#I missed myself

[sollitaire]

I did a thing - here is pre and post.

I always let my hair go normal for summer because pools and oceans strip the color out fast, but here we are mid August so it’s time to bring it back.

Hard to show the full gradient from redish blonde to orange to deep red to purple with my short arms trying to selfie my long hair but I think you can get the gist.

Feels good to be back to my self. Even did some full makeup for the fun of it (I never go anywhere these days so it’s a rare thing for me to do).

I also started up a poetry blog yesterday that I’ve had the mind to do for about 20 years (since my American McGee’s Alice fan site days). All the good sites have practically died (Deviant Art and LiveJournal to name the bigger ones but there were many for us little gothlings back in the day), so I’ve had to take my work down across most platforms and that was a bunch of feels bad moments.

Cut to present times where I finally got to the point to where I missed creating so much I had to do something about it. That’s the issue getting to my level at work, I rarely get to do the things myself anymore and I miss it terribly. So - back to my gothling ways it is. They make me happy and I need some happy right now.

[horrorslu7]

I'M BACK BITCHES, MISSED ME?

Also, THANK U SO MUCH FOR ALMOST 40 FOLLOWERS, it means a lot to me really.

Thank you for reading what I write and supporting me 💕

[hinamie]

trick or treat!

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

[bacchuschucklefuck]

couldnt draw my thang for mid-autumn so treated myself to a calne redesign instead

[the-magnus-protocol]

Tma + tmagp art masterpost

[sergle]

the threshold has been crossed, it is now springtime!!

[sweetorangepeel]

Today was the first day I’ve felt like myself after a hard week ❤️

[transthatfag]

destiel forehead healing kiss. what more could u want.

[voltaical-art]

HE WAS SEVENTEEN. AGHHH ULDER WHEN I GET MY HANDS ON YOU

[lilyflxwers]

i. The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath, Sylvia Plath / ii. As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks 1964-1980, Susan Sontag / iii. Suddenly, It's December, Margaux Paul / iv. Waiting for This Story to End Before I Begin Another, Jan Heller Levi / v. The Picture of Dorian Gray, Oscar Wilde / vi. The Letters of Gustave Flaubert: 1830-1857, Gustave Flaubert / vii. unknown / viii. @inanotherunivrse / ix. @violentcherries / x. Heaven, Mieko Kawakami (thank u @aworsening for attaching the sources)

[missmisnomer]

it's always a good day to wake up and choose violence

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[notbrucewayne48]

"aphobia doesn't exist"

bitch literally not that long ago an aroace youtuber animator was insulted by almost half of its community for being it

[lemonwrap]

[psychic-pigeons]

The gift has been giveth i can post squeaky toy chilchuck now. Behold!

[wilmaaaa0]

they got that shit on fr

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