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fuck guys, a new year means its a whole other divide between be more chill fanfiction made in 2018 and now
#i feel abandoned lowkey#like im looking at a distant ideal past#what is it gonna be then#7 years?#fuckkkkkkk#i dont want bmc to die out#i really really don't#bmc#be more chill musical#be more chill#bmc book
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can the mtt commit more crimes that just murder please i know theyre the MURDER time trio but ppppleasse,,,, please,,,,,,
they'd be terrible to be next to on the highway. horror's going 160 mph amd has long past gone over the speed limit. dust's out for BLOOD and by blood i mean your tires. he's somehow sniping those round rubber wheels from the high moving vehicle with the precision of a master fruit ninja player. if your car explodes or flips over in the process that's not his fault. and then to make matters worse for everyone on the highway killer's in the backseat scratching up the doors and windows of your car with a knife everytime horror gets close to another car and oops he accidentally just disfigured your face also did i mention theyre all drunk during this
ok so theyve all got the classic face WHY DONT THEY ABUSE IT!!!! horror gets to do a little paper mache to cover up his head hole and then wearing glasses. killer i dont know what the FUCK he can do to get rid of his perpetual tears but let's just pretend that theyre conveniently gone for now. and then all dust has to do is put down his hood! anyways identity theft is cool. imagine how much they could totally fuck up classic's reputation with this. set up fake tinder profiles and then scam people for their credit card info/free dates (while ordering every expensive thing) and stealing wallets. walking into various grillby's's around the multiverse and telling terrible jokes. like ACTUALLY bad jokes. and then of course just being a huge piece of shit at the bar. god theres so many things they could do pretending to be classic. which one of us is hikaru looking ahh except the only difference between the three is the color of the stains on their clothes (either gray (dust) black (killer) or red. well faded red (horror))
ROBBERY!!!! ROBBERIES PLURAL!!!??? train robbery gas station robbery bank robbery GOVERNMENT robbery (what would you rob the government for?? documents??? idk) anyways. mtt robbing a train except its just a really shitty plan and they dont know jackshit about what theyre doing. killer's taken over the conductor's cabin and now he is booking it. how fast are trains allowed to go idk but the maximum. anyways meanwhile horror's on the tracks fucking up the rails with his strength or whatever (listen i know he's weak but picking and choosing what hcs i believe in is my art) and dust is there to teleport him away before the train crashes into him and turns him into a trolley problem victim. and then of course that shit doesnt fucking work and the train just ends up flipping over and catching on fire or something (killer survives because of course he does he's killer). and then in the end dust just has to flip the entire train over and they just stroll into the part that actually HAS the money
and then they go out and get ice cream. sometimes the murderers need to take a break from murdering and just do NORMAL crime yk???
#dragging this absolutely ancient draft out of the trenches because i've been having a scene in my head that fits this#i mean not REALLY related to this since its not a crime. more like him reckless abandon of life! their own lives! yeah they die#imagining.... trio driving around in the mountains. dust's driving ans horror's in the passenger and killer's in the back seat because he i#and dust just starts speeding up like...... much more than he really should be in the fucking mountains#and killer points it out and now all of a sudden horror is absolutely terrified LMAOOOO trying to get dust to slow down#and then they crash. but if there's no one more determined in the world killer can always load a save and theyre alive again#and dust is STILL speeding when they come back even with the knowledge that they die and horror's still terrified#but dust just tells him to calm down and loosen up a little bit!!! theyll come back afterwards anyways and they dont even die in pain#and after a few more deaths horrors just like. ugh. fine. you know what FINE ILL GO ALONG WITH IT#he says as he starts laughing along with dust because man!! the feeling of looking out at nature right before they die in a blaze of glory#is GREAT!!!! and then you know something something horrordust have trust in killer to bring them back after they all die#something something horror is willing to give up his usual reservations to have fun with the other two#and its so fun afterwards.... because nobody but them gets hurt!!! dust and horror wouldnt wanna hurt anyone after their au lore#and killer has no reason to in this scenario. so it all works out for them!! the only people getting hurt are them and lowkey they deservei#the sans in the au is probably sooo confused as to why the world is reloading even though theres no human doing so 💀 killer you GOOF#theyve probably all died so many times but only they remember it. soooo cute.... only they get to see each other at their weakest 💔💔💔#killer absolutely abuses the save point when theyre all together i just knowww ittttt sooooo well#he wants everything to continue not restart or go back??? ok but everything IS continuous with these two#not like they stay doing one thing over and over anyways so its not really perpetual. anyways dust and horror would get bored along with hi#if they just kept doing the exact same thing over and over trying to find every possible ending. nahhhh#triglycercule this is sooo unhealthy none of them would do this!! ok well they make each other worse who said it was ever gonna be healthy#screw EVERYONE in the violet banquet discord server who indulged me in my trio waltz dancing in a field of flowers at 3 am. brainrot now...#this scene i described in tags totally happened in my trio meet each other fic btw. just that it hasn't gotten to this point at ALL yet 💀💀#tricule rant#killer sans#dust sans#horror sans#murder time trio#sans au#utmv
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#tbh i think they should expand on the jordan drama bc its lowkey delicious#nandor needs to go even more insane & not have any idea why#& guillermo feels more insane by proxy ofc#so far s6 is kinda all over the place imo. why are we abandoning the previous episode's storyline to bring laszlo's ghost dad into it 🤔#i haven't been in love w this show for a few seasons sadly. i rly loved it before but it doesn't have the same Spark for me#obviously im still gonna be tuning in next tuesday but u feel me#wwdits#wwdits spoilers#nandermo#blather
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*Been angsting about this page for the last 20 minutes*
The way it's like he's still waiting, even after his sister has left the room, to see if she mentions it at all.
Then glances at the calendar as if to make sure he's not just wrong about the date.
Then puts away the food that [imo] he made for his own breakfast and saves it for his sister instead.
The way he never bothers reminding his family that it's his birthday because he has long since internalized that they do not have time to care
[Gakuen Babysitters Chapter 37]
#don't mind me. just lowkey projecting on Yagi-kun#this kid has been living in an empty apartment for the last 8 years and people wonder why he's weird now#i headcanon that Yagi has a habit of skipping meals (no appetite) when he's feeling lonely/sad/depressed/abandoned#which is why his sister asks if he's been eating properly while she was gone#the kids are not alright#at least not this one#gakuen babysitters#school babysitters#yagi tomoya#actually me
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thinks very hard about that indigo disk cutscene at crystal pool. how the player character is the catalyst for EVERYTHING in scarlet/violet... both good and bad.
from the discovery of paradox pokemon, the professor's eventual death BC of that discovery, arven losing the only family he has, the ai and paradise protocol continuing to bring in paradox pokemon despite the dangers they present, paldea almost being destroyed by paradox pokemon, everything that happens in kitakami and blueberry academy, finding terapagos and meeting the prof...
like I know it's a kids game and the game is About paradoxes and that professor is theoretically from a different reality, but i feel GUILTY for that alternate reality and all that will come bc I gave the professor the book. so many lives will be shifted and changed bc of that decision. juliana/florian are just KIDS, but god they (and briar, since it her book) just affected the lives of so many people and I just! that's so crazy to me!
I already loved what pokemon has done with multiverses and alternate realities, but scarlet/violet kind of takes it to the next level (at least in terms of fic and art potential - I'm v curious how they incorporate this into the anime and manga)
#I'm sure this has been discussed before but I just finished this last night and MAN#the 'what about your family' question and their response lowkey broke me#'he's probably lonely' THEN SPEND TIME WITH YOUR SON#I just feel like there are so many opportunities to do time shenanigans and angst with this#like mc trying again and again to change the prof's mind using terapagos not knowing if anything they do matters#alternatively mc rightfully putting the prof in their place about abandoning arven#I have So Many Feelings about this scene#if they do it right the epilogue at the end of the month will destroy me (positive)#pokemon scarlet and violet#pokemon sv#pokémon sv spoilers#indigo disk#indigo disk spoilers
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the way i have a ton of projects i wanna work on simultaenously and irl stuff coming up.....and yet a beans ask blog still circles in my mind
#deer rambles#it would have to be lowkey super simple and something i only work on when im bored#i see ppl managing multiple blogs and im like how!!!!!!!!#beanie still haunts me i love her and think she's fun#but i have so many ideas with her....i think it would be rlly fun#but i dont want to abandon it after a week#like i dont think it would be bad if i did but i would feel bad ya know?
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fic where Palmetto Coach!Dan finds a striker who's playstyle is uncannily similar to Neil when he was a first year and promptly sends her off to train with Kevin for a few months
featuring: old men kandreil, terrifying exy addicted flight-risk redhead getting trained by exy legend kevin day (so pretty much my favourite parts of aftg??), kevin's fucked up arm, the columbia house, retired kandreil, siblings kevin and Dan, kevin taking oc to exites and sending the bill to Dan, neil going on 3am runs with oc, old man andrew who banned exy talk in his house after 5pm, andrew who gets recognised on the street while he's with oc and they both pretend to have never heard of sports, kevneil showing off all the tricks they've developed over the years, jerejean cameo, oc realising she has in fact gotten attached "oh no", neil who has been there done that "oh yes"
kevin who put all his faith into oc.....was the first person to tell her she could make it.....oc who was instantly attached for life.....andreil who who understand her completely
#listen this is so self indulgent#dan: im sending you off to train with a friend of mine#oc lowkey feeling abandoned: the fuck???#dan: its kevin day#oc: this is the best thing thats ever happened to me#kevin#old man coach kevin fic#i dont feel like tagging this properly lol#this ones just for me#i need retired kandreil so badly you have no idea#part time academic kevin when he's not commentating games with neil or occasionally helping out the national team#retired kevneil aka the best critics in the exy industry#retired andrew who reporters are too terrified to approach#fic idea#fic idea for me to daydream about and never actually write :p
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brand spanking new starter call! give this post a like/reply for a starter!
(specifying muse would be preferred & fellow multi specifying from your end as well. you may request multiple)
#( the smallest planet with the biggest heart // starter call )#(i am lowkey attempting to make all my blogs feel less abandoned so alas here we are)
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1 day i will make a meta of sansa's dynamic with her metaphorical champions/suitors & how that correlates to the ashford theory (i.e sansa being betrothed to joffrey baratheon, then promised to willas tyrell, then being married to tyrion lannister, then being married to harry hardying then married to aegon vi targaryen & aurane velaryon but it is not this day. lmao. when i make that meta it'll be so over for y'all.
#just know that. she never marries after aurane. btw lmao#like if he like g-d forbid ever died before she did she'd like. literally never marry or love again like. thats it lmfao#but anyway like. she has a complicated relationship w/ all of them tbh & reflects on them sometimes.#she obviously hates joffrey for him abusing her but like. she can't help but feel sad for him at times bc like. he was so young.#if he had the right people around him maybe he would've turned out okay eventually. but it didnt happen. she never met willas but sometimes#she wondered what it would've been like to be lady of highgarden but she hopes he's doing alright. her dynamic w/ tyrion is. complicated#like. he was never like openly cruel to her or anything & she's grateful to him for saving her life & standing up for her but like.#there's always that grief surrounding their families & i think she resented & mostly afraid of him at the time but in hindsight she's+#grateful that he never hurt her or forced himself on her. harry she hardly knew unfortunately but like she disliked him at first#but then he actually seemed to warm up to her & she had him tied around her lil finger but she knows that she wouldn't like to be married+#to a guy who actually has children w/ sb else. like. she's seen how that played out & while she wouldn't be mean it makes her uncomfortable#but especially surrounding aegon bc like. she's not naive enough to say she loved him but like. she actually LIKED him#like. while she was wary of him at first she warmed up to him & genuinely respected him as a person & most importantly aegon was her FRIEND#they got along rly well due to their similar upbringings & what they had to do to survive & like. he's actually a decent guy in canon. lmao#he's handsome & was chivalrous & honorable & sweet w/ her but also like batshit insane in a good way. like.#he was the golden prince she always wanted since she was a little girl; the prince that joffrey was supposed to be but never was.#he gave her a future as queen of westeros that was originally HERS. so when daenerys eventually executes him she has mixed feelings about i#aegon was good to her & she'd vowed not to betray him & she actually intended to keep that vow. to her she was forever in his debt+#he gave her a future from her isolation & suffering @ winterfell bc of how much everything changed & he waited for her to love him back.#he actually showed her respect & gave her a solid future when she felt alone & abandoned & led her gently into a world of his own making+#& gave her back her honor & a future. esp when the north was divided between jon rickon & herself. most preferred jon or rickon over her.#without aegon's intervention she probably would've had to marry some northern lord below her station. the winterfell succession crisis wild#but aurane velaryon? that's the love of her life. her bold captain. he taught her how to love & coaxed her in the sun to bloom & freed her.#freed her from the chains of her family obligations. he taught her to break the rules of tradition & follow her heart & trust her instincts#he was there with her in her darkest hour. he quite literally saved her life & defended her honor when no one else had the balls to do that#no one looks @ or touches her the way aurane does she loved him madly truly & deeply he took her girlhood in his stride but when autumn cam#she escaped & had to push him into the deepest recesses of her mind in the name of survival & pragmatism but she never stopped loving him.#& his sweet memory brought too much heartache & bittersweetness for her. she lowkey waited for him for years. & they EVENTUALLY reunited !#he fought & got legitimized for HER. she's. so genuinely happy w/ that man. he's one of her best friends & the father to her children.
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only 6 more days for 12th grade to officially finish and my exams to be over. perhaps jaeyunverse comeback with a long fic ????? 😳
#first order of business will be to finish that damn jeno fic#then i will work on one of the valentine’s event fics who’s masterlist i posted Last Year 💀#i will prob make a poll for that bc idk which one to write 😭 i have 4k for the heeseung one but i’m STUCK#i have 4k for the halloween special fic i started in 2021 ummmmm maybe i’ll buckle down on it too#THE ALICE IN BORDERLAND AU???? i have the entire plot but it is going to be So Long i just know it.#i hope i can finish my current wips before any other long fic ideas come to me 😭#i have to finish the stupid headcanon series too what was i thinking when i started it#IM TERRIBLE AT HEADCANONS#fffff i only have a few weeks of peace after boards 😭 i have to start grinding for my other exam in june once april starts#i hope i can be more active on this account and actually get some writing done bc ngl i have sm plans for the small vacation i’m getting#but i wanna be delusional too 🫡#also i have so many unfinished projects here sometimes i feel like abandoning this account completely#and this place is lowkey dead in terms of activity ngl 💀 i will have try to revive it#but then i remember that i put effort into building this blog so seeing it go to waste would be sad#plus i Really do not want to repost my fics for a third time ppl will call me crazy
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can’t tell whether my writing blog makes me wanna cry or makes me feel nothing whenever i look at it
#tryna stay positive but lowkey i wanna abandon that shit until i feel better#but i’m so scared ill get shadow banned again#and it’ll take much much longer for the support team to get it back up
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i’m sad so i made this
modding exists but it’s still the end of an era ya know
rest in peace eShop
#nintendo#nintendo eshop#nintendo eshop closure#3ds#wii u#big sad#i’ve never owned or intended to own a wii u but my 3ds has been with me for so long#i got it for christmas 2014 because i heard about pokémon alpha sapphire and i really wanted to play it#i used to be so into pokémon#and now i’m not much at all#which was sad but i’ve moved on#i lowkey abandoned my 3ds when i got a switch though bc i got splatoon 2 with it and i fell in LOVE#but i feel kind of guilty about that#but sometimes you just move on to different things and that’s ok#even though i am a designated gamer i don’t think i wanna play a bajillion games#i’ve got other shit to do and i like it that way#sorry you flopped wii u maybe i didn’t want one but it was still good#how long can star make these tags challenge >:)#so i mostly just picked up a few freebies off the eshop and skedaddled#really contemplated buying some stuff but nah i decided i shouldn’t#one day i’ll probably fiddle around with modding but most of my video game time now is funneled into the splatoon 3 you know how it is lmao#i’ve got other shit to do and i like it that way :3#urgh i’m very tired so that is why the tags are soooo long but i will not apologize tags are the best form of communication actually#if nintendo cancels me for talking about modding tell my story
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the paradoxical nature of the fact that tolkien clearly had some romances he was passionate about including in his universe (usually ones based off his own marriage tbh), but also that he seemingly relegated all such stories to either appendices or a prequel he never finished
#yes yes i know he STARTED writing the silmarillion first more or less#but it's a prequel in publishing order#but anyway beren and luthien and elwing and earendil and arwen and aragorn are Important romances in his universe#like cosmically#and uh they somehow aren't featured players in anything he *published*#look as someone who has abandoned many fics i Cannot judge him for never finishing the silmarillion#but im lowkey obsessed with how he never found time for the romances he clearly cared writing about#sam and rosie are practically after thoughts to give sam someone (anyone) when frodo leaves middle earth#that's not me hating on rosie#im just saying that romance feels simultaneously like an afterthought and also is something he clearly enjoyed writing#idk im probably getting a lot of this wrong. lord knows i havent read the histories or appendices#but i just think there were 2 wolves inside tolkien#one wanted to write adventure tales about Slowing the Marring of the World#the other one wanted to write ROMANTIC POETRY TIL HIS LAST BREATH#and honestly same
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can't tell if i'm like... starting to dislike these girls because im pmsing and that's pretty typical for me to suddenly not like certain people, or if it's genuinely because they've been giving me weird fucking vibes and did smth i think was shitty :/
#they left one dude in the club blackout drunk bc he said he didnt want to leave yet#and his phone died and he slept in the street. woke up with no memory of what happened#and a bachelorette party at the club had ripped his shirt off in shreds apparently#and its like. yeah ik those girls that left him aren't responsible for him that's not their job but like. he couldnt b responsible for hims#--himself in that state#we're in a foreign country and he was visibly fucking blackout wasted#and they left him there by himself#and then in the morning when it was like oh fuck we dont know where jake is? they were insistent that we didnt tell the profs and would#instead wait FOUR HOURS for him to contact us (WTF) before going to the spanish police Ourselves#like what the fuck do you think WE can accomplish??#whatever it turned out okay (or as ok as it could be) bc he managed to buy a charger and picked up when i tried calling again within that 1#hour that we discovered he never made it to his hotel that night#so like. it was fine we didnt need to get the professors or cops involved and nobody had to get sent back home to the US#but like. the fact that they STILL are treating it like no big deal is really giving me rancid vibes#he could have been robbed or assaulted or kidnapped or killed. and what would we have done#like. idk. it seems like theyre just trying to sweep it under the rug bc it was THEM who saw him last#it was THEM who abandoned him while he was in no state to be on his own#and it's especially jarring bc some of those girls i'd considered to be really great people that i really liked!!#and then for one of them especially to be LAUGHING when jake was telling her in person what had happened#like zero concern whatsoever#and its so offputting like... genuinely was this no issue in your eyes.#and it's scary bc it really is a double standard bc if this was a girl then everyone would have been flipping the fuck out#the profs and cops would be called ASAP even if it meant that people got sent home early from the study abroad. bc safety is more important#but bc 'hes a grown man he can handle himself' nobody was in any sort of rush to try and make sure he was okay#its just. i dont feel like i can trust half of them anymore when that was how they reacted to the situation#and when one girl today got lowkey pissed at me for being like yeah that was scary how jake was left all alone and slept in the streets#she was like 'well its not our problem. hes the one who didnt want to leave so its his own fault. he should be able to handle himself'#WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU. WHAT THE FUCK.
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I stopped working on this two and a half weeks ago and even though I vaguely remember that I still have a wip to finish, I absolutely do not recall what this wip actually looks like
#wip#I definitly thought I haven't worked on this for a month but the file says it was last edited 27th April#tho if I think about it I might have had it lay untouched for a week and then only made a layer to pick the colors for shading#I recently also looked at the other sketches in the pipeline and. I'm distraught that I don't really like any of them (anymore)#I truly can only art if I do it immediately.#lowkey have definitely thought about abandoning this but I don't feel like drawing anything either way so what's even the point
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writing update i did actually write a bit of blue mist today :') shoutout to the appeal i love your format im going to steal it so hard
#the appeal :handshake: the illuminae files#make fun layouts based on reading through and analyzing files#also just because i think its funny. im going to make jamie have no idea hes been in love with hsi best friend for years#until after he goes missing !! yay#fun parallel to jo whose girlfriend is also missing but they broke up already. both of them have to find the other because who else is#the more i think this out the sadder it gets tho lowkey like what :((#however !! may be working out some of my other elements of what the station actually is#current thought -- something that tries to pick up queer characters who feel abandoned by society but cant let them go either#im also trying to think of the replacement names. currently rocking w jamie bennet as my jackie brackett replacement#lose replacement concept for ran aetherman -- peter feldman ?? but idk abt the peter part#cris soto might become august somethign. apparently had joana in as joana angeles in one of my other drafts but idk abt that.#lee's bullshit
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