#I have no clue. Fucking hell
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sometimes i worry that im being too autistic on the autism website
#kota.txt#Like oh shit is this a normal way to talk#Do my mutuals get what i'm trying to say#Surely they do if they follow me right#its like having to communicate by cutting words out of the dictionary#is what it feels like sometimes#like this is not the most concise or legible way to express this at all#but i dont have the energy to optimize it#^ Literally those two sentences is what i worry about like who the fuck says concise#and now i sound way too Um Acktually im an Intellectual Being Smart is a Curse nerd guy#Like no this is just how i talk sometimes idk why#I could also fully be making too mjch if a big deal out of this to the point where it reads as bragging or something#I have no clue. Fucking hell#Anyway if anyone can relate please lmk i am stranded on an island rn
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and i know that you mean so well;
but i am not a vessel for your good intent!
("Tongues and Teeth," - The Crane Wives)
my serotonin got jetpack bursted into the stratosphere with this blurb by OP. Your brain is so juicy and moist and wrinkly OP. Godspeed. I'm not even into DC but the whole "Burnt out and neglected, and now a bunch of people driven by guilt guilt guilt want me back so they can feel less guilty?" just made the racoon in me rub its hands menacingly hoho
Just imagine not even living your best life; just a shadow in the lives of the illustrious Waynes, a ghost in a castle, visible only to the loyal servant and the occasional curious paparazzi who shrugs and looks away--after all, there was no mention of you in any occasion: must be the kid of in-house staff. How nice of Brucie Wayne to allow even the children of in-house staff the opportunity to study at such a high-end college! (The reporters chortle and snicker at your barely-passing marks, sighing at such a wasted opportunity. Oh well. And then they move on to the tabloid topic of the week, after the strutting socialites and the rich and the arrested Rogues.)
You gather things.
You gather pieces of a cracked dream, a single plastic teacup you had brought into the cavernous mansion the day you held Alfred's old, gnarled hand. Ears ringing and slippers still stained with your parent's blood as they were gunned down before your very eyes. You gather your things, what made you before you were "Wayne," so to say. Your mother's old cigarette box, smuggled from the crime scene, your one memento of the woman who you could not forget but never forgive.
A juxtaposition of love and hate, forever crucified. The image of the Virgin Mary inside the tin box seems to be a mockery of faith, across from her image lying cheap cigarettes.
You gather test papers, all barely passing and with more reds than blacks, and grind them up into strips with the shredder you had brought; just one time the black card Wayne had given you, and it left the bitterest, sourest aftertaste in your mouth. They burn so cozily on the school Bunsen burners, especially when sprayed with alcohol, immediately immolating like timelapse sparkler videos. You gather your name before the Incident, you cherish it, and you repeat the syllables in the dead of night, spilling past your mouth. Even if it was the name of a child-abusing monster, it was still yours, and it was still of use.
And use it, you would.
While they go and be a family, you work to begin yours.
You gather funds: it's easy to take on odd jobs when people do not suspect you. You tuck away that black card at the bottom of your study table drawers, forgotten there like scribbled-out pages of an essay, an unfinished drawing, and leftover candy wrappers. It's a bit-by-bit work, but you know the Waynes wouldn't even see it happening. Your brothers and sisters (an absurdly alien concept, as they don't even acknowledge you exist ninety-five percent of the time) are prodigies paraded around at every event. You are the unseen ghost flitting through their shadows.
Graduation comes and goes. It's laughably easy to falsify having lost your social security number and other documents--Gotham is that much of a shithole, you suppose. The man in the cowl notwithstanding. His efforts are admirable, but weak. Recidivism is common in this place, as if there were some sort of pull that incited the people in Gotham to cruelty, to madness.
It's absurdly Lovecraftian, in its own way.
You are not even living your best life, and yet you are free. Alfred knows; he always knows. If you are The Ghost, then the aged butler is a man one step between the doors of death, and he sees you every time you move. Your room is empty, and he raises an eyebrow at your satchel: all your items already stored elsewhere or given away.
("I suppose this was a long time coming, Little Master."
Tap tap tap. Footsteps on marble floors, setting sun.
You shrug. "Eh. The Waynes gave me a roof and education. It's all good."
You grunt. "Well, people change. Like you know, how kids being gifted stop being gifted when they grow older." You say, instead of 'Well, if a child doesn't get any praise or attention if they do good and probably even less if they were bad, why even bother?')
A pause. "Your academics were not so lackluster when you were younger."
You promise to try and stay in touch. (You crossed your fingers behind your back.) You leave, sunset on your face.
The nap you had in a dingy hotel with far too many odd stains and not enough locks you could put on was the soundest you've ever slept in years.
Freedom smells like summer air and the last rays of sun, followed by the cold blue hour.
It takes three months for an out-of-state college to accept you. It's far from Gotham. It has a dormitory. Excellent. While you were indeed a mediocre academic student, you had banked everything on band scholarships.
Who knew more than a hundred clarinet players had unclaimed scholarships yearly? Packing up your small life in bags, you take a train upwards to another state.
(Meanwhile, in Gotham, there is an odd sense of unease as Bruce Wayne stops by an inconspicuous door. It's relatively clean, as expected of his manor, but the worn out brass on the handle suggests that someone had lived there before. He opens the door. Steps in. A bed, a dresser, a study table. Bare bones.
The unease intensifies. But who?)
Someone had lived in here, yes.
#yandere batfam#YEAHOOOOOOO#wrote this instead of sleeping#FUCKING HELL#I HAVE WORK TOMORROW#dc x reader#yandere batfam x reader#anyways hmmmmmmm#my crack scenario here is reader moves into gravity falls and becomes honorary pines because you KNOW the pines are all about that found fa#reader becomes the new Mystery Shack employee; shenanigans ensue and they heal bit by bit with Pines Exposure Therapy#Meanwhile Bruce in Gotham is getting the most deadpan scathing commentary from Alfred he's received in years. One child he had forgotten;#a child who had become so skilled in hiding and pretending that even /he; BATMAN/ did not pick up on them. Even /Damian/ hasn't#and dude is a born and bred apex assassin which says a LOT about reader's skills. Dick is all wincey and guilty and hand-wringy#probs rooting around the room for clues and evidence of what kind of person this mystery sibling was again.
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i uh...i really like sitri
#whb#whb sitri#what in hell is bad#fanart#i am an avid sitri enjoyer#i have no fucking clue what his back looks like idky i did this to myself forgive me
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istg the fandom is gonna give me an aneurism. "stop glazing curly" "why doesn't anyone admit curly fucked up" "fun fact curly isn't innocent" WHO'S GLAZING HIM????? WHERE????? i'm about to purposefully search for those people cause i haven't seen a single one and i wish i had. all i see is curly hate and i'm finding it harder and harder to interact with the fandom
#i'm seriously getting sick of this#hyperfixating on a character and searching for content of them only to constantly see hatred towards them#anya and daisuke and swansea are saints and curly and jimmy somehow belong on the same spot in hell#how the FUCK can anyone carry more blame than the perpetrator himself i have no clue#but apparently that's the general consensus of the fandom#curly being empathetic and a victim and failing to read a person he thought was his friend#being met with the fandom's constant judgement and hatred and blame#was not on my list of expectations#mouthwashing#fandom critical#captain curly
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Okay I saw more of your art and had to come back (if it’s okay)
Maybe this time….King Marty? Like in a kings outfit with the septor
and crown and stuff? Idk
no problem at all! i'm just happy you enjoy :D
anyone with any remote knowledge of historical dress from any vague period or region please avert your eyes.
#im having a real doc brown crude model moment here over the fit LMAO.#marty mcfly#bttf fanart#bttf#back to the future#not Exactly what you asked for? i could not bear to draw the fancy stick alas. and it's more of a prince vibe than a king vibe#bc if this guy held any sort of significant position of power something would combust#ik it's a silly doodle but of course i gotta make up some context bc that's part of the fun. YAP SESSION WARNING#i was thinking that doc and marty were dicking around somewhere in a place and period of time with a monarchy. for Science#and for one reason or another he ends up getting mistaken for royalty or something. may or may not be related to how straight his teeth are#so they drag his ass back to the palace and marty has No Fucking Clue what's happening. meanwhile doc is on the verge of a stroke#i think it would be really funny if some princess got infatuated with marty and now he has the plot of the first movie on his hands again#except instead of him ceasing to exist it's like. the entire history of a country#so doc's trying to get him out of there and marty's trying to let this chick down gently bc he doesn't want her to like. kill him or smth#and also there's probably a tannen thrown in there too bc why the hell not#i don't even like royalty aus that much for this fandom but somehow i've got a decent amount of thoughts about this LMAO.#you asked for a silly doodle and somehow it came with a whole fic idea too. whoops#anyone want to take this idea and run with it feel free to#kit does an art#kit yap session#<- bc of the sheer amount of tag on this
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Now, I want to stress that I'm not an old school monster hunter fan. I'm not exactly *new* either; I started with World and I've really only played that and Rise. Now, I played world at Launch on a shitty Intel gaming PC that was about five years out of date by the point I wanted to test the game out. So I know what normal capcom potato graphics are supposed to look like.
This is not that.
I don't know. WHAT HAPPENED. (Say hi to my Hunter, Jade, by the way.) This? This mess? This is supposed to be a gunlance.
This was apparently what became of the tutorial Chatacabra. Now, I'm not harping on Wilds. This is the best Gunlance has ever felt, the visdev is (probably) gorgeous, and I love the UI design and character creator. The VAing here is excellent, and from what I was able to see that wasn't completely fucked, the lipsync and character animations were great. Unfortunately, it somehow got worse over time??? I'll let my live reactions speak for themselves.
This is some Vinesauce Corruptions tier shit. It's hilarious. In fact, I found it funny enough to try and stream it to a couple of friends who happened to be on call, and while we were dying laughing at *whatever the fuck* this was, five minutes later, this happened.
Apparently this is an uncommon issue some folks have had with Wilds. So, y'know. On one hand, watch out. But on the other hand, definitely stream this if you get these weird-ass corruption graphics. It's great.
#mhwilds#monster hunter#monster hunter wilds#mosnterhunter#mhwilds beta#wilds beta#i genuinely have no clue why this happened#i desperately hope this isn't what happens when your PC is worse than even the lowest graphics settings#i have a fucking HP omen laptop; there is no way in hell it should be course correcting this hard#hilarity ensued
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haiii posting some old sky au doodles happy Valentine's day :]
OK. ALSO. THMEM. KISSING OR WBAGEVER .
holds head innhands . guys they'r so bad at it they're so bad . someone come push them off a cliff for me
#mondo owada#kiyotaka ishimaru#ishimondo#sky au#kry k(art)#IM SO EMBARRASED AND I EVEN CENSOEED THR FUCKIGN KISS I CAJT BELIEVE MYSELF WHAT AM I A NUN?#just kidding gyys umm ukmmnng jjjmmm uuhh umm. uhhhb#AHHH I DONT KNWO WHY I GET EMBARRASSED POSTING THAY EVWN THO I WAS LIKE. I GOTTA. ...FOR VALENTINES#these are so old btw#especially the smooching one#thats them on earth btw heag. smoochin AHHH AHHGG AHHGG EXPLODES MYSELF#anywhas if u hc regular ishimondos as being bad at kissing then first of ur so real for that and also sky au ishimonods r literally that#but worse#tgey have no . clue#ok id elaborate more bht im so so embarrassed where the hell is that lets unlearn shame together jerma pic#TUMBLR FUCK OFF AND STOP MESSING UP MY POSTS IMNALREADU NERVOUS
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So I go on tumblr, and decide to look up the Chima tag because it was a Lego theme I loved when I was younger.
And I guess I was right about the internet: “You will learn something, wether you like it or not.”
WHAT DO YOU MEAN CHIMA’S CANON TO NINJAGO?!
#lego#chima#ninjago#I mean seriously#I stopped following ninjago after the whole vermillion thing which I barely had a grasp of#next thing I know#it’s been literal years since I last touched it#and now all this stuff’s happening and I have no fucking clue what’s going on#what the hell is an oni?!#why is the spirit world back?!#what is the wyldness and why has that been confirmed to be the lands of chima?!#AND WHAT THE FUCK IS THE MERGE?!#I feel lost and scared and
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cluster B culture is getting an email from quora about a thread called "cluster b unmasked" and already knowing it's going to be full of ableist crap and questioning why you got an account in the first place
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#cluster b culture is#cluster b#npd#aspd#bpd#hpd#Mod Reef#anonymous#REAL#i got it originally because i was dealing with (what i now know were) delusions but i couldn't tell if they were delusions or dissociation#and google had 0 fucking clue what the hell i was trying to describe#like. seriously. try being a young teenager trying to describe a delusion without knowing it was a delusion but being 90% sure it wasn't--#--dissociation instead#and on top of that. trying to describe it not to a human being but to a web browser's search algorithm#AND ON TOP OF THAT. trying to describe the specific delusion and not the general thing you were experiencing#anyways. nobody was helpful in the slightest lmao#and then years later i'm seeing cluster B shit from quora and just seeing the most vile things said about pwNPD#and seeing blatant misinformation about ASPD. from people with ASPD. shit like ''if you feel fear at all then you can't have ASPD''#so yeah i turned off all email notifications from quora. good riddance to be quite honest
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olympics are all fun and games until you see how the people in your country shame the olympians that don't score, and suddenly all your hard work and your dream prospect of going there slowly diminishes as you realise that this might happen to you too if/when you reach there
#olympics#maan#I just hate how people are so medal-centric istg#like#do you have any fucking clue what it means to be an olympic athlete?#it took fucking guts and hard work to reach there#yet you from your lazy ass couch find it suitable to shit talk the people representing your country just because they didn't score#the actual genuine fuck?#and I just found out that apparently this is everywhere in the world#not just in my country#and I don't know how the fuck we can hope for a better world when the people themselves are like that#nationalism be damned— just be kind to your fellow human beings#that's literally the fucking barest minimum#fucking hell imma stop#paris 2024#paris olympics
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would've, could've, should've by taylor swift is literally the most theo @ the dread doctors coded song ever
#coping with having to go to uni by thinking angsty theo things#and i have no clue what the fuck happened but metro didn't open the doors?????#and now i'm just standing here#what the hell😭😭😭#anyways#teen wolf#theo raeken
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Hi Oomf ! How the fuck do I tween on alight motion
so you just
#I have NO FUCKING CLUE#i really like swing + oscillate effect even thou its confusing as hell but we ball ig.#bugsnakes answers
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has anyone written a kase/chaz fic about chase using kaz's hands as heating pads for menstrual pain. bc someone really should
#yes the trans chase agenda lives on and i Will force it upon every lr fic i write#but yeah like has anyone done that yet bc i don't think ive seen one??? like imagine kaz thinking they're gonna have sexy time or wtvr and#chase is like hands. now. and kaz is confused as hell and chase just put it on his stomach#either kaz would know exactly why chase did that or have no fucking clue there's no in between#bc damn imagine having menstrual pain but also having a bf who's a literal heater like#you wouldn't even have to reheat your pad you just have a guy to do it for you#anyway if no one has written this i fear i may have to#snove writes:)#lab rats#chaz
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man. after getting the ending where you ride off with meryl i find out that i missed out on the homoerotic otacon ending
#metal gear solid#man maybe i'm just gay but also i'm reading a LOT of repressed bisexual subtext in this game#especially with snake and grey fox. like they had to have a moaning punching fight. they had to.#when you go to shoot grey fox but snake says 'i can't do it'. the whole thing about how men like them only understand the world#in the context of battle. so to understand eachother they have to fight.#but grey fox wants snake to escape it. so he dies. to show snake what the end of that road looks like. to save snakes life#that's gay as fucking hell man.#also i dunno its grey fox or gray fox no clue#anyway (turns on metal gear solid 2) huh... metal gear.... (said in the voice)
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Them (Disassembly Drones from Murder Drones)
//SPOILER FOR MURDER DRONES
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Oh shit-
Hell yeah, J!! I haven't watched murder drones (kinda don't want to honestly) But if I were to choose who I like in the series, I would pick j. Idk why though, the others are pretty cool too. (Also Tessa too mainly because of the bow she has on her head and the suit she's wearing)
Also I just wanna say, what the fuck happened here?? Why she look like that bro 😭😭 (I know that Tessa dead or whatever. But damn, she's ugly lmao. Why they kill Tessa for this bro. What she do??? /Jk)
#chewys notes#asked and answered#murder drones#just random ramblings#Like fuck dude#The hell happened??#I like the some ost though#I mainly just listen to some soundtrack#I really don't like the fact they're using the t pose render for their albums though#No offense#But it really goes give me the vibe that the band kids like this show#Again no offense#But yeah i didn't wanna watch it cause of that#Even though i have zero clues what band kid are and what they do to piss people off lmao 😔
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#vent#sorry god not to use this as a space for that since i almost never do but i am. so frustrated.#so context is that over this year i have lost. like. A Concerning Amount Of Weight. without changing anything about my lifestyle.#hell if anything i’m doing worse on that front because i have no fucking energy now. i am constantly exhausted and dizzy. i can’t eat as#well as i used to and i can’t exercise. i do not feel good!!!#but i can’t say a goddamn thing to my family because the minute they hear ‘lost weight’ it’s like their brains turn off and they don’t hear#the rest of what’s going on. it’s purely positive for them.#EVEN IF I DID NOT FEEL LIKE SHIT. AND I VERY MUCH DO. I STILL WOULD NOT LIKE MY BODY SUDDENLY CHANGING ON ME LIKE THAT.#i liked how i looked and i liked how i felt.#i felt so much fucking stronger and more alert like 30 pounds ago. now im always tired and none of my clothes fit and im cold because all my#fucking padding got taken away from me!!!! i needed that!!!!!!!!#im just hoping Something shows up in my bloodwork this month to clue me in to what’s going on because this can’t continue. i hate this.
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