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Do you know the trend where if you have a significant other in the military you say they can’t come into your house but amendment 2 or 3 which say “ no quartering of soldiers without consent”
That with cyclone or Bob
All Shook Up - Bob x Reader
Word Count: 1.0k
Summary: After seeing a trend where military spouses tell their loved ones they aren't allowed inside under the 3rd Amendment, you decide to play a prank on your sweet, returning husband Bob—that is until you get the words out, and he reacts in the only way Bob knows how.
Warnings: fluff, domesticity, husband! Bob, very mild accidental hurt/comfort.
Authors Note: This idea is so funny to me! I'm already working on Beau's version, and I'll definitely be posting that soon.
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The sun had just begun setting when you put your plan into motion. Grinning to yourself as you set dinner to cook in the oven, you check out the kitchen window for any sign of Bob's car. Your husband had been away on a training exercise all week and had just called you thirty minutes ago stating he was close to home.
Minutes later as you spare the driveway another glance, you see Bob climb out of his car, duffle bag slung over his shoulder. You couldn't mask your almost childish excitement as you left the kitchen and trod over to the door. Even after the years you'd been together you never got over just how handsome he was. But today you had other things in mind.
You hear the soft thud of his boots on the porch followed by the jingle of his keys before the door opens.
"Honey I'm home," Bob calls out just as you appear.
His brow furrows when you don't answer, instead just standing and watching him without an ounce of your expected warmth.
"Honey?" He tries again, "Is everything all right?"
You let another long second pass, his brows furrowing, before you answer.
"Oh, yeah," you say casually, "you just can't stay here."
Bob's eyes instantly widen behind his glasses. His gentle gaze fills with a look that is somewhere between confusion and heartbreak.
"I..What?" He questions.
You clear your throat, initial plan shattering but doing your best to follow through with your prank in light of his expression, knowing it'll be easier to explain in the end when you're both—hopefully—laughing.
"It is my right as an American citizen to exercise whatever rights I have the liberty of holding—including the third amendment of the United States Constitution, no quartering of soldiers and related military personnel without consent," You say, still standing in the entryway opposite Bob and the half open door.
Bob blinks, expression leaning more towards the confused end of things. For a second it looks like he's about to say something, only to remain silent. He glances at his hand still holding the doorknob, then over his shoulder outside before slowly—slowly—backing out and closing the door all without a word.
You let the silence hang for a second before you yourself grow confused. You had expected him to laugh or maybe fight back, or...really anything except actually leave . Yet as you're left standing there, your first instinct is to chase after him.
Crossing the distance and pulling the door open, you see him about to get back in his car.
"Bob!" you call out, earning a hurtfully hopeful glance back over his shoulder from the man, "I'm just messing with you!" you continue.
Bob's gaze drops and a brief flash of regret goes through you. He looks genuinely bewildered, as if he's going back through and cataloging months and years' worth of interactions to figure out where all this was coming from.
With a sigh you close the door behind you and step off the porch, padding softly down the steps until you're close enough to wrap your arm around the waist of your hopelessly sweet husband.
"I promise, It's just a prank, Bob," you reassure his worrying mind, "I thought it'd be funny, not that you'd just…”
You trail off, gesturing vaguely at everything as a brief flash of knowing crosses his eyes.
"Oh," he says after a long pause, brows still furrowed but tone far less tense, "I was so confused."
He returns your embrace, setting his bag on the ground and slinging an arm gently around you.
"I thought maybe something happened I didn't know about."
You can’t help but let out a soft laugh as you look up at him.
"You thought I'd kick you out over something you didn't even know?” You ask incredulously.
"Maybe If I forgot an anniversary or didn't text you goodnight–" He stammers, raising his free hand to rub the back of his neck, "I don't know what you think is worthy of invoking the constitution over, but it felt serious."
By now a soft blush has risen onto his cheeks and you can't help but place a kiss there, his flushed skin warmed under your gentle touch.
"You are too sweet for your own good, honey," you muse with a laugh, "You thought this was it? Really?"
"Well, I...It sounded serious!" He defends again with a bashful smile.
You can't help but laugh again, looking up at him in near warm-hearted wonder.
"You're always welcome to quarter here, or anywhere else I stay, for that matter."
Bob lets out a breath of relief, whatever tension was still held in his body leaving as your words provide the last bit of reassurance he needs.
"I...really didn't want to sleep in the car.”
You pat his back with a laugh and guide him up the steps and back inside before closing the door behind you both.
"Welcome home honey," you try again, a hint of joking still in your tone, "A place you'll always have a bed."
"Good to know," he chuckles softly, "Please, don't scare me like that again."
"I promise," You smile, pulling him in for a proper kiss this time, "I'll make it up to you."
"Yes please," he sighs, only to be distracted by the smell of roasting chicken coming from the kitchen.
"You...made dinner?" He asks gently, always so surprised by the little things even when they're a part of your daily routine.
"Of course I did. Can't have you going hungry, now, can we?"
Bob blinks then nods faintly in agreement.
"Good, go get changed while I finish up down here."
At that Bob practically melts in your arms like he does every time he comes home, never more relaxed than he is in your presence—even if it's your attempt at a prank that shakes him up to begin with.
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My shifting guidebook.
This is my last post, as melodramatic as I was in my last post, since both the posts I've made on here and reddit i got busy with responding to dms (for those confused check my first post) so i didn't permashift.
Unfortunately i still couldn't respond to all the messages and questions sent to my inbox and dms, mainly because of the different time zones and general laziness from my side.
I appreciate everyone who asked questions, although i felt it's a bit unfair since the answers to very common problems didn't reach everyone, and i want everyone to shift, i want everyone to shift tonight, so i decided i'll make a post to share all my knowledge, whatever i know, sort of like a parting gift.
And this isn't going to be a beginners guide, mainly for people who need a final push, and most importantly, for emergency shifters.
Onto the questions (: Divided into categories, skip through according to your needs :)
Detachment from CR, attachment to DR:
How can i detach from my CR/attach to my DR?
Generally, detachment can be achieved by numbing your emotions in your CR. But first, I would advise you to refrain from extreme and unhealthy detachment, because you'll end up getting stuck in a endless cycle of messing up your CR and not shifting (because you'd have no control over yourself, which would lead to your subconscious getting grounded in the messed up version of your CR; assuming that unhealthy detachment is daydreaming about your DR all day without any sense of where you are, without a strong mindset, when you eventually snap back you'll think even more vividly of your CR)
But- "unhealthy" attachment can be utilised to your advantage, to shift, in a controlled manner.
Pick a day to shift, let it be a weekend. After dusk, only indulge yourself in your DR. (When you're sure you have free time and you won't be disturbed) for me, I hid under the blanket, with a fully charged phone, I spent a portion of the hours listening to subliminals, and a portion of the time scrolling through pinterest with spotify in the background (things that remind you of your DR)
I recommend listening to detachment from CR and attachment to DR subs, and if you are a permashifter, and it's your deadline, go all out.
This is my advice for detachment from CR during the day, during the method it'll be different.
How can I detach from my CR while I'm shifting? I can't divert my attention away from my CR body/mind.
I'm writing in the pov of my own method.
The only way you can let go of the CR while you're shifting is with a calm mind. If you're overthinking about how you're going to carry out your method, whether you'd wake back in your CR, you'll have trouble reaching a detached state.
To detach, first of all, make yourself comfortable, do not try to force yourself into doing something, or laying in a position which makes you uncomfortable. Next, think of thoughts which pushes your CR to the side, your CR is just another reality, and you're the creator of it, treat it like its any other pebble on the road.
Affs: (again, void reality meaning your CR)
"Void reality? Huh, can't seem to remember what that is..."
"It's so peaceful not being in the void reality, going to fix it when I eventually return from my DR" (I vividly remember saying this, if you're a permashifter, make it so it fits your situation)
"..."
(Not saying anything says a lot, fall numb to your void reality and go onto your DR)
Remember, you're not answerable to your CR, its not your boss or captor, it's actually the opposite.
To attach to your DR during the method, in the middle phase of my method, say identity affs until you feel familiarise with your DR self, think of memories, have a small conversation with your DR loved ones, do a small rewind of your DR life in your mind, so you can ground yourself. I won't be going into much details on how to shift by becoming your DR self, my first post says it all.
How to detach from CR body?
Detaching your thoughts is basically detaching your CR body, the 30 second black out state is basically a window to shifting, because when your CR shuts up for a even just a few seconds it will give you the opportunity to divert your attention to your DR, no matter how fidgety you are.
Problems faced while shifting:
Something always itches me when I try to shift, any advice?
Before you're shifting, take a look at you're environmental factors, why are you feeling itchy in the first place?
If it isn't bugs, dry skin, I recall that during the method some symptoms are just itchiness.
Say affs to block off your senses first of all, until then try to control yourself
Affs:
"I have stopped sensing my void reality (CR)"
"I have stopped hearing, feeling, seeing my void reality"
If the need gets overwhelming and you're just starting your method, make yourself comfortable and move a bit, or just itch it, you can still shift.
I always fall asleep when I try to shift, what should I do?
During the day you're going to shift, and you know you're just tired and lack sleep, take a nap during the day.
If you didn't nap, or just generally feel sleepy still, turn my method into a sleep method, by letting yourself fall asleep while you're actively acting, thinking like your DR self (you'll wake up in your DR the next day)
Sleeping is a good tool for shifting, especially if you're starting to doze off while doing your method, you can achieve other states such as sleep paralysis, lucid dreaming or mind awake body asleep state, so don't get discouraged, if you prefer awake methods, there are some subliminals you can use to stay awake.
I always fear or dread shifting while doing my method and back out at the last minute.
(Copypasted from reddit)
Familiarise yourself with your DR, it's not scary if you know where you're laying, who you are, what's next to you and who's going to be in the room.
If you already start acting like your DR self then in theory fear shouldn't be here (why would you be scared being yourself in an environment which is supposed to be familiar to you?)
It also depends upon the kind of fear
Fear of spirits snatching your soul mid shift - listen to safety and protection subliminals (no, I wasn't personally possessed by demons last minute but it will put your mind at ease)
Fear of the unknown - familiarise yourself with your DR and shifting
Fear of symptoms - don't focus on them
Just know that nothing fearful will exist as long as you don't allow it to exist, you're the creator of your reality.
Trouble focusing while shifting.
Once you're even a tad bit detached from your CR, you would have no trouble focusing, because it's only your CR body's mind which is causing you trouble, the semi-void state in my method (when you don't feel your body that much, you force yourself to not have thoughts) is all you need to do to go onto the next phase of your method, and trust me, it'll feel very easy for you.
Prior to shifting, listen to frequencies, subliminals, basically flood your subconscious with your desired affs (calm mind subs, focus subs, general shifting and void state subliminals) when you're shifting, stare at the blackness and think of it as a milky way, like you're stargazing, I don't know why but your hyperfixation allows you to focus; count to a hundred, visualise your DR memories, youll eventually reach a trance state where you're focused and ready to shift. (if you can't visualise, then think of it in the form of a story)
Misc:
For folks with ADHD:
(Copy pasted from reddit)
I'd recommend try listening to subliminal (especially bundles) when you aren't feeling like doing anything or if you think your messing up.
Also try to keep yourself as comfortable as possible, if you can distract yourself in a way you aren't attached to your CR activities, for example watching movies or shows or youtube video which require minimal effort and attention
And im saying this only if you're utilizing a single day for shifting, or practicing LOA
while doing the method, i'd try to use as less time as possible, and if you feel off, then you can open your eyes and try the method after a small break.
Can I shift to-
Yes, yes, yes. You can shift to anywhere your mind can think up of, it really is that simple. You can shift to the past, shift to prevent a certain event, you can shift to a reality with a confusing concept, you can shift to become a chair.
Did you shift to a animated DR? How was it like?
I shifted to a pokemon DR where I studied pokemons for a living, but I quickly shifted back after 2 days because I got bored.
Personally for me I get creeped out of anything that's eerie or out of the ordinary.
So basically I scripted that it'll feel normal and I wouldn't even question it.
So I didn't, and now that I think about it, everything was proper, people had noses it wad 3D and everything, so just this reality except everyone looked unnaturally good and the world's graphic were different. If the entire world looks the same then nothing feels weird.
Your opinion on clones/time period?
I don't really care about clones or what they are, mainly because I believe in the consciousness theory, and the multiverse theory is a subdivision of consciousness theory, you basically let yourself believe there is a multiverse and for that reason it exists.
So in perceptive of the multiverse theory, your "clone" is just a body, which comes under your command or control.
It can't mess up your CR life, it'll make the same choices as you like you would have made if you were present in your CR.
Personally I had scripted that when I shift back I will wake up the next morning, following the night when I was shifting.
So my "clone" was just sleeping.
Secondly, stop stressing over your clone,
It'll just do what you want it to do, or just live life how you'd normally would
If you script your clone is a superhuman for the time you're in you DR, you'll shift back to a parallel reality of your CR where a superhuman lived your life for a while, but if you want you can just shift to a better CR like I did.
...
Those are all questions that came in my mind, I tried looking back into the chats and inbox to find more commonly asked questions or something I didn't clarify in my first post but most other questions had straight forward or a clear enough answer.
I really wanted to expand this post with more sections and questions, but in my opinion my first and this post combined are a lot of their own, I think I clarified a lot.
It's been a week being on Tumblr, and I loved helping people out, everyone was kind and unique in their own ways, I looked through my followers scripts and blogs and I enjoyed everyone's dedication to shifting, and their DRs (btw, I hadn't expected to get so many follows and notes, I'm genuinely suprised even now)
It had been a lovely experience being on shiftblr, in my opinion it's the best shifting, or just generally the best community on the internet.
As much as I would like to stay and blog regularly on here, I have to go back home, I'm permashifting in (from the time this post went up) 7 hours, and this time I'm not staying, so refrain from asking me questions after that, I won't respond, but this post will still be up.
Farewell, I hope your shifting journey conclude today and each of you live happily in your DR, with your well deserved love, respect and peace.
Goodbye c:
(Within the 7 hours, I may be partially active, if there is any question that is truly different and a genuine struggle for you, inbox me, I'll try my best to answer; I may as well post my DR script in my last few hours, since some people asked, remind me if I forget; also not posting on reddit, ive already annoyed the mods so much by breaking several rules)
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That time Noel car chased Liam to stress that Wonderwall’s indeed about a girl
So... this was supposed to be Wonderwall's single cover:
The photographer (Michael Spencer Jones) had brought Liam to Primrose Hill in London to take that shot but both were interrupted by what he described as a "black cab that came to a screeching halt". From that said running cab, came out Noel, allegedly shouting that Liam - "our kid" - was not to be on that cover as Wonderwall is a love song, about a girl. According to Michael, Noel downward hated the thought of Liam being on the cover.
The girl on the actual cover was a Creation Records employee in the exact same pose:
So, being incredibly grateful for the mental image this article gifted me with, I decided to make a post summing up the many Wonderwall meanings according to Noel.
Disclaimer : I think Wonderwall's about Liam, just putting it out there.
My own thought is that Noel can't say this because, and to quote him "it would look bad" see this interview excerpt about the song dirty shirt in 1997:
"Meg is the girl in the dirty shirt. (...) Liam will read this and say, You fucking wanker! Because he thinks all the songs are about him. He even thinks Wonderwall is about him. So he'll be telling me it's a geezer in a dirty shirt really, except I couldn't say that because it would look bad."
Apart from the absolute chaotic reaction of having the lead singer star on the cover of the lead single, Noel, I think, obviously wanted Liam to sing it, initially.
Liam had been given a choice between this and Don't look back in anger by Noel, who stressed many, many, times throughout the years that Liam didn't like the song when he first heard it (I'd say covertly disappointed). Also he gave different versions of whatever Liam said about it :
But Liam, first time he heard "Wonderwall" he said, "That's puff's music, I'm not sing that." For weeks and weeks and weeks he wouldn't sing it, and then he heard me singing it and then he knew. in 1996 "(pissy voice) Wonderwall, it's fucking dance record, innit? All that hip hop drum beat - we're not a fucking dance group. Of course, once he's sung on it it was the best record ever made." "I said, ‘You’re singing one or the other, but not both.’ He hated Wonderwall. He said it was trip-hop. There speaks a man who’s never heard trip-hop." In a recent interview "Everyone in the band went, 'I'm sorry but I don't f*****g think so," "I remember Our Kid saying, and I'll never forget this, 'Why are you writing reggae songs?' And I was like, there speaks a man that has never heard reggae."
In 2023, Liam confirmed that as he first heard Wonderwall being played “I didn’t like it at first, I thought it was a little funky.” And Bonehead, added, “It sounded like a reggae song to me. The first time [Noel] came in, I was like, ‘What the hell’s that?”. (Far Out Magazine).
Which I get as Noel's acoustic version is very different from Oasis version with Liam on vocal. But anyway, Noel often mentioned that when Liam's reluctant to sing one of the songs he pretends he will sing it himself and this way Liam like clockwork jumps on it, and that's exactly what he said for Wonderwall + told Liam it will be a hit, and immediately, Liam wouldn't let go of it.
So my guess is that the 'choice' was just a snare to make Liam do what he wants, as Noel likes to do. And also a bit of power play at hand there in an attempt to ground 1995 firework Liam and as Noel said again in 2023 "to have a song on his own" as he was getting annoyed by Liam walking out on him.
"The only time I laid down the law was Wonderwall and Don’t Look Back In Anger. "I was so fucked off with him walking off stage and me having to take over and do the gig. I remember thinking, if I’m going to do this, I want a big fucking song to sing." + "I said, ‘You’re singing one or the other, but not both.’
Liam said between 1995-96 “When Our Kid went, ‘Right, you’ve got a choice, “Wonderwall” or “Don’t Look Back In Anger,” ’ it done me head in,” the singer told NME. “I said, ‘I wanna sing both, you dick.’ But I chose ‘Wonderwall’ ’cos it was right and it happened. But I don’t think I could have sung ‘Don’t Look Back In Anger’ the way he sung it. And when I hear it I think it’s great.”
Additionally in 2023, Noel kinda slipped and said "I'm glad I chose that one" after saying Liam chose it when a record label person said it would be their big hit.
But what is interesting is as their relation deteriorated Noel changed the Wonderwall story:
Around 1996-1997 "I wanted to sing Wonderwall because the guitars are accoustic but our kid insisted that he wanted to sing it. So I said Alright im going to do DLBIA"
In 1997, in the book Getting High: The Adventures of Oasis by Paolo Hewitt, he wrote "according to Owen Noel wanted to sing wonderwall which makes perfect sense, he had written the song with Meg in mind, it was the only way he knew how to properly express his love for her with the song detailing her struggle to find work but celebrating her ability to bounce back against the odds. So we finished Wonderwall, and Liam's Right I'm singing this one. And he did a blinding vocal a brilliant vocal."
in 1998 Noel went "I always wanted to sing "Wonderwall", but I'm glad he sang it 'cos he sings it better than I do."
or when asked on a TV show in 2000 'If I wrote wonderwall I wouldn't want to give that to my brother to sing', Noel said that he did not but they had a long heated debate on who will sing it and in the end, he didn't have a choice because Liam's 'bottom lip went too far down towards his kneecaps' 'he looked very very sad' and he said alright he will sing the other one don't look back in anger.
And only recently in 2021, he went back to the original story:
“He wanted to sing ‘Don’t Look Back In Anger’, but it became apparent during the recording that ‘Wonderwall’ was going to be the tune. If I’m being honest, I shouldn’t have sung either of them because I wasn’t really a singer then.”
I mean every critic agrees that Liam gave one of his most impressive vocals singing that song "both cuttingly sharp and heartbreakingly warm at the same time" Noel said he '"had no idea, even after the first album, that Liam could sing like he did on 'Wonderwall,'" and that he did " a sterling job (...) ‘Wonderwall, ‘Hey Now’ and ‘Cast No Shadow’ were literally one take. He delivers my songs spot-on. He knows." So it's a bit strange that he didn't just go on saying that like other songs such as Slide Away Liam's delivery gave it a special edge.
Personally I think it has to do with the meaning of the song for their relationship. There is a lot of hope and commitment in that song all while acknowledging the anger and difficulties of a relationship.
An other thing that struck me as important was, in an oasis book it was reported that while watching Wonderwall win some chart thing on TV Noel turned to the person writing and started going on about how high the wibbling rivalry was on the charts in comparison to the oasis tracks. So what came up to his mind was the 'Liam fight track' while listening to the song, weirdly enough.
And about the meaning --->
Originally, Noel attributed this song to his then girlfriend Meg Matthews as we know. She was compared to a schoolboy's wall to which posters of footballers and pop stars are attached, Noel told Select magazine
"It's about my girlfriend. She was out of work, and that, a bit down on her luck, so it's just saying, 'Cheer up and f---in get on with it.'" After Liam's and Noel's infamous interaction with their Father, he even told her directly as much albeit gave it a a more romantic meaning "Fucking hell Meg, you're meant to be my wonderwall and you were fast asleep when it all went off. What kind of Wonderwall are you?" or when a cover of the song came out and she thought Noel had plagiarized the song he wrote for her he told her " 'No, honestly, I did write about you...!"
Now, idk how reliable he is but their father said that the wall actually existed and it was Noel's and Liam's :
"both Noel and Liam's original ‘wonderwall’ was actually the wall of the bedroom they used to _ share as children in their — ex-council house. ‘They called it their wonderwall" "in 1983 they both started writing on the wall, bits of songs, poems, favourite bands, football teams. In one corder Noel wrote 'I love Diane Jones’ and underneath in the same writing, “Liam _ is a puff”. They'd fight terribly about who had the most writing space. | didn't touch it for years but | wallpapered - it before Christmas."
Meg has been written at the time as "The only girl he had met who came close to being as important as his music and the one who understood him better than almost everyone else."
But Noel then stuck to the following version about the song's name, that it came from Wonderwall Music the debut solo album by George Harrison and the soundtrack to the 1968 film Wonderwall, (She lives next door to a man who becomes fascinated with her, so he slowly makes holes in his wall so he can watch her through it. This is the "Wonderwall.").
Meg said that "George Harrison wrote the music to the film Wonderwall, so that's the reference, but to me it's about being his wall of strength. His solidity." She never asked him directly and found out the meaning in the papers months later. So idk if this is her interpretation or if Noel said something about the actual meaning.
Then in 2003, in Q magazine's 1001 Best Songs Ever, Noel backtracked, "The meaning of that song was taken away from me by the media who jumped on it. And how do you tell your Mrs. it's not about her once she's read it is? It's about an imaginary friend who's going to come and save you from yourself."
and In 2023 Noel pinned him saying the song was about Meg on this specific cover "We did the cover and there's a girl on the front, She had long blonde hair, she looked like my then-wife, Meg Matthews. Doing the interviews for the thing [later], and they say, 'Is this about your wife?', and what do you say? No? So you say yes but it's not about anyone in particular"
Yet Noel admitted it was a romantic song in 1998 : You don't write a song like Wonderwall if you're not romantic. I am. I'm a dreamer and a romantic. Liam is too.
and later
First of all, “Outside of England, it’s the one we’re famous for all over the world, and it annoys the fuck out of me,” Noel Gallagher once said. “It’s not a fucking rock and roll tune. There’s quite a vulnerable statement to it.”
So while I don't think this song is about Meg, it is definitely an emotional song that strips him bear.
More importantly, years later after hell broke loose in Oasis, Noel praised Ryan Adams's version and declared he is the only person who ever got the song “Wonderwall” right. Ryan Adams played it as part of his album "love is hell" and said that "It occurred to me that I was singing it from the perspective of someone in danger of committing suicide. (...) It's someone saying, you're my last hope. But in the second verse, that hope it's not happening, and I'm singing like that".
I don't think it's coincidence that after all the issues they had Noel was the one who mainly sung that song himself live in the late 90s and then gave it a tone of devastation and sorrow as he switched to playing it Ryan Adams way for a long time. The collapsing of their relationships brought out the frustration rather than the hope in the song.
As to Liam and Noel's thoughts on the songs, while around 95 they weren't critical of it, seemed quite proud of it, and Noel even said it was part of his favorite/best songs with Live forever, they changed their tunes years later, that said it could only be due to the reluctance and irritation of being seldom seen as 'that band that did Wonderwall'.
For example Noel claimed in 2006 "I don't much like 'Wonderwall,' but the effect that song has on people, I can't deny it," he said. "Great music is in the ear of the beholder." and that it's one of his least favourite Oasis songs because it's "unfinished". If I could somehow twist time and go back there, I’d probably pick a different song for our calling card. Probably Some Might Say."
But one comment from Liam struck me as extreme even for him, In 2008, Liam said during the press run for Dig Out Your Soul, “At least there’s no ‘Wonderwall’ on there. I can’t fucking stand that fucking song! Every time I have to sing it, I want to gag." So it could be its popularity or the fact Liam had lost his voice, but I've never heard him talk so critically about an Oasis song, it sounded personal. Just like when Noel recently said he's glad he's singing that one as it's a better song.
So I still think that while they're honest saying they don't want Oasis to be summed up to one tune, but their uneasiness playing the song live was due to its meaning. Noel even stressed the band couldn't find a way to play it right live, which is not exactly true, considering the famous live where Liam stares at Noel during the chorus.
So there's that.
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It's been a while since I made a merch post 🙂First items I want to share are these adorable pin+acrylic stand sets featuring the Forgers in their resort island outfits from the cruise arc ❤️

Next is some merch from the Anime Extra Mission event from June. I got a clear file (which I scanned in a previous post), a fan, and a copy of the pamphlet.


The pamphlet has some nice content, including interviews with all the voice actors, transcriptions of the live reading scripts they did at the event, and a cool chart of all the current anime episodes. Here's a few pages:




Not sure if I'll ever get around to translating all of it, but detailed summaries of the live reading stories are available on the Spy x Family Fan Wiki.
Next is some goods I got from the Nijigen no Mori collab that's been going on in Japan. I got a hat, an umbrella, a mug, a water bottle, and a clear file (which I also recently scanned).


I was thankful that the hat just about fit my fat head/thick hair!


The umbrella is really nice too! I'll definitely use it during the three days a year it rains here 😅 I could use it for sunny days too I suppose, lol.

Next is the CODE: White home video release! I liked the bonus merch that came with both the Toho deluxe version (left photo) and the Amazon JP deluxe version (right photo). So I got both.


Unfortunately, I had a mishap with my copy of the Amazon version where FedEx delivered it to the wrong house! I got the notification that it was delivered, but it wasn't at my front doorstep, plus the photo they shared was of a completely different front door, so I started freaking out. I drove around the block trying to find any neighboring houses that looked like the one in the photo. After I couldn't find it, I submitted an issue report to FedEx. They said they would try to track down the driver and figure out what happened. I wasn't too hopeful and was debating ordering it again, but decided to wait a bit. And much to my surprise, the next morning the driver found the missing package...but unfortunately the house he delivered it to had kids who opened it already. So he brought it to me in a different box with all the pieces loose. Luckily everything was in good shape and accounted for...or so I thought. The deluxe version came with a lot of extras and I didn't realize until later that day that I was actually missing a couple of things, notably the nice slipcover box for the discs and the art booklet. I was of course really mad about this, but I was able to find someone on Mercari selling a copy of the movie with these items for a good price, so I bought it.

The booklet is really cool - it has concept art, key frame sketches, and other neat info~ Here's a few pages:




By this point I had three copies of the movie on blu-ray (one of which had fingerprints on the discs from the grubby hands of the kids who opened my package 😑 At least the discs still worked) So I gave the extras away to friends.
I threw in the below little lenticular bookmark with one of my Mercari orders. It was given out at this past NatsuComi expo in Japan.
And lastly, some smaller items: postcards (which I also scanned) and a Twiyor pin~


#spy x family#sxf#spy family#spyxfamily#loid forger#yor forger#anya forger#bond forger#sxf code white#sxf movie#spy x family code white#sxf merch#sxf anime
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Steven's first v-day - s.g x gn!reader
posted feb 2nd, 2024 11:38 pm (barely made it!!)
day 2 of counting down to valentines day! I'll also be doing marc and jake versions :D hope u enjoy xo
summary: it's Steven's first valentine's day!! reader has to make it special! oh but so does Steven, of course. Not proofread, possible use of Y/n.
this is my first moonboys fic! although it's steven focused there is mentions of jake and marc also being romantically involved with reader!! if anything i wrote pertaining to DID is offensive or not cool please let me know!!
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For years Steven had essentially been locked up inside Marc’s mind unknowingly, of course he caught blips, little pieces of Marc’s life, and short memories that Marc purposely shoved down to the deepest depths of their brain, yet even now with Steven fronting on his own much more often he still was missing so much.
Steven had yet to experience any holidays, though knowing Marc wasn’t exactly a fan of any of them, he still wanted to see them for himself, feel them for himself. Even though Marc and Layla hadn’t really celebrated Valentine's Day during their marriage, Steven still felt he was missing out.
Which of course is when you come in, Steven’s first real partner, he didn’t get you all to himself, but despite sharing you with Marc and Jake, Steven knew he was your very best friend, taking out romance completely you had always been close with him. Making him feel special and loved when he needed it most, and now he has the privilege to replace “love” with “my love” when speaking to you.
Steven just had to make this day special for you. Marc had his day earlier in the month, Jake planned for next weekend but Steven, Steven insisted he get the 14th. He needed the full experience even if it meant fighting with Donna to get off work early on a Wednesday afternoon.
Steven spent all of Tuesday night at the shops, getting chocolate and your favorite snacks, options just in case you didn’t like the snacks or candy you did previously.
He loaded everything up into a pink basket, half believing it was actually an easter basket. Steven ignored the suspicious feeling about the basket though, dismissing it as unimportant before moving on to buy two of the books on your TBR, ignoring every mirror in the place and snarky remarks from Marc and sarcastic jokes from Jake about Steven outdoing both of them.
It’s only Valentine’s Day, Steven.
But it was so much more than that.
But he did ditch the easter basket.
What Steven had yet to realize was that you thought so too.
Today was just as special for you as it was for Steven, because of Steven, actually.
Yes, you had loved the sweet night in with just you and Marc, but with Steven and Jake, you had planned for just a little more, it was practically Steven’s first Valentine’s Day, it had to be special, just like your Steven was.
You had hung heart-shaped decorations up on the few lights in Steven’s apartment, a vinyl you had just bought him on the record player playing softly in the background as you threw a few rose petals across the kitchen counter opting that it would be an easier cleanup then anywhere else in Steven’s cluttered (but of course, comfy) apartment.
Looking around you were pretty stumped on what to add for decor, before deciding to rummage through some of Steven's cabinets in hopes you'd find a vase, if so, you could buy him flowers, you couldn't think of anyone who would love them more.
“Yes!” you shouted happily as you found a vase hidden behind the bowls, now why would he have them with the bowls? You ignored the questions in your head and seemingly missed the sound of the front door opening and closing due to all of your excitement.
“Oh my days” that you heard, the sound of Steven’s voice filled with surprise and adoration filled your ears as you turned around, not even attempting to hide your disappointment in not being able to get Steven any flowers but the moment you laid eyes on his wide eyes, and agape mouth all of it melted away, quickly replaced by a smile.
“Surprise!” You lifted your arms as if to gesture to your surroundings as Steven finally turned to look at you. “Oh, my love, this is” He paused as he looked around again before continuing. “This is incredible.”
You gasped at the flowers in his hands, rushing over to him and pecking his cheek before taking them from him and quickly rushing back to your vase. Well, Steven’s vase really but finders keepers and all that.
Steven looked back at you, almost in a daze as he followed your movements into the kitchen. “You got off early, I wanted to get you flowers but-” Steven cut you off as you set the pretty bouquet in the glass, “We can share” he abandoned the bag of miscellaneous snacks on petal covered counter and instead used his hands to pull you away from the fresh flowers by your waist.
“Happy V-day, Stevie” You smiled at him, earning one back in return. “All this for me?” Steven’s voice was quieter now that you were closer, soft eyes gazing at you most lovingly.
“It’s your first Valentine’s Day, had to make it special for you.”
Steven responded with a hug this time, shoving his face in the crook of your neck as your hands moved to hold onto his old grandpa sweater.
“Hey, are there any sour strips in that bag?” You asked, words muffled by his shoulder as he chuckled, leaning back just enough to see that look in your eyes that matched his perfectly.
“Of course, there is, love.” “Oh, he loves me!” Your excited words earned an actual laugh this time and a nod of agreement. “I grabbed as many of your favorites as I could remember, only the best for my first Valentine,” Steven said, releasing his hold on you to begin emptying the bag of goodies. You didn’t take too long to join his side, quiet ohs and ahs as he set everything in front of you.
“I was planning on cooking tonight, surprise you with dinner when you got off, but now maybe we could do it together, yeah?” Your soft tone only added to his smile.
“What’s for dinner, my love?”
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s5 episode 12 "bad blood" thoughts
oh man. i think i’ve heard that this episode is a favorite among the fans. i also think that scully hooks up with a vampire in this one? because that got brought up in that one post i made about 3 a while back. curious to see if i misinterpreted that comment or if this is actually going to happen.
well! no time like now to find out!
the description mentions recounting their version of events… i LOVED that part of jose chung, so i really cannot wait to see what happens here :D
post episode note: not sure if there has ever been a lower words to "LMAOOO" ratio in my note taking history, so i will do my best to make this comprehensible, but i had so much fun watching this :D
man, i'll need to remake my top episodes list at some point... but it might stretch into top 20 or 25!!!
ohh, i wonder what the top 20 most beloved episodes by the whole fandom are...?
we begin with some very dramatic spooky music as this kid runs around in texas, calling for help, followed by someone who is very very fast!!! this guy is going to kill this poor kid!!!! why is he running into the woods??? not a great place to go when you need to escape someone!!!
bigger guy is on top of the little one and OH!! he shoves a stake through his heart!!
IT’S MULDER DOING THE STAKING??
scully finds him over the body of the dead kid… and the kid has fangs!!!! BUT THEY’RE FAKE!!!
DID MULDER JUST KILL THIS KID????????
WHAT THE FUUUCK?!?! WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE
my face at this exact moment:😳😳😳
the intro was shortened... I ALWAYS NOTICE
okay, so now mulder is at his desk. scully walks in looking very very very tense. as if he just killed a child, perhaps. she carefully sits down.
“mulder…” “don’t. don’t even start with me” LMAO WHAT??? she is gagged and also making the same face as me 😳😳
(i couldn't tell what the tone of this episode was at the time, but now that i think about "don't. don't even start with me" i am CACKLING)
he throws a paper into his garbage can, which is surrounded by other thrown papers, and then starts KICKING IT??? she’s watching with a very “wtf” expression going on
IT’S TOO EARLY FOR ME TO FIGURE OUT THE TONE HERE, WTF
he is defeating the evil of that trash can, though.
ohhh no, skinner wants their report in ONE HOUR!!! scully is trying to be very pragmatic here.
they both clarify that they are going to say exactly what they saw, but he says “i got to know if you’re going to back me up or what” because he’s the one that might be going to prison!!! no pressure.
she adjusts her sitting position angrily: “first of all, if the family of ronnie strickland does indeed decide to sue the FBI for, i think the figure is $446 million, then you and i will most certainly be codefendants. and second of all… i don’t even HAVE a second of all, mulder” <- LMAOOO i’m HOWLING! SHE’S AT A LOSS FOR WORDS. JUST FILLED WITH FURY
“i’m in this as deep as you are, and i’m not even the one that overreacted!! i didn’t do the… with the thing!!” <- SHE CANNOT EVEN SAY IT, SHE CAN ONLY MAKE VAGUE GESTURES BAHAHAAA
he says that she needs to tell her story the way she saw it… and she replies that she doesn’t feel comfortable with that (queen of expressing boundaries!)
however, mulder counters that they’re facing the threat of prison, and that scully's cellmate will be named "large marge" and read lots of gertrude stein (oh god. that’s out of pocket, mulder!)
((this man makes far too many prison assault remarks. i understand that he is in a stressful situation. but still!))
he begins recording her version of the story…
“yesterday morning, when i arrived at work, you were… uh… characteristically exuberant” <- i’m crying, that is SUCH a perfect description of him. i have half a mind to change my url to that. but surely it has already been taken.
"HOPE YOU BROUGHT YOUR COWBOY BOOTS! YEEHAW", he says, slamming down plane tickets to texas on the desk <- LMAOOOOO she remembers him as a nonstop yapper, which is mostly accurate
(absolutely crying at the yeehaw in retrospect)
he won’t shut up or let her talk, he's too locked into these images of dead cows LMAOO “is there any sign of-" “two small puncture wounds in the neck?” “that’s not what i was going to ask” “too bad, we’ve got ‘em” <- i am actually giggling at this. she sees him as constantly over-caffeinated, and i love that
NOT THE CHUPACABRA SLANDER LMAOO “no, they got four fangs, not two, and they suck goats, hence the name” <- YOU TELL HER MULDER ‼️
(that episode is one of the worst, so i think the combination of light acknowledgement of that fact and allowing mulder to flex his encyclopedic memory of cryptids with the manner of a child who got into way too much sugar is frankly iconic)
and he casually adds there is one dead human, prompting her outraged “well why the hell didn’t you tell me that from the beginning?” but he’s already out the door LMAOOO
okay, i cannot stop laughing even though this episode may be about mulder murdering a child. such is the nature of this TV program.
they’re going to investigate the body deep in the heart of texas… and is that romantic music playing when this sheriff hartwell enters??? and she remembers mulder SNAPPING at her while he introduces them as if he cannot remember her name!!
(as if mulder could forget her name... scully i'm calling your bias out there)
mulder tells her to "MOVE YOUR LITTLE LEGS" LMAOOO???
now the sheriff and her are very close as he eagerly agrees to all of her ideas (that the killer was not a real vampire, but someone so obsessed with vampire movies that he wished to emulate them) and mulder watches, suspiciously
LMAOOOO MULDER CALLS HER STORY OUT BACK IN THE PRESENT WHEN SHE SAYS THE SHERIFF USED HER NAME “dana?!?! he never even knew your first name!” (angry scully look) “you going to interrupt me, or what?” “no, go ahead… dana”
(saw a post the other day that was like "they get to call each other dana or fox once each calendar year" and it's so true because it sounds so wrong when he says it in this context)
this point is where mulder makes his discovery: the dead man’s SHOES are UNTIED!
yeah, idk what that means either.
SHE KEEPS SMILING AT THIS SHERIFF HARTWELL LMAO. DOWN BAAAD.
mulder is pondering… “sheriff, do you have an old cemetery in town, off the beaten path, the creepier the better?”
it is so funny to think that all of these events are through the lens of scully's mind because she sees him as so fucking weird and spooky. both of which are true.
LMAOOO mulder says she must do a full autopsy! “what am i even looking for?” (he grabs her shoulders and leans in) “i don’t know”
LMAOOOO okay, so back before i even thought about watching this show, i saw that gifset on my main and i reblogged it with the caption “man. i’m going to have to watch this show, aren’t i?”, and here we are. so this feels very full circle to have finally seen it
poor scully has had an autopsy thrust upon her :(
scully is totally smitten with this guy though, oh my god…..
(i truly cannot figure out her type. mulder, jerse, esther, and this guy? what is the common ground?! between mulder and esther there was the whole "incredibly intelligent" thing, but the other two?? just like?? dark hair?? idk!)
autopsy time… she's talking into her little voice recorder about the dead man “who is arguably having a worse time in texas than i am. although not by much” LMAOOO
(i wonder if she really did get that candid in her recording, or if she is just being dramatic in her retelling of the tale. i assume she only records herself for the sake of writing the reports, so maybe she is free to say whatever it is that crosses her mind, in which case i would like to listen in)
NOOO, her blade falls out before she can begin and she sadly yeehaws
(god. a sad scully yeehaw. i used to pray for days like these)
time to weight all the organs. UGH the intestines are all slippery!!!
he had pizza in his stomach. LMAO THE MUSHROOMS SOUND GOOD TO HER BAHAHA SHE IS SO STRANGE
back to the present moment- our agents can’t agree on the name of the motel they stayed in, which is not promising for the rest of their stories aligning
you can put two quarters in the bed and make it jiggle? this is news to me! and this is just what scully does!
an angry and dirty mulder appears just as she begins this process!
ohhh, the dead guy had lots of sleeping drugs in his system… and her voice is all funny because she is jiggling while she says this… she thinks the “vampire” gave the guy the drugs. meanwhile, mulder is not elaborating on his very dirty appearance!
NOOOO there’s another dead tourist and she has to do another autopsy!!! “i just put money in the magic fingers :(“ AWWW POOR SCULLY
(why couldn't that wait until tomorrow!?!!)
he says he won’t let it go to waste and IS HE GOING TO CLIMB IN ALL DIRTY??? LMAOO NOOOO
the subtitles point out that he is “laughing mischievously” which escalated to “cackling”… what is this man planning!!! he takes pleasure in dirtying her jiggling bed!!
(regardless of the accuracy of if it really happened in such a manner, it’s sad to see how taken advantage of scully feels by him 🙁)
she sadly leaves after telling him not to get mud everywhere
NOOOO the pizza guy just got there :( BAHAHA she wanted pizza after autopsying that guy… well she is going to make “the guy in there” pay for it. serves him right!!!
OH! the pizza guy is the vampire kid!!!!!!!
she’s soooo sleepy as she does the second autopsy…. ANOTHER NASTY SLIPPERY LARGE INTESTINE
she is going to fall asleep like this!!!!!!
then she gets a phone call that is just heavy breathing. so she hangs tf up!!!
this dead guy has pizza in him too!!!! OH.... she realizes the chloral hydrate must be in the pizza!! and it must be the pizza guy who is the killer!! and oh no, mulder!!!
scully bangs down the door to her motel room and mulder isn’t visible…. just the creepy pizza kid!!!! she fires a bunch of shots at him, but he runs away!!
so mulder was drugged… and he says some very weird stuff about "shaft" that i don’t wish to unpack. hearing of this makes present mulder gasp and exclaim “i did not!” and yeah, i don’t even want to know <3
(a lot of times i google stuff i don’t understand due to not being alive in the 90’s. this one? i shall not google it. i am not a fool. i recoginzed Enough of those words to know i don't need to know)
she missed the pizza kid with her first four shots which is rare for her, ran after him, leaving poor drugged mulder behind, but somehow, mulder caught the kid before she did, where he... “overreacted”
damn. he's a track star even when drugged.
she argues that they can tell skinner they caught a killer, and that mulder's zeal was due to the drugging, which i think is a fine story.
but mulder is pissed! “you are afraid to tell the truth. that’s not the way it happened at all!” OHHH, I CANNOT WAIT TO GET HIS VIEW
“yesterday morning began like any other morning; you arrived at the office, characteristically less than exuberant” LMAOOOOOO BE NICE TO HER!!!
he remembers his explanations being very slow and gentle and her reactions being very sassy AND I’M LAUGHING AT HER “AND?” LMAOOOOO
she’s just LOOKING AT HIM and he doesn’t know wtf to do BAHAHA AND HE IS SOOO CAREFUL TO USE “APPARENTLY” and “VAMPIRE-LIKE” IN HIS DESCRIPTIONS OF THE ATTACKS LMAOOOO
he ends his very cautious assessment that this attack was "vampire-like" in nature by telling her “but as always, i’m very eager to hear your opinion” <- THAT DID NOT HAPPEN YOU LYING BASTARD!! YOU HAVE NEVER SAID THAT ONCE LMAOOOO
“well it’s obviously not a vampire” “well, why not?” “because they don’t exist?” <- BAHAHA that is ANOTHER GIFSET I SAW BEFORE I DECIDED TO WATCH THIS SHOW!! oh man, so this one really must be a fan favorite if i saw two scenes from it before i even started watching
“well… that’s one opinion, and i respect that” <- BAHAHAHAAAA YOU LIAR!!!
so they go down to the funeral home where he points out the plentiful caskets- unusual for such a small town. scully had tuned out at this point. and you know what? can you blame her?
HE REMEMBERS THE SHERIFF AS HAVING HUGE BUCK TEETH THAT MAKES HIM HARD TO UNDERSTAND which present scully DENIES bahaha ohhh he’s jealous and she is gaaazing at sheriff hartwell and smiling and oh my god, mulder is so jealous
he’s monologing on the nature of vampires but scully shoots this down
“there are as many kinds of vampires as there are cultures that fear them” <- ohhh nerd. NERD!!! nerdy thing to say.
she’s yawning as he talks about red hair being an indication of vampirism, gesturing to her, which happened in an AU fic i actually did briefly read once and would like to see explored in greater detail. i'm a sucker for fic or art with the "skeptic is actually a monster" trope
he is now at the cemetery with the sheriff, whose country accent has increased greatly between the agent's perspectives
cemeteries are a haven for vampires, “as are castles, catacombs, and swamps”, mulder points out, and i'm writing that down ✍️
he remembers this sheriff as being incredibly stupid. ohhh, the pizza guy pulls up at the cemetery!!! he waves hello and then drives off.
so they staked out the cemetery. fun times.
she wants to know why he cared so much about the corpse’s shoelaces, but he just looks at his OWN shoes lmaooo and says he’s getting to it
he was leaving sunflower seeds for the vampires at the cemetery, because all vampires are obsessive compulsive. they must untie knots and count seeds. which is why he thinks the shoelaces were untied. fascinating bit of vampire lore.
but they must go to the RV camp, where there is a situation. ronnie the pizza guy is here!! there’s an RV that’s spinning around.
mulder doesn’t want to talk about shooting out the tires... what is this man HIDING!!
well, it turns out it is very hard to shoot the tires of a moving RV... so HE GRABBED ON THE BACK AND WAS SPUN AROUND IN CIRCLES BAHAHA WHYYYYY WAS THAT HIS NEXT COURSE OF ACTION?!?!?
finally, they manage to stop the damn thing. and inside the RV was a dead guy!!!! with puncture marks on his neck and untied shoes!!! gasp!!
when he returns back to the motel, he remembers scully yelling at him because she has to do another autopsy, saying “i do it all for you, mulder!” (which is CRAZY!) and that she hasn’t eaten since 6 that morning, and she only had a bagel, and it wasn’t even REAL CREAM CHEESE!!!
listen!! can you blame her for being furious?? she just paid for the magic fingers!!!
he remembers her leaving as being a great relief, and her SLAMMING THE DOOR SO HARD THE PAINTING SHOOK ON THE WALL BAHAHAHA
aww, he sees himself as the poor little victim…. bro. you MAY have had it rough with getting dragged around by an RV, but in her defense 1. that was your faulty idea and 2. it probably was still not as bad as having to do 2 autopsies on an empty stomach
he goes to get in the shower. ohhh hello. that is a man who is emerging scantily clad.
now ronnie the pizza guy is here, and mulder is saying that he will pay for the tasty food. not knowing it contains the sleepy stuff!
he opens up the pizza and sighs with relief: “ah, scully” <- oh, so you think she has good taste in pizza toppings? that’s hilarious
“so, i ate your dinner” <- okay, well at least he’s honest about that!! a grown man on the vibrating bed, noticing his shoes were untied…. and the drugging is taking place!! this is instant karma for such a pizza thief!!
he tries to call scully, but only groans into the phone…. then ronnie returns
BAHAHA he recalls scully calling the voice on the phone a creep <- well, you can’t really blame her!!!!!!
ronnie is here, and his eyes glow and he has fangs… but the inebriated mulder manages to toss his sunflower seeds on the ground, thwarting ronnie the vampire slash pizza guy's plan!! which prompts him to say “aw man!” (LMAOOOOO) and then mulder's back out in sleepy land…
when he comes to, scully is bursting in the door, and she shot ronnie TWO TIMES IN THE CHEST!!! to no effect!!!
scully is shocked at this recollection: “and then he sort of flew at me like a flying squirrel?” BAHAHA
so, she runs after ronnie into the woods, while mulder breaks a chair leg to make a stake… and bam. the "overreaction".
scully points out that no one will believe that story, but he says they will have to when they examine ronnie’s body
(i think it's very funny/sweet that scully does not remember being able to shoot ronnie, but mulder remembers her aim being perfect and that it was simply ineffective because you cannot kill vampires with bullets. not sure whose perspective is the objective truth, but it's adorable he remembers her being a great aim)
someone else is examining ronnie now. what shall he find??? bleh, he takes the stake out! nasty nasty!!! what if ronnie gets up and runs away??
OH RONNIE *IS* GETTING UP!!!! and his eyes are set on this coroner!!!! he attacks!!!
poor scully and mulder are waiting for skinner… she tries for fix his tie, but he shoos her away!!! so rude!!! there is no gesture more loving than the adjustment of a necktie!!
she asks him to keep reminding skinner that he was drugged, which ALSO pisses mulder off. BUT IS SHE WRONG??? IT WILL GO A LONG WAY!!
THEN WHEN SKINNER COMES IN HE STANDS STRAIGHT UP AND ANNOUNCES “I WAS DRUGGED” <- LMAOOOOOO
(i laughed so hard at this that i accidentally hit the pause button, and i’m looking at mulder's expression and scully watching him, and there are TEARS in my eyes)
skinner sighs deeply…. and says they have to go back to texas!! ronnie’s body is gone, and the coroner was attacked!! his throat was “sort of… gnawed on” LMAO?????
“but… he was dead” “i noticed that” (mulder is doing his slutty hands on hips while thinking pose)
so they’re back out to the yeehaw cemetery. why would a real vampire need fake fangs? well, mulder answers, the fangs of vampires are rarely mentioned in folklore!
“i think maybe you were right before when you said that this is just a guy who’s watched too many dracula movies. he just happens to be a real vampire” <- BAHAHAAAA I SMACKED MY CHEST I LAUGHED SO HARD AT THIS
scully sighs deeply. average scully reaction.
the sheriff pulls up!!! she turns to him and points at her teeth, indicating that to mulder that his teeth are NORMAL LMAO
GASP... HE LEAVES AND SAYS THE SHERIFF SHOULD STAY WITH HER… THEN HE PUTS HIS HAND ON HER SHOULDER AND SAYS “don’t say i never did anything for you” OH MY GOD?
mulder was so jealous before and now he is leaving her with this man... what does this say about him!!!
he’s off to the RV park, and scully is here to share some coffee with this sheriff.
woah, he asks her about vampires….. and she says they’re supposed to be charming and seductive, but who is to say if that is the case? after all, there are many kinds of vampires. wait. why did he say “yup, sure are” I DON’T LIKE THAT!!
HE APOLOGIZES FOR RONNIE AND SAYS HE MAKES US ALL LOOK BAD? “i mean, we pay taxes, we’re good neighbors” OMG LOOK AT HER FACE WHEN SHE REALIZES WHAT HE MEANS!?!
NOOO, SHE DRANK THE COFFEE HE GAVE HER, AND NOW SHE’S PASSING OUT!!! DON’T TOUCH HER, CREEPY SHERIFF MAN WITH NOW-GLOWING EYES!!!!!
mulder is at this RV park far away!!! run, run back to her!!!! she is going to be out of blood by the time you return!!!
he goes into the RV from earlier and finds more pizza… and a casket!!! with ronnie inside!!! listening to a walkman!!
he sits on his coffin as he reads ronnie his miranda rights…. but the whole RV park is full of vampires and they are coming to get him!!!
so he handcuffs the coffin shut, grabs some breadsticks, makes a crucifix, trying to repel them…. which is objectively hilarious... but they take him????? TO DO WHAT???
and he’s found the next morning with his feet out the window of a car. AND WHY IS SHE IN THE SHERIFF’S JACKET??
he checks her neck and his own for fang marks, but they don’t seem to have any. they just have no memories at all from the evening before!!! and every single RV is gone!!! and mulder's shoes are untied!!!
skinner is being told that the vampires simply disappeared
“and that’s exactly the way it happened, start to finish?”
(silence) “well, i can neither confirm nor deny agent mulder’s version of events, which occurred outside my presence” “and i can neither confirm nor deny agent scully’s version of events, but, um…” “anyway, i was drugged” (LMAO SCULLLLYY) “that is…. essentially, exactly the way it happened” “essentially”
we fade to black with this. (“except for the part about the buck teeth”, adds mulder)
LMAOOOO??? that was it???
no answer. no convictions. the vampires all just left.
someone else recently pointed out that despite them never figuring out wtf happened on these cases, they somehow have the highest success rate at the FBI, and that is so funny because. by jove. the other FBI members must be terrible at their jobs.
okay, so i could not stop laughing during this episode, and the sheriff plot twist really surprised me. so she never actually *slept* with the vampire, she just had a little crush on him!!! therefore, i must have misinterpreted that comment someone made on my post waaayyy back in s2.
but he *did* drug her, and she woke up in his jacket, which has… implications, especially when we earlier opened with a prison assault joke.
but. okay. maybe i’m just hyper-sensitive to these things and it didn’t intend to be interpreted that way. plus, mulder was drugged too, and also woke up with no memory of what went down. at least there's gender equality in that regard.
ohhh, mulder was jealous!!! they both think of the other as too harsh!!! it’s fascinating to see how they see each other!!! he thinks he’s this suave encyclopedia of vampire knowledge, and she thinks he’s the type of guy that slaps down plane tickets on the desk and says yeehaw!
she thinks she’s overworked and taken advantage of, and he thinks she’s overly negative and hates all of his theories and ideas!!!
oh, the joys and sorrows of being with someone 24/7. and yet. the absolute MINUTE she leaves for vacation. he’s blowing up her phone. bahahahaaaa. couple’s therapy now.
i remember someone pointed out in 3x13 that it was almost like the writers were trying to prove why they would never make a good couple in the way they got along horrifically when mercury was in retrograde or whatnot. i feel like maybe the writers intended for that to happen again this episode, like they were pointing at them and saying "SEE? this is why they can't kiss! they get on each other's nerves!"
joke's on you, i love couples that annoy each other. so jot that down.
oh, it was a good episode. a nice little silly one. which we all deserved after last season, and frankly even after earlier in this season as well.
mulder: let her fix your tie >:(
#after alllll of s4 they said “we need to do a few silly ones” and thank god for that tbh.#these last 3 episodes were such a great run. i am curious to see where we will go next#also curious that this season has fewer episodes! but the movie comes next right? so i guess that makes up for it. maybe.#oh poor scully doing two autopsies in one day. why couldn't it have waited until the next morning? there's no good reason!#but in the end it saved her from being drugged twice. so that was a good thing.#i hope they went and got a nice and non-drugged pizza after this. and it was big so they could share it and get fun toppings.#the end!#juni's x files liveblog#5x12#the x files#txf
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So, I'm simply obsessed with this fanfic " Blood Feud " so like any good artist I went there to make a fanart!
She has views on the characters so I decided to do a style comparison
Of the three brothers, Harry is the most described and is also said to be the most handsome; at the beginning of the story, Harry and Harley are said to have blue eyes, but later this changes to green (I just assumed the first narrator is colorblind). I tried to get as much information as possible and I'm pretty sure he was inspired by James Franco. He did well, but I have a lot of affection for my Afro-Asian Harry Osborn.
Of the three siblings, Peter is the least described, although from the few details it is possible to see who they was inspired by. It is said that Peter is the most similar to his father, which is interesting considering that he was the one who suffered the most (it can be diagnosed: projection and self-hatred on Osborn's part). I didn't really like the palette (he looked like a vampire) but I couldn't stray too far from the description. Personally, I think that mine and hers are nothing alike, but maybe that's because I was the one who draw every little detail.
In the story Harley is only 13 that's why they look so small, not much is said about him but it's still more than what is said about Peter, so in their design I tried to get as much detail from Ty Sympics; although this post is to compare styles I had never drawn Harley before (that I remember) I had only imagined what it would look like which was cool now I can see what looks good and what doesn't; I still prefer blue eyes to green ones.
Finally, she's the reason why I started this series of drawings! okay Mary Jane has very little description but since the three of them were inspired by actors I assumed she was too, I just wasn't sure if it was Kirsten Dunst or Shailene Woodley so I took a little bit of both I really liked her design she was very sweet and pretty, but modesty aside I think nothing will surpass my design of MJ Watson she is simply beautiful and my favorite design
So, as I said above, the reason I started this series was Mary Jane specifically the fact that there is a Mary Jane and a Michelle Jones which for me simply does not exist! But there is a reason within the story so it's okay, I was really scared to do Michelle Jones because everyone talks about how hard it is to draw Zendaya, no I think it turned out really well now is it identical to Zendaya? Of course not, now my version was easier in the end I just had to do a c against v and remove the hair dye, I was afraid that if I removed her red hair she would lose some of her charm but it seems that MJ Watson can't be less than wonderful.
So that's it, I would have done Johnny and Gwen's (I even have some Johnny doodles) but since there are very few details about them I thought it wouldn't be worth it.
I wanted to talk more about the drawing process and every little detail but this post is so long that I don't even know if I'll be able to save it.
I couldn't find the author's tumblr so if anyone knows it would be great if you sent it to them <3 <3
#“Oh why didn't you post one drawing at a time?”#I HAVE ANXIETY!!!#But seriously#I highly recommend reading this story#it destroyed me.#spiderman#marvel#peter parker#harry osborn#harley keener#mj watson#Michelle Jones#mary jane#norman osborn#green goblin#green goblin jr#ironman#irondad#ao3#spiderman fanfic#fanfic#spiderman fanart#fanart#fsnfic fanart#marvel fanart#harry osborn fanart#mj watson fanart#peter parker fanart#bean coffe gang#my art
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I love this prompt list!! Could I have 9. historic and 23. wind for anyone you’d like to write?
A little post-war tidbit, for Dick and Joan and a few other familiar faces.
Try as he might, he could not remember the house.
"Well, of course you don't remember it," Joan said, as if this were the most obvious thing in the world. "You never came upstairs. The most you ever saw of the inside of the Frobishers' was the Captain's study for a drink after dinner."
Dick allowed that she was right, and contented himself with pulling her a little closer and trying to find his memory of that room - just inside the front door, to the left. He remembered a chess board and a whiskey decanter, and long panoramic photos on the wall. Well, that was something, at least. His mind hadn't completely deserted him after all this time away.
It was cold, for September, with the wind coming out of the North, and the fur-lined lap robe seemed the very height of luxury here in the wide back bench seat of the saloon car. Mrs. Frobisher was, as always, a very thoughtful hostess - she'd sent the car to the station at Newbury with the robe, a flask of tea, and strict instructions that the couple were to come straight to the house so they might have time to freshen up before dinner. So for now it was just the two of them opening up their shared personal history and reminiscing fondly about Wiltshire country roads.
"You were always in and out of our rooms," Dick remembered, suddenly, as the car took them by the turning-in to the drive for Littlecote House.
"And I always had the door open when I did it," Joan pointed out. "If I'd even thought of inviting you upstairs with me the scandal would have been all over town by tea-time." She smiled privately and, looking over at him, squeezed his knee. "And I'll remind you at the time, you weren't very interested in upstairs rooms or in me, Lieutenant Winters."
"More fool me," Dick said dryly, covering her hand with his own so it might stay where it was.
"Here we are," said the driver, cutting in as politely as he could as he turned into the drive.
"Who on earth is that?" Dick asked, taking note of a tall, dark-haired man in his late twenties standing next to Captain and Mrs. Frobisher in the drive.
"That must be one of their sons," Joan said, sitting up and studying the face a little as the car pulled to a stop. "I couldn't tell you which."
Dick was glad, at least, that he wasn't the only one without answers, and contented himself with rearranging the robe away from the door so Joan might step out of the car and exchange greetings and Abigail Frobisher could admire, in this order, her hair, her coat, and her luggage, before launching into a detailed version of the itinerary that had already been decided weeks ago by letter.
"And Major Winters! So good to see you again, my dear. I don't think either of you have met Aubrey, our eldest. He was away, when you were here last."
"You make it sound like I was at school, Mother," Aubrey observed with a slight smile, stepping forward to join the group, "and not fighting the Japanese. Heard so much about you both," the younger Frobisher offered, shaking hands with both of them. Dick took note of the cane he was resting on, the slight brittleness of his smile, and tried to remember the pictures on the Captain's desk. Was it Army, or Air Forces? The detail escaped him. If he wanted to know how Aubrey Frobisher had been injured, it seemed like Dick was going to need to ask.
"All of it good, I hope," Joan joked, merely for something to say.
"The absolute best," Aubrey assured her, her hand still in his. "I was promised you were a beauty, and I'm happy to report a rare case of my mother telling the truth."
"Aubrey!" Just which part of what he'd said had raised offense with his mother was difficult to divine - she looked flushed, though whether that was from her comments about Joan or her son's about her gossip no one could say. And, too, there was a slight touch of color in Joan's cheeks too, a fact which made Dick a little warm under the collar himself.
"Shall we all go inside?" Captain Frobisher, as always, had the whole thing well in hand, interrupting before anyone got too hot. He held the door open to allow his wife and Joan into the house first, letting his son take his time with the two steps up and heading up the rear with Dick. "How are you, Major?"
"Well enough," Dick said, shaking the Captain's hand. "Keeping busy. You?"
"Can't complain," Oliver Frobisher said with a shrug. "The world keeps turning and we all turn with it. It's nice to have a full house again. Will you have a game of chess after dinner - for old time's sake? I haven't had a half-decent game since I played against your friend Nixon."
"If you want half-decent, you'd better keep waiting," Dick managed, still trying to keep his eye on Aubrey and Joan. "Nix was always a better player than me."
"Ah, well, in chess, maybe," the Captain said with a smile. "It seems to me you won the only other game worth playing." He nodded to Joan, who had finally been left alone in the hall after Mrs. Frobisher had sent her son on some errand or another, and winked.
Dick smiled gratefully and joined his wife to help take off her coat.
"Are you jealous, Mr. Winters?" Joan asked, when she'd gotten out of her scarf and helped him leave his own overcoat on the hall tree. "You have a terrible poker face."
"I'm just glad he was in Burma while you were here," Dick said quietly, his relief little-hidden now that the two of them were alone, thinking of Aubrey, and Lew, and a thousand other dark-eyed charmers. "If he'd been here I don't think I would have stood a chance."
#asked and answered#antinousw1ld#i have written a thing#mercurygraypresents#tds cinematic universe#joan warren#fun with dick and joan
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For the Sambucky romance ask: 💕
SamBucky Romance Asks
Ooh, "💕 Who Fell First"! Great option, Leslie 😆 It was so good, I accidentally 😂 wrote enough to post on AO3, so it's on there too 😂 I hope you enjoy this little fic! 🥰
Link to AO3 version!
Plum Jam
Sam hadn't meant to bump into the man when he was at the grocery store.
Honestly, Sam's entire day had been a bit of a mess.
Sam had talked to Steve about Riley earlier that day. And it wasn't that Sam didn't like thinking about Riley. Sam loved to remember the ridiculous dad jokes Riley loved to tell; he loved how Riley would find a way to tangle himself in Sam's personal space whenever he had the opportunity; Sam loved how Riley's arm always rested on his chest when they slept like a comforting weight.
But thinking back to that moment.
Back to the fall.
Sam always forgot how much pain that dredged up in him. How it could feel as if that guilt and heartbreak were fresh again, like a reopened wound.
Sam had asked to go home early when he realized how unfocused he was at the VA after that. He had gone home and realized he had no food, and without really thinking about how he could have just ordered in, decided to go to the grocery store.
And now, Sam was bumping into random strangers.
"Sorry," said Sam, frazzled as he noticed and picked up the plum jam on the ground that had thankfully not broken during the fall, "I'm all over the place. Here."
Sam extended the plum jam to the man.
The man wore mostly leather, with a baseball cap on greasy, long hair that needed a brush and a mask Sam assumed had to be heavy duty - maybe the man had a cold?
The man didn't look down at the jam.
No.
He stared at Sam with piercing blue eyes that pinned Sam where he stood. He stared at Sam as if Sam were the first person he had seen after a long coma. He started at Sam as if Sam had just moved mountains, had just performed a miracle.
He stared at Sam like Sam was the hottest man he'd ever seen in his life.
Sam's face heated at that thought, because, no, not everyone Sam bumped into at the grocery store thought Sam was hot. Sam wasn't going to feed into that idea.
"I'll... put it back on the shelf," said Sam, about to place the jam back before the man's hand instantly reached for the jam.
His hand wrapped around both Sam's fingers and the jam.
"Bucky!" blurted the man, still holding the jar of jam with Sam.
It felt like they were holding hands.
Sam couldn't find it in himself to let go.
"My name is Bucky," said the man as if he was only certain of that fact at this very moment.
Sam couldn't help but answer back, "I'm Sam."
Bucky didn't look down at the jam. He kept looking into Sam's eyes. Sam couldn't keep holding onto the jam with this man, could he?
"You like plums?" asked Sam, which sounded awkward when he was saying it.
"Do I - " Bucky started before turning his gaze to the jar, "... I guess I do."
Weird way to answer that.
"My Ma, when she was very young, used to go to this one stand in Constanța that had these fresh plums," continued Bucky, his voice soft, "She would look everywhere for plums that reminded her of home. When she found some we could afford, she would scrounge up whatever supplies we had at home and try to make găluște cu prune - plum dumplings. She could never make them as well as her bunica, but I always loved them."
Sam couldn't see the smile, but he could feel it. This man reminded of home and family by something so small.
"We had this pecan tree in the back of our house - we still do, my sister owns our family home now," Sam explained, "And my mama would have us help her pick pecans and make pralines. It was usually during a Saturday afternoon and our entire house would smell like pralines for days. She talked about how her own mama had taught her, and her mama's daddy had taught her. And when I miss her, sometimes I'll buy a thing of pecans and try to make pralines."
"You're beautiful," Bucky said, stumbling before correcting himself, "That's beautiful. That's."
Sam really needed to stop basically holding hands with this man.
Bucky was wearing these gloves, these fingerless gloves. Sam wasn't sure if he had ever seen fingerless leather gloves before, but here they were, on this man.
There was a distinct contrast between the gloves and Bucky's fingers.
The gloves were smooth; a soft, thick black leather that felt almost comforting.
Bucky's fingers were calloused to hell and back. They rubbed on Sam like a strangely addictive sandpaper. They radiated heat; they were almost scorching to the touch without the leather. But it was a nice heat; the type you nestled in after a long, tiring day at work.
Sam wanted to crawl into that heat and close his eyes.
Fuck.
Why was Sam still holding onto this jar?
"I'm not even sure why I'm in this aisle," Sam confessed, "I meant to just get myself a roast chicken."
Which sounded sad. It was a little sad. But hey, a man can live alone and eat pre-cooked chicken if he wanted to.
"They roast the chicken for you?" asked Bucky, as if he had never been to a grocery store in his life.
"Yeah. They do," said Sam, still holding the jam with Bucky, "I usually shred it up, put it on some rice with some veggies I cook with the rice. Shishito peppers and onions and garlic. Pretty simple easy meal."
"Sounds delicious," said Bucky, still gazing into Sam's eyes as if they were the only things for miles.
"It can be," said Sam as he finally, finally, let go of the jam, "I should probably get that chicken for it. Hope you like the plum jam."
"Yeah," said Bucky as he straightened his back and cleared his throat, "Yeah. Thank you for the jam."
Sam walked away from Bucky. He could still feel Bucky's gaze on him as he left the aisle.
#sambucky ask game#sambucky#sam wilson#bucky barnes#sambucky fic#first to fall#meet cute#tooth rotting fluff#canon divergent catws#past sam wilson/riley#my fics#Plum Jam
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The 14 Skeleton Names:
As I type this, I know that I have a lot of other AU's I can put here, but I narrowed it down to the main 14 sets of brothers to keep it short. I'll make another separate posts including the other AU's and even the outcodes like Error, Ink, Killer, etc. Not every name I use is what others use within the community, so this just keeps things in line and even will explain the reasoning behind certain names! This is entirely based on that really cheesy trope of them all being roommates so take this as if they all decided to have names to differentiate each other! Also yes, UT brothers deserve names too, it's not fair that they hardly have their names changed in those fics and also I think that both of them would find it fun!
I also decided to name each of them with the same last name: Serrif. It's a font and I think that they'd all (mostly) agree that it's a good last name for them to share. After all, it's clear that none of the monsters underground had a need for last names.
Undertale -
Undertale Sans: Vanilla Serrif. Just like vanilla ice cream, Sans has a variety of AU's with each of their own unique "toppings." I find it fitting that the classic og has the name Vanilla because there's so much to do with vanilla ice cream, you can't do something new with something such as rocky road
Undertale Papyrus: Cyperus Serrif. Cyperus Papyrus, which is better known as Papyrus, is a species of long, aquatic flowering plants that is known for being a "paper plant." It has origins dating all the way back to when the font was first used on "Papyrus Paper." Now wouldn't that be a fun reason he chose the name? He's a smart, creative monster who would definitely do something like this.
Underfell -
Underfell Sans: Red Serrif. A classic, of course. He's more of a lazy type and I think that he'd name himself Red to seem cool, instead of naming himself after food like the og. He wouldn't put too much thought into his name, but it would stick rather well since he was one of the first to be moved from his universe.
Underfell Papyrus: Pitch Serrif. Pitch black like the leather he'd wear and pitch black like his so totally cool and edgy personality! He wanted a menacing name, and he wasn't going to just name himself after a color if it didn't sound cool! (He was going to name himself something cooler, but his brother named himself after a color and so he wanted them to secretly match with color coded names)
Underswap -
Underswap Sans: Powder Serrif. Not only is it a pretty color of blue, but it's a name that implies that he's nimble and almost "floating." He has a very active personality, so he found that it's a very fitting name! It's light like his personality and behaviors, he swears that it's a better name than just Blue. He wanted to put a little bit more thought into his name than "edgy him."
Underswap Papyrus: Stretch Serrif. Also a classic, there weren't many names that he found appealing. He was nicknamed things such as carrot, but it was actually Vanilla that helped him find his name. He commented that he was like a "stretched" out version of him, joking. Of course, he couldn't pass up the opportunity to make his name not only an inside joke, but almost a small pun that he loves.
Horrortale -
Horrortale Sans: Saint Serrif. It actually wasn't his idea to be named Saint. He was more stubborn about his name since that was an identity he wanted to cling onto. However, this was still when he was just fresh outside of his underground. At the gentle persistence of his brother, he begrudgingly let himself not be so clingy about his name. The others weren't so cruel as to name him something like Axe, Swiss, etc. In fact, Powder actually was the one to come up with the name. It means a holy one, and Powder found that it was fitting because despite everything that happened: He prevailed, and kept to at least most of his morals. Saint values his name now as he opens a new chapter of his life
Horrortale Papyrus: Lunar Serrif. He was delighted to have a new name, even if he had a history with his previous name. There's a lot of shame in the underground, and so he ended up going with the name Lunar. It's pale, faded like his magic, but it also means the moon. Unlike the Sun, it is soothing and quiet, still ever bright but in its own way.
Swapfell Red -
Swapfell Red Sans: Carmine Serrif. It's a very pretty shade of red, just like his magic. He liked the idea of making himself think of a pretty color, while also going by a name that had associations to his underground roots without specifically tying the name down to it. After all, the color carmine is the color of dried blood and is a raw pigment. As a result, he chose a name that suited his tastes
Swapfell Red Papyrus: Rus Serrif. So, he really did not care for changing his name. Some people say it's because it sounds like a name a dog would have, but it's actually because he liked the sound of it by itself separate from Papyrus. papy-RUS. Carmine tried to make him choose a different name, but he stuck with it
Swapfell Purple -
Swapfell Purple Sans: Razz Serrif. Raspberry purple is a beautiful shade of purple, and it happens to be the color of purple his magic is. So, for short, he chose to call himself Razz. Razz, however, is a word that means to heckle, ridicule, or to tease. It's a habit he happens to have, and because he's educated enough to have known this, it's the real reason he chose to name himself this
Swapfell Purple Papyrus: Cash Serrif. He has a lot of ties and intelligence revolving money, the best gambler underground in fact. He's lazy, but Razz refused him to go by anything that could be associated with his original name in the name of originality. This failed, of course. But, Razz let him keep it
Fellswap Gold -
Fellswap Gold Sans: Wine Serrif. Wine is a beautiful drink that was rare in his underground, but a pleasure he had nonetheless due to his ranking. It's also a beautiful color, so he found it only rational to name himself Wine. It's a reflection of his more classy personality, after all.
Fellswap Gold Papyrus: Coffee Serrif. He wanted to go by a name that complimented his brothers, so he did the same thing as Wine by naming himself after his favorite drink. He didn't need to put much thought into it, but it works nonetheless
Some reasons have more meaning than others, so uh,,,yeah👴👍
Pt 2 on the way
#alternate universe#undertale au#undertale#names#sans undertale#sans au#sans#papyrus undertale#papyrus au#papyrus#underswap#underfell#horrortale#swapfell red#swapfell purple#fellswap gold#im tired#help
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BH remake ch 30
The exchange between Rood and Lidusis remains more or less the exact same, verbatim. The only notable change for me is in Rood's demeanor.
In the old version he seems a bit embarrassed to admit how powerful he is outright, likely given how he might come off as a braggart to others (though he's just stating a fact in his case)
But new version of Rood appears to have no social awareness whatsoever and is entirely unabashed when saying the exact same thing
Humility? Never heard of him this time.
This goes back to a difference I've noticed in the new Rood... he seems a little less aware of the effect some of his words and actions have on others (maybe why the scene where he charms the receptionist girl at Helios into giving him Lidusis' room key is also no longer there now... Rood isn't aware enough to use such ploys anymore).
I like how the older version of Rood was easier to understand and connect to, but I assume the author has something in different in mind for his character's story with this seeming intentional difference.
In the old version the classroom scene opens up with a panel of Lin silently listening to the other students talk, but this time we have Dio instead.
Maybe it's meant to focus on how Dio himself might be feeling in this situation a bit more (being more deeply involved and affected), but at the rate Lin's scenes are being cut she's starting to feel more like a vocal background character rather than a side character. 🥲
But apart from that, I'm glad they've kept the part where she speaks out against their treatment of Lidusis and makes them feel ashamed. 😤
Iel's part is speaking out in the class however... I'm not sure of how to explain it... it remains the same in spirit, but feels entirely different in impact to me now (?).
I think this might be very subjective to reader interpretation, but I'll try to explain what I mean to the best of my ability in the rest of this post...
In both cases, when the class tries to argue against Lin's defense of Lidusis with things she couldn't answer well herself (like how students saw Lidusis as a monster in the library before), Iel speak up by explaining Chevel's likely use of illusion magic and how the students are really just afraid of Chevel and the Klads rather than truly believing anything about Lidusis... and concluding that they have a chance against them now that Rood is in the picture.
But somehow, Iel came across as mostly cold in the old version, while she comes across as correctly calculating in this version.
In the old version, Iel didn't seem to care or react to anything going on at all until this point, so it seemed like she just decided to join in when it was convenient to her. But this time, we saw her look worried / concerned and watched the events surrounding Lidusis and Rood quite closely before this point, so it seems like she was waiting for a moment when she could contribute to the situation more effectively. (Which immediately makes all the scenes Iel is watching everything going on in the hall more relevant.)
Another thing is that in the old version Iel kicks off her whole talk with "I've been thinking about it..." making it sound like she'd thought about it and figured out what was going on a while back, but just didn't care enough to speak up until now despite all the drama going on. But the dialogue seems to be different here (I think? I don't have access the OG Korean text so I can't be 100% sure) and Iel just starts speaking directly about what she's thinking making it seem more like she's thinking out loud about what's going through her mind right then. (TBF Looking back on it, MAYBE the old ver was supposed to have the same implication but I misunderstood, mb. But even if so, it comes across more clearly now imo.
It would always make me irrationally upset when I read this scene... that Rood and Lin were trying so desperately to help Lidusis despite not knowing what was going on, and Iel might have figured it out long ago and just kept quiet about it. But I don't get that feeling from the scene now.
In terms of actual dialogue, what she says seems to be mostly the same. One notable change however, is that in the old version once Iel finished explaining how they were likely tricked into turning against Lidusis by Chevel's illusion magic, she immediately concludes her talk by saying "None of this probably makes a difference to you, since you're just making excuses" which a) doesn't seem to be true, since a number of them do seem genuinely scared of Lidusis not knowing what's going on with him, and b) is kinda a jerk remark to say, Iel. I mean, at bare minimum at least they're talking about how they're collectively going to deal with an issue their whole class is facing while you've been comfortably just reading a book in your quiet little corner contributing absolutely nothing the whole time.
But in the new version an extra bit of dialogue has been added; with Iel immediately following up exposing Chevel's trick with a type of defense of Lidusis, pointing out that if something had really been wrong with him the school wouldn't have ignored that and removed him already.
...then both versions feature her concluding with the same remark saying that "it probably wouldn't make a difference to you anyway, since you're just using the excuse of Lidusis being a monster because you're afraid of Chevel."
I honestly get a different impact because of the way that line is placed now, the implication being not so much they wouldn't care to know about the truth of what was going on with Lidusis, but that the root reason behind why they really want him out of the school against all logic is that they just don't want to be in Chevel's firing range, which wouldn't change even if they do know what's going on.
Looking back on it and comparing versions, it doesn't seem like what Iel was trying to say is really different between the two... it's just that it comes across more clearly now that she's not trivialising knowing the secret behind Chevel's trick in turning people against Lidusis, but rightfully calling out that the real reason they don't want to side with Lidusis is because they're afraid of Chevel. (So it's not so much saying that the others "Don't care" about knowing the truth, some like Lin do, but that it isn't enough and "wouldn't make a difference" to turn around the whole social situation.)
Her demeanor also makes her seem like she's daring them to challenge the truth of her words now, rather than one-sidedly insulting them.
In both versions a girl then points out that Iel isn't any different from the rest of them, and Iel agrees "Yeah, you're right" without hesitation. But there's a change in her vibe during the scenes which gives an entirely different feel.
To the best of my knowledge, the dialogue itself is the exact same. But the impression it gives is very different: In the old version it was like Iel didn't care that she was the same as everyone else in the situation at all. (Which makes her seeming to talk down to everyone else seem even more snobbish... like gurl you act like you're talking down to everyone from your high horse and idk what horse you even think you're on. At least Chevel makes sense as a noble born Hereis.)
But in the new version, the darker overtone makes it seem like she's disgusted / disappointed in herself too, while still acknowledging that she is no different from the others... so it seems more like she's criticising herself along with everyone else and letting herself get burnt by her own scathing remarks too.
And then there's her concluding her speech by saying that she's no different from them, but that the situation is different now that Rood is here.
I somehow got two VERY different impressions from the two different versions despite having the exact same line and I really don't know how to explain it in a good way, so imma just say it exactly the way I think of it:
In the old version it sounded to me like Iel meant "I don't really care about Lidusis like you, but now that Rood is here I feel confident speaking out because we can just use him as a bodyshield against the Hereis. Ah- here he is now, I shall be the first to get behind him so I'll be safe."
But now it gives an impression of "I was also too scared of the Hereis to do anything like you, but now that Rood is here we have an effective way of fighting back against the Hereis, and so I shall be the first to support him from behind in this. Ah- here he is now, allow me to act upon my words."
I would say that I'm finding Iel more likeable in this version, but it doesn't seem like she's much too differently from before... so I'd say thanks to the author's narrative presentation this time I think I'm able to understand Iel's words, actions and reasoning a lot better now.
P.S. Absolutely love this panel of Chevel
He's radiating proper big bad boss energy this time, loving the vibe.
P.P.S. The new version features a soul crushed Lidusis looking ahead of him
In the old version he was angled like he was looking behind himself... at Chevel
Like he knew exactly what was being done to him at Chevel's hands but didn't care enough to fight back and it hit me like sledge hammer when I reread.
A bit sad to see that tiny detail gone, but oh well.
#black haze#remake#new bh#comparison#ch 30#bh 30#my post#text#I think some of my dislike for Iel is showing a bit much#I apologise to people who like Iel#but I hope that what I've explained here clarifies why it is so#also I'm liking her better in the new version with the changes#Old Rood was the more socially aware one while Iel was a brick#New Iel seems more socially aware while Rood's the dense brick now#...I do not know how to process this information lol
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Just a couple of random shots of my boys I took while testing mods. This is probably my new favorite nomad outfit of Goro's, along with his new tattoo. Also I made this tattoo with nomad Goro in mind, however seeing him with it out of nomad clothes, I am keeping it on him permanently for sure, and he may or may not have been influenced by Vaughn to get ink, since he's always admired Vaughn's tattoos. Especially the way Vaughn detailed every piece of art on his body like poetry. "It has meaning, they all do. Especially the one that says Goro in the middle." (pointing to the tat on his tummy). Which than prompted Goro to get Vaughn's name on his chest. After being together for 5 years, he didn't feel so weird about it anymore.
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These were more recent photos I took. You can see Vaughn's name on his chest, and I thought it was a sweet placement, right near his heart. Vaughn has Goro's name tattooed more near his.. lower area, and did that as a little gag, cos he likes messing with Goro. But Goro actually found it endearing, Vaughn is goofy and silly, and that was one of the main things Goro fell in love with. The contrast in these photos is so crazy to me. Nomad Goro is more my canon, although I do enjoy putting him in all types of situations haha. (Zombie and Vampire AU my beloveds). This post was mainly just an excuse to show off multiple sets since I couldn't decide which to post, there's so many I have hidden and kept to myself, but I really love these photos. ~ ~ ~ ~ I've always wanted these two to have a fun and silly dynamic between them. They've both been through hell and back in their lives before they met each other, and even after they met they still went through the wringer. It brought them closer together, made them fall even harder, and Goro was very aware of Vaughn's out there personality, which was something he really really loved, as annoying as he is sometimes! I guess you can say Vaughn rubbed off on him, he def lightened up a ton in Vaughn's company. There's also so much I could talk about as far as Goro being a nomad goes, I'll talk about that separately another time. :) That version of him is very near and dear to me, so so so so important, and I'm glad I could give him that. So yeah! Anyways sorry for rambling, lol. I'm nuts about these two. ♥
#cyberpunk 2077#shippy saturday#oc: vaughn leblanc#goro takemura#otp: golden hues#takemura x v#takemura goro#nomad v#nomad goro#male v#my screenshots#queue mean the world to me#-#man I really decided to talk xD#I don't talk about them enough honestly#I wanna change that#I wanna talk about goro more I wanna love him more (don't know how that is possible at this point lmao)#I just love and miss them <3
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I, 0, Your Fellow
I read somewhere that someone had a headcanon that X wrote "I, 0, Your Fellow" the song, and that he used to sing it to comfort himself or Zero. Well, I started humming the tune, and I thought, "I'm a musician, maybe I can make some words."
So I did! Unfortunately, I don't have music with it just yet. I don't have a decent recording setup at this time, so I'll just link you to my favorite rendition of I, 0 Your Fellow and you can follow along if you want to. :D
Also, I tried to strain out as much of the cheese as possible so it reads like someone put some thought into it. This one comes from X's point of view, after Zero has sealed himself for the first time, but during the Elf Wars.
Full post after the "keep reading".
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KQWstGcXi-A --text link in case the linked words below don't work. Story Music Box - Yoshi's Island (Megaman Zero 3: I, 0 Your Fellow) [EXTENDED]
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words to "I, 0, Your Fellow"
(verse 1) Evenlight arrives Stars twinkling softly in the Gently fading light Overflowing thoughts of you Streaming forth from my eyes I reach out to the sky For you Only you
(verse 2) Always by my side You were always reaching for me Telling me I'll be alright I wish I could hear you now Holding me with that Voice so sweet I never told you How much I ….
(refrain 1) Loved the way the wind whipped through your hair Warmed whene'r your smile showed you cared Never would you leave me to fight alone Oh, you glowed… like Firelight my hero
(verse 3 leading into refrain 3, sing almost in a whisper) (music slows down, becomes more solemn) Embers fill the air All around is burning yet I Fight for all we had And for all that yet will be Someday I'll be with you again And I can show you All I need you to know
(refrain 3)(stronger, victorious) Listen to the beating of my heart Deep within me we are not apart You and I are always fighting side by side Endlessly You and Me Light and Dark
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OR (music slows down, becomes more solemn)
(verse 3 leading into refrain 2, sing almost in a whisper) Embers fill the air All around is burning yet I Fight for all we had And for all that yet will be Someday I'll be with you again And I can tell you How much I ….
(refrain 2) Hurt the way that you did when you cried How I always knew where you'd hide Your heart is softer than you wanted me to know You always glowed Strong and brave My hero
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I couldn't decide which version I liked best, so I included them both. I didn't write a 4th verse, so just do whatever. :D
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Heyyy :3 can I hear about how Crow and Momo met each other for the first time in each version? I know you mentioned in Starfall at least that there should've been a rivalry between them, but how exactly does that go? And at what point in GW2 do they meet? (Am also curious to hear more about the Starfall Guild if you'd like to talk on that as well!) - @magitechbatt
Oh this will be so fun to explain!!! I'll start with the meetings and if i got space, the guild ! If not, i'll make a post <3 In Gw2 Crow stayed under Dragora's wing for a long time, but in s2, right after the meeting in the grove and its disastrous ending, Dragora urged Crow to join the commander and the others, since he couldn't. Thing is... Crow is very quiet in general. So you got this weird sylvari who barely talks and has a piercing gaze following you around because a firstborn told you they would be helpful. Okkk. Caoimhe wasn't impressed, but hey, any help is appreciated. At least he was extremely cuuuurious in understanding them though!
Crow who doesn't care about titles and actually despises them , which didn't help in this case, it's less about Momo as a person and more because...of the role? and Caoimhe who doesn't quite know...how to approach warmly this guy. Very formal for a long time! Until HoT starts and that's where formality was thrown into the wind. Working together closely and for survival truly does wonders to relationships. It's not as serious as I make it out though. They trip on each other because social stuff is neither strong suit.
As for Starfall! The meeting is funnier. Crow was scraping for money ( he's wanted by the Guild and so hunted constantly. I mean it) and went for bounties in small areas where the help is highly needed but less "seen". Momo was staying in the same area, driven by his purpose, meaning slaying anything that was a danger to a magic imbalance. So uh... Crow was looking at the bounties on a wall and uh.. Momo kiiinda was asking him to move, putting a hand on their shoulder but uh. Crow reacted and punched immediately. Startled them. Not a great impression. Crow decided to work together with him because it's safer and as a ...favor? apology? for that. It was supposed to be just for one big bounty. They kept going. First it was for safety, then to test each other, became a sort of amicable rivalry in who was gonna deliver the final blows and such, friendly competition. As for last...well, the company was nice wasn't it? Crow doesn't know yet he's a fae and Momo frankly didn't care in telling anything, because he thought it was gonna be a fleeting moment with a person. Too bad Momo <3. The rivalry was in part due to the dryad/fae thing, it isn't easy to surpass this eternal hate the two have, but ...neither Crow or Momo are quite normal for their own race standards. The other part is because they are goobers. Both isolated and tripping over social cues and stuff, they bonded over spars and fights and moments of reprise until it got harder to imagine going back to be alone ( It happens in Starfall for a while sadly <3)
They're enemies by race, rivals and friends by progression and then something more i dont have the right label for it and neither do they ahah. There's always that sort of friction with them but they make it work! As for the Guild... that's all me ! It's a place, a bit isolated from the big city, where the mages get "reformed" into mage hunters. Starfall is a world where magic in the big towns and stuff is considered scary and kind of forbidden. So if people got caught or seeing a child with magic? Guild time. In Northward ( city) a mage child has to go to the Guild. Mandatory. In the public's eye it's just normal! Nothing bad happens to them after all. ( wrong). There's a lot of propaganda and brainwash. The Guild is formed by recruits, hunters, teachers, professionists, a leader and its right hand. Plus other mansions that don't need soldiers like librarians and such. Recruits go through a period of training and learning, slowly forgetting the outside and learning rules and what's needed to survive. Passing the test, which gives you a lovely magic brand ( tracker), you are now bound to the Guild, going out needs permission and the brand acts as a leash. Fun, i know. Hunters then go through actual training, where they can slowly decide what profession they wanna be: Spellbreaker, Assassin and Reflector. Each of them is to stop a mage to cast and be captured/killed ( the black gradients on the body is a tattoo that indicates how many tasks you completed. It's painful. It's a stain) In picking one or more, you get your own mentor. Not many can pick 2 or even 3, it's a lot of work and dedication ( or high ranks want you to shine). The more you prove you're a good asset , the more you're sponsored? That's how Crow ends up with two professions and a lot of people who wanted to see him rising up in the high ranks. This is where they form teams too, after seeing how the hunters work together in the trials and missions. It's where teams solidify , due to mentors being friends too or smth. (In my case... Crow and Swan were a team, no i've never shown Swan here aaaa) High ranks are mentors usually, people who can go in the fields but usually are the trainers and the ones with power to discuss and decide with the Leader. One of them is also the right hand. Hunters usually ...die in the fields. Not many had the chance to retire and work in the Guild, even less Hunters who were able to retire out of it ( these...usually are killed from the Guild itself to protect secrets ) It's a bleak prospect for a future but the brainwash is so powerful they don't quite realize or fight against it, and when it's too late...well... you know. Mentors don't treat you bad per se, but... it's all to create soldiers and weapons after all, there's affection or care but rarely it goes beyond that. You're numbers to them unless you're ,again, sponsored and quite loved in the Guild due to status etc... Let's not add the fact Crow got the worst mentor ever , that added even more fucked up things to the training and we're good /jk. There's some snippets still but they're related to Crow mostly. Like...you have no contact with the outside even if your family is alive. Yeah, it's a secret, yeah Crow found it, no the reaction to know it wasn't pretty and it was one of the small sparks that made him fight back. In Fallen Au... Crow becomes the leader of it and it's 10x more fucked up. I think this is the gist of it! Sorry about the length! And thank you so much for asking!! The Guild is my personal playground >:)
#cromo#cardamomo#caoimhe#crow#selkastra#2000starfall#considering making more starfall posts but i forget how to ramble <3
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The Amina Universe Overview (Part 1)
Hello Rebel here,
So I haven't been active much lately but I'm back now! This time I wanted to talk about an original idea that was really important to me. And that is the Anima Universe.
The Anima Universe is a project I have been working on for a very long time, since I first started writing in fact, and is a multiple series of novels that take place in the same universe. Kind of like the MCU which is why I jokingly call it my BCU (Book Cinematic Universe).
There are eight stories within the project, each with its own themes, characters, and settings. There are many things that connect them timeline-wise and each one affects the other but they still stand on their own. The stories are spilt across two general settings; Earth and a magical planet called Majjia. Plus one that takes place in the wider universe and has a sci-fi feel to it.
Below We'll go over one of the stories and it's characters.
The Magical Core
The Magical Core is the very first original story I ever created. I remember creating the concept for the main Character Celestia on my great-grandmother's porch years ago. I still have the picture I drew of her.
The story of the Magical Core involves a group of four girls; Celestia Nightmare, Zerenity Silver-Moon, and Roxxanne November as they travel through the world of Majjia in search of a woman who is extremely important to them, Saturn Stars. The book is planned to have 14 chapters and takes place over a few weeks. I have an outline for the entire book and have so, so many versions of almost each chapter. It just needs refinement before I feel comfortable publishing it. (BTW The book also changes POVs between certain characters)
Let's go over the protag of the story! (I'll do other characters at a later date I was going to do them all here but the post was getting long)
Celestia Nightmare
Celestia Nightmare is the protagonist of The Magical Core and is the character whose POV we see the most. She's the only daughter of Sally and Jack Nightmare, prominent figures on the planet of Majjia. Celestia comes from a very wealthy well-known noble family known as House Nightmare. Members of House Nightmare have been in so many history books. Like so many guys.
Celestia is an elf and one of the features of that species is the fact that their last names and magic are interconnected. If you have a last name like Earth you have an easier time using Earth magic. Celestia's last name is Nightmare which means she has the ability of fear magic. Fear Magic is a subtype of Empathy Magic, a type of magic that allows people to feel other people's emotions with the downside that they can never turn it off. Once they turn it on it can never be turned off.
Those who have fear magic can see a person's greatest fear and have severe nightmares that feel very, very, real. Most of the time those nightmares aren’t even theirs but someone else's.
Celestia's parents died tragically when she was nine. They were murdered by a group called the Knights of Blood, agents of the evil High Queen Blood Spill, during an event known as the Rosewood Massarce. (The entire town of Rosewood, where Celestia's family lived at the time, was burned to the ground, hence the name.) After her parents' death, Celestia was taken in by a family friend, Saturn Stars.
Celestia has long sunset-colored hair like this. The reason she has this hair color was because younger me poeticly described red hair as sunset and then I really thought about it and decided this look was cooler.

Celestia has complete heterochromia, her left eye is a gentle forest green while the right one is a sharp electric blue, both glow eerily in the dark. I have a narrative reason for this but the irl reason is that I couldn't decide whether or not to give her blue or green eyes and so I gave her both.
Celestia's style of clothing is very casual which matches her personality. She's seen more in ripper jeans or pants with at least a dozen pockets than a skirt. Her outfits are very celestial-themed and she's never seen without her vambraces—silver with a wolf engraving that once belonged to her father and gold with a phoenix engraving from her mother.
Celestia wields a jian sword known as Præstans Tantibus which once belonged to her mother. The sword features a midnight purple and black handle, with the Nightmare family crest delicately engraved into the pommel. The blade itself is adorned with the phrase "Lux lunae me ducet ubi sol non apparet." which translates to "The light of the moon will guide me when there is no sun in sight." and embedded symbols related to the sun god Rad.
Here's that symbol btw (Created by yours truly)
Celestia is such an interesting character and like I mentioned earlier was created on my Great-Grandmother's porch. Her name originates from Princess Celestia and Nightmare Moon from My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic. This origin is the reason she's so sun and moon-coded. I call her an eclipse and based her character arc on the day and night cycle.
When she was a kid she was daylight, bright and cheerful but when her parents died it turned her into sunset. The girl she was died with them and thus the sun set on Celestia of the past and created Celestia of the present making her twilight current. The sun has set but the moon has yet to rise, she's an empty sky slowly getting darker and darker.
Celestia is intelligent but also reckless and impulsive. She can be short-tempered, lashing out when things get too overwhelming. She's chaotic and things that make sense to her don't always make sense to other people. She's energetic, loud, and independent with an extremely active imagination. Celestia is loyal, adaptable, bold, and passionate.
She leads with her heart and is kind, empathic, and idealistic. Celestia is an extremely moral person and believes in doing the right thing no matter what. She's a bit of a mess because of the Rosewood Massacre PTSD and survivor's guilt are things she has. Celestia often feels like a ghost possessing her own body and while she can literally feel other people's emotions is detached from her own. She feels so much it's hard to determine what her and what's someone else. Celestia struggles to identify her own desires, wants, and goals, making her somewhat aimless.
The main themes of the book are life, death, and rebirth but not in the literal sense. A quote that has always stuck with me is this one.
"a dancer dies twice — once when they stop dancing, and this first death is the more painful.”
Which begs the question. Can you be reborn after an event that killed you? If there are two types of deaths there must also be two types of life. A literal one and a metaphorical one. This is why rebirth is a common theme. Each character has lost something important to them and must find a way to be without it and metaphorically be reborn.
Celestia, and each of the other main characters, represent rebirth within the story and each of them has death and life characters that represent a path they could have or could go down. The life character is who they could have or would have been had they not gone through their metaphorical death. Life characters are an ideal or a standard they can no longer live up to. While death characters are what would happen if they stay dead. What would happen if they let the pain control them. Rebirth is therefore them taking control of their lives as it is now and choosing to be better than both the life and death characters. Blazing a new path forward to create something that has never been seen before.
Celestia's life character is her mother, Sally Nightmare. Sally wasn't a cheerful person like you would expect from a character who represents life and has a sun motif. She was bright and mesmerizing. A fiery spirit who was charismatic, kind, wise, and hopeful. The ideal warrior and person in Celestia's mind who died protecting those she cared for. Sally is everything Celestia wanted to be and maybe would been if the Rosewood Massacre hadn't happened.
Celestia's death character is the villain of the series High Queen Blood Spill, ruler of the 13 United Kingdoms of Majjia. People talk about the High Queen in hush whispers and dare not speak her name using only epithets and titles like she's some sort of death god. Which is a way she is. The High Queen is strife and discord. Pain and torture. She's introduced sitting on a throne made of bone in a throne room covered in blood with people chained to the wall in various states of harm. Some are nothing more than decomposing corpses and others might as well be as they wait for death to claim them.
The High Queen is a bitter woman lashing out at the world for what it has done to her. She is who Celestia could become if she lets the grief of losing her parents consume her.
The life character is dead and the death character is alive but both haunt the narrative.
(For those who were curious here is the drawing I made of Celestia when I first created her like a decade ago)

#creative writing#writeblr#writers on tumblr#writerscommunity#original character#original work#The Amina Universe
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A personal post about names to process my thoughts
My name is Sair, it rhymes with air. It is both my preferred name and and my legal name, and I fought very hard to have it recognized as such. I've been going by different variations of the spelling since 2019 and finally settled on this one. It is my name, it feels like me, and nothing makes me happier than being referred to as something I chose myself.
My given name is Sarah. I hated it, and if you call me that I will be very upset with you. I'm a psychiatric survivor in every way you can possibly think of since I was 14 years old, and I spent the majority of my life being talked about like I'm not in the room. I grew to hate being called Sarah because it didn't feel like it was my name anymore; it always felt like it was being spoken in regards to a 'patient' or a 'client', or someone who wasn't me. The most vivid memory I was of this was after my suicide attempt in 2016 where I came very close to not making it. I was in the ICU hooked up to machines, could barely talk, was just cognizant enough to comprehend what was happening around me. A doctor came in to assess me, and she brought a gaggle of residents with her, all of whom couldn't have been much older than me, and they looked at me like I was an animal. I had just survived an almost lethal suicide attempt, I was at the lowest moment of my life, and to all these people, I was a case study. And that was about when I began to hate my birth name.
But Sair, the shortened version, is what my mom used to call me growing up. It was a term of endearment, it made me feel warm, and it reminded me of all the best parts of my childhood. My dad was very angry when I told him I wanted to start going by Sair, and he yelled at me over the phone saying "why would you want to change the name we gave you". And the reality is that I don't feel like I'm discarding it. I feel like I'm reclaiming it from years of what was, frankly, medical abuse and feeling a disconnect from who "Sarah" was and who I am. And that's why I don't feel bad about changing my name, and thankfully my mom understands.
I was named after the song Sara by Feeltwood Mac, which was popular in the mid 90s around the time I was born. I decided recently to revisit that song, and I do feel a connection to it, even if I no longer use the name Sarah. "The poet of my heart" in particular really speaks to me, and my mom says I'll always be the 'poet of her heart' even if I've reclaimed the name into something different. But it just got me thinking about my own passion for writing, and how I tried so hard to be an artist and lost my own passion for it, but nothing brings me joy like writing does, and it made me think that maybe a writer was always what I was supposed to be.
Sarah is dead, I killed her. But I was born to be a writer, and that will never change, regardless of my name.
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