#I wanted to die so fucking bad
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something that seriously haunts me is that when I went to new york comic con last year I walked right past the b&bh booth at artist alley bc I had yet to gaf. Like I literally started watching the show 2 weeks later. fuck my stupid baka life
#idek who was hosting the booth????#it would be an artist from the show since it was artist alley#but I don’t know who#it’s easy to check but im lazy#I COULDVE GOTTEN A SIGNED PRINT😭😭😭😭😭#another thing that haunts me#is that the original artist for the goosebumps series was there#tim jacobus iirc#and he had an assistant who was talking to someone#so I waited like. an uncomfortably long time#because I thought I had to wait to speak to his assistant and not him#and he just suddenly looks up and goes ‘can I help you….’#I wanted to die so fucking bad#IM SORRY SIR 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#HE WAS DRAWING AND HE HAD AN ASSISTANT I THOUGHT I WASNT SUPPOSED TO TALK TO HIM#he got 20 bucks from me though so I don’t think he cares#I still care#i randomly think about it and it makes my stomach drop#he literally doesn’t remember me
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LINGLING KWONG in makeup by homeless_makeupb
#lingling kwong#lingling sirilak#lakornladies#the secret of us#the secret of us the series#wonderfulwoc#dailywomen#thai gl#gl drama#*m#useroro#useranusia#ninqztual#eritual#dearestmillie#userwocs#i say this. from the BOTTOM OF MY HEART. i have never been more gay in my entire life and i feel like i am going to implode.#i know for sure someone else giffed this but i could not resist. i just couldn't.#i want her so fucking bad but i know if she looked at me just once i would absolutely die.
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doodles (as i avoid work) of the super awesome you wouldn't like me alive fic by @ectoplasmranch which i binge read in a 7 hour sitting yesterday
#🧻 sharts#danny phantom#danny fenton#dash baxter#i aint tagging everyone else. jazz was the most fun to doodle though#figuring out their faces was . hm. it was a moment. i hope i made jazz and danny look related enough HAHA probably not. i wanted jazz and#him to have the same eyes its just jazz still looks like a normal girl and danny looks like he's lost all zest and life for the world#like shit man if someone looked at me like that in the highschool hallway id be scared too i dont blame you dash#UGH DASH IS LIKE A GOLDEN RETRIEVER TO DRAW FOR THIS FIC. i love it so much. i love me a shitty guy turned nice#elderich horror danny is cool. im tag rambling now. my bad#this fic has a bit of a death grip on me. i need to be normal and go to bed#ALSO I CANT FIGURE OUT HOW TO DRAW TUCKER IM SO SORRY. HIS HAT. IT PAINS ME#anyway uhhh if u like danny phantom read dis fic? pretty please? for me? its at 127k words atm so. if youve got a day to spare#(dont be like i me i fucked up my eyes binge reading it LMFAO. be smarter)#guess ill die (danphantom)
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i genuinely don't care how good a piece of ai generated art or writing looks on the surface. i don't care if it emulates brush strokes and metaphor in a way indistinguishable from those created by a person.
it is not the product of thoughtful creation. it offers no insights into the creator's life or viewpoint. it has no connection to a moment in time or a place or an attitude. it has no perspective. it has no value.
it's empty, it's hollow, and it exists only to generate clicks (and by extension, ad revenue.)
it's just another revolting symptom of the disease that is late stage capitalism, and it fucking sucks.
#''but i just want to use it to--'' don't care! it's shit! stop fucking feeding it!#if you need help generating ideas or jumping off points then join an artist or writer group online#talk to people#make connections#that's what art and writing is supposed to be about in the first place#i'm mad as hell etc.#so goddamn sick and tired of seeing ai shit get passed around on here#it's bad enough in general but every time i see more of it showing up#tagged as fan art or as fic#the angrier i get#heartfelt imperfection in art and writing will always ALWAYS be worth more than the most technically ''perfect'' ai generated image or text#fandom problems#ai generation algorithms die in a fire challenge 2k23#just a heads up that i'm muting this post and will no longer see responses to it#because i'm tired of seeing dogshit takes from jackasses who want to ''debate'' me#there's no debate you're in the wrong on literally every level and you can die mad about it
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consumed by the inevitable
#messyr#you know- I kept thinking: One day. The cage will be open but I feel like I'll stay. Because if I run- I'd wind up dead from their bullet#so I just- tend to- follow as much as I want to rebel and put sense into this fuckass household. I hate seeing the others in pain as well#and it hurts more that it feels like I can NEVER be the one to break this cycle of abuse- when I knew from the start- when I knew too much#but here I am ending up like the rest of them- helpless and unable to do jackshit about the situation. I cant say or do anything at all!#I dont want to end up like them- if anything I want to BREATHE- i want all of us to LIVE without this pain that has existed for generations#I want to help so bad no matter how much I know I am unloved.#no matter how much hate i carry- no matter how much burden- Underneath it all- I'm devoted to them- that's how fucked up I am#i know i'll never be enough. I know how often I think of death and wish it.#But I have a dream to achieve and I am not planning to die until I reach it. Not yet. If pain is where I strive best then so be it.#doodle#vent art#artists on tumblr#bpd#toxic behavior#learned helplessness
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i dont wanna doom people with the taint without them knowing, but the game doesn't let me warn them ú_ù except with velanna. she deserves to make an informed decision
#i know its supposed to be a secret but fuck that let me tell the people#also i was so close to not recruit oghren cause im like#man you are a father u dont need this shit you dont even dream and now you are gonna start having nightmares and die earlier than you shoul#but that means Not Hanging Out With Oghren so. i had to doom him#choices were made#same with anders its like i know this is gonna fuck u up but also i know i cant stop da2 from happening dgijgdfioj#i also feel bad about recruiting nathaniel he could had a decent life...#velanna at least knows and wants it#sigrun is in the legion of the dead anyway and justice is already a warden technically so no problem with them#dragon age#dragon age awakening#daa#dao#brosca#the warden#priscilla brosca#anders#anders dragon age#oghren#oghren kondrat#velanna
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if you break it down Kabru's journey on the whole manga is about the ridiculous lenghts he will go through just to get this one weird guy to notice him and talk to him a little bit
#so pathetic I love that for him#and for Laios too because like this is a character that spend his life being misunderstood by most people and being looked down upon becaus#of giving bad first impressions and failing to connect even with people that he thought he was bonding (fuck shuro forever)#Laios deserves someone who is willing to lie cheat and die multiple times just because he wants to hang out with him and understand him#dungeon meshi#labru#thoughts
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sorry but do you ever think about the fact that the bernard we have today is a direct amalgamation of everything that happened in his past and i know that sound like such an obvious statement to say but it actually kills me to know that you can draw a direct line from who he is today all the way back to that sixteen year old boy who watched his best friend bleed out. like it is the defining moment in his life. it fundamentally shaped who he is and the person he's become. he is the bernard we know and love not despite the grieves shooting but because of it. because the gangs all got together and shot up his school. because tim walked out of that room with nothing but a baseball bat. because his darla got shot. because he watched her gasp and cry as she died. because he watched the blood coagulate around the wound. because he sat there and held her hand as her life drained out of her. because he walked into school that day with a joke he knew would make her laugh and her nose would scrunch up and she'd snort a little and tim would roll his eyes at him and call him ridiculous and instead he walked out with a bloody white shirt, blood under his fingernails, and two friends less. because, even now, almost half a decade out from the shooting, he thinks that if he closes his eyes, he will always be that stupid, scared little sixteen year old, holding the cooling body of dead best friend.
#there is a direct throughline from the boy we meet in robin 121 all the way to man tim reconnects with in urban legends 4#like maybe you guys have other interpretations of it but to me this is *the* defining moment in his life#and that's not to say that he perpetually bound to this traumatic event but it impacted him sooo much that his life is now divided#before shooting and after shooting#like you cannot tell me him falling into the cult was just something that happened to him#it happened bc he was in such a bad place from watching his friend die and then on top of that he loses contact with tim!!!!#this is his canon event!!!!#if you took it away from him if you made it so that he never had to go through it#the bernard we would get would not be the same bernard we got in urb leg4 and tdr#does it not make you want to chew on drywall that to get to the bear we love he has watch his darla die first????#head in hands head in hands#and it wasnt like batman came immediately after darls died!!! iirc they had to wait a little before he came#which means!!!!! alll those kids but bear esp had to sit in that room with darls' dead body until batman came!!!!!#do you think he cried and held her hand until batman came??? do you think he begged her not to go??? or do you think he told her#stories and made promises of all the things they were gonna do after they got out??? do you think he put pressure on the wound and#watched as the blood soaked through the jacket they were using as a towel??? and when she finally passed do you think he bit his lip#clean through to stop himself from wailing? bc if he's too loud the gunmen will hear them and he cannot be the reason jay from#history dies#auuuugh i cant fucking do this anymore#bernard dowd#timbern#darla aquista#louis grieve trio
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12 year old tim realizing robin’s not coming back to gotham and deciding that it’s Batman’s fault so he has to ruin the little bit of sanity and peace of mind Bruce has managed (read: struggled) to keep in his grasp:
#tim drake#dick grayson#robin#dc robin#bruce wayne#batman#tim drake is a menace#tim drake was and still is a die hard Robin fan before anything else#so he 100% thinks Damian’s funny when he’s not the one being targeted#there’s mission reports with comments in the margin like ‘nice 👍🏾 do it again’ and ‘650000000/10 🎉’ and Bruce hates it sm#it starts with a mild explosion and psychological fuckery and ends with a prank war with city wide structural damage#Bruce sees Tim and Damian getting along and starts sobbing in the batcave#It was 12 year old Tim Drake and his 67 alt twitter accs against the world (Batman) when dick left#For the two years dick refused to stay in Gotham I promise you batman’s anonymous tip line was just 325 ruthless insults from tim everyday#Imagine bruce trying to figure out which of his rogues keeps photoshopping terrible .5s of Batman then mailing it to the gcpd#just to find out it’s some fucking middle schooler with a bowlcut from bristol#Tim drake is unhinged and petty#Like it gets so bad that gothamites (even the rogues) have picked a side in this mostly one sided beef between a middle schooler and batman#I want internet beef between a middle schooler and a 29 year old med school dropout bruce ‘I am the night’ wayne#Bruce is foaming at the mouth whenever someone opens Twitter next to him#and batman is breaking your clavicle if you mention twitter in his hearing range 😭#Batman showing up at Tim’s windowsill: take down all your accounts rn and im calling your parents 😡🦇#Tim pulling out a ouija board: let’s see if your parents answer before mine 🤨#I made yj on the sims so they could fight the jl and I was like middle school!tim drake w/ a twitter acc???
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raphlep memes because im obsessed with them
#love them so bad#i got my old man yaoi goggles ON when it comes to them#they’re bickering like an old married couple & then fucking nasty in my mind palace#i have a chronic condition where i have to clown on raphael at least once a day or i’ll die#i promise i love him hes just a clown so i can’t resist#like im sorry stink stink i promise i love you and think youd make a fantastic archdevil supreme. ur just so cringe but dont worry its hot#haarlep you’re perfect and can do no wrong#you should be able to terrorize debtors for your own amusement and snack on souls whenever you want#also tried to use my own screenshots but i swiped 2 of these off google so if its ur screenshot & u don’t want me using it pls lemme know#bg3#raphael#haarlep#bg3 raphael#raphael bg3#haarlep bg3#bg3 haarlep
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If only 'Mr. Molloy' then why so personal?
#armand#daniel molloy#devil's minion#iwtv#interview with the vampire#my gifs#i will die on the 'devil‘s minion has happened and ended bitterly' hill#you cannot seriously convince me that all of this was coming from nothing#also luke wants to fuck assad so bad so rolin has to comply right?
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I am NOT saying the most recent Hunter the Parenting audio log made me crazy…
But me and my friend have been discussing whether Marckus is destined for an awakening (a la: Mage) that D has been desperately trying to stall, or whether D interrupted his Chrysalis (a la; Changeling) and I have been been down a reddit/fandom wiki hole including but not limited to: Neverborn, True Fae of the Dreaming, and Outer Lords and now I look like this:
But congratulations to Kitten and Marckus for becoming the fathers to 2 new terrible trembling attic children! So proud of them!
#hunter the parenting#hunter: the reckoning#htp#htp big d#htp kitten#htp marckus#shut up dismas#but okay WHAT THE FUCK#also i would die for Kitten and also Marckus#especially 12 year old Marckus#just look at that son boy#also me and kit DESPERATELY want Anton to come back as a changeling#like SO BAD#GIVE ME CHANGELING ANTON WARPED BY THE DREAMING#i wanna draw him like… now
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should surprise absolutely no one that i much much much prefer radahn when hes older (and not mindless! or mindcontrolled!)
(doesnt look amused about what malenia just did in that ol trailer- and possibly even moreso about what she said)
that (and base game) version of him is the only one to meeeeeeeee
#ganondoodles talks#elden ring#radahn#general radahn#starscourge radahn#i dont like how the tags immediately suggest to tag it with miquella too#LEAVE HIM ALONE#also sorry for that sudden spam of elden ring#i have fallen hard for radahn okay#doesnt mean zelda is over at all#i just LOVE HIM SO MUCH THE POOR MAN NEEDS A BREAK#imagine knowing that when you die you get send to your half brother that wants to marry you just so he can become a god-#-and then when you fight of the lady sent to kill you specifically so that happens infects you with a horrible disease that turns your-#-mind to mush- AND YET HE STILL REFUSED TO DIE#im still in the believe that no one else really knew and it was a ll a secret#that also MEANS THAT JERREN DIDNT KNOW#I FEEL SO BAD FOR HIM#you organize an entire festival to kill a beloved general turned into a zombie to give him an honorable death#not knowing you are sending him to be stitched together as his younger self and mind controlled by his brother that wants to marry him#to become a god like marika#we know more about what others wanted from radahn than what he was actually like!!!!!! the fuck!!!!
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percy needs to be haunted by bianca's ghost more
#percy jackson#bianca di angelo#she doesn't even have to do it herself#he is just trapped in the horror of watching someone die and never recovering from the guilt that follows#like i thin we should talk more about how she was the first permanent death of the series and the first death he really witnessed#i think he should be more deranged by it tbh#painfully devoted to nico's health and happiness in a way that skips the border of unhealthy and jumps straight into fucked up#even better if bianca doesn't care. and nico has moved on. so the only person who is stuck in this void of misery about it is percy#and he can't emerge. no matter what he does no matter the time that passes she is always there in the back of his mind#a reminder of the first time he failed to protect someone else.#a reminder of his selfishness. his inability to follow through on promises. of his powerlessness. his uselessness.#in tbotl he finds out that nico doesn't care about him or his soul. he doesn't want percy dead. and percy is weirdly gutted by this#he needs nico to hate him and it freaks him out that nico doesn't. he's clearly upset but percy isn't centered in it the way you'd think.#nico has his own mission and percy is barely a side note in it and he's so bothered by that. it drives him up the wall#how selfish is it to be upset with someone for not hating you because you got their sister killed?#he hates himself so much. he wants to die so bad. but he can't. he has to keep going. for nico. for bianca. he doesn't have a choice#happy talks pjo#okay it is 3:36am and i am. going to try to sleep now
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Dazai watching chuuya utter the foulest, most atrocious words known to mankind: I need to kiss him with tongue
#chuuya to an enemy: why don't you shove an umbrella up your ass and then open it you dumb fucking fuck#dazai: I want him SO BAD I'm gonna die#chuuya nakahara#dazai osamu#skk#soukoku#bsd#yes the umbrella line is from twt bcz I'm unoriginal
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The pitch for Buffy The Vampire Slayer was probably just “What if there was a girl who could kill vampires. And she can Never Catch A Fucking Break”
#Goes to a new school? It’s on the mouth of hell!#Trip to the zoo? Your friend just got possessed by a hyena spirit!#Have a parent-teacher meeting? Blond Twink (second most dangerous vampire in history) shows up and your mom hits him with an axe!#Got a new boyfriend who seems totally normal? He’s actually part of an underground military operation where he is fed drugs on the regular!#Have a little sister? Wrong! She’s actually The Key and is not your sister at all. And a Hell God wants her ritually sacrificed#New teacher? Nope she’s actually a fucking bug and she tries to breed with and eat your friend#Die and finally be at peace? Lol nope you’ve been revived. And that Blond Twink can do damage to you now#Your best friend just got back together with her gf? Gf immediately got shot and now your best friend is trying to end the world#Living a relatively calm life? The Blond Twink is back and has lost his fucking marbles. Also the very concept of Evil wants to square up#It’s so fucking funny in retrospect but I feel so bad for her#btvs#buffy the vampire slayer#buffy summers#buffy anne summers
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