying first of natural causes. Something happened and Lonnie thinks it's his fault for not being a good enough protector to stop it) no more fun slinking, except maybe every now and then, he's a serious, harder cat now.

Alonzo Dies first: Misto tries to handle his grief with grace and ends up working to bottle his emotions. His magic gets more and more volatile, until one day there's just. An explosion of sparks and smoke and everyone’s freaked out and thinks it's Macavity and Mistoffelees is just ashamed and guilty and every other negative emotion basically, and he just runs out of the junkyard, withdrawing himself from the tribe. Probably spends more time with Bustopher, who is his telephone line, essentially, to his other family, but he'll only see the Junkyard and it's inhabitants when and if he's accompanying his father on the annual visit. Cats are glad to see him, and he's cordial enough, but he simply can't be in the junkyard for too long anymore.

Tuggershanks

Skimble Dies first: Tugger doesn't really know what to do with himself for the first few months after it happens. He's had breakups, he's left relationships with no intention of re-entering them, but he hasn't had to really sit with the fact that a lover, and a close one, is dead, and really isn't coming back, not as himself. He’ll bounce back, more or less; he's back to flirting, and keeping himself groomed, and he's strutting with confidence again, but if you really sit down with him you can tell there's some kind of small, dull-aching hole in his heart

Tugger Dies first: Skimble is taken aback, and he stays in this numb shock for a good while; he’s stuck in a haze for months. There’s a few close calls at the stations too many, and he's relieved of duty, so to speak; he lives with the stationmaster for a few months and let's everything sink in. He visits his family, he talks through his feelings, and though it takes him a while he is able to step back into his old jobs and roles. He mainly stays at the station, but he'll see the trains off in his owner’s arms. He's more subdued when he visits the junkyard; all in all he lets himself slow down more overall. When the young cats get cocky and arrogant, he can't fight a sad smile and maybe a quiet laugh as he remembers that horribly darling tom who left a good deal too soon.

Ship Asks!

[earths-roots-grow-up]

Fact: The great horse manure crisis of 1894 was an urban catastrophe in bigger cities. During this time horses were the main mode of transportation and that became a big issue due to the fact that horses, well, poop. They poop A LOT. Streets of big cities, where there was a lot of horses and a lot of people, were drowning in manure. Allegedly The Times even wrote: 

"In 50 years, every street in London will be buried under nine feet of manure". 

They were on to something - in 1900s London there were "over 50,000 horses transporting people around the city each day." Each horse produced about 15 and 35 pounds of manure per day. This attracted giant swarms of flies and streets were becoming an unhygienic, stinky and very unhealthy nightmare. It was an unsolvable problem, as more horses were needed to remove the manure, and those horses produced more manure.

The horses also pissed a lot - so much that London had to cancel an experiment with wooden pavements, as they would soak with the urine and the smell of ammonia became unbearable. 

Even without wooden pavements the smell was bad tho - people would use handkerchiefs that they pressed to their faces to cope. Tall heels were used to trek through the layers of filth on the pavement.

The Horse Manure Issue was even debated in 1898 at the world’s first international urban planning conference in New York (New York also suffered from this problem), but no solution could be found. The problem ended only after cars were introduces as replacement for horse carriages and horse started to be slowly pushed out of cities.

Headcanon: Each and every Bit City Representative (so London, New York, probably Berlin, Moscow, Paris etc) smelled like horse manure in late 1800s/early 1900s. They tried to wash it out of their hair vigorously and HATED it, Paris would put tons of perfume on and cry, but there was no escaping it. They all smelled like manure.

With Nations themselves, not so much, as big cities are just a small part of the whole country. But my oh my was Arthur upset when he came to visit London and felt MANURE while they were having their classy, British fancy tea. Was Austria indignant when him and Vienna were playing the piano together, he sat to close and... MANURE! Was France freaking distraught when he went for a kiss on the cheek with his beloved, pretty Paris and... yeah you guess it. MANURE.They would all “discretely” cover their faces with a handkerchiefs and hoped their cities won’t notice, but of course they did. 

Then they all meet up in New York in 1898 and had a serious Nation Discussion about Serious Nation Matters:

APH England: “We need to do something about our capitals SMELLING LIKE SHIT!” is how I’m imagining it going. 

This is way funnier to me that it should be, sorry xD. I guess I have a sense of humor of a 12 years old boy. Poop... funny!

[welcome--to--my--little--world]

So, I worked on Valentin's backstory and wrote it down. Also added some facts/ideas about his personality and what he likes and dislikes.

This is just a concept, so it's not really good or anything and I'm also pretty insecure about it, so please don't reblog this.

But if anyone wants to read about my boy, here you go.

Backstory:

• He was born into a relatively wealthy family and lived with his parents in South California until he was 18

• He was lucky enough to be able to go to school

• He has always been a smart boy. Always getting good grades. His parents and teachers constantly told him he had a bright future ahead of him.

• But he never quite fit in. Never found many friends, and when he finally did for once, they either ended up leaving him, lying to him, manipulating him or betraying him in the worst ways possible.

• He was bullied in his teen years... never undestood why, but he just figured he was the problem. They just attacked him for anything he was doing. Even if he was just sitting there, they'd spit on him, punch him or laugh at him. And whenever he tried to do something about it, things just got worse. So he just stopped trying and let them do whatever they want to him.

• All this lead to a lot of supressed anger. He was so angry at them. At the world, for doing him so dirty. At himself for all the things they made him believe he did wrong.

• People hating him for who he was, for existing, completely broke him. Their words made him believe he was a bad person. And then he kinda started acting like it. Like a bad person, so people hating on him would be justified. After all they had taught him how to betray and manipulate.

• In a fucked up way it gave him comfort back then. A sense of identity and control. But in reality he just fucked up every relationship he had left and felt even more miserable in the end. Ended up all alone.

• All this was too much for him. He started cutting and had suicidal thoughts (He was able to leave the self harming behind eventually, but every now and then when something goes wrong in his life, the thought of doing it again pops up in his head. Nowadays he just tries to drown the thoughts in alcohol when the thoughts get too loud).

• He also searched comfort in meaningless sex and drugs/alcohol. Just wanted to forget and numb himself. This pain and deep feeling of loneliness and emptiness inside him were too much to take and well, he tried to fill that void somehow.

• Besides all this, he still somehow managed to graduate.

• He wanted a new start and wanted to leave everything else behind, so he moved to Night City to study shortly after he turned 18.

• He changed his name to V cause Valentin reminded him too much of his past and of what he so desperately wanted to leave beind (he allows close friends to call him that tho)

• He then focused on his career, studied, got a job at Arasaka and even managed to work his way up by manipulating and betraying, and some other bad shit...

• He actually managed to build up a new life there in Night City. Got to start all over again, try all the things the corpo life had to offer. And with working for Arasaka he had many possibilities. Everything went finally somehow good for him. Or at least he thought so at first. He had money, got a bit of respect and whatever else. But soon he realized working for Arasaka was a fucking lonely life. By far not as bright as he had imagined. And it was fucked up too. Kinda had to sacrifice his soul to survive in that world.

• He saw and knew about all the bad shit going on behind closed doors. How people were lying to each other, backstabbing each other, just to make more money or get promoted. Or how people were exploited... or even just used as the others pleased. And the worst thing: as much as all this disgusted him and as much as it went against what was left of his morals, he either just looked away or even took part in all this treachery and their sickening behaviour. It was fucked up, but well, he did what he had to do. He hated himself so much for it, but he had no choice if he wanted to keep what was left of his life. Probably couldn't do much about it anyways.

• And of course his past was still haunting him. As much as he tried to forget, the things that had happened, the things he did to become so successful... they left deep scars on his soul.

• And well... then everything went to shit

• He blamed Arasaka for it. He got so fucking angry, cause they took away what he had worked so hard for. The only thing that gave him some sense of purpose in life. Smashed his life and future to pieces and there was nothing he could do about it. He wanted to see them suffer and burn for what they did to him.

• And now he hated himself even more for what has happened, cause it was all for nothing. He finally realized how fucked up he actually was. The guilt was suffocating him.

• He knew it was time for a change. And this time he'd do the right thing. Make the right choices. Try to be a better person. Kinda try to right his wrongs.

Personality:

• He hates being alone, but also has a hard time trusting people due to what he experienced in the past... this guy definitely has abandonment issues and trust issues. That makes any kind of relationship very difficult for him. He still tries very hard tho.

• He kinda has 3 sides:

1) Feral ferret: funny, horny, seemingly happy, joking, full of life and love. That's the side he shows most of the time. This side of him is him finally becoming himself again after completely losing himself trying to reach something that he could never reach. He's slowly finding his new identity, is trying out new things, doing chaotic shit he never got to try out in his fucked up past. And most of all he tries to be a better person.

2) Killing mode: His serious, professional, badass side. When he enters killing mode, he blocks out everything irrelevant and only focuses on his mission. Makes sure he makes no mistakes (all remains from working for Arasaka). And even if he'd never ever admit it... he likes the violence and the thrill he gets from it...

3) His sad/depressed/broken/traumatized side: He rarely ever shows this side of him (at least not to most people). His past haunts him. He hates himself for the things he did, hates himself for disappointing friends or even himself in the past. The memories of being treated like shit and getting hurt over and over again also sometimes come flashing back into his mind and he wishes this would just stop and he could forget.

• He can go from quirky and joking to killing mode or sad mode in less than a second -> PARCOUR 😎🤦🏻‍♀️

What he likes:

• Junkfood. Lots and lots of junkfood. Especially cheeseburgers or pizza or anything with cheese in general

• He loves fucking. This man is like constantly horny and he will do it anywhere anytime he gets the chance to.

• He loves taking funny, cute and pretty pics and is actually quite proud of the photos he takes

• He loves to just do chaotic, fun or dumb shit. It's kinda like a coping mechanism for him

• He likes just stopping for a while and watching the sunrise/sunset or admire the landscape. Especially at the beach or somewhere out of the rush and mess that the city is. Back when he still worked for Arasaka he didn't have time for things like this. It was all just work, work, work.

What he doesn't like:

• being alone

• things getting out of control

• the song "pon pon shit". He hates it with a burning passion and honestly, when it comes on on the radio he just wants to yeet his car off the road...

Other stuff:

• Chaos boi

• His spirit animal is a feral ferret

• Bisexual

• He can cloverleaf his tongue and wiggle it all weirdly. Good for either impressing people or creeping them out.

• That being said, he knows exactly how to use his tongue to make his partner feel real good and cry out his name 😏

• This man got a huge suit kink. If he sees a hot man or a sexy lady in a suit, he loses all ability to think clearly

• He loves wearing suits, and dress shirts.

• For special occasions and for beach days he got his golden hotpants

• Sometimes he will just say fuck it and wear some total fashion catastrophe™️ outfits, just because he can

• He's horny. Like, ALL the time

• Even tho this man loves to fuck hard and rough (ya know, with scratching, biting, hair pulling, chains, whips, handcuffs,...), he'll absolutely melt when you touch him gently. He likes the sex, of course, but he craves intimacy. He never got the chance for all this romantic stuff or intimacy in his past for obvious reasons. If you hold him gently he'll most certainly start crying.

• His sextoy collection is HUGE. Super impressive and he's got some of the good expensive stuff. Worth like 3000€$. Well spent cash.

• He's into public play 😏

• He would never ever say it out loud or admit it, but violence kinda turns him on (yeah, he's a bit messed up)

[sasoriapologist]

Could you help me? I've never heard of fictives, and introjects before, but I strongly identify with it. I like to see myself as Deidara, but I am myself too, it's hard to explain.. And I ship Sasodei with all my heart, I love to see them together! But I love Sasori so much! He's my comfort character, and if I could make him real I'd love to be with him, marry him literally, but I'd marry him not as myself, but myself as Deidara. Does that make me a fictive/introject? Sorry if I don't make sense

i was wondering when i was gonna get a question like this. In short: No, what you’re describing is a lot more adjacent to fictionkin.

A fictive/fictional introject is a type of alter in a DID or OSDD system. “Fictional introject” is the technical term for it, and “fictive” is the shorthand. So you’ll see me use them interchangeably. If you don’t have DID or OSDD-1a or 1b, you cannot have fictives. A lot of people compare it to kinning but like, Extreme Mode, and I understand why people do this, but it’s really not the same thing. It doesn’t help that there was a phase in time where the kin community was trying to appropriate the terms of people with DID/OSDD and tried to act like it was the same thing when it’s not.

So basically, what I have is a serious psychiatric condition. I have Dissociative Identity Disorder (I’m professionally diagnosed, in case anyone wants to give me hell about it), and I’m an alter that... is Deidara. that’s just who i am. I’m this brains iteration of Deidara. I’m not just a fictionkin who identifies with Deidara in one way or another. That is just literally objectively who I am. I originally split off as a protector for the old host, since she did kin me (but she didn’t really realize she did at the time bc she was like... 10 and didn’t know that was a thing but looking back we’re like “yeah lmao u totally kinned me”) and saw me as a “stronger version of herself”, and she was going through a LOT of messy shit at the time. since then, ive moved on to being the primary host.

In case anyone doesn’t know this: the concept of an “original person” isn’t always something someone with DID or OSDD has, and who the host is can change over time. The “host” alter is just the alter who fronts the most and kinda has the most control of the systems life at the time. That’s me! that’s what i do anymore. I used to consistently cohost with the old host for the most part of almost ten years, but something happened in the last year that made her kinda. step down. and now this hell brain is MY fuckhouse lmao.

That all being said, most of us in this system have spiritual beliefs, and the old host particularly hardcore identified as a Pagan and witch. She believed we did collectively have past lives and I was one of them, and I do kinda find comfort in that thought sometimes? i’m not nearly as much of a spiritual person to the same extent as her, but like. i like the thought. not everyone here agrees that they were in some sort of past life of the body tho.

But yeah, what you’re describing sounds 1000% like fictionkin, which is a WHOLE other can of worms. There’s so many fucking ways people describe what kinning is anymore that I don’t even know what to tell you lmao. Some people kin for spiritual reasons a lot like the “past lives” belief, some people kin for fun or to cope with mental health struggles/trauma, there’s all kinds of reasons. You might see fictionkin referred to as “kinnies”, which is just joking shorthand i guess. You may see similarities between the described experiences of fictionkin and the described experiences of fictives/fictional introjects, but rest assured they are not the same thing.

Unfortunately, kinnies have actually had a long history of treating fictives like shit and trying to one-up us, which is weird as fuck and vaguely ableist. Not all kinnies do this, but it’s been. Something I‘ve definitely noticed over the years. I cant usually be around Deidara kinnies because they’ve treated fictives like such ass and tried to invalidate me, which has sent me into days long derealization episodes because they’re trying to prove they I’m not me, and they’re more me than I will ever be, which is horrendously triggering. And they don’t seem to understand WHY that’s fucked up to do to a fictive because they think it’s somehow on the same level of experience.

So yeah, that got extremely long and probably has a lot more information than you were asking for, sorry. I just wanted to be thorough. Sounds like you’re definitely a Deidara kinnie, babe. I’m more than fine w people who kin me, so long as they don’t pull that weird shit like the other ones do. Per my experience, people who kin me are either absolute fucking demons about it or angels and there’s no in between 😔

[midnight-circus]

sometimes you just gotta meme for the new guy.

this is two memes combined so sorry if theres similar questions i couldnt be bothered to post them separately lmao

it’s fuckin huge My Bad

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Names? If you were to choose another name for your oc, what do you think it would be? Did you choose their name for how it sounds or for its meaning?

Tbh it was a toss-up for a long time between Mallory, Felix and Everaud, and eventually the first two won. I chose it for how it sounded, but as it turned out the meanings of his first two names juxtapose pretty well together (first name Mallory - ‘unlucky’, second name Felix - ‘lucky’). His surname, Valkner, I also picked for the sound - the meaning of ‘warrior’ doesn’t really pertain to him lmao

He hasn’t gone by his legit first name of Mallory since he was about 12, and has used Felix almost exclusively since then. he fuckin hates it. most of the time.

Can your oc play any instruments? Have they ever wanted to learn how to play any? Why?

No, he grew up without much money and instruments would have been a luxury. He’s vaguely considered it as an adult, but is pretty certain he’d be useless so hasn’t bothered trying.

How does your oc fare in the dark? Are they scared? Do they trip over things really easily or navigate like they have night vision? (Or do they have night vision?)

He doesn’t like the dark much, but he’s not scared. He’s just got bad eyesight.

How well would your oc fare as a teacher? What subject would they be best at teaching? What about the worst?

tbh he’d probably be pretty good as a teacher to a group of like...primary school kids, maybe from 5-11 in age. He’s quiet-voiced, fairly mild-mannered, and has a strong sense of fairness and justice - the problem would arise when it came to older pupils, teens and up, trying to get the upperhand, bc he’s not authoritative in the slightest and would probably cave. Give him a room of toddlers tho that he’s only responsible for in short bursts and he’d cope pretty well. Either history or english lit would be his forte; sports would be worst. the boy can’t run.

What was your oc’s relationship with their parents like? If they didn’t have any parents/didn’t know them, who in their life was the closest to a parent to them?

It’s...good? I guess?? It’s complicated. his parents love their kids dearly and Felix didn’t go wanting for affection, but if anything it went too far the other way. He was absolutely smothered as a kid - after several near-death experiences with childhood illnesses (bacterial meningitis, which developed into encephalitis, then sepsis in his leg), his mother wrapped him up in cotton wool and never really let go. He couldn’t leave the house alone, he couldn’t go outside on cold days, he couldn’t move at anything faster than a walk - after being in and out of hospitals from 5-years-old to 8, and then being kept on a shelf from then, it really had an impact on how he learnt to interact with other kids his age. It’s also given him an unstable footing in life itself - he’s never quite certain if he’s going to lose everything at the drop of a hat, because that’s how they used to act around him. Now, with the distance of adulthood, he loves them and appreciates that they were trying their best, but he can’t help but resent them a little if he really thinks about it. He gets around this by not thinking about it.

Does your oc have any allergies, intolerances, or other sensitivities? How dangerous is it? Does this affect their daily life in any way?

he’s got an allergy to letting himself be happy it’s very serious

Does your oc prefer being in a crowd or being completely alone? How many people can be around them before they get uncomfortable?

Generally he’s more content alone - conversation doesn’t come naturally to him, particularly if it’s a crowd of strangers, and he’s more content in his own company. If he does find himself in a crowd, he will take himself to the edge of the room and people-watch rather than mingle.

How open is your oc to trying new things? Are they the adventurous sort, or would they rather stay in their comfort zone? Why?

He needs to be talked into things, otherwise he’d never try anything - he knows his comfort zones and he’s very comfortable in them, and is not inclined to venture outside. If he’s nudged into doing something, he may end up finding that he enjoys it - doesn’t necessarily mean he’d do it again under his own steam, but he doesn’t always regret the experience.

Does your oc have any best friends? Who was/is their closest friend? What about their worst enemy?

Pathetically enough, he doesn’t, really. Sylvia was his best, and to be honest his only friend, and when she left his social life left with her. He loves her still, but he loves her platonically (even if he hasn’t realised that yet) and that wasn’t enough for her, understandably. Outside of her, there’s not really anyone else.

No enemies. He’s not important enough to have enemies.

How dangerous is your oc? Are they completely innocent, or someone to be feared? Do others know?

tbh Felix’s level of danger is about the same as a puppy with a knife in its mouth. like yeah it might get you by accident but its way more likely to hurt itself and its not really done anything to deserve that so really its more important to get the knife away from it for its own benefit than yours

What is your oc’s vision like? Do they require glasses, are they completely blind, or do they have 20/20 vision? Does this have an effect on their life?

He wears glasses for pretty much everything - he’s not blind without them, but his vision’s bad enough that he wouldn’t be able to cope for the whole day if he left them at home.

If your oc were to be arrested for something, what would it be for? For being too kind, for a legitimate crime?

Probably for getting mixed up in something he didn’t mean to get involved in - Felix is the sort of person to say ‘yes’ to one request because he felt pressured and then find himself 20 ‘yes’s down the line embezzling money from the government for the Serbian mafia with no idea how he got there. He’s quite easy to manipulate - a person who knows how to press his buttons can generally work the answer they want out of him. 

How quiet or loud is your oc? Are they easily capable of sneaking around without being heard, or do they feel it’s impossible to stop talking?

He’s pretty quiet - tries not to draw attention to himself if he can avoid it, and he doesn’t really speak unless he’s spoken to.

How stylistically fancy is your oc? Or would they rather go for comfort and plainness instead?

His primary concern is durability and price - he needs something that will either last for as long as possible so he doesn’t have to replace it any time soon, or something that is cheap enough that it doesn’t matter if it wears out, and ergo, Primark. He oftens window-shops for nice-fitting, fancy clothing in the London boutiques he passes on the way to work, but has never bought anything like that in his life and can’t bring himself to even consider it.

What’s your oc’s preferred mode of transportation? Walking, vehicle, (or in a sci-fi/magic setting) teleportation?

His preferred mode of transport is a car, but his isn’t always working properly so when he has to, he takes a bus - he doesn’t like walking if he can avoid it, partially because it wears him out and partially because he’s kind of physically lazy.

Is your oc always late, always early, or always right on time? Is there any reason for this?

He’s always early, because he leaves early, because he’s already envisioned about 20 different disasters that could make him late on the way and he’s trying to circumvent all of them.

How empathetic is your oc? Or are they closer to being a sociopath? Any reason why?

Felix doesn’t really realise that he’s empathetic - he thinks he’s just doing what everyone does, but in fact he will go out of his way to improve a situation for someone if he thinks they’re being hard-done-by for no benefit to himself, even to the extent of bending or breaking rules. It’s partially why he got into the law-scene - he wants to see things bettered for people who need it.

How much does your oc swear? Or do they keep completely clean? Why is this? Is there any situation where they would be the opposite?

Swearing doesn’t come naturally to him - he’s one of those people who will swear only under their breath and still manage to feel guilty about doing it. If he is going to swear out loud, he does it in German and it always comes out clumsily.

How does your oc’s own perception of themselves compare to how other people see them? Is your oc aware that other people see them differently (if it’s different)?

It’s pretty different. In his mind, he’s pretty useless - a bit of a waste-of-space who has coasted through life by pretending to be better than he is, kind of dull, kind of boring, kind of unattractive, altogether too much of Nothing Special for anyone to really be bothered with. Realistically, he comes across as responsible and competent at his job, perhaps a little highly-strung and nervy but nevertheless perfectly capable of managing the responsibilities he has. It’s his own self-doubt that cripples him, for the most part - people see it in him, and perhaps it makes them wonder if there’s a reason for it.

Is your oc a workaholic, or do they find it hard to be busy at all? Do they find it easy to relax, or must they have something to do at all times? Why?

if he’s not working, he’s thinking, and that simply won’t do. Felix’s whole life is work, for the most part - he throws his all into it, and isn’t sure what to do with himself when he’s sitting at home alone in a dead-quiet flat.

How energetic is your oc? Do they have trouble sitting still or do they feel low on juice all the time? Any reason why?

He’s constantly exhausted. It’s because he’s depressed. He hasn’t figured that out yet.

How does your character sleep? Peacefully, fitfully? What position do they sleep in? What is their typical bedding like?

Not very peacefully - Felix is a light sleeper, so although capable of getting to sleep relatively quickly he wakes up in fits and starts throughout the night. He tends to sleep curled on his left side, on bedding that is cheap, serviceable and durable. He can’t afford to buy anything decent. He finds it easier to stay asleep if there’s ambient noise in the room - white noise, the TV, whatever.

Does your oc have dreams or nightmares? What are they like? Is there a recurring one?

He’ll suffer a pretty bad nightmare here and there, generally to do with hospitals or medical procedures, but they aren’t chronic.

How easy to annoy is your oc? Do they have common pet-peeves or are they stoic in response to everything? What is their reaction if the source doesn’t stop?

he’s real easy to annoy lmao. He’s got a list of pet peeves a mile long and he’s very easy to get a rise out of, so people who enjoy getting a reaction (Lyon) find him very entertaining pickings. He keeps telling himself not to get so worked up because it only encourages things, but he can’t help it.

How does your oc view housework? Do they absolutely hate it? Do they enjoy having their surroundings neat and tidy or do they not notice?

He hates doing it, but he really enjoys a clean space afterwards and goes a long way to keep things organised. Disorder stresses him out - he particularly can’t bear people coming into his space and messing it up.

Your oc has to make something for an art exhibition. What would they make? How terrible is it? Would they enjoy making it?

oh christ. the thing is, he’s actually not that bad at art - he’s got a good handle on anatomy and perspective and can reproduce images or photpgraphs fairly well - but he thinks he’s useless and has never shown anyone anything. he’d produce a pretty solid sketch of like a coffee shop at 5pm or something dull like that, apologise profusely for the result, and hate every second of it.

What is your oc’s vocabulary like? Does it match the way they talk? How would you describe their speech?

He speaks pretty well - he’s precise with his words and keeps a quiet, even tone, and his vocab is fairly developed. If there’s a flaw with his speech, it’s that he speaks rather too quickly, because he’s used to being constantly interrupted - it becomes a race to get the sentence finished and his point across, before someone can cut him off.

He has a south German accent, but it’s a little softer for years of living in England - it gets stronger when he goes back home to Munich.

Is your oc more likely to follow instructions exactly, throw them out and figure it out on their own, or make it all up? What are the results like?

He follows instructions to the T, and doesn’t have the impulse to experiment and mess around with them for fear of making a mistake that he’d then have to clean up; that being said, if it becomes a matter of fair treatment, he may be inclined to bend the rules here and there.

Is your oc afraid of touch or do they actively seek it out? Is there a reason for this? What are the exceptions?

lmaoooOOOOO he’s petrified, whilst at the same time desperately craving it. He’s horrendously touch-starved, but his childhood lizard-brain learnt to associate touch with painful medical procedures, so he shies from it by nature.

How is your oc about medical care? Do they avoid any form of healthcare that they can, do they seek it out over every little scrape? Do they treat their injuries/illness all by themselves?

Felix carries an awful lot of medical trauma with him; he’s terrified of medical care, whilst simultaneously being something of a hypochondriac convinced he’s got some sort of Terrible Disease at all times. to be fair, this is because he once had a Terrible Disease, which then led to a second and then a third Terrible Disease before the first could even be treated, so he does have form for it. He also can’t handle blood and has been known to pass out at the sight of it, but would rather do that and recover on the floor than go to hospital.

He will avoid hospitals At All Costs.

How competitive is your oc? Is every little task something that they can win, or are they just in competitions for the fun of it? Is there anyone they’re most competitive with?

He’s sort of competitive accidentally - he doesn’t want to be, but he feels like he needs to be in order to succeed. He is desperate to prove himself, desperate to show his mother than he is more than capable of managing his own life, but he will run himself to exhaustion trying to get there. He’s happiest when he’s left to do his own thing without feeling like he’s competing against others, when he’s content that he’s appreciated by the people around him and is able to take that appreciation at face value, but he hasn’t come to that realisation in himself yet - he just thinks he’s doing it wrong.

How skilled at lying is your oc? How frequently do they lie? For what reason? What situations would be the exception?

lmao he can’t lie to save his life it’s actually kind of sad to watch. he’s a Blusher, for one, so he’s already tripped coming out of the gate, and then he starts falling over his own tongue the second he’s asked a question he can’t give a truthful answer to until it’s painfully obvious to everyone. it’s just sad.

What is your oc’s immune system like? Are they invincible to illness, or are they compromised completely from the slightest of dirt?

His immune system is terrible - a side-effect of his childhood. If there’s an illness going around, he will catch it.

Does your oc do anything “just for the aesthetic”? Or are they completely practical in everything?

Totally practical by habit, but perhaps he’d be happier if he wasn’t. He’s not used to doing things just because he wants to, because he’d enjoy the experience - there has to be a reason for it, else he’s not justified in doing it. Same goes for purchasing things that he wants - if he can’t come up with a good, solid, practical reason to buy himself something, he won’t buy it. ‘Because you want to’ is not reason enough.

If you had to choose a single object to act as a symbol for your oc, what would it be?

One of those candles that re-ignites itself when you blow it out.

If your oc could only eat one thing for the rest of their life (while miraculously not suffering from malnutrition), what would it be?

He’s got a massive sweet tooth and spends a lot of time baking, so probably cake - he’s fond of little gay French patisserie nonsense.

How prepared is your oc? Ready for the worst no matter what, or completely lost in every situation? Would they have a medkit when it was needed? Would they have an umbrella if it rains?

As much as he panics, in a legitimate bad situation he is capable of keeping his head - he runs on adrenaline and suffers the consequences later. He carries a first-aid kit in his car, but has never needed to use it, and yes, he always has an umbrella.

How charitable is your oc? Or are they more stingy with their resources and money?

god. He is stingy, but not out of a miserly nature - he just legitimately does not have much money. He never has, ever since childhood, and that shit is ingrained in him - you watch what you’re spending, because you never know when you’re going to need to make an emergency payment.

If someone was describing your oc to someone who had never met them, what distinguishing features would they mention? How would one identify your oc in a crowd?

Short guy, kind of round-faced, round glasses - kinda looks like he’s lost even when he isn’t. Jumps if you bump into him.

Does your oc have any pleasure that embarrasses them so they keep it secret? Or are they open about all the things they enjoy?

literally everything that he enjoys, he’s embarrassed about. He likes old black-and-white movies and he’s embarrassed about that. He reads shitty romcom fiction and he’s embarrassed about that. He enjoys cooking, he’s embarrassed about that. He actually enjoys sex, believe it or not, and he’s embarrassed about it. Don’t even fuckin get him started on his kinks because he’s embarrassed about them. tbh Felix doesn’t really know how to enjoy himself without guilt or shame, because he always feels like he needs to justify the things he likes and he doesn’t know how to do it. He’s just embarrassed.

What is your oc’s stamina like? Would they be able to run a marathon, or not run at all? What about walking/another physical activity? How are they with exercise in general?

Shitty stamina - he’s got weak lungs and the extent of his running ability is running for a bus and then needing literally four hours to recover. He sort of makes a vague attempt to exercise at home, but is easily discouraged and would just rather lie on the couch having a crisis of body-image.

How long can your oc stay focused on one task before they get bored? Do they constantly have to switch things up or do they hyperfocus? What sort of things is it the opposite for?

Felix is the king of repetitive, menial tasks. Set him in front of a diary or a spreadsheet and he’s well away. He really doesn’t mind thoughtless admin labour, even as he insists that he’s capable of handling more responsibility - and although he is more than capable, he also feels comforted by the predictability of data-entry. A nice mix of both would be ideal.

What smells bring back specific memories to your oc? What are those memories like?

Antiseptic and rubber floors, with that underlying stink of sickness. They’re not good memories.

How jumpy or easily spooked is your oc? Do they have a fight or flight reflex to being startled, or are they never startled at all?

He’s super-jumpy and easy to startle, which is delightful to some people. Between fight or flight, he’ll fly.

How polite is your oc? Do they do everything with the utmost courtesy, or do they completely refuse to say please and thank you?

He’s unfailingly polite, because his mother would have beat him with a shoe if he wasn’t.

How flexible is your oc? Can they touch their toes or do they have trouble just sitting down because of how stiff they are?

He doesn’t think he’s flexible at all, but certain intercurricular activities with Lyon suggest that he’s more flexible than he thinks he is.

What is your oc’s typical walking like? Do they speed-walk everywhere, do they take quick short steps or long paces? How loud are their footsteps?

Because his legs are kinda short, he walks pretty quickly just to be able to keep up with people - quiet steps, because he’s trying not to draw attention to himself.

If your oc was in a video game, what would their idle animation be?

Cleaning his glasses, putting them back on, squinting through them, then taking them off and cleaning them again ad infinitum.

What topics does your oc know the most about? Are these obvious or would these be surprising to others?

He’s a talented cook and has absorbed quite a lot about flavour profiles and all that shit that I know nothing about so I’m not going into details lmao. He’s also got a bank of knowledge about classic films that he keeps to himself, as he’s never convinced anyone would be interested. He’s got a lot of shit that he keeps to himself for this same reason, and therefore there’s quite a lot he could surprise people with if the right topics came up.

What time of day is your oc most awake? What about most tired? Do they get up at the same time every morning without need of an alarm, or is their sleep schedule all over the place?

Tries to tell himself he’s a morning-person. He isn’t. Left to his own devices he’d wake up about 10 and fall asleep about 2am, but he’ll insist if asked that he’s naturally inclined to wake up early.

What would someone blackmail your oc with? Would they be successful in getting what they wanted?

they’d get hold of a list of his pornhub browsing history and yes, they would absolutely be successful.

How easily does your oc get attached to things? Does everything have a sentimental value to them, or do they see nothing as more valuable than its practical use? What about with people/animals?

He gets attached to people and animals very easily, but as for things - he gets angry when he breaks or loses items, but that’s more to do with being stressed about having to pay to replace them than anything sentimental. He’s thrifty to a fault and won’t throw anything out until it’s absolutely unusable, to the point that he’s gotten pretty skilled at sewing repairs in order to avoid getting rid of clothes. He does have sentimental attachments to a few things, but not the majority.

How stubborn is your oc? Are they easily convinced of the opposite opinion, do they not agree but let it happen anyways? Or do they cause conflicts with their inability to budge in their decisions?

He’s not stubborn, as such, but he does know his own mind. He can be talked around or into things quite easily, but he does like to feel as though his voice has been heard.

How much has your oc traveled? Why is this? Would they like to travel more? Or are they perfectly fine with staying home?

He’d prefer to stay home - there’s too much room for error travelling abroad, and the risks don’t really outweigh the benefits for him. He travels back and forth between England and Germany, and he has visited France before as a boy, but that’s about it.

What signs tell that your oc is nervous? Do they fidget, is it in their expression or the way they say things? Or are they very skilled at hiding it?

He fiddles with his glasses and fidgets his hands around, and is also (as mentioned) a blusher - he’s Not Subtle when he’s nervous or flustered, which in turn makes it worse.

How superstitious your oc? Do they end up following them ‘just in case’? Or are superstitions incredibly important to your oc? What are some that they believe? What about the ones they don’t?

He says he isn’t superstitious, but I’m not certain that’s true - I think he’s superstitious despite himself. He follows them, then gets annoyed with himself for following them and assures himself that he won’t do it again, but then when it comes to it next time he follows them again anyway. He won’t walk under ladders, won’t open an umbrella indoors and he broke a mirror once and almost died. The only one he doesn’t believe is unlucky black cats, because he’s never met a black cat that was unpleasant.

[beclynn-herondale]

could you explain the reasoning behind you saying you relate more to jace than any other tsc character if you dont mind sharing?

Hi anon thanks for the ask and I hope all is well.

And no I don't as personal as it is.

I relate to Jace Herondale much because a lot of people see him as a cocky, arrogant, rude, asshole and a lot of people see me the same way when deep down there is always a reason for the way I act.

And like Jace my father was abusive and manipulative and racist, i also didn't know him well and he didn't show me much affection as a child I mean he had his moments where he did but those were rare. I am also reckless with my actions and emotions, I can be hurtful and push the people I love most away when I need them at that moment more then anything and I also do it as a self harm way, if people hate me then they won't get close and can't do much damage and a part of me wants them to hate me because it will hurt me, I have strong self hatred as well and usually go into that mode as often as I breathe, I am gentle at heart but have been told that gentleness is a weakness, I love extremely deeply and it can sometimes not always be the best. I am also sensitive and can get hurt easily and I mask it under sarcasm or confidence, I am also misunderstood. And I have a lot of childhood trauma, and more trauma in my teenage years, I can be angsty, I am a little chiseled, I am extremely sarcastic and use it as a coping mechanism, I also have a thing for red heads with freckles and green eyes, if I don't have to I prefer to not be so serious, I can be emotional but try not to show it, I have tried to be perfect and sometimes still think I need to be.

I can be protective of my family and friends but not in ways people understand, I can be loving with certain people, I love black and look better in it then the widows of my enemies, and wear it more then anything, I grew up without a lot of love and even with many siblings felt alone and I honestly didn't know many people I was homeschooled and didn't start really interacting with others until 8 or 10. I have a dirty mind, I am afraid of ducks. I to want to be an angst ridden teenager who can't confront their inner demons. I also have a mom who can be manipulative and can be manipulated, she can also be emotionally abusive even tho jace didn't really have a mom like that I still relate, my parents love is conditional. My stepfather is also manipulative and and emotionally and mentally abusive, but I can't hate my mom or father and step father because like valentine for Jace they have/had their affectionate and kind moments just again rare.

I am often confused by other people, I am stubborn and won't back down if it's important to me. Also blood hasn't always been family for me, I am a fragile person but don't tell anyone that. I have a sharp and defensive wit, I also use sarcasm to hide my insecurities. I have a strong moral code. I have a deep rage inside but keep it calmed with working out, I have been told I am elegantly beautiful. I can be charming and a flirt, and used to not form deep emotional attachments in fear they would use me or destroy me and I still struggle sometimes. I can be extremely passionate, I struggle with loving people I mean I can be but there's always that little fear in the back of my head.

And there is more but I already feel vulnerable and like I have given a lot of information.

Thanks again.

[royalsapphire]

Thoughts.....

So i just finished watching 2 seasons of Haikyuu!! And i have to say Tooru Oikawa is a very interesting character. He has like a twisted personality (not in a bad and strange way) and i love characters with twisted personalities..... >.< He’s very narcissist and look like an idiot on the outside, but he’s very evil and ambitious on the inside. Boy i love him.

PS: bear in mind, yes i tried so many times not to visualize Hisoka everytime Oikawa speaks 😑 at first it was so hard..

And idkw but i think edgy, cold-blooded killua zoldyck would be surprisingly match with goofball-devilish tooru oikawa.

First time meeting Tooru, Killua would be devastated, he can’t read the situation and cope with Tooru’s actions and behaviour.

Killua: wtf is wrong with this dude. This sucks a lot. Why do i have to get paired to do this with him..

Tooru: oh killua-chan. That’s not nice at all and you know, you should call me Tooru-nii chan..

And Killua would be asking about Tooru’s ability A LOT. I mean, on the outside, Tooru is like an unpredictable crazy teenager, that no one can control except Iwaizumi. Tooru’s confidence however would maybe build trust and confidence around Killua’s hesitation.

Killua: Hey are you sure about this? I don’t think it’s going to work. We need a new strategy

Tooru: Ii no ii no. Don’t worry about it. Believe me it’s def going to work.

And they will and always argue a lot. Killua will probably comment every move that Tooru has made. And Tooru would be so pissed by Killua’s words. If Tooru sounded smart, Killua would praise him but with sarcasm and sassy attitude.

But, one thing they have in common tho, they are so evil inside, when it comes to pranking someone. Killua is a kid, is normal. Tooru? Well everybody was like questioning if he’s really a 3rd High-school grader. Imagine if these guys plot a huge prank on someone..... i think that “someone” is not going to be amuse at all and dying to get revenge. If they could.....

Killua and Tooru are both smart. However, Killua shows his smartness and composure on daily basis, basically on the outer core he’s like that. He’s very cool. But sometimes to someone he doesn’t really know, he does get playful too and somewhat unpredictable. Like once he mentioned to Gon: People only find me interesting, coz they can’t tell if i’m being serious or not. 

Tooru on the other hand, on the outer side he’s very very playful and sometimes shows no seriousness what so ever. But deep inside, he’s the mastermind. In a pinch situation he will think, eventhough if it’s momentarily. But then in the next minute or two he will revert back to his playful, narcissist self. If he’s on serious mode, he radiates some kind of an evil energy.. idk how to describe it

So yeah ppl imagine if you were place in a very trouble-situation (like escaping a room that suddenly shrinks or so) with these two, wat will you do. I think i would be very amuse rather than nervous, and just laugh all the time, seeing these two bicker and got pissed with each other, deciding what to do first.

[whetstonefires]

both the negative AND positive reactions i'm seeing to BOP give me a very mid 90s to mid 2000s sense of "Girl Power" and idk why peoples standards are so low because i do not consider that kind of "girl power" to be particularly 'profound', if that's the right word. i haven't seen the movie yet so i can't say whether it's good or bad as a movie in terms of quality, completely unrelated to how it adapts certain characters, but if it's not then somethings just :/

Eh, it does better than a lot of its forebears, mostly in little ways? 90s girl power isn’t the worst thing, anyway. In some ways I really liked how awful Harley was allowed to be, even as that’s not how I see the character and I hate gross-out humor.

But yeah, the overall effect is not advancing any feminist frontiers and is in fact a mild disappointment on that front; it probably would have done better to have no attempt at messaging at all, and just been a romp that happened to be all ladies.

It’s not trying to be deep and it doesn’t need to be, but some of the ways it engaged with the concept of ‘girl power,’ if you will, bugged the heck out of me.

Particularly Harley’s big fuck-you to the Joker early on, that sets off her part of the plot, being inspired by coming to terms with a break-up he initiated that she had been in denial about; that nasty taste is lingering in my mouth really badly. I guess they were trying not to overlap and/or conflict with whatever happened in Suicide Squad? Which I did not watch. So I don’t know.

The stylistic pattern generally of sabotaging the characters and making them objects of derision immediately after they had a Big Moment, as I’ve mentioned, also struck me as a really bad decision.

(Especially in moments like when Harley was initially captured, when she was very assertive and provocative and ‘meh whatever’ about the threat of torture right up until it was actually going to start, at which point she flipped instantly to appeasement, making the previous actions the opposite of powerful, and also…that, in this context, is not funny. The context of Harley as longterm victim of the Joker which they avoided really shittily, I mean, and the context of supposedly making an anti-misogyny movie. There was a lot of iffy subtext of this nature. Eh.)

I personally had a lot of trouble with the way it swayed in and out of Serious Mode, tho; I couldn’t keep up. People who can switch like that probably had a better experience.

Overall it worked for me a lot better than Supergirl or Jupiter Ascending, the last two things billed as feminist that I was notably disappointed by; it didn’t feel the need to fall over apologizing for its lead’s girl-ness like the former, and it didn’t ultimately deny its female leads the ability to make good calls or to cope with the consequences of their own decisions in any practical fashion ever.

(I’m still mad okay about how Jupiter Ascending had a whole arc setting up Jupiter being able to use the rules of the evil space society to her advantage, only to have her consciously choose not to do that because her family was held hostage, and order everyone who could help her not to do so because She Has The Right To Make Her Own Choices, then once she’d put herself in a position of powerlessness have the belated breakthrough that actually she wouldn’t let the world burn to save her loved ones, she’d let her loved ones burn to save the world–except if she died here, as she now had no way of preventing, she couldn’t save anyone, whoops.

She does not ultimately do anything whatsoever that actually resolves this situation she’s put herself in by finally asserting her right to make decisions; her people (mostly the boyfriend) just ignore her wishes and save her, which was a really aggravating resolution thematically even if watching her beat up Eddy Redmayne’s character was mildly cathartic.)

Anyway I try not to waste any more of my energy than I can help on Rep Media not being good enough. It’s an ongoing struggle.

[otakween]

Cyborg 009: Call of Justice - Episode 1

Thanks, I hate it!

Notes:

-Wow...are they serious!? This is hideous. I’ve seen MMD videos that are higher quality than this. It might not be as bad as that CGI Berserk show but...it’s pretty bad. My theory is they’re trying to see how cheap they can make an anime before otaku stop buying. Makes sense that they would use a known-property so the fans feel obligated to watch it.

-The mouth flaps look extremely unnatural. Like each character’s a weird, latex puppet.

-Lazy ass opening that’s basically just the character models spinning around (catchy tune tho)

-I found the best way to cope as I watched this was to tell myself “This is a fan animation. This is a fan animation.”

-Around half the episode was in black-and-white flashback mode which was even uglier to look at somehow. Especially when some background characters had their faces like...projected onto them?

-WTF is Joe wearing!?

-Geronimo’s body looks so lumpy. It’s terrible D:

-007′s face seems to be frozen in an awkward smirk and his dub voice is pretty awful...

-Their uniforms look really stupid. I hate the wedgie straps lol. 

-The only positive thing I have to say is that I’m glad this is a follow-up and not another reboot. If I have to sit through this uggo animation, at least I can get an original plot out of it. (Just make an audio drama if you’re going to animate it like this honestly)

[saltlordofold]

Questions for your boys 🤩 Aedan: 1, 7, 23, 25, 32, 48; zev: 10, 26, 38, 45, 46; Alistair: 15, 20, 24, 29, 50

I’m crying  thank you for asking about the boys! I’ll answer about the modern!au since that was what we were talking about.

Aedan

1.How do they respond to having a song stuck in their head? Does that happen to them often?

When a song gets stuck in his head Aedan will hum, sing under-breath, and drum to the beat of it on every available surface, sometimes without even noticing. He loves music so it isn’t at all uncommon XD

2. How do they cope with losing an argument?

Depends on the argument! But Aedan is a very intellectually curious person so if it’s some sort of philosophical debate, he’ll be glad to have learned from another point of view than his. He’s a pretty good sport about this sort of thing, but he will take it VERY seriously. There’s a good chance he’ll come back to the person days later like “WELL ACTUALLY” because he kept thinking about the argument even after it was done and came up with new points to make lol

23. When engaged in an irritating conversation, how to they conduct themselves?

If he’s really ticked, Aedan gets cold. He’s very good (sometimes too good) at shutting out his emotions so he will keep a straight face, listen to what the other person is saying until they are done,and then retaliate with a sharp, understated retort, delivered with glacial aloofness. If the situation is less serious he might just snort and clearly signify how dumb he thinks the person is being lol. Aedan takes no shit.

25. How do they feel in large crowds?

He’s fine with them but won’t seek them out unless it’s at a concert or something. He has a bit of that hyper-vigilance going on from his job and generally prefers to be in control of his environment.

32. How would they respond to being handed an infant?

Oh boy okay THIS ONE GIVES ME FEELS. Aedan is very good with kids and will basically revert to Uncle Mode whenever he’s interacting with a child. He’s that cooky uncle that will talk to children like they’re grown-ups, do with them stuff the parents wouldn’t – like going to concerts or take them bungee-jumping or something - and to whom kids will come ask stuff they’re too embarrassed to ask their parents. He knows how to handle babies and took care of Oren a lot when he was a teen. 10/10 would hand Aedan a baby without hesitation.

48. How festive are they on holidays?

Pretty festive. Aedan is a very devout man so everything related to the Chant, he’ll happily celebrate. As for everything else, he likes the traditions well enough and will good-heartedly partake. He might play it off like he’s too cool for that ugly sweater but he will wear it XD

Zevran

10.Do they enjoy sitting on counter tops?

He doooooooooo XD Zev’ will perch up anywhere lol. He does it elegantly, legs swinging off the edge of the counter while keeping up a conversation with someone, absent-mindedly looking through things around him, sneaking a taste of the food the person is preparing…

26. Would they ever spend an afternoon in a library? What section would they spend the most time in?

He would but not by his own choice lol I see him more taking books home and studying them there at his leisure. I think the whole being quiet and motionless for too long would end up wearing him out and he’ll end up distracted, going through the different sections,dragging his finger along book spines and chuckling to himself at the weirdest titles. He can and does get very absorbed in studying,especially when it comes to the disciplines he has to teach and the methods of pedagogy, but I see him doing that more comfortably in a private space where he can take breaks, snack, and read in whatever contorted position he might fancy

38. Do they prefer salty or sweet things?

Spicy lol. But really, I’d say fifty-fifty. He has favourite dishes in both categories.

45. Who is their greatest confidant? Who confides in them?

Aedan is a big one, of course. Zevran tells him things about himself little by little, and loves how easily Aedan accommodates his natural pace, never prying him for more information than he’d like to give. Aedan does the same thing back and it’s a quiet, unhurried thing and they both love it. He instantly trusts Alistair, too, with informations about his past he would never tell anyone else so fast ajshdakjsd.

He also has Monique, his co-worker, to whom he tells everything about his current love-life and with whom he laughs a lot.

46. What is something they’ve always wanted to do, but know they shouldn’t?

Go back to Antiva City. Yeah it’s a big city, and he’s not being actively pursued by the Crows (to his knowledge) but so soon after his departure, he feels like his face is too well-known to show himself there, that it might be taken as provocation, and put himself and the boys in danger. He misses it so much tho :(

Alistair

15. How would they respond to performing on stage?

If it’s in a professional setting, he does just fine. He’s already the most frequently appointed speaker for all important briefings,reunions, ceremonies at Base… In his private life, though, oh boy.Alistair is shy, self-conscious, and hates being in the spotlight.He’s afraid of what people might think of him and even if he might power through such a situation using humour and self-deprecation, as well as the support of his loved ones in the audience, it’s always going to cause him anxiety. At work his sense of duty just overrides all of that lol. He knows what he’s doing, knows that he knows it, and has no problem being in charge any more.

20.What was their favorite toy as a child?

Dolls, I’d say. In any shape and form: heck, he’d make his own,out of a bottle cork or a piece of wire. He’d use them to play out scenes in his head, at times epic battles and others just domestic interactions, saying all the lines and making all the sound effects. He had a lot going on in his mind as a child and didn’t have many other kids to play with, so making up stories in his head and playing all the characters was a natural response to all of that, I think. I imagine he had a favourite or two, something like a small plastic mabari, the kind you find in surprise eggs or something.

I don’t imagine Eamon and Isolde were much on gifting him cute kid stuff he might actually have liked [side-eye]…

24. What words make them cringe?

When people call Aedan “the Hero”, it makes his skin crawl (that’s because Hero in Warden tradition refers to the Wardens that died killing archemons and in this verse Aedan did not, thank you very much XD). Everything like racial slurs too, of course. “Half-breed”especially strikes a chord seeing his own background. I guess he also had words he dislikes like all of us, too, stuff like “turgid”and “gurle” lmao

29. Do they wear underwear?

He does XD In the house it goes: Alistair, boxers; Aedan, briefs;Zevran: everything and anything (and nothing) as long as it looks and feels good.

50. How likely is it that they would be the first to point out a full moon or a beautiful sunset?

Pretty likely

[one-abuse-survivor]

this is kinda time-sensitive but pls dont feel too pressured to force yourself to respond!!!

hi there, anon with the abusive sister here! hope you’re doing okay! idk if my previous ask went through about going to see my nan, but we found out about ten minutes ago that she is 100% in contact with my abuser—something i was expecting, but now i know for sure i feel trapped. my nan doesn’t believe that my sister abused me and my parents, and i’m terrified that my nan will tell my abuser where we live. we moved 200 miles away from our friends and family to a village where we feel safe and happy, all to escape my sister and be free for the first time in over a decade. knowing that one day she could suddenly appear on our doorstep is making me so scared and paranoid and i feel like i can’t trust anyone or anything. one of my main triggers is red cars (like my abuser’s) and i feel like i’ll break if i go outside since we live near people with red cars. i can’t stop glancing outside to make sure she isn’t sat outside watching me. how do i stop feeling so betrayed and vulnerable?

Previous ask:

hi there, anon with the abusive sister here ! thank you so much for the advice, it really helped !!! i’m trying to find a way to convince my parents to let me go to therapy to help me work through things, but they aren’t very keen on the idea and think meditation will solve everything. my mother finally admitted on the phone that my sister’s abuse has really affected me (which is true) so i’m hoping that they’ll come around to it eventually. i tried online therapy when i was younger and still being abused to help with my mental illnesses, and it helped even tho i only went for a few weeks before the club i used to access the school computer was shut down :(

i was wondering, though, if meditation would actually help when i start to get scared? in a few weeks i’m going to stay with my grandmother for a few days and i’m terrified that my sister is going to show up and start abusing me again, which is causing me to be jumpy, physically tense, etc. my abuser keeps ringing my mother to try and get back in our lives, and i accidentally heard her voice through the phone this morning, which nearly led to a panic attack in the back of the car. i’ve had a few nightmares about her abusing me again, too, which is still making me nervous about sleeping even tho they were a few weeks ago. would meditation help this, or would i be better going to therapy? thank you so much, have a wonderful day !! ^,^

Hi again, nonnie! I’m really glad my previous advice helped :) and sorry for posting your asks in a non-chronological order, I accidentally copy-pasted and deleted the wrong one 😅

I really hope your parents come around to you seeing a therapist soon! You don’t have to be struggling with something as serious as trauma or abuse recovery to feel like you could benefit from therapy; but when you are going through trauma and want to go to therapy, I really do believe that’s the best thing you can do to help yourself. 

I don’t know practically anything about meditation and I’ve never tried it, so I can’t tell you whether it would help. I’m sure how helpful it is with trauma also depends on the person, but maybe some of my followers have tried meditation and can share their experiences :) 

In any case, nonnie, although I do encourage you to find healthy ways to cope with this stressful visit (and that can include meditation, breathing, expressing your emotions in a safe way, and a long etc), I think it’s also important for you to remember that it’s not a bad thing that your body is having these reactions to an actual threat that you may see your sister again or have your address given to her. Sure, when we go into survival mode because we hear loud noises or we hear a mention of our abuser, it is important to teach our bodies that they’re safe and they don’t have to be scared. The goal in those cases is to teach our bodies that things that feel like threats aren’t actually threats.

But when the threat is real, our body’s reaction is appropriate and is necessary to keep us safe. When there’s an actual, real chance of contact with an abuser, I think it’s important to allow our bodies to have these reactions, even while doing whatever we can to soothe ourselves. You can’t expect yourself to not feel vulnerable when you genuinely don’t know whether your abuser is going to show up at your doorstep. What you can do, though, is take steps to make yourself feel safer, like discussing the possibility of enforcing the door and window security in the house with your family, or asking your mother to not answer her calls when you’re within earshot so you don’t have to hear her voice, or ask a friend who lives nearby if you can sleep over so you can get some rest without worrying about waking up to your sister being there. 

Other than that, maybe it could also help to keep track of the red cars that belong to your neighbours, for example by getting familiar with the plate numbers or car models.

Be gentle with yourself, nonnie, and I’d say try to focus on what you can do right now to feel a little bit safer instead of focusing on how to stop yourself from feeling scared in the first place. You have reasons to be scared. 

That’s all the advice I can give, but I really do think a therapist will be able to help you through this much more than I can, so please, don’t stop asking your parents! If you want to, you could try to convey to them that you need to talk to someone who’s specialised in trauma, and not just learn techniques to calm your body and mind by yourself. 

Sending all my support your way ❤