#I love New Moon a lot don't get me wrong but Old Moon's and Sun's relationship wasn't black and white (as much as NM wants to insist it was

[meagancandraw]

You ever think about how neither of them got to say goodbye?

[polaris-stuff]

I get hating the arc with Nexus, I do too, but I'm honestly somehow more disappointed with Old Moon's return. Everything is normal. That's it, we're back to some status quo. Ignore the fact that Moon has said it's been like an hour for him, and the last thing he remembers is his family falling apart. Don't worry about how he somehow is a better brother now, don't worry that most of his main flaws are gone, the best version of Moon was always the original, ignore all the time's Sun has projected onto New Moon about this Moon's negative traits.

(I am salty we lost New Moon to this. Don't care what Dark Sun is doing, Nexus bothers me so much because why did everyone give up on him so fast.)

Sorry for ranting you make a lot of good points.

It's okay 🥺💖 Ty for saying I make good points, it makes me happy <33

I still don't believe that anyone in the family is actively not wanting to know what is happening or what happened with Nexus. I think the only ones who know that Nexus was launched into space are Sun and Old Moon, (plus Monty, Ruin and Puppet, but they are not part of the family tho).

It's just weird.

"Our brother started acting strange and hiding things from us, we confronted him but he said mean things so we instantly decided not to do anything else for him." (????

And that was just before Nexus almost killed Earth. There I completely agree with Earth for not wanting to know more about him, but it still saddens me to see how the family replaced him so quickly. New Moon was a good brother, probably the best brother Sun has ever had outside of Earth or Lunar, but something strange happens with him and Sun immediately thinks "Moon can hurt us." When New Moon has never had a history of violence against any of his family. New Moon LOVED his family SO MUCH.

And Sun saying "all Moons are toxic"? Sun, New Moon was nothing more than a loving and caring brother who cared about you, why is he suddenly toxic? Because "he grieved in the wrong way"? Because apparently everyone moved on with their lives after Solar's death but New Moon was the most devastated by that? You saw him cry his heart out in your arms until he fell asleep and even after that you only get jealous because Moon called Solar "his brother"?

Ah, and until Sun and Old Moon found out that Nexus was working with Dark Sun, Sun was thinking the whole time that New Moon was floating in space and didn't make a single effort to know if he was okay there (because, btw, machines in space freeze until they are useless, New Moon could have died there, animatronics are not built like NASA rockets to withstand the radical temperatures of space).

Anyway, the family has me disappointed. Even before the whole problem of wanting to kill Earth happened, they had already given up on New Moon.

"You can't force help on someone who doesn't want help." YES YOU CAN. Especially when it comes to a loved family member!! If New Moon didn't want help, them as his family should force him to take it! No letting him sink deeper and deeper into his loneliness until he snapped. Seriously, it worries me how much this fandom uses self-care as an excuse to not help others.

Sorry I ended up rambling, but tysm for the ask. I continue to hope that all this is the fault of a virus and that New Moon will be rescued one day because if not, the whole year we spent getting to know him was for nothing.

[idk-i-want-mcl-content]

describing my MCL profile (with @mclmora's template :D)

hi! as you can guess I'm yet again thinking about MCL, as one does, and I thought filling this template could be fun :3 📸 user's profile + favorite outfits

💗 name: ?

💗 b-day: 08/12

💗 zodiac sign(s): Saggitarius Sun, Scorpio Moon.

💗 nationality: Salvadorian.

💗 favorite flirt(s): Lysander, Armin and Nathaniel.

💗 player since: 19/12/2015

🎮 Currently playing → Episode 32: Happy Life, Double Life! (Armin's route); Episode 29: The Love of Art (Lysander's route)

💘 lom meters (US server)

nathaniel, 95%

castiel, -52%

lysander, 95%

armin, 75% (💘)

kentin, 35%

❔answering questions: - which club did you pick? I picked the gardening club, because even though in real life I cannot take care of a plant for the life of me (i've tried) i'm even less... skilled, in sports lol. Don't get me wrong I think both things are fun but it's just not my thing.

headcanon time: My Candy signed up for the gardening club, befriended Jade (and had a crush on him at the start of the year) and because she was more a danger than anything in the garden (shenanigans ensue) , she ended up switching clubs, then became representative of her class (I imagine the high school has a lot of students, she's from a different section than the other characters on the first year.) and that's how she ended up befriending Melody and Nath. In the second year, Jade switches schools :c he was one of her best friends there.

-which is your favorite ep?

oh, don't ask me that :") I'll better give you a list in NO specific order because I really, REALLY can't choose: 17 (bye Debrah), 21 (the play!!!), 23 (nath's house), 31 and 32 (lysander's arc), 33 (iris party) and 40 the finale of course! - which non-datable character you like the most?

Priya wasn't datable in HSL so her lol, also Jade and Dajan are really cool in my mind, even thought they appear in only two episodes for some reason I always include them in my headcanons. Mmm, this is hard lol because I like a lot of characters from different reasons and it's hard to compare them to each other yk. Like, objectively we may feel more inclined to say Rosa or Alexy, but that's because we know them really well. But then there's Iris best girl for example, Leigh is also really nice. And then I have fanon versions of Melody and Karla that, in my mind, make me like them more...

It's tough man, but being honest, probably Amber because yes in HSL she was a BULLY I think, as a character, I really like her, she's compelling to me.

👩🏽‍🎓univerity life: to start

❔answering questions:

-what do you think of the removal of kentin, armin and lysandre?

because I have had a lot of time to reflect on this, and now we have alternative life and everything, I think it doesn't hit me as much as it did when I saw the news the first time. Of course it's still sad, because reading all the amazing headcanons people have for these three LIs for that season really makes me wish they did something different but hey! I think the new routes weren't as bad as people make them to be, because they constantly like to compare the new v.s. the old routes and that's not the point. The point is for people to have fun, and i've seen fanarts, fanfics and blogs dedicated to Hyun, Rayan and Priya :D also, adding Priya as a love interest IN MY OPINION was a really nice choice, a lot of people liked her before and now being able to date her??? queen, just give me the ring.

-which one is your favorite episode?

I haven't played this season myself, but i've watched the playthrough of it on YT (planetsucrette te adoro) and honestly? episode 15 "Emotional Rollercoaster" HAS to be at least in my top three for this season, yes i'm a nathaniel girlie but idk, all the drama and the build up and the illu!!! ugh it's so good, I really enjoyed watching it and I cannot imagine finishing that episode and have to WAIT for the continuation!!! the intrigue!!!

Also Rosa's story reaaally pulled my heart strings, i'm going to be honest with you, and there's a scene where Candy has this memory box and there's a bunch of photos from High School, and there's one with them and Alexy and the way they narrate that part is just- is fantastic, I loved it a lot. I think it's on ep 11.

-is there something you don't like about this season?

uh... well, for the longest time, I didn't even wanted to know what it was about, mainly because my interest remained in HSL and the fact that 2/3 of my boys weren't even there was not motivation, at all. There's nothing at the top of my head that I have to critique in general. Maybe if I gave it a little bit more thought, but eh, not in the mood.

💎 alternate life

lysander: (1st episode)

questions for you ♡

how do you feel about his new design?

i'm in love with his new design, not even going to lie to you. literal heart eyes every time i see him 💗💗💗💗💗

what do you think of his character development?

mmm... i think i said somewhere else in the SEA of post I have rambling about this game lol but, I agree with the sentiment that they could have took a different approach to his story in general. He's still charming, of course, but i'm completely biased in that.

non-datable characters that I love

yes the whole HSL cast. i don't care. they forever will live free in my mind.

general questions ♡

-how did you discover the game?

thanks to a friend who really liked anime :) she was my best friend at the time but I ended up falling in love with the game thanks to roleplaying with two of my best friends in the world + my new bestie because the other one switched schools lol. Now that I think about it, I don't know what her route was xd

Random fact: Those two friends I mentioned? They are both in love with Lysander and are always telling me they are going to steal him from me JAJAJAJA. All of us are head over heels for Armin though. One of them is Kentin's route and Castiel's route (yes, the complete opposites lol) and the other one loves Castiel TO DEATH. Also, my IRL bestie is also Castiel route and uh, quick question: Why does EVERYONE I know love Castiel while the dude literally hates ME? I'm saying like, in every damn account he always manages to be my LOWEST lom. Wanna know why? because I always befriend Nath.

-which one is your favorite special episode (ex: halloween 2011, easter 2012, ect)?

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH NOOOOO DON'T DO THIS!!!!! but-

I have fond memories of playing the Valentine's 2018 event, it was the last one :"""") (i think). Why do I remember you ask? Because I did screamed when I saw this illu for the first time:

look at my boys. LOOK AT THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-have you played the spin-offs? if yes, which one was your favorite?

sadly no :c i'm short on AP yk, I'm a free to play girlie till the day I die.

💗 the end?

and that's the end :))) If you've read any part of this uh, thank u??? I started writing this tag as a fun silly activity but I ended up getting invested and thinking more about my silly AU. Also, you may have noticed I just call my candy "Candy" and that's not because they don't have names, but the reason is because they are my real names and I don't feel comfortable sharing them online!

I've tried to search for synonyms of my names to use for them, but they just don't feel like me and at the end of the day, My Candy Love is supposed to be played from your perspective and so, yes my candys have different personalities and dynamics with the characters but idk, they are based around me and so giving them other names doesn't really work for me??? it's a matter of preferences I guess.

i'm really fond of this game, but it's a part of me that i only get to talk openly about here on tumblr or with those 2-3 friends, so writing all of this was a sweet experience.

[starheirxero]

At this point, the creators are just trying to see, how far they can take the angst until we all turn to dust-

The fact that Lunar actively doesn't want to feel, because they see themself a danger to everyone is making me become a feral dog-

Earth, oh for God's sake, she just keeps breaking me- The way she talked about Solar😭 He was her best friend, and her support system! He was the person, who always knew what to do, who always spent time with her, and now he's gone… THEY LITERALLY WANTED TO KNIT LITTLE ANIMALS THE DAY HE DIED- I am perishing-

It's very interesting to note, how different they all cope though! Earth, though heartbroken, is actively grieving in a healthy manner, or at least trying to! Meanwhile, her brothers are very much not coping- Lunar is numb, Moon is overworking himself, and Sun honestly doesn't seem to know what to do! None of them are quite able to process, it seems.

Eclipse's section was so fascinating as well! He seems so genuinely confused about Earth's words, about her lack of wanting to hurt Ruin! He was so quiet when he listened to her, pretty much soaking in her words! For the first time, he actually seems to see her, see a perspective beyond his own-

Not to forget her sympathy. Because yes, Eclipse's life was fucking tragic, and still is, his wrong doings don't change that!

If this continues the way I think it might, then to be honest, it'll almost be better if Solar didn't return- Don't get me wrong, I love the guy with all my heart, however, his death is a lot more…meaningful? It's different from the rest.

In the past, there has been a consistent case of quiet mourning, and not just for the dead. For example, Lunar's grief for what he could've had with Eclipse, which caused him to be sent to Solar's dimension in the first place! It's a very consistent thing that still lives on, even without actively talking about it!

Other death's were quietly wept for in the past. When Eclipse died, no one was shown to grieve him, though Lunar likely did quietly. Again, that was probably partly why Moon sent Lunar to Solar's dimension!

Bloodmoon too, was quietly mourned for, though it was only mentioned briefly! For one, with KC, and in a video, Lunar went to Solar's dimension and they watched baby photo fanart together! Somewhere, Lunar mentioned Bloodmoon's death, and Solar stopped the recording for a while! After that, it wasn't talked about anymore.

Lunar's death itself was rather different, as it was clear from the beginning, that he was alive, though it didn't change the weight of it! It was shown in the way Sun would get quieter when he was mentioned. Though it was never actively talked about, the weight was there.

Old Moon is a whole issue in and of itself. It was obvious, just how much Sun wept for him, but that too was done quietly, often avoiding the topic all together! Likely feeling like he couldn't mourn at all, because it'll be unfair towards new moon. It was a constant weight at the back of his mind.

There was KC as well. Moon made it clear, how angry and upset he was, but it was never quite elaborated on, likely hanging over him quietly.

My point is, that all their grief was something quiet that stayed in the background, pushing itself to the front every once in a while. No one ever took the time to grieve properly before, to sit down and weep, to scream at the sky. There was always too much happening!

Deaths were never the focus!

This time though, it's different! Solar's death is a constant cloud hanging over them, never leaving them alone. It feels more meaningful, y'know? It's in the forefront now, it's complete center stage!

It will likely also cause quite a bit of character development, seeing with Eclipse already.

Not to forget, seeing as it's something hanging over them, we'll likely see our main characters going through all the process of grief, and slowly learn to live with it, to move forward. At least that's where I think it might be going-

Which, if that's the case, would feel meaningless if Solar returns.

Then again, if he does come back, I WILL cry tears of joy, so-

-Stardust

LITERALLYYYYY AUAGHHHH.!!!!

Genuinely any sort of "we were supposed to do xyz" when a character died fucks me up SO BAD. They had plans. They had hopes. They assumed they'd both be alive by then ☹️☹️☹️

AND YEA THEY'RE ALL HANDLING IT SO DIFFERENTLY ITS AUGHHH. Genuinely yea Earth (and maybe Sun?) seem to be the only ones grieving in a healthy way and it's so heartbreaking to watch all around. AND ECLIPSE. ECLIPSE..... YEAH HIS MEETING WITH EARTH WAS WILDLY FASCINATING TO ME. Even Earth herself noted that Eclipse didn't insult her, just kinda questioned and then left.

AND EVERYTHING YOU SAID ABOUT DEATH IN TSAMS YESYESYES!!!!!!!! Genuinely me n my qpp were talking about something SO similar the other day, how no other characters had this level of grief from the characters and the videos!! There's always the obligatory "so-and-so is DEAD?! in vrchat" video but there was never a "missing Lunar" or "grieving the old Moon" video!! Like you said, it was always this quiet grief that seeped between the cracks and gunked up their ability to fully think or feel, but everyone was always so busy with Everything Else.

Now, we're at a point where most of the danger is dealt with or not a very immediate threat. Stitchwraith and Bloodmoon are more Foxy and Monty's problem, the Creator isn't targeting Sun and Moon (as far as we're aware, at least), and Eclipse is sort of... docile right now. The celestial family has time to grieve and they have every right to grieve because we really don't know if Solar is coming back.

I get you so hard btw I am genuinely so torn on whether I want Solar back or not for realzies ahsiahdj 😭😭😭

[dana-chan-the-control-brain]

Hey, do you feel their a double standard between the old moon and the original eclipse ? People will defend original eclipse actions like he was alone. Nobody gave him a chance, BUT when you bring up old moon and some good he did or say he was hurt too they be no old moon was terrible and irredeemable don't get me wrong I do consider them similar they both have s connection to the killcode and they did hurt people but I feel one get criticized harder than the other

Yeah, no I completely agree with you.

Old Moon wasn't as terrible as people made him out to be.

Yes, he was an abuser and toxically codependent with Sun. To the point he even told Sun he's not allowed to feel any emotions other then happiness or he won't be happy.

But the love was Damn there. Old Moon sacrificed everything he could to keep his family safe. Which carried over to the new Moon spectacularly.

NewMoon is very hard on his old self. Because he didn't like how he treated Sun. OldMoon tortured and tormented Sun until they separated and decided to become brothers.

Evil!Sun even said that Moon and Sun becoming brothers in that outcome is rare across dimensions. One or the other kills each other, or Moon dies early.

OldMoon also because of his trauma he sympathized more with villians, which is why Eclipse got to the position where Sun destroyed Moon's manna pool that lead to his death in the first place. Oldmoon feeling compassion for Lunar who took him in as a brother without Sun's permission. OldMoon who couldn't kill KC once he showed signs of change. OldMoon who took the deal with Eclipse.

OldMoon took on so many responsibilities on himself, because he saw himself as the Protector of "Sun's innocence" and his One singular family member was all he had back then. So of course he'd be protective and he even said that Sun was the only good thing in his life.

(Kinda reminds me how Solar sees his own Sun.)

But now... NewMoon has many family. Earth actually helped raise Moon in a sense, cause as far as NewMoon is concerned, his sister has been here since the start. And Sun was greiving and mourning, so Earth Stepped up and showed Moon how to become a compassionate person, even before Sun told him to watch the videos on their channel. I don't doubt she was an extremely positive influence as he developed into his own person.

NewMoon does carry the traits of the old Moon, caring deeply about his family, but he's FAR LESS codependent then he was. He now has different trauma of building up his old self, and villians in his head as more then how they are. He's just scared of becoming something he doesn't want. Or going back to the old bad habits he did have. Which is why he veers so hard in the other direction.

OldMoon sympathized with Villains? Well, now NewMoon won't give them a chance (Although I think that changed when he saw how pointless and pathetic Eclipse is)

NewMoon even attempted to hug and comfort Sun very early in his life. Which Sun pushed away, or flinched inwards at, because he wasn't used to affection from Moon. Even Now, NewMoon is sad that he doesn't get a lot of hugs.

OldMoon did have his good points, but his bad points too.

I actually do like to think OldMoon is watching Sun through NewMoon's eyes. Happy of the brother he can finally be now.

[hsavinien]

Fic Writer Interview

Tagged by @wheremermaidsdwell

tagging @asparklethatisblue, @degenezijde, @hyenabeanz if you want to.

How many works do you have on ao3?

441. 183 of those are The Owl House because I have a problem.

What’s your total word count?

360,262 (ish). Some co-written, so not all my words.

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Silver is the Moon (Old Guard, Joe/Nicky)

Calling Across the Sea (Good Omens, Aziraphale/Crowley)

Remedy (ST: AOS, Kirk/McCoy)

Teasing Means We Love You, Irritation Means You're Still Alive (Old Guard, team fluff)

Such Simple Trials (MCU, Bucky/Steve/Peggy)

Do you respond to comments? Why/why not?

Always! I appreciate them so much!

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

Coupla Owl House ones. Maybe Raine captured by Kikimora: Leashed, or Camila and "her daughter's" changed behavior: Changeling.

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

Ehhh... A lot? Like. So many? "We saved the world and got back together and find each other wildly attractive, let's fuck about it!" is not an uncommon theme for me. New Morning Dawning (Raine/Eda) is fun.

Do you write crossovers?

Occasionally. I've done a few Good Omens ones:

We Must Bear Witness (GO/Tolkien, female maiar Aziraphale & Crowley, fusion)

Knightly Virtues are a Pain (GO/Arthuriana, female Aziraphale & Crowley, fusion)

Østenfor engelen og vestenfor demonen (GO/East of the Sun, West of the Moon, female Aziraphale & Crowley, fusion)

Out of Ambit (GO/Discworld, male Aziraphale & female Crowley, isekai)

A Holmes/Doctor Who drabble: A Loose End (Ninth Doctor & SH minor character)

A HP/Justice League Intl. remix for an exchange and a Girl Genius/Marvel comics one for my own joy: Nadia Not-Heterodyne and the Spark Girls (Jaeger OC & Nadia Van Dyne)

An Owl House/ST: TNG fic: Away Mission (King & Tasha & Deanna).

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

No, but I did get a self-identified aro person telling me I was doing romance wrong while having me blocked so I couldn't respond without logging out of my account to respond to a comment on my own fic. That person's comments no longer appear on my stories.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yeeeeep. What kind, like...genders? Species? Yes.

M/M, M/F (occasionally), F/F, F/Nonbinary, M/Nonbinary, Nonbinary/Nonbinary, Multi. Monsterfucking. Some bondage. Angsty masturbation.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not that I know of.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yep! With @intosnarkness: And mony a canty day, Jim, We've had wi' ane anither (ST: AOS, Kirk/Scott)

and @hyenabeanz: Eda's Reprise (Be Refreshed, and Be Well) (Owl House, Eda/Raine)

Also 10 years and thousands (millions?) of messages of epistolary RP.

What's your all-time favourite ship?

Aging antifascist queers. Raine/Eda, Joe/Nicky, Baze/Chirrut.

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

I'm GONNA. I'll figure it out! I ONCE tried posting a WIP in hopes that it would make the words come out and it did NOT but I'm going to figure it out eventually! Hyenabeanz helped me figure out what the overarching theme is, so I do in fact have a general direction now. It's already the longest thing I've ever written.

Threads Binding a Wide Universe (Old Guard future fic, sci fi team adventure with new immortals)

What are your writing strengths?

Emotion and worldbuilding. Precision with words.

What are your writing weaknesses?

Sustained plot is hard.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I use it very occasionally and provide translations in a footnote if I don't think readers will be able to figure it out from context.

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Good Omens. Long time community member on LJ. Counterpoint (Aziraphale & Crowley, the Arrangement)

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

Ehhh. Might eventually write for MXTX, but no ideas have really jumped out at me.

What's your favourite fic you've written?

Again this question... Today, let's say I am very proud of A Reflection Bereft, Not Dark (Old Guard, Joe/Nicky, parallel universes).

[creativeafterdark]

Chapter 8

So unfortunately this week I have no sketches for the chapter due to slight burn out and work related reasons (also I had completely forgotten we get introduced to the pilgrims minus Sanzang in this chapter and their designs are anything but ready). As a result, I'm just going to write my thoughts.

@journeythroughjourneytothewest

First things first: Guanyin. I love Guanyin. They're just so calm about being attacked by two monsters and letting Hui'an handle combat. It also shows the sheer difference in strength between the four disciples, after seeing the trouble that he went through fighting Sun Wukong. Guanyin is a true being of mercy, not really making a big fuss out of being attacked and I commend them for it, I would be chewing Zhu and Sha's heads off. Though the "Perhaps in Two or Three Years" answer they gave the great Immortal, I'll need to pay attention to how much time passes to see if that's accurate (but I recall the full journey takes 14 years? Correct me if I'm wrong).

Next up: Sha Wujing. So after I'd previously read the Abridged Version, I was utterly confused as to why the Jade Emperor was petty enough to punish this poor man for BREAKING A CUP. Then I found a comic by antidotefortheawkward that explained how breaking a cup could be seen as a signal to attack. And I was like "...ah. That makes more sense now." Still a little petty, not hearing him out, but it made sense that it would be his first thought. Especially if he was cast out AFTER Sun Wukong's Havoc. I don't think we got a clear answer on that timeline (again feel free to correct me!). Even if he did eat people, I still love this pilgrim and can't wait for his chapter.

Next: Zhu Wuneng, aka Zhu Bajie. Quick to lower his weapon for a woman, lol. Jokes aside, it seems as though he's very unlucky with women (and vice versa). There is his flirting with the Moon Goddess (which is still unclear if it was consensual or unwelcomed, that would change my opinion of how this all went down), him killing his new form's mother and siblings (I've heard people say human flesh tastes like pork, so I guess that's where he got the taste for it, huh?), and the death of Second Elder Sister Egg (and him getting all her stuff). Unlike Sha Wujing, it does feel like Zhu Wuneng was begging a lot more for mercy. But Guanyin chose to believe his intent as being genuine, so he will be the next disciple.

Next: OUR DRAGON BOY. I'm gonna call him Bai Longma, as that's the name most know him by. I feel out of all of these, his punishment was the most unfair, and the fact that his father went to the Jade Emperor and seemed to be just fine with a DEATH SENTENCE honestly kills me. Like, I feel as though everyone was so on edge after Sun Wukong that punishments just amped up. I am glad Guanyin immediately jumped to his defense, and as a result got Sanzang a much better mount than any old horse.

And finally: Sun Wukong. Our old monkey. And the start of my favorite relationship in the story (the friendship between Guanyin and Wukong). Sun Wukong is still very bitter of Tathagata's trick but appears willing to do what he must to get free, though knowing what I do, I'm already thinking "Uh huh. Sure. Whatever you say, Great Sage" in a sarcastic tone. But that's for another chapter.

And with that, Guanyin continues their own journey to Chang'an to find our Tang Sanzang.

All in all, a very short but important chapter, setting the stage for journey and meeting the key players.

I probably will be doing more writing than drawing for the next few chapters (minus the intro to Sanzang), to both get off this burn out and because I don't recall any characters that show up more in the story aside from these chapters, so I don't see a point in making a design for them.

[ikamigami]

Moon saying "I can't tell the difference between what's real and what isn't anymore" as justification for the mental illness claim, even though he just got comforted during his breakdown and would've for this too except he hid it, that might've been true right after the weird waking dream, but not long after that it seemed like that issue was dropped and he just did something else, is that just me or?

The feeling of not being sure what's real or not sticks with you through whole psychotic episode.. but how you react to things depends on how much detached from reality you are.. or I mean that even if your perception of things is different during mild psychotic episode you still know what is morally right and wrong..

Or to specify.. if you experience severe psychotic episode it's hard for you to understand the consequences of your actions - good example was Sun's psychotic episode: he wasn't thinking about the consequences of his actions, he was unaware how damaging his actions were or could be..

When you experience mild psychotic episode you're more aware of things and if in case like New Moon's you know what you're doing is wrong and know the consequences of your actions - New Moon was aware that others wouldn't want him to bring Solar back the way he wanted hence why he didn't tell them anything and later he decided to leave after he'll bring Solar back because he knew that others aren't and won't be happy with him and what he tried to do..

I think that Moon tried to justify his own actions because he felt confused and scared because of experiencing hallucinations and not being certain about what's real and what's not..

Like you said at first after Moon's vivid/waking dream he's confusion was understandable and if he hypothetically punched Monty because he thought it was someone else or he thought Monty was a threat to him it'd be 100% understandable and justifiable because he couldn't tell the difference between what's real and what's not.. but later he was more aware of things and knew that he's in the wrong and knew the consequences.. and yet he didn't stop, he didn't ask for help, he didn't apologize to anyone and said "I'm sorry that I lashed out.. I just don't know what to do anymore.. I don't know how to make this feeling stop, how to make these voices to go away.." instead he continued to try to kill someone and didn't care that Earth, his sister, could've died as well..

So Moon later was using his mental state as an excuse..

Also him wanting to bring Solar back was him acting on his delusions.. because we saw that even his hallucinations tried to stop him.. if he was acting on his delusions I think that he'd be saying things like "no one understands me" "I'm not bad person" "stop judging me" "you know nothing about me" "get away from me" "I don't trust you" and "I'm weak" "I know that I'm worse than Old Moon" "I tried my best" "I was never good enough" "no one loves me" "stop looking at me like that" "I'm sorry" "I don't know what to do" and he'd either try to hurt himself or just avoid everyone because he's afraid of their judgement or he could attack his family because he thinks that they're threat to his life - ofc all of this is if I'm right that he has persecutory delusions..

But what we got "so I'm a villain" - this could still count as his delusions if it were just these words but because he decided to take bad actions it's not caused by his delusions..

Sun trying to kill Eclipse because of his delusions has a lot of sense considering that he may not see Eclipse only as Eclipse we know but as an embodiment of the voice in his head.. you may think that's a stretch but we ta got any introspection of what Sun exactly thinks about Eclipse especially in crucial moments - why we never found out what Sun was thinking when they found out that star was killing Eclipse? And ofc when Sun went after Eclipse he was very detached from reality..

With Moon we didn't have anything like that so it seems more like he's trying to excuse himself.. like there was no real reason to why Moon became so murderous because of mild psychotic episode.. I think that it's not caused by his mental issues and I really dislike when people try to justify Moon's actions because of his mental issues :/

Thank you for this ask, dear anon ^^

[sailoropal]

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Hallo // This pinned bio makes it easier to explain myself, this blog, and what content will likely be spammed with it. As well as reaching out to other fans also thriving here, heh.

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About Me:

I go by Fae or Spec (She/They).

I am 24 years old - ENFP and queer [not a shock considering my sailor moon core]

A recent postgrad burnout woman who has resigned from the stressful 9 - 5 STEM grad job I had to now work as a disability student support worker. There's a lot more flexibility in this role that allows me to have passions and personality outside my Degrees and Academics, haha!

Regarding birth charts and for the sake of astrology I am Taurus Sun, Capricorn Moon, and Sagittarius Rising.

I have ASD - Like many women, I was late diagnosed due to many in my community dismissing my observational signs as "quirks" and "A wee bit away with the fae". I masked a lot in my life, but I realize it is essential for my mental health to unmask where possible.

My first language is Gàidhlig; later in my life, I learned English when I wanted to move from the Scottish isles, where I grew up. So, if you have a DnD/OC character influenced by Celtic Myth/Gaelic culture, I am happy to give advice and commentary.

Anime/Shows:

Attack on Titan, Avatar-The Last Airbender, Aggretsuko, Anohana, Bleach, Berserk, Chainsaw Man, Devilman Crybaby, Digimon, Dororo, Jojo's Bizarre Adventure, Made in Abyss, My Hero Academia, Naruto, One Piece, Pokémon, Sailor Moon, Shiki, Yu-gi-oh!, Yu Yu Hakusho, Lovely Complex, My Love Story!!, Wonder Egg Priority, Romantic Killer, Toradora, RWBY, ROTTMNT, Adventure Time, Bee and Puppycat, and a TON of K-dramas/C-dramas/J-dramas - atm I am watching a K-drama called The Glory and my most absolute fave is Strong Girl Bong-Soon.

I am starting the likes of Jujutsu Kaisen, Demon Slayer, and I am open to more recommendations!

Video Games:

Animal Crossing, Bloodborne, Baldur's Gate 3, Fire Emblem, Bravely Default, Cult of the Lamb, Dark Souls, Diablo, Hades, Stardew Valley, Rune Factory, Monster Hunter, Minecraft, Resident Evil, Street Fighter, Mortal Kombat, The Sims, Style Savvy DS series (Dress-up Games are my weakness), Pokémon, Super Princess Peach (also looking forward to the switch release!)

Okay, I am also obsessed with Dating Horror Games:

John Doe, Something's Wrong with Sunny Day Jack, DachaBo!, Frost Bite, My Dear Hatchet Man, House Hunted.

(I know Your Boyfriend is a popular one - the game is fun, but I am not a fan of the creator.)

I intend to play the likes of Touch Starved, Courtin' Cowboys, Snaggemon, Trapped with Jester, and more, heh. :^

Books:

I read a lot of Fanfiction alongside actual works by Elizabeth Lim, Sue Lynn Tan, Sarah J Maas, Judy Lin - Anything that is literally Chinese Mythic Based Plot, and Fae Smut, if I gotta be honest with you PFFT. I am on Booktok a ton, so recommendations are appreciated while I organise my Kindle.

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[glitterslag]

About the blogger meme

Thanks @moodyeucalyptus and @doubleappled for the tag and thanks apple for the fic shoutout! 🤠 Nice to read your answers 🤗

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Currently Reading: Just started reading Where the Crawdads Sing by Delia Owens.

And my current festive reading is this! Such a good magazine if you're into your folk horror (which I am, if that wasn't glaringly obvious)

Last Thing Researched for Art/Writing/Hyperfixation: I've been watching quite a few vids about homesteading and of people building their own log homes for my Appalachian Sydcarmy fic! It's super interesting and such a cool lifestyle, it would be cool if more people lived that way!

Favourite Online Fandom Memory: My first fandom on here was Queen/Borhap. I miss those days! That was such a lovely community and it made Covid lockdown days a lot brighter :')

Favourite Old Fandom You Wish Would Drag You Back In/Have A Resurgence: Borhap fandom for sure!

Favourite Thing You Enjoy That Never Had an Active or Big "Fandom" but You Wish It Did: Ben Howard is my longest running favourite musician and there isn't really an online community around him which makes me sad. I'm in his subreddit but it's kinda boring there lmao, it's not really like fandom vibes. I wish more people would make art and stuff

Tempting Project You're Trying to Rein In/Don't Have Time For: you know what, I'm being rly good lately and not starting too many things!!!

I do intend to return to my sydcarmy fic Sagittarius Season in the new year, but first I need to finish my baby BOJ and put it to rest 🤗

I do have A TON more supernatural sydcarmy au ideas up my sleeve but i think i'm just gonna enjoy them in my head :))

This was rly fun thank you!!! Tagging some The Bear babes: @angelica4equity @lunasink @sennenrose and some hellcheer babes who have tagged me in other things recently I believe : @hangon-silvergirl @erythromanc3r (pls accept this as a response I am forgetful and I lose track)

[visionthefox]

So lunar is back and they finally got a model it seems they commissioned the same person who did Earth's but interesting enough Lunar's is better looking (there's somethings like the mouth for example are hard to look at just feels like an empty void) and still has the cuteness factor.

Second as we progress the video puppet and eclipse have a talk a long the lines of "don't you dare bring him back, because I see things, I saw the future everyone is in danger" and puppet is like "I don't care I'm bringing him back" and he does. Before they depart back to earth Lunar is there sitting in his pod while the computer/ai is finishing the process once it's done Lunar is awake he says "why am I small?" But he just sounds very sad and dull, he doesn't sound like before all cheerful and happy. As they try to leave Eclipse takes over the AI and keeps saying to Lunar "something will happen to the people he loves and this time it won't be his fault it would be yours" and Puppet is just like "come on kid, let's get going, just ignore him" and the episode ends there.

On the TSAMS channel we have a therapy session between Earth, Sun and Moon. Idk if Kat (Earth's VA) is studying or studied something along the lines of psychology or they have done extensive research on the topic. But more like a therapy session I felt like it was when your mom sits you down with your sibling and talk about differences to come to an agreement, that's what I felt. Like earth noticed right away that something was wrong with Sun and sun didn't want to talk about it and what did earth do? She began trying to distract sun so they wouldn't talk about it and she also said "venting will make you feel better" or something. she then went to moon and moon was like "he lied to me" and the whole family session started and they both expressed their emotions "I see, so you know Moon cares for you Sun. And moon sun really cares about you. You both don't want anything to happen to each.." they brought the situation with the old moon and sun said "I'm just waiting... For it to happen again.." and earth is like "the memory reset?" Sun says "no, moon to start acting like his old self because he has the same mannerisms, the same anger.." and other things I can't remember. To which moon replies "well, I'm not going to be like that" and they didn't hug it out but at the very end they shift the tone from something serious to something cheerful by saying "Let's go to the Barbie movie" and Earth is like "yes I'll put a lot of things in my hair, let me go get my pink clothes" and moon is like "yeah, I'll put some tec I did that goes around my neck to project color without painting myself" and sun is like "you know we can change color" and moon is like "I can only change my eye color, do you want the tech I made?" Sun replies with a "no" and jumps out of the balcony and says "Thank you Earth"

I tried my best to summarize both shows so yeah! :)

- 🍍-

aah I think I saw a post saying Lunar was back, but the issue was if he is a child or not- as for models, it clear they had more time to actually work on it, unlike earth, who had to be rushed.. so I imagine he looks somewhat better (im sure the artist did their best!) as for Eclipse part-- im a bit confused.. is Eclipse now able to see the future? so far, the universe they live in is.. still Eclipse universe, the one he made.. so make sense he has some control but weak.. but is odd - does this relate to ruin Eclipse in some way? or will be related to them? since they dont belong there but .. stayed? apparently? as for Earth... eh. maybe I was wrong.. maybe she is good for them.. like, doing this , this talk and all.. but it feels.. wrong , like, please lets remember, she is a new person in both Sun and Moon life.. she may live there, and all, but is been a few months , is not enough time to trust someone with deep feelings.. even if, she is the only one to like them.. but eh, if she is actually helpfull, then good on them.. I have an issue with the "Sun doesnt accept new Moon".. like, is so normal to feel afraid and just.. not be happy with the whole situation, lets get on Sun's shoes or slippers - he had to share a body with someone broken, cruel, angry, who eventually grew to be a brother, who yes, was mean, hit him and wasnt "nice" BUT was caring on his own ways, and the two learned to care for each other.. that person, who Sun saw grow, trust and eventually got to be in good terms.. is gone.. is all gone.. now this copy is here, is nicer yes. but as Sun said "is acting similar" one part of Sun maybe just , love to have a nicer brother! of couse! but other will fear the old moon to be back.. and with that, the hits and all.. I may defend old Moon a lot, he wasnt an angel, but he was most of the time right, he was doing the best he could, yes, hitting Sun was terrible, but lets remember the whole "stick" joke wasnt been use in a loooong time still.. I just felt like, getting mad that Sun is not ready to accept the new Moon to be. really, a new Moon, is cruel.. Sun never got so say goodbye, never got to trully understand Moon motives.. he is always having to accept what ever happends- is a bit too much.. but aaah, anyways.. is confusing- but is good the two got to chat. new Moon should be patience and learn to wait for his "brother" to accept him - thanks you so much for your ask and time!! <3

[veiled-clan]

(This clan is made using the monstrous mayhem challenge (with turn based combat) in the clangen discord and using the accessories+ mod)

long ago, Veiledclan was blessed by the dark forest with "gifts", but these so called blessing demanded new forms, so the cats were transformed, and starclan wasn't happy with that, so they cursed the clan to be confined within their borders, living in perpetual leaf-fall

(this is very silly and I don't have a lot of thoughts rn so this lore is subject to change, mostly the details tho)

Introducing now, the cats of Veiledclan:

(I will make some slight changes on their designs in the future)

Goldstar, the leader of Veiledclan

He is 89 moons (at moon 0)

He is a mummy and has wraps in almost every part of his body, except the movable parts like joints, ears, etc and his skin is very very thin

An out of the box thinker and a good speaker. often defending those who cant fend for themselves. hes kind and loved by everyone on the clan

Skills:

Hipnotic, has a chance to knock out opponents for a few turns or make them unable to continue fighting the battle untill the end Opponent is knocked out for 1-3 turns.

Undead Resilience (+15 HP): These monsters can’t be stunned or hypnotized, but are usually quite slow (they aren’t the first to attack).

Emeraldgaze, the deputy of Veiledclan

89 moons old

He is a gorgon with snakes on his head and a rattle in his tail

He would kill anyone to protect his clan, despite the bloodthirsty nature, he's a beloved kitsitter

Skills:

Stone Stare: The user sends a harsh glare at their opponent, and if they make eye contact, they're turned to stone temporarily and frozen in place. If frozen in stone, the opponent is no longer able to battle unless the user of the ability is knocked out or killed.

Smokemane, the healer

57 moons old

He is a sphynx but more normal, with a cat head instead of a human one

He keeps the story of the clan and often goes out exploring and gathering herbs.

Skills:

Decipher me or I'll devour you: During 3 rounds he will say a riddle and freeze an opposing cat until they answer it, if they answer wrong, they take 10 dmg, if they answer right: 1 time: nothing happens. 2 times: nothing happens. 3 times: Smokemane cannot attack that cat anymore. (I created this one hehehe)

Featherfuzz, the mediator

35 moons old

He's a harpy, his front legs are wings and he has feathers instead of fur

He's a good speaker, despite his playful nature, and a good mediator

Skill:

Convincing song: makes an opponent unable to attack for a few turns or forces them to attack an ally

Inkyheart

90 moons old

She's a demon, with a demon tail, horns, spikes, wings and black scleras

A demon who found herself unable to leave the clan after the curse was set upon them, shes an eloquent speaker, often using that ability to get away with the trouble she causes.

Skill:

Manipulates shadows): -15 HP to opponent. There's a 25% chance of shocking or trapping opponents each time the ability is used, which will skip the opponent’s next turn.

Grayscales

86 moons old

A dragon, with dragon wings, horns, spikes and talons

A skilled heart-reader,who spends most of her time with Smokemane, passing on the stories of the clan

Skill:

Super Strength: They can deliver a -20 HP blow. There's a chance the opponent will be knocked out each time this move is used, thus making this ability-user victorious.

Nightsprout

56 moons old

A cow Centaur, with the upper half of a cat and the lower of a cow

A good storyteller, often seen entertaining the kits, and a good swimmer

Skill:

Super Strength: They can deliver a -20 HP blow. There's a chance the opponent will be knocked out each time this move is used, thus making this ability-user victorious.

Rustyleaf

23 moons old

A dryad, with plants growing from her fur.

A troublesome cat who dozes off easily.

Skills:

Photosynthesis: They recover 2.5 HP every turn (only in the sun-light, so battles during the day).

Scorpionpaw

9 moons old

A Manticore, with a lion mane, bat wings and a scorpion tail

An adventurous cat and a picky nest builder.

Skill:

Venomous: Similar to Cursed Bite, but they'll continually lose 2.5 damage instead of 5 until they flee the battle and are treated.

Glitterpaw

10 moons old

A very tiny pixie with dragonfly wings and a sparkly aura

The sneaky and oddly insightfull pixie, he loves to steal and hide the other cats trinkets

Skill:

Agility (-15 HP): These creatures are unusually fast! They’ll always attack first (unless facing an ability that nullifies theirs). They're twice as likely to avoid all attacks (making a 50/50 chance a 25% chance of hitting them).

[sabrondabrainrot]

eeeEEEE EEEHEE Making Friday the 13th special!!!

You can literally yap forever to me!!! I really like it especially your thoughts and analysis it's just so neat. 🙏 The essay had me kicking my feet the entire way home.

You also pointed out stuff I didn't think about. It's really cool and smart and observational!!! Plus it's always fun for me to read what people have to say about their blorbo. Your bingy bongus. Your special little meow meow.

You saying my art is nice , really makes my day 👉👈 hee hee thank you ❤️

Hfgghvhhb I love thissss

I don't really have a disclaimer. I might just end up repeating a lot of the opinions already stated? Might just be a ✨lil echo-chamber moment ✨

Honestly just agree with everything that you're pointing out.

I'm not a little hater (that energy takes a lot to bring forth) but I see both sides of the situation and it's a lot more gray than people want it to be. Like you were saying it has 20x more nuanced than a black and white situation. It's so much easier when stuff is black and white but this type of situation just can't be.

I trust the writers, they have the character's best interest at heart. New Moon/Nexus' story won't end at being a villain or a misunderstood tradegy. If the likes of Eclipse, Old Moon, Monty, and Puppet have grounds to be redeemed then so does Nexus (not that Nexus has ever done anything wrong)

LMAO I love the little guy but I'm so scared for him at the same time, cause I don't know what Dark Sun has in store for him. (Dark Sun so sexy aha~ 🤭 /j). Dark Sun needs him and is using him but I still can't get a read on for what yet. There's a lot of theories and while I adore them, Dark Sun doesn't seem the type to kill Nexus? It's fun to consider he's using Nexus to feed the Witherstorm dragon thing but.... There's so many easier ways to do that than to take in Nexus.

I still can't get over how he used the phrase "You're one of the dead ones" but something I haven't seen pointed out yet, that's Dark Sun's personal terminology. No one else ever considered Nexus "a dead one". I think New Moon actually started spiraling as early as then. Dark Sun planted that seed of disent intentionally.

He's basically a baby and was just getting along with his new bestie and his siblings and then someone wearing the face of his big brother just casually implied he's a zombie. Nothing but an echo. A walking corpse.

I would be scared of what I am too.

*slaps Nexus* this bad boy can hold so much identity crisis.

Also the thing on Earth just 👌 mwah. The entire p&s convo was dramatic AF. Couldn't get over how Sun warned Earth.... And he was so right about it all....I just, man....Earth, girlie pop.... What was said was not harsh...

I should add, I actually really like Earth and wish we had more female characters in media, but also I will say she did kind of drop the ball on this. Again it's sticky. She's not perfect and I love her for that but she also turned harsh to the wrong person. There's a time and place to be stern and unforgiving and I think it's not when someone is literally terrified and on the brink. (Like you said!!!)

So idk..... The immediate disowning that everyone did? That was harsh. Except Sun, my little pookie, he hasn't disowned him. Sun just suffers from an unfortunate negative communication stat. He puts his foot in his mouth a lot. I'm a Sun simp but even I agree he didn't handle stuff right. In his defense, I got the vibes he just wanted to help Moon but he needed help to him and no one wanted to give it. He went to Earth for help and it actually made it worse. In fact, Sun's entire support system completely failed him.

Isn't that just crazy?

While I don't hold Sun or Earth responsible, I do hold the likes of Monty, Puppet and Foxy responsible. Especially Monty. I'm also upset Lunar just hung back..... He even said he wasn't close to NM....I get vibes Lunar is lying to protect himself and not have to face feelings but... ouch

Anyways back to New Moon/Nexus, there has to be something going on there cause it just wasn't right. He's such a sweetheart and so very different from New Moon.

I see NM/Nexus as the baby who has big shoes to fill. Solar took those shoes from him so he could be more of his awkward sweet self. He screamed at Sun way back when he thought Sun was going to accidentally hurt/ kill himself with Star Power because he was so soul crushingly scared of losing his big brother (and he was extra upset that Sun's reason to hide it from him because he was unconsciously comparing NM to OM). He also went out of his way to make sure Solar would be ok in the final Eclipse showdown by shoving him into the portal while he laser striked the guy.

What crazy to me about NM/Nexus literally seconds after coming to life, was threatened by Eclipse. He woke up fighting what was essentially a God that hated him and his whole family. His breaking point for him wasn't that he lost Solar, it was that he couldn't bring him back. There's so much terror and fear in that kind of loss of control.

You literally opened my eyes so much when you pointed out "he's killing himself to make the pain of caring stop"

MY HEART

😭😭😭

I hope they save the little pookie.

(i started this on Friday but you caught me when I was going home from work and I ended up falling asleep while writing this so I'm posting it now! 🤣)

((ps. One of the fics I like updated so I reread the first chapter and the second and in the fic Ruin called Nexus "baby Moon" and i haven't been over it))

Morning peachy!

Happy Friday, I was scrolling through your blog and literally didn't realize you were the one that made the Nexus design that lives in my head rent free. I love your art and vibes ❤️🥰❤️

I'm at the part when Old Moon is back and met Earth it's SO AWKWARD

I don't like it (not mad he's back but it's just the entire lead up has me upset)

I was watching Baby Moon/New Moon and Earth like you said and idk, I think it's really messed up how everything went down. Earth seemed to jump to a lot of conclusions about New Moon and she seemed really upset but also I don't think what New Moon said to push her away was actually that mean. Maybe it's just me?

I also didn't like how Sun went to others for help because he's so lost on what to do with New Moon and everyone was just "let's kill him"

I'm so messed up over this....

What's your thoughts on this? I want to know your observations 👀✍️

First off,

SNIFFS. bro your art and your vibes are INCREDIBLE so that compliment means a whole lot to me. tysm <3

Second off, oh-ho-ho. my friend, you've just opened up pandora's box for me. this response is gonna be a long one, let's see how incomprehensible it will get-

(Also, just so anyone who doesn't know me knows, I'm currently not watching the security breach shows due to a bit of burnout, but mostly due to me not liking the current sams arc. I'm just avoiding it for the sake of me mental health. sooo if I bring up something that has already been acknowledged/fixed/changed in canon, forgive me <3. for sams, I have knowledge up to about "brothers REUNITE in vrchat", so. just go into this knowing that lol)

OKAY. AHEM. DISCLAIMERS DONE. HERE WE GO.

Don't have much to say about "I don't like it (not mad he's back but it's just the entire lead up has me upset)" other than I 1000% agree. I (again, personally) actually don't like that he's back, mostly because the lead up to O.M's return felt very rushed, it makes O.M's original sacrifice for K.C completely in vain, and O.M has essentially just taken N.M's role in the family now that N.M is where he is now, as Nexus. it was all very frustrating to see happen.

And, whooh, I can go on and on and on about how O.M has shown many signs that he hasn't actually improved as a person/brother as much as he claims to have, but I think that harpers on spoiler territory for you Sab so I'll save that for another day dkjfhsdfsd but as for the SECOND part of your statement...

"...I think it's really messed up how everything went down. Earth seemed to jump to a lot of conclusions about New Moon and she seemed really upset but also I don't think what New Moon said to push her away was actually that mean. Maybe it's just me?"

IT 👏 IS 👏 NOT 👏 JUST 👏 YOU 👏

From what I can tell, actually a lot of people agree with you!!! (me included). this leads to kind of a divide in-fandom between people who are on the families side, and those who are on New Moon's/Nexus'. and from what I've seen, even the people who aren't on either side just kind of find Nexus pathetic and emo. which is 100% fair and understandable, considering his "villain arc" was built off of shakey ground lol. AND while I am 100% a N.M/Nexus apologist, that wont stop me from acknowledging that he fucked up bad in some places sdkfjhsdjfk really, everyone messed up a lot to get into the situation they are now story-wise. it's not just one sides fault, and it's draining seeing people trying to make the dilemma one of black and white morals when it is 20x more complex than that. OKAY MINI RANT OVER, ONTO WHAT YOU REFERENCED SKFJDHSDF so. did Earth have every right to be hurt by what New Moon said? oh, 100% yeah, her brother just insulted and demeaned her to her face, ofc it would hurt.

But what really confuses me is how personally she took his insults??? Right before, genuinely, right before that confrontation; Sun warned her that Moon might say something he didn't mean. he warned her, because he knows from experience.

and yet Earth took it to heart??? w. why??? she knows a lot about mental health stuff, or she's supposed to, right??? surely she'd understand that it's a very common trauma/fear response for people to become aggressive and lash out, even against those who they love and care for??? right???

And I also agree that she was jumping to conclusions, or at least misinterpreting N.M's goals/intentions/reasonings. when N.M called her "not a real therapist", she took the greatest offense to that. but. the thing is. he wasn't??? wrong???? did he say it in a rude as hell and aggressive way??? yup, no denying that! but he's not wrong.

Earth isn't a licensed therapist. she is an animatronic with downloaded protocols and processes given to her by the Creator in attempts to try and be a therapist. but she literally admits it to herself multiple times in the show that she's not a real therapist, she just does her best. so it always confused me why she took N.M's statement to heart, because genuinely, for him, her best (or more specifically, her kind and patient style of therapy) wasn't enough. which is v tragic, much ow, big pain.

At the time of being confronted, N.M was exhausted, desperate, spiraling, hallucinating, not wanting to ask for help, lying to both himself and the family, in mourning- basically holding on by a thread. so when cornered, (literally, he physically was cornered in P&S) he lashed out and said mean things to be able to push those he cared about away and "get to safety". it was wrong of him to do, yes, but considering everything we knew about how Moon's (both New and Old) react to stressful situations from prior tragedies, it was to be expected.

BUT THEN??? EVERYONE JUST KIND OF GAVE UP ON HIM AFTER THAT????? he made one mistake. one. one mistake. and suddenly everyone was all like "alright, we've got to kill him." I??? DOES ANYONE ELSE THINK THAT'S A LITTLE BIT FUCKED UP??? HELLO?????

I'm not denying that N.M was becoming unstable. I'm not denying that he was becoming aggressive. he was, and that's why he needed help. he needed someone to stick by him even as he was pushing them away, to love him even at his lowest, and no one did. Imo, at least Sun has the excuse of being traumatized by Old Moon's past actions, which could explain why he was so desperate for everyone else's input, but Earth and Lunar??? Monty and Puppet too??? hello???? why the hell are you doing your brother/friend (who is doing all of this TO GET SOLAR BACK BECAUSE HE WANTS TO MAKE THEM ALL HAPPY, MIND YOU) like this???? HELLO????

And I'm also bringing up that Nexus still hasn't really. done anything??? in the current point of the story??? the worst thing he's done so far is rough up O.M a bit. but other than that, all he did was say cruel/threatening things to/about the other Celestials. he's yet to act on.. anything?? he hasn't killed a single person. and you know who have killed people?? Sun, Lunar, Solar, Old Moon, Puppet, Monty... and yet?? some people see him as an irredeemable monster???? it's. strange to me. it's obvious he's hurting, it's obvious he still cares. and he's literally killing himself to try and make the pain that comes with caring stop- isolating himself, poisoning himself, and literally ripping out his own emotions, idk guys, those don't seem like the actions of an irredeemable villain, but maybe it's just me sdkfljhsdf

As expected, this turned into an essay. BUT I'm done now, me-me needs to go take a shower gkfdjhhfgjsd thank you for the excuse to yap, Sabronda!!! I love New Moon/Nexus so much they're my ultimate cringefail. I'm certain they have an edgy Sonic OC somewhere in that evil lab of theirs

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Here's a list of some ongoing fanfictions I've been following if you want some literature

(Ongoing as in. Updated in the past month or this month)

Butterfly Reign: You know this one, it's the angst full and oddly yellow one. I always end up finding out it updated a day before it released how does that keep happening?. It's a good read, the characters get deeper the more you read it, and yet even with all their hidden lore and ok ish intentions I still want them to suffer because I'm a spiteful bitch. Unreliable narrator to you I believe him.

In the name of the fucking moon: Its a magical girls AU with the benchers and the family, more on the old school monster of the week type of magical girls but with continuity. If you imagine the scenes in your head while reading please add an 80's anime filter over it. Fun to read 👍 I got halfway through and I'm waiting for it to finish so I can binge it.

Guided evolution: Only read this if you have a lot of free time or the time management skills of a lawyer because this here is 300.000+ words and incredibly good. Every chapter I do nothing but worry for my spider son. Hasn't he been through enough I ask, while seeing I'm on chapter 52 out of 75. I know the answer, and it only serves to hurt me.

How to be the biggest trainer ever: Crimeboys go in a pokemon adventure. A very friendly fun read, like the pokemon anime but with your favourite white boys having fun 👍the world is set on gen 1 I think, so use that soundtrack

The stars and their children: Ive only read till chapter 5 and that's enough to know its good (also the fact that I follow the author here on tumblr so I get spoiled every once in a while hehe) This one is more sandduo focused and it has cool sci fi monarchy and it's also very near to end?? I didn't know that. Guess I'll get up to date then. Star tommy did nothing wrong I haven't seen him do much of anything but if he does in the other 19 chapters be aware he did nothing wrong

By the morrow: this one is weird and interesting in the most enticing way possible. What the fuck is going on. I must know all the reasons behind what is happening here. It can be quite macabre so be aware. I only found this one because the author posted the updates to tumblr. Oh yeah the synopsis, superhero au where the ctommy is a nobody who dies and fucks around the town in his ghost form but shit hits the fan incredibly quickly.

Who the ever loving fuck made me a prince: Its an Isekai yipee, our main boy (el ctommy) reads a book where a kid prince dies. L. Then he wakes up as that same kid!!! Oh no!!! Good news is he's reincarnated right in baby zone so he has plenty of time and skill to make sure won't die 👍, its fun, if you like isekais and don't mind some anime trope baby ism then you will live another day

Proof that life hates tommyinnit personally: This is a mystery!!! Spooky!! With touches of angst, perhaps more than some touches but hey the thrill!! The search!! I enjoy the use of the "it's not paranoia if they're really put to get you" tag. Its one of those fics that if it ever gets dropped I would go to the authors house to ask how was it supposed to end. I need. To know. Oh yeah summary: el ctommy is homeless and has many friends in a local mall who don't know that. This is only one (1) of his problems as he's recently gained a stalker, and everything points to being someone he knows ?? Question mark?? Fun.

TommyInnit's Declassified Vigilante Survival Guide: Ah a good old vigilante fic, just like mama used to make. it checks all the marks: benchtrio living together, villain sbi, when the family is founded, heroes yet bad?? and introducing a cool new power to the boy, what a joy! It is funny and it is cool

Our love it's like a burning sun: you've heard of racconinnit, birdinnit, ratinnit, cat shifter innit, possumi- hm I haven't heard that actually, anyways get ready for Red Panda innit, here's a red panda shifter who runs away from mean kingdom and goes to nice kingdom where he can find some family. And sometimes that's all you need to face the horrors

Thunder on my bones: ANOTHER superhero au listen man this one is good trust me. We have superhero boy being sidekick to mean superhero then gets moved to nice family of superheroes and the family is found :)) but also there's villains that want to fuck him up , uh oh! How will they found the family in this conditions! I also really like the design of the tommy superhero outfit, it has a really nice detail that I love imagining in my head ^^

There are more but these are long and easy to get into

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🦋Astro notes again🦋

I really do think it's very likely to have a love hate relationship with the sign on our 7th house. My reasoning is that it's a side of us we perhaps don't see ourselves, or that seems so against our way of being (because it's opposite the 1st house, the house of self)

If you have major Libra placements (big 6, big three, especially Venus, sun or rising), be careful of who you share your energy with. Libras are very social signs, very buddy buddy in the most diplomatic, detached and merging way possible. It's important you surround yourself with people who truly support you, because you may be more easily susceptible to others' energies.

Same goes for major Cancer placements!

The combo of our mercury and our mars is what is on our minds most of the time. Here are some observations on that

A mix that involves air in either mercury or mars may daydream excessively

10th house may also idealize things in their minds.

9th house is the type to really think about philosophical topics or wonder things about themselves

Aquarius does that as well.

7th house placements might think a lot about other people or relationships in general. Not in a dependent way but in a "haha I bet they'd find this funny" way

Libra in the combo would most likely bring an aesthetic touch to the mind of the person

Capricorn with Aquarius in any position in this combo makes for a really pragmatic and efficient mind

Scorpio and its classic trait of burning with a passion for something. However I also noticed this in mars or mercury (esp mercury) pays a lot of attention to their health and mental state

More to be added

Dear mercurial placements, watch how your stress takes a toll in your body. Take some time to just relax, or clear your mind.

I found that Leo and Libra placements tend to clash a lot but are drawn to each other too? Might be because of the signs' relationship with the Sun. Leo is the Sun's home meanwhile in Libra, the Sun is at fall because Libra is such a social, and fair sign (which goes against the basic idea of the ego)

A person's healing journey when they have Saturn in the 12th house or the 8th house might have a shit ton of ups and downs. Don't get me wrong, we all have them, but the 12th house is the unknown, the 8th house is fears and intimacy, our deepest depths. They might have a lot of moments when they thought they healed from something but then they fall back into the old patterns. This is not meant to discourage anyone, it is simply an observation. Falling back into old patterns does not make you weak or unworthy, healing isn't linear, and you aren't supposed to be perfect.

North node opposite Saturn culture is learning to do new things and allow yourself to live more freely

Dear Neptune in the 10th house, your reputation does not define you, no matter if it's good or bad. I have a close friend with Neptune in the 10th, and I was surprised to see how many people had misconceptions about them.

Neptune in the 10th really has film producer potential tho ;-;

Aries Mercuries and their ability to be so blunt-

But this is something I noticed with all mercuries in the 10th house. My two best friends and I have this placement in either Vedic or western and...it's a shit show- I think it's because while the 10th house is reputation and image, it's also the spot light, determination and high hopes.

Now, of course the sign matters a shit ton too-

In Vedic, I have Libra mercury in the 10th, meanwhile my friends have it in Taurus and Aquarius. You can guess I'm more on the "bite your tongue" end of the spectrum.

Sagittarius moons really be having troubles with feelings huh? No shade intended. I notice that we tend to focus on the positive, or rather consciously or subconsciously avoid negative emotions either my rationalizing them or distracting ourselves. 'it is what is it' is a big phrase I've heard from fellow Sagittarius moons-

Pluto in the 7th house folks get into the weirdest dramas I swear. I have a friend with Pluto in the 7th and my, every week or so she has new tea to spill. And I'm not talking even about crushes yo- It can be with friends or random people too.

Moon in the 1st house are cry babies? Think again. I agree, this placement really is emotionally revealing, but I also find that they're very validating of their own emotions, especially if the moon in is a sign like Leo or Cancer.

Ayo what's with Leos and their reputation being so high? I mean it's totally understandable, I love and hate them, but for real, let's talk about it. I always notice that major Leo placements really are out there in the spotlight. I feel like anything that Leo touches just becomes flamboyant, very Sun-like.

Leo sun -> ego, identity, and energy is displayed a lot (holy moly if it's in the 10th house too-)

Leo moon -> feelings are displayed a lot. I observe their reactions are pretty clear, or aren't hidden. I have a friend with Leo moon but conjunct Saturn, and her reactions always are displayed, however at such a lower intensity. it makes me surprised sometimes when she tells me about something that really upset her, when earlier she didn't seem too bothered by it. check up on your Leo moon friends

Leo mercury -> ideas are expressed a lot here. I imagine a public speaker, carrying an air of confidence in their words. It depends a lot on other aspects, but I noticed this especially in Leo mercury in the 7th house and 9th house, 10th house too maybe.

Leo mars -> oo now here's the real deal breaker. Pretty straight forward about conflict, however I also observed a sense of over reacting / making it seem more serious than it is and it's so funny I swear, but only when it is not something actually serious for them. when it is... hide lmao. I feel like they can be very intimidating with their anger

Leo venus how could I forget -> oml these people's love lives are all over the place. but I love em sm. I have a Leo venus friend and they always turn up with new prey every 2 months or so. Very charming and kind. I feel like they're the type to talk a lot about their love lives too, however this varies of course.

Leo Saturn -> now this is an interesting one. I feel like these people's issues are more... internalized, in a sense. imagine a ball you try to shove under water, and when you leave it, it just splashes out? That's kind of how I imagine Leo saturns with their struggles. This placement is tied towards self-worth and self-acceptance and confidence, and I think shame is a thing they have to confront with in a way or another. Back to my original point, because of this, i feel like these people can be rather private, if not very, about their personal struggles, however I think they might feel in the spotlight a lot regarding them. (Sry if this was a little intense, I have many leo saturn friends and this is what i observed from them)

Leo Jupiter -> how does it feel to be one of god's favorites, eh? lmao I love this placement. I think these people can be very out there with their wishes and dreams. Not that they go around telling everyone about their wish (I, Leo Jupiter, have a dream- if you get the reference let's be friends), but rather that they give out a lot of inspired vibes from what I've seen. Confidence and self-love is key to their manifestations.

Leo MC -> how does it feel to be god's favorite p2- okay no, the scorpio rising is probably giving them a bit of a headache. I think these people are really seen for their achievements, and it's a big part of their identity. I think they're the type of folks that really need a job that fulfills them on an emotional level.

Leo rising -> they are beauty, they are grace, they will punch you in your face (I love these mfs) I think they're the type to become sort of a role model to a lot of people, someone to look up to in a sense. Leo rising carries an air of respect in my opinion, along with some glamor in there :)

That's it folks! I hope this resonated, and criticism and feedback are always welcome :>

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New Moon in Capricorn 🐞🐍⛲🐝ALL SIGNS

With the elements/signs of the zodiac, you can freely use your Sun, Moon, Rising/Ascendant, or even your Stellium (❗️)

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Are you familiar with all those memes that point out how uncomfortable a Capricorn Sun person could get when it comes to exercising emotional vulnerability? That isn't without solid reasons, you know. Allow me to elaborate.

Being the 10th sign, Capricorn is one of the oldest souls in the zodiac wheel. It's also experienced many things. Being a pragmatic and realistic Earth sign, Capricorn understands the danger of opening up to deceitful human beings. You show, one time, your vulnerable side, and someone's gonna break you apart right from that opening.

That ain't pretty. Capricorn is mature. It is cautious because it has seen the ugly side of mankind. -that's such a weird-ass intro for this segment LMAO-

Main theme for 🐞Aries Leo Sagittarius

In a manner of speaking, half of you is struggling with letting go of thoughts and beliefs that are stress-inducing. It's something about the way you think—the way your brain perceives issues and tries to find a solution. You're not allowing yourself to be guided by the free-flowing nature of your intuition—you weather the storms of life with too much logic.

This, in turn, actually causes you even more stress, because you're being so hard on yourself. Then, you're hard on other people, and conflict ensues. See the pattern? Well, there's that and then there's the other half of you: the bunch who've been hard at work overcoming this old paradigm. Bravo. You've been so brave, and strong.

Soul Cleansing for Fire Signs🔻❤️

Whichever half you resonate with, this New Moon, you can celebrate and take it easy for a bit. It's still the New Year's, too. Wind down. Allow your mind to rest. If you feel you must be active at all, or do anything at all, use that precious energy to indulge in activities that you love, instead of those you feel an obligation to finish😉

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Main theme for 🐍Taurus Virgo Capricorn

On an intuitive level, some of you have been suffering from lethargy. This is actually quite bad, too, because I'm seeing you're not totally enjoying life. In spite of the abundance of activities, busyness, and plans, deep inside, you're like... dead. You're sick and tired from the same old routines. Nothing seems to be working out in favour of your true joy, your spiritual happiness.

So, why have you been feeling this way? This reading is so mini I can't possibly look into that right now, but!! Your intuition can tell you the wealth of life's possibilities that you have been feeling a pull towards, which you've been ignoring. Yep. Yep. Yep. Totally. Get it now?

Soul Cleansing for Earth Signs🔻💚

Is your workplace wrong? Are your friends wrong? Is your family wrong? Are your old activities wrong? If anything is inclined towards a 'yes', please acknowledge that part/aspect of your life and stop making excuses. That part of your life is screaming for fresh air to breathe. Don't be cruel. Let yourself breathe, my friend.

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Main theme for ⛲Gemini Libra Aquarius

You may have been feeling like a lot of people are requiring your energy or presence? It's wonderful to be needed, wanted, and to actually be generous with your energy. But make sure you're not letting it become overbearing. You tend to become super bitter and hateful when your energy is depleted. And I know you don't like feeling that way; you're too kind, after all.

This may be a super repetitive message for Air Signs since last year, but I think something in the Cosmos is seriously trying to teach you healthy detachment. I'm not an Astrologer so I don't know what's going cosmically, but this kind of message has been persistent, so I'm suspecting there must be something in the... air.

Soul Cleansing for Air Signs🔻💙

The pattern I've been seeing the most is a leakage of energy. You constantly give without being able to refill your reservoir of spiritual energy just in time before engaging with people again. Your efforts are not enough because you're not allowing enough time to detach. Look, even therapists need their own therapists. Get it?

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Main theme for 🐝Cancer Scorpio Pisces

Okay, so you may have been feeling cheated or slighted by people a lot. I think it makes sense for people with prominent Water energy. You're like a fountain of comfort for other people, and in this cruel world, a lot of very bad people are gonna be more than happy to take full advantage of that. Yuck. That's disgusting, right? But you know, sometimes other people may not even realise that they're being this kind of parasitic presence to you.

Because, they're helpless themselves. Like a dying plant in need of water. Exactly. But this isn't saying you can justify that; nope, you need to just acknowledge that and be on your way to protect yourself. Nobody can save anybody else, you know. Unless you do have the education and license to do so (and get paid to do so!), you're not obligated to be everyone's therapist.

Soul Cleansing for Water Signs🔻💛

Be selective with whom you share your energy. Scorpio Suns are usually good at this. Unless you learn to do so, you will continue to suffer with ups and downs of energy. Certain times you need to sleep way too much; certain times, you just don't know what to do with the abundance of energy you're feeling because you're so used to being stressed out, anyway. It may feel chaotic, right?

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