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Do you have any tips on making art more eerie? I'm new to horror illustration and I'm trying to improve the atmosphere around my creatures.
Certainly! I'll do my best.
There are many approaches to horror art, so I advise not taking my word as gospel or anything. I recommend experimentation and following your sensibilities.
So first, having one light source can often be unnerving (and it's easier to keep track of).
I will be using monotone drawings as examples
If the foreground is light, then the background should be dark and vice versa. Otherwise, your subject won't pop against the background, and it can end up looking flat without any contrast.
At the same time, keeping your horror creatures obscured or partly in the shadows is also perfectly fine. Horror is an embrace of imperfection and mystery, so things like distortions, blurs, and overexposed light can be a plus rather than a detriment.
Shadows are where your friends live.
I also recommend looking at films and shows for inspiration. If you can recall a scene that really scares you, try to find it and study the lighting and colors.
So far, this probably doesn't sound like advice when it comes to making a drawing eerie, but consider this;
spaces should feel lived in.
Or at the very least, have a sense of history. Who lives here and where are they now? Did they keep the place clean? Why are the stairway photos blank?
What's upstairs?
Have fun creating the world where your creatures nest >:3C
[And apologies for this incomplete timelapse. Doing timelapse drawings takes up a lot of memory >.<]
#cinemamind#horror#body horror#digital painting#artists on tumblr#black and white#gore#why did i decide on drawing a cornfield#I must love pain#worms
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i love that i read SO many jayvik fics about the divorce beginning with jayce being horrified at what viktor had done with the hexcore, only for it to turn out that jayce actually did not give a SINGLE fuck, didn't even flinch at the sight of his hand and leg, and was ecstatic when it ended up saving his life. i am absolutely obsessed
#jayvik#arcane#arcane spoilers#idk if i was ever certain how jayce would react but i do love pain and i knew the divorce had to come some time#his best friend is ALIVE and they're going to fix everything together and oh he must be cold 'let me grab my blanket i have in here'#'i've been sleeping in this room for days waiting for a sign of life and here he is'#AHHHHHHHHHHHH#anyway. i missed them
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#my art#stan pines#stanley pines#grunkle stan#mullet stan#gravity falls#gravity fall stan#gf stan#gf stanley#i have a love for this man just like all my other favs#I have love/cute aggression for my fav stinkies#i must squish him with pain angst and all out of love for him#the doodle of him leaning out his car window#he's saying 'heya toots~'#thought a few would enjoy that thought as i drew it
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i don't normally participate in these redraw challenges but it's megumi so i'll make an exception
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro megumi#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk megumi#megumi#looks at clock UHHHHHHHH oops#i got lost in the sauce that is rendering his gd chin and under his lips.... ive been in stylized anime mouth land 2 long i fear#i had forgotten how much of a pain those shadows are :'>>> eSP at a lookdown angle#fought a bit but little did he know i spent years doing coloured pencil portraits. this is My domain#god but the rest of the skin render was so FUN i love . warm grey in2 brown in2 red/orange fr the deep underneck shadow#lip tint heavy blush freckles glossier model fushiguro megumi...........im a believer i fear#had a bit of a hard time finding a middle ground between how i normally draw his hair and a more Realistic take on it#the model in the og has hair that's pretty close but i think the strands r a bit short n too heavily curved fr my tastes#its my brand im afraid i simply must give itfs both longer hair#nothing else feels Right#but god i underestimated how Good this photoshoot is as megu material . i get the hype now i get it#i did the sketch n i looked at it and i had an oh /oh/ moment#smh megumi put those lustrous emerald orbs away before u hurt some1#his gaze is too powerful . slaps a red bg on him makes him my new icon :)#anyway its 6am it is morning time do i sleep fr like 3 hrs or do i say megumi voice Whatever we shall see
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Alas, this beautiful dream could not last.
#dungeon meshi#falin touden#dungeon meshi spoilers#better drawn mdzs#(<- my higher effort art tag. I need to get a new one.) While it's different from my usual style I really loved how this came out!#Strolling back to the art scene to remind everyone I am still a lover of botanicals.#I had a blast with the symbolism for this one:#White lilium longiflorum (easter lily) for rebirth. Purple hyacinthus orientalis for sorrow and forgiveness.#Red spider lily (Lycoris radiata) for loss and death.#'Rebirth into something new' is so well done in Dungeon Meshi. She is back but she is not the same.#The last few episodes/chapters gives her this dreamy quality to her. As if she's not quite real. She's so perfect in their memories.#And as we know of dreams - no matter how sweet- they must end once we wake up.#It is so painful to lose someone twice. To see someone you loved in a dream and wake up and remember that loss again.#Dungeon Meshi being a grief allegory is important to me. I'll explain more as the story continues B'*)
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my favourite middle aged sweaty man his alien goo husband couple
#ah i love tem#i must dra them to ease my pain because what the fuck was that ending#symbrock#venom#venom the last dance#venom 3#eddie brock#veddie
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Calling all Agatha All Along fans - please don't let yourself pause to realise, as I just did, that the reason the witches, Agatha included, experienced such newness and joy on that broomstick ride was because they had been physically unable to fly that way for a long long time.
"It's about selflessness," says Agatha. "We fly together or not at all."
No coven = no broomstick flying.
No wonder they were all enjoying it so much. :/
#agatha all along#agatha all along episode 5#agatha harkness#re-watching the ep and this hit me like a ton of bricks#how much must all of them have wanted to have this wonderful experience of bonding and togetherness and been blankly refused#i love pain and suffering#apparently
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Sometimes I think about Aventurine in the moment he first discovered his Pathstrider abilities. The moment he first realized he could shield not only himself but also others. The very first moment he realized he could be a source of safety, rather than a burden--than a curse.
Sometimes I think about the hatred he must have felt for himself in that instant.
Where was this power when their camps were burned to the ground with every last one of their meager possessions? Where was this power when his mother died begging as he cowered, playing dead in a bath of the blood of everyone he knew?
Where was this power when his sister stood tall, a silhouette against the lightning, and used her body as the shield? Where was this power in the maze, when it could have spared the screaming child who was the first to die?
You could have saved them. You could have saved them. You could have saved them.
#honkai star rail#aventurine#it's Aventurine angst hour!!!#come get your pain!#sometimes my thoughts on Aventurine are just#“Try not to cry.” “Cry a lot.”#but in particular I think about Aventurine unlocking Preservation powers a lot#canon doesn't tell us whether it happened before or after becoming a Stoneheart#and either way I think could be great#like if it happened right when he first got free#how useless and late it must have felt#if it happened after he became a Stoneheart#how much would he question it#is he a true Pathstrider or just piggy-backing on Diamond's gift#will he lose that protection if he leaves the Stonehearts?#then he can never leave because that's the best tool he has for saving people he loves#don't mind me#sometimes I too want to torment the best boy
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have we ever thought abt the fact that zuko is literally azula's older brother. like she's his little sister. that's his little sister. throughout a big, big part of atla plot, he was actively running away, scared of his little sister killing him because he KNEW she would/could. can you imagine that? your little sibling, wanting more your father's approval than your companionship to the point of death? every time they fought, zuko was fighting his baby sister. azula was fighting her big brother. this is making me so sick. they were 16 and 14 years old.
#avatar the last airbender#atla#atla zuko#atla azula#zuko#azula#hey look i posted a thing#the absolute maddening grief of it all. like what do u mean??? thats his lil baby sister!!! what the fuck!!!#when she was a bby he was probably so protective and they were so small n they must have loved each other then#before the responsibilities ozai put on them. before all that. they were siblings. they loved each other.#until they were taught that did not matter. zuko learned that it did again#despite all the pain of it#azula actively ran away from learning it from feeling that pain#because she would rather be hated and feared and powerful than to ever be weak ever#this is so heartbreaking#i think this hits especially hard cuz me n my sis are like 2/3 years apart in age. like. i could not imagine having to fight her to the dea#i just couldnt. i rly rly couldnt
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I would really love prayer for my anxiety surrounding this recovery period and the conditions which led to my surgery.
Even though I know it’s not dangerous anymore, the slightest muscle spasm near my ribs, the mere idea of getting acid reflux, make me spiral into feelings of doom and desperation.
The more foods I’m able to tolerate, the more paranoid my relationship to food becomes.
I need to trust God with my body’s needs and future, but my emotions, like my body, are all out of whack.
#prayer request#I guess I’m beginning to understand that ‘trauma’ they were all talking about#mobile#x#part of it is probably that my painkillers are almost gone but my pain is not#there are still a lot of basic physical functions I can’t do on my own#and on that count I must say my parents are absolute angels#I’m so grateful for them and I love them so much#Christianity
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She hasn't gone mad from pain. It's just that her inner feelings have been suppressed for too long.
The Double (2024) 1.11
#the double#墨雨云间#cdramaedit#userdramas#cdrama#asiandramanet#cdramasource#dailyasiandramas#perioddramaedit#wang xingyue#wu jinyan#mymymy#ep 11#do you know what it feels like to not lose#we are onnnnn *checks notes* ep 11...and we got bitng alREaDYYYYYY#ROMANTICISMMMMMM#DELICIOUSNESSSSSS#literallyyyy *fangirl gigglesss*#oh we in it now friendssss WE IN IT NOWWWWWWWWWW#i love themmm and I neeed him in my lifeeeeeeeeeeeeee#excuse me while i twirl my hair and do the tango by myself#angst in dramas will forever be my jelly jammmm#and I must say that the way drama handles the grief/ pain/ revenge tbh alll the emotions with FL's ex is just soo goodttt#im hurtededd every flashback and the qin competion had me sobbing... girlie was BLEeding and i felt every bit of it of that song
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dungeon meshi characters taking care of each other
:’)
bonus:
#dungeon meshi#laios touden#marcille donato#chilchuck tims#senshi#izutsumi#kabru#even if ‘caretaking’ would be a pain is that really the mindset you want to have? the hill you want to die on?#yes they take care of Marcille when it would be considered ‘burdensome’#ppl who say ‘taking care of others is bad when you HAVE to take care of them because it’s an inconvenience to you’#are the square headed dwarf. kui gave you representation 💀#we must take care of our 36 year old minor#and mage who has no mana#and elves who use up all their mana at once#and the tallman who dragged you into a hole#and the child you raised and loved like your own son#and fallen party members#and random strangers#it’s themes of the narrative!!!#most everyone gets put into the ‘taken care of’ position at some point like if you got injured the middle of the street you wouldn’t#want everyone to just walk past you even if you’re aware they’re busy or whatever like come on#dungeon meshi spoilers#and these ARE all choices every one of these characters makes yes even kabru#my favorite of these is the izutsumi one tho#ijuchumi i wuv u so muchh okey 😭💝
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seems like all I’m worth is what I’m able to withstand
#vash the stampede#trigun#trigun fanart#my art#i just want to wrap him up in the worlds most gentle hug#i just keep thinking about him changing his shirt#carefully peeling it off so he doesn’t tear at his skin#he must be in constant pain#and yet he endures because he wants to help protect people#this hurt to draw#i just love him so much
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About Eddie Fender and why he was a dick to Miles
I first started this post in response to something, but it got so long I decided against inflicting it on OP. This is very long and very meandering and the form is kinda weird, as a warning. It's also kinda spoilery for Ace Attorney Investigations 2.
When we first start playing AAI2 and are introduced to "Ace Attorney Eddie Fender," it's true he doesn't come across as very likeable. The first thing he says to Miles is basically "Oh, look! Here comes Manfred von Karma," and the game happens three years after the truth about DL-6 came out. That's incredibly low, very petty, cruel even. He does start off as a dick to Miles, unfair on him until he gradually realises he isn't as bad as he thought, and as he starts warming up to Miles we start warming up to him.
But also... I kind of get it.
Like... Imagine you're 19 years old. Your boss just died in a sudden and shocking murder. You inherit the law firm even though you haven't even passed the bar yet. You're grieving as you keep working hard to become an attorney, now without the guidance you used to have. Maybe you even blame yourself a little - after all, you worked on that case too, you were likely there for the trial, you left both Edgeworths to take that elevator by themselves. Had things played out differently you would have been there, too.
Did you think of your boss's son, in the middle of this whirlwind? Probably a little, but you're a 19 year-old law student. You're nowhere near a suitable place in your life to even think about fostering a kid. Besides, Gregory Edgeworth was your boss. Someone you greatly admired and whose death you will never stop mourning, but still just your boss.
(It's unclear how well Eddie knew Miles. Enough for Miles to recognise him instantly, but certainly not as close as Miles and Phoenix were.)
You take it on yourself to continue the work he left behind, to help the clients Gregory can no longer help. For ten years you try your best to uphold the reputation and the values of his firm and name, and every day you witness a little more how corrupt the system really is.
Then, one day, you start hearing about this young new prosecuting upstart. Passed the bar at 20 and already has the legal world in his pocket. Rumours of forged evidence, backstreet deals, manipulated witnesses. Not only is that just like the whole lot of them, the tactics you became so familiar with over the years - no, it sounds painfully, specifically familiar to that one long, drawn-out case, the last one you worked with Gregory. It turns out the young prodigy is the student and protégé of Mr. Perfection himself, the man who never lost a case in thirty-five years, even though he should have lost against you ten years ago if the world was even a little fair. You would hate the boy for that alone, but on top of that he's also the son of the mentor you lost, the son of the man you both used to admire so very much.
And that hurts. That none of Gregory's legacy lived on in his son. That this sweet, kind boy, who Gregory always used to worry about not making any friends, became a parody of all they used to despise.
Perhaps you even get to see him. You catch a glance of him in the courthouse corridor as he passes you by without so much as a nod to acknowledge you, or you stumble upon a picture in the same paper that struck Phoenix Wright so deeply. You see that damn suit. That damn smirk. That damn waggly finger. His features may have something of Gregory but everything in him screams von Karma. He's spent a decade trying to shape himself into him, and it shows.
Prosecutors are a privileged bunch, and the Edgeworth kid grew up into a downright brat. Entitled. Rude. Arrogant. Obsessed with his fucking perfect record. You hear he goes around cutting the salaries of detectives that make a tenth of what he does and insulting the opposing counsel in court. He became the worst of them all, taught by the worst of them all, he is everything Gregory fought against and everything you hate.
Why would you want to associate with that? Why would you ever think he is not perfectly fine where he is, with his cushy office and his cushy sports car and his doubtlessly cushy pay?
A couple years later you hear he's been arrested for murder. Maybe you follow the trial, maybe you only see the headlines after everything, after DL-6 is finally solved. Honestly, that's when you start having a reason to reach out. When, had you been less embittered and jaded by the thanklessness of your job, you might have wondered what it was like for him to grow up in the shadow of his father's murderer. You might have been stricken with compassion and horror at the thought of fifteen years spent in crushing guilt, believing he killed the father he used to love so much. You might have empathised, despite your contempt for von Karma, with how his ward might feel to be so cruelly betrayed, thrice over, by the man who raised him since he was nine, who taught him everything before throwing him away like a piece of used junk.
But you still think of how he was like a son to von Karma, of how he got to spend fifteen years in wealth, following a shiny, easy, corrupt new path while you grieved and desperately tried to keep the pieces of your shared dream together. You think of how uneasy Gregory seemed with the idea of von Karma as a teacher, you think of how eager Miles seemed to follow in his footsteps and how much Gregory would have hated it. You think of the many defendants this boy callously condemned with barely a thought, just like his mentor. Of how he may not have his father's blood on his hands, but with the way he acts you'd think he had his murderer's in his veins. And you really, really don't want to deal with any of that.
You think, somewhat unfairly, that maybe Miles ought to have seen it coming. It's not like it's much of a secret that Manfred von Karma is a piece of shit, and good riddance to him.
Three years later, you actually have to interact with him again. It's been 18 years since you last saw him in his father's shadow, looking at him like he hung the stars in the sky, back when everything was so simple for the three of you. It's been 3 years since the truth about his oh-so-esteemed mentor was uncovered. He still wears the cravat. His brow is still furrowed, his eyes are still piercing.
But slowly, begrudgingly, you talk to him. You start realising he actually has some honour to him. That he's not really the Demon Prosecutor the papers made him out to be, that maybe you misjudged him a little bit, in you grief-stricken, angry bitterness. That maybe he can be trusted, after all, with his father's legacy.
Why would you think he ever needed saving?
#Ace Attorney#Eddie Fender#Raymond Shields#Miles Edgeworth#idk whether to tag this#meta#or#fanfiction#Ace Attorney Investigations 2 spoilers#AAI2 spoilers#samurais and mockingbirds#listen I love Phoenix but he was still very unhinged#for seeing his childhood friend became a successful if shady prosecutor#and immediately going like 'he is in so much pain and I must help him'#what's even MORE insane is that he was RIGHT#I love Ace Attorney xD#re the whole like a son to von Karma thing that's literally a line Eddie says#(well that's how I remember it from the fan translation)#(idk how they translated it in the official tbh)#Aza talks too much#my fanfic#sticking both tags on this
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Scatters Lady Helia's ref in front of you all like the breadcrumbs to the pigeons. A beautiful girlie deserves a beautiful reference sheet 💛💚💙
#kirby oc#lady helia#oc reference#aseukiart#hooo helia I love u but ngl. Ur a bigger pain in the ass to draw than stell. I still love u though <3#hello hi I have 5 billion projects I am chipping through each and every one#one must imagine sisyphus nananananananana katamari damancy
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i don’t even fucking care
#house md#house spoilers#hilson#the fact that house is consistently selfish. that he’s an addict. he’s always in pain#but he gave up his vicodin for wilson. mind you the pain in his thigh must have been excruciating#bc consistently whenever he’s extremely stressed or worried the pain gets worse#but wilson is still his priority. he put wilson above the burning pain god man😭#him giving up his freedom HIS LIFE for someone who has less than half a year to live like oh my god#the love house has for wilson actually makes me sick bc even outside of the cancer arc house has done things for wilsons sake#like almost killing himself just to help him and amber. drugging him at that one conference from s6#he’s an asshole often times but he truly is the only constant in his life. they both are for each other#i actually feel sick. im not on everybody dies yet (im on the c word rn) but god idk how im gonna get thru this😭#5x13 big baby#8x19 the c word#1x01 everybody lies#8x22 everybody dies#7x15 bombshells#8x21 holding on#where the quotes are from btw#sorry for the essay in tags
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