#I lost my innocence when I lost you
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in episode 1x06 we see how alicent interacts with each of her children, considering that she shows her affection with touch.
she touches helaena's arm, which openly displeases helaena.
in the same scene she hugs aemond, and he sinks into it. (i like that both moments happen in the same scene, with the two children she's affectionate with)
then we have aegon, the child she does not give affection to, but rather grabs his face harshly.
she then realizes she lost control a bit and was too harsh, even if it was to protect him and make him understand what's at stake, and she brushes his hair, trying to soothe the hurt she already inflicted.
it does not work.
#house of the dragon#hotd#alicent hightower#hotd rewatch#the princess and the queen#targtowers#aemond targaryen#helaena targaryen#aegon ii targaryen#im just obsessed with how complicated and fraught their relationship is#otto gave physical affection to alicent to manipulate her#i dont think she uses physical affection with her children like that#but alicent being unable to give that type of love to aegon says a lot#when was the moment he got lost#how to connect with a child when you yourself are a child#how to connect with a child that represents the worst of your trauma#the loss of your youth#of your innocence#its not his fault#but thats not the point#i love my failmother
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oooh wait so the plot hole of “why doesnt a spirit medium just channel the victims spirit” is literally bc the DL-6 spirit channeling cant be repeated huh
#im so fucking slow I was brushing my teeth thinking abt Gregory edgeworth in mayas clothes#and I haven’t played aa1 so I don’t actually know the details of it in case I get to play it for myself#but they brought up the spirit channeling mistake with misty and how it basically shot down the kurain techniques credibility right#and like. I guess trying to do that again would be a repeat of that incident which ended up with an innocent person being convicted#so Phoenix not only has to channel Mia because she’s the smarter better lawyer but also because summoning the victim#isnt exactly the first time it’s happened and gotten someone the guilty verdict. huh#replaying justice for all 2-4 so the case with Maya spirit channeling#and after playing aa3 I can really appreciate how much thought they put into the fey family and how a lot of the games events#revolve around it.#Mayas powers arent a ‘long lost ancestor’ as an excuse for her having powers. it is clearly and heavily expanded on#and the infighting makes so much sense when you consider the power differences between branch and main families.. and Mia becoming a lawyer#to find out what happened to her mother AND after being aware of that bloodshed and what it means for Maya#the way she chose Maya and didn’t want that for them. the way she put distance between them on purpose so they wouldn’t become like that#and Pearl is acknowledged as having more power than Maya but she’s fucking eight and loves Maya that she doesn’t see that as any#kind of power imbalance. heck when Morgan uses her for her plan in bridge to the turnabout Pearl was happy to do it#because Morgan said it was for pearls good and Pearl assumed that meant it would be good for Maya too and I 😭😭#the branch system was originally made so that even if you weren’t chosen as the master you could still support the family by protecting the#main branch. and the irony of that being the reason why main family members are targeted to be usurped#iris outright rejecting the notion of communicating to the dead and everything the fey clan stands for#there’s so much fucking lore to this and I don’t see it talked abt enough?????????!?????#yapping#ace attorney#as
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is All Too Well (10 minute version) (Taylor's Version) (From the Vault) by Taylor Swift Timber-Post-Grieves-Coded or am I projecting?
#i was so close to writing a songfic guys i dont even read songfics#“And I know it's long gone and there was nothing else I could do; And I forget about you long enough to forget why I needed you”#“time wont fly its like im paralyzed by it; i'd like to be my old self again; but I'm still tryna find it”#<- literally bernard#“you kept my old scarf cuz it reminds you of innocence. it reminds you of me”#<- literlaly tim. he didnt keep a scarf but like guys its the metaphors#“there we are again when I loved you so; back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known”#ITS LITERALLY THEM#dont get me started on verse 3 and darla.#timber#timbern#louis grieve#bernard dowd#i wrote the full title because its funny
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if your response to bhvr laying people off is to post some stale gif and jeer "ME WHEN DBD SHUTS DOWN IN 5 YEARS," you are a cruel, selfish, attention-seeking being with no consideration for how much all these people, and the many more who continue to work on the game, love dbd and try to do the best they can for it despite whatever nonsense bhvr might toss their way. all you give a shit about is that temporary satisfaction you get from seeing what you think is a game you maybe once loved "losing," when really the layoffs did not just impact the staff working on dbd, nor do they ultimately hurt anyone more than those actually laid off.
it actually disgusts me so much how self-centred and nasty people are nowadays. this isn't "entertainment" for you, this is capitalism destroying the lives of hard-working people who are passionate about their craft.
#dbd#thoughts about media#I saw this when the news broke on twitter and it's continued to sit in the back of my mind.#no one really bats an eye at comments like these because it's so fucking commonplace for people on twitter to act like this#but it's really fucked up y'know? when you actually think about what those comments are saying.#why are you cheering that people lost their jobs you ugly-hearted lump of misery?#hate the game all you fucking want. that is your own right.#but do not make cruel jest out of innocent people losing their employment.#this isn't like. some filthy waste of exceedingly wealthy human flesh like That One Pirate Actor losing out on jobs for his crimes.#these people lost their jobs because bhvr is getting more successful and the big guys at the top don't like sharing.
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UNAMERICAN FUCKING SAVE ME
#you can have my innocence#that I lost when I was six#not a model citizen#I’m not your daughter#I’m not your bitch#I GUESS IM UNAMERICAN
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while I enjoy an AU where sect cultivators stood by wwx in his defiance against the cultivation world or supported the wen remnants with him, they can't hit like canon does bc they always feel a little...hm. like if the author is super invested and insists THIS is what should have/would have happened its like they're missing the point of all the characters and their arcs?
#annoyingly confident posts like 'YOU CANT TELL ME JIANG CHENG DIDN'T ADOPT A-YUAN BC LOOK AT HIS ANGRY UNCLE ENERGY#sorry but he canonically doesn't give a shit abt that kid#like I don't know if I can see cql jc MURDERING him but uhm. that character isn't jc it is a projection of someone else#and jyl's timidity and lack of social power wasn't the only thing that kept her doing exactly what the rest of the sect leaders were doing#like...she's not a cruel or harsh person she simply doesn't focus on politics she focuses on domestic matters and her family#and she was very happy to get married into a sect who was at odds w her brother bc she was in love#when hearing the wens running and screaming she simply said they were being 'taken care of'she is very happy to sit back and let characters#in positions of power do what they will...like she did give wen ning soup shes not HEARTLESS. she's just#very focused on her family and home#which isn't unreasonable esp after she's lost so much!#but I don't see her tact extending to politics honestly. unlike say mm or myu she doesn't rly care for it#and she's timid! she's easily intimidated! and these are just...parts of her character that feel real#she's happy in her family bc she feels protected but outside of that her emotional and psychological safety is guarded#I mean....myu nonwithstanding#anyway. I like when authors see her for a timid homemaker who cares primary abt the domestic sphere#and still respects that and engages with it#not my usual preference for female characters but family is EVERYTHING to jyl. and without that focus it just doesn't feel as much like her#the aus rly are fun tho#NOT THAT those responsibilities on her were always light or that she didn't sacrifice anything bc of course she did - she was jc and wwx's#crutch for YEARS#and I realize I compared her response to the sects leaders'. I know she's not a leader!#but like...I also understand her priorities and how devastated she was when wwx left#and why that loss for her overshadows the high moral principles wwx is adhering to#she doesn't want innocent people hurt she simply wants her brother back etc.#family being everything to her also.means it gives her her strength and courage and resolve tho!!!#EP25 DEFENSE OF WWX AT DAFAN ONE OF THE BEST SCENES IN THE SHOW >>>>>>#im on mobile but I made a typo I meant NOT guarded. you know#cql txp
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thinking just a bit too hard about how the added depth given to tifa and aerith's friendship only increases the weight threatening to crush tifa after the forgotten capital, she already had so much to carry on her weary shoulders, she's going to have to carry even more when mideel happens, and it doesn't even stop after meteorfall, ohg od oh i love her so much i
#(sobbing and crying and snotting everywhere) AERITH GAVE HER SOMEONE TO CONFIDE IN ON SUCH A TUMULTUOUS JOURNEY#SOMEONE SHE COULD BE AS CLOSE TO FULLY RELAXED AS POSSIBLE#SOMEONE TO GOSSIP WITH OR SHARE HER CONCERNS OR JUST. BE A NORMAL GIRL WITH#YUFFIE'S THERE BUT SHE'S JUST A KID AND TIFA WOULD NEVER WANT TO HARM THE AIR OF CAREFREE CHILDISHNESS SHE MANAGES TO MAINTAIN EVEN IF#ITS BECAUSE YUFFIE IS HIDING THINGS THAT ARE CRUSHING HER#but poor tifa . gentle tifa. is now left to regret. to blame herself.#she has barret who acts like a father figure to her sure - but despite how much she cares about him and values her frienship with him#he's not aerith. he's not someone she can just gossip about first loves with. not someone she can fully Relate to. if you get what i mean#she is left to trace back the thread of how poor aerith got caught in this mess#she was the one to ask aerith to save marlene. but how did they get there? aerith refused to let cloud be a bystander in wall market#how did that happen? she made a risky choice that put her in a position where their paths crossed. why? because cloud was briefly lost#during the bombing mission. why did the bombing mission happen? she couldn't stop it. ETC ETC#NONE OF IT WAS HER FAULT... BUT SHE NEVER WANTED TO DRAG INNOCENT PEOPLE INTO THIS AT ANY SINGLE POINT#AND NOW SOMEONE WHO QUICKLY BECAME A CLOSE FRIEND IS GONE oh lord my heart#all of this added onto the things like how alone she was in nibelheim... it was just her and her dad for some years after the boys all left#and then the Incident happens and she loses that last person she had... and to an extent another she didn't even know was right there(cloud#god i could talk about her and how she has suffered more than jesus for ages (happy easter. lmao)#FF7 Rebirth spoilers#just in case?? for anyone who's only playing the remakes i guess. since this was basically already there the remakes just elaborate on it#i think about 'we found you!' 'i guess you did!' SO OFTEN#these two girls mean the world to me and i will not let you reduce them to love interest rivals#when tifa ran over to aerith's body i think everyone in the world heard my heart shattering into dust#these thoughts are a bit disjointed and don't articulate well what i mean but god. god. i am thinking about her today
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I’m glad of the newfound awareness we’re having and I’m aware I’m preaching to a crowd here but what really baffles me is that. there’s some people in this fandom who genuinely wish people they are fans of to go through the pain of a MARRIAGE BREAKDOWN and the abandonment and total life rearrangement that comes with that just because they’re judging someone on the internet and don’t think they’re right for someone else we only know on the internet and through their songs. aside from the total disrespect of autonomy and humanity this is (and has always been, even 10 years ago when it was totally acceptable and unquestioned) maybe make use of some of the things we do know about people from their songs and. don’t EVER wish for someone to have (one of) their greatest fears come true
#this is an amalgamation of some of the thoughts I’ve had on posts going around#by mutuals so I guess you’ll see this??#this applies to all of them now and partners too. but also literally every single ex and when I say that there are women who lost careers#anyway. haven’t you ever dated someone that people just. decided to disapprove of for no reason?? maybe they were right but my point#is that if people try to restrict who you date that is a form of COERCIVE CONTROL and tbh this band has every right to not forgive any of u#because even if we’re innocent they can’t tell it apart from where they are. the fandom is a conglomerate#instead they’ve just accepted it as part of the job and taken on the stress of it which they absolutely don’t deserve#it should be normalised to not want your faves to suffer. end of discussion#5 seconds of summer#5sos#luke hemmings#calum hood#michael clifford#ashton irwin
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Hey big fan. How tall do you think the androids in DL are?
Not gonna lie, it's always a bit shocking to hear one has made anything to earn a 'big fan', but thank you very much nonetheless!
As for your actual question, though, I think they're roughly about human height, judging by art? Of course I've gone over how art sometimes varied wildly in height, but as mentioned in that post if you have seen that, Dragalia did seem to try and keep a 'comparison heights' straight, at least. They might not have kept straight if Euden was 4'11 or 5'9 but he was shorter than Ranzal and Luca, etc.
And what we see in the wyrmprints, they seem consistently human in size:
(Well, these are both with sylvans, but sylvans are human in height as well, ears notwithstanding, so the point stands).
As funny as it might have been if every android was big or really tiny, I think it probably makes sense that, being created and wished for them to be 'humans' by Maestro, they resemble humanity as much as possible.
Now, just because Laxi, Mascula, and the androids from their era are human sized, others might not be.
They're a recreation of the older models in another case of Dragalia's humans trying to resurrect older tech, the same tech that made the dragons Very Displeased 1k years ago.
Now, Eireene and Finni, who unfortunately have among my personal least favorite designs in Dragalia, don't really give any indication either of being a wildly different size than Laxi or Mascula. Like this art here, where they are about the same size as Laxi and in a similar 'dwarfed by Ranzal' category most everyone falls into to varying degrees.
That doesn't mean there aren't standouts.
Anassa, for example, seems to carry a much bigger presence in her art. Being something of a commander and command center for the 1k year old model androids, it stands to reason she might have more weapons built in, more data processors, or other things in greater quantity. While we don't have a model or comparative art to truly say for certain that she is bigger, she certainly looks it.
(Does she even have legs??? Is she a roomba that would be foiled by anything over a 15° incline or a sudden height change, ex, stairs??? I mean yeah, doesn't she fly and drop down the one time, but even then, there's any number of environments that might make it awkward or impossible to use it to navigate a hazard.)
Ahem. Anyways, the point is that the general androids, be it Maestro's recreations or their elder Nier:Dragalia -er, Ex Machina, a part of the Humanoid Liberation Agency/the ones living in the sky, seem to be human sized. But there might be a few special model ones out there like Anassa who serve a unique and important purpose to justify the time, energy, and resources designing and creating them to fulfill their goal.
Now, admittedly, androids in Dragalia would be a weak point in my general knowledge since they never really quite struck a chord with me enough to inspire a fixation on them, but yeah, as far as I can tell, they're human-sized with perhaps some rare exceptions. The most I can say that might not be wholly normal is their apparent tendency towards a sort of gaunt build, which, to be fair, it's not exactly as if they can build muscle to change that.
Hopefully that answered your question satisfactorily!
#dragalia lost#dragalia#inbox responses#thanks for the ask!#While I uh 'majored' in the royal family I'm more than happy to try and sift through other lore!#So yeah I'm always down to talk Dragalia or Scaling or other video games like Tales of the Abyss!#...I suddenly realized that Dragalia and Abyss share another thing in common: endings that are very much in dispute for what happened.#It's probably one of the top two fastest ways to start an argument among players for Abyss#And while the Dragalia fandom isn't quite so occasionally hostile about differing interpretations it's a funny coincidence.#Anyways. Dragalia. One thing I have a bit of qualm with is how quick the new androids are accepted.#Like Finni 'the emotional one' of the pair you'd expect to be the bleeding heart will casually talk about rampant murder of innocents.#These are androids that have been told over and over that all non-Ark humans are not worthy of life and need to all be killed.#That's not something that completely disappears overnight. Yeah enemy of my enemy and all that but...#When EUDEN is the one expressing the most vague caution to saying 'welcome aboard' you know something's not quite right.#And that in this case is 'is bringing a pair of androids known to have been involved in committing genocide and one of whom has a tendency#...to go berserk into our castle a good idea?'#But yeah this is a rant in tags but. I just don't quite like how they handled that detail regarding the Ex Machina androids.
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it’s me & my early 2000s emo scene kid playlists against the world sometimes
#piece the veil#mayday parade#sleeping with sirens#my best friends 🖤#I do be getting in my feels about music sometimes when it’s supposed to be helping me clean my apartment 😂#but how can you thiiiink that any of this was easyyy???? with all the friends I’ve lost along the wayyyyyyy#when this is overrr we’re all getting older now#and we all play a part in ittt#innocence is falling can you hear them calling now??? 😭😫🎶🎶🎶#anyway. anyway. back to cleaning my apartment I guess 🙄
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it’s so crazy and dystopian that average conversations these days on social media are abt whether or not a group of random ass people have the right to be alive or if they should all just be indiscriminately murdered and bombed and die the most painful death
#it’s SO crazy seeing people justify carpet bombing its so fucking crazy#they talk abt it as if it’s something that you just can’t avoid#“oh boy super sorry bout this i just HAVE to bomb tens of thousands of people.. like in the name of justice#all the ethics and morals i’ve grown with that i thought were natural ……. are not being exercised by any of the world leaders#like the one group of people on this planet who SHOULD have ethics and morals lmfaooooo#like i always knew they were shitheads like when obama could casually bomb so many innocent people and still retain his reputation as a#cool chill president or whatever the fuck#but seeing it happen time and time again#like my own family faced genocide man#my literal mum and dad both lost people in the family my mum had her house fucking bombed#that ….. it always felt like something that happened a very long time ago and wouldn’t ever happen again#our lives are worth so fucking little …. what is the point ………….#i don’t get how to just casually continue being alive in this shitass world when it all is worth so little#when there are so many deaths it just becomes a statistic to politicians#humanity is both wretched and beautiful but why is it that the wretchedness is always so powerful
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Redcrackle and where do we go now by Gracie Abrams...ooooo I need to be sedated
#jeez.#it was one sided hate how i hurt you. grays one sided attraction towards her.#sth sth gray basically saying the goodness in the memory wiped him isn't a part of the true him.#we had no control when it fell through. the scene where she electrocutes him + all the times gray was ordered to hurt her#know that space was the thing that i needed but i miss you. gray at the finale saying its better if hes not in carmens life.#carmen earlier on saying she doesn't want to complicate his life.#i know i changed overnight so i cant blame you for fighting. GRAYS MEMORY WIPED INNOCENT SELF SWITCHING BACK TO HIS REGULAR SELF AND#THE DIFFERENCE SO SUDDEN THAT CARMEN DEFENDED HER DECISION TO RESCUE HIM FROM THE LAB. FIGHTING FOR HIM. HE LITERALLY CHANGED OVERNIGHT#YOURE THE BEST OF MY LIFE AND I LOST YOU. CARMEN TO GRAY. CARMEN WAS THE QUOTE UNQOUTE ONLY GOOD PERSON IN HIS LIFE#THE BEST PARTS OF HIS LIFE ACTUALLY BEING THE ONES SHE WAS IN. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#soft shittalks#redcrackle#carmen sandiego
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Tomorrow I’m going to keep organizing our family photos if it kills me and then I honestly think I can never look at them again for my own sanity
#seeing photos of myself from the time period I was being assaulted is incredibly upsetting#because I was a CHILD#I was so innocent#and he took advantage of that#and it reminds me of the therapy session#where my therapist was prepping me to come forward to my parents about it#and the idea was just so upsetting I said you know what never mind I think it might just be easier to suppress it when#*again not when. I’m not retyping#and my therapist said#how old were you? you’re the age of the children you take care of at work.#would you say something if somebody assaulted any of them?#you owe it to yourself at that age and you owe it to them#and that just absolutely wrecked me#because I loved those babies so much#I still do#I’m still very close with one of them and I think about her all the time on bad nights like this#if anybody ever hurt her I would literally kill them. I would go to jail if it meant protecting this little girl.#and it’s nights like this where I need to just stop and mourn over what I lost#and the fact that I didn’t have anybody protecting me like that#even though the signs were absolutely there#because this man groomed his entire family into a culture of silence and denial#I’m just very angry right now#but getting this out has helped immensely#using tumblr as my diary again#tw#tw csa#cw#cw CSA
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God I could and should write a whole fucking book by the end of this life here on Lev and his symbols
ill write it then burn it before anyone else gets a copy. or i wont. im supposed to be helping him this incarnation here to get a better anchor in this plane so maybe it would help more than itd be weird - im just getting from him the energy of "yeah no people already effectively have these things, people on my plane already know me inside and out to an extensive degree, may as well have it here too" you know. fair
#~abyssal murmurs#ugh god i love his tone saying that tho. i kept trying to prod to see if it was a ''ugh yeah people know me inside and out and Yes Its#Invasive But -'' but no#oh my god man. his like energy towards his people is..... BEFORE I SAY THIS#I HOPE YOU ALL KNOW IM ANTI PROPAGANDA. the biggest reason i dont work with Lu and others is bc theres this tendency to#be like ''we're darkness but also light! we're teachers we're enlightened we're pure in our own way and the kings are here to#teach you how to empower yourselves and they love all worshipers and they reject all tyrannical authority and they are the good guys#against the chrxstian god who (insert specific atrocity that actually was committed by the kings not the 'chrxstian god' - and#''demons'' should KNOW that because it was AN IMPORTANT PART OF THE WAR so either theyre LYING orrrrr) and we're actually#really down to earth and more holy than anyone else bc we're enlightened - i mean uh uh no wait that contradicts us being#against the love and light style of enlightenment chasing'' like. i will tell you that my boss has massacred a lot of people i will tell yo#im anti monarchy and i dont believe that the kings' peoples are any better than 'angels' and i will tell you a lot of innocents on both#sides have been lost bc of royalty and rich families the kings are directly tied to#so i hope you know that when i say the way lev treats his people in his mind is..... holy shit#i pick apart everything he does. ive seen sides of him that are dark af (and i love him for them lmfao) but as soon as his people are#involved... have you ever been w someone getting hot and bothered and a kid walks in that you thought was sleeping and you just switch#completely into parent mode like. he'll have complex fictions w me helping me write stories about corrupt monarchies and shit#and then no. he is like. hes very good at mindset switching and going immediately into different faces but i swear#his ''i am a king and a king is a head of a mass of people - a king is a servant to his people'' mode is like. impenetrable#he is so. fucking intensely single-minded and trained to be a king unlike anyone else. anyway what was i talking about#OH YEAH. his tone w what i wrote in the post. was so switched into that mode of ''my viscera is theirs to eat as Im splayed on their table#and this is divine ruling. this is my purpose with them'' type shit. PURE thought. there is no other energy i can find in it other than#pure ''this is my job and i do it''. pure as in distilled. a pure tone like a sine wave played on a synth as opposed to a string plucked#leviathan //#ive. im nervous about saying the shit ive said here lmfao but ive had his OK before to say it ALSO. AS I SAID. theres no way his people#dont know the massacre was done by the kings lmfao. like. yall were involved. and also you all have to know that one of the#people that pretends to be the christian god is. two of the kings actually and since lev commonly appears to people and lets them#decide who he is bc hes never arsed making a show of Being Leviathan and whatnot im sure hes been called God plenty of times#too but like. cmon. I dont know who started the ''oh the uh the invading heaven and killing off half the population was the#chrxstian god'' rumour but i was first exposed to it through lu and (his wife) worshipers so yall get the blame - that said...
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I feel such a genuine rage in my heart when someone says 'innocent' when what they mean is 'cute and soft'. Or worse, when they use it to mean 'vulnerable' like ohhhhh my gooooooddd shut uuuuuppppppp!! Stop framing ~delicate untouched innocence~ as some kind of obvious desirable virtue shut up shut up shut UUUUPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!
Innocent fucking means something! It means 'blameless' and when you use it as fucking synonymous with vulnerability and cuteness, You Are Implicitly Expressing the idea that vulnerability and cuteness exempts you from blame and makes you desirable while stoicism and anything 'ugly' is suspicious or at least undesirable.
I hate it. I hate it so much. I especially hate it when it's used to talk about kids, shut the fuck up, stop talking like growing up means becoming ~dirtied~ and ~guilty~ stop saying kids are meant to be perfect little angels THAT'S A FUCKING PERSON and they deserve MORE RESPECT than having their virtue tied to your desire to fawn over them.
#i saw a post about how sad it is homura akemi lost her innocence as she got weathered into the person she is now#and I'm like 'Oh My God I Fucking Hate You HER ~INNOCENCE~ IS NOT THE FUCKING PROBLEM'#you just liked her better when she was soft and demure and fragile#like she lost 50 different versions of herself and hu dreds of versions of her friends#and you're focusing on the hypothetical loss of her fucking innocence????#shut#up#jammering on
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