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Hi! Can you tell us more about your head canons for Fena and the other special followers you drew a bit back?
You don't know how excited I was to answer this! 🙏
Please allow me to ramble a little, because I decided Im going to go through every NPC / OC I made for cotl, specifically my au!
These are them all! I decided to finally get around to drawing Echo, Latra and the concept for Nalen too!
Imma be writing down a brief history of them along with fun facts/head canons (who are technically canon).
(all of that under cut, tw; mentions of abuse and death) (I may have missed something. Also brief mention of fertility struggles.)
Fena
Let's start with Fena first, cuz she's a fan favorite!
Fena was born in Darkwood within a big family that was traditional and mainly worshipped the old faith for protection. Their village was often the target of wolves (who have connections to the teeth in the darkness). During one of these attacks, the Villagers had to evacuate and thus, Fena's family were forcefully split up. Fena and their sibling had to spend days trying to get to another village, but were caught at night once again. Fena managed to get "rescued" by the old faith - only to be offered as a sacrifice to Leshy. Mellia (my Lamb) saved her. Fena is currently the head of disciples and Loyalty enforcement.
Fun facts: Fena is a trans woman. Fena was once married to Thorantre but got divorced. Fena is Mellia's favorite follower. Fena's sibling was later rescued by the Lamb. Fena has Cynophobia (fear of dogs and canines), but it's most aggressive against Wolves. Fena currently thinks Thyma is a spy.
Other hcs: Jumpy, definitely the type to get scared and then act all tough. Loves her body and is a proud lust rite champion (why she wears a flower crown). Unhealthily cautious. Horrible at flirting. Would probably crack someone's rib while attempting to. Kinda like the thought of her getting too obsessed with finding info about Thyma and then eventually she realizes they have lots in common... Like fuck, that guy is kinda funny and cool but also, he's definitely going to kill someone.
Thyma (real name unknown)
Thyma's story, as per they claim, is;
They were raised in Darkwood by their family/pack and one day an "incident" occured which left their family dead. The Lamb rescued them and promised safety. Thyma is not willing to speak any further on it. He is currently Night patrol and trying to dispel any distrust put against him.
Fun facts: Thyma is a Demiboy, born afab. Thyma has Nyctophobia (fear of the dark) and Insomnia. They chose to be a night guard to be alert at night. They also wear the Moon necklace to be awake 24/7. If they sleep, they do so in the day. Thyma has permanent markings on his face that cannot be removed. He is medically noted to suffer from hallucinations.
(More story to be revealed soon)
Other hcs: Sarcasm king. Also King of internal panic. Definitely gets horrible period cramps. Gets sick of seeing blood. Probably tried going vegan to look less suspicious but ended up horribly sick and malnourished. Tucks tail whenever Fena is near. Besties with Agana. Acts cool and stoic but is actually kinda pathetic. Monologues to himself when patrolling. Stares at bright lights, despite being told it could blind them.
Thorantre
Thorantre was also born in Darkwood. During the Genocide, his family were often harmed due to being mistaken for Sheep-kin. After the death of multiple family members, Thorantre decided to protest against the old faith and stand for the protection of Sheep. For his spreading of "propaganda", he was going to be put to the blade but was fortunate to be trialed at the same time as Mellia was beheaded. They rescued him and he became their first ever follower.
Fun facts: Short-fused and dramatic. Has canonically killed another follower during a petty fight. Doesn't really do his job as a disciple and is only still a disciple for Mellia's sake. Often mistaken for a sheep by the Lamb in moments of unclarity - personal gossip girl and somewhat Therapist to them. Close friends with Fena despite being exes.
Other hcs: Girls girl by heart. Shameless flirt but extremely picky with partners. Divorced because he was too high maintenance. Knows of everyone's business and keeps pulling Agana into gossip. Gets annoyed when people ask him for stuff so he makes them pay him to answer. Will say the most gayest thing followed by the most straightest cis-guy take ever. Will just randomly ditch disciple meetings because he's bored. Also suspicious of Thyma but for no particular reason.
Agana
First born in the Cult, raised to become a disciple. As a child they were wild and unruly but settled down with age and is now determined to befriend every cultist.
Fun facts: Is afab genderqueer. Had a huge crush on Fena growing up. Currently has a little crush on Thyma. Is usually the first to know of ANYTHING happening in the cult, even private happenings. Will often share their own savings with children in the cult. Is pretty forgiving with Tax enforcement.
Other hcs: Chronic simp. Fandom girlie, probably. She's the type to ship people unironically. Probably saw the tension between Thyma and Fena and misinterpreted it. Says "hello fellow kids" but is actually up to date with trends. Has been trying to integrate Thyma more into the group. Probably gets the most affected by sin.
Latra
Born in Silkcradle to a family of Shamura's worshippers. Latra ran away and got married on the outskirts of the domain. Her marriage was cruel and abusive, fueled by her husband's growing rage of her infertility. Despite praying daily, no one had come to save her and so she took matters into her own hands. One night she plotted to kill her husband but was caught, resulting in a fight to the death where she was the victor. Latra dragged herself away with two of her limbs damaged beyond repair and managed to run into the Lamb. She was taken into the cult and became a Missionary, as her knowledge from Silkcradle aided her skills. She has been in the cult since the first crusade through Silkcradle and has been resurrected multiple times. Currently she is in retirement again.
Fun facts: Latra was offered a position as disciple but declined. She is known to delay retirement until physically impossible to work. She originally didn't worship the Lamb, but ended up doing so after many years of staying. Latra was one of the people to dissent from Shamura's curse. Currently engaged to Echo.
Other hcs: Has had rumors go around about her past. Has been working with children and has been helping rehabilitate rescues. Has babysat a few times before. Actually great at flirting but prefers pulling dad jokes and bad flirts. Wanted children but gave up on it due to her age. Actually best friends with the Lamb. Only didn't accept discipleship because she is worried about her own reputation straining Mellia's reputation.
Echo
Born in Anchordeep before it had that name and before Kallamar had the crown. Experienced first hand his climb for power and the subsequent events that shaped the downfall of the old faith. Was also a disciple for a short while before becoming a field medic during the genocide of Sheep kind. Echo married the general of their group and the two along with a troop were sent to patrol Anchordeep. That continued even after Mellia was resurrected and started killing the bishops. Once Kallamar started growing paranoid and cowardly, Echo started to question the strength of their god. That was met with backlash and after a huge fight in the group, Echo stayed back a bit. Eventually they found their group having been attacked by the Lamb and Echo mercy killed whoever was still alive. Echo dissented against Kallamar and was later found by Latra during a Mission. Echo was indoctrinated and became the cult nurse.
Fun facts: Echo is intersex. Echo is considered to be mute, but has the ability to talk. They only talk to Latra, Mellia and Kallamar (to screw with him). Echo is widely known to be an asshole, but is the most respected nurse in the cult. Echo suffers from mild PTSD. Is currently Latra's personal caretaker and has been trying to convince her to accept the golden skull necklace Mellia offered her (which is included in discipleship).
Other hcs: Fell in love after having to pull an arrow from Latra's shoulder. Has to go in evacuation after being flirted with because they are worried they'll explode (they won't). Academically smart but Interpersonally stupid. Can communicate with sign language but rather uses their expressions to communicate their opinions. Had begged multiple times for Mellia to resurrect Latra whenever she died. Has been secretly trying to figure out an early form of Fertility treatments in order to grant Latra the wish of having children. Also has been looking into adopting.
Nalen (real name unknown)
(This character is currently still a character concept and might change with time.)
Born and raised in the Lands of the old faith after the Bishops had already died. He was raised as a pup to become a spy that would sneak into the Red crowns cult to find any special information that could allow the old faith to overthrow them. He managed to sneak in during a time where the cult was facing a hectic time - entering with a group of people who were starving and asking to be indoctrinated. Able to avoid detection for a full two years now due to building trust and reliability, building relationships and faking worship. His mind hasn't even been read once yet due to Mellia struggling with their new godhood. Perfect time, perfect alibi.
Fun facts: I don't really have any yet, so I'll offer the description of the concept; I wanted a spy character that looks like they could just be any other cultist and who's a species that's both unassuming but reliable and easily trainable. So the golden retriever it was. And while all followers of the Lamb have a red base, his base colour was dark purple.
(same with hcs, but you know the stories of band kids just pretending to play the instrument all year? Kinda that. Him praying and just mumbling the words bc he has no clue what's going on. It's a miracle he made it this far.)
(Also, sorry for the lack of pictures but I got too impatient and wanted to answer as quickly as possible LOL)
#cult of the lamb#cotl#cult of the lamb fanart#cotl fanart#cotl au#cotl three times#cotl oc#reallyburntrambles
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Anaxibia sister to Agamemnon and Menelaus (some thoughts)
So...in terms of Oresteia we know that Pylades and Orestes are cousins technically. Pylades is also betrothed and later married to Orestes's sister Electra.
His father Strophius of Phocis was married according to that line to Agamemnon's and Menelaus's sister Anaxibia (Altrnatives of her name are Astyoche and Cydragora) that she has different parentage depending on the myths and the versions but I think I am in favor of the classic aka daughter of Atreus and the Cretan princess Aerope.
And now I wonder how was Anaxibia spared the family drama! Like how was she escaped from the whole coup of Aegisthus! Makes me wonder;
Did the brothers carry Anaxibia with them to Sparta for safety and THEN organize her betrothal to Strophius?
Did she live with them in exile for a little while and then catch the eye of Strophius somehow thus leading to the brothers see also the possibility of a possible ally and marry their sister to him?
Did, perhaps Agamemnon (or even Menelaus too) see the danger and betroth her to Strophius BEFORE the disaster? Thus Anaxibia being spared the exile?
Honestly all possibilities seem so great and honestly make one think! Of course judging how Orestes was born BEFORE Pylades one can expect that Anaxibia was married to Strophius AFTER Agamemnon and Menelaus settled down in their own kingdoms and potentially had their families which could mean how much greater responsibility the two brothers bore in their exile; not only had they take care of each other but also of their sister.
And to Agamemnon apologists such as myself or @likethexan seems even more admirable what responsibility Agamemnon possibly had. Quite possibly of course maybe Anaxibia was indeed sent to Phocis before the whole coup erupted it is just that the wedding potentially happened later after both brothers gained some of their political power back to negotiate a suitable marriage with the king of Phocis.
Of course that begs the question as to why didn't the brothers flee to Phocis instead of Sparta? Surely if their sister was there (married or not) she could potentially offer some help or influence. Well I should say one by looking at the map should say that the first difficulty was the distance:
If we assume that Anaxibia was taken out of harm's way on time but the brothers had literally to run for their lives, they probably ran towards the direction of the south where they would only need to use one mean of transport (cart, horse etc) instead of going to the other side of Peloponnese AND needing to get a ship as well to cross the sea to get to Phocis and they would probably need to get through the mountains again to get to their sister (because the road through Attica and Boetia would take them forever).
But is also a political move.
Agamemnon was not stupid. He probably knew the political power of Tyndareus as well as the riches and army of Sparta might have been superior to Phocis at that time. What is more Tyndareus just like the two of them, was once upon a time exiled with his brother Icarius and restored to the throne so Agamemnon was almost certain that Tyndareus would be more open to the idea to help them be restored in power. Not to mention that Sparta was closer related to Mycenae by geography alone.
So it seems that Agamemnon took the right decision to flee to the south and towards Sparta rather than to the north and towards Phocis
But of course the scenario in which the resided in Sparta with their sister for a little while before sending her to Phocis is always on the table or even that Anaxibia was left behind in Mycenae to be used as a hostage or something similar thus increasing the urge of Agamemnon to come and get her. Although I do not support the latter mainly that knowing the strong family bonds of the Atreides I find it difficult to imagine both brothers would leave their sister behind suffer the consequences of the coup. Especially given how the Atreides spent years to the care of the Spartan king so that doesn’t seem to be pointing towards the urgency of the two struggling to get their sister back and all which is another reason I do not support it but that is also on the table I suppose 🤔
Also we do not know how old Anaxibia was when the brothers had to flee. Maybe she was very young too. Maybe she had to be taken away so that the brothers wouldn't risk for her to be used against them or killed. Makes me imagine she would be barely enough of age to be married at that time (which is why I side more with the idea of her being sent away or carried with them to Sparta) but yeah these are some random thoughts from top of my head.
What do you guys think?
#greek mythology#tagamemnon#homeric poems#homeric epics#epic cycle#the epic cycle#the oresteia#the orestia#oresteia#orestia#orestes#pylades#electra#agamemnon#menelaus#agamemnon and menelaus#anaxibia#agamemnon menelaus and anaxibia#orestes and pylades#pylades and electra#aeschylus#euripides#aeschylus oresteia#atreus#house of atreus#atreides#aerope#atreus and aerope#katerinaaqu analyzes#random thoughts
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what if the reason cheng xiaoshi's parents didn't return is because of lu guang's continuous intervention
what if the bahati fire had something to do with lu guang
lu guang and shao yuanyuan's actions are causing disturbance to each other's goals.
but ykw
link click is not that predictable.
and lu guang certainly will not be a typical unhinged yandere or crying yearning mess. We have really seen extreme polarity - he has been on the verge of extreme vulnerability and then he snaps, he can really be a cold blooded murderer with a smile.
While watching S1 and S2 I really thought about Mirai Nikki cause it is also one of my favourite animes. Yuno Gasai, I love her.
But Lu Guang is very complex, man. He is a tsundere, but not quite. Yandere, but again he deviates. Even after so much, it's actually amazing that he still can feel softer emotions for cheng xiaoshi (and qiao ling too).
now I am actually considering something. Maybe Lu Guang's fate was also propelled by some triggers. He also got involved somehow.
Now I am thinking about li haoling 's statement
" cheng xiaoshi and lu guang's relationship is very pure and innocent"
well... technically, it isn't!
there is so much deceit, conspiracy, politics, the notion of ' breaching trust ' and how much of it is actually situation sanctioned and lu guang's deliberate actions? we don't know. lu guang actually kind of feels he deserves punishment, he thinks he deserves to die perhaps. when li tianchen stabbed him, man. he probably hoped he should die
If death is an unchangeable node, then let me face it now
lu guang probably knows he can't stay in cheng xiaoshi's life.
am I a man more sinned against sinning?
but definately
I have that within which passes show
I am not gonna 🤥 lie but this feels more doomed than I thought
but then again we don't know about a lot of variables.
I have absolutely no idea HOW they are gonna start season 3. I don't even know what to expect. The suspicion that lu guang might have killed other people and maybe innocent ones too - is an intriguing thought. I am tossing that in the backside of my mind.
But, I have faith in Li Haoling when he said,
"Lu Guang is a complex and delicate character"
Guang-guang is under a lot of pressure
His body is carrying too much of the past
You've been through a lot, Guang-guang
Let's try to be nicer to Guang-guang from now on
uhhh... as a destructive thinker...(but no link click is totally capable of portraying it but I don't wanna name it
#i firmly believe lu guang has way more trauma not just Cheng Xiaoshi's death#this is something i felt since season 1#he is not mentally healthy ik but that probably began at a very young age#but this is really a very... traumatic past i dont wanna associate with my lu guang#but idk#its link click#link click#shiguang daili ren#lu guang#时光代理人
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More modern au bullshit
#link is signing the word ‘honest’ btw#I hope I got it right#loz#fanart#my art#botw#digital sketch#colored sketch#loz botw#link botw#botw zelda#botw modern au#botw aryll#I know that’s technically not her name probably#but I’ve decided it is#because I can#link uses sign language#queerplatonic zelink
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I want to hear about your fave recent scientific discoveries, Ana!!
what do i know abt science though LMAOFIODJF
#my own excitement is way too technical to explain in detail plus i won’t wanna doxx myself by sharing too much#so like we figured out a new way to look at gene regulation in a new cell type that’s a lot more physiologically accurate than our previous#one and id been SAYING this to our PI/CEO and now we’re finally upgrading so im so happy about that#we’re about to get INSIGHTS into the immune system babyyyy#one thing on a general level that i find exciting bc my ex roommate has asthma is they figured out a new way to treat it!!#it’s not an inhalation substance but an injectable (antibody 🫶🏻) and it’s really cool bc 1) it’s way more efficient than stuff that’s#currently used and 2) it’s the first advancement on this field in my entire lifetime ! actually the first in 50 yrs#so im looking into that a little bit actually you’ve reminded me i gotta send the article to her she loves science too#thanks for asking i hadn’t even realised id been excited about this until you asked 🥲#oh by the way fun fact did you know if a medicine’s name ends in -ab that means it’s an antibody-based medicine#so like. cetuximab or trastuzumab or whatever else -ab -> it’s an antibody! and thus probably super expensive too though 😖#howeverrrrr part of my job is to figure out ways to make ab production cheaper so 🤞🏼
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NEW DGNG LOG LETS FUCKING GO 🔥🔥🔥
I always get so excited over these. There’s so much put into them I never get sick of it. The design’s an utter banger as usual. Her outfit’s so well-coordinated it feels nice just looking at it. One of the first characters to have dyed hair, which looks amazing on her. I love the curls. The whole character concept of a waitress on skates’s something I haven’t actually had the chance to see much of before, so that’s nice. There’s so much things packed here and a lot of new things being tried out in terms of formatting and easter eggs too.
Okay, starting off, checking out the usual stuff, she’s around the average age compared to the character so far, a bit shorter than Asaro technically because of skates, but nothing too much to look at. Like Chika, her weight is unknown, and her chest size just…isn’t there? I won’t think too hard about that, but given we have two characters with unknown weights now, we could draw some conclusions based on how these are measured. Maybe something like them specifically not wanting to talk about it (similar to Julien’s dislikes being unknown), or then genuinely not knowing (similar to half of Rosie’s info being unknown). Neither of these possibilities hold too much importance, so I’ll just move on. She likes roller skating (obviously) and rosie, which is the fourth time another character was mentioned in the likes/dislikes section (first/second being the yoko sisters with each other, and the third being chika with nishimura in the dislike section; interestingly enough, the same doesn’t apply for nishimura/naruko, nor julipoppi). This puts an emphasis even further towards her relationship(?) with Rosie, which’ll be fun to dissect, especially during the episodes themselves. Her dislike of arrogance and authority might place her in an interesting position against hiriro, but well have to see how that develops if at all. The highlighted iority is genuinely fascinating to me but I have no fucking idea what it means T-T. Iority itself isn’t a word, nor a name. It’s definitely not a cipher, and nothing turns up for Google translate. I’m starting to wonder if naruko just genuinely ran out of ink and I’ve overthinking everything but who in their right mind writes the letter H in that stroke order ‘-‘.
I wonder if it’s canon that each of the logs are written with a different colour, since that’d mean Naruko might’ve used the pink pen for something else. If it isn’t though, then yea. That’s that.
Going to the quote, it’s all a bit wavy, but relatively easy enough to read, and it confirms that Naruko really does just write down things she hears other people say or directly asks them for something interesting to write down as their quote. Could explain why Rosie doesn’t have a quote, since she very clearly felt bad for her and likely didn’t get to ask/felt comfortable writing anything she heard down. The “the slower I go, the faster my thoughts catch up” could be hinting towards some kind of guilt from the past or even just general nervousness about the killing game, and it’s right before she ends the quote and says bye to naruko, so that’s something to consider. Her shadow shows what I assume is likely a highway/road, with splatters of blood at the top and bottom, even going out of the border. A bloody handprint is right behind her head too. Considering every shadow so far was based on certain character themes or at the very least their talents, I doubt it means nothing. It’s probably part of some kind of backstory, and given all the text about Anton (I only noticed the top 2 lines a second go. I almost assumed AntonAntonAntonAntonAnton was the only text), it likely involves him. Thinking about the handprint specifically, you could draw multiple different conclusion. If it’s literal, it likely means someone or another got injured enough to bleed an entire hand full of blood, likely through a car accident. My first thought somehow was Mikazuki, considering her connection to Anton, but looking closer, her hands themselves are almost definitely working fine, just heavily accessorized, unlike her cheeks. The next, and probably most likely connection, is Kellen. Her right hand’s a fairly big part of her mystery for now, and low and behold, the bloody handprint’s of a right hand. The chances of Anton being important because he was a good person drops every log. Rosie remembers him specifically, with no other information beyond that. Mikazuki’s hidden quotes beg him not to leave her. And Leiko’s directly says he was no best friend, possibly realised after somehow breaking Kellen’s hand and running away with Leiko fast enough for neither of them to remember her face. Maybe. That could explain Kellen’s burns too, almost all of which are on her right side. Then again, if we take the bloody handprint metaphorically…I don’t know, Mikazuki’s quote was “Don’t leave me”. Maybe Leiko committed vehicular manslaughter, killed Rosie’s lover/family member/doctor/idk, and erased her memory out of guilt, so that explains her quote and why she’s so attached to Rosie and why each of her lines talking about Anton is in past tense. Who knows.
That aside, moving onto her actual log description, the first bits mostly filler. Her need to go fast, and her spatial awareness, and her balance/mobility, could make for a victim or blackened with an interesting timeframe for a murder, or a possible witness other blackeneds would be keen to keep an eye out for. If she’s the mastermind (which she’s genuinely a decent candidate for as of now), it makes for an interesting chapter 5/6 case provided someone gets framed. It’s interesting enough to take note of. Apparently Naruko‘s also seen a picture of her before the game. I mentioned how it could be a photo she carries with her or one Leiko found in her room, but now that I think about it, considering she’s an ultimate, it’s not too unlikely that Naruko’d see her on a newspaper or a social media post or somewhere else. The tense even seems to suggest so too. Moving down to Rosie, I’m starting to wonder about the exact cause of her amnesia. Obviously it could be something like blunt force trauma or dementia(?), but I’ve been having a slight theory going on where she only lost her memory upon joining the game. That’s a simple enough possibility to justify, given how every Danganronpa game, and subsequent fangans, keep their casts deprived of a few years or so of memories, and with Kyomi/Hajime/Rantaro, can even target specific memories to erase. What happened with Rosie could be a simple mistake, but at the same time an intentional choice, either because she had a real talent too difficult to manage in the killing game (she’s technically the usual ultimate ??? after all, just hidden from the fact because of nishimura’s gifted ultimate amnesiac title), she knew something about the killing game that’d be troublesome, or if her real personality with all her memories and possible trauma intact would cause trouble. It could just simply be done out of sadism too, if she’s something like an Ultimate Hope that the mastermind wants to see struggle and break. Whatever the case, the fact that Leiko seems to have known her from before the killing game, and what happened with Rosie’s considered a loss, it’s not a stretch to think her condition’s caused specifically by the people running the killing game. That aside, Naruko’s suggestion of Leiko mistaking Rosie for someone else does put the Rosie/Anton twin paralleling Nishimura/Naruko theory on the table, though it doesn’t make sense since 1.Opposite genders (Anton has confirmed pronouns now) 2.I don’t particularly think Leiko would still be fond of Anton, and 3.Mikazuki’d probably recognize him, or even someone who looks exactly like him but a girl. Anyway, their dynamic’ll be fun to watch develop.
I think that’s about it for now. Until the next log comes out. This ended up like two times the length of the JuliPoppi fanfic I wrote the other day what the hell. I’ll reread this later and find a hundred different grammar mistakes probably.
Log #11: Leiko Terakado, Ultimate Waitress
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I do think all of the adults had some part to play in creating the Dance but if I had to break it down to who had the most power to prevent it it would be Jaehaerys up to and including the Great Council, Viserys up until the moment Aegon is born and Otto from then on.
#jaehaerys could have named rhaenys his heir and prevented any sort of similar succession crisis from occurring in the future#all viserys needed to do was not get remarried and not have sons#i pass it to otto after that because the second that aegon came out male he began to scheme#(granted if viserys had stayed firm in his decision to remove him as hand i do think the chances of the dance go down#but this is still mostly on otto)#alicent's culpability is mostly from raising her sons to hate and fear rhaenyra's sons#so is rhaenyra's to a lesser extent but also for leaving king's landing and having three blatantly illegitimate children#(and then two blatantly legitimate children right after that)#daemon's is just from being generally unhinged and giving the greens legitimate reasons to fear for their safety#larys is the reason otto came back as hand#mysaria did technically help orchestrate blood and cheese#all the other members of the green council willingly committed treason#i was going to say corlys and rhaenys are blameless but no they pushed laenor into marriage knowing full well he's gay#forcing rhaenyra to have the aforementioned blatantly illegitimate children#also in the alternate universe where viserys chose laena they are probably a lot more culpable for that dance#but ultimately while all of the above are a series of bad decisions that culminated there were only three that could have stopped the dance#don't set a precedent that women inherit after men.#don't remarry or have sons after you've declared your daughter your heir.#don't scheme to usurp the rightful heir.#and that is why those three have the most culpability to me#house of the dragon
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i have officially returned. ask me anything.
#random thoughts#i'll probably answer it tomorrow because i'm tired. i don't know why.#ciel if you see this i've been nicer to myself these past few days following your birthday. taking care of myself in general aspects.#which i sort of hate myself for but it's okay because. uh. i won't be like this forever. i'll be better at what i'm trying to do i promise.#new year's resolution is not fucking with me.........#oh also!! i've been sort of feeling like a dead person at times. and also like a cockroach. i have had to repeatedly tell myself that#i'm not dead i'm not dead!!!!#because i'm not. obviously. and i know i'm not. my brain is just silly. it likes to tell me i am things i am not like book characters.#and recently my mother got me my own rosary and we've been practicing praying together with my brother.#can you imagine how bad it must be for me to turn to christianity as a coping mechanism? not even when i was terrorized with death thoughts#not even in august for fuck's sake.#but it's actually not that bad. though i think i like the idea of organized religion more than i like being a part of it.#also i feel like my being catholic (mostly non-practicing) is betraying the queer community somehow. like. queer people have suffered#so much because of the christian church in general. so it's like. being christian is weird when i'm also queer.#but also then i feel weird when i try to do things in relation to christianity. like. put saint in my artist name.#that feels blasphemous i don't know. is it?????? it's not that serious either way but. augh.#i am going to write a song about this. also fellow christians is it okay to use the lyric 'uselessly clutching her rosary' or is that bad?#because i mean. technically. the she i'm referring to sort of is. because god isn't solving any of our problems.#he's just fucking. watching. if he's even real.#(and no my disappearance isn't related to the catholicism thing it's something else. as in the one thing i haven't told anyone else but cie#and an irl friend. if you are ciel then i am completely open to talking about said thing.#otherwise i will continue to drop cryptic little notes on my blog because I AM SILLY. {: )#going to play roblox now and maybe say hello to you fuckers on discord for a bit of fun. goodbye.
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Currently trying not to vomit over the fact that I essentially just lost almost a thousand dollars brb
#why me. why is it always fucking me am I just not allowed to have good things WHAT have I done to earn this kinda karma#my stupid fucking idiot roommate decided to resign the lease at the complex so I naturally contacted the landlords like hey. how does that#work with the security deposit cuz I paid that years before she even moved in do you guys need to come inspect the place after I leave#and they were like oh no ☺️ it just carries over to her. and I’m like. so. so even though I am not living here nor am on the lease#whether or not I get NINE HUNDRED FUCKING DOLLARS BACK hinges on this JACKASS not wrecking the place???? actually not even then because say#she DOESNT wreck the place when she moves out TURNS OUT the deposit goes to her cuz it’s her name and account attached to the fucking#apartment and I’m just left sitting here like how. how is that fucking fair how does that make fucking sense I have to trust that she doesnt#ruin the place OR GET FUCKING EVICTED BECAUSE SHE HAS NO JOB AND NO WAY TO PAY RENT and then also trust her to just give it to me when she#moves out. I’m actually sick I’m actually gonna fucking throw up and the landlords were like yes exactly ☺️ perhaps you could work something#out with her and she could buy you out of it and I’m just like. she doesn’t have a job she still hasn’t paid me for LAST months utilities#let alone this months do you HONESTLY THINK she is EVER going to pay me the 900 dollars I’m fucking owed#and it’s like does this actually affect anything? no. I didn’t budget with that money cuz I didn’t actively have it and that’s not smart but#like…. 900 dollars….. I could have paid off the rest of my credit card with that and also it’s just infuriating that that money is basically#just being GIVEN to this fucking bitch who I KNOW is not gonna keep that apartment in good shape and that’s again if she somehow doesn’t get#her ass evicted cuz she’s not paying bills why they even LET her sign her own lease there I do not understand she literally has no proof of#income but ig they probably didn’t check that cuz she technically already lived there I’m just so. I’m so tired and I’m so done can I PLEASE#stop being the one who constantly gets screwed fucking over in EVERY situation no matter fucking what#while all these fucking idiots and shitty fucking ppl get whatever they want and actively BENEFIT from me getting fucked over???? I’m done.#I’m so fucking done I am never living with someone ever again never being finanacially tied to anyone fucking again and you know what. thats#great goes well with me basically being convinced atp to never be vulnerable with anyone ever again and never trust anyone ever again and#never dedicate ANY part of my life in a genuine sense to anyone ever again I will be fucking alone in every sense for THE REST of my fucking#life and that’s that. it’ll be better. this kinda shit will stop happening. financially emotionally psychologically I will stop suffering#because holy fucking shit I can’t do it anymore man I’m sick of it I’m sick of trying to be a good person and depend on people and be#vulnerable and always uphold my side of the responsibilities and arrangements just to get fucking spit on like man if this is what being a#shit person gets ppl maybe I should try because they sure seem to get all the benefits and whatever the hell they want consistently and#always while I try and be considerate of others and devote myselves to them and this is all I fucking get for it#and ik I KNOW this is just the straw on the camels back and this is a lot of issues compounding and it’s not even about the money atp#but I’m just. I’m so fucking sick and tired and beaten down and I’m tired of trying I just want to be completely on my own#so at least if bad things happen or I feel like shit I only have myself to blame and it’s safer that way and I’ll have to stop feeling like#this and dealing with these types of things UGH
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Just saying, it would be crazy if Arlecchino and Wriothesley knew each other from their childhood and didn't realize because they both changed their identities
#genshin impact#wriothesley#arlecchino#Technically we don't know if Arlecchino is her original name (maybe? I know the short said the Knave is new but nothing about Arle)#but statement still stands#Idk could you imagine Wrio asked for tea with her in the aq not realizing who she really was#Wrio doesn't like publicity so the only time his image was in the news was probably his trial and when he became Duke#Arle probably also keeps a lot profile so the chances of them recognizing each other that way would be low too#I will be pulling on threads until they interact#I wonder if she could have a voiceline about him
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Sophie Shepard & Kaidan Alenko (ME1) 1/?
MIRA'S MORE CANON ME1 "After everything that happened with Zaeed, Caleston, and the Villa? I think need to tell you a few things about BAaT." "Well, after everything that happened with Zaeed, Caleston, and the Villa? I think I might owe you an explanation about how I really know Anderson." AKA: Zaeed Massani and the case of the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad message ping. :) Mass Effect: Legendary Edition (2021)
#mira makes gifs ✨#sophie shepard#kaidan alenko#shenko#mass effect#mass effect legendary edition#me#dailygaming#morecanonmasseffect#otp: you’re real enough for me#hi my name is mira and i like taking the most convoluted route to make gifs of my blorbos :)#the devil on my shoulder told me to do an LE1 mesh swap and i should not have listened lmao but IT TURNED OUT CUTE SO IT WAS WORTH IT :)#alright if we’re nailing down canon all of this happens at the villa technically?? so not even on the normandy lmao but we don’t have that#so this is as close as i could get it. and soph pulling up kaidan felt more canon to me in the ✨context✨#so we MESH SWAPPED BABY and now i have the power of kaidan alenko as shep to make AU gifs#LE1 mesh swaps might hurt my soul but eden prime calls my name :)#all of this happens at soph’s favorite spot overlooking the villa which is where they have the baat/anderson conversations :)#the most canon thing from this is the interruption of the kiss which isn’t joker in soph’s canon it’s zaeed lmao#he bypasses the mute on her omni-tool to bug her about coming to grab his shit from the normandy he didn’t grab earlier in the day#the eye roll in that one gif? she is internalizing her rage#her inner thoughts are literally something along the lines of#‘zaeed massani i am literally going to fucking kill you and strip your viper for parts’ in canon lol#i said fuck it to me1 canon and decided they get together early. caleston is the first mission. it just makes sense for them honestly#i could go on a 30 rant tag about just that but i think it’s just like a *when you know* and a trust thing#especially for soph who has issues trusting people and there’s always been a feeling in the back of her head of knowing she can trust him#and in soph!canon i think it goes the same in reverse for kaidan because i think there’s sort of a ‘lone biotic’ stigma around him#and i think they were both drawn to each other because it was easy to see *someone* to trust under the lone biotic and the sole survivor#‘someone’ i use that word a lot in canon :) but i think they’re both trusting of each other early on because they see foils in one another#and i think they both feel on the outside a bit in a way. kindred spirits. which is probably why they fall hard fast :)#i probably ranted too much like i always do because i treat the tags like a TEDtalk but have a good day as always friend! 💙
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(bonus round! put in the tags how old you are <3)
#also tell me about them i want to hear about ur friends.... what kind of creature are they.....#im jst real interested! most of the people i know dont but i know its not uncommon! my mum still has all her teddies up in her room#i voted yes but its probably technically the no; but option jdjdjd- i had a couple of the exact same bear and when i was like. 7 i switched#over to mark 2 bc the first guy (who i had since i was. 4 months old) was getting Real worn#mark 2 is getting real worn now too i need to repair him....#i bought myself a new one when i saw one on ebay a couple years back but im not sure i could change over at this point.....#his name is mr bear and he goes everywhere with me :)#and i am 22#nyxtalks#poll#teddy bear#stuffed animals#plush toy
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#baldur's gate#polls#this will be tactician because i want that achievement lol#technically i will be playing all of them as dark urges for the extra content but for them actually being an oc in my brain#two and three are thorn and grey haven't come up with a name for one yet#i don't know what her class will be either... probably sorcerer 🤔
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Fooling around with more fantastical designs for the Layered Earth.
Nocturne and Sonata here were normal people, once, but they got a little too cuddly with some particularly weird magic artifacts, and now they’re, uh, not quite Angels and not quite Prophets. Angels are defined by their still being human but not having proper Humanity, and prophets by their being beyond human while retaining their all important capital-H Humanity. These two are more like… if something wanted to be part of Humanity, picked two weird college kids to be their models, kinda-possessed-kinda-replaced-kinda-cloned said college students and now they’re weird leggy army birdie thingies with twice the dramatic dispositions, and three times the urge to sing a capella in many-part harmony, and four times the audacity to dress like that.
Edit to say please click for better quality why do the pixels always get murdered
Close ups under the cut
#worldbuilding#layered earth#sketch#creature drawing#character design#anthro#technically? i mean theyre bird people not people people#look into nocturnes dead skull eyes and tell me he never dreamed of being a bird in middle school#ironically nocturne is not a night owl by any definition of the word#but he does like spoopy things like foraging bone bits and sewing by hand#sonata will probably have tattoos eventually i just dont know what she wouldnt want on her arms or legs#she very much gives biker but on a scooter vibes#i dont even know what that will look like but its her to a t#more weirdos like these to come#all of whom will be named after types of classic songs#tocata overture prelude symphony fuge aria concerto suite minuet waltz etude etc#rondo rhapsody ballet opera and the like#is it clear that im a music nerd
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HELP ME?????? THIS CANNOT BE TRUE….
#paper is talking#i found a google form for like 2022 or 2021 that i made that was like a quiz about me#This is crazy#i didnt even know her name???????#Ok ok this was from way way way back probably when i was first getting into genshin ok…#Helpp i spelled barbaras name wrong..#OK AT LEAST THIS ONE ISNT AS BAD AS THE OTHER ONE I MADE BACK THEN#The other one was so bad my sibling made fun of me for spelling eveery single character wrong…#I made these in school i couldnt spell check ok…..#Also if you wanna know how i did i got 11/40….#OK TECHNICALLY I GOT 27/40 BECAUSE ON THE ONES WITH THE BIG 9 POINTS MULTIPLE CHOICE IF YOU GOT ONE WRONG YOU GET NO POINTS#Also the whiplash i got from seeing licorice and black raisin but NOT RYE OR PANCAKE on my crk faves list is.. something.#also my ovenbreak faves….#This mustve been before i really really really got into cookie run too….#Wtf…#Also the answer to the question above was jean. Hu tao. Qiqi. Klee. Sucrose. Aether. Venti. The raccoon one whos name i forgot how to spell#And albedo.#Which is. Not true anymore.#Amber not up there cause it says not favorites!!!!#Idk who else was up there with amber but it doesnt matter i dont care#Ambers always been my fave#Anwyas ill stop takling
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#oc txt.#c: ingrid#many uncommunicable tjoughts but cooking nonetheless#thst jump between S4 -S5 however long it was (i’m ASSUMING it’s a decade or something maybe even a little more)#definitely sees ingrid being a trophy wife fr#just follows eadith around francia as she sharpens her skills like yes dear ☺️ anything you want!#but also growing restless and stagnant because it’s SO far removed from what she’s always done#probably leaves for a few months to a year or a little more#to refind / recenter herself and put a lot of things to rest#but when she gets home it’s not HOME.#bc she left home behind and it’s like 🥲 yeah i’m leaving i miss my gf actually.#i don’t think eadith realizes they’re technically gf’s yet#doesn’t know what name to put on what’s going on but she knowwwwws she’s not just a friend and in a lot of ways never had been#she’s always been something more than that#pre S4 - during S4 stuff is fuzzy rn#but just KNOW ingrid would have fought her way out of that place had it not been for eadith#she might have been bound to her brother because he granted her mercy in exchange for her servitude#(plus it made him look like he got shit done)#but there was not a single moment she did anything with him in mind#eadith ALWAYS came first and always will be#devotion to the point of tearing herself apart tbh.#damn near begs her not to send her away when they abandon eardwulf#bc it’s like ‘you can go live your life now’#but ingrid just 🥺 u are my life.#corneeeee shit
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