#I think i need to go to sleep

[scrimblo-soab]

Okay wait I just realized that if Athena gives birth to her children through her mind, her kids are basically just her ocs

[spghtrbry]

if peter gould and vince gilligan came to my house to tell me in person that Jimmy mcgill is NOT a submissive twink dog motif malewife poor little meow meow i still wouldnt believe it

[voidimp]

ok i need to be weird for a.moment sorry but like. fuckin. viktor arcanes porcelain lookin soul robot thing. whatever. that was. well i think you could get me to do basically anything. if you look like that like. right. ok. but also you are like a bug i want to study uou

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come here

[funkyratman]

Proposal:

Since we already use ‘Wyrm’ as a replacement for ‘god/lord/etc’ in sayings for hollow knight i think we should also replace ‘Jeez/Geez’ with something derived from Wyrm. My personal proposals are either ‘Weer’ or ‘Weem’ but if you have something stupider please suggest it

[brionysea]

why is hopper being present for mike's speech in the shed so funny to me right now. having a demiromantic realisation moment about your friend who's a boy and who might die if you don't be honest about your feelings for once in your life and for some reason the town sheriff is also there

[justaboymadeofhoneyandglass]

lol I need to rant about one of my paras (j) a bit

ok so i originally said that he's an older version of one of my earliest characters, that's not true, he's a different character, but oh my god

like how did this guy just randomly turn up one day, make up an entire hierarchy, a fuckign LANGUAGE, a colour/bandana code and code words for twenty different things?! and they make SENSE?

like omg i love you j, but why why why did you have to do this?

Like literally I can't put into words, he makes me feel so safe and loved and appreciated and safe and comfortable but it's still so much to deal with and I'm so tired I just wish it would stop for two fucking SECONDS that's all I need I NEED A FUCKING BREAK FROM THIS I need my brain to just fucking shut down and STOP

just stop THINKING, stop making shit up, please I can't fuckign HANDLE IT ANYMORE its too much I have almost 60.FUCKING CHARACTERS HOW AM I EVER SUPPOSED TO STOP

please someone tell me what to do i so exhausted I can't fucking stop these thoughts and I keep getting angry at my paras but they don't deserve it I love them I'm so scared of fucking up I just wanted people who knew and loved everything about me and wouldn't ever hurt me and that would stay with my for the rest of my life why did it have to be this complicated please I WANT A FUCKING BREAK I CANT DO THIS

i wish i could just turn off my brain, turn of my senses, turn everything fucking OFF I can't anymore wtf

And it makes me so fucking angry that this isn't recognized as a mental illness because it literally has taken so fucking much from me it's like my brain went huh so I either kill myself or develop a coping mechanism that keeps me alive but also just barely and I'll never know what it feel like to be completely mentally in the moment again? and went oh that's easy like no WTF

I literally cannot anymore, and my paras can't even comfort me anymore because I keep thinking YOURE NOT REAL I NEED TO TELL YOU YOURE NOT REAL YOU CAN'T SAVE ME YOURE NOT HERE

fuck this shit

[billcarden]

[ace-of-hugs]

I often think about going back to my old teachers and schools and showing them how far I’ve come. I don’t think that the amount I think about it is normal or healthy.

[domistique]

lmao.

[ghoulodont]

trying to convince myself i dont need to plan out the layout of every space including location of every mentioned object in order to write. if i can do this i will unlock ultimate writing power

[omg-ame-chan]

math teacher noticed i had 2 acrylic nails missing on both of my hands (they fell off) and asked me if i did it on purpose or not because "you never know nowadays". and now at 1am i'm trying to figure out in what way she meant it because i just realized

why did she ask that out of nowhere . why did she say it that way . am i just overthinking it

[katyobsesses]

I just tried to wake up my desktop by tapping on the screen... It is not a touch screen...

[wolrith]

i just switched leg positions and could feel my brain readjusting chemicals

[wullfric]

The funniest thingh about the evil art style challenge is that you will see the most interesting and fun looking art that fills you with whimsy and joy for creation (fnaf reference?) and a need to see more like it and then you scroll a little down and get jump scared by the fucking evil art style rules image and go like oh so this is the literal opposite of what you do, cool why would you do this to me

[kerosene-saint]

grappling with the feeling that I never have and probably never will do something important to people, I have never done something monumental and I don't think I have the abilities to ever do something like that. That one day my memory will completely fade from people's minds because I never made enough impact on enough people. maybe my life will live on in the select few people that really genuinely know me, but it will have never been documented because I wasn't important enough and I never did enough things. because I wasn't popular enough. maybe it's the feeling that everyone around me constantly set higher and higher expectations for what I could do and the responsibilities I could handle, only now when I'm starting to have a lot of troubles with my disabilities I'm feeling completely inadequate due to not being able to meet the higher and higher expectations put on me. I just don't feel like whatever I do ever will have enough impact. people won't know who I am and all the things I've had to fight for and all the things I make and the friends I have. I don't think anyone in the future will hear my name and think about the stuff I did, they'll just wonder who I am, or who I was. and maybe one day I'll prove myself wrong. but the way I'm headed is a deep path of being forgotten to time. I'll be forgotten to time.

[cyanonights]

my brain/mind feels like break core