#I might redo this list in the future if anything changes

[liviawildrose]

pluto moves to aquarius

BIG COSMIC SHIFT

alright, i don’t know if you’ve been feeling the change in the air lately, but if you have aquarius in your chart like i do, things are about to get wild. today, pluto moves into aquarius for the first time in over 200 years. yup, it’s a big deal. and trust me, when i say this is gonna bring some serious transformative energy to the table, i mean it.

today, i felt like shit. quite literally. a lot of things happened some really heavy stuff that made me question everything i’ve been doing. i’ve been dealing with some deep personal stuff, and the energy today felt like a serious challenge. maybe it’s hitting me harder because of my strong aquarius placements, but trust me, i’m feeling the impact of this shift. for some reason, i felt the need to redo everything again. i felt the need to write down my future again in present all the things that i’ve said in my previous blogs. i felt the need to do it again. just for me to look up because i knew something like this was gonna happen in november and i completely forgot about it, but when i felt this need to change everything again & some really not so good things happen out of nowhere? i searched it up and guess what it was happening today and i had no idea and the moment i got to know about this. i wasn’t even planning to make this blog (like this wasn’t even on the list) but i knew i had to make this now. 

if you’re feeling like everything is crumbling or you’re losing your grip know that this energy is intense, and it’s doing its work. these changes might not happen overnight, but trust that pluto is pushing you in the right direction. if you’re ready to transform and level up, this is your cosmic sign to embrace the massive transformation that’s about to unfold. you can literally shape your future, become the person you were always meant to be, and achieve your biggest goals.

what does this mean for YOU?

if you’re an aquarius (or have strong aquarius placements in your chart), get ready for some next-level growth. pluto is all about transformation, and in aquarius, it’s coming for everything that holds you back. think: breaking free from limiting beliefs, shedding old skin, and rising up to the unique, unapologetically YOU energy that the universe is calling for right now. if you’ve been feeling low or doubting your potential, don’t worry, that’s just the cosmic chaos pushing you toward greatness.

What can you expect?

a. physical transformation

expect to feel a real shift in how you view your body. whether it’s a total glow-up, shedding old weight (literally and metaphorically), or even just stepping into a new version of yourself, pluto in aquarius is gonna help you break through your limits. this isn’t just about physical changes, it’s about shedding the past you and stepping into the bigger version of yourself. it’s time to make moves in the physical world—so if you’ve been feeling like you’re not where you want to be in your body or health, this is your chance to change all that.

b. big goals, big dreams

i know you’ve been thinking about becoming the biggest star the world has ever known. well, guess what? this is the energy that will make that happen. pluto in aquarius is all about standing out and becoming legendary. so if you’ve been waiting for a sign to go after your dreams, this is it. get ready to rise to your calling, gain recognition, and break through any glass ceilings. expect to see some major shifts in your career, creative pursuits, or any passion you’ve been pushing forward. the spotlight is calling you—it’s time to step into it.

b. mindset shift

this transit is going to shift your mind in ways you can’t even imagine right now. aquarius is all about intellectual growth and thinking outside the box. pluto is going to help you tear down your old limiting beliefs, giving you the courage to take risks and believe that anything is possible. whether it’s starting a new project, changing your lifestyle, or just taking on new challenges, your mindset is about to level up. this is the moment to start thinking bigger and bolder than ever before.

so, if you’re also feeling down, like things aren’t clicking, or you’re questioning yourself right now—it’s okay. this is the energy of pluto in aquarius at work, and it’s not easy, but it’s definitely doing something huge behind the scenes. transformation isn’t always pretty. we’ve gotta break down to rebuild stronger.

and listen, with my own chart having strong aquarius placements (like i said, the vibes are strong right now), i can feel the shift already. you know what that means? get ready for some big content coming your way—big visions, big moves, big transformations. this blog? It’s about to get next level. cause bro, the kind of shit i experienced today and the day is not even over yet, and i’m feeling the need to completely change. everything is insane. i’m kind of scared that i have so strong aquarius placements in my birth chart, so you are just go and check up your birth chart. see what kind of placement you have, and let’s get it.

so, get ready to rise. big things are coming.

if you want to join me on this journey of becoming a higher self. please comment, like, reblog, and follow let's embrace the glow of together.



[iswateredible]

Tell me everything. (In relation to your art of aged up Hiccup, Viggo, and Dagur.) Also, oh my god, I’m so excited for that art!

yesssss LETSGO!!

I'm rly excited to share it, cross your fingers for me when I go in w the colors lol!

I always wanted to write/draw more about how I imagine Hiccup would build relationships nd spend quality time with Dagur or Viggo (or both at once?) through things like drawing, documenting and studying dragons... in one of my old drafts Hiccup would be covering up/redoing a tattoo that Dagur had (the list of enemies if I recall correctly - and would change it into something more ornate and dragon related to symbolize him changing sides). I want so bad to just see them going on long travels together with their dragons, stopping on a remote island to camp overnight... falling asleep on the other's shoulder telling stories around the campfire...

I also had another thought that I thought you in particular or other pple in the fandom might be interested in - say at that point in the future Hiccup is the chief of Berk, Viggo is ruling the Berserker tribe and has married Heather (it goes well w the Skrill being bonded to him, ALSO YOU PEOPLE BROKE ME AND I SHIP THEM a little NOW), And Dagur is maybe ruling the Defenders with Mala? (altho to be real I don't really see what rtte writers were thinking, I just don't see them together, but for the sake of this scenario where everyone else has a wife/kids at home...)

And it would be like an annual conference, maintaining a peace treaty or something along those lines... would start off with all three of them meeting on Berk, catching up with one another over Mead in the mess hall... and before you know it they've gone on a several day long trip to visit the Edge, to spend some time reminiscing over the battles all of them fought with one another (and re-live that spark...). One thing leads to another and they're catching up on all the lost time physically. It's been so long, and Hiccup's bonds with the two have if anything deepened over the years, but living so far away from one another... so many different emotions wash over them at the catharsis of being together like this again.

Their wives don't have to know. Or maybe they do? Maybe they always knew.

[acertainmoshke]

Redoing the Intro One More Time!

Updated 9/30/23

Call me Moshke Palmoni (they/them). I spend as much time as I can writing, but that is not as much as it might be because there's also a lot of life going on right now. I also like to read, knit, collect vintage ephemera, and play with my cat.

General WIP tag list: [your url here!]

Active WIPs:

7 Days for Fae

Coming October 2024

10-year-old Fae is isolated by her disabilities—autism and ataxia—that causes her communication and mobility issues. She doesn’t have any friends her age, and she’s accepted that. She reads a lot and plays pretend in the forest at the end of the street. Her family loves her for who she is and so far that’s been enough. Until, that is, she meets the new kid. His name is Brownie and for reasons Fae can’t imagine he wants to be her friend no matter how weird or awkward she is. When he still invites her over after a meltdown in class gets her suspended for a week, she decides to take a risk and accept. The ensuing adventures are marred only by the other sudden change in her life—an aunt Fae barely knows has moved in with her family. She doesn’t know how to talk to Fae and, worse, refuses to accept Fae’s nonbinary parent’s identity. But since no one else seems to know how to deal with the mess their home life has become, Fae tries—with Brownie’s encouragement—to sort the situation out herself.

Cold Iron

In 1956, Shakatra Zoawin is 40. Or they might be 20, depending on how you look at it. They are a changeling and their aging is kind of weird, but that doesn't matter to them because they have a good life in the subway tunnel with their brother, Kris. Both of them are changelings swapped as infants for human children and then rejected by their human families. Their wits and powerful magic have kept them alive this long, and Shaka is perfectly content to keep going. After they do one little thing to appease their guilt: find the 40-year-old they were swapped for and free her to have her own life in the human world free from servitude in the courts of the Fae. And so begins an adventure that will have repercussions neither of them could have imagined.

Intro posts for the books in this series: Cold Iron, City of Frost, Song on Repeat, and Future Not Found

Character Intro Posts: Shakatra, Kris, Lynn, Tatiana, Liliana, Harry, Doug, Beth, Aaron, Cassie, and Althea

Tag list: @pga-books

Blades of Ice

In the kingdom of Halara, orcs and elms and slimes and centaurs live peacefully side-by-side with humans. Less peaceful is the relationship between Halara and their neighboring kingdom of Eng. The generation-long conflict has drawn in other nearby kingdoms and stagnated artistic and social works. All Aryel ever wanted to do was be left alone to love who they want and practice sparring with their axe, but as a royal child they have responsibilities, namely leading the entire army. There's no talk of ending the war in any way but victory, just as Halara won its initial freedom from Eng 300 years ago, but this endless fighting is getting them nowhere but too many funerals and not enough bread. And then when a familial tragedy leads to Aryel leading both the army and the kingdom, they know they can't balance the tensions and demands of everyone at once and win this war. Something has to give, and they just hope it isn't the entire kingdom.

Backburnered and still-in-planning WIPs under the cut.

Time Traveling Anthropologists

(permanent title coming soon)

Set approximately 2 generations in the future. Esther Dahan has her dream job. She gets to time travel with her new team, and against all historical odds they are there to study ancient cultures rather than do anything violent. Their first assignment is 8 months in the 9th century Jewish kingdom of Khazaria. Everything is going great—illicit romance with a Khazarian blacksmith notwithstanding—until Esther finds a plate that doesn't belong in this time. Curious and suspicious but without enough evidence to involve her boss, she investigates on her own, discovering much more than she planned—and leading to far worse consequences than she could have imagined.

Tag list: @amielbjacobs @kingkendrick7 @moonluringfrost @another-white-hole

To Die Among the Stars:

20 people have been chosen to test the effects of faster-than-light space travel on human minds and bodies. They were taken from prisons, wellness centers, and other areas where near-certain death seemed like a reasonable chance to take. Each have their reasons for being there, and their secrets. Against all odds, the jump to FTL doesn't destroy the ship. But the further away from Earth they travel, the more strange things begin to happen that call the purpose of the experiment into question. And then the impossible: a human distress signal in deep space.

Told from 4 rotating perspectives: Pixel, a semiverbal illegal human modder; Ri, whose body and mind are overloaded with mods; Zippy, a young disabled woman desperate to support her family; and Peppermint, a genetic experiment combining human and cat DNA raised in an isolated lab.

Tag list: @hd-literature

Falling Petals

A multigenerational story about trauma, love, and disability set against the backdrop of one Jewish family. Beginning in the 1920's with Ira Katz, who is brilliant and charming with no understanding at all of tact or why the best way isn't always blunt observations and mean jokes. It follows him as he grows up, marries, and inherits his father's drugstore, and then moves on to following one of his sons, Daniel. Daniel grows up in the 1940's and is naturally gentle, kind, and sensitive, but is treated so harshly for these traits he learns to hide himself away inside and only show emotion in explosive bouts of anger. It follows him through adolescence, college, and marriage, before moving on to one of his daughters, Shoshana. Shoshana grows up in the 1960's and is colorful, young for her age, and full of social panic. None of them know how to relate to each other or survive in a world that each of them see the beauty in but aren't allowed to connect with in their own way. And yet through the pain and confusion, they are full of love. And then everything changes for them with Shoshana's niece, Naomi, growing up in the 1990's, who will not be allowed to see herself as broken.

[trenchcoatsbi]

hi uhm announcement phil here! In my rush to get shit done I kinda forgot to announce that Tommy is going on a permanent(?)* hiatus the blog. Goodbye Big Man! o7!

In other news, I didn't get the chance to run this past Mod Boo, since she isn't active on discord at the moment, but I may go delete old request from the inbox and do a little restart for everything for this "new year" of the blog...

At the moment, all I know is that I desperately need to redo the anon list, because my notes for it are such an headache... I may just cut it down to frequent anons rather than every anon that ever sent a message, but I think I'll keep trying to write every anon down somehow... I dunno it will probably take a lot of tinkering for me to find something for this that is doable.

But uhm well I don't know how things will go just yet. Boo is still a Mod here and thusly I would like to consult her on anything I may do, but I do think changes are coming to the blog... I recall us floating around the ideas of doing like ask games and stuff a while back and I think maybe I'll play around with bringing that back!

Honestly if you have suggestions for things you may want from here I'd be glad to hear them out. Might as well do that while I have change on the mind yknow?

Hope you guys are doing well. Also sorry if I only appear sporadically, I'm between a lot of things right now. -Phil

*- Note: I say "permanent(?)" because I will not be removing his access from the blog. I'm gonna leave that door open for him to do whatever he wants with it. He's a founder yknow so uh yeah. I'm always gonna welcome him back to be a mod if he ever wants to be one again in the future.

[lemonjellytart]

Hello!!

I'm just posting to let you all know that I'm redoing my account (new pfp, banner and colours!!! :DD)

I know I'm excited for it!

I will also be doing an intro (since my dumbass hasn't done one yet) and pinning it. Or at least trying.

I'll also be linking my other socials (eg; Twitter, Pinterest) and alt accounts (TikTok & Tumblr) with both my discord accounts.

Along with that I'll also be doing a dni list, answering questions if I get asked anything and probably other things.

I'm not ashamed of my Genshin stuff, far from it, I'm just interested in something else (Project Sekai). But I sure as hell am embarrassed by my DSMP phase that somehow lasted a year, same thing with my Danganronpa phase.

I think I might have to update my intro in the Future though, as my interests can change alot along with my feelings towards things.

But I'll try to post at least once or twice a month since I have school and a puppy to take care of :') he is a nightmare sometimes

I hope everyone that reads this has a good day!!

[kwamiwayzz]

Citrus Fanfic (Rec-ish) Masterpost

Hello Hello! It’s been about two weeks since the Citrus manga ended and while it leaves some of us fans thirsty for more content, Saburouta did say she’s planning for a spin-off that’s coming up in Winter 2019 :D 

But since that’s 4 months away, I figured I could create this fanfic list that could keep y’all busy in the next few months ^^ 

Keep in mind, I actually haven’t read some of the fics on this list, but have added them here since I’ve heard good reviews from other people and thought why not add them on here too~ 

Also, if any of y’all are starting out reading Citrus fic you should definitely start here lol I actually have this a top rec on this list and have recommended it before but everything smx writes is absolutely amazing and in-character

Alright, I’ll possibly add some of my thoughts and opinions on some of the fics included in this list so...here we go~ 

Valentine’s Day by mikotyzini

Citrus: Fantasies by epitomeofdisaster

Milk and its Derivatives by Joebagadonut & WhyMeiTalksWithPigeons

Warmth by Ennju

Into the Gremlin’s Den by AlexIsOkay

A Fresh Coat by mizutanitony 

Citrus - A Compilation by mikotyzini 

My Papa by Shmehua1

Sweet and Sour by Cynical-Banshee

Tenderness by ArcanicSoul 

Market Fresh Citrics by MCMulch

Dates Like Detentions by AlexIsOkay

The Price of Pretending by AlexIsOkay

[More under the cut since I know it’ll get really long]

Citrus schtuffs by angel0wonder - Yeah, I know I’ve recommended this before countless times in the past, but honestly, I can’t help it. I love it too much and it was the Citrus fic collection that introduced me to Citrus fic and eventually inspired me to write my own. Every chapter has nice little moments of fluff and comedy that the manga is in dire need of and every character included is in character that I can almost imagine Saburouta writing this herself! There’s some angst in it too, like chapter 41, but even those ones are a great read! If you want to know my favorites to start with, I can suggest reading chapter 9, chapter 16, chapter 25, chapter 33, CHAPTER 39 (pls read this one), chapter 41, and chapter 43. There’s a lot more and I love this collection dearly, but those chapters are my absolute favorites ^^ 

Uncomfortable Truths by mizutanitony - Okay, so confession time. I was actually really, and I mean REALLY hesitant to read this fic at first because of the premise. It’s basically a sequel to a bad end if Mei chose to marry her fiance Udagawa, leaving her and Yuzu separated for almost 2 years. The fic itself actually takes place 5 years after those events transpire and Yuzu and Mei are engaged and taking care of their son who’s the biological son of Udagawa. One thing I can say to why I was hesitant in reading this at first is because I thought the drama would be way too drawn out and/or I thought the premise was mostly going to heavily focus on flashbacks that have Yuzu and Mei still be separared and Mei trying to deal with herself being married to Udagawa. But when I did give this fanfic a shot, I was surprised and honestly glad I read it. The characters are all in character, and while there’s heavy drama here and there I feel like with the situation presented, it’s necessary and justified without being too overblown. Much of the focus on this fic is Yuzu and Mei trying to manage their relationship as adults, their respective jobs, and how to take care of a child. I could actually see this be a potential route if Mei did end up marrying Udagawa at the end of the manga and did try to do everything she could to win Yuzu back. And honestly, the parts where Mei and Yuzu talk out their relationship, the parts where they’re struggling mentally (especially) in figuring out where to go from where they are, especially knowing how much their past still hurts them, is the best thing I love out of this fic. Also 12/10 the smut scenes are hot. The fic itself is almost over but the chapters themselves are really long and can give y’all something to keep yourselves busy! Give it a shot! 

Skipping a Beat by BluBerserker - I binged this fic during my stressful first week of school and I really like the direction the author is taking this story! I’m not really sure how it’s gonna pan out, but I was interested in the premise. Yuzu being sick and learning how to deal with living with a heart condition? Mmmmyes I can feel the angst. One thing I love about this fic is the chemistry established between Yuzu and Mei, especially after Mei finds out about Yuzu’s brugada syndrome and ends up feeling guilty for causing her more pain than necessary. She really starts to loosen up around Yuzu and comes to terms with her feelings a little faster and earlier than where the manga went ^^

Neapolitan Ice Cream & Secrets by DoorIsAjar - aAAAAAAAAAA, this one!! I love this one! This is the kind of fluff that I used to write during my earlier days getting used to writing Citrus fic for this fandom. It’s basically about Yuzu taking care of Mei after Mei gets her wisdom teeth pulled out and is loopy on nitrous-oxide. There’s just a charm and endearing appeal to this fic in particular, and while Mei has a more childlike demeanor because of how loopy she is, it’s actually very in character and just absolutely adorable. I’m just surprised Yuzu didn’t drop dead after the many times Mei has been too cute for her! >u<

Grandes Esperanzas by YuzuAihara1993 - I actually have not read this for the sole reason that...well, it’s in Spanish and I can’t read Spanish ^^; BUT don’t let that stop you! The reason I’m adding this on this list is because I’ve heard from different people, mainly smxmuffinpeddling, how amazing this fanfic is and how it made her cry. She actually translated a portion of this fic and even said she’s in the process of translating the fic itself! As for those who already can read Spanish, try this one out!

Studies With Wolves by punklobster - I just really like this one, okay? i wrote a gigantic ass review on AO3 detailing how much I loved it. It’s basically a Wolf Children-esque AU where Yuzu meets Mei in college but notices she’s not a student there. Just read it. Please, it’s amazing 12/10 in character and 20/10 would read again.

Dinner at Aihara’s by fishnspice - This was one of the very first Citrus fanfics I read on AO3 and it has this nice atmosphere established between Yuzu and Mei that I sometimes find myself reading over and over again. 

Daughters and Lovers by LittleElisa - Okay, I need to recommend this one. This one, while kind of intimidating to read at first because of the formatting, is actually really nice and really in-character. I found myself re-reading this fanfic about 4-5 times after the first time I gave it a chance. It takes place around Volume 3 (back before we knew what the heck would happen, so this fic is pretty old), and takes a route where Ume finds out about their relationship pretty early on and...does not take it well, leading her to separate Yuzu and Mei. She doesn’t play the “non-understanding” parent and does actually feel bad for separating her daughters like that, but realistically I felt like this is what she would do after dealing with the shock that...well, her two daughters are making out behind closed doors. Everything else about this fic is actually amazing. I think I even remembered smxmuffinpeddling beta-ing this fic at one point! Give this one a shot! Unfortunately, the fic is unfinished and hasn’t been updated in years so like...if you like cliffhangers, well...good luck ;u;

Love Like You’ll Never be Hurt by vyoria - This one takes a bit of a different route compared to most other Citrus fics I’ve read so far. It’s basically where Yuzu and Mei don’t meet until they’re much older, like possibly in their late 20s, early 30s, and Mei is married to Amamiya. Unfortunately, because of the author’s busy schedule, there’s only been 1 chapter out so far. But the premise is nice and even if it is just one chapter I suggest y’all check it out! 

i have died everyday (waiting for you) by forbiddenquill - This fic...boi, back when I read this fic I didn’t really know what to expect from it aside from it was named after a really cheesy and endearing love song from Twilight. I think the thing that gravitated me the most towards this fic was the atmosphere the author set up between Yuzu and Mei. It had been a couple months since they’d last seen each other, and you can really feel for that sense of longing they both crave while also understanding the tense atmosphere they feel around each other because of the awkwardness from being apart for so long. You know Mei wants to be with Yuzu but doesn’t know how and yet Yuzu still reaches out to her one more time just to talk. Honestly, I don’t know where this author has been but they pretty much predicted the last chapter through this fic (almost). Spoiler alert: you kinda have to read it through to know what I mean XD 

And that’s the most I could think of so far! ^^; If you guys have any other fics you feel should be on this list let me know! 

I’ve also written my own Citrus fics, but like...it feels weird self-promoting myself XD. I’ll just say that if you’re curious to read some of my stuff, I’m Zoop Top on fanfiction.net and Rolex on AO3 

;D 

[mandareeboo]

SU Music Rankings

Bc I can and I wanna start some Disk Horse rip. These are all in order of preference, with explanations, etc. It’s a long bitch. That said, I’m not counting little short jingles or small joke songs like Little Butler. This is the meat and potatoes of SU music- just under 30 songs. I might do the rest if people like my takes lol.

I scored it mostly on three bases- how dear it was to my heart, how much/often I relisten to it, and also what it means to the plot. That said, little fun songs don’t automatically go farther down than big, plot-heavy songs either! It’s a strange little balance.

Special Note: I don’t dislike any of this music! I love SU and that includes its bumps and glitches. I just pick favorite children lol.

1.) Change

Was there ever a more Steven moment than when he wiped the blood off his face and kissed it into sparkles? I think not. 

If “Be Wherever You Are” is an ode to young Steven, then this is teen Steven’s. Talking about change, and how much and how little it can do. How he holds his arms up for Spinel to hug him, so trusting. How he seems able to just. Break into soft tears at will, and not to be manipulative- it’s just his kind nature. The warmth in his voice. Fuck yesssss.

2.) Change Your Mind

This song is only fifty five seconds and it’s EVERYTHING to me. It really felt like someone was speaking the words I’d always held deep inside of me, unsure of how to say. It feels like a goodbye to someone who never really loved me. 

As much as I enjoyed Future, if this was the finale of SU, I would’ve been perfectly okay with that.

3.) Drift Away

This song gave me legitimate shivers the first time I heard it, and it still haunts me to this day. Spinel stayed, and waited, and all she got was a transmission thousands of years later. Fuck.

4.) Here We Are In The Future

THE MOVIE IS SU AS ITS BEST AND I WON’T BE SWAYED ON IT. Steven being a teen who loves his weird family but is growing just a bit sarcastic to their drama. The adorable love he and Connie share. His slow realization that he will always be working, always have things to do, is both somber and real. The Crystal Gems won’t be safe with one epic battle. They’ll be safe with years of hard work and love. HIS LITTLE HANDSHAKE WITH AMETHYST.

This is a helluva bop and a great way to summarize the main character’s backstories.

5.) Let’s Only Think About Love

Did ya’ll know that Zach Callison killed his throat with that last note? He gave his all for this performance in a vocal range he no longer comfortably do and by god did it SHINE. The FLAIR. The FORESHADOWING. All of the Gems all being awkward about Rose and Steven trying to bring them to the present. Peridot having a mini-existential crisis in a cute yellow dress. I love Zach Callison’s normal singing voice but man is that a fucking bop. Nothing will ever beat it.

6.) Here Comes A Thought

This bad boy helped me out a LOT with some mental issues I was dealing with in high school. I was unmedicated, unsupervised, and full of anxiety. I’d have break downs when I tried to speak about certain things. I couldn’t function. This song inspired me. It helped me feel okay with my intrusive thoughts.

And the episode! -chef’s kiss-. Once again bringing up the morally gray area of training child soldiers. Connie expanding her social group. Steven’s trauma hauling ass in that second half. The ANIMATION. Stevonnie’s gorgeous singing voice. GOD yes.

7.) It’s Over Isn’t It?

Just barely squeaking above Stronger Than You, this ballad is everything gorgeous. The whole episode is. I think Mr. Greg stands in the top five of my episodes for the entire show. It even got nominated!

There’s just so much about this song that I love. The gentle melancholy of Pearl’s voice. How the crew had to redo the shots for this bit bc Deedee went so fucking hard. The hard cuts between Pearl, remembering the love of her life, and Steven, who has begun to feel like he took her away. I’d recommend this song to anyone, regardless of what they do or don’t know about SU, simply bc it tugs so many heartstrings of love, loss, and responsibility.

8.) Stronger Than You

Did you realize this episode aired SEVEN years ago? This bitch was what got me into SU! Hearing about Ruby and Sapphire made my little gay heart so happy inside, and then getting a whole song confirming that they were a couple, that their love powered the strongest Gem on the team? Aaaaaaaaa

To this DAY I get excited when I hear Estelle start singing. This song is timeless. This song will live in media history. God I fucking love this song.

9.) Other Friends

I’m not the biggest musical person, so I hadn’t heard of Sarah Stiles before her casting as Spinel, but JESUS CHRIST the lady went hard. She went SO fucking hard. Sarah Stiles started on 100 and somehow just kept CLIMBING. You can just hear the sheer manic energy building in her voice, the anger and resentment. 10/10 Sarah Stiles is a queen.

10.) Independent Together

This made the list entirely bc the crew was like “you’re gonna get a himbo ass Steven-Greg fusion singing with Opal while Garnet flies across the moon on Lion while floating” and I am forever thankful to them for it

11.) Who We Are

Bismuth deserved more songs. ‘Nuff said.

12.) Peace and Love (On the Planet Earth)

It Could’ve been Great is EASILY one of my favorite s2 episodes. I love the entire concept of this song. Of Steven making music to reflect how much Earth means to him and his family. Of him teaching Peridot some self-care. Also Peridot’s singing voice is really cute and squeaky. 

I know it’s silly, but I would’ve really enjoyed a flip around of this in Future! Like Peridot reminding Steven how much he loves music, that he needs to take time to relax for himself, maybe with a new verse or just a remix of the original song!

13.) Something Entirely New

I watched this episode as it aired, and I legitimately almost cried. I love Charlyne Yi’s voice so much ya’ll- her raspy, not perfect singing voice against Sapphire’s deep soothing lull is great.

And to have Ruby and Sapphire’s meeting be the way it was- for Ruby to bemoan Sapphire losing Homeworld, to being stuck with a single Ruby, while Sapphire is a noble who has always been taught everyone in her “caste” is vitally important (and has, in her own mind, taken that to mean every Gem, as she should) and how they come together and make each other happy. Good shit good shit.

14.) I’m Just a Comet

The fact that Greg’s music career never really blasted off pisses me off to this day bc Tom Scharpling’s voice is fucking BUTTER. Also the song really feels like a jab at his parents now that we know the kind of dynamic he had growing up. “This life in the stars if all I’ve ever known” is definitely him wiping away their existence after reminding them (and himself) the things they used to say about him.

15.) Do It For Her

This episode. This fucking episode. This episode got me permanently hooked on SU. I’d just binged season 1 and was kinda meh about it overall after the bop of Stronger Than You. “Oh,” I thought to myself, foolishly, “I’ll probably just casually watch this from time to time.”

Like three days later Sworn to the Sword aired and that was it. I was hooked! Pearl’s gentle training song turning darker and darker, Connie’s accompaniment from nervous to determined to fully into such a toxic mindset. The fact that SU had the BALLS to discuss the repercussions of training child soldiers, now and later. This episode was everything to me, STILL is everything to me.

Six years and well over 100 fanfics written later, I think it’s safe to say this show swallowed me whole and never let go.

16.) System/Boot.pearl_final(3)

I debated putting this on the list because it’s not anything crazy important, just a way to show things are Wrong, but I had to do it entirely bc Pearl is so damn SALTY.

Like telling us about the Gems makes sense, she felt like she was given a duty, but she went so damn petty. WHY is that Ruby alone. Gross. This Amethyst is a trash dump. Wtf are you people.

17.) Full Disclosure

This episode really feels like a turning point for SU. Before, the show had its dark moments- but now we’re in the thick of it, and it’s not going away. Full Disclosure felt like an rebuff to the idea of returning to any normal we’d established in season 1. Gems are actually a giant species now. Gems tried to kill us now. There’s this Yellow Diamond bitch who got namedropped. Something about a Cluster. 

The song itself is BALLER, with its ingenious use of Steven’s ringtone and photos as he tries to decide whether to clue in Connie on all this nonsense. Meanwhile we, the audience, already know damn well Connie about to yeet some common sense into him.

18.) What’s the Use of Feeling Blue?

I’mma admit it- I’m a Yellow Diamond stan. I’ve always loved her- her anger, her poise, her hardworking nature. I actively argued against the “Yellow Shattered Pink” theories back in the day. But, man, when this arc leaked? I got so overexcited I was too jittery to watch it for like two days. It’s easily my favorite arc of the series. The sheer alien nature of the zoo, the Famethyst, and absolutely Patti Lupone’s beautiful ballad. Goddamn. Yellow singing to Blue to try and help her regain her old status, the warble in her voice as she reminds Blue she misses Pink too, the movement of the bubbles as she talks about attack. It gives me shivers to this day. FUCK.

19.) Tower of Mistakes

This is, fun fact, that only SU song I have completely memorized. The story itself is kinda funny! See, we lost internet at my house for a solid 5 to 6 months when these episodes aired, so I only got a very brief window to view them all. But this was the first Amethyst song in a long while, and I didn’t want to forget it! So I keep replaying it in my head for ages. And that’s still definitely a thing.

Anyway will never not be sad that this entire song was about making it up to Garnet for Amethyst’s perceived slights with Sugilite (which was a two-way road), only for Garnet to pressure her into fusion later when pissed and never discuss it again bc Garnet probably never thought twice about it and Amethyst has the emotional openness of a clam that’s just been told its ugly. Helluva way to make someone feel like shit, G. Helluva way to bottle that shit, Ames.

20.) On the Run

I’ve said it once, I’ve said it a million times: Amethyst! Needed! More! Songs! 

The dichotomy between Steven’s play and Amethyst’s honest desire to run away from home is so well-done, especially when you consider a lot of Steven and Amethyst’s actions are playing together. The song is also near and dear to me simply bc it’s my favorite Amethyst episode to exist (well, maybe second to What’s Your Problem, but not by much). Moments like these are all the proof I need that they were right to fuse first.

21.) Be Wherever You Are

This tune really just feels like an ode to who Steven was as a kid. Trapped on an island with no way home, and he’s just happy to be with his friends. The stars are beautiful and not oppressive. Also that one animatic with Lars and the Off Colors playing in the Homeworld Kindergarten to this music was iconic and made this song get stuck in my head for a solid month.

22.) Familiar

I ADORE how the crew use bright neon colors to show how alien Homeworld can be. And Steven recognizing that the Diamonds treat him how the CGs used to, and how prepared he is to “fix” a broken family. It’s a soft, gentle tune about melancholy. Also the Pebbles are beautiful.

23.) Let Me Drive My Van Into Your Heart

Such a cute little love ballad, but every time I listen to it now I just imagine the heart attack Rose must’ve had at the line “And if we look out of place/Well, baby, that's okay/I'll drive us into outer space.” like there’s a Vietnam war flashback if I ever heard one

24.) What Can I Do?

I’m kind of neutral on this one? Rose and Greg both have great voices, but the song itself lacks many lyrics. I think it was definitely a good way to show Rose’s flaws in thinking.

Also, I’m shocked they managed cram that much vaguely sexual innuendo into two minutes, followed by how Not Hetereo that dance between Rose and Pearl was, and not get their asses chewed by it. You go guys.

25.) Cookie Cat

I love a lot of the vibes this song has. The lyrics are so damn prophetic, but they also sound like the kind of weird 90s commercials I grew up on. It’s been like two decades since I saw the Shirley Temple commercial but I’ll be damned if I don’t remember “Animals crackers in my soup! Monkey and rabbits loop-de-loop.”

26.) Giant Woman

I am. NOT the biggest fan of Steven’s original singing voice. I feel bad saying that, since it was just Zach Callison as a kid, but he never jived well with me for some reason. So I wouldn’t listen to this on the fly. 

The song itself is still really good though, with all sorts of fun animation of Amethyst and Pearl being bitchy to each other. It’s a bit sad in hindsight to see tiny Steven trying to get his moms to get along. Ahh, season 1.

27.) Strong in the Real Way

This song has SUCH a strong start. Pearl reflecting on Sugilite’s problems, but the show making sure to show us that Pearl’s lack of enthusiasm towards her also lends itself to jealousy as well as just general malaise. How much she cares about Steven, and wants him to grow up strong. 

And then Steven just kinda. Ruins it? I appreciate his enthusiasm for tryna bulk up but to take what was starting as such a rich, personal song and broadcasting it to random strangers just makes me a bit sad. Almost a bit angry on her behalf?

28.) That Distant Shore

I KNOW this is gonna create some discourse, but I’m just not the biggest Lapis stan. I love her voice. I love the visuals of the song. And I get why she felt afraid and needed to flee.

But Lapis never got to take responsibility for her own actions. And, in the end, the song feels hollow to me- because we all know she’ll never talk to anyone about it, know she’ll burst back in and destroy the barn, and no one will ever question it. I like Lapis a lot, but I feel like her arc never was fully finished. She never got help. She never learned to feel safe.

29.) Dear Old Dad

I’ve yet to meet a single human being who likes this episode tbh. There’s some great discussion about what kind of parent Greg is from it, and what kind of dynamic he has with the Gems that he felt he had to fake an injury to hang out with his son. Honestly the first half was fine and dandy. It’s just that then they Greg just went out of his way to drag Steven away from missions and such. It never jived well with his character before or after.

Also, is it just me, or does Zach himself sound like he hates the song as he sings it? There’s no passion or heart in his voice. It sounds like they told him to read off cue cards and he did. Tom Scharpling’s best attempts didn’t save this one for being a skipper. But the episode, unfortunately, isn’t, so it gets a spot on here.

[littletealseal]

💕🐉Agere HeadCanons for Pitaya Dragon Cookie🐉💕

🐉 : Pitaya is very private about his regression with others, especially with the other dragons due to his rocky relationship with them (could change later depending on when the other two release).

🐉 : Pitaya actually learned about age regression through White Lily after Hollyberry was looking for a way to sooth the big dragon. She agreed to look after Pitaya when regressed due to knowing him pretty well from their previous encounters.

🐉 : When regressed, Pitaya is incredibly silly and playful, almost resembling a golden retriever puppy! He loves to run around on all fours and explore, his favorite toys to play with being blocks, puzzle boxes, his stuffies and toys that make a lot of sounds!

🐉 : Pitaya loves to play with his other agere friends, especially Adventurer and Tiger Lily Cookie, since he can rough house with them a bit more than other smol cookies and they can keep up with his energy.

🐉 : Pitaya does know when to pull back though with more fragile regressors thanks to White Lily back in the day such as with Beet Cookie, he mainly plays with toys and cuddles with her. Due to her being on the more sensitive side when smol, Pitaya is very protective of Beet when she is regressed, even if he is too!

🐉 : Pitaya loves to finger paint and if not supervised and given big enough of a canvas to work on, he’ll find more “canvas” to work with! Aka walls and floors.

🐉 : Despite appearing very independent when regressed, Pitaya actually will become incredibly stressed out if his CG isn’t nearby or he doesn’t know where they are, resulting in Pitaya loudly crying until he isn’t alone anymore.

🐉 : Pitaya cries a lot as a way to communicate since he is mainly non verbal while regressed. Sometimes he just cries in order to get the attention of  Hollyberry for snuggles and hugs.

🐉 : Pitaya prefers using bottles to drink anything out of when regressed, and loves simple foods like porridge’s and soups, as well as crackers and candy.

🐉 : Regressed Pitaya loves to chew on anything and everything, if it’s not baby dragon proofed then prepare to have teeth marks everywhere.

🐉 : Pitaya likes to just wear a t-shirt for the most part since clothing makes him uncomfortable when regressed, but he loves wearing onesies for some reason. He has a fluffy blue hooded onesie and one that’s a dragon with a tail and everything! Hollyberry can’t wrap her head around that one.

🐉 : Pitaya always will fall right to sleep when someone sings him a lullaby, or plays very soothing music, regardless if he’s regressed or not.

🐉 : Pitaya stims ALOT when regressed since then he feels safe enough to express himself openly without harassment or scorn. He loves extending his wings, wagging his tail, and either stomping/kicking his feet when he’s really happy, excited giggling and/or squealing is usually mixed in with any/all these actions. 💚

🐉 : Regressed Pitaya usually holds his favorite stuffy, or his tail close when frightened/worried, and tends to hide in his nursery until he feels better or is coaxed our by Holly or a close friend with reassuring words of comfort.

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All the headcanons I got for regressor Pitaya at this point in time :3 I might add more in the future but I’m happy with what I got down ^^

Thinking on it I’m probably also gonna redo my DE hc list since the art in that one was done BEFORE I learned about stabilizing my brush in Clip Studio Paint, aaaand I feel I can tinker on how some hcs are written since I feel I got a better grasp on how to explain and present everything. Idk when that will be but I do hope soon c:

[echonidae]

let’s talk commission stuff!

hey folks !!  so i’ve been reorganizing myself to get commissions back on track, and i’ve got some things i’d like to get your input on, if it isn't too much trouble !! ;v;

it’s a long one, so under the cut it goes sdfghghj

a slightly too long tl;dr because apparently this is a 10min read (i'm so sorry): commission revamp on the works! no date for it yet. gonna be easing myself back with just icons for a while at first (no date for that either thoug, not yet), then the revamp will be in full swing with all the other commission options, and the pricetable for them will be changed in the future as well. 

some questions: 

1) i’m rethinking commission types, is there anything you’d like to see as a new option?  2) considering i tend to open only a handful slots every batch, i'm thinking about implementing a waitlist (with a bit of a twist: it's split between Current Batch and Next Batch; a little more complicated than a regular ol' waitlist, allows me to get through some of the waitlist queue as work gets done). would that interest you or is it too much of a headache? 100% open to suggestions! 3) i’m organizing a board on trello for commission stuffs !! any suggestions or specific things you’d like to see there?

so! it’s already been over a year since i last opened commissions and i’d very much like to get back to them ;o; it’s been way too long! i miss working with you folks aaa

i don’t have a reopening date yet, but i’m planning on opening only icons for a while to ease back into the process. later on, i'll open the other commission options too. you see, i’m working on a full revamp of the whole thing, including the terms of service and that info image with the examples (because looking back, i think it no longer really represents my current style and how i really do commissions in terms of just... plain old rendering and polishing), so i’ll be working on new drawings and a new layout too, and all that good jazz :D

for full disclosure, along with this overhaul of the terms and such, i will be updating prices too c: i’m still working on the new values though, since i need to figure out what commission types/options the overhaul will have. which brings me to the first question here: what would you like to see as a commission option? for reference, here’s the og options:

(hoo i need to redo those examples *sweats*)

also, one more thing i’d like to note about this revamp situation: there isn’t a whole lot that’s changing really haha it’s just been a long, long time since i last did commissions, so i’m reviewing terms and i might change stuff that’s become outdated, or that needs clarification. if you’ve commissioned me before, the process itself is still the same so no worries! once the revamp is out, i’ll point out anything that has changed too c:

in regards to price changes, those first icon-only batches will be in their original price, and the new prices will only take effect once the revamp with the other options is out. it will be quite a while before until that, but if you have any concerns, feel free to message me any time ! either way, i’ll keep you folks posted !! i guess i also could post the new prices before implementing them, if that helps!

so, moving on! now to the waitlist situation <:3c as in, i’ve never had one, a while back someone asked if i did, and now that i’m reorganizing things, i’m wondering if it would be good to implement one :3c feel free to send any questions !! or suggestions!! i'm all ears!!!

usually i only open a handful of slots for each batch, right, and once they're all claimed, the commissions are closed until all the slots are finished. folks who missed the slots have to wait until the next batch, and sometimes those batches take a while to come back, and i usually just message those who missed the opening once the new batch is announced.

what i'm thinking for the waitlist is, i'll open it along with the batch of commissions, and limit it to a specific number of spots or close it by a specific date, whichever comes first. to apply for it, people would just need to send the form and i can tell them immediately whether or not i can draw their request, and then they'll be placed on the waitlist in the order they’ve been accepted c: pretty standard stuff.

here’s the important bit: that list is basically split in two. the first handful of people on the list, corresponding to the amount of slots for the current batch, will be reached out to as i finish working on the claimed slots, and then anyone else on the waitlist will be contacted shortly before the next batch. if, by the time the list closes, not all the opened slots have been claimed, folks on the list will simply be moved up the queue accordingly c: all of it would be discussed individually, of course, and very well disclosed in the commission info!

there are other points to it as well: anyone would be able to request a spot on the next batch's waitlist instead of the current one, and anyone can leave either list at any point. folks who had already claimed a slot when it first opened would only be able to apply for the next batch's waitlist (to give everyone a chance of getting one), and people on the list, either for the current or the next round of commissions, can be skipped up to a limit if they're unable to continue the order once i get to them.

oh and, before i forget, with the waitlist in place, i think i’d no longer be able to put slots on hold as i used to (as in, before paying the first invoice), as it’d be unfair to folks on the list. in that case, the person would be placed on the list as well if they want to, and contacted as soon as possible : )

also the "up to 2 slots per person" thing would be on thin ice too haha

anyway, this is kind of what i intended to do back then, with reopening slots as work gets finished, but never got around to. i want to make sure i don’t swamp myself with work, but also have it so that folks who want slots have a good chance of getting them, whether for the current batch or the next, as there's only so many slots i can open and work on at once, and time zones and irl things are to be considered too for anyone interested c:

it also makes it easier for me to keep track of messaging folks about new slots and such, and the list would be made public and easily available for consulting too : D more on this later!

so how's this looking? i've never done waitlists before and barely knew how they're supposed to work before starting to reorganize things, so please do feel free to voice your thoughts !! i’m 100% open to suggestions !!! do you think this system would work out for you? any concerns? if anything is unclear feel free to point it out, i'll do my best to explain the process or change stuff that doesn't quite work!!

so!!! now to the very last thing i wanted to talk about ! trello! 

i’m making a little trello board for updates on commission stuff! my commission info page here on tumblr and on deviantart both have this little section for updates on each slot’s progress, but i admittedly didn't do a good job keeping them updated (and constantly updating two things in different places just. kinda sucks.), so i’ve been diving into trello to unify that update section in one place and keep things nice and organized and transparent : ) it would be super useful for keeping track of the waitlist too, if that becomes a thing, or for updates on commission status and such!

so far i’m only testing things out, so it’s looking like this right now (sorry for the tiny image!):

(the board is lying btw, commissions are very much closed haha) (also if it’s basically unreadable, here’s the upload on sta.sh)

with all those little lists, the “available slots” and “sketch” and “lineart” and whatnot, i would be moving the card along the process : D and adding the appropriate labels, of course

this way i can have those halfsteps labelled too (working on/halfway through/finishing), since there’s only so many colors i can use without making it confusing (and tbh i’m already not too thrilled about color labels as it is, but it beats typing each individual status, and i’d imagine it’s more readable for folks consulting the list as well)

i really like how this looks so far in terms of organization but i’m unsure if the horizontal scrolling is anything but annoying, specially to folks on mobile (with the way i divide my screen on desktop, it certainly isn’t ideal either), so if you have any experience with that, feel free to let me know your thoughts!! there are a thousand different ways to organize this, and this is all a work in progress too c:

so! anything specific you folks would like to see on trello? i know this is a fairly common tool for commission queues and info and such but i’m super new to this platform, so please feel free to send suggestions! ♥

anyway yeah! that’s it! ;0; !

i’m sorry for the super long post, i’ve just been thinking about a lotta stuff haha i feel like i don’t interact a whole lot as it is, and since commissions are very much a team effort, i do want to get input from you folks on it c: it’s good to get a fresh perspective as well!

thank you so much for reading this far !! let me know your thoughts !!! :D ♥

[notalwaysthevillian]

My Whirlpool of a Life

Ships: Kaminari/OC

Word Count: ~2.2k

I will not be doing a tag list for this fic.

Masterlist

Chapter 2: Best Room Contest

Dinner had been delicious, with hardly anyone taking because we were busy stuffing our faces. I got sandwiched between Kirishima and Mina, the latter of which was chatting about how awesome dorm life would be.

“The girls can take clean up duty.” Mina declared as soon as everyone was finished.

The boys didn’t argue, heading into the common room to hang out without another word.

“Mina, I’m sure we could’ve convinced some of them to clean up.” Jirou huffed as she leaned back against the kitchen counter.

Mina shrugged as she started filling the sink with soapy water. “Yeah, probably, but now we can have some girl time. Plus I wanted to ask Nami about her quirk, aren’t you curious?!”

Holding back a smile, I activated my quirk. There were a few gasps as the water followed my hand motions, starting to rinse the dishes.

“Ooooh, that’s so cool!” Thankfully Hagakure talked with her hands a lot, so I knew it was her.

“Sooooo, I have a fun idea.” We had to wait a moment for Mina to continue as she scrubbed a particularly crusted dish. “What if we had a room contest? To see who has the coolest room?”

“You just want to see the boys’ rooms.” I teased, poking her in the side.

She flung her hands in the air, sending soapy water everywhere. “Well, duh!”

“Ew!” Uraraka shrieked as the water soaked her.

Flicking my wrist, I pulled the water out of her clothes and put it back in the sink. “My quirk can come in really handy with dishes.”

“Can you shoot water from your hands?” Tsu had a finger on her chin. “Or do you pull it from the air?”

“More of the second one.” I gestured to the open air around us. “There’s almost always water in the air, or the potential to make water. So I pull the molecules around to create it, and then I can manipulate it. As long as something is mostly water I can control it, but it has to be like…95% water. I wouldn’t be able to control soup, but I could control sweat. Maybe? I’m not really sure, I haven’t tried.”

“You’ll have to tell Deku about your quirk.” Uraraka leaned against one of the chairs. “He takes notes on all of our quirks and keeps them in this notebook that he carries around. He’ll want all the details.”

“I wish I knew everything about it. There’s still a lot I’m figuring out.”

She gave me a smile. “We all are! Mr. Aizawa is a great teacher, he’ll help you learn everything!”

“So??” Mina interrupted, having finished the last dish. “Are we gonna have a competition or what?”

“Can I change into something else first?”

“Hagakure, no one can see you.”

“Still!”

“Okay, okay.” Yao-Momo held up her hands, silencing everyone. “Why don’t we all change and then go ask the boys? If they don’t want to participate, we shouldn’t force them.”

The girls departed, each of us slipping into sleepwear. I threw on some shorts and one of my comfy band t-shirts before meeting the girls downstairs.

Mina and Hagakure lead the way, darting into the common area.

“So the girls and I have been taking and-”

“We have a great idea!”

“Let’s see who has the coolest room!”

Midoriya started panicking, but I realized that a few people were missing.

“Hey, Uraraka,” I nudged her, keeping my voice low. “Where’s Tsu?”

“She didn’t feel good, so she’s resting.”

“Oh, I hope she feels better by tomorrow.”

Tsu seemed cool, and she’d been fine when we were doing dishes, but I didn’t want to pry. Maybe it was some frog thing that happened at night that I didn’t know about.

I realized that everyone had headed upstairs and they were looking around Deku’s room. Uraraka disappeared from my side to look around.

“You’re such a fan boy!”

Glancing in I saw a lot of posters of All Might. He had been the number one hero until recently, with the incident in Kamino Ward. He was a cool hero, but he’d never been my all time favorite.

“You know, Deku’s smart. This will all be worth a lot someday.” I caught the look on Deku’s face and laughed. “If you can part with it.”

“Does this mean they’re judging our rooms too?” I heard Kaminari ask from the doorway.

I put one arm on his shoulder, standing on tiptoe to try and get closer to his height. “Well yeah, I gotta judge where I’m gonna be spending most of my time.”

His face flamed immediately, making me, Kirishima, and Sero laugh.

“You’re really cool, Nami. I’ve never seen a girl flirt back so hard.” Sero said through his laughter.

Kaminari shifted so he could get an arm over my shoulders. “Anything for you, princess.”

The nickname sent a shockwave through me, or was that his quirk. I tensed immediately, feeling my control slip as memories flooded my brain.

“Woah, hey.” Kaminari’s voice was softer now, and he pulled me away from the crowd. “Are you okay? I didn’t mean-”

“It’s not your fault.” I managed to get out, cringing as I heard my voice crack. “I just - I - please don’t call me princess.”

“I won’t do it again.” He held up a hand as though swearing an oath. “Future boyfriend’s honor.”

That broke the tension, getting a small smile from me. “Thanks.”

“We’re missing Tokoyami’s room.” He gently guided me to the open doorway. “Woah.”

“Honestly, I could nap in here.”

The room was pretty dark, with glowing purple accents around the place.

We continued on, with Aoyama’s room looking exactly as I’d pictured, and all of us agreeing to skip Mineta’s room.

“So, the third floor then?” Uraraka asked, the other girls agreeing immediately.

“Hey, why are only the boys getting picked on?” Mineta’s voice rang out down the hall. “Nami’s room is on this floor too, I don’t see you ripping her door open.”

Everyone looked at me, and I shrugged. “It’s just a room, go ahead. A few of you have already seen it anyway.”

“What? Before me?” Kaminari darted over and opened my door. “Woah, super chill vibes.”

Mina glanced around. “You really like the color blue, don’t you?”

“Says Miss Pink!”

“You might be able to get Mr. Aizawa to let you have some fish in this fountain.” Koda swished the water around a little. “The water is the perfect temperature.”

“We used to have a Koi pond at home, do you think he’d be cool with that?”

Koda’s eyes lit up. “We should ask!”

“There’s a lot of benefits to having a koi pond.” Iida started going off with facts. Most people headed to the next floor, but I listened to a few more. “It would have a good calming effect. Koda could practice his quirk.”

“I could practice mine too.” I cut in.

Iida looked at me. “Apologies, I hadn’t asked what your quirk is.”

“No big deal! I call it Wave. I can essentially create water particles out of the air? I’m sure there’s a better scientific explanation, but I don’t know all the specifics.”

“That’s interesting. Perhaps we could go over it some other time? The others are eager to move on, and my room is on the next floor.”

Without giving me a chance to respond, he ran up the stairs.

I joined in time to see Ojiro looking disappointed. His room looked pretty plain, so I shuffled into the rest of the group to see the next room.

“Wow, it looks like a library in here!” Ochaco said as we walked in.

Iida was happy to show off his room, including the rows of glasses he had in case they broke in training.

Kaminari’s room was next, with all of the girls insulting it immediately. He sighed as they moved on, looking really down.

“I think it looks cozy.”

He flashed me a quick smile. “You really are perfect.”

“I’m really not -”

“Perfect for me.”

That comment had me blushing, as much as I tried to hold it back. I put a hand on his face, shoving him backwards. “Come on, there’s still plenty of rooms to see.”

“Do any of the rest of them matter now that you’ve seen mine?”

“Koda has a bunny!” I heard one of the other girls squeal.

I darted off to join them, hearing Kaminari whine. “No fair, we don’t get pets!”

We moved on to the next floor, avoiding Bakugo’s room since he was sleeping. Kirishima yawned, making Mina run off to his room next.

“You can sleep after!”

Kirishima’s room looked more like a gym than a bedroom, and Shoji’s barely had anything at all.

“We’ll finish the boys’ rooms, and then move onto the girls’. Next floor!”

Sero’s room had more of an exotic feel to it, which none of us had been expecting. Todoroki had somehow managed to redo some of the doors even, turning it into a Japanese getaway. 

“How did you remodel this entire room in just one day?!” Mineta threw his hands in the air.

“With hard work.”

“Shit, Todoroki.” I leaned in the doorframe. “I’m calling you to remodel.”

“Last up is Sato!”

“Something smells good.” Ojiro sniffed the air.

Sato gasped. “Oh I forgot! I finished unpacking early and started making a cake! Did you guys want some?”

“Yes!” All of us girls chimed in, the promise of sugar flooding our brains.

“No fair, he’s bribing the judges.” Kaminari complained, crossing his arms.

I took some cake from Sato, offering him thanks, before holding up a piece to Kaminari. “I take bribes. What are you offering?”

He grinned, grabbing the piece I held out and popping it into his mouth. “That depends. How much of a bribe do I need?”

“You’ve gotta beat this delicious cake.”

One of his arms wrapped around my waist, pulling us nose to nose. “I can think of a sweeter bribe.”

“Kaminari leave her alone!”

I giggled as Kaminari pecked my forehead. “Mina, it’s fine, I really don’t mind. He’s cute.”

“Aw, come on, just cute?”

“Let’s go, it’s the girls’ turn!” Mineta cried out, heading over to the elevator. “Back to the third floor, we already saw Nami’s.”

Jirou showed off her room a little hesitantly.

I gasped after she opened the door. “It looks like a recording studio!”

Everyone got really excited over her room, but Jirou was hunched over the whole time.

“Who’s next?” I called out.

Hagakure excitedly ran over to her room, which I realized was above mine.

Jirou nudged my shoulder. “Thanks.”

“No problem, it looked like you were getting overwhelmed.”

It looked like someone had thrown up pink all over Hagakure’s room, whereas Mina’s had more of a black and pink vibe.

Ochaco showed us hers, rubbing the back of her neck. “Not very interesting, I know.”

“Aww, I love the picture of you and your parents.” I gestured to the frame on her desk. “That’s adorable.”

“Thanks! We take one every year, but I love that one. I was two.”

“You were so cute!” Reaching out, I pinched her cheek. “You still are.”

“Aw, thank you!”

We skipped over Tsu’s room, with Ochaco explaining that she wasn’t feeling good, and headed to Yao-Momo’s room.

“How did you even fit that in here?”

Her bed was gigantic, barely fitting in the room. Jirou poked my shoulder, whispering, “Momo’s rich, so she brought her stuff from home. I saw some people building it in here because it wouldn’t fit through the door. They had to take it apart.”

“That’s everyone! Let’s go downstairs and vote!”

Mina led us all to the common area, handing out little scraps of paper.

“When did she make these?” Kirishima asked, before covering up a yawn.

I couldn’t help but yawn in response. “I have no clue.”

We all put our votes in, and Mina gathered them up and counted them.

“Alright everybody! Here are the winners of the first Best Room competition…minus Bakugo and Tsu. With five votes, the winner of this contest is: Rikido Sato!” Mina announced. “By the way, most of the girls voted for you. That cake was delicious!”

Mineta and Kaminari immediately went in on Sato, yelling at him for bribing the judges.

“Wait, who didn’t vote for him?” Kaminari pulled away from yelling at Sato for a second.

I raised my hand. “I wasn’t bribed by cake so much as I was a bunny. I voted for Koda.”

“Aww, come on babe!” He threw himself backwards, laying across my lap. “I voted for you!”

“Because my room is obviously better.”

“Could you two just ask each other out? You obviously like each other!” Hagakure shouted, causing everyone to look at us.

Kirishima waved a hand over us. “You’ve been flirting with each other since you met.”

Kaminari started stammering, but I shrugged. “I wouldn’t mind calling you my boyfriend. You’re already way more energetic than my last one, I could use a change.”

“I - what?”

Rolling my eyes, I yanked Kaminari up to look him in the eye. “Do you want to date me?”

“Y-yeah, obviously.” He flushed as a few people “aw”d. “Is asking someone out that easy?”

“Yeah, pretty much.” I got up from the couch, stretching my arms over my head. “I’m exhausted. Good night guys!”

“Good night!”

[darkpoisonouslove]

2021 Projects

It’s a new year and since my writing kinda slowed in the last couple of months (more like for over half a year now), I thought it would be motivating for me and informative for anyone who’s interested to lay out my ideas for my work during 2021. Now I do not call these plans because I do not want to jinx anything but I am excited about these projects and I hope that I will manage to fit them in throughout this year.

- Fix-It Series - a series of fics that deals mostly with the plot holes in the first three seasons of Winx. I have already written two works that would be part of that series once it is officially launched - Ice Is Stronger with Some Lightning and Darkness Mixed in; Left to Heritage - and have started work on several others. Now this isn’t so much a rewrite as much as it is me being petty enough to go “this could be fixed while still keeping the original sequence of events (on a grand scale) and I will prove it if the writers couldn’t be bothered to do so”. I am also confining this to the first three seasons because the rest would need complete rewrites (though, tbh I am not sure whether season 3 doesn’t fit into that mold as well).

- Season 2 CT arc - Now I already said that I would be writing fix-it fics but this one I feel deserves its own mention because I have taken it a bit far already. I am basically writing an entire curriculum about dark magic because I was getting annoyed by the fact that they never really learned much and I have taken the liberty to do some worldbuilding and mention a lot of other things that were never actually addressed. So now it will probably clock out on tens of thousands of words and it will need to be regarded as a separate thing. I am thrilled about all the things I have come up with, however, and hope this will be received well because I have really put my heart into it (and my mental energy) and have invested too much attention in detail.

- Speaking of rewrites, I have already started work on the season 6 rewrite thanks to an ask I got. I have outlined a big part of it and made all the changes to the overall structure of the season that I felt necessary. Currently, everything it needs is to map out each episode separately before I can write them out. I will be doing this in more of a script format because a full-on fic will take too much time that I really want to devote to some of my other projects from the endless pile. I am thrilled about the changes I have made and the arcs I have given the characters and I am really looking forward to actually producing the final form of this one.

- Fae creature AU - This is a story actually inspired by my rage over Fate: The Winx Saga. Or rather by the fact that they do not look like fairies at all in there so I actually took the liberty to reimagine the plot of the cartoon a slightly different way. The main gist is that Bloom never meets Stella on that summer day in the park. They meet years later after Bloom has already settled and has a family on Earth only for all of that to be shaken to the ground by the reveal that she is a fae creature with a long, long life ahead of her. The two of them need to adjust to the reality that they are some of the last of their kind and having a future becomes harder, the longer that future is. I have mapped out the most part of the plot of this but I am still staggering with my approach to the execution. I am currently betting on a long one-shot (something of 20-30k+ words) but we will see how that goes once I have a clearer idea about the actual structure.

- Bloom/Sky childhood... rivals AU - This one was totally born while I was making my Bloom/Sky Kerosene video. It deals with the way things would be happening if Bloom had been raised on Domino by her real parents and her and Sky had known each other all along. I have more concepts for this one than an actual, concrete plot but I have already done some work on the relationships that I want this to focus on. Bloom and Sky getting to actually develop as people alongside each other is the focus of this, of course, but there is a lot more that I would like to explore. Their relationship with their own parents (mostly their mothers) and responsibilities is something that I feel would have a big impact on them considering their titles. And of course, the best friends are also there - Brandon and Stella ftw! Plus, the other main characters will be getting in on this as well. However, due to the span of time this will have to cover and the lack of any plot or structure for it, this one will probably have a longer time to sit in the drawer until I can manage to solidify this as a story.

- 31-Day Fic Collection - I have already started this as a sort of writing exercise to keep me in the flow of things during January and February while I am dealing with finals and other uni stuff. I am planning on keeping this confined only to one couple (that you’ll never guess) but we’ll see. The prompts I have picked would require a certain dose of creativity that I usually get around exams when I am too busy to keep my eyes open, let alone write. I am planning on posting these during March in order to open that month for other writing but we’ll see how that will go since I am really behind on all of it (3/31). Anyway, I just wanted to announce this so that, hopefully. I will commit to it now that it is out in the open.

- 200-Followers Celebration - I still haven’t done that and it is the reason why I want to have March as a free month in my schedule in order to host this celebration. I was hoping I could post the ready works while I am working on completing any and all requests from the celebration. I am also pretty close to 300 followers but not quite there yet so it is possible that I will have the two celebrations together but only time will tell. I have not exactly figured out what to do with the celebrations but I have a couple options and will make sure to choose from them by the time this can be kicked into motion. In the meantime, I am open to ideas if you have any.

- Old requests - I have several old requests sitting in my inbox that I have neither forgotten about, nor abandoned. I just hit a roadblock with all of them but I am actually hoping to finish them by the time the follower celebrations are finished. Now these include a handful of requests for the Sparks of Life verse that are about to get a year-old at this point, the leftover requests about the Domme AU and two other requests from a random prompt list I reblogged around June last year. To be fair the SoL ones are the least thought out so far but I will get to all of them... at some point.

- Sparks of Life - now that I mentioned that, I have several works... in the works for this verse. I have announced all of them already but have not made much progress because I was just not feeling any kind of writing impulses lately. I am still excited about all of these stories but I just haven’t managed to find the right direction for them yet. I believe that stories get completed when they are ready to be completed but I will still do my best to actually put in the effort to finish all of these and finally share them because I have been hyped about them for so long and I have been posting random excerpts from them all and getting people on here hyped as well.

- Season 1 Re-rewatch - I will probably have to rewatch all of the seasons if I am fixing things in them but for this one, I might actually redo my “reviews” because I didn’t write my thoughts on it in-depth the first time around. Besides, it turns out to be the most solid season so taking it apart could help me immensely with all of my writing projects and that makes it worth the effort (besides, it’s not like I don’t rewatch random episodes whenever I feel like it).

- World of Winx Thoughts - I have actually started watching and reviewing this but I had to stop thanks to my uni workload and other things that needed to be done (honestly, everything is such a mess right now). I liked what I saw but, of course, I only got through the first episode so we’ll see how this goes.

- Fate: The Winx Saga Thoughts - I will be writing out my opinions on this as well but I have no idea when I’ll manage to get to that (either free time or making myself sit down and watch it). Not much of a project, really, but I thought I’d mention it.

[frtools]

Profile update

Busy times indeed. Been working hard IRL on a job, but that hasn’t stopped me from putting some time in to this project every now and again! This update is regarding profiles. It’s something that has been in dire need, since it started to become somewhat unmanageable. Most of the changes are “under the hood” but there are definitely changes for users as well.

Profile settings revamp

The reason this blog post is here, the profile settings revamp. The old system was a mess of enumerations and checking for flags based on the same value.. was nice for when it was just a few things but now it has grown too much. So back to basics and everything is now toggleable. A simple Yay or Nay for each setting, on a brand new page too!

I ported over all the settings from the previous way how it was saved into this new system. So you shouldn’t need to change anything if say your profile was private before the “Profile visibility” will simple already be toggled to “Private”.

Now you might be noticing a few settings that weren’t there before on the old page..

Pinglists on profiles

First off, profiles will finally show a user’s (public) pinglists. Since our good friend autopilot has a lot of them on their account, I’m borrowing it for a screenshot. (ngl, this is only a third of the pinglists x.x)

These will appear under your skins and previews, if you have them enabled on your profile of course. Naturally, you can disable showing pinglists on your profile if you do not use that tool or if you don’t plan to have any public lists.

Profile bio and FR link visibility

While I was redoing stuff on the profile page I was looking at that blob at the top where it says if you have your Flight Rising account linked. For one it felt very barren, and secondly it felt a bit exposed. The FR verification is something I added to give ease of mind to people looking at skins and wanting to make sure this wasn’t a stolen skin. But I got some features in mind that will require this link in the future that doesn’t really need it to be so visible. So I made it a toggle! You can link your account and hide it on the places that show it.

This made the amount of text in that block really small, so I figured why not include some user content there in the form of a simple bio? So I did. You can edit your profile’s bio and just add some text there. It doesn’t support any rich text or anything, so no bbcode or html. It supports new lines though, so it got that going for it.

Manage skins

The manage skins section of the skin tester always felt somewhat out of place on the account management page. This used to make sense when the skin tester was literally the only thing on the website. But with all the things added over time it felt very out of place. So I moved it to it’s own page under the skin tester section.

And that is about it. A lot of changes were under the hood as mentioned to make this more snappy and more expandable in the future.

As always if you got any questions, problems or just plain want to chat feel free to join our Discord server! I’m always open for suggestions too, if you have them.

[how-to-portuguese]

Review of Practice Portuguese Paid Content

The Practice Portuguese team produce a lot of amazing free content on YouTube, their podcast, and their website. But is their paid platform good value for money?

I finally decided to pay for a one-month subscription to access the Practice Portuguese paid content. I give my initial thoughts on the pros and cons below.

(Disclaimer: this post was originally written in Jan 2021, but was added to my queue to post at a later date. The current prices and content may differ.)

What the platform offers

Pros

The scope of the content

The platform has very solid A1-B1 content and is expanding their B2+ content. It currently gives at least an introduction to every verb conjugation, which will get you through B1 and started with B2. Their introductory and elementary material is definitely more developed than their intermediate and advanced material, but they are also expanding their content as their community grows. They seem receptive to suggestions and the needs of their users, so it might be a good time to get involved in their online community to help shape the way that the platform evolves.

Quality of the content

The website has very clear and extremely detailed explanations. The learning notes are WAY more detailed than grammar explanations on DuoLingo. In particular, I think they have very good lessons on clitic and tonic pronouns, including rules of when to include the clitic pronoun before, after, and in the middle of the verb. They also have great lessons and learning notes on pronunciation, including a whole lesson dedicated to open vs closed vowels with examples of minimal pairs and homophones (with audio recordings).

Plenty of audio content

Every word or phrase in Portuguese has an audio recording. Simply hover above the word or phrase, and you will see a speaker icon to play the recording and a turtle icon to slow down the recording. They use a variety of native speakers in their lessons, so you will hear multiple accents of Portugal. They also have a mix of clear recordings and recordings with background noise (e.g., in a café or train station). There is always an additional clear recording is always available when they have audio content with background noise. This is all in addition to their free audio content on YouTube, their podcast, and their social media accounts. With the combination of paid and free content, it is definitely possible to develop solid listening skills.

Verb conjugation practice

There is a section of the website where you can practice verb conjugations. You can practice each tense individually, a combination of indicative (past, present, future), a combination of conjunctive and imperative, or a combination of all verb tenses. It provides all the benefits of flashcard apps without having to make the content yourself.

Multiple ways of reviewing material

You can revisit each lesson as many times as you need, the platform automatically creates flashcards as you start more lessons, and you can review in quiz mode if you prefer this to flashcards. They have a smart review feature that adapts to how well you have mastered a word or phrase. You can also manually manage the words and phrase that you review by moving them between "short term memory", "long term memory", "mastered" the lists and you can remove them from all lists. The app is focused on mastery and not gamification, so you won’t get constant notifications or lose progress on basic content just because the app wants to keep your level of engagement high.

Full access to all the content

Once you purchase access to the platform, you can click through all content and do lessons out of order. You don't have to unlock levels or master a concept before moving on to the next. This allows you to focus material you need to know and learn at your own pace. This is a nice experience for those who already have some knowledge of portuguese and don't want to go through another set of introductory lessons just to get to the elementary and intermediate content.

Tailored for expats, not tourists

A lot of online introductory material is tailored for tourists, who only need very superficial knowledge of Portugal. This platform includes grammar and vocabulary lessons tailored for immigrants (e.g., immigration office, getting residency, renting an apartment, buying a house, etc.) AND lots of lessons around culture, which is good for those who are interested in studying or living in Portugal. The platform includes so many idiomatic expressions and interjections!

Building a community, not just a platform

There is a pretty active forum for paid members. Members can ask questions and comment on individual lessons. Overall, this is similar to the DuoLingo forum. However, when I tried to ask questions or comment on EP vs BP differences on the DuoLingo forum, it was not well received. Some people were quite hostile, with at least one person saying that all the best American universities teach Brazilian Portuguese so there’s no point trying to learn European Portuguese. This was really disheartening, so I quickly stopped posting and it set me back at an early stage of my studies. I think it would have been really valuable to have a supportive community specifically dedicated to EP, so new language learners would really benefit from this.

No ads, no gamification

In my experience, gamification doesn’t make something more fun. It just feels like a poor attempt to generate more advertising revenue or incentivise you to buy add-ons or purchase a paid version. I like having a sense of completing something to mastery, so gamification that results in constantly losing lives, losing progress on lower levels, having to redo an entire tree five times, and being sent constant notifications to practice actually makes me want to use the app less.

The Practice Portuguese platform doesn’t have any of this. No gamification. No ads. Just mastery of topics you want to study, at your own pace, with no added pressure. It is much more affordable than a lot of other paid language-learning software. I am working full-time now, so I am in a position where I am able to pay for this. And I definitely appreciate the ad-free environment that focuses on learning and not getting users to spend more money.

Good value for money

Can get you from A0-B1 (with some intro to B2 content) for €15 a month or €153 if you buy an annual subscription (15% discount). This is far cheaper than any classes or private lessons I have paid for myself or seen elsewhere, and it is much cheaper than most other paid language-learning software. For basically the price of a monthly streaming service, you get unlimited access to the platform with no limit on the number of devices you can use.

Cons

Note: Not all of these are inherently cons or things that I think Practice Portuguese should change. This post is more of a discussion of what is and is not available on the platform. The platform does have cons if you are looking for specific tools or features that are not offered.

Content is paid with no free trial

The paid content does not come with a free trial. Practice Portuguese is a small company with a small team AND they produce a ton of free content, so I get it. They need some source of revenue to support content production and web hosting.

But, some people may be hesistant to commit to a subscription without knowing what they will be getting first. Honestly, one of the main reasons I didn't sign up sooner is that I wasn't sure if they would have lessons dedicated to learners at the B2 (or higher) level. I was also somewhat concerned about the quality of the content, given the poor quality of so many of the other European Portuguese apps. After seeing the Practice Portuguese team consistently produce high-quality free content, I decided to give the paid platform a try.

They offer a €15 one-month subscription that automatically renews each month. This is what I went for just to get an overview of the content. The website says that they will refund you within the first 30 days if you want to cancel, but I can't say anything about how smooth this process is yet. They also allow you to cancel the monthly subscription at any time.

If I decide to keep using this tool (which is highly likely at this point), then I plan to cancel the one-month subscription and will then purchase the annual subscription to take advantage of the 15% discount. Hopefully, they will have a more elegant and cost effective way to transition from a trial to a full membership in the future.

Elementary lessons may contain some advanced content

At times, more advanced content is sometimes included in elementary lessons. For example, all of the rules on clitic pronouns are included in one lesson, which is placed just after the lesson on the past continuous tense. This is fine for simple clitics, but you need to know future indicative and conditional verbs for some of the clitic pronoun uses in the lesson. Users don't learn about these verb tenses until after the lesson on clitic pronouns.

I think this is something that the Practice Portuguese team could change that would improve the learning experience. Learning about clitic pronouns in general can be quite overwhelming, and this lesson could be very overwhelming for those who are learning entirely through the Practice Portuguese platform.

You can always go through the easier parts of the lesson and then come back at a later stage, but I know that I like the feeling of completing a lesson in its entirely and feel frustrated or disappointed when I am not able to do so. Users might benefit from two separate lessons on clitics placed at different learning stages.

Limited speaking practice

Like DuoLingo, each lesson has a section that ask you read a phrase out loud. You can compare your recording to a recodring by a native speaker. The system also evaluates your pronunciation and gives you a score from 0-100%. I always wonder how good these are systems are at actually detecting the accuracy of the pronunciation. Are they merely the aural equivalent to Just Dance and Sing Party? OR do they actually work?

These types of lessons also don't work as well for those with speech impediments. I have a bit of a lisp, and I always do poorly on exercises when there are a lot of S and Z sounds. I know my S and Z sounds aren’t correct. I’m more concerned with whether my open and closed vowels, lh's, etc. need to be improved. The 0-100% scale simply isn't going to convey this information in the same way an interaction with a native speaker would.

These kinds of exercises are also not going to prepare for you an actual conversation. Being able to compare your recording to the official recording very useful when you are getting started with a language. But, it is possible to have excellent pronunciation but terrible conversational skills. If you mostly just want to improve your conversation skills, this particular platform isn't right for you.

No option for a private tutor

The Practice Portuguese platform does not offer private tutors or private lessons. I don't think this options would fit well with the current aim of their platform, so I also wouldn't expect the Practice Portuguese team to change this. But, if you are looking for private lessons or having access to a private tutor, then this isn't this tool for you.

The Practice Portuguese team do engage the users in their YouTube videos and podcasts, and they occasionally post to the forum. But, don't expect them to be heavily involved in your day-to-day study. The platform is designed to develop a strong community base. Users can post questions and comments on each lesson (similar to DuoLingo's desktop site) and there is a discussion forum, so you will probably get your questions answered by community members at some point.

No CEFR levels, No test prep

The Practice Portuguese platform is not designed to be test prep for any of the exams certifying proficiency in Standard European Portuguese as a second language. If this is what you're looking for, then the Practice Portuguese platform may not be what you need. It is probably a good tool to supplement your test prep, but the platform is not designed around the language exams.

Unless you are very familiar with the content of the exams themselves, you will probably not know the CEFR level you are at. The content is designed to be continuous, and the site doesn't have any numeric measure of progress or proficiency (no crowns, no arbitrary scores, no CEFR levels, etc.). However, I can see why some people prefer having a levels system or may want to know the exact CEFR level they are working towards.

It seems like most apps use these measures of progress as ways to gamify the app in order to increase the monetisation. For me, it is a relief to be able to learn casually without feeling the pressure of leveling up or facing the threat of moving down a level or losing progress if I don't use the app enough. So, while not having levels or test prep may be a con, there is also the trade-off of not having excessive monetisation / gamification.

Limited B2+ content

The content for advanced learners (CEFR B2 and higher) is pretty limited at the moment. The team is continually expanding the content, so this is likely to change in the future. For example, they added lessons on the o modo conjuntivo in July 2020. These are pretty basic lessons, and they could add more content on various uses of the conjunctive form so their users can build more solid B2 skills (e.g. conjunctions + conjunctive). There are also no lessons on pretérito mais-que-perfeito, which is necessary for C1 and C2 learners.

I am trying to reach a more solid B2 level, and so I think the platform will be a good way to solidify my grammar skills while also providing a refresher for grammar skills that might have forgotten. I am also happy to see the section with verb conjugation practice. I have exposure to all of the conjugations, but I definitely need more practice to be able to use them more fluently in practice.

But, I don't think I could use the Practice Portuguese platform alone to pass a B2 (or higher) language exam. There would definitely need to be more advanced content.

[autisticmob]

HELLO everyone i am now ten days out from my tiddy surgery so i think while everything is still fresh-ish in my mind I should get a rough timeline of how things went for me, just so anyone having similar stuff done in the future can have it as reference?? 

so under the cut is how shit went down, warning we are gonna be tmi about it for Max Information Dissemination, i will be talking about IV placement, Needles, Bleeding, Bruising, Bathroom Stuff In General, etc. so like. Be Warned.

OKAY SO what did i have done and how did i get it:

- i got a bilateral breast reduction with a “T,” “keyhole,” or “anchor-shaped” incision. this procedure, unlike double-incision top surgery, does not detach your nipples at all, but it DOES leave a decent hunk of breast tissue behind to avoid the nip graft. this connecting tissue keeps your nip attached and supplied with enough blood to survive. that means with this one, theres basically a limit to how much they can take off, and it depends on how big you are to start off with. 

- i went with the T-incisions because as a NB person, I wanted to sidestep the “gender-confirming surgery” route with my insurance. technically, I believe it would have been covered if i had gone through the process of talking to a therapist and getting a note that the surgery WOULD help confirm my gender, but i suspect it would have taken much longer, and I was afraid that my doctor and community resources would not have ended up approving me FOR the surgery since I don’t exactly fit the typical trans narrative. and luckily for me i had Massive, Spine-Bending G Cup Tiddies to contend with. so every doc that took a look at me said “yeah, you need those taken care of for medical reasons.” so i thought hey, let’s see how far this will get me!

- i talked to my primary care doc about my back pain and mentioned i’d like to look into a breast reduction, and she referred me to a local surgeon who could do the procedure. at the time i was still entertaining the idea of double-incision, but as it turned out, this surgeon just didnt do that. but i knew for certain my insurance would cover him, his results were good, and he was local, so i said yes to the T-incisions, which he said would likely get me down from a G to at least a C. it wasnt my ideal scenario admittedly, but frankly the back pain was getting to be too much, and i needed it to be addressed sooner rather than later.

- i had a consultation with the surgeon in early december, and they took pictures and measurements to send to my insurance so they could confirm the tits WERE in fact Too Bomb To Live. Doc said that it varies between insurance companies, but most will have a minimum amount of tissue that needs to be taken off, in grams, from each breast. he was like, “your insurance needs at least 1000g total removed, which’ll leave you on the small side, is that cool?” and i was like “My Man, take AS MUCH as you possibly can, im sick of these” and he was like “cool, makes my job easy then.” 

- it took my insurance like 1.5 to 2 months to get back to me, but late january the surgery place called me and we set a date for february 5th, 2020!!

PRE-OP:

- before i went into surgery, the hospital made me go over my medical history with them over the phone, informed me of all the risks, and gave me a special scrub kit to shower with at home for the last 2 days before the surgery

- fun fact this soap will make your whole bathroom and body smell strongly and exactly like a hospital and it is gross as hell if you hate hospital smell

- i also had to go to my primary care doc to get the OK that i was healthy enough to go under general anesthesia, and also get some blood tests and a urinalysis done. i fucked up the urinalysis tho (which is a whole other story) so i had to redo that the morning of the surgery when i got to the hospital anyway. 

- when i scheduled my surgery they also gave me a list of things i had to NOT DO before i went in. this included stuff like avoiding herbal medications and non-prescription supplements and not drinking any alcohol for like 2 weeks prior to surgery, and not eating anything after midnight the night before surgery.

- then it was SURGERY DAY!!!

- i went in with uhhh a LOT of anxiety about what everything would entail, ngl. i knew i had to do it because staring down the barrel of life with tiddies forever was way scarier than surgery, but yknow whenever you go under general anesthesia they legally do have to let you know that you could die and thats just a lot to consider, PLUS the whole thing involves just, really mangling your torso so like. its a lot! its okay to be scared!

- both my parents went with me for moral support which i appreciated a lot, but i didnt actually see them much since they had to spend a lot of it in the waiting room.

- when i went back with the doc they had me Wash The Tiddy Off with some antiseptic and change into a gown. i got some grippy socks out of the deal which is probably not a universal experience, but this hospital did it so shoutout to them for the socks i guess

- then they asked me all my medical history stuff again and checked me for any like, rashes or open sores or anything. i had some Tit Zits but they did not seem to be worried about that.

- then the surgeon came in and drew lines on me for the incisions. bro when i saw how high up my nips were gonna be i was losing my damn mind. this is one of the really exciting parts, because you finally get to really visualize what your end size is gonna be!! 

- once he was satisfied with how everything looked, they started really Prepping Me For Surgery.

- they hooked me up to a blood pressure cuff, a heart monitor, and some compression leg thingies that would inflate and deflate intermittently around my calves to help me not get blood clots. this felt weird but tbh also like kind of a nice massage

- then the iv placement. bro im not lying when i tell you this is the worst part. the nurse numbed me with some lidocaine before placing the needle and let me tell you that shit HURTED. lidocaine Stings and Burns when it hits and this was arguably the most painful part. but the good news about that is it means nothing else after that is all that bad. and i got THREE lidocaine shots because these two nurses could NOT find my blood anywhere. they finally called in their ringer (an EMT named kirk, s/o to kirk) who got that sucker in my arm with NO numbing and NO pain in like, 2 fucking seconds. i pray you all have a kirk. kirk knows where your fucking blood is and hes not gonna fuck around getting to it because he JUST wrestled a drunk dude into an ambulance like an hour ago and compared to that this is nothing. kirk had sleeveless scrubs. im obsessed. anyway.

- then they put a plastic, inflatable, heated blanket over me? it was between two regular blankets so it wasnt as uncomfortable as you might imagine, but it was strange. warm tho so that was nice.

- THEN they wheeled my bed down to surgery. i was having so much anxiety at this point it was like... dreamlike. getting wheeled into the OR was just surreal. i was like, no thoughts head empty, just taking everything in.

- once i got there the surgical team was very cool about keeping me calm tho. they were playing their like, pump-up music and one of the guys was like “hey fyi about halfway thru the surgery we will be turning the lights off and having a rave, just in the interest of full disclosure. promise not to leave any glowsticks in there tho” and i was like what no i would LOVE glowstick tiddies

- i had to kinda roll from my bed onto the operating table, which was significantly harder and smaller. that kinda made things feel real, so i got a little more anxious at that point.

- to help me calm down they had me breathe in some straightup oxygen thru a mask while they hooked my iv to the fluids and such, and the guy was like “WHOA you got some lungs on you dude” and i was like yeah thanks im recovering from hyperventilating

- then they let the anesthesia into the iv, letting me know the whole time what was happening, talking to me until i was just OUT, which was not a lot of conversation time because i was out in like 5 seconds or less. they didnt make me count down or anything, but i promise you it was nigh instantaneous.

POST OP

- it really was instantaneous. i know everyone says that but it really is the truth, it feels like the whole thing takes seconds. like one moment youre laying there in the OR feeling the drugs Hit, and the next youre waking up in the little wake-up room feelin kinda groggy with a nurse talking to you, and youre still druggy so youre just rambling to her about how fucked your voice sounds right now and as soon as shes contented that youre basically lucid they start wheeling you to your room where youll ACTUALLY stay while you recover.

- THE THING I WAS THE LEAST PREPARED FOR WAS MY THROAT

- your throat will Hurt afterwards, but even more than that, you will be producing So Much Mucus. my surgery took about 2 hours and during that time, all my muscles were paralyzed by the anesthesia, including my lungs, so i was on a breathing tube. my throat, understandably, hated this, and started producing Gallons Of Fucking Mucus to protect itself. it then continued to do this for the next two days or so. the nurses were encouraging me to breathe deep and cough Hard to combat this, and avoid getting pneumonia, so i did. but THAT hurt the tiddies. it was really a vicious cycle. but its necessary because god if i had to have pneumonia on top of all the other recovery shit?? god. 0/10 wouldnt recommend. so it might hurt but dont worry your tiddies wont bust open or anything.

- i spent basically the rest of the day still hooked up to all the machines i listed earlier, PLUS a thing that would beep at me if my heart rate went too high, which it did a lot because i have anxiety, but luckily the nurses didnt seem too concerned. it really kept my breathing on track though because if i didnt breathe deep enough my heart would shoot up super fast and it’d beep and god that was just annoying and im pretty sure that was The Point. you kinda have to get used to breathing again, and the beeping trained me.

- they gave me like a bunch of crackers and a huge mug of water to work on at my leisure. i actually had lunch pretty quick after waking up? i know a lot of people have nausea issues from anesthesia but i didnt experience any of that. i DID move like a fucking sloth while i was eating tho. the pain meds and general grogginess of recovery slowed my whole body down sooooo much. my mom was actually like “are you okay??? like neurologically??????” and i was, totally, i was just. on slo-mo.

- anyway i didnt have to get catheterized for this procedure thankfully but they DID make me measure my pee every time i went to the bathroom. like i had to pee in a little bucket attached to the toilet and the nurse had to come check it every time and i felt really weird about that. so idk just be prepared for that i guess lmao

- also idk if it was the pain meds or the anesthesia itself but post-op, i couldnt shit for like a week. the constipation is real so get u some fucking laxatives asap when you get home, this is not a joke lmao

- they also had me put on a belt every time i got up so the nurse could hold onto me in case i decided to fucking biff it. they got me up a couple times throughout the day/night to walk up and down the hallway outside and get my body used to being upright again

- oh speaking of i never got to lie down completely flat, they had my bed locked at like a 30 degree angle minimum to help with... something. im not quite sure what, but im not gonna question it

- when i got up the next morning they had a couple nurses come in and help me un-bandage so i could shower and finally look at what the tiddies looked like for the first time!! and it was exciting but i didnt cry like i expected lmao i think i was too drained and too distracted by the bleeding

- the bleeding wasnt too bad actually, just little beads kinda coming out of parts of the incisions between the stitches. but once i got in the shower obviously stuff started getting diluted in the water and it looked like a lot more than there actually was, so dont be alarmed by that! 

- SHOWERING: its a little complicated. youre not supposed to soak the incisions, and youre not supposed to apply direct water pressure or actually touch them at this point. so what i had to do was get a washcloth wet and soapy (with antibacterial soap, i think it was hand soap honestly. hand soap’s what ive been using at home so........) and then just kinda. squeeze it at your collarbone and let it drip down over everything kinda minimally. its kind of a process but it works fine. washing your hair and like, tbh literally everything else is gonna be hard. reaching over your head is hard and scary at this point. i will admit my hair care Suffered the first week. 

- then i got bandaged back up and they got me back into my own clothes and ready to go home! they also put a bra on me over the bandages in my new size. i was only there for about 24 hours total, since i didnt really have any complications. 

- on the ride home i had to make sure the cross-chest part of the seat belt was NOT touching me. if whoevers driving you hits a pothole, your soul WILL exit your body tits-first for a moment. im sorry if you live somewhere like here in nebraska where the roads are garbage but its not gonna be fun.

ONCE YOU’RE HOME!!

- i live at home with my mom and sister and if you live alone, id try to have a friend basically move in for the first week. you will need Help with things. basic things. you’ll mostly want to sleep because of the pain meds but those made me pretty dizzy so it was cool having my mom around in case i like. fell on the way to the bathroom and died or anything like that.

- changing bandages is really kind of a 2-person affair too, and youll have to do it at least once a day post-shower, so keep that in mind. 

- the bleeding is like, not that bad after that first day honestly. i never had to change the bandages more than just the once per day. 

- basically from here the procedure is just to take it easy, get up every few hours and walk around a little to keep the blood clots at bay, and enjoy yr new silhouette basically

- worst thing about recovery honestly? im a stomach/side sleeper, and i cant manage anything other than laying flat on my back with my arms at my sides right now, and thats just like.... idk i really cant sleep like that. its not comfy. ive had to set up kind of a pillow fort around me to keep me from rolling over in my sleep bc im afraid i might hurt myself accidentally like that, but idk how well-founded that fear is.

- i will say as someone who did have back problems before this, the difference is IMMEDIATE. i literally had better posture like Day 1. im still a little hunched over because the stitches create a bit of tension in your chest, but like literally it was instantaneous. god. once i got healed to a point that i could like, kinda relax and not be so fucking tense all the time? back pain has basically just been GONE. 

- other fun things to notice: i had some pretty significant stretch marks before, and now they are running in a completely different direction. i crossed my arms over my chest the other day and they actually touched my torso for the first time in like, well over a decade. if i close my eyes and try to grab my tiddy from muscle memory, i stop like a full 3 inches from where my tit actually starts now. the size i am now, just like, freeballing it? this is how i looked when i wore a binder before. if i wore a binder now i imagine id be completely flat, and honestly if i layer up at this point you cant really tell that i have anything more than the average chubby dude’s moobs, which as a kinda chubby person is totally fine. 

its a trip relearning what i look like and what im supposed to feel like but its just. such a fucking improvement over where i was. absolutely no regrets, regardless of how hard recovery has felt at times. anyway i hope this information is at least interesting and maybe helpful to anybody considering anything similar!!

[yourdreamscenarios]

When he spoils you after a tough day

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∙ A/N: Hi everyone! Long time no see. I’m so busy with work these days, and sadly enough I don’t often feel like writing anymore. Yet, whenever I feel the need to get some scenarios done, I definitely will! 

I’d love to know, who is your absolute bias? Are there many idols and actors out there who you want to read scenarios about but aren’t on my list yet? Let me know!

My ultimate bias is Kang Min Hyuk from CNBlue. I haven’t written any scenarios about him yet though, perhaps I should give it a try. I hope you all have a wonderful day ♡

Your shoes were digging into your feet, rubbing against the sensitive skin of your soles as you stepped out of the car and shut the door behind you. You could barely remember how you’d gotten here. But somehow you’d managed to get into of your vehicle and make it all the way home without causing any severe accidents. Fiddling with the key you locked the car, before looking for the right key you needed to unlock the door of your very welcoming house. The night was cold and foggy, turning your surroundings into something mysterious. Yet you were in no mood to pay any attention to the night life around you. The street was empty and apart from the sound of two cats picking a fight with another, the night was quiet. It was exactly what you needed after a day of hard work. Your body longed for the couch, the furniture luring you inside with the most intense whisper. You simply wanted to close your eyes and pretend as if today had never happened, erase it from your mind. Practice had been tough, mistakes kept being made, causing you to have to redo the choreography over and over again until you all got it right. By the end everyone had been laying in their own pool of sweat, catching their breath, wondering about your decision to become an idol in the first place. 

There were days you loathed it, all the hard work and the dancing. All the short nights and the tiring days. It was one of those times you felt like you needed a break from your own life, but you knew you weren’t going to get one. Sometimes you simply wished you could put your life on hold, live in the moment a little while longer before you had to rush over to the next. But those thoughts were ridiculous, there was no such thing. Fighting off the cold you shuffled towards the front door, fidgeted the key inside of the lock and opened the door. Immediately the warmth from inside of the house caught you straight in the face, making your knees buckle. You hadn’t realized just how badly you’d wanted to be home until now. Without taking the effort to untie your laces you kicked off your sneakers, leaving them in the hallway. You’d clean up your mess tomorrow, once you found the energy to bent down and pick them up from where they lay. The sound of the television playing came from the living room, and you felt yourself being pulled into that direction as you got rid of your bag and jacket. 

A shimmer of light spilled into the hallway through the open doorway, and your heavy feet dragged you towards it. You’d known Jungkook would be home before you today, he’d already texted you two hours ago, asking you where you were and when you’d be home. It had been a disappointment, knowing he was at home waiting for you and you couldn’t make it over there. There weren’t many nights the two of you were both home, and you longed for another snuggling evening on the couch with him. Nothing to do and nothing to worry about, just the two of you. But it seemed as if your timings were never quite right. Halting in the middle of the doorway you looked into the living room, expecting him to be napping by now. He’d worked hard himself, and he’d probably be just as exhausted as you were. Yet, he always insisted on staying up and waiting for you, no matter how many times you told him it was okay for him to go to bed once he was tired. But there he was, straight up against the back of the couch, the remote inside of his hand as he changed the channel every few seconds, clearly not finding anything to watch that pleased him. 

A loose shirt was hugging his chest, because his muscles even seemed to make the biggest tees look too small on him. His legs were hidden beneath a small blanket you had bought a few months back, which he told you you didn’t need because you had him to snuggle with. It seemed he didn’t even notice you at first, yet, after a few seconds your movement seemed to catch his attention. His eyes flickered in your direction, his lips quirking up into an alluring smile as he welcomed you home. “Finally, I was wondered if you were staying the night.” He joked and you grinned at him, hating the accuracy of his statement. If it were for your manager you might have well have continued practicing until morning. The flames of the fireplace were licking his form from behind the glass, giving his skin a magical glow. He was spread onto the couch as if he’d never belonged anywhere else but here. You still remembered the exact moment you bought this house. Somehow it had always fit right, the two of you living here, cherishing each other’s company. This was the place you were supposed to figure out your future together, where you could build a home for yourselves. His hair was still damp, hinting he’d only just taking a shower. 

His smile faltered slightly, a small frown forming on his forehead as his gaze studied your features. Yet you pretended not to notice as you crossed the distance of the living room between the two of you and threw yourself next to him on the sofa. It was as if your body molted into the cushions, your limbs too heavy to move. Closing your eyes you let go of a great puff of air you’d been holding. You were proud of yourself that you’d made it to the end of the day. For a minute you’d been afraid you wouldn’t be able to see it through. You could hear Jungkook shift next to you, and you could imagine the look onto his face without opening your eyes to look at him. I’d be one of concern, the same one you would wear when he got home completely exhausted from a day of work. “Rough day?” He asked, yet the sound of his voice colored his question, revealing he already knew the answer. But you enjoyed the sound of his sweet voice, it party made up for all the hardships you’d been through today. “Hmmm.” You muttered, afraid that if you’d open your mouth the only thing you’d be able to do was yawn. For a moment or two it remained silent, and you wondered what was going through your boyfriend’s mind. What kinds of things he’d be thinking of. 

There were times you thought you knew exactly what he was thinking, but he’d do the complete opposite. No matter how much you wanted to believe that you’d figured him out by now, he could still be awfully surprising sometimes. Though you weren’t going to lie, you loved that about him. But as the silence continued on, you felt yourself falling into something calm and cosy. The tiring world around you seemed to be drifting away, the weight lifting from your shoulders as sleep tried to captivate you. You no longer had the energy to fight it. Tonight wasn’t the night you were going to be the sweet girlfriend, asking your boyfriend how his day had been. You weren’t going to ask him if he still wanted to order some take out since the two of you enjoyed your midnight snack. You weren’t going to cuddle with him on the couch and enjoy every minute of it. No, tonight you were planning on being selfish. Because the need you felt to sleep was so big you couldn’t stand fighting it. Pressing your head deeper into the pillows you felt every single one of your muscles relax, until your mind went blank. 

“Wake up babe.” You heard the words but couldn’t comprehend them. They came from far away, as if someone held your head inside of a bucket filled with water. “Babe.” There it was again, joined by a soft shake of your shoulder. You held on to sleep with the tips of your fingers, feeling it brush past your skin. Yet, as a pair of plump lips pressed against the top of your head, you felt you felt the last bit of resistance you had shown slip from your grip. Groaning you blinked your eyes open, and focussed your gaze on the face hovering in front of you. The first thing that went through your mind was how handsome he was, before you realized you were actually annoyed since he’d woken you up. Brushing your eyebrows together you were about to scold him when his hand magically appeared in your face and his finger came to rest against your lips. Blinking in surprise you tested the salty taste of his skin against your mouth while your mind tried to comprehend what he was up to. “Don’t say anything, just come with me.” He said, removing his finger just to hold out his hands to you, palms facing the ceiling. You moaned, trying to find the words to explain o him you really weren’t about to get up now. 

But he ignored every sign of it as he took your hands himself and used his mass of muscle to easily pull you up from your comfy spot on the couch. The warmth of the cushions immediately left your body, making you shiver. How could he be doing this? You wanted to yell at him, tell him exactly how frustrated you were, but you couldn’t find the strength to do so. The only thing you hoped for was that he was taking you to bed, just because he didn’t want you to spend the rest of the night on the couch. But to your disappointment he skipped your bedroom door, and even though your feet tried to still onto the floor as he did so, he strong arms simply made you continue your way. Grumbling some incoherent words you watched as he took his time to open the bathroom door, telling him you didn’t feel like taking a shower. But the mischief in his stare told you he wasn’t going to let you go. Instead he smiled as he swung the door open and practically shoved you inside. You could feel the relief of your muscles when your frown finally disappeared, your eyebrows instead tugging up into a surprised expression. 

You almost couldn’t believe what you were seeing, and definitely not that Jungkook was the one who’d put this together. Candles were spread across the room, standing on the sink, the tile floor, the cabinets. They caused a shadow to dance through the room, making you see it in a light you never had before. A lovely smell clung to the air around you, and your eyes moved towards the water inside of the bathtub, steam dripping from it. Instantly your body longed for the feeling of the hot water against your sore limps. Stunned your eyes drifted to Jungkook, who was standing beside you, studying your reaction. The awaiting expression on his face caused your heart to swell. “You did this?” You asked, wondering if he’d secretly asked someone to give him a hand. Jungkook wasn’t the romanticist and over time you’d come to accept that. But just like you’d said before, he was still a mystery to you sometimes. He nodded, his chest puffing slightly as he took the credit and you could feel a smile tugging at your lips. Placing your hand against his chest you gave hi a sincere look, hoping it would tell him how much you appreciated this. “Thank you.” You muttered, all the annoyance you had felt before drifting away at once. You hadn’t known this was something you needed until someone offered it to you. He shrugged, as if it didn’t mean anything, as if it was the least he could do. But you knew better. 

“Don’t let the water go cold.” He said, and you took that as an invitation to get rid of your clothes and tiptoe closer to the tub. Staring into the water you could see the reflection of the candles in it and the bath salt resting on the bottom. The smell that came from it was incredible and you couldn’t wait to feel it all over your skin. Putting one leg inside of the water you almost groaned out loud because of the warmth touching your skin. The water was hot, but it wasn’t too hot. Yet you knew your skin would color red because of the temperature. Adding in your second leg you held onto the edges of the tub as you slowly lowered your entire body into it, grateful he hadn’t overdone himself by adding some foam. You weren’t exactly a foam person. You sighed, grateful as you felt every single of your sore muscles come undone and every single worry slip from your mind. Smiling you turned your head to search fro him, and found Jungkook standing at the exact same place he’d done before. The red glint of his cheeks proved he’d enjoyed watching you strip and enjoy his present to you as he stood there. Yet, it wasn’t what you had in mind. 

“Aren’t you joining me?” You asked, patting the water around you, even though it only caused some drips to sprinkle onto your face. You frowned when he shook his head, declining your request. It wasn’t what you’d expected. “This is your bath, you should enjoy the peace, get some rest.” He instructed, taking a step back and reaching for the door handle. That was when it got to you that he was actually planning on leaving you by yourself. He’d created this moment for you to enjoy it and even though that was incredibly sweet, it definitely wasn’t what you wanted. Grabbing the edge of the tub, as if you cling onto his arm so you could keep him here, you said: “It wouldn’t be my bath without you in it.” Instantly a blush spread across of your face, warming your face. You blamed it on the bath, the hot temperature of the water getting towards your head. And your blamed your cheesiness on the exhaustion you still felt, and which stopped you from thinking clearly. Tilting his head towards the side you could see a smirk beginning the spread across of his face. But something about the look on your face must have made him understand it was better if he wouldn’t mention anything about it since he simply let go of the door handle and began to removed his shirt. You lied to yourself, promising you wouldn’t look, but instead you stared shamelessly, the same way he had done before you. 

You could tell he noticed, even though he pretended like he didn’t. When he was fully undressed you shoved forward in the tub, creating the room he needed the get in behind you. You felt his skin brush against yours as his legs swept inside, his strong thighs slipping past you as he settled in. Soon his arms snaked around your waist underwater, and they pulled your back flush against his chest. Instantly you melted inside of his hold, your head lulling back against his shoulder as you enjoyed the flickering of candles around you. Even though today had been awful, it couldn’t have ended a better way than it did now. You felt as if you wanted to freeze time and live in the moment for a little longer. This was everything you needed and everything you wanted. During moments like these it felt as if you could survive on his love only. “You want to tell me about your day?” He asked, breaking through the silence. His arms unraveled from around you as his fingers began to follow patterns down your skin. They slipped up your arms, past your shoulders, down to your collarbones. They made you turn into gelatin underneath their touch. 

“It’s was terrible, but it’s over, that’s all that matters.” You muttered, feeling the way the steam which rose from the water caused your hair to stick to your skin. Jungkook snorted, but didn’t press you to tell him anything else as his hands traced the outline of your waist, all the way down to your hips. Breathing in sharply you tried to ignore all the things his touches seemed to stir inside of you. There was no energy left inside of you to give him that much of yourself tonight, and as if he knew just that his hands slowly climbed back up. You sighed contently as his lips brushed past your shoulder, until he pressed a sweet peck right in the crook of your neck. You relented, feeling ticklish, causing him to chuckle. The two of you remained in the tub, until the water seemed to lose most of its warmth and the candle wax was dripping onto the floor. You listened to each other, even though most of the times what you said was pure nonsense. You laughed each time he cracked a joke about one of his members and remained silent with you when you didn’t feel like speaking. But most importantly, he held you, cherished you, right when you needed him to. 

“Thank you, for all of this.” You mumbled after a while, tilting your head to you were able to look at him. He smiled, placed his hands on your shoulders so that his thumbs could press away the knots of muscles underneath your skin. “Anytime.” He whispered, and by now you could hear the exhaustion weighing through in his own voice. It was late, and the two of you would probably sleep in tomorrow. That thought made you feel even happier than you were right now, if that was even possible. “But now we need to get out, because I need to get rid of these wrinkles.” He said, extending his hand and looking at his soaked skin. You rolled your eyes at him, but accepted his help when he helped you stand up from the tub, the water dripping down from you. Quickly you reached for the towels and handed him one as you tried to fight off the cold which was trying to settle onto your skin. Wrapping the towel around you, you reached for the door, until you thought of something and you wiped your head around.” Oh, Jungkook…” You started, earning a questioning stare from the man in front of you. He’d just gotten his own towel and was busy running it through his hair as he looked at you. “I love you.” You finished, watching the way your boyfriend’s nose crunched cutely, his lips curling into the sweetest smile. 

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[pasteliapeaches]

Pastelia Asks

Will be doing these to be able to answer more questions without flooding dashboards!

Island Plans

I looked at all the currently available items in the game and then came up with a list of point of interests that I felt could be created with them! I think that it’s a good way to come up with ideas because that way you can only come up with ideas that are possible to create with in-game items!

I think the UX designer (I work as a special type of designer that both codes and designs, in case people are wondering why I also mention I’m a programmer) side of me is what helps because I designed my island to be very iterative and I’m not “married” to any particular area of my island. I think having “districts” helps too though! Like how I have mine divided to a town area, outskirts, etc. I feel like anything Nintendo might add will still fit under any of my districts, if that makes sense. For example, I’ve *SPOILER WARNING* heard that crops and some type of farming is coming to the game, and I already have plans to replace my farm and orchard area for that!

Wow thank you!!! I’m glad that I was able to inspire you and your brothers!! Ofc I am okay with that and I hope you’re happy with how yours turns out :) Star fragment trees are hacked trees and not legitimate, which violates Nintendo’s code of conduct (section c) and could result in a ban if someone reports you. If that’s not something you’re comfortable with, I would advise against getting them!

Thank you so much!!! Wow, I’m flattered! I don’t TT to April in my regular gameplay. The only TT-ing I do now is to 5am, 5pm, and 6pm of the current day because I enjoy playing at those times but can’t always get on my Switch :) I have to remove my star fragment/heart crystal trees so I’m probably just going to have a mixture of Hardwood and Peach trees scattered around Pastelia Island. 

Yeah;; Thank you! I feel terrible for people who have made very detailed plans for their island and have no way to account for any future buildings/shops too. That seems like something that could put off a lot of people from playing until everything has been announced or released :/ I’m just glad that areas in Pastelia Island can be iterative because I’m sure I’d get frustrated with having to take down or redo something I didn’t want to. If you’ve seen my mini map tour video, you can see how much I miss Brewster too! LOL. I hope they bring back mango, lychee, durian, and bananas through a special mysterious island tour like how we got one for the May Day event.

Island Custom Patterns/Items/Music

I keep them in the other residents’ pockets 😂

I don’t have any plans yet but I eventually want to share my creator code!

It’s the “Sleeveless Tunic”!

My friend made them for me and she hasn’t chosen to release different variations publicly sorry :(

Thank you!! I’ve answered this before but I’ve gotten a lot more asks about it so I’ll answer it again. It’s the default flower + clover pattern that the game gives you from the start! I don’t think it’s possible to share because I’m not the creator and I’m not sure if you can get default designs like that back after you replace them :(

Thank you!! It’s Animal City :)

Other Questions

So it appears that your Nook’s Cranny will only have inventory of 1-2 variants of the uncustomizable items. Redd will also carry other variants that Nook’s Cranny doesn’t, but he comes so infrequently. This means you have to trade in order to get all the colors in the game of those items. I was able to trade on here and other communities early in the game and got an almost complete catalog from that, and I recommend trading to everyone! But to also beware of scammers, which seem to be more frequent than before :/

I know I said I’d do cataloging parties before, but now I’m rethinking it because of all the hostile anons I get. Even if I remove the hacked trees from my game, I feel like these type of people would report me regardless so I don’t think it’s a very good idea for me to let random people come to my island now :( Sorry I wish I could but I’ve been feeling very paranoid because of the messages I’ve been receiving.

Thank you for thinking that but I’m sorry to hear that’s happening to you :( Congratulations on getting all your dreamies!!! I’ve been seeing a rise in a lot of toxicity in the AC community and I feel like it has a lot to deal with a ton of new people playing the game now. That’s not to say that all people new to the series are mean, just that there are bound to be more bad eggs now because there are more people playing, especially with COVID times and people having nothing to do. I also get called a time traveler, cheater, hacker, and also get judged for the villagers I want to have in my own island. It sucks when people discredit your efforts and think that time traveling automatically creates a beautiful island or makes you get your dreamies. It’s more effort than just changing the time on your system clock. I’m still human though, so I still struggle with dealing with it sometimes. Probably because I’m not used to getting those comments about me on a much larger scale than before but honestly the best way to deal with it is to ignore it. Those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.

Sharmaine Questions

Hahaha, thank you so much!! I honestly don’t feel comfortable making any videos with my face yet. I’ve done them before and feel like my audience now is different. Hopefully, I’ll be more comfortable in the future! :)

Yes!! Pokemon Yellow was my first ever video game, and I’ve played every Pokemon game since then! My favorite pokemon would have to be Torchic :)

I use Final Cut Pro X, and After Effects for any animating!

I’m not! I dated a Korean for 10 years and learned a lot about his culture and picked up the language too, so that’s why hahaha.