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th3qurator · 7 months ago

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I’m so happy I didn’t let anyone crush my dream of being a creative.

#thoughts #musings #I know where my path leads

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 3 months ago

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hope you feel better soon!

I am riddled with ailments, but I stay silly!

#ask #non mdzs #My health journey has been: Hernia -> acid reflux -> Vocal pain due to aforementioned reflux -> chest infection.#I'm terrified to know what's about to hit me next. Please let it be something kind. PLEASE.#The consequence of living with linguists is that you'll wake up with a wacked up voice -#suddenly you're sitting you down in front of a program called something like Praat having your shimmer and jitter levels calibrated.#They gave me a GRBAS of 33012. I have a fun thing called a pitch break where a whole octave just does not exist.#My vocal pain was bad enough I ended up seeing a speech pathologist and that whole experience was super neat!#I learnt a lot about voice - to be honest I might make a little comic on it after some more research. Fascinating stuff.#For example; your mental perception of our voice modulates the muscles of the vocal folds and larynx.#meaning that when you do have changes (inflammation = more mass = lower frequency)#your brain automatically attempts to correct it to what it 'should sound like'. Leading to a lot more vocal strain and damage!#And it gets really interesting for trans voice care as well - because the mental perception of one's voice isn't based on an existing sampl #So a good chunk of trans voice training is also done with the idea of finding one's voice and retraining the brain to accept it. Neat!#Parkinsonial Voice also has this perception to musculature link! The perception is that they are talking at a loud/normal volume #but the actual voice is quite breathy and weak. So vocal training works on practicing putting more effort into the voice #and retraining the brain to accept the 'loud' voice as 'normal'.#Isn't the human body fascinating?#Anyhow; Now I have vocal exercises and strategies to reduce strain and promote healing.#Which is a lot better than my previous strategy of yelling AAAH in my car until my 'voice smoothed out'.#You can imagine the horror on the speech path's face. I am an informed creature now.#I'm my own little lab rat now. I love learning and researching. Welcome to my tag lab. Class is dismissed.#I'll be back later with a few more answered asks </3 despite everything I'm still going to work and I need the extra sleep.#Thank you for the well wishes! And if you read all of that info dump; thank you for that as well!

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puppppppppy · 7 months ago

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(guy who has never played cotl) haha au time

#this started as a design exercise bc i couldnt get sphinx/devon rex narinder out of my head #but the whole time i was thinking man imagine if the lamb brings him in as a follower but nobody knows he was actually. you know #and the followers are like haha wow our leader channels the power and wisdom of the one who waits almost as if they were them #would that be cool or what. anyway heres narinder reassuming his pre-bishop form and everything his flesh remembers before godhood #ok now im gonna ramble abt design notes #the singe marks were inspired by fallen angels like how some ppl say they burned while falling from heaven. i wanted smth like that when #the lamb is resurrected by nari.. their outfit is inspired by papal cloaks while narinders is based on crusader armor #the lambs name 'bellwether' is also a term used for sheep that wear a bell and lead the flock and i thought that was cool #idk what the thuribles do yet but i do have smth in mind where theyre linked together. and ofc the lamb has a shepherds staff #very proud of nari's little devil tail!! and it was hard to see bc its so dark but he has wrinkles around his forehead to conceal his #third eye. even he isnt aware of it (for now)#idk where im going with this au i just have a bunch of ideas?? basically the lamb is keeping nari's identity a secret from him so he doesnt #go down that path of powerhungry destruction. smth like trying to lead him down a better path but feels guilty lying to do that #also theyre in love with each other and theyre stupid pining idiots abt it. mwah #cult of the lamb #cotl #cotl lamb #cotl narinder #the one who waits #cotl the one who waits #narilamb #art #au #myart #my art #character design #cotl au #false prophet! au

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glitchven · 1 year ago

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Day 4 - Dodge!!!

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thegreatyin · 2 months ago

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honestly part of the reason i've been really looking forward to finally playing light fingers (aside from the obvious horrors and whatnot) is because it, alongside bag a legend, contains a Choice™ i to this day am Extremely Torn About Making. like i've known for ages that the Choice™ exists in this ambition and STILL i am undecided about it. this Choice™ is of course. well. let's just say that by the time this ambition ends, caeru may not be the only catboy around town

#the bag a legend choice if ur curious is actually just. straight-up the ending. im not sure which one my BaL PC will end up with #all the other ambitions ive been Reasonably Certain about which path im choosing (especially in the case of the scoundrel)#(i kind of immediately decided i wanted the robe and built their character backwards from there)#but bag a legend? i CANNOT choose. they're all equally appealing to me. and to my BaL PC as they exist in my head rn #but BaL is practically a world's away so we (and i) don't need to dwell on it atm. we've got plenty of time lmao #the same goes for This Choice™ in light fingers. i'll decide when i get to it.#a lot will just depend on how the rp and story stuff plays out leading up to that point #who knows. maybe by the time he gets there lark will have become the fingerking's second biggest stan (after louise of course)#part of the fun i get in cyoa games is equal parts meticulously plotting out a character journey and just #seeing where the character vibes take me as i go along. it's a bit chaotic but ultimately very fun #that's why i keep talking about future events as though this is an actual story and not made up oc rp stuff btw #im just really insane about thematics and arcs in my roleplaying games #yin-thoughts #fallen london

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sacrificialarrow · 1 month ago

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tag dump.

#buy my silence. for $8000 a month I will stop // ooc post.#sorry I'm late I didn't want to come // tbd.#I was born for this. do not be afraid // asks.#beware of the dog... he is very sarcastic // memes.#you don't need a reason to help people // open.#there's gonna be a party when the wolf comes home // inbox call.#hey there demons. it's me ya boi // shitpost.#we answer in a voice made of teeth // general hc.#only a true wolf will fall in love with the moon // saved.#you save everyone. but who saves you? // Solas.#and here you come with a shield for a heart and a sword for a tongue // aesthetic.#I did meet some of the most insufferable people. but they also met me // musings.#death is only the end if you assume the story is about you // headcanon.#if whatever happens remember that I did I do and I will love you // & Mythal.#if the path I walk is beside you I don't question where it leads // & Dorian.#your love keeps me gentle and that's how I know you're good for me // & Emmrich ; mournwatchingprofessor.

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valleymyristica · 2 months ago

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AHATWHWTA!!!! IM SO CURIOUS. OH GOD IM CURIOUS. WILL DALE'S DEATH HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU KNOW....

FAIRIES?!!? im so not normal about this fic. hello!! ectobiologistz from AO3 here :D

Hehe HAHAHAHAH Oh, wouldn't you like to know? (Well, of course, else you wouldn't ask)

Heheh, I can tell again It will be long till we come to that point Heh, though, that doesn't mean kindness will come his way Who knows, maybe he too will live in dismay?

HAH! As if the universe would be so kind, as to let him keep his mind, his body and all things intact. Oh, dear oh my, maybe he'll even wish he would die?

But alas, such wishes goes against the rules And, as we know, Peri is no rulebreaker

If he wants to be happy He better go with the flow For, if he doesn't…

Well, who will know?

So, let my answer be clear No one is happy hear And the worst you can see Is where we want to be

In other words, what would hurt the most?

Also, THANK YOU!!! It delights me so that there is more you want to know!

Hi!!! You're great!! You're really been brightening my days with the words you've sent my way! Thank you for being the wonder that you are!

I hope the joy you greet me with and the kindness you share, will come to you ten fold and free you from any despair!

Hope it will let the sun shine on through Giving you bright wonder in all that you do!

Hihih, and I'm so glad you like the fic! Thank you!!

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gosminhas · 1 year ago

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club penguin used to piss me off so bad as a kid because you had to pay for all the cool stuff and the mere thought of asking my parents to buy me a gift card made me feel stupid but hanging out with friends online wasn't wnough i yearned for all the puffles and the treehouse igloo

#my top 3 games were Ahem habbo hotel transformice and club penguin #and i only played like pirated versions of them that had everything unlocked #I don't know why there was a pirated version of transformice i actually don't remember anything about this game except the basic stuff #I THINK we could build houses . or something like that(??????) and there were cute outfits #i really liked those rooms where people could put songs #anyways back at the topic CLUB PENGUIN this game was evil #i remember vividly that one time i asked my friend to go to the iceberg with me and i sat on the edge #and made a dramatic speech about how it was boring if you didn't have a membership #the next week her mom bought me a gift card LMAOOOO #we stopped playing on the official server after that tho that was when my journey with pirating began... slay !#nononono actually minecraft lead me on this path... can't believe i forgot #i'd be looking for links🏴‍☠️ every time a new mcpe version dropped

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anaalnathrakhs · 6 months ago

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hmm dead afraid for the future, what could fix this besides eating five hours of my life away and neglecting any kind of preparation that could make the future a little less unstable and painful?

#like not only i've chosen one of the most intensive cursus out there #one that i'm supposed to prepare for by studying hours every day of summer break #but on top of that i have no fucking idea where it's supposed to lead me #only options are meander in a maze of secondary education in complete organizational chaos until i somehow develop a monetizable skill #or end up in a useless fucking academic position #and that's assuming i even manage to get through that cursus and the ones following #assuming i can get through ANY kind of cursus and earn some kind of diploma #and then fucking what where do i go where do i work what do i do will it be enough what's wrong with me #i've struggled so much even just going to school no matter how adapted it was made to me #what fucking trust can i have that i'll manage holding down a job #and WHAT job WHAT would i be most likely to handle okay #i dont want to i want to fucking die i want to fucking die i don't know what to do #everything feels fucking useless nothing feels productive enough #i can't fucking figure out any path i just want somebody else to pilot me #i can make efforts i can make effort please just tell me what to do where to go what's best for me what's useful #i'm so fucking scared #broadcasting my misery #vent #ed tw

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maplecaster · 1 year ago

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please rant about rain world. its my favorite game and i havent met a single person whos played it

oh no uh. i meant those tags literally in context with the post. i get very upset because the game makes me angry. lol um

#asks #basically i got softlocked in the garbage wastes #i spent hours trying to reach Any other hibernation room but i was stuck between a #You know what i will rant about it again #to the left was a karma gate that i needed 3 karma to get past #past the gate was some kind of swimming challenge that was nearly impossible #and the few‚ few times i got past it #was an underwater pipe leading directly to hundreds of leeches #cool 👍 so what if i went the other way?#well to the right of my spawn point was two branching paths #one went up and one more to the right #to the right was straight up a dead end #to go up i needed to spend the entire cycle gathering spears and using those to climb up #really impossible #to get to another hibernation zone #PLUS when i died to the Thousand Leech Gauntlet i had to go to the right to get the food #where there were more leeches btw and scavengers that would kill me #so id need to grind up the karma even more #for a Single attempt at the swimming challenge #do i think the game is bad? no its beautiful and frankly revolutionary with how it handles creatures and their ai and the music is cool too #but do i like the game? No #despite this i’m watching a streamer play it so its been on my mind #he streamed it on youtube his channel is Andrew Cunningham #(you have to go to the ‘live’ section of the channel‚ it doesnt show up under ‘videos’#he has a lot of annoying backseaters so watch out for that. just dont read the chat ever #Ok rant over #No its not i lied #another part of my frustration is no one ever knows what area im talking about #theres like. 3 exits to the garbage wastes. one of them is back to industrial and the other is to the shoreline #so just process of elimate it bro how does no other rainworld player KNOW THIS LOCATION

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bluewinnerangel · 1 year ago

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#if u consistently repost other peoples photos without credit i block.. if i consistently reblog said posts ill unfollow :")#i get it if one(1) time you get excited and you dont know the source and you just yell like yeah i feel u it happens... but consistently #i see enough of that on other platforms i cant stand it this is the only place where it usually is respected to give proper credit #if you come in here throwing that out of the window imma throw you out of my car so i dont have to see it #like in some way in any way just leave a path on your post that leads to the photographer. somehow.#with the exception being the main photographers like if louis posts to his insta and the pic is everywhere and we #know its joshuas i mean thats not grinding my gears i get it were excited we post the thing to scream its fine.#but if its a local concertphotographer or one of the fan photographers in the crowd #providing you with an amazing shot of ur fave for free like show the tiny bit of respect to at least #at fucking least. fucking credit them.

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kariachi · 2 years ago

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It has been like 5 million years since I’ve written villain4villain Levinstar, but it still is an amazing concept for anybody who wants to write a complete fucking drama-filled, violent, people-eating mess teetering on the edge of disaster.

#the words never come and it's been so long that what i did write back in the day is never being posted #but as a concept it is amazing #a kevin who never moved away from evil and a mike who is himself #mike playing around like he's in charge while even he knows if kevin decided to he could destroy him #kevin knowing that mike is full of shit and just looking for added power but willing to play along due to his issues #both of them looking to start shit with the tennysons while feeding their own addictions to power #do they slowly develop proper feelings?#if they do do these feelings lead them achingly slowly on the path of redemption as they attempt to be something better for each others sake #do they stay in a toxic limbo where nothing improves but the benefits remain worth keeping going?#do they drag each other down until both are worse than they started and only sinking deeper?#up to the individual creator any of them could be amazing #in the original stuff i did for this kevin had never managed to return to his true shape which added to the cautious bonding he and mike did #so that's also something that could be played with #just was a whole and glorious thing that deserves notice #even if it's not doing shit in my brain anymore #at least not enough to go on a page

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bikananjarrus · 2 days ago

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also my heart is just breaking for yana in this book. like please can she catch a fucking break 😭

#i do not know what her fate is at the end of this book. like i can GUESS. and i don’t like where my predictions are leading #but like i don’t think it’s going to end well for her. and i hate that!!!!!!!#yana ro #path of vengeance #the high republic #mik reads the high republic

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orcboxer · 8 months ago

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For about 6 years now I've had a running gag with one of my cousins where, once every like 6 months or so, I'll find a way to insert a certain mental image into the conversation. The mental image is "a pile of toilets in an elevator, which closes and then goes up." I do this as naturally as possible. I'll construct an entire scripted conversation path with the express intention of leading into an opportunity for me to say "a pile of toilets in an elevator, which closes and then goes up." I have talked other people who aren't me into integrating the phrase into their conversations with him just once. He fucking hates it. He has threatened to kill me about it. I let so much time pass between instances that he never sees it coming. Because he knows that the only way to see it coming is to integrate into his brain the expectation that at any point, any conversation may suddenly turn out to be a toilet-elevator trap. And that's a fucking insane way to live.

#orcspeak #he does the same type of shit back it's great

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the-judicial-assistants-notebook · 3 months ago

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why didn't they just use franziska for literally all of this.

#freya talks aai2 #my goals of not being a forgotten/forsaken hater are not going well. he goes from 'kay is a dear ACQUAINTANCE' to 'i've not known her for #very long but i know she'd never kill anyone' to 'you are the kay i know so well' in the span of a few hours and it's like.#okay so you know it was too early in their acquaintanceship for this to really make sense but you still wanted a 'deep' and 'meaningful'#relationship to take the lead in this plotline. his sister is literally right there. it wouldnt have been hard to swap her in either because #she's literally investigating the smuggling situation. it would make perfect sense for her to be there following a lead instead of suddenly #revealing kay's promise notebook went missing. im not saying that the super-gentle super-meek persona would have made more sense with #franziska but honestly it wouldnt have made sense with any of them because it's more a caricature of a character rather than being an actual #previously unseen facet of one but you could've done so many more interesting things with franziska! she has an actual personal stake in #edgeworth's decision to continue as a prosecutor or not and we could get actual insight into how her own relationship with prosecuting and #its inextricable link to her father has affected her as a person. like when you show amnesiac kay the prosector badge all she says is that #it feels heroic warm and familiar like someone she knew used to show it to her often. and like cool. it's basically telling us she and her #father were close. which we already knew. imagine if franziska had said something like that or had had a more complex reaction. there would #be so many avenues to go with that!! you'd even be able to delve deeper into what edgeworth thinks about it all. like what if franziska was #just. happier. without her memories. then you'd have a story where edgeworth has to reckon with whether it might be kinder to let her live a #different life where she's unburdened by literally everything she's been made to go through and give her the same opportunity of starting #over that he now has.#im just writing fanfiction at this point but like. the amnesia plot is so frustrating to me HAHA they dont even do anything interesting with #it!! it's just oh she's lost her memories and we need to get them back because she's not 'herself' anymore without any discussion of like.#the nature of identity or living as who other people know you as vs whoever you might actually be #WHEN THE WHOLE CASE IS ABOUT EDGEWORTH DECIDING ON HIS PATH FORWARDS AND GRAPPLING WITH BEING THE PROSECUTOR EVERYONE HAS KNOWN HIM AS #whatever. WHATEVER.#annotations #some people might argue so it's not rehashing old conflict between franziska and edgeworth and like ok. she literally repeats her 'are you #running away from me again' line during this case. does that sound like the words of resolved conflict?#i know WHY they use kay. it's because they need to justify her place in this game and because they want to play on the pseudo father-figure #thing they played up in aai2 to contribute to the overall themes of fatherhood this game is dealing with. and to that i have to say that i #might just not be the audience for it because i've never bought that version of their relationship and i dont think kay should be in aai2 #anyway. plus i posit that franziska would've still worked for that theme because. literally everything. about her.

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ladygrey7 · 5 months ago

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#ignore this lol #i just have some thoughts and no where to articulate it #this is about fandom culture #the way i approach fandom is that it's supposed to be fun #so i've always been mindful of curating my own experience in fandom #i don't engage with what i don't like #i unfollow and block people who make the experience negative #and i'm here for a good time #so shipping wars? i don't get it #i'm a multishipper #so i'll read any pairing if they're written well #i've just been seeing a lot of anger and resentment towards certain characters and pairings because of the ship wars #and like?#is it that deep?#is it not enough to let others ship what they want?#and disengage with those who create content for ships you dislike?#the block button is right there #you don't have to start beefing with someone because of a difference of opinion #especially when you start nitpicking and overanalyzing the characters to find every percieved flaw #which in turn leads down a path of reinforcing harmful stereotypes and hateful rhetoric #you have the right to your own opinion #but your character is drawn into question when you let your opinion drive hateful rhetoric #i know the characters are fictional #but the people who share identities with these characters aren't #all in all #don't yuck someone's yum #stay unbothered #and let's keep it fun #this is about 911 #911 discourse

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