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Nugget Update (MV1)
sumary: y/n's always giddy after getting a nugget update, sure she loves her best boy, but it also has something to do with the cat sitter sending the updates
driver!reader x cat sitter!max verstappen -> habs incoming... series masterlist
cw: not fia approved words, a bit of lance hate (I don't actually hate him), mutual pinning, the grid teasing the reader, lot of appearances from the reader's cat, kissing, kinda mean!reader (to the grid)
wc: 4.1k
a/n: this is my first time writing in 2nd person so bear with me. also, I low key hate this and it may be shit. not proof read!
âWell arenât you a ball of sunshine?â A voice called out, disturbing the peace - or the closest thing to peace you could have near a Formula 1 track.
Your gaze snapped up, eyes narrowing as you took in the man standing on the entry of the RedBull garage. âHello, Charles,â you replied, a teasing bite obviously heard in your voice as you crossed your arms over your chest. âI know you wanted to experience what a successful garage looks like but I thought Ferrari had a better hold on you.â
Charles laughs, his eyes crinkling as his lips stretch into a smile. Teasing Charles was always a fun time but thatâs all it was, just a bit of fun. It never stretched into something meaner, just two people showing affection by teasing each other.
Charles had been your very first real friend on the grid. The first to offer his hand with a smile and genuinely mean it. The first to congratulate you on a win after getting out of the car or the first to say that the next race would be better. Really, he was your best friend, but you would never tell him that or it would go to his head.
âFunny, very funny.â He said, his accent thick. His eyes slid around the motor home until finally meeting your own. âLot of drivers are going out for drinks, came by to invite you.â
âI donât Charles,â you started to say, going through your mental list of excuses, searching for the best one to use to avoid this social interaction.
âOh come on!â He whined, rolling his eyes. He gave you a look that let you know you could stop thinking about an excuse because he wasnât going to be buying it. âWe wonât stay that long and itâs night race tomorrow so you donât need to wake up at the crack of dawn.â
You pressed your lips together, the lip gloss previously applied making them slide against each other easily.Â
Charles kissed his teeth, nodding his head along. Fine, heâll play the game. âSome of the WAGâs are coming as well.â
âAre you really trying to lure me out by promising female company?â
âIs it working?â
âEh,â you shrugged your shoulders. âWill you pay my tab?â
Charles scoffed. âPay your tab?â He asked, sounding as if you had asked him for his firstborn. âYouâre filthy rich! You have a bigger salary than me!â
âYeah, they do pay world champions a bit extra, comes with the title.â You replied, grinning at him, a wide teasing grin, your eyes twinkling.Â
âFine whatever, Iâll pay your tab.â He said, raising his hands in surrender. âNow go take that suit off and shower, you look disgusting.â
âYou look like a trash can threw you up!â
âIt threw me up because it saw you!â Charles shouted back in response, his back already turned to you as he walked away, back to the Ferrari garage.Â
And thatâs how you ended up in the bar, an hour later. Squished in the not too comfortable and definitely not meant to sit so many people, booth. With Georgeâs girlfriend Carmen on your left, and Pierreâs girlfriend Kika on your right, and deep in conversation with both of them.Â
You feel your phone vibrate under your hand on the table, and the screen lights up, showing off your wallpaper, a picture of your beloved cat Nugget.
You tune off from the conversation the moment the message arrives, grabbing your phone and pulling it in towards you. Your face lights up, lips stretching into a smile as your eyes focus on the sender ID. Maxie.
Or rather Max. The very cute guy who was your cat sitter whenever you were out and about in the world, chasing the racing track.Â
With a quick move of your fingers, you swipe up, opening your phone and going into the message app. Fingers quickly tapping along the screen of your phone as you type out your reply.
With a smile you closed the messages app, pressing your fingers against the button on the side of your phone, watching the screen go black before setting it face down onto the table. As you looked back up, Landoâs amused yet teasing expression caught your eye.
You leaned forward against the table, pressing your hands to the wooden surface as you attempted to get a bit closer to the driver on the other side of the table. âWhy are you looking at me like that?â
âOh nothing,â he said with a laugh. âJust wondering who youâre texting, thatâs all.â He intertwined his fingers, elbows pressed against the table and leaned forward as well. âYou were all grumpy cat but then you get a message and suddenly youâre all smiles.â
âGrumpy cat?â You scoff, rolling your eyes at the McLaren driver. âIâm not a grumpy cat. And for the record, that was Nuggetâs babysitter and he was sending me a picture of Nugget.â
Lando laughs, thereâs a twinkle in his eyes that tells you he wants to say more but he holds himself back. âCan I see? I havenât seen the orange gremlin in so long.â
âThatâs very mean,â you say, opening your phone to show him the picture, that Max had sent you. âNugget would never say that about you.â
âThatâs because Nugget canât speak.â He looks at the screen and his lips twist upward in a smirk. âWhoâs Maxie?â
You breathe out through your nose, teeth digging into your bottom lip. When you speak your voice is sharp, it leaves no room for questioning things or an invite to ask more questions. âThe cat sitter.â
âIâm sure thatâs all he is.â Lando laughs when you show him your middle finger before settling back into your seat and returning to the previously abandoned conversation with the two WAGâs.
The race went pretty smoothly, as always. Starting from pole, keeping the lead the whole race and with a 20s gap to car in P2. Everything after that was pretty much a blur, the interviews, partying through the night with the grid and boarding the jet early in the morning.
The sun already started setting by the time you made it to Monaco. With a sigh you rummaged through your bag, blindly feeling around the stuff inside before your fingers finally wrapped around the keys.
Opening the apartment door you walked inside, gently laying down your suitcase as your eyes settled on the scene in your living room. Right there, laying on your couch, in deep sleep, and cuddling your cat is Max Verstappen.Â
His hair had fallen over his eyes and the position heâs in looks rather uncomfortable, youâre sure his body will be aching when he wakes up. His chest was raising and falling with each breath he took, little sighs slipping past his lips. Nugget was cuddled up to him, curled in a ball.
You looked at him for a few moments before starting to move around as quietly as possible, not wanting to wake him up.Â
Max had been cat sitting for you for a while now. Half of last season and now half of this one so almost a year. He was a sweet, kinda shy, mostly nerdy guy you ran into in a coffee shop and spilled his coffee. You offered to buy him a new one and he joined you for the coffee and you got to talking when he said he was looking for a job so you offered him to become your pet sitter.
At that point you really did need someone to look after your cat while you were gone, since you had broken up with your ex who usually took care of Nugget while you were away. And you couldnât leave Nugget with your parents since your father was allergic to cats.
Now, your best friend who had been working in a different country had returned to Monaco and said sheâd be more than happy to look after Nugget - but you wanted to keep Max around.Â
Already having grown used to coming home after a race weekend to find him there, just existing in your space.
Nuggetâs whiskers twitch, his eyes opening and he pulls himself away from Max, stretches out and then trots over to you, rubbing his head against your leg affectionately while purring. He let out a happy, albeit a bit too loud, meow when you picked him up and on the other side of the room Max began stirring from his sleep.
He opened his eyes, a bit confused, and rubbed his knuckles against his eyes to wake up, blinking a few times as his eyes adjusted to the light filling up the room.Â
âYouâre back,â he says, his voice is gentle, still sleepy and a bit quiet. His eyes meet yours and he offers you a sweet smile that has you immediately smiling back at him. âDidnât mean to fall asleep, sorry about that.â
âOh no, itâs no problem,â you reply, running your hand over Nuggetâs fur as the cat lay happily in your arms. âYou can use the guest bedroom if youâre tired, you know. The couch may be expensive but that doesnât mean itâs comfortable for sleep.â
âI didnât want to overstep,â Max said, pulling himself up into a sitting position. You approached the couch and sat down, the cat nestling in your lap and purring in content. Max smiled, reaching out his hand and petting Nugget.
âNonsense Max, youâre not overstepping.â You cut him off, leaving no room for argument. You always told him to feel at ease in your apartment, that he was welcome to any food in the fridge and free to use the guest room as he pleased but even after all this time there was still a slight air of awkwardness backed up by the fear of going a bit too far.
Maxâs eyes settled on you, your own focused on your cat so you didnât notice him looking. He watched the way you cooed at Nugget, asking if he was a good boy while you were away and petting him gently, and his lips stretched into a small, careful smile.
He spoke before thinking. The words left his mouth before he even finished the thought inside of his head. âI watched the race,â he said, and your eyes instantly snapped up to meet his. He swallowed, already too deep to back down. âIt - â he licked his lips, trying to decide his next words, feeling like his tongue had tied itself up in a knot. âYou were spectacular. It was lovely ⊠simply lovely.â
You let out a breath, the corners of your mouth twisting upwards and you gave him a thankful look. Max swore he could feel his heart beating in his throat, and felt his cheeks heat up. âThank you,â you said, your voice gentle, holding a comforting tone. âIâm glad you enjoyed it. And itâs nice - knowing you watched.â
âIt is?â
You bit your lip, teeth scraping against you bottom lip as you looked at him, your brain running faster than the Sauber (like itâs hard) as you tried to come up with a response. âItâs kind of comforting,â you finally said, after what felt like a small forever.
You hummed, looking down at your nails. âI was thinking about bringing Nugget with me to the next race. Itâs been a while since he was in the paddock.â
âOh,â Max said, an edge of confusion noticeable in the tone of his voice. âDoes that mean that you donât need me coming over next week?â
âActually, I was hoping you would come with.â You say, before you can talk yourself out of making the proposition.
Max tilts his head to the side, kind of like a confused cat and you try your best not to giggle at the mental image. âIâm not sure Iâm following.â
âIf you wanted to attend the Grand Prix,â you tell him, running the edge of one of your nails along your skin. âCuzâ Iâm still gonna need someone to look after Nugget, and you do that in general so this would just be an added bonus of traveling.â
Max is silent for a few moments and you think heâll decline. You wouldn't fully blame him if he did, you know what the pressure of the paddock can be like. Youâre about to open your mouth, tell him that ânever mind, it was a stupid idea anywayâ and put him out of the trouble of finding a polite way to decline when he finally speaks.Â
âI suppose, if you want me to then yeah, Iâll come along to watch Nugget.â He says, trying to ignore the nervous feeling building up in his chest when you smile at him, a wide happy smile that makes him instantly smile back.
âGreat!â You said, the excitement evident in your voice. âSomeone from the team will contact you in a while to arrange the tickets and leave the rest to me.â Max nods, he doesnât trust himself to speak, not with the way his throat is closing up and it makes him feel like he canât breathe.
âLook at you all giggly,â Charles teased, gently pushing your shoulder with his hand. He wiggled his eyebrows, a laugh slipping past his lips as you glared at him.
âCharles, why donât you turn around and flash your pretty face to the crowd.â You said, rolling your eyes. You looked at the stadium full of people who were shouting out for their favorite drivers, waving banners and cheering happily. You smiled towards the stadium and lifted your hand up, waving your fingers to the public. âGive them a wave.â
âSee, I always knew you thought I was pretty,â Charles replied, waving at the public. The two of you and the rest of the grid were in a wagon, going around the track for the drivers parade, so essentially you were stuck with him for at least five more minutes. âNow, do tell whoâs got you smiling like that.â
âIs it Maxie?â Lando asked, the teasing tone evident in his voice. He pushed himself closer to you and Charles, inserting himself into the conversation.Â
âDidnât your mom teach you not to eavesdrop?âÂ
âNo, no!â Charles said, shaking his head as he waved his hand dismissively as you, his full attention now focused on Lando. âWhoâs Maxie?â
Lando smiled at him, his eyes sparkling with mischief. âThe cat sitter,â he said in a sing-song kind of voice.Â
âThe one you brought to your garage?â The Ferrari driver asked, his attention back on you. âThe pretty one.â
âHold up!â Lando almost shouted, raising his hands. âYou brought him with you to the Grand Prix?!â
âI didnât ⊠well I did bring him.â You said with a sigh, there was no escaping this now. âBut itâs not like that. Heâs here to watch Nugget.â
âAnd for you to watch him - because boy that is one good arm candy.â
âCharles, your homosexual is showing,â you warned.
âBut youâre not denying it,â Charles noted, giving you a smirk.
You rolled your eyes at him but finally gave in. âYes, Iâm not denying it.â
You stepped back into the motor home, your eyes immediately searching for Max and finally you found him talking to your lead engineer. As you approached the two you could start to hear their conversation and quickly realized they were talking about how the car worked and what went on behind the scenes at a Grand Prix. You found it cute that Max was interested in that.
His eyes met yours and his face lit up, the corners of his mouth twisting upwards into a smile. âYouâre back!â He said, âAfter terrorizing everyone around and getting pets, Nugget decided to settle down for a nap. Heâs in your driver's room.â
Max gave you a wink after saying that and you had to hold in a giggle. You excused yourself to go to your driverâs room, with Max following behind you. The first thing you noticed when you went inside was Nugget, curled up on the massage bed and sleeping without a care.
The next thing that grabbed your attention was a dozen pastries lined up on a small table next to the couch. They were all individually wrapped in tissues.
âMax,â you said, picking up one of the pastries and unwrapping it. âI really did mean only one pastry, you know?â You bit into the chocolate filled pastry, moaning at the taste of a treat you werenât usually allowed to have when it was race week. âMy trainer will strangle me if he sees.â
âI swear, no one saw anything.â Max said, shuffling over to the couch and sitting down. âI was sneakier than Nugget when heâs stealing my food.â
âOh, now thatâs a very serious claim.â You told him with a laugh, his own laugh echoing back. You picked up one of the wrapped pastries and offered it to him. âTake one, or five. Thereâs no way Iâm eating it all.â
He takes the pastry youâre offering him, his fingers brushing against your own as he takes it from your hand, sending sparks of electricity down your spine. After a second of hesitation you sit down next to him, the two of you eating the treats in comfortable silence.
His thigh nudges against yours and you turn to face him, finding that heâs already looking at you. He smiles and you donât hesitate to smile back.
The practices go great, P2 in FP1, P1 in FP2 and P1 in FP3.Â
The qualifying is where a slight setback shows up, with quali being ended early due to a crash and a red flag, putting you in P10 for the start of the race tomorrow. Â
Once the car had rolled back into the pits you wasted no time getting out, putting the steering wheel back into place before storming into your driverâs room.Â
You pulled your helmet off, fingers curling into the bottom of your balaclava as you pulled it off, throwing it next to your helmet before bringing your hands up to smooth down your hair.Â
âIâm not in the fucking mood, Pepe.â You said without turning around, assuming it was your race engineer coming to talk about the outcome of qualifying. âFucking Lance and his fucking money made seat - if that little frog screws up another quali, Iâll be the one crashing him out.â
ïżœïżœIâm not Pepe,â the other person in the room says and you instantly turn around, your eyes wide as they meet Maxâs blue ones. âAnd Iâm certainly glad Iâm not Lance.â
You looked him up and down, eyes trailing over his figure. You took notice of Nugged, cuddled up in his arms and looked at you curiously, and reached your hand out to pet the cat, a long breath slipping past your lips.Â
âSorry,â you said with a shrug of your shoulders. âI didnât really mean for you to hear that.â
Max barely heard what you were saying. Too distracted by the sight of you for his brain to properly register your words. Your skin was slightly glistening with sweat, an imprint from where your helmet and balaclava had dug into your skin still visible on your flushed cheeks. Your messy hair, and your chest raising and falling with each breath you took as you were still working on catching up your breath.
Max blinked, finally snapping out of his thoughts and focusing his attention back to what you were saying. âThey should have let you finish the lap.âÂ
âI agree but sadly thatâs not how it works.â
Max nodded along, not really knowing what to say to that so he switched to the next topic. âI ran into your friend. He invited you, and me, out for drinks. I think it would be nice to go, you seem like you need a drink.â
âYeah, I definitely do.â You replied, taking Nugget from his arms and into your own, stroking down the catâs body. âWhich friend?â
âUh,â Max started, thinking of a way to describe the guy since he couldnât remember his name. âWears red, pretty, sounds French.â
You laughed, smiling at him. âThatâs Charles. I hope you didnât tell him he sounds French, he gets offended by that.â
âThen itâs great I kept it to myself.â
You laughed in reply, putting Nugget down to the floor, the cat immediately moving to a cozy corner and curling up into a ball on the floor, shutting his eyes. âThe hotel is right next to the track, you can take Nugget back while I shower and then we can go - if you want to.â
âSounds like a deal,â Max replied with a smile.
You showered and put on a clean set of clothes just in time to meet Max after he finished dropping Nugget back to the hotel, leaving him with toys, food and water. The two of you made your way to the bar to join the rest of the grid for a night out.Â
Some of the drivers were playing pool while their girlfriends were engrossed in a conversation so that left you and Max sitting together, sharing drinks and talking.
âI just âŠâ you started, cracking your fingers. âI donât know, this quali really messed up my mood and I was riding on such a high after the practices going well. It all feels shit now.â
âMaybe you just need more motivation for the race.â Max offered, drinking the rest of the liquor from his glass in one go.Â
âYou have something in mind, Maxie?â You asked, the nickname slipping past your lips without a thought now that youâve had a few drinks.Â
âHow about a kiss if you get on the podium?â He said, his voice suggestive. Normally he never would have dared to say something like that but the alcohol courage really worked wonders.Â
Your eyes widened, clearly not expecting him to be so bold or to suggest that. He took your reaction as a bad sign, immediately straightening up as a wave of dread quickly sobered him up.
âIâm sorry,â he gasped out, the expression on his face shifting into a panicked one. âThat was stupid. It was thoughtless. It was -â
âA great motivation,â you cut him off, putting a finger up against his lips to silence him. âIt was a great motivation.â
His cheeks burned as his eyes met yours. He looked so vulnerable, his bright eyes impossibly wide. âYeah?â
âYeah!â
âOne more corner to go but youâre in the clear,â Pepeâs voice echoed over the radio. You blinked, your eyes focused on the track before you, the checkered flag already visible along with your team gathering in the front. âThatâs P1, Y/n. Phenomenal drive today, you deserved it!â
âThank you,â you said, your voice breathless as you moved your hands, going through the last corner and speeding towards the finish line. âThank you, Pepe.â You repeated, swallowing your spit. âIt was lovely, simply lovely.â
You put the car into P1, getting out and posing for a picture on top of your car. You could hear the shouts, the cheers, the celebration. You took off your helmet, ripping off your balaclava and putting them both into the car before turning around to face the team, eyes searching for a particular face.Â
Finally, you spotted Max. Standing besides your engineer, a proud expression on his face as he looked at you with a wide smile. You didnât hesitate, feet moving before you could think and then you were in front of him, grabbing his shirt and pulling him down, smashing your lips into his.
The kiss was desperate, both of having waited long enough for it. He wrapped his arms around you, the best he could with the fence between you, kissing you back with need.Â
You finally pulled away when you felt your lungs burning from the lack of oxygen, learning your forehead against his. Nothing else mattered, not the public, not the team, not the celebration. Only him, finally yours.
âSimply lovely, right?â You asked, your voice breathless.
âSimply lovely!â Max repeated back to you, before kissing you once again. And he really did mean it - everything was simply lovely.
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â± âź fratboy!chris headcanons âžâž
all my fratboy!chris blurbs, fics, and wips : here
âą SFW
â± fratboy!chris who, of course, met you at a party his fraternity threw and instantly decided you were comin' up to his room at some point, even if it wasn't gonna happen that night
" y'look good "
" me? "
" yeah, youâ wa's y'name? "
â± fratboy!chris who's known all too well by girls at boston university, though, despite contrary belief, he doesn't actually entertain most of them... guess you got lucky?
â± fratboy!chris who's BU's resident dealer, known by every fiend on campus and more
â± fratboy!chris who doesn't fuck with relationship labels whatsoever
â± fratboy!chris who doesn't mess with anyone else, and doesn't want you to either, even though you guys aren't really 'dating'
â± fratboy!chris who has no problem letting everyone know you're his with pride
â± fratboy!chris who would rather focus on his lacrosse career than "some shitty college romances", or at least that's how he explains it to you
" and why are you telling me this? "
" jus' thought y'should know... i'on want you gettin' any funny ideas about what we got goin' on here "
â± fratboy!chris who avoids any conversations about the future, or anything that requires him to even think about committing
â± fratboy!chris who constantly needs you with him, whether he's just lounging around, at practice/games, or out making moves. ironic, isn't it?
â± fratboy!chris who doesn't call you anything but mama, not even ma, no matter the occasion
" y'see how crazy you're bein' right now? mama, m'jus sittin' here, see? can't stand when y'do allat whinin' shit "
" don't call mama right now, chris, i'm done with all your fake nonchalant ass games "
â± fratboy!chris who, even with being admired for his outgoing and charming personality, has such a rotten temper, especially when things don't go his way
â± fratboy!chris who always says what's on his mind - to you, his friends, random people, anyone - even if it's completely unnecessary
â± fratboy!chris who absolutely relishes in the respect he has from not only his peers, but the staff as well. humble's simply not a word in his world
âą NSFW
â± fratboy!chris who's big and knows how to use it
â± fratboy!chris who favors doggy, but can also get down with some rough missionary
" nah, s'okay mama... we'll switch it up tonight, don't worry "
â± fratboy!chris who likes giving, but loves receiving. the image of your lips wrapped around his length is what helps him to sleep at night
â± fratboy!chris who's a huge hair puller and thigh slapper (as well as occasional cheek squeezer)
â± fratboy!chris who will take any opportunity he possibly can to either roll up or puff his joints while you use him
â± fratboy!chris who makes sure to leave marks. usually where only you two can see, but if he feels like a guy's paying too much attention to you, he'll mark you on your neck or something for him to see
" chris, it's so obvious. how am i even gonna cover this up? "
" don't cover it. i'd like to see m'try an' get in your pants again when he sees allat "
" he literally asked for the material in our class..? "
â± fratboy!chris who's almost always down for trying something new, but isn't usually one to suggest it
â± fratboy!chris who loves when you praise him, even if it's unintentional. simple things like "so big," or "so good," really get him going
" yeah, s'good? y'wan more of that good shit? "
â± fratboy!chris who, to no surprise, is horrible at aftercare.
a/n : i fear this took a lot longer than i thought it would to make... but i'll be making at least one of these for each of my au's since a) i'm unmotivated/don't have time to actually write, and b) want to develop the characters (and some of their pairings) further
-love, grandma cvnty â!
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The examples in the notes are all very valid. But as someone who speaks two languages that are closely related, the scenario above is actually not that unrealistic. In fact, it can even happen a lot.
My mother tongue is Cebuano (aka Bisaya), but Iâm living in the capital where everybody speaks Filipino/Tagalog, the national language of the Philippines. (To any Filos reading this: I know thereâs a difference between Filipino and Tagalog, but to avoid confusion, Iâm gonna refer to the language as Tagalog from now on)
Cebuano and Tagalog are distinct from each other, but since they are both Philippine languages they have an overlap in their vocabularies. Sometimes, the two have the exact same words for certain things. Other times the word is just spelled or pronounced slightly differently.
So when I suddenly use a Cebuano word while speaking in Tagalog, its because I have thought that that word also exists in Tagalog.
Example:
While at a fruit stall: âMagkano âtong lemoncito?â (How much is this lemoncito?)
Lemoncito is the Cebuano word for this citrus fruit:
The word has Spanish origins (the country was colonized by Spain for over 300 years), and it literally means âlittle lemon.â
I thought the Tagalogs also have lemoncito in their vocabulary because itâs not like the word is inherently Cebuano. It was only when the fruit seller looked at me in confusion and asked me to clarify what I said that I realized that they, in fact, do not have that word. Their word for lemoncito is only calamansi.
Example 2:
While sharing an anecdote about our rooms in the house: âSa pikas na kwartoâ (âIn the other roomâ)
sa, na, and kwarto are words that exist in both Cebuano and Tagalog.
However, pikas (âotherâ) is a Cebuano-only word. The Tagalog word for it is kabila.
This time, I knew pikas does not exist in Tagalog. But I was speaking too fast and the words were just flowing out. I didnât even realize I had codeswitched until people asked me to stop and explain.
Now, the most extreme example:
In a Discord DM: Explaining something long and complicated in Cebuano to a friend who only knows Tagalog đ„Č
Yes, it has happened before. It just felt so natural while I was doing it that it was only when I finished typing everything and looked back at what I wrote that I fucking remembered that my friend doesnât understand Cebuano đ
I had to delete everything before she could read it because holy fuck that was embarrassing
Codeswitching one or two words? Still acceptable. Writing a long-ass rant in entirely Cebuano despite knowing I wonât be understood? I had no idea what came over me...
Some more words which I suddenly codeswitch to unintentionally: (Cebuano words are violet, while Tagalog words are orange)
To eat: kaon instead of kain
To write: suwat instead of sulat
Dipper: kabo instead of tabo
the color black: itom instead of itim
The words above only vary in spelling a little, so itâs easy to forget that theyâre actually from two different languages, and hence, the codeswitching.
Now, this one is not really codeswitching, but itâs still relatedâŠ
Conjugating Verbs
[Context: Cebuano and Tagalog both conjugate verbs by aspect (fabric of time), which is in contrast to English that conjugates by tense (location in time).
But Iâm not gonna go too deeply in that, so for now Iâll just use the term âtenseâ to avoid confusion.]
In Cebuano, the present tense form of a verb is made by adding the prefix ânag-â to the root word. However, this way of conjugation coincides with the Tagalog rule of conjugation for past tense.
And so, we get this mess:
Cebuano: âI am writingâ -> ânagsuwat koâ
Tagalog: âI wroteâ -> ânagsulat akoâ
The present form of a Tagalog verb requires that you also repeat the first syllable.
Tagalog (present): âI am writingâ -> ânagsusulat akoâ
Many times, I mean to say something in the present tense (âI am writing/nagsusulat akoâ) but I end up talking in past tense (âI wrote/nagsulat akoâ) without even realizing it. Itâs like I would subconsciously apply the Cebuano rules (nagsuwat -> nagsulat) instead of the Tagalog ones when conjugating verbs...
So yeah, switching to a different language is actually not that weird when the two languages are closely related to each other.
#thanks for coming to my ted talk#codeswitching#languages#sociolinguistics#miyamiwu.tl#miyamiwu.cmt#long post#bilingualism
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àŁȘ . ÖŽÖ¶Öžàč KINICH: â HEAVEN CAN WAIT. â
pairing: kinich x afab!reader (uses she/her) synopsis: during the invasion of the abyss, the bond between you and kinich is put to the test when you're both lost in the chaos searching for eachother, as he fulfills his sacred duty as one of the heroes of Natlan. warnings: spoilers of the 5.1 archon quests! lots of bodily injury + descriptions of gore, the war ingame is described in a darker way here, cursing, many mentions of death. wordcount: 5.4k choâs notes: PLS SRSLY LISTEN TO THE INJURY WARNING!! i might be a little dramatic but theres an injury here that made me geek when i was writing it idk. this is basically 5.4k words of me pretending to understand the mechanics of the ode of resurrection đ i was inspired to write this after playing the 5.1 aq! hope u guys enjoy this, happy reads <3
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Today marked the exact moment the people of Natlan realized that the abyss werenât just these noisy hilichurls you see camping in the meadows or the occasional mages youâd encounter in the caves; The Abyss was a ruthless cult of monsters with their uniform goal of bringing humanity to its demise.
âIt was never supposed to get this bad.â was the only thought racing through Kinich's mind as he swung from cliffs to trees as fast as he could, the muscles in his arms feeling like they could rip apart if he swung one more time, his head slightly burning with exhaustion and heart racing with overwhelming pressure.
People were getting massacred on the ground underneath him, as numerous warriors and guards pushed themselves beyond their limit to fend off the neverending wave of rifthounds and hilichurls coming from the illuminating pylonsâand he couldnât do anything about it. Not when everyone and everything needed his aid, all at once.
But Kinich had someone to come home to, and it was you.
The last moment of peace the both of you had together was just earlier today; Sipping coffee and eating fruit together, discussing light subjects to try and distract each other from the rising attacks of the abyss, totally oblivious to the fact that Natlan would be dragged into war by them hours later.Â
He felt like it was just a minute ago when you sat in front of him, and glowed under the sunlight, slicing apples intricately as your lips spilled words. âHow could this happen?â he thought.
The image of you smiling, your face full of faith pulsed in his mind, making his stomach twist when his eyes landed on the village of the Scions of the Canopy; it was on the brink of ruin.
Caravans and carts were being ripped open with the goods spilling onto the ground only to be squashed, children getting dragged by desperate parents, greedy businessmen clawing at their money hoping it would save them, and the scattered limp bodies of innocent natlanese. The sky loomed over everyoneâs heads in an eerie color, only amplifying the hopelessness he rarely felt in his chest. The scent of blood and burning ash filled his nostrils the second he violently landed onto the oversized canopy, mildly hurting his ankles in the process.
âY/n? Y/n!â He called out among the frenzy, his eyes darting to every face he could spot. He got on his heel and started runningâ desperate that you wouldnât appear as one of the bodies that were left to rot on the ground.Â
He raced to your house, and tried to push the door open with no luck. He had no time to care for it, and just slashed through it with his bulky claymore and bursted into the room, his eyebrows knitted together, pupils dilated, cold sweat on his nape. His eyes donât spot you in your usual leisure spot of your common room, making his heart drop. He checked all other rooms, and finally opened your bedroom:
You werenât there.
You werenât anywhere.
His heart hurt with every beat, and he desperately clawed at his chest trying to get back his calm composure he was always known for. But what for?
âJust give it up, that peasant probably turned into abyss food long before you even got here. Stop wasting your time, my time!â Ajaw suddenly hissed out, his words filling kinichâs mind with poison.
Imaginations of your body growing limp and cold, face turning blue, and blood oozing out from some part of your body as rifthounds dug through your flesh flashed through his head. And he tried to stop it. But with the spinning of his head and the lifelessness of your house that was once so full with your laughter, it just kept getting worse.
He stood with a lowered head, his hand gripping his claymore so tight his knuckles turned white. He fought back tears as his mind danced like a kaleidoscope. To him, there would be no use in saving Natlan, if you werenât in the picture.
He was supposed to not let his will in defeating the abyss sway at all, you wouldnât want that. No one would want that. He doesnât either. But now faced with the odds that you might not be able to experience a Natlan that is finally free from centuries of prejudice, after youâve been by his side telling him to have faith that the day will come, and the dreams you want to accomplish when everything is finally okayâ It seemed unfair. SO unfair.
He whispers to himself, or rather to anything who was willing to listen, with a shaky voice: âIf only one wish of mine can be granted for my whole lifetime, please.. Keep her safe. Thatâs all I ask.â
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The clashing of weapons against the shelled skin of the abyss monsters zipped through the air, as you swiftly dodged the claws of a relentless rifthound; youâve been doing this for hours now.
You were helping your tribe, the Scions of the Canopy, strengthen its defenses before the outbreak until you were called by a messenger to help strengthen defenses of an adventurerâs base southeast of the village as it was being easily overwhelmed by the enemies. As the head of preparing defenses from the village, you happily obliged.
But now you were almost hours into battle, with your body aching in all different spots, as you tried your best to continue evading the insistent attacks of numerous monsters. You couldnât find the energy to swing your sword with maximum strength anymore, so all you could muster up was to dodge them.
âFuck! Will you ever quit!?â you yell, before pushing yourself beyond your limits again, attacking with frustration. You slashed through the tough skin of the rifthound with your dendro-infused blade, making it dissipate into purple smoke with a screeching growl before fading into the air.
You had a second for a breather and took a deep breath, which you regretted immediately. âugh!â you cried, falling to your knees, grabbing your side. You recall the moment you heard something snap when a hilichurl swung its wooden baton at your side when you were busy confronting a different monster. You broke your rib, and it was now piercing your lung.
You stared into the dirt, forehead collecting sweat. You took your hand off of your side, seeing blood paint your palm a deep scarlet. You touched your forehead, and brought your hand back to your eyesâ You were bleeding. everywhere.
Your eyes sting with tears, the reality of the situation slowly setting into your headâ The chances of you leaving this battlefield alive was slim. Your teeth press against your bottom lip tightly, the pain being incomparable to the injuries youâve sustained.Â
âIâm sorry kinich.â echoed in your mind. Kinich had been training you recently, for you to be ready in case of an invasion and he wasnât there to protect you. But here you are, head-first onto the ground, realizing youâll probably die in the next few minutes.
âIâm sorry kinich.. Iâm not built for this.â you whimpered, tears slowly trickling down your face. You felt so heavy with hopelessness, you felt like you could start sinking into the solid dirt beneath your body.
It wasnât supposed to end like this. You were only supposed to continue helping people fend off the abyss for a few more days, until the Pyro Archon solved the crisis. And after she did, you wouldâve explored places outside of Natlan with Kinich. Sumeru was the first region you both agreed to visit; It was always a dream that you shared together to travel all of Teyvat one day. Hell, you even had a hunch heâd propose to you somewhere down the line of your voyage.Â
So why are you kneeling on the floor, bleeding from every possible corner of your body, accepting your demise as your comrades slowly thin in number?
âHow long do I have to keep this up? I feel like if I swing my sword one more time, my arms will come flying off. I canât do it anymore. This is something only strong people can do. Strong people like kinich. I canât. I just canât. I ca-â
Woosh!, Your ears picked up the sound and you jumped to your feet, barely escaping the blade of an enormous mitachurl that almost claimed your head.Â
You tumbled lightly onto the ground, before you hold your sword up again with both your hands, your limbs trembling hopelessly in the gaze of the towering monster over you with demonic horns. You almost drop your blade and just let it kill you right then and there.Â
But kinich appeared in your thoughts.
The mitachurl was standing the way the dummy kinich built for you was. Kinichâs voice instructing you rippled in your thoughts: âswing your sword down to the left, diagonal to the body. Then, slice up to the right, also diagonally. For the final blow, strike straight down the crown of its head, taking force from your shoulders. â
You listen to kinich on repeat a few times, drawing imaginary lines on the body of the scowling mitachurl that stomped closer to you. You gulped the lump in your throat, before you did exactly what kinich taught you.
You twist your body with your edge in the air, taking a (painful) deep breath before swinging your blade to the left in a declining path. The mitachurl stumbles back at your sudden strike making an mmgh! sound, breaking down some of its armor. You quickly slice back up in the opposite direction before it could react any further. Your shoulder burned with every twist, but you had to keep going.
As it stumbled one more time, You bring your weapon above your head, and ignite it with dendro, causing a deep green aura to emit from your person. You meet eyes with the monster; It looked horrified. You stood there ready to take its life, appearing like a monster yourself with the blood that dripped down your head, your eyes seething with revenge.
You spare no more time before completely slicing straight down its head with maximum precision. A loud growl slowly faded with the noise, just as its body did, turning into a dark smoke.Â
âIf my life is going to end with this battle, then please grant my final wishââ You whispered, looking at your blood-stained hands, hoping the heavenly principles could hear your wish among the deafening sound of war:
ââPlease.. Keep kinich safe for me.â
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The people seeking refuge in a temporary hideout turn their heads at the noise of their beloved heroes walking into the space. âBarakaâ Xilonen, âUmojaâ Mualani, âUwezoâ Iansan, âBidiiâ Ororon, and âVukaâ Chasca. There was only one more hero missing.. âMalipoâ Kinich.
Kinich had just rounded up civilians he saved from the village, and brought them there for safety. His gaze met with his friends, before he carefully placed a baby he was protecting into the arms of its motherâ The baby had your eyes, which gravitated him into holding it just a little longer. He walked over to them with heavy steps, still trying to keep his composure despite the pain weaving his insides; just like them.Â
âItâs the final phase of mavuikaâs plan. We have to get back to the stadium, and help her with the Ode of Resurrection.â Xilonen says. âCan you do it?âÂ
Itâs not like he had any other choice so he just nodded, not being able to muster up the strength to talk.
âKinich.. Did something happen?â Mualani asked, taking notice of his silence as she placed her hand on his shoulder in support. It was clear she was just as broken down as he was, covered in bruises and scratches. But she continued to stay strong and pulled an empathetic look for him, trying to get his lowered eyes to meet hers.
âI.. couldnât find y/n.â Kinich barely mumbled, the dread he felt earlier coming back to him, feeling like it only got worse verbalizing it. His eyes stuck to the ground, refusing to peel away.
The five heroes suddenly feel the air grow thick, a gasp leaving Iansan and Mualani's lips. This reaction only made the feeling worse, his fingertips digging into his palm. âWhy does it have to turn out like this? I donât fucking get it. Itâs unfair. Not fair. Not fair to me, to her.â
The five struggled to find words to say, but ajaw quickly filled the space, spitting out: âFear not lowly humans! For when Kinich finally slips in this final fight and accidentally ends up kicking the bucket, I, the almighty dragonlord, kâuhul ajaw! Will reign over this world once more! And the abyss will no longer be the biggest threat Natlan has faced!â The 8-bit monster laughed proudly with its jagged voice.
Kinich suddenly snapped at the puny dragon: âZip it ajaw. Letâs go.â before stepping out of the hideout. The heroes gave each other glances, before silently following after him. They werenât scared of kinich releasing ajaw, they knew kinich would never do that to them. But it was him they were worried about.
Kinich never handled loss well. It often resulted in.. Accidents. Towards himself.
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You continued to fight your way to survival, the dendro vision hanging by your hip flashing every few seconds. You shifted your focus to destroy nearby pylons. Your hands had bruised, and slowly became callused and firm. The amount of blood loss youâve endured has slowly started affecting you too, as your actions started getting sloppier, following your sight getting hazy from time to time.
âChing!â You sliced through the last mitachurl aroundâ atleast, last one before another one spawnsâand fell to your battered knees. You sat there, gasping, your body begging for air.Â
âY/n!â a fellow comrade called out, rushing to your side. You can hear him mumbling something to you, but itâs incoherent. You looked at your dirty, bloodied hands, âwhat an ugly sight.â Â
âJust.. keep pushing on y/n.â his words sound muffled to you and almost accompanied with sand; heâs losing hope too.Â
Without warning, a bright beam of light suddenly shot up into the air, emerging from somewhere in the distance.
âHuh?â You look up.
The ray of light exploded into a star, making you wince at the glare. The explosion was so grand, you felt the earth tremble all around you, and even felt a slight radiance of heat reach your skin, even when it was suspended so close to the stars.
The warriors and monstersâ brawl comes to a pause, all beings turning their heads to the magic unfolding above their heads.
You look back up once more. Itâs the Pyro Archon.
âIn the name of the Pyro Archon, Haborym,â the transcendent voice sends chills down your spine.
âI declare the Night Warden Wars underwayââ
ââThe Ode of Resurrection will guard all life, until the war is over!â
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Kinich mightâve lost his mind.
With the Ode of Resurrection, there was nothing in his way to contain the blood rushing through his veins anymore, the flame pumping his drive. There was no limit to the blood he could pour, no limit to the bones he could snap, no limit to the wounds he could take; There was no more life that kept him from death, and no death to threaten him to life.Â
He shot himself through the trees and cliffs and plunged into the ground, slashing right into an abyssal pylon, immediately shattering it into pieces. The abyss that caught sight of his unhinged eyes, became the last thing they saw. He swung his blade relentlessly, calculated with maximum precision embedded into every strike. Every blow he landed would end a life point-blank, not wasting a single movement. No monster could keep up with the speed of his assault, their death delivered to them in a blur.
A hilichurl had taken an open opportunity to stab him right through the heart from behind. He felt the flame inside him flicker for a second.
âAgain.â
He ripped the double sided polearm right out of his chest, before skewering the same hilichurl right through its chest with the same weapon. A cryo mage quickly sent icicles to penetrate through his limbs and vital organs. He felt the coldness pierce into his insides, feeling the flame inside him flicker for a second time.
âAgain.â
He swiftly turned around, and spun his claymore right into the mage, beheading it in the process. The mage had evaporated to its death, as his claymore spun right back into his palm, snug as a glove. A hilichurl decided to charge into his tall figure and stab him with a dagger, puncturing his abdomen. His flame flickered for the third time.
âAgain.â
He sliced down on the hilichurl, making it dissipate into the air with a groan. He pulled out the dagger from his body and carelessly threw it onto the ground. Noticing the area was clear, he flung himself back into the air, swinging himself through the thick trees and long branches. They would momentarily graze his skin, cutting and wounding him but it was nothing to him, not anymore.
His void eyes scanned through the rocky terrain underneath his feet, searching for your figure. âYou have to be here. Somewhere. Anywhere.â His thoughts of you distracted him from an incoming tree, before flying straight into its tree branch, his body getting skewered in the process. He let out a loud cry of agonyâ âaaghh!ââ, hearing static ringing in his ears. His bewildered eyes landed at exactly where he got impaled before feeling his head go fuzzy, his eyes slowly losing light, and his body going limp. He feels his flame flickering once more.
âAgain.â
Life is shot right back into him as he braced himself again, taking a deep breath, and pulling himself off of the tree branch. His injury immediately punished him, making him wince. He took one last look at the tree branch covered in his gore before swinging himself again. He looked at the gaping hole in his abdominal cavity slowly patch and fill itself again, and for a moment heâs completely mesmerized by the power of the ode of resurrection.Â
In his mind, he punished himself for not being by your side, for not protecting you. And his mode of punishment would be feeling your misery over and over again. The sensation of burning pain ending up to his death just to wake up again completely alive again all in a split second was intoxicating. He was preserving life, as he toyed with his own.Â
In his mind, he would rather die a million deaths than find out heâd be alive without you around.
âListen to me bastard! Iâm starting to appreciate this new thing you got going on, you know, like actually following your master, me, Almighty dragonlord, Kâuhul Ajaw! and using your vision for something exhilarating like ending lives. But I HATE! how iâm getting excited to take your body everytime you go floppy, but you just wake back up! Itâs so ANNOYING!! So just keep it up until the fire-head woman turns the ode of what-ever-you-call-it off, and you stay dead. Alright!?â
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Mavuika looked longingly onto her people fighting for their nation underneath her feet, as she levitated in the dark sky. It was a surreal simulation to her; It was her that was the catalyst for their dreams and hopes. It left a deep impression of justice, duty and pressure on her.Â
Mavuika took a deep breath, before feeling a surging power slither all throughout her body.
âThis has to end, now.â
She collected all the dreams her people have relayed to her, the hopes for a future guided with justice and equality, their ancestors and their prayers for Natlan, the lives of her beloved followers who had been sacrificed and martyred, into her fist and made it into her strength.Â
Her hair ignited into its flamed form, as she shot out all the might and glory of Natlan into a beam of radiance, targeting the abyssal body that was the sole cause of terror over her nation.Â
The Celestial body forms a temporary glowing shield to stand its ground, until it doesnât.
It slowly starts shattering like thin glass, making her attack on it only more powerful. Her thrash breaks through until it exploded into a dark fume, her light piercing right through it and into the distant sky. The sky carries the sound of the thundering explosion, shaking nature all around.
The black cloud slowly starts fading, revealing the eradication of the Abyss.
The black sky lifts off of Natlan, revealing the blue once more. You choked out the blood thatâs been pouring in your mouth for the longest time as you finally finish off the last creature in sight. The Abyss had been eliminated by the Pyro Archon, and no more would spawn. Dulled and scratched swords, torn bows, and unfortunate martyrs polluted the grassy field around. The noise of battle could still be heard somewhere distant but not around you anymore.Â
You spat and coughed out blood onto your palm, your other hand clawing and digging into your chest trying to calm your rampaging heartbeat. You heard your remaining comrades cry and yell out of grief and solace. The words they yelled were incoherent, only being able to hear ringing.Â
But you could almost make out what they're saying, somewhere along the lines of: âItâs over.â
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Kinichâs eyelids slowly peel open, feeling the heat of the sun greet his eyes immediately making him wince. He sits up and tries to gain back his senses, letting out a sore groan.
Ajaw perches up at the sound, and starts roaring in his ear: âYou were supposed to be dead! I was so thrilled to finally take over your cold body, finally thinking of the horrors I'd run to this land, just to find our contract not working! Just bite the dust already you useless asparagus! Curse the archons!â
âWh-what happened?â Kinich croaked, his throat stinging him in the process. Completely ignoring ajawâs tantrum, he looks at the nature around him; There were dismantled weapons, a few dead bodies scattered meters apart, and an awful lot of silence.Â
âThe fire-head woman destroyed the abyss in the sky, and the magical thing happening to your body that stopped you from dying stopped, and you just crashed into the mountain side and passed out onto the ground. Your head shouldâve caved in! Fucking imbecile!âÂ
Kinich stares at the state of his body; It was a disaster. His jacket was torn with all sorts of holes, his arms full of scars and dried blood and smeared dirt, his gloved hands having numerous rips and tears. All of his digits were present, but a huge scar trailed over the joints of his thumb. âSo I lost a finger huh?â he guessed to himself. He looks at his headband dangling around his neck, and feels his face with his hand. He felt a few scars and winces at a cut he had, realizing he had a gaping wound that was actively bleeding out.
Body intact, clothes and weapon secured, with his heart beating in his chest cavity.
But something was still missing. Something was out of place.
He feels his heart drop to the ground, mumbling: âY/n.â
He hurriedly turns around and tries to run on his feet, a sharp pain kicking into his legs making him fall back onto the soil. He curls into a ball, suddenly feeling all his muscles tormenting his body at once. He groans in pain, feeling parts of his body ache and burn under his skin.
âYes! Perish!â Ajaw shrieks, making kinich swat at him. He takes a cramped breathâ almost like the capacity of his lungs had shrunkâ before digging his hands into the sharp blades of grass, dragging his body through the earth.
Each pull of his body made him wish he wasnât human, pain electrocuting each living cell in his body. Grunts slipped through his teeth, as he tried not to notice the torture he had been enduring for what has felt like forever. He despised the pain he could feel as he crawled not because it hurt him, but because it was proof he was alive and could use his senses. That would remind him that you might not be, only making the weight of his chest heavier.
Red from his wound dripped down his head and slipped onto his lip, making him spit it out bitterly.Â
The silvery of blood was inferior to the bitterness in his mouth if he felt your body without its heart beating against his own. Ajaw slowly follows him in the air a meter away, and is almost horrified. Ajaw that day, saw humanity in its most desperate state.
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âLet me go!â You yelled, trying to break free from the arms of the other scions of the canopy. They had tried convincing you to go to the village and get your injuries treated, but they mentioned kinich was missing. You heard glass shattering in your ears, almost reality to your eyes breaking just the same. You escaped their captive and tried to find kinich, but they had caught up to you easily.
âYou donât understand! You might die out of blood loss before you even find him!â Said one of the nurses, gripping your wrist tightly. âI have to try!â You snapped, shoving and kicking at the men trying to get a holding of your legs.
âAnd what if kinich is dead y/n!?â A man retorted, making you freeze in your spot. Words got stuck in your throat, as your eyes blurred for a second. âKinich would never.. be..â you feel your tongue stiffen, your knees slowly sinking back onto the grass. The men among the helpers quietly argue behind you, scolding each other with âdonât say that!â as your thoughts slowly dim your spirit.
âKinich? Dead?â the thought of kinich dying seemed so far and impossible to you. It was always kinich who seemed to prevent harm from going your way, and knew how to deal with injuries or how to get out of risky situations. But not even the strongest warriors of Natan's ancient tales survived against the toughest attacks of the abyss. You feel like vomiting, the imagination of kinich mangled body suddenly tormenting your thoughts. âI still have to tryâ, you interrupted yourself, reminiscing the oath you took between the both of you to never abandon his side, dead or alive.
You quickly try to pounce off of them, but they're quicker into getting ahold of you again. You try your hardest to tear through their grasp, feeling your skin ache as they tighten their hand around you.
âPlease! Just let me try!â you cry out, almost freeing yourself. They object in volumes, a series of âNo!âs and âYou need to rest!â leaving their mouths. You almost feel helpless, but the group of five freeze all together, out of nowhere.
Their eyes are wide, dilated. Their mouths agape, skin draining of color.
You turn your eyes the same direction as theirs, and a sudden chill waves all throughout your body.
Itâs kinich.
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Kinich locks eyes with you, his breath hitching. Almost terrified youâll disappear in front of his eyes, he doesnât waste another second and sprints towards you on his feet, ignoring the sharp pain afflicted to his ligaments. The tribespeople quickly free you from their clutches, stepping back as your aching bodies collided into an embrace.
Everyone else disappears from his world as he takes you into his dirtied arms. His body melt into yours, leaving no space for the opportunity of separation between both of you ever again. He feels you trembling underneath his touch making him hold you tighter. âIâm home.â He whispers into your ear, feeling a weight lift off of his shoulders, like bulky armor sliding off of his battered frameâ He had died a hundred times to tell you those words.
He can hear you; you're crying into his shoulder, salty tears reviving the scent of the dried blood on his clothes. All he can do is hold you, and take refuge back into your arms after leaving them for what seemed like an eternity. His heart is communicating with yours, beating back and forth at each other. âI was looking for you.â You mumbled against his skin, lips quivering. Your voice is hesitant, as you pull away and look into his tired dark-golden eyes.
âYou never lost me in the first place.â He whispers, planting a delicate kiss to your cheek, placing your nimble hand on the left side of his chest to feel evidence of his return. His arms felt lighter, his bones seemed to unbreak, and his wounds were no longer burning. His eyes slowly stickled with tears, burying his face into your hair to let out his shy tears before you had the chance to notice.
His body grew vulnerable under your touch as your tears slowly undid the knot of grief residing in his chest. He almost feels himself shrink back to when he was a lonely child as your mere presence invited the fragile parts of him to be loved again.
His soul yearns for moment like this, where your love is presented raw; It was never about just the beauty. He thawed under your touch even when his clothes and body was drab and scarred. It was never about just the mora, his wallet was no longer weighing in his pocket and he knew that he didn't have to worry about it. It was never about just the distance, it didn't matter if he had to crawl from mondstadt, he still would've tried to come home even if he knew he would die along the way. and it was never about the festivity. he didn't need a festival to celebrate in a way of holding you like he is now. It was always about the bond between both of you and how much joy his heart is beating out just because he can count the beats of yours.
To him, his soul is bound with yours. No matter how far his heroship takes him, heâll always return to you. For him, that was enough of a reason to come crawling home.Â
Kinich escaped heaven a hundred times to come home to you. For you, he wouldâve gladly left a hundred times more.
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You relish his embrace with tears sticking your lashes together when your mind slowly floats you away to a distant memory, one you feel like you should have forgotten by now.
It was so long ago.. 7 years ago or so?
It happened somewhere.. Here?
With someone.. Kinich.
You were younger teenagers with kinich that time. You had tripped down a short rocky fall while traversing grassy terrain with kinich. A wince squeaks through your gritted teeth, as he poured water onto the gash you scored on your stumbling. âIâve always told you to stay sharp when we go out on a walk, but you never listen.â He grumbles, wiping off the dirt that trailed down your calf. â..And everytime you trip, itâs always me who has to clean you up, bandage you, and carry you home.â He treated your wound as you sat on a rock, awkwardly playing with your fingertips.
You can tell he was just worried about you, you always managed to injure yourself when he took his eyes off of you. He was already pressured on finding a way home, but you just had to go get your knee busted. âSorry.â you mumble, heat rising to your skin out of embarrassment. âIf you really were sorry, you would actually look before you land your feet.â he said bitterly, undoing his bandana, and wrapping it around your knee tightly. As he tightened the knot, he said: âYou know I won't always be around to protect you right?âÂ
âYeah..â you shuffle your feet around. âBut I-i swear I looked before I stepped okay! But the dip was.. was hiding under all the grass.â You attempt to defend yourself, looking at him with guilt written all over your face.
âCan you just promise me youâll make heaven wait when I'm not around?â He sighs, before helping you get back on your feet, his arm snaking around your waist, as he scooped your shoulder over his shoulder. âOnly if you promise too!â you scoff. He rolls his eyes, âAs if I'll ever die before you. Seriously, one day I might just be running a commission and bump into you just bleeding to death from your knee.â you grimace under the thought. âDonât say such horrible things!â
âThen promise me.â â..I promise.â
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Dress
Summary: Joe begs you to join him at an event, where a dress leads to a confession of feelings. Based off of the song "Dress" by Taylor Swift
Pairings: Joe Burrow x best friend to lover!reader
Warnings: implied smut, pining, best friends to lovers
Note: Hi! I hope you're all doing okay, I know this week has been tough and long. I hope this can bring some kind of joy during a hard time. This is my first time writing based off of a song. I would love to turn this into some kind of mini series or maybe interconnected standalones. Let me know your thoughts or song suggestions, I hope you all enjoy!
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âPleaseeee come with me, you owe me a favor, remember? Itâll be fun I promiseâ. Joe begged from his spot on the couch.
Joe had invited you out to one of the team dinner gatherings as his date, insisting that you had to come with him or he would be âtoo bored to functionâ. You tried not to place too much weight on the âdateâ part of the deal, knowing it would be more as friends than anything. He was putting on the whole theatrics, pouting with puppy dog eyes.
âYou want me to come to the dinner that youâve been complaining will be âso boringâ so I have to suffer too? I donât hardly see how thatâs comparable to the favor you did for me by taking out my recycling for me that you offered to doâ you questioned, knowing full well that it wouldnât be nearly as bad as heâs been making it out to be.
âHey, in my defense it was a lot of boxes to carry okay? You can be my source of entertainment, I wonât be able to survive without thatâ he explained, falling more into the dramatics as he dropped down onto the couch behind him to really solidify his point, exhaling a big sigh as he did so.Â
âI hardly doubt that Joseph, youâre being so dramaticâ you said with your arms folded over your chest, not going to fold to his pleading that easy. Turning away from him as you sat across from him.
âI guess you wonât know unless you come with me then, huhâ Joe said with a small pout on his lips, knowing it was the surefire way to win you over. In reality, he didn't have to even try. While Joe was your best friend, youâve had feelings for him for a while now that have only grown with time the closer you two have gotten. Meeting back at LSU, you had so many memories together that have only made your friendship what it is today.
âCâmon, what else will it take for you to agree to go? Iâll do anything Y/N.â
Your heart rate picked up at his comment, needing to will yourself back to reality that there are so many other mundane things he could do to sweeten the deal for you. Thank god you had your back turned, able to give yourself a second to breathe. In all honesty, you would go just to spend more time with him, it was always fun to make him work for it though.
âFine, but I wonât have anything to wear so youâre fronting my cost for a new dressâ you stated turning yourself back towards him, sticking out your hand to signify the offer.
âYou couldâve just asked that from the beginning. Dealâ Joe agreed, returning your gesture and shaking on the deal.
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It was finally the day of the dinner, taking the day to get yourself ready with an everything shower and full skincare routine. You made a day of it, pampering yourself after you had gone out to get the perfect dress. It complimented the color of Joeâs suit perfectly, while accentuating all of your favorite parts of yourself. It wasnât anything too elaborate, but it made you feel confident and thatâs what matters. You may or may not have also thought about Joe when picking it out, what he would think about when he saw you in it. You quickly shook the resurfacing thoughts from your mind as you slipped it on, careful not to mess up your look.
While you were applying the finishing touches to your look, your mind wandered to thoughts about yours and Joeâs friendship. You had met during one of his first classes when he transferred to LSU, asking you for directions to his next class. It happened that you were going the same way, offering to show him and the rest was history. On paper, you both were opposites, but thatâs almost why you complimented each other so well. You matched one another's energy and could read the other like a book. It almost felt as if you didn't need to speak the thought out loud at times, able to tell what the other was thinking.
You and Joe had been there for each other all throughout college, being a support system and lifeline in the hard times as well as the biggest cheerleader for the highest highs. Through every breakup, Joe was always there to pick up the pieces he didnât break, comforting you while giving you the praise he felt you deserved. Another thing you wrote off as him just being your best friend. No one wanted to see their best friend sad, so it was natural to want to cheer them up, right?
You were drawn out of your thoughts to the sound of your front door closing, signaling Joe had arrived.
âHey Y/N, you ready to go?â he called from your living room, making his way through your apartment.
âJust a minute, Iâm finishing up and we can head outâ you called back, hearing his footsteps get closer as you spoke.
There was a sudden pause as the sound of Joe approaching got closer, turning to see him stopped in your doorway. He leaned his body up against the frame with his arms crossed over his chest.
âYou look absolutely amazing, I love that we have a matching thing going onâ Joe said as he looked you up and down, his gaze taking you in.
 It all felt like too much, turning your attention back to the mirror in front of you.
When you were leaving your apartment to get into his car, Joe placed a gentle hand around your waist to keep you steady in your heels as you walked across the pavement parking lot. Your skin felt like it was ablaze under his touch, finding yourself craving more of it as his hand dropped to get the door for you.
âThanksâ you mumbled, trying to regain your composure back as the night was just beginning.
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The night drew on, Joe not letting you far out of his reach as he spoke with his teammates and other guests that were there. It felt as if you had a pull to one another, a sense of palpable tension between you in the air. Joe seemed to be a lot touchier than usual, tending to keep you close when one of his teammates would get a bit too close for what must have been his liking. It all felt like too good to be true, that he must have really wanted you near him
There was only what you could describe as a Joe shaped indentation in your life, making any man incomparable to the standard he set for you without even knowing. So many guys in the past few years have tried to take their shot with you, but you never let any of them get too feeling like they were missing something that you were looking for. Even the ones that did ended up breaking your heart, leaving you feeling a deeper hollow pit than before them.Â
He was so close to you at the table, you could smell his cologne and feel the heat radiating off of his body that was clad so nicely in his suit, his arm slung protectively over the back of your chair as if he was staking his claim over you. It was taking so much willpower to not just lean over and say the most unspeakable things to him. To finally confess everything youâve been feeling, wondering if he felt the same or if it would be a waste of time and ruin everything you created together.
In this moment, it felt like just the two were the only ones despite the room being so crowded with other guests. You leaned over, placing a delicate hand on Joe's thigh to test his reaction. You felt his muscles tense beneath your touch, close enough to hear his breath hitch in his throat. All signs were pointing in the right direction.
âY/Nâ Joe said, his voice labored and breathy.
The way he says your name, stopping you in your tracks, short circuiting your mind for a moment. That was the kind of power he had over you, the ability to completely send your senses into overdrive without even realizing he was doing so. You tried your best to shut your mind off, taking the opportunity to tell him while you had the courage to do so.
âI donât want you like a best friendâ you spoke, voice keeping composure while trying to keep yourself from backing out.
Joeâs eyes closed as his head subtly dropped back against his chair. A quiet groan coming from his throat online loud enough for your ears only.
You leaned closer to his ear, keeping your body language as natural as possible with everything youâre feeling. Noticing how he was reacting to your words and proximity.
âI only bought this dress so you could take it offâ your confidence shifting with a hint of seduction in your voice, sealing your fate to ending your friendship or starting a new chapter.
That seemed like the last straw for his own composure, not being able to contain his own building desire. Joe turned to look towards you, his gaze darkening from your confession, your grip tightening on his thigh as he tried to process the moment.
Without speaking, Joe stood from the table of his teammates and began gathering his things as he silently gestured for you to do the same.Â
âI think weâre gonna get going guys, Y/N isnât feeling too well so Iâm gonna bring her homeâ Joe said casually, holding out a hand for you to take.
Everyone said their goodbyes and wished you well. The minute you were out of the vicinity from everyone, Joe heaved you over his shoulder and began to hustle towards the car.
âJOEâ you yelped followed by a light chuckle, caught off guard by his actions.
He didnât reply until he got you to the car, dropping you carefully to your feet and pressed your back against the car door.
He leaned close to your ear, causing a shiver to run down your spine as he spoke âyou have no idea how long I've wanted you. First, I'm gonna get you home and we're gonna get you out of this dress so I can do all of the things Iâve only ever dreamt of doing to you. Then we can talk about where we want to go from here, but I sure as shit donât want to go back to just being friends. Does that work for you, sweetheart?âÂ
You didnât trust your voice in that moment, not knowing if words would come out if you tried and opted for a firm nod.
He backed away from the car, bringing you towards him so he could open the door for you.
âGet in mamas and buckle up, because once we get home, youâre in for a rideâ closing the door before you could give him a response.
You were about to be in for a night you didnât expect, but one that would change everything for the best.
Thank you so much for reading, please send in any requests or comments. I hope you enjoyed!
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Hellooooo my favorite catlover/writer
I got another pop up idea this morning (happens way too often)
But first of all ! Donât wear yourself out ! You write a lot and itâs amazing ! But prioritize yourself first. Donât let requests put a pression on you â€ïž
I know how it feels
Anyways
Iâm not a morning person like most of the population except SOCIOPATHS.
And I imagined what it would feel like having the emt!marauders watching you up since they have to go to work early. You know like kisses, shoulders massages, soothing words as they try to calm your rise and everythingâŠ
If you donât like it thatâs ok! Donât write it.
Love you, rest well. (Drink water)
Thanks for your request babe! Hope you're resting well and drinking water too <3
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You stir when you feel Remus shifting underneath you. He reaches over to shut off his alarm, hand coming back to rest over your head placatingly. The appeasement doesnât last long; when he goes to move out from under you, you make a soft whining sound.Â
âDove.â His voice is husky with sleep, but thereâs fondness to it. It makes you want him to stay even more.Â
The mattress creaks at the other end of the bed as James gets up. Sirius grumbles, scooting closer to you and shoving his face into your neck in rebellion.Â
âDonât let them take me,â he mumbles pitifully.Â
âBaby.â Remus sounds more exasperated and also more amused now that both you and Sirius are half atop him. Youâre not sure which one of you heâs talking to, but it hardly matters. âCome on.â His lips touch down on your head. âYou can sleep, but we have to get ready.âÂ
The bathroom light turns on. Both you and Sirius moan tormentedly.Â
Jamesâ laugh is too loud for the early hour; youâll never understand how he wakes so quickly. âNeed some help, love?âÂ
âPlease,â Remus replies.Â
Sirius makes a half-asleep sound of protest as heâs dragged away from you, James speaking to him in a low, amused voice.Â
âAlright,â Remus murmurs, kissing your head again, âmy turn.âÂ
He eases your head off of his chest, setting it gently on the pillow before getting out of bed. You mourn the warmth of his spot next to you.Â
James is ready the fastest, back to press kisses to your pouty lips and soothe his big hands over your shoulders. âDo you want me to make you something for breakfast, lovie? If you get up now Iâll whip you up a fancy coffee.âÂ
âJames,â Remus chides from the bathroom, âlet her sleep.âÂ
James sighs but bends to mush loving kisses into your neck, murmuring nonsense at you all the while.Â
âI know you donât like the bathroom light on, but if you think about it, weâre the ones who have to endure it. Sirius is in there halfway to a temper tantrum because his hair wonât behave, and youâre here all warm and cozy in bed. You look terribly cute like this, do you know? Itâs really cruel of you, it ought to be illegal, and if Sirius were awake enough to form a thought heâd agree with me.â His kisses turn ticklish, and James chuckles when you wriggle. âReally! I mean it, you donât know how lucky you are getting to stay here in bed and looking so adorable. Remus is about to drive us to work, and Sirius is going to insist on laying down in the backseat and moaning about how much he misses you all the while, itâs terrible. I ought to take a picture of you to console him.âÂ
âDonât,â you mumble. You find one of Jamesâ hands with your own, dragging it underneath your pillow for safekeeping.Â
James laughs again, and another chuckle joins him as Sirius comes out of the bathroom.Â
âWhatâre you doing to her, you relentless pest? At least one of us should be allowed to sleep.âÂ
James makes a soft grunting sound as the bed dips. You donât have to open your eyes to know Sirius has draped himself over his boyfriendâs shoulders.Â
âDonât worry, gorgeous, Iâll get him away from you,â Sirius promises. âJamie, I require one of your fancy coffees.âÂ
âMe too,â says Remus from the bathroom.Â
James succumbs to the weight of peer pressure and goes, and a short while later the bathroom light shuts off. Remus crouches by the bed, kissing you softly.Â
âSleep well,â he says, brushing some hair away from your face. âWeâll see you after our shift, dovey, okay?âÂ
You mumble out a response, already falling asleep again in the returned darkness of the bedroom.Â
Remusâ thumb skims fondly over your cheek. âLove you too, sweetheart.âÂ
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Yep. Yeah. That's me. Almost all of it, except, i sleep well (if i manage to fall asleep) Reblogging because maybe some of you didn't know (i also didn't know)
Story time!
Too long don't read: used to sleep on private math lessons because i hate math; it takes hours for me to fall asleep WHEN I SUPPOSED TO, and my sister does it in 3-5 minutes.
I was studying at university and we had MATH there I've always had problems with it. since 5th grade i think (well, i hated math before too but real problems started there) when i changed schools and the new class was behind what I've already studied and i didn't pay attention, until i realized that at some point I was behind. I said "welp, i guess it's to late to try, so fuck it"
So at university we had this very high level math and i just couldn't understand a thing (and we had an awful teacher who was saying evvvvery time something like "yall getting expelled, we're all gonna die") so i decided "if i don't understand, fuck it then, i will not even try" and started skipping math classes.
But i STILL had to pass an exam, we were getting 3 tries and if you fail you're getting expelled. I failed first two what a surprise (i don't know how i managed to pass it after all, i can't remember SHIT, only that i is fucking non-existing number which is square root of -1. Why on earth would you need it i have NO fucking clue.
So i had personal teachers who tried to make me understand at least something to pass the exam. And there was one i remember very well, i even remember that we paid her 10$ per hour (for us that was quite a lot). And i remember her because i was SLEEPING. I just COULDN'T keep my eyes opened. She explains something about deviding by zero and my brain draws the fucking universe collapsing in front of my eyes. She gives me some task, I'm trying to write something and I'm falling asleep and DREAMING about writing, then ahe wakes me up and i see that i didn't write SHIT. It all ended when in the middle of lesson she just kicked me out.
And, what a miracle, I'm leaving her apartments and suddenly, all the sleepiness just wanishes! I'm walking home, thinking about some another AU of mine, roleplaying it with myself in my head, full of energy again.
That's not the only case of this, but it's the strongest i ever felt. But that like happens all the time, EVEN WHEN MY MOM OR MY GRANNY COMES TO ME AND START TALKING ABOUT SOMETHING I'M NOT INTERESTED, IM YAWNING AND FEEL URGE TO FALL ASLEEP. But the moment they leave, It goes away! I was calling it work allergy LMAO
I was diagnosed with adhd in my early childhood (there was also something about epilepsy, but it's ok now so it doesn't matter), not long ago i brought this fact back into my active memory (thanks to Jaiden animations ADHD video for that xD) i kinda used to myself by now and now I'm trying to catch and analyse all moments of adhd kicking in. I know my own tricks and buttons, how to make myself do the thing or just how to force myself into doing something. Because i know if i start, I'll probably lock in and won't get up until it's done (well, if i have at least a tiny bit of interest in that thing, or else i won't), and i hate it when someone interrupts me in the middle of the process. No mom, i can't come right now, i can't finish it later, because i either spend few more hours forcing myself to go back to the task or just forget about it.
But i didn't know that this sleepiness was a legit symptom! I just thought that it's exaderated boredom, that's it, had a joke name for it. That's... Funny to know that this thing is actually also adhd moment.
Also, about sleeping. I have problems falling asleep. I may lie in the bed for hours without even my phone, just rotating my stories in my head, and when i don't have a story to think about, this is just the name of my current hyperfixation with different tones and in different random dialogues that doesn't even make sense. I have no idea how to fall asleep, except when i didn't sleep for like 48 hours (EVEN THEN IT MIGHT BE A PROBLEM AND I START THINKING OF THAT CREEPY PRION SICKNESS AND SCARE MYSELF AGAIN). And my mom told me that it have always been like that with me. She and my dad had the whole ritual to make me fall asleep. Dad would hold me in his arms, his head with me covered with a blanket that i could only see his face (or else I would look everywhere and never fall asleep), and rock me for HOURS while i was SCREAMING and CRYING the whole time like i was tortured. But when I'd finally fall asleep, they could be as loud as usual and didn't have to whisper, because wake me up is a whole different story. And my mom was SHOCKED when all it took to make my sister fall asleep was just pet her back for 3-5 minutes.
I don't think of myself as... Sick or ill. That's how i was all my life, i don't know anything else. That's not a sickness to me, that's just part of my personality. Maybe sometimes some parts of it bite me in the ass and make my life harder, but i don't know other life. That's the only one I've got, and i guess I'm fine with that (tho now that i think about it, i need to pay more attention to how i write the characters, and don't make them all ADHDshers LOL i need to study neurotypical people under a microscope đŹđ)
bro im gonna CRY i didnt know this đ„ș
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Warfare
You see, Marvelâs mentioned the Wisdom of Solomon before. The JL never really thought much about it. As a result, the JL just thinks Marvel has all these⊠interesting ideas but just never says anything about them. Though, there are a couple times the ideas are actually voiced. (They donât know Billy is just parroting whatever Solomon or occasionally another God with tell him)
Like the time Batman and Marvel got stranded on a planet that was stuck in the middle of war. They were promised
Rebel Leader: âDo either of you have any ideas to bring to the table?â
Batman: âNo. Marvel?â
Marvel: âHuh? Oh uh⊠well I could magic a plague into the water near them. You said theyâre using it for their water source, right? Then, when theyâre weak, we can go around and take them out.â *sounds hesitant*
Batman: âHmm⊠That could be a good idea, but what sort of plague are we talking about?â
Marvel: âCholera.â
Batman: âWhat.â
Marvel: âCholera.â
Batman: âMarvel, thatâs fatal.â
Marvel: âOh.â
Batman: âYeah.â
*silence*
Marvel: âWell, if weâre quick, it we can get to them before they die.â
Batman: *stares for a bit, holding back a sigh* âWe donât even know if Cholera will affect their biology the same way it does humans.â
Rebel Leader: âWhat is this Cholera?â
Batman: âItâs a deadly waterborne disease.â
Rebel Leader: âI see⊠And youâre unsure whether it will work with our physiology⊠might I propose a different disease?â
So yes, biological warfare, thatâs our first thing. Batman proceeded to spend a lot of time convincing the Rebel Leader not to nearly kill an entire group of people with their version of Cholera.
Then there was the time Bruce and Marvel were working together and got held up in a shootout at a lab.
Marvel: *looking at the various chemicals in the lab* âGosh, I remember my first exposure to chlorine gas.â *getting nostalgic* (Heâs from the 1940s in this one, guys)
Batman: âYouâve been exposed to chlorine gas?â
Marvel: âYeah, and let me tell you, those dang Nazis were horrified when it didnât work on me. Donât worry though, weâre gonna be making mustard gas instead.â
Batman: âCaptain, we are not doing that.â
Marvel: âWhy? We have all the available ingredients.â
Batman: âMarvel.â *puts a hand on his shoulder* âMustard gas can be fatal.â
Marvel: âOh.â
Batman: âYeah.â
*silence*
Marvel: âMy bad.â
*more silence*
Batman: âIs this why you always let others plan?â
Marvel: âAre you gonna look at me weird if I say yes?â
Batman: âHn.â (Translation: Yes, but it wonât be visible through my cowl)
This incident checks chemical warfare off the list. Bruce is now concerned as to why most of Marvelâs ideas are either nearly fatal or just fatal.
Then there was the time Marvel went undercover with Bruce Wayne, not Batman for whatever reason. They then got attacked by pirates while on a ship trying to gather information about some supervillain.
Bruce and Marvel: *taken cover under a table while the pirates fire cannon balls at them*
Bruce: âAny ideas?â *peaks over the cover only for a cannonball to whiz right past his head*
Marvel: âI think I have one. So hereâs what Iâm thinking. I take out their mast, steal all their oars, and then push them out to sea and let them drift wherever.
Bruce: âThatâs⊠Intense. Wouldnât they starve if you just let them drift?â
Marvel: âI guess. If theyâre not saved, I mean.â
Bruce: *stares with the most deadpan face* âHow about I come up with a plan instead?â
Marvel: âYou got it boss.â
And last but not least, the physical warfare.
By the way, Billy doesnât know Bruce is the Bat. No, no, no, he just thinks the guy is someone Batman wants him to work with. He was a little surprised to see the dude act all brooding like Mr. Batman when he had heard from others that he was a party boy. Oh well, not his business. Meanwhile, Bruce doesnât know Marvel thinks heâs just interacting with a capable civilian.
That last part was inspired by @helps-the-writing-brain-goâs reblog of this post. Thanks for letting me write with your idea :)
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Since you've been making fusions, shall we be allowed to see a Nexus and Ruin fusion? Please?
I gotta say, I'm loving your fusions and their designs they're so silly and pretty!
âŠcan you tell I was excited for this oneâŠ?
Iâve already had this fusion in my head for a WHILE. The entire time Iâve just been thinking about Lapis and Jasperâs super toxic fusion and giggling to myself. THE ONLY REASON I LOVE IT SO MUCH IS BECAUSE OF LAPISâ DECISION TO KEEP JASPER DOWN IN AN ACT OF REVENGE. I LOVE DESERVED REVENGE. I thought it totally fit Ruin and Nexus because of all the harm Nexus inflicts on Ruin.
Ruin has always put morals first and kills anyone who threatens harm against people he cares about. He has nothing left to lose, but gives everything.
Not a ship!! I really like the idea that Solar and Ruin have a âwe couldâve been friendsâ type of relationship that allows a shred of sympathy for one another, but thats basically it.
Thereâs a lot of SU references here, the first quote is a quote from Lapis herself!! The second dialogue, though, is my own writing!
OTHER CONCEPTS
âą Nexus and Ruin are an incomplete fusion, this means they share a fused body, but their minds are still separated. This is very harmful for fusions and highly irregular.
âą This fusion would help Nexus avoid his canon death.
âą Ruin keeps Nexus hostage instead of letting him die in canon because he holds sympathy for Solar who would not live with himself if Nexus died before he could reach him. He also believes suffering in life is more of a punishment than death is.
âą This is based off of complete revenge on Nexus and protection for Solar and the other celestials. Ruin doesnât believe they deserve a harmful brother like Nexus.
âą Ruin, as the fusion, flies off somewhere isolated to stay and focus on suppressing Nexus.
âą Nexus has far less power when it comes to controlling the body from the mind while Ruin has all of the experience. Nexus didnât ever have to face that mind-space suppression while Ruin knows how to take control from both sides.
âą Nexus can still torment Ruin psychologically from his position and slowly break Ruinâs spirit. They both now have full access to his own memories, unadulterated.
Look at these two clips and tell me they donât hold some resemblance.
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Oh look I found why I'm getting anon harassment in my inbox - back from the depths of one of my shittiest years - and also note my explanations have been edited out. How very intellectual of you all to prove I'm very very stupid via the medium of memes. I give a more lengthy explanation of where I was coming from here although I'm pretty sure I did so at the time.
But also, some context: At the time of writing I was a part-time academic researcher in HUGE study related to a marginalised group. There are reasons I can't specify. The tenured professors in charge of the project had no academic background in this very niche field nor lived experience (I did and so did other junior researchers). And through the duration of the project they failed to engage with the existing research on this marginalised group, which meant by the time we came to write up they were embarassingly ignorant about the field. They also did really poor work - writing stuff up on the fly that was academically weak, poorly analysed, and poorly cited. If an undergrad had turned in what they did, they'd likely have failed. But they were professors - in UK, that means the top echelons of academia, and they could get away with any old shit. The professors were also heavily politically influenced by existing powers within the clinical field to water down what could have been incendiary findings about existing practices. I.e. the people who did not have lived experience but studied our community like bugs under a microscope were the people who called the shots. And they were also a boys club who got where they got via recommendation rather than training or academic engagement. There was no real evidence or academia underpinning much of their practice, which was part of what our research showed, and they were trying to cover up. So when I wrote this (and the more that has been cropped) I was an exhausted, burnt out academic working ridiculous hours to catch the worst of what these truly incompetent and self-serving professors were trying to put out into the world, all the while knowing that the very clinicians who were being exposed for basically abusing marginalised patients had more influence over the project than the people of lived experience (and more considerable collective academic knowledge of this particular niche) being tokenised and exploited as workers in the research, but also being silenced and ignored when convenient in the interests of power.
And the thing was, that there is such a complete lack of engagement with this community's embedded knowledge and our academic output that piss-poor academia passes muster in the field IF it props up existing biases and oppressive practice.
So I was, and continue to be, very jaded about how marginalised folks fare in academia. I'm also terrified of the way money and power dictate what research tells us and which research findings get heard and which buried. As for peer review? The "peers" reviewing are rarely embedded or of lived experience themselves, so peer review is sometimes little more than a pale stale male back slapping exercise. It vastly depends on the field, of course. But go read about the replication crisis in psychology - all that shit was peer reviewed and a whole field was built on it. You don't need to be an academic or be able to read books to tell whether academic research on marginalised people is good or not, you just need to listen to a few sensible, moderately smart people from the marginalised group, and check that they are reasonably well thought of by the group at large. Whether or not they're academics - personally, I'd pick both, because there was A LOT of pressure on those of us who were marginalised in academia to eat our words and not challenge stuff for the sake of career progression, and I came rapidly to the conclusion you cannot be a marginalised person in academia without having to make choices that may well betray your principles and your community.
Which is why I'm no longer an academic. There are other sources of learning than influencers OR academia and sometimes the best way to learn is to listen to a bunch of people who have the right experience rather blinkeredly trusting letters after their name. I got into academia through an atypical route and had written very well thought of, well researched and well cited materials including a published book before I was (briefly) an academic.
So, don't you come at me telling me I can't read. I wonder which line of this people will cherrypick to "prove" that anyone who doesn't swallow whole every last thing academics say is stupid?
(including Andrew Wakefield, presumably, because he was very much peer reviewed, but when your research feeds a moral panic about a marginalised group, peer review isn't the all-powerful catch of bad research people think it is) Will you screenshot me again so I don't get a chance to explain myself or right of reply? So I don't know why I'm suddenly having to turn my inbox off anon asks?
signed an anti-intellectual, apparently. Or maybe someone who doesn't think it's safe to go round the internet saying "believe everything academics say, peer review means you can trust each and every word of it, always, and the neoliberal and political forces that blight influencer culture are repelled entirely by red brick" I fucking wish.
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i n v i s i b l e s t r i n g
chapter 1
rafe cameron x pogue!reader
summary:Â really bad at these!
wc:Â 2.5k
warning:Â none! i haven't written in a while, this is a rewrite of a story that i started in 2020, so please bare with me as i get back in the groove of writing.
a/n: guess who's back, back again. determined to finish this series. rafe and sofia in s4 really inspired me to get back into this fic, hope you all like it âĄÌ pls reblog/comment/etc.. would love to hear your thoughts âĄÌ
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Sometimes you really fit into Figure 8. Sometimes you all did. Like when John B was off with Sarah and he was wearing the clothes that she had bought him to go out golfing or go to brunch at the yacht club. Or when Kie was dragged to a kook event by her parents at the country club. Pope wore his suit when he had different scholarship and college interviews- and he really gave the kook boys a run for their money with how good he looked in his steamed suit. JJ was the least likely to really look like he would ever fit in on Figure 8, and that was because he never wanted to. He reserved his âmoney suitâ, as he called it, for when he had to work as a busboy, and occasionally picked up other gigs. You, however, were fitting in more often than you would have liked.Â
You tucked your white cashmere sweater into your long, green pleated skirt. Letting out a small huff as you sprayed your perfectly curled hair one more time. Throwing your purse over your shoulder, you trudged down your hallway, your sneakers cost more than $400. You could still remember how your jaw dropped when you saw the pricetag, and apparently the kooks ate these shoes up. They needed them in every color, every new style that came out. It was madness, if you were being honest. It was like they were just giving away money.Â
Thatâs what it seemed like, at least. You had been working at a retail store in the main strip of Figure 8 for over a year now. It was the only way you could afford the clothes you were wearing. You got a steep discount off the price, and you knew how to shop sales better than anyone.Â
Your kook masquerade was always squished the moment you walked out to your car. The old beat up Honda that was always parked out front was nothing like what a kook would drive. It was too old. A 2005? The kooks didnât know what anything from that year was- maybe only their participation trophies from little league that had the year engraved, that was about it.Â
Unlocking the car, you tossed your bag onto the passenger seat, closing the door and buckling up your seatbelt.Â
âPlease start, Hilda..â You mumbled, closing your eyes and taking a deep breath as your hand turned the key in the ignition. She did, as usual- but you would never forget the time that she broke down. You cried for the ten minutes it took John B and JJ to rescue you. They were like your own little mechanics. Pope had called you in the car for the ten minutes while you sobbed and tried to calm you down- it didnât work. Nothing worked until you saw your car fixed. You still owed them for saving your ass that day, regardless of how many times they assured you it was really nothing.
Crossing over the bridge from The Cut to Figure 8, you sighed: traffic. You knew by now the traffic was always bad as you headed into the main strip of town. It was the most popular place. Coffee shops, restaurants, stores.. Who wouldnât be there if they had the money and time? Yeah, the coffee was overpriced and no one knew how to drive in their expensive cars, but it was still nice. Nicer than The Cut where people revved their engines when you scurried across the street.
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It took you a half hour to finally pull into the parking lot behind your store. Saturdays were always the worst traffic wise, but boy, was it a good sales day. Checking the time, you bit your lip as you contemplated running to the cafe a few shops down to get a coffee. Technically you had time- you were always early. You had a fear of being late if you were being honest. You knew it looked bad, and it wasnât hard for you to just leave a little early for wherever you were going. It took you two minutes to walk to the cafe, and you would give yourself ten minutes to be in the cafe, another two minutes to walk back, and you had twenty minutes until you had to clock in. What if the cafe was busy? What if it took you fifteen minutes in there?Â
You slammed the car door and walked towards the Cove Cafe. The bell dinged as you walked in, a smile pressed to your lips as you pushed your sunglasses to your head. It wasnât busy. What a relief. You smiled at the barista as you walked up to the counter. You and Gabriella had become good friends from your constant stops to the overpriced coffee shop.Â
âThe usual?â She asked with a grin, scribbling onto the cup as you nodded your head. You still had ten minutes to get back to the shop before you had to clock in. You smiled and waved back to Gabriella as you left the shop, sipping on the drink that had become a staple to your routine.
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This Saturday was not a good day for sales. The weather mustâve been too nice, or everyone had gone to the mainland. The traffic you had fought through died down, and the small shop was deserted. Main Street in general was deserted. You and your co-worker, Abigail were basically staring at each other for four hours. It was painful at this point. You both had resorted to hiding off to the side hall to watch Netflix shows, peering your heads out when you heard the door open.Â
Most of the time it was one or two people wandering in- usually tourons who just looked around and pulled you away from the show. It was your turn to walk out there when the door dinged, watching as two people walked in. Your eyes squinted as you looked to the security camera before heading out from behind the curtain.Â
You tried to hide your surprise- and disgust- as your eyes glanced over to see Topper Thorton and Rafe Cameron in the small store. What did they want? Were they making rounds because Sarah was complaining about something John B had said? You knew it wasnât a good idea John B was hanging around her. Were they threatening your group?Â
Was it too late to shove Abigail out here? Was it too late to lock the doors and pretend you never opened? Were you allowed to not greet them? Spit in their faces?Â
âDo you have this in a large?â Rafeâs question knocked you from your thoughts, blinking a few times before you furrowed your brows.Â
âLet me go check for you.â You smiled at the two boys before heading behind the curtain where Abigail was. âHow did I get so unlucky to have to deal with Topper and Rafe? How come you got a Hollywood directors cousin and I get two assholes who arenât going to spend any money?â A groan escaped your lips before you brought yourself down the stairs to the stockroom.Â
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âSo youâre going to take the three shirts, the sweater and the two pants and then weâre going to order you the polo in the salmon color, and the sneakers, right?â You ran by him one more time.Â
âYeah, and ship it to the store if you can.â Rafe nodded, tapping his American Express Platinum card against the wooden counter. You nodded, typing away on the ipad register. It was a relief to finally be getting them out of the store, though they were a lot less of a pain then you had originally thought they would be. In fact, they were really respectful a complete 180 from what you were used to experiencing. They had hung back up everything they had tried on, and made sure to get a full glance of everything they could want in a different size or color before making you run to the stockroom once they were aware it was in a basement.
The only awkward part of the whole interaction was when you had absentmindedly walked back to the fitting rooms and saw Rafe shirtless as he spoke to Topper about the shirt he had on.Â
âPants fit well.â You awkwardly smiled, diverting your eyes from Rafeâs toned chest. You didnât hate having them in the store, and he was about to drop a lot of money which was only going to be more money in your pocket.
âYouâre all set. Everything should be here by Wednesday the latest. Iâll give you a call when they get here.â You smiled, watching him tap the heavy card against the card reader. His blue eyes glanced up to meet your own eyes.Â
âCould you text me, actually? The number on file is my cell.â Your eyes glanced to Topper as he smirked, eyes glancing your way. To be honest, you were surprised. It wasnât like you werenât allowed to text customers for outreach or order updates- but it was the look Rafe was giving you, it was the smirk Topper had plastered to his face, it was the way Rafe was leaning on the counter.Â
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âAnd then as if spending an hour with them wasnât bad enough, he asked me to text him when his order got to the store!â You were pacing in the living room of the chateau. You had driven straight there after work, it was a bit of a usual for all of you. After work on Saturdays, everyone would meet at the chateau and unwind, usually a beer or two, and pizza.Â
âWhy are you dressed like youâre from the 60âs?â JJ asked, as if he hadnât been looking at you for the past fifteen minutes you had been ranting.Â
âThat isnât the point, idiot.â Kiara chimed in, shaking her head at JJâs comment. âLove the sweater by the way.â She smiled.Â
âDude, it retails for like three hundred, I almost threw up when a woman asked me where it was in the store the last time I wore it and then she bought it in the three colors we have.â You smiled back, finally plopping onto the couch next to JJ. His eyes were wide as he looked to your sweater, before petting it.Â
âFuck, itâs soft.âÂ
âItâs cashmere and get your grubby hands off of it. You probably have oil or beer on your hands, and itâs dry clean only.â Your hand smacked at his.
âSo whenâs your first date with Rafe.â JJ teased, a groan leaving your lips as your head fell back.
âWhere the hell did a date even come into this? If he gets my number thatâs just another way to threaten us.âÂ
âI wish John B and Sarah were here to hear all this.. Sarah would lose it.â Kie laughed. âBut, we would probably get to the bottom of it. She would just text him and see what was up. Either weâre overthinking it, or weâre perfectly on track for whatever his twisted mind is thinking.âÂ
âSo are you going to wear cashmere on your date with him? Do you think heâll pay?â JJ continued, a grin planted to his face. He wasnât going to let it die down, which you should have expected. Jeez, where was Pope, John B and Sarah when you needed them?Â
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Your fingers hovered over your phone after you had texted Rafe, the chat bubble signaling he was responding - and fast. There was no need to be nervous about whatever he was saying, it was your job, after all. Texting him as he requested for the order he placed - you hadnât done anything wrong or out of the ordinary.Â
You jumped a bit feeling your phone vibrate in your hand, eyes scanning the text saying he would probably show up right before you closed because he was busy. Your lips pulled into a tight line, preparing yourself to have to stay past close. You hearted the message without even thinking, all sense of professionalism threw itself out the window. âFuck,â you muttered under your breath, too late now to undo what had been done.Â
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The store was in nearly perfect condition, you had told Abigail to head home, that you would wait out Rafeâs arrival on your own, assuring her he would surely only be about 5-10 minutes. You finger spaced the racks twice, re-folded your tables and even dusted off the mannequins as you waited for his arrival. It was now thirty minutes past close, the doors had been locked, your fingers tapped along the desk as a sigh escaped your lips, eyes rolling. Pulling your phone out of pocket, your fingers fired off a message to Rafe.Â
hey! iâve gotta close up, weâre open from 9-7 tomorrow, just tell the associate youâre picking up :)Â
Grabbing your things from the back, your keys twirled around your fingers, jumping as a figure was looking into the glass doors of the store. A gasp escaped your lips as your eyes looked to Rafeâs, a smile pressed to his lips as he caught the panic course through your body. A small debate ran through your brain, should you even let him have his things? He should and could wait until the following day. Teach him a lesson on being punctual.Â
His hand knocked on the door, smile still pressed tight to his lips. It was almost cocky, like he knew that you would let him in. Before even making a conscious decision, your feet were carrying you to the door and unlocking it.Â
âMaybe we should add a watch to your order, seems like you could use it.â Your tone was a bit harsher than you intended, but at this point, he was wasting your time. Holding the door open, you quickly locked it after he entered.Â
âIâm only thirty minutes late.âÂ
âYou knew when we closed, youâre abusing my kindness.âÂ
âIs that what you call the attitude?â Your eyes were glaring at this point, feet carrying you quickly to the back where Rafeâs items were packaged neatly, a bow around the handle of the bag and all. Grabbing it, you gasped yet again as he had been closer to the curtain to the back than anticipated. A chuckle escaping his lips. âYou look like a deer in headlights.âÂ
âCan you just take your things and go? Iâve spent enough time in this store.â A huff escaped your lips as you shoved the bag to Rafe, already walking towards the front door to escort him out. âAnd donât worry, Iâll send you watches during my next shift so you can work on being on time.âÂ
âSo you want to see me again?â Rafeâs eyebrows raised, smirk pressing to his lips. He clearly was in no rush to leave, or leave without frustrating you any bit he could.Â
âRight now I would love nothing more than to watch you leave, Rafe.â Unlocking the door, and opening it you motion for him to leave, your patience growing thin as he took his time walking from the store. âThanks for shopping with us today.â You mutter before closing the door behind him and locking it.Â
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Scrolling through your phone, a text pulled your brows together.Â
so, howâd i look walking away?
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Can you please write Oscar x newfriend!engineer. Them both being new at mclaren and just talking about their day. Maybe starting a tradition of watching an episode of their favourite tvshow together on Thursday to start the race weekend. Just comforting eachother during hard and stressful times.
Hope you catch the vibe, and this is something you're interested in writing. Thanks in advance!
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Oscar couldnât remember a time when you weren't around. From the early days at your fatherâs karting track, where you would sit on the bleachers with a juice box and your homework, to the present - F1 tracks, where your face was one of the first he searched for in the crowd.
Your friendship started when your fathers introduced you to each other. You were both six and despite most kids this age being disgusted by the opposite gender you two quickly became close. When you were kids people often mistook you as siblings - always next to each other, teasing and giggling but also supporting each other.Â
When Oscar went to boarding school a lot changed. You went from seeing each other everyday to seeing each other twice a year. Nonetheless, not seeing each other very often and the mix of puberty hormones didnât take a toll on your relationship. While Oscar was in Europe, racing in junior motorsport series, you were in Australia pursuing your academic dream.Â
You two reunited not long after turning twenty. Oscar just got his seat in Formula one and you were on your way to receive your diploma. Even with your busy schedules you tried to spend as much time together as possible. You were a regular in the paddock and everyone in Mclarenâs garage knew you.Â
The crowd was loud as Oscar climbed out of his car and hugged his team. His eyes searched the crowd until they landed on you - his biggest supporter. He jogged over and pulled you into a tight hug. You kissed his cheek and hugged him close âOscar, you did it! You were amazing. Iâm so proud of youâ you shouted over the noise. His first Formula one win. âDid you see what I did on the first corner?â he said, his eyes full of adrenaline. âDid I see? Dude, I was clutching the seat so hard I mightâve bruised my hand. I thought Carlos would push you off the track!â. You laughed, and he noticed the way your eyes shone with genuine pride. For a moment, he forgot about the cameras, the media - everything except that you were there, seeing him at his best. âNow go get weighted so we can celebrate!â.Â
Later that evening a group sat at a table at the back of a busy restaurant. Oscar was surrounded by many people, his teammate, boss, engineers and friends. But most importantly you were sitting next to him.Â
You raised your glass, he rolled his eyes knowing exactly what you were going to do. âTo the guy who went from karting on Tuesdays to taking wins on Sundaysâ. He blushed slightly from embarrassment, maybe from the alcohol . âTo the girl who always believed Iâd get there - even when I didnâtâ he said quietly before bumping your glass with his.Â
A few months later, it was Oscarâs turn to sit in the front row, this time at a prestigious science conference. He was out of place among the suits and academics, but he didnât care. Heâd been waiting to see you shine, finally seeing all those years of hard work in action.
The room was filled with applause as you entered the stage after being introduced by the host. âHello, thank you everyoneâ you said in a confident yet still a bit shaky voice. You glanced at Oscar as he gave you a big thumbs up and a huger smile. âSo before I start, I canât express how honored I am to be standing here. This has been my dream for the past eight years. I want to thank everyone here, for supporting, inspiring and helping me through thisâ.Â
Throughout the presentation your eyes kept finding their way back to Oscar. Whenever you would get a bit too overwhelmed, the sight of him calmed your nerves. After the presentation Oscar gave you space as a flood of people gathered around you, eager to discuss your theories. You answered questions from a mix of young researchers, curious students, and seasoned scientists who all seemed genuinely intrigued by your work.Â
You were talking with an elderly lady, a woman that has been your huge inspiration. âThank you. Itâs⊠honestly, I wouldnât even be here if it werenât for people like you. Your work really inspired me.â You could feel the heat rising to your cheeks as you spoke, starstruck and a little shaky. She asked you a few questions and invited you to another convention.Â
The woman tilted her head, glancing subtly in Oscarâs direction, who was leaning against the wall. âAnd, if I may say, it seems that someone else is equally inspired by youâ. You blinked, following her gaze to where Oscar stood. He hadnât noticed you looking, caught up in watching you in your element, a proud smile playing on his lips. You could see how much this meant to him - that he genuinely admired you, not just as his friend.
âOh him, thatâs just my best friendâ you replied giggling a little. âHold on to him,â the lady said gently, giving your arm a reassuring squeeze. âItâs rare to find someone who believes in us as much as we believe in themâ she paused for a moment glancing back at him âand stop by for a visit in my home in Uk, both of youâ.Â
Before you could respond the lady disappeared in the crowd. âHey,â Oscar said, his voice soft as he reached your side. âHow are you holding up?â.
âIâm good,â you replied, voice brightening as soon as he was close. âStill a bit⊠overwhelmed, but good. Did you, um, survive the science talk?â. He laughed, rubbing the back of his neck. âI think I caught about 30% of it, which for me is a win. But I caught all the important stuff - like you absolutely crushing it up thereâ. Your heart gave a little flutter, his voice hitting you harder than youâd expected. âThanks, Oscar. It⊠it really helped having you hereâ. He looked down at you, his expression softening. âI wouldnât have missed it for the world. Seeing you up there⊠Iâm just so proud of you, you know?â.
You let out a deep breath, feeling some of the tension melt away as you watched the lady. âI canât believe she was here,â you whispered, still awestruck, âSheâs, like, my heroâ. Oscar chuckled, nudging your shoulder. âI get it, really. I feel the same way every time youâre at a race. Just⊠ridiculously lucky to have you on my sideâ.Â
You smiled up at him, the words slipping out before you could stop them. âIâm the lucky one, Oscar. Thank you for being here. For everything, really.â
He didnât answer right away, just watched you, his gaze steady and warm. âIâll always be hereâ.Â
⊠a few months later âŠÂ
âItâs a nice place,â Oscar said, parking his car. As you two walked up to the ivy-covered cottage hand-in-hand, he gave your fingers a squeeze, a familiar sparkle in his eye. âThink sheâs going to guess right away?â he whispered, as if afraid to break the quiet charm of the place. You nudged him, smiling. âOf course, she noticed something between us before we even didâ. He chuckled softly. âGuess thatâs fairâ.Â
Before you could knock, the door swung open, revealing an old lady with a warm, welcoming smile. âThere you are! I was beginning to think youâd gotten lostâ. You and Oscar exchanged a sheepish look before following her inside.
Her home was cozy and filled with books, artifacts, and stacks of research papers - a testament to her lifelong dedication to science. She led you to a sitting room where a tea set and a tray of scones were waiting.
âSo,â she began, settling herself comfortably into an armchair and pouring each of you a cup, âTell me, how have the two of you been?â. âWeâve been great,â you began, accepting the delicate teacup she handed you. âItâs been busy, as usual, but⊠a good kind of busyâ. The lady nodded, âI imagine youâve been wrapped up in your research, my dear. And you, young man - what line of work are you in?â.Â
Oscar glanced at you, suppressing a grin. âIâm, uh⊠Iâm a racing driverâ. Her brows lifted in pleasant surprise. âRacing? Goodness, thatâs a bit different from the world of science, isnât it?â. He chuckled, scratching the back of his neck. âJust a bit. I race in Formula One, actuallyâ.Â
Her eyes widened, a mixture of fascination and amusement flashing across her face. âFormula One! How thrilling. Iâve read about it - those cars going at breathtaking speeds. I canât say I know much about it, but I can imagine that must be⊠well, exhausting.â. Oscar nodded, his voice softening as he replied, âIt is, itâs intense, but itâs all Iâve ever wanted to do. Itâs taken me all over the world and Iâm lucky enough to have had this one,â he said, glancing at you, âsupporting me every step of the wayâ.
âAnd actually⊠thereâs something else we wanted to tell youâ. Her smile widened knowingly, and she leaned in, her eyes sparkling with curiosity. âOh? Do tell,â her voice with a hint of irony.Â
Oscarâs cheeks colored just slightly, but he held your hand firmly. âWell⊠weâre together. As in, officiallyâ. She clasped her hands together, her expression delighted. âOh, how wonderful! I could tell there was something between you two from the moment I saw you at the conference. And now youâve finally seen it yourselves, tooâ.Â
You both laughed. It was true, if it hadnât been for her perceptive nudge, perhaps you would have taken even longer to realize what everyone else seemed to see so clearly. âThank you,â you said, smiling. âYou were right, back at the conference. Heâs been by my side for as long as I can rememberâ.Â
âLikewise,â Oscar added, his voice gentle. âSheâs my biggest supporter. My constantâ.
âHold onto that. Life has a way of throwing surprises our way, but the strength you two share will see you through anything.â
The three of you sat for hours, talking about life, love, and work. The evening felt timeless as laughter and stories filled the air, connecting the three of you in a way that felt like family. When it was finally time to leave, she walked you both to the door, wrapping you in a heartfelt embrace.
âPromise me youâll visit again soon,â she said, her voice filled with affection. âAnd donât forget, no matter where life takes you, youâll always have a place hereâ.Â
âWe promise,â Oscar said, squeezing her hand. âThank youâ.
As you and Oscar walked back under the starry sky, he slipped an arm around your shoulders, pulling you close. âSo⊠weâre officially a âweâ now, huh?â you asked.
He laughed as you leaned your head against his shoulder. âLooks like it. Think you can handle it?â.
You grinned feeling his lips on your forehead. âI think I can. As long as Iâve got you beside meâ.
November 4, 2024
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November 6, 2024 | Rafe Cameron
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pairing - Rafe x reader word count - 1,827 warnings - political talk, anti-T*ump rhetoric A/N - Who would've thought the shit show state of our world would inspire me to write again. I know for a lot of us everything feels really broken right now, and I know it may seem silly to some, but for me, writing feels like healing, even if it's just something like this. So here you all are. Rafe probably votes red, but here's a world where he doesn't. Also, if you're a T*umper, go ahead and unfollow me. I can't have any of that in my life. I'm so serious.
summary - The results of the 2024 election hit you pretty hard, and you end up taking your rage out on Rafe. Turns out, Rafe's hopes for the future looked a lot like yours.
You and Rafe didnât talk about politics. You knew better than to broach the topic with him, because you werenât naive. One glance at him and anyone could guess how he voted.
But that didnât mean you had to like it.
The two of you had been dating for about six months, and for the most part, it was smooth sailing. It was gossip fuel for most people on the island for a few weeks -you being a pogue and Rafe being ⊠who he was- but like most drama in Kildaire, it didnât stay at the forefront of peopleâs minds for long before another thing came and stole back everyoneâs attention.
And the thing on everyoneâs mind right now was the election. The election that had you donned in blue on your way to the polls, a huge smile on your face as you filled in the bubble that would make history. Hope filled you in a way you were sure it never had before.
Until the next day.
Waking up and opening social media to see the results had already come in was enough to break your spirit completely. How could this have happened? How could the country have failed so many people?
Then again, how had you been so naive to believe in the possibility of any other outcome?
You shut yourself off from the world for most of the day. You went to work and gave polite smiles and nods to your coworkers as needed, but you did your best to spend the majority of your time locked in your office, alone. You didnât dare to open social media, knowing every MAGA post from the bigots of the Figure 8 would bring tears to your eyes.
It wasnât until you were at home on your couch that you decided to brave Instagram. Before scrolling through your feed, you added a black screen with a simple blue heart to your story and wrote the words, When we fight, we win.
You thought it was harmless. A simple story that showed your feelings without being overly dramatic. The last thing you wanted to do was act irrational by doing something crazy like storming the capitol. Because that would just be insane.
Unfortunately, the people who followed you saw it as anything but harmless. They saw it as an opening to send you the most heinous, revolting messages you had ever read. Your notifications blew up within minutes, and some of them were so borderline terrifying that you locked your phone and threw it across the room, once again leaving you in a puddle of tears.
You heard your front door open, and you cursed to yourself. In all the chaos of the news, it escaped your mind that it was Wednesday, and Rafe always brought pizza to your apartment on Wednesdays. You had once mentioned in passing that you liked a pick-me-up halfway through a week, and Rafe took it upon himself to provide you with that. Normally, it was one of your favorite parts of the week. Today, Rafe was one of the last people you wanted to see.
âBabe!â he called out upon his entrance. âI got your favorite!â
You met him in the kitchen, and by one look at your face, Rafeâs own expression dropped. âWhatâs going on?â
You swallowed back the lump in your throat. âI think you should go.â
âWhat?â he said, dropping the pizza on the counter and walking over to you. With each step he took toward you, you took one step back. He stopped quickly, a frown painted on his face. âWhatâs wrong, baby?â
The words made something snap inside you, and your fists clenched at your sides. âWhatâs wrong?â you repeated. âWhatâs wrong? How about fucking everything, Rafe! Everythingâs wrong, and you not seeing that is part of the problem! You are part of the problem!â
Rafe was, in a word, flabbergasted. He ran through the past 24 hours, trying to think of something he had done wrong, but he was coming up short. âOkay, Iâm-â He let out an exasperated laugh. âIâm trying to understand, but youâve got to give me something more here. What did I do?â
âYou-â You let out a huff of a breath and ended up speaking through gritted teeth. âYou and your stupid fucking MAGA Kook friends voted for a convicted felon to run our country! You voted for a man who wants to throw away my rights. You voted for a man who has raped a multitude of women and brags about it!â
Rafeâs eyes were wide as he held his hands up and shook his head. âHang on-â
âNo, Rafe!â you shouted, pushing him back as he tried to get closer to you again. âFor the entire time weâve dated, Iâve danced around the talk of politics, because I knew better. I knew a rich ass white guy from the south would vote for another rich ass white guy to run our country, but I guess I naively thought it wouldnât matter. That the poor guys would get a win for fucking once this time. For once I thought the good guys would win and that a white man would have to face the consequences of his actions. But you-â You laughed bitterly. âYou of all people know that privileged ass white men never ever have to face the consequences of their actions.â
You were hitting him where it hurt, and you knew it, but you were hurt. You and every woman like you had been holding in years of pain and hurt, and for you and many others, today was the day it was all going to come out.
âBaby, if you just let me-â
âLet you?â you laughed incredulously. âYou and your fellow MAGA guys have clearly shown me I donât have to let you do anything anymore.â
âWhat does that mean?â he asked.
You fished your phone out of your pocket, unlocked it, and shoved it in his face to show him all of the nasty messages you were receiving. Things like, âYour body, my choice,â âwhomp whomp go make me a sandwich,â and âGuess what? Men win againâ had flooded your DMs, and while you didnât know it, Rafe was clocking every username and making a very specific list in his head.
âSo maybe you can understand why Iâm angry, Rafe,â you said, taking the phone back out of his hand and putting it in your pocket again. âI thought I could cancel out your vote, but I guess I forgot that meant you could cancel mine.â
âBa-â
âI want you to leave, Rafe.â
âBut I didnât-â
âFucking, go, Rafe!â you shouted. âLet me be angry and let me be alone!â
With a clenched jaw, Rafe gave a short nod. âOkay,â he whispered. âFine.â It looked like he wanted to say more, but he refrained, instead turning around and heading out the door, leaving you in a mess of tears.
The next day, you called off from work. Maybe it was dramatic, but you didnât care. You knew if one person even looked at you in a way you didnât like, youâd lose any composure you had, and you couldnât afford to lose your job for yelling at your boss.
You had the full intention to stay in bed all day, but the relentless knock at your door around 10AM proved that to be impossible. You felt some sense of relief, knowing it at least wouldnât be another political petitioner.
Instead, perhaps just as unfortunately, it was Rafe.
You let out a heavy sigh. âWhat do you want, Rafe?â
He held out his hand which had a coffee cup in it from your favorite shop. âI went to your work, but your boss said you were sick,â he said. âI bought you coffee.â You took it, but didnât say anything -just looked at him with raised eyebrows, as if to say, Anything else? âCan we please talk?â he said.
âI donât know what there is to say, Rafe,â you sighed. Still, you stepped aside and let him in, not wanting your neighbors to bear witness to whatever argument was about to ensue. âI know weâre different -Iâve always known that- but I donât think I can handle being this kind of different anymore.â You plopped yourself onto the sofa, expecting Rafe to sit next to you. Instead, he crouched in front of you so he was just slightly looking up at you.
âBaby, I didnât vote for him.â
Your lips parted slightly in shock, and you felt tears instantly pool in your eyes.
âWhat?â you whispered.
âYeah, of course I didnât vote for him,â he said. He reached up to turn around the hat he was wearing backwards to reveal a Harris-Walz cap, and you let out a noise that was a mix of a gasp and a little laugh. âI know Iâve fucked up before baby,â he said. âAnd in other elections, yeah, I usually vote red. But this-â He shook his head and squeezed your knees. âThis is different. And I know that. And Iâd be an absolute moron to think that tax cuts for me are more important than basic rights for you.â
You moved to kneel on the floor next to him and held his face in your hands before leaning forward to place a soft kiss to his lips. When you pulled back, you kept your forehead against his. âI was so mean to you yesterday,â you whispered. âI didnât-â
âIt wasnât anything I didnât deserve,â he said. âI know that I am living in a world that was pretty much tailor made for me. And I know I should be in fucking prison for all the shit Iâve done, and so should he. And I know that none of what Iâm saying right now changes the bullshit Iâve done, but I figured I should at least use all this fucking privilege I have and try to help people who donât have it. Because you-â He paused to press a kiss to your lips. â-have taught me so much about being a good person. And Iâm not going to vote against that.â
âI wasnât a good person yesterday,â you mumbled.
âYou were reacting to an unfortunately historic event,â he said. âYou had every right to lose it. And you can keep losing it, and I will be by your side for every minute of it, okay?â
You nodded and gave him a soft smile. âOkay.â
He smiled back and nodded. âOkay.â
You and Rafe decided to spend the rest of the day together, sometimes talking, sometimes just sitting in the quiet. When you suggested putting on a movie, Rafe agreed. He let you choose, no complaints, and watched as you searched for the Barbie movie. You cried at all the usual parts, sometimes a bit harder than normal, but Rafe understood.
It is literally impossible to be a woman.
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Adding onto this if your character loses the eye and has to get a prosthetic (as someone with the prosthetic left eye)!
1. Hard yes on favoring the side they still have vision on. AND THE HEAD TILTING! I also tend to lean much closer to things, as if i need to view them up close to the eye or cant properly see, especially if I'm doing something finicky. Washing dishes? Hunching. Writing? Hunching. Reading? Hunching. Count your day til back problems.
2. Your remaining eye needs just as much taking care of as the prosthetic, just differently. You need to rest your eyes more often, cause all the strain going to one eye tires it much easier.
3. Prosthetic is not moist. This be very uncomfy for socket. Keep blinking. The prosthetic can dry out, especially it it is windy and it gets annoying cause it is so hard to blink. I tend to walk with that eye closed. Like a pirate.
3. On the same fucking note, simce you gotta learn how to close and open your eyelids separately while the missing one heals and is therefore covered. This however also means that when i sleep, sometimes I...forget to close it? I can't see anything anyway, so i had to train myself into closing my left eye when sleeping cause i tended to freak people out. It's not fully open, about halfway cause it still relaxes, but. You know.
4. Debth perception is not a big deal with big things and annoys the shit out of me with small things. Oh you are sewing? Where the fuck is the fabric, oops, overcalculated and stabbed your finger. How full is the glass? Gotta look from the side buddy, otherwise you'll have no clue. Of someone is handing you something? Try a couple times, you might actually reach it properly cause oops, they were farther than you thought.
5. Fuck crowds. Hard agree on fuck crowds. So, if you are lucky, your remaining eye still has pretty okay width of perspective or whatever it is called. But in crowds? You are fucked. So many people pushing, coming from your wrong side, the absolute panic you can have because you cannot see damnit, you keep bumping into people and it just. Sucks so much.
6. That darn prosthetic needs cleaning. Every night. If it is windy. If there is a lot of dust/sand. It gets irritated as well, which is a pain in the ass, cause it gets red and has a bunch of issues and it aches and it's just. Ugh. With some eyedrops it goes away in a week, but. UGH.
And that was your one-eyed caveat ;)
writing advice for characters with a missing eye: dear God does losing an eyes function fuck up your neck. Ever since mine crapped out I've been slowly and unconsciously shifting towards holding my head at an angle to put the good eye closer to the center. and human necks. are not meant to accommodate that sorta thing.
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okay i've played a bit more and i have a lot of thoughts about Taash and the way gender is being handled overall in this game...
first i will say the positives which is that i do really appreciate the attempt at incorporating trans characters both in the world as companions and allowing us to make those options in the cc. and as someone who also writes dark fantasy stories with trans characters i do understand how difficult it can be to incorporate these identities into a world that doesn't necessarily have the same language as we do; but overall the way they've approached this feels very... i've seen some people call it unpolished but i actually feel the opposite. it's almost clinical (therapy-speak in general has been a main criticism of this game) and it's way too polished, in my opinion, which is what makes it so jarring to see.
there has been a trans character established in game previously, there is already a precedent for these identities to exist in this world, and they have never used this language before. the way Iron Bull talked about Krem felt far more realistic and integrated into the world of Thedas comparatively. was it perfect? no, of course not, but i chafe at the idea that it needs to be perfect, anyways. this is another problem the game has; past characters have had their flaws completely ironed out (Isabela is now a paragon of friendship and returns cultural artifacts instead of looting them, Dorian has multiple codex entries wallowing about how he used to defend slavery, the Crows have suddenly become a big found family-- on and on and on) and while i have my criticisms of some of these flaws (Dorian's pro-slavery rant in inqusition still makes my eyes roll) i dislike the way they're handling these changes and just expecting us to ignore all of the lore and worldbuilding from previous games. and all of this "political correctness" only for the game to still be so racist.
which brings me back to Taash.... Taash is very strange character, lacking agency around both their gender and their culture. they are simply a mouthpiece for the writer. while yes, it should always be made undeniable that your character is trans or gay or xyz, Taash really does only exist to be nonbinary. and to be clear, a nonbinary character like them could be very interesting, if their writing wasnt so... white. we know that the Qun has different ideas about gender than Rivain (and elsewhere) and this could have been a very interesting exploration of that; however, it is obvious that the Qun (and Taash's mother) are meant to be depicted negatively, and ultimately it ends with the player (not Taash) choosing between their two cultures. their gender is clearly far more important to the writer and the only facet of their identity they seemed willing to explore, which makes me question why even make this character qunari to begin with...
Neve and Rook are also the two that spur Taash into exploring their gender. this, on the surface, is not a problem for me. i'm playing as a trans Rook and while the dialogue was again very overpolished and clunky i found it kind of endearing. but the way Neve is used as this "foil" for Taash really rubbed me the wrong way. this assumption that Neve has no complicated feelings about her gender or being a woman (which i highly doubt considering the world she lives in & how misogynistic it is) and the implication from Taash that she only dresses the way she does for her mother/other people (which Neve doesn't even get to challenge) is extremely narrow-minded. Taash is the Only character that acknowledges gender; so far, even when flirting with other characters, it's only been Taash that i've been allowed to specify with that my rook is trans, despite Taash already knowing that from our previous conversation (i hope that this changes once i lock in with a specific character so feel free to correct me if it does).
but no one else really seems to have an opinion except that Neve drags Taash around to meet Maevaris, and we get the very goofy note that's just a list of modern gender identities and their definitions. i do partly sympathize with the writers here; again i've had to find a way to incorporate lgbt identities in my own writing and it can be difficult depending on your audience. i understand wanting to be very clear and concise. but this is... just goofy. and this desperation to be so correct around gender while simultaneously writing such an offensively racist narrative is really frustrating.
there's also an inconsistency that comes from this with Taash's character-- they are portrayed as this rough but awkward character that is bossed around by their mother, they are bashful with flirting early on and are almost child-like in comparison to the other characters. and then suddenly you get a scene with them where they very directly ask if you want to have sex and suddenly pin you against the wall. this scene was so jarring to me i referred to it as a jumpscare because WHERE has this character been this entire time? i want to see more of this, more of this character who takes what they want and knows exactly who they are (which they even say multiple times when you first meet them... but then need Neve and Rook to hold their hand about it?)
i do really like Taash, i like the idea of them, of this very self-assured and almost cocky character who is also a little silly, this person who is so sure of who they are but has to deal with their mother undermining them while also navigating a culture they feel disconnected from, and i also like that the player can help them through it... but the execution is awful, shallow, and racist. the idea that someone can only choose One culture is so offensive and also a laughable conclusion when compared to their coming out as nonbinary. the writer clearly understands that people don't exist within these little boxes when it comes to gender, but can't wrap their head around it when it comes to someone's culture-- which is also a very important part of a person's identity and often contributes directly to their gender and how they feel about it. all of these different characters have different experiences, come from different places, Davrin and Bellara are Dalish and even have differing opinions on what that means for themselves, but the game doesn't touch on any of it. all we get is a lecture from the writer that is completely removed from the world it's presented in.
i wish i could understand what it was this character was meant to convey. i stand by saying that it doesn't need to be perfect; i know there are people that had problems with Krem in inquisition, but at least Krem was his own person. Taash doesn't even get that here... i harp a lot about character agency when i give writing advice on my other blog but it really is so so so important for marginalized characters-- both gay, trans, and especially characters of color-- to have their own agency around their identities that is completely separate from the player & player choice, that allows them to exist as their own person within the world you've created, and i think Taash's character and story is an unfortunate example of exactly what not to do.
#honestly i should be making these posts over on that blog but im scared of dragon age fans#and this blog is much smaller and not connected to rpg/IF fandoms lmao#datv spoilers#datv critical#taash#long post
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911 was always in my periphery bc of how popular Buck x Eddie is on Tumblr and Ao3. I didn't really want to watch a cable network procedural drama, especially one that came off as so unserious. I could also see how such invested shipping by a lot of fans who are young and think itâs ok to demand things from the cast and crew would inevitably become a toxic cesspool. I stand by that assessment of the show based on the behavior of the fandom these last months, as well as the overall quality of the writing and how often good story lines just get dropped or undermined.
However, I heard about Buck coming out. Over the summer, I was going through a lot and feeling aimless, so I finally started watching the show. And I liked Buck and Tommy, but what I really loved was the quality of the fan works they inspired. At the end of the day, I never really had real expectations of high quality television from a show like 911; thatâs not what itâs for.
Despite this, what really affected me last nightâwhich was also the first episode I bothered watching live ever because of how terrible this last week has beenâwasnât even how badly it was executed or the fact that they broke up. But how unnecessarily and viciously cruel the whole thing felt?
What was the point of showing Tommy as a caring, supportive, present partner in the previous episode if it was going to lead to an unceremonious break up? What was the point of showing his yearning for connection and family only to see him throw it all away? Why have him say such wonderful things about Buck moments before questioning the commitment of their relationship after six months together? What was the point of Buck getting that speech from Josh and bringing up marriage and moving in together and that Tommy had been a transformative relationship when it was going to end with him being dumped? It just felt so horribly cruel to see a character bare his tender heart and see it get stomped on. He looked so sad at the end.
Up till the very end of the episode, I was actually really enjoying it. Their acting was so good from heart eyes to heartbreak, and the show seemed to understand Tommyâs reaction to Buck getting hit on by those women would cause friction. It even made sense to me that Tommy would recoil at the prospect of moving in together because Buck clearly hasnât come to terms with being queer yet (sir, you havenât researched the Kinsey scale? You?) And Tommy is also clearly afraid to reach for the connections he wants and the seeming inevitability of his heart being broken and is masking that with nonsense about Buck needing to play the field and the biphobia present wherein. It was such an interesting depth to his character! I thought the break up speech was so well-acted, and I was so ready for the conversation they were going to have that would address it and let them move on together stronger. To see Buck learn from Josh and see the scars Tommy was unintentionally revealing in that moment and address them.
And then the credits started rolling and I felt like I got punched in the gut.
It was definitely the straw that broke the camelâs back for me, with the election and other personal stuff really stressing me out this week. Last night, I felt sick and unable to sleep, and I spent the morning bawling my eyes out. It feels like one of the few things I really looked forward to had been snatched away for the shock factor. I believe the interviews are the definite death knell, but even if you donât follow the interviews, it was just a cruel way to end the episode. Even if this ends up being a temporary roadblock or they âfixâ it, itâll always leave a bad taste in my mouth.
Anyway, Iâm upset that I let a show I always knew wasnât very good affect me this much, and I regret spending months of my life on it. But the reason I wanted to send this ask was because my real hyperfixation these last few months was never the show itself; it was always the Bucktommy fandom. Reading some of the most beautiful fanfiction, including yours, these deep and intense character studies or auâs or future fics that show more love to these characters than the show does. The stunning art, the lovingly rendered gifs, the startlingly funny and insightful writing. The fandom has been my real love, and I hope that despite this huge blow, people like you will continue being so immensely creative and artistic for this ship.
Iâm sorry this has been so long and vent-y, but I wanted to send you this ask because youâre one of my favorite fic authors, and Iâve been following your posts since last night and youâre still responding to anonymous asks. Iâve always been stealth in the fandom to avoid certain parts of it, so didnât want this on my own blog. If you do publish it, I hope the other authors and artists and creators who have made my life better get to see it too <3 And that they donât regret the time and passion and love theyâve poured into the last few months. I have appreciated it, if nothing else.
Hi.
First of all, please don't apologize for the length of this.
Everything you pointed out were exactly the reasons people joined this fandom. Everything you listed here is EXACTLY the reason it left such a bad taste in our mouth.
I'm sorry I won't be more eloquent in this post, because this is such a kind and thoughtful and lovely summation of all the things I've been hearing and seeing and feeling.
The point of all that, if we are to believe Lou (which I do, and honestly props to him for being as gracious as he was in those post-mortems: fucking TWO exit interviews for a guest star? wtf abc), WAS to pull the rug out from under the audience. It WAS to end it all on a shocker of heartbreak. They filmed the bulk of Tommy's S8 scenes AFTER the breakup. It is absolutely vicious and cruel and meant to make people talk about it. The engagement they are getting right now is to some extent WHAT THEY WANTED. I went straight to my notes after work and I can't be fucked to check the insta or FB to see if they've posted anything new and/or what the comment count is on the 8x06 posts but THIS IS THE INTENDED RESULT. Broken hearts, upset people, an increasingly toxic fandom crowing.
That's where I'm at. I think that's where a lot of people have landed. And it's so disheartening to see something that really genuinely drew people in because it was handled so gently and kindly at first just be ripped away and the door shut on it.
And honestly if they close the mid season OR open or close 8B on a premise that includes one of them being injured and the other having a Realizationâąïž I won't trust this team to do it genuinely or truly. Even the breakup would have held so much potential for me, but not like this.
Anyway. I'm sorry you're feeling so disappointed. I am grieving the missed potential of literally every plot they built up this season for every character and if I do watch it won't be live and I will likely have very little trust for it's potential. There has been So Much wasted potential.
And I want to say thank you. Even if you lurked, even if you disengage now, the creators who made those works made them out of love and they wanted to share them and the community around it all has been lovely to see. Thank you.
Some of us will still be hanging around building the world that could have been. I hope, if you feel up to peeking at that sandbox, that you feel welcome to go play in it or even just clap from the sidelines.
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