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'You're comparing yourself to me? Ha! You're not even good enough to be my fake!'
#This was supposed to be fun#but it's nearly 6am again and I hate drawing Spectra and I hate myself#I do not understand how to eye w/ mask#I really really don't#I found you faker#sonic parody#bakugan#masquerade bakugan#spectra phantom#corvusblogart
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coworker asked how i was feeling about the election and when i said i was honestly more torn up about it then i was expecting to be, he looked baffled and was like "why? you're here aren't you?" and ?????????????
i'll admit i did start to lose my temper with him because sure i am "here" (i.e. not the states) for now, there's no guarantee that i'll be able to stay indefinitely tho, and regardless of where i am, i still have friends and people i care about that are stuck in the states, that will be directly subjected to the awfulness that's going to come from this, and even if i didn't know anyone personally, that's still major world power all but cementing itself as a fascist regime, clearly a net negative. and just the audacity to be like "why are you upset" like i'm sorry i am not even the person that brought it up wtaf
#also dealing with the guilt of knowing that in my family i am the only one that didn't vote for the orange buffoon#and the personal pain of knowing that the people who raised me are actively contributing to the misery of their countrymen#and i haven't been able to do a goddamn thing to stop them#i didn't tell him that#but like it deffo plays into my upset today#i don't know how i can talk to them#i really really don't#personal#vent#us politics
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wow. not even a week into college and i'm already behind on work. fucking lovely.
#friday chats#friday vs post-secondary school#tw vent#(in the following tags)#i am immeasurably stressed right now#i need to talk to my doctor about getting a booster to go along w/my adhd meds#bc this has been a problem for a while but i think it's about to come to a head#and i'm very scared for when that happens#maybe also talk to my school's disability services#bc Good Fucking God i'm already overwhelmed#it's 11:56. should i just go to bed? i have so many things left to do#when do i even have the time to go to disability services. and i've heard a lot of schools' processes w/that are slow and overcomplicated#fuck. fuck fuck fuckity fuck.#i think i'm spiraling#i'm worried that if i don't get a degree i won't be able to find a nice enough job to support myself independent of my family#and i don't want to be stuck with them forever#i really really don't#maybe i can talk to disability services sometime tomorrow morning. see what they can do#i think there's mental health services too. i hope they're decent#i just feel really bad right now. and it's only week one.#it feels like time's moving too fast but too slow at the same time#classes take forever but my free time zips by and runs out way too quick#and when it's gone i've completed maybe one or two things. out of several. if any at all.#i just don't know what to do. it's only been three days.#maybe i can drop a class; i think i'm taking enough to still be considered a full-time student with one less thing on my plate#i hope so#fucking damn it#how do people do this??? for multiple years????#and i feel selfish for saying this but i hope if y'all see this post you'll interact with it somehow. even just a like.#i want to know someone hears me
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[I'm so damn tired, gang. Tired and mad and sad.]
#.:ooc:.#negative cw#nothing on this blog save for the remnants of shenanigans#just...bs from my other one#more and more bs#i don't know what i did so wrong to these people#i really really don't
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random ass jack hughes x readr post from someone I wasn't even following jsut got suck at the top of my dash for like 2 minutes what the hell kind of psychic attack is this. I literally have that tag filtered too where did this fucking post come from
#hockeyposting#it wasn't like blazed or anything tumblr just decided I needed to see. that.#I really really don't#not only do I hate x r/eader shit but that is also jhughes my arch nemesis parasocial enemy eternal foe
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living with depression, and maybe even a personality disorder, is like. everything is terrible nothing will ever be right again. my mutual posted a poem. i cried over it. all is well in the world. my back hurts. i am happy and joyful and the dark times are all past. i thought too hard about how the ticking clocks don't match up and now i'm upset. a kitten is curled up against my back. it's late and i've done nothing today. i have a book i can finish reading tonight. i want to kill myself. i smile over something a friend sent me; they love me. i can't bear to live any longer. dad was so insistent that grandma's upset is not my fault i'm just the target, that she still loves me, that he still loves me.
everything's backwards and forwards and never a moment to just exist completely neutrally or peacefully
#tw suicide#i just. so many moments tonight ive wanted to harm. i was sobbing with anger earlier in a conversation with grandma#tw sh#i don't know how much longer this can go on#i really really don't#personal#puddleglum hours#i considered the other day if i should tell my dietitian and move the appt up half a week. but no. i'll be fine.
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I really don't want to do this today
#I really really don't#but I've committed to it now#and I don't want to let people down#the fatigue is fatiguing#I am bone achingly tired#and I really don't want to do this#and yet I am going to
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Vulcan teen on Vulcan [tiktok] saying "I have just lost track of my father in the grocery store." The camera turns to show the viewers the grocery store in which almost every single older middle-aged man has a bowlcut and long robes. Camera turns back to show the teen's face which is expressionless and yet communicates all it needs to.
#vulcans#I don't think all Vulcans dress the same and headcanon that there's a buunch of different styles on Vulcan#BUT I DO think that older middle aged men flock together regardless of species#and that it's funny that Vulcan has like The Vulcan Hair[tm] - why'd they do that to themselves HEHEHE you're lucky your dad's telepathic#I really wanna see fashion subcultures for other plaaaanets in star trek#I wanna see Klingon Goth#I wanna see fashion styles specific to that species because of that species' culture#like how we have niche niche fashion trends#the other day I thought about it being Vulcan counterculture to do your makeup as if you've been crying#popular with teens but adults do NOT like it
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let's get ✨vulnerable✨
#this isnt meant to be ship. or suggestive. i dont even wanna tag it as ship tbh#theres something really really lovely about platonically bathing with someone and I think they'd be normal about it#I don't think either of them would wanna spend too much time alone either. after. all that shit#dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi spoilers#chilchuck tims#senshi of izganda#my art#comic
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collection of useful things tumblr has taught me:
even if you can't fall asleep, laying down with your eyes closed will still rest your body
you don't have to brush your teeth standing up
you don't have to do any chore standing up, from dishes to showering
you don't have to shower with the lights on
if you can't brush your teeth, flossing and a tongue scraper gets rid of plaque and bad breath
if you can't do that, mouthwash kills a lot of bacteria
eating "unhealthy" food is better than eating no food
you can make the same meal everyday for however long you still want it
some pills come in syrups or chewables if you can't swallow them
kids nutritional shakes can be a quick way to get fuel if you can't eat/don't have time
if walking hurts/exhausts you on a regular basis, canes and rollers are for you, no matter how young you are
we have free will—if doing something "out of the ordinary" makes life easier for you, do it
if you have even a dollar to spare, please consider donating to Alaikum's family.
they're a large family at only 10% of their goal to evacuate, and could use any help you can give!!
#these are just things I personally didn't consciously realize but are really helpful#or stuff that I don't think think we hear enough#disability#mental health#mental illness#encounter: demon
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that article going around abt firefox's new ad program is annoying bc it's phrased as though "mozilla has finally TURNED on its people and is SELLING YOU OUT for cold hard cash!!" when. that's not what's happening. it is specifically being implemented to discourage tracking behavior, and literally all the data they are giving to advertisers is aggregate and anonymized, which is like, the opposite of what that post wants you to worry about, lol
#the nemesis speaks#unfortunately i don't have enough energy to like. campaign about this.#it's actually a really interesting tactic to discourage invasive tracking#basically giving individual advertisers a way to measure '% effectiveness of ad' without individual info getting attached to it#whatever anyway i'm going to bed. do NOT discourse on this post or i will get your ass
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kosovo miku
#hatsune miku#vocaloid#for once i finally have the time for a miku challenge/trend !!#i saw no one draw it yet so lets go#kosovo#albania#please don't repost#my art#artists on tumblr#i really wish i could eat fli right now#look up for “Flija Tradicionale” it's delicious#it's built like a sun
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don't show him modern technology; it won't end well
bonus under the cut:
#i'm not sure if ford would really be interested in using the internet much#but i could see him wanting to look something up real quick and ending up reading something so outrageously wrong#that it pisses him off to the point that he gets into an argument about it lol#gravity falls#stan pines#stanley pines#stanford pines#digital art#my stuff#anyway i really don't like how this one turned out#but i don't feel like changing it#bc i already spent way more time on this than i actually wanted to#and i don't wanna look at it any longer
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you're allowed to discuss and work together, reblog for a higher sample size or something
You have 1 week, good luck!
#neo.txt#girl idk i don't really care about tagging#challenge#ig#i'll just let y'all do this on your own#if 10 people join then that works#but the more people join the more likely you are to succeed#i just wanna sit back and see what you all do#and if you can succeed#(twitter is failing)#tumblr even poll challenge#i guess i'll name it this!
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Expertise can't help you here.
#dungeon meshi#kabru#laios touden#falin touden#Happy Thistle Thursday once again. Have I been holding on to this comic for several weeks? Sure have!#I forgot how long it takes for Chimera Falin to come into play.#I still really love my 'better drawn' art of her - unfortunately it was several weeks too early for the anime only folks.#Slowly getting the hang of drawing Laios. I don't know why I struggle so much but I am getting...somewhere.#Meta time: God damn I love how the chimera shows off the expertise and gap between Kabru and Laios.#The truth is: they are both *right* and they are both *wrong*.#This creature is a combination of monster and human and they only have the skillset to deal with one of those.#Kabru goes for all the human vitals - but she isn't human.#Laios tries to approach her as a monster and is struck down by the humanity he sees in her.#She is something new that defies what they *both* understand about the world. And that makes her such a perfect antagonist.#The damsel was the dragon all along!#...She is really so cute though. Terrifying! But adorable. I am so excited to see the boom of fanart for her.
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