#I need to learn more things that can be applied in the same conversation though bc a lot of what I know is very disparate

[shalom-iamcominghome]

Becoming jewish because being a lawyer is too much work

[cornflowershade]

Not like I said a whole lot or anything fancy but proud of myself for speaking some Thai to my waiter at a [Thai] restaurant tonight?? Did it despite being shy lol and the waiter (this older guy) was SO happy. He had seemed kinda tired out but after the exchange he was smiling so much and kept coming back excitedly to see how we were doing. It was very sweet :)

(He understood me without missing a beat, too—like replied instantaneously— so I guess my pronunciation was alright haha)

[charmedreincarnation]

Hey guysss! A lot of people have been asking for me to make a challenge for a while now. I honestly didn’t want to, not because I’m against them or anything but because the law will be different for everyone. Sometimes, it feels like tumblr needs a reminder - you are the only person who knows what you need to do to succeed. I wish I could imprint this realization on everyone's minds. I’ve also gotten so manyyyy asks about things that genuinely just feel like your doubts repeating in your mind constantly so I’m gonna talk abt my beliefs bc y’all are spiraling really hard. I get it you want your desires for Christmas and new years. It’s okay take a breath, you're alive and will be okay.

Firstly: at the beginning I used to spend countless time spiraling into depression, constantly changing my methods every time I saw a new success story, and every time I found a new foolproof' tumblr method. Methods that were supposed to guarantee results in a day so when they didn’t I felt rlly useless. It was annoying, to say the least, and I don’t want to help others do the same thing, but really all I can do is reiterate what I always say and hope you apply it to everything!!

A lot of you guys wanted something that didn’t involve the void state, so that’s what this will revolve around! But feel free to make this void orientated if you desire, and I’ll also add a void section so all my babies can eat!

Ok so you’ve over consumed, you have dropped the void, and now have switched to just assuming and knowing that you would wake up with your dream life - embracing states. Great! At first, it will seem like you're doing nothing but you aren’t! For example, I knew I was dwelling in the state of wish fulfilled when I went to work without shedding tears, when I looked in the mirror and didn't think I was ugly because, well, I'm beautiful! I didn't care abt not performing well on a test because I could revise my past etc. this isn’t to say ignore the 3D: don’t do that, please try and make sure you’re safe and okay. But know life is malleable. Slowly, things that used to bother me—my parents, grades, anxiety, self-deprivation—started to fade away. Even though my dream life hadn't reflected in my 3D yet, I felt the switch. That's when I decided, I know what to do.

I also remember finding this cute website a long time ago that I want to share that summarizes it in such a great and simple way.

So Before I knew or understood what LOA was, I found this gem of an article on I am Love'- "How To Shift Into A State & Stay There". I think I have a post abt it somewhere on my blog but I’m too lazy to find it so here it is again.

Basically it explains that the essence of shifting into a desired state and staying there. What resonated with me was her choice to dwell in the state of knowing that her desires are hers, no matter what.

The way she used colloquial language made the content relatable and easy to understand. It's like having a conversation with a friend who's guiding you through hard concepts with “dumbed down” language because at the beginning states made 0 sense to me.

Posts like this really helped me particularly because when I discovered Neville, it required three attempts on my part to not only intellectually grasp his teachings, but also to truly comprehend him as a whole, given his non-contemporary speaking tbh.

I recommend it if you find yourself stuck or not really grasping the law yet (which is more than okay) but, if you're looking to understand the loa better or just learn more give this article a read.

There’s also a particular quote from Neville that really got me to dive into his work after finding this article and it was- “The being that you really are, descended to the weakness of the flesh, causing you to experience the state you are now in. Contemplate another state, and the same being who brought your present form into being will restore and make alive the other state, the state desired. This he will continue to do until his purpose is fulfilled. That purpose is to follow a certain pattern back into the unity of being. You see, in the beginning we were drafted. We did not volunteer to fall into these states. We were made subject into futility, not willingly but by the will of him who sent us. But when we return we will discover that we are the very being who subjected us. We are now the sons, destined to return as God the Father!”

Now that you understand and are ready to apply state, Here’s a routine I’ve created to hopefully help you guys! It is very simple and not time consuming at all.

Scripting and writing: I love writing and feeling like the author of my own story, literally bringing my creation to life. I would write when I felt like it. Whenever I wanted to dwell in my state, I would simply write, "I have my dream life." It's so simple, yet it embodies everything I need. If you’re more of a picture girl, use Pinterest instead. Or both if you prefer it doesn’t matter.

Edward arts' "I am creator meditation": Again, do this whenever you like it. It's one of the few meditations that didn't bore me to death and seemed to work with my ADHD. I also love reading, so I would read his pdf whenever I felt like it and take mental notes. Reading his work was a reminder I was doing everything right, it resonated with me very well.

During doubt and overstimulation: When things get overwhelming, close your eyes and let the emotions pass. They’re just thoughts! repeat the words "I am" until your heart returns to its normal rhythm. It's a simple yet powerful way to ground yourself amidst the whirlwind of emotions. And guess what? You can use this technique for doubt too! So the next time you're feeling overwhelmed, remember the power of "I am". It's a gentle reminder of your existence, your resilience, and your capability to be whatever you want despairs any emotional turmoil.

Thank god: (yourself!!) When reminded of your desires. Thank you god. When you see your desires, (eg:Pinterest, online or you’re just reminded) thank you god! When you see an image of your desires, thank you god! When you dream or think about your desires. Thank god! Always thank the person fulfilling it aka you ;)! If you’re religious just thank the god you actually follow.

Nightly reflections: At night, ask yourself , "What would I do if I woke up in my dream life right now?" repeat this question throughout the night. Then, imagine whatever scene you want. What would you do if you could not fail? What would you do if you had all the money in the world right now. What if you looked in the mirror and saw the most ethereal being and it’s just you? What about if you woke up in your dream house with your dream family and pets? This is inspired by one of the first shifting methods I created that helped me fulfill my imagination before I knew what that meant. When you’re ready to sleep just remind yourself it is done, and drift off into your desires.

As I've always said, I've been a great daydreamer. I knew exactly what I wanted my life to look and feel like. I envisioned my walk-in closet filled with luxurious outfits, waking up in my dream room on a soft mattress with my pets purring nearby. I saw the decor reflecting my personality in every corner of my large, and pretty room. I imagined walking into my bathroom, seeing all my cool Sephora products lined up for my skincare and shower routine. I love taking care of myself because I know I deserve it. I saw myself looking in the mirror, knowing I'm "that girl" who turns heads wherever she goes.I visualized going downstairs in my boujee dream house,and seeing my family stress-free, smiling, and eating well. I saw plans being made on my phone, my friends were excited to see and talk to me. I went to my kitchen, filled with expensive ingredients ready for me to cook meals for my loved ones - because I love cooking. I saw myself checking my bank account and seeing multiple seven figures in my savings, checking, and investment accounts and opportunities easily presenting myself to make more if I wanted. I saw myself running errands in my car, shopping, getting Starbucks, having expensive lunch with friends, and making a trip to Target. Despite the simplicity of the day, I would come home and be like, "Ugh, what a long day!"like that one khloe kardashian meme. What if all this happened today? Visualize and feel the scenes so clearly that it felt like it's already happening.. not just in your imagination.

Most importantly: Define the law for you! Stop parroting bloggers and intertwine your own beliefs with the law. The only principle of the law is that through persistence assumption will harden into a fact. Other than that anything goes except for facts that are wrong.

Here’s old notes I found in my phone lol just so you know what I mean by define the law for you: ignore the writing I was kinda dumb and new to the law 😭😭

Now this is for my void babies if you made it this far.

Read this post.

This is it copied bc the links are wonky sometimes

“My previous method is based on the persistent assumption, which a lot of people don’t know how to do right and it might take some time even for those who have the right self-concept and the mindset, so today I was in the process of manifesting this method.

And I was successful!

This method is for everyone. It’s the easiest Void method.

Do you know that you get into the Void state at night automatically? At that time the whole perceived world disappears for you. Every single perception and assumption you have disappears while your consciousness in the calm and natural Void state.

Use it to your advantage. Now that you know about the Void that you enter when you sleep, the perfect state to manifest anything that you wish to perceive, with no “resistance”, no illusions of annoying solid things around, you only need to remember your scripted starting point in your DR and practice watching it all coming out of the Void.

Practice that scene with your eyes closed, say to yourself:”That is what I perceive. Next time I’m in the Void, I’ll experience this”. You won’t even need to be fully aware of yourself that way when you get into the Void while you are asleep. Your subconscious would do all the work as it now would have the instruction and a clear image of you expecting it.

Personal experience: as I was receiving information on this method, I almost stepped into my DR! I wasn’t even in the absolute void state, I was only creating the scene for this method and I felt it materialise with my senses!

I have great feeling that it’s going to give fast results for others! Try it, teach your subconscious what it needs to bring forth while in the Void, let it do your work for you!”

Lastly, I’m gonna talk abt my beliefs real quick bc the fear of shifting vs manifesting makes me sad for y’all. I understand you don’t wanna leave behind the people you love and that’s not fear to feel ashamed of having! I personally hate the npc mindset a lot of have people have adopted. The only thing we know for sure is that assumptions create realities, and consciousness is the real reality. Everything else boils down to assumptions, except for principles. For example, shifting is not lucid dreaming, even if you assume it to be. That is the principle. I’m just going to copy what I told my mutal bc I’m lazy and need to finish Christmas stuff 😭😭 but Our imagination and the 4D realm are products of our consciousness, which is indeed real. Our view of reality is shaped by our consciousness, since we can't experience everything all at once.

Unless, of course, you shift into a super omnipotent god. Even then, you’d probably still struggle with the concept of infinity because, well, infinity is infinite. And it’s constantly a never exnding expansion. As humans, we're finite beings, and our understanding of the infinite is naturally limited. Because you can’t and won’t ever experience everything at once, infinity is always expanding. Our awareness can be thought of as fragments of consciousness; it's like being a drop of water in a massive ocean. Even though our perception is limited, the infinite is always there, always existing. We simply adjust our awareness to perceive this infinite reality.

And through our consciousness, we are able to tap into other realities or 'multiverses', which give us a broader understanding of existence. This exploration of consciousness and the multiverse is a significant part of my journey into the world of manifestation.

The law of consciousness explains why, when you "shift" or change your perspective, you don't physically move. It's all about altering your state of awareness. This is also why time doesn't really matter in the grand scheme of things. You can become aware of any time or day you want, as long as you choose to be aware of it. It's like having a mental time machine. This law is why infinite universes exist. As long as you can be aware of it, you can assume and embody the state of that person. Whether that's someone with a billion dollars on Earth, or a person who lives in the Attack on Titan world, it's all about your awareness.Our awareness is just a fragment of the larger consciousness – hence the idea of the multiverse. Each universe is a different fragment, a different state of awareness. And we have the power to “shift” into any of these states, therefore shifting into any of these universes.

I’m telling you this bc there’s no need to be afraid of manifesting or being in a reality with robotic versions of the people you love. Ariana grande and Marilyn Monroe for example talk about loa without acknowledging it and we see their success. Neville Goddard and his followers saw each other’s manifestions and I manifest for my friends and they mnaifest for me.

Take a deep breath and let go of the tik tok clone mindsets y’all have they don’t exist. You can manifest and assume anything you want in your imagination. Y’all literally want to manifest things like millions of dollars, revising deaths, living in new countries, having immorality in your waiting rooms, and never aging which is all possible of course. So be for real, why assume and know that you can achieve all that, but it won't manifest exactly how you want? I've also wondered about what happens to the "old version" of people when they manifest their dream life. As far as I'm concerned, they dont exist because you choose not to be aware of them.

I really want to talk about this too, as I've received similar questions and, oh my god, I thought I was alone. I've always been a bit delusional and lived in my head, but when I became conscious of the law, did anyone else feel a sense of self-embarrassment? I don't know what that was, but I'd genuinely feel my soul wanting to throw up envisioning my desires that aren't mine, even though I've always been a daydreamer. It's kind of like when you feel you can't have them or it's strange to envision yourself with something you can't have, so you just purge yourself. 😭

I was thinking back to why that happened and laughing at myself because we need to be serious right now. Why are you getting sick by your own mind? Imagine if Van Gogh, anytime he pulled out a canvas and held a brush, was jump-scared by the brush. Picture him holding out the brush and just staring at the canvas crying because "well, the painting is going to suck 😐," "I don't know what to paint☹️☹️," "I already know it won't be like what I envision in my head 😡😡." Like, bro, the canvas is blank, just fucking paint. That’s why I really like his quote that's like...

“If you hear a voice within you say you cannot paint, then by all means paint and that voice will be silenced.” So If you’re scared of failing, if you’re scared of your desires, or scared of how it will come to fruition, for that reason alone is more so to and manifest it anyways.

But happy holidays guys! make some tea, scroll through Pinterest, read a good book and watch some Christmas films and remember if you can imagine/think your desires you can embody them bc where are you getting it from??

Here are some helpful documents I have read plus a cute vid I saw on insta reels : (let me know if the links are being weird)

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[punksocks]

Astrology observations No.14:

(My mind is racing so let’s goooooo. Also thank you so much for 500 followers!! I appreciate all of the support so much)

-When you have a good relationship with air signs (sun/moon/rising) they tend to thank you for teaching them new things and tend to bond over sharing information as well

-I think it’s so cute when people bring up their partners in casual conversation, especially if guys do and it’s favorable, idk I’m a romantic, it’s my Libra Mars (Libra Venus may feel the same ;0)

-Taurus placements are good cooks! Especially in the big 6. I find that Taurus moons cook the most out of all of them though (especially in a relationship imo).

-Comme de Garçons / Rina Sawayama is the Leo Asc/Leo midheaven song ! Highly recommend it. (I’ll do placements playlists if anyone wants them)

-Boys Wanna Be Her is a great Scorpio rising/Scorpio in 10th song too

-Venus or moon or cancer in the 11th can point to needing to learn how to set healthy boundaries with your friends/family

-Cardinal Moons are the determinator placements, they will get what they set their minds to done (especially Aries & Capricorn) (Can apply to Aries Saturn as well) 

-Advice for Chiron in Pisces: watch your mental health, like really closely it can easily become your biggest hurdle if you’re not managing it responsibly (also can apply for Neptune harsh aspects to Chiron; and Pisces in 6th to a lesser degree)

-Lilith aspecting 1st or 4th; Aquarius/Scorpio/Uranus/Pluto in 4th and having some weird and terrible childhood punishments. Like punishments that were corporal and were focused on making you feel unsafe and unstable for relatively slight behavior as a child. (Doors taken as punishment, stuffed animals confiscated, etc)

-Sagittarius Venus/Mars or Venus in 9th do you find yourself being hit on/approached more by people outside of your cultural background?(For me this has totally depended on where I lived lol, but only pretty recently have men (and women) from my cultural background shown interest in me

-Lilith negatively aspecting 1st/10th- do you find that when you are/have been in a relationship more guys try to pursue you? And then they’re shocked by your partner (esp male partner) “letting” you do certain things? (Like “letting” you dress a certain way or post pictures of yourself (1st) or work in a certain field/pursue a certain career (10th)?) it’s so weird like he didn’t let me do anything, I do what I want like bruh what century is this? lol

[thetrashywritingwitch]

Random midnight "Need and Want" snippet...

Figuring things out was hard. This whole 'dating each other and there's three of us' thing, plus adding his daughter into it... But they could do it.

And rather than wing it or tough it out with zero experience, you actually did some research and found some books and articles that came highly recommended.

"A book? Is this some self help shit?" Katsuki narrowed his eyes as he pulled the book out of the bag you handed him.

"I think we all should read it," you retorted while holding your own copy. Eijirou stood between you and flipped through the pages looking skeptical. "It's highly recommended from the forums and stuff I looked at for poly and nonmonogamous relationships."

It was still weird to hear what they were referred to with proper terms, like it was too formal for just saying dating each other. An unfamiliar, scientific name for a new favorite dish with conventional ingredients.

Eijirou grunted. "I mean, do we really need to read a book on it though? We've been doing ok so far, right? And it's not like we're unfamiliar with relationships in general."

"Did you already forget about when you got jealous and upset last month?" He immediately looked bashful as his thumb paused in the middle of a random page.

Katsuki still wasn't convinced. "What does a random author know about us and what we might need? One bit of advice doesn't fit every scenario." He didn't want to read about things that didn't apply to them or problems they could fix on their own. Yeah, he was far from perfect in regards to communication, but like everything else, he was working on it.

"So you think we can't learn a single thing from someone else?" You figured Katsuki would get defensive about this, but it seemed worth it to at least try.

"That ain't what I said-"

Eijirou sliced the air between the two of you with his book trying to literally cut the tension. "I don't wanna argue about this stuff... I think we can all agree that none of us are perfect and... " He sighed. "Maybe we've got weak spots that aren't easy to see. And I mean, we wanna set good examples for Hatsuki, right?"

At the mention of Katsuki's daughter, the chill left the room. Yeah, of course he did. She was his everything. Setting a bad example for her wasn't something he ever wanted to do. If he could read books on parenting, then maybe doing the same for their new relationship was the right step. He'd always set his pride aside for Hatsuki, and you and Eijirou now, too.

A week later, Katsuki sat up in bed with the damn book and his reading glasses while Hatsuki was asleep. Two chapters in and he hated how much he thought he knew, but details slowly became obvious the more he read. It also sucked feeling vulnerable, but that was also something he was working on.

His bedroom door creaked opened, light spilling in as a sleepy Hatsuki stumbled and rubbed her eyes before climbing into his bed.

"You're supposed to be asleep, firecracker," he said, shutting the book to rub at her hair.

Ignoring his implied question, she mumbled, "what are you reading?"

"A book," he answered flatly. Now was not the time for this conversation at all.

"Can you read me some?" She held her stuffed bunny and snuggled under the covers like she belonged there.

"No. This ain't a book for you. It's for grown ups."

Yawn. "Oh." A beat of silence. "So it's about taxes?"

.....

"Yep. It's about taxes."

[olderthannetfic]

Children, today we'll learn that some accessibility tools can also do the opposite for some people. What's it called? Conflicting needs? Yeah, that stuff exists. You can be mad if someone dunks on an accessibility tool, sure, but some times that might just be because that tool fucks with someone else's accessibility to a space. No, we're not talking wheelchairs and elevators. Or glasses and hearing aids.

If you use a screen reader, and have to blast it at full volume because you don't wear headphones. That's an accessibility tool that helps you. Great right? It makes something more accessible to you the individual. But the screen reader blasting at full volume could also majorly fuck with someone who needs quiet and calm to concentrate. Conflicting needs, that's when you either find a compromise, or the person affecting the most people needs to find a better way, like wearing headphones. This is a pretty easy solution though, wear headphones. Don't encroach on some else's needs.

Plural kit is the same. For some it might be easier, but plural kit is actually a tool which will affect everyone around, because it's specifically built that way. If someone has a problem with screen shaking, it'll be a bother. People who have issues with "empty" accounts, for whatever reason. It might be anxiety or just feeling uncomfortable with a bot account front. The bot accounts aren't directly linked to the original profile, so the bot is basically just there. If you're not in an active conversation and can see the original sender writing the message, you basically have no way of knowing who wrote what. Which can become especially bothersome with an increased number of users, and increasing number of new PK "characters." People who block users on the server to avoid having to interact with them directly but also don't wanna start active drama, and don't just wanna leave a server because of one person. Yes if you block regular people you just won't see their messages unless you actively click the blocked message. There's no way to block the "characters" created by PK, neither by blocking the user using it, nor Plural kit itself. The profile is dead, you can't load profile banners, badges and the "accounts" about me. When you click a normal profile you can see if the person is a friend, view the full user profile, copy the profile ID AND block and report the person. Plural kit does not allow that. These profiles also can't use roles, or add pronouns to their server profile, meaning unless you wanna constantly misgender, you will have to remember one individual physical person's numerous "characters" and the pronouns. No blocking plural kit does not help. They have incredible spam potential, and it's not like that issue isn't known. Adding on, because I'm not completely sure. TAKE WITH A GRAIN OF SALT! While you can take message ID of a message posted via PK, you'll obviously only be getting the message ID of the message the bot reposted. When you have to report specific messages to Discord though, you are reporting both the message and the sender. If the same thing applies as previously mentioned, you're basically just reporting a dead profile, and the actual poster with the account can just skirt around being reported for their posts. I imagine the only active way to combat that is to have a bot that saves deleted messages and puts them in a log, but since plural kit is literally built around reposting and deleting messages... good luck.

Sure it's a tool that makes it easier for some people, but considering how many problems it has, and how invasive it can feel, especially with the inability to block, it does start to become a question of conflicting needs and comfort.

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[lostiolite]

KAI CHISAKI - relationship headcannons

Wc- 1.6k not proofread

Hes an intresting one, sorry for any mischaracterization, I try to be as close to cannon as possible (or as close as i can considering chisaki being in a romantic relationship is very ooc.)

Love language - giving:

Physical touch: he isn't afraid of touch, he knows that he’ll have to use his quirk and by proxy touch someone when needed (example: healing kurono, convincing rappa to join), he just… Doesn't like it.

If you're fine without physical touch, yippie!!!

And if you are like me, someone whos main love language is physical touch, this would be a rather tricky endeavor for him. He’ll opt for touching you only when he knows you're clean. And it would be fleeting touches at most, moving your hair, or putting his hand on your shoulder. I think (more so hope) that he would ruffle or play with your hair once he's gotten more accustomed to physical touch- fresh out the shower. He likes the smell of your clean scented hair

Off topic (?) but I feel like he prefers woody, maybe minty and clean fragrances. I think he’d enjoy re-aranging both your shower items (shampoo, conditioner, body wash etc. ) to smell like each other , whether it be subtle or smelling the exact same. For example i really like fruity berries, so he’d probably adopt a woody-grapefruit fragrance, if you like vanilla, he’d adopt a bourbon vanilla scent. I dunno anything about mens fragrances. Also the highest quality hygienic items. Oh yeah if you're sick he’d overhaul you and make you better. Normally he wouldn't gaf but since your his partner he actually cares about your well being.

Acts of service: probably one of his strongest suits. Do you need something?- His lackeys are already doing it for you. You forgot something at the store? Don't worry, Setsunos is on his way to buy it. I think the idea of having Setsuno accompany you to go shopping and being ordered to steal anything you look at for too long is silly, and one I like. You’ve been craving something after a long hard day? Surprise!

probably has an assigned lackey, chauffeur and bodyguard just for you just for you. If you show the slightest disdain for them he isn't afraid to overhaul them, something you learned the hard way. I feel like some of the hassaikai would be fighting to be one of your assigned workers as you aren't as ruthless as Kai. He prefers to be the one accompanying you (unless it's dirty work) however, he's very busy. Is very happy to indulge in folding laundry, organizing the house or planning a date night. Probably organizes your stuff for you

OH YEAH, reaches for the tall cabinet for you (only applies if your short, #me)

Words of affirmation: something hes also very good at. He’s very charming and is good at improv, business deals and negotiations. Him speaking his genuine adoration for you isnt going to be difficult for him. He doesn't sugar coat things, he’ll speak whats on his mind. Kind of negative as he wont hesitate to insult you or be nit-picky, but plus side is that his compliments are genuine. I don't think he would outright say things like “i love you” often, moreso compliment you or say protective (?) things. “You're better than them”, “Don't do that, you’ll get dirty, have *insert lackey* do that for you”, “theres no need to exhaust yourself for that, i'll do it”. This is due to his emotonal constipation. Also doesn't use pet names 💔 though will use a nickname

Quality time: if your getting him to put his work aside that says alot about your relationship. His time is precious and he doesn't like wasting it on nonsense. Makes up for his lack of physical affection (if one of your main love language is physical affection) with quality time. Enjoys going on walks with you. Also enjoys teaching / playing shogi with you. Unfortunately he wont be doing cheesy things with you. However, will indulge in any intellectual/technical (?) conversations. Have a favorite piece of media? Discuss (or yap about) the writing and characters with him. Like the foreshadowing in aot, how the spider verse changed animation, or how arcane/lol is really good at writting and paying attention to small details? He is very attentive and listens to everyword you say. Would also read a book or two of your favorites. (Prefers books out of any piece of media).

Gift giving: speaking of, will get you things you want. Doesn't matter wether you're saying it directly or looking at it for too long. The hassaikai may be in need of money, but he has enough his ways (cough cough setsunos larceny). Matching earings…

I think he would pick out a book for you to read using his prior knowledge of your intrests. This ties in with quality time but if you arent a book person then he would explain the book to you. Theres no point in getting you somthing you arent going to use.

Love language - receiving :

Physical touch: yeah sorry no, unless he initiates it. Its going to take a long time before hes find with you doing it unprompted.

Okay being delusional and out ooc: might be fine with you cuddling up to him at night or clinging to him when your scared.

Acts of service: i feel like hes a big acts of service guy, but at the same time he doesn't want you doing dirty and then getting dirty. Hes also a very picky guy. So I guess small things like tidying up the living space, organizing his things for him, or handing him his coat before he heads out for day.

Words of affirmation: your words mean more than others to him. Actually takes what you say into consideration and wont take it as disrespect if you point out a flaw in his mindset (like kurono and him talking about bringing the yakuza to glory again). Hes pretty and he knows that. But when you call him pretty and fawn it has him feeling things lololol. Will stare at you as you yap about how pretty he is. Will let you use pet names behind closed doors, just dont use them with subordinates (its fine with pops, kurono and maybe rikiya) You do have to refer to him as overhaul during shie hassaikai arc though :(

Quality time: not much new to say, doesn't really want you getting involved in dirty work.

Gift giving: likes useful things that will improve his quality of life. Hes also fine with jewelry or books. Ooooh maybe buy him custom high quality shogi peices or smth!!!

GENERAL:

I don't think he’d get jealous, more so annoyed. He views himself as above most others. If anyone tries anything on you (or steps on his turf) he’ll overhaul them.

Matches with you, not cute sweatshirts but subtle things, like matching earings or your clothing. Gold and purple jewelry and a green top of your choosing !!! ヽ(≧∀≦)ﾉ.

I think he’d enjoy when you seek him out for protection. Hes your personal night in shinning armor! Just don't call him that because he doesn't wanna be called a hero.

Possessive, in an objectifying way, your his and his alone. His superiority complex yk?

Never been in a relationship before, so isn't completely sure how to act at first, but hes smart and gets the hang of things. This also has to do with the fact that you two will get to know each other before engaging in a romantic relationship.

I don't really think he’d listen to music, I guess hes fine with classical or traditional.

Wears his surgical mask with you instead of his plague one.

Would prefer you to be quirkless, but is fine with you having a quirk (especially if you work in the yakuza behind him), it’d preferably be something he finds useful.

I dont think he’d be so traditionally romantic, I guess there's hints of tradition and class but just a bit.

Big spoon (despite not cuddling often)

Not big on pda

I dont think he'd confess moreso things just.. Hapen

CHILDREN

OKAY…. I want children so im talking about children…… Uhmmm…….

He doesn't like them, they're dirty and don't know how to behave. And considering Eri, he couldn't give less of a fuck about blood relation. He would prefer his spawn over others because he gets to mold and shape his in whatever way he wants. This means the best schools and training so the little thing can succeed the hassaikai. He’d be absent for the first chunk of the child's life (ie yucky toddler). He’d really only interact with the child once they've become smarter and able to graso bigger concepts. This is when he’d essentially teach and mentor them. I dont think he’d really indulge in childish things with his child. He would leave that up to the other hassaikai. This obviously would cause them to have a bad relationship. I dont think they would consider chisaki their father. Im not saying the child would have a bad life, considering the other parent is active in their life, and they would probably find their own father figure in the hassaikai, and their quality of life is pretty nice. Its just that chisaki himself isn't really involved in the fatherhood aspect. Thats keeping cannon in mind.

However if you wanna live in a delusional domestic family life that's very ooc, i dont think he’d discipline his kid. Not because his kid is better (but they are), but because he has like no experience with kids and isnt sure if hes going to go too far. He grew up in the yakuza not a functional family (in the slighest). And doesn't want his child to hate him, cus in this au he actually cares. The same thing about best quality school and teaching applies. But this time he’d be more involved.

He’d teach his child shogi as their bonding time.

[dis-aster9255]

Hi hi hello this is gonna be both a mix of like actual character analysis and a few headcanons cause these characters haven't left my head for two months.

But yeah I'm gonna be applying the idea that Steven, Marc, and Jake are all autistic and it's not just Steven. (based on what I know and my own experiences) :D

(Warning: it's long.)

Steven:

Okay so Steven is the one with the most visible evidence because i believe he's the only one who doesn't try to mask

He either does not care what people think of him or straight up doesn't notice that he's acting differently than "normal"

When he's confused he'll just straight up ask like with Dylan ("are you asking me out??")

The hyperfixation/special interest in ancient egypt. He's learning ancient egyptian and hieroglyphics he's SERIOUS

He works at a museum specifically because of that as well

Taking literally any chance he can to talk about it even if the people he's talking to clearly don't care (ex. Donna)

He got so excited when Layla knew what he was talking about like come on

Also ROUTINE

Every evening he adds the tape on his door, replaces the sand, and puts the ankle restraint on before going to sleep

Ik that's supposed to be because of Marc but it's a routine and it's clearly always done the same every night.

Calls his mother every day even if she doesn't answer (we know why but :( )

Also the necklace. It's barely visible but it is there every day

The way he stands:

Need i say more? I don't but I will

Seriously though I'm pretty sure whenever he's fronting he's like never standing still

Either like this or messing with whatever is in his hands

The rubix cube. He can finish that thing without looking at this point its not a puzzle it's a fidget object.

Now for some not fun things

He gets overwhelmed at least twice in the show

Once after he finds out everything with his mom and once with Layla

The one with Layla I understand completely, stressful situation along with two people yelling at you is the worst thing and I know the exact feeling.

Either way both times he was constantly repeating the same word over and over again while basically folding in on himself to avoid whatever was happening around him.

On a lighter note Steven expresses his genuine excitement openly

He was dead but he was still so happy he finally was able to meet someone who knows what he's talking about in ep 5

Idk how to transiton to Marc but HERE WE GO

Marc:

Okay so while I was doing this I realized I related to Marc a lot damn

Anyways Marc masks the majority of the time

Like all the time I don't think he ever hasn't even around Layla

His voice is so monotone and the way he expresses the changes in emotion is by getting either louder or quieter instead of anything else

That entire scene with Mogart and the sarcophagus. There is not way he wasn't forcing every aspect of that interaction

Holding out his hand until Mogart finally shook it because "this is how normal interactions start right???"

When he's asked why he wants to see the sarcophagus he has no idea how to respond and gives the most non-answer ever. Everyone thinks it's weird but he doesn't notice, it worked so whatever

Episode 5

We all know Marc hides his emotions

It's obvious

But what if he's hiding them because they're too much for him to handle, or he just straight up doesn't understand them

He runs from problems cause he doesn't want to confront his feelings

He ran from Layla because the issue with Khonshu was too much to deal with instead of having one conversation about it

He ran from his mother's shiva cause it was too many conflicting emotions

And when Steven was reliving the worst memory of his life he ran again (idk if it's like actually canon or not but I believe that while Steven was going through the memory he could hear the whole thing echoing through the hallways)

He also seems like the type to not show emotion on his face unless it's a strong one, but that's just what I think I've not no actual evidence for this

Anyways like with Steven he also gets overwhelmed a few times in the series

And he does what not many people are willing to talk about and gets aggressive when that happens yayyyyy /lhj

Seriously though in the scene in ep 5 when he doesn't want to confront his mother's abuse again

Yelling and hitting himself repeatedly same man same

In ep 2 when Steven is yelling at him through the mirror he breaks it so he can get some silence and then gets tormented by Khonshu which rude, asshole

Aggression can seem like the easiest way to deal with things so I get it, it happened quite a few times in this show

ON A LIGHTER NOTE

He also gets hyperfixations he just doesn't exactly have the time to indulge himself

The movie

Idk how much we should trust therapist Harrow in certain things but he made a note to mention that Marc has watched that movie a LOT

He loved that movie as a kid

He doesn't have much of a routine besides putting everything back the way it was before Steven can wake up but I think he deserves one

Jake:

This is gonna be short he had four minutes of screen time and two of those minutes have not actually been confirmed

But yeah he seems like he'd also not care about masking

Though I think if he gets too overwhelmed (which would probably take a lot for it to happen) he'd just end up retreating

Or if it's just someone being annoying he'd deal with them himself (maybe just a good punch in the face no big deal right guys /hj)

Kinda a mix of what both Steven and Marc do it just depends on the situation

Also this is just a thought but I think he'd be the type to be constantly forcing expressions cause he does not have the energy to explain himself verbally

Like yeah he expresses things visually but he over exaggerates them to get the point across if that makes sense

Anyways that's all I have

Kinda went on a rant but I hope it makes sense

I'd be happy to hear anybody else's opinions as well :)

[nightcolorz]

The thing you said about people treating autism like it’s not a disability is SO real!!! I’ve been saying this!!!

As someone who is autistic snd also has a physical disability, it is so interesting to me to see how some low support needs autistic spaces online act as if acknowledging autism is a disability is bad?. Or like. They want to acknowledge it’s a disability but then refuse to acknowledge it’s actually disabling.

Idk it’s really interesting to me to see how low support needs autism spaces are online vs how low support needs physical disability spaces are online. I think a lot of it comes from people acting as though autism is only difficult because of societal pressure to conform and social norms, and while that def makes it difficult, even if those things didn’t exist, autism would STILL be disabling. Like oh people don’t think I am awkward and rude all the time so I don’t have to mask when interacting with people? Great! I’m still going to have random meltdowns bc my body feels indescribably uncomfortable due to sensory issues and gag and throw up over bad food textures and want to cry if multiple sounds happen at once! Im still going to get overwhelmed over basic tasks and not be able to express myself properly! And idk why it is bad for me to say I would rather not experience those things!

I’ve also noticed this kind of thing creeping over into my physical disability spaces as well which is even more baffling to me but I digress.

YES THIS!!! It’s Like, great for u if u are so lightly troubled by ur autism that if the world was more accommodating u would have no disability anymore, but that I think is not the general experience with autism and u can’t act like it is 😭😭. I think part of this attitude also comes with autism being equated with queerness. Which like, yes, lots of autistic ppl r queer, but it’s become a thing where ppl r treating autism *like* it’s queerness. Which erm, obviously if the world was more accepting being queer would not be a problem, but this same logic does not apply to disabilities 😭😭. It’s genuinely extremely invalidating when the support groups for disabilities are centered around ppl who are only vaguely disabled to the point where they insist it’s not even an issue and it shouldn’t be for u either. I’ve also noticed a thing where autistic ppl with low support needs are driving the conversation over what language we should use to describe autism, which is just incredibly unhelpful on so many levels.

and, obviously I don’t think there’s anything wrong with creating a space to be proud of and accept ur autism, that’s great and nice. There’s importance in talking about joy while living disabled. The issue is when the conversation becomes “autism isn’t a disability it’s basically just my personality and being burdened by in ur life is offensive to me”. It’s honestly made me feel rlly insecure and unwelcome when I want to learn to be happy with being autistic and to accept myself, but the ppl who r driving this movement don’t have a place for me bcus their acceptance requires a lack of suffering. Like no, I am not just a special snowflake in a world that doesn’t understand me, I AM the problem, and no matter how much support and acceptance I have I will continue to be the problem bcus I am disabled and will continue to be disabled regardless of the environment I am in. And that should be ok! I think we should have spaces where we can talk about how that’s ok without the reduction of the suffering

(thank u sm for the ask anon this made me happy cuz I was worried I’d get hate for posting that 😭)

[tmpestuous]

moth to a flame - 5

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summary: bucky barnes was the love of your life, and you were his. there was no denying it. but after two years of dating, you found yourselves on different paths and decided it was best to go your separate ways. the only problem was how drawn you’d always be to him even after moving on.

pairing: College!Bucky x Reader

warnings: blackmail, angst (lots of it), awful ex boyfriend, toxic relationships, physical injuries (not reader or Bucky), hints of emotional torture/abuse

word count: 3.3k

a/n: taking quite a wild turn with this story. came up with this twist in the shower… (don’t mention it.)  this is a bit of a filler chapter for plot development’s sake. thank you once again for your patience. i hope you enjoy (: expect a lot more from bucky’s perspective soon!

It’s almost as if you never learned your lesson when it came to avoiding Bucky. He always ended up in the same place as you, always saw you, and, of course, always approached you. 

It didn’t matter if it was in the dining hall, in the library, roaming around campus, the gym, the quad. Anywhere.

It was no different now. You were here at the internship and career fair solely on business, trying to find a research assistant per advice from the company funding your research. Though you’d have no actual choice in who it’d be, the board said it’d be best for you to pick out the candidates to apply.

That’s what you were trying to do. Not to sell yourself short, you’d been somewhat successful with 3 candidates lined up so far. But given your life being nothing short of a whirlwind in the past week, your mind often drifted elsewhere. 

You thought Bucky dating Sharon was the last you’d have to deal with. You wished that was the last of it. He didn’t seem all too thrilled with the decision in the times you’d seen him with her, even after you’d found out the news in front of everyone.

Nonetheless, it was the current truth. But somehow he always sought you out. His glances at you in the middle of a crowd were always soft, as if he was trying to communicate with you telepathically. Your eventual conversations were always cut short. And it had only been a week.

Bucky knew you were avoiding him, and he couldn’t entirely blame you. You were already distraught with Atlas digging your relationship into an early grave and then decided to spring news of his own relationship onto you. The truth of the matter was that Bucky had no idea why he ended up making things official with Sharon. In fact, she was the one who asked him. He was anything but prepared to take things more serious, but he hesitated then accepted to avoid the awkwardness of the situation.

He liked Sharon, but as he seemed to figure with every girl that had crossed his path in the past few months, she wasn’t you. He wished he could tell you that as he saw you in the middle of the gymnasium that he purposely came to find you in, but the universe had no plan for him to do that anytime soon.

You looked different. You felt different. 

It’s only been a week. And what a fucking week it was.

You could barely look Bucky in the eye as he approached the table, eyeing the purpose and hypothesis of your research. 

“Research assistant, huh?” He broke the ice, knowing full and well that the tension between you two was the last thing you wanted to speak about.

“The board wants me to get one,” you responded, avoiding his gaze and settling your eyes on the poster board that held all of your information on it. 

“What do you need to sign up?”

“Bucky…”

“What?” He asked, seeming genuinely curious. “Psychology is still my minor, you know.”

“You’re here for Tony’s dad. You’ve talked about it as long as I can remember.” 

Bucky’s dad may have his own business, but he was never the one to want things handed to him on a silver platter. He wanted to earn an internship, and the Stark internship was something he’d been dreaming of for months. He’d even gotten in Tony’s good graces enough to get a good word in about Bucky to his father. You knew he’d land it.

“Maybe I need a backup plan.”

“You and I both know that isn’t true, Barnes,” you shook your head.

He picked up the pen and filled out his information anyway. 

In all honesty, you knew he’d be the perfect person for this job. He has the grades, the experience, and meets all of the requirements.

But he can’t get this job. You know that.

“Hey, where’d you go?” Bucky asked, his blue eyes scanning your face for answers to a variety of questions running through his mind.

You shook your head. “Nowhere, don’t worry.”

Moving your eyes to avoid his stare again, you landed on Atlas staring right at you from across the gym. Swallowing anxiously, you cleared your throat.

“Um, thanks,” you said. “For signing up. You should go to the Stark table before it fills up.”

Bucky’s facial expression held the most confusion, but you were still looking at Atlas. Turning around, he followed your stare towards him ogling your table and nodded in understanding.

“Right,” he said in defeat. “I’ll see you around. I have to find Pietro anyway.”

You snapped your stare back towards him as he gave you a slight half-smile, one that definitely didn’t reach his eyes before he walked away.  

You expelled a deep breath from your lungs, though now feeling constricted. Atlas was all of a sudden at your table in seconds, but you were trying to avoid the impending anxiety attack creeping up on your throat.

“Don’t make a scene,” he said sternly, earning him an incredulous glare on your face.

“A scene?” You asked in disbelief. “How long are you gonna do this for?”

“However long it takes for you to get a grip of yourself,” he scoffed. “I tell you to leave Barnes alone and you still don’t seem to learn. And now more of your friends are getting too close.”

“What are you talking about, Atlas?”

“You’ll see,” he grinned before also walking away.

This agreement was eating you alive and it had only been 3 days.

Skimming through your recent emails, you furrowed your eyebrows at an unrecognizable one. Opening it curiously, thinking it was most likely spam, all you saw was a video file with an awfully cynical message.

| You’ll know what to do when you see this. Make the right decision or else.

Clicking on the file, your eyes widened immediately, muting your laptop before Natasha accidentally heard something she wasn’t supposed to. 

You swear you could feel your heart drop to the seat you were sitting on, seeing a video only you and Atlas were meant to see. You shut your laptop immediately before packing your things to go confront the last person you wanted to see.

“Where are you going in such a hurry?” Natasha asked from the couch, peering up from her phone.

“I forgot something at the library, I’ll be back,” you lied straight to your teeth.

Driving to Atlas’s frat house only stressed you out even more. It was a short drive but to think you had no plan for whatever the fuck you were about to say to him. 

Parking in the driveway, you rushed out of the car and towards the front door, knocking frantically.

Atlas opened the door, looking a bit disheveled like he had woken up barely thirty minutes ago.

“Y/n?” He asked, confused as to why you were on his doorstep.

“Blackmail, Atlas?”

“What?”

“You’re blackmailing me with our-”  You couldn’t even say it out loud, lowering your voice to a whisper. “You’re blackmailing me with our sex tape?”

His eyes widened. “What are you talking about?”

“I got a fucking email with the video that only you and I have. Why are you confused? Did you show someone? Do you fucking hate me that bad that you’d show someone that video and have them blackmail me to get back with you?”

In a matter of seconds, Atlas seemed so sure of himself.

“What did you expect? That I was finally gonna get you laid and not show anyone?”

Your chest started to ache. Atlas wasn’t perfect but he wasn’t cruel. He wouldn’t fuck around and blackmail you over breaking up with him.

Or so you fucking thought.

“You’re lucky I didn’t send it around elsewhere. I wonder how that pretty research board you work under would feel about their newest pupil being so vulgar.”

“You wouldn’t do that,” you shake your head. “Please, Atlas.”

“You know what you need to do, Y/n.”

From that point on, Atlas had you binded. You felt like a big fucking idiot, having lied to Natasha, Wanda, and Steve about everything, telling them you simply had a change of heart.

They could all smell right through your deceit but decided to let it marinate. You were kind of grateful they did, but a part of you wishes they pushed you to confess.

The past three days had you feeling like you were going to implode any damn second. Your anxiety was through the roof, you feel so alone, and the worst part is you have to play through this sick game for your own career. 

What the fuck is wrong with me? You thought to yourself, trying to stifle your cries while taking a quick break in the bathroom. 

After you left the bathroom, you made your way back to the gymnasium, but not before seeing a glimpse of Pietro. You’d hoped Bucky was with him, giving his mention of him earlier, but all you saw was your friend getting pulled somewhere by someone else.

As you were about to investigate, one of the event coordinators mentioned that there were a few interests in your table, meaning your presence was needed.

This day is going to be long.

—

Bucky had an incessantly short temper. It had only gotten worse as he’d gotten older, but he learned to control it.

Today, however, he was so irritated that you could feel the frustration emanating from his body.

“Should we do something?” Sam asked Steve as they stared at Bucky from a bit down the hallway.

Bucky was trying to get work done, sitting on the floor with his laptop and notebook on the coffee table in the living room. 

“For once in all the years I’ve known him, I have no idea,” Steve answered, crossing his arms.

“He might break his pencil in a few seconds.”

“You know I can hear the both of you, right?” Bucky snapped as he turned his attention to his roommates and best friends.

They both raised their hands in surrender.

“You need to get laid,” Steve said, walking to sit on the couch, Sam following suit.

“I get laid,” Bucky retorted, resulting in laughs from the men behind him. “Sharon’s coming over later anyway.”

“Oh, that’s our cue,” Sam said, standing. Steve did the same shortly after.

“Where are you two going?”

“Somewhere the wench isn’t,” Sam called out as he exited the front door with Steve behind him, leaving Bucky to roll his eyes and finish his work before Sharon got home.

His irritation all day today was a result of the smug look on Atlas’s face today. He didn’t know much about what happened, but Steve had let it slip that you two had broken up. Yet he saw Atlas talk to you at your table, then leave the fair with you when you were free. 

He had no reason to be irritated, but he couldn’t help it. The suspicion was intangibly clawing at his thoughts, consuming his mind that a 20-minute assignment turned into a 3-hour one. He wasn’t jealous. No. He was concerned. You looked… scared, almost. Worried that something was going to play out. Your aura was completely different from any version of you he’d seen in all the two years he knew you. It was an emotion he never provoked from you, so he couldn’t put his tongue on it. 

Bucky hoped Sharon’s presence might alleviate his worry a bit, but he was in every mood but a horny one. Deciding on watching a movie together, the moment was cut short by pounding on the front door.

“That’s not scary at all,” Sharon mentioned as the pounding got louder and the horror movie on the TV didn’t make things any better. Bucky paused the movie, slowly peeking his head out of his bedroom door when the pounding happened again.

“Barnes, I know you’re fucking in there!” 

Bucky recognized Wanda’s voice, rushing to the door. Opening it to see Wanda barely holding up a bloody-faced Pietro, he quickly scrambled to help settle him inside.

“What the fuck happened?” He asked the redhead next to him, who was trying not to cry for the sake of her twin brother.

“I don’t know, I don’t know, he called me and told me he was here. He was looking for you and then I saw him barely conscious on the front stairs and-”

“Okay, okay,” Bucky soothed her rambles. “It’s okay. We need to take him to a hospital. Let me put my shoes and jacket on.”

Wanda shook her head. “He said no hospital.”

“Are you fucking kidding me?”

“No,” Pietro rasped out. “No hospital. Questions.”

“Questions?”

“They ask questions at the hospital,” Wanda elaborates. “He won’t even tell me how this happened.”

“Ice. Bandage.”

“I can go get everything we need,” Wanda stands up.

“Wanda,” Bucky starts before Wanda shakes her head once more.

“He was looking for you. Can you stay with him?” She pleaded with Bucky through her eyes, earning her a nod from him in agreement. 

“Y/n.”

Bucky turned his head towards Pietro. “What?”

“Y/n,” he repeated. “She- she-”

“Hey,” Bucky shushed him. “Relax, okay. I’m gonna get something from the bathroom to clean you up.”

“Y/n.” 

Bucky was confused as to why he kept repeating your name, and mixed with his concern for you from earlier, it didn’t sit well in his stomach. He called out for Sharon, who came to the living room, her eyes widening at Pietro’s state on his couch.

“Why do you keep saying her name?”

Pietro’s eyes land on Sharon. “Later.”

Bucky furrows his eyebrows, turning his attention to the very confused blonde standing across from him.

“Can you please get me the first aid kit from the bathroom?”

She nods, rushing back down the hall while Bucky turns his attention to Pietro once more, though his eyes are now closed.

“Pietro,” Bucky taps him, waking him up. “You gotta stay awake for me, alright? I have no idea if you hit your head.”

Pietro shakes his head. “No concussion. Just punches.”

“Still stay awake, alright? Until Wanda gets here.”

Pietro nods.

What a fucking day.

—

After cleaning most of his injuries and getting him in better shape, Wanda managed to convince Pietro to go to a hospital. 

Bucky accompanied the both of them, sitting in the waiting room while Wanda spoke to a doctor about Pietro’s internal injuries. It wasn’t as bad as they anticipated, but Pietro still wouldn’t fess up to telling anyone who’d want to hurt him so bad to begin with.

Bucky sighed to himself, closing his eyes momentarily before pulling his phone out and texting the one person on his mind.

| Hey, are you awake?

It was nearly 1 in the morning, so he was shocked to see you reply so fast.

Y/n: yeah. can’t sleep.

| Everything okay?

Y/n: nothing you can fix, bucky.

Ouch. 

| Tell me.

| I’m worried about you.

Y/n: why?

| Gut feeling.

Y/n: i’m okay. promise.

| You just said I can’t fix the problem?

Y/n: i meant it.

Y/n: i should go to bed. goodnight.

Sighing to himself another time, Bucky texted Natasha.

| up?

Nat: why are you texting me at this hour, Barnes?

| Is Y/n in her room?

Nat: Nope. She’s at the devil’s place

Nat: why? Should I be worried?

| I don’t know yet.

Nat: ?

| Something’s not right. Just don’t know what

| Still at hospital

Nat: does she know?

| I don’t know.

Nat: I feel the same

| About?

Nat: something not being right. Something’s different

Nat: her and Atlas

| Glad we’re on the same page.

Nat: let’s talk tomorrow

| Gotcha.

—

Bucky barely got any sleep, whether it was because he was worried about Pietro or worried about you.

The doctors decided to let Pietro go after a few hours in the ER, citing that he needed rest but his injuries weren’t too drastic to keep him overnight. Icing the bruises and getting rest were the best remedies for him. Bucky had dropped him and Wanda off at her dorm, deciding it was best Pietro was with his sister.

Natasha was surprisingly awake, helping Bucky and Wanda get Pietro settled. Once he and Wanda were both asleep, Natasha joined Bucky in the living room.

“Surprised you’re awake,” Bucky said to relieve the silence.

It was a little past 4 AM, but Nat looked like her fate for the night was the same as Bucky’s.

“It’s hard to sleep when I’m the only one here,” she admitted, referring to both yours and Wanda’s absences. “Steve’s with his mom, Y/n’s with that asshole, and you know where Wanda was.”

“I’m sorry,” Bucky offered her solace with a comforting hand on her shoulder.

“You should stay,” Nat offered in return. “She mentioned she’d come back early in the morning. We could talk to her.”

Bucky sighed to himself. “What makes you so sure she’s even gonna talk to us?”

“Well, nothing,” Nat admitted. “But it’s worth a shot.” 

Bucky agreed to stay the night, taking the spot on the couch in your room. 

Honoring your word to Natasha, you slipped into the suite quietly around 6 AM. Much to your surprise, you found Pietro grabbing a glass of water in the kitchen.

“Y/n,” he spoke softly. 

“You should be resting,” you urged him, tears springing to your eyes.

“You know this is not your fault, right?” He assured you, though you shook your head.

“Pietro…”

“No,” he cut you off, his voice nothing more than a whisper. “What does he have on you?”

Knowing who he was referring to, you shook your head once more.

“What does he have on you?” You repeated to him.

Seeing 5 of Atlas’s frat brothers beat up on Pietro while two of them, including Atlas, held you back so you would be forced to watch was some sort of psychological torture you didn’t anticipate being subjected to. 

It was something you wouldn’t expect Atlas to be capable of. He had his faults and insecurities, but in your time together, he had never made you scared of him.

Now in the past week, you were terrified. Terrified of who he actually was and what he was capable of doing.

“You will find out soon enough,” Pietro assured you. “But you should trust me. I know you’re hiding something.”

You quickly spilled the contents of your ‘agreement’ with Atlas to Pietro, after a few minutes of making him promise not to tell anyone. 

In turn, he had told you he’d seen Atlas doing something he wouldn’t want you to know, which was the reason behind his beating. He wouldn’t budge on telling you what it was, reassuring you once more that you’d eventually find out.

He also mentioned Bucky needing to know as well. 

“This will probably happen again,” Pietro warned you. 

“It can’t.”

“But it will.”

You sighed, pulling him in for a careful hug.

“You should go back to bed before Wanda wakes up.”

Pietro nodded, letting you help him walk over to his sister’s room and carefully lay down. Once he was secure, he gave you a look that let you know he trusted you. You nodded in response before retreating to your own room.

Opening the door, you found a sleeping Bucky on your couch, as if your heart strings needed any more tugging. He was in his t-shirt and boxers; you knew he hated sleeping in his jeans. You grabbed one of your throw blankets and covered him, though he quickly stirred a bit and woke up.

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you,” you spoke softly.

“No, you’re okay,” he said with a rasp. “You okay?”

Knowing he could tell when you were crying, you avoided the conversation with a nod.

“Just need some sleep is all,” you responded while kicking your shoes off. 

Bucky acknowledged your energy, knowing you weren’t up for a conversation at the moment. But he knew something was amiss.

He just hoped he could pull you out of whatever trouble you were in before it was too late.

—

Thank you once again for reading! Will try and make the next chapter a bit better. 

[slavghoul]

Hi Slav, this maybe isn't ghost related, but perhaps more personal. Often times when I read through your posts, I find that we share similar thoughts or preferences. For example, I find it very very odd when the papas are referred to as Terzo or Secondo etc in serious conversation because that isn't how it was when I joined, and it's just not how I enjoy the band. But, I don't want to be someone who perpetuates the new vs old debates. I actually really value and respect your take on things because you're able to inject your opinion in a way that doesn't alienate anyone or make anyone feel stupid. I however feel as though I cannot let go of the frustration I feel when I engage with the fandom. I dont participate much at all because I dont jive with the current culture, but when I do indulge I just feel discontent and disgruntled. It's like I can feel myself becoming the jaded old man. I'm not super hung up on it, it's not really something I think about often. I usually just use the walk away method the moment I start to feel irritated. I got other things to do besides get mad at things I cannot change. But it still sucks

Preamble out of the way, how do you stay so calm and chill and remember to be considerate when you feel your enjoyment of things doesnt align with the vocal majority? How did you acheive your current mindset beyond just learning to let go or not engage with things that might lead to feelings like this? I'm using ghost as the base for this question, but I'm really asking for some general wisdom. I apologize if that's a little loaded.

Jokes aside, this is a lovely and thoughtful question, thank you, but I’m not sure if I have any advice, other than „create your own bubble and live in it because the outside world is a terrible place.” I have my own Ghost-bubble that I very rarely step out of. When I do, I sometimes regret it. You must remember that what thoughts I decide to share here are not all of the thoughts I have. I go through those same moments of disillusionment as you do, it’s just not something I necessarily want to burden others with, so you don’t see me talking about it. I always tried to make this place, to the extent I could make it so, positive and welcoming to everyone, so I keep my personal frustrations on the down low. Doesn’t mean it doesn’t happen, though. Yes, learning to let go and not engaging with matters that leave you feeling like this is possibly the only solution with any viable effects. I try to keep in mind that my enjoyment of the band is my personal experience. What others think and how they behave or interpret things doesn’t define the true essence of what I hold dear. Ask yourself: what was it that made you fall in love with the band? What brings you real joy? Then focus on that. This won’t apply to everyone, but a lot of what brings me joy in relation with the band are things I do on my own, e.g. writing with no intention to share the texts with anyone, collecting, archiving, keeping stats on things that probably only I care about, etc. That’s my happy Ghost bubble, mostly a lone but peaceful place. I think it’s absolutely crucial to craft your own fandom experience, one that suits and satisfies your needs while also keeping you sane. This is meant to be a positive experience after all. But sometimes you gotta make effort to make it so. 

[pomplalamoose]

Could we please get some sith luke x reader hc’s?🤞

Me as soon as I saw your ask:

There is in fact nothing that'd make me happier, nonnie!

Sith Luke headcanons were one of the first things I ever wrote for Luke before even creating this blog so I'M SO EXCITED🩵🩵

(check them out here)

• deciding to date Sith Luke is not a choice you should make lightly 

• (if he gives you the chance to anyways)

• depending on where you meet and how you catch his eye, he will either lure you in with his charm, seducing you with all he has

• or, alternatively, just straight up kidnap you 

• once he has acquired you however, there's no chance he'll ever let you out of his clutches again

• he possibly allows you the illusion of free will but know that he's the one holding all the threads 

• just like his father he is a very good manipulator 

• because he doesn't want you to even think about leaving, he likes to twist your mind to get what he wants, to keep you with him 

• you may not have the chance to leave anyways but that doesn't mean he wants you to find out about that in the first place 

• you're supposed to love him with every fiber of your being!

• he's all you have, the center of your universe!

• stay with him and never again will you need or want for anything 

• he will make sure you have it all

• you won't realize the door to your golden cage closing in your face until it's too late

• in the same way he's as fiercely protective as he is possessive 

• you aren't allowed to go anywhere without him by your side 

• and due to his threatening person being always somewhere near it's practically impossible to engage in a normal conversation with someone outside of his immediate family 

• he tends to be wary even of them 

• he doesn't want you to engage too much with others, afraid another man or woman will catch your fancy, no matter if it's in a platonic or romantic way 

• he is the only one you will ever need

• everyone making an effort to come close to you will end up on his radar

• and then they will randomly disappear?

• no, he really can't tell you why all of your new friends keep vanishing like that 

• maybe you should've just listened to him and stayed away 

• there's no one but him who has your best interest in mind after all

• the galaxy is full of unreliable and dangerous people, stay away from them 

• while he enjoys showing you off on his arm, parading you around as his most priced possession and reveling in the way it sparks jealously wherever you appear, he can change his mind about it just as quickly 

• yes, they may take a quick look, but ultimately you are his and his alone to enjoy

• he will make this very clear by always having his hands on you 

• one might rest on your lower back or on the back of your neck 

• maybe he's holding your hand very tightly in his, refusing to let go

• if you want to check out the buffet or step outside to look at the scenery you will simply have to ask (beg) him

• don't worry though, if he's in a decent enough mood it's not hard at all

• cling to his arm and flutter your lashes at him 

• leave a shy kiss on his cheek 

• whisper in his ear 

• he won't be able to deny you anything 

• not when you're so clearly putting on display to whom you belong 

• and to make this even more obvious he'll always leave his marks on you

• if they fade, he'll make sure to re apply them

• he expects you to wear them in the open like jewelry 

• don't you dare covering them up with either make up or clothing 

• Sith Luke is dominant in every single aspect and always, without fail, has to have the last say 

• the more easily you succumb to his will the better

• he may not straight up order you to do things a certain way, but you'll learn fast enough what pleases and displeases him 

• this is not only in regards to how you wear your hair and how you dress but how you behave as well 

• he decides what you do to your hair in the morning, as it's his habit to play with it 

• when he has the time he personally picks your outfit

• if he doesn't you'll have to ask him whether he likes what you choose, sometimes having to change several times until he's finally satisfied 

• he decides what and how you eat and especially enjoys handfeeding you when he's not too busy 

• if you lick his hand extra clean after you are allowed to pick a favorite dessert of yours 

• he expects you to wait for him when he returns to your shared quarters after a hard day, no matter how late it is 

• receive him with open arms 

• tell him how much you missed him 

• cover him in kisses and your affection 

• don't leave his side, follow him wherever he goes 

• offer to take off his shoes for him

• offer to help him change into something more comfortable

• ask him about his day and listen closely 

• stroke his face and be sympathetic as he a answers

• offer to run him a relaxing bath and to wash his hair 

• offer to massage his sore muscles after

• beg for him to hold you close 

✨ slight nsfw content under the cut✨

• as interested as he is in what you're wearing, he likes it most when you're not wearing anything at all

• not only does he enjoy the lovely view but most of all the easy access, that he can have what he craves most at any time 

• drape yourself over his bed clothed in his long black cape like a present for him to unwrap and he's more than eager to fulfill every wish you might have 

• but be careful, you might not be always alone with him as he often tends to have visitors over 

• don't you dare let yourself be seen in any state of dress until he specifically asks you to join them

• he likes watching you take a shower and does so regularly 

• for once he won't tell you what to do, instead leaning back and drinking in your wet and soapy body

• he'll sometimes ask you to turn a certain way so he can get a better view though 

• maybe a shampoo bottle will slip from your grasp, you'll have to bend down to retrieve it 

• oh, it happened again? You really are a little clumsy today

[lizardtakesflight]

"I do not know what I'm supposed to say when people clearly want me to feel properly apologetic/chastened."

I work closely with my sister in the same office. She is on the autism spectrum, and she said this to me today when she found out someone was not happy with part of her performance. We sometimes have conversations about things she struggles with as a neurodivergent person interacting with neurotypical coworkers or colleagues, so I figured that it was a good time to take off my Older Sibling hat and put on the Job Coach one.

Typically, an emotionless or brief "okay" is not sufficient when people point out a mistake, or something they perceive to be a mistake. It does not come across as an acknowledgment of understanding. In a work environment, that is going to come across as too passive and dismissive, especially since A) they probably don't know you well enough to understand how you express yourself and B) you may actually have a problem with communicating when you don't understand.

This is something my sister and I have talked about this before, where I would get angry and say: "Do you actually understand or are you just saying okay to make me drop it?" (It's usually the latter, but we're working on better ways to have that conversation.)

I personally had to learn the right response to criticism and make sure to stay mindful of it.

In a work environment, whether you think you're wrong or not, you:

1. Apologize: "I'm sorry about that."

2. Explain your thought process in the case that there was a true miscommunication or misunderstanding, keeping it very brief so that it doesn't sound like you're trying to make an excuse.

3. State what you will do differently going forward, or give a solution.

It's going to be frustrating to admit to wrong-doing if you truly don't believe you did. And maybe you really didn't! That's not really the point of this specific kind of interaction, though: it's a way to open communication in a work dynamic. I am not saying this is something you need to apply to your whole life, but can make a lot of things so much easier. Sometimes being able to move forward is more important than being right.

For example, when I started at my current job, I went crazy ordering office supplies. One of my coworkers in accounting came up to talk to me about it, so I said: "I'm sorry, I didn't realize how big an issue that was. Going forward, I can send you a list of the things we need to order, so you can tell me if you think it's unnecessary or we already have that thing. Does that seem appropriate?" That let us avoid an awkward or upsetting interaction.

In short: apologize, explain, give a solution. it's really simple, but very effective, you just have to stay calm and remember. I don't think most people either know how to do it, or if they do, they're not conscious of doing it. It does tend to pacify people, and sometimes even get them to admit if they did something incorrectly themselves.

I can remember the exact moment I figured it out. I did something to upset a coworker, and even though I did not think I did anything wrong, I went to her and apologized, taking those steps. That calmed her down and got her to concede that she was in the wrong as well, and we were able to constructively discuss the problem. In discussing it, I was also able to then see where I could have done things better in the first place. We were able to move forward effectively instead of separately stewing in our feelings and leaving the problem unsolved.

If you're reading this and thinking that it's all very obvious, great! You probably have a much easier time communicating than some people do, and that's a very good skill to have.

If you're reading this thinking "what the hell, why did nobody ever explain this", it's okay. There is nothing wrong with not just instinctively picking up on these things, and I know how hard it can be to try to learn things that other people seem to just implicitly understand. It just takes a little more work to learn, but once you get in the habit of doing these things, a lot of situations can go much more smoothly for you.

[art-of-love-and-war]

hi! Can I request for an ikepri hc with babyyy? Where they bring their baby to work with them! like Sariel bring his baby to work with him like perhaps to a teaching or the princes meeting with him, and his baby was just babbling there (awe ><) . For Nokto where he bring his baby to his meeting with some higher up, and while he was working, he's also playing with the baby ( I imagine between he or licht will get a twin or triplets, depends on you which one of them). Licht/Leon bring their babies to combat practice. For Jin I can't think of anything yet, so if you got one, pleas do it hehe ( I really cant stop thinking that he will really get a twin born) . You can do a pt 2 for other princes too if you want :))

Characters: Leon Dompteur, Licht Klein, Nokto Klein and Sariel Noir and how they are as parents. Rating: General. Word count: 1,394 words  Author note: I’m sorry in advance for any ooc parts on Sariel’s, he is the shortest bit I bit since I haven’t read his route, I probably will re-write it on another hc’s for funsies as well as do the other princes. But so far I’m pretty satisfied. Also this is more of them as fathers more than just with baby kids.

[୨୧] — Leon Dompteur

He is a fun dad, and he adores being a father. 

There’s just something about having innocence in the palm of his hand, to be able to protect it, raise it, shape it. A memory of all things he could never have and a silent prayer to the sky above. 

He applies the “be the adult you never had as a child”

He won’t ever mind tending to the baby’s needs, sure, people keep saying that wetnurses and nannies are there for a reason since he is the King, but it brings him joy to be able to help his child. 

I don’t think Leon would bring the baby to combat practice, maybe during lunch breaks, but he tries to keep the little prince/princess away until they are older so they start to understand the art of war and combat. 

But all of his men have sworn complete loyalty over the little one, most are eager for when the child grows up and has their division in the army to join their ranks. 

He is super caring of both you and the baby, he always makes sure to thank you profusely for giving him a child (a first of many or so he plans *Wink wink*) 

He takes pride in every achievement of the baby, “Yes, that’s my child!” big cheerleader dad. 

Did the baby learn how to sit, crawl, and roll? He’d be over the moon. He tells everyone. 

His brothers are so done with the conversation. They can’t help but love their little niece/nephew though. 

He is a bit weak and wants to spoil the child rotten, but at the same time, he holds himself back. Wants to build character for his child but doesn’t neglect them.

He would never neglect them. 

Instead, he wants to instruct the child that while they are part of the royalty, there’s an immense gap between social classes, but everyone is equal and their lives are as valuable as any other. They are in a privileged position and it's their job to make everyone’s quality of life better with the power they hold.

 [୨୧] — Nokto Klein

While he looks like he doesn’t want to be a dad, he’d be the happiest man on earth to have a mini copy of him and you around. 

Warning, this baby/babies(?) are completely spoiled rotten, he won’t care. Your kid(s) deserve the entire world. 

You smack him in the back of the head from time to time because your baby takes longer to walk since Nokto is always carrying them around.

Just like Leon, he is also one to brag about anything and everything his child does, even as a baby. 

It also serves two very useful purposes: to get more information or to escape meetings he doesn’t want to attend (but ends up attending anyways). 

In the first place, he already likes bringing his child everywhere with him and bringing him to parties or social gatherings is a huge plus. 

Everyone fawns about him and the baby, about how a great father he is and how cute the baby is. 

“Oh, I know.” 

Having a baby in his arms gets him a chance to start gossiping with other nobles and get more information after a good talk about parenthood.

His face would get so dark if anyone ever dismissed the feelings of a child, he thinks it's so important that his child or children in the near future (hopefully, if you wish) would feel loved and have all of their needs met. 

As for the latter aspect, it seems that he has a telepathic bond with the baby. 

Does he have to walk into a meeting? Thankfully the nanny comes running to him because the baby won’t stop crying unless he holds them.

He excuses himself for a moment or tries to call the meeting off, but since he can’t squeeze himself out of his duties most of the time he ends up attending and brings the baby with him.

 [୨୧] — Licht Klein

He is absolutely scared and anxious about every action and decision he takes as a parent.

Don’t get it wrong, he adores you and your baby(s) and would be even more scared if you happened to have twins, knowing his story with his brother and he doesn’t want the story to repeat itself before his eyes.

He believes any child should be free of the burdens from their parents and he lives off by that since having children with you. 

Those dark thoughts? Those past shadows and intrusive nightmares that present themselves before his eyes? He shakes them all off with the light that shines so pure from holding his kid(s). 

Despite being a bit reluctant, knowing the tensions between him and his brother, the child seems to like Nokto a lot, and Licht relies on his brother from time to time, it's not what he would do often but he appreciates another figure the baby can start to trust. 

A thing that brings him so much joy is being able to spend time together. With you leaning against his side and the child nestled between you in bed while he hums a beautiful lullaby he knows will soothe you both, or when you read out loud to them, while the child rests flat against his chest. It's such a calming scene, even when picturing it in his mind.

I also picture Licht as the type to not bring the baby to combat practice until they are much much older; and even if having a skill in combat is important as part of royalty, he relies on his brothers, maybe Yves or even Leon to start the child on their way of learning how to properly use a sword.

When the child grows he won’t even spar with them, he fears his style of combat is too beastly and ruthless, he doesn’t want to harm them by accident or to be violent toward them, even in practice.

He is such a loving father too, he wants to be present in every aspect of their life with you and he gladly takes on any tasks that require him. 

Are you too busy one day or just want to spend a day by yourself? No troubles, he and the baby will go with Uncle Yves and have tea and sweets. Well, the baby will have milk and maybe Licht will have the entire tray of sweets since the baby is still too young to eat those. 

 [୨୧] — Sariel Noir

This man is a master at multitasking, so handling the baby any day won’t be of any trouble, after all, he almost raised the youngest of the princes so it's a piece of cake for him. 

But he’d rather that you handle the baby at most times since his line of work can encounter some awful people that might stay on his bad book. 

If he knows it will be a calm day with him staying at the office doing paperwork he’d certainly want the child to be with him. 

He can be a busy man and wants to at least keep an eye on his child. 

I can also picture him having a play-pen in his office, he can keep an eye out on the baby; if he happens to have moments where he needs to take a break, he’ll sit with the baby, watch them sleep, and play with them if they are awake.

His favorite times though, are at night, especially if hours passed without both of you seeing each other, he wants the domestic part of having a family of being a husband and a father. 

Oh, but the clouds of not-so-nice thoughts are always clouding the back of his mind, telling him how he should not get attached as all of what you had built together could disappear at any moment by the desire of anyone that considers him a danger. 

But seeing his face, you know how to scare those awful thoughts away, smiling, handing the baby to him, and watching his lips curl into a gentle smile. 

As the child grows I can picture him being a stern dad, he makes sure his child knows that they are loved and he shows it with actions and quality time you spend together as a family.

[deiaiko]

#23.1 Prank

Grace didn't know what to make of this situation.

One moment he was bringing Agni his lunch, and now he was in one of the bathroom stalls with Endorsi. 

Endorsi had asked him if she could use the tag to talk with him, and he agreed to her request without any questions. Agni had begrudgingly sent him away with her, which was fair. But then she chose the bathroom, out of all places they could talk.

Grace was sitting on the closed-lid water closet, while Endorsi stood in front of him with her hands folded over her chest. The way she towered against him felt like he was about to get scolded or interrogated.

"Well…" She leaned closer. "We only have three minutes, so let's not waste any time and get started, shall we?"

Grace could only sit there awkwardly. "What…do you have in mind, exactly?"

"Huh, I hinted at it in our conversation earlier. Did you not catch it?"

Grace tried to recall. Something about Endorsi wanting to make someone jealous? Was that it? "Sorry, I spaced out earlier. Can you refresh me on that?"

"I want to prank your team." She lowered her voice, and only then did Grace catch the playfulness in her tone. "I just need you to look a little messy."

Grace raised an eyebrow. He knew what she was implying, and this didn't look like it would benefit him in any way. He knew how much Gyetang and Dan idolized her, and what would Agni think if Grace let her do anything to him?

"Look, I'm not going to steal you from your man. So I will keep my hands to myself, but you'll have to comply." She said that as if she just read his mind. "If anything, it might make him more clingy if he takes our bait. What do you think?"

He was still not convinced that this would be a fun prank. But one thing he learned about Endorsi was that once she set her goal, there was no changing her mind until it failed to meet her expectations. Well, as long as no one was harmed, he would humor her. "Okay. How are we doing it?"

Endorsi dug through her pocket and pulled out a lipstick. "Do you know how to apply this?"

Grace blinked, suddenly unsure if it was what he thought it was. "Uhm…by smearing it on your lips?"

"So you know. Good."

"Well, I have my own." Not exactly lipstick though; Agni said it was a tinted lip balm. But anyhow, it should work about the same.

Endorsi didn't look surprised, but her expression turned thoughtful. "Huh, that could spare you some work. But I don't think it would make a convincing story…"

She started mumbling something that made less sense the more it went on. So instead, he started to take note of her appearance.

Today she chose to wear a sporty bra, leggings and shoes, which meant she came prepared for some exercise. He looked forward to sparring with her after lunch, curious on how powerful she currently was. The ponytail also suited her, although it couldn't tie all of her shorter hair on her nape. It reminded him of the time when his and Agni's hair was at her length.

"–Yeah no, that won't do." She turned her attention to him again, pulling him out of his thoughts. "You should use mine."

She took out a tissue paper and cleaned the tip of her lipstick before handing it to him. Grace examined the light shade of pink and thought that it was a lovely color, very Endorsi-like. He glanced at her once again to make sure, before using his lighthouse as a small mirror and applied the lipstick on his lips. Turns out, the color didn't suit him that well.

"Ehh." Endorsi seemed to have the same opinion, taking back her lipstick. "Well, that doesn't matter. Now, kiss the back of your hand, and then transfer the mark onto your cheek. Can you do that?"

Grace had no complaints doing so. Endorsi was thoughtful enough to respect his boundaries this time. If anyone asked, he could confidently say that she did nothing to him.

As Grace was doing as told, Endorsi cleaned the tip of her lipstick again and applied it on her own lips. He noticed that she deliberately smeared it a little on the edge.

"Here." Endorsi handed him a new tissue paper. "You should wipe your lips and hand."

"Okay."

"Hm…Maybe make your hair a little messy too?"

Grace pulled his ponytail to make it a little undone. 

She smirked after giving him a once-over, satisfied. "Yes. That should do it."

Grace smiled politely, before checking the timer on his pocket and found out that it had only a few seconds left. "We should go back."

"Okay." She said easily and made her way out of the bathroom. "Remember the rule. Whatever happened earlier stayed only with us."

"Yes. I know." It was the rule that Agni made for this 'private time' reward, and it was only fair that he followed it.

"Oh and, that mark stays until someone points it out. Just pretend you didn't know it exists." She pouted playfully at him, before turning back to a cheerful mood. "I can't wait to see everyone's reaction!"

As they walked back to the cafeteria, Endorsi flashed him a grin –this time a gentle one that he rarely saw. "Hey, thanks for indulging me."

Grace felt a smile tug on his lips. It probably was the first genuine smile he had from her, ever since he came back to the past. He hoped it'd stay that way from now on. "No problem."

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[olessan]

Very light Veilguard spoilers under the cut, up to meeting Bellara - my thoughts on one element of the writing (people reacting to circumstances) after watching the start of a playthrough:

So I can't play Veilguard for a while, am good with early-game and light spoilers, and therefore started watching a playthrough to see the opening few hours of the game.

There's one thread throughout the writing that's really stood out to me so far as a bit odd and it's very obvious when their elf rook meets Strife and Irelin and then Bellara.

Part of meeting Strife and Irelin.

Rook: But it didn't go as cleanly as we hoped. Solas got pulled into the Fade, and two somethings got pulled out. Or someones, I mean. Two of the Evanuris. Elgar'nan and Ghilan'nain. Irelin: Mythal'enaste... Strife: The elven gods of old. The Evanuris. Irelin: If they truly have returned... Strife: Then things just got a whole lot worse . Rook: (stern) So Elgar'nan and Ghilan'nain are loose. Which means what? Strife: You thought Solas was bad? He's a bit of a bastard, true. But next to them? Let's just say they weren't known for their kindness. Irelin: There's a reason Solas led a rebellion against the Evanuris. And a reason he imprisoned them. Strife: But now they've escaped... [conversation moves on]

Bellara's intro scene.

Rook: Our gods, Elgar'nan and Ghilan'nain? They've escaped from Fen'Harel's prison. And by all accounts, they want to destroy the world. Bellara: Oh. Yes. That is very much for the worse. Okay. Right. I need a second. Rook: (humorous) I've had a couple of days, and I'm still trying to wrap my head around it. Bellara: It does sort of explain a few things, though. [conversation moves on to the problem at hand]

Maybe it's just me, but it feels like everyone's under-reacting to the emerging crisis.

I can buy the rest of the gang not fully parsing the situation yet, such as Neve not believing Solas is An Actual Elven God™, and understand Strife and Irelin having reached acceptance of Solas being The™ Fen'Harel™ given they've had time to come to terms with that... But!!

The Evanuris prison has been ripped open! Solas opened the veil again (temporarily)! TWO OF THE EVANURIS ARE ROAMING THEDAS! Why is no one freaking out about this!?

Rook tells Strife and Irelin that literal Elgar'nan and Ghilan'nain have escaped their ancient prisons and are on Thedas. Their reaction, fully familiar with the legends, is not "OH NO! FUQ! THIS IS A HORRIFIC EMERGENCY OF MYTHICAL PROPORTIONS!", it's "oh no, this is dangerous and inconvenient."

Especially with the comparison with Solas, it's the sort of reaction you'd expect from, I don't know, a new manager at your job making a decision everyone knows is going to backfire.

When Rook breaks the news to Bellara, she reacts the same way. It's not "HOLY SHIT! I'm glad I have skills I can apply to this to help! This is catastrophic!", it's "Oh, that sucks," and even considering the humour option, Rook is dismissing it the most out of everyone. It takes more than a couple of days with a concussion to come to terms with ancient gods returning.

"they escaped the prison they were in, and they want to destroy the world". Guys. Come on. Why are you calm about this? Where's the panic? Not even a sense of measured alarm?

Many people still consider the elven gods to be a myth, and not at all real. There have got to be several stages of horror and realisation that comes from learning about Solas, that Solas is The Dread Wolf™, and that he then went on to (accidentally, thanks Rook) release not only two of the Evanuris from their ancient captivity, but arguably the two worst ones: Captain Angry and Experiment Lady.

This is a common problem with games, and is in part due to the need to deliver the important parts of the narrative clearly, but I don't know, it just feels like they pass over these facts of their situation like this isn't quickly turning into a cataclysmic event.

They can be focused and on-task and still be thoroughly freaked out by it, but they don't come across that way. They're treating this like your average mercenary job or something.

It probably improves later on, but I would've expected their reactions to be a bit more energetic or dire, something like this:

Rook: But it didn't go as cleanly as we hoped. Solas got pulled into the Fade, and two somethings got pulled out. Or someones, I mean. Two of the Evanuris. Elgar'nan and Ghilan'nain. Irelin: Mythal'enaste! Strife: Are you certain it was them? Solas is bad enough, but even one of the other Evanuris would be disastrous. We can't waste time. Irelin: There's a reason Solas led a rebellion against the Evanuris. And a reason he imprisoned them. They could tear the world apart. Strife: If they've escaped... well, little is worse than that.

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Rook: Our gods, Elgar'nan and Ghilan'nain? They've escaped from Fen'Harel's prison. And by all accounts, they want to destroy the world. Bellara: What?! How is that possible?! They've been imprisoned for thousands of years, how could they have gotten out? Rook: Solas let them out. Bellara: He what?! That might explain some things here, but... do you realise what this means? Thedas is doomed if we don't do something, not just Arlathan forest.

Side note, my planned elf, archaeology/history nerd Rook is so going to be Bellara's bestie.