#I think the commenters are younger than me

[hillbillyoracle]

This post got me thinking. Like really churning. I just started working through Momento Mori by Joanna Ebenstein and this post kicked up some realizations for me.

Most of my major experiences with death happened before the age of like 25. Some were the ones you "expect" like grandparents and others were friends in my scene who either OD'd or straight up disappeared. My more recent experiences were supporting my partner through 3 deaths in the family in 3 months - one a cousin that was a few years younger than her that accidentally OD's leaving behind her children. Another was the grandmother who was her rock growing up in a chaotic household and who steadfastly included me at family gatherings when my partner's mom and sister would ice me out. All passed suddenly.

I think the only thing that is universally true about grief is that everyone goes through it differently.

Because so much of what these replies held up as "this is what you say" and "this is what you do" - I fucking hate that stuff (even though I admit I default to it) as much as or more than so many people here hate the religious comments (which I usually don't tend to mind personally).

To me:

"I'm sorry for your loss" = "I am having the correct feeling about this."

"I can't imagine what you're going through" = "I can't relate to you and I'm putting distance between us to feel better about it."

"How are you doing?" = "Share something vulnerable with me so I feel like I helped you."

And you could say I'm hearing that wrong, and I get that I likely am, but that's what those words mean to me. And when I'm grieving I've learned I can't really access that part of my brain that better attunes me the "proper responses".

I also do not want someone to feel angry with, I do not want my anger fed at all. I want help dissolving it because if I don't it'll fully consume me and that's even worse than the grief for me, to have all the good in me burnt up while I'm still alive because that's my personal experience of anger.

Which is all just to say, it has nothing to do with religiosity in my experience - there's simply no "correct" response you can rely on for all people. In words or in deed.

And that is what makes experiencing grief so hard - everyone gives you what they got and often it's a reflection of their own stunted relationship with death, yes even the atheists, and it often sucks.

And trying to comfort someone in grief sucks - how do you use words and actions to reach them when communication of any kind is so highly individual and this individual might not be able to tell you what they need and want to hear/have done?

If you go "no actually they're using the wrong words/actions, these are the correct ones", you wind up doing the very same things as the people who've pissed you off.

Or at least, that's what I found when I dug into it.

I try to be forgiving when I'm grieving but I fall short. I don't expect someone grieving to be forgiving if I miss the mark, but I appreciate it immensely when they're able.

My favorite things to hear when I'm grieving are ones I know some other people hate:

"I miss them so much."

"Remember when they..."

"I thought about them today."

"I wonder what they'd say about..."

"They would have loved this."

"I had a dream about them."

Releasing the idea that there was a correct thing people could say to me and I would feel a little better (or ensure I wouldn't feel worse) let me grieve how I needed to grieve. It let me support in ways I could better sustain over the long term (because boy howdy if grief isn't long term).

Anywho, a heartfelt hug and virtual cup of tea to anyone else reading this and going through it. On other side. Solidarity friends.

it's been a year so i feel more comfortable talking about it..

when you're atheist and you lose someone, religious people don't really know how to interact with you. it's fine, we have different worldviews.

'He's in a better place, now.'

Sorry auntie, but I don't believe that. I believe that his brain stopped working at 5h55pm on december 11th 2022, and that's it. Nothing after that.

It makes grief very difficult, because not believing in god or the afterlife also means accepting that you will never, ever see that person again. That's it. The end. Nada mas.

But, back to the aunties and other faceless people gravitating in the grey blurry waters of your awareness.

They tell you 'He's with god now' and you tell them 'Yeah I don't believe that' and.

they. get. annoyed.

Here I am, gutted open, the worst day of my life, barely holding myself together, and they! Get annoyed that I won't smile and entertain their point of view!

Another faceless person tried to heal me with cristals. She also got annoyed when I told her I didn't believe in that.

I usually don't really mind religious people. It's fine, we have different worldviews. I think I'm right but so do they. As long as they're good people, I don't judge them for their faith.

I'll even be grateful for them trying to console me. I get that you're trying to give me strength and love. Thank you.

But I'm going to be true to myself, yes even when I'm mad with shock and grief. And I still can't believe they got annoyed that I didn't play along to placate them, on the worst day of my life.

(I wanted to share because I've never heard anyone talk about atheism and grief, and the loneliness that comes out of it.)

[harrysfolklore]

red - cs55

summary: carlos is dating a singer who's 9 years younger than him, and it's all good until it isn't

folkie radio: okay guys i know that summary is so bad but this is basically inspired by red by taylor and i hope you like it 😭

MASTERLIST | PATREON

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yourinstagram mi corazon ❤️ @/carlossainz55

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username1 HELLO??

username2 WHATS GOING ON

popbase BREAKING: Pop sensation YN (20) confirms relationship with Formula 1 driver Carlos Sainz (29)

carlossainz55 Mi vida 🤍 Finally sharing you with the world

oliviarodrigo this is so cute! happy for you lovie 🥺❤️

username3 the ferrari jacket while recording SHES INSANE FOR THAT

lando about time you two went public! was tired of pretending i didn't know 😂

username4 her new boyfriend is an F1 driver??? THE POWER THIS HOLDS

sabrinacarpenter the way you've been glowing lately makes so much sense now 😍

username5 Carlos Sainz and YN?? We're living in a simulation 😭

username6 age gap discussion incoming in 3...2...1...

charles_leclerc Finally! No more hiding in Monaco 😂

username7 nine year age gap... thoughts? 🤔

taylorswift This makes me so happy! ❤️ Can't wait for you both to come over again!

username8 isn’t he a bit old for her?

username9 young popstar dating an older guy? i think i’ve seen this film before

username10 I LOVE THIS

username11 THE THIRD PIC HAS SUCH AURA

username12 this could be the ultimate power couple or a complete mess

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f1gossip🚨 Pop star YN supporting boyfriend Carlos Sainz at the Spanish GP! This marks her first public appearance in the paddock since confirming their relationship last week.

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username1 I LOVE THIS SO MUCH

username2 Carlos is literally 29 dating a 20 year old. I'm sorry but that's weird 🚩

username3 they look so happy! she fits right in with the ferrari family

username4 the way charles and alex have basically adopted her already

username4 not sure how I feel about this... she's barely out of her teens and he's almost 30?

username5 IM LIVING FOR THIS

username6 here's why this relationship is problematic: [thread]

username7 can we talk about how she's handling herself so professionally despite all the hate? queen behavior

username8 she's an adult who can make her own choices. stop infantilizing successful women.

username9 the paddock dynamics about to get interesting 👀

username10 BEST WAG ALREADY

username11 not trying to hate but 9 years is a big gap at that age...

username12 charles treating her like a little sister is everything

username13 age gap discourse aside, they actually look really good together

username14 anyone else notice how all the drivers seem to already know her? must've been dating longer than we thought

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popbase 🎤 F1 driver Carlos Sainz supporting girlfriend YN at her sold-out Madrid concert! She even changed some lyrics to reference their relationship 👀

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username1 carlos in boyfriend era is everything we needed

username2 not charles and alex being the ultimate supportive friends 🥺

username3 the security had to stop fans from taking photos of Carlos instead of watching the show 💀

username4 LOOK AT HIM BEING SO PROUD OF HER

username5 YN’s "Spanish nights" lyric change already trending on TikTok

username6 still weird seeing a 20yo performing for her 29yo boyfriend but go off I guess

username7 first she comes to his races, now he's at her concerts. COUPLE OF THE CENTURY

username8 "And all my Spanish nights are better with you" HELLO??? THE LYRICS???

username9 he looks at her like she hung the moon and stars 😭

username10 the age gap comments getting real old. they're obviously happy together

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yourinstagram 21 🤍 thank you for all the birthday wishes x

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username1 BIRTHDAY ICON

popbase YN celebrates 21st birthday with star-studded party in London. Notable absence: boyfriend Carlos Sainz.

username2 sometimes i forget that she’s still so young

alexandrasaintmleux You looked beautiful birthday girl ❤️ Love you x

username3 carlos was posting from madrid while yn celebrated in london... trouble in paradise?

username4 something's off... she usually writes longer captions

charles_leclerc Happy birthday pequeña! You deserve the world

username5 he was having dinner with friends in Madrid instead of being at his girlfriend's birthday??? 🚩🚩🚩

oliviarodrigo ily birthday girl! your 21st year is gonna be amazing 🤍

madisonbeer HAPPY BIRTHDAY GORGEOUS 🥹

username6 please tell me they didn't break up

username7 maybe he had commitments in madrid? stop assuming things

username8 age gap strikes again? 👀

username9 no carlos, no "te quiero" caption, no couple photos... something definitely happened

username10 CARLOS WTF DID YOU DO

username11 we knew this relationship was not going to last tbh

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TMZ EXCLUSIVE: F1 Star Carlos Sainz Missing from Girlfriend's 21st Birthday - Full Story

TROUBLE IN PARADISE? F1 STAR CARLOS SAINZ SKIPS GIRLFRIEND YN'S 21ST BIRTHDAY FOR BOYS' NIGHT

Pop sensation YN's star-studded 21st birthday celebration in London had everything - except her boyfriend. Formula 1 star Carlos Sainz (29) was noticeably absent from the festivities, instead posting Instagram stories of a dinner with friends in Madrid.

Multiple sources tell TMZ that Sainz COMPLETELY FORGOT about his girlfriend's birthday, leading to what insiders describe as a "major relationship crisis."

"He was posting stories and having fun in Madrid while YN was literally crying at her own party," reveals a source close to the singer. "Everyone was asking where he was, and she kept making excuses until she couldn't anymore."

The party, held at an exclusive London venue, was attended by music industry heavyweights and even several F1 drivers, including Sainz's teammate Charles Leclerc and his girlfriend Alexandra Saint Mleux, making the Ferrari driver's absence even more conspicuous.

Another source tells us that Sainz realized his mistake late in the evening when he saw social media posts about the party. "He immediately tried to damage control, but the damage was done. YN was devastated."

The 9-year age gap between the couple, which has been a topic of discussion since they went public with their relationship, is now being scrutinized again. "This is exactly what everyone was worried about," says our insider. "She's turning 21, and he's out there forgetting her birthday completely."

YN's team has not responded to our request for comment. A representative for Sainz said they "do not comment on personal matters."

Got a story or a tip for us? Email TMZNews@tmz.com

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carlossainz55 Sometimes the biggest mistakes lead to the strongest promises. Te quiero más que nada en este mundo, mi vida. Forever making it up to you. ❤️

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username1 I CANT DO THIS

yourinstagram i love you more 🤍

username2 this is so..

alexandrasaintmleux My heart 🥺

lando back to being disgustingly cute I see

username3 THE WAY I CAN BREATHE AGAIN

username4 they're good y'all

username5 Carlos Sainz redemption arc starting strong

username6 not me crying over that caption

username7 well that was a quick resolution

username8 I'm still mad at him but this is cute

username9 NOT THE DAMAGE CONTROL POST OMFGGGGG

username10 this is gold

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gossiphub🚨 DRAMA ALERT: YN and Carlos Sainz in heated argument outside Mayfair club. Sources say tension arose after Carlos "got too protective" over other guys approaching YN inside. 👀

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username1 the way she stormed off... this isn't just about tonight

username2 he looks jealous af... carlos baby what are you doing

username3 anyone else notice this is the same club where her ex was spotted earlier? 👀

paddockgossip YN seen arriving at her apartment alone. Carlos reportedly went to Charles' place

username4 this man rly thought he could control a 21yo in her party era 💀

username5 age gap issues showing... she wants to party, he's in his settled era

username6 y'all don't know the full story, stop assuming

username7 she's literally crying... carlos better have a good explanation

username8 not me remembering all those "controlling boyfriend" blind items...

username9 WHAT IS HAPPENING

username10 this is why drivers usually date within the F1 bubble tbh

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yourinstagram singapore lights hit different when they're shining on you @/carlossainz55 ❤️ so proud of you mi amor. p.s. champagne is not good for silk dresses but worth it x

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username1 MY HEART

carlossainz55 The best lucky charm. Te quiero mi vida ❤️

charles_leclerc Get a room you two 🙄

lando mate was more excited to see you than the trophy

username2 THEY MEAN SO MUCH TO ME

lewishamilton Beautiful moment you two ❤️

username3 remember when we thought they were breaking up after the club incident? now look at them 🥺

username4 The Valentino dress with Ferrari red heels >>>>>

tmz YN and Carlos Sainz silence breakup rumors with stunning Singapore display

username5 he way the whole team loves them together

username6 AND YALL THOUGHT THEY WERE OVER

username7 age gap will always be a red flag

username8 THE FERRARI QUEEN

username9 CARLOS REALLY DID THAT

username10 ahhh im so happy she was there for his win

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carlossainz55 Ending the year exactly where I want to be. Starting the new one exactly who I want to be with. 2024 ya estamos aquí mi vida @/yourintagram ❤️

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username1 I LOVE ONE COUPLE

yourinstagram forever mi amor ❤️

username2 YN choosing family dinner in Madrid over Hollywood NYE parties... we love this growth

username3 they could never make me hate them

scuderiaferarri 🤍

username4 carlos is turning 30 this wear which makes the age gap weirder

username5 YN3 is going to be full of love songs

username6 HES SO IN LOVE

landonorris My parents

username7 the way yn is literally younger than lando😭

username8 cuteee

username9 THEY'RE NOT BREAKING UP WE WON

username10 this is my family

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username1 THE RELIEF I JUST FELT

username2 y'all really had us scared for a minute 😭

username3 deuxmoi being wrong again what's new

username4 but what about the suitcases? 👀

username5 she's moving in with him besties, those weren't breakup suitcases

username6 idk something feels off... remember how she denied the club fight?

username7 the way she always defends him... giving Stockholm syndrome

usernamd8 she's literally trauma bonded, we saw how he acts in public

username9 STOP projecting your issues onto them omg

username10 Carlos: *breathes*

Y'all: RED FLAG RED FLAG

username11 notice how she didn't deny the "trouble in paradise" part 🤔

username12 defending toxic behavior again... girl we're trying to help you

username13 some of y'all need therapy instead of projecting onto celebs fr

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yourinstagram some of my favorite memories will always be in red ❤️ but it's not the color i fell in love with, it's you @/carlossainz55. so proud of everything you've achieved and everything that's coming next. you'll always be my champion, no matter the suit 🤍 ps: i'm keeping the jacket.

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username1 IM CRYING

username2 i can’t believe carlos is leaving ferrari

carlossainz55 Mi vida, siempre ❤️ (and that's MY jacket 😤)

scuderiaferarri Once Ferrari Family, always Ferrari Family ❤️

alexandrasaintmleux the way I'm crying rn

username3 SOBBING. THE MEMORIES. THE JACKET. THE EVERYTHING.

username4 "not the color i fell in love with" STOP I'M CRYING

username5 CANT BELIEVE YN WONT BE A FERRARI WAG ANYMORE

username6 imagine yn in mercedes fits tho

username7 AND SOME OF YALL SAID THEY WERE BREAKING UP

username8 she’ll always be THEE ferrari girl

username9 this caption is so beautiful

username10 THIS COUPLE IS MY LIFE

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username1 the way he JUST posted about their anniversary two weeks ago???

username2 remember when he said "age is just a number when you find your soulmate" in that ferrari interview... aged like milk

username3 let's not jump to conclusions maybe-

username4 he fumbled THE BAG. she literally moved countries for him???

username5 imagine throwing away 2 years because you're having a midlife crisis

username6 I DONT BELIEVE THIS

username7 nah this is fake

username8 how many times people have said that they're over but turns out they're not tho

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tmz YN steps out for the first time since breakup with Carlos Sainz news broke

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username1 LEAVE HER ALONE

username2 disgusting how they chased her down just to get pics of her crying. she can't even process her breakup in peace

username3 if you're sharing those photos you're getting blocked. respect her privacy

username4 my heart breaks for her. these 'photographers' are vultures.

lando Proper shameful this. Let her be.

username1 OMFG LANDO

username5 maybe if carlos hadn't dumped her by TEXT she wouldn't be crying in parking lots

username6 she doesn't deserve this. no one does.

username7 To any media outlets - we will report and block any accounts sharing these photos.

username8 yall SUCK

username9 i hope you're ready for that lawsuit

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yourinstagram healing sounds different for everyone. for me, it's always been putting pain into poetry and turning heartbreak into harmony. taking some time away to write my truth into existence. thank you for understanding 🤍

p.s. no, none of them are "nice" songs

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dailymail SPOTTED: Carlos Sainz with Scottish model Rebecca Donaldson. Sources say they've been "quietly seeing each other" for a month. Apparently met through mutual friends... 👀

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username1 a MODEL?? this man really said "you're too young" to yn and then- i can't.

username2 respectfully deleting my carlos fan account. yn deserved better.

username3 "i need time to focus on racing" yeah focusing real hard i see

username4 the way he's trying to recreate his old relationship but with a "socially acceptable" age gap... embarrassing

username5 LEAVE HIM ALONE

username6 man poor yn

username7 he’s innocent idc

username8 OH CARLOS SAINZ GET READY FOR THOSE BREAKUP SONGS

username9 i always knew he was trash

username10 IM ON HIS SIDE IDC

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yourinstagram RED.

13 tracks of what happens when you love someone scarlet and they leave you burgundy.

october 22.

produced by @/jackantonoff

available for pre-save now.

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username1 OMFG

username2 SHES COMING

charles_leclerc track 9 🎹🖤

↳ username1 IF CHARLES PLAYS THE PIANO I’LL DIE

oliviarodrigo screaming crying throwing up this is gonna be INSANE

lewishamilton Already pre-saved 🙏🏾

username3 CURRENTLY SHAKING AND CRYING IN MY LIVING ROOM

username4 charles really said "let me help end this man's whole career" with track 9

username5 not me calculating that track 5 is 10 MINUTES LONG... carlos better move countries

username6 she’s coming for BLOOD

username7 RED??? FERRARI RED

username8 NOT EVEN CARLOS’ FRIENDS ARE ON HIS SIDE

username9 album of the year already

username10 red bc carlos is a red flag so true

username11 this cover EATS

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yourinstagram RED. out now everywhere.

thank you for every tear that became a lyric, every memory that became a melody, and every heartbreak that became healing. special thanks to CL for the late night studio sessions, ASM for being the best friend ever and all of my collaborators for helping me bring this to life

and to the person who said i was too young to handle this life - watch me.

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username1 IM CRYNG

username2 CHARLES AND ALEX?

charles_leclerc proud of you piccolina ❤️ (track 9 was therapeutic)

alexandrasaintmleux i love you so much 💘

oliviarodrigo THE BRIDGE OF ALL TOO WELL???? actual perfection

username3 "you said if we had been closer in age maybe it would’ve been fine" ACTUAL CHILLS

username4 "i’ll get older but your lovers stay my age" SOMEBODY CHECK ON HIM

username5 charles playing piano while she sings about his best friend's betrayal... the LAYERS

spotify "All Too Well" breaks single-day streaming record

username6 THE SONG ABOUY HER 21ST BDAY HELLO??

georgerussell63 Amazing songs. You're incredible

username7 the way she ended a man's whole career while staying classy... queen behavior

username8 CHARLES PLAYING THE PIANO WAS BEAUTIFUL

username9 this is the album of the century

username10 BREAKUP ALBUM OF THE CENTURY CARLOS SAINZ YOU'RE SO OVER

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f1updates Carlos Sainz addresses YN's album 'RED' for the first time:

"Look, everyone has their version of the truth. The album is her art, her perspective. But let me be clear - I never cheated, I was honest about needing space. The age gap was a real concern. Meeting Rebecca happened after. That's my truth."

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username1 WELL

username2 not him lying AGAIN when track 11 has literal timestamps 💀

username3 this is getting uglier by the second

username4 LEAVE HIM ALONE

username5 stream red

username6 don’t care we’re all on yn’s side

username7 GASLIGHTER

username8 does he ever shut up

username9 they should be asking him questions about RACING not his ex gf

username10 this is just ridiculous

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yourinstagram one month of RED. one month of healing. one month of turning heartbreak into history.

thank you for every scream-sing to track 5, every tweet decode, every dm sharing your own story🤍

p.s. someone asked if i regret being "too honest" in the lyrics. no. some people give you their truth in press conferences, i gave mine in verses.

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username1 IM CRYING

taylorswift Proud of you ❤��� welcome to the better off club

username2 IM SO PROUD OF HER

username3 "some people give you their truth in press conferences, i gave mine in verses" HELP WHY IS SHE SO ICONIC

username4 not a single skip on this album... even carlos' new gf had to private her spotify

sabrinacarpenter watching you heal has been the best part ❤️

charles_leclerc So proud of you !

username5 SHE KEEPS COMING FOR BLOOD

username6 are you ready to die carlos sainz

alexandrasaintmleux MY FAVORITE GIRL! couldn't be prouder

username7 i think about the lyric "said i was too young i was too soft can't take a joke can't get you off" every single day

username8 SO DAMN PROUD OF HER

georgerussell63 ❤️

username9 someday she'll be everything to somebody else why carlos ages horribly

username10 SHE MEANS SO MUCH TO ME

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williamsracing We're excited to announce Carlos Sainz will be joining Williams Racing for the 2025 season onwards. Welcome to the team, @/carlossainz55 🤝

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username1 OH MY LORD

username2 THIS IS WILD

username3 WAIT. "losing him was blue like i'd never known" FROM RED... SHE KNEW

username4 going from ferrari red to williams blue... she wrote this in the album TWO MONTHS AGO

username5 remember when everyone thought the "blue" references were about sadness? Girlie was dropping CONTRACT INFO

username6 LEAVE CARLOS ALONE

username7 she really buried the contract news in a breakup album... queen behavior

username8 loving him was RED (ferrari) and losing him was BLUE (williams) i can’t do this

username9 YN YOU SICK HUMAN BEING.....

username10 none of this comments are congratulating him we're all dissecting lyrics LMAO

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gossiphub SPOTTED: YN having dinner at Monaco's Hotel de Paris with mystery man. Sources say they spent 3 hours talking and left together in his car.

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username1 THE WAY HE'S HOLDING HER HAND UNDER THE TABLE I'M-

username2 MERCEDES BOY? 👀

username3 not me zooming in on the reflection in the window... that's definitely a british accent in the video snippet

username4 THIS IS GOOD KARMA

username5 carlos unfollowed [redacted] on insta... he knows something

username6 carlos sainz was found crying

username7 IS THAT SOMEONE FROM THE PADDOCK???

username8 streets say that's another driver...

username9 she's moving on already? wow

username10 THIS IS ABOUT TO GET INTERESTING

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yourinstagram but on a wednesday in a cafe i watched it begin again🤍

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incessant drooling

mhm pregnant Rhiannon.... need to be her sweet younger girlfriend who she met during her stint at Craig's parents house because I was Tink's dogwalker....

-🍭

your thoughts & asks actually never miss 🍭 anon what the fuck?? (also “in bloom” spoilers!)

oooh dogwalker!reader in this scenario i’m thinking thoughts…

you show up twice a day to walk tink, same time every morning, same polite smile, same softly murmured “hello”, or “good morning” that makes rhiannon’s arms twitch where they rest on the arm of craig’s mum’s godawful floral settee.

you’re sweet and helpful and nice and rhiannon hates it…

…no, she craves it.

the kindness. the shy glances at her growing bump you’re too polite to ask about. your gentle comments along the lines of “get some rest” when she’s scowling about her ankles or the twinge in her back, instead of offering her some sanctimonious comment about how beautiful motherhood is supposed to be.

at first, rhiannon is just having a little fun with it: turns out toying with the sweet dog walker is a great way to pass the time now that craig is in jail for her crimes murder and she’s merely the killer’s girlfriend, unfortunate enough to get herself knocked up by him.

she shows up at the doorstep in just a loosely tied robe and makes sure it constantly slips from her shoulder or walks in the background when elaine opens the door for you, wrapped in just a towel. she compliments you and relishes in your cheeks flushing red.

once she let you in, pretending she hadn’t noticed her leaking breasts, purposely embarrassing herself for the sake of watching you blush and fumble for the right words.

then, on a sunday, when craig’s parents are out for church and some follow up lunch with friends rhiannon claimed she was too tired for, she takes it farther than just observing from afar:

you’re crouched by tink’s leash in the doorway, flushed from the wind, and she’s watching you from the hallway in an oversized jumper, fabric stretching a little too tight over her bump, her nipples visibly outlined where her fabric clings. her chest is sore. she wants to be touched.

“you know,” rhiannon says lazily, “you could stay in for once. it’s raining out there. why don’t you sit with me for a bit?”

you’re standing awkwardly in the doorway, still holding tink’s lead in one hand. rhiannon doesn’t wait for you, she just moves to the kitchen, briefly glancing over her shoulder to make sure you’re not leaving.

“tea?”

you look up from where her dog’s tail is already thumping in anticipation. “sorry?”

“tea,” she repeats. one hand rests on the counter, the other curved under her stomach. “do you want one?”

you know you should take tink and go. that’s your job, the one you always step into when rhiannon can’t, or when the driveway is swarming with journalists again. they’ve been circling all week, too; you spotted one on wednesday, half-hidden behind a car, camera lowered the second you walked by. you’re just the dog walker, not a guest. nothing to see here.

rhiannon is already grabbing a second mug. “just ten minutes,” she says. “tink will be fine.”

you follow her into the kitchen before you can talk yourself out of it. she smiles and gestures to the table. as you sit, you clear your throat. “how are you…coping?”

she’s been through hell, half the country at her heels for carrying a killer’s baby, so asking something so obvious feels stupid. saying nothing feels worse, though.

rhiannon snorts softly, dropping a teabag into each mug. “with what, exactly?”

“with, uhm…all of this. the baby. the press. the…situation”

she finally turns. “you mean craig being locked up for all those…terrible crimes while i nest in his childhood bedroom and waddle around like a beached whale?”

“i didn’t mean it like that!”

“i know,” rhiannon assures. “i’m just winding you up.”

the mugs clink onto the table between you and she slides yours over, then sits, sighing as she adjusts her weight.

“the press has been quiet this week,” she says conversationally. “at least until this morning. caught one of them trying to peek through the hedge again”

you face tightens. you’d seen them before, lurking behind the postbox, clicking their cameras trying to get a good picture.

rhiannon studies your expression. “what?” she finally asks. “you feel sorry for me?”

“no. i-” you shake your head. “it must be a lot.”

“it is,” she agrees, lifting her tea. “hormones don’t help.”

you give a soft laugh, a little unsure.

rhiannon leans in just a touch. “you wanna know the worst part?”

“sure”

she hums, steam rising between you. “the fucking leaky tits”

“oh” you blush.

“oh?” she echoes, tilting her head. “it’s horrible. can’t even wear a normal top anymore, can you imagine?”

you squirm, thighs tightening together. “that…sounds rough”

“oh, sweetheart,” she purrs, resting her chin on her hand. “didn’t think the nice little dog walker would go pink just from a bit of biology…?”

you start to stammer something but rhiannon lifts her hand, silencing you. “relax,” she rasps. “i’m just saying…it’s nice to have someone to talk to. someone who looks at me.”

she shifts, her knee bumping yours under the table. you reach for your mug again and the ceramic is hot between your clammy hands, the heat doing little to ground you.

“what? you thought i didn’t catch you staring by now?”

rhiannon stands, slowly, and circles the table. she moves behind you, fingertips trailing lightly across the back of your chair, then your shoulder.

you gulp audibly. “rhiannon, this isn’t-“

“isn’t what?” she presses closer. “a good idea?”

her body radiates warmth behind you, and your heart’s hammering in your chest. rhiannon smiles, you can feel it, more than you see it; the curl of her lips against your skin.

“craig’s mum and dad won’t be back for hours.”

“i shouldn’t,” you whisper.

she doesn’t back off. if anything, rhiannon leans in further, her hand slipping from your shoulder to graze down your front.

“i haven’t had a decent orgasm in weeks,” she confesses. “can’t even reach past the bump most days. you’d think with all these pregnancy hormones i’d be glowing. but no. i’m aching” she exhales slowly, her mouth brushing the shell of your ear. “let me have this,” she whispers. “let me have you.”

pregnant!rhiannon who eyes you every time you kneel down to clip tink’s leash. especially when craig’s parents are around and she knows she can’t have you that day, so she has to get off on the memory of the last time she got to fuck you.

possessive!pregnant!rhiannon guys….possessive!pregnant!rhiannon who scrolls through your socials at night, one hand resting over her belly and the other clenched around her phone, teeth gritted at the sight of someone else’s hand on your shoulder. she doesn’t ask about it the next day. she waits until you’re at her feet, gagging around her fingers, before whispering: “do they know you let me fuck your face like this?”

pregnant!rhiannon who takes secret pictures of herself after your visits, then sends them to you with no warning whatsoever. your phone almost slips from you when you open the picture she sent, seeing rhiannon with one hand on her stomach, the other in her panties. your phone buzzes again while you’re still catching your breath. “should’ve stayed” her texts says. “you know i can’t come on my own anymore. need you to fuck me properly next time”

speaking of: pregnant!rhiannon who gets increasingly frustrated and angry with her own body. “you think it’s funny?” she pants once, your fingers between her legs while she lies on her side in bed, one hand gripping the curve of her stomach. “try doing this when you can’t even find your own bloody clit!” you hush her with a kiss against her thigh and she bites back a moan, legs spreading wider as best she can. she’s wet enough to soak your palm and her chest is flushed, nipples puffy and aching. when you tease them, rhiannon whines, arching into you.

pregnant!rhiannon who gets so jealous she invites you over twice in one day, claiming she needs help with tink, only to pull you into her bedroom. “prove it,” she says, grabbing your jaw. “prove you’re not fucking anyone else.”

pregnant!rhiannon who kicks her swollen feet up on the couch the moment you walk in. “my ankles” she whines. “are you gonna come rub them for me?” once your fingers are on her skin, she moans in relief, eyes fluttering shut. “god, you’re so good at that…” rhiannon watches you under her lashes as her thighs inch open.

(everyone say thank you 🪐 anon for making me post the following headcanon. in my defense for the record, this actually happens in the books, so…there’s that!!)

pregnant!rhiannon who has painfully sensitive tits and makes it your problem job to help her. she’ll sit you down like she’s asking for something innocent, then tug her top up and straddle your lap with a sigh. “they feel like they’re going to burst,” she huffs. “just…here, use your mouth!” she’s right: her skin is taut and sensitive, nipples already leaking. when you give in and rhiannon leans forward until one brushes your mouth, her hips grind in response and she claws at your shoulders. “just like that!” she gasps. “such a good girl for me.”

pregnant!rhiannon who feels the bulge of your strap against her when you hug her from behind and immediately slips her hand down the front of your jeans with a greedy, “what the fuck is this?”when you ask if she wants you to take it off, she snaps, “don’t you dare”, already dragging you to bed with her.

pregnant!rhiannon who starts to rut against your strap with zero patience the moment she’s on her hands and knees, belly cushioned by pillows, moaning into the mattress. “fuck, i can feel it,” she cries out, rocking back harder. “fuck me already.”

pregnant!rhiannon who acts like it’s the real thing from that point on. strokes it like it’s yours, moans like you bred her yourself & whispers filthy things to you. “feels like you put this baby in me. like it’s yours. do you want that? want to fill me up again?”

pregnant!rhiannon who wears something ridiculously sheer when she knows you’re coming by, her bump outlined, nipples visible through the fabric, face smug when you try not to stare. “oh, this?” she hums. “it’s the only thing that fits” then she bends over slowly, making a show of arching her back while picking up tink’s toy.

pregnant!rhiannon who lifts those clothes up when you’re alone, not even bothering with a proper greeting, swollen belly on display, no underwear underneath. “sit down,” she orders, already climbing onto your lap. “christ. you’re so easy.” rhiannon grinds down. “you feel that? that’s what you’ve done. just being around me. fucking- watching”

pregnant!rhiannon who gets so greedy one day she makes you sit on the edge of her bathtub, legs spread, strap on, while she fucks herself on it from a squat. “don’t move. just let me…fuck, just let me use it”

pregnant!rhiannon who makes you fuck her slow and deep when she can’t take it anymore. she lays on her side, eyes fluttering every time you hit her g-spot just right.

pregnant!rhiannon who keeps the curtains open and the windows cracked on purpose. reporters have been lingering outside the gate all week and she leans in, breath hot against your ear, hips grinding slow and hard against yours. “go on,” she whispers, “make it worth the headlines.”

pregnant!rhiannon who insists on sitting on your face because “it takes the pressure off her back”.

pregnant!rhiannon who won’t shut up about how you’ll never get away from her now. “you’re mine,” she breathes against your throat. “i’ll have this baby and they’ll still want me to stay here. you’ll keep walking the dog, and fucking me in secret, and you’ll love every second of it!”

[whispersleo]

The joyous wyvern - the free book

You can find it in this drive folder!

Hello! Today I’m very excited to finally share this final project in my editorial design specialization: a children’s storybook album, inspired by the dialogue in The Wake written by Mary Kirby, where Illario talks about the time he went with Lucanis to hunt wyverns as children. I must mention that I took the liberty of introducing my own headcanon about their ages, with Illario being the oldest, because Lucanis strikes me as having a very clear "younger brother" behavior.

For this project, I’ve poured blood, sweat, and tears into it. I ended up doing absolutely everything myself when my classmate, who was supposed to help me with the layout for her part of the team project, just decided not to, but I feel content enough with the result to share it. Originally in Spanish, I translated and edited it into English so more people can enjoy it!

There’s a lot I’d like to say, I’ll be posting some sketches, the development process, the designs, and my usual notes [here], and I can answer any questions you might have about the project in the editorial area (or anything else about the project really), but for this post in particular, I just want to give you full, free access to this illustrated book and thank you because this has been on my mind and occupying my time for the last six months.

First, thank you to everyone in this amazing fandom who has supported my creative projects, whether by leaving kudos on AO3, liking my posts here on Tumblr, leaving comments, sending messages, or any form of support! You motivate me to create every day, make me feel welcome, and it’s so nice to be here.

Thanks to @woundedsoul12 for being the first person to welcome me to the fandom, read my works, and be vocal with me about it! In the beginning, I was so afraid of writing again, of making mistakes in some way, and I was very shy about showing what I was doing, but thanks to you, I’ve been able to gain confidence. Without your support, I don’t think I would have decided to keep creating for this fandom. You’ve allowed people to get to know me and have been incredibly kind about me and my work. I owe you so many thanks, I hope you never change, you’re an amazing person!

Thanks to @theheartmold for getting me interested in Illario as a character. Without your posts sharing your interest in the character, your analysis, and your overall enthusiasm, I honestly wouldn’t have been interested in reading Tevinter Nights or The Wake. After two playthroughs in the game, you made me decide to sit down and see that Illario had MUCH more to offer than his tragic portrayal in Veilguard. Maybe I don’t interact much with you, but I definitely wanted to let you know that without your posts, this illustrated story and in general, my content about Illario Dellamorte wouldn’t exist. You introduced me to my new favorite character, thank you so much!

And again, thanks to EVERYONE who has ever interacted with my work and with me as a person! Who has liked my art, fanfics, whatever! I hope you can now enjoy having this book that I give you with so much, so much happiness and love!

[lxdymoon0357]

you have no idea how happy I was when i saw some one had written for Phineas, I love that guy! Could I ask for drabble or what ever you would like to write for Yandere Phineas with a younger Reader (same age pereshati) that had a big crush on him. Always trying to make conversation with him and get his attention. she confesses but was turned down publicly later was forcibly married someone else was killed with lapileon blood by her husband for her families title. when the time reverse happen with Pereshati and she started to her thing as per the begining of the series. The reader having also remember her fate and still being in love with Phineas decides to openly stop perusing him thinking that if she did that her parents would not have ultimately married her off to the guy she married because she would not have brought embarrassment to the family.

(warnings: forceful motherhood (?), murder, pretty tame actually.)

© Writing belongs to me, Lxdymoon0357. Do not plagiarize, but reblogging, liking and commenting is deeply appreciated.

Darling's new life of blood

Yandere!Phineas who could not stand to be around you sometimes. You were cheeky, mischievous, bright and bubbly, younger than him. Everything he expected from someone your ageand you kept trying to pursue him.

Yandere!Phineas who got gifts from you; books, cuff-links, pendent, brooches. Anything you thought h might enjoy, he was so annoyed with you..but you went out of your way to get those for him, he was almost endeared.

Yandere!Phineas who couldn't dare to love you back, unless he put you in harm's way with his blood, his family and his clan's curse. He always wore gloves around you, covered his body till he could sweat to death to ensure none of his blood would ever make contact with you.

Yandere!Phineas who pushed you away with rude words, snarky comments and reclusive nature. Being so reserved you found it hard to hold a conversation for longer than twenty minutes with him not showing any interest and breaking your heart.

Yandere!Phineas who felt his blood run cold when you confess publicly during a Lapileon banquet, making him immediately turn you down in a way rather harsh to your sensitive heart. "My lady, what makes you think I can see myself marrying someone like.. you?" he said, his eyes scanning you as if you were a filth under his shoe, crushing your heart without a single thought infront of an audience.

Yandere!Phineas who actually admired you more than anything and wanted to keep you safe. You didn't have any immunity to his blood..he couldn't bear if he was the reason you lost your spark and died in his arms.

Yandere!Phineas who could only stare at the cruelty at he watches you get married just a few months after you confessed to some high ranking official. He watches you be loved by a man who wasn't him..

Yandere!Phineas who thinks the world is playing a cruel joke on him when you die right in his arms by Lapileon blood used by your husband he got from Jin, harvested by Islette, though he doesn't know it was Gin..and ends up believing it's his own fault.

Yandere!Phineas who suddenly returns back in time and is now welcoming a new member of Lapileon's, Pereshati. Therdeo's wife who is immune to Lapileon blood.

Yandere!Phineas who noticed how distance you become from him, already missing and yearning for your attention back on him. On your old man, your pretty face always looking away when he tries to even intract with you.

Yandere!Phineas who silently supported Pereshati's doubt in a member selling their blood as untraceable poison and he was ready to go ballistic onto Jin upon hearing of Jin's crimes.. He did land a punch or two, despite scolding from Gloria.

Yandere!Phineas who can't sleep at night, far too paranoid for your safety after you're so distant from him as to not embarrass your parents and family and not be forcibly married off again. He wakes up every few house in worry of you, caring for Islette on top of it.

Yandere!Phineas who uses Jin's blood as a way to kill off anyone he deems competition; male friends, nobles, commoners, servants. He has no fear, knowing he can easily throw all blame onto Jin. He doesn't want to get his own hands dirty with someone else's blood.

Yandere!Phineas who after a lot of convincing from Pereshati and Saoirse decided to ask you for a dance at the next banquet he is present in your presence. He holds a bit too tight, a bit too close and a bit too sweetly with a bit too much love in his eyes.

Yandere!Phineas who ends up having Gloria send your family a request for your hand in marriage and before you could even know it, you're married off to Phineas Lapileon and become his wife and kept in his manor 24/7 with his servants succumbing and addressing your every whim.

Yandere!Phineas who has you be thee mother to Islette, no matter what. She's your daughter too and besides, Islette already like you and you don't really want to upset your husband, do you? And aside from making your husband upset, Islette is a little girl who is in need of a mother, like you!

Yandere!Phineas who is pretty tame, but doesn't ever let you leave thee manor. Far too paranoid, especially with his own blood, he constantly has you build immunity with Pereshati's blood mixed into your blood by any means necessary.

[akkivee]

jeezus juto

[peachhcs]

Omg I loveddd that new fic!!

Could I request a fic of Sammy going on never offside where cat and Julie ask how it was growing up in a hockey family, being a star soccer player, dating will?

ooo wait i really like this idea. i feel like samy and will are just big podcast people in general so the idea of having them on one seems really fun and samy would def have a lot of fun with cat and julie

i never really know how to write these kinds of fics so like it will mostly be dialogue as they talk back and forth with one another, so kind of imagine this is how you'd listen to it except it's all in writing with some fan comments at the end :)

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"hi everyone, welcome back to never offside with the lovely samy hughes. we've been getting so many requests to have her on the podcast ever since will and macklin were on it, and we finally found a time when she was free to sit down, so we're really excited to have you today," cat began and the younger girl smiled into her camera.

"hi. thanks so much for having me. i've heard and seen a lot of great things about this podcast, so i'm excited to finally be on," samy chuckled.

"i don't think we've had a hockey turned college soccer player on before, so this will be really fun to get to talk about something other than hockey for once, but first we do have to talk about your roots so i guess we will start talking about hockey," the three laughed.

"so i guess let's start with introductions for those who don't know you," julie smiled.

“okay, well, i’m samy hughes. i’m the youngest sister to quinn, jack, and luke hughes—all really big figures in the nhl. i play soccer at the university of michigan too,” samy introduced herself and waved.

"that was beautiful. tell us what it was like growing up with three older brothers. you all aren't originally from michigan, right?"

“no, so i was born in new hampshire but pretty soon after i was born my whole family moved to toronto so i just say i’m from canada because i grew up there until i was 12 and we do have dual citizenship, so i guess i am canadian too."

“why the move to toronto?"

“so my dad was assistant head coach for the toronto marlies which is a professional hockey team in the american hockey league for those who don't know and then he started working with the toronto maple leafs as director of player development for a long time after that.”

"wow, what an extensive history. i'm guessing you met a lot of leaf players then?" cat chuckled and samy quickly nodded.

"ohh, yeah. my brothers loved it when we were younger, so they were always begging my dad to invite them over for dinner or something so they could ask a hundred questions about the nhl," the brunette laughed.

"that sounds like something those three would do. were people ever jealous of you knowing like mitch marner and brady tkachuk?"

"like..kind of? i think quinn and jack's friends were more jealous than any of mine. it was pretty cool though. i got to brag about going to brady's wedding," samy grinned and remembered how jealous some of the boys back at umich were so jealous of her getting to go to that.

"that would be something i'd brag about too. so obviously you come from a huge hockey family, both of your parents playing as well, so can you talk about what that was like? how does it feel coming from such a huge hockey family, especially being the little sister to quinn, jack, and luke?"

"honestly, i really loved it. i mean i was always right there with my brothers when i was younger. we all loved hockey and always itching to play it so that's why our parents built us our own rink, but i loved it. i think it's such a fun sport and i like really fast paced sports, so it helped get my energy out. also with any younger sibling, i always wanted to do what my brothers were doing and keep up with them, so i was always racing to be on the ice and learn their skills."

"that's really sweet. are you all close?" cat wondered and samy nodded.

"we've always been super close. i honestly couldn't imagine my life without them because we all lean on each other a lot and like i love hanging out with them and just doing things together. when we're all home it's super fun."

"who was the most competitive growing up?"

"ha, i don't think i could name just one of us. we were all super competitive and were always trying to start different things like who could eat their bag of chips the fastest or something," samy giggled.

"would you say you're closer to one over the other?"

"i don't think so. i go to them for different things, but i guess if i had to say someone, probably luke just because we are closer in age and it was always like luke and i paired together and then quinn and jack, but i'm close with all three of them in different ways." cat and julie smiled hearing samy say that.

"what was your favorite thing to do together besides play hockey?"

"ooh, tough question because that is honestly all we did. i guess during the summer we love going on the boat together or like going fishing," the soccer player laughed.

"typical. do you ever wish you didn't have brothers or grew up with an older sister? or like did it change anything for you?"

"that's so funny you ask that because i actually get asked that a lot. people think i like missed out on so much not having a sister, but i don't think i've ever felt like..missing in that aspect? since we saw grace and will so frequently during the year, i always saw grace a lot and she was like that big sister i never had, so i still got all of those experiences from her and same with will. he got to experience what having big brothers was like because he had my brothers and our families spent every summer and holiday together for the most part," samy explained.

"that's actually really sweet you all had each other growing up. what was that dynamic like? will didn't talk much on it when we had him on?" julie asked.

"well it became like quinn, jack, and grace watching over luke, will, and i. we always split ourselves like that in the summer or like will would ditch and go hang out with my brothers while grace and i did something. it honestly felt like having 5 siblings. we definitely got into some hefty arguments over the summer."

"oh, i'm sure that house was loud every summer. i don't know how your parents did that when you were all so young."

"me neither. i think they just like..let us work it out most of the time which actually worked better and made us more like..stronger because we worked out our own arguments a lot or like grace and quinn would help mediate instead," samy laughed.

"ah, i see. so instead of the parents disappointment you had your siblings disappointment instead," cat and julie laughed too.

"yeah that lowkey felt worse than my parents disapproval because i hated disappointing quinn and all of my brothers for that matter because of how much i looked up to them."

"being so young still when quinn started making a name for himself and becoming more popular online, was it hard to navigate that kind of stuff? how did you handle the immediate popularity?"

"i think i was about...14 or 15 when quinn really started getting noticed for his talent and that was when i was getting close to choosing soccer over hockey, so i definitely faced some backlash from fans when i announced that, but i was also kind of already in that spotlight for hockey, so it wasn't that hard? i went through some media training and i brushed the comments off fairly quickly i think?" the brunette shrugged a little.

"wow, that is pretty young. unfortunately, there is a lot of comparison between all of you still from people, so how do you navigate that?" julie asked.

"at first, it was hard to hear so many people comparing me to my brothers when i didn't even play the same sport as them anymore. i've heard a lot about me only getting into umich because of my brothers. when i used to play hockey a lot of people told me i was only good because of my brothers which was crazy to say because like..yeah i was good because of them? they taught me almost everything on the ice."

"wow, i had no idea people said that to you about umich. that's so crazy to say?" cat exclaimed and the younger girl nodded.

"it does not bother me anymore to hear that kind of stuff, but back when it was just starting it was hard..i mean with any siblings it's not nice to be compared to each other, but we're all secure in our relationships with one another that it really doesn't bother us. i mean..quinn is 25 years old now and he's been hearing all of it since he was like 20, so it really does not bother us as much anymore."

"well, that's good i'm glad. it makes us happy to hear how close you and your brothers are because i know a lot of people who are not close with their brothers, especially if they're the only girl."

"yeah, i love them. i look up to them a lot and they're always there for me when i need them so i can't really complain. they really shaped me into the person i am today," smay grinned and hoped her brothers smiled when they heard that after watching the podcast.

"so kind of shifting away from hockey, tell us how this road to soccer started. what got you into it?" julie shifted the subject and samy chuckled.

"it's literally like every other preteen who was looking to fit in which sounds so corny, but it's true. we were in michigan by the time i started middle school and all of my friends played soccer because that was like the sport and so i felt kind of out of place saying i had hockey practice and couldn't hang out with them, so to hang out with them more i decided to try out for soccer which i had never really played before. i ended up making the team and my first year i just had a lot of fun with it. i was fast and the coaches liked that as well as my hand-eye-foot coordination, so that season it was just like getting to hang out with my friends and kick a ball around for two hours."

"damn, i get that. if you aren't doing what everyone else is doing, girls will outcast you," cat laughed.

"no seriously. i felt so out of place with them and i literally just wanted to fit in and be cool, so i joined soccer. no plans to quit hockey just yet, but i started thinking about soccer more than hockey," samy agreed. middle school were very primitive years in deciding who you were gonna be in high school.

"when did it start getting serious for you?" julie asked.

"well my 2nd year in 8th grade i had played and practiced all summer so i ended up improving my skill a lot so when tryouts rolled around again i was like flying on the field. my coach started me every single game which is a high honor to be able to start every game and we like killed that season. i started realizing that okay maybe i was good my first year of high school. we merged schools with another middle school so it was a bunch of new people i'd never met before. we went through tryouts and i was literally shitting my pants thinking i wouldn't make the team. after the last day of tryouts, the varsity coaches, which for those who don't know are the coaches for the older girls in 11th and 12th grade, pulled me aside and told me they wanted to pull me up to varsity to play with the older girls because of how much i proved myself in tryouts. that's a super high honor to be a 14 year-old playing up with 17-18 year old girls, so that's when i realized that i actually might be better than i thought."

"freshman on varsity is a super high honor, i can attest to that. that's actually super awesome, i did not know you were pulled up your freshman year. i'm guessing you played up for the rest of high school?"

"i did, yes. at first, i was like oh, yeah i'm on varsity, but she'll probably have me sit the bench for most of the game and i'd play the last like 2 minutes or something, so i was very pleasantly surprised when she started me during our home opener and for every game after that as a freshman," samy chuckled.

"woah, that is super cool. i'm sure you made a lot of girls jealous," cat said.

"i mean, probably, i don't really know. i was falling more in love with the sport and i just felt super lucky getting to play."

"so that talent has always been there for you that's awesome. how did that decision come to play soccer full time?" cat asked.

"it came after winning the state title for my school my sophomore year. it was the first time we won in like..a long time and after the season ended i started realizing how serious this may be for me and how much i loved getting to win that title with my team and how i just wanna feel that joy all the time. i was super nervous to talk to my parents about the idea of quitting hockey even though they've always told us that if we ever wanted to do something different we could. i think it was more about how much they've done for all of us to play hockey that i felt so bad that i was leaving it, but they were super supportive of the idea. they wanted me to be in something that made me happy and they saw how much soccer made me happy. i was also nervous to tell my brothers, but they were all super supportive too and wanted me to be happy in a sport that made me as happy as soccer did."

"aw, that's super sweet, samy. how crazy is it that you'd become one of the best collegiate soccer players and lead your team to a national title and basically rebuild the entire program," cat mentioned making the girl flush.

"i relive that moment like everyday. it was so, so special to all of us to win that title after so many years," samy grinned.

"do you have plans to go pro?"

"i would love to if a team wants to have me. this sport has brought me a lot, so i'd love to keep playing it until i can't."

"when we had will and mack on they talked about how exciting that moment was watching you score that last goal to win the game. what were you feeling in those final moments?" julie wondered.

"well, one of the other plays collided into me moments before which really shook me up more than i led on. my head was like pounding after that and my rings were ringing, but i knew i couldn't get off the field with the amount of time we had left and how close we were."

"oh my god, yeah. that hit was insane," cat exclaimed.

"she came out of nowhere and i just remember suddenly being on the ground."

"props to you for getting up to finish it out," julie said and cat nodded.

"i don't know how i did, but i just knew i needed to get up and finish it. i was so nervous that i was too shook up but watching that ball fly through the air felt like time was going in slow motion. i was so scared it wasn't going to go in."

"will said it was a very surreal moment in the stands."

"i bet. i like went into shock when the ball went into the net and the whole arena erupted into cheers and my team stormed the field. it was great redemption after last season," samy smiled.

"i mean even as an 18 year old freshman last year, you still led the team to the finals. you better be patting yourself on the back," julie said and samy laughed.

"i am, i am. will tells me that a lot whenever i get doubtful."

"do you ever feel like it's too much sometimes? being this huge soccer start and everyone watching you?"

"honestly, yeah, it has been a lot at times. this past year i've definitely learned a lot about my boundaries and my limits. it's always been quinn and jack at the center of attention that when it's finally on me i have no idea how to react. i've never been the sibling who's being critiqued for everything she's doing, so it was definitely hard to learn how to balance at all," samy admitted for the first time to people that weren't her friends and family.

"i know you recently mentioned some of your struggles on instagram a few weeks ago in hopes of being support and an outlet for girls going through something similar. you can say as much as you're comfortable with about it but i wanted to know what this has all meant to you," cat said gently.

"yeah, i don't mind. i think i've definitely learned to not be afraid to reach out when i'm struggling. i'm in recovery for a pretty hard eating disorder and mental health struggles i went through this past year which was not easy for me to admit in the beginning. i grew up as someone who was very independent and hated reaching out for help, so i kind of thought i could sweep it all under the rug, but i quickly learned i could not do that if i wanted to get better. i basically scared myself into not eating and fell into this mindset that if i wasn't playing soccer, i couldn't eat because i would gain weight and i was scared to gain "unnecessary" weight. jack was the one who noticed first when i came home a few months ago and honestly, if my brothers didn't find the courage to say something to me i would probably be in the same mindset or worse," samy admitted which made the older women frown.

"any particular triggers?"

"not really. it kind happened freshman year, too but not as bad. being in the offseason has always been really hard for me, but not to the point where i couldn't eat. i don't really know what happened this year, but i think it was a lot of taking on the alternate captain position, harder classes, reconciling things with will after our breakup last summer..it just kind of all piled itself on."

"well, we're happy to hear you've been working through it. thank you for sharing, it's never easy," cat sympathized and samy smiled.

"i just hope other girls will know they're not alone and i am always willing to answer dms about it if they ever need someone to talk to. i was so scared to talk to someone because i didn't know anyone going through this."

"it can be so hard to talk about something so vulnerable and sometimes scary like an eating disorder. if you or someone you know is struggling, please check out the resources in the caption and the description of this episode. reaching out is the first step," cat encouraged and samy and julie nodded.

"well again, thank you for sharing that with us, samy. i know it's never easy to open up about that, about all of this. it definitely is a lot of pressure going from a new rookie to a girl who everyone is counting on to win the season. how do you feel about next season?" julie continued.

"i'm feeling really good about it, actually. i think it will be a really good season and we're all hoping for another national title," the girl grinned.

"i'm sure it will be. will told us he has full confidence in the team," cat laughed while samy blushed at the mention of her boyfriend.

"speaking of which if you don't mind, we'd like to shift to talking about him. we got him talking but mack chirped a lot at him, so we didn't get to hear too much," julie shifted to their last topic. samy quickly grinned.

"oh, of course. i love getting to talk about him."

"so we know the backstory that you and him grew up together and that you got together when he was in michigan for usntdp. how did that play out? what changed for you?"

"i honestly don't really know myself. we started hanging out a lot more as we got older because we started maturing and could tolerate one another. i just started seeing him as something more than a friend, but it seemed really crazy to me because like that's will. he was like fourth brother to me, so it was kind of hard for me to come to terms with my feelings at first," samy admitted.

"i mean i bet. you two were best friends before the relationship started, that's definitely gotta be kind of weird," cat nodded.

"it's funny because like everyone used to tease us about it, but we always brushed them off and were like no, no we don't like each other. even our parents knew before we did which is so funny to me."

"did your relationship change at all as will started getting more popular with everyone?"

"no, not really. i think it helps that we were best friends before this, so we're already secure for the most part in our relationship. we've been through media so it's not like it's something we need to explain to one another."

"he talked to us on the podcast about how he really wants you to move in with him once you're done with school," julie chuckled.

"oh my god, yeah. he talks about that all the time and i'm just like i would love to, but i don't want you to be the sole support of us. i would wanna get my feet on the ground before thinking about something as big as moving in together and living together full time," samy explained.

"that makes sense. it's a good thing to know because moving in with someone is a big deal and it takes a lot of work on both ends, so i'm glad you know that. obviously, long distance is really hard but how have you guys made it work?"

"we like to do a lot of movie nights together where we do a watch party kind of thing. we send each other things a lot like legos and we build them together on call. mostly a lot of facetiming whenever we're free and just catching up about our days and what's been going on," the soccer player smiled.

"i give you props because it is not easy, especially so young. you two jumped right into long distance as soon as you started dating, right? was that hard?" cat asked.

"i mean, yeah it was hard, but again because we already had established our relationship because of our friendship, it made it a lot easier. he knows me, i know him and it was basically just the same except we were dating and we got to kiss anytime we saw each other," samy giggled and blushed again.

"when and if you do decide to do this for the long run, where do you think you'd wanna settle down?"

"i talk a lot about moving back to toronto. i loved it there and i'd love to go back and be there for awhile. it's such a great city and great people and it reminds me childhood."

"we asked will where he thinks you two would wanna be and he also said toronto, so he knows you well. how much do your friends chirp on you both?" cat laughed.

"they did a lot when we were younger and honestly still do sometimes. it's funny though and we always all laugh about it. ethan edwards and mark estapa love to harp on will sometimes and it's so funny seeing him get all red and flustered whenever they do."

"we've heard they're like big brothers to you?"

"oh yeah, they are. i mean all of my brothers' hockey friends are like big brothers to me, but mark and eth especially. they looked out for me at umich, so i have no idea what i'm gonna do without them next year," the brunette frowned a bit.

"well, i think that just about wraps up this episode, it was so lovely getting to talk with you, samy. thank you again for coming on," cat started wrapping it up. samy grinned.

"thank you so much for having me, this was really fun and i hope i can do it again," the girl waved to the camera while cat and julie did their outro.

comments

user1 this is sooo cutie aww i love how well they all got along

user2 wait i had no idea samy went through all of that this year, that makes me so sad. i'm so glad she's doing better tho

user3 her and will are sooo similar it's so cute

user4 i love how respectful cat and julie were talking with samy about her ed and mental health struggles

user5 i love the way samy lights up when she talks about will

user6 my favorite hughes fr

user7 her opening up about her brothers too awww

user8 now we need will and samy on the podcast together where they talk more in depth about their relationship and growing up together

user9 i loveeee her and this

user10 soo glad julie and cat were able to get samy on

[vicedmuses]

maybe it was true that brett prided himself on gaslighting people. mike was supposed to be his victim even thirty minutes ago. he had been chasing the man across the city for quite some time now. it was fun, thrilling, got things pulsing within him. then they entered the shack and everything changed. it was like something had sparked within the other man and it radiated out to him. the vampire had only seen that type of fuse be lit when he was dealing with witches. he didn't think too much of it though. what the stranger was didn't really matter. all he knew was that he was also turned on. he no longer wanted to kill the younger man. maybe he still wanted to drink from him, but not to the point where his body was going to go limp in his arms. only enough where he could get some semblance of nourishment and arousal all at the same time. from his experience, biting someone and keeping them alive could've been intimate. suddenly that's where his mind was going towards.

all the while they're flirting up a storm and getting to know each other, the werewolf thinks someone is close to dying. this has happened before. where his brother is hunting someone down and if he's close enough, he can almost feel the rush coming from him. often times he doesn't make it in time because the sadistic vampire is far too focused on feeding than anything else. he doesn't let the chase go on for too long. although this time around, it seemed like there was no real danger. if anything, he would've assumed his brother was just about to get his cock out. meanwhile, brett was having the time of his life. “i'm always the one that gets a reward. if i don't get off, no one around me is going to.” when he grinned this time, his fangs were exposed. both because he was aroused and because he wanted mike to see all parts of himself. “it's not something that can be so generalized. maybe i've just been watching you for a while. the others it's just something that i spot that makes me interested in them. with you? it's been everything.” by that point, he didn't think he needed to be shy about admitting the truth anymore. he shook his head when mike asked if he should lose interest. “love, i don't think that's something that can happen anymore.” his brows perked up when the man asked him that question. “maybe. let's just say this pretty boy is making my blood all rush to the same place.” another comment on how turned on he was.

the question did seem to make brett pause a bit. would he have helped mike? even if he didn't know him and they hadn't had this interaction yet? even though he hesitated, the answer seemed too clear to miss. “i'd help you, but not everyone is as hot as you are.” he winked at him, still laying that charm on as thick as possible. hearing the fact that mike wanted to be claimed by him, wanted to be his, was going all to his head. he wanted to do all of those things too. for some reason, he couldn't get the man off of his mind anymore. he didn't know how he was going to walk away from this. would it be so bad if they just hid out in the shack for the next couple of hours? “i'm going to breed you. i'm going to make you mine. no other man is going to be able to touch you after i'm done with you.” although all of that slowly slipped away from his hands when his brother walked in. cockblock. rhett continued to look in between the two of them, confusion only growing on his face. “so he was attacking you, but you also wanted to fuck him in a shack that isn't neither of yours?” the werewolf stepped closer. he noticed that mike's shirt was ripped. at the same time, the vampire looked a little insulted. “so he gets your name right away and i had to work for it?” rhett rolled his eyes to briefly look at his brother. “shut up. i don' think that you have any place to talk right now. i told you to stop hunting people down.” especially hot guys, but he wasn't going to say that out loud at that point. he did take his jacket off and threw it around mike's shoulders. his facial features looked soft, concerned, coming from a full place of empathy. “nice to meet you mike. i'm rhett. i know that my brother brett can be a little intoxicating sometimes, so please know that i'm not judging you for anything that happened today.” as his hands fell down to the other's arms, it could easily be sensed that he was warm. warmer than a regular human and much warmer than the vampire. “do you need someone to take you home? i kind of ran here so i don't have my car, but something tells me that you're not against to walking. i can also get us an uber. i'm a detective, so you're safe with me.” brett stepped forward and grabbed mike's other arm with his hand. almost like he was pulling him away from his brother, or at least trying. “or you can come with me.” the vampire smirked at him again. “you know i'm not going to hurt you. i don't bite, unless you ask me to. so you're sage with me.” what would the man choose now? two brothers. two creatures. all in direct contrast of each other.

Mike was acting like some love-struck teenager—giddy, flushed, and awkward in the worst possible way. It was ridiculous, considering he didn’t even know the guy’s name. He hadn’t exactly had time to ask, not when he was busy running for his life. And yet here they were: tangled up in each other, kissing like they meant it, grinding against one another in a heat that felt more like defiance than desire. If anyone saw them, they’d probably call it arguing without the hostility. Mike would’ve called it something closer to flirting. He caught himself smiling more than he should’ve, laughing at things that shouldn't be funny. This wasn’t how this was supposed to go. Maybe he’d finally snapped. Maybe this was his spiral—sweet and messy and completely fucked. This guy wasn’t innocent. Mike knew it from the way he moved, like he’d been ready to kill him a few hours ago without even blinking. And yeah, maybe Mike would’ve done the same. In any other world, they’d be beating each other bloody, not making out in the ruins of whatever the hell just happened.

The smugness, the cocky grin—anyone else and it would’ve been a turn-off. But with Brett? Somehow it worked. Somehow, Mike found himself loving it. Maybe even craving it. “Oh?” Mike teased, eyes narrowing playfully. “Is that more of a reward for me or for yourself?” His voice dipped into something low, something bordering on seductive. “I’ll take it either way.” There was a sharpness to the way Brett carried himself—like he always had the upper hand. And maybe he did. But Mike wasn’t going to let him have the last word so easily. “You didn’t say it, but you treated me.” His voice caught, not quite accusing, not quite grateful either. “Oh really? You watch them from the shadows or something? How do you know they’re smart—just from the way they look?” He didn’t even care about the answer. Not really. All that mattered was this—the heat between them, the way their words crackled like live wires. “Uh huh. So I should lose interest, then? Since you’re not trying to impress anyone?” Mike asked with a slow, knowing smirk. Truth was, he was already impressed. But Brett didn’t need more ego boosts. He was already drowning in his own charm. “Oh?” Mike breathed, feeling that familiar spark flare hot in his chest. “Is it ‘cause you’ve got a pretty boy under you? And now you wanna bruise me instead?” There was no hiding it anymore—he wanted Brett. Wanted his attention, his affection, all of it. If he could’ve kept Brett’s eyes on him forever, he would’ve. Because somehow, against all logic and reason, Mike couldn’t get enough.

“So... if I was in danger,” Mike asked quietly, voice barely above a whisper, “or needed medical help—and you were off shift—would you help me? Or would you just die?” It wasn’t really a question. Not after everything. Not after Brett had tried to kill him. Why the hell would he help? But something told Mike the answer wasn’t that. Maybe it was the way Brett looked at him—like he wasn’t just prey anymore. Like something had shifted. Maybe something had dropped—chemically, emotionally, cosmically—because there was no sane explanation for the way he was ready to lose his virginity in an abandoned shack to a man who’d wanted to kill him. And maybe still would again. None of it made sense. Their thoughts were hazy, instincts twisted. Every touch felt electric. Too much and not enough. And there was no one around to hear Mike’s moans echo off the rotting wood, raw and desperate as Brett’s hands moved over him like he knew him—like this wasn’t new. Like they’d done this a thousand times in some other life. “Please,” Mike gasped, words tumbling out unfiltered, soaked in need. “I want to be yours. Take me—claim me.” It was more than lust. It was some toxic mix of obsession and hunger and whatever the hell this was. Mike’s mind was spinning, so lost in Brett, he didn’t even hear the door creak open until a voice shattered the air. His heart jumped into his throat. A soft yelp escaped him, and he tried to move, but Brett had him pinned—strong and unyielding, like his body already knew Mike’s better than Mike did. His face burned crimson, and he turned away, unable to look at the newcomer. But Brett had already shifted off him, calm as ever, like this wasn’t the most humiliating moment of Mike’s life. Although he managed to catch Brett calling the other a brother. Brother? Mike scrambled to cover himself, hands shaking as he tried to form words that didn’t sound completely insane. “No—I mean—he was… no, not like that, it was consensual, okay? I mean, he was trying to kill me earlier, but we’re good now?” He winced. “Not that I—like—offered myself or anything. I’m not just—God, I don’t even know what happened...” He finally forced himself to look up. And froze. The guy standing in the doorway wasn’t just hot—he was unreal. Sharp jawline, piercing eyes, the same magnetic energy Brett had but… different. And worse? That same unshakable pull twisted in Mike’s gut. Like gravity, but personal. Intimate. Immediate. “Umm… hi,” he said, dazed, heart still racing. “I’m Mike.”

[vaguely-concerned]

do you think ingellvar -- raised by well-meaning but largely clueless about child development academics -- probably has a decent shot at understanding taash' position better than they maybe realize

[lxdymoon0357]

hiii, is it possible to request for yandere juvelian and yandere max competing for female reader whose just a simple noble and is overall funny af, but kinda shipes max and juvelian, also if possible can you make her have like a homie bro relationship with regis, thank you! if you want to do any modifications please do! its my first time asking so idk very well 😆

(warnings: I added a little age gap between Juve and Max and reader so reader is a bit older. Reader is a tutor and trainer. Murder, competitions? SA accusations. Eventual Juvax poly, pretty short..weird format, Forgive me!)

© Writing belongs to me, Lxdymoon0357. Do not plagiarize, but reblogging, liking and commenting is deeply appreciated.

Oh no! My ship is falling!

☁ Due to you being a female noble and being close to Regis, you're introduced to help Maximilian sword-train with him and you're also there to train Jubelian on etiquette since you were a young adult. You were a bit younger than Regis, but he trusted you, seeing as you were pretty popular in society's eyes for being a light-hearted and rather funny individual despite the simple title you adorn.

You bow softly to the young lady of Floyen, Jubelian Floyen. Shimmering hair, round eyes and pale, clear skin. Everything a man would want, but she was rather.. manner-less, the softest way to say it and Regis wanted her to flourish.

And who better than you, someone beloved by many around for being so funny and interesting and a social butterfly yet maintaining the noble stature.

Sh bowed back with a sweet smile, and the smile stayed throughout the lesson. You showed her how to bow for a dance as she nodded, taking the position and fixing her dress, gently pulling it down to fit her better and bowed.

Unfortunately, she ended up showing off her cleavage a bit more than she likely intended to, right? You hummed, nodding as you felt butterflies in your tummy— No! You were far too old for her!

And when the lesson ended and she was waving you off home with her father, "Please get h-home safe" Regis said, as he waved you off and once you were out of sight, he waved his hand infront of Jubelian who frozen with a infatuated smile.

Oh you are SO hers..

Regis nodded as you pushed Maximilian backwards, using your sword to block his attack and push him back as Regis hummed in approve, "Faster, your majesty" he said firmly.

But sadly, you used your body to your advance a bit more than Maximilian did, using your sword to trap his lebow and push him back onto the ground, throwing his sword aside as you pushed the tip of your wooden sword against his throat and made a little slashing motion,

"And you're dead." You hummed as Regis looked down with a sigh, handing you a towel, "You were good. But you need to train a bit more"

You said, handing him some water and extending your hand with that gorgeous smile as Regis patted his back as you helped the crown princee up on his feeeet,

"No worries." Regis said as you extended a towel and Maximilian took it, thanking you silently as he stared at you.

Oh that smile. He couldn't wait for it to be all his!

☁ Jubelian would always make herself the finest lady for you and Maximilian would always try to be better even if albeit the two were sort of inexperienced. You always made them smile, somehow.

☁ They both DESPISE each other. Maximilian thinks Jubelian is a very spoiled, pompous brat who is his master's daughter while Jubelian can't stand to have you around Maximilian. The two constantly made snide remarks and even silent ways to kill each other off; ranging from missed assassinations to soft threatening letters.

"Duke Floyen and Lady Juvelian, so nice to have you both this evening." you said brightly, bowing to both in your lacy and extravagant dress as Regis smiled to you. A banquet in your name.

"Thank you for inviting us to your banquet" Regis hummed as you handed him a glass of expensive champagne, "It's always my pleasure" you said

Maximilian quickly walked over as you greeted him too, but far more sweeter than usual. Jubelian noticed his looks on you as Maximilian noticed her look on you, "Crown prince. I'm assuming you met Lady Jubelian?" you smiled sweetly, making Maximilian feel warm as he nodded, stiffly, bowing to Jubelian and Jubelian did back awkwardly.

To you, it looked as if they had feelings for each other and felt shy almost, the crush catastrophe of actions and behavior.

"Awwhhh, how sweet. You two can get to know each, you both look adorable, no, Regis?" you smile as Regis sighed, not really keen on his daughter with Maximilian as you pulled him away to give Jubelian and Maximilian 'time together' making th tow feel disgust at the idea of themselves with anyone but YOU!

"Crown prince, are the word of kindness just not in your vocabulary or what?" Jubelian asked, hissing to Maximilian as Maximilian rolled his eyes,

"Lady Juvelian, wer you always this annoying pompous brat?" he asked, leaning close as the two awkwardly stood aside in a deep conversation, having forced together by you who misunderstood that they have feelings for each other.

"You should know..there is a reason Lady Y/N doesn't want you to close to them" "And there is a reason Lady Y/N spends more time with your father than you."

The two could feel annoyance on each other and wanted to kill the other right now. But instead thee two still continued to look for you.

Usually they'd love to beat the other, but right now, they were busy watching you talk with someone, not even Regis. Regis would be fine, he was almost your brother-figure.

But you invited them to a a little event of hunting, and the two could never deny YOU anything. You were their goddess. But you were also popular, sad thing was everyone came to talk to you.

Maximilian was feeling his fingers graze his sword in annoyance a bit.

Oh my GOD! So fucking annoying..

☁ But one thing is, they're both far more normal to have each other a competition. Other people, not so much. Both of them have a way to kill off their competitions who are not each other. Juvelian uses public humiliation, social suicide and worse before using Maximilian or her father to plant crimes on them and Maximilian is the one to have them executed by accusing them of assassination.

☁ From killing them off during hunting season to standing up for each other in trials where they accused their competition for any crime against them or even treason if strong enough. They're always sure to not lose as they use their titles to help them.

"Oh my god! EWWW!" Jubelian grumbled, feeling the blood of some man ink her dress as Maximilian rolled his eyes, stopping his horse and pulling her up..

His sword had went straight through the man, he was not dead thankfully..just severely injured as he checke the man's vitals, Jubelian grumbled throwing her furry scarf onto the man..She will surely miss that scarf, you gave her so many compliments on it!

Jubelian grumbled, glaring at Maximilian who couldn't care less, this man had tried to flirt with you! No one other than them could do so..

Jubelian sighed, panting a bit, sprinkling her face with some water and using the blood to even make her cheeks slightly rosy, thankfully the sun had already made her slightly sweaty, as she used a little dagger to cut up her dress a bit.

And before anyone knew it, you heard a scream rip through the forest lines, which you and Regis recognized at Jubelian as he you both ran towards it, not caring you both weren't even on horses as someone blew the horse to halt the game.

You both ended up on a sight. Maxmilian calming Jubelian who was crying beside a man, she pointed to the man dead, crying roughly as Reggis scooped her in a tight hug and you cupped her face and checked her out. Maxmilian almost had the urge to throw his sword down and tell the truth.

But fortunately you turned to him, checking his blood covered face,

"Th-the man! H-hah-He..Hee tried to touch me!! And even hu-hurt the crown prince!" Jubelian wailed and by now, everyone was near the place. Everyone was murmuring between themselves, as you felt disgust, pulling Jubbelian and Maximilian close, trying to calm them.

The event stopped, with Maxmilian as a witness and the imperial throne with him, the man was arrested and Jubelian and Maxmilian could barely hide their happiness for you caring for them.

☁ Of-course, sadly to them. You think instead of them with you, the two look adorable together with how much they support each other during trials where harm is to come to the other, not knowing they're all accusations. They both stand scandalized when you both decide to set them up.

"Oh, calm down, Max..I know it's a bit private to not go anywhere with no one to escort us." You hummed as Maximilian was trying thide his happiness and his buzzing excitement..

Alone time..with you!

Well, you said you had a surprise, another little tea party of sorts. He could barely get you outside of his training sessions, but this was fine enough. Even if he had to be early, and with your hands on his eyes..it'll b a little hard for him to take off your clothes.

But he's fairly certain he can hold you up, maybe just ear a whole in your panties and—

"SURPRISE!!" you said loudly and brightly as you sat him down, "open your eyes!" you said brightly as Maximilian did just that only to come into sight with a little certain brat of his swording master, Jubelian Floyen and a little picnic.

Oh for fuck's sak—

"I kinda guessed you both had something going on, it's killing your father, Juve." Juvelian looked down in what you assumed was shyness, but was utter embarrassed. She thought she was going to be roughed up by your warm hands against a tree.

A soft, sweet lady like her, roughed by you..an older, more experienced, popular lady of society who was always surrounded by men and couldn't go through with her tendencies for liking women. But you continued speaking—

"And I'm so happy for you two..but it's getting a tad bit annoying. So I made you two a picnic—", "Lady Y/N-", "Nono, you two will sit down and enjoy", "My grac-", "Oh, don't even try to deny it!"

You giggled, turning on your heels and bega walking off, "Anyways enjoy yourselves!" you said brightly, rushing off to give thm privacy..

Oh fucking hell..

☁ Sure, it does give way into them falling in love and then getting engaged sooner or later. But then, they only reinforce each other into getting you to like them. Constantly inviting you, flirting with you, killing anyone who even dares to ask for your hand in marriage. No woman like you belongs to anyone but THEM!

[amelikos]

Amethio taking after Gibeon's strong will and inability to ever give up.

[iamnotlookingidonotseeit]

fascinating revelations out of my dad's professional coaching of the whole family today

my mom scored astonishingly high on empathy and caring for a woman who seemed to find it next to impossible to express that to me

my dad has done an insane amount of work to be so warm and personable considering that his natural inclination is towards strong reserve rooted in anxiety (just like me!!)

my sister shocked - SHOCKED 🙄 - to learn that she scores almost zero in empathy AND very high on manipulation

actually shocking reveal that my sister always knew she was my mom's favorite. like I kind of assumed she was mean to both of us but apparently most of the biting comments were for me

[website-com]

recently someone on tiktok said 'hey lets comment on random thirst traps and say 'you look just like a character from x movie!' (i forgot the name, the original one had one). like as a fun joke to invent a fake movie from the 80s.

i dont need to point out the obvious comparison here (it was far less organised because it was more about pranking people than pretending the movie was real), but it turned out to be a MARKETING STRATEGY for someones album.

[4lbon]

btw is this a safe space to finally admit i do have a crush on a coworker a lil bit

[xcziel]

feeling nostalgic and watching utube reactors discover classic songs and then feeling both old and incredulous

[rutadales]

I think my least favorite thing that happens in fandom spaces is how overly familiar people act towards you. Like whenever I get a post over 200 notes I have people making jokes in the tags that aren't like outright distressing or gross or anything but that just. idk! are jokes I would only make with people I know. Like "fuck you!" or "oh this is awful" or whatever that's done in a joking tone but it's still weird. You don't know me like that

And it's not so much a problem over here because we are so insular as a community so even if I don't know you guys by name or if we don't follow each other I still recognize the person commenting on my stuff. enough to almost certainly recognize the joking tone instantly and for that familiarity there to be warranted. we're not friends but it's like, yeah! I know this person they've been here forever. It's comfortable.

But in larger spaces that casual familiarity is gone. I've literally never interacted with you before. It's like if you overheard a conversation on the street and just walked in and started joking around with them like you knew them. it's uncomfortable!! and like yes obviously I'm looking for interactions when I post and tag things that's the whole point, so it is inherently different than say a private conversation being intruded on but djakfoofjf just don't act like you know someone you've literally never engaged with at all before.