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Grocery shopping, except one of them is significantly worse about it than the other (I know absolutely nothing about Mob but Reagan looks like he’d be a cringe fail loser at mundane things)
Understandable BUT a fun thing about Reigen is that he's actually really good at mundane things even with the cringefail energy
Mob and Serizawa are more anxious duo, and Serizawa specifically was isolated so he'd probably take a bit to get used to grocery runs
#no mob here sorry but if he was then he'd be the kid the parent sends running back in to grab something last minute when at the cashier#I hope ppl understand what Im talking about#i have no idea when this would take place youre free to interpret the 'we' as just reigen helping serizawa shop or making him tag along#since seri would be probably be more confident much later#talk to me tag#Anonymous#managed not to answer this as a total essay#but seriously reigen's a grounding force in the series as the most normal guy there#drawn response#mp100#mob psycho 100#serirei#reigen arataka#serizawa katsuya#i dont have a drawing tag
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I dont think Mob is naive as much as he's socially unaware, like the reason why he trusts Reigen so blindly is a bit more complex than just him being naive
Cause Mob reached out to Reigen because he was desperate to find someone like him, someone who understood his psychic specific issues, someone that could truly know what he's feeling and going through and give him guidance and support
Post incident Mob's thinking process was something along the lines of my powers hurt people -> my powers are bad -> my powers (my emotions, my instincts, myself) cannot be trusted
So he lost all confidence and trust in his own actions, resigning to being as passive as possible to avoid any further damage to anyone else, thus he started doubting his own perception of reality too
He's a kid already struggling with being ostracised for being socially inept, who just got traumatised and all of his insecurity increased by the tenfold, he doesn't know how to process what he's going through. He needs help.
And here comes Reigen, seemingly reliable, a responsible adult in a child's eyes, someone who claims he can understand him
Even tho Reigen doesnt. But it doesn't matter, because Mob finds comfort in his words and takes them to heart
Even if Reigen doesn't fully get it, even if he doesn't see the bigger picture, even if his advice isn't always the best
Eventually, Mob grows up, realises Reigen isn't as honest as he seemed through his 11 year old perspective, but like most things, he refuses to acknowledge it on a deeper level
Mob knows, but never tells Reigen, never thinks about what all those lies mean to him (ofc until he forces himself to face those doubts regarding Reigen, to properly acknowledge both of their flaws and accept them as they are, I should scream into the void about Confession Arc more God)
Due to his lack of trust in himself, Mob has relied on Reigen for years now to shape his moral compass, his thoughts, his decisions
Because well, Reigen lies, sure, but he isnt a bad person. When he hurts Mob, it isn't intentional or with ill intent, he still wants the best for him, what's the issue?
Except that it stunts Mob's growth. He doesn't develop as a person, doesn't have goals or wishes or ambitions, can't make choices on his own, he doesn't even let himself acknowledge his own emotions, he refuses to let himself exist
But Mob realises in time that he wants more than that, he wants to become better and be independent and feel again
Still, he puts the acknowledgement of the lies on hold for as long as he can, unwilling to question the way things are
This can make him feel a little naive, he constantly relies on Reigen and trusts his decisions and raises questions rarely until separation arc when he finally puts his foot down
And I do think that moment is the most resounding proof we have that Mob knows and allows himself to be used by Reigen, not wanting to shake the status quo, until he gets fed up
I mentioned the social ineptitude at the beggining but idk if I should even elaborate on that, you've watched the show, you know what I mean
He's blunt and can't read social cues or tonality that well and can't speak in front of crowds and is overall pretty awkward and I do think some people conflate that with naivety
Mob is still a child, he doesnt fully understand how the world works at the ripe age of 14 years old, but some folks take that as him being inherently naive/innocent/whatever which I don't find true
#ppl do a similar thing with seri but for different reasons but i do think in his case its worse cause thats a whole ass adult#anyway. i dont think im saying anything new i just wanted to ramble <3#i missed mobposting what can i say#ik i saw somebody talk about this in a more eloquent way but i doubt i could find the post cause i dont think i rbed it so rip#mp100#mob psycho 100#kageyama shigeo#that ova needs to come out already im going insane#cine te a intrebat#also hope i didnt come off as too negative towards reigen or smth#but like. my favourite part of confession is him saying (i didnt know!) LIKE YEAH. U DIDNT. LMAO.#ppl treat him as a bit too reliable sometimes and dont give him a lot of room to grow like Reigen isnt even 30 yet!! he aint that old!!#he still needs to get HIS own shit tgt before giving out advice just saying. also he totally doesnt understand mob fully. how can he??#he never mentions the incident with ritsu and considering mobs inclination of never telling anyone anything unless prompted#i doubt he knows... like reigen genuinely doesnt know the extent of mobs trauma!! when he said I Didnt Know he meant that shit!!!!!!#which is like. fine. cause to me whats important is how he always wants to protect mob and support him and help him#even if he doesnt always know how. even if advice backfires. hes always there and hes always trying and hes just as human and flawed as mob#himself#ig what im getting at is just that im bothered by the Flavour of reliable adult fandom is giving him. hes a lil pathetic and#fucks up sometimes and thats fiiiiiine. i feel like i talked shit about reigen but i do think hes a good guy and IS reliable just not in the#gives great advice way. but in the Knows How To Talk And Bullshit His Way Through Everything and Has Genuinely Good Intentions (usually)#and will throw away all of his self preservation if the situation requires him to. his advice is good but can be vague idk ONE rlly managed#to balance his pathetic side with his helpful reliable side and i dont think i articulated it the best way but like.... hes simultaneously#pathetic and sad but also the most sane and reliable adult in this show. rant over see u next time byeeee
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who up seeing their disorder in a fictional character but feel like its not their place to put a name on it
#id have to be waterboarded before i can talk abt how i see a lot of my adhd and personality in mitsumi iwakura let alone post it#idk how to talk abt this without feeling like im talking over or invalidating ppls experiences relating with a character#someone was talking abt how ppl tie laios' autism to special interest and social difficulties but not much else which kinda flattens it#and then went into a respectful in depth analysis of other autistic behaviour that laios exhibits and it wasnt phrased meanly#its fascinating and important to me to hear someone explain a little bit abt traits that they recognized and often go overlooked#because it does help me learn more about it. but i think thats also where hesitancy kicks in when it comes to depicting it accurately#like i have adhd and some of my adhd symptoms overlap with autism (time blindness and pattern seeking behaviour) but that only means#it feels familiar to me even without having autism. on top of that traits arent always cleanly determined as being /caused/ by#a disorder. to understand my environment i compare it to something unrelated but similar to make it more familiar and for the longest time#i thought that was a personality thing and not an information processing thing since i loved playing pretend in my head as a kid#so if you make a character who experiences that hoping to reach people that also experience that and tell them its not weird or#smth youre making up like. thats the goal. ppl who dont get it arent expected to it just means it doesnt cater to them but it helps them#become familiar to it yk? since i dont have autism myself i dont feel confident i can depict it properly or explain it in my own words#but that doesnt mean im trying to dismiss it or try and cut it out completely.. ill just leave the floor open to someone who /can/#a lot of issues around fanon depictions are when smth is baselessly popularized or a characters personality and behavior is flattened#especially to fit them into a trending meme. its harmless and its supposed to be for fun but it gets tricky when you drag things that#need to be carefully explained beforehand or else it gets lost in translation. like that tweet abt 'hyperfixating' on cooking pasta#once it becomes popular language usually the original meaning is left out for the sake of simplifying it for everyone that when it#circles back theres a sort of hesitancy like. am i using it the way it was intended or am i unknowingly using the popularized version of it#actually thats probably why i felt wrongfooted during diagnosis bc it felt like i was misusing the words i heard to describe what i felt#i /know/ i see a lot of myself in mitsumi because our minds are always somewhere else and we tend to put good faith first and for me#that personal connection is enough. but idk it feels like its always gonna have to be 'palatable' first before i can talk abt it openly#mad respect to writers and creators who stick to their story even if theres the looming fear of ppl misinterpreting it and letting them#have it.. its been almost 2 weeks and i am so close to deleting that m3 dunmeshi drawing bc ppl keep saying chilchuck wouldnt have 200 HP#IT LITERALLY SAYS I MADE IT WHILE WATCHING EP 1. I USED EARTHBOUND LOGIC AND I WASNT EVEN TAKING IT SERIOUSLY CHILL#yapping
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Thank god I checked the official pokemon yt channel THEY UPLOADED THE FULL EPISODE?
#vi rambling#pokemon#IM GOING INSANE. HOLY FUCK.#uhm uhm. so much to unpack. next episode i will be even more deranged I fear. THEY WILL FINALLY BE TALKING....?#so insanely excited for what will they be talking about. and to understand what in the hell is spinel cooking#and what the HELL is up with the rakurium...?#needless to say this episode was excellent. and the next one will likely be even moreso.#the battle was great that entire scene was so so unsettling and auhhhtguhu AUHH. im normal#also liko forgetting her backpack behind im. worried for the others' worried reactions#which will obviously be really satisfying i just really hope theyll lean into their closeness when they reunite later. or smth. to contrast#amethios loneliness being stranded in there and likely.. not having ppl care about his absence#IM SO NORMAL#im so invested and engaged in this its genuinely incredible. liko and amethio are such effective foils it all ties so well and im really#pleased with the slow direction this dynamic is taking. itll make whatever happens later be all the more rewarding and satisfying#and the writing keeping the element of mystery constantly intact. ITS SO GOOD.
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has anyone else seen that picture of renee rap and towa bird from the oscar’s party where her nose looks a little red and she has the most perfect pre sneeze face because fuck…
#snz blog#snz kink#snzblr#wlw snz#that image actually is always in my brain because fuck#ughhhhhh im so sorry i really hope there are other renee people on here that understand what im talking about#she always makes my brain go brrrrrrr but that picture#i can’t stop thinking about it and towa looking so wholesome fuck#anyways i really hope ppl know what im talking abouf#i guess my blog is literally thirsting over renee lmao
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i need opinions on the barbie movie from the ppl who have seen it as i really want to love and understand this movie more but i can't
#byler#i found the movie extremely hypocritical with the patriarchy and then matriarchy all the barbies were pissed off about the fact that in the#real world men are put on a pedestal when in the barbie world women are put on a pedestal and seen better then the kens like how is that not#hypocritical??#UNLESS ONE OF THE LAST LINES 'the kens need to start somewhere' WAS ABOUT THE BARBIES REALIZEING GENDER EQUALITY AND IF THEY WAS WHAT THEY#WERE DOING THEN I THINK THEY SHOULDVE SHOWN A KEN OR MULTIPLE ON THE SUPREME COURT IN A TIME SKIP OR SOMETHING??#i get the some other messages of the movie but some of it was confusing af to me#also are we going to talk about the fact thats some ppl are calling ken dumb when he first just tried to get gender equality?? the barbies#werent listening to him which is why ken went all crazy#although i normally am good about understanding movies/tv shows there is a chance this just went all above my head and that i have compl#completely gotten this all wrong which is what im hoping for to be honest#i see everyone being so like oMg iTs sO gOoD and i really want to be able to see that but i am strugglingg#I MEAN NONETHELESS IT DEFINITELY MADE ME RETHINK MY OPINIONS AND LIFE DECISIONS AND THE DESIGN WAS AMAZING#it was also funny af#barbie spoilers#not byler related
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#i haven't addressed yoongi's situation yet because i'm honestly still not hit by it i guess. like it didnt gwt to me yet#i dont think ill ever love anyone the same as i love him you know what i mean#he has been the first reason of my self development. like he literally raised me??? i learned from him how to be the person i am today#and its like im saying goodbye to a family member. the thing is i have never griefed anyone's absence like this#its like a part of my soul will be missing until he comes back#but at the same time i know what he would want for me. to move on and to become my own reason#he would want me to be kind to myself. to focus on myself and not miss him that much.#he would want that for all of us right#but i have a very hard time processing things. do you guys remeber the festa last year? when we found out theyll be going on hiatus#the reality of it snd the fact that it will be happening hit me onky after around 3 months.#thats when i first cried because i realized what it meant. ofc i knew but it didnt occur to the emotional part of my brain at that time#and i feel like im truly gonna fall apart when THIS hits me in 3 months lol#my life has never been worse and thats honestly the time when i need the reassurance the most#when i need the people i love and find comfort in the most.#but its just me and thats technically just my problem. but since i am talking about my view on this then thats okay i guess hahah anyway#i just hope he knows there are milions of ppl who love him as much as i do. and thats like extra love like forever & beyond type of shit#i honestly dont think other people ever truly fully understand how we feel towards them. especially when you really love somebody#because they have their own opinions about themselves. they debate whether they deserve some kind of treatment or not. we all do that right#and i just know he does that too. i just reslly want him to feel completely loved and cherished and appreciated.#i want him to see himself through our eyes. to surround himself with people who see him exactly the way we do.#to fall in love with somebody who will see him like we see him#nobody deserves better life than this man. and i hope that after our reunion he will live that life to the fullest 💓 i can't wait to see it#anyway. if somebody needs to talk about it or wants to get sadness out of your system - im here 💓#please keep your heads up and lets wait for him 💓#we have esch other and we will be okay 💓#sorry for typos i can barely see its 1am 🤓
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#personal#ugh#not a day goes by where i dont think of her /:#we were such good friends /:#and like admittedly i needed to take space after all that i don't regret it#but i h8 that she prematurely apologized b4 even hearing my frustrations or why i was hurt#bc she apologized for what she THOUGHT i wanted to hear#and it sucks /: cause i really hope she's doing better#i hope shes ok#and i miss her#but i cannot bring myself to message her bc like......#i just don't understand how you hear your friends say something shitty happened with someone ur involved with#and blow up at them and demand proof of it#like i dont care how stressed you are with other stuff .......... who does that??????#nvm the fact that like. majority of the stress she had expressed to me then was literally about...... the ppl who did the fucked shit.......#idk. im just sad#she made me feel so seen and held and heard and we were just friends but like..... i cherished her so much ):#ALSO NVM THE FACT THE DAY BEFORE SHE DID THIS I LITERALLY TOLD HER (after talking to her abt smthn separate) tht#the only way we'd stop being friends is if she did LITERALLY exactly what she did#and yeah she sent it to my Wife's DMs#but honestly that makes it worse cause she knew i was there#nd treated my wife after all that like she was an evil meanie while she apologized to me#(which imo idc it reads and transmisogyny)#and she just like. up and left Everything b4 realizing she fucked up#like she did choose this#and im respecting that and respecting myself enough not to try running and begging her to be friends again#i just. idk man. it sucks
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i dont owe anyone online* anything.
#is that better? does that make you happy? do you understand what im saying now?#or are ya gonna try to find another disingenuous way to interpret this and somehow claim that you're Different and Morally Superior somehow#🙄😒 gimmie a break.#mood#oh babe you're so special and different for being a doormat and interpreting this as me being a snob or some shit#rather than me asserting reasonable boundaries that you ALSO assert 🤗 hope that helps!#gash darnnit you know how much i love just. not tipping. and slapping employees of businesses for no reason and#stealing candy from babies etc.#and how i just never ever ever help the elderly even though im constantly helping my gma with everything all the time#and i just feel sooooooooooooooooooo entitled to everything for sure for sure i was obviously raised as a cis white man so clearly this#is how i feel truly yes obviously of course#totally havent been shat on my entire life and saying 'i dont owe anybody shit' totally has nothing to do with the ppl who shat on me#no it clearly involves innocent people who work places who help me with stuff of course !!!!!!! !! !! !#yknow how much i just . love ripping the blankets off of homeless people too or whatever 1!!!!#yall are insufferable with your self superiority complexes. stop pretending you're this pure person just bc we share overlapping traits#fuckin loser#you not owing abusive ppl in your life shit is good and grand but when i say it clearly im talking about poor innocent ppl who help me#surely of course. fuck yall. stop pretending you're so perfect. manipulative pos.
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the gazette - daku // no idea what this song's about but it sounds really sexy
#yeah i spent 0 minutes thinking of what to post in the last week but i have been enjoying this a lot lately#i watched the premiere of bb25 last night and dickens kept honking his really loud screechy rubber chicken#so i hid the chicken and gave him his stinky (cow hoof) but then he kept dropping and throwing around his stinky really loudly and stinkily#he's just not a good guy to watch live tv with#i hope the white kid who wants to be a lawyer is evicted#im glad cory was dragged to the nether region#so is he not in the house? is cory not in fact in the house? where do you keep him? someone has to feed him#ive been awake since 5-6 am again#i got a post suggested on my dash of a bunch of random people some of which were decked in visual kei#most of them i did not recognize and neither did op supposedly#and at the bottom op tagged someone and mentioned that they've only heard like one gazette song and they don't know who they are#but they're so hot they keep looking at pictures of them and i was like... oohhhhhhh this makes nothing but sense#i feel like the only people i see talk about the gazette or its members are huge fans or so they seem#but i guess i also understand that if their big fans are obsessed with their looks then like.. random ppl..#will also just find them really attractive. its the random person to vkei fangirl pipeline#if you're a random person here's a song rec from their last album for you#the gazette#song rec#j rock#tbt#visual kei#shut up kaily#Youtube
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#genuinely just want her out of my life the pain i experienced whenever i see her is tremendous#it is equally as painful as being ill#i woke up at 4am and its almost 6 and i can't stop thinking about her#and i stupid ass girl thought everything would be fine that she would understand what im going through and cried my eyes out asking for hel#and yet i got nothing. thinking she was someone i could rely on#it is so painful to see the fragments of what we were in other people. but she has actively avoided me and treated me so badly#and yet i bite back when she does and it couldn't get any worse#and i held to that hope that there's a way it can be fixed there's hope to that promise she said she didn't want to lose me#and lose the connection we had for so many years#it's like she's that kind of person everybody likes. everybody friend. but its only there for the good times and not for the bad times#and made me wonder what does friend mean to other people? for me is for the ppl who are in the good and the bad#i just kind of realized i can't talk to her anymore bc it sends me on this spirals of why's why's why's#why is she like that with me? why didn't she kept up with her promise? what kind of shit did i do or say that made everything go south?#this is too much for me and i don't know what I did wrong#everywhere i go i just see her bc she's my classmate but also i can't scape her bc her art is suddenly in art galleries#she haunts me in a way#but i miss her so much and i just we could go back to what we used to be#and i don't understand why shes like that with me none of our common friends understand either and everyone telling me to drop her#because of her behavior#and im just here praying for someone to pop up into my life and take me out of this misery#but it is really one of the hardest things for me is to meet new people literally my Achilles heel#its so hard to go through this pain alone i can barely keep up with the illness i have this shit is the cherry on top#made me wish I had ride or dies#and I have so many reasons to hate her and treat her badly and awful and yet i don't do it... and I even forgave her what she did to me#treats me like I was the one who did what she did to me#is really so bizarre
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day 302903203 of youtubers i follow saying the most autistic shit on this goddamn earth
#'i'm not like this in real life!' proceeds to explain how every seemingly neurotypical trait about them is a performance#i make it a point to never ever leave comments etc being like 'thats autistic bro' but. thats autistic bro#i genuinely hope so so bad that they know this about themselves and are just not saying it outright for privacy reasons#i also don't want to make it seem like im slapping labels or explaining others' experiences to them but the popular lack of understanding#of what autism actually looks like#leading to people not even considering it when after 5+ years of being around autistic ppl and being autistic myself#i can tell theyd at least profit from a proper consideration#is so maddening#also knowing adhd and autism are genetic and having one in the family meaning u very likely have the other as well#is so so important#(bcs we attract each other even when we dont know how to call ourselves)#i recognize its ridiculous to be frustrated abt this with literal strangers but i am also frustrated abt it w professors and classmates etc#i have the 'impatient when knows the answer and ppl dont get it' disease#thankfully i keep this to myself and my blog so i never bother anyone w it nor do i rush them before theyre ready to think abt it#so it's basically contained to my head and thus perfectly fine#but mutuals will see this as is the ecosystem standard and go 'ok' and thats all we ever need#dan talks
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#going wacko insane for the same guy again yep !!!!!!!!!@@@@#we both could have seen each other this weekend but JJDJDJZKZKZ DRAMAA#not with us but the other ppl JDJDJDJJD#i was so over it so i decided not to go. so i told him i wasnt n he said he wasnt either#in my delulu world i think he didnt go bc i didnt go HDJJDJDJZJZJ#bc he was online the whole weekend. plus i asked him if he wanted to just hang out with me n our other friend this week or next and he said#yes so HDJJDJDJDNDNSNS#god im just. i think i should just ask him out already#but our friend also hasnt answered me so im like...... hope everythings okay HNDJXNXNXNX#god inagine she cant make it or doesnt answer and i have to meet him one on one... o DJJDJDKDKDJDJJ#im trying not to be upset that shes not answering tho. its really not like her... its the long weekend so maybe shes doing something idk ..#ik shes also down about not having had a job offer yet#n me n the guy have jobs so... idk !!!#i was literally just in that headspace so i understand if shes reluctant to go out#it feels Awful when ur putting out a bunch of resumes and hearing nothing....#but yeah... idk whats gonna happen#but i dont wanna leave him hanging for too long so if she doesnt message me back by wednesday im gonna text her#she might just not be checking dc.... hhh idk JDJJDJDJXJZ#hitting that like 6 month mark since graduating and ya..... relationships are starting to dwindle tbh so i wouldnt be surprised#i was surprised she even wanted to keep in touch with me LOL but yeah#its crazy to me that out of everyone .. im closest to the guy. and like ik i always say that but it#doesnt become less surreal like. ever lol. like he answers me faster than my bffs... LOL what in the world#personal#wait omg im not done JDJJDJDJD when the drama was happening with the other ppl. i just wanted to talk to Him but i didnt have the energy#n when i finally did.. oh i felt so much better. love that we're always on the same page like.... what the fuck JDJDJDJXJX#idk i just think hes so sweet n cute n kind..... also prickly but i like that HDHJDJDJX#he always just says what he means. like hes v straightforward. and i really like that. bc im also that way and also bc im bad sometimes at#social stuff JDJJSJDJZJZJ
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#why is everyone talking about cheating all of a sudden#i ve known this trope is not for me and i got upset just reading those posts#i dont understand#i ve never been cheated on?#im not in a relationship?#this is fictional?#idk whats wrong with me#i genuinely have no idea why i have such a strong reaction to sth that doesnt affect me in the slightest#like maybe its bc i Dont Know Life and i didnt have to Fight Demons to stay loyal or sth#and i use my gay little fanfics as escapism#and to be clear: yes i think there are many worse things - morally and ethically - than cheating. jesus#and i have nothing against other ppl writing about it! you do you! i just dont get it and i hope i never will
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Hey remember how crink made a big stink over asking questions abt the world/characters? Yeah, he made it SOOOO clear he didnt enjoy it. Definitely never asked me specifically to ask him questions, not even once /s. Same thing applies to drawings, AU's, OC's, everything.
#crinkle - /please draw a character and ask questions I LOVE IT/#crinkle later down the line - i hate that character/its a bad character/im uncomfortable with u touching this chara#THEN WHY ASK FOR DRAWINGS OF SAID CHARACTER? WHY OFFER FICS ABOUT THE CHARACTER?#HELLO????#crinkle said this many times and prompted questions... offered fics left and right#like literally would tell me hes bored at work and to ask questions lmao#basically once u tell crinkle u have a problem with him he will weaponize anything and everything he can#go back on everything he previously maintained#gaslight and play the victim hoping ppl will back down while he throws a tantrum#a trustworthy and upfront individual /s#if u think you can be comfortable around this person - no you cant anything you ever do can and will be used against u when its convenient#crinkle the ultimate bullshitter#he talks shit behind ppls backs btw so if you consider yourself his buddy#lowkey feels bad for u#same goes @ his readers#one wrong comment and you become persona non grata/will be called names by both crinkle and krys behind closed doors#i honestly doubt this person understands what real friendship means
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time to detach myself from yet another person i loved deeply and dearly and i used to talk to everyday.
when will my grieving stop?
#the process of detachment is soo very painful#i understand she is fighting the depression demons but she has time to post on social media tons of stories of her doing so many things#and she doesn't havs 2 seconds to reply to my texts?#it's just it feels like I'm the only one she avoids when she is depressed and she only comes to me whenever she needs me to make her feel#better#then she'd forget about me until she needs me again#when she needs someone to talk to#but what about me?#i explained to her sooo many times how this makes me feel and she'd say i understand and then she proceeds to do the exact same thing#so i decided to not talk to her again and simply just block her bc seeing her post and not give a fuck about me makes me ache#and now i mourn her and mourn the loss of yet another best friend#i feel like such a selfish person and i feel like im too needy and clingy which is a good indication that I'm doing the right thing#so I've lost the only friend had left#I'm truly alone now#like a dumbass i have hope that she will come back and try to win me over#but this time i can see far beyond that i can see her ignoring me again whenever she feels like she doesn't need me#because she used to come to me when ahe is depressed she'd come and talk and i try to help her but now she found different ppl to do that#and like good for her#i choose to feel lonely over feeling hurt and betrayed and let down
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