#I have the fun autism (sounds make me insane)

[itsabee]

literally. I tried to find a dude with a deep British voice but was unsuccessful the only ones that showed up weren’t even that deep, they were like medium 💀

All British men voices annoy me so you’re my hero. Thank you for proving none of them have deep voices .

Also I don’t think I’ve said this since the server but our voice claim for jack (corpse husband) ? I hate his voice. I hate it so much. Literally sends me into a meltdown it hurts my ears so bad . I tried to listen to him for descriptions for Jack but I couldn’t do it .

[stump-not-found]

A03 wrapped 2024

tagged by @tempusedax-rerum >:DDDDD

1.) Biggest surprise while writing this year?

how much people responded to bill cipher saying daddy . how people have interpreted ford's relationship to mabel in theseus' guide; i've really tried to write him as really caring for her so seeing that interpreted as him disliking her is so interesting haha

most of all tho i'm just surprised and very grateful that theseus has received any attention, it's been so so wonderful reading everyone's thoughts and seeing them engage with the fic . it really makes the entire process so gratifying, and i hope folks continue to enjoy where the story goes next :D

2.) How many WIPs do you have in your docs for next year?

i've got my erotic billford rom com Can of Snakes that's over 20k right now . it has banger titles such as "sad handjob" and "penicular sounding", so someday i'll be posting that . i think they can make it work

i also just started Weirdmageddon 2: Electric Boogaloo: Lost In New York, an AU where ford gets stan to help him finish the portal after kicking fidd's to the curb . stan and bill become besties, ford hates it, and bill isn't allowed to destroy new york until he tries a slice of 'za .

this is not accounting for the mountain of comic WIP's i have but that shit aint goin on ao3

3.) Favourite character to write this year?

ford for sure . you give me a character who's autistic in a way that isn't cute and it just means the world to me . i get to give him evil autism . the autism where we acknowledge growing up autistic is traumatizing and makes you not a nice person all the time . fuck i love him . i get to dump so much of my own shit on him its so funnnnnnn yay lalalala

there was a whole paragraph i wrote that was just describing the perfect eye angle to maintain when walking through a farmers market to avoid social scenario's, which i had to remove because it was just me rambling about my own social survival strategies . farmers markets are dangerous places

i also love writing him in the context of bill . what a fucking mess they are i hope they never get better . but together <3

4.) The character that gave you the most trouble this year?

honestly stanley pines . i feel like i soften him too much, and lean in to his more positive traits than his more negative ones . it's hard because i feel like folks don't talk about the fact he was homeless for like 10 years & also had a breaking bad style adventure in columbia

the other problem is that he IS a big softy so idk . but he should be bitchier god damn it . he should be talking about his cataracts

6.) Did you receive any gifts this year?

I DID YOU INSANE PEOPLE thank you all it make a me smile:

@stemmmm @ancharan @kronehaze @sillyhyperfixator @ezrathean0n

7.) Did you do any collaborative works this year?

i feel like all my writing is collaborative!! i spend hours talking fic stuff with my wife & brother and my stuff is all the better for it . would love to do more of that w/ other folks i love it talking and thinking and playing is so fun

8.) What do you listen to while writing?

i don't like listening to music when i write lol ...... i sit in the cold silence and type in a frantic spiral .

i listen to a lotta different things while i think of things to write tho . atm all i want in the world is to make a theseus animation to this song it's very hammercore :

9.) Favorite line/passage you wrote this year?

oogh that's hard to choose . i'm just gonna share a bunch that make me laugh

from theseus' guide step six:

Dipper, clearly, doesn’t get it, and Ford acknowledges he is too young to understand a professional working relationship.

also from step six:

“Oh, sure, I can move on,” Stan grins, “To the other items on my list. A, the shack’s toilets all suck, and the seats keep raisin’ automatically. B, your handwriting sucks. C–”

from theseus' guide step three:

“You think you’re coming back anytime soon?” “No, 8-Ball, I don’t think I’m ‘ coming back ’ anytime soon.” Ford snides, though 8-Ball either doesn’t register that, or doesn’t care; hard to tell with the guy, “I’m sure you’re aware, but your boss wants to kill my family. And destroy my universe. ” 8-Ball sniffs. “Cool. Mind if I eat your leftovers then? Teeth keeps eyeing them.” Ford frowns, “You couldn’t have just brought them with you?” “Nah, man, I want to eat them.”

lots of lines from step eight but we ain't there yet

uuuuhhghhg who to send this chain mail along to uuuhgghgh

@beccadrawsstuff if u wannaaaa . anyone else feel free to pick this up as well i'm bad at this lol

[then-be-a-warrior]

LEGO MONKIE KID

Okay FINE I made a one-shot

From this theory/post I made a little while ago.

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"I admit. It IS kinda fun being on this side of things. Maybe this is why..."

Macaque could barely hear the rest of what MK had to say because of the ringing in his ears. Getting thrown into a mountain will do that to you. But as someone who fought along side The Monkey King himself, Macaque easily recovered and took a fighting stance once again.

"Kid, listen to me."

"No. I'm tired of listening. I'm tired of listening to everyone and everything around me. Gods like Nuwa telling me to give up my life. Immortals like Monkey King telling me my life is worth more than that. Who is HE to say I'm 'SPECIAL'?!......So no-" Mk walked through the rubble towards Macaque. Eyes golden with three tails swaying behind him. "From now on, I'm doing what I have the power to do. Which is whatever I want."

Macaque knew he wouldn't get through to him (from firsthand experience). Not alone anyway. In fact...

"Some help would be greatly appreciated!"

Mk quirked an eyebrow, wondering who Macaque was talking to until another, more irritated voice was heard from where they were fighting just moments ago.

"I'M COMING, YOU BEARDED RAT! I can't exactly keep up with you celestial primates, you know!"

Mk watched as Redson, out-of-breath and just as angry as usual, came into the picture. He smiled as Redson walked closer to Macaque's side; clearly indicating how this is now a 2-vs-1 fight. Hilarious.

"Him!? Y-you brought him?" Mk couldn't help but laugh. Doubling over and holding his sides, MK's laughter almost sounded innocent enough to make you forget the destruction he's been causing the world for weeks.

Redson was about to blow a fuse until MK continued.

"Calm down, Redson, I'm not laughing AT you." Which sounded like a lie considering he was still chuckling. "I know you're strong. You used to cause me a lot of trouble when I first got the staff. Used to. I'm laughing at the irony."

Both Macaque and Redson were surprised at the fact that MK was talking this much during a fight. Recently, he's just been going on a rampage. No reasoning with him and no talking to him. Macaque and Redson were sent together to take him on. To distract him. And it looks like Mk just figured out the reason it had to be them...

"Two of my greatest enemies. Redeemed by yours truely to help save the world from the one who saved them. You can't tell me that's not the greatest thing ever. But I just have one question..."

Macaque and Redson suddenly felt the air get heavy. Like an invisible force was weighing down on their backs and their legs were jelly. Macaque couldn't help but think if this is what Wukong felt when he was trapped under the mountain. He looked up at Mk and his deranged smile was gone. Replaced with a calm fury that would've made him RUN if he could've.

"If neither of you are strong enough to scratch Sun Wukong, how the hell are you going to fight someone who's stronger than him?"

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If anyone wants to continue this, feel free (moot or not). Just give me credit. Maybe someday I'll write my first fanfic...just not today😂

It's mostly MK dialogue because I love writing insanity😍

@alilcherrysramblings @madmandude @autism-autobot @marokra @captainnemis @electricpirateduck @sweetsugarcoffee @imjusthereforthecake @doggodonut12 @galacticspud23 @will-of-the-wisps @ayrza

[sunday-good-enough]

I have a lot of Aang headcanons and I wanted to share them!

His birthday is the Spring Equinox, meaning he turns 13 sometime around the beginning of book 2

I know Air Nomads are associated with Fall, and I do believe most powerful airbenders are born in fall (my air nomad OC was born in fall too) but I thought the season of life and rebirth fit Aang and his role as the avatar better

Modern Aang has autism diagnosis I'm not arguing about this

He's naturally charismatic. Not even in an 'oh he's hot' way, he's just got insane people skills. Katara "threw a cup of boiling hot tea into the lap of a respected FN general for being sexist and was promptly kicked out of the meeting" of the Water Tribe would like to take notes

Grandmas and kids love him immediately, even if they don't know he's the Avatar. With grandmas it's like 'oh he's such a nice young man :)' and with kids it's like 'you are the coolest person I've ever met can you adopt me'

He's a fantastic chef and loves cooking, and baking. Katara "everything I cook comes out slightly burnt or slightly undercooked no matter what I do" of the Water Tribe would, again, like to take notes

Air nomads are naturally flexible. Pair that with Aang's joint hypermobility and he makes for an excellent party trick

Monk Gyatso taught him his marble trick to stim. He used to motion of creating a ring of sorts to develop the air scooter, earning him his tattoos

He has an extremely high pain tolerance. Sokka "I hit my finger with my hammer and was incapacitated for a week" of the Water Tribe would, once again, like to take notes

I've heard some people headcanon that the 36th style of airbending that Aang didn't master was the movement Zhaheer used to kill the Earth Queen. I actually think that this technique was inspired by Aang's air scooter. Man's rolling in his damn grave

A crafter. His carving and painting skills are not the best, but the nuns taught him how to spin sky bison yarn, as well as techniques similar to crochet/knitting. Aang likes making these lovely warm blankets that everyone's always stealing from each other

Inventor of the fidget spinner, with help from Toph and Sokka. The original spinner was a device made of wire, holding three marbles with a fourth in the middle to hold between your fingers. Aang came up with the concept after Bumi II expressed disappointment that he couldn't do Aang's marble trick, Sokka designed it, and Toph metalbended it

Bumi and his new toy got so popular Aang had to start mass producing it. Cue a very desperate Aang on his knees begging Toph to help him

He gets really shaky and jumpy during storms. For. Reasons.

He's good at braiding hair. Kya and Katara always end up with braids because Aang's hands get away from him when he's cuddling with them

We see in The Storm that Aang was relatively popular with his peers. They admired him and played with him before he found out he was the Avatar, so I like to think he was very popular with little kids. Like, five year olds. They probably thought he was awesome.

Claustrophobic. I imagine being in a very tight space, especially one with little air, would freak him out

Can airbend with his ears. Don't ask.

We also see that he travels a lot - since he has friends from so many different nations. Building off another headcanon of mine that each individual nation had its own language, with a common language taught everywhere, Aang's probably polylingual.

He has this sort of otherworldly singing voice. It was relatively known in his childhood that air nomads are excellent singers - monks could make good money singing for people. Since he now lives in a time where air nomad songs haven't been heard for a while, he sounds almost otherworldly to them.

Bumi II, Kya II, and Tenzin all agree that bath time with Dad is so much more fun than bath time with mom. She doesn't even let them flood the bathroom >:(

On that note, Aang probably gushes about his kids any chance he gets. Frames their drawings in his office and everything.

Bumi II thinks his dad doesn't love him cause he's a nonbender? WRONG. Aang is currently writing a letter to Zuko about how amazing his son is and spirits, he's getting so good at spear fighting! I think being around Sokka is having that influence on him, oh and Kya-

He has this nice, loopy handwriting. It's not exactly cursive but it's similar.

He writes letters for Toph

He's very unaware of how famous he actually is, and it hits him like a truck when he realizes

"A museum? Zuko, don't you think that's a little much? It's not like anyone's gonna be interested haha" "Aang they made 16,000 gold pieces the first week"

KING of ridiculously censored swears. Monkeyfeathers, anyone? Absolutely says 'golly gee' in modern aus.

When he gets jealous, he gets more sad than angry. It's less "they're stealing my bestie!" and more "aw, Toph wants to hang out with them more than me :("

Also the king of puppy-cat eyes. Nobody except Toph can resist because come on, look at him! He only destroyed one building!

Airbending children can't really control their sneezes, so they often end up shooting themselves out of their cradles. Aang shot himself out a window once

He learns to control them by ~3 years old. His sneeze in the first episode was the little shit showing off

He is single-handedly responsible for 3/4th of the gray hairs at the Western Air Temple

Fire Lord Sozin destroyed many records and artifacts of Air Nomad history. Those left were preserved in a museum in Ba Sing Se. Aang and Katara have a date there, mostly taken up by Aang pissing himself over mislabeled artifacts

He finds a flute labled as a device used in fertility rituals and nearly chokes

That's all! Thanks for reading

[plurapony]

the fact that people are demonized for making their disorders their identities is insane to me especially as a heavily autistic person!!!

all my life i have been bullied and demeaned for my autism. even as COMPLIMENTS i was always given the variety of "unique" "quirky" "unusual". before i learnt how to mask my more autistic symptoms strangers and friends alike could never see past my autism. i was forced to embrace my autism, i had no other choice - either i viewed it as a positive or id be a punching bag for all my life.

so now that i AM able to mask, i AM able to function in every day life ( well somewhat, but you do NOT want to hear about how horrible disability support is in australia ) now that I genuinely love my autistic self and all of my symptoms (because they make me, me!) now it's a problem?

it's seriously sounding like you people view those with disabilities and mental illness solelyas something to laugh at and make fun of, and when you can't do that anymore it becomes cringe. because how dare those freaks embrace their differences and love themselves!!!!1!!! /s

my autism will always be a part of my identity and if you ever have a problem with that? don't come to me, take it up with the people who have drilled into my head since day fucking 1 that i will never be seen as not autistic.

[annotatedamblings]

annotatedAmblings's Homestuck Reread Liveblog: Act 1 (part 1, pages 1-125)

Although liveblog posts will contain analysis due to how we like to engage with media, liveblogs are primarily a collection of whatever thoughts came to mind during our reading. Liveblog posts are constructed with each mod drafting their own live reactions separately before combining them, so some sentiments may be repeated due to both mods noting it down. Any analysis within a liveblog post should not be assumed to be our complete thoughts on the subject, and we are not particularly experienced with analysis.

Blue = Mod Aluria Pink = Mod Jasper Arrows (>>>) are used to indicate commentary on each other's commentary.

Almost immediately, I'd like to take note of the usage of color (or lack thereof). The house is mostly white. I don't have any smart comments on this right now but it is an interesting stylistic choice. >Liveblog stitching! Aluria here, I think I was thinking about how it could relate to the feelings of isolation I touch on later in this post.

Page 9: It took way too long for any of this sylladex shit to be even remotely comprehensible to me the first time around. Am I stupid. >No, sylladex mechanics can be a bit tricky to get to, something which narration on multiple pages acknowledges.

Page 10: It's fun to see sylladex shenanigans :]

Page 16: A thing I always liked about the suggestion format is how subject the main character is to the player's dumb fucking whims. I like that about point and click adventures also. >Checked what page is page 16. F in chat for Zoosmell Pooplord and the unwanted desire to shit on his desk.

Page 18: It just occurred to me how the manner in which the sylladex mechanics are encountered via the reader prompts fucking around and finding out really is like a video game without much tutorial.

Page 19: "Films about impending apocalypse fascinate you. Plus, a black president??? Now you've seen everything!" 1. I like the funny foreshadowing 2. ah yes... a tongue-in-cheek ironic joke that feels a little distateful.

Page 22: I do find the Homestuck Beta to be an incredibly charming little gag.

Page 24: the names of his programming projects on his desktop are a fucking MOOD. "FUCK FUCK FUCK" indeed. John's desktop is just like mine fr. I believe I have an audacity file somewhere titled "fuck my life", and our screensavers are equally bad and weird. >Clearly experiencing emotions best conveyed with the word 'fuck' is a universal experience of creators.

Page 26: I think one of Homestuck's strengths is how it pulls off making the dialogue of teenagers feel like the dialogue of teenagers. >THIS. Always this. There are many times that I as a Real Teen (TM) have read a page of Homestuck and gone "yeah, I've had this conversation in real life."

Page 31: Genuinely deranged collection of games. John's bad taste knows no bounds. Also why do you have Bard Quest on DVD. Why would you put Bard Quest on a DVD. It's literally a browser game that's like 100 pages long. >Actually it's 47 pages. That makes it worse.

Page 34:

Infinitely amused by the mood settings in Pesterchum. "happy :) happy :) happy :) happy :) happy :) INCREDIBLY PISSED D:<"

Page 35: Dave is acting as a tutorial npc Me when I fucking lie. Dave honey no one wants you. I'm conflicted about Early Homestuck Dave because he very much fulfills the role he is meant to and sets up his later character arcs perfectly. But he does so by annoying the fuck out of me. >See you're right about that second sentence and it makes perfect sense in context but out of context that sounds so mean lmao.

Page 37:

I could look at the kind abstratus for hours. Also, the planning had to be insane for this. Literally every strife specibus used in Homestuck, no matter how out there, is on here (I think. I only did a quick scan). >Decided to attempt to verify this by looking for all the trolls' strife specibi and immediately failed with Aradia's whipkind. I am sending Jasper to Autism Hell for the crime of being wrong. >>I am being set on fire! Sad! (But hey, there IS still a lot of very specific canon strife specibi in there that I'm willing to bet were there on purpose. Canekind, for one). >>>If I had to hazard a guess, it's possible that some of them were either picked by looking at that page, or just that there are so many potential weapons on there that of course some made it on. In some cases planning ahead may have occurred, but I am not Andrew Hussie so idfk.

Page 39: "EB: yeah, that's fine i guess. i can't imagine it's going to be all that relevant." heh. the fact that Dave knows more about the minutiae of sylladex mechanics, in particular how strife specibi work, takes on a more depressing tone when you contrast his home environment with John's healthier parental situation.

Page 48: First Betty Crocker mention! fun fact once i infodumped about Homestuck to my dad and now the Batterwitch is a running joke we reference whenever we purchase Betty Crocker products. Genuinely surprised the Betty Crocker Wikipedia article isn't protected at this point. >It isn't, but if you go to the talk page it seems like it's been a point of contention before.

Page 50:

"It doesn't matter that it's April and not terribly chilly outside. In a home, a FIREPLACE needs a fire, because that's what FIREPLACE is for. A fire BELONGS in a FIREPLACE, dammit, cata(ptcha)gorically, at all times, without exception." fascinating quote in conjunction with Page 27's "In a kid's yard, a tree without a tire swing is like a proper gentleman without a monocle. That is to say, HE CAN HARDLY BE CONSIDERED A TERRIBLY PROPER GENTLEMAN AT ALL." certain things simply must be the way they are. So there's a lot to be said about the whole fireplace thing but I've had time to ruminate and I'm starting to notice that John seems to have a pretty rigid worldview, maybe? I'm collecting data on this and I don't wanna speak too soon, but a lot of these lines seem to have the underlying implication that he's very much of the opinion that the status quo is not to be questioned or challenged ever, and things are the way they are because that's how they're supposed to be. In perpetuity. Forever. Even if it hurts you. You can see it in the recurring gag on this page and the one with the tire swing; you can see it in the way he talks about his dad; hell, even his joke book is a kajillion years old and described at one point as being at times super racist because of its oldness, as well as being too big to carry around or navigate efficiently. This is an especially fitting trait for him to hold considering he's from the suburbs. Not only are suburbs considered the picture of the American Dream, that idyllic image has historically been upheld through forcible exclusion of anyone who didn't fit into it. No wonder it took her 16 years to transition. >More than 16. :( >>Oh yeah I'm sure it's like. Decades (I haven't read HS^2). But it's been 16-ish years since Homestuck came out.

Page 51: Burn fucker burn.

Page 56: not much comment other than the transition from 55 to 56 and the bit that comes with it got the first audible giggle of this reread!

Page 63: I genuinely believe Rose is a contender for funniest character in Homestuck (speaking only in terms of intentional funniness). >It hasn't had much chance to come up yet, but she is rather silly wrapped up in a dry exterior and I think this fact should be acknowledged more.

Page 68: kinda funny to see John unable to captchalogue the doll because it's 'too big'. Act 1 feels rather quaint on a reread. >Genuinely. By act 6 we're captchaloguing literally whatever the fuck. Planets and shit. >>The fucking Tumor. >>>The fucking Tumor. Gotta get that HTML right. >>>>Oh I'm sorry Formatting King Jasper lemme just format all over the place. Trans women are really cool. That sentence only looks correct if you're on dark mode. sad!

Page 71: Is that. Is that the fucking Cirque de Soleil.

Page 74:

a continuation of the bit regarding the tire swing and the fireplace. this combined with John's willingness to commit to the bit even when it is unpleasant is rather fascinating for his character.

Page 77: FIRST [S] PAGE! "Showtime (Piano Refrain)" is a great song that also hits really different on a reread. Ah, but that is a subject for... *checks notes* 7021 pages from now. >You and your music commentary making me straight up melancholic all the time.

Page 78:

"The peanut gallery over there sure is getting a kick out of it. You are allergic to their scorn." I am unusually fond of this joke. Page 72's mention of John's peanut allergy was a funny enough moment on its own, but the additional reference/pun? Delightful. The jorker.

Page 79: The usage of a Hi-C commercial also hits different on a reread.

Page 82:

"You have a feeling it's going to be a long day." Oh, if only you knew... Homestuck's title page! I love how desolate the audio is, and I think the prose on this page adds to the feeling of isolation. Isolation is a theme throughout Homestuck, and with John as the Heir of Breath in the incredibly isolated environment of suburbia... ah, I just really like this page! This page is also where Act 1 gets its name on the adventure map: "The Note Desolation Plays." There's literally nothing I can say about Windchime Foley that isn't abundantly obvious but GOD does it set a tone. It's the first real hint that this is more than just a silly little adventure comedy.

Page 89: "Your DAD sees right through your costume! You don't know what you were even thinking with this foolish ruse!!!" early example of a recurring pattern of John viewing himself as stupid, foolish, etc.

Page 90:

There isn't much to this Flash, but I do like the animation, and "Showtime (Original Mix)" is a banger. The vibe with John and Dad's strife is SO different from the next two strifes. For obvious reasons (Dad Egbert is a good father). >True! It's very unserious. John is aggressively rejecting his father's cake, for fuck's sake, meanwhile Rose pulls out the empty suicide threat against her mother parrying with alcohol and Dave is. Dave.

Page 110: "TG: im wearing them ironically TG: because theyre awesome TG: the fact that theyre ironic makes them awesome" ah yes the classic "i'm totally doing this ironically and not sincerely".

Page 111: I do enjoy the meta bullshit of the characters being MSPA fans in-universe. Tragically, Midnight Crew will never finish because of the world ending. Sad!

Page 112: I <3 Self-Referential Jokes

Page 122: I should go back at some point and do a cake count of just how many goddamn cakes John's dad made. >I checked. 4. 2 in the room, 1 downstairs, 1 he was actively baking. 4 cakes for 2 people. If June came out to him in a no-Sburb AU every pharmacy stocking HRT in the area would be in crisis mode.

Page 125: Sorry but I will literally never stop finding sylladex failure funny. PDA BANISHED.

[radskull-69]

Vent? I guess?? More like talking about this INSANE guy omg

This guy has got to be the worst person I have ever fucking met omg

they never respect boundaries, even SIMPLE ones, like: kissing ppl on the cheek without consent, name calling, trauma dumping, touching

and this guy isn’t even confirmed he has autism, which is fine normally. Because neither am I, and so are most people.

but this mother fucker has gone to TWO offical autistic tests and BOTH said he didn’t have it, but the iNtErNeT quiz said he did so I guess he has it-

said I probably have adhd because I have daddy issues???

has kissed me and my bsf on the cheek without asking and when we confronted him he said he has ‘memory issues’ and doesn’t remember it (it happened only hours prior). Then had a panic attack since we ‘cornered him’ (I texted him on discord)

he CONSTANTLY trauma dumps, like he’d just walk up to me and without even saying hello he’d rant about his ‘broken foot’ or how ‘he hasn’t slept for three weeks straight’

and he so obviously fakes every mental illness and disability ever, it’s annoying bruhhhh. He’s half blind, half death, has scoliosis, schizophrenia, Tourette’s, autism, pregnancy? And so much more I can’t even name (none of these are officially confirmed either, and he only ���uses’ or has the disability randomly on a blue moon when no one is talking to him)

once when I was getting kicked in the legs and being called useless by a shitty friend he laughed along and agreed I was useless, so in our next class we shared I refused to partner with him and just sat down at my desk. I was his only friend in that class but I didn’t care.

he slammed his chair into the desk, cried and ran out the room. When the teacher asked what’s wrong he went on a rant how ‘no body likes him and how he hates the school’, The teacher offered to be his partner but he said no and just ran outside..

then behind my back to my REAL friends he said I was being a cold asshole to him for no reason?

this mother fucker has faked a pregnancy for two years straight.

when I was dating this guy he sent me his kink list and said ‘I’m fucked if he gets horny’. We’re both minors, just started dating, and he knows I’m asexual.

AND THATS NOT EVEN ALL

once we were making some spicy butter chicken at school, and he was in charge of crushing and adding the spice.

when I ate my butter chicken it was really spicy to me, and I know I’m very sensitive to foods and people like to tease me about it. Which is funny and I can laugh along with it.

but this guy just kept and kept on making fun of me nonstop, calling me a pussy for not handling the spice and how I was ‘so white’ for how i was acting.

so I said- ‘maybe since I’m autistic I take it differently then most others?’ And I thought he’d sympathise since he’s also ‘autistic’.

nope.

motherfucker said ‘erm- well- my autistic level is higher then yours so-👆🤓’

WHAT

what does that got to do with ANYTHING!?? And you don’t even have a confirmed ‘autistic level’, neither do I?? What even is that!??

I hate this guy so muchhhh, the ONLY reason I keep him around in the friend group is because I’m worried he’ll victim blame himself again and make me look bad. Also because as cruel as it sounds, the drama he brings is so entertaining.

luckily my friend group agrees this guy is toxic as fuck and annoying, I’m planning on cutting him from the group the next time he does something fucked up to me again so I can call him out.

because dear GOD is he so annoying..

Idk why I even dated him bruh.. I think he’s what made me aro-ace and that not all relationships are just ‘friendships with extra hand holding’

[kwills91]

Fanfic Writer Interview

Thanks to @mojowitchcraft for the tag

What fandoms do you write in?

- 9-1-1 - Stranger Things -Teen Wolf (although I have no idea when I will have the time to work on more fics for this) - Arcane (though not currently published but I'm hoping chapter 1 of my first fic will be up before the end of the month)

How many words did you publish in 2024?

Luckily, everything I published on AO3 in 2024 was started in 2024 so I know this is accurate: I published 627,647 words in 2024

What are your top three fics you wrote last year?

This is where the autism comes out and I immediately panic about the number of ways this question could be taken, but I'm just gonna pick one and going by the way it was answered when I was tagged I'm gonna say my favourites and there's one from each of the 3 fandoms I wrote for in 2024

This Town Has Changed (Don't You Find It Strange)  Steddie || 52k || One Shot || E Based on Orange Juice by Noah Kahan, this was a labor of love and Secret Santa gift for the lovely @whoreforhowl and it wasn't intended to be as long as it wound up but when I started writing the outline it poured out of me and that alone was 14k words. Writing this made me fall in love with these boys all over again and I made myself cry when I was reading it back, which always feels validating.

Defect Buddie || 146k || 13 Chapters || E Written for the 118 bang, a cyberpunk AU that nobody asked for, which is evidenced by the fact it does not have anywhere close to the stats of my other multichapter buddie fics. However, I received nothing but love from those who did read it and I'm I really pushed my limits of my writing skills with this and I'm insanely proud of how it turned out

I Guess It's Just As Well (But I Miss Your Face Like Hell) Sterek || 39k || One shot || E The 5+1 sequel to my only other TW/Sterek fic (A Few Stolen Days Worth All The Goodbyes) that' I'm also very proud of. This fic is a testament to how much teen wolf took over my life last summer because I only intended to write the first one because I was reading fic and couldn't find the story I was craving so wrote it myself but I feel in love with writing these characters so much I wanted to write a sequel the second I finished writing the first one.

What was your biggest pit of despair moment?

It was, yet again, burning myself doing a big bang but this time without the satisfaction of having a lot of people read my fic. There were a lot of points I felt like I was making the wrong choice and doubting myself and my ideas and it took a lot of the fun out of it for a while there.

What have you learned?

That stats are not as important to me as I thought they were. At first I was heartbroken that nobody was reading Defect, but the people who did read it loved it as much as I did and gave me a lot of lovely compliments which I continue to return to whenever I have a little wobble in my confidence. If a few people LOVE my fic, that is genuinely enough for me, not just a placating thing I tell people to sound like I'm more laid back than I am.

Did you beta any fics last year? Any faves you want to shout out?

Not really. Between the events I signed up to, the amount of pressure I put on myself to post and general stress, betaing for somebody may genuinely have taken me out lol

What three fics from last year did you love?

Coming Home (But Not To You) by @lesbianherald Jayvik || 119k || 14 chapter || E I mean, most Jayvik fans probably already know this fic but I will still take any opportunity to gush it because I know people say that fics change their brain chemistry all the time, but this one genuinely changed my brain chemistry and I've not known a day of peace since I finished it, I think about it all the time! It's beautifully written, the characterisation is actual perfection, and I am eternally changed.

The Wayward Son by @gayhoediaz Buddie || 57k || 5 chapters || E Heaps of angst, not talking about their feelings, power bottom Eddie using sex as punishment for his catholic guilt, and the two of them eye fucking each other whilst physically fucking other people??? This fic was TAILOR MADE FOR ME. I cannot tell you how many times I've read it, despite it coming out in the second half of the year and I think about it every.single.day. It hits just as hard every time I read it.

ice cream before dinner by cloudydaisies Buddie || 58k || one shot || T Not only is this fic a beautiful premise that is beautifully executed and resulted in me leaving the most embarrassingly mushy comment I have ever left on a fanfic, but it also achieved the impossible in that for one whole day there was peace on 911twt because everybody was too caught up in the fluffy wonderfulness of this fic and just wanted to gush about it. It was beautiful.

What ideas are percolating for this year?

I already have so many ideas for fic this year, some of which I'm already posting or have started writing in the confines of my google drive, but here is a list of the most likely to see the light of day

Buddie - Stick Season album fic where Eddie is in a car accident in the middle of nowhere and remembering his life, finally figuring out what he wants as he edges closer to death. Every chapter is inspired by a song from the Stick Season (Forever) album. - Where Rainbows End AU - epistolary childhood friends to lovers slow burn based on the Cecelia Ahern novel (which you might now as Love, Rosie - the book title adopted the movie adaptation title, which I HATE) Buddie omegaverse bitching fic - Eddie begging for Buck's help to become the Omega he always felt like he should be rather than the Alpha everybody was pleased he turned out to be. You know, platonically...

Steddie - One Foot In Your Bedroom, One Foot Out The Door - to add more to my passion project post s2 to post s4 rivals to friends to lovers to exes to friends to lovers slow burn, angst fic. My magnum opus. My everest. I will not abandon this fic.

Jayvik - College Rivals/You've Got Mail (kind of) AU where grad students Jayce and Viktor find peace lamenting to their online friends about their respective grad school rivals, who, it turns out, are the very people they're lamenting about. - Moddern, middle-aged, second chance romance inspired by the gorgeous artwork from @arctvros (which I shared a snippet of the other day on bsky) where Viktor's actions led to an accident in the lab and the board pressuring Jayce to oust him from Hextech and Viktor leaves it all behind. 15 years later he's back needing help from the council to fund his research. When the vote doesn't go his way, Jayce offers up Hextech as an alternative and the two have to find out if the past has destroyed what they had forever or if there is some way to get it back. And possibly something more on top.

🏁 🏆 Congrats you made it to the end! I'm impressed honestly cause I never think anyone is gonna read these hahaha.

Anybody already tagged should take this as a no-pressure invite to join as well as some more (also no-pressure) tags:

@cal-daisies-and-briars @rainbow-nerdss @transmascsteveharrington @nubianamy @prettysophist

[cemetary-shifts]

so i finally watched the devil's chord and i. AUGH!!!! UEUHGH!!!!!!! i watched space babies a couple days ago and it was good ofc but i felt like it was missing something but devil's chord was literally fucking PERFECT. it was scary and emotional and silly and weird all at the same time and i almost cried and i got so many goosebumps and i just AAHH!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAJOR SPOILERS FOR THE EP UNDER THE CUT. GIANT RANT. I AM AUTISM.

i already have a giant bias towards the episode cuz one of my longest interests has been music and instruments but oh my fucking GOD the way they talked about music and hearing classical songs that i knew almost sent me to tears IM NOT JOKING. ruby playing the piano was so awesome and hearing saint saen's danse macabre made me feel like i was going to ascend into the heavens. putting doctor who and classical music, two of my biggest interests, together, was the best thing imaginable. I LITERALLY CANT DESCRIBE HOW HAPPY THIS EPISODE MAKES ME.

SECONDLY, I LOVED MAESTRO. like the toymaker (who i also adore so SO incredibly much), they have this silly evilness to them that makes them so INTERESTING!!! and then finding out maestro is the child of the toymaker was EVERYTHING. BECAUSE IT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE. jinkx monsoon, the person that plays maestro, says some stuff about them that explains why i love them so much. "When human rules don't apply to you, you get to do whatever you want. You don't have to worry about whether your emotions make sense to people because you don't have to answer to them." and "What I love about Maestro is that, while objectively evil, they are an artist, they have a mission statement. " THESE ARE THE EXACT REASONS I LOVE THE TOYMAKER AND MAESTRO SO MUCH. both of them are other-worldly beings. they're gods of their own realms. they're dramatic and passionate and so dead-set on getting what they want. but its not just about getting what they want, its about having fun with it and turning it into a show. because what's the point in going out if you cant go out with a BANG?

something else i loved was the doctor in this episode. ncuti gatwa's doctor, like david tennant's, is so extremely emotional and passionate and it makes me want to SOB. the doctor mentioning his granddaughter? TEARS IN MY EYES. "i can only smile like this because ive lost so much" SOBBING ON THE FLOOR. the 15th doctor has already been so emotional and i know im gonna cry so so much while he's around. BUT THATS SOMETHING I LOVE ABOUT DOCTOR WHO. because it can be so silly and weird and funny and then it can turn around and be spine-chilling and emotional ALL IN THE SAME EPISODE. because when you think about it, the story of the doctor is HEARTBREAKING. and when that side of him comes out you HAVE to expect the waterworks.

AND THEN RUBY THE ENTIRE EPISODE ???? i know theres something up with her and i just OH MY GOD!!! BECAUSE THE SNOW??? THIS EPISODE AND LAST EPISODE? AND THE SOUND OF CHRISTMAS?????? im gnawing on the bars of my enclosure I NEED TO KNOW. shes so interesting I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT because its like who's her mom?? whys she able to do the snow thing?? how did she have a song in her ????? AND MAESTRO SAYING THINGS LIKE "no he couldnt be there" "the old one couldn't've been there" WHO IS THAT. WHAT DO YOU MEAN.

IM GOING INSANE. IM SO EXCITED TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT I COULD EXPLODE INTO A MILLION PIECES.

[dragon-giggles]

Tell me more about your characters and the world they live in. I saw your beautiful redraw of them and thought: these guys seem fun!

Aw, thanks so much for being interested in them, I always appreciate your support so much Doodle <3

Alrighty time to rant lol:

Okay so I know I've tried explaining these guys before in the past and have sounded absolutely insane lol, but I think the reason for that is cause I was just really passionate about them at the time

From what I remember from before, I think I had tried to explain how they were special and different from my other ocs because for them it felt like I wasn't JUST making them up or sitting down and thinking them through and really constructing them, like how you would usually make an oc or anything else honestly lol. Instead, when I first started thinking about them one at a time, it's like everything about them just came to me naturally or as if something was sitting there telling me about them lol

(I also remember trying really hard to project onto Berry, saying that he was me and I was him and some jazz, guys that was literally me trying to self insert in my own story cause autism and passion okay, not a thing anymore Berry is very much his own character now and I'm so embarrassed and gonna go dig myself a hole now okay byeee)

To hopefully sound less crazy, at the time these guys came around, I was on vacation and was absolutely bored to death. So realistically, I think I just made these guys up to occupy my mind for that week until I got back home. Yet I still can't help and think sometimes about the previous stuff. I'm sure it was simply because I was too lazy to really shape them out and I was just going with whatever popped up in my mind first, but it just doesn't feel that way lol.

So summary is I'm insane I guess lol. Idk y'all they're real to me, in my heart (everyone ever says about their ocs)

Okay so on to the actual story:

Yeah, okay so there isn't really a set story, or at least not yet lol. Like I said, fleshing these guys out wasn't the most tried thing and that includes their story. All I can really say is that they all live in a secluded little town and go about their business doing whatever and hanging out with each other. Think of it as Sesame Street in a way lol, that's the best I got

I do plan to do things with them though, like a possible ask blog, and who knows, as time goes on we may all get to learn a bit more about them :o)

[17mujipens]

the dragon prince season 5 live thoughts:

the way Rayla constantly has the weight of the world and her parents and her personal relationship and then the world again on her shoulders is insane

Terry is bf goals, he really saw his girl having a meltdown and was like here are some nice textures. autism wins again

Callum really was like ‘my girl can commit any crime she wants :)’

that little bug elf person is so scary for no reason

loooove the dragon designs. like every time we see a dragon i’m fascinated

im so glad that in-universe people understand that Ezran is just a kid. like its heartbreaking but i’m glad it is discussed

side note but Corvus and Soren are def fucking and Corvus is not proud of it

i love how everyone is experiencing trauma and Rayla and Callum are in some second chance romance fluffy story

THEYRE SO CUTEEEE

VIREN mindscape

that scene between King Harrow and Viren genuinely has me hyperventilating

oh Harrow is that bird for sure for sure

oh to have a partner as dedicated to your success as Terry….

baby Soren is such a sweetie!!!!! im gonna cry

oh even more beautiful dragons

i totally forgot that Aarovos whispered something to the previous queen and now that intrigue is back

i feel like i gotta stop saying something every time Terry does/says something incredibly sweet because we’ll be here for so long

they keep reiterating how important family is to Viren and i mean it’s not a necessarily new characteristic but it’s more intense now. like the way morality doesn’t exist when it concerns them. before it was all for power and now its all for them and it doesn’t matter that Soren is on the ‘enemy’ side so it has me thinking that something is going to happen to one of his children that will. result in either Viren’s self sacrifice or his betrayal of Aarovos

Amaya and Janai are so so real

OMG baby Claudia!

Callum and Rayla’s frustration over being forbidden from going to Lux Area is hilarious, especially how Callum gave a freaking illustration shdjjdbdb

Aunt Amaya is a real one

oh i just knooow Karim’s storyline is going to be so so messy

also this made me think. like what the fuck do you even do after you get banished. like where do you go

Claudia and Viren sinking and saving each other is mirrored is just muah delicious

Soren running away terrified Viren but Claudia turning out just like him is scaring him even more

Claudia is my wet cat pathetic but also op character

some eye of sauron shit in Lux Aurea

the nerd elf is so cute and way too innocent for all this bullshit

Aunt Amaya is a real one pt. 2

omg. didn’t i say Karim’s story is going to be insane

i feel like Amaya’s monologue about love is going to be so heartbreaking in a few episodes

i’m usually a throwback montage hater but this one is so cute and sweet and it really highlights just how much they’ve grown and how far these two have come

Stella is a little kleptomaniac. sweetie.

Karim is constantly misunderstanding things because of his own biases. like how he thought the Janai wouldn’t fight because he came to the conclusion that the throne doesn’t matter to her because she didn’t lead like he wanted her to. and now he thinks that what Sol Regem needs is sight when what he actually needs is hope

the ‘i would do anything for you’ is sounding scary in the context of we just heard that that’s what started Viren’s descend into darkness

the library fight sequence is great, always fun to see their different fighting styles and how the cooperate

but it also gave me so much anxiety because Amaya is exactly the character that’s important and beloved enough that the writers might decide to make her infected so we all suffer

Dragon Queen to the rescue!!! oh how powerful dragons are…

why are u always leaving Bait behind :( he’s just a baby :(

NO I SPOKE TOO SOON!!! AMAYAAA

AND CORVUS TOO??????? agony and pain in Xadia

oh and i totally forgot about the Queen herself!!!!

oh Viren’s brain is doing a full reset

EZRAN YOU SWEETHEART <33333

i’m obsessed with Tina already. her design and her grumpy old woman attitude

oh Terry and Claudia you will always be famous to me

Akiyu and Lujanne would be besties

‘ when your mind is telling you to speak, instead you must listen’ LMAO

i know this Bloodhuntress is evil, they even say this out loud but… she’s kinda hot, yeah?

im really hoping that they find some way to cure the dragon queen. we don’t need to preteen kings

that boat set up is terrifying. and way too similar to Charon to be comfortable

bright hope cove…or scumport

this made me realise how much i just need at least a short story or something on Rayla years alone

this is such a fun setting. i have a soft spot for these types of towns in stories

i NEED the reaction pic someone already should have made of Ezran and Bait after Finnegran announced the ship’s price

omg pirate return!!

Claudia my girl who is worse <3

baby glow toads are 80% eye and 20% body lol

oh another return appearance!! i hope Nyx’ll bring some interpersonal drama

yeah, and she’s already pushing Callum’s buttons lol

damn, Soren is strong as hell, swimming in armour

oof i think she shouldn’t trust Miyana, wasn’t she Karim’s lover?

now that i see the Bloodhuntress in daylight, i have to say im not a fan of her colour scheme BUT powers are so cool visually, this whole fight sequence is amazing

Callum is just so powerful… i feel like we forget it sometimes but he is the first human mage to use any primal magic and the scale of the spells he’s using here is just insane

ITS A FUCKING HERMIT CRAB?????

oh god seeing Anaya in pain and despair is somehow worse than anyone else. and seeing her grief turn into anger muah chefs kiss

why is this y-7 show giving me anxiety. i literally started watching this to relax and think about interesting fantasy concepts what’s all this!!

oh shit this intro has Callum in it. shits about to hit the fan

i feel like that sea shanty has to have some deeper meaning. i hope it’s not that they’re going to drown our heroes

WHY IS THERE TORTURE IN HERE!!!!

don’t get me wrong i’m a tragedy enjoyer, i should know that by now but holy shit i just wasn’t emotionally prepared for all this

Soren, himbo of all time

Finnergrin is a great character to contrast our heroes actually and push them over

HES FREEZING HER BLOOD

oh Callum :( i love those moments where his anger boils over but i also love how they show how that scares him

Finnegrin is putting Rayla in mortal danger…i HOPE Callum goes feral

oh yeah this is some serious levelling up!!! Go Callum!!!

Soren, sweetheart :( he really saw this wood man get treated like trash, recognised it and at great personal cost helped him free himself :) using his daddy issues for the greater good

oh wow that greater good is apparently killing! slay

i feel like i gotta say something about Callum using dark magic to free himself but god that’s just plain heavy

oh Zubeia is still grieving and she’s just going on for her kid :(((

it’s day 30, damon what a way to up the already high stakes

Ezran was so sure that the prison being underwater would stump them but they figured it out so quick

my one thing is, this is open sea, if they’re even approximately at the same place, shouldn’t they have seen each other?

Aaravos really says every single sentence like it’s some dirty talk. like bro is saying something about borrowing consciousness or whatever with the same voice u usually hear say some shit like ‘oh you like that?’

finally Claudia and Callum and Ezran meeting! the way she truly believes that the ends justify the means and that all that dark magic hasn’t had its affect on her… wow

OUR CHILD? this whole monologue has me in hysterics

also because like…if he didn’t say anything, and was just like ‘kill this homunculus and your life will be restored’ Viren probably would have done it

i fear that ultimately, Viren will be too little too late for Claudia. because while he turned into who he is while an adult, Claudia was raised to be like this. so if he tries to change her, it’d be a betrayal to her

yeah, see Claudia is even more extreme than her father. because she has nothing else besides him, there is not status or prestige, or brother, or anyone else. it’s just her and him

fucking hell, i KNEW Miyana wasn’t to be trusted!

i think Karim will have a devastating win in s6, but it’ll be short lived, because like i said before he lacks critical thinking

what the hell is this mushroom mage and how soon can he help us retake Lux Aurea

what the fuck did he mean by ‘swallow’

Claudia is literally destroying herself in her quest. like we know that dark magic is detrimental to not only your physical but also your mental health, like we saw with Viren, and Claudia’s hair, but now literally her leg is gone. how far will she go?

side note: i think that because Viren reset, that’s why all his mentality and soul came back and that’s why his morals are so much stronger than we ever saw them?

OH THATS JUST A CRAZY INSANE CRUEL PLACE TO FINISH THE SEASON WOW

[unstableplague]

LOVING your scout thoughts. Tell me more im sitting and listening and kicking my legs back and forth and giggling like I'm on the phone

BRO SHDHSGSHfaHWGSGS FOAMING AT THE MOUTH

Okay okAY I have like so many headcanons for Jeremy Scout and like my own interpretation of the other scout I couLD GO ON FOR DAYS

Anyway!!! Dynamics!! ‘M gonna talk about that and just,,, stuff about scout I like and headcanon,,,

- scout is a lot smarter than people give him credit for and I will fist fight anyone about that. he is smart intelligence wise and emotional wise.

- I see a lot of scout having ADHD; which I believe 100%, but I do believe he is also autistic. I don’t see a lot of people bringing up that idea, but as a person with autism, he just gives off the vibe.

- also scout slurs his words together because he talks too fast. everything he does is fast. so sometimes he needs to be reminded to slow down a little.

- I love love love the idea of scout and pyro being bffs, and not like the same way scout is bffs with sniper. I mean like in the sense they kinda get each other without really getting each other. They’re both underestimated and perceived as less than their worth (both being babied and seen as dumber than they are at times)

- they are both childish but not children! they can color together and make comics together and scout will collect rare plushies to trade with pyro because they cAN HAVE INTERESTS THAT ARE DEEMED CHILDISH WITHOUT BEING CHILDREN

- and I don’t care what anyone says!! pyro and scout hold hands and scout does not mind because it helps pyro keep themself grounded!!!

- pyro and scout will go to one another if the other can’t sleep and they’ll just watch crappy movies and giggle and half the time they don’t even talk they just enjoy each others presence

- scout and sniper are the friends that one talks and one listens. they are best friends in the sense I think scout treats sniper like how he treats his brothers

- scout will just gangle himself around this jungle gym of a man because it is fun and there is a primal urge to climb anything tall. sniper is desensitized to it and will just let scout do whatever.

- like sniper is the friend that scout feels comfortable enough to let out all his stims and stuff around. he could just doodle on sniper, fiddle with his fingers, yank his hair, touch his face, bite his hand, and sniper will just allow it because he knows scout doesn’t even really think about doing it, it just happens. he won’t tell scout to lower his voice or slow down, he just lets him go wild, y’know?

- scout and soldier are two of my most favorite characters and they are both so so loving and I need more people to realize this!!!!!!

- I saw this headcanon (I forget by who) that scout got his dog tags from soldier and it is like my favorite things.

- scout and soldier, I don’t see their relationship as brotherly but more like closer than friends, they have a kinship that can’t be explained by words. like they’re good friends where it’s almost brotherly almost mentor-y, but it’s not.

- I think scout looks up to Soldier while also thinking he’s an utter buffoon. Like he thinks Solly is so cool and so amazing but he’d never say that, cause Solly is insane and oblivious to a degree. Despite this, both Solly and scout are so emotional in their own ways and I think that’s something they have in common. They’re both intelligent but not in ways that is conventional.

- also of course they both beat each other up but I think it’s more of like just a thing they do. Solly going after scout i could see as a form of “cuteness aggression”, in the sense that he cares about this silly guy so much he doesn’t know how to handle it.

- I think Soldier just picks up scout in a fireman carry just because he can and then scout tries and fails and Soldier just keeps encouraging him

- I don’t care what anyone says; Soldier is scout’s number one supporter even if he sounds aggressive in his positivity

- “KEEP IT UP MAGGOT!!! I BELIEVE IN YOU!! LETS GO TWINKLE TOES!! ONE TWO ONE TWO!!”

- I could go on about these two for days they are such goobers

- MEDIC AND SCOUT IS JUST A SILLY DYNAMIC AND I LOVE IT

- they’re both silly guys and both have weird fascinations with pain. the guy who wants to explore it in a sense of science and the guy who doesn’t think twice about it before charging headfirst into it. they’re besties.

- “medic finds scout annoying” “scout finds medic scary” NO!!! THEY’RE BESTIES. medic adores scout since he’s the one constantly volunteering to be first for the experiments!! heavy is the first volunteer? NO ITS SCOUT!! Scout volunteers for all the experiments!! Helpful and just for fun ones!! and he’s in perfect shape and age, so why wouldn’t medic deem him as the perfect test subject???

- both medic and scout have a flare for dramatics and absolutely adore rambling. you cannot tell me they wouldn’t talk all the time. scout will pace around the lab as medic does work and just ramble about his day, his thoughts, any ideas for experiments he has that he thinks Doc could pull off.

- I can see both scout and medic as the type of people who just cannot sit or stand still for more than a few minutes. Medic can handle it better, but even he gets restless being still.

- I love both the interpretations that medic loves touch and the interpretation that he hates touch. I see it more as medic adores touch in the sense that he must be the one to initiate it or on certain days he feels more touch adverse. With this in mind I believe that scout is very similar in the sense he loves touch but also can really hate it other times. So I like to imagine that they just y’know poke at one another :)

- I like the idea of them being bros that acknowledge their equal desire for comfort from touch but also the occasional adversity of it. So I think they’d do like platonic cuddling and stuff just because

I WILL DO THE OTHERS AND THEIR DYNAMICS WITH SCOUT IN THE NEZT POST BUT I MUST EAT

[aroace-polyshow]

If I were to guess what your favorite enstars unit would be. I would think it’s ryuseitai

^ these guys

Mostly going off you’re love for wxs lol.

These guys are the Autism group for sure and they are power ranger themed essentially. For characters we have chiaki (red, middle guy), he’s like. Super obsessed with heroes and wanting to be a hero for people and he’s literally such a father figure to the younger guys in the unit it’s INSANE. then there’s shinobu (yellow, middle right) and he’s a ninja and he has pet frogs and he’s adorable I love him. Then there’s tetora (black, middle left) he’s the current leader and he’s obsessed with being super manly and strong and stuff he’s pretty cool (I know like nothing about him). Then there’s midori (green, far right) and he’s one of my favorite characters in the entire game I LOVE HIM he’s so pathetic. He has hella depression (literally punctuates over half his sentence with “I wanna die”) and accidentally became an idol but chiaki wouldn’t let him leave. He’s obsessed with mascots and cute things and he’s so adorable. And finally there’s kanata (blue, far left). He is. A lot. He’s got a lot of lore. Uhh pretty much he loves aquatic life and is the ex figurehead of a cult and stuff?? And chiaki is his hero. Things get kinda cray in this game.

But yeah they are SUCH a found family and they care about each other so so much which is why I think you’d like them their dynamic and relationships to each other is why I think you’d like them. Also their music is so fun

Some examples lol

Shinobu center song (10/10 no notes)

Tetora center song (if kanatas wasn’t the climax song I would think this was it it’s such a good representation of their unit)

Kanata center song (my least favorite not bc it’s bad in fact I kind of love it but it sounds like a different units music more than ryuseitais 😭)

Midori center song (my favorite for obvious reasons. He is so happy in this song and it makes me happy)

And I’m going to be honest. I have no idea what chikais center song is otherwise I would link it 😭but four is already a lot to send so I won’t bother (unless you want me to lmao)

mari. mari. THEY ALREADY WERE MY FAVORITE UNIT. i fucking love shinobu he’s adorable and he’s everything to me. kanata is silly and i also love him and everything i knew about the rest came from pinterest posts but i liked them!! i like exclusively played the ryusetai songs. i love them….

[silverzoomies]

I’m so curious to see who you’d ship me with because I completely trust your judgement… so here goes nothing. 🌸💐🌷

-I’m a 23 year old female who’s currently in college for criminal justice and psychology. I’m awful at math but love love love science.

-I love animals, I have lots of snakes, lizards, fish, dogs, cats. I’m not opposed to anything besides spiders

-I love listening to music and my favorite artists are Taylor swift, Hozier, P!nk, and Kelly Clarkson. I like to think I’m a creative person but idk. I like to craft and scrapbook, make jewelry etc.

-im a perfectionist and if Im not instantly good at something I get very frustrated.

-I also have depression (yay) anxiety, autism, and possible ADD. People have told me I’m good at ‘hiding’ it and ‘fitting in’ though.

-im super shy in real life. Like beyond shy. Im not a fan of physical touch but if it was someone I really liked, I wouldn’t mind. My love language is gift giving.

-I like to cook, I play piano and guitar, and I like to go on a lot of spontaneous adventures because if my mind comes up with an idea I have to play it out that moment or I go insane.

-im pretty good at adjusting to any environment and tend to mimic people to fit in. I like to people watch and kind of mirror their personality and actions.

-winter is my favorite season and Halloween is my favorite holiday. I’d say I’m a pretty morbid person by societies standards. Like animals in jars and black clothes… listening to true crime podcasts to fall asleep. Stuff like that. I’m kind of goth, I’d say? I also love makeup and rarely leave the house without it on

oh...oh my gosh...ohohohohoh buckle up, my good buddy pal,, i've got a super fun one for you !!! i'm gonna put a read more, since this one's kinda long !! you gave me a lot of detail to work with !!

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right off the bat, you talk about studying criminal justice and psychology. which are very respectable fields of education. it sounds to me like you're really takin' your education seriously !! and that's wonderful !! y'know...that kinda reminds me of a certain boy...

so, y'know who also takes his education pretty seriously? a guy who wants to change the world for the better? i'm def thinkin' of pre-death kyle for you. sorry. SORRY, OKAY !! i know what you're thinkin'...oh, zoomies, you're only saying this because i've got kyle in my url. ABSOLUTELY NOT !!

you make yourself out to be such a genuine sweetheart with a wide range of interests !! you're creative and down to earth - both of which are traits i think kyle would absolutely swoon over !! you treat animals with kindness, and you love every single one. c'mon...doesn't he seem like the same ?? if you showed him the super gnarly pets you have, i know for a gosh dang fact he'd think they're the coolest ever !!

mans unapologetically loves music. dude was so open about how much he liked toto. based btw. i can totally see him vibin' to your favorite tunes too. bobbin' his head, singin' along. no matter how feminine the songs seem, he really wouldn't care !! he'd have fun with 'em anyway !!

i think he wouldn't want you to hide how you feel, or mask yourself for the sake of fitting in. he likes you for your genuine self. the creative person you are, with all your talents - writing, music, cooking, making jewelry. he'd want you to be yourself openly and freely. and he'd be super patient and encouraging about it too !! kyle's a sweetheart !! you put two sweethearts together ?? recipe for love !! 💛🧡❤️

[marxistjughead]

tagged by @kommunarde to talk about five things i like. i can definitely do that :-)

1. i like history and recently i've been focusing on the nineteenth century for some reason because it's a time period we tend to not study a lot in schools anymore. and when we do study it i start having amnesia because of unrelated factors (in quatrième i was suicidal and in première i was too busy getting brain damage from supernatural. i only started really killing it in history class in my last year of high school when we talked about economy and politics as factors all the time). it has been crazy to realize specifically the articulation between the french revolution the empire the other revolutions in france the second empire the commune the first world war and so on and so on. like to me until recently there was a huge hole between 1794 and 1914 and i knew about the events that happened in between obviously but i wasn't really connecting them well. and right now i am making the connections it's actually maddening. for example victor hugo author of les misérables french poet novelist playwright politician and overall legend lived at the same time as karl marx which somehow never occured to me. but now it has and i feel like i've unlocked a secret of the universe. & we'll be studying a time period from the late nineteenth century to the 30s next year. i fr can't wait to go back to history class in september it's going to be so awesome!!!

2. dark netflix is one of my favorite tv shows of all time it's basically about becoming your own worst enemy and how fate might or might not be inescapable. it's a circular narrative spanning multiple generations and decades and universes. it's awesome it has everything important namely philosophy failed marriages and killing people with rocks. it's a crime tv show slash horror slash mystery except then it becomes something else i can't tell you about but fleabag voice this is a love story. it's like stranger things if stranger things was better and about something else entirely. it's incredibly smart and it's the only tv show i've rewatched so far in my life because it's just so well made i don't think i'll ever see something like that again. i can't tell you about it without spoiling it and it's definitely necessary to not look at anything online before finishing the show but please watch it please please please

3. i love falling into wikipedia rabbit holes!! everyone makes fun of me for it because apparently that's not a "reliable source" (some students don't go to the source section and look up the sources listed, and instead they mindlessly copy what the page says instead of going deeper in research or at least rephrasing it a little or just. at least at the very least deleting the hyperlinks. that could not be me! wikipedia is a great tool when you know how to use it and when you use it to its full potentialities. i could never hate wikipedia my beautiful website. it's just that some people are really not smart when it comes to plagiarism). and also because reading stuff for fun and remembering all of it forever is not "something everyone does" and i need to "get diagnosed with autism". WHATEVER. i'll remain cool and knowledgeable about many fun facts and you'll do nothing about it. what i have open right now: prépa as a system, the far left in france, a bunch of pages about the weimar republic, republican calendar, pierre-sur-haute military radio station, les cloches de bâle, rené girard, lycurgus, junge welt, sdaj (i've been looking up far left looking stuff i see stickers for as a desperate attempt to understand the political landscape of this country but alas it's something that wikipedia cannot bring me i think), harmodius and aristogeiton, maquis du limousin, acéphale. also chronology of social movements in france (i am cooking something)

4. okay bear with me for this one because it's going to sound insane and parasocial but i'm aware that it is so it's basically fine. maybe. it's not that i "like" him he's just extremely entertaining and something is wrong with him in a way that is also wrong with me. so there's this guy who used to be in charge of the social media strategy for arguably the most famous french left-wing politician (jean-luc mélenchon, our bernie sanders, even though that's not an adequate comparison because france is a pays finito as i like to call it but not as finito as the united states of america. anyway) and said politician is like 70 but every once in a while during the presidential campaign he made this really funny social media post and every jeune con dépolitisé was like oh mr mélenchon you know memes you're so cool i'm going to vote for you. not me because i'm a critical thinker and i can't even vote but i do love myself a good reformist grandpa post i'm sorry. the first half of 2022 was a weird time. and we knew the guy behind that it was the guy i'm going to be talking about next. so we did not win that presidential election obviously (insert image of me crying tears of blood) (it's fine haha reformism is a dead end) and we have this second round between margaret thatcher and a fascist. but since we do not have a loser mindset and need to bounce back (this country is rotten to the core and we are never going to win electorally or otherwise unless a biblical level miracle happens. when i talk to my neighbors and my family members and my classmates i realize how fucked we are and how truly awful it could get and how easy it would be for a lot of us to look away. it makes me a little sick to think about. but there is much pain in the world but not in this room right?) they said hey! vote for us in the legislative elections! and in france we have a constituency system basically you have a local mp. so our social media guy became a candidate! and he was elected! and then inexplicably (i've followed him for several years and can confirm it came out of the blue) the man turned into a hardcore robespierrist like a month into it. i got really into the french revolution in may to cope with well everything so i was like oh okay interesting that's cool. it's cringe because he's a grown man with a job but it's also sort of funny, in an absurd way. it's a waste of taxpayer money but he's a good mp as far as mps go and i don't pay taxes so i don't care. and at first it was just like a few tweets here and there, he also invited a ya author who makes educational tiktoks about the terror to the national assembly in robespierre cosplay, but recently well uh. he quotes either robespierre or the 1793 constitution literally every intervention. he wore a wig. we're technically in the same political movement because i was peer pressured into joining and in my city the choice is between them or maoists (which way modern man). but i don't have the time to be that invested unfortunately since i have to go to my beautiful torture labyrinth (prépa) every day. during the pension reform protests (don't even talk to me about it.......) a few videos of him surfaced going to face the police in order to well i don't know intimidate them with his écharpe de député into not being violent anymore. it didn't work he got hit tear gassed multiple times but then he had proof of police violence and he could say look at this it's not normal and it didn't achieve much because this country may be beyond hope but it's very brave of him i think. or in another video he was being kettled with a colleague and said colleague was like hey antoine can you quote an article of the declaration of the rights of man and of the citizen at this policeman? and he did. like overall he's a really cool mp he's just also very dedicated to rehabilitating robespierre for some kind of reason. and the real life embodiment of this emoji combination 🤓☝️. and he has a child i think. and we're twitter mutuals

5. i like this poem i think about it so often i have bits of it memorized bouncing around in my head like a dvd screensaver. the way i want you has its own climate like how storms are magnetic. shortest war on earth. every room i enter is empty and i wake searching for you still. and so on and so on i actually want to chew on the poem a little it's like a really comfortable mattress but for my brain if that makes sense

okay this got long!! tagging @isaidilovedu2death @brutalistarchitecture2 @vassyflorence @sotiriabellou and anyone else who wants to do it really. please tell me about things you like!! i haven't written most of this tonight but tonight i am sad and there is a chance i'll be sad for a little while so tell me about you. i care. i love to hear about the things you all are passionate about. if not in public send me a dm. actually you can send me a dm about virtually anything

[chaoticbuggybitchboy]

Aight more coherent version of my last post:

I got accepted into a welding training program that will definitely teach me welding and will hopefully help me find a job in the trade pretty fast out of high school

Reasons good: welding fun; I have a much better chance of moving out of this hellhole family much faster than I would via college; I can probably pay my own way through college

Reasons mildly inconvenient: very time intensive and thus I’ll have less time to write fan fiction come this autumn

That mixed with hopefully getting my own bank account stuff and a drivers license this summer and my friends(!!!! Rahhhhhhh) I should be able to move out by next fall.

This feels surreal, I remember being 12 and crying into the void because I’d never escape, but here I am, with my own email address and telling my tumblr moots that I am not actually doomed. I know I haven’t done any coherent lore drop beyond my parents aren’t great. That’s probably the understatement of the century and I probably won’t really go beyond ‘somehow this is what passes for doing better’. Not good. Moving out used to be an impossible dream, something I would never achieve. It’s finally starting to be real, which is quite frankly insane. This is starting to feel like an Oscar’s acceptance speech and to play into that I’d like to thank my wattpad era friends for encouraging me through the absolute lowest points of my life. They were right, I am making it out of here alive.

Thanks for reading my moderate sap serious goose post. I’m autisming rn so I don’t really sound all that happy, but I am and am I’m floored, flabbergasted and trying to act normal.