#I have grown Attached to people
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The F/O senses…they be goin’. They be goin’ very strongly.
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Guess it’s a good thing there is no such thing as too many F/Os! At least, I don’t think there is. We don’t have a limit, right? I don’t know the rules 😂
#been playing Star Rail more often and uhhh…#I have grown Attached to people#I really shouldn’t be surprised tbh#I love. I love so much. big heart deep inside#I’ll need to go update my other blog#talking fire#honkai star rail
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he cares so much about them, but he has never known how to show it
and now, it’s too late.
#orion rambles#mephone was the character that got me attached to ii#seeing him this miserable makes me miserable#ive grown even more attached to him since the twist#i love making ocs....it can be really therapeutic to explore feelings through them#so to see a character do the exact same thing was wild#...but the contestants became these living breathing people#who now have to come to terms with the fact they were made to be a fantasy#dreamed up by someone who is lost. and broken. and scared#and now? he has nothing left#but he cared for them. he really truly cared for them. i would know#inanimate insanity#ii 17#ii movie#ii mephone4
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How's your inbox going?/silly
Oh y'know
#ooc#the people in my inbox are doing just fine and dandy#jokes aside though i am quite happy with the reaction i've gotten with these few new moons#an emotional reaction means i've created characters people have grown attached to#and believe it or not that is quite a difficult thing to do
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Lovely lovely jade told me to pursue my idea of a leopard gecko insert so here she is i never made a self insert before i dont know her name but she really likes crystals and tarot and uses them in her daily life, she would probs live in hither (cause im super scared of thither although the weather there is better im very scared of skabatha and the god damn moving forest i am NOT going there). Also shes obviously kremys bestie and they gossip together why not. She gave kremy an opal kinda like a friendship gift because opals to me have unicorn vibes. She would absolutely do a tarot reading for each of the krew, perhaps lying a bit to not discourage them or make them sad.
Also shes besties with jades self insert. Obviously. Okay bye.
#i feel awkward do people care about this??#im not gonna ouaw tag this this is for me and perhaps some insane szarers#i was actually thinking of naming her szare?#cause thats not my actual name#but ive grown so attached to being called szare that it fits me better than maria#so idk what her name would be#but shes so cool#its not like for the past month ive been imagining myself in ouaw#and a spotted gecko was my first idea#i love lizardfolk no not only because of kremy#okay its mostly because of kremy#but especially with ocs#it feels much cooler to not look human at all#jealous at how you cant tell if theyre male or female if ur not lizardfolk urself#yeah yeah i dont believe in a gender for myself but sure im okay with she her and being called a woman#i have a job and i go to uni and im depressed i dont have the mental space to also debate my gender#so ill become a spotted gecko girlie who likes to smoke with a certain gator#and she likes trinkets#yea
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Guys I feel like I am trying to put together a puzzle out of pieces from one million different puzzles where no one full puzzle is present. I was looking at This Foul Murder today and I came across the part where Marshall describes Benedikt's eyes as being "brown-grey" and "ambiguous dark". I was already familiar with this because I am a frequent peruser of Benedikt's fandom wiki page. But I always just assumed it was mistaken on the wiki page, because I was 10000% sure I had read in the books somewhere else that his eyes are light colored/blue.
I absolutely SCOURED TVD for any mention of Benedikt to try to find an answer and I came up with nothing. Did I imagine this?? Have I created an alternate timeline where Benedikt underwent a change of eye color akin to Thalia Grace of the Riordanverse??
#part of me thinks i may have just heard blond and assumed blue eyes#because with alisa her eyes are specifically described to be brown#but in my research I've discovered that benedikt's eye color is actually not mentioned at all (i'm pretty sure)#UNTIL that moment in lvc#like not at all in tvd (to my knowledge) and I'm pretty sure not in ove either#unless I've missed something#someone who is more knowledgeable than i please provide assistance#also how should i draw him now?? like I've grown quite attached to my design for him#and eye color can really change how a person looks#but like. i don't want to be drawing him wrong if it's secretly bothering people#but I'm SURE i got the image of him with blue eyes from somewhere#i just don't know from where#update in real time i just checked and the art on his wiki page distinctly has light eyes#but is that official or not?????#anyway real tags because i need the public's opinion#these violent delights#our violent ends#foul lady fortune#last violent call#foul heart huntsman#secret shanghai#chloe gong#benedikt montagov#marshall seo#benmars
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-`. WHAT FORM OF LOVE IS YOUR OC?
TAGGED BY @corvosattano, @chuckhansen, @jillvalentinesday, @leviiackrman, @jackiesarch, @marivenah and @nightbloodbix to take this quiz!!! thank you !!!! ❦
TAGGING: @flymm, @bloodofvalyria, @griffin-wood, @dekarios, @lavinet, @gortash, @fragilestorm, @dameayliins, @risingsh0t, @moonmothers, @cptcassian, @marivenah, @faerune, @mrdekarios, @queennymeria, @unholymilf, @florbelles, @jendoe, @jackiesarch, @adelaidedrubman, @theviridianbunny, @yennefre, @vanoefucks, @katsigian, @yennas, @fenharel, @full---ofstarlight, @baldursgate2, @druidgroves, @anoras, @lavampira, @bg3, @grapecaseschoices, @sstewyhosseini, @gwynbleidd, @shadowglens, @quickhacked, @malefiicarum, @minaharkers, @envergothash, @feypacts, @themalkavian and you!
-`. LOVE THAT HEALS.
your love is healing. it burns you with every bit of your soul, but you choose to heal, nevertheless. you are so, so so strong and i hope you know that. i send you peace. i send you calm. i hope things will become better for you in time, just as you have made others better in time as well.
-`. LOVE THAT LASTS.
love unconditional, love unfailing. you love no matter what happens because you believe in the best – of you, and them. it will hurt and it will fail you, but this love tastes so sweet – you can never believe that it bitters sometimes. the way you choose to love unconditionally is incredible.
-`. LOVE THAT PROTECTS.
you love so fiercely, with every fibre of your being. maybe you were wounded by love in the past ; such that you choose to love and love and love so wonderfully that the next person who comes into your life never doubts that they are loved by you.
-`. LOVE THAT STRENGTHENS.
you make sure that people know that they are loved, and you give them strength when they need it the most. this is an ability that is rare; the love that you hold speaks wonders of yourself. i hope you're doing alright. isn't it exhausting always being the bigger person?
-`. LOVE THAT CALMS.
this is sweet. i hope you know that you make others feel at ease around you. you're a gem, a blessing, a treasure – and you should know it. it's comfortable loving you. it's a privilege to be around you and to be let into your world.
#only if you want to of course! <3#oc: anasyana an enaviryn#oc: tissaia thorm#oc: vaermina vanthampur#oc: amavet aerasume#oc: virthac vyuthurim#as always ash i owe you my life for the worlds cutest banners!!#leg.tagged#leg.ocs#tissaia and love that lasts oh the way i am CRYING RAHHHHH#holding her gently in my HANDS wrapping her in a blanket and making her fresh pastries MY BAAABY OH POOR BABYYY !!!!!!!#amavet and virthac and the EXACT answers i knew i felt in my SOUL they would have oh we love to see it <3#yana and love that heals WHEEZE murder muffin bbg !!!!!!!#shhdkah shes the one who IS THE PAIN *wheezes* BUT THE WAY HER ANSWER HIT ME LIKE A TRUCK !!!!!!#the way i was thinking haha funny until i read it and then it HIT ME !!!!! uquiz taking me out with these answers AGAIN!!!!!!#'it burns you with every bit of your soul' LIKE YOU WOULDNT BELIEVE BESTIEE!#(btw YANAGORTASH REUNION HAPPENED AND UHHHHH THOUGHTS THIS AND THE REUNION I HAVE THINGS ON THE BRAIN !!!!!!!!)#tissaia the one who became an urchin when she was whisked from moonrise the one who was left at last light the one who had grown#so accustomed to people coming and going that the old fear of them leaving was replaced by expecting those she holds dear to leave after sh#becomes attached !!!!!!!!! the one who gains a love that lasts with her friends HER SISTER and a lover in gale A LOVE THAT LASTS#crying crying screaming sobbing BABY BABY!!!!!!!!#vaermina wounded by love in the past by her own family by partners BABY GIRL YOUR EVERYTHING TO MEE#oust your mother as grand duke thwart your brothers marry that disney prince warlock you DESERVE IT POOKIE#VIRTHAAAAC they are the sweetest soul the cutest cutie THEYRE BABY THEYRE MY SWEET BABY BABY only the loveliest for kar OFC!!!!!!!!! <3#the calm to their fiery dynamic theyll have theyre my BABIES#AMAVEEEET *dizzy*#'i hope you're doing alright. isn't it exhausting always being the bigger person?' WHEN I TELL YOU I SCREAMED#using ams fc for now for this until i can fix his beard jksnkdnad#AND TY TY FOR THE TAG DEARS OH I MISSED DOING TAGS SO STONKIN MUCH#a small handfull of the tadfools bc the silly balduring gates game has the braincell *giggles* <3
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how different is your creative process between writing and drawing (and in which areas)? do you have a different approach in each artform? if you have an idea, you first think how you'd write it or draw it?
This is definitely going to be long so. Cut.
Just to preface, obviously both writing and drawing are a form of art, but I tend to use the word “art” when I mean illustration or drawing, so that’s what I’m going to do here. And of course a disclaimer that I’m only speaking to my subjective experience.
Tbh I don’t think my approach to both is that different from each other, which is odd, because I’m used to thinking of them as very different processes. Probably because the mediums themselves are so different. But like with my writing, I tend to improvise. Feel it out, see how things go, throw ideas at the wall. I would probably say that I’m more willing to experiment with/scrap my art than my writing. Probably because I’m more confident with my art than my writing, so I find it easier to make judgments like that, or because I’ve made so much that throwing stuff away when it isn’t working is very easy. I get a bit more precious about my writing. I always want to keep it or at least try to adapt it into something less bad, lmao. I’m also just not as confident in my ability to judge what writing is worth keeping or worth permanently deleting. I just haven’t polished that skill for writing as much as I have for art.
With regards to planning my art – I definitely do sometimes, because I consider art my Serious Hobby, which means I do like to have a go at more serious projects as opposed to just improvising all the time (a contrast to my writing where my only “serious project” is senseific, and I fell into that by accident). The things I plan out are the idea/s I want to convey, and what imagery would express that. (like this IW art, and the second one in this umineko post) Or sometimes the imagery gets stuck in my head and I work from that. (yagami’s hair clinging to his neck here)
I actually find that planning too much can be detrimental to my art process. That is to say, not in terms of figuring out ideas/themes, but doing too much drafting. I find it very difficult to do things like clean lineart unless I’m having a Weirdly Good Art Moment, so I just don’t. Hence a lot of my art is very sketchy. I’m just not good at capturing the same looseness with “proper” lineart than with my sketches, so I keep them. Not worth fussing over. This is what works for me.
(even in this, and the first image here, you can see a lot of breaks and incomplete looking lines. not to say necessarily that this is a bad thing of course, but you can see that even in what I consider my “polished” work, I won’t use “proper” linework, but instead a high quality/detailed sketch. I imagine some other artists would have their proper linework stage after these sketches, but i choose to stop here)
this probably reads like I’m talking myself down, but that’s not really what I’m meaning to say – my point is that I don’t figure out details even for my bigger pieces, and that with drawn art I have a better time judging where my time is best spent. I don’t think I have a strong understanding of my writing by comparison, so I can’t decide how to play to my strengths or anything like that, I just have to see how i go.
For writing, either it’s “i’m in the mood for it” or “i’m not in the mood for it”. For art, it’s “today is a good day/bad day”, “today’s a painting day”, “today feels like masking”, “today I just want to sketch”, “today I’m too loose for what I want to work on”, “today I’m too stiff”. You can see the difference in my ability to judge, yeah? So a big difference is to do with just my own (relative) inexperience with writing as opposed to drawing.
I think the other major factor is the differences in the mediums themselves. A fanfic is sequential. There’s a change in time. Illustrations are by nature a single moment in time. Big difference there. Of course, there are comics and animatics and other art that’s both drawn and sequential, but since I don’t do a lot of that, just count that as exceptions for now (and in a way, those are kind of like a combination of writing and illustration, aren’t they?) I find there are some ideas that are conveyed easier or better through writing, and others where the better option is art.
So to answer your last question, often ideas come to me pre-packaged as a “writing idea” or an “art idea”, rather than having to decide that separately. In the case that a sequence is better conveyed with a visual element, that’s when it’s comic time. The gorillashipping comic is a great example of this. The punchline is at its best when it’s not explained in words, and the expression of the final panel does all the heavy lifting. I pitched this idea initially in words (as a joke on discord), but the comic version has more punch.
Comics are also great for when you want to avoid explaining context, and for when you want to force the reader to take a specific pace. Here’s the example I’m thinking of.
The visual space dedicated to the fighting forces you to take time to process, and that time is important for the buildup to the punchline. This wouldn’t work as well if we cut this down to, say, the four panels of the last example. So yeah, timing. And then my other point – context – why are these two fighting? I don’t know. Where are they? I don’t know. It’s not necessary for the joke. The same is true of the gorillashipping joke. How did the relationship between kiryu and kaito happen to make this even remotely possible? I don’t know. But I don’t need to explain it in a joke comic. With writing I find that it feels more necessary to make context clear to the reader so they understand what’s happening, but with illustrations, it’s a lot easier to skip over that. Obviously this isn’t impossible in a written format, but that’s just my personal opinion.
Admittedly I think this second example is doable with just pure writing (replace all the panels with descriptions of the fight that take long enough to simulate the time it takes for the reader to digest the build up, then make the punchline a wham line, yknow), but it varies on a case to case basis. Also I would not want to write fighting. Lmao. I’m not… any good at that. So I guess it is also just in part about playing to strengths.
Anyway, enough comic side tangent. I’ve already started talking about it there, but was going to do a comparison between writing and art as mediums. The main thing, I find, is that they have different strengths. More than strengths/weaknesses though, the mediums themselves convey some things with ambiguity, and other things with detail.
Like I first mentioned, time: it’s easier to convey the passage of time with writing than with illustration. And like I said before with comics – conveying context – because an illustration captures a single moment in time, it’s a lot easier to avoid context entirely, while it’s harder to avoid in writing. I’ve drawn kuwagami cuddles before, and there’s no background, nothing discernable as to the lead up or any other detail. And that’s great! I don’t want to have to invent a plausible reason for them to end up hugging. I can just do it, right? But sometimes it’s the context that makes things significant, so you do want it there. A better job for writing. Writing allows you to be detailed with your context, while illustration leaves it ambiguous. Different strengths. You just pick which best fits the situation.
It’s a similar case for a lot of different factors – they're conveyed differently through both mediums, and depending on your idea, some results are more desirable than others. Rather than explaining, it’s probably better to do a direct comparison. (If it makes any difference to your curiosity, I did the drawing first then the writing. You’ve caught me on a good art day, what a nice sketch…)
I’ll try not to talk too much because I think the comparison and table say enough, but you can see how, despite depicting basically the same thing, these two things feel pretty different from each other. The mediums do different things. The mood of both is similar, but not quite the same. It’s these differences that inform the choice of mediums instinctually. (but again. points at disclaimer. as is true with all “rules” about art, none of these are absolute. you can make an illustration that conveys a strong context. you can write fic that favours describing facial expressions and leaves the intended emotion ambiguous. i’m generalising to make a point here.)
I guess the other thing is that it’s pretty easy to do writing in bed on my phone compared to my art setup, lmao. Convenience and timing also play into it probably.
#jitxt#long post#word on the street is that if you send me enough asks i'll start replying with kuwagami art /jk#......and a table and like 1000 unnecessary words attached#fellow artists if you saw me admit to manually masking my work in this post no you didn't#(i try to strategically use selection tools when i can but i don't fully trust them. since my lineart is Like That)#but yeah the process itself is not super different#the main things are 1. my ability to judge my own work as i make it and 2. what medium is better suited for a situation#fun to go back and find examples for this one#about judgment: it's still new to me that people might enjoy my writing. whereas with my art i'm like Yeah I Know It's Good.#perspective's a funny thing#thank you everyone for being nice. and thank you sunday six#my enjoyment for writing has really grown since i've been able to talk to other people about it#might have to come back to this kuwagami sketch later. i like it a lot!#certainly worthy of its own post#for now it's a treat for those who scrolled far enough#thank you for the ask i've been wanting to go on a tirade about how i find writing and drawing different
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Me playing Tears of the Kingdom: As much as I miss the champions, it makes sense they're not mentioned much. It's been a hundred years since they died. Even if they survived the Calamity, most of them would probably be dead at this point. The only exception being Mipha, who would have been the only one that would still be alive if she survived the calamity due to her age. The reason they're still remembered so much in Breath of the Wild is because the Divine Beasts, one of the last remaining connections to them, are still active and looming in Hyrule. Impa also said that their spirits feel uneasy knowing their task of defeating the Calamity wasn't done. They were at peace when the Calamity was defeated and passed on. They're not brought up from that point on because them and their era are over and can be laid to rest.
Also me playing Tears of the Kingdom: - holding back tears - Damn I miss the champions
#LIKE YEAH. I GET IT FROM A THEMATIC POINT. BUT FROM A 'SIR THOSE ARE MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS' POINT. I AM ACHING#I love the sages in TotK! Don't get me wrong!#I mean look at my icon tee hee#But I've grown so attached to the champions their absence feels so off. I'm fifty-fifty on it#I wanna be clear: Big agree with people who say the Sheikah Shrines and tech being suddenly gone feels off#It's unexplained and feels far too significant to easily write off#I feel similar about the champions and how little they're mentioned in game#I don't think Zelda even has a single line of dialogue that mentions them.#She and Link lived through the calamity and knew them as friends#At least a tiny mention would have made sense since she does briefly talk about the Calamity with Sonia and Rauru#I guess it makes a little sense?? In regards to the developers wanting to be hush hush about BotW spoilers for newcomers#But the way they went about it is like they tried to forget it happened. It doesn't feel right.#This might also be my biased speaking cause the original sages? Cool and all#But they feel so hollow compared to the characters that the champions had#Anyways I am still VERY in love with TotK. It's consumed way too much of my time#But I also wanted to talk about this gripe dhdjfjejfjd#Thank you for coming to my TED talk. I'm sorry this is a whole wall of spilling#Anyways will I cope by remembering Age of Calamity is a thing despite how much it obliterates the timeline?#Dang right#Tears of the Kingdom#Breath of the Wild#TotK Spoilers#LoZ TotK#Loz BotW#BotW Champions#Long Post
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can i ask why you don't like xingyun? /gen not a shipper myself but i'm just curious since a lot of chongyun lovers love that ship, i've never seen anyone NOT like it
rant warning by the way, I accidentally got more and more annoyed writing this 😬
im gonna be honest the number one reason is because i see it everywhere
the first effect of this is that content depicting xingqiu and chongyun in a nonromantic manner get tagged as xing/yun, which is annoying to me. you can draw 2 characters together in a nonromantic manner and you don't have to tag the ship guys. it's real it's called being friends. the second effect is that there's never any content with chongyun and Other Characters. people are so hung up on him and xingqiu that chongyun almost never exists without xingqiu. like you might notice i have a tag for chongyun and hu tao (mostly platonic) stuff except that there are only 7-8 posts tagged with that, because although the "exorcist and girl who can see ghosts" dynamic would be so cool, nobody seems to think abt that bc almost everything with chongyun includes xingqiu. this also goes for chongyun and xiangling (who canonically makes him his cooling popsicles) and like random other characters whom he Could interact with and be friends with (ayaka and him is a crack friendship i talked about once, and ofc chongyun and xiao). i hate it. xingqiu got his mr worldwide arc with venti and albedo please depict chongyun alone with other friends (it literally doesn't even have to be romantic). of course, this might just be a separate problem that I'm conflating with the ship, but it annoys me. i'm not focusing on xingqiu's side because although fan content for like idk him and yun jin? him and hu tao? albedo? is also super rare, at least that stuff exists in canon.
the second reason is because xingqiu's prankster attitude towards chongyun annoys me
yeah i love my little shit son but idk, it's just annoying when people make him feed chongyun spicy food, play pranks on him that cost chongyun Something (losing face, wasted time, frustration) idk. i guess i don't like that his condition isn't taken seriously. i don't think it's bad to have friends who pull your leg but at least not in a malicious way? like iirc he's implied to have triggered chongyun's yang energy overflows at least a couple times, and it's like . why. why is it played for jokes the kid literally passes out. "(He) needs more practice. Especially… with eating spicy food, haha." bro please do not !! don't trigger his condition just for kicks! xingqiu's other pranks also annoy me, given that i hate being tricked, so some of this might be projection or smth idk, but like idk you can give him good suggestions for where to demon hunt instead of making up shit and then going after him to make up for any costs. it's just annoying i think chongyun gets annoyed but then later forgives him, as friends are, but i cannot imagine them getting together like this. unless it's toxic idk . if they're friends i can give a pass to the pranks and stuff but in a romantic relationship i don't think i could see this kind of dynamic being a good one
#please try not to reblog LOLLLLLLLLL everything's my personal opinion#tldr i have arbitrary preferences and also cy's my son (xq is my other son but theyre not together. gm is my 3rd son)#i got into genshin got attached to cy went on tumblr saw so much xing.yun art i assumed i was gonna like the ship. guess what#also congratulations anon you've met one of the few people who actively tries to avoid xy i feel like this is a rare pokemon achievement#(<- never played pokemon)#anon ask#asks#teyvat thoughts#again i will tell you that i wasn't as annoyed w xy before but now it's up there because there's no content without them making out and#i've grown more and more annoyed by it so now it's an notp idk
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thinking about turning this blog back into an actual writing blog again hmm hmm hmm
#i’m not gonna post prompts again but maybe some wips and stuff#i wanna change my user but i’ve had this one for yearss and i’ve grown attached to it#mayhaps if i have people yelling at me to actually finish my shit i will actually finish my shit
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when are they going to STOP
#how is there funding for these endless crossovers do people actually pay for those fucking outfits???#i’m so goddamn sick of this it’s so shameless#you really are beating a dead horse and jumping on the back of a beautiful game#to catch another cash grab while you couldn’t be bothered to give the protagonist#that the fans have grown attached to for two fucking years a proper ending!!!#i’m so fucking mad i’m sorry but like. i thought they would stop this shit with the final chapter#txt
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after realizing his feelings towards ken are romantic+sexual the first thing farfarello would do is consider the pros and cons of committing murder-suicide so he wouldn't have to deal with all that
#text#ken x farfarello#kenfarello#he would be thinking about killing Ken nonstop for days. but he wouldn't be able to bring himself to actually do it#at whatever point he's able to realize what the nature of his feelings are. ITS TOO LATEEE#hes grown too attached and can't put an end to things with something as permanent as death#and so He will have to deal with All That.#i think he would be kinda pissed about experiencing romantic feelings. i also think it would be his first time with it too.#romance isn't something hes had interest in until this point. been too busy focusing on his hobbies (murder and blasphemy)#+not like hes had much people experience. closest thing hes getting to interacting with ppl outside of schwarz is when hes killing them.#so theres been no previous opportunity for romance......... until ep 18#which is where i think the kenfarello mutual obsession should begin at☝️#so this is completely new territory for him and along with being pissed theres also a lot of apprehension#because he doesnt know how hes supposed to deal with those kind of feelings#at one point he considers just killing himself to avoid having to deal with it#which is when Schuldig asks Crawford if they should bring out the straightjacket#<ok im gonna go to sleep now i think
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#been sitting w this all day like i don’t know… how any of this big b Behaviour gets better#when i looked at the blog of the person who said y’know. i wanna execute him myself. or whatever. one of their next posts was about applyin#for jobs at f1 teams. and there’s a tiktok with what’s presumably their actual name attached. like please don’t pile on or be shitty toward#them but my god is this the disconnect? that you think you can wish death upon a driver in a fan space and apply to work in their immediate#environment? like fundamentally the issue is some of you clearly just do not see drivers as people and do not see the sport as having any#kind of stakes and like we can get into the way that fanspace relationships function these days but like. it’s no excuse? y’all are GROWN#like it’s not just the ‘kill yourself’ or the ‘hope he dies’ in the sport with the heavy fucking body count it’s the expectation that you#can say this shit and it will have NO consequences for you. remember that marshall who’d tweeted words to the effect of i wouldn’t#get lewis out of the car? god I don’t know just. these are real people. like i don’t know why that’s so hard to understand
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"i've always wanted to be surrounded by your things" okay mr. sap machine but i know your secret other reason is that you did the math and realized that aneki isn't gonna want to crash at your place if you live in your boyfriend's studio lol
#i was like MAKE IT MAKE SENSE KUROSAWA and then i figured out a way to make it make sense#i mean okay the REAL reason is that kurosawa isn't attached to his place; it's just another way he tried to make himself perfect#and one of the things he loves about adachi is his imperfection and how it releases him (kurosawa) from the need to be perfect#so his own place probably feels very sterile and suffocating whereas adachi's little apartment is freeing and real#at least he brought his bed to adachi's studio. for them both to have to fit on adachi's bed would get old#i like to think aneki is kind of a princess and she liked staying at his old place because it was so nice#i'm sure she got to sleep in the bed while he had to take the futon#so i don't think she would be up for slumming it in kurodachi's teeny tiny little lovenest#not that there's anything wrong with adachi's apartment! it's quite nice really. it's just 1) pretty small for two grown people to share#and 2) where is the indirect lighting? or plants????#cherry magic#cm movie spoilers#my posts
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sorry for saying I was going to do things and even starting them and then disappearing from this website entirely for three days. It will happen again
#Nothing new. Tbf I’ve done this a lot#I would say I’m focusing more on school and my personal writing but that’s more of a fucking lie than full truth#I genuinely have felt sick to my stomach posting here for whatever reason#Guilt shame anxiety paranoia etc etc you get the point. I feel like shit with no valid reason as to why#So for now I’m going to stop doing the thing that makes me overly emotionally sick to the point I have actual physical reactions????#Yeah that’s the logical course of action. Might post small personal anecdotes and doodles and such to give off the vague energy that Im fin#But beyond that I quite literally can’t. I sat down and thought about writing this post and immediately broke down#I don’t know why I feel guilty over having inconsistent motivation for putting up shitty writing on a website for strangers to see#But I do and k think the only good way to get past that is this. Gotta stop acting Impulsively it’s ruining my fucking life man#There’s only one other thing that I’ll thank Eloise for#and it’s for getting me off of tumblr long enough to realize that I desperately need to get help#This is fucked I fucking hate it. I might be online if k can bare the possibility that people can see this#Namely people I’ve grown attached to in concept#Idfc at this point. it doesn’t change much about how things have been going for the past year#Vent#S.K explains that things never really got better they would just suck less for short periods of time
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Sorry for putting this one out so late, life got ahead of me today X__x I know i made a piece for PMATGA's overall bday, but I feel as if i should make a separate one for, arguably, the episode that literally changed my life, as corny as that sounds. So I did :o) Happy 10 years to the middleaged orb couple that changed mine and, in turn, many, many other peoples' lives. <3 (Feat mine and @cogsincorporated's respective designs for sunny and zac as well as the canon ones <3)
#pacman and the ghostly adventures#pmatga#sunny x zac#sunny pmatga#zac pmatga#i genuinely feel so old . i cant believe it's been so long#im turning 18 this year and it feels so unreal ive basically grown up with these guys#whn i say they changed my life i mean it#i found ghostly adventures and these two when i was young and in recovery from a less-than-ideal situation w/ my relatives#and i got attached to them and when i saw how Little fanart there was i got PISSED and said “you know what? im gonna learn to draw”#“AND im gonna talk about them NONSTOP so people never forget them”#and i did! and now im here. 10 years later#and in a way i got what i dreamed for. people draw them more than when i was active in the fandom#maybe not in the way i'd have hoped yk. but theyre being recognised now#and it makes me happy. its what baby me wouldve wanted#i still remember when it clicked for me that i really liked the name sunny for myself . that was a time#i shoulde probably realised i was trans lol#uh. if youve read this far. thank you. i cant explain how much this episode in particular means to me but it's forever in my heart#i wish i could share the love i had with you all in a way that makes sense#but this'll do too#happy anniversary to sunny and zac!
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