#I don’t like to deal with drama but stuff like this tends to get really serious

[lc20-official]

It was so weird that “Ruby Gillman” coincidentally has an instance of grooming from Chelsea/Nerissa and it was released just when Colleen Ballinger was cancelled for that same reason.

[commence-screaming]

I know you all are awaiting my response, and I’m grateful for your patience. There are some things I have to address here. Never wanted to put everything out there—I don’t like drama on my blog. I have a document that’s over a thousand words long, but I realized that when people have blocked me and are saying stuff in the main tag, they don’t want to listen. They just want to hurt me.

So I guess now there are things I have to clarify… it’s heavy, but I tried to keep it short. I didn’t have the energy to read everything they were saying about me so I may get things wrong. I didn’t really want to post this.

Content warnings for mental illness, suicidal ideation, mentions of abuse.

Let’s get right into it.

1. I’ve always lived with the paranoid delusion that everyone was conspiring against me, that people secretly hated me and would smear me behind my back. I passed these off as negative thoughts, anything that might’ve “confirmed” this would set it off. I’d have an episode I would have to deal with on my own. I thought that nobody would stick with me in a crisis, and I would always be thinking along the lines of, “is it all over?”

I feel liberated, now. There’s no need to fight when they’re true. I am more at peace with myself.

2. I never want to hurt anyone. Not a real level, the angst stuff is fictional pain. I am autistic—the things you’re hearing me say are the first times I’ve talked to people (other than my family) for my entire life. I always want people to go to me when I do something wrong so I can handle it and learn from my mistakes, that’s why I have my bio set to what it is.

That, and my memory is so fuzzy that I can’t remember too much from even last week. I tend to dissociate and my brain turns into mush.

3. The “minor incident” that Ghouse and the others were talking about was one of his mods saying she’d “tear people apart” and then immediately citing me as the main cause because I was “being rude.” I told her why I was taking a break, as I couldn’t handle it, this had happened before and I asked them to correct me if I was wrong—even confirming multiple times that we were just joking around because I was paranoid.

I suggested they go straight to me for future reference. I was having a mental health episode. She called me crazy and that I was overreacting, implying I was stupid. Another mod told me I was overreacting and that I was acting pathetic and childish. This made point 1 so much worse.

4. The “suicide baiting” was something I told the Panic Room server in confidence. I told them I was talking a break. Ghouse said “it wasn’t that bad but okay,” as if he were gaslighting me. He said things like this as I was sobbing alone in my room, which he was well aware of.

I have to clarify that it wasn’t baiting. Suicidal ideation has been something I’ve been dealing with since I was 9 years old. I have been abused/gaslit for more of my life than I have been safe. I never wanted to say this, but they were brushing me off at a point where I was trying to find a reason to live. I had stupidly thought that they would understand what they were doing to me if I said.

5. That was the first time I had an episode like that. To say that it was baiting is to say I was lying. Let’s play devil’s advocate here.

If I were lying for attention, why would I destroy all my relationships in a single night? Why wouldn’t I make art or something along those lines? They’re big on art.

If I wasn’t, then that would mean that I was having a few bad days and they did nothing to help me… beyond condescendingly saying that I need help. I don’t blame the minors in the server, I’m talking about Ghouse, who is older than I am by around 2 years. I told them I called 988 and it didn’t really work. He continued to tell me off.

After I was kicked I was made aware that they immediately started insulting me. Whether you believe me or not, purposely attacking someone who’s mentally ill is… too far. I hadn’t done anything to them before this incident.

6. The reasons I freaked out was because I was sad that I had unintentionally hurt people, I had started a new, dangerous job, and… well, to be honest, I was terrified.

They were making me forget that I’d been hurt. I was starting to trust them. I had been starting to look forward to tomorrow. And, I was so scared that it would all be over. I didn’t know when, just that it would be.

Now, it is.

7. I may very well have been joking around with everything while on the server, but serious topics were serious. I was never “demeaning” when Ghouse was venting about something that happened to him beyond a couple of lighthearted comments. I thought they’d have the same respect for me. Again, I had confirmed multiple times that I was joking.

8. I might not have done much wrong in the Panic Room situation, but the other things that people are saying about me? I had no idea.

That was the first time I’d ever heard of them.

In the past, my autism had gone completely unchecked. some of those things were from when I was a week into being on my first server… ever. I was 17, had no idea how to check for age or even pronouns. Never used anything but tumblr, never interacted with anyone. Never went to school or even had a job at that point. I more tried to figure out everything based off of my own experiences… which was, not good. To say the least. The things I did, in my head, I thought they were “normal.” This doesn’t make it less terrible, but I hadn’t even remembered some of the incidents until someone pointed it out. It was so mundane to me—I was a messed up child. I’m sorry for this.

8. I wasn’t the best person, I really wasn’t. I didn’t know how to “mask” my traits at that time, I was excited to be able to talk to people. I was protective over my friends (my first friends! ever!) and very clingy. I didn’t know that people held characters close to their hearts, either? (When I have a favorite, I only want to hurt them, you see)

So while the doc was deliberately taking things out of context, some of the other accusations are true, unfortunately. I will be posting my DMs between me and the people on the server in my doc.

9. I have explanations for what I’ve seen of the accusations, but I don’t really recall anything from that incident over 3 years ago… if someone had told me, or even confronted me, I’d have known what was wrong. But they didn’t, and they kept talking to me like everything was normal. I was completely unaware. This is most of the reason I thought people were plotting against me—people would be cold to me and I wouldn’t know why. The worst part is that I can’t apologize. I can’t even try to rectify anything. Some of the people in that server still played PAYDAY 2 with me, some would even reply to my DMs. I had… no idea.

I have hurt people. Unknowingly, but still. I apologize to anyone I’ve affected. Most of it was not knowing how basic social media functions worked. I hope you understand that my behavior was out of line, and that I didn’t mean for any of this to happen. Don’t defend me on that, I was entirely wrong. But… smearing me in the fandom tag instead of going to me directly means that they want to attack me. They don’t want an explanation.

All of my actions were genuine. I never intended to hurt anyone, but that’s what ended up happening. I’ll put more detail into the doc.

10. I was already going to take a break. I was already doing poorly, and the server knew this. At that point, they want me to go through with it. What else would they be saying when they do all of this? Unless I’m reading that wrong. Whatever the reason is, they don’t want to help me, they’re deliberately being malicious and they know I wasn’t baiting.

Although, I guess I have to thank them. Now, I can say that I wasn’t delusional. I can say that I was too smart for my own good. How crazy does it sound to think that everyone was just waiting to betray me? But… they were. I can begin to trust myself again, even if it’s accepting some of my “negative thoughts” as reality. I won’t be reaching out to anyone I don’t already know, and there is safety in never putting myself out there again.

Thank you to everybody who stuck around. My delusions… weren’t entirely correct. Just like how most of my former friends blocked me on sight, there were a few people who didn’t mind when I wasn’t responding. There are some people who believed in me to a point where even if all those accusations were true, they believed that I could change. That’s… something I never thought I’d hear, ever, in my life. That is a form of trust I don’t deserve, really.

So, I was wrong again. Not everyone wanted me gone. It took all of this for me to realize that there were people who loved me in the truest form of it.

As for everyone who cut me off… well, I hope you understand that because of my mental issues, I can never trust you beyond a professional level. It is for my own wellbeing, because I’m still not doing good. I will still be taking that break. The PAYDAY 2 fandom was a source of reprieve for me, and now it’s not. It wasn’t an accident that it turned out that way. All my safe spaces have been taken from me. I don’t know why the Panic Room server hated me, so I can’t provide any extra insight on that.

The truth is, I haven’t been around because I’ve been dealing with depression for a long time. I’ve been passively… yknow. Not actively. I haven’t had the energy to respond to anything on most days, I’m sorry for that :(

All of this was just the breaking point, really.

Thank you for reading. I know most people won’t, but I appreciate those who do. I won’t blame the rest of you if you all decide to leave as well, I understand that. I never made the blog for other people, I made it for myself. This whole thing will serve as a reminder that there are more important things than online spaces. Can’t get therapy because I’m broke, but I can enjoy the few things I still can… even if I’m reminded of what I’ve lost. I don’t think I’ll really be here anymore, but I will be okay.

[lyehub]

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[presidenthades]

Did you like the new episode ?

It was…an episode. 😅

I don’t have particularly novel thoughts for S2E5, but I can give some highlights.

I have seen people criticizing the scene where Meleys’s head is paraded through the city, mostly in terms of the smallfolk reactions. I agree that there should be more mixed feelings, because it was only about a month ago that Rhaenys and Meleys massacred a bunch of peasants. But it does make sense there’s a sense of awe and dread, because even though dragons HAVE been killed in Westeros before, none of them have ever had their heads paraded through the city.

As an Aemond fan…I really hate him right now. 🥲 He only had maybe two sympathetic moments this season so far, both in the brothel, including where Aegon made fun of him. Then he just decided to turn evil and fratricidal. When he went to watch the maesters take off Aegon’s armor and immediately said “someone else needs to rule in his stead” (paraphrasing), I was shaking my fist at the screen.

On the plus side, I guess we kinda finally get Alicent realizing Aegon is her son and she’s supposed to care about him? That little “mummy” broke me. 😭

I never thought I’d be rooting for Alicent over Aemond, especially this season, but I did find myself hoping she’d be picked as regent. Mostly because I don’t think Aemond is a good choice at the moment. Man, I miss Otto (something else I wasn’t expecting to say).

Gods bless Orwyle though. I feel justified in previously admitting I like him.

I don’t have particularly unique thoughts about that Daemon scene. 💀

It is interesting how GRRM tends to be very pro-Blackwood and anti-Bracken, but the show has actually made the Brackens look badass in this episode whereas the Blackwoods have become war criminals. I can only hope (delusionally, maybe) that the show will follow through on the “angry Riverlords denouncing Daemon’s war crimes” plot line instead of conveniently forgetting about it. 🥲

The show keeps framing Alfred Broome as dumb and misogynistic…but he’s actually speaking a lot of sense? 🧐 I know what he ends up doing in the book, so this might be the start of an interesting character arc for him. Usually I’m all for interesting character arcs…but Alfred is a minor character in the grand scheme of things, and it reminds me that a lot of the main characters are not getting logical character arcs. 😔 I’m gonna laugh if Alfred ends up being an accidental fan favorite.

I am not sure that Jace’s diplomatic negotiations with the Freys will go as well as he thinks. And not because they’re Freys—Freys don’t get a bad reputation until Walder a few centuries later. Sure, taking Harrenhal from Larys makes sense, but what about Daemon’s new BFF Simon Strong? I can’t imagine Simon is going to be happy about the family castle being handed over to another house.

(It’s probably moot because Aemond is gonna do…stuff…at Harrenhal eventually. 💀)

I loved the glimpse of the Eyrie. TBH I’m on Jeyne’s side here about being cheated in their deal. 😅 Hatchlings are probably liabilities more than assets. Their riders are babies, and the hatchlings are just gonna eat a lot of food.

The convo between Corlys and Baela is really nice and lovely. But. Her rejecting Driftmark without even thinking about it feels very “the writers want the audience to know it’s OK that Laena’s daughters are being passed over, we’re all friends here.” I feel like Corlys keeps making halfhearted gestures about being angry with Rhaenyra but never following through. Just a taste of drama and infighting without the actual consequences.

We’ll probably get more details about the Elinda and Dyana plot next episode, but I don’t have high hopes for logic and consistency. The first thing I asked myself when Dyana recognized Elinda was “how do they know each other?” I think the show might have them be friends from their days of working at the Red Keep, but there’s a problem with that. Elinda went with Rhaenyra to Dragonstone, so she was gone from KL for 6 years. Dyana is notably very young, so I can’t imagine her being a little girl already working as a royal chambermaid 6+ years ago; being a front-of-house servant for the royal family would be a very coveted job probably based on seniority, experience, and connections. So odds are their time as royal servants at the Red Keep didn’t overlap, and servants had a hierarchy of their own, so it’s not like Elinda (who is a noblewoman) is hanging out with the scullions. I guess we’ll just have to see what the show does…or if they just gloss over it.

I am excited about the dragon seed plot, even though there are some plot holes and problems with it. I quite like what they’re doing with Hugh (his wife’s Tumbleton mention is not going to end well 👀), and Ulf has honestly been fun to watch. But I’m going to be very disappointed if they really cut Nettles (and it sounds like they did). 😢

[syscultureis]

Ok, I have a question about your pinned post, and I have no idea where to ask about it so ig im doing it here?

You said you don’t allow systems of mixed origins to interact, and im wondering if that also stops us from interacting, because while our system formed from trauma, and a lot of our alters were split from traumatic events, rediscovering those traumatic events, and things like that, we also have alters that just. Show up for no apparent reason. Except maybe the host’s special interest at the time? (We recently got into a new video game and a few fictives showed up from that randomly)

Or they show up for things that yes, we do really need help with, but it’s not necessarily Trauma as far as I’m aware? (Like helping us deal with bodily hygiene, which we really struggle with)

Then there’s also alters that seem to split for super small things? Like getting annoyed at friend group drama and stuff. (Tbh I think that’s where most of the recent fictives come from)

I just wanted to be entirely sure before we continued interacting. ~🪖

That's fine because you recognize that your system formed from trauma

Mixed orgins bug us because it's again, invaliding to "smaller" traumas because regardless of why an alter split, it split because of something that was causing stress

We had an alter split from our car getting towed. That's not really traumatic, but it caused enough stress that our brain decided we needed someone to help deal with it

Mixed orgins to us does not mean "our alters have split for varying reasons, from little to big things"

We see it as someone trying to say "our system formed due to multiple things, and not just trauma and we will spread harmful misinformation about this"

It's the misinformation that makes a majority of us uncomfortable with non-traumagenics, and people who identify as mixed orgins tend to support that so we just added them to our dni because we don't want to have to sort through all of the syscourse bs

[garrothromeave]

Hi! I just wanted to say I randomly stumbled upon your post about people’s reactions to the aphtwt confession about Laurance as a love interest and the reaction he had during the pregnancy arc and I have a lot to say but have a lot of nerves, so I’m doing it like this. So I hope you don’t mind! This is probably super long, and I really apologize for that.

I think one of the reasons people brought up Garroth so much is that people see a lot of the romance drama as ridiculous (at least I do), and Garroth and Laurance are incredibly similar in some regards when it comes to Laurance. So even if it was unintentional, people wanted to pull them onto the same level.

Laurance has a charming character, it grabs viewer’s attention and keeps it. But I bet one of the reasons people probably like him so much is probably because they like the version of him that they made up in their head. That's why there's people who say stuff like "no one understands this character like I do.” people pretty much accidentally create their own version of their favorites the deeper they are into a fandom. Yes, everyone uses the same canon, but it doesn’t mean everyone sees those events the same. This fandom, especially here on aphblr is FILLED with rewrites.

Laurance is an odd character. He does questionable things for questionable reasons, but seems to get away with it more than other character. Especially if you scope into end of season two. I think one of the reasons for this is because we never truly see the fallout of what his actions after the pregnancy announcement caused.

There's this thing l've noticed in media that two characters can to the exact same bad thing but one will be brushed off and the other will be more focused on. The character whose bad action has the fallout more focused on ends up becoming more disliked for that action than any other character who did the same thing. It's hard for people to criticize certain aspects of a character's decision if the after effects of that decision are never truly explained or focused on, and what their intention for doing said thing was. It doesn't mean they're exempt from criticism, but people tend to focus less on those things because there's simply less to look at. But we'lI never get those answers about Laurance, and people know that. So it’s easier for us to turn a blind eye and focus on other things or characters.

I’ll end this similar to how you did: Laurance fans (like myself), it’s okay to criticize one of your favorite characters. Even if you’re like me and create a justifiable reason for why one might do what he did in some of his situations, it doesn’t mean it’s a good decision. It just means it’s explained. Thank you for your time :)

very well said :) thanks for getting out your thoughts homedawg.

i genuinely don’t have AS much of a problem with the end of season two and him leaving. he had shadow knight shit to deal with, he left to protect aphmau, i really do get that. that’s not actually what i think laurance fans try to unnecessarily defend—i’d honestly defend that too. i think you’re very right to say that fans will criticize characters for the same things that others do—i’ve fallen victim to this too, with the whole aaron vs gene in pdh. double standards, yk?

but when it gets to the point that laurance criticisms are ridiculed and it’s an excuse of “um, idc what he did he was hot while he did it” it gets SO fucking annoying so fucking fast. like you can like a character with flaws. like that is perfectly ok.

laurance is a charmer, he’s flirty, he’s loyal. but yeah, let’s not talk about how he’s also obsessive and creepy, making advances on aphmau after she shows no interest. let’s not talk about his “i’ll wait for you” mentality. because no! as you pointed out, fans love to keep this very specific interpretation of him in their heads, so that none of that is acknowledged—because it’s seen as romantic. that is so infuriating. behavior like this in real life is gross.

and then there’s like “okay, laurance did all of that, but garroth LITERALLY BETRAYED PHEONIX DROP OVER A KISS” no! he didn’t, that’s literally a scapegoat i see ALL the time—but in reality, with some general paying attention to his character, that misinterpretation could genuinely be worked out. does that excuse his actions? no. does it make them more clearly understood? yes. but i can still acknowledge, as a garroth fan, that he did betray them and does need consequences for his actions. he’s not free from doing bad things just because he’s my favorite character. but people also won’t look at his character like that because they just don’t give a shit, so?? don’t know what to tell you there, buddy! i’d just say it’s not fair to criticize a character without fully understanding the situation lmfao. like, i’ve been a diehard laurance fan. i know that he does not have bad intentions. there’s just things that should be talked about

we can do stuff like this with laurance. someone mentioned this under my last post, that every single character is honestly quite shit. the best thing we can do is acknowledge those flaws, and then portray our interpretations and explanations as to why this character did this. but it’s not an excuse. it’s an explanation. i saw under that aphtwt thing A LOT the saying “idc, im still a laurance dickrider” LIKE IM NOT SAYING YOU CANT BE. JUST PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT HE’S DONE BAD THINGS. it’s INFURIATING watching people continue to brush off what he did without at least trying to work out explanations?? and doing a, “okay but he did worse” is NOT a good excuse im sorry its fuckin not

you made a really good point with the fact that we just don’t get explanations for laurance, hence why it’s ignored. and the hard truth is the fact that he was just genuinely like that. jess wrote him. of COURSE he’s going to suck.

but yeah anyways ill eventually drop the laurance doc i have going over him as a character but lord almighty folks, pleaseee take an unbiased look at him. he’s not the knight in shining armour that you thought he was when you were twelve. thanks

[justakidicarus]

I’m actually really tired of most AU’s in certain niche’s rn on Ao3

Just like, super tired of specifically the “Jaded Protagonist” trope.

You see it in every single Deku travels through time (or in every time travel AU period)

You see it a good deal of Varian in/during Season 2 AU’s

You see it in most Tommy SBI found family books.

The Jaded Protagonist has just gotten too edgy to me. When every time the character is just biting the heads off everyone else and striking out on their own despite everyone trying to understand and help them, who ch tends to be most of the drama and often leads to OP characters (Especially with Deku) its just not enjoyable to read for me. I understand that this might just not be for me and other people may enjoy these more serious characterisations but it just makes the book feel more bogged down and hard to get through, as the sheer amount of miscommunication these jaded characters bring is the main driver of conflict

I am especially talking about the countless Jaded Izuku fics.

Miscommunication in general has just become so overused and stale to me that it makes a boring plot. X character keeps saying ominous things like “You couldn’t change anything anyway even if you did know so I won’t tell you,” and then we find out that if the characters did know then they absolutely could have helped. It makes me mad at the characters for their decisions and a bit mad at the writer for choosing this of all things as their main plot drivers.

I want more X character time travels to the past but instead of being an edgelord they are a dork who keeps forgetting key details not for plot reasons but because they aren’t relevant in their time and it stresses everyone out.

For example:

Adult Izuku (ArsenAll) on the bus ride to the summer training camp with class 1-A just chilling and chatting happily with the Dekusquad about funny little anecdotes when he mentions Yuga doing an underground mission and suddenly startles so badly from his seat he nearly falls out but Uraraka catches him. The entire bus looks at him as he whirls around and starts profusely apologising to Yuga. No one can tell what exactly he’s apologising for but Yuga is getting steadily more pale.

“Yuga I am SO sorry I completely forgot about the whole- y’know THE THING I mean it really hasn’t come up or been relevant since like- first year but that’s really no excuse and you’ve probably been super stressed about it and I haven’t even mentioned it or thought about it and I can’t even really fix it rn cause it’s a pretty private matter and I don’t really want to share personal details with everyone but you kinda really need to know and argh I am Super Duper Sorry!”

Just like, funny stuff like that instead of angsty going of on his own and destroying every threat with zero help. Enough of the Jaded Protagonsit, bring some light into this dark and dreary atmosphere and environment. We should aim to make our readers laugh not groan in agony from our characters emo attitudes.

[verdantrivers]

jgy and/or lxc 👀

oh babe we’re going to be getting into it bc these two give me so many brainworms.

jgy first!

a song that reminds me of them: everybody wants to rule the world - tears for fears

what they smell like: fresh and pleasant, not overpowering, maybe a hint of floral oils

an otp: xiyao for sure but i’m also deep in chengyao hell

a notp: nieyao and 3zun does nothing for me. I don’t hate it, I’m just deeply ambivalent about it.

favorite platonic/familial relationships: this is a tough call between meng shi and jin ling. I also think these are the two relationships in his life where his feelings are (relatively) uncomplicated. I’m particularly tickled by how much he likes to spoil Jin Ling because he never got to be spoiled like that as a kid.

a headcanon that is popular in the fandom but that i disagree with: oh there are so many. so so so many wildly bad takes about jgy that i’m just going to lump them into one category i call “Someone Gave Sect Leader Yao Internet Access”. Basically i dislike headcanons that tend to attribute a lot more awful stuff to his Schemes, or speculate on there being more malice to his motivations than was actually there. It flattens the character into a two-dimensional villain, and removes a great deal of ambiguity around his actions and motives.

the position they sleep in:  on his back like a proper gentleman! (but if he’s alone he’s curled up like a kitten)

a crossover au i’d love to see them in: a song of ice and fire, don’t @ me he’d get so far. but honestly there are just. so many.

my favorite outfit they’ve ever worn: that little number with the baby blue outer robe i see what’s happening there >:3c

now for lxc:

a song that reminds me of them: life on mars - david bowie look it’s like one of the few i have with lyrics almost all of his playlist is instrumentals and melancholy women on pianos

what they smell like: fresh and crisp, like newly fallen snow

an otp: xiyao

a notp: literally anything else involving him, but xisang turns my stomach. Xicheng just grates on my nerves because it’s popularity is so bizarre to me.

favorite platonic/familial relationships: oh his relationship with wangji for sure. for all i harp on wangji for not even like, checking on xichen after Guanyin Temple, i think they have one of the most loving relationships in the series. i also really enjoy his relationship with Lan Qiren, and his Very Complicated Feelings about his parents. I also have a lot of thoughts about how he feels towards nhs pre and post Guanyin Temple.

a headcanon that is popular in the fandom but that i disagree with: save me from himbo!xichen headcanons, christ on a fucking bike, nothing makes me want to chew glass more. i also really don’t like headcanons that tend to diminish his closeness with either jgy or wangji. i don’t dismiss dark!xichen headcanons out of hand, but there’s only a few i actually vibe with.

the position they sleep in: he starts on his back but i think he rolls over on to his side in his sleep and cuddles his blankets.

a crossover au i’d love to see them in: dark!xichen au in the hellraiser universe /grabbyhands

my favorite outfit they’ve ever worn: the dark blue number when he and jgy eyefucked right in front of nmj and his salad.

Bonus Xiyao:

a song that reminds me of them: last snowfall - vienna teng

what they smell like: each other :3c

an otp: them

a notp: anyone else.

favorite platonic/familial relationships: all the salads they eyefuck in front of, they are in the running for most people annoyed by their nonsense

a headcanon that is popular in the fandom but that i disagree with: that jgy and xichen don’t love each other. the drama and the donghua beg to differ - the xiyao agenda is real

the position they sleep in: wrapped lovingly in each other’s arms until xichen gets too hot and then it’s him on top of the blankets with jgy bundled up and using his enormous Lan Naturals as a pillow.

a crossover au i’d love to see them in: beauty and the beast au bc i’m predictable af

my favorite outfit they’ve ever worn: their wedding attire, shut up they’re married and Fine.

[phoenixkaptain]

I finished rewatching Total Drama Island (and I only almost threw up five or so times. All on episode 25. I only had to stop watching for, like, five minutes though. Whoever came up with that episode is seriously fucked up, but I can’t help but to respect it.)

I just think that rewatching Island is hilarious with the foresight of World Tour existing. They could not have set up Heather’s future narrative mirror any better if they tried, like, it’s kind of amazing! I mean, I’m sure the creators had some idea that the show would continue, but that had to be near the end right? Otherwise, I’d have to assume that the creators gave so many of the characters nice, happy endings with the intention to fuck them up. Which, the creators did create TDI episode 25, so it isn’t outside the realm of possibility, but-

Anyway, none of that’s the point. Heather having to deal with Heather 2: Electric Boogaloo is the funniest thing they could have made happen in World Tour. I know it’s a redemption arc, and I think they couldn’t have given Heather a redemption arc if they tried anything else. Like, if Heather was antagonized and antagonizing Alejandro, who Noah says best is just like Heather only prettier more socially adept, Heather would never be redeemed. Some of the stuff she does in the first season is just cruel for the sake of being cruel. If they tried to redeem her any other way than making her deal with herself 2.0, it just wouldn’t have worked.

(And it wouldn’t have been as funny)

I really liked a lot of the episodes. It really takes me back to my childhood, you know? I was only 6 when Island first premiered. I didn’t understand a single thing going on. I think I liked Leshawna because I liked her shirt. And, Leshawna, I feel, definitely has the least second-hand embarrassmant scenes, so that was probably a part of it. I liked DJ because I could relate to his anxiety. Even at 6. That’s probably a bad thing, huh…

Anyway, point being, I totally watched this show as a kid and I absolutely hated every other moment and wanted to die and understood approximately none of what was going on (as a kid andanadultcoughcough I tended to zone out. I missed a lot of plot in movies and tv shows. I was busy thinking about something else) and I think I only watched the show because I wasn’t supposed to. My brothers told me not to, so I went out of my way to. Success.

I do think the series’ humour peaked in World Tour (“If it’s any consolation, you do get *gestures to Tyler falling down the side of a pyramid*” This makes me laugh every time. The line delivery, the timing, even the animation- everything is wonderful. Not to mention Tyler climbing the fence in Area 51 and getting electrocuted and Duncan and Alejandro going in through the open gate. Tyler is the funniest character in all of Total Drama (that I know of, which is seasons 1-3) and I will fight you on that.) but Island is still very amusing. DJ screaming at Heather, her saying “stop, it’s me, Heather,” he stops, then starts screaming again. A little joke I don’t see people mention a lot is Chef saying “25 of us went in, only 5 of us came out,” twice. The second time always gets me. Chef telling Chris he’s an inspiration while cradling Chris in his arms is only as funny as it is because of Chris awkwardly saying “thanks, dude.”

I really like all the characters. Watching it again, there really aren’t any characters I actively hate. I mean, Ezekiel just isn’t in the show long enough for me to hate him, and even Heather has her most redeeming quality (being very funny). The characters are fun to watch interact. I really like Geoff, who was voted off for being too good of a person. Of course I really like Leshawna, who connected the sewage pipe to the showers while Heather was showering to get revenge, which was just really satisfying. I like Gwen and Owen, especially because they’re just the most unlikely duo of all time and their friendship is kinda cute. Noah is fun if only because he is very obviously a 2007 stereotype of a gay man: calling people “honey,” being sarcastic, his voice, hanging around mostly with girls, not liking traditionally masculine things (sports), limp wrist, the scathing way he talks to people (he did kiss a dude that one time but it was in his sleep, so I’ll give him a pass on that one. Plus, it wasn’t even the only scene of a dude kissing another dude. Owen kisses dudes. Kissing someone’s ear and people’s cheeks, I just don’t know if I buy that being significant in any way other than the creators making gay jokes). Noah was obviously meant to be a gay caricature only for the creators to figure out he was a fan favourite and give him a girlfriend, most likely at the behest of the studio. Honestly, I wouldn’t be surprised if Noah’s popularity in the first season stemmed entirely from him being a gay caricature. 2007, man. Things were wild.

I guess you could say that I sort of understand Noah’s popularity, especially coming from seasons where he was not the third person to be booted, but also I don’t? He’s funny, which is enough for me to like him, but I don’t know if others agree. In fact, I can almost guarantee there are people who disagree, because I like Heather for the same reason, and people have claimed that no one should like Heather. Unfortunately, she made me giggle once, and now I will defend her to the death. That’s just the way I am, sadly, and I can’t change it, nor do I particularly want to.

Speaking of Heather, I really enjoyed the running gag of Chef being a good chef who purposefully makes terrible food for the campers. I like when he complains about no one showing any gratitude for him slaving over a hot stove all day. I really like that he seems to hate Owen, because he just can’t gross Owen out, but he also seems to like Owen, because Owen compliments his cooking.

Owen is such a weird character, because he is the butt (pun intended) of so many gay jokes. But my favourite Owen bit is him in the confessional spilling all of his secrets because the confessional makes him want to confess everything. Also, Mr. Coconut. Also also, Owen easily defeating the snake keeping them up in the treehouse and, upon being asked why he didn’t do it earlier, him saying “What, and miss out on all of this bonding?” I love Owen.

I quite enjoyed watching the show. It is nice to understand what’s going on. And to understand the jokes. And to realize how weird it is that Lindsay couldn’t talk about eating disorders or boob jobs but Harold could talk about seeing boobies (on American television). And now I get how weird it is that they aged down the cast, yet kept the adult themes. I mean, the teens very rarely act like teenagers, they more act like college students than high school ones, and the discrepancy between their ages and the ages they were meant to be portrayed as is incredibly funny to me.

All in all, I will continue to watch the show’s seasons. Because it’s either that, or pull my hair out trying to get myself to hyperfixate on something else. I can’t guide my hyperfixations, I can only ride them. And this is what my mind wants to focus on. I don’t really have a choice, y’know? If I did, I think I would choose literally any other show (any other show that didn’t make me almost throw up a dozen times). There are worse shows to fixate on, but there are definitely better ones too.

[canadian-riddler]

Five Things You Will Find In My Fic (tagged by @lfthinker)

1. Love is Work

When I was a teenager I used to go to a youth group at a church, and every session the youth pastor would give a child-friendly sermon.  During one of them, he said, ‘You can fall into a puddle, you can fall into a hole.  But you can’t fall in love.  It takes work.’  As we can see, I never forgot it, and I also apply it to just about every relationship-related fic I write.  He meant it in terms of romantic relationships, but I’ve got it in parent-child and friend-friend relationships too.  Everyone works to improve their relationships with each other because they love them, and that in turn makes the love stronger.

2. Robots

I love robots. 

I was going to end it there, but then I remembered that I have read almost no robot-related science fiction that goes where I wish it did with it.  So we’re also going to throw in robots who exist independent of humanity, do not want to serve it, do not like it, and do not really have anything to learn from it. 

3. Repetition

I actually recycle my own ideas a lot.  Sometimes I move them from one fic to another with a slight variation, sometimes I think of the opposite way things could go and write that too.  If you read enough of my fics in a row, you could probably tell lol.  I’m not that creative so a lot of stuff just gets shuffled around into other things.

4. Anger

A lot of my characters have a hard time dealing with their anger and usually end up smothering it because they don’t know what else to do with it.  They do things they regret when they are unable to smother it.  Hilariously, I don’t know why I write this because this isn’t something I do.

5. Parents are People Too

Fanfiction tends to demonise parents for a convenient source of drama and angst (when they aren’t killed off, that is).  In my fics, we have parents who make bad - or simply not ideal - decisions because they truly believe they’re doing what’s best.  They’re not evil and they’re not stupid.  They just messed up.  Could they have done better?  Maybe.  But maybe not. 

Tags: @apocalyptic-dancehall, @silverstreams, @the-scottish-costume-guy

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I felt like I had to write something due to a misunderstanding that I feel really awful about, because I know it can sometimes be hard to read peoples’ tone online or know their intentions, and I want to be clear about myself for anybody who reads my blog here or is part of my comic community or anything like that.

I have pretty bad social anxiety (and anxiety in general) and I try really hard to consider how things I might say or do would affect someone, because I wouldn’t want to be affected that way myself. So, I would never want to reblog something in a way that was meant to be a mean or pointed direct commentary to a specific person. When I reblog things that are heavily opinionated, it’s usually the equivalent of me sitting in a corner and nodding along with what that person is saying. I wouldn’t ever mean it to be directed at someone specific reading my blog.

I also tend to put a lot of stuff in my queue, which auto posts a few times a day. My queue is backed up for months, so even I’m surprised sometimes by what pops up. Usually I mean this as a fun surprise thing to see later, or it’s not something timely (like a petition or something with action.)

Either way, I want people to know that I want my blog and self to be a kind of safe space, at least in terms of internet drama and petty meanness and that kind of behavior. I’ve been through enough of that myself that I wouldn’t ever want to perpetuate it onto someone else. The things I reblog are just stuff I find interesting or funny or agree with but might not have the words to commentate on myself much further.

To be clear: if I know you, and we are having a problem or communication issue, I will always try to resolve it personally. That’s the kind of way I would want to be treated, so I do my best to treat others in this way as well.

I hope this can help to clear up any misunderstandings about me as a person and my communication style. I prefer to be open whenever possible, I just have a lot of anxiety so sometimes I’m a little shy or slow when responding. I’ve also got a ton of medical issues that I’m dealing with all the time that can really slow me down. So please also know that I wouldn’t purposely ignore a well intentioned comment. I’ve turned on the green activity thing so people can see that I’ve read comments and such now, to help clear up that understanding.

I can’t have my inbox open to anon asks but in general, please don’t be afraid to get in touch with me to clarify what might just be a communication issue. I always want to try and make things right!

Thank you so much for reading.

[mscribbles]

We may have went on a recruiting mission and managed to fit 10 of us Dunks fans in the trench coat. Our 3rd joiner Mak(only the first 3 letters) would love to know your Dunks opinions and/or headcanons

BAHAHA oh I love the account name its super fun!!

and ahaa I’m sorry I’m not good at coming up with this kinda stuff on the spot but uh. I’ll take a stab at it, I feel like it might disappoint some of you guys but I gotta stick to my guns on how I view their characters 😭

(SPM SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT)

On one hand I love the comedy of it and I think it’s got a lot of potential. It’s the “weakest” character (ochunks) paired up with the “strongest” (Dimentio). The “smartest” character (Dimentio) paired with the “dumbest” (ochunks). These are the stereotypes fandom (and the characters in the game) tend to assign them though, but are they really true? Taking a deeper look, you sort of begin to see they tend to contradict these stereotypes. For example O’chunks is quite observant and caring, he’s SO much more than a dumb meathead. and don’t get me into some of the downright silly impulsive and dumb stuff Dimentio does in the game 😭 They complement each other in weird ways, so I wanted to explore them more. They’re both foils, in a sense!

then the other hand I’m a big fan of angsty headcanons and exploring their relationship in canon.

To me Dimentios got a lil crush but he has no idea how to deal with it so he messes with ochunks a lot. He sees no need to be genuine and thinks he ignores his feelings (cause uh. Evil plans and all) but it just comes off as him acting REALLY fuckin weird to ochunks. Sorta like unconscious flirting but in Dimentios own weird way. To me the FUNNIEST part of their dynamic is that he thinks he’s just galaxy braining and entertaining himself by manipulating ochunks or whatever he tells himself but Dimentios definitely the one who has it bad. But him thinking he’s above things like that all comes to bite his ass in the end, putting genuine friendships and relationships below his self-centered plans. Tragic! Does that make any sense? Dimentio is hard for me to verbalize how I think he thinks. Ochunks on the other hand, is definitely confused/flustered by Dimentio (he canonically calls him a weirdo but do not let me get into their ch 5 interactions it’s too interesting) I also think ironically enough he’s the one who’s the most suspicious of Dimentio. However he also wants to protect everyone on Bleck’s team and that includes Dimentio. Bro would do a LOT for his comrades/friends. Ochunks being the observant/caring guy he is, I think he does pick up when Dimentio accidentally lets his facade slip, and Dimentio’s (very rare and lmao) positive traits are genuinely endearing to Ochunks. I wanna explore that more

I don’t write it as unrequited but Dimentio being…. Well. Dimentio. I think really keeps them from getting officially “together” to me (in canon only, I think aus and canon divergent stuff could be great opportunities) it’s got that unresolved yearning to it that interests me. Anyways that’s all delicious delicious drama to me but probably not what you might wanna hear cause it is, unfortunately, not the happiest of endings 😭

like I said I’d love to see someone do a fluffy take on dunks though

[sundownsquad]

Second Anniversary Asks #9 — @leehenley

Q: A question for Nitsani! What is your favorite thing to tell people about Chigba?

Nitsani: Oh, that’s a tough one! There’s a lot of things I love about Chigba, it’s hard to narrow it down. Nitsani: Normally I’d want to talk about how selfless and invested she actually is, but she always says something like Sani, cut that out. I’m not a nice person, stop lying to people. Chigba: She tries to make me look thoughtful or some other such nonsense. It's ridiculous. Nitsani: She’ll tell you she’s just a humble freighter pilot that only cares about the work, but don’t listen to her. She’s trying to throw you off. Chigba: How dare you use the word humble to describe me. Speedy: yeah come on zio humble is a term solely reserved for describing me Knox: 🙄 Nitsani: Case and point that I won’t get very far talking about her character. 😆 Nitsani: So I’ll share a more neutral fact instead: Chigba knows how to play the Pixelito sitar! Speedy: wait for real Knox: No way, I didn’t know you can play an instrument! Drums: How did you learn to play the sitar, Chigba? Chigba: My mother knew how to play, so she taught me. I hated it as a kid, but it’s a very traditional thing so I eventually decided to carry it forward. The sitar itself is, what, 9 generations old now? Old as dirt, basically. Speedy: so a family heirloom then Chigba: Yeah. My family is a stubborn, sentimental bunch. Sort of a “we’re passing these traditions down whether you like it or not” type deal. Nitsani: See, she can say she’s sentimental. But if I said that she’d sue me for defamation of character. Chigba: That's what you get for using the Force to look into by brain to figure all this stuff out. Nitsani: Chigba, it doesn’t take telepathy to know these things about you. Lol Chigba: Yeah, yeah, whatever. Anyways, I’m gonna leave now. A new episode of Intrigue on Iridonia is about to air and I will not be missing it. Speedy: OH THATS RIGHT  Speedy: im going to watch too be right there Knox: Wow I can’t believe that got him to use that many capital letters at once 😂 Drums: 🤣 Kess: They’re real serious about those holo dramas, let me tell ya. Nitsani: Ok, now that Chigba bounced: another one of my favorite things about Chigba is how she leaves little gifts around for everyone. She is genuinely so thoughtful and pays close attention to all of us. She leaves the gifts in specific places where the recipient will find it but doesn’t write her name on it or anything. It’s how she shows affection and support. It’s also right in line with a common cultural thing Dugs do. They tend to put great importance on performing acts of selflessness or kindness in ways that don’t put them in the spotlight; it should be done with sincerity. It’s one of the reasons Dugs can seem brash or rude. They don’t want to make a show out of those sorts of things. They have no problem making a show out of anything else, though. Knox: Yeah, exactly. She tries to down play it whenever she does something nice so it doesn't look like she's trying to get attention from it. But with just about anything else she'll be loud and in your face. Which is apparently another Dug cultural thing. Nitsani: Yup! Passion, energy, and bluntness are valued traits for many Dugs and that tends to manifest itself in the form of dramatic, high-volume conversations. When Chigba really gets going it's impossible to ignore her. Drums: She also does that with port authorities that are acting like idiots. Other freighter operators love when she’s around because she has no problem taking on the jerks that try to make things harder for everyone. We all, admittedly, get a kick out of watching her tear those people a new one. Nitsani: Like I said, there’s a lot of things to love about Chigba. Lol

[somewhereinthepines]

This is just a funny little thing rather than an ask, but thank you for sharing your fics with us. After the whole Ao3 drama over the past day or so, of not being able to access the site and its fics, I just wanted to say thank you bcs I enjoy your work. I was having fic withdrawals and thinking, "What if the site never comes back up? I'll never be able to read them again, and I'll never know what happens." So yeah, just thought I'd send this to you, haha :) It just goes to show just how important fandom is. Hopefully, this will encourage others to comment on fics they like since everyone has been struggling without their fics.

howdy there! it’s always lovely to hear from you, ask or not. and yeah, i was a bit sad, that i couldn’t read before bed, like i usually do as well. but tbf, ao3 server/staff is pretty apt and usually they deal with site’s issues fairly quickly. it wasn’t the first time, when the site was down due to cyber attacks. after a couple of days, it always bounces back. i do get the sentiment tho. and it’s really nice to see someone else being this gentle of the writing and online fic community. writing/reading was smth that i held dear since my mid-teens, so i can get the feeling of ‘what if i will never read it again’. i still feel sad about some fics, that i loved, but which got deleted. i wish that i could store it all somewhere. 

anyways, thank you for reaching out! and i agree! i always found shelter from irl stuff in stories, be it my own or someone else’s fics. in online communities writing tends to be looked down upon. a typical ‘it’s written like a fanfiction’ thing, that people throw around as an insult, esp when it comes to some canon property that didn’t met their expectations. but honestly, those people just never read a good fic, i guess. i feel bad for them lol. esp bc it does make sense to write fics, even before you would write a movie script or say, a book. writing like any skill needs to be worked on, and experimented with. fics provide all the ground, that you want for that. esp bc you can even have many accs and stay anon, if you don’t wanna smth to be tied up to you in future. but, welp, i do hope that eventually folks will learn to have more respect for online creators. bc like….i mean, it’s literally a free entertainment. of all kinds and genres. too bad that at times, it’s difficult for people to just create and enjoy what they do. but i always say, that i do believe that anyone can start drawing or writing. it won’t be flawless, esp at first, but this way whatever you want can exist out there. 

but ah, okay. sorry! i talk hella a lot. once again, it’s very touching for you to message me! both as a fellow author and a fellow reader, i’m glad to have the same feeling of ‘i really love fics and ao3.’

[presidenthades]

Can I ask why compromise is longer than the golds ?

When I write fanfic, I tend to follow the same writing principles I use with original fiction. The story needs to start very shortly before the central conflict begins, but there also needs to be enough context for the reader to understand the conflict. Likewise, the story should end soon after the central conflict is resolved, but with enough of an ending to leave the reader satisfied.

The basic conflict of The Golds is “Jace and Aegon need to figure out how to balance married life and a surprise pregnancy while dealing with all their other obligations.” So their wedding was a natural place to begin the story, to give a glimpse of their “normal state” before they find out she’s pregnant. Eventually, after a lot of other drama, Jace and Aegon succeed in figuring out how to handle married life and parenthood together with all their other royal duties. So the fic ends soon after that, even though there are other unresolved conflicts, like Elenar’s fostering. Those other conflicts are reserved for resolution in future fics.

With The Golds, we didn’t need to know all the backstory from when Jace and Aegon were kids. It was nice to know, but not essential, and the stuff that was need-to-know could easily be included via the occasional flashback or dialogue.

As I was brainstorming Luce and Aemond’s fic, I realized they have a very different situation. A lot of their conflict, “Luce and Aemond need to navigate their miscommunications and misunderstandings while trying to prove themselves,” is rooted in their childhood. Their conflict actually starts at Driftmark, and they both have emotional baggage from their childhood. So I knew I needed to spend some time writing about them as kids.

I originally thought I could get away with just a few short childhood chapters, like an extended prologue, but then I realized their childhood arc was an entire story by itself. So I kinda view Compromised as a trilogy, and Chapters 1-9 are essentially Book 1, with its own sub-conflict of “Luce and Aemond have a falling-out; can they mend their friendship?” By the time Chapter 9 comes out, the total word count for 1-9 will be over 70k, which is the length of a typical novel.

(By the way, it is much faster than average to write, edit, and post a 70k novel in the span of 4.5 months while also writing, editing, and posting a different 60k word novel, which I’m not getting paid for at all other than with kudos and comments. Luckily, so far I’ve only gotten one anon commenter who seems to think I’m updating too slow, because apparently 3 weeks between updates = abandoning the fic. 💀)

If you’ve read the Handbook, then you know that the childhood arc doesn’t end very happily for Luce and Aemond. So that leads us to Volume/Book 2, where the conflict gets really juicy and we see their POVs of the Handbook and The Golds. But if you’ve read The Golds, then you know that Arc 2 doesn’t end super great for them either…so that leads us to Volume/Book 3, where we might finally see them achieve a happy ending (after a lot more drama, of course).

TLDR: Compromised is a multi-year slow burn saga, whereas The Golds takes place in a very specific time of Jace and Aegon’s life about very specific topics. (Jace and Aegon are going to be main characters again in future fics, don’t worry.)

[s1ld3n4f1l]

like most of the anons have said, people tend not to do shipping because they 1) find the characters more interesting platonically and 2) are trying to be respectful to chonny. if he doesn’t care if people interpret HMS that way (which seems to be the case, although i don’t think anyone’s asked directly) then you should be fine.

i’ve never seen someone bring up this type of topic so civil-y (if that’s a word, lol) which I really appreciate. that’s my favorite thing about this fandom, everyone seems very nice and respectful (which is very refreshing). i hope you don’t have to deal with any hate or backlash if you do choose to post shipping stuff with them. selfcest definitely isn’t my thing (i mean, i was an undertale kid… but the whole idea just seems silly to me in my… adult age, i guess. lmao). but like, there really isn’t anything inherently immoral about the concept? at worst it’s just… sorta weird

obviously do things respectfully, and don’t get like, parasocial about it (that’s a given for every fandom around a creator). but like… HMS as characters? who cares, go be free lmao. this whole thing seems like a non-issue, and i think we (as a fandom) are all perfectly capable of living together in harmony despite personal disagreements

Thank you! I've been trying to do stuff as respectfully as I can, since this fandom is pretty small and I would hate to cause any infighting or drama. I love the fact that this community is so nice :)

I also don't want to get weirdly parasocial, which is why I talked about how I don't know him and am not him so I have no clue how he'd feel about shipping and am just guessing based on his answers to the QnA.

I think I might make some shipping content, but probably balance it out by also posting some platonic content. Like I've mentioned, I love exploring their dynamic and relationship and I think there's a lot of ways to explore it platonically.

Thanks for your mesage! :)