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gayalanwake · 7 months ago

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something that seriously haunts me is that when I went to new york comic con last year I walked right past the b&bh booth at artist alley bc I had yet to gaf. Like I literally started watching the show 2 weeks later. fuck my stupid baka life

#idek who was hosting the booth????#it would be an artist from the show since it was artist alley #but I don’t know who #it’s easy to check but im lazy #I COULDVE GOTTEN A SIGNED PRINT😭😭😭😭😭#another thing that haunts me #is that the original artist for the goosebumps series was there #tim jacobus iirc #and he had an assistant who was talking to someone #so I waited like. an uncomfortably long time #because I thought I had to wait to speak to his assistant and not him #and he just suddenly looks up and goes ‘can I help you….’#I wanted to die so fucking bad #IM SORRY SIR 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#HE WAS DRAWING AND HE HAD AN ASSISTANT I THOUGHT I WASNT SUPPOSED TO TALK TO HIM #he got 20 bucks from me though so I don’t think he cares #I still care #i randomly think about it and it makes my stomach drop #he literally doesn’t remember me

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lotus-pear · 2 months ago

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i love you royal trio (minus akechi)

#i was listening to the world we knew by frank sinatra while drawing this to inflict maximum emotional damage 😔#royal actually shot me fifty times in the chest and slaughtered my entire family #i’m actually inconsolable over the ending what the fuck do you mean akechi chooses to die of his own volition rather than be manipulated #god it’s just. his character actually makes me violent and insane. they’re going to drag me kicking and screaming to the psych ward #he never had an ounce of control over his life. not even once. he was CONSTANTLY being yanked around like a marionette #until he was disposed of as another pawn in shido’s plan #and then out of some cruel irony he was resurrected even though he did not want to be alive #for once in death he would have found peace—only for that to be taken from him too.#and bc he thinks he’s worthless and his life is so easily gambled away he doesn’t view it as a major dealbreaker when maruki brings it up #“do you really think something as trivial as my life should stand in the way of your decision?” yes you fucking asshole #what do you mean he’s literally fated to die in every timeline? definition of doomed by the narrative #there’s not a single version of his story that doesn’t end with him being slaughtered #GODDDDD he makes me violently ill i hate goro akechi so much he’s so fucking selfish HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT THIS DEAL IS TEARING ME APART #i was so tempted to get the bad ending just so that he was alive ☹️#he looked so happy. he was surrounded by people who loved and treasured him.no shido. control over his life. the ability to choose his futu #TEARS IN MY EYES MARUKI WAS THE ONLY VILLAIN WHO WAS LOWKEY MAKING SENSE 😭😭😭😭😭#my toxic trait is that i think maruki was right all along 😔#ALSO SUMIRE AAUUGGHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#the survivors guilt literally eating her alive until the point where she gaslighted herself into thinking she was her sister. insane.#royal was so good bro i’m so glad i endured 200 hours of hell just to play it #terrible terrible ending with everyone going their separate ways and ren ending up in juvie for months #akechi actually being dead in the good ending is so fucked up 😭😭 i thought there was some way maruki could bring him back regardless #not ren hallucinating him in the last cutscene too 😭😭😭😭 “i still see your shadows in my room” ahh ending #persona 5 royal #persona 5 #ren amamiya #akira kurusu #sumire yoshizawa #goro akechi #lotus draws

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astronnova · 3 months ago

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doodles (as i avoid work) of the super awesome you wouldn't like me alive fic by @ectoplasmranch which i binge read in a 7 hour sitting yesterday

#🧻 sharts #danny phantom #danny fenton #dash baxter #i aint tagging everyone else. jazz was the most fun to doodle though #figuring out their faces was . hm. it was a moment. i hope i made jazz and danny look related enough HAHA probably not. i wanted jazz and #him to have the same eyes its just jazz still looks like a normal girl and danny looks like he's lost all zest and life for the world #like shit man if someone looked at me like that in the highschool hallway id be scared too i dont blame you dash #UGH DASH IS LIKE A GOLDEN RETRIEVER TO DRAW FOR THIS FIC. i love it so much. i love me a shitty guy turned nice #elderich horror danny is cool. im tag rambling now. my bad #this fic has a bit of a death grip on me. i need to be normal and go to bed #ALSO I CANT FIGURE OUT HOW TO DRAW TUCKER IM SO SORRY. HIS HAT. IT PAINS ME #anyway uhhh if u like danny phantom read dis fic? pretty please? for me? its at 127k words atm so. if youve got a day to spare #(dont be like i me i fucked up my eyes binge reading it LMFAO. be smarter)#guess ill die (danphantom)

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isabelleadjani · 7 months ago

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LINGLING KWONG in makeup by homeless_makeupb

#lingling kwong #lingling sirilak #lakornladies #the secret of us #the secret of us the series #wonderfulwoc #dailywomen #thai gl #gl drama #*m #useroro #useranusia #ninqztual #eritual #dearestmillie #userwocs #i say this. from the BOTTOM OF MY HEART. i have never been more gay in my entire life and i feel like i am going to implode.#i know for sure someone else giffed this but i could not resist. i just couldn't.#i want her so fucking bad but i know if she looked at me just once i would absolutely die.

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thevioletcaptain · 2 years ago

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i genuinely don't care how good a piece of ai generated art or writing looks on the surface. i don't care if it emulates brush strokes and metaphor in a way indistinguishable from those created by a person.

it is not the product of thoughtful creation. it offers no insights into the creator's life or viewpoint. it has no connection to a moment in time or a place or an attitude. it has no perspective. it has no value.

it's empty, it's hollow, and it exists only to generate clicks (and by extension, ad revenue.)

it's just another revolting symptom of the disease that is late stage capitalism, and it fucking sucks.

#''but i just want to use it to--'' don't care! it's shit! stop fucking feeding it!#if you need help generating ideas or jumping off points then join an artist or writer group online #talk to people #make connections #that's what art and writing is supposed to be about in the first place #i'm mad as hell etc.#so goddamn sick and tired of seeing ai shit get passed around on here #it's bad enough in general but every time i see more of it showing up #tagged as fan art or as fic #the angrier i get #heartfelt imperfection in art and writing will always ALWAYS be worth more than the most technically ''perfect'' ai generated image or text #fandom problems #ai generation algorithms die in a fire challenge 2k23 #just a heads up that i'm muting this post and will no longer see responses to it #because i'm tired of seeing dogshit takes from jackasses who want to ''debate'' me #there's no debate you're in the wrong on literally every level and you can die mad about it

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sunlit-mess · 9 months ago

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consumed by the inevitable

#messyr #you know- I kept thinking: One day. The cage will be open but I feel like I'll stay. Because if I run- I'd wind up dead from their bullet #so I just- tend to- follow as much as I want to rebel and put sense into this fuckass household. I hate seeing the others in pain as well #and it hurts more that it feels like I can NEVER be the one to break this cycle of abuse- when I knew from the start- when I knew too much #but here I am ending up like the rest of them- helpless and unable to do jackshit about the situation. I cant say or do anything at all!#I dont want to end up like them- if anything I want to BREATHE- i want all of us to LIVE without this pain that has existed for generations #I want to help so bad no matter how much I know I am unloved.#no matter how much hate i carry- no matter how much burden- Underneath it all- I'm devoted to them- that's how fucked up I am #i know i'll never be enough. I know how often I think of death and wish it.#But I have a dream to achieve and I am not planning to die until I reach it. Not yet. If pain is where I strive best then so be it.#doodle #vent art #artists on tumblr #bpd #toxic behavior #learned helplessness

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spidehpig · 2 months ago

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raphlep memes because im obsessed with them

#love them so bad #i got my old man yaoi goggles ON when it comes to them #they’re bickering like an old married couple & then fucking nasty in my mind palace #i have a chronic condition where i have to clown on raphael at least once a day or i’ll die #i promise i love him hes just a clown so i can’t resist #like im sorry stink stink i promise i love you and think youd make a fantastic archdevil supreme. ur just so cringe but dont worry its hot #haarlep you’re perfect and can do no wrong #you should be able to terrorize debtors for your own amusement and snack on souls whenever you want #also tried to use my own screenshots but i swiped 2 of these off google so if its ur screenshot & u don’t want me using it pls lemme know #bg3 #raphael #haarlep #bg3 raphael #raphael bg3 #haarlep bg3 #bg3 haarlep

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albaharu · 7 months ago

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i dont wanna doom people with the taint without them knowing, but the game doesn't let me warn them ú_ù except with velanna. she deserves to make an informed decision

#i know its supposed to be a secret but fuck that let me tell the people #also i was so close to not recruit oghren cause im like #man you are a father u dont need this shit you dont even dream and now you are gonna start having nightmares and die earlier than you shoul #but that means Not Hanging Out With Oghren so. i had to doom him #choices were made #same with anders its like i know this is gonna fuck u up but also i know i cant stop da2 from happening dgijgdfioj #i also feel bad about recruiting nathaniel he could had a decent life...#velanna at least knows and wants it #sigrun is in the legion of the dead anyway and justice is already a warden technically so no problem with them #dragon age #dragon age awakening #daa #dao #brosca #the warden #priscilla brosca #anders #anders dragon age #oghren #oghren kondrat #velanna

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doumekiss · 1 year ago

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if you break it down Kabru's journey on the whole manga is about the ridiculous lenghts he will go through just to get this one weird guy to notice him and talk to him a little bit

#so pathetic I love that for him #and for Laios too because like this is a character that spend his life being misunderstood by most people and being looked down upon becaus #of giving bad first impressions and failing to connect even with people that he thought he was bonding (fuck shuro forever)#Laios deserves someone who is willing to lie cheat and die multiple times just because he wants to hang out with him and understand him #dungeon meshi #labru #thoughts

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hijinxinprogress · 7 months ago

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12 year old tim realizing robin’s not coming back to gotham and deciding that it’s Batman’s fault so he has to ruin the little bit of sanity and peace of mind Bruce has managed (read: struggled) to keep in his grasp:

#tim drake #dick grayson #robin #dc robin #bruce wayne #batman #tim drake is a menace #tim drake was and still is a die hard Robin fan before anything else #so he 100% thinks Damian’s funny when he’s not the one being targeted #there’s mission reports with comments in the margin like ‘nice 👍🏾 do it again’ and ‘650000000/10 🎉’ and Bruce hates it sm #it starts with a mild explosion and psychological fuckery and ends with a prank war with city wide structural damage #Bruce sees Tim and Damian getting along and starts sobbing in the batcave #It was 12 year old Tim Drake and his 67 alt twitter accs against the world (Batman) when dick left #For the two years dick refused to stay in Gotham I promise you batman’s anonymous tip line was just 325 ruthless insults from tim everyday #Imagine bruce trying to figure out which of his rogues keeps photoshopping terrible .5s of Batman then mailing it to the gcpd #just to find out it’s some fucking middle schooler with a bowlcut from bristol #Tim drake is unhinged and petty #Like it gets so bad that gothamites (even the rogues) have picked a side in this mostly one sided beef between a middle schooler and batman #I want internet beef between a middle schooler and a 29 year old med school dropout bruce ‘I am the night’ wayne #Bruce is foaming at the mouth whenever someone opens Twitter next to him #and batman is breaking your clavicle if you mention twitter in his hearing range 😭#Batman showing up at Tim’s windowsill: take down all your accounts rn and im calling your parents 😡🦇#Tim pulling out a ouija board: let’s see if your parents answer before mine 🤨#I made yj on the sims so they could fight the jl and I was like middle school!tim drake w/ a twitter acc???

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lorepossum · 6 months ago

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I am NOT saying the most recent Hunter the Parenting audio log made me crazy…

But me and my friend have been discussing whether Marckus is destined for an awakening (a la: Mage) that D has been desperately trying to stall, or whether D interrupted his Chrysalis (a la; Changeling) and I have been been down a reddit/fandom wiki hole including but not limited to: Neverborn, True Fae of the Dreaming, and Outer Lords and now I look like this: