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angels-heap · 2 days ago
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Asides from the whole age gap valhoun discourse, why do you actually ship them? Like whats their dynamic im genuinely curious,,, i probably dont see it bc i cant see it as a cannon thing bc when I get interested in smth i often find myself sticking close to cannon unless its an AU
Oh yeah, valhoun's about as canon as freehoun (which is to say, Valve 100% did not intend for anyone to ship these two), but I'm a multishipper at heart despite being a canon stickler elsewhere. I think it's fun to imagine how Barney and Alyx would interact if they were put into Situations or if they spent more time together in canon. I've talked about the appeal of valhoun before (specifically here, here, and here that I could find), and other folks have also shared their thoughts. To summarize:
Unlike Gordon, Alyx and Barney are both (relatively) fleshed-out characters with known voices, mannerisms, personalities, and motivations. They don't seem to know each other well in canon, but this is never stated outright, so there's lots of room for interpretation. They're both a bit goofy/snarky, so there's potential for some excellent banter between them, and I personally find it easier to get into their heads (relative to Gordon's) and imagine them interacting for writing purposes, since I don't have to start from scratch.
Despite their age gap, Barney and Alyx have a lot in common and a lot to bond over (arguably more than other popular pairings; see the "none of us are free of sin" venn diagram). They've spent the same amount of time living on Combine-occupied earth and lost a significant chunk of their lives (Alyx's childhood; Barney's young adulthood) under Combine rule. They're both uniquely connected to Black Mesa and the resonance cascade. Perhaps most importantly, they're both involved with the Resistance, albeit in very different capacities, which entails shared goals and loyalties.
Because of their age gap, they're bound to encounter situational or interpersonal conflicts, which are an essential component of any compelling story. For instance, Barney remembers things and people from the Before Times that Alyx doesn't, but probably desperately wants to — possibly including her late mother. Alyx is optimistic and resilient in a way that Barney never will be but may find refreshing, because despite her best efforts, she can't fully comprehend what was lost and thus has not developed the same bitterness. I can also see her canonical empathy and naivete coming into play in a relationship with Barney (or anyone else, for that matter). I've said before that she approaches him like he's a stray dog she wants to rescue, and he regards her like a gift he doesn't deserve (that might also be a ticking time bomb). While I could go on for hours, I think that about sums it up.
There's potential for a whole "star-crossed lovers" dynamic here, if you squint. Whether they're just friends, or they're in love, or they're just hooking up to try and feel something, the fact remains that they can't develop any sort of meaningful relationship while Barney's undercover and Alyx is such a valuable Combine target. Any interactions between them are likely to be fleeting and dangerous and/or public. I like to imagine they're mutually attracted to one another, and they try to make it work for a while, but they end up taking one too many risks and someone (probably Barney) calls it off after a close call. Maybe they rekindle things post-canon, or maybe they don't. It's a choose your own adventure where the adventure is delicious angst. And on that note...
Valhoun can exist between HL1 and HL2 canon. Honestly, a big part of the appeal of valhoun to me as a writer is that it gives me an excuse to explore what all our favorite characters were up to while Gordon was in stasis. What was the Resistance working on in the years leading up to Gordon's return? How did Barney seemingly become Dr. Kleiner's personal bodyguard? How's he holding up mentally in such a miserable situation, and what does his job actually entail? What was it like for Alyx to come of age as one of the youngest people alive, surrounded by middle-aged scientists? How did those experiences shape her into the person we meet in HL2? Sure, we don't necessarily need a shipping angle to explore these things, but interpersonal relationships are a big part of the human experience, so a little sprinkle of valhoun adds some extra flavor.
Alyx and Barney are both hot. That's not the whole appeal, or even the main appeal, but it's worth mentioning. I am a filthy bisexual and I want to make the hot dolls kiss. So sue me.
I'm not arguing that valhoun is the "best" HL ship or even my favorite ship, but it's got plenty of room for humor, angst, and character development and hot people kissing. I hope this post helps other folks see my/our vision and get on board. A little variety is good for any fandom ecosystem. :)
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kacievvbbbb · 7 months ago
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I think that swords definitely talk to Mihawk and Zoro like not even just their sword but any sword of worth but especially the "cursed" ones. Like I mean full-sentences talking that only they can hear. And not the general hum of power or bloodlust that people like shanks hear -
And Shanks does not realize that Mihawk means he is having full conversations with his sword when he says Yoru talks to him. Until Mihawk translates something Gryphon says and Shanks is just like 'I'm sorry.....what???"
Shanks: What do you mean you can talk to swords Mihawk: I told you this 🙄 Shanks: I thought you meant like the general humming, Not that they were conversationalists! Mihawk: So did you think all this time I was just talking to myself? Shanks:....I thought it was a symptom of your lonely childhood.....
I think Zoro has to hold the sword to hear it speak but will eventually grow to be like Mihawk where he just has to be in the area to hear it.
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eshithepetty · 21 days ago
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"Haha Dream BBQ is so random and incomprehensible" "did they take drugs to make this lol" "you're actually not meant to understand anything in this series it's ok" "Joel G just makes up stuff on the spot based on what would be funny" "it's just random for random's sake" "is this AI" "stop theorising, it's not that deep" SHUT UPPPPPPPPPP
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#ena dream bbq#ena joel g#random art does not exist. all human made art is made with intention.#like. sure. ena is intentionally surreal and aburdist and weird. and im sure some things were less thought out#but to say its all just random bullshit does SO much disservice to the creators behind this project#and disservice to your OWN intelligence in giving up and refusing to work those braincells of yours to create your own interpretation#like. There Are Things To work with here. there are a Lot Of Things#you just have to actually Think and connect the pieces and do introspection on what this Means to YOU#like. you dont wanna think hard. fine. if you wanna just enjoy the experience thats fine too#but then you have to still ackowledge that youre getting SOMETHING out of this (unless youre actually not and are just a hater)#even if its just emotionally. even if its jus unconsciouslly#there Is Meaning There#its just not linear#so think about it!!! thats whats fun about this series!!!#it forces everyone to think about it instead of just following the one 'canon'!!!!#there probably isnt one right answer here!!!#but that doesnt make it any less valuable!!!!#just. auuuughh#i have a lot of thoughts about this#the ena team would not put in this much effort and creativity and symbolism and themeing just for shits and giggles#ok ill stop being a hater now. and I WONT go in the opposite direction and start wining about how a lot of theories (on youtube at least)#seem to ignore the more emocionally significant and symbolic themes in favour of basic or emotionally shallow takes.....#ggrhrgrh (through gritted teeth)... everyones interpretation is valid.. everyones interpretation is valid#whatevr. im just rambling. idk. i hope you get what i mean#negative#fandom critical#my own post
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akkpipitphattana · 4 months ago
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okay like. i've been trying NOT to make a big long post about this because i don't want it to seem like i'm starting unnecessary discourse, but i also think the conversation brought up here is a good and interesting one to have, even if the interaction with this specific person on this specific post was unsavory.
because i keep seeing this take from many, many people that the heart killers is an adaptation of 10 things i hate about you and not of the taming of the shrew, and while i think there's merit to the idea itself, the problem i have with it specifically is how very dismissive people seem to be about the shakespeare aspects.
like, i've seen the whole "the difference is important!" and to be totally honest, i don't think the difference IS all that important. because regardless of whether jojo himself based the plot and idea of the heart killers around solely 10 things or not is honestly irrelevant - because the fact still stands that 10 things itself is based on taming of the shrew. so, there are going to be a lot of things that carry over, and there's still merit in analyzing it as a shakespeare adaptation in that way, even if some of the things from it might seem watered down.
but even beyond that, it is clear that there has been thought and effort put into the show when it comes to referencing the actual play - and other shakespeare works! - as well. i'm gonna once again link my thk x ttots tag for those that would like to take a look at all the direct parallels i've found (note: these are just the DIRECT parallels to the play that i've noticed, and i'm sure there are even plenty that i've missed and there's even a couple i can think of off the top of my head that i haven't made into parallel sets) and then i'm also going to link my taming tag as well because i've written up an awful lot of meta comparing the two at this point in a broader sense as well.
and it's not like i don't understand that not everyone is going to take note of all of these things or even think of them or understand the shakespeare of it all because not everyone has studied shakespeare or read taming and a number of people probably don't even know much about the original play. and i understand that and that's okay! but that's also why i make so many damn posts pointing out all of these things and why i want people to ask me questions about it because this show deserves the appreciation of being a shakespeare adaption! jojo and the team deserve to have these things pointed out because it's so clear how much work and thought and research went into every aspect of the original play that was incorporated into the show.
and it's just. makes me very sad how so many people are willing to dismiss that aspect of the show or call it watered down because they personally aren't catching it or because they personally prefer 10 things and view it more as adaptation of the movie. which, like i said, it's fine to view it as more prominently being a 10 things adaptation, i think there's merit to the idea and see where you're coming from. but it also doesn't negate the shakespeare of it all, either, and i just don't understand the need to dismiss that aspect. it's a huge discredit to the show to do that.
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crustyfloor · 11 months ago
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Watch Till get decked out in white in round 7 to symbolize his and Luka's equal chances of life and death
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sadkachow · 9 months ago
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if i hear one more pro-ai take i fear i may start exploding people with my brain
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oneroomjestershow · 4 months ago
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Hmmm I think ur stuff is super underrated it's kinda sad...Never stop creating you are doing super well!
nonono actually im doing okk!! im good here in my hole dont be sad this is my own doing
also thank youooo dont worry i will create until my body collapses
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cute skeleton heart beam
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hiveswap · 1 year ago
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Im going to fucking throw up
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undermostcorgi · 1 year ago
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drawing other people's dnd characters based on the image i made of them in my head and NOTHING ELSE because i'm evil
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qumiiiquinnquin · 2 years ago
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my art will never be good enough !
#vent#im so hypocritical#i give advice on how to not feel terrible about ones own art and then i want to burn all my traditional art and delete all my art files#i cant even follow my own advice. ive wanted to burn and delete my art for several years now and i am very close to doing it#its so hard to not compare myself to others. its so hard to not think that what I make isn't good enough. everyone else can make so#much more beloved art. and they all know that ill never amount to anything no matter how much time ans effort i put jnto an art#it will never be good enough. I will never be good enough.#since I cant stop why dont I just post art then bounce and not scroll afterwards? ive done that multiple times now#but it feels very isolating and lonely. So I can deactivate and leave social media for good so I stop always comparing numbers#but it bleeds into real life. i actually felt this terrible about my art before creating any social media and posting my art in 2020.#i just know that nowhere am i good enough.#I hate that i think these things and am acting like this. I need to quit and discard everything giving up would benefit everyone#in fact why dont i go commit sewercide and officially rid myself since i cant think anything without wanting to commit over it lol#everyone says take a break but i will just come back feeling fine then it will quickly evolve into feeling this exact same way again.#'take a break' I might as well fucking quit for good like I want#making art makes me happy and helps keep me going. but at this point im not happy doing art anymore so I have nothing keeping me from#giving up on being alive anymnore
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orcelito · 2 years ago
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Half tempted to just delete the post and not remake it bc I'm sick of fucking thinking about it lmao
I think it's Still not showing up in the tag which means it's probably not showing up on the dashboard too.
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venomgender · 2 months ago
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scott cramer worlds best youtuber
#its crazy to me how little subscribers he has compared to other youtubers that make the same genre of videos as him because his videos#have like so much more obvious care and effort put into them....#i dont really watch any youtuber besides scott that consistently anymore so i dont want to speak on the amoujt of passion they have but like#idk. you can just tell how much he cares about making youtube videos its really nice#like he talks about how much he enjoys doing it a lot but more than that You Can See It#he just posted a video on the mr beast games and literally if it was any other ytber i would just roll my eyes and skip it#bc soooo many like commentary channels or whatever just show clips of things and go Haha look how cringe that is!#which is so tiring. but scott like actually engages with it and stuff#which he does in that mr beast video too. again im not going to comment on other commentary youtubers but like he took (and showed)#30 pages of color coded notes on that tv show. completely unnecessary !#idk its just always so refreshing... i love his videos so much i love how much thought goes into them#literally earlier today i was thinking about this jarvis johnson video i watched where i was like man who fucking cares all youre doing is#reacting to ragebait tiktoks that exist ti get people to makw youtube videos of#and then like 30 seconds later he went 'i know this is just rage bait but call me a fish because im caught on the hook!' or whatever and#i just immediately exited the video. like you can just turn the tiktoks off man. who cares#the like hatred people have towards xqc (?) and like sssniperwolf is really funny to me because so many ytbers that make fun of them#do basically the exact same thing 😭 like yeah i guess you put more thought into reacting than just going 'oh wow' every 5 seconds but#before the whole Nick Green controversy (which i only heard about like months after stopping watching him lmao) i watched this video of his#where he was like talking about xqc and he was like See what i do is different what i do is transformative!#because when i react to shitty ragebait tiktoks i transform the content by talking about how it's shitty ragebait!#which is like. thats cool man. thats not transformative at all#its just funny to me.#anyways scott cramer doesnt do that and my favorite part of his videos is how obviously he loves making them#and how obviously in love with his wife he is#posting
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mbat · 3 months ago
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im so sick of looking in the pantry and the fridge and the freezer and its all food for other people and theirs never goes empty but theres nothing for me and when we go to the store its always 'sorry, i dont have the money to get more than 1-2 of that' but they have a ton of other stuff in the cart, and theyre probably not even going to make it in the next month while my food goes out within a few days and i end up left with pasta and cereal like always. always pasta and cereal. i think im gonna vomit if i have to have any more fucking pasta and cereal.
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snekdood · 3 months ago
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i think i'd be a horrible vampire, like, in terms of my comic's version of them- i'd be too lazy to do all that shit zero does.
#who has time to fucking. manipulate and hypnotize people or whatever man im just gonna fucking. drink some guy no one will remembers#blood. why do you gotta fucking. industrialize your vampirism you weirdo#so mcuh effort and for what. jim over here is gonna last me for days and you have all these excess humans just waiting in your#torture dungeon chambers or whatever tf you got going on just groaning in agony and ik that cant be fun to listen to no matter how#insulated your mansioncastle is. just begging you kill them like ik you get off to it but its gotta get annoying at some point right#why not haul yourself a jim around and then when hes tapped dry go for a josh yaknow. why hoard all these ppl.#what if they die and you didnt even finish them. just wasteful. just like my dad with his ciggs. fucking. smoking them halfway#then putting them out then NOT PICKING THEM UP AGAIN. WTF.#makes sense that zero is inspired by him in many ways sdkjsdghjvsdghj#i shouldnt give him the idea of keeping humans alive to get a steady flow though bc hes no doubt gonna turn that into some sort of.#torture thing too#my ocs#zero#this is how ik all of zeros henchmen are just lazy mf's bc they rely on his industrialized human farm factory shit or w/e hes got going on#for sustenance than just fucKING GOING OUT AND GETTING A FUCKING JIM.#ok let me stop. bc canonically I used to be his jim once so. lets maybe not give him the idea again.#he doesnt know how to treat a jim right. even if we are just using him for blood. jim still deserves a nice burger now n then.#see kids and this is why some people just shouldnt live. you've taken everything from jim u can at least treat him nice#thanks for being here jim. no you can never leave. uvu#>barely even started posting the comic#>already dropping hints at there being past life stories about my ocs i've written too#DO YOU WANT VAMPIRE SNAKE? I DONT THINK YOU'RE PREPARED FOR VAMPIRE SNAKE. HES NOT V NICE.#HES AS NICE AS HE CAN BE GIVEN CIRCUMSTANCES BUT THE VAMPIRISM IS SO THAT THAT MAKES IT NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE#IMMA MAKE YOU BEG FOR MY REGULAR-DEGULAR BATSELF OK HJVSDFHJVDSF#theres actually so much past life shit its kind of silly
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rampant-testiculitis · 4 months ago
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the stars aligned in my personality so that everything i convey is either a warped version of what was intended something blatantly different
#based off what the earth sees you would think i have a lethargic personality#or that i dont react with extreme emotional volatility#and in the same vein that i dont give a shit about anyone or their problems#its not that i dont care about someones issues specifically#i lack that ability in general#i can look back at something i was feeling a minute prior and not relate to it at all#yet somehow at the same time#im hyperfixated on myself#almost everything that i dont grow tired of could be vaguely described as progressing a skill whether literally or metaphorically#and an overwhelming majority of my mental depends on if im progressing/have already mastered#i am self absorbed to the point of brain neglecting everything else and allocating said energy towards my shit#i really dont care about human interaction at all except for the select few that i would truly label as close which lifetime is MAYBE 3#and although rare for someone to be affected i hate when it does end up doing that#i dont want people to see me not empathizing and interpret it as not seeing their issue as valid#it is not personal i just am incapable of displaying that#if i dont feel any sort of self pity how am i supposed to feel for external issues i have no experience with#me being super tunnel visioned doesnt make it any easier#and add on the fact that i cant directly convert emotions into actual communication only thoughts#i have no idea how to genuinely compliment or express discontentment with anything#any idea my brain conjures up is some forced unnatural line like#“i really like that its so cool and awesome” “come on dude really what a bummer”#only thing i sometimes say is “i hate that” but having one reaction isnt really better than having none#not at all unexpected since i havent put any effort to gain experience doing that nor do i really want to#i cant really put out anything that i couldnt take in#the times that i have been complimented i just think ok i guess#what am i supposed to do with that i dont even agree with the compliment#as i looked at this several hours after forgetting about it i fell victim to what i said#“i can look back at something i was feeling a minute prior and not relate to it at all”#dont even really want to post it anymore but it was too much typing to not post
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skitskatdacat63 · 4 months ago
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Its basically to keep track of what characterization notes I want to push but. Why am I writing myself comments on my wip that read like comments I would leave on ao3 😭😭 would this be considered egotism
#writing things like 'i love this!' ...bro#it fufills the urge in me as someone who wishes i could break into my own fic-#like people used to do on ffnet and leave commentary as the author#i think the writing can speak for itself but i just love meta soooooo much that i really have to restrain myself#ill probably still write abt the characterization when i actually end up posting it#but i became self aware while writing the comments like wow am i sucking myself off rn- DHFJFKKFKCLC#it is very late and im a little sleep deprived 😭😭#anyways guys would you like to hear a fun sebnando characterization note? idc im saying it anyways#i always love having them both being concerned with this push and pull game of 'whos actually winning'#<- as in this interaction. this 'game' of perpetual one-upmanship they have going on btwn them#but then despite however much effort either of them put in to win or to try and make the other lose#they themselves always unwittingly lose in some way completely outside of the others involvement#and just HAVE zero self awareness#i hope that makes sense? its specifically in line w what im writing rn and i dont wanna spoil it but i hope this is understandable#basically they are both wile e coyote types hahahaha#ask them whos the wile e coyote and whos the roadrunner in your relationship#them: both.#i think tho seb tends more towards roadrunner and fernando otherwise#but i like to balance it out so both of them are equally winning and losing in some wau#its fun to write cause even me as the author keeps thinking wait whos actually winning here!?#and the answer is neither and it keeps the fic from being too biased towards one side or too cruel towards one of them#its just a little tough cause both of them are so ego driven in their narration so obv its biased to whoevers pov it is#but at the same point theres still these big pointers of: oh hes actually not winning as much as he thinks he is#which i think is fun!#the unreliable narrator of it all where you as the reader have to decide for yourself who is coming off better#for most of the fic writing till now i was worried i was being too biased against Fernando like a little too mean#and then now im like OHHHHHHHH FUCK. cause its so much more complicated#lmfao dont take this as me being like hahaha my fic idea is brilliant!!! more that i just really am enjoying it so much#catie.rambling.txt
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