#I have no issues whatsoever

[gender-ihardlyknower]

Frisk fumbled, if I fell into the underground and toriel offered to be my mother and let me live with her and baked pies for me and told me snail facts I would be SAT

[gaunt-and-hungry]

True to my nature as an academic I am here with several tabs open about the man himself as well as snippets of text from the book and the chapters pertaining to him as well as my leather book where I keep my many notes.

[calware]

i wish people would stop arguing and saying "AI art isn't real art" and instead focus on the actual issue, which is that it's currently based on wide-scale art theft and unethically built by using other people's work without their knowledge or consent. you can't define what "is and isn't" art, it's an abstract concept and a complete non-issue. the real issue is the stolen artwork it was built on!!

[melissa-titanium]

monstrous nightmare httyd tongue...

[ilikeyoshi]

ppl like "i have to use ay-eye bc i can't drawwwww :(" ok whose fault is that. i can't draw either u know who's fault that is?? mine!!!! it isn't a bad thing but if i am unwilling to learn to draw that is Exclusively My Fault buddy!!!! if u refuse to practice that is, in fact, a you problem!!!! that's fine!!!! but u dont get to pretend u HAVE to use ay-eye bc an Uncontrollable Force prevents u from learning to draw!!!! u could just Go Learn!!!!

[swan2swan]

Jurassic World + Disabilities and Limb Difference

[a-neru-neru]

more old backlogged capitaru.

[e-adlirez]

Spoilers for Sinsmas/Sinsmas ramble

So I had Sinsmas paused on my browser to do life stuff as usual, I Will Be Okay was in my head, and I walked back to my computer after life stuff and realized the frame I had it paused on was

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Do you see what I'm seeing

Their positions aren't just similar, they're reversed. In "I Will Be Okay", Via is on the floor and Stolas's shadow is standing up, looking down on her and reaching a hand to her from above, which she swats away. At the end of Sinsmas, Stolas is kneeling on the floor, with Via looking down at him from above, and her hand resting on Stolas's, which she pulls away from.

AND THE PARALLELS AND REVERSALS DON'T END THERE

From what I could see, it seems like there's only one instance where the parallel doesn't totally apply.

This.

Merry Sinsmas, Helluva Boss fandom :D

:'D

[anonymous-polling]

is it rude to reblog a poll that has already ended?

- yes, to op

- yes, to people who see your reblog

- yes, to both op and viewers

- no

- other/no opinion/results

[actual-changeling]

honestly i think any pairing or relationship i'm obsessed with can be broken down to "if i loved you less i could love you better".

there's always a certain kind of devotion that's so rooted in self-hatred it results in the need to escape from one's life by making it about someone else—and sometimes being terrified by that thought and attempting to escape any genuine connection to the detriment of everyone involved.

which is all deeply unhealthy, obviously, and what makes it interesting & fun.

however, one of the effects is that every now and then one of the characters is so bad at healthy interaction it causes an annoying anger/loose hatred. like i love them. but by god they're a horrible person or act like one when it matters and the other one would be better of without them.

i still want them to fuck though. but i DO have a favourite and a hill i will die on.

[sunnibits]

you know what I really do understand now why people would always project their stomach issues and eating disorders into izzy hands. the moment I got diagnosed with celiac I was like “yeah izzy has celiac disease now :)”. and guess what he has arfid too. because I said so.

[why-ami-not-asleep]

and five year plan wise i keep thinking abt gender which is frankly the least of my worries but like im not going to transition. im not going to become a man im not going to get surgery or on t or anything bc i am decidedly neutral to my body just generally until someone looks at it. like thats my issue i do wish i were a boy just because shit would be easier for me and people would see me differently but at the same time i dont hate being a girl. i hate being feminine and the expectation of wearing makeup and shaving and looking pretty all the fucking time drives me insane and the literal only way to escape that norm is to be a man. like i don't want a dick. i dont want surgery and i dont want any of the changes associated with hormones. i am neutral abt my chest overall. at the end of the day i am a girl and i always will be i cant escape that. i will always be my mothers daughter and fathers daughter. i will always be someones sister. that shit is not changing ever at all thats something that even thinking about changing would be denial. i am no ones son and no ones brother and i would never claim that because i dont want it. outside of my family i can be anything though thats ny issue. i can be a person my own person when im away. i can be nothing. i can just exist ambiguously because in all honesty i dont look like a girl and i dont have to play that part if i don't want to. what im saying is that it doesnt matter whether im a boy or a girl. the only time im obligated to give an answer is if im going to fuck someone and im not. i do prefer he/him pronouns but not in a man way more in an ambiguous way. i dont like they/them because its too specific. im fine with she/her its just too familiar. i hate being perceived and i hate the idea of having a gender because i genuinely don't think it matters. i wish i were in charge of how i am perceived all the time to a precise and minute extent but that is impossible. im not nonbinary and im not trans and im not cis. gender wise im dont think about it. i am do not refer to me. i am alone and myself and beyond that it's no ones business.

[icewindandboringhorror]

currently at That Point which occurs once every few months where one briefly begins pacing around the house teary eyed contemplating selling their own organs or becoming an online scammer or getting on anxiety meds so you can bear the risk taking required to be a hitman or so on and so forth.... why must everything so Expensive... Surely all would be healed in life if only I had one big plate of lasagna and a simple loan of $40,000 ... auoughhh....

[sharkdays]

ppl need to stop going “oh but this is pokemon so” as an excuse to immediately assume it’s childish or not take characters seriously

as if this is not the same franchise that has several rivals and characters with shit parents and who’s story has complexity and tragedy if you only look into it for more than a passing glance

[ironworked]

Eddie's journey

Eddie is the 10 year old whose father told him he needed to be the man of the house. He's the teenager whose girlfriend got pregnant and who felt pressured to marry partly because of the Church. He's a Mexican-American man, and culturally/lapsed Catholic. He's the young man who enlisted to provide for his family, even though he never wanted to be like his father. He's the husband who thinks they could've done better, who feels guilt for his wife leaving. He's the man who proposed again but got asked for a divorce, and who feels he wasn't enough. He's the widower who didn't get to fix things with his wife, whom he still thinks of as 'the love of [his] life'. He's the man who thinks he needs to be in control, who doesn't want to appear weak, who 'doesn't panic'. He's the son who's recently been patching things up with his father. He's the father who's recently let his kid down and misses him terribly.

Non-exhaustive list of quotes pulled from the show, with links to videos when youtube allows (full 'playlist'), arranged by broad themes:

MASCULINITY

It's under control. Don't worry. S: Every time we talk about money, you tell me not to worry. Guess what, I worry. (2.15) / Bobby: I just wanna make sure you don't think you have to lose everything before you can allow yourself to feel anything. E: No, Christopher needs me to be in control. [...] I wasn't there when he was a baby. Stayed away too long, and it broke his mother. Shannon ran away, and I couldn't stop her. I couldn't bring her back home. (3.08) / S: We'll just sell the house and the cars and I'll go back to work. Maybe only part-time but - E: No, no. Christopher is the priority right now. You should stay home with him. [...] I'm trying to provide for this family. That's the reason I enlisted in the first place. S: I don't need a provider. I need a partner. (3.15) / I don't remember you being around much when I was his age. Ramón: I was working. E: So was I. / Frank: You're a man who spends all of his time managing other people's pain [...] but not a lot of time facing your own. Can't put all your feelings in a box, Eddie. You might think if you're strong enough that it'll hold. But at some point, that box is gonna blow open. E: And take me with it. F: You and anyone else around you. (5.13) / [R] spent his whole life driving across the state. Living everywhere but under his own roof with his own family. ... Oh, uh, why don't you tell them about the time you pulled your ten-year-old son aside and told him it was time to step up? Be the man of the house? [...] R: I was providing for the family. E: Providing? Providing what money? - Okay R: Exactly. I had to do what I had to do. E: A family needs more than money. (6.17)

RELIGION

Turns out, I'm a Manchurian Catholic. I've just got a reservoir of Catholic guilt just lying dormant, waiting to be activated [...] What, you think I should go to confession? You think a priest is going to make me feel better about all this? [...] Bobby: Lapsed Catholic, still a Catholic. [...] That was a lot of the reason why we got married. The Church. She got pregnant and I think we both felt pressured into it. But I never regretted it, and even when things got really bad, there was always a part of me that I loved being married to her. (7.05) / Bobby: Eddie, I was going through some things, and I found this [prayer book]. Made me think of you. Just hang onto it, It might come in handy.

SHANNON

He loves having you around.[...] We both do. [...] I want this. Want to have a nice day on the beach with my son and his mother. ... Bobby: Were you ready the first time? Eddie: No. I knew I loved her, but I didn't think I was ready to get married. [...] I guess the question is, can I be a good husband? ... I knew Christopher missed you, but I I don't think I realized just how much I did, too. [...] We could have done better, we could have tried, I want us to be a family again. (2.17) / I loved your mom and I miss her, probably always will. (3.04) / I'm angry at a dead person and at myself because I forgave her for everything, and and it wasn't enough. I wasn't enough. (3.08) / I just want what I had when I met Shannon. It just happened. It was magic. Hen: Oh, so you believe in magic. E: I believe in chemistry. ... Bobby: Eddie, I know how hard this is. One thing you can't do is compare what you had with what you think you're gonna have. You just have to be open to whatever comes. (6.17)

(7.09 deleted scene)

CHRISTOPHER

E: Christopher. Is this Mom? Hey. Is that who you've been dreaming about? (3.04) / I wish I could forget. People go away. Not just Mom. Abuelita, Carla, my friends. They leave and then I miss them. I don't want to miss anyone else. (4.08) / Ravi: You must be Eddie's wife? C: Not yet. (5.02) / They just end up leaving anyway. Buck: Uh, why would you say that? C: My mom did. B: Uh, Chris, your mom died. C: Before that. She left us. We loved her, and she left anyway. I can't remember her voice anymore. (7.01)

(5.03) (6.18)

Dad, do you think she can hear us when we talk to her? E: Absolutely. That's why we come here. C: I wish I could hear her talk back. E: Me, too, bud. Me, too. ...

I'm sorry. I was thinking maybe we could watch it together in El Paso next weekend. I know. Yeah, I know. I know, it's last-minute, but I miss you guys, and I know Christopher does, too. Exactly. Why wait? Well, there's no better time than now. (6.15) / Chris, he's excited to see everyone, he misses them. (5.17)

I tried to talk about it with him and he ignored me the whole drive back. R: That part, that part sounds like us. The old Díaz family cold shoulder. Your Abuela originated it, but as I recall, you perfected it. [...] You had to grow up a lot faster than you should have. But that doesn't mean you can keep Christopher a kid forever. (6.04)

It just pisses me off. I mean, here's a kid who actually wants his dad in his life, and he doesn't even bother to show up? I miss him so much, Cap. I'm trying to respect his wishes, but we zoom a couple times a week, barely says a word to me. ... Sometimes a son just needs his father. Hell, a father needs his son. I speak from experience. ... But you're missing out on watching him grow up, on who he's becoming. ... I'm a dad who doesn't live under the same roof as his son. And it's my fault. And I hate it. (8.04) / Christopher doesn't want anything to do with Halloween, turns out. [...] Not like I was gonna be able to do it with him anyway. I just wish I knew last year was his last. (8.05)

That's the path behind him, so I don't think it's outrageous to expect that his future storyline(s) at least in short and mid term will involve unpacking at least some of that as well as whatever moves/decisions made to actively heal his relationship with Christopher and get him back.

Also, this is why Christopher felt the need for some space; it's not out of nowhere, and he isn't throwing a tantrum.

Some interesting posts: Eddie Díaz's tragic timeline; 2.17 vs 8.05 comparison gifset; about Ryan Guzmán's references in interviews (x, x, x); about Eddie's background/potential SLs based on it (x, x).

[rocketbirdie]

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