#I lost my innocence when I lost you
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if your response to bhvr laying people off is to post some stale gif and jeer "ME WHEN DBD SHUTS DOWN IN 5 YEARS," you are a cruel, selfish, attention-seeking being with no consideration for how much all these people, and the many more who continue to work on the game, love dbd and try to do the best they can for it despite whatever nonsense bhvr might toss their way. all you give a shit about is that temporary satisfaction you get from seeing what you think is a game you maybe once loved "losing," when really the layoffs did not just impact the staff working on dbd, nor do they ultimately hurt anyone more than those actually laid off.
it actually disgusts me so much how self-centred and nasty people are nowadays. this isn't "entertainment" for you, this is capitalism destroying the lives of hard-working people who are passionate about their craft.
#dbd#thoughts about media#I saw this when the news broke on twitter and it's continued to sit in the back of my mind.#no one really bats an eye at comments like these because it's so fucking commonplace for people on twitter to act like this#but it's really fucked up y'know? when you actually think about what those comments are saying.#why are you cheering that people lost their jobs you ugly-hearted lump of misery?#hate the game all you fucking want. that is your own right.#but do not make cruel jest out of innocent people losing their employment.#this isn't like. some filthy waste of exceedingly wealthy human flesh like That One Pirate Actor losing out on jobs for his crimes.#these people lost their jobs because bhvr is getting more successful and the big guys at the top don't like sharing.
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UNAMERICAN FUCKING SAVE ME
#you can have my innocence#that I lost when I was six#not a model citizen#I’m not your daughter#I’m not your bitch#I GUESS IM UNAMERICAN
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thinking just a bit too hard about how the added depth given to tifa and aerith's friendship only increases the weight threatening to crush tifa after the forgotten capital, she already had so much to carry on her weary shoulders, she's going to have to carry even more when mideel happens, and it doesn't even stop after meteorfall, ohg od oh i love her so much i
#(sobbing and crying and snotting everywhere) AERITH GAVE HER SOMEONE TO CONFIDE IN ON SUCH A TUMULTUOUS JOURNEY#SOMEONE SHE COULD BE AS CLOSE TO FULLY RELAXED AS POSSIBLE#SOMEONE TO GOSSIP WITH OR SHARE HER CONCERNS OR JUST. BE A NORMAL GIRL WITH#YUFFIE'S THERE BUT SHE'S JUST A KID AND TIFA WOULD NEVER WANT TO HARM THE AIR OF CAREFREE CHILDISHNESS SHE MANAGES TO MAINTAIN EVEN IF#ITS BECAUSE YUFFIE IS HIDING THINGS THAT ARE CRUSHING HER#but poor tifa . gentle tifa. is now left to regret. to blame herself.#she has barret who acts like a father figure to her sure - but despite how much she cares about him and values her frienship with him#he's not aerith. he's not someone she can just gossip about first loves with. not someone she can fully Relate to. if you get what i mean#she is left to trace back the thread of how poor aerith got caught in this mess#she was the one to ask aerith to save marlene. but how did they get there? aerith refused to let cloud be a bystander in wall market#how did that happen? she made a risky choice that put her in a position where their paths crossed. why? because cloud was briefly lost#during the bombing mission. why did the bombing mission happen? she couldn't stop it. ETC ETC#NONE OF IT WAS HER FAULT... BUT SHE NEVER WANTED TO DRAG INNOCENT PEOPLE INTO THIS AT ANY SINGLE POINT#AND NOW SOMEONE WHO QUICKLY BECAME A CLOSE FRIEND IS GONE oh lord my heart#all of this added onto the things like how alone she was in nibelheim... it was just her and her dad for some years after the boys all left#and then the Incident happens and she loses that last person she had... and to an extent another she didn't even know was right there(cloud#god i could talk about her and how she has suffered more than jesus for ages (happy easter. lmao)#FF7 Rebirth spoilers#just in case?? for anyone who's only playing the remakes i guess. since this was basically already there the remakes just elaborate on it#i think about 'we found you!' 'i guess you did!' SO OFTEN#these two girls mean the world to me and i will not let you reduce them to love interest rivals#when tifa ran over to aerith's body i think everyone in the world heard my heart shattering into dust#these thoughts are a bit disjointed and don't articulate well what i mean but god. god. i am thinking about her today
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I’m glad of the newfound awareness we’re having and I’m aware I’m preaching to a crowd here but what really baffles me is that. there’s some people in this fandom who genuinely wish people they are fans of to go through the pain of a MARRIAGE BREAKDOWN and the abandonment and total life rearrangement that comes with that just because they’re judging someone on the internet and don’t think they’re right for someone else we only know on the internet and through their songs. aside from the total disrespect of autonomy and humanity this is (and has always been, even 10 years ago when it was totally acceptable and unquestioned) maybe make use of some of the things we do know about people from their songs and. don’t EVER wish for someone to have (one of) their greatest fears come true
#this is an amalgamation of some of the thoughts I’ve had on posts going around#by mutuals so I guess you’ll see this??#this applies to all of them now and partners too. but also literally every single ex and when I say that there are women who lost careers#anyway. haven’t you ever dated someone that people just. decided to disapprove of for no reason?? maybe they were right but my point#is that if people try to restrict who you date that is a form of COERCIVE CONTROL and tbh this band has every right to not forgive any of u#because even if we’re innocent they can’t tell it apart from where they are. the fandom is a conglomerate#instead they’ve just accepted it as part of the job and taken on the stress of it which they absolutely don’t deserve#it should be normalised to not want your faves to suffer. end of discussion#5 seconds of summer#5sos#luke hemmings#calum hood#michael clifford#ashton irwin
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i can’t believe not even 24 hours ago i was in an exam like that still feels like something i hallucinated
#bc i have accommodations me and all the other academic silly guys go in a little room so it means there’s several different exams happening#and I have EXTRA TIME but the invigilator was like ‘you have reading time right?’ (different things entirely)#and my dumbass as we know can’t refuse a free thing regardless of the context so without hesitation I went ‘yep!’#like I’ll take it if ur offering babe!#which turned out to be such a pain bc in the 15 mins of reading time ur NOT ALLOWED to start the exam u just have to look at it#and my exam was stupidly short bc my lecturer is a lazy gimp so I was just sat there like 🧍🏻♀️#FOR FIFTEEN MINUTES#and the invigilator was really condescending? like defo got told she was in the room with all the neurodivergent and learning disabilities#and took it to HEART like she came over at one point and went to tell me where to write my name??? but obvs I’d already done it???#and I left early and before everyone else and when I put my hand up and said i was finished#she went ‘you’re finished???’ really shocked like#odd. very odd. also I had it’s been so long by the living tombstone stuck in my head the entire exam#THAT was not peak#it’s been so long…. since I last have seen my son lost to this monster… to the man behind the slaughter… 🤪🤪🤪#MY DAUGHTER IF YOU CAN HEAR ME I KNEW YOU WOULD RETURN AS WELL IT’S IN YOUR NATURE TO PROTECT THE INNOCENT IM SORRY THAT ON THAT DAY#THE DAY YOU WERE SHUT OUT AND LEFT TO DIE NO ONE WAS THERE TO LIFT YOU UP INTO THEIR ARMS THE WAY YOU LIFTED OTHERS INTO YOURS#girls will unknowingly memorise the fnaf speech. watch out josh hutcherson#hella goes to uni
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Hey big fan. How tall do you think the androids in DL are?
Not gonna lie, it's always a bit shocking to hear one has made anything to earn a 'big fan', but thank you very much nonetheless!
As for your actual question, though, I think they're roughly about human height, judging by art? Of course I've gone over how art sometimes varied wildly in height, but as mentioned in that post if you have seen that, Dragalia did seem to try and keep a 'comparison heights' straight, at least. They might not have kept straight if Euden was 4'11 or 5'9 but he was shorter than Ranzal and Luca, etc.
And what we see in the wyrmprints, they seem consistently human in size:
(Well, these are both with sylvans, but sylvans are human in height as well, ears notwithstanding, so the point stands).
As funny as it might have been if every android was big or really tiny, I think it probably makes sense that, being created and wished for them to be 'humans' by Maestro, they resemble humanity as much as possible.
Now, just because Laxi, Mascula, and the androids from their era are human sized, others might not be.
They're a recreation of the older models in another case of Dragalia's humans trying to resurrect older tech, the same tech that made the dragons Very Displeased 1k years ago.
Now, Eireene and Finni, who unfortunately have among my personal least favorite designs in Dragalia, don't really give any indication either of being a wildly different size than Laxi or Mascula. Like this art here, where they are about the same size as Laxi and in a similar 'dwarfed by Ranzal' category most everyone falls into to varying degrees.
That doesn't mean there aren't standouts.
Anassa, for example, seems to carry a much bigger presence in her art. Being something of a commander and command center for the 1k year old model androids, it stands to reason she might have more weapons built in, more data processors, or other things in greater quantity. While we don't have a model or comparative art to truly say for certain that she is bigger, she certainly looks it.
(Does she even have legs??? Is she a roomba that would be foiled by anything over a 15° incline or a sudden height change, ex, stairs??? I mean yeah, doesn't she fly and drop down the one time, but even then, there's any number of environments that might make it awkward or impossible to use it to navigate a hazard.)
Ahem. Anyways, the point is that the general androids, be it Maestro's recreations or their elder Nier:Dragalia -er, Ex Machina, a part of the Humanoid Liberation Agency/the ones living in the sky, seem to be human sized. But there might be a few special model ones out there like Anassa who serve a unique and important purpose to justify the time, energy, and resources designing and creating them to fulfill their goal.
Now, admittedly, androids in Dragalia would be a weak point in my general knowledge since they never really quite struck a chord with me enough to inspire a fixation on them, but yeah, as far as I can tell, they're human-sized with perhaps some rare exceptions. The most I can say that might not be wholly normal is their apparent tendency towards a sort of gaunt build, which, to be fair, it's not exactly as if they can build muscle to change that.
Hopefully that answered your question satisfactorily!
#dragalia lost#dragalia#inbox responses#thanks for the ask!#While I uh 'majored' in the royal family I'm more than happy to try and sift through other lore!#So yeah I'm always down to talk Dragalia or Scaling or other video games like Tales of the Abyss!#...I suddenly realized that Dragalia and Abyss share another thing in common: endings that are very much in dispute for what happened.#It's probably one of the top two fastest ways to start an argument among players for Abyss#And while the Dragalia fandom isn't quite so occasionally hostile about differing interpretations it's a funny coincidence.#Anyways. Dragalia. One thing I have a bit of qualm with is how quick the new androids are accepted.#Like Finni 'the emotional one' of the pair you'd expect to be the bleeding heart will casually talk about rampant murder of innocents.#These are androids that have been told over and over that all non-Ark humans are not worthy of life and need to all be killed.#That's not something that completely disappears overnight. Yeah enemy of my enemy and all that but...#When EUDEN is the one expressing the most vague caution to saying 'welcome aboard' you know something's not quite right.#And that in this case is 'is bringing a pair of androids known to have been involved in committing genocide and one of whom has a tendency#...to go berserk into our castle a good idea?'#But yeah this is a rant in tags but. I just don't quite like how they handled that detail regarding the Ex Machina androids.
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it’s me & my early 2000s emo scene kid playlists against the world sometimes
#piece the veil#mayday parade#sleeping with sirens#my best friends 🖤#I do be getting in my feels about music sometimes when it’s supposed to be helping me clean my apartment 😂#but how can you thiiiink that any of this was easyyy???? with all the friends I’ve lost along the wayyyyyyy#when this is overrr we’re all getting older now#and we all play a part in ittt#innocence is falling can you hear them calling now??? 😭😫🎶🎶🎶#anyway. anyway. back to cleaning my apartment I guess 🙄
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it’s so crazy and dystopian that average conversations these days on social media are abt whether or not a group of random ass people have the right to be alive or if they should all just be indiscriminately murdered and bombed and die the most painful death
#it’s SO crazy seeing people justify carpet bombing its so fucking crazy#they talk abt it as if it’s something that you just can’t avoid#“oh boy super sorry bout this i just HAVE to bomb tens of thousands of people.. like in the name of justice#all the ethics and morals i’ve grown with that i thought were natural ……. are not being exercised by any of the world leaders#like the one group of people on this planet who SHOULD have ethics and morals lmfaooooo#like i always knew they were shitheads like when obama could casually bomb so many innocent people and still retain his reputation as a#cool chill president or whatever the fuck#but seeing it happen time and time again#like my own family faced genocide man#my literal mum and dad both lost people in the family my mum had her house fucking bombed#that ….. it always felt like something that happened a very long time ago and wouldn’t ever happen again#our lives are worth so fucking little …. what is the point ………….#i don’t get how to just casually continue being alive in this shitass world when it all is worth so little#when there are so many deaths it just becomes a statistic to politicians#humanity is both wretched and beautiful but why is it that the wretchedness is always so powerful
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Redcrackle and where do we go now by Gracie Abrams...ooooo I need to be sedated
#jeez.#it was one sided hate how i hurt you. grays one sided attraction towards her.#sth sth gray basically saying the goodness in the memory wiped him isn't a part of the true him.#we had no control when it fell through. the scene where she electrocutes him + all the times gray was ordered to hurt her#know that space was the thing that i needed but i miss you. gray at the finale saying its better if hes not in carmens life.#carmen earlier on saying she doesn't want to complicate his life.#i know i changed overnight so i cant blame you for fighting. GRAYS MEMORY WIPED INNOCENT SELF SWITCHING BACK TO HIS REGULAR SELF AND#THE DIFFERENCE SO SUDDEN THAT CARMEN DEFENDED HER DECISION TO RESCUE HIM FROM THE LAB. FIGHTING FOR HIM. HE LITERALLY CHANGED OVERNIGHT#YOURE THE BEST OF MY LIFE AND I LOST YOU. CARMEN TO GRAY. CARMEN WAS THE QUOTE UNQOUTE ONLY GOOD PERSON IN HIS LIFE#THE BEST PARTS OF HIS LIFE ACTUALLY BEING THE ONES SHE WAS IN. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#soft shittalks#redcrackle#carmen sandiego
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Tomorrow I’m going to keep organizing our family photos if it kills me and then I honestly think I can never look at them again for my own sanity
#seeing photos of myself from the time period I was being assaulted is incredibly upsetting#because I was a CHILD#I was so innocent#and he took advantage of that#and it reminds me of the therapy session#where my therapist was prepping me to come forward to my parents about it#and the idea was just so upsetting I said you know what never mind I think it might just be easier to suppress it when#*again not when. I’m not retyping#and my therapist said#how old were you? you’re the age of the children you take care of at work.#would you say something if somebody assaulted any of them?#you owe it to yourself at that age and you owe it to them#and that just absolutely wrecked me#because I loved those babies so much#I still do#I’m still very close with one of them and I think about her all the time on bad nights like this#if anybody ever hurt her I would literally kill them. I would go to jail if it meant protecting this little girl.#and it’s nights like this where I need to just stop and mourn over what I lost#and the fact that I didn’t have anybody protecting me like that#even though the signs were absolutely there#because this man groomed his entire family into a culture of silence and denial#I’m just very angry right now#but getting this out has helped immensely#using tumblr as my diary again#tw#tw csa#cw#cw CSA
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God I could and should write a whole fucking book by the end of this life here on Lev and his symbols
ill write it then burn it before anyone else gets a copy. or i wont. im supposed to be helping him this incarnation here to get a better anchor in this plane so maybe it would help more than itd be weird - im just getting from him the energy of "yeah no people already effectively have these things, people on my plane already know me inside and out to an extensive degree, may as well have it here too" you know. fair
#ramblings //#ugh god i love his tone saying that tho. i kept trying to prod to see if it was a ''ugh yeah people know me inside and out and Yes Its#Invasive But -'' but no#oh my god man. his like energy towards his people is..... BEFORE I SAY THIS#I HOPE YOU ALL KNOW IM ANTI PROPAGANDA. the biggest reason i dont work with Lu and others is bc theres this tendency to#be like ''we're darkness but also light! we're teachers we're enlightened we're pure in our own way and the kings are here to#teach you how to empower yourselves and they love all worshipers and they reject all tyrannical authority and they are the good guys#against the chrxstian god who (insert specific atrocity that actually was committed by the kings not the 'chrxstian god' - and#''demons'' should KNOW that because it was AN IMPORTANT PART OF THE WAR so either theyre LYING orrrrr) and we're actually#really down to earth and more holy than anyone else bc we're enlightened - i mean uh uh no wait that contradicts us being#against the love and light style of enlightenment chasing'' like. i will tell you that my boss has massacred a lot of people i will tell yo#im anti monarchy and i dont believe that the kings' peoples are any better than 'angels' and i will tell you a lot of innocents on both#sides have been lost bc of royalty and rich families the kings are directly tied to#so i hope you know that when i say the way lev treats his people in his mind is..... holy shit#i pick apart everything he does. ive seen sides of him that are dark af (and i love him for them lmfao) but as soon as his people are#involved... have you ever been w someone getting hot and bothered and a kid walks in that you thought was sleeping and you just switch#completely into parent mode like. he'll have complex fictions w me helping me write stories about corrupt monarchies and shit#and then no. he is like. hes very good at mindset switching and going immediately into different faces but i swear#his ''i am a king and a king is a head of a mass of people - a king is a servant to his people'' mode is like. impenetrable#he is so. fucking intensely single-minded and trained to be a king unlike anyone else. anyway what was i talking about#OH YEAH. his tone w what i wrote in the post. was so switched into that mode of ''my viscera is theirs to eat as Im splayed on their table#and this is divine ruling. this is my purpose with them'' type shit. PURE thought. there is no other energy i can find in it other than#pure ''this is my job and i do it''. pure as in distilled. a pure tone like a sine wave played on a synth as opposed to a string plucked#leviathan //#ive. im nervous about saying the shit ive said here lmfao but ive had his OK before to say it ALSO. AS I SAID. theres no way his people#dont know the massacre was done by the kings lmfao. like. yall were involved. and also you all have to know that one of the#people that pretends to be the christian god is. two of the kings actually and since lev commonly appears to people and lets them#decide who he is bc hes never arsed making a show of Being Leviathan and whatnot im sure hes been called God plenty of times#too but like. cmon. I dont know who started the ''oh the uh the invading heaven and killing off half the population was the#chrxstian god'' rumour but i was first exposed to it through lu and (his wife) worshipers so yall get the blame - that said...
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I feel such a genuine rage in my heart when someone says 'innocent' when what they mean is 'cute and soft'. Or worse, when they use it to mean 'vulnerable' like ohhhhh my gooooooddd shut uuuuuppppppp!! Stop framing ~delicate untouched innocence~ as some kind of obvious desirable virtue shut up shut up shut UUUUPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!
Innocent fucking means something! It means 'blameless' and when you use it as fucking synonymous with vulnerability and cuteness, You Are Implicitly Expressing the idea that vulnerability and cuteness exempts you from blame and makes you desirable while stoicism and anything 'ugly' is suspicious or at least undesirable.
I hate it. I hate it so much. I especially hate it when it's used to talk about kids, shut the fuck up, stop talking like growing up means becoming ~dirtied~ and ~guilty~ stop saying kids are meant to be perfect little angels THAT'S A FUCKING PERSON and they deserve MORE RESPECT than having their virtue tied to your desire to fawn over them.
#i saw a post about how sad it is homura akemi lost her innocence as she got weathered into the person she is now#and I'm like 'Oh My God I Fucking Hate You HER ~INNOCENCE~ IS NOT THE FUCKING PROBLEM'#you just liked her better when she was soft and demure and fragile#like she lost 50 different versions of herself and hu dreds of versions of her friends#and you're focusing on the hypothetical loss of her fucking innocence????#shut#up#jammering on
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UGUUGUUGGGHGHGHGH (<- annoyed)
#marzi speaks#so i lost my id in england and i'm probs not getting it back from there right#so i went to go online to apply for a replacement#WELL . online replacement requires you to know the id number and audit number#i know neither of these. it was a pretty new id#so NOW i have to fill out the application and make an appmt#so when i go to the dmv (already a miserable experience) the employee is gonna ask what i need#and i'm gonna have to go 'i'd like to apply for a replacement id card'#this tells them 2 things#1: i'm an adult who can't legally drive#2: i managed to lose an id card not 6 months into being an adult#UUUGHGHGHGHGGHGHGHGHGHGH#i KNOW they don't give too much of a shit#but the dmv is so miserable that nobody there is having a good time#and there is a non-zero chance they will judge me#girl it was covid! i had nowhere to drive!#and if my mom comes with me (she probably will bc i need to be driven there)#then she'll do her mom thing where she thinks what she's saying is innocent but it actually comes across as mega judgemental#and i'm gonna want to sink into the seat but i can't do that bc i'm an Adult Now#*head in hands*#i blame all of this on woman pockets. if those pants had better pockets my id would have never fallen#y'know at least it was in england. a brit won't be able to do much with a stolen texas id#we have pretty different accents
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Me at 2 am after listening to the entire Speak Now (Taylor’s Version)
#was live tweeting while listening#got chills when Sparks Fly’s rock instrumentals played I LOST MY BREATH EVEN MORE#enchanted is sooo much more magical now#still can’t get over how she changed the infamous mattress lyric in Better than Revenge#innocent aged like milk if you know you know#foolish one is literally the perfect song for those who are in or survived situationships lol#taylor swift#enyo chat
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Sweetheart, I need to tune out reality, in order to cope with reality!
#But it really is the life#this#but the swing set at elementary school#nobody went over there#and repetitive movement#pure bliss#chef's kiss#luigi#but I never knew#that luigi's mansion games exist#I was protective of my underdog#could write a book series with the fanfic#my way of coping with a dead parent#zero grandparents left#and a flipping car accident#4th grade sweetheart#when all that stuff happened#sweetheart you don't know the feeling#until your closest ally dies suddenly#you are robbed from childhood innocence#I gave my Luigi dead parents#because I wanted someone that understood my pain#blood clotting disorder because I lost my dad to that#distant grandparents because mine were dead#distant siblings because I am an only child#then I gave some close ones because I wanted him to have a piece of what I could not have#my world was shattered#none of my peers understood how bad it was#how bad the damage was to me#what it did to me
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