#I just found out a lot of people call them wolfstar

[t1oui]

bro at this point i see both sides of the jegulus argument, bc both sides (i specifically mean the people on both sides being aggressive w each other) need to grow up.

if you’re giving someone death threats for shipping jegulus… good lord man what do i even say. i cannot imagine being so upset about someone’s FICTIONAL SHIP of FICTIONAL CHARACTERS that i tell them to DIE. yk that sometimes, if someone hears it enough, it’ll actually happen? if your response to that is “good, their ship was trash” there is genuinely something wrong there.

but at the same time, i can’t imagine calling someone HOMOPHOBIC just for disliking jegulus. like, yeah, if you’re being called a fag or something for liking jegulus and it’s meant in a hostile way, fuck that. but simply NOT LIKING jegulus/wolfstar/what have you is in no way homophobic. babe it’s called having a preference.

are there ships out there i hate? yes. are there ship dynamics as a whole i despise and think are gross? YES. but you know what i do? i don’t interact, i don’t view content, and i don’t get mad! what happened to ship and let ship?

now, before anyone says “but what about mistagging” yes that is a big problem, and it’s really fucking annoying. ik not everybody is going to listen, but hey: if you’re making a post about jegulus, tag jegulus. if you’re making a post about wolfstar, tag wolfstar. jily? tag jily. if you’re making a post about jegulus and tag jily, you do not understand the point of tags. it doesn’t get you more reach, it just annoys people and causes even more hostility between parts of the fandom.

back to the point from earlier, i have also seen a lot of people calling jegulus shippers/slytherin skittles fans misogynists, racists, fascists, etc. that is absolutely bonkers to me. what happened to headcanon and let headcanon? this is the MARAUDERS FANDOM, something you say/do is going to be made up bc we barely have anything to go off of. let people make characters for themselves and write them as they want, and if you don’t like it, DON’T INTERACT. DON’T HATE. you’re not changing anyone’s mind when you send them a message threatening them for liking something that ISN’T ACTUALLY HARMING ANYONE.

yeah, that’s right: shipping jegulus, writing about the skittles, giving them depth? that isn’t actually hurting anybody. you know what does hurt people? telling them to kill themselves.

i’ve also seen an uptick in people being like “jegulus is just jeverus”/“just write jeverus” and “if you can say jegulus happened you can’t deny/hate on snily” and my honest opinions are… ok. i don’t think jegulus and jeverus are the exact same, but i’m not going to hate on either ship, nor will i hate on snily! but more importantly, I’M NOT GOING TO HATE ON SNILY & JEVERUS SHIPPERS. yk why? bc i’m not a hypocrite.

ship and let ship, people. it’s really not that hard. as a multishipper who follows this rule, i have found myself having a very good time in this fandom! i hope we can cut down on hostility soon, bc really, who is it helping? nobody comes out of an argument about FICTIONAL CHARACTERS KISSING happy. if yall really can’t get along, just don’t interact.

and, for the love of god, tag your posts accurately.

[fandoomrants]

Okay, so I'm fully into my HP obsession again (honestly, I don't care what anyone says or how much the world tries to cancel this fandom. This is my childhood, it's a part of me that's always there and I eventually go back to between the other things) and therefore, the Marauders era's obsession.

And like, I've always loved them for some reason. Honestly, when I found fandoms and stuff and saw they're actually almost a fandom on it's own, I was so happy and relieved that I'm not the only one. (I realised at one point that I love HP yet I've never read a fic that's not about them from this fandom...)

But I've been thinking about some things and also came across some random videos summarizing what we know about them (because there are so many hcs that most people accept as common that it's easy to forget the real facts) and now I have so many thoughts I need to share because they haunt me.

-They were like... Big jerks. Especially James and Sirius. Mostly them, tbh. Like, not only because we see them from Snape's perspective in memories and he hates them but because, well, they were mean. Especially Sirius (he's my absolutely favourite character but still), he's done pretty shitty things. I think James mostly had beef with Snape but they were overall kinda bullies.

-Even though I love Wolfstar just as much as 90% of this fandom (I mean the Marauders era), I think they're a famous ship just because we get to see interactions between them while alive and not just flashbacks but I don't think they were really close back in the days. James and Sirius were the ones extremely close and maybe if we had seen extended Marauders' interactions or they were eventually all alive, then most likely Wolfstar wouldn't have been that popular.

-I'm 99% sure that the great friendship between Lily and Remus is completely fan-made. I believe Remus was the most reasonable (but nobody can convince me he wasn't the mastermind behind 99% of their pranks at the same time) and wasn't into being mean with anyone so it's possible that they were interacting on much better terms than her and James (I mean, until they got together) but I don't think they could have ever been called friends.

-In fact, canonly, Sirius was taller than Remus. (What a shock, right?)

-Lots of people say stuff like "Who was the fifth guy in their dorm?" and there are many theories about it but do we even have a proof that the four of them were in the same dorm at all? Nope.

-Now that's my personal opinion but... I absolutely believe they were really good friends and while at school at least, nobody was left out intentionally but... Maybe Peter betrays them in the end because of some build up stuff throughout the years. We know James and Sirius meet on Hogwarts Express and immediately become best friends. We don't know when Remus and Peter join exactly but it must have been shortly after, I think Peter is pretty much the last who joins. Seeing how some of the people are very good friends, it's a bit hard to truly feel a part of a friend group and might make you feel a bit left out at times (but that's basically a rule in every friend group, tbh. There are the two best friends and well... the other, still close friends).There's also the fact that Peter canonly wears the Sorting hat for over five minutes so here you have another episode of feeling kind of left out. Then later they learn about Remus and they all decide to support him and even learn how to transform and Peter is the last to learn how to do it too. Then even later, James and his family take Sirius in. What I'm trying to say is, we have no canon information of any of them doing anything for Peter and I'm not saying that they weren't good friends, it's just that he was exposed to them doing stuff for each other, and like, really big stuff too (granted, it was really all about helping a friend in a big need) but he was never the center of it + some occasions that might have left him feel kind of uncertain and uneasy about himself like not being sorted for a longer time or needing help to transform. And the result might be feeling emotionally distant from the group and with desire to prove himself worthy of something. So, that's maybe why he finally turns to Voldemort.

-They canonly don't trust Remus much by the end and even suspect he might be Voldemort's spy.

-There is a big chance that Harry and Remus really meet when Harry is 13, meaning that he never saw him as a baby.

-Speaking of feeling left out earlier... I think Remus might have also felt so more often than not. I think they were all into innocent pranks but he wasn't into actively being a jerk, especially considering that he was someone who would have gotten lots of hate if people knew about the werewolf thing. The stupid prank in 5th year must have been a real punch in the gut too. The fact that he gets to stop interacting with them and they even start mistrusting him. Lots of things, really. AND HE STILL NEVER BETRAYED THEM, WAS NEVER A JERK TO ANY OF THEM, AND GOT TO LIVE FOR 12 YEARS BELIEVING THAT ONE OF HIS BEST FRIENDS KILLED THE OTHER TWO!!!

Okay. I made myself enough sad for one evening. Might add more to this.

[oh-my-wolfstar]

Taylor Swift Wolfstar songs day 25

Today’s song is Don’t Blame Me from Reputation. It is pov Sirius as he falls for Remus.

I've been breakin' hearts a long time, and Toyin' with them older guys Just playthings for me to use Something happened for the first time, in The darkest little paradise Shakin, pacin', I just need you

Sirius has always been a heart breaker, going out with people just to leave them the next day. It’s always been something of a game to him, he didn’t understand until he found himself unexpectedly falling for Remus. The way he needed him was something he had never felt before.

For you, I would cross the line I would waste my time I would lose my mind

Sirius would do anything for his moony, he would break laws (and he has), wait forever for him, go crazy. Anything for Remus.

My name is whatever you decide And I'm just gonna call you mine I'm insane, but I'm your baby Echoes of your name inside my mind Halo, hiding my obsession I once was poison ivy, but now I'm your daisy

Sirius is completely gone for Remus. He knows he’s acting crazy but he would do anything for Remus to cam him his. He knows he’s screwed up in the past but he also knows he would never do anything to hurt Remus.

And baby, for you, I would fall from grace Just to touch your face If you walk away I'd beg you on my knees to stay

Sirius would lose everything, his reputation, his money, just to touch Remus once. Sirius is a proud person but if Remus left him he would beg him to stay without hesitation.

Don't blame me, love made me crazy If it doesn't, you ain't doin' it right Lord, save me, my drug is my baby I'll be usin' for the rest of my life

Sirius finally understands it, love. It’s making him crazy, but the kind of crazy he doesn’t ever want to stop being. He loves Remus and he will love him for the rest of his life.

please let me know what you think! I know I’ve been doing a lot of Remus being crazy for Sirius, so I wanted to show you just how crazy Sirius is for Remus. If you have any suggestions, let me know in the comments.

[blacksgarden]

Just send a boob your way, I seriously have no idea what it is but you're just a boob, I found out that me and our Prongsy boi have birthdays on the same day, And it made me sooo happy, I aslo asked one ask to Lilly you know @thebestofoneshots, if she would like to write a wolfstar x bday reader on my bday, and I feel like I'm asking for to much, bc I know how much there is on her mind lately, with Remus as a priest, I love the idea and I'm dyeing(omg I feel like I did not spell that correct)over GC bc I love it soooooooo much it is hard to explain how much I love it. But this week has been pretty good, i've started listening to all the young dudes on Spotify because i don't want to read it and i love it so much i think i stared on saturday and i'm already at chapter 23 i love her reading it so much.

Now I must go I also wanted to say that you can always send asks my way if you help with something or need to talk your heart out I'm here and I'm online a lot. Bye,

I'm gonna take the boob thing very positively 😭😭😭 Like yes, calling someone a boob is insulting, but I've always wondered why? It's a human body part? What's so insulting about it? We gotta change it to a positive meaning here, people. Where my Gen Z's at when you need 'em sighs

But yes, I can very much understand why you called me a boob and what exactly you meant by it so thank you, darling! ALSO, I didn't know you shared a birthday with James! Happy super belated Birthday, luv! I'm so late to answer this ask too, therefore so late to wish you... 🥲 Very sorry about that.

And don't fret too much over annoying @thebestofoneshots with asks. She absolutely loves them, I've learnt that myself when I felt I was annoying her too. (I've sent her asks myself, but either I forget to send them or they just get lost in her inbox but it's all good 🤣). Plus, I'm right! 😃 She did write that one-shot for you, and I'm very happy for you that you got a one-shot as a gift!

Also, I know how you feel about ATYD. It's definitely a lot of chapters, plus with the MsKingBean89's oc story also weaving in between the main book definitely gets confusing. If you ever do plan on reading it, I'll tell you now, it's definitely worth it.

I've just been caught up reading this amazing series by Sarah J. Maas, called A Court of Thorns and Roses (ACOTAR). Absolutely brilliant. Best decision I've made to read that series. It's just so- urgh. It's infuriatingly good. Read it with such speed, could've been the Flash (not that fast, but you get what I mean). You can check it out if you want to, just felt like sharing 🤭

Thanks for the asks as always, darling. I'll be sure to drop you some as well 😉

[mrsfrecklesmarauders]

The First Kiss

AN: Remus is trans and Rosie is his death name before he transitioned.

Childhood friends to lovers Wolfstar

Muggle AU

************

Rosie felt utterly weird around the feminine world. Like she didn't belong there. Perhaps that was why she didn't get along with the girls from her class. They thought she was weird. And now, she felt so uncomfortable around Sirius' cousins.

It had been a weird Winter. For starters, Mrs. Black had given her a Barbie Doll as a Christmas present. The doll had an awful pink dress, shoes and purse to combine. Rosie was supposed to be grateful, thrilled. Weren't girls supposed to like dolls? But that doll had the same fake smile that Rosie had to put on. The next day, she cut the Barbie's hair, painted it red, and she dressed the Barbie with trousers and a hoodie. Rosie decided to call it Arnold.

Sirius thought it was cool.

Then, Sirius' cousins were around. Three teenage girls who were everything Rosie wasn't: feminine and pretty. Rosie found the teenage girls intimidating. They kept asking if she was Sirius' girlfriend. Teasing them.

Even though Rosie had a crush on Sirius, she didn't like the world "girlfriend". And Sirius got flushed and angry every time. Denying the whole thing.

"Rosie is just my friend!"

In New Years, The Black Family prepared a party as they always did. Rosie and her parents were invited. But in the middle of the night, when Sirius and Regulus got called by their mother Rosie was kidnapped by Bellatrix, Narcissa and Andromeda.

"You ought to have a makeover"

Rosie thought there was anything wrong with the jeans and jacket she was wearing. But when she saw the girls with dresses, makeup and their hair fixed, Rosie felt out of place. Was she supposed to dress like that? It made her sick.

"You fancy Sirius, don't you?" Bellatrix had asked "He is not going to pay you attention if you practically dress like a boy"

Rosie flushed. How did they know?

"Sirius is just my friend"

Bella let out a chuckle.

"That's what I said about my first boyfriend"

Rosie didn't understand why the girls giggled but somehow she was being dragged to one of the rooms and Rosie supposed there was no escape.

They made her wear a girly blouse, they loosened her hair, and sat her on a chair.

"I feel so stupid" Rosie whispered as Narcissa put makeup on her. The brush was tickling Rosie's eyelid.

The girls had been chatting about people Rosie didn't know. Gossips about who snogged who. They talked about a lad named Rod a lot. Apparently Bellatrix fancied him. They talked about some lad named Lucius too. And also, Bellatrix used the word "bitch" so many times that Rosie lost count. She wanted to leave. Where was Sirius?

"Oh you would look absolutely beautiful, darling" Narcissa giggled "I always do all my friends' makeup"

Rosie blinked as Narcissa finished with one eyelid. But it was only seconds before she started with the other.

"If you're lucky, Sirius might give you your first kiss at midnight" Bellatrix added with a smirk

Rosie blushed. She had thought about it. She wanted Sirius to be the first. But she wasn't sure if she was ready. She was only ten.

"Aaaw she is blushing" Narcissa giggled.

"Sirius might use tongue and all" Bella chanted and Narcissa laughed.

Rosie blushed even more. Use tongue? Eugh!

"Leave her alone, will you?" Andromeda said "She is just eleven and she might not be ready"

She was ten actually. But she didn't correct her.

"You don't have to do anything you don't want" Andromeda added with a smile.

Bellatrix rolled her eyes.

"Come on, Andy! It's about time baby whinny Sirius kisses a bird..." she raised an eyebrow at Rosie "Am I right?"

Rosie didn't know how to answer.

"Besides, Sirius talks about you all the time" Narcissa giggled "Right? He definitely fancies you"

"Really?"

Rosie felt stupid the moment she asked. It was supposed to be a secret. How she fancied Sirius. They were best friends. And Rosie would only dare to tell him when they were older. Old enough to date and that sort of stuff.

Bellatrix and Narcissa laughed. Andromeda smiled.

"Of course" Narcissa winked as she came closer and applied something on Rosie's lips. Lipstick. It felt itchy and smelled like strawberry. Rosie hated it.

Narcissa gestured at Rosie to move her lips together. Rosie copied her.

"I think she is ready for a good snog" Bella declared.

"How do I look?"

Andromeda passed her a mirror.

Rosie's reflection looked wrong and funny in all the ways possible. Her hair was loose, her curls perfectly combed. Rosie always used to keep it tied. Her eyelids had a blue color, her cheeks were slightly pink and her lips were a bit red. Her eyelashes looked longer. She looked as fake as the Barbie Doll.

Rosie frowned.

"Sirius would like this?"

"Of course!" Bellatrix winked "Boys like this sort of stuff. Sirius would want to snog you  I'm sure"

"You're are beautiful, Rosie" Andromeda smiled.

Rosie felt ridiculous.

Bellatrix snorted "Cissy... Go an fetch Sirius so he can see his future girlfriend"

Rosie felt nervous. She didn't want Sirius to look at her like that. But somehow she did want that kiss. She wanted for Sirius to look at her in different eyes. Sort of like adults looked at each other when they were in love. If pretty girls like the Black Sisters thought Sirius would like it, then they were probably right.

Narcissa left with a smile. Bellatrix was smirking in a weird way. And Andromeda had an odd expression. Rosie felt like she was going to vomit.

"Oh Bella..." Andromeda tutted as she saw her sister's expression. Bellatrix sneered.

Rosie tried to ignore that.

Narcissa came back surely after. Before Rosie had time to escape. Unfortunately behind her, were Sirius and Regulus with curious faces.

"What's going on?" Sirius asked.

"We have a surprise for you!"

Bellatrix smiled and dragged Rosie to her feet. She grabbed her by her shoulders and pushed her towards Sirius.

Rosie tried to maintain the gaze.

"Rosie?"

But when Sirius blinked in surprise she looked down.

Sirius chuckled.

"What do you have in your face?" Sirius asked, then he turned to his cousins, frowning "What did you do to her?"

"Now now, Sirius" Bellatrix tutted "That's no way to treat a lady"

"Rosie is not a lady" Sirius wrinkled his nose "She is my mate..."

"Sirius..." Andromeda warned.

"You are such a pussy, Sirius!" Bellatrix tutted.

Sirius ignored her.

"Rosie, you look ridiculous" Sirius laughed.

That's what Rosie thought. But now that Sirius said it, it hurt. She had hope he would think differently. Rosie kept her gaze down, trying to ignore the knot on her throat.

"Don't you think she looks pretty?" Narcissa asked, placing a hand on Rosie's shoulder.

Sirius kept laughing.

"I think she looks pretty" Regulus whispered, only because she noticed the tears in Rosie's eyes.

Regulus was a good kid. Rosie liked him. She gave him a soft smile.

"Pretty?" Sirius chuckled "She looks like clown! I mean look at her, Reggie!"

Rosie couldn't take it anymore. She had the urge to cry. And she felt so embarrassed. So what she did was run away, pushing Sirius along the way. He had been so mean. Rosie felt ridiculous. Especially if she heard Bellatrix laughing as she ran away.

*************

Rosie received the New Year in her mother's lap, with dry tears. She had cleaned the make up and tied her hair again. She felt more comfortable wrapped around her father's jacket. By the scent of his cologne.

Sirius found her later on the night. Rosie was getting sleepy as she saw her parents dance and she tried to read her book. But her eyes kept closing and she yawned all the time.

But then Sirius took a seat beside her.

"Moony! I was looking for you!" Sirius exclaimed "I thought we were putting cockroaches on the food table, remember? Then you disappeared"

Rosie tried not looking at him. She was so embarrassed to do so.

"Are you angry with me, Moony?"

Rosie knew Sirius was making that puppy face that made her melt.

"No" But she didn't look up.

"Was it because of my cousins did to you?"

Rosie didn't answer.

"Bella is nasty! She is always doing stuff to me"

Rosie wasn't angry with Bellatrix or Sirius. She felt like an idiot for wanting to be pretty for Sirius. When Rosie hadn't been herself. She kept thinking that she would probably would have to grow up, become a teenager who used makeup and dresses, who talked about boys and giggled, like Sirius' cousins. And she hated the idea. It was bloody torture. She wanted to be someone else. Preferably someone more masculine.

"I said those things because I thought you really looked ridiculous and uncomfortable" Sirius continued, looking guilty and desperate "That's not you, Moony. Make up and stuff..."

"I am a girl... I ought to be"

Rosie wished she wasn't a girl.

"You are not just a girl... You're Moony, my mate" Sirius said. Rosie looked up. She liked how that sounded "That's what I like about you. You are different. You are cool. You don't need makeup and stuff to be pretty..."

Rosie blushed a little.

"You think I am pretty?"

Now it was Sirius' turn to blush.

"I guess" Sirius shrugged, looking down.

Rosie smiled. Sirius was still cute.

"Do you forgive me?"

Rosie sniffed and smiled.

"Okay"

Sirius smiled too. Now relieved. He stood up.

"Come on then!" Sirius said, smirking "We still have time for our little prank before the night ends"

"What about Reggie?"

Sirius rolled his eyes "He is already in bed, that baby..." he said "Let's do it... Just the two of us this time, okay?"

Rosie still had hope that Sirius would fancy her too and one day he would give her her first kiss. Was that silly to think? But for now, it would be nice to play a little prank on the guests. Just to have a laugh and start the year on the right foot.

Rosie smiled, closing her book and standing up.

"Okay, let's go"

[scottishaccentsareawesome]

Sirius(about a crooked auror):...He's actually been stealing from these archives for years. You've been asleep at the wheel, Fudge. You're an embarrassment.

Cornelius Fudge: Really? Well, at least I've never confused St. Augustine with Boethius.

Remus: Oh, who gives a rat's ass about Boethius, Fudge...?!

Sirius: What are you doing, Remus?

Remus: I am creating a kerfuffle.

Harry: Oh, damn...!

[thebooktopus]

@sitp-recs was one of the very first blogs I followed on this funny little site we all call home, and I believe can easily be credited as my gateway drug to... well, whatever the hell this is that I'm doing now.

Liv has been doing this for two years. TWO. YEARS. have you seen the absolutely insane incredible amount of recs that she's put out in that time? like, I'm not sure she's even human tbh. putting together a rec takes time, plus a lot of love and emotional energy. trying to corral your feelings about something and then spit them out in a way that makes other people interested? it's hard.

Liv, you're such a gift to this community. I wanted to say thank you - so many of my favorite fics and authors came as a result of one of your recommendations. you're truly such a gem and we are so lucky to have you. I wanted to gift you recs of some of my favorites so far from 2022 that I hope you'll enjoy! For those of you who are not Liv, I've linked to some relevant lists of hers, if these are fics you enjoy!!

✨ Once More With Feeling by @innerlilith // E // 27K // angsty, heavy fuck or die fic that turns so fucking soft and gorgeous. fav tag: origami as a vehicle for sexting.

recommended Liv lists: Fuck or Die, Hurt/Comfort, Hogwarts Eighth Year

✨ The Only Magic Left Between Us by @lqtraintracks​ // E // 24K // I cried over this fic, just a bottomless well of emotions. but in the best way. fav tags: Draco Malfoy Has a Small Cock, Harry Loves It

but seriously check out Liv's lists: Arranged/Forced Marriage, Size Kink, First Time

✨ Pages of You by @wolfpants // E // 54K // pen pals, mistaken identity, background Wolfstar, gay bookstore, this fic has it all. fav tag: lots of Blondie references

you're basically guaranteed to find something you like: Non-Magical AU, Enemies to Lovers, Found Family

✨ Vis-à-Vis-à-Vis by @vukovich​ // E // 50K // I think my jaw was having open by the time I finished this fic, just a bunch of gibberish falling out. I had to question why I even try to write when vuk is out here doing this kind of masterpiece, but here we are! fav tag: Inappropriate Use of Legilimency

I love how specific some of Liv's lists are: Case Fic, Presumed Dead/Disappearance, Drarry Against the World

✨ The Things We Need by @kbrick​ // E // 25K // this was such a gorgeous take on love in its many forms, setting boundaries, and non-monogamy. fav tag: Smut with a Side of Angst

Liv has your back: Polyamory, Exhibitionism, Jealous Harry

✨ Keep Me Here by @academicdisasterfic​ // E // 7K // Harry/Draco/Teddy // gahhhh I've re-read this so many times I can't even tell you. I LOVE this triad, and this version is especially soft and so, so hot. fav tag: as usual these tags have gotten away from me

Ok this list of lists is probably my favorite on this list: Harry/Draco/Teddy, Cottagecore Vibes, Threesomes

[reptilian-rapscallian]

No but why did I just think about Wolfstar as gaming YouTubers

It would be so cute I can’t just wait:

Sirius would have started his channel when he was 17, because gaming was his way of escaping his shit home life, so when he left his family for good, he started his channel to share this love.

He very quickly gained popularity.

About a year after he started his channel, he moved to the US to get as far away from his childhood as he possibly could.

Once he’d reached 500k followers (a few months after he’d moved) people kept flooding his comment sections and his social medias about someone called Remus Lupin, a Welsh gamer, and how funny they’d be filming together.

He got a lot of these messages, to the point that he just decided to check this guy out, figure out what it was about him that was making people spam him.

That led to him falling down a rabbit hole of his videos.

He was also 18, only had his channel for about a year, but had gained a lot of subscribers in that short amount of time. There was a welcome video on his page, explaining how gaming was his salvation after he started getting chronic pain, and the way it essentially saved his life when he could use it as a distraction from the particularly bad flare ups.

Everything about him on his channel felt genuine, and despite having never spoken to this man, Sirius felt like he knew him.

He empathised with his use of video games at a young age, and spent every free moment watching his videos.

For a while, he considered reaching out to Remus and asking if he wanted to make some sort of video together.

Until Remus Lupin beat him to it.

It took a few more months (Sirius reaching 700k in this time), before Sirius woke up to a barrage of tweets about Remus mentioning him in a video?

He tiredly, clumsily, found Remus’ channel, and found the newest video. It was a live that had taken place while Sirius was asleep.

Remus glanced at the ever flowing chat, reading one message out loud.

“‘Have you heard of Sirius Black? You two should film together.’ I’m actually subscribed to Sirius’ channel, guys. I doubt he’s ever heard of me, but if you ever see this, Sirius, I’d love to make a video with you sometime.”

Sirius couldn’t place the feeling he had hearing his name in Remus’ smooth, honey-like voice, but he promptly found Remus’ socials and reached out privately.

‘Hey, just saw your video. I have to admit, I’m quite a fan, and I think it’d be great to make a video together sometime.’

Being nervous to talk to someone was a feeling Sirius wasn’t all that familiar with, but he still powered through and hit send.

Despite it being 3 in the morning in the UK, he almost immediately got a response from Remus.

‘Oh wow, hi. We can definitely arrange a day to film!’

The two of them quickly arranged, and were filming within a week.

They made 2 videos together, one for each of their channels, and even Sirius was surprised by how well they worked as a team, despite having never spoken in person before that day.

It felt like they’d known each other for years.

Subscribers went insane the moment those videos went live, talking about how much they loved the two of them working together, and how they must have been friends in real life.

The next 3 months went by in a blur.

They made countless more videos together, livestreams, anything they could whenever the time difference allowed them to. Sirius found himself smiling whenever Remus messaged him, the two of them fast friends.

Sirius hit 1 million, Remus hitting 800k, and as Remus messaged him with a congratulations, something slid into place, Sirius finally realising what the feeling he couldn’t place was.

He was falling for Remus Lupin.

Of course, this led to a lot of panic. He had never met Remus in person, he had no idea if Remus was even into guys, and even if he did know, that didn’t help him figure out whether or not Remus was into him.

As he chatted to James one night (over FaceTime, James still lived in London, but Sirius struggled to get over his anxiety about returning to the UK), James noticed how frequently he talked about Remus, and asked.

“So, Remus Lupin. What’s going on?”

“What d’you mean?”

“I mean you fancy him, right?”

“I- what?”

“Sirius, I’ve known you for 7 years. You’re very clearly gone for him.”

He wasn’t wrong.

Subscribers were clearly picking up on the chemistry between the two (a lot quicker than Sirius was), as Sirius stumbled upon a whole other section of his fanbase.

It turns out, a very large number of his subscribers shipped the two of them. Debates were happening about whether or not they were already together, people pointed out signs that they liked each other, there were hundreds of posts, thousands of tweets.

He was surprised that he hadn’t noticed it earlier.

Something about this gave Sirius more confidence than he had expected. Sirius’ subscribers were right about them working well together. Maybe they were right about this, too.

This (and a small amount of alcohol) was the push he needed to message Remus. He carefully planned and wrote a heartfelt message explaining his feelings, and sent it before he could think too much about it.

He woke up after a very uneasy sleep to a very short message from Remus.

‘Took you long enough <3’

The next 6 months were both the best and the most agonising months of his life.

They talked every day. Whenever the time difference allowed, one of them staying up late, anything so that they could hear each other’s voice.

Remus once fell asleep on FaceTime to Sirius, and Sirius couldn’t help but smile at him. God, Remus Lupin was beautiful.

There were days where Sirius ached to hear Remus’ voice in person. To kiss him, to touch him. For him to be with Sirius.

They had a long discussion about visiting one another. Sirius opened up about his past, and why he found he really couldn’t visit the UK, which Remus understood.

Remus couldn’t come to the USA any time soon. His mother had terminal cancer, and since his parents were divorced and he had stopped speaking to his father after he came out to him, he was his mothers only relative. This meant leaving her side was impossible, especially since she had a limited amount of time left.

So they stayed online. They kept talking every night about anything and everything, until they knew every tiny detail about each other.

They made videos together as often as possible, having to edit out every time they slipped up and said something that would prove they were seeing each other.

While it hurt to be so far away from a person who meant so much, it was all that they had, so it was all that they did.

Hope Lupin passed away 3 months later.

Sirius was one of the first to find out on an agonising call with Remus, where he wanted nothing but to pull Remus into a tight hug and hold him while he sobbed, instead of listening helplessly over the phone.

He got as close as getting the tickets in his basket, but the moment he tried to check out, the familiar panic came over him, and he had to stop.

A video was posted to Remus’ channel about his mum’s story (which Sirius cried while watching), on which he announced that he would be taking a break from posting while he processed the loss.

His fan base had grown considerably, his following now well over a million, and although they were disappointed, were nothing but understanding.

As a result of Remus being offline, Sirius posted a lot less. He was always ready to talk to Remus, and although Remus apologised and apologised for pulling Sirius away from his channel, Sirius assured him time and time again that he was more important.

Sirius was a least slightly comforted by the fact that Remus wasn’t alone. His best friend Lily seemed to be there almost constantly. Sirius talked to her a few times. She was absolutely brilliant, and Sirius was so glad she was able to make Remus smile.

He fucked up on livestream.

He was just talking to people, taking requests, anything, really, when he got a call from Remus. Of course he was going to respond to it, so he told his fans he’d be right back and tried to pull his waiting screen up.

What he didn’t notice, was that the screen was still loading when he picked up the phone, around a hundred thousand people hearing him say “hey darling, are you okay?”

This pretty much broke the internet.

Sirius had to watch as he was tagged in countless tweets, all reposting the clip, asking what was going on, or his personal favourite: ‘YALL it was 9pm in the uk when he answered the call it could have been Remus.’

Mostly because they figured it out, but everybody shut them down.

At least it made Remus laugh.

That laugh was what made Sirius realise that he’d fallen in love. He had fallen in love with a man who lived in another continent, without ever having met him in person.

Shit.

It took around two months for Remus to start posting again. Slowly at first, a lot of his videos with Sirius.

Making videos was clearly something he loved, so it was helping him a lot.

A month later he was back to himself, and Sirius was so thankful.

Even more so when the two of them were on FaceTime and Remus decided he was done with never having seen Sirius in person.

So he booked tickets. That night, on FaceTime to Sirius, he booked a two month long trip to New York.

Sirius was awake throughout the whole 10 hour (don’t hold me to this idk how long the flight would be) to New York, Remus messaging him throughout.

Sirius noticed a few tweets from people claiming they saw Remus get on a plane in Heathrow, but it wasn’t spreading all that quickly, so he wasn’t bothered as he waited in the airport, nervously fidgeting with his hands.

The moment their eyes met, Sirius all but ran to Remus, not wasting a moment. They crashed together into such a tight hug that Sirius could hardly breathe. Not that he cared. Remus was there, in person. His fists closed around Remus’ jumper, holding on to him like he was scared he’d disappear.

After a minute passed, Remus pulled away and connected their lips. Finally.

They got to Sirius’ apartment before posting anything online.

They posted one photo on Sirius’ Instagram story of the two of them sitting on Sirius’ sofa, Sirius’ head resting on Remus’ shoulder.

One of Sirius’ favourite accounts started analysing the hell out of that photo, to the point that they decided to just tell everyone.

They posted one more photo, this time of them kissing.

That was it for their subscribers, who were finally proven right.

This is super long and I wrote it at 4am today when I couldn’t sleep but I have ideas for a second part that I’ll probably write at 2am tomorrow lmao

[panevanbuckley]

jegulus + wolfstar youtubers au headcanons:

because even if I'm not writing this anytime soon I still have plenty of ideas and @toomanynotifications asked to see them ✨

gonna put it under a read more because this got kinda long oops

regulus:

- his channel has a dark aesthetic, he totally has green fairy lights in his room/background too

- will be streaming on twitch more often than not

- almost always at absolutely absurd times like 5am because this boy does not sleep like a normal human being

- gamer vibes (mostly horror games because he's freakishly good at them)

- yet he's so soft it's unreal

- like, don't get me wrong, he's a sarcastic little shit but also a total angel

- his fans are adorable and so supportive too it's really cute

- nobody realises he's related to sirius until one day, when he's streaming, sirius barges into his apartment shouting "I'm stealing your coffee! you want one making?" and then presumes to let himself into regulus' room with said coffee

- anyone that recognises him loses their shit in the tags and it totally ends up trending that night

sirius:

- does make-up tutorials a lot + has a whole 'pranks with james' series

- his make-up is honest to god iconic and everyone who's anyone has probably watched at least one of his videos at some point

- totally does reaction videos and those 'try not to laugh' ones (he fails. every time.)

- he and james watch their favourite childhood movies and take shots every time a catchphrase is said

- james very almost died from alcohol poisoning

- sirius also totally has a whole series making fun of the straights and the homophobes (in a playful way, of course)

- is probably the most famous of them all

- actually, no, james has more subs than him but more people recognise sirius' name/face

james:

- lives with remus, who makes regular appearances in his videos, usually in one of his super soft sweaters and bringing james tea or chocolate

- is best friends with sirius, of course, and everybody knows about it

- dating regulus (and he definitely finds a way to bring up his 'smol angel' at least once every video)

- even before regulus actually showed his face as james' boyfriend

- when people find out he's dating regulus (another wildly popular gamer) they lose their minds

- obviously sirius meets remus through james, cue those two becoming the internet's cutest couple

- james constantly reminds everyone of this fact

- sirius unfortunately doesn't get the same bragging rights over his brother dating his best friend since james and regulus actually met at a convention (which he didn't find out about until he walked in on the two of them making out on james' couch)

- a total gamer, does any sort of game

- he and regulus definitely record gameplays together

- regulus whoops james' ass at mario kart every damn time despite complaining that it's a kid's game at every opportunity he has

- james totally has a strange love for minecraft too (but, like, he just builds cute houses and has a farm, etc.)

- mega soft vibes and everyone loves him, his fanbase is the sweetest

- obviously the king of prank videos

remus:

- has an odd love for 'rewatching/ruining old childhood movies' videos

- he's the one that introduced the idea to james and sirius

- soft, bookworm vibes

- like his background is of his room, which is warm lighting and a lot of books (plus almost always a dirty mug of coffee sat on his desk)

- plays light-hearted games quite a lot

- sometimes gets dragged into james' prank videos

- sirius has definitely done his make-up for a video once and it's one of remus' most viewed videos (he's not sure if it's because he looks good or because everyone's dying over him and sirius being adorably domestic boyfriends)

- has a series called 'wolf advice' where people can send in questions and he gives them advice (this was so james' idea though because remus is just always giving him great life advice and one day he said, "you should make a video with your best life tips" - he might've been a little drunk at the time but he was being honest)

- streams as he draws sometimes and has conversations with his fans

- like his fanbase is basically a family at this point, it's super cute

- totally got regulus to join him, on more than one occasion, when he found out he can draw too

- probably helps design all of their merch, let's be honest (or at least adds any finishing touches to the designs)

[pinkteapotwriting]

Their Perfect Y/N

Wolfstar x Fem!reader

Warning : Smut, pretty chill though. Daddy kink. That kinda stuff.

 Word count : 2532

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Your first order meeting. You were so young, you just got out of Hogwarts considered an adult in the muggle world. Only 18, and you had a war to fight, friends to defend, lives to protect. It’s funny how determined you were to obliterate every death eater, but your heart was caught in your throat at the prospect of entering headquarters. You tried to ignore it, this was the first step to saving the people you cared about. You watched the houses split apart and sucked in a big breath before knocking. 

Walking through the doorway was easy enough, being immediately overwhelmed by a high pitched, brutal shriek.

“MUD BLOOD, BLOOD TRAITORS, BESMIRCHING THE HOUSE OF MY FATHERS. DISGUSTING, FILTHY-”

“SHUT UP YOU FUCKING HAG!”

You were frozen in a state of terror, already you were messing up and you haven’t even said anything yet. 

“Y/N, right?”

Your wide eyes moved towards the figure with sleek ebony curls. The intense grey eyes were intimidating, but once you looked closer you saw the twinkle of humor in them. You shook his tattooed clad hands and tried not to let your knees buckle under his firm grasp. 

“Yes, and I’d ask you yours, but the daily prophet has done a great job of introducing me already.”

His smile was genuine, but you could read into that touch of sadness. But he was quick to shake it off.

“Don’t mind my mother, I promise she’s just as unpleasant as you get to know her.”

“I’m so sorry, I didn’t know that-”

“Oh don’t worry about it love. No one told you. It’s amazing that you could come, Remus says you were one of his best students. Really exceptional at defense against the dark arts.”

Heat flushed to your face at the praise and the mention of your favorite professor.

“Professor Lupin is here too?”

Your question was quickly answered when those familiar arms you would stare at entranced in class were draped over Sirius’s shoulders.

“Nice to see you Y/N, but you’re not my student anymore so please, just call me Remus.”

“Feels illegal but sounds good Remus.”

You all found your way to the dining room table and tried your best not to be intimidated by the row of wizards you admired and respected so much. Before you got the chance to breathe though Molly had you trapped in a tight bear hug.

“Oh Y/N, so good to see you dear. Of course I’m not happy about the circumstance, but all the same, glad to know you’re here and safe.”

There was no oxygen left in your lungs to respond, so you just smiled and accepted her warm embrace.

“Molly, if you want her safe and healthy you might want to give her the chance to breathe.”

Grateful for Remus’s interjection you gave Molly a quick peck on the cheek, while she released you bashfully. 

“Thank you Molly.”

 The meeting itself was fine, it was the dinner afterwards that had you terrified, because right across from you was Sirius and Remus. Two of the most attractive men you’ve ever seen and their unrelenting questions and invested eye contact had the embarrassment coming up all at the same time. That didn’t deter them though. If anything it sprung even more questions and conversation starters. You didn’t even notice everyone else had left, leaving just you three at the table. You were cupping some tea between both hands, while Remus was leaning against Sirius’s shoulder. Sirius was replicating the affection by wrapping an arm around his shoulder.

It was peaceful, never had you felt so comfortable in the presence of other people before. So safe. 

“Y/N, I’m glad you came, like I said Remus speaks very highly of you and we need all the help we can get. So if you want to invite your boyfriend or something to join, you should.”

“Oh, I don’t have a boyfriend actually, but speaking of which I had no idea you guys were together. You’re a really beautiful couple.”

Remus only smiled a little, but Sirius’s grin was proud.

“Thanks Y/N, you’re really quite beautiful too. We’re actually not gay though though, we’re both bisexual. We’ve even been known to have thirds in relationships. Nothing permanent though, haven’t found that right person.”

“Does that mean that you’re still open to-?

“Oh absolutely, there’s this girl we actually have our eyes set on right now.”

Your face fell.

“Oh, well if you two like her then she must be lovely.”

Remus and Sirius shared a look, clearly amused by your cluelessness and we all know what teases they can be. Remus spoke up this time.

“OH yeah, she’s a darling. She just joined the order.” 

“She has Y/H/C and Y/E/C. Exactly our type wouldn’t you say Remus?”

“An absolute beauty, exactly our type that’s for sure.”

“Yeah, she looks particularly cute when she holds a cup of tea, with an adorable confused expression.”

“I don’t understand, well I think I do but-”

Remus was sitting up straight now, zoning in on your troubled expression.

“Y/N, we want you. If you’re uncomfortable we can drop it and give you space from here on out and we’re so sorry for making you-”

“Wait. You guys like me? Like that?”

Sirius snorted at your surprise.

“How could we not? You’re completely captivating. Do you feel the same love?”

“I do, it’s just that I’m not experienced, like, at all. And you guys are so it’s intimidating.”

“We would never want to do anything to make you uncomfortable or unsafe. How about we talk more about this more tomorrow.”

Remus’s words were sincere, and well thought out. Yours were less eloquent, much more desperate sounding than you would have liked.

“No please, I need you now.”

Sirius was a man who smiled a lot. Always quick to let out a genuine, hearty laugh. But this was different. It was a taunting smile, a dangerous smile. And you were completely captivated. 

“Yeah? What’s got you so needy love? No one’s done anything yet.”

The table between you felt like it was keeping you miles apart. So you pouted, but Remus tutted. 

“Answer his question Pup, good girls speak up when told to.”

“I-I don’t know, I can’t help it. I’ve never felt like this before and I just need you.”

---

Clothes were discarded slower than you deemed necessary. Their clothes at least, not yours. You were only left in your underwear. They really just wanted to take their time with you, not worried about them, but you. You just looked so pretty sprawled out on their bed, it was impossible not to stop and admire your trembling figure. Remus slid behind you, allowing you to rest against his now bare chest. While Sirius knelt in between your legs, hovering over you, thumb running over your bottom lip. 

“So pretty baby. Can I take these off now?”

He was referring to your panties and you were all too eager to be rid of them. Except Sirius was still fully clothed, which wasn’t exactly ideal.

“Sure, but could you take this off?” You tugged at the bottom of his shirt suggestively, but Remus was tugging your arms back.

“That’s not how we ask for what we want love, try again.”

You bore into Sirius’s grey eyes. The twinkle of humour was gone, there was love and respect there, but mostly they were filled with hunger. His blatant lust had you nervous, not ever experiencing such intensity before. It had you subconsciously closing your legs. So Sirius was pouting.

“Darling you don’t have to be shy, we like hearing what you have to say.”

You sighed and spread your legs again while Remus robbed your arms soothingly.

“S-siri, can you take off your shirt please. I wanna see you.”

“Good girl for asking so nice.”

He departed from the bed to remove all but his boxers, and it just reaffirmed that you’d be spending hours tracing his tattoos later. Emphasise on the later, cause at the moment you’d rather spend time with him doing something else. He seemed to be feeling much the same, but had to pause to chuckle at your dazed reaction.

“See something you like?”

“Yeah.”

“Me too.”

Remus pressed a kiss to the back of your head. 

“Alright love, you ready? Do you want this?”

“Yes, please. Do you want this?”

“Of course love.”

Once Sirius was nestled between your thighs again he gave one reassuring peck before making his journey downward. He started sucking right below your ear, and you were already whimpering. He could get drunk on that noise. All the sounds you released so willingly as he nipped your collar bone, kissed your hip, and sank his teeth into your inner thigh. Right next to where you needed him most. He didn’t give you much time to complain though, cause soon enough that last barrier of clothing was being discarded and your fingers found their way through his black tresses. The vibrations of his moan against your clit had you bucking into his face. He kept his palms planted firmly on your thighs.

“That feel good Puppy? No one’s ever made you feel like this huh? Gotta stay still though, can’t make you feel good of you can’t stay still.”

“F-feels so good.”

“I know baby, Moony how bout you help her practice for another time.”

Remus seemed to understand what he meant and you were confused until-

“Open up pretty girl.”

Until Remus’s fingers were brushing past your lips. You started sucking on them as if it was second nature. 

Sirius went back to suckling against your clit, but this time one of his fingers was teasing your entrance. Which once had you whining against Remus’s fingers, so he pulled them out to let you speak. 

“What is it baby.”

“P-Please Siri.”

“By that way, how does she taste?”

He answered by inserting his pointer finger briefly before bringing it to Remus’s lips. Remus released it with a dramatic pop. 

“Now I think I’m jealous, Hurry up Pads so I can get a turn.”

You never thought you had this type of response in you, but Sirius’s fingers thrusting in and out of you was sending shocks through your body. Every touch burned in the best way possible and it was only a short matter of time until the coil snapped. 

“Are you gonna be a good girl and cum for us Y/N?”

“Y-yeah. Please, feels so good.”

“Bet it does, let go for us darling, I know you can.”

He placed delicate kisses across your shoulders as you released all over Sirius’s face and fingers. Despite not being the one who came Sirius parted ruefully with a heaving chest. Remus beckoned him closer and as soon as he was within reach Remus was cleaning off his glistening face with his tongue. A sight you found all too arousing.

“Did so good Y/N, you too Pads. My turn now.”

“Please I need to be inside of her so bad.”

Remus pondered for a moment.

“Could you be gentle with her as she needed. You’d have to be.”

“She was clenching around my fingers… don’t know how I’d respond with her wrapped around my cock. You’re right Moony.”

And there you were, wishing they’d skip the whole talking like you weren’t even there, and just fuck you already. Luckily your desire looked as if it was going to be satiated shortly as Remus and Sirius switched places. When Remus removed his clothes you stared at his member with complete and utter desire. He mistook it for nervousness though.

“It’s alright love, if you want to stop we can. We can go at your pace and I promise if you’re in any pain at all that we can-”

Your voice sounded pained, raspy and desperate as if you were being deprived of oxygen.

“Remmy, I need you. Please I need it so bad.”

He sighed in relief and stroked his length as he settled over top of you.

“I got you. Such a good girl using her manners. Tell me if it hurts at all okay.”

Chest against chest was not close enough, even that could not satisfy the desire, the need, to be close to Remus. It seemed he was replicating your feelings as he drank up every moan that flew past your lips. If Sirius wasn’t rubbing your arms and soothing your hairline you never would have been grounded enough to tell that this was reality. 

“Fuck, you weren’t kidding Pads. She’s so tight I can barely move. You feel so good love.”

Your high pitched moans were gradually becoming more staccato as Remus thrust into you.

“I-it’s not my fault you’re so big.”

“S’ not a bad thing at all Pup. You like my cock, you like being stretched out like this?”

“Yes yes yes. So much, please please Da-”

Embarrassment creeped up from the back of your mind, all the way to your cheeks, but Sirius noticed.

“What were you gonna call him baby. C’mon now, don’t be shy.”

Remus halted his movements to stare at your face intently.

“I- I don’t wanna, M’embarrassed”

Remus gave one more thrust to emphasise his point.

“Say it.”

You knew by the stern look on his face it was better to obey, or else you wouldn’t get what you wanted.

“Daddy, please let me cum. You feel so good. You’re so big daddy I-fuck”

You were cut off by your own moaning as Remus proceeded to thrust at a rapid pace.

“Cum then.”

It was like you were being blindsided. If you were standing you would have been knocked off your feet. Sirius held your hand the whole way, and your grip only tightened as Remus chased his own high. 

“Where do you want me to cum baby?”

“Please cum inside me Daddy.”

“Yeah, you want Daddy to breed you? So pretty and innocent, didn’t know you were so dirty baby. I’m gonna stuff you full sweet girl- FUCK.”

He bit into your shoulder as he painted your insides with his release, and you found yourself whimpering as he pulled out. Remus was always a good caretaker though.

“It’s alright sweetheart. You did so good. Let’s get you cleaned up.”

“No wait-”

“What is it pup?”

“Siri needs to feel good too.”

“If you’re sure then go ahead love.” Remus scootched out of the way so Sirius could situate you where he wanted. And that was face pressed into the mattress apparently. He sheathed himself fully inside of you, pressed his chest against your back so he could reach your ear and whisper.

“My turn, we’ll see who you’re calling Daddy at the end of this.”

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Bonus

The prospect of war was terrifying. You were so focused on protecting everyone around you. So it was a great comfort knowing, as you slept in between Sirius and Remus, that you had two people who would go to all ends to keep you safe.

Because besides each other they now had something even more undeniably precious. 

You.

Their perfect Y/N. 

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@sunny-bunnny @quindolyn @accioweaslcy @bluemoonyblurbs @weasleyposts

[forthehpfanboys]

Three is a Crowd

Pair: Remus Lupin x Reader x Sirius Black; he/him.

Summary: Sirius, you and Remus weren't scared to hide your relationship, but when it came to more.. Private matters, they obviously preferred keeping it personal. Plus, who doesn't love teasing Remus?

Warnings: SMUT (MDI), dirty talk, poly relationship, Wolfstar (but is that even a warning?), hair pulling, short mention of daddy. use of a collar at the end. If I missed any, please dm me.

Notes: Me, knowing damn well I have a busy life, but takes every request I get because I can’t say no. Oh, and the gif by me using other people's gifs- Might make a part two. Top Remus tho. 

~DO NOT REPOST ANYWHERE~

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It wasn’t hard to catch the boy's attention. James and Lily loved to joke that they were wrapped around your finger, which they were. All you had to do was sway your hips a little bit or bend over right or just lick your lips innocently. They really were, they weren't afraid to admit it and of course you used it to your advantage, but you still love them. That always came first.

 Sirius and Remus had fallen head over heels for you during their time during Hogwarts. Both could pinpoint it exactly. The two men were already an item when you showed up at the school- a transfer student. You were introduced to them by Lily, something about you being a distant cousin of hers and you quickly became a new founded Marauder. 

Remus fell for you first. It was around the time they were all studying to become animagus and he discovered you were bloody brilliant! After months of struggling with the stupid ritual, you were the final piece they needed to figure it all out. And you didn’t judge him over something he couldn’t control, so that was a bonus to him, of course. But how could you judge him for his lycanthropy? Almost everyone in the wizarding world hated him for this one simple thing, 

Meanwhile, Sirius’ was a lot more simple. He noticed you by your slick comebacks. Like holy Merlin’s beard- Sirius was convinced your words could cause someone to physically combust. He’d never seen that happen, but he has seen you make 8th years cry. He’s also a hundred percent certain you have a thesaurus lying under your pillow. He didn’t know the word ‘imbecile’ had so many synonyms. And you helped him help his best friend so of course he fell in love with you.

So, when you fell for them, a natural love for being between both boys formed. This random craving would kick in whenever you were around the two of them. Whether it was you three walking to the next class or sitting in the Gryffindor common room, you just had to be between them. It was quite literally your favorite place on this planet. But there were rules- of course there were.  

One of the main rules was no teasing in front of friends. Believe it or not, James had a limit on how much sexual tension he could sit through in one lunch period, so he enforced the rule, which was.. Unusual to say the least. Usually Remus created the rules to keep you and Sirius in check. He had a switch and a sub under his belt and it could be a struggle, especially when they were bratty and they’d team up against him.

Which is exactly what you two had been doing all day; harassing poor Moony despite whoever was near. During potions, Sirius had palmed Remus while you playfully whispered in the werewolf’s ear, calling him daddy and asking for help with your most innocent voice. Watching your boyfriend squirm and slap Sirius’ hand away was genuinely humorous. It became down right funny when he threatened to punish both of you by not talking to you, but you both knew he’d do more than that. Knowing Remus would drag you both by your ties to the dorm room and straight up ruin you two, you both eased off him, letting him continue his notes in peace, but once potions were over, the teasing immediately continued.

Soon enough, classes were over and the three of you were walking back to the dorms. It was easy to see Remus was sick of your shit, so while he led you to his prefect room, you and Sirius were looking at each other. Sirius shrugged, looking as laid back as he felt, but you were a tad more nervous. Sometimes Remus could be downright mean. 

“You two are insufferable!” Remus hollered, his hand rubbing his temple as he shoved open his door. “I know you love my reactions, guys, but seriously? Was grabbing my ass over my robe necessary?” He had his arms crossed over his chest and turned around to glare at you and Sirius. 

“You know it was, baby.” Sirius winked while shutting the door behind him. He walked around you, dragging a hand across your lower back before diving onto Remus’  bed. He laid on his back, spreading his legs and placing his hands behind his head. Your eyes shamelessly dragged across the sliver of pelvic bone peaking out under his white collared shirt.

“I thought it was a bit much.” You shrugged, looking over to Moony’s glowing eyes. A smirk grew across your lips when he pointed at you, his eyes narrowing at you.

“Being a kiss ass does not mean you’re free, mister. You’re in just as much trouble as that one.” His point moved to the man laying on the bed, who clearly couldn’t care less. He ran a hand through his hair and plopped down onto the edge of the bed. He even smacked Sirius’ hand away when it gripped his hip. “Down, boy.”

“Ouchies! My pride.” Sirius mocked your voice and rubbed his hand, a chuckle leaving his lips. He couldn’t help but lick his lips. His dark eyes flicked over to you, his smirk growing as he nodded his head in the direction of Remus’ back.

“Good. I’m mad at you.” The werewolf ducked his head down before running a hand through his hair, making the curly locks messier than usual. He beckoned you over with two curling fingers and waited patiently for you to stand in front of him. Once you were in arms reach, he cupped both of your cheeks in each hand and smiled at you, bringing your face closer to his. “What am I going to do with you?” He whispered, his breath fanning over your lips. 

“I’m not sure, but I know Sirius technically did more damage than I did. I’m your bestest boy.” You grinned, grabbing his wrists and kissing a palm. Your grin turned into a side smirk when Sirius let out a weak ‘hey!’ behind your brunette boyfriend. 

Suddenly, Remus’ arms were twisting around your waist and he was falling backwards onto the bed, taking you down with him. You let out a yelp while colliding with your soft boyfriend's chest.

“I think I know what I’m going to do with you.” Remus’ head was resting on Sirius’ tummy, allowing the animagus to run his fingers through soft hazel nut locks, which Remus easily ignored. Meanwhile, Lupin was cheekily slipping his hand under your shirt. His calloused palms glided across your skin, rubbing your hip gently before moving up to your belly. “I’m going to ignore the little bastard behind me and I’m going to focus on you, pretty boy.”

“Hey! (Y/n) messed with you too, Rem! You’re being unfair!” Sirius sat up a little, bracing his body weight on his elbows as he glared down at his freckle covered partner. His jaw dropped when Remus flicked his nose before skillfully tugging your shirt over your head. “Un-fuckin’-believable.” Sirius grumbled, laying back on the bed and crossing his arms over his chest.

"Your smart mouth is why I’m ignoring you.” Remus spoke nonchalantly, one hand slipped into your back pocket, gave your butt a tight squeeze, while the other steadily began climbing toward your chest. His hand in your pocket held your hips down while his hips grinded up into yours. His eyes darkened at the needy whine that left your lips when his rough thumb pad ran over one of your nipple.

See, Remus always enjoyed seeing you react to him. He could write down all of it. He could fill enough books with his favorite things about you to cause an empty Hogwarts library to overflow. How your eyes would roll back into your skull, how your jaw would go slack with need and how your breath catches in the middle of your throat, leaving you breathless, how you’d moan his name. He loved wrecking you, utterly destroying you.

His scar covered hand moved up to your hip, getting a steadier grip so he could really raise his hips and roll them against yours. The hand on his chest delicately rolled a nipple between the thumb and forefinger. He thought you were a piece of art, painted just for him. Your heart was pounding in your ears. Remus was quickly becoming the only coherent thought in your head. You could smell his perfume and it was only fogging up your head worse than his touch. You let out a moan, your eyelids drooping a tad.

"You like that, baby?" he whispered into your open mouth, kissing the corner before sliding his lips down to the corner of your jaw. He licked a fat, flat line across the point, running up to your earlobe before sucking on it. 

The werewolf grinded up into you harder, a growl emitting from his throat that would scare even the toughest of creatures. He let out a loud, breathy loan when you nodded and copied his hip movements. 

"Of course you do. You're not a brat or a whiney bitch- you're perfect." 

Suddenly, Sirius was sitting up and Remus was going silent, almost frozen in his place. Both were listening quite intently over your heavy breathing when loud, stomping footprints made themselves known. Sirius watched in amusement while Remus threw you on to the empty bed space next to him and magicked a blanket over the both of you.

James was pushing open the door about as loudly and hazardously as his footsteps. The door bounced off the wall and collided with his still outstretched arm. You sat up, slowly coming back from the pleasure filled bliss, and slowly becoming more and more pissed you just got cock-blocked by one of your more oblivious friends.

“James, sorry, mate, we’re in the mi-” Sirius was rudely cut off by the messy haired idiot. Spit flew from James’ mouth as he spoke aggressively, his hand waving around as he spoke.

"Can you believe him?!" the Seeker hollered, acting as if his friends, best friends knew immediately what he was talking about. He strode into the middle of the room, pacing in front of the polygamous couple, clearly pissed. It didn't take long for Peter to follow in after, either. 

"No, Prongs, you're not exactly telling us anything." Remus spoke up, acting as if he totally wasn't just grinding against you. He was good at keeping his voice level and that it had you confused. 

"Little Sour Grape Snape thinks he can try to push that whole fiasco on me like I meant for it to happen?" James yelled out again, almost completely ignoring Remus. Peter sat on the bed across from the trio, his eyes glued to James as he paced. You looked at Sirius, who turned to you, and shrugged, scooting to sit right next to Remus.  

"Wanna share what's goin' on, Pete?" Sirius asked, finally scooting to be face to face with the soft boy, and sitting on the other side of Remus. His hand landed on Remus' thigh, gently rubbing over the blanket.

The chubby boy played with his fingers, his mouth opening quickly to tell the tale of Snape and his stupid complaining and blood status shit. However, Remus, nor you, could focus because Sirius’ hand was moving under the blanket and going straight between Remus’ legs. 

The sun was setting behind the vast forest, effectively blocking natural light, leaving the room slightly colder and darker than before. Sirius knew it was hard to see what was going on under the blanket, so all carefulness got thrown out the window. 

Sirius' hand slid between Remus' thighs, using a hand to hide his smirk. He nodded his head along, as if he was really listening and invested in the story. You turned to Sirius, following his arm and the lump under the blanket and got the idea- and it only became reinforced when Sirius gave you a dramatic wink.

Your own hand slid under the blanket, landing on your werewolf boyfriend's knee, you thumb caressing it gently. Your hand didn’t stay there long. You began to move it up, moving slowly, just inch by inch, stopping suddenly when Remus’ hand clamped around your wrist.

“Boys, stop it.” Remus growled out, but it seemed more directed to Sirius. You were worried for a second that James or Peter heard, but when they kept going on and on, delving deeper and deeper into the story, you realized they were absolutely clueless. You decided to test the waters, slowly running your hand down and then back up, a tad higher, but Moony left his hand on your wrist.

“I said, cut it out. Now.” The brunette’s voice was deep enough to cause a shudder to go down your spine and it went straight to your dick. You jumped when his hand landed on your thigh, giving you a warning squeeze that you once again ignored and moved your hand closer to the inside of his thigh. 

You felt fingers run over yours at the top of his thigh and suddenly Remus’ thigh muscles were tightening. Padfoot had run his fingers over his hard-on. You knew you were both pushing it, but you kept going. You heard the brunette groan into his hand, his eyelids fluttering for a second before his gaze hardened and he sunk his teeth into his bottom lip. You could hear the low growl emitting from this throat.

So while James and Peter told their elaborate and stupidly long story, you both teased your partner, enjoying how he tried to sit still and refused to even look at you two. Remus’ jaw was pulled tight, his eyes darker than the night, and his lips drawn into a thin line. Eventually, it came to an end, and the two left, James complaining loudly that no one cared like he did and suddenly the blanket was thrown across the room.

Remus stood up, giving you a glare that you couldn’t help but find hot as hell. You always loved riling him up, but you also loved managing to wiggle out of punishments. Sirius always bitched about you getting away nearly scot free, but you’d just blow raspberries at him. It was funny, honestly, not that you were laughing now. It was clear both of you took it too far.

“You two are in a whole heap of fucking trouble. I can not believe you today, especially you. You’re such a bad influence on my baby.” Remus pointed at Sirius, his brows drawn tight together in pure anger. His eyes were lit up like with fire and the veins on his neck were protruding from underneath the skin in the sexiest way. The simple feature had you clenching your thighs, hoping to release some tension or get a touch or something.

“Our baby. Besides, you’re overreacting Rem.” Sirius shrugged, leaning back on his hands. He blew a stand of hair out of his face, acting like everything was fine and dandy while his boyfriend had steam blowing out of his ears.

His simple sentence caused the brunette’s eye to twitch and you knew he had dug himself a bigger whole. You put your hands in your lap like a good boy and sat, watching the two argue, knowing it was going to be a very long night.

“Oh. I’m overreacting, huh? Do you wanna say that again?” His tone was so flat, almost like he was talking to an idiotic teenager who did exactly what he was told not to do, the messy haired animagus was sitting up quickly, realizing he fucked up- again.

“No, no. That’s not what I meant, baby, you’re getting my words twisted. I meant it’s my fault and that you might be getting a tad carried away. Please don’t be mad at me.” Sirius put on his most dazzling smile and softest voice. He was trying to do what you did so well and wiggle his way out of punishments. “Have I ever mentioned how hot you look when you're mad?”

It was funny, really, how Sirius was saying exactly what you were thinking.

“No, dove, I’m not mad at you.” Remus threaded his hand slowly through Sirius' wavy hair, a small, sweet smile spread across his cheeks. Sirius let out a sigh, a huge grin matching his boyfriends, his eyes sparkling with pure joy in the dim light.

"I'm glad you're so understanding, honey bunches. I love you so, so, so much." Sirius spoke, leaning forward, lips puckered to plant a kiss to the brunettes. You really thought he had known Moony better. Moony very, very rarely let either of you off the hook for something like this. 

However, Remus didn't let him move very far. His fingers latched onto the hair at the top of Sirius' head and ripped it back, causing his neck to bend backward and a whorish moan escaped his lips. Siri’s hands shot up to grip the one tugging his head back and he had to strain his eyes to look at his Moony.

"I’m fucking livid, Sirius. You're such a slut. Surely you know me better than that. Have I ever let you get away with behavior like that?” Remus waited for an answer. He wasn’t very patient though, because soon, he was pulling on the long locks again. “Well?”

“No.” Sirius groaned out. He seemed grumpy he couldn’t cute his way out of this like he was sure you could. You figured you could probably avoid the punishment by sneaking out, knowing Remus wouldn’t send a search party after you. And if you made a good enough excuse, he’d let you go with a harsh spanking and the promise of no orgasms for the day, which didn’t seem too terrible.

“Do I have to treat you like a slut?" his lips pressed against a pulse point but didn't place a single kiss to Sirius' lips. "Maybe I should put a muzzle on your filthy mouth and tie you up. Put you in the closet while I fuck our dearest silly, hmm?"

Remus pulled away, this time tugging Sirius' eyes level with his. The werewolf let out a snicker, enjoying the way tears of pain had gathered in his boyfriends eyeline.

"I should teach you who's in charge. What do you say pumpkin?" Remus turned to the spot where you were seated and noticed it was empty. "Pumpkin?" He turned around and saw you trying to sneak out of the dorms door.

He reached into his pocket, tsking all the while casting a spell that caused a collar to appear around your neck with a pop. You let out a squeak, your heads going to the new leather.

"Do I have to put both of you in your place?” Remus pushed Sirius away and walked swiftly over to you, grabbing the d ring on the front of your collar. He gave it a tug, effectively keeping your eyes on his. “You’re not being my good boy, are you?”

“No..” Unlike Sirius, you answered quickly. You looked up at Remus, eyes wide, owlish and feigning innocence. “But I-”

“Quiet. You’re usually so good for me, darling. I bet you picked up the disrespect from our boyfriend, didn’t you? I’m gonna have to fuck the attitude out of you.” He tugged on the d-ring, dragging you with him as he walked back over to the bed. “Sirius, against the headboard.”

Without hesitation, the niorette shuffled toward the headboard, resting his back against it. He learned quickly to keep his mouth shut. With the new space made, Remus pushed you forward and laughed when your hands came out in front of you to catch your fall, but slipped on the silk bedspread. Your chest collided with the plush mattress, a pained cry leaving your lips when your knees collided with the wooden floor.

“Owie, Rem!” You turned to look back at him, but he grabbed your hair and forced your cheek against the mattress. You looked back at him, your cheeks turning pink with embarrassment and you tried to pout your way out of this, like usual.

“Shut up, bunny. Daddy’s not going easy on you this time, so be a good boy and take what I fucking give you.”

[elav-exo]

Jily (Flowerpott) Rant

A confession: Jily really hasn't meant much to me until the Jegulus blow up (especially on TikTok).

It's not that I disliked Jily but in the main HP series, it was just a fact that it existed, and when I joined the Marauders fandom they became more than names on paper and I was able to see them as more, but still, I was mainly focused on Wolfstar.

And to be clear, this is not going to be a Jegulus hate rant even if I don't ship it. Yes, I've read Choices and enjoyed it to a certain extent. And this is where lies the problem.

One of the main things that I disliked about this specific fic (no hate to the author though) was how pureblood politics/prejudice was handled. And at its core, we know that HP is a (bad) allegory for WW2 and Jewish people have expressed their dislike at how it was handled. I won't comment further on this part as I'm not Jewish, but when I first read HP in middle school I took it and still see it through a race lens.

And let me tell you as woc I'm not saying that people can't write or read about magical racism but I would rather it be done right. And to me, a lot of Jegulus content doesn't handle this correctly which is what turns me away from it, because when it isn't done right it takes me out of the fic and has me remember irl interactions/situations that are what I'm actively trying to not think about when reading fics.

And it also includes the idea that many people within the Marauders have raised that because most of what we know has been built off of crumbs of crumbs there are several depictions of the same character and sometimes they can contradict each other.

So when I see James Potter have a romantic relationship with a person who tries not to use slurs in front of him and insinuates (even admits at one point) that he doesn't think or care much about muggleborns and in fact upholds blood purity by being a bystander fucks me up because that also makes James a fucking bystander and upholds blood purity imo one of the worst ways possible as well as deviating from his fanon characterization that has been pretty stable pre-Jegulus.

It's literally giving "liberal" yt women with conservative boyfriends.

Again, I'm using Choices as the specific fic to explain my frustrations because it's a fic (I'm assuming) most people have read and know, and/or it's the fic that introduced them to this ship.

And it irks me that in the fic Regulus called Lily a mudblood which is canonically a slur and there were people defending his actions because of his trauma and circumstances. And yes, Regulus suffered the consequences of being involved in an alt-right allegory group, but in the end, is awarded by being able to join James in the afterlife.

I'm aware of kids and teenagers in the alt-right like Regulus can go through their own struggles like seen in the fic, but it doesn't fucking excuse the fact that kids who are minorities are suffering as well.

Just because Regulus went through SA doesn't excuse a lot of the horrible things that he did. And many people like to point out the fact that he tried destroying a Horcrux and died doing so was something that absolved him of all his previous actions. Especially when in Choices, my interpretation of this situation was that Regulus didn't like being a Death Eater not because it was wrong, but because it hurt to be at odds with James. And that he wanted someone to defeat Voldemort because he wanted to be with James, not because non-pureblood wizards also had a right to live.

Lily in Choices was better than because if I found out that the person my s/o had a secret relationship with in high school was the one who called me a slur b/c at the end of the day he was a (magical) racist and allowed his friends to harass and call me slurs too AND LATER CHEATED on me with while pregnant then yeah Harry would've been fatherless for a different reason.

On a less serious (?) note, what has pushed me away from enjoying Jegulus content is the idea that mlm ships are often more shipped within a fandom compared to f/m ships. This often happens when f/m ships aren't properly handled and authors don't care enough to actually give the female romantic interest a personality so the fandom focuses on the male lead with their best friend who seems to have more chemistry.

And yes this turned me away despite the fact that I have many mlm ships because I've seen (some) Jegulus shippers say that there isn't much to be explored with Jily and I wholeheartedly disagree with that. They also say that it's a het ship and my question is, is it really? Because why are we assuming that they're both cishet? When has the ever stopped us from having hc like perhaps both James and Lily are bi? Never, so why not explore that in a Jily context?

Because it's the 70s and while gay and lesbian people were at the forefront of change in regards to LG issues, bisexual people or non-monosexual people were not only excluded from cishet society but from the queer community. We still are tbh with biphobia deniers but that's for another rant for another time.

So why not have Jily explore bisexuality within this context. Why not explore their friendship before dating in their 7th year which can lead to them having relationships with others that lead to questions like why do I feel jealous, they're one of my best friends and they can date whoever. And then they figure stuff out before they realize yeah they're the one for me.

Why not explore their bisexuality within the wizarding world and the muggle world? You can even explore pureblood politics with them as well if you really want. Like while James sees himself as one of the good purebloods he still is one and doesn't know the extent of the discrimination and prejudice muggleborns and halfbloods go through. It doesn't have to be Lily specifically teaching him, but he could learn himself when he observes how Lily's family like other muggle families doesn't have accessibility or the appropriate information about the wizarding world.

There are so many other things we can explore with Jily and it would be wonderful to see an f/m ship that's written well because again most f/m in media are half-assed and not appropriate for young audiences to have them on a pedestal especially since so many allow for internal and external misogyny, so why not try for a healthier relationship?

Anyways, these were just some of the thoughts in my head, so if anything doesn't make much sense it's because I wrote this without any outline in mind and just went with it.

I might come back to this to elaborate on certain points but who knows.

[thecarnivorousmuffinmeta]

Your thoughts on wolfstar? I did not find anything in your marauders master post on it. It's just... such a weird pairing for me. I don't understand why it is weird for me, and at the same time I don't understand why people ship them.

I address them somewhat here.

As for asking me about pairings, well, I'll give my two cents but keep in mind that you're better off asking a shipper. If you want the how's and why's of someone loving this pairing, then it's best to go to the source.

I'm just here for the heresy of it all.

Thoughts on Remus/Sirius

Regardless, I don't see it. Or, rather, if I do see it then it's a toxic wasteland of a relationship that is terrible for all parties involved. (I'm about to get flogged for this, I'm sure.)

So, what's the trouble?

First, Sirius never seems all that interested in Remus. Throughout canon, and the glimpses we have in the past, he is far more interested in James. Remus is... the charity friend, it was James who was actually Sirius' best friend by far. This, obviously, is a big obstacle for the pairing.

Second, the werewolf incident. Sirius uses Remus, nearly causes him to become a murderer or else ruin Severus Snape's life against his will, and isn't sorry about it. Remus, had Dumbledore not covered for him, would have been expelled and likely imprisoned if not executed/banished. And Sirius did this for a laugh, because it was funny.

Remus knows all of this, and I imagine he never truly forgave Sirius for it. Certainly, when it looked as if Sirius betrayed the Potters, Remus didn't question it. Because, in retrospect, Remus could say he wasn't that surprised. Look what Sirius did before.

I doubt Sirius and Remus could ever truly be friends again after this. Oh, they pretended, but the friendship was broken. Shortly later, Sirius and James believe Remus is a spy. Remus has to live with everything that has happened. Given friendship's not on the table, romance certainly isn't.

Third, and somewhat related to the werewolf incident, but Sirius doesn't take Remus' condition seriously. He and James treated it as a joke, a cool quirk Remus has. And yeah, it's great they're so accepting, but Remus is living with a chronic condition that leaves him in agony every month, that will deny him employment for the rest of his life, and leave him destitute. And there's James and Sirius calling it his 'furry little problem'. There's this self-congratulatory air about it, that the Marauders thought they were so progressive because they were friends with a werewolf, without ever having to understand what it means to be a werewolf. And then, of course, Sirius using said chronically ill best friend to nearly murder a classmate.

And then of course there's Sirius. He spent ten years in hell on earth, comes out a broken and barely functioning man, and one who has to confront that his best friends are either dead, traitors, or believed he was the scum of the earth. I don't see Sirius ever truly forgiving Remus for believing he was a Death Eater, never mind Sirius thought Remus was a spy, but to me Sirius would never truly be able to forgive that. If Remus had fought for him, then perhaps Sirius never would have been sent to Azkaban. Remus didn't, and what does that say about how Remus views Sirius?

There's nothing left between them by the point we reach canon except barely restrained hostility, bitter feelings, and empty nostalgia for a time that will never return to them.

And if they did have a romantic relationship on top of all of this? It would be to make the other suffer, to take out all the rage over lycanthropy, the imprisonment, the werewolf incident, every little thing that stands between them after all these years. It would be thinly veiled hatred in the form of sexual intercourse.

Why Does Everyone Else Ship It?

They're Harry's cool gay uncles. The movies softened Sirius a lot and made him a lot less unhinged, they also made Lupin generally more pleasant, which makes them easier figures to ship. And with them you get the idea that Harry can have his found families (without the Weasleys).

He can have these two cool uncles who were his parents best friends and they can have breakfast together and eat waffles and wouldn't it be wonderful? They can tell Harry it's okay to like Draco Malfoy, not everyone's like those repressed muggles, and everything can be jolly and good in the world.

People adore this and they desperately want to fix Harry's situation, fix his world and his family life. More, everyone loves Sirius, he's the funny character, and Remus having such history with him, being a friend, is the obvious character to throw at him.

Which is why we get Remus/Sirius in many fics, even as just a secondary pairing to whoever Harry's chasing after today.

[marauders-venting]

It Can’t Be

pairing: wolfstar (remus x sirius)

genre: angst

warnings: lots of mentions of death and a funeral, grief and mourning

words: 1906

a/n: this fic is an au in which Sirius has a trial. He is found innocent and Peter is arrested. the fic is set after the trial has ended

Sirius stood, his hands clenched so tight on the handle of Harry’s stroller that his knuckles were white. It had been a good idea to bring the stroller because there was no way he could’ve carried Harry in his arms right now. His whole body was shaking. It had only been a few days since Lily and James had died but so much had happened since then. Sirius had been to Azkaban and had a trial, Peter had been arrested, Remus had disappeared and suddenly Sirius was Harry’s legal guardian. With everything that had happened, Sirius hadn’t even had time to process it, let alone accept it. In his mind, Lily and James Potter could not be dead. They just couldn’t. But evidently, they were because Sirius was attending their funeral at the moment. They were because any minute he would have to give his eulogy. Sirius wasn’t sure if he’d be able to do it but he had to. He owed it to Lily and James.

So when the minister called Sirius up to speak, he rolled Harry’s stroller over to the front of the room and faced everybody. Sirius looked around at the people in the room; their expressions were passive. These people don’t care about Lily and James, Sirius thought. No, all they care about is that Voldemort is gone. The only person other than himself who looked even remotely sad was Professor McGonagall, who was sitting in the back of the room, dabbing her eyes with a handkerchief. And… Remus! He’s here. Remus is here. Well of course he’s here you idiot, he arranged the funeral, said a voice in his head, he set this up for Lily and James while you were moping in a prison cell. Sirius needed the voice to shut up. He didn’t have time for this now. He wanted to honour Lily and James properly. So he took a deep breath and spoke.

“James Potter was my best friend,” he said, ignoring the ache in his chest and the tears pricking his eyes. “He was my brother. Never have I known a person so full of kindness and love for other people and so willing to share it.” It was only ever with him that I felt truly safe. And now he’s gone. Sirius couldn’t say it. He swallowed hard and went on. “And Lily…” even just saying her name hurt, “Lily lit up every room she walked into.” There was more but Sirius couldn’t speak. Tears were streaming down his face. He skipped to the last few lines, the part he was determined to say before he collapsed. “She got f-far less time than she should have. They both did. If I could trade my life for theirs I would. James and Lily… they deserved the world—” Sirius choked. And I was going to give it to them. It was my job. And I failed. That was it. Sirius had written more but he couldn’t go on. “Thank you.” He walked back to his seat and buried his face in his hands. He didn’t care that these people were seeing him cry. He had failed. The least he could have done was properly eulogise Lily and James but he’d fucked that up too.

“Pa’foot?” came Harry’s voice. Sirius wiped his tears away and looked up.

“Yes, Harry?” he said quietly.

“Pa’foot sad,” Harry said.

“Nah, I’m not sad, Prongslet,” Sirius said, feeling a sharp stab of pain at the nickname. Prongslet. Little Prongs. Prongs’ kid. James’ kid. But James was gone. And Harry… Harry didn’t even seem to know that. “Come on,” Sirius said, picking Harry up out of the stroller and sitting him down on his lap. “Uncle Moony’s going to speak now so we need to be quiet.” Remus stood at the front of the room, about to give his eulogy.

“Moo’ee!” Harry called, waving at Remus. Remus gave Harry a small smile and wave, pointedly avoiding Sirius’ eyes.

“Shh,” Sirius whispered to Harry. “We need to be quiet, Harry.”

“Shh,” Harry repeated, putting a finger on his lips and looking from Sirius to Remus and then laying his head down on Sirius’ chest. Remus’ eyes flickered towards Harry and Sirius saw him bite his lip before starting.

“Lily and James were the kindest, most accepting people I have ever met,” Remus said, his voice shaking slightly. “They both had a knack for knowing when someone was upset and what exactly that person needed to feel better. And they would both do just about anything to help their friends. Knowing Lily and James and being their friend was an honour and a privilege. And I will never forget the kindness they showed me and the help they gave me.” Remus fell silent and for a moment Sirius thought he had finished but Remus closed his eyes for a moment and then continued.

“Often when people die young, we tend to say that they had just enough time or that they were so happy in their short time that their lives were fulfilled. And while Lily and James were certainly the two happiest people I have known, I refuse to stand here and say that it was just enough time or that it’s ok because they were so happy. It’s not ok and it wasn’t enough. Lily and James deserved more time than every person in this room combined; I’m just sorry that after everything they did for me, I couldn’t give that to them. Thank you.” Sirius thought that Remus’ eyes had met his for just a second. Or maybe not. Maybe he’d just imagined it.

There were tears on Remus’ cheeks and his hands were shaking but he returned to his seat, keeping his eyes on the floor. The minister said a number of prayers but Sirius’ mind kept fading in and out of focus. Lily and James are dead. But how can they be dead? They can’t. But they are. They’re dead.

When the funeral ended Sirius stood and started following the crowd of people heading for the exit but having a stroller meant that he had to wait for most people to leave before there was enough room for him and Harry to move. They were almost out of Godric’s Hollow when Sirius heard a voice coming from behind him.

“It’s your birthday today.” Sirius spun towards the voice. It was Remus.

“W-what?” he stuttered.

“It’s your birthday today,” Remus repeated.

“No, it’s n—” Sirius started. He thought for a moment. The 2nd of November. That’s today. “Oh, it… it is. I didn’t realise.” Silence. Sirius didn’t know what to say.

“I think we need to talk,” Remus said, quietly.

“Yeah,” Sirius said. “I think we do.” He couldn’t discern Remus’ tone but his heart was racing a million miles an hour as they walked back to their apartment in silence, allowing Harry to fall asleep in the stroller. No one said a word until they were back in their apartment.

“I’ll just put Harry down for a nap and then…” Sirius trailed off.

“And then we’ll talk,” Remus nodded, sitting down on the couch. Sirius pushed the stroller into Harry’s room, deciding it was better to let him sleep in the stroller than to risk waking him by moving him into his crib. Sirius closed the door quietly and returned to the living room, sitting down on the couch beside Remus. They were silent for a moment.

“So are you going to tell me why you hid that fact that you were changing Secret Keepers from me?” Here we go, Sirius thought. He knew he would have to have this discussion with Remus the moment his trial ended but he couldn’t look Remus in the eye. Sirius didn’t know if he was more consumed by grief or guilt. He forced himself to look up at Remus. He tried to put so many unsaid things into that look. Remus’ eyes widened with realisation and Sirius nodded.

“Remus,” he said, he wanted to reach out and hold his hand but did not think that the gesture would be kindly received. “I am so, so sor—”

“Don’t,” Remus said. He sounded angry and hurt. “You can’t just apologise for something… for something like this.”

“I know,” Sirius said, softly. He was so ashamed.

“No, you don’t know,” Remus said. “I trust you with every fibre of my being, Sirius. I’d trust you with my life! When you sent me that message telling me what Peter had done I believed you. There was loads of evidence against you but I didn’t suspect you even for a second! And you think that I would sell Lily and James to Voldemort based on nothing?”

“Remus, I was wrong,” said Sirius. “There’s no justification; I made a mistake and now everybody I love is suffering the consequences. But you were gone on missions for days at a time, you’d come back and you would barely talk to me. You wouldn’t tell me anything.”

“I didn’t tell you anything because Dumbledore had sworn me to secrecy! You knew that!”

“I know but Remus I was worried. I knew that you were spending a lot of time with werewolves who were rallying behind Voldemort and I was worried that they’d gotten to your head. And I tried to talk to you but you were shutting me out and I—”

“Don’t try to turn this on me!” said Remus. He was shaking. Tears were spilling from his eyes. “This is not my fault!”

“Of course it’s not,” said Sirius. He was crying too. “Of course it’s not but Remus, just try to understand where I’m coming from. I was terrified. I was terrified for James and Lily and Harry and I just—”

“I was terrified too! You know what? This was a bad idea. I think I should just go.” He stood up and walked to the door.

“No, Remus don’t! Don’t leave, please. You can’t go!”

“You… you have no right to tell me what I can and can’t do, Sirius!” Remus said. “You don’t get a say in what I do!”

“Remus please don’t go, please Rem I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” His voice was weak and clingy and pathetic; he didn’t care. He took Remus’ hand and Remus froze. Sirius stepped closer.

“I can’t be without you,” he whispered, his thumb brushing Remus’ cheek. Remus wasn’t looking him in the eyes but he wasn’t moving either. “I love you, Remus.” Sirius leaned in towards Remus and kissed him. And for a moment, he feels Remus kiss him back and in that moment Sirius really believes that everything will be ok, that everything will work itself out. But then Remus pulls away and steps back.

“Don’t! Don’t Sirius, just fucking stop! You can’t just kiss me and expect it to fix everything. You don’t get to do this!” Remus yells. “You don’t get to cry! You don’t get to guilt trip me! You don’t... you don’t get to say that you love me! You can’t fucking do that! It’s not fucking fair! Just... I need... I have to go,” he finishes quietly. “I need to get out of here. Goodbye Sirius.” Sirius watches him go. He watches him walk out the door and Disapparate. First Lily and James, then Peter and now Remus. They’re all gone. And they’re not coming back. And just like that, Sirius’ entire world collapses.

[ashthewaterghoul]

“Living Happily - A Wolfstar One Shot”

TW - physical assault, blood, discrimination, abusive family, homophobia and transphobia.

“Fuck!” Remus shouted as he threw the letter across the room.

“Remus!” Sirius said bouncing a baby Harry on his lap. “He’s starting to repeat things now, you need to be careful.”

“Another rejection! Because of ‘who I am and how I choose live’. I didn’t choose all this! Why are people like this?”

“They just don’t understand you, and that scares them.”

“It’s a good thing your family is so wealthy, we’d be on the street without that money.”

“But we’re not, and never will be. Hopefully I’ll hear back from the Ministry soon, and then you will get a job and we will be living happily.”

“Moo Moo.” Harry said reaching in Remus’ direction. Whenever Remus was down, all he had to do was look at Harry’s face, not only would he see the cute little boy, but also two of his best friends. He was identical to James, but he had Lily’s eyes. Keeping Harry safe was something that kept Remus going, providing for Harry the way his parents did.

The next day, Remus woke up early and went to the muggle shop down the street to get a few things. On the way back, he heard some whispers down an alleyway, he kept his head down and tried to continue home, but then the group of men charged out and tackled Remus to the ground. He knocked his head hard on the ground which winded him. As he gasped for air, he was beaten up by the men for what seemed like forever. Punch after punch, and kick after kick. After they were finally done, one of them spat on Remus and said: “Fucking disgrace”. They walked off like it was nothing.

Remus could barely find the strength to stand. He slipped on the milk which had burst out of the carton, falling once again to the floor, face first. His face was dripping blood as his nose had just broke. He limped his way back home, it wasn’t far but his weakness caused him to take a lot longer than it should, holding onto lamp posts, bus shelters and walls for support.

Sirius was in the kitchen feeding Harry when he heard the door open.

“Hey, Rem. Shop alright?” He looked over and his smile quickly faded as he saw his boyfriend bloodied and bruised.

“Holy fuck! Sit down.” After Sirius’ abuse from his mother, he knew something about healing. He sat down by Remus and started cleaning his wounds, wiping away the blood and healing him.

“What was it about this time?”

“I don’t know.”

“Was it muggles or wizards?”

“I don’t know, barely got a look at them.”

“This is why I tell you to take your wand with you!”

There was many reasons Remus could be a ‘fucking disgrace’, he was a half-blood, bisexual, dating a boy from the Black family, a werewolf and a transgender man.

Remus had been at war with his gender for as long as he knew. His parents always supported him, but they all knew it would put another target on his back. When his friends found out at school, about everything, they couldn’t have been happier for him. Sirius would help him bind his chest, James would be like his Mum telling him to take his hormone potions and Lily would always sneak him menstrual products. Whenever he tried out a new name they would always respect him and correct others, and when he decided on ‘Remus’, Sirius gave him the money to legally change it.

“Moo Moo okay?” Harry asked from his high chair.

“I’m just a little bit hurt.” Remus said.

“A little?! Remus you look like hell.”

“Thanks babe.”

When Sirius was done healing Remus, Harry lay on the sofa, cuddled up next to Remus and fell asleep, softly snoring. He looked at Harry’s little round face, he was so young and innocent, it only strengthened the part in Remus that made him want to protect him.

A thud by the window told them that the owl had just dropped off the post. There was today’s Prophet and a letter for Sirius.

“It’s from the Ministry!” Sirius said excitedly. As he read the letter, it was evident from his facial expression that it wasn’t good news.

“Dear Mr. Black,” he read aloud “We regret to inform you that your application for the muggle relations internship has been rejected. We think that given your family’s history, it would make muggles and muggle-borns feel unwelcome and unsafe.”

“That’s fu-, I mean, that’s messed up, Pads.”

“I always thought my family would haunt me, but I didn’t think it would be like this.” He said, collapsing on the armchair.

“Well, that’s another point for Team Gets-Rejected-For-Things-We-Didn’t-Choose.” Remus said “What jobs are going in the Prophet?”

“Not much, shop workers, DADA professor, and-“ Sirius’ grey eyes were fixed on one point.

“What? What did you see?”

“A position for a Healer at St. Mungo’s.”

“Well, you’re great at healing me, I reckon you go for it.”

“What about you?” He said tossing the paper at Remus. “Anything you like the look of?”

He scanned the section “The Ministry want someone to mange the werewolf registry.”

“Perfect, I reckon.”

“Perfect” Harry repeated, waking up from his brief sleep.

They sent their owls with the applications a few hours later, and sent a third one to put Harry in a day care. They both got owls of acceptance a few weeks later. Sirius started to change the implications associated with the Black name. For the first time since it’s inception, the werewolf registry was finally in order, and due to Remus’ seat of power, werewolf rights were finally on the rise.

Sirius and Remus adored Harry, but they had wanted their own biological children since their time in Hogwarts. Neither were getting younger, but they had to hold off until their jobs were stable.

“Someday, we will have a our little family.” They would say to each other “We don’t need another Sirius though.” Remus would add on. Their dreams were realised a couple years later when Remus gave birth to a set of fraternal twins they called James and Lily.

Over the years, they had experienced so much hate because their sexualities, Sirius’ family, Remus’ gender and lycanthropy, but the Lupin-Black household couldn’t even think about that when they finally had the family they had wanted since they were 15, fantasising in Gryffindor tower, smoking by the open window or curled up together on one of the tiny four poster beds. They were finally living happily.

Hello! This was my first go at writing a character as trans and I would really like it if you could tell me how I could improve in the future! Please interact with my posts as much as you can and please leave any feedback or suggestions for future fics. You can also follow me on Instagram if you want @siriusly_a_jedi. Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed it❤️

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[billsfangearring]

How did you come up with the yearbook fic recs idea? And are you planning to keep doing them? I've been loving the rec lists!

I'm so thrilled that you enjoy my rec lists! I'll answer your first question below the cut because I'm overly verbose, haha.

As far as your second question, I do plan to keep doing them! I just won't post them super frequently. Those posts come from a mix of fics I already know and love and extensive reading for each year. I don't believe that my selections for those lists represent any sort of objective assessment of the best fics written in that year—nor do I want them to be viewed that way—but I do like to read widely and feel passionate about the ones I choose to review. I usually read 40-50 fics that are new to me for each year, but if I remember right I read 62 for 2008. That was too many! I have 30 fics left on my to-read list for 2009. While Wolfstar is my favorite pairing to read, I've never been a single-pairing fic reader, and I've found that I tend to burn out on Wolfstar when it's all I read. Slow and steady is the name of the game for those rec lists to be fun and sustainable for me. :)

I owe my little foray into reccing to my friend @consistentsquash, whom I met over on Reddit in r/hpslashfic—my fandom home long before I joined tumblr four months ago. Squash did this amazing post called 21 Slash Recs From 21 Years earlier this year in which she chose one favorite same-sex pairing fic published per year from 2001 to 2021. Squash and I have fairly different tastes—she came of age in Snarry and other slashfic spaces and I originally fell in love with Jily and Marauders fics over on MNFF—but we overlap some and I was extremely impressed by her passionate and thoughtful reviews of all the fics on her list. She has continued to put out wonderful rec lists and deep-dive fic recs since then, just for a different side of the HP fandom than where any of you live (I assume). She's also a lovely person. <3

Squash and I were talking about tropes we did and didn't like one day, and I took her dislike of time travel fics as a challenge to make my first rec list, which was ten time travel fics with no repeat pairings. I haven't cross-posted that one over here, because it's more designed to cater to the HP Slash subreddit, where you have people who are fans of tons of different same-sex (largely m/m) ships—Wolfstar, Drarry, Snarry, Tomarry, etc.—all co-existing in one community. It's pretty different than tumblr, where we all seem to sort into our own ship- and character-based bubbles. I can post that list over here if people are interested, but I'll warn you that it has a lot of ships that really aren't what I assume most of you follow me for or would be interested in reading.

Anyway, all that to say that I originally wanted to make a 21 Wolfstar Fics From 21 Years rec list inspired by Squash's multi-pairing 21 Years list, in part because lot of my favorite Wolfstar fics are pretty old-school. I had a ton of fun digging through old LJ pages and fic archives to come up with to-read lists for each year, but then I realized I'd just made myself a to-read list of over 500 fics. Oops! I just really love research, haha. I decided to break it into one list per year instead to make it feel more manageable (and because I love more frequent praise). My to-read lists for each year have only continued to grow since then, so I think it was the right call for me.

Thank you so much for this ask! <3