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th3qurator · 6 months ago

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I’m so happy I didn’t let anyone crush my dream of being a creative.

#thoughts #musings #I know where my path leads

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 month ago

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hope you feel better soon!

I am riddled with ailments, but I stay silly!

#ask #non mdzs #My health journey has been: Hernia -> acid reflux -> Vocal pain due to aforementioned reflux -> chest infection.#I'm terrified to know what's about to hit me next. Please let it be something kind. PLEASE.#The consequence of living with linguists is that you'll wake up with a wacked up voice -#suddenly you're sitting you down in front of a program called something like Praat having your shimmer and jitter levels calibrated.#They gave me a GRBAS of 33012. I have a fun thing called a pitch break where a whole octave just does not exist.#My vocal pain was bad enough I ended up seeing a speech pathologist and that whole experience was super neat!#I learnt a lot about voice - to be honest I might make a little comic on it after some more research. Fascinating stuff.#For example; your mental perception of our voice modulates the muscles of the vocal folds and larynx.#meaning that when you do have changes (inflammation = more mass = lower frequency)#your brain automatically attempts to correct it to what it 'should sound like'. Leading to a lot more vocal strain and damage!#And it gets really interesting for trans voice care as well - because the mental perception of one's voice isn't based on an existing sampl #So a good chunk of trans voice training is also done with the idea of finding one's voice and retraining the brain to accept it. Neat!#Parkinsonial Voice also has this perception to musculature link! The perception is that they are talking at a loud/normal volume #but the actual voice is quite breathy and weak. So vocal training works on practicing putting more effort into the voice #and retraining the brain to accept the 'loud' voice as 'normal'.#Isn't the human body fascinating?#Anyhow; Now I have vocal exercises and strategies to reduce strain and promote healing.#Which is a lot better than my previous strategy of yelling AAAH in my car until my 'voice smoothed out'.#You can imagine the horror on the speech path's face. I am an informed creature now.#I'm my own little lab rat now. I love learning and researching. Welcome to my tag lab. Class is dismissed.#I'll be back later with a few more answered asks </3 despite everything I'm still going to work and I need the extra sleep.#Thank you for the well wishes! And if you read all of that info dump; thank you for that as well!

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puppyeared · 5 months ago

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(guy who has never played cotl) haha au time

#this started as a design exercise bc i couldnt get sphinx/devon rex narinder out of my head #but the whole time i was thinking man imagine if the lamb brings him in as a follower but nobody knows he was actually. you know #and the followers are like haha wow our leader channels the power and wisdom of the one who waits almost as if they were them #would that be cool or what. anyway heres narinder reassuming his pre-bishop form and everything his flesh remembers before godhood #ok now im gonna ramble abt design notes #the singe marks were inspired by fallen angels like how some ppl say they burned while falling from heaven. i wanted smth like that when #the lamb is resurrected by nari.. their outfit is inspired by papal cloaks while narinders is based on crusader armor #the lambs name 'bellwether' is also a term used for sheep that wear a bell and lead the flock and i thought that was cool #idk what the thuribles do yet but i do have smth in mind where theyre linked together. and ofc the lamb has a shepherds staff #very proud of nari's little devil tail!! and it was hard to see bc its so dark but he has wrinkles around his forehead to conceal his #third eye. even he isnt aware of it (for now)#idk where im going with this au i just have a bunch of ideas?? basically the lamb is keeping nari's identity a secret from him so he doesnt #go down that path of powerhungry destruction. smth like trying to lead him down a better path but feels guilty lying to do that #also theyre in love with each other and theyre stupid pining idiots abt it. mwah #cult of the lamb #cotl #cotl lamb #cotl narinder #the one who waits #cotl the one who waits #narilamb #art #au #myart #my art #character design #cotl au #false prophet! au

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glitchven · 1 year ago

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Day 4 - Dodge!!!

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thegreatyin · 13 days ago

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honestly part of the reason i've been really looking forward to finally playing light fingers (aside from the obvious horrors and whatnot) is because it, alongside bag a legend, contains a Choice™ i to this day am Extremely Torn About Making. like i've known for ages that the Choice™ exists in this ambition and STILL i am undecided about it. this Choice™ is of course. well. let's just say that by the time this ambition ends, caeru may not be the only catboy around town

#the bag a legend choice if ur curious is actually just. straight-up the ending. im not sure which one my BaL PC will end up with #all the other ambitions ive been Reasonably Certain about which path im choosing (especially in the case of the scoundrel)#(i kind of immediately decided i wanted the robe and built their character backwards from there)#but bag a legend? i CANNOT choose. they're all equally appealing to me. and to my BaL PC as they exist in my head rn #but BaL is practically a world's away so we (and i) don't need to dwell on it atm. we've got plenty of time lmao #the same goes for This Choice™ in light fingers. i'll decide when i get to it.#a lot will just depend on how the rp and story stuff plays out leading up to that point #who knows. maybe by the time he gets there lark will have become the fingerking's second biggest stan (after louise of course)#part of the fun i get in cyoa games is equal parts meticulously plotting out a character journey and just #seeing where the character vibes take me as i go along. it's a bit chaotic but ultimately very fun #that's why i keep talking about future events as though this is an actual story and not made up oc rp stuff btw #im just really insane about thematics and arcs in my roleplaying games #yin-thoughts #fallen london

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bunnyb34r · 4 months ago

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Holy shit did we get lucky missing the tornadoes Tuesday

Apparently one was SUPER CLOSE like streets away practically 😰

Only reason I felt safe enough to stay upstairs (besides being reckless and having an "if I die, I die" mentality) was bc I was closely watching the radar on tv and the cluster was already to the west of us. Like it was closer than I thought apparently but I felt confident enough in my reading of it that we were in the clear

God am I stupid though bc I didn't realize how fucking close it really was

#i think it formed like RIGHT after the worst passed our city #i was reading a report that had street names of the path essentially and i was like oh god i know where that is... that's close 😰#it was blocks away but still like a 5min drive at MOST away so yikes...#feeling more and more grateful by the day that our power didnt go out and we had such minimal damage #marquilla #i only know how to read radar bc of my severe anxiety and subsequent need for control like all the adults in my life were like no no its #fine :) dont worry :) its fine :) bc they didn't want me to worry more but that only lead me to figure out how to find out myself how safe #we were and all that

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valleymyristica · 13 days ago

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AHATWHWTA!!!! IM SO CURIOUS. OH GOD IM CURIOUS. WILL DALE'S DEATH HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU KNOW....

FAIRIES?!!? im so not normal about this fic. hello!! ectobiologistz from AO3 here :D

Hehe HAHAHAHAH Oh, wouldn't you like to know? (Well, of course, else you wouldn't ask)

Heheh, I can tell again It will be long till we come to that point Heh, though, that doesn't mean kindness will come his way Who knows, maybe he too will live in dismay?

HAH! As if the universe would be so kind, as to let him keep his mind, his body and all things intact. Oh, dear oh my, maybe he'll even wish he would die?

But alas, such wishes goes against the rules And, as we know, Peri is no rulebreaker

If he wants to be happy He better go with the flow For, if he doesn't…

Well, who will know?

So, let my answer be clear No one is happy hear And the worst you can see Is where we want to be

In other words, what would hurt the most?

Also, THANK YOU!!! It delights me so that there is more you want to know!

Hi!!! You're great!! You're really been brightening my days with the words you've sent my way! Thank you for being the wonder that you are!

I hope the joy you greet me with and the kindness you share, will come to you ten fold and free you from any despair!

Hope it will let the sun shine on through Giving you bright wonder in all that you do!

Hihih, and I'm so glad you like the fic! Thank you!!

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killrjoys · 11 months ago

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club penguin used to piss me off so bad as a kid because you had to pay for all the cool stuff and the mere thought of asking my parents to buy me a gift card made me feel stupid but hanging out with friends online wasn't wnough i yearned for all the puffles and the treehouse igloo

#my top 3 games were Ahem habbo hotel transformice and club penguin #and i only played like pirated versions of them that had everything unlocked #I don't know why there was a pirated version of transformice i actually don't remember anything about this game except the basic stuff #I THINK we could build houses . or something like that(??????) and there were cute outfits #i really liked those rooms where people could put songs #anyways back at the topic CLUB PENGUIN this game was evil #i remember vividly that one time i asked my friend to go to the iceberg with me and i sat on the edge #and made a dramatic speech about how it was boring if you didn't have a membership #the next week her mom bought me a gift card LMAOOOO #we stopped playing on the official server after that tho that was when my journey with pirating began... slay !#nononono actually minecraft lead me on this path... can't believe i forgot #i'd be looking for links🏴‍☠️ every time a new mcpe version dropped

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anaalnathrakhs · 4 months ago

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hmm dead afraid for the future, what could fix this besides eating five hours of my life away and neglecting any kind of preparation that could make the future a little less unstable and painful?

#like not only i've chosen one of the most intensive cursus out there #one that i'm supposed to prepare for by studying hours every day of summer break #but on top of that i have no fucking idea where it's supposed to lead me #only options are meander in a maze of secondary education in complete organizational chaos until i somehow develop a monetizable skill #or end up in a useless fucking academic position #and that's assuming i even manage to get through that cursus and the ones following #assuming i can get through ANY kind of cursus and earn some kind of diploma #and then fucking what where do i go where do i work what do i do will it be enough what's wrong with me #i've struggled so much even just going to school no matter how adapted it was made to me #what fucking trust can i have that i'll manage holding down a job #and WHAT job WHAT would i be most likely to handle okay #i dont want to i want to fucking die i want to fucking die i don't know what to do #everything feels fucking useless nothing feels productive enough #i can't fucking figure out any path i just want somebody else to pilot me #i can make efforts i can make effort please just tell me what to do where to go what's best for me what's useful #i'm so fucking scared #broadcasting my misery #vent #ed tw

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maplecaster · 1 year ago

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please rant about rain world. its my favorite game and i havent met a single person whos played it

oh no uh. i meant those tags literally in context with the post. i get very upset because the game makes me angry. lol um

#asks #basically i got softlocked in the garbage wastes #i spent hours trying to reach Any other hibernation room but i was stuck between a #You know what i will rant about it again #to the left was a karma gate that i needed 3 karma to get past #past the gate was some kind of swimming challenge that was nearly impossible #and the few‚ few times i got past it #was an underwater pipe leading directly to hundreds of leeches #cool 👍 so what if i went the other way?#well to the right of my spawn point was two branching paths #one went up and one more to the right #to the right was straight up a dead end #to go up i needed to spend the entire cycle gathering spears and using those to climb up #really impossible #to get to another hibernation zone #PLUS when i died to the Thousand Leech Gauntlet i had to go to the right to get the food #where there were more leeches btw and scavengers that would kill me #so id need to grind up the karma even more #for a Single attempt at the swimming challenge #do i think the game is bad? no its beautiful and frankly revolutionary with how it handles creatures and their ai and the music is cool too #but do i like the game? No #despite this i’m watching a streamer play it so its been on my mind #he streamed it on youtube his channel is Andrew Cunningham #(you have to go to the ‘live’ section of the channel‚ it doesnt show up under ‘videos’#he has a lot of annoying backseaters so watch out for that. just dont read the chat ever #Ok rant over #No its not i lied #another part of my frustration is no one ever knows what area im talking about #theres like. 3 exits to the garbage wastes. one of them is back to industrial and the other is to the shoreline #so just process of elimate it bro how does no other rainworld player KNOW THIS LOCATION

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curateyourcraft · 2 years ago

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It's quite unfortunate that people in the witch community in particular are so condescending and rude sometimes. I question why advanced witches can't have their own spaces and somehow this makes me impatient and unempathetic? Just because I don't want to constantly cater to new witches doesn't mean I am a bad person. I just want us to have our own space to talk because I am personally not interested in teaching new witches- There are plenty of people doing this already. It is an oversaturated subject in our tags.

Also if the original post is mainly about witches and witchcraft, yes I will focus on that first and foremost. I will not be clicking on your blog and researching who you are or what your religious beliefs are, because my focus is on replying to the subject matter at hand- Witchcraft.

This community is a bit tiresome at times, I really have been enjoying parts of it, but others not so much. I believe that witches with a bit more experience should create our own tag so we can share our stories and beliefs together without clogging up the already overburdened witchcraft tag. Also so newbies aren't intimidated and we don't have to worry as much about teaching them every little thing.

And just by the way if you enjoy teaching others and that is your path, good for you! I just don't have the mental capacity to do such a thing right now. I want to focus on my own craft and figure things out.

Anyways rant over. Just a bit annoyed because people love putting words into my mouth and completely misinterpreting me, and it's starting to grate on my nerves.

Sending out much love and peace to you all. Stay safe!

#witchcraft #witch #witchblr #personal #secular witch #spoonie witch #i was gonna reply directly but honestly i cant even tell where they got any of the things they accused me of #plus it was on my personal blog because tumblr is dumb about their side blogs #and idek if i replied to that particular person unless they also have 2 blogs they're usung but aaaa whatever #im just tired of people being all high and mighty instead of approaching one another with kindness #if your path leads you to act like an entitled all knowing person like this tho then i worry #especially if you're out there teaching others 😬#at the very least as a teacher you need to be able to read the room like i was being totally reasonable lol

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carcarrot · 1 year ago

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alright we're okay. it's all going to work out and happen. ive got my short film idea. i just have to make it absolutely perfect and then we're good to go

#my short film idea is a kinda sorta prequel kinda. to my Big Main Film Idea #essentially its just a little bit of silly backstory to a character that gets no backstory in the feature film #and this character is making a short film. and im playing the character. so im making a short film abt someone making a short film.#when i was first writing my Main Film Idea i was like ok yeah this character that im thinking of playing is obviously based on and like me #but as time went on i was like ah fuck. theres parts of me in every damn character #the good news is that this short film idea should be relatively cheap to make. im thinking of having only one filming location #and i could get a deal filming there bc i used to work there (my old cafe) so renting out the space might be cheaper #im not sure yet abt cameras. im thinking abt emailing my old film teacher and being like. hey. would you wanna help me make my film #i think he has some film cameras himself or if not he knows a lot of film people #but since this is essentially a one man (its me im the man) show i dont really need other actors. but im working on that #another problem of potentially many is that if and when this gets done. now what #ive got zero clue abt where to like. send my short film to be shown or whatever but maybe my film teacher could help w that!#before i do any of this i am going to finally finish that filmmaking course i bought. and then see where we go from there #but this still needs a lot of writing bc i havent done any screenplay work for this yet #and thus obviously havent storyboarded anything #i gotta get Organized <- least organized person on this earth #wish me luck that this will lead me on the path to my dream movie. we can all hope

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bluewinnerangel · 1 year ago

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#if u consistently repost other peoples photos without credit i block.. if i consistently reblog said posts ill unfollow :")#i get it if one(1) time you get excited and you dont know the source and you just yell like yeah i feel u it happens... but consistently #i see enough of that on other platforms i cant stand it this is the only place where it usually is respected to give proper credit #if you come in here throwing that out of the window imma throw you out of my car so i dont have to see it #like in some way in any way just leave a path on your post that leads to the photographer. somehow.#with the exception being the main photographers like if louis posts to his insta and the pic is everywhere and we #know its joshuas i mean thats not grinding my gears i get it were excited we post the thing to scream its fine.#but if its a local concertphotographer or one of the fan photographers in the crowd #providing you with an amazing shot of ur fave for free like show the tiny bit of respect to at least #at fucking least. fucking credit them.

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horizonandstar · 2 years ago

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ok so about the borrower game, i went and looked at a few other games to get a rough word count and i think i underestimated it. so like chapter 1 should be about 20k-30k once its done, so this is going to take. a while

the ide still says i have ~6k excluding command lines, which i now realized includes comments, so the actual playable word count is <6k currently

anyways would people want random out of context screenshots while i work on this? theres not going to be a lot of them but i also want to go “*gesturing* look i made this :D” because unlike with the fish fic, the development time for the borrower au game is hell of a lot longer and i cannot go back and fix whatever mistakes i find later after i release it

#i have to test the game first for any bugs and then ill try to do several tests (manually and with randomtest) to make sure #that its narratively coherent and goes where i want it to go #and i didnt make it go down the wrong paths instead #im getting slightly confused over my own writing due to the branching #i reuse sections for different options but the options that lead there can be wildly different #its a trip trying to remember the strings connecting each section and where they all are #i know some authors out there copy paste entire sections to fit all the different scenarios which #i dont think im going to do because that artifically boosts word count + im allergic to doing that #like if this was regular code and i saw someone copy pasting this 1 piece of code several times when it couldve been in a function #im going to aggressively shake them then throw them into superhell #im currently replaying this 1 scene over and over trying to get to the 1 section #in all the different ways you can get there #just to see if this 1 boolean is set to true for all the paths or if theres any thats actually false #i dont want to skim through my code for this info

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kariachi · 2 years ago

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It has been like 5 million years since I’ve written villain4villain Levinstar, but it still is an amazing concept for anybody who wants to write a complete fucking drama-filled, violent, people-eating mess teetering on the edge of disaster.

#the words never come and it's been so long that what i did write back in the day is never being posted #but as a concept it is amazing #a kevin who never moved away from evil and a mike who is himself #mike playing around like he's in charge while even he knows if kevin decided to he could destroy him #kevin knowing that mike is full of shit and just looking for added power but willing to play along due to his issues #both of them looking to start shit with the tennysons while feeding their own addictions to power #do they slowly develop proper feelings?#if they do do these feelings lead them achingly slowly on the path of redemption as they attempt to be something better for each others sake #do they stay in a toxic limbo where nothing improves but the benefits remain worth keeping going?#do they drag each other down until both are worse than they started and only sinking deeper?#up to the individual creator any of them could be amazing #in the original stuff i did for this kevin had never managed to return to his true shape which added to the cautious bonding he and mike did #so that's also something that could be played with #just was a whole and glorious thing that deserves notice #even if it's not doing shit in my brain anymore #at least not enough to go on a page

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poptartmochi · 1 year ago

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i think that i will never be able to rid myself of Magdalena, despite my disdain for her source material, because she's just such a fun little inversion character 🤧

#not to say that im trying to actively get rid of her! but like.. i have bnha ocs that will probably never see the light of day again because #i dislike bnha 🕴️ and i dislike the reboot way more than i dislike bnha so You Would Think that maggie would have disappeared by now but #nauuur. the inversions will keep her in my brain forever babey 🍻#it's something about the way gioia and vergil knew each other for such a short amount of time and were on completely different journeys but #still managed to Get each other.. the same hatness of it all. and from that we got nero who saved both their lives #meanwhile in nightmare reboot world‚ magdalena and vergil have known each other forever + run parallel to each other basically. and you #think that the whole time they're in lockstep that they get it! they get each other! they're in lockstep so they must be in sync!#but then it turns out the goal vergil has been obsessively dedicated to all along is actually Super Contradictory to the goal magdalena has #been obsessively dedicated to. and instead of their lives being saved by their connection‚ the sudden dissonance is the root of their #downfalls. that's like my own personal fuckin percolator man 🤧🤧#it's fun that she and gioia are both driven by loss and the desire to mitigate it. they both live in these societies where you're constantly #watched and revealing your cards could spell out your doom. ignorance and guilt cause gioia to build up this marble facade of cold #nonchalance because she cannot engage in society Without revealing her cards yk. it hurts too much. so the poker face it is 🗿#meanwhile magdalena Knows Too Much and the knowledge of it all eats away at her. she's boiling with the need to act‚ so a poker face could #never work for her. so she channels the energy into this larger-than-life persona to navigate through the world #and both of these methods work! gioia's facade makes people think she's cold or uninteresting so they ultimately disengage with her.#magdalena dazzles everyone and they're too distracted by the show to notice what she's doing behind the scenes.#but wearing the mask all the time takes a toll on both of them + ultimately leads to a loss of identity‚ where they only keep themselves #grounded by their secret work. gioia's run in with vergil helps her break free of this and reestablish herself #whereas magdalena's departure(s 😐) from vergil sets her down this path... it's just so 🌋🌋🌋 to me #also. it's fun to me that gioia was meant to become a demon but never did. meanwhile maggie detests demons but was forced to become one...#gioia dodged a bullet but it traveled through dimensions and shot her anyways lol 😭🤧#there's something to be said about the flipped family dynamics between the two but ngl I'm still working on Maggie and Isaac's relationship #so. i will leave it alone for now 🕴️in the future though I hope that I can figure out how to make Isaac as relevant to Magdalena as #Benedictus is to Gioia 🤔 right now he's kind of a mystery variable 🙈#sriracha.txt #long post #💃🏻

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