#I love learning but damn this is hard
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school is kicking our collective asses time to sleep for 10 hours and be lazy and regret not doing schoolwork wheeeeee
(more context in tags cuz we feel like it lol)
-K (📺📚, 🍁☮️)
#like wtf even science is tricky??? I mean I thought I was gonna do ecology stuff but nah. biological molecules first unit#fuck chemistry. all my headmates hate chemistry#I’m in a BIOLOGY class!!! I don’t wanna learn about carbohydrates and proteins#I wanna learn about animals and plants and that cool stuff!!!#other than that most of our classes are ok#we’re in the process of getting a study block so that’s cool#math is also kicking our asses but what else is new#school#senior year#grade 12#school is kicking my ass#school is hard#I love learning but damn this is hard#and the most recent phone ban is making things even worse#can’t listen to music to block out background so I can’t focus as well and get more overwhelmed
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Lil walk + reaction animation for an animation class I’ve been taking!
It’s been tough, but the best part is you can basically animate whoever you want for assignments
#myart#animation#sam and max#freelance wives#been working on actually learning how to do animation recently! and damn can it be hard!!#and yes I did try to sneak in some other characters into the AU teehee#would’ve loved to add more to the background but alas
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not taking criticism or notes at this time
#[🌪️]:#tx#yes i loved this show back in 2019. yes it got me again. stop looking at me.#initially i thought of Krampus for klaus bc you know damn well when he was named klaus he decided to go wild on#learning about stuff from germany. and also trying to learn german#(spoilers: he is not fluent)#die hard was originally my pick for five and then i remembered diego's entire character and had to course-correct#also don't look at my tagwh0ring either i need to get my vision out into the public's mindspace#can you tell i'm trying to spam up so it's less noticeable#the umbrella academy#tua#luther hargreeves#diego hargreeves#allison hargreeves#klaus hargreeves#five hargreeves#number five#tua five#ben hargreeves#viktor hargreeves
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Shout-out to @onejellyfishplease for creating a fic that my brain latched onto so violently that I think of it on a weekly basis
Man, i can't imagine having the feeling of something literally buzzing under your skin writhing to be let out let out let out- being comfortable.
Original sketch below cut;
It was way more moody but I was like. no . The boy is overwhelmed the arts gotta be BRIGHT and EYESORE-y
#im not one to make fanart for fics i read#like. at all#i can't remember a time where a fic affected me so hard i drew something for it#but THIS?#THIS FIC?#oufufufh#scratch that actually.#this AUTHOR?#this ARTIST?#god im so emotional over their snapdonnie#LIKE??? WHY MUST YOU DO THAT TO HIM AND HIS FAM P L E A S E IM CRYING#i don't know how to draw body horror and overall gore but DAMN MAYBE THIS IS THE MOMENT I LEARN#just. god. i love all of their Donnie's so much.#all four of them.#id say I'm feral over it but that feels weird#i am in love tho#if you couldn't tell lmao#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt#rottmnt donnie#rise donnie#donatello#scrolls art
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I haven’t said this enough recently but I’d like to take a moment to remind everyone…or idk…whoever sees this post…
That I love Obi-Wan Kenobi.
Thank you.
#that man is a disaster and he is the best#i love him and all his infinite sadness and regret and trauma and heartbreak and failures#and anxieties and worries and self loathing and self doubt#all his hubris and sarcasm and snarkiness and sassiness and flirtiness#and how everyone who meets him either falls in love with and/or wants him dead#i love him for all his negotiating and meditating and nerdiness#i love his ability to befriend everyone he meets and his love of animals and all living things and how hard he tries to hold onto hope#his desperate need to be good enough and his love of adventure and his tendency to get kidnapped and his hatred of flying#and above all i love him for the endless love he carries inside of him#how he fought so hard to never give up on anakin and how he spent the rest of his life watching over his kids#how he learned to be himself again after spending time with a feisty ten year old leia#how he softly cried as qui gon and satine died in his arms and how he refused to be the one to kill anakin#how he saw padme and anakin in their kids and how they reminded him to have faith in whatever remaining good there was left in the galaxy#this man had this insane life and went through so much and somehow never fell to the dark side#even when he and the ones he loved were always at the center of all that damn tragedy#yeah i love obi wan#star wars#obi wan kenobi#the clone wars#a new hope#the phantom menace#attack of the clones#revenge of the sith#obi wan kenobi series#star wars original trilogy#star wars prequel trilogy#kate's post
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It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry
( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)
(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)
#I just realized I can call him dad easier than my real dad and now I understand why am I so damn attached to him#I always knew he was a parental figure for me#but now I connected the dots#How when u have an absent dad and a d34d mom a guy shows up in ur life#that tells u life advice that both of ur parents failed to do so#and makes u feel safe the first time in ur life#ofc ud become attached#i know for sure its unhealthy how much i love and miss him#he occupies most of my thoughts honestly#But how could i not cling to him so much when he was the only one who gave me hope in life#i try to keep going and even tho he is not here i keep telling myself whatever he taught me. i keep reminding myself he wants us to live an#bloom and be free#and that's what ill try to do#but you know somedays i wish i could just disappear and be wrapped in eternal happiness#its so fucking hard to pull yourself out of the slump man im so fucking tired im so so tired#somedays i wish id have the courage to off myself but i know that deep down i want to live and ive always wanted to live but i have no idea#how to live. i feel like i finally found a purpose and someone i love. but at the same time im always doubting myself and im scared of losi#g this little hope again and i know i should cherish and use it instead but each day i have this anxiety because rn i have nothing else if#lose this i seriously will lose everything atp. but ill still try bc rn its this or death so i should try im just damn tired yes anyways#sorry for being depressing some days just dont work out but thats okay#yes at the same time i want to get out of my head and try to find some friends but i cant deny that im highkey fucked up and i just cant le#go of my past and i still feel like that helpless unloved kid and idk how to form relationships this way. i dont trust myself at all so idk#how to trust others. and i feel like in order to find ppl that would love me i have to overshare abt my whole lifestory bc it still dictate#my life heavily. and since i met this band its better cuz im learning to deal w it and i want to heal from everything but yes at the same t#me who would wqnt to be friends w. someone that has like a year of life experience and 18 years of depression lol#so yes its complicated. bc i have friends but im like the funny friend. the one that is as shallow as puddle and has no problems but honest#y im genuinely sufferint qnd have been sufferinz all my life so i want to come out of my funny friend role. but that wojld mean i have to t#ll the shit i went through to all my friends but tbh it would be so random so ye. i do have a plan though. how it could work. But yes im ti#ed have been tired for 7 years now. But this time around i hope i can successfully get out of this torture cycle lol.#ok sorry this is what happens after puberty guys i could beva research case for a damn mental institute atp xdd
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So I will carry you, until you'll carry me
#inazuma eleven victory road#sasanami unmei#sakurazaki jouji#yes hello I fell into this hole too :)#soft sakurazaki is so hnnngh#but damn his no-brow frown... it's so hard to get just his eyes look soft without otherwise neutral expression#you just wait I will learn to draw your eyes#mari this one's for you *hands emoji*#<< those are the tags added when drafting#now a bit later... I'm having such a whiplash looking at these after the stuff I just finished.......#yeah I love fluff but I also love hurt (with or without comfort)#sasazaki took me in a literal chokehold I guess
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Yoo Joonghyuks gay for pay (not really) arc where he is commissioned by an archangel for some otp fanservice which I am still reading at the moment
#my art#doodles#yoo joonghyuk#orv#i love doll uriel shes so 🥺🥺🥺🥺#i need to learn how to draw yjh because his prettiness is making it so damn hard#hope to draw a decent fanart next time fingers crossed
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uncle professor obrien is trying his best, god damn it
#dee s 9#garashir adoption au#idan is in the command track but he tries extra hard in engineering#so he can do right by his human professor uncle :)#you know lim is stoked about his brother learning a trade. Oh youre home for break! fix our generator.#miles is doing his best to be a loving parental figure! for julian's big goofy son!#whos like sooo much like his father its stupid. strong. confident. almost pathologic need to be loved#plus a deep deep deep feeling that they have and dont deserve an unfair advantage....#ANYWAYS CARDASSIANISM BE DAMNED MY BOY CAN TROUBLESHOOT A WARP CORE!#i have 1 hour almost precisely of free time a day and i spent it BANGING this out. god damn it
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If the rules are “Catch them all” ZEX already has a leg up (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Damned#DAX#ZEX#Pokemon#Stoutland#Arcanine#Tangela#Whismur#Larry#Kabu#I mean - of course right? I mentioned Stoutland as one of DAX's matches and Larry loves his Normal types - This Had to happen#And then the idea of how excitable Kabu and ZEX are and what conversations they could have about Pokemon and humans and just-#It all went downhill from there I really had no choice it just Needed to - so I did!#DAX doesn't really understand this whole Petting Large Dog business but it's not actively trying to eat him so that's a mark in its favour#Would he and Larry actually get along or would they brush up against each other wrong haha#DAX Very serious and work-oriented while Larry's just tired and quiet and wants to relax and eat and pet Pokemon#DAX is passionate in his own way but so blasé about humans and other aliens!#Larry something like a cat in that he doesn't really care so goes off to do his own thing - might be too alike to get along haha#I think Kabu and ZEX would get along really well though :D ZEX tries to make friends with so many people so that's not hard haha#And he would have an awful lot of ahem Learning to offer Kabu lol - but so would Kabu in turn! Pokemon knowledge!#Fascinating conversation to be had :) Maybe if they were forced on enough double dates DAX and Larry could get along pft#I almost definitely drew ZEX too short here - maybe he's hunched a little out of excitement lol#But Dexter and Larry would be about the same height wouldn't they! :0 Huh!#It was quite fun to draw Kabu's Arcanine so happy to be getting so many pets haha <3 Cute lad ♪#Finally following up on Alana's brilliant idea of VUX loving Tangela!! ♥ Zarla also mentioned VUX-Tangela vine/tendril communication and ahh#So lovely such fun <3 A specific kind of trainer-Pokemon understanding that can only be had between specific cultures! Yesss#And ending out with a Whismur hug <3 I can't help it those little guys need hugs ♥ No shrieking only gentle shushes and comfort
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^ face of someone (me) who just finished the arcane finale
#GOODNIGHT I NEED TO PROCESS#im STRUCK#there r tears rolling down my cheeks fuck this damn show😭😭 (affectionate. this is the peak of all media ever)#okay yall arcane spoilers#arcane#arcane s2#that ending was honestly SO well done#the WHOLE finale#and all the rest lmao#but fucking GOD#the cycle....and the way each character was considered within..just- SO GOOD#and ekko......#and JAYCE oml yall better take back all the shit tbh he's genuinely become such an intriguing character throughout s2#and going to admit. i did Not care abt him in s1 sry😞#but the s2 arc has been captivating from the start and jayce is NO exception#also viktor's eyes im so glad we got to see them again. ohhh the irony of grief and relief mean SO much to me#his eyes. mean sm to Me. doomed scientist yaoi i lov e u#and mel.....omg not much to say regarding initial thoughts. im afraid haha. buuut i wanted to learn more about her link to the black rose#LOVED ambessa. her characterisation was so brilliantly captivating that i dont think i ever rlly hated her lmao#and jinxx omfg im sick. i love her so much. oh fucking hell ep7 killed me actually. im dead.#the sisters r so close all throughout the show and i loved the little direct confirmation of this like i actually started crying then#and VI oh my goddddd vi. could write a thesis on her. the visual rep of the lessening of her guilt after jinx. with singing. with acceptanc#oh fml im going a little insane i love this show so much#and VANDERRR and the beast and FUCK how even at the end he covered jinx.#i love how the show covered her end. it feels like a sigh of relief. the final breath. u end up hoping the best for her.#OH MAN THE MUSIC STARTED AND I STARTED CRYING SO HARD.#this is s1 ep3 all over again#oh and HOLY SHIT we got lesbian sex im ECSTATIC. thannk u fortiche for the whole show but yeah. especially. uhm. this.#okay im loggin off now i need to clock out and sleep. process my thoughts and then word vomit tmr.#nyx talks shit
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drabble about chapter 3 javieran late night discord (campfire) conversations because i love writing the turning point where javier finally lets himself start making moves 💔☹️
“so,” javier gestures with his bottle, the last quarter of it sloshing to get his conversation partner’s attention, “tell me about yourself.”
“oh, i’m…” kieran fiddles with his hands, pries his eyes away from javier’s bottle as the other man takes a swig of it. if he let himself look any longer, they’d end up on his lips. “i’m just me, sir. just kieran duffy. ain’t got much to tell.”
“mh.” javier grunts a reply, and kieran would think that’d be the end of it, if not for the bottle thrust at him to punctuate the response. he thinks javier is just tipsy enough not to be offering essentially backwash on purpose. he hopes it is a kind gesture. he takes it and a swig to boot. rather not be drinking with a man so pretty, but he’d rather not be one to resist one, neither.
“”just” you say. what makes you so little?” javier’s beginning to pop another beer open on his seat. without the light of the moon, the scout campfire now feels like a long, long way from the clemen’s point camp, and he now feels like no one in the world could hear his curiosity. like not a soul in this world around could accuse him of gentility.
kieran, taking the new bottle as an offer to keep the old one, finishes off his drink. shakes his head like it’s bitter. like he isn’t trying to pick apart which taste is the beer and which is javier. “i ‘unno. suppose- no one’s cared so much before. i feel so little, i can’t say i feel right justified in going around and advertising myself. plenty of interesting folk around, and they sure don’t look like me.” javier cocks an eyebrow.
for once since months ago in colter, dark brown eyes meet green, and they stay there. grass plants it’s roots in rich soil, and it feels like home. kieran can see javier’s eyes flicker to his lips, and he convinces himself it meant nothing. uproots himself and looks back at the fire.
javier lets his eyes roam kieran’s profile a bit- his long lashes, his hooked nose, his sunspots- and suddenly he really, really needs another drink. he’s parched. he mirrors the other man’s fixation on the fire with another swig. “can’t say any of us nowadays look too alike. not unless you get the privilege of being born in the city, with money. every man has his story. if you think it is a competition, maybe you should consider yourself lucky that you haven’t lived enough chaos to be “interesting”.”
kieran snorts, “you don’t know the half of it… sir.” he tacks the term messily onto the sentence, hoping it’ll be enough to keep javier from strangling him to death for his tone. instead, he turns to see javier with a wide smile, drooping eyes creasing like a canine with it’s fangs bared. it makes kieran feel cold- like prey who yearns for the warm embrace of his predator’s breath on his neck.
“tell me then. what makes you so interesting and me so ignorant?”
#if anyone cares#my timeline for javieran is that javier immediately thinks kieran is so beautiful. like. from day one#but to be in love with him would be blasphemy#so he ignores it and allows it to fester and lowk eat him from the inside out until clemens point where he simply does not think inaction is#worth it anymore. he feels the dread of the pinkertons breathing down his neck and he says. fuck it. if i die tomorrow i’d rather not regret#not allowing myself to at least talk to the damn guy. and so he relents and starts being more and more openly curious of kieran#talking to him and seeking him out and spending time with/around him and even going out of his way to find him alone and keep him company#and he falls HARD and he falls FAST and he becomes so addicted to kieran and to … loving him that he forgets why they’re there in the first#place. forgets that he isn’t there to learn every single fact and tidbit about kieran. and every single pore and follicle on his skin as wel#this takes place right where they’ve arrived where everyone is exhausted from settling in and the camp is abnormally quiet because of it#but kieran is still up. javier sees him poking at the scout campfire. he always did enjoy the quiet of the evening where there’s no one arou#nd to harass him or threaten him or make him do anything he doesn’t want to. and javi figures now is as good a time as any.#grabs a case of beer and takes one drink from the first one to help with the nerves and sets off to become head kieranologist#anyway i’ll shut up#i hope yall love them like i do ☹️#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#kieran duffy#javier escuella#javieran#text#hero more like shakespeare#<- writing tag. because i didn’t have one before. and also funny.#this is gonna get 0 likes but that’s ok cuz i love them bad </3
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this man's sleeves are about to pop open and tear right off. he flexes and his shirt just fucking explodes
#love notes#love notes: ignacio ♡#💕♬♪ ♥ You stole my heart before anyone knew you had it - ̗̀˚₊·🐍🎱🌹˚₊· ̖́-#[jesse pinkman voice] YEAH BITCH!!! LOVE NOTES!!!!#oh my goddd let me be abnormal about him please#add another bald man to the roster fellas#first it was marco and leonel then it was mike then it was saul (he's balding. it counts)#now it's this rattlesnake lookinass slithery motherfucker stealing my heart#it wasnt at first sight either it TOOK him TWO MONTHS#i was terrified of him#until there was a scene where he was angry and he COULD HAVE lashed out#BUT HE DIDNT. HE HAD SELF CONTROL#he calmed himself down and took deep breaths and talked rationally#and he protects innocents if he's able to. and he feels remorse when he can't.#and he cares so much for his father bc to him his father is the purest kindest soul#and i just absolutely fell so hard. so SLOWLY though. he snuck up on me#but he's a thief isn't he? at least in one episode? 🥰 how fitting#i love violent criminals with the capacity to have a soft spot. for ANYTHING#it helps me feel safer with them and like the old me#youre supposed to look at a villain and know in ur heart that ur the exception and they'd protect u#and im slowly learning that again even tho its so damn hard#but this guy!!! and marco!!! and leonel!!! i just KNOW they're my ride or die#the actors telling me that in person and in cameo sure helps though sdlfjslkfdsf#oh god i need to tell you guys something really cool that happened to me with marco's actor this week#when i get the chance!!!
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The depressed teen to enthusiastic adult pipeline is far too real
#now I'm the happy go lucky adult inviting my depression teen cousins to go bowling and cheer them up#now I'm the one saying shit like “life ain't worth it kiddo. You just have fun and fuck everyone else.”#I just have to resist the urge to be overbearing and give them their space#Must. Resist.#It's so damn hard I love them so much I wanna hug them and buy them ice cream#But no you need to give teens the respect of adults so they may grow healthy#Even if in your eyes they still appear like your toddler niece#They do properly want ice cream#But I must ask them like adults yes I must offer it not force it#and never take rejection to heart around teens. They're still new. give em some leeway#and if you're not their parent then don't police them#Stayed up all night? Hell yeah that's wicked lil dude#Stole a sip from your dad's energy drink? wooo we have a rebel on our hands#stole from a shop?? ehh that's not cool buddy. Let's return and give em the money it's fine it's not the end of the world#They make require the respect of adults but remember they're still as impressionable as toddlers#Whether you like it or not they will observe and learn from your actions and words#So set a good example because they're new and still learning how the world works and most importantly how they themselves work#♧other#i mean i am still depressed#just learned to adapt and take happiness where I can#And care less in general about what people think
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i also think it's kinda cool how tyler makes me want to learn stuff
#y'all think i just sit here and reblog pictures of him but no#i started playing uke again after such a long break only because of HIM#i used to be so scared of barre chords that i never even tried to learn them i was just avoiding all the songs with barre chords#then i learned tear in my heart and i stopped being so scared#i figured out all the chords to saturday just from this one video which i thought would be damn hard but it wasn't#he makes it all look so easy#i don't know#he inspires me pretty much every day#i always think to myself: if he can do it i can do it too#i love him so much i can't even explain it#it may sound stupid to you but yes this man is the reason i want to get better at things even if it's gonna take years#one step at a time#i also want to try to learn new stuff#like i painted my jacket and i was never an artist but i had so much fun i am going to make more stuff in the future#i also wanna try to write again (i used to write a lot when i was a teenager) idk idk#tyler joseph the man that you are#i don't think i've ever felt this way about any artist really#i was mostly just consuming the content but now i actually wanna do stuff and idk#if that makes sense#but yeah#but sincerely can you hear me?*
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hot solarpunk take ive been thinking about off and on all day
i don't like joey santore/the crime pays botany doesn't guy.
i don't hate him. i just absolutely cannot sit through more than 5 minutes of his videos without getting fuckin dizzy.
also i know he's not the head of the 'if you don't know the latin names of everything in your garden if not your neighborhood if not your state then you're a hashtag fake native plant enthusiast' train but he's like lowkey the face of it for me so i get frustrated just hearing about the guy
#ani rambles#might delete later#like okay maybe mister santore is catching some fuckin strays out here but like#not all of us have the time or energy or fuckin brain capacity to memorize and perfectly ID every plant around us ever#and i frequently see posts that like lowkey shame people for not knowing latin names for things and like#its HARD. they have common names for a REASON#plant ID is HARD. not everyone has ultra megatron 5000 level pattern recognition like damn#i LOVE milkweed but if you held up a dogbane and a milkweed and told me to tell you which was which ill almost def get it wrong#if you hold up two MILKWEEDS and tell me to tell you which was which there's a 50 50 shot im gonna be wrong#like yeah sure encourage people to learn plant ID and latin names if they wanna but don't shame people like damn
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