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Imagine Akane on the boundary of the clock keepers like this. (trust me.)
I HAVE THE VISION!!!
I love the white foggy sky from snowy days so so so much
Like this just looks so good (I was today years old when I learnt that it was called blue hour when it's night too, it looks really cool) And you are so right he deserves to be dramatic
#ty sm for this I only saw it today but wow#is this from a movie btw? :00 a photoshoot? I am intrigued#you are so right#imagining Akane and Mirai going sliding is really cute too#tysm for this image#I can't draw bc of my shoulder but man#I kinda wanna try when it gets better should be so funny to do#aoi akane#the three clock keepers#tbhk#toilet bound hanako kun#thoses photos are random from google dhskjdhs#jshk#jibaku shounen hanako kun#I like snow A LOT#I love their aesthetic so so much#(cheating a lot bc cleary they are from Europe I am sorry)
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Snow bots au anyone? :D
They're back together a year later because it's snowing again❄️
All right! For context: I imagine them hanging out every winter in some kind of resort (a resort that Blurr owns. Because his bar business has expanded that much over time.)
#maccadam#transformers#snow bots au#uh that’s a lot of characters. okay let’s go#left -> to right. top to bottom haha#Swerve#Rung#Tailgate#Rewind#chromedome#cdrw#jazz#prowl#jazzprowl#rodimus#rodimus prime#Wing#Drift#Blurr#Swindle#I originally wanted to add Brainstorm falling out of bus window and Perceptor catching him but my brain is shutting down I need to sleep ha#jazz and prowl switching their hats be like#Prowl: I sense something is wrong..where's my hat?? (looks around) (sees it on Jazz's head) Oh there it is. Cool.#five minutes later: wait. If my hat is there than what am I wearing right now???? error 404#world greatest detective ladies and gentlemen~
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BTS picture from Severance #02.04 ‘Woe’s Hollow’ by Ben Stiller
#severance#severance bts#apple tv#ben stiller#adam scott#britt lower#john turturro#zach cherry#mark s#dylan g#irving b#helly r#irving bailiff#mark scout#helly riggs#helena eagan#dylan george#severanceedit#today's podcast was so fun!!! a lot of super interesting stuff from the outside shoot#it was apparently shot in may 2023 wtf#and this specific location was hell. like everyone had to walk to go out there and it was super tedious bc it was far away#and apparently during the seal scene there was fresh snow and ben stiller got rlly excited bc adam/john would be able to walk in fresh snow#adam and ben also talk about the outfits as well#idk i highly recommend listening to this podcast! (and god knows i hate podcasts lol. i really love this show)
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Making Incorrect H:SR Quotes Until I Run Out of (hopefully) Original Ideas - Pt. 6
[Pt. 1] [Pt. 2] [Pt. 3] [Pt. 4] [Pt. 5]
#hsr#honkai star rail#hsr incorrect quotes#hsr textpost#hsr memes#honkai star rail memes#hsr meme#honkai star rail meme#boothill#hsr boothill#argenti#hsr argenti#sunday#hsr sunday#aventurine#hsr aventurine#black swan#hsr black swan#argenhill#boothill x argenti#i love their 'guns n' roses' ship name a whole lot but im not trying to unintentionally put this in the actual band's tag lmao#i dont have a good concise title for this one its just like. 50% Boothill and 50% my other fav hsr men. thats it thats the theme#also. dont fuckign come at me like 'but the 6th one isn't accurate! he wasn't born in a test tube!!' listen. i know.#he was found abandoned in the snow or smthn idk i haven't dug into his lore leaks yet but i Know. the first half isnt all that accurate#but the overall vibes of it are funny enough to me that i had to make it anyways. let's all just learn to suspend our disbelief a bit#for the sake of laughs. also also. hopefully it goes w/o saying but if something ever lacks a source it's bc i found it like that#i always leave the op's handles even if they dont fit the characters but sometimes the posts i find have already had them cropped out#which irks me bc i Try to be a stickler for giving credit. but anyways. enough overthinking the making of these silly memes#also. some of these are prob a bit more accurate only if you've seen some of Boothill's voiceline and message leaks but eh its fine
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And one amang, an Iyrysch man,
Uppone his hoby swyftly ran…

WAIT HANG ON - slamming the brakes on drawing this stupid picture - do you nerds even KNOW the etymology of the word “hobby”? The thing you do for pleasure? The thing you have too many of? The thing you spend too much money on and share with your friends? The thing tumblr probably is to you? Those hobbies?
It comes from a now-kind-of-extinct breed of Irish pony-horse. It was called the Irish Hobby. Supposedly the hobby got its name from the Gaelic word obann, or swift. They definitely were. They’d obann your pants clean off.
Fast tough little bastards, built for rough terrain and renowned for their speed and stamina, hobby horses belonged to the Celts, and their highly annoying style of mounted warfare. but their conquerors liked hobby horses a lot, kept them, used them for themselves, and found them useful enough, despite the fact that they also had famously useful things like mounted knights or horse archers. A lightweight Irish warrior, mounted on a hobby horse, was called a hobelar.
Reportedly and in depictions, hobelars rode without stirrups. Or saddles. Or bridles. Or - well - this is all sounding very improbable, because the hobelars COULDNT have just been charging around basically bare-assed on naked ponies, screaming, and somehow in the process undoing the composure of actual mounted armoured knights. Knights who, I remind you, had stirrups. Stirrups are useful! It’s quite likely the hobelars had some gear. And clothes. and weapons. And the ponies probably had some tack - I am picturing a bellyband that you could at least hang a saddlebag on, and a neck rope for catching the bloody thing, even if not a saddle. But the overall impression, somehow created by people on darling little ponies, was apparently quite striking and fearful.
I mean. God Forbid People Have Hobbies.
Anyway after a while, whatever people became the British had eventually conquered all of the rough terrain that hobbies were best at, and horse archers just got sexier, and mounted knights became aristos, and all the bog and forest people had been subdued, so it was time to sunset the hobelars. but WAIT! Hobby horses are still tremendously fun and appealing! They’re so fast! and you can ride them without a saddle! Sure, they’re not up to the weight of a mounted knight, or indeed a lot of guys… but surely we can still find a use for a hobby or two? In the back garden? Somewhere?
At which point an English king decided to keep hobby horses just for fun. No military application. No further development of the technology. Not for fun. Just as expensive, pleasurable, pets. Just for the joy of the thing.
And that is how hobby (activity done purely for pleasure) comes from hobby horse (small horse) possibly from obann (swift.) they’re very interesting and you should look all this up for yourself! because it sure sounds like Elodie doing a bit, doesn’t it?
Today, Irish Hobbies are functionally nonexistent. References for drawing include the Kerry Bog Pony, the Connemara, and (I personally think) Dartmoors and Exmoors. They’re said to have lent their speed to the Irish Hunter/Sport Horse and from there to the Thoroughbred, but every damn horse in the world claims relation to the Thoroughbred, and they can’t be THAT thoroughly bred.
At any rate - you can never have enough hobbies. Just be glad that yours aren’t expensive beasts with minds of their own, eating their heads off in the pasture! …Unless they are. In which case, you’re part of a proud tradition.
#Killie#this is Killie’s ancestor who occasionally turns up in hallucinations with various ghost horses#like all elements of magical realism in the killieverse he does absolutely NOTHING useful.#your ancestor is neither proud of you nor disappointed in you. he’s riding alongside explaining some thoughts he had at breakfast#performing weird fuckin feats of equitation outside the window while you’re trying to sit through school or waiting in the queue at Greggs#if you wake up in a hospital bed in a bleary moment before consciousness he’s perched next to you chattering complete fucking nonsense#about. like. the stupidest stuff. like he’s just free-associating his thoughts based on a pattern in the ceiling tiles. incredibly annoying#his dialect just close enough to Irish that you can pick out a few words here and there#enough to tell that it’s complete nonsense. but also he’ll just say things like BASED. (possibly he is also visiting miles?)#and occasionally he points out that he did everything you do in your job but barefoot. no stirrups. in the snow. uphill both ways.#which is quite hard to do in a bog since they’re notably quite distinctively flat usually so sometimes he’d have to find a hill and ride up#and down it a few times just to build character. no saddle no bridle no shoes and the Romans were there maybe - and when you object to that#thinking there seems to be a lot of collision of timelines and historical accuracy - he doesn’t speak Irish suddenly . and why would he.#anyway he doesn’t exist and never did. but he’s fun#occasionally turns up to ride alongside you in a race apparently just to prove he can keep up with modern breeds#usually he can surprisingly well but tbf his horse is a ghost. and when he can’t he says well. I’m not a professional like you.#this. is just my hobby. ahahahahahahahahahshahahahahasha#and with that I get back on my hobby horse and ride away
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strawberry shortcake 🍓
Rodrick <33

₊˚⊹ ♡. Rodrick Heffley is certainly not a planner, he never has been. He spends plenty of time agonizing over how exactly he's gonna blow your socks off on the big day, but when he's ready to start planning, he realizes that it's two days away. He scrapes together the couple bucks in his wallet, some change from his dorm room couch (and you're 99% sure he took some money from Greg's piggy bank,) to present you on Valentine's Day with a grand total of: a beanie-baby stuffed animal, a box of candy hearts, a mostly-crushed bouquet of flowers from the gas station, and a hand-burned CD with the title "jams 4 hot gf" scrawled across the front in his inexcusably terrible handwriting. He's basically grinding his toe into the dirt all shy-like when he gives them to you, giving you a classic "I know it's not much, but—" though you cut him off by throwing your arms around his neck and hugging him so hard he makes an oof noise, the wind knocked out of him.
The two of you make an appearance at your favorite date spot—an extremely sketchy, extremely sticky bowling alley where three of the lanes are perpetually closed, and the lights in the attached arcade flicker ominously. Your squeals and his laughter echo off the wood-paneled walls, and for your whole game (him appearing on the scoreboard as RODPRICK and you as THE BABE,) it feels like you're the only two people on the whole planet. Rodrick insists on winning you a stuffed animal from the claw machine, and you put on an oscar-winning performance of being equally as excited every time he tries, and equally as shocked and disappointed every time it slips from the metal grasp. You rub his back consolingly as you walk away once his pockets are officially empty, and he slings an arm over your shoulders as he mutters, "at least you got the beanie baby" with a defeated shake of his head.
You almost let out a little sniffle at the card he gives you (it takes you a couple tries to read it cause good lord, his handwriting really is awful,) which says "ur way too cool and hot and smart for me, but i'm glad u haven't realized that yet. happy valentine's day babe :)" accompanied by the worst drawing of you two as stick figures you've ever seen. He even plays you an extremely sincere but terribly loud love song on the drum set in the communal music room, and the two of you get promptly kicked out halfway through. Ending the day with your face buried in his hoodie, watching some stupid movie, the whole day having cost probably $30 total, you hum against his lips when he kisses you and think about how it was kind of the best day you've ever had. Sure, it made it glaringly obvious that Rodrick Heffley is a total disaster—but c'mon, he's your disaster.
#this ended up being a lot longer than i meant it to be cause it kinda sounds like the best day ever LMAO#i'm standing outside rodrick's bedroom w a boombox#snow’s scrumptious v day event ₊˚⊹ ♡#thinking: rodrick heffley ₊˚⊹ ♡#rodrick x reader#rodrick heffley x reader#rodrick heffley one shot#rodrick heffley imagine#rodrick heffley fanfiction#rodrick imagines#rodrick fanfic#rodrick heffley#doawk rodrick#diary of a wimpy kid rodrick#rodrick x y/n#rodrick heffley x you#rodrick heffley x y/n#rodrick heffley drabble#rodrick heffley x fem!reader#rodrick heffley x female reader
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Stark men are real ones fr they do not judge women with body hair bc its natural they all have it too IN FACT they shun the south for making their women shave like tf! Only Stark men shave their faces before welcoming other nobles into Winterfell but thats it!
YUP !!!!! if you were raised with those southern principals… ohhh boy. they’d have this look on their face — brows furrowed, confusion filled eyes riddled with thinly veiled judgement (never towards you, gods no) — while explaining that while you shaving may have been a requirement down south, that is absolutely not the case here (you have a hell of a time figuring out that the shaving culture here is completely reversed)
but they’d never make you feel stupid for it, like you should’ve innately known how absurd something was; careful to keep that thinly veiled judgment as it was, thinly veiled. only when they indulge in far too much drink do their tongues loosen with their true thoughts about the whole ordeal
#dippys asks#they think body hair is so attractive and i’ll die on that hill#i’ll die naked on it and make sure not to shave#also the part about them not shaving unless to receive nobles !!!!#i see a lot of people shit on cregan for being clean shaven#but like guys#they all had to shave to receive robert#now true that robert was the king and jace wasn’t yet#but i mean come on#he’s the future king#*was#LMAO#SORRH#game of thrones#house of the dragon#cregan stark#jon snow#robb stark#cregan stark x reader#robb stark x reader#jon snow x reader#the three musketeers !
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First word
#here it is. the dumbest comic to ever take three. years.#it changes a lot page to page bc. I would stop working on it for a YEAR and then pick it back up#anyways#/lh#gaster#wingdings gaster#happy week late fathers day#this is actually a redraw of my very first ever ut comic#I might post that too if I can find it#I need to emphasize I did that one in like 10 minutes.#ok. bye#undertale#papyrus#dadster#undertale papyrus#ut rus#whatever#sans is there too I guess#snow and hail
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sorry but snow is such a well written iconic villain and donald sutherland performs him so fucking good it's almost hilarious how i start practically foaming at the mouth every time the man opens his mouth to say something deplorable in those movies, like he's so utterly and despicably wrong about almost every crucial thing from katniss and peeta's relationship to human nature as a whole and yet the second he starts talking about how hope is the only thing stronger than fear and how you have to allow a little hope but control it so its spark doesn't grow into revolution and how it's the things we love the most that destroy us you bet your ass i am on the floor screaming crying throwing up because that is my psychotic mustache-twirling villain RIGHT THERE
#every scene he's in is so delicious and i want it injected into my veins like heroine#as you can tell i'm quite fond of masterfully crafted villains whose monologues leave you breathless#also that part where he just tells seneca 'i like you...be careful' *EPIC CHEF'S KISS*🔥#'hope...it is the only thing stronger than fear'#'a little hope is effective. a lot of hope is dangerous. the spark is fine as long as it's contained'#he isn't my roman empire but i do dwell on him from time to time and get shivers down my fucking spine#coriolanus snow#president snow#snow#president coriolanus snow#hunger games#the hunger games#the hunger games trilogy#thg#mockingjay#catching fire#katniss everdeen#peeta mellark#seneca crane#suzanne collins#donald sutherland
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jon never gets outed as a targ bastard, even after he claims rhaegal. everyone just assumes jon's such a weird fucker he can just do that. yeah, the guy with the magical albino apex predator who seems like it can understand human speech and is perfectly trained, as well as that crow who speaks in prophecy and vegetable terms seems like he could just fly a dragon. it's not even the weirdest thing about jon at that point everyone just shrugs their shoulders.
#like obviously ppl would start to put it together eventually#jon has dubious origins#a stark woman was with a targ prince for a long time until she just. died. and then ned turned up with a stark baby#and then stark baby grows up into a guy who can claim a dragon#but i imagine a lot of the free folk would just be like. yeah that tracks jons just Like That#jon snow#asoiaf#rhaegal
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Major Monogram from Phineas and Ferb is a fascinating accidental example of unjust biases stemming from ignorance and laziness instead of intentional harm in the ‘species-ism’ that is a root of injustice in the PnF universe. In this essay I will
#okay but like actually#he treats a lot of the agents shitty#especially early on#because he considers himself to be a ‘higher species’#“What is this- pick on the higher species day?#(quote from the hr scene in La-candance-cabra#and even as employees he treats them poorly#but it’s literally just because he’s terrible at his job#mans wanted to be an acrobat#he’s not qualified to learn how to manage a bunch of animals with sentience and bank accounts#or at least#he doesn’t think he is#so he doesn’t try#for most of the snow#he just kinda sits around and complains about his job#but we know he experiences character development at some point in the future#because he goes bowling with Perry and Doof#suggesting he views Perry as an equal#so we know he’s capable of it#just in the future#but in present moment he’s simply refusing to educate himself#and idk I just think it’s a fascinating example of how ignorance can be harmful#and why we should try our best to learn about others differences#phineas and ferb#perry the platypus#agent p#owca#major monogram
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lisa is humbly asking: a kiss along the jawline for rhaelya and/or a kiss to a scar (w jon's scars on the left eye in mind) for jonerys? if you don't mind? 👉👈

hiiiii 🥹 here they are!!!!
Daenerys and Jon for #33 - kiss to a scar from this list
#asoiaf#fanart#artists on tumblr#digital art#kiss prompts#jon snow#daenerys targaryen#jon x daenerys#jon x dany#jonerys#snowstorm#asoiaf fanart#valyrianscrolls#procreate#my art#ahhhh i love them sm i am having a lot of fun doodling them#for some reason jon's got a thing for dany's legs in all#of my drawings#which you know what#it works#i hope you like it lisa#🥺🥺🥺🥺
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@mikimeiko is doing a photography project where you take the same picture every month (introduction/explanation here) and I promised I'd join in. And wouldn't you know, I discovered that one of the old pollard willows down by the creek is freshly trimmed! That should make for an interesting subject.

09.01.24, 16:41
#braved the cold to get this picture#climate change will turn you into a wuss#i grew up with winters that would be well below -10°c for weeks#and lots of snow#now we go below -5 for a few days and it feels like hell because I'm no longer used to it#sigh#anyway don't you love pollard willows I love pollard willows#12 photos 1 year
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#if you’ve seen this before🤭#honestly I think it was maybe my first fanart I ever posted here…it feels like FOREVER ago now😳#I just love Ominis so much😔🤲#I’ve been busy brainrotting about the 70s au & doing Real Life (😤) so maybe no fanart today either😆😆#hope you’re all having an amazing week thoufh!!!🥰🥰#it finally feels like WINTER here !!!!!! when I went swimming it was 0° & the water was AMAZING!!!! I love the cold so much#& it’s starting to snow a lot more in the mountains🥹🫶🫶🫶#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#ominis#ominis gaunt#ominis fanart
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On the bike again, sun high, cutting through salted road tracks around Fairview Park. Over the Tolka, the Royal Canal, O’Connell Bridge across the Liffey—water like slush in there, churning instead of flowing. I could do this ride with my eyes shut. A hundred times, weaving the city’s arteries, knowing them like the veins on my wrist. But under snow, Dublin is extraterrestrial. A surreal experience as the lights turn amber to red, pedestrian crossing clicking with nobody to cross. Shadows are sharp and perfect as the old Georgians along the quay throw geometric shapes like paper cutouts. My gears clunk, chain clicking, careening around Westmoreland Street. Tyres bump over tram tracks. Barricades of snow, shovel-blackened, line the edge of every road. Icy wind in my face draws tears from the corners of my eyes as I pedal on.
Jen’s living in Ranelagh these days. Basement flat of a little redbrick place off Sallymount Avenue. It’s horrendous in that sort of authentic Dublin way. Obligatory bathroom mould, kind of thing. Paint on one side of the house is bubbling with damp, and the perpetual smell of old cigarettes permeates every corner. A film of sticky yellow residue from a long departed smoker still clings to the low ceilings, which I ran my finger though the last time I visited. Rolled it into a gooey dust ball and stuck it in Jen's face when she was trying to wash the dishes.
She’s in her bedroom painting her toes when I haul my bicycle through the weeds and chain it to the fence. I pound my fist on the window and frighten her. Mouth in a startled little O before she grins at me, her usual wicked smile. A mouth full of short, rounded teeth.
“Well you. Are you chilly?” she says, unlatching the door.
“Yeah,” I launch myself inside, grabbing her head and kissing the top of it a dozen times while she cackles. She’s done something weird to her hair again, half white, half black, split down the middle like Cruella De Vil. “Any luck with those dalmatians?” I ask. She ignores me and slams the door behind us.
“Welcome home, stranger,” she heads for the kitchen, MDF cabinets bloated with water damage. Barefoot, her heels are blackened from the dirt of the floor. “Will you have a coffee?”
“Yeah, thanks. That’d be really nice.” Seat myself at the table then. Textbooks strewn about, eyes glazing over the titles as the kettle boils and she spoons instant coffee into a mug. “How’s college?”
“Shite. How about you?”
“It’s alright.”
“Are they still wanking themselves off over your paintings over in Berlin? Turner the Wonderboy.”
I just smile. “I’m doing fine.”
She throws her head back in a laugh. “Say no more. And the rest of it all? The job?”
“Oh, Christ.” Weakened from even thinking about it, I have to put my head on the table.
“Not great, is it?” Jen sinks into the seat opposite and slides the mug to me. I hold it, slightly too hot to touch, and let the warmth prickle through my palms. Staring into its murky depths like a crystal ball, while chunks of undissolved grounds float about the surface. A pair of eyes laden with dark circles stare back.
“Do I look corpse-like these days? I feel like I’m sort of rotting from the inside out.”
“No. Sure you’re only gorgeous. You get more gorgeous every time I see you.”
“Hmph.”
“Welcome to the working world,” she says, her glee barely disguised. I’m starting to see things for how they are now, in a depressing sort of way. Looking back on things I said to her before, about not affording things or not feeling welcome in certain places, and cringing about it. To know I was ignorant and spoiled, going about my life with my nose in the air while my friends faced struggles beyond my comprehension. Even last year, when Jen moved here, I told her to pick a nicer place. Somewhere with natural light, closer to town, assuming my logic was flawless. I want to tear through the fabric of time and sock myself across the jaw.
Sipping her coffee, Jen leans back and gazes out the tiny window into the yard out back. It’s a tip out there. A nearby business uses it to store its bins and dump its miscellaneous waste, though nobody actually knows if they have permission to do so. “And how’s the lovely miss Astrid? The most recent pics I saw of ye were off in Slovenia or somewhere, wasn’t it?”
“Oh, yeah, our anniversary trip. That was November. She’s fine. She’s…” I trail off and stare at the table. The upstairs neighbour crosses the room overhead, the thump of feet shaking the ceiling. The TV goes on. It’s so loud we can hear every word of the afternoon weather report. “She’s doing well with her ceramics,” I manage. “She’s got an exhibition on next week, which she’s pretty excited about.”
“Oh, wow, yeah. Good for her.” Jen’s smiling encouragingly, eager to show that my relationship with Astrid doesn’t bother her. Wants me to know she supports the choices I have made, even if lately I don’t even really support them myself. It’s my fault it’s like this anyway, with Jen, I mean. The times she’s expressed doubts about the fairness or ethics of my relationship, I’ve made her feel like her opinion is an imposition. Defending Astrid, like, no, she doesn’t mean it like that/I know it sounds bad, but it’s just the way she says it/She finds it hard to sound sincere. “I just care about you,” she said glumly during a call, and I made sure to smile, so it came across in my voice. “I know, Jen, and I love that about you. It’s just that it’s hard to ‘get’ a relationship when you’re not in it. I don’t want to feel you’re judging her when you actually just don’t know her.” Eventually, Jen stopped venturing beyond the realm of small-talk. This bright smile is her way of staying out of it.
“I’ve seen her ceramics online, actually. They’re cool,” she says.
“Oh, yeah? You think?”
“I followed her on Instagram a while back, yeah,” her smile strains before she adds, “they’re not ceramics you’d have clattering around your kitchen, though, are they? They’re a bit out there.”
“Yeah, so basically they’re not meant to be functional. They’re meant to reflect, like, states of metamorphosis and conflict, creating, um, organic shapes inspired by human figures and the landscapes of northern France where she has spent a lot of time. She fires them multiple times to kinda represent the passage of time. It’s a whole statement, rather than, you know, a mug to have your tea out of.”
“Aw yeah. Dead cool. I wouldn’t have got all that from looking at them.”
Silence. Jen takes a slow sip of her coffee, eyes flicking toward the window. “All good to see Shane later?”
“Yeah. That dinner thing? Of course. Why?”
She nods, still looking out, like she’s working something out in her head. Then: “Did he—” She stops. Frowns slightly. “Never mind.”
I sit up. “What?”
“It’s nothing.”
I just look at her.
She sighs. “Did he text you about Evie’s birthday thing?”
A jolt of energy moves between us. “No,” I say, carefully. “He didn’t.”
“Oh.” A wince. “Shit. He probably meant to. You know what he’s like. Or maybe he texted me and assumed I’d text you, which is my bad…” she does not stop speaking, and I do not stop her, both knowing if I allow her to go on, we will not have to acknowledge the situation, as the room tips slightly, becoming unreal.
“No, no, it’s fine. It’s totally fine,” I hear myself saying in between gaps in her words, weaving in and out of her cyclical ramblings, reassuring myself, really. “Simple mistake. It’s no big deal. It’s fine, it’s fine. Jen. Nobody’s fault.”
“No, but we don’t have to go,” she’s saying. “I told him maybe, you know, maybe if we felt like going, but it’s going to be mostly people from her college, I think. It could be completely be weird if we went, you know? Since we don’t know her anymore, really, do we?”
“No, you’re right, yeah. We wouldn’t have to.”
“And when I saw her months ago, she said she doesn’t care about any of it anymore, so.”
I stop. “You saw her?”
Jen blinks. “Yeah, yeah. I saw her at some bar. Did I not tell you that either?”
“Uh, no. I think I’d remember if you did.”
“Oh. Oh. Well, yeah… I was out one Friday in this bar on Dame Lane. One of those horrible swanky places where cocktails are like a million euro. Ran into her in the toilets fixing her makeup.” Her eyes flicker away, avoiding mine. “I didn’t even know it was her at first. She was like… I dunno, like, all sharp angles, tiny little dress with her whole back out. Different, you know?”
Leaning forward now, chewing on that word. Different. Fascinated by its implications. The feeling she’s some unlockable character, an outline with features unrevealed. Discover myself loathing the idea of change. I don’t want it. I want her to be where I left her, on that beach, lying on a beach towel in some perpetual summer, waiting for me to come back.
“How?”
She shrugs, a forced gesture. “Oh, like, she just looked like she belonged there.”
“That’s not what you actually mean.”
She presses her lips together. “Okay, well, like, she was cold, Jude. I tried to bring up that summer, just to clear the air, say I was sorry for sticking my nose in, but she shut it down. Properly shut it down. Acted like I was dragging up ancient history that no one but me even cared about.”
A flicker of something ugly moves through me. “Right.”
“She actually said, why are you talking to me about this?” she shakes her head. “Like I was a weirdo.”
“Oh.”
“And then about half an hour later,” Jen hesitates, then, knowing the next part will land wrong. Saying it anyway. “She was outside, tongue kissing some guy in the smoking area like her life depended on it.”
A sharp pulse in my stomach. I have to glance away. “Really?”
“Yes.” She lowers her voice to a gossipy whisper. “Aggressively. Like she wanted people to see.”
A beat of silence. We look at each other. “Well,” I say, my voice light and detached as I can manage. “I suppose she can do what she wants, can’t she?”
“Yeah, power to the women, et cetera. He wasn’t handsome, by the way. He was kind of vegetarian looking.”
I squint. “I don’t actually give a shit how vegetarian-looking the men she kisses are. That’s not something I’m up at night wondering about.”
She laughs. “Oh, right, well, I’m just saying. Anyway, that’s just reminded me I have to tell you about this lad my mate was going out with. Talk about weird men. He was into improv comedy, and the first date, took her to an open mic comedy show…”
I stare blankly while she talks. Words swimming around me like abstract sounds muffled behind a screen. Sharp angles. She said. Where? Her cheeks? Her hips? A vision of said backless dress, curve of her spine, leaning over a sink. Blue lights. The Evie in my head covers her face in embarrassment at the thought of wearing a dress like that. “God, no,” she cries. “You wouldn’t catch me dead. I’d never.”
“... and he bombed.” Jen says with emphasis. “Like, nobody laughed. They actually heckled him.”
“Oh, gas.” I reply.
And kissing this vegetarian-looking guy. What is it with that? Liam from the surf shack was relatively vegetarian-looking, thinking back on it, wasn’t he? Big leather sandals on him. Is that actually just what she likes? Feeling threatened now by men who get the lentil burger off the pub menu. I could take him down onto the floor in three seconds with the power of animal protein. I boast to imaginary Evie inside my head. She’s not listening to me. Her boyfriend is showing her how he makes deodorant out of coconut oil.
“... she went on a second date too, after all that. And it was so much worse…”
I drain my coffee, drum my fingers on the side of the mug. Get up and wander towards the window and look out of it. “Mm. Some guys are just so fucking weird,” I say as Jen expands the universe of this nightmare date, introducing the element of one-sided polyamory.
“... anyway, she’s better at telling the story. I’ll get her to tell you herself. Hey, maybe after dinner I'll invite her over. We could grab a few cans and just hang out here. What do you think?”
I’m fixated on a robin, hopping from one snowy twig to the next. “Hm? No. I think I’ll go to the party.”
She stops. Makes a sound that isn’t quite a laugh. “Wait, are you messing?”
“No, whatever. We’ll just swing by and say hello.”
I don’t look around to see her reaction, but feel it, a charge in the air. “Jude, like… Sorry, but what’s the point of that?”
“A few drinks. It’ll be fine. Just say happy birthday to her, and then we can go. I just want to be civil.”
“Okay.. are you sure?”
“Yeah, yeah, of course. It’s not a big deal. It’s not like that anymore between us anyway, you know? She doesn’t care, and I obviously don’t care either. It’s just, like, two old friends running into each other.”
She doesn’t speak for a moment, then with resignation, says, “alright, I suppose if that’s what you want to do.”
I stretch. Easygoing. Roll my neck and shoulders, shaking something off me. “Yeah. It’ll be fine. It’s casual.”
The silence sits between us, stretching out as she watches me, waiting for something. But I don’t give her anything. Nothing to give.
Outside, the robin takes fright and flits away, disappearing into the perfect blue sky.
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#lucky boy 2012#SHE'S COMING LADS#I love how this looks I have to say#britechester is beautiful in the snow#like the inside of a snowglobe#adore tbh#also Jen is so hot here help#and I love these little houses!!!!! They're so cute and i'm so proud of them#might upload or something idk#but there's a lot of cc so also probably not#sims 4 storytelling#ts4#sims story#simblr#show us your story#show us your sims
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magenta smoothie 4 breakfast, vibrant vase of tulips 4 my gf, black dragon dog 4 sharing the couch with, and a big stack of notebooks 4 writing
#i love my life <333#how’s everyone’s morning going?#trying to Take Care in the midst of this nightmare that is the united states#the grief is never ending !!!!!!!!#but i am trying very very very hard not to let despair win#and so i made a smoothie#w lots and lots of mango and pineapple and a couple huge sweet cherries#and i’m tucking myself away to write and knit for the day without expectation#i’m not even dressed yet and it’s almost 9:30#i got sleep like real sleep for the first time in a week last night too#and so i’m feeling a little better abt resting so much#the ptsd has been pretty rough recently#in that way where i’m replaying my worst memories on a screen in my head and can’t stop it#it demands my attention unless i’m watching tv and knitting and reading all at once LOL#like turning everything off and facing it while lying down trying to sleep is . harrowing#it’s awful#BUT i knocked myself out w sleep meds last night and woke up feeling a lot more capable of regulating after a week of staying up until 4:30#so#i’d say things are on the up and up#we got a pretty little silver dusting of new snow again last night#and the SUN is out!!!!#big blue sky#no thick gray cloud blanket to speak of#anyway if you read all this for some reason#tell me how your morning has been#in my comments or dms or asks#i’d really love to know :)#love you!!#personal
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