#I forgive her for everything she’s ever done btw

[nightcorecarseatheadrest]

Killer instinct to give you the nerve

[ravenelyx]

Hello! Do you take requests? If so I have oke for you :)

It’s similar to the recent one about Sebastian hugging the reader. Could it be with Omi this time?

I love your writings, btw.

I absolutely can !!! And thank you so much ♡♡

Let me in. - Ominis Gaunt

Pairing: Ominis Gaunt x Fem!Reader

Words: 1k

Warnings: fluff, kissing, angst and comfort, Ominis is touch-starved, Ominis is insecure, neck kissing, fuck the Gaunt family all my homies hate the Gaunt family, we all know Omi's past, cuddling and snuggling, House is not specified, (implied) established relationship

Summary: Ominis Gaunt has never learned how to love. But he has you, and you're willing to teach him.

A/N: I hope you like this!! I followed a different tangent than Sebastian's.

Masterlist

you can find the whole fic here on ao3 as well

Sebastian's version

He wishes love were easy.

But nothing had ever been easy in Ominis Gaunt's life.

When he opened his heart to her, he opened something deep. A Pandora box of sorrow and grief and everything he'd buried so deep he'd forgotten about it.

Unfortunately, his body never forgets. It shows when she takes his hand. It unleashes when she brushes his hair. That gnawing, scorching flame burning where her touch remains.

She asks him how he's doing, he doesn't answer, words trapped behind his teeth like in a prison of jelly and guilt. He thinks she doesn't really want to be bothered by his problems.

She takes his hand while walking, he moves it away, clutching it to his chest in an attempt to build back that armor she threatens to break every time.

"Ominis," she speaks quietly in the night, when he keeps her always at an arm's distance. "Please, come here."

He wants to cry.

"I don't know how."

The smell of her hair lingers on the pillow when she leaves, and he quietly brings it to him, burying his face in the softness of her girly perfume. Even then, he feels too much freedom; taking up a space that isn't his own. He turns his back to it.

She seems tired today.

"Ominis." Her voice is weary, sad. She's near the fireplace, brooding. He feels like he's done something wrong.

"What is it?"

He balks before approaching her, his voice coming out in a sycophantic squeak that makes his blood run cold. He is afraid: afraid she'll find him some day. That she'll offer her hand and he'll take it with no qualms, allowing her to pull him up, away from those doubts cramming his mind when she gets too close.

"Why do you never let me in?"

He's drowning.

Why? Why? The answer is immediate, pulled right from his brain by that tight awareness that has always been more of a curse than a blessing. Because Ominis Gaunt feels that he is phrogging in other people's existence until they get tired and throw him into the nearest garbage. Because he has never found a place where he could sit down, wind his legs and feel at peace. Because if one day someone finds him with his defenses down, when he hits the bottom of the bin headfirst, he will never forgive himself.

"I don't know how." His inveterate answer comes, drawing a sigh from her. She always drops the subject after, and he feels safe.

This time, she breaches the armor again, and he has got no time to glue it back.

"Come here."

His hands tremble when he follows, sitting down next to her. She opens her palm to him and he feels it on his leg.

"Take it."

Her fingers feel soft to the touch, slipping between his as if filling up a space in his heart he had missed, pushing back his doubts and making a home for itself. He holds her hand and runs his thumb on her knuckles.

"What does this mean?" He asks feebly.

"That you can do much more."

He feels the corner of his lips push down in a grimace. "I don't know h—"

"I'll show you."

Her movements are languid and elegant like a snake, and he feels like she might strangle him and cut his breath and leave him for dead. But he wants to keep holding her hand.

"What do I do?"

"Come here."

This time, he listens.

She lets him move first, wrap his arms around her, as if testing her shape. He runs his hands over her delicate ribs, then down to the soft curve of her waist, then around her; feels the weight in his arms, like she could crush him at any moment. But she doesn't.

She lets him pull her on him, giving him her body. His hands are shaking and he feels inadequate to hold her; to keep her safe and not let her fall.

"Just do what feels right," she whispers.

None of this feels right. But it feels comfortable, and it feels different, and it feels like his heart is slowing down and his weight is meeting the ground and pushing against it like he will never need to get up anymore.

And there are her lips. He feels them with his fingertips; the curve at the top, the soft flesh, the sticky texture of her lipstick. He brings his trembling mouth to hers for the first time and pulls away just as quickly.

"I'm sorry…" he almost cries again.

"Do it again."

He swallows and pushes his lips against hers. He doesn't have the courage to move and breathes against her mouth.

She giggles and his heart breaks, because of course he was doing it wrong. "I'm sorr—"

Her mouth moves against his, takes his bottom lip in a quick suckle and then frees it again. He holds his breath until he can't stay still anymore.

"How does that feel?" she asks.

"More…"

Something inside him cracks open at her taste, pushes and pulls and crushes him, and he holds on to her. It's all too much and it's all not enough. He licks his lips and tastes her lipstick and he wishes he could see her.

When she cups his cheek, he flinches.

"This feels…"

Horrible. Good. Terrifying. Perfect. Different.

"We can go slow," she says, and it's more than he could ask for. "But I'm here, and I'm yours."

He nods and attempts to find her, and he presses his forehead against her collarbone. She's warm there.

"Thank you," He's crying against her skin, and she skims her hand against his back.

He feels naked, a brush of cold hair against his chest where his defenses have cracked. She's pulling his armor down with a gentle touch, and he lets her until he hears it hit the ground loudly.

"You can relax now." He thinks he hears her say. Perhaps it was a dream. And when he hesitantly brushes his lips against her skin, he allows her in.

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ML writers really said "This is our protagonist, Marinette. She's incredibly insecure and the show is about how she makes it other people's problem. You're obligated to love her btw."

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I have been wondering about this. Like, what writers would purposefully make their protagonist so obviously the villain of her own life, the cause of so many of her hardships, while clearly not intending to have her be criticized for that? It makes you feel like the writers must be so incompetent that they can’t see that’s what they’re doing, except we have moments in episodes that admit Marinette is in the wrong, even as she gets vindicated and validated in everything she’s done anyway.

I've expanded on my thoughts on what could be going in the creative process, and it ties into that idea of what Miraculous is, which has three main points: 1) Marinette must learn a lesson 2) Marinette must always be sympathized with and 3) Miraculous is an episodic show. Basically, first the writers will have Marinette do whatever they need her to do to trigger a sequence of events that can be used to create a “lesson”. Then the writers will bend over backwards so that Marinette gets the most sympathy out of everyone involved. Then the writers pretend it never happened.

The previous points of this sequence have been discussed before, but the last one is a new expansion on how this all works in practice. I think the viewers are genuinely supposed to forget about Marinette’s transgressions after each episode where she does something messed up, where she supposedly “atoned” for her mistakes. Repeatedly, the problem the critical side of the fandom has with Marinette’s writing is that she keeps making the same mistakes, she never learns despite the show’s core point being the learning of lessons, so it just feels like Marinette apologises to get out of trouble, not because she’s actually sorry and intends to change her ways. However, she always is genuinely remorseful, which means that the writers do intend for Marinette to learn her lesson every time.

So, why does Marinette keep making the same mistakes? Some people have defended this with the idea that, in real life, changing bad habits isn’t easy and people backslide constantly. However, that’s not what’s going on. Marinette keeps doing the same things but worse as the show escalates its stakes. Marinette isn’t just failing to learn her lesson about honesty or being reasonable or whatnot, she’s actively growing more and more deceitful and petty as the show goes on. Basically, I think Marinette’s mistakes are meant to not actually have a continuity. I think, every time Marinette lies about a stupid thing she didn’t need to lie about, we’re supposed to treat that as the first time it happens. It’s easier to forgive someone who makes a single mistake, instead of someone making a pattern of deceitful and hurtful behavior. This is why no one is bringing up how Ladybug treated Cat Noir in season four after the fact despite her doing similar things again, keeping him in the dark again, in season five. That story’s over, and so now it didn’t happen. Marinette constantly lying and going over people’s heads shouldn’t reflect on who Marinette is as a person, because we're supposed to think she doesn’t constantly do it, even though she does. It’s an insane contradiction.

I remember watching South Park as a teen. In every episode, Kenny would die, but he would be back with no explanation in the next one. Marinette’s lying, mistakes of leadership, yelling at people undeservedly and ignoring other people’s problems for her petty concerns are all just Kenny dying. It’s negative continuity. Every time Marinette does it again, the previous times it happened didn’t. Every time Marinette “makes a mistake”, it’s the first time she’s ever made that mistake. That’s why she’s already “the best her she can be” despite never learning her lesson. She does learn her lesson, every single time, which is why we’re meant to forgive her and accept her clearly genuine promise to change, even when she never keeps that promise.

Miraculous only has continuity when the writers decide it does. Then all the information you need is in the episodes. The rest of the time the things that happen in episodes don’t matter. It’s all just nonsense to keep kids quiet.

This show is a fucking mess.

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Hey, I can't find if your requests are open (if they aren't please ignore this). Can you do an arthur leclerc x fem!driver!reader where she gets into f1 and he doesn't (angst!!) and she comforts him?

Unfair

First ending

Face claim: Pinterest girls/Barbara Palvin/Bianca Bustamante + other women in motorsport.

(That I use these people doesn’t mean that I know or support them, I just use them because Barbara has a lot of good pictures in the spoor and Bianca has good pictures in the car and on the podium)

Summary: The request

Word count: 2549

Warning: Angst, lying(?), happy ending, fluff at the end

A/N: this took a bit to write but u really like it. It is a bit different then the request (a bit more Angsty) but I think it is my best yet (which isn’t hard with this being my 3rd fic). I hope you enjoy and don’t forget to like/comment/repost and please give me feedback🫶🫶 Btw sorry for the long wait.

The other ending will be posted soon!

Also I hope you like the graphics, it took literally hours to make😭😭

They both knew that this could happen. That was the risk with dating your coworker in a motorsport. And especially formula 2.

So when y/n heard that next season she would drive in formula 1 with Porsche, she was really excited. Of course she was. She was going to be the first Women in a few decades to drive in Formula 1. And for a relatively new but very good team. With Porsche being in F1 since the 2019 seasons it was the newest, but unlike HAAS they were actually good.

And she was happy that she got a contract. She would drive a few of the best names of motorstoprt. And her team printable, Sebastian Vettel had promised her big things.

But when she actually thought about what this all meant she begun to get scared. She would need to tell Arthur. Arthur who always wanted to be in Formula 1. Arthur who is her best friend and her boyfriend.

How could she tell him? How could she tell him that she would get to live their dream? How could she tell him that he would drive alongside his brother before him?

This was all a mess. And the worst part was that she sined a NDA so she couldn’t tell him until the announcement was up. The only people that currently knew where; her family, her trainer and her manager.

She tried to do everything she could so she can tell him. But she just couldn’t, so she needs to live with a big secret for a few months. And when it is announced that she would go to Formula 1 she doesn’t know is he will ever forgive her.

And not only because she didn’t tell him and they promised they would tell each other everything. No but because they promised to get there together, to both get into F1. And now, Y/n would get to drive there and Arthur would be left behind in F2.

So she would need to live a secret until it was revealed to the world. The only thing she could get out of the contact is that she could tell Arthur a day before the announcement. Which she still wasn’t happy about but it was something. So when the time came to finally tell him she was a nervous wreck. Understandable.

The day before the announcement finally came. And Y/n was really nervous. So when Arthur finally came home she made some of his favourite food and got mentally ready to tell him.

And to say Arthur was confused was an understatement. He came home to his girlfriend cooking his favourite food and looking very nervous. So of course he was worried. Would she brake up with him? Dis something happen? But he wanted to wait for her to say something. And that happens after they were done doing the dishes and were laying in the couch.

“Hey Arthur can we talk?” Y/n nervously while playing with her fingers and not really looking at Arthur.

“Yes mon ange what is wrong?” Arthur asked relieved that she will finally talk about what is wrong. He tried to look at her but couldn’t lock eyes.

“Promise me you will hear me out before you react of get mad.” She said while finally looking in his eyes. But they aren’t filled with the usual adoration or love, no the where filled with nerves and a bit of fear.

“Of course mon ange. What is going on?” He asked growing more and more worried. While trying to grapple with his hand. And failing.

“So you know that PREMA is dropping me right? Well when it was announced some people reached out to me and offers me something…” she slowly said while looking at him for his reaction.

“Well one of those people was Sebastian Vettel and he offered me a place on Porche in Formula 1. And as you can understand I couldn’t refuse, so we got talking and they gave me an amazing offer.” She said while looking at his reaction. Which wasn’t the best, it got from worry to confusion to some sort of mild anger.

“So last August he gave me a contract and I signed it…” she said falling a bit silent at the end. And before Arthur could talk she began again.

“And I really wanted to tell you before, really. But they made me sign a NDA and I could only tell my manager and close family and some of the other team for legal reasons. And I tried everything, and initially I could not tell you until the announcement but I made a deal and I could tell you the day before. And now that is, so today is the day before. And again I am so sorry. Please don’t be mad.” She ranted while tears formed in his eyes while seeing him become more and more mad.

“Y/n… what? Is this some sick joke?” He asked while slowly fake laughing and looking at her with betrayal in his eyes.

“Baby please understand that I could not tell you.” She said slowly looking away.

“Don’t baby me! I know you couldn’t tell me after the contract, but you could tell me that you had an offer! And how could you take it? You know how much I want to get into F1?” He asked with betrayal in his voice.

“What was I supposed to do? Not take the offer and never get in Formula 1 just so you could have it or that we could go at the same time? And I could not tell you about the offer because I didn’t even know until I talked with Sebastian, my manager hid it from me because he didn’t want to get my hopes up!” She said now with tears going down her cheeks.

“I understand that but please! Did you even think about me?” He asked a bit louder.

“Of course I did! I just told you! I wanted to tell you the minute I got the offer! But I couldn’t because of that stupid team! I wanted to you to have a seat for F1! For whatever team, but I can’t! If I can I would give you my seat! But Arthur you need to understand that I need to think of myself sometimes! This a big deal for me! I will be the first women in Formula 1 in a few decades, and I will be the first women to be in the middle or upper field! I could be the first to be in a podium of even win!” She said now almost fully crying.

Arthur was silent for a bit while thinking about what she said. “Y/n i know all that. But you also need to understand that it is hard for me. Charles is in F1, Ferrarie dropped me, Jules and my dad died and wanted me and Charlie to drive, and now my girlfriend, who is also my childhood best friend, lied to me for months and you expect me to be okay with it? Merde Y/n you can’t expect this from me. I think I need some time alone.” He said trying to stay calm with tears in his eyes.

Y/n looked at his shocked about what he said. Did he want to break up? Did he want a part time break? Was he going to leave? She knows that she can’t hold him accountable for it, she did lie to him after all.

“Arthur please. I understand what you say. And I don’t hold you accountable for that, but please don’t leave.” She said now with them both full on crying.

“Mon amour, I won’t leave you, I am just going to go to my mom for a bit. Think about everything and then we can talk about this in a few days.” He said while wiping her tears away.

He slowly stood up and walked to there room to grab a few of his things. She still sat on the couch thinking if she should stop him or just let him go.

She decided on the later one, because it was better to give him time to think about it before things were said that they don’t mean.

A few minutes later Arthur came downstairs with a bag of his stuff. He grabbed his coat and keys and looked at Y/n again. “I will message you when I am there. Please understand that I still love you and I am not breaking up, but I just need some time.” He says with a half smile.

“I understand, please take all the time you need. And when you are ready to talk I am here.” She said while also half smiling with more tears forming in her eyes. “I love you, please be safe”

“I will” he says while walking out of the door and closing it. Y/n slowly slid down the wall with her head in her hands thinking everything over again.

Was this the right thing? Was she selfish for accepting the offer? Would she lose Arthur? Were they ever going to recover?

With all this on het mind she slowly stood up and walked upstairs. She got into the bathroom and did her night routine. After that she looked at the time and saw how early it still was so she decided to just watch some Gilmore Girls (you can chose whatever this is just my comfort series) while laying in bed trying to distract her from the argument they had earlier.

After watching it for a few hours she decided that it was getting late and decided to sleep and see what the day would bring tomorrow. The day that it would be announced.

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F1 BREAKING: Y/n y/l/n will be driving for Porsche the 2025 season!

We all welcome her to the grid and are excited to see her!

#y/n_y/l/n #Porsche #F1 @Y/n_y/l/n @Porsche

Comments

User1 OMG I AM SO EXITED

User2 so happy to see she got a seat after PREMA dropped her

Susie_Wolff So happy for you! I am happy to see more girls in Formula 1

Yourusername Thank you Susie! Exited to see you again!

Yourusername I am so happy and thankful for this opportunity!

User3 we got a women in f1 before gta 6

User4 So exited for more women in motorsports!

User5 women shouldn’t be in motorsports! It is a man dominated sport for a reason!

User6 why is Arthur not simping over his girlfriend like usual?!

User7 he could just be congratulating het irl don’t make a big deal out of this

User8 I agree with user7, just because he isn’t in the comments on a insta post doesn’t mean something happened. We shouldn’t speculate on there lives with absolutely no information about them at the moment.

After the announcement was finally up Y/n felt worst then the slash before. Her and Arthur still hadn’t talked. And it welt like weeks (it was only 10 hours). She missed him, missed his laugh, his boyish smile, their useless conversation for hours, his kisses and hugs. Everything.

So when she finally got a massage from him she was happy to say the least.

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See you then*

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For the next part there is a bit of explaining necessary. You can: keep reading this and then you have how the request is (with a fluffy ending and comforting) OR you can klick in the link and that will take you to the alternative ending (you will need to scroll down again until this part and then you have the Angsty ending)

Angsty ending

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After a few more massages back and forth they decided to meet up at their house instead of the cafe. So when the next day came she waited for Arthur to come back.

After a few hours of watching Gilmore Girls she heard the front door open. She paused the show and stood up from her bed, she walked downstairs and came face to face with Arthur.

“Hey” she said a bit awkwardly. She looked in his eyes and saw that he looked very tired and had red eyes. He had probably cried, the same with her.

“Hey, how are you?” He asked with a tired and raspy voice and the French accent.

“I’m doing okay. Want something to drink?” She asked trying to fill the awkward silence.

“No I’m fine. Could we just talk? I think it is the best if we just get it over.” He said trying to get to the point as fast as he can so they could make up again. He had missed her a lot, while he was at his maman she had given his a long and good scolding for leaving her and not listening her out. He realised that it was indeed a bad choice to leave her, he was just angry and upset so he did the only rational thing in his mind.

“Yeah of course.” She said while slowly walking to the living room. She looked back at him to see if he followed her and he did. She walked to the couch and sat on one end of it, wanting him to decide if he wants to sit next to her or far away from her.

He sat next to her.

“Okay so first of I want to say I am so sorry that I left, I know it was the wrong thing to do. But I was just angry, confused and upset with everything and then I said stuff and you said stuff and I just couldn’t anymore. But now I am ready to hear you out.” He said tampering a bit while fiddling with his hands.

“I understand that and it is completely okay, again I am really sorry I didn’t tell you but I can explain it to you.” She said while looking in his eyes.

“Okay so as I said; Kate, my manager, got a lot of offers from teams after my contract with PREMA expired, but she didn’t want to get my hopes up so she told me nothing. I only knew about it when she set up a meeting with Sebastian, we talked and he had a really good offer. A long contract, good money, good car and a good team. So I couldn’t say no. But then it came to PR and telling people, I asked who u could tell and I could only tell my team and my parents, I couldn’t even tell my siblings or friends. I asked if I could tell you but I couldn’t, they wanted to keep it low-key so that it would be a big surprise. The only thing I fixed is that I could tell you the day before. So I did and you know how that turned out. I really wanted to tell you but I also needed to sign a NDA so I couldn’t tell you about the contract or the car. And this may sound really bad and it may sound like I chose a bad team but no; they only did it to protect us. Me because if it came out before there could be serious danger for me. And for you so you could many still enjoy F2 and get into you’re dream team. But now I realise that how I handled it was really wrong and I am so sorry. I hope you can forgive me because I really missed you.” She said the last part a bit out of breath.

Arthur looked to be deep in thought. He thought about everything she said. And he understood it. But now he was really upset with how he reacted.

“Mon amour I am so sorry. I should have heard you out earlier” he said while grabbing her face. “I and so sorry for how I reacted. I hope you can understand why. I as just confused, jealous and upset. I was confused because for me it came all of a sudden and upset because again why would you tell me? And I was really jealous because you wou get to be in F1 and drive with my brother before me.”

“I completely understand my love, and I understand it about the jealous part, I would too.” She said while grabbing his face.

After talking for a few more minutes they decided to go to the bedroom and watch something.

“Hey love do you want to watch that French series that you talked about?” Y/n asked while playing with his hair and cuddling.

“Yeah for sure mon amour” he said with a smile on his face. He looked up at her and admired her beauty. “You looked beautiful ma belle” he said with a slight blush.

“She looked down at his and smiles “wel thank you handsome. You don’t look that bad yourself.” She said blushing.

After watching a few episodes of the show and talking they decided to go to sleep.

But before she fell asleep she heard Arthur whisper something.

“Je t'aime mon amour, merci pour tout.” (I love you my love, thank you for everything.)

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Okay I've settled on my head canon which is that Eddie is bi (or some version of "likes women and men"), too... I need to ramble about it because this popular idea that Eddie is gay just bothers me tbh it just feels ignorant, bi erasurery. And sure, maybe I'll be proven wrong, but in the mean time...

I think the reason why Eddie just can't be happy with the women he's pushing himself to date is because he's only really ever been drawn, and loved, two people: Shannon and Buck.

And these women he's since dated... are neither of those people. So the other relationships are just... fake, unhappy. Not because of sexual incompatibility, but because they're loveless, on Eddie's part.

The romance with Shannon started as a teen-age romance. They were childhood friends and lovers, but they were too young and immature to really handle the stress of parenthood, and despite that, pushed into a marriage.

It was too much for this young, immature, love to survive. Them freaking out and not being a team.... That just started to hack away at their mutual trust, and that eventually killed the romance, and the marriage. This immature love just could not handle all this pressure, and co-exist with that dying trust.

And then, Eddie meets Buck when his and Shannon's marriage is on a break. She's runs, is away for a long time, Eddie is raising Chris alone... And Buck steps in.

And Buck is insanely helpful, a major stress relief -letting Bobby know that Eddie is struggling to find a caretaker for Chris. Researching for ways to help Eddie... He finds Carla to help them. Buck takes one look at Christopher and melts, wants to spend time with them... Eddie thinks "Woah. This guy is amazing. This is someone I can count on, who has my back."

So Eddie just moved on from Shannon. He did love her once... but then they killed their love and marriage, together. Mutual destruction.

Eddie didn't trust her anymore, she didn't trust him after he'd enlisted in a panic to run from the parenthood, from Christopher's diagnosis... they were fighting all the time... and then she just left him alone with Chris.

And I refuse to demonize her for leaving btw, she was young, under a lot of stress, and Eddie was running from his parenthood. Eddie needed that push, to take responsibility, and connect with Chris!!

But still.. She left, Eddie was hurt and alone, and really doesn't trust her anymore, and then he meets Buck.

So Eddie moves on. His and Shannon's romantic love just... dies. And when she finally tries to re-connect. Yes, he still finds her desirable, and the human bond is still an important one. But where's the love?

They've known each other since they were children, they're friends, Shannon is Christopher's mother. But Eddie no longer really loves her like he once did. He tries. He forgives her, for everything, and really tries to mend their marriage, even proposes again after finding out she may be pregnant...

But it's just too late for both of them, they don't really work as a couple, and she realises she is tired of this battle, she is done.

Shannon leaving.... this made Eddie move on from her, even though he tried to deny it, even to himself. By leaving, Shannon gave the final killing blow to their already fractured mutual trust. Then she was gone for a long time, and when she finally came back, Eddie had already moved on, connected with someone else. She even says this - I was away for too long.

She realises that their marriage dead. She is shocked when Eddie keeps pushing her away from Chris, realises their mutual lack of trust. And she finally admits to herself that she doesn't really want to get back together with Eddie.

Eddie is dragging his feet, not really accepting her back, keeps looking for a "sign" that would say they should have another serious go as partners. Only proposes after there's another pregnancy scare.

Shannon thinks, this marriage is too broken, I want out. We both deserve something better than this. So it is a story of falling in love, and falling out of love.

And then she dies, and Eddie grieves, deeply. He did love Shannon, even though their marriage was a failure. He'd loved her in so many ways. She was his friend, she was his wife, she was Christopher's mother.

However, I do feel like the reason why he struggles to date after Shannon's death is a combination of grief - being afraid to try again with anyone... and it's denial of his feelings for Buck, and also fear that what if... This happens again, what if he loves and they leave. I think the key problem here really is Buck.

Eddie has already fallen for someone, and tries to deny it, ignore it. He thinks this is a road that would take him nowhere, so why try. He thinks Buck is straight!

So he starts pushing Buck away because this odd family unit they have...? Where is it going really, he thinks, Buck doesn't want him.

This line, said to Buck:

"Somehow we became a ready-made family and I... I don't know if I'm ready for that."

It's grief for Shannon, and it's unrequited love for Buck, and it's about being unable to love Ana because of those both massive things stopping Eddie from being able to connect with her.

Remember.... that Buck starts the thing with Taylor before Eddie starts dating Ana?

Eddie, looking like a zombie, hosting Buck and Taylor, telling Buck that he needs to move on, Eddie has. (Yeah it's a lie.)

And remember all these talks about Eddie needing to move on, before he goes on dates?

This is Eddie, trying to move on, and find his third family unit.

The scene with Eddie and Buck when they've just met, Buck bragging that "some of us don't need good lighting to look good..."

And then Eddie at the fire station, looking at Buck, forgetting to introduce Ana to everyone, realising his mistake and saying to Ana;

"Oh, you've never been here!"...

Because she wasn't, Buck's presence just erases her from Eddie's mind, it's like she isn't even in the same room.

It's true, Eddie realises. Buck really doesn't need good lighting to look good, not to Eddie.

"Even in the dark, this place is amazing."

It's terrible, but disturbingly true for Eddie. This feeling, of existing in the darkness, alone, and watching someone who just doesn't need good lighting to look amazing. They just glow anyway, overwhelmingly, they just erase everyone else from your mind.

I feel like this symbolizes deep, unrequited love really well. Even in the dark this place is amazing.

So Eddie keeps struggling. He won't let Buck close because that's killing him, but he also can't let go of him. He's just ...always dying.

And then Buck comes out to him? It's a shock. It's a brief moment of dumb, wide-eyed hope.

But then Eddie immediately realizes... This changes nothing. Buck is dating someone else. Buck is falling for someone else. Buck is still... Just a friend.

Nothing has changed for Buck, and therefore not for Eddie either. Eddie is still alone in this. And keeps dying.

So... The point I'm trying to make here.

I feel like this struggle we're seeing, it's not about Eddie being gay. He fell for Shannon, they agreed the sex was never the problem.

Even this new relationship with Marisol. He does feel sexual desire for her... Their sex life is great... Until he learns that she was almost a nun? Imagine being in the closet, bi, and realising your girlfriend was almost a nun?

It's truly "eyes on the ground". Would she still want her, if she really knew who, or what, Eddie is? Would she be disgusted if she learned about all of Eddie's fantasies?

How can Eddie trust her?

So... That's what making him run from Marisol. I do think he's making a genuine effort to move on from his old flames - Shannon and Buck.

I mean... Remember Eddie's talk with his tia? Learning that she had been married before, and refusing to even try dating someone else, until her friends dragged her out?

And ultimately this made her move on, meeting someone else. And soon she didn't regret trying again.

So Eddie is trying to move on from Shannon, and Buck.

But can he? Is he?

One thing about Buck's coming out, and the following scene, the talk with Eddie...

Noticed the buddie subtext, and the bisexual subtext of the lines when he talks about Marisol there? About needing to go home.

The "menu" is not the issue. The issue is that he doesn't want to go home, to Marisol. (Lol, there's btw that bicycle again, hanging on the wall behind Eddie's back. Bi subtext!!)

Eddie does desire her. ... He just doesn't love her. And that keeps happening... Because his heart is already taken.

[stanlunter]

My 6 favourite Scorptra + some little scenes I love

1. "You do care, don't tou?"

The scene that made Catra fully realize that she's not alone and that there is still someone who love her more than anything. Catra was everything for Scorpia.

And the most important thing is that Catra does the most selfless thing she could done: she refuses of Scorpia's help and doesn't let Scorpia set her free, bc she knows it can cause Scorpia troubles and she doesn't want to put Scorpia in the same situation. She doesn't want to be Like Shadow Weaver and doesn't want Scorpia to suffer bc of her.

2. "We could, you know, be happy"

Catra was so stupid for not leaving with Scorpia and Ill stay by it. Also there is no "one-sided" explanation for this. Anyone who says Catra never loved Scorpia, litterally just skipped the entire episode. They were SO in love!

Especially considering the fact that they were suppose to kiss each other at that scene ans I will never forgive Nate for removimg it

3. "You saved me?"

The moment when Catra's feelings for Scorpia startes to grow up. It's when Catra realize that Scorpia saved her, no matter what. Even tho Catra ordered Scorpia not to break the technology, Scorpia did it, bc it would save Catra. She disobeyed the order to protect her and you can read in Catra's eyes that she was shocked that she was THAT dear for someone. It makes even more sence when you remember Catra's words about Adora "You never protected me. Not in any way that would put you on SW's bad side". (no blame for Adora, she's still the best girl ofc) but the thing is that Adora wouldn't disobey to protect Catra from SW, but Scorpia did it and not once. Scorpia truly loved Catra and she would always do everything to protect her.

4. "I will always be there for you"

Even tho Catra doesn't want to ask anyone for help and wants to do everything alone, Scorpia still makes her tell the situation to resolve it together. Bc that's what friends do, Catra doesn't have to deal with this alone.

5. "You're a princess??"

Whatever the cat is this?? They were so iconic in the prom episode!

At first Catra was sympathetic with someone for the first time in the show lol. She asked Scorpia (to ask actually) to go to the prom together! It's already pretty romantic, but have you seen the rest of the scenes?

Also the screenboard where Catra zips Scorpia up lol (they really didn't have to remove it)

6. "We're making a good team!"

Uhhh, just look at them here! They litterally THE girlfriends! Catra never was so flirty with anyone. She blushes as Amity lol. And just look at these EYES!!!

Now heart-breaking scenes, cuz Im evil. S4 was so sad and for what? Im crying...

But since Im not THAT bad, here are some sweet scenes again! Cuz they're still cuties (it was a crime not to give us them in s5 btw, Ill never forgive Nate for this) <3

Protective gfs ever!

I really love Scorptra even after so many years. I need someone to rewatch she-ra with!!!

[transraptortrainer]

I'll speak to specifically the trauma of them losing Brooklynn to a dinosaur !!

Kenji obviously became extremely avoidant which I think was perpetuated by a lot of trauma he experienced just dealing with the dad stuff. It's not easy for him to talk about his feelings or address them directly, and I think he knew he'd be hurtful to Darius - someone he really cares about - if he saw him again after Brooklynn's funeral, which is why he dropped contact with him and the others. He didn't want to hurt his brother but he needed space and a lot of time to heal from what had happened. That being said I don't think he would've ever broken that silence if it wasn't for Darius showing up on his door.

Darius isolated, and as he's always done, he blamed himself. Darius has suffered from survivor's guilt even since his father passed. It's never been easy for him to move on or forgive himself. But he also became a bit obsessive, and knowing that there was originally this plot for Darius to just hate dinosaurs because of the event was passed around in early screenings of season 1 is soo much but it really indicates how much Brooklynn's death meant to him. He couldn't view dinosaurs through the same passionate lense he always did. I think that is extremely representative of his feelings.

Similarly to Darius, Ben also became obsessive in a different kind of way...? Idk if anyone's noticed that his anxiety has kinda evolved into a what appears to me as a kind of paranoia disorder , which. Same queen I get it. He even went as far as to consider his friend Sammy may have been involved! He admits he had to rule out all possibilities which I can only imagine made him feel incredibly guilty. I think he also had to detach, probably mostly because the event caused a split in his friend group. He's become extremely self-reliant but his disorders are manifesting in fun and interesting new ways LOL.

Sammy copes through keeping busy. Obviously. I wouldn't be surprised if this is somehow related to the fact her family decided to end contact with her. But btw can we talk about how much that must've been the straw that broke the camel's back? We know family is the most important thing in the world to Sammy. Not only did she lose her family, but her camp fam haven't been together in 6 months and it's broken her heart. But she keeps busy. She cooks, she cleans, she cares for bumpy. She tries to do anything but think about what's happened to her.

For yaz.. well she's the only one actively receiving therapy. So she's coping. I would bet she thought about quitting therapy and school to support Sammy after everything happened but Sammy refused to let this happen. Yaz is very pragmatic and probably fell into a mindset once or twice that something like this was only bound to happen eventually...Yasmina seemed maybe the least effected by the loss and I think that's probably entirely because she was actively speaking about the trauma and working through it with a support group on the island. Love you girl.....

[oldiesstationlover11607]

🎶I just came to say hello🎶

Hello! It’s me! 💛! The one who gave you the incredibly hard task of writing for Spooky Jim. You hit that out of the park btw! I loved the angst of it all! Also, the Taco Bell story was super cute! I like the fact that Josh at the end was 100% eavesdropping despite pretending not to. You are such an incredibly talented writer it’s actually insane.

Anyways, I’m going to be selfish and ask for a sequel to the Spooky Jim story. I need to see what happens when Josh and the reader talk again for the first time after the incident. I feel like Josh, like Tyler said, would need some time to be alone and would really be pushing the reader away because he’s just so upset with himself, but the reader doesn’t give up. She continues to text him hoping one day that he’ll actually respond and they can talk. When they finally talk, Josh tells her she shouldn’t forgive him and he’s still really ashamed, but the reader refuses to leave and eventually Josh realizes he’s found someone who will stick with him through the hard times. (Perhaps maybe there can also be a part where Jenna gives her advice on how to deal with Spooky Jim, since she deals with blurryface).

Idk if this makes sense or if you feel up to doing it. I know you might feel like the story has nowhere to go. If you don’t want to do it it’s okay. It’s up to you. ☺️

Spooky Jim - Spooky!Josh x Reader part 2

Relationship: Spooky Jim/Josh × Reader

Warnings: Angst

Word Count: 1230 - thought this would be perfect for a short blurb type piece so whipped this up in he back of my class lol

A/N: Shortish but at least I got this done quick!! Love ur requests 💛

PART 1

It had been three weeks since I’d talked to Josh. Both Tyler and Jenna had been amazing about letting me stay at their house. The morning after I’d arrived on Tyler’s doorstep he stopped by the house to grab everything I needed for my stay. It took everything in me to not walk home and confront Josh. Jenna had sat me down and explained to me how she dealt with Blurryface. It seemed–despite Tyler having immense control over his demon–that the two personas had a lot in common, especially on the physical front. 

“It scared me at first,” she’d explained, “but I just told him I would never leave and that I was there for him. Honestly, I’ve had to deal with Blurry so many times, he knows who I am and that he’s not allowed to hurt me. I think you should wait for Josh to come back to you–because I know he will–and just explain to him how you feel. That boy loves you Y/N, if he takes time away it’s because he’s scared of hurting you, not because he doesn’t want to be with you.”

“Preach!” Tyler had called from the foyer. 

I knew Tyler and Josh were having regular calls for work and had briefly talked about the incident but Tyler being the best friend he was refused to tell me what they’d talked about. Exactly three weeks after I left the house I sent Josh a message longer than the regular ‘I love you’s and ‘I’m here if you need me’s. Each of those text messages earned me nothing more than a ‘read’ receipt. Tyler told me there was nothing to worry about but in all the time I knew Josh he had never been dry in texts, calls, or real life. 

‘Josh. I know it’s been a while since we’ve properly talked but I miss you. I miss you more than I have ever missed anything in my entire life. You’re my best friend, my person, and no matter what happens between us I’ll always be there for you. I really hope you’re okay. Tyler won’t tell me anything. I love you. I love you more than I love life.’ - Sent

The message was read almost immediately like all of my others. I threw my phone onto the guest bed and brushed my hair, getting dressed for the day. To my surprise, a short vibration sound rang through the room–my phone. I dashed to the bed to check my notifications. Josh. 

‘You should come over.’ 

My heart pounded as I stared at the message. The single message had the power to undo all of my built-up anxiety and hope at the same time. Jenna had been right—he would come back to me, but now that it was happening, I wasn’t sure what to expect. I quickly texted Tyler and Jenna, letting them know Josh had finally responded, before grabbing my jacket and heading out the door. The walk to Josh's place felt both too short and too long. I rehearsed what I was going to say, but nothing seemed good enough. What could I even say after everything that happened? My hand hovered over the door, heart racing. I could hear my own breath, shallow and uneven. What was I supposed to say? What was he going to say? I tried to rehearse a million things in my head, but none of them felt right.

I knocked. A part of me half-hoped he wouldn’t answer, that maybe this was some mistake, and I’d have more time to prepare. But then the door opened, and there he was—Josh. His eyes were tired, dark red circles framing them. He looked like he hadn’t slept well, like the weight of everything was still pressing down on him.

“Hey,” I whispered, unsure if I should move or if he wanted me to. I felt frozen in place.

“Hey,” he replied quietly, stepping aside to let me in. I hesitated for just a second before stepping into the familiar space, the air heavy with everything unsaid.

The silence between us was thick as he closed the door. I stood there awkwardly, unsure where to sit or if I should hug him or… do anything. He walked into the living room, and I followed, settling on the couch opposite him. The distance between us felt like miles, even though it was just a couple of feet.

Josh stared at the floor, and for a moment, I thought maybe he wasn’t going to speak. The silence was deafening. Finally, he let out a long, shaky breath.

“You shouldn’t have forgiven me,” he said, his voice low. “I don’t deserve it.” I opened my mouth to speak, but he kept going, eyes still glued to the floor. “I messed up, Y/N. I should’ve controlled it, I should’ve been better. And I... I hurt you.” His voice cracked, and he ran a hand through his hair, clearly battling with himself. “I can’t live with knowing that I hurt you like that. I–I could’ve killed you.” I wanted to hold him. Sitting there, watching tears well in his eyes broke my heart into 1,000 pieces. “I don’t... I don’t even know how to fix this.”

I wanted to reach out to him, to close the distance, but I didn’t. Not yet. “Josh,” I started, keeping my voice steady. “You didn’t lose me. I’m still here. I’m not going anywhere.”

He shook his head. “But you should. You deserve someone who doesn’t have this... thing. Someone normal, who doesn’t have to fight himself all the time.”

I scooted forward, closing the gap between us slightly. “I don’t care about normal. I care about you.” My voice was firmer now. “Jenna told me how she deals with Blurryface. And... I’m here for you, Josh. I’m not afraid of Spooky Jim. I’m afraid of losing you.”

His head snapped up at that, finally looking me in the eyes. “You don’t understand,” he said, but his voice was weaker now, as if some of the walls he’d built were crumbling. “I can’t control it all the time. What if next time I can’t—what if I hurt you worse?”

“I’m not leaving,” I said, cutting him off before he could spiral further. “I love you, Josh. I’ve loved you through everything, and I’m not giving up on you now just because things are hard. I’m here. You don’t have to fight this alone.”

His face crumpled, and for a moment, I thought he might cry. Instead, he just sat there, staring at me as if he couldn’t believe what he was hearing.

“I don’t deserve you,” he whispered, voice hoarse.

I moved to sit beside him, finally reaching out to take his hand. He tensed for a moment, but then his fingers curled around mine. “Maybe not,” I said softly, “but that doesn’t change anything.”

For a long moment, we just sat there, holding onto each other. Neither of us said anything, but we didn’t need to. I wasn’t leaving, and he knew it. Slowly, the tension in his shoulders eased, like some of the weight he’d been carrying for weeks had started to lift.

Eventually, he spoke again, his voice quiet but clearer now. “I don’t know how to fix this... but I want to try.”

I squeezed his hand. “We’ll figure it out together.”

//

REQUESTS OPEN

[tazienimp]

Words we wish we could say

Mephiles: It was never supposed to be like this

Crystal: I know

Mephiles: I'm sorry

Crystal: I forgive you. Maybe not for everything, but i forgive you.

Mephiles: I love you

Crystal: I love you too.

Crystal and Amethyst, together: We always did

These words will forever go unspoken between them. Mephiles is unable to say he's sorry, and Crystal hates to admit, that after everything her father has done, that she'd forgive him no matter what, at least enough that she can't hate him.

This is directly after this interaction.

After the Shadow Virus was over, after Ames tried and failed to take over her sister's body and the world, after Mephiles discovered both his daughters were technically still alive, after his actions indirectly pushed them into the hardest moments of their lives, after everything, Crystal still couldn't stop herself from running into her dad's arms after their fight. And the words were right there, but none of them could say them.

But they still felt them.

Big big vent under the cut, i just need to ramble, I'm so sorry. Minimal tagging on this post specifically for this reason.

Sorry if it's kinda shit, i haven't drawn Ames in over a year, and i haven't drawn Crys in a hot minute either. I also think my artstyle's changing again, and i wish it would stop that, but it happens. It's also like, almost 3 am and i drew this without even putting my glasses on. It's been a really hard week, and my session yesterday was pretty difficult. I got home and passed out, but then woke up tonight and couldn't go back to sleep, so i figured I'd go ahead and get this off my chest.

It's been really hard to hold myself together these past few weeks. And every project I've been teasing lately, i need to push it back. They'll happen when they happen, I'm tired of fighting them when i can barely function. So, i don't know when those'll happen. I'm just really tired. The biggest hurdle has been, my brain has been wanting to just give up drawing permanently, for a while now. Every day its like, well what if i just... stop. Yanno? My upload schedule is already nonexistent, it's not like it'll be missed, but at the same time it's difficult to put my au to rest. So i don't know what to do, and I've already promised so much stuff to come out to a bunch of my friends, and i just can't get myself to finish any of it rn, and i don't know why. I'm so so so sorry. Specifically to @jadedazemations , i still really wanna draw your boys, and I'm so sorry i haven't been able to contribute to the crossover myself when your doodles have been so cool and i think about them all the time and our convos about them have meant everything to me and continue to do so, and i can't get myself to match your pace and I'm so so so so sorry if ever i made you feel unappreciated or like you were doing so much work for so little in return.

I'm not scrapping the wips, of course, cause i know I'll be able to get back to them at some point, and most of them are like 60% done lineart wise, if not partially colored already, so it's likely I'll finish them someday, i just don't know when, and i know that's super disappointing to hear and I'm so sorry for everyone waiting so patiently for them. I'm so sorry, you guys are my entire world and i feel like i give you all so little in return for all the happiness you give me.

I'll still be posting any art i manage to get out, I'm not quitting just yet.

Also not posting any of this lil blurb to Deviantart when i post this piece there btw, this is something I'm keeping here, but, yeah. I love you all, more than you know, and again I am so so so sorry.

Edit: God fucking dammit Mephy. Anyways so i fixed the pic order, I'm usually better about catching that

[prettyoddfever]

Tumblr glitched while I was trying to answer this, but thankfully I took a screenshot of everything before refreshing because I legit cannot find that draft or question anywhere now, sorry. So here we go again...

I'll link to the post here. (btw any annoyance that might seep into my tone in my recent answers is NOT directed at the actual people asking... y'all are lovely). So that post is done in a very similar tone to the Ryden primers that the pre-split fandom posted, but I'm getting the sense that this is very very different... like that person seems to actually believe the content that they're posting is straight up facts (and even if they don't, the fact that you're referring to it as "infamous" probably implies that other people are at least treating it as real facts, so I'm still going to address it like the tone is serious). Here's an explanation of how the majority of the fandom used to view Ryden.

A lot of their pictures no longer show up, so I'm going to leave a wayback screen recording here for reference:

I'll just comment as I go through it if I have something to add:

I suppose that the tone of someone's comments is open to interpretation, so idc as much about whether those are misread or not.

That supposed AIM convo was shared as a myspace bulletin by Brent's brother Blake during the summer 2006 season when he was trying to stir up shit and was busy posting other inaccurate info too. I'm just saying to take it with a grain of salt. 

Ryan’s lj post on 9/27/05 was about the release of AFYCSO that day. He talked a lot in interviews that season about how it was weird for him to see so many fans singing his lyrics back to him.

uhh most of the pictures that this person lists "from this era" of 2004/2005 are actually from 2006. so they definitely know what they're talking about here lol.

they list one of Ryan's livejournal posts and then say "I'm not sure of the exact date, but I know it was some time in 06." It was from June 24, 2006. 

lol Audrey.

re: the Myrtle Beach theory

why is the part where Ryan called Brendon a golden god in late 2006 any different than when Brendon said this about Spencer that same season?

re: the 2006 mic-sharing & stage gay

fans would positively scream when Ryan & Brendon approached each other, especially in the last half of 2006. this moment in Munich in October 2006 seemed no different... the guys absolutely knew what they were doing.

the VMA performance just seemed like Ryan was still using Brendon as a safe space to look at so he wouldn't stare at his feet or guitar, but that is still very much something you could turn into a Ryden thing so carry on haha.

about the Rolling Stone interview

I'm laughing at the "squint a little harder" comment about finding Ryden content in 2008. That is so accurate. 

re: Dylan's myspace (yes, Keltie ran a myspace for Hobo that anyone could grab pics from).

Ryan absolutely sounds like he's saying dude... also that would be normal.

the picture of the bracelet is normal

I'm just going to link to this post since it addresses many similar inaccurate points about early 2009.

I was about to side eye them so hard for posting the Lana Jade letter as real, but at least they added that she made multiple posts explaining that it wasn't her. And yes, obviously Brendon's best friend was Shane (not Ryan).

omg Ryan's tattoos are not about Brendon. Those are Tom Waits lyrics. Ryan was good friends with Thomas Dutton. About a year before getting the tattoos, Ryan was hanging out with him on tour in the UK and later told Kerrang that “a friend of mine in Forgive Durden turned me on to Tom Waits when we were in the UK… I’ve been listening to him ever since. His voice is so rough and dark. I’d never really heard anything like that.”

the sharing beds idea was misunderstood in the Billboard interview... all 4 guys slept on bunkbeds in the same room when they were recording AFYCSO. That's what Brendon's referring to.

re: the Bishop Gorman tshirt… Ryan was hardly that size in high school. But Brent went to Bishop Gorman too (and so did Paulina, who was also friends with Brendon). Brendon did borrow some of Brent’s stuff in 2004/2005 (like money for food while they were first touring). Just saying… it's def interesting, but it’s not an automatic Ryden connection.

I didn't read Spencer's tone in that out.com interview the same way... there's some relevant bits in this post.

about the red shirt

here's my general tag for Ryden stuff

[jojameswinter]

what is your take on what happened during the infamous kook year? Did Kiara and Rafe have a thing going on or not? What really went down between Sarah and Kie? How bad was it after Kie was ostracized at the academy? How did she make up with the pogues?

OOOoohhhh anon, bringing me back to the kook year!!!! (not that it ever really leaves my mind...)

I don't think Kie and Rafe had a thing, but I could def see him being a creeper with Kiara hanging around the house and whatnots. It feels like he's had a crush on her with some of his behavior throughout the series (who could blame him?). However, his idea of her and the version he makes up in his head are not reality...

What went down btw Sarah and Kie: they got too close for Sarah's comfort and she lashed out and cast Kiara aside. Sarah explains in canon that this is a pattern for her. And to me, it feels fairly obvious there were crushing feelings on at least Kiara's side, if not both. As for how bad it got...I think it was pretty bad for her parents to agree to let her go back to Kildare high! I think whatever Sarah Cameron says pretty much goes in those parts, at least that's how they portray her. So if she's done with Kiara...then everyone else is too. Which, actually is interesting to think about that not only is Sarah defying/going back on everything by being with John B, but by being best friends with Kiara again.

How Kiara made up with the Pogues I could see going down a variety of ways...

In one way, I could see JJ holding the biggest grudge because of his abandonment issues, taking it harder bc of his buried feelings for her, etc. However, there's also a possibility he knows more of what went down than the others (e.g. defending her when Pope's going after her) so possibly he was one of the first to forgive. I think if JJ really, truly knew how bad it was, he'd be there for her and take her back in an instant, no matter what she did. I think Pope's reaction of being more upset is in line with his personality of being more rigid, and Kie broke the rules, yknow. And JB, similarly with his personality, I could see him being more positive and quicker to come around. John B just wants the band together, and he'll do whatever it takes to make that happen. I'm not sure how Kiara would reach out to them; she can be headstrong and proud so I don't think it would be super dramatic right off. But I think the story would come out over time. In canon, it kinda looks like she's telling the rest of the Pogues what happened in real time. In my mind, she might reach out to JJ first. John B was dealing with his dad being missing, and I don't think Pope would be as comfortable to reach out. And jiara has a way of saying what needs to be said without having to really say it.

Anyways, I'm just rambling now - thank you for this very thought provoking question, anon!!!! We need to get some inspiration going with this hiatus!!!! CROSSING FINGERS WE GET SOMETHING SOON!!!!

[yanderecandystore]

Hello! If it's not too much of a hassle.

May I please request, Alexandra?

Scenario: Reader (AMAB) is poor and forced to marry Alexandra. But unfortunately for Alexandra, Darling is more interested in their daughter than in her (not incest btw!!) As the years go by.

Lmao I can see it happening X'D

TW/Tags: Somewhat fluff, somewhat goofy, somewhat weird? // mentions of past bullying // silly goofs sort of headcanon // questionable marriage/relationship with Alexandra // People ignoring the victim's side of the story // Reader has a lot of conflicted feelings about his situation // low-key happy ending unlocked?

🍭꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡🍮꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡🍰꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡🍮꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖🍭

Oh no, please don't spoil this child, her mother is already very spoiled, sir. [Yandere!Bully!OC x Male!Reader - Headcanons]:

→ Alexandra Coldwell:

I don't think much would happen to be honest, although it is interesting that you got in this situation in the first place. Being forced to marry your rich bully sounds like an absolute nightmare, and it could be considering it's Alexandra we're talking about!

Ah, but who isn't to say that this was all a carefully laid out plan to get you to be with her anyway? I mean it doesn't sound so ridiculous if you think about it.

I don't think she would've been able to orchestrate EVERYTHING, but imagine this- You two met in high school and she hasn't stop being a menace to you even during college, but since your family was always in a tight situation financially she knew how to play her cards right to convince your parents that she was your "high school sweetheart", and that she was the perfect choice for you!

She is a beautiful model after all, she comes from old money- And she has that added benefit of having been in your life for a while now (for the better or for worse… mostly worse). How could your parents NOT fall for her charm??

Which by the way, they never understand why you never showed her to them before, it doesn't matter if you told them the truth before or not, right now they were absolutely sold on her as the perfect candidate for you.

There was an awkward dating phase at first, she would treat you a lot better than she did in her high school years but you still couldn't help but see her as a bit of a menace to your otherwise calm life.

It took you a while to notice why she would treat you the way she did, how she didn't actually mean it… Of course you weren't one to easily forgive and forget, but you did give her a chance to improve herself, despite the odds being against you, you stood your ground and never gave her the chance to put you down again.

The dating part felt a little rushed in your opinion, but nothing could be done about it considering your marriage was planned a lot earlier than you ever could have expected- And I'm not talking about your parents who really needed you to get that financial security, I'm talking about Alexandra.

Your new wife was still creepy… Not scary and overly domineering as you expected her to be in private but still somewhat creepy.

And somehow you grew to accept that! It seemed to get better with each passing year, or maybe you just didn't really care about her obsessive weirdness towards you… Sometimes, it was a bit endearing!

Or maybe you're crazy too, who knows!

Ah, but your daughter, a sweet little girl that thanks to some miracle was not as bratty as her mother! A bit of a daddy's girl, and just a tiny hint of a troublemaker- But that's basically any child.

I would beg you to not spoil her too much as You Know Who is her mother, but I assume you would still do it anyway, wouldn't you?

Your relationship with Alexandra was always a bit odd, and hard to explain. You weren't unhappy, not at all! You had a really good life now, and it wasn't just because of the money.

You've built a really nice family with Alex, even if it's just you three… But sometimes you're not sure if you really love Alexandra all that much…

Well, you grew to like her! But sometimes you feel like you shouldn't so easily forget her past interactions with you, and even though it might seem perfect to be next to someone like her (rich and beautiful), you're very much aware of the ways she could easily ruin someone's life if they got too close to you. The person who slept next to you every night was also the one who would lock you in empty school lockers, and is the same person who would also use her money to ruin someone else's life for even looking at you wrong…

And it's also the same person who smiles everyday as if everyday was sunny to her, who is a good mother overall and great wife despite her unhealthy tendencies, who is always apologizing late at night about her past mistakes even if you didn't bring it up yourself.

You clearly loved your daughter a lot, and after having the displeasure of meeting your mother-in-law you REALLY didn't want your daughter to end up like them (I named her Yasmin but it can be whatever you want-).

It's not just that you really love your daughter with all your heart- She is the reason you feel glad that this marriage happened in the first place- But you're also worried that if you are not around, Yasmin will turn into her mother or worse yet, her grandma, ugh.

You were thankful that she didn't come to visit you three much, if at all. You didn't know why exactly, but something told you Evelyn wouldn't be a good influence on your daughter. She never treated you badly, but you sure knew she didn't treat Alexandra well.

Spoiling wasn't the same as parenting. Nor was whatever that witch did.

In Alexandra's point of view, she recognizes that you seem very distant to her in general, but from her perspective you seem to be slowly getting more comfortable around her- Even if you don't notice!

It can be a bit frustrating that you never give her the same amount of attention you give Yasmin, but she doesn't mind all that much… It's really cute to see how much you care about your family, it's all that she could ever dream off!

Nice try in trying to make her mad, yeah, she gets a little petty sometimes but she isn't the same person anymore, whatever you did during all these years somehow motivated her to become a better person for the sake of you and for the sake of your daughter.

Alex isn't completely unaware of your disinterest, the fact that even after all this time you still feel conflict hurts her but it makes a lot of sense.

But since you're married to her, she would still like to think she has a chance to win your heart, if you would like that or not is up to you or course.

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[aingeal98]

After seeing this post-evil Cass AU (which is so delicious and juicey btw) all I can think about is my half baked post-gotham-war au, that I tinkered with before saying "nope, it's better if we forget THAT ever happened."

Now I think fadom is way too Jason focused at the best of times (I like him, but c'mon stop giving him concepts better suited for Duke, or Steph, or Cass, or Babs guys), but the concept was kind of focused around him and Cass.

Because Bruce drugging Jason so that he got panic attacks whenever his adrenaline rose too high meant that not only could Jason not comit crime, but Jason couldn't save anyone?

How would Cass react to that? How would Cass react to Bruce, a man she idolises (not more thant the bat symbol, but still), doing that to someone he claims to love when:

A) David Cain did what he did to her in the name of "love"

B) Cass had her own brain rewired without her permission taking away her ability to fight and everything she valued about herself, so much so she was willing to die at the hands of Shiva to be perfect for a year, than mediocre for a lifetime

C) Being drugged by the League of Assassin and forced to be their tool against her will, which as you've established, should have messed her up fundamentally

D) The knowledge that if Bruce had thought she was the one who stepped out of line too far, he could have inflicted the same fate on her. Taking away her ability to fight again, and taking away her autonomy just like the League did, all in the name of love just as David Cain did, making her -in her eyes- mediocre for a lifetime. Her worst fear.

That, I think, would really fuck her up

My idea was that - like how Shiva taught Cass to fight again - Cass would try and use the same techniques to teach Jason how to fight without 0panic attacks, and how that would be a massive moral dilemma for her, because Jason would be clear - if he gets his ability to fight back, it doesn't change his stance on killing evil people. And Cass would have to grapple with the choice of should she help Jason if it means more people die, or is it important that he has the autonomy that was stripped from him, even if he uses it in a way that is antithetical to all her beliefs. It would end up being a massive philosophical debate between Jason and Cass on their world views and them coming to care about each other but probably completely unable to reconcile their fundamental core beliefs with the other person's.

It was going to be part of a bigger concept where all the Batkids, after Bruce dipped post-Gotham War collectively decided that, after all that bullshit, Bruce wasn't allowed to come back and be Batman anymore. He was clearly not someone they could trust with that responsibility, and on his return the basically lock him out of all his stuff and try and force him into retirement. But then I realised that was all the ADHD talking and that fic was never gonna happen.

I didn't even think about this but you're so right! If we're going to fix it fic the evil Cass arc then fuck it lets fix it fic the Gotham War arc too! No one is fine with Bruce, Jason doesn't magically forgive him, they're all horrified by what he's done and effectively strip him of the Batman mantle and lock him out of the Batcave. Does it lead to an all out war? Justice League vs Titans and Young Justice? Honestly I think that even if Bruce went running to them for assistance on reclaiming Gotham, if Dick explained exactly why they're going against Bruce the League would basically be like yeah Bruce we're not intervening in this. Sort your family shit out by yourself.

Like the best thing would be to lock him up and get him psychiatric help but obviously given the Justice League's history with him and friendship I don't see them doing that. But if Nightwing himself is saying Bruce has gone too far then they wouldn't be on his side, even if they wouldn't go so far as to treat him as an enemy. They'd just ignore it and pretend it's not happening.

But man, this really would be one way Cass and Jason can actually like. Become close lol. Because she trusted Bruce and what he did to Jason was so horrific she's questioning everything she knows about the Red Hood, and also probably sees helping him recover as her responsibility. Bruce is her father and she respected him so much and he did This. He's not who she thought he was and because of her choice to believe in him someone got hurt. Of course she's going to want to fix that. Jason, if he was allowed be more than a punching bag that arc, would not make it easy on her. He's bitter and angry and feels vindicated because he saw all along that Bruce wasn't a hero. So now they want to play nice? Fuck that, if they want to help he's going to explain exactly who they're helping, and they're going to have to come to terms with it.

Cass as Batman, Dick retreating back to Bludhaven to just get away from how sick it all makes him feel, Tim basically going "I can fix him" and acting as the family go between Bruce and the rest of them. Damian feeling like his world has turned upside down once again and probably fighting Cass because she's There Now as an easy target to vent his frustration and betrayal. Jason doing everything you said but also slightly feeling like he's gone too another universe because everyone is suddenly much more friendly and respectful and helpful and even if they still think he shouldn't have ever killed anyone they're all on his side against Bruce? Is he dreaming? Duke being shaken by this because of what Batman represented but since it was always more about the symbol than the man, I feel like he could throw himself into supporting Cass and being her shoulder to lean on when it comes to venting her fears that she ends up just like Bruce. He could even be the Robin to her Batman if Damian decides to leave to go on another soul seeking arc after his entire family and life were just turned upside down.

If you ever do write the fic, I'd be here for it! Thanks for the ask :D

[gold1l0cs]

everything is pissing me OFF

genuinely everything is pissing me off. no, i dont wanna listen to your new situationship, why do i have to put up with your attitude??? and why do you keep trying to taalk to me in claass when Im trying to DESPERATELY listen to the lesson ?????

it overhwhelms me and it brings me to a stage of agitation where I doont even know if Im just a hater or theres is something wrong with you. Like am I wrong for hating you just because you keep asking me the MOST irrelevant questions (that you probably know the answer to if you listened) or are you just the problem and I just need more new people in my life???

These instances occur so often in my days of being a student who lives in a dorm apparently and a girl who cant even tell her mom (who is the most realest person who could probably be the one to only ever understand me) about these things that bother her endlessly. The perpetual irritation and annoyance fuels my soul and I try COUNTLESS of times to see the bright side of the situation. but it only ever boils down to me being even more upset about the given person.

Then when I let myself feel these things I would start to theorize why i am feeling these things. is it my hormones before my period? is it because I skipped my yoghurt oat breakfast for an exchange of oily fried chicken popcorn? is it because I didn't sleep enough last night????? UGH like Im genuinely losing my mind because why cant you just be normal ohmyyflip. like truthfully, what am I going through to be feeling like this???? and it just becomes a big loophole until a random tuesday morning comes and I just start not to hate on these people as much as I do.

My frustration and desperation came to a point where I was begging God in my prayers saying how to please just let me forgive others for what they have done because they know not of what they have done. LIKE UGHHH, please God I know youre reading this, shower me in thy love and peace and LET ME LIVEEE free from all these sticky and hot emotions that stick to my skin like a second layer of skin.

I know that these sentiments are not new to me because just 2 years ago I was also like this towards some of my friends and teachers. and the things that they have done from my observation has led me to grow a severe dislikeness for them. But then I moved to a brand new city (mitski ref btw) and then I started feeling normal again because I was meeting brand new people that I have not known previously. I seriously do think that these perspectives of annoyance only comes when you've spent a long time with the person to a point where you are very familiar with their characteristics and traits. For instance maybe when you first gossiped with a new friend you would have thought that it was normal because honestly who doesnt?? but then it turns out as you grow a deeper connection with thisew friend, gossiping is the only thing she does. and personally i would get bored and the respect for the new friend would slowly dissolve. but because I created that 'deep' connection I would still have to remain by her side right ?? so I would remain to be her friend, enganging her in conversations with half nods and half-hearted chuckles. to a point where she finds me not as entertaining and slowly our friendship would just drift apart. oh wow! im theorising again God please help me.

thus i think im just waiting for that moment where they just view me as a friend that they no longer can be as close with compared to before. and 'waiting' is by means by enduring all the crappy things that have to bother me with everyday!

[unshackled-if]

Okay so this is a BIT angst I hope you don't mind as I was wondering that if the RO's were to confess to mc and mc says like "Really? I'm sorry it's just that...it's hard to believe you I'm mean I'm not saying I don't love you it's just that...I'm afraid of you lying to me" how would the RO's react to that? And how would they convince mc they love them really?

Here we go! Angst time! Btw, this might be a bit long sorry, I got excited. 😈 Aurelian:

King Aurelian stood before you, his heart heavy with regret. He knew he had to be honest.

"I love you," he said, his voice shaking with emotion. "I know I've hurt you, but I swear to you, I'm being honest now. I love you with all my heart, and I would do anything to make things right between us." You looked at him with a mixture of anger and disbelief. "How can you say that?" you said, you voice laced with pain. "You took away everything from me, my freedom, my life. You left me alone in that dark cell for a century Aurelian. A century! And now you come here and say you love me?"

Aurelian felt a lump from his throat. He knew he didn't deserve your forgiveness, but he couldn't help hoping for it. "I know what I've done is unforgivable," his voice barely above a whisper. "But please, give me a chance to make it up to you. Let me show you how much I love you, and how deeply I regret what I've done."

You hesitated for a long time, your gaze locked with Aurelian's. You have never seen him this sincere, his eyes burning with plead for your forgiveness and regret. Tears streamed down your face, your heart is aching with pain. "You don't understand," you voice trembling. "I loved you, Aurelian. I trusted you with my life, and you threw it away like it was nothing. How can I ever trust you again?"

"I'm sorry," his voice filled with remorse. "I know saying this won't take away your pain, but I'm so sorry for what I've done. Please, give me a chance to make it up to you. I'll do anything, anything at all, to make things right between us."

You looked at him for a very long time, finally you gave a small node. "Fine," your voice barely above a whisper. "But don't think this means I forgive you. I'll give you a chance to prove yourself, but I don't know if I can ever trust you again, Aurelian."

He stepped closer to you, his hand reaching out to touch your cheek, but he stopped mid air. "Thank you," his voice filled with hope. "I promise, I won't let you down again."

Elara:

Elara stood before you, her heart pounding with nervousness. She had rehearsed what she wanted to say, but now that she is facing you, her words seemed inadequate. "I...I Iove you," she stammered, her voice barely above a whisper. "Please believe me when I say that my feelings are genuine. I want to be with you, with all my heart."

You looked at her, your expression guarded. "I want to believe you," your voice shaky. "But I've been hurt before. I trusted someone so much, and he broke my trust into a million pieces. I don't know if I can go through that pain again."

Elara felt a ping of sympathy in her chest. She knew who you were talking about it. "I understand how you feel," her voice gentle. "But please, don't give up on love. It's scary to trust again, but sometimes the risk is worth it."

You looked at her for a long moment, your expression softening. "How do you know?" you voice filled with vulnerability. "How do you know that your love won't hurt me?"

Elara took a deep breath, summoning the courage to be honest. "I don't know," her voice raw. "Love is unpredictable, and it can be messy and painful. But it can also be beautiful. I can't promise you that I'll never hurt you, but I can promise you that I'll always be honest and true to my feelings."

You looked at her conflicted, "I want to believe you," you closed you eyes for a moment. "But I'm scared."

Elara took a step closer to you, signaling for a permission to hold your hands, you nodded. "I know," her voice filled with compassion. "But you don't have to be alone in your fear. I'm here for you, and I'll support you in whatever way you need. We can take things slow, and we can build trust between us, one step at a time."

"Thank you," your eyes shining in emotion. "It's nice to know that you're here for me."

Elara smiled at you, "I'll be here for you, always."

Kazuo:

Kazuo stood before you, his heart bounding with nervousness. He had never been good at expressing his emotions, but he knew he had to tell you how he felt.

"MC," he said, his voice shaking. "I have to tell you something. I...I love you."

You looked at him, your expression guarded. "I...how can I trust you?" your tone bitter and hurt. "I've been hurt before, Kazuo. I can't go through that again."

Kazuo closed his eyes, he knew that this is what you would say. He knew the pain you suffered all these years, he was there when it happened. But he also knew that you saved him, in more ways than one.

"MC..., you saved me. You saved me from a life of pain and loneliness. When I was lost and alone, you showed me kindness and compassion. You helped me find my way back to the light." His voice filled with emotions, tears started to fall from his eyes.

You looked at him, your expression softening, "How did I help you?" your voice filled with tenderness.

"You showed me there was still hope," he wiped his tears and covered his face with his hands. "You showed me there was still goodness in this chaotic world, that there was still people worth fighting for. You saved me, MC. You saved me from the darkness that had consumed for so long."

Tears started streaming down your face, "I had no idea," you voice shaky. "I'm sorry, Kazuo. I had no idea how much you were also hurting."

Kazuo moved closer, asking for you permission to hold you, you nodded. "It's okay. I want you know to know that, I'm here for you, to stand by your side, no matter what. I promise to love you with all my heart and protect you from any harm or pain. I'll do whatever it takes to keep you safe."

You leaned on him, "I trust you, Kazuo. I know you'll keep me safe."

Aiden/Ava:

A took a deep breath, their heart pounding as they prepare to confess their feelings. They knew you don't trust people easily anymore, but they couldn't keep these feelings bottled any longer or they would go crazy.

"I have something to tell you," they said softly, their eyes shining and locked onto yours. "I know this might sound like a joke, but...I've started to feel something more for you. Something deeper."

You looked at them, your expression guarded. "A,I...I don't know if I can do this," your voice filled with uncertainty. "I don't know if I can trust this much again."

A nodded trying to keep their emotions in check, " I understand that you've been hurt," their eyes filled with warmth. "But I want you to know that I would never do anything to hurt you. I care about you too much to ever do that."

You looked at them, your expression softening slightly. "I know you mean well, A."

A stepped closer to you, their eyes locked onto yours for permission, you nodded. "I know it's hard," they said softly. "But I want you to know that I love you. I wouldn't have said anything if I didn't mean it. I know it might take time for you to trust me, but I'm willing to wait. I'm willing to do whatever it takes to show you that you can trust me." they gave you the most pupped eyed look and you chuckled.

"I don't know what to say," you voice hesitated. "I never thought anyone could love me, after everything that happened. But...maybe I can learn to trust you. Maybe we can try."

A reached out and held your hands. "I would like that," a smile spreading across their face. "I would like nothing more than to try, to see where this takes us."

Me rn:

[thegrimdog13]

Omg I genuinely wanna see your ideas for an opposite au? That would be really interesting! (I'm new here btw so Hi!!)

Opposite au headcannons

pt. 1 ?

Welcome to my page! I hope you stick around. Also feel free to suggest more!For the opposite au I couldn’t think of if I should just make their personalities opposite or also the things they do. Like I could make them cops or something but I think I would leave that for another au. So we are doing personality. You can suggest the other one tho if you’re interested! Alright let’s start then!

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•Most of the creepypasta in this au are forced to be killers like Tim in Marble Hornets.

•Jeff instead of an angry boi is very scared of everything

•Jeff isn’t in everyone’s face and hates to be mean to people 

•Jeff hates killing people he thinks it’s awful. But he is under Slenderman control so he has to.

•When Randy did what he did he just got afraid of him instead of wanting to kill him.

•Liu isn’t a chill big brother instead he has a short temper.

•Liu doesn’t want to hear anything Jeff has to say and does not forgive him for what he has done.

•Liu hates Jeff and finds him disgusting even though it wasn’t Jeff’s fault he killed people.

•Jane ( the killer) is not mad at Jeff and understands it wasn’t his fault.

•Jane is friends with Jeff 

•Jane doesn’t really get along with Liu and hates how he treats Jeff and other people.

•Nina hates Jeff so much it’s ridiculous.( I basically turned her love into hate)

•Nina thinks Jeff is the ugliest man she’s ever seen

•Nina is aro ace and isn’t interested in inappropriate stuff or Romance. ( very unlike normal Nina lol)

•Sally is a little gremlin.

•Sally loves killing people and often tries to kill other creepypastas

•Sally hates playing games and thinks that killing is the funniest thing you can do.

•Ben loves water

•Ben just loves swimming in the water and splashing around.

•Ben is now super energetic instead of a chill guy.

•(Laughing Jack) is now a crying Jack.Because he loves children but is forced to kill them.

•LJ is always crying and slouches a lot.

•LJ never dances around and is often sitting in a corner and crying.

•It’s basically the same with Laughing Jill 

•Ticci Toby is super sensitive to pain and hates even getting the smallest cut.

•Toby doesn’t have any sarcasm and energy instead he is very literal in everything he says and very mep about everything. 

•Toby is basically Dwight from the office but with less energy.

•Clockwork is no longer a badass she is whimpy 

•Clocky hates violence and avoids it if she can

•Clocky doesn’t got out much hating being around people and the attention.

•Slendy is still the same in this au but instead of being super tall and skinny he is a short round guy. 

•Eyeless Jack ‘s demon is more in control and is constantly making growling sounds. Basically he is more feral lol

•EJ will start to sprint like a cat randomly on all fours and everything.

•EJ loves loves organs ( in my main au ej’s demon loves them and not Jack himself. In fact he hates them) 

•Lulu isn’t quiet and yells all the time

•Lulu instead of her sweet self she is mean and rude.

•Lulu is basically like that one bitch in highschool that is like omg I hate that outfit but no offenses ( Have you ever met one of those 😑)

-Marble Hornets is tied in with this au as well

•Masky/ Tim  loves killing and embraces it.

•Tim hates Toby and Jeff ( they have a father son dynamic in my regular au)

•Tim gets annoyed at anything Brian says.Even tho they are dating. ( They are much happier together in my main au. But they do have their moments especially after everything that happened.)

•Brian/ hoodie hates himself and thinks he is ugly. 

•Brian is shy and not every outgoing 

•Brian doesn’t want to give into the operator ( in my main au I thing Brian didn’t want to be Hoodie but he just gave in because it was becoming to much)

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Anyway hope you enjoyed love you all ❤️