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phagethemage · 6 months ago

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What qualities are you looking for in a partner? Is there anyone who's caught your eye?

I look for honesty, actually willing to communicate and grow as a person, good sense of humor and hopefully similar interests. My last relationship stagnated and neither of us grew for the past 2 years of it. It was all just me compromising so she would stay and her just.....not growing or overcoming issues she had. Like there was no real attempt to even do so.

And at one point after we split, I was talking to someone and mentioning how her(ex) and I didn't really have any common hobbies or interests but supported each other's strongly and the person I was talking with said "Wow.....why were you even together if you both didn't really like the same stuff or do anything together?" And that hit me like a rock.

I enjoy watching movies and shows, playing games (video, card and board), going out to museums if I can find some nearby and checking out new food places that open to see if they're good to what I enjoy. And my ex, didn't really like any of that. All she would do is sit at home watching YouTube and snacking constantly on chocolate. Still amazed she was as small as she was with so much sugar going into her.

But learning from that, I'm looking for all of those things along with a person who is not only capable but happy to give me a fraction of the affection that I give. Because when I love and dedicate myself to a partner, it's an ocean of emotions. Good ones, and I want to share that and I want to let them know how much they mean to me. But all the relationships I've had, none really gave that kind of feeling for long that they wanted me. Which, as I only have ever dated for long term (I date to try and find someone to share my life with, that's the goal for me) it sucks man. Give your heart, put in incredibly high amount of effort and just do what you can to show they're loved and appreciated simply for being them and being in my life. And you don't get a ¼ of that effort. In the end it usually feels like I'm the one doing all the work to keep the relationship together. I don't want that again.

Yeah this is a soft spot and a bit of a touchy subject I guess since I've not often gone into depth about it so I'm sorry for the long long response.

But there is one lady I have my eye on who I like very much. Though the situation is up in the air completely. I mean after all, they're worried I'll be disappointed if I spend time with them in person, and it is a drastic thing to not just visit someone on the other side of the country but also consider the long term of "would you be willing to move?" It is no simple subject to consider moving and leaving everything you've grown up around behind just to go somewhere else to be with someone. Praying and hoping it was all worth it and will work out.

Sure I can say I'd make it work. Do everything I could to make life kind, comfortable and happy. But would that be something they want? Would it be something they could accept? I don't know. I wish I did but I can't do anything but be hopeful. So I'll like her, I'll chat with her whenever I can and be kind, honest and genuine. It is the least I can do.

Thank you for the question anon. I don't know where your day will find you, but I do hope it's a lovely day. Gonna go settle my emotions down because ah if I'm not tearing up.

#anonymous asks #asks answered #I want to love and be loved in return #romantically I mean #I know there is much love from friends and family abound #But I so very much wish to hold someone close and dear #and make them comfortably feel like everything is going to be okay #even on the hard days #long post

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oglegoggle · 1 year ago

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I’m stressed by my work schedule. Thankfully I get paid on Friday and can hopefully deal with the speeding ticket issue. I know my dearest friend is also stressed by their work schedule. I feel so distant from them. I want to spend time with them and do activities with them in the evenings when they get home from work but they’re usually more interested in playing video games or staring at the internet than actively engaging with me. I had brought up to them that I feel distant from them and they said they’re trying to distance from me so it’ll hurt less when I leave in a few weeks. It… was an emotionally confusing response, like why did they ask me to stay longer if they’re just going to distance from me? I feel stuck in a place where I’m desperately trying to connect with someone I care very dearly for and like they want to connect with me but just can’t, doesn’t want me to go despite knowing that they can’t be present in my life the way I need. I kinda feel like my brain is being ripped in half again. I hope that things will be easier when their work schedule lightens up. But just the same I don’t quite know how to handle the growing stress of my own work schedule when I don’t even really want to be here where I increasingly feel ignored. The ambient sounds of the city stress me. The grinding gears of capitalism stress me. The long work hours and irregular schedule that doesn’t respect the one fucking day of the week I requested to always have off stresses me. I want so much to be out in the woods again. I stay because of them. I would stay as long as they want me to. But I just wish they would act like they actually want to spend time with me if they want me to stay.

#this is goggles #autism continues to make me feel like I’m trapped in a glass bubble #where I desperately want to connect with the world around me but can’t #I’m charming and fun and kind and intelligent and interesting and helpful #I am a well liked person but I just can’t quite feel integrated with those around me #I reflect upon the trans support group the other night when I had asked about dating tips and everyone said to use the internet #and I just don’t jive with the internet as much as I used to #it actively makes me feel more distant from others not more connected #like I want to live somewhere with shitty to no internet service again #it legitimately forced the people around me to actively engage in meaningful fun activities not just staring at rectangles all the time #I’m so tired of staring at rectangles I want to cook by the fire and do sports and play games and make art and build things and snuggle #I want to feel human and I want to be with other humans #I want to love and be loved in return #why do I repeatedly get super attached to people who are too broken and skittish to love?#I’m so tired. I want to go to Washington. I hope that I’ll find what I need there.#I mean I hoped I would in Wyoming and I did not. I hoped I would in California and I did not. I hoped I would in Oklahoma and I did not.#I really wonder if I ever really will find someplace that is gentle on me and I feel loved and integrated with the community #I desperately hope so. I’m so tired of being an outsider.

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chloesimaginationthings · 3 months ago

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Jeremy Fitzgerald bravery in FNAF 2 worries Michael..

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akanemnon · 2 months ago

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I don't like this place. It's turning everyone edgy and sad.

FIRST - PREVIOUS - NEXT

MASTERPOST (for the full series / FAQ / reference sheets)

#undertale #deltarune #crossover #utdr #crossover comic #twin runes comic #twin runes au #my art #art #susie deltarune #chara #this will ignite the “chara did nothing wrong” vs “chara is a murder hobo” debate I just know it #fact is they gave up everything for their plan to succeed and asriel blew it #HOWEVER they were also forced to watch asriel die and they could do nothing about it #so what does a dead child do for who knows how many years all alone with no one else to talk to?#they rethink everthying that went wrong #guilt is a weird thing that lingers and festers in your mind #no matter how much you're actually at fault #I mean come on... they were an abused kid #all they wanted was to not hurt anymore and return the love they were given no matter the cost #but now they are CONVINCED it was their plan that kickstarted this whole mess #and it's eating at them #you can see it because they actually used contractions for once #i love subtle stuff like that #also hey #susie's feeling remorse for her whole “chara offed asriel” comment #the two are more alike than she thought and now she feels bad #out of all people she should know what it's like to be falsely accused

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howcanisaveafallenangel · 1 year ago

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i dont even think its that i dont love my partner i think its more like. i have to push away any strong emotions in order to survive. in my house. otherwise i would be having a breakdown every goddamn night. and i have work in the mornings so i cant have that.

#people first people first people first #coping? no this is survival babes.#maybe one day i can crawl out of this pit and run for my life never to look back #but at the moment i just want to stay alive in the hopes that i can live eventually #ghost talk #im trying so hard though and im so so tired now #please.. i just want a break. i just want to rest #i want to feel my emotions #i want to love and be loved in return #i want. to go home #i want a warm hug and an “i love you” and to finally be safe #i cant do this shit anymore #i cant and i wont but i must continue #i have work in the morning #and they are counting on me to be there #goddamnit

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hinamie · 5 months ago

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realizing how much i like drawing him a million years too late :<

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuta okkotsu #okkotsu yuuta #yuuta #fanart #jjk fanart #i amn so sleepy today GJHKGJDS just felt like doing a bit of a return 2 form with red/white/grey colour palettes... smth easy #i will get back to being Actually productive now that i hav purged th yuuta brainworms fr the time being #rly tho it is criminal that i am only Now realizing how fun his design is given th state of canon.......#i want to draw him more! but ... the gojo suit.....#i think that whenever i draw yuuta it will b original flavour. i do not particularly want 2 draw limited edition gojo yuuta #also will i shut up abt these brushes yet the answer is no smile :)#the little Rake-y one is my LOVE when i was swatching them i honestly didnt think i would like it #but shes got so much personality!!!!!!#need to fill space? pastel rake. shadows not blending and look muddy? pastel rake #s tier brush in this Already stacked set

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afterthelambs · 4 months ago

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In another (happier) world, I think Muhen would've been Akechi's Sojiro. Akechi would've lived above Jazz Jin just like how Joker lived above Leblanc. Muhen would've taught him how to make the drinks and close up at night. They would've bonded over music. And Akechi would finally have an adult looking after him. Because Muhen does care about him in-canon. He's the only character in the epilogue that mentions Akechi, he notices who Akechi spends time with, and he wishes to see him again.

It's so sad that Akechi assumes nobody cares about him or wants him around and yet this random jazz club owner does. Do you ever think about Muhen seeing Akechi at the Jazz Jin sometime in December, not knowing it would be the last time he ever would

#i die inside whenever i think about how akechi will never know that Muhen cares about him. even if its really small it's still there #it means so much that joker isnt the only one that remembers akechi and still wants him around #and the fact that joker does NOT reveal to Muhen that Akechi is 'dead' is so important to me #it means the only two people that care about him in the epilogue both hope that he will return one day #“you are loved more than you will ever know” etc etc.#yeah dont mind me im just hyperfixating on a minor character with 1.5 seconds of screentime again #persona 5 #persona 5 royal #my post #goro akechi #p5 #p5r #p5r akechi #shuake #akira kurusu #p5r muhen

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bunnieswithknives · 4 months ago

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AU based off Nature except I kept thinking about it too hard. Dales not a good dad, but its such an easy problem for him to throw money at, and what do you do when a part is damaged? Well, you replace it.

Basically an AU where Dev gets to experience medical trauma and realizes much sooner how much his dad doesn't love him

#I have IDEASSSS #but only if people are interested #fop #fairly oddparents #dev dimmadome #dale dimmadome #fop dev #fop dale #fairly oddparents a new wish #fop a new wish #fop nature au #moral orel nature #hurt no comfort #blood #child abuse #child neglect #medical trauma #implied gun violence #Dev only gets a week or two off school because his dad doesn't want people to think anythings wrong #Dale doesn't care thattt much about public optics but people knowing you permanently disabled your son is absolutely not good for business #Dev hates the leg and keeps it as hidden as possible #as far as anyone else knows he just took a week long vacation and came back lazier and crabbier than ever #Dale did it out of his own sick kind of love but to Dev its just a reminder of how replaceable his dad sees him.#just the same as any other of his machines #The doodle in the corner is Dev coming into his own a bit more. He stops trying to look like his dad #Did you know Dev and Dale have naturally curly hair?? They just hair gel it to all hell #I think in this timeline Hazel shows up pretty soon after he returns to school so the accident is pretty fresh #art #digital art #fanart

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p4nishers · 1 year ago

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i cant get over the ball being so CLEARLY all for crowley i can't get over aziraphale trying to woo him with a WHOLE FUCKING BALL because that's what he knows that's what romance IS for him because he's been wanting to dance with crowley ever since dancing was invented and he's so stuck in time with the way he dresses and talks and he still thinks a dance is the high of romance AND HE MADE A WHOLE ENTIRE FUCKING BALL FOR CROWLEY JUST SO HE COULD DANCE WITH HIM like now it's so fucking obvious he gave away his BOOKS without a second thought and it was all for crowley he organised a whole JANE AUSTEN THEME BALL just so he could have an excuse to finally dance with the love of his life and i can't get over this i'm shaking my fists and pacing up and down he did not give a single fuck about anything other than dancing with crowley and HE BARELY TOUCHED OTHER PEOPLE'S HANDS WHILE HIS WHOLE FUCKING PALM WAS PRESSED TO CROWLEY'S AND i need to lie down

#im actually not okay im never getting over this #this was actually the most romantic thing to ever happen on television prove me wrong you can't #no because he spent CENTURIES reading about and witnessing and orchestring romances and he's been wanting to living in them WITH CROWLEY al #this fucking time and crowley rescuing his books was the most romantic thing that ever happened to him and in return HE GAVE AWAY THE BOOKS #HE LOVES SO FUCKING MUCH FOR CROWLEY AND OH GOD OH JESUS #how am i still not normal about this show im literally box breathing and my heart is fucking POUNDING from a SHOW i cant i just cant #i need psychiatric help #good omens #good omens s2 #azicrow #crowley #aziraphale #aziracrow #ineffable spouses #good omens season 2 #ineffable husbands #go s2

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sophsun1 · 4 months ago

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+ bonus:

Interview With The Vampire + Daniel being horny for Louis

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hollis-art · 4 months ago

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when i think of the phrase "staring lovingly", i can't help but think about kirk. i have never seen someone with more love in their eyes than i have when kirk looks at spock.

and bones is just there

#i love mcspirk. i do! but i love third-wheel bones even more #shoutout to the return of the archons outfits. will forever be some of my favorite tos costumes #this drawing isnt related to that episode at all btw i just really liked the outfits and wanted to draw them #spirk #star trek #star trek the original series #tos #tos spirk #fanart #star trek fanart #art #spock #james t kirk #jim kirk #bones mccoy #leonard mccoy

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 10 months ago

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Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 3: Enveloping Feelings.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 4)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #I wanted to try out a different paneling style for this one - sorry I'm a day late! (there will still be a post tomorrow to keep on track)#The original 3 panel comic idea was fine but the point of this new schedule was to take time to push myself a bit more.#I was taking a look back through some comic artists I felt inspired by #and I really loved how Lynda Barry fills her gutters with patterns and doodles!#Obviously I'm not going as absolutely wild with it as she does but it was a great exercise!#I truly think the gutters are the most important and most overlooked part of any comic. There's lots going on in that space.#It's the same with timeskips. The implied movement between moments that we don't see changes depending on how wide that gap is #You're here for the funny tags so here's some that ties this time talk together:#I think LWJ was thinking about that second note from day 2 but it took him 7 days of hazing to commit it to paper.#I think he sends it a day later and immediately regrets it. Chasing down the messenger and everything.#You know if something actually happened to his brother he would never ever forgive himself for putting the bad vibes out there.#Third time skip was the hardest because there was so many possible flavours of jokes here. Day 8/9 was a personal favourite.#day 14 was also funny (week by week). I think the debate on 'how long does lwj take to catch feelings' is more or less:#'how long does it take for him to arrive at a particular stage of grief and yearning (and awareness of it all)#This is a symphony. There is an act by act structure. Every day he is fighting to keep his old sensibilities. He is losing so badly.#(I'll be returning to the main comic soon but there is more of this AU to come!)

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endermagpieart · 10 months ago

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What do you mean I’m a bit late for Janus’ big day? Of course not, how could you say such a thing! I definitely didn’t forget all about it in my absence and only get reminded in the incorrect quotes video live chat; that’s not like me at all ;]

Anyways I decided to dress our sassy snake in some different outfits I think he’d like. He seems like the type to get all dolled up on his birthday and it goes with Thomas posting pics in outfits inspired by the sides on their appreciation days!

@thatsthat24