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grapejuicestyless · 19 hours ago

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OBX 4 RANT(contains spoilers)

Thoughts on Season 4 Ending:

Honestly, me personally, I think I always knew that eventually one of the Pogues would end up dying, but I always thought it would be more towards the end(season 5ish) so that at least the main cast would get to finish out the show. But I can’t say I’m shocked that JJ was killed off this season.

JJ was my favorite character obviously, and I think he definitely deserved a happy ending as much, if not more, than the other Pogues, but also, I think by killing off the comic relief and such a beloved character, it leaves so much room for plot development and other character arcs that weren't there previously.

Kiara's season is long overdue as well as Cleos. But more than that, I think that as amazing as the Jiara plot was, it held back Kiaras character. If you compare Season 3-4 Kiara to season 1-2 Kiara, shes gotten a lot less tough than previously. and while recognizing that the Pogues have gone through a lot and that can change a character, it seems like she was the only one to go through this change, especially after her and JJ got together.(Season 1/2 Kiara would have ended Ruthie tbh.)

Kiara is also one of my favorite characters, and I cannot wait to see how she navigates season 5.

Thoughts on Riara:

While I think both Rafe and Kiara are good characters, the show has progressed too far to have the characters end up together. I love a good enemies to lovers, but theres too much history, especially with JJ gone now, to put them together.

For starters, Kiara loved JJ, and they all just lost him. Season 5 will probably pick up right where they left off(assuming there is no time jump.) and all the Pogues will be grieving and trying to avenge their best friend. So, it doesn't make sense for Kiara to run straight into Rafe Camerons arms, especially when everyone knew that JJ did not like him or trust him, so it would probably feel like a betrayal to JJ to get with Rafe.

More than that, the actress has expressed her dislike for the ship, so it would not be surprising if it never even gets mentioned.

However, I do think the Pogues, especially Kiara, are going to have an intense breakdown over JJ that only Rafe will be able to help with. I would love to see Kiara and the other Pogues be able to lean on Rafe and use him as guidance to get revenge for JJ and also figure out their emotions that Rafe has dealt with for 4 seasons now. I would also love to see Rafe lean on the Pogues for guidance as part of his character arc without replacing JJ.

Thoughts on the actors:

As someone who had watched the show from day one, I find it so crazy at how people have turned a FICTIONAL CHARACTERS DEATH, into something so much bigger. JJ Maybank was a comfort character to me as well, and I definitely cried and was upset by the ending, but I think ultimately that's a good thing.

The fact that Rudy was able to bring to life a character so well that people are making petitions to get him back should say something about how insanely talented this cast is, but instead, all I've seen is people tearing down Rudy and Madison.

What went down between the actors is not confirmed. Just because a gossip account "confirms" something, doesn't mean it's true. Do I think it's sad that such close friends can't interact in public anymore? Yes. But it's weird to theorize over it, especially because this is someone's life, these are real people.

All the hate towards the actors is just crazy to me because if you truly cared about these people and wanted them to “find each other” again, you wouldn’t be bringing up the things that are the rumored reasons why they don’t talk in public anymore.

More than that, the hate to both of their girlfriends is just as insane. I see it happen to every attractive celebrity. The hate for Elaine, as someone who doesn’t really follow the actors personal lives, seems so forced and unwarranted. People make up rumors and act like it’s the truth without any real proof that it’s real. Same thing with Madisons girlfriend. It all just seems so unreasonable to blame people that have nothing to do with the writing of the script for how the season ended.

Truly, I hope both Madison and Rudy have very successful and long careers after Outer Banks not only in spite of all the people who are claiming that they can’t act(which is crazy because they literally made so many people cry and so many fans want their characters together because of how well they portrayed their characters) and that they will be nothing, but also because they are genuinely some of the most talented young actors today.

Thoughts on JJ’s return:

It’s been said by some people who work on Outer banks and write/produce the show that they could see Rudy coming back in season 5. Whether that be through a revival or through flashbacks, it’s been said that Rudy is open to coming back if it is possible.

For me personally, even though I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to have him back and have him get his happy ending, I think it would ruin the entire plot of the last season to bring him back. I think it would be nice to see the actor come back through flashbacks or other things, and I also see that as the most plausible scenario in which JJ would appear in season 5. But unfortunately, because of all the press and statements made about the show, I do not think JJ will be coming back.

Final thoughts/theories:

Did they bury JJ in Morocco?: Yes and No. I think that initially, it could have been JJ the Pogues buried, however, I think that after seeing all the backlash on them having JJ be randomly buried so far away from everyone else and making his worst fear, being alone, come true, they might change who got buried.

Keep in mind, Pope shot someone and killed them. It’s totally possible since we didn’t explicitly see who got buried that the writers could make it to be that they buried the man Pope killed instead of JJ. Or, that maybe if it was JJ, the grave is temporary until they can bring him back to the Outer Banks.

Will Luke have a redemption after JJ’s death?: Maybe. I think it’s possible to see the Pogues coming to Luke as part of their “revenge” for JJ, but once Luke finds out about JJ’s death, he will tell the Pogues what he was trying to tell JJ before he ran off. I don’t necessarily think he will have a “redemption” and at this point, the damage has already been done and he’s already permanently hurt JJ and theres no way to fix it. But, I could see him unintentionally telling the Pogues something that could help them.

What will happen to Pope?: I think two things are possible. I think they could send him away to the Military/jail, which will result in a breakout mission similar to what we saw in season 2 with John B and JJ in jail, or, we could see him hiding out until he gets his name pardoned by Shoupe. At this point, I’m not sure what will happen with him because so much has happened to the Pogues in such a short amount of time that his storyline could really go in any direction.

What about the baby?: I think at the end of OBX, we will get to see each of the Pogues doing what they dreamed of while still being together. Kiara will be saving turtles, Pope will end up in some kind of schooling, John B and Sarah will have the baby. Etc.

I could see them naming the baby JJ, and I think that makes the most sense to do. As for the theory that the whole show is just John B and Sarah telling their kid about JJ and the Pogues, as cute as that would be, it feels predictable and in a way, ruins the show for me. I feel like it would feel similar to the ending of how I met your mother(iykyk…) and I feel like it wouldn’t be the most satisfying ending to the show.

I don’t know if we will ever see the baby, or if we will just find out if the name will be JJ or not, who knows, but either way, it would be amazing to see each of the Pogues finally be able to settle down and get what they want.

I could also see the Pogues deciding to stick together and have that be what they all want after JJ’s death and honoring him by saving the property, but again, like Popes storyline, the ending could go either way I feel.

Anyways, those are just my thoughts/opinions on the new season of OBX. Any hate towards the actors will not be tolerated <333

#obx #obx season 4 #rafe obx #obx cast #obx spoilers #obx4 #jj maybank #kiara carrera #pope heyward #john b routledge #sarah cameron #cleo obx #rafe outer banks

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bookinit02 · 9 months ago

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genuinely i think if i have to see taylor swift’s name one more time i’m going to start breaking things.

#i liked her casually as a kid #and i still like a lot of her music now #but i can barely even fucking listen to it anymore bc she is EVERYWHERE #like literally i don’t care about her and i don’t care about travis whoever #and i don’t even care about her in a negative way like i don’t care if she’s selfish and narcissistic and a performative activist #and her jet emissions or whatever #bc literally 90% of celebrities are like that she’s not special #i am just so tired. of people ALWAYS talking about her #and being expected to have an opinion and be up to date with whatever meaningless drama is going on #genuinely no hate to my friends that like taylor bc i don’t mind that #it is more just like. Everywhere #i cant even go on tiktok without seeing her name 300 times i cant DO THISSS #ok. rant over. 😭

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j-esbian · 1 month ago

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does anyone else feel like they need to Make Fan Content That Is Also Good And Interesting in order to make/keep internet friends so as to be worth other people’s time

#the internet is one big networking tool #genuine question because like. i know it’s unhealthy but i also feel like that’s kind of the economy created by the internet #i’m not advocating it and i’m also not trying to be self-deprecating #i was never great at art and i haven’t posted anything i’ve written in like 5 years #like for example. i put off making a dragon age blog for a while bc i don’t Do anything. even now that ive made it i feel like i don’t have #a leg to stand on to talk to my mutuals. we are always competing for attention on the internet #i’ve known a few people where like. i thought we were actual friends and not just fandom colleagues but i always felt like i had fo Prove I #Was Talented to keep them interested and like. again not healthy but i’m wondering how common that is #maybe that is just fandom colleague behavior and i misread the situation but uh #also to be clear i’m not trying to like. blame anyone or victimize myself #i’m mostly curious because i have seen people talk about how making friends on the internet is so much easier and i’m wondering #where that idea came from. bc i still think it’s hard. but i wonder if it’s easier if you’re one already posting Original And Interesting #Content. i mostly just make memes and meta at this point and it doesn’t get a lot of attention. which is fine #i’ve just found it markedly harder to meet people since i switched tacks #one of the reasons i burned out tbh. among other things. i’ve been picking writing up again but i don’t post anymore #honestly realizing this has probably bitten me in the ass before bc i’ve had friends who share stuff they’re proud of and i don’t jump on it #bc to me i’m trying to be like ‘you don’t have to prove yourself to me. i like you as a person’#but probably comes off like ‘i don’t care about the things you care about’. hm #mine

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transmechanicus · 2 years ago

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“I’ll be fine i just need to uhhhhhhh idk kill” but like…what if i did haha

#my stuff #dear diary and the several thousand mfs who can see it. Despite arguably good academic performance today feels like a bad day #bc i skipped lab to take a nap #and i feel lonely and incapable of connecting more than superficially with my classmates #like i can talk to them and i do and we get along well but i never…hang out w em #or at least not as much as they seem to without me #it’s not a malicious thing i think a huge part of it is groups of ppl living or working in the same space #and i’m in a different lab building than a lot of ppl #idk…struggling to find anything that sparks joy. unable to see the future with optimism #it’s just day after day of Job where i’ll beat myself up on weekends if i don’t do Even More Work #bc that’s the nature of grad school. always homework or literature review to do like i give a shit abt the latter #i don’t care what other people are doing i don’t wanna obsessively comb through journals to make sure i’m doing Brand New Shit #i want it to stop #i don’t want to read anymore. i don’t wanna have to worry about my job outside of work.#i want to cry and scream and #like i don’t wanna quit after i worked so hard to get here #i don’t wanna wuss out #but i’m always tired. i’m never rested or relaxed or truly enjoying myself #why is this only hard for me…how tf is everyone else able to read and remember and understand this much??#like yeah maybe i should be on adhd meds but those are fuckin spensive and a pain in the ass to get #i’m tired of being tough #i want to curl into a ball and be told it’s going to be okay and that i can rest and have it not be a lie or a half measure

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iwaasfairy · 10 months ago

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rambly rant in the aftermath of this whole situation. I wasn’t gonna say anything because I didn’t have anything new or smart to say

but now I really wanna implore my followers to think critically in light of tumblr “drama”. because it’s dangerous. inflammatory posts are so easy.

imagine being called some of the worst words for one second, could you as easily defend yourself? even if you knew you had done nothing, how easy does it seem to convince an angry mob that they’ve got it wrong? definitely not as easy as making the fucking post at least.

I don’t want to talk whatever allegations. its not about the post of the week. its about the culture around drama, and free-for-all that surrounds it.

the lack of critical thought and understanding that smart, grown humans are able to give these situations is sad. past blind gut reaction anger and disbelief, do yall do anything with those thoughts afterward? parroting some talking head without thought isn’t insight. the people who make these posts on anon and think that gives them free reign to do the most despicable shit,

if you wish real harm, if you doxx, if you threaten someone’s life or innocent people who aren’t even involved - you’re straight up a bad person. the person you’re calling out may be a bad person too, but there’s no way you’re the “good guy” there.

can you actually think about what you believe in regards to the thing?

some of you seem to think everyone acts in service of you and your beliefs, instead of their own reasons and beliefs.

I know angry people are gonna start shit bc you have the critical reading skills of a goldfish so again, this isn’t a judgement about the situations that have cropped up in dc spheres last few days. I can’t say anything that hasn’t been said before. It’s about how y’all react to it. Drama isn’t an excuse to become a horrible person for a few days. And if you take any chance to publicly act like a shitty person, maybe you just are a shitty person.

It shows that most of you have no fucking clue of what you’re talking about. Publicly airing your problem w someone isn’t public service.

we all understand that a subjective bad interaction isn’t proof. it doesn’t criminalise someone to be shit person to talk to, but that’s 90% of the rbs.

If you have a gripe with someone, you talk about it in private, or to friends, or block them. And if you’re gonna call someone out, make sure you can line up the facts. Not assumptions.

The vagueness is so distasteful. If you don’t have enough fact to label them with that word publicly, maybe mind your business and dislike the person in quiet. no one said you’re not allowed to dislike someone.

have some fucking class. unless you’ve made sure that what you’re saying in the Whole truth, it probably isn’t. it’s your belief, and your belief isn’t any more important or right than anyone else’s. so many of you are seriously, seriously embarrassing. good job doing absolutely nothing for the betterment of anyone.

#‘I understand why dc is used’ but apparently only the dc you personally wanna consume #??#people who’ve followed me probably knew how I felt about this thing already so this shouldn’t be much of a surprise #i literally have my own gripes with a lot of the topic discussed #firsthand as a victim #yet every victim ive talked to seems to agree that even our personal gripes don’t set the rule for what someone can use to cope #if you send anonymous hate I really really genuinely don’t support you as a person #I hope you go away #bc some of the reactions to drama in the last year or so has been #foul #they’re not even cosplaying care anymore it’s just straight up any excuse to act crazy #ring ring #tw.discourse #I guess but not really bc I genuinely have nothing to say about the stupid slew of posts that have been going around

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kavehater · 4 months ago

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I cannot fathom the level of self importance some people must have to behave this way

#it’s more so selfishness lmao #idk I’m getting unnecessarily worked up about this but 6 months ago I kinda vanished off of everywhere and then I noticed she deleted some #messages #girl I would’ve responded later calm down gosh the messages aren’t going anywhere nor are they disappearing #dora daily #I think of all people who should be mad you’re the last one because tell me why you were so viscerally rude to me since the beginning and #played a massive part of the roaa situation by being complacent when oh ! I thought you’d side with your alleged best friend ME #girl you have no right to complain at all not to mention you take FOREVER when you have no excuse to reply back but when I’m struggling I #apparently have zero excuse ☠️ girl bye #not to mention the fact that when I was so frustrated with myself having these bad headaches and being so incapable of doing anything when #exams were so close all you had to say was what can I do #well bitch what could I have done when you were at hospital #I guarantee you I was the only one texting you 24:7 asking how you were #reassuring you that it’s okay to feel upset about being in the fucking hospital and you don’t need to have such toxic positivity all the tim #oh but when the other girl had freaking back pain from her period or something apparently that’s more of a concern #girl bye #not me who has chronic headaches and cannot even study and nothing sticking cause it’s that bad #oh but go ahead compare it to your chronic illnesss like yes it’s horrible and yes it impacts you a lot #but I don’t think it impacts your brain and memorisation capacity #not to mention how fucking jealous she is of everything like I can say oh god I was so stressed and girl she has not felt stress in her life #compared to what I go through yet she is jealous of the fact I can stress ? tf?#and when I say I almost passed out cause of exhaustion she doesn’t give a shit when I was being so serious #in truth I’ve come to realise nobody does seem to care at all lmao they all think I’m lying #why would I lie about that be so fucking fr rn #anyways this is why I simply don’t want to talk about my physical condition with anyone anymore because they’ll think I’m a liar anyways 🤷‍♀#not to mention the fact if you even knew me a little you’d understand that it’s so impossibly hard for me to feel comfortable enough to #complain to talk about me feeling sick or sad or whatever I only do it here cause no one follows me and no one will rlly see it at all #but even here I feel like my throat closes up and I can barely breathe when I do complain #so pls …#this one sided friendship thing is crazy cause girl how do I shake you off?

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prxckedradiolove · 9 months ago

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so normal about dinahboose 🙃😭

#i don’t even know if people ship it anymore all the stuff i see for it is pretty old 😭#dont care 😎#i know im evil #im such a multishipper tho.. cooking oil is so sweet at times…#i feel like if your gonna ship greaseball or c.b with dinah i think everyone has this lil yeah dw they get better tho #which is so me im like #AWWW GUYS THEY ARE SO CUTE #but i only ship them when c.b apologizes to rusty and everyone 😡#then its okay 🥰#so many thoughts about what c.b did tho..#cuz i feel like him braking/crashing rusty and being on electra and greaseball’s side is kind of out of immatureity and naive(ness?)#just a lil bit #and dinah helps him realize good morality in some way #but what i love about dinahboose above any other c.b ship is that i feel like c.b could also improve dinah as well #like during theres me he’s so supportive and guenuine and i feel like he would totally give dianh advice #i’m still figuring out caboose’s character tho because he is.. confusing #a lil deranged guy 😭#wow ok that was a lot of tag talking alright gn everyone #trainrot #dinahboose

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cherrysnax · 2 years ago

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@ anon sorry I accidentally deleted ur ask!! to answer ur question though, I think it’s a bad idea because.. i fear rejection i guess and I suppose what I fear more is the opposite

#i have an issue where despite wanting to feel close to people I kinda hold everyone but like two people at arms length #I care a lot about people. even the people I don’t talk to anymore or like ppl I regard as like acquaintances #it’s easier to care from a distance. less of a sit back and watch thing more of a #aw I see a post on Instagram im so glad ur doing well I’m gonna mentally send good vibes and go about my day #it’s #it’s easier being a ghost I suppose #idk whenever I try a restart a friendship it never works #you can’t just rebuild connections #or at least I can’t #maybe im too different or maybe I’m too similar #also whenever I hype myself up to do something I’m afraid of doing it backfires spectacularly. so no actions means no expectations means no #consequences! and I know that makes me a bad person but consider that it’s for everyone’s best interests #this is probably just a weird phase of nostalgia anyway #and you should never reach out simply for nostalgias sake. you will have unrealistic expectations for urself and other ppl ^_^#im content w my mostly happy memories ^_^#should I tag this as #asks #nonnie #? in spirit I guess #I think I have like. one mutual from that time but I’ve changed my name like 60 times bro prolly don’t even recognize me which is for the #best #now… what am I gonna draw today #i guess im also afraid of what it means that I could’ve had more friends if I didn’t uhhh split or assume #that no one liked me in the first place #it already happened w a dear friend and I can never fix it so #why try

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insanechayne · 2 months ago

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#I think I’m lonely in a way I can’t fully describe #I have a partner and friends and family but still often feel alone even when I’m with them #I don’t feel close to anyone at times and I don’t know if it’s outside circumstances or just me #like with my partner being asexual we don’t really do certain activities that I’d like to partake in more often and I can’t hold it against #them for how they do/don’t feel but at the same time I’m craving a physical connection I can’t have and am struggling #doesn’t help that I think about sex all the time nowadays and would really like to be having it and experiencing/exploring certain things #it’s not always easy to take care of oneself that way and still also try to console the ace partner apologizing for who they are #and yeah hall passes are great but only if you have someone to use it on and I’ve never had anyone want to be with me sexually #moving on to bestie I don’t feel my same love and affection being reciprocated and that sucks because I really do anything I can for him #and am like that with pretty much all of mt friends where if they need me for something I’ll be there #but a lot of the time it seems like he really only wants to talk/hang out with me if he’s at work and I can come visit with him #any time I invite him to do something with me outside of work he flakes and so it’s not even worth inviting him anymore #and yeah there’s rare times where he’ll call me a bunch in one day but it’s always just to tell me some gossip from work #not that gossip isn’t fun but still don’t you want to jus talk to me? I always want to just talk to you even if it’s about nothing at all #I’m always the one putting myself out there for him and being there for him when he calls me but I almost never get that same response back #and it’s like I know he has a family so I know he can’t always drop everything for me nor would I ever expect that but just some matching of #my energy would be nice you know? but then I feel guilty/selfish because I feel like I shouldn’t ask that of him when he does have a life #away from work. and I mean I guess I do too but it’s different because partner and I don’t have kids and don’t do much aside from sit around #together or have tea or other things most often done at home. and I don’t live with partner full time yet so I also still have other freedom #outside of just being with them. and other responsibilities I take care of but not on the same level as a wife and kids I guess #idk now I just feel like I’m whining but tbh all this stuff is weighing on me and just making me feel really shitty #I don’t know how to fix these issues without sounding like a selfish bitch and I’m obviously not going to cut anyone off but I don’t really #see any other solutions forming either. so it’s like I guess I’ll just keep my mouth shut and keep feeling bad until the end of time since #that’s the easiest thing to do and then no one else is hurt or upset aside from me #I just feel like I’m destined to float through life never getting back what I need from my relationships but still giving everything because #I don’t know any other way to be. I don’t know how to set boundaries even for myself so I’ll just keep giving and giving until I’m dead #and yeah I guess I am still a lot happier than I used to be and I appreciate the people in my life #just sometimes feels like they don’t really appreciate me back is all #so now I have to lay here next to partner and have all this shit running in my mind and try to get over it on my own #reasonably I should just go to bed but the loneliness is gnawing at me and idk what to do to make it go away

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yearning-butch · 6 months ago

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#i hate I hate I hate how deeply I feel things sometimes #not every little sad little thing needs to feel like a hole through my ribcage #I’m just so sick of feeling undesirable #jobs don’t want me #no one wants to commission me #nobody wants to try to start a new friendship with me #I feel like I can never say the right things #I get too excited and I talk too much and I say something that’s not Bad by any means but just a little bit odd #and it chases people away #I feel like every conversation I have is a series of blunders #I feel like someone doing a very poor cosplay of a human being #like the whole job search thing is so frustrating #but right now it’s especially just that I can’t make friends anymore #I’m just really lonely #I love love love my d&d group but they can’t hang out 24/7 and I get jealous of them having other friends #(not in a ‘hey you can only hang out with me’ way but in a ‘I wish I had other people too’ way #but I try to make friends with coworkers and they just kind of blow me off during conversations and seem very uninterested #that girl on YikYak bothered me more than I wanted to acknowledge and admit #idk I just got excited at the prospect of making a friend only to realize she decided I wasn’t someone she wanted to be friends with #I’m too scared to talk to anyone in classes and they’re all busy anyway #like even when I try to make friends through things like the D&D club people seem to brush me off #I know I can be A Lot #I’m clingy and talkative and have no filter and I’m horrible with social cues #I’m an acquired taste I guess #I just wish people irl cared enough to acquire it #and to be clear I don’t think any of y’all will really see this but if you do none of this is about you #I love you guys so much and you make me feel so loved and so welcome and so comfortable #I just wish I had that irl #I’m sick of being lonely

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exopelagic · 10 months ago

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A list of things I’m frustrated by:

#1. my right skate won’t fucking tighten right it’s being stiff so I can’t skate properly again. they don’t fit right but I can’t do shit now #2. I’m not enjoying ice hockey as much right now bc of that and the people being. not annoying but. I’m disconnected from them #3. feeling disconnected from everything because of the residual barriers I put up but also the ones are just There bc of outside forces.#4. of them the disconnect that comes from not like loud music/crowds/drinking when you’re at uni.#5. the fact that the friends I have most access to I largely don’t like that much bc half are straight and southern and rich and annoying #6. the fact that a different group of friends basically just stopped talking to me and honestly didn’t really want me around that much anywa #7. the fact I don’t care that much about that. any of that. and I’m not Cool with not talking to them anymore but it’s just Happened yknow #8. the fact that’s a significant portion of the queer people I know here. and the others aren’t people I’m anywhere near as close to.#9. the way it’s my third year here and a bunch of people are graduating and opportunities to meet new people went to hell like two years ago #10. i Can meet new people and in fact am even now but everything is so much effort #11. how that’s probably how it’s gonna be the rest of my life bc being an adult sucks. I’ll get Maybe one more shot at meeting a bunch of #people quickly if I do a phd and move but that’s hellish for other reasons and I lose a lot in doing that. but I lose a lot no matter what #12. graduating sucks and so many of my friends are doing it this year. I’m not but next year will suck bc of flatmates and everyone missing #13. feeling on the edge of hockey friends bc they’re fucking hockey players and make dumb fucking jokes. and how I can’t do that #14. anxious isolated gay boy I was never gonna be cool with that and there was never any way I could’ve been on the team #15. the fact I decided not to go for the team partly bc of that and the fact I dont regret that decision. bc I like ice hockey but I couldnt #17. knowing the answers to most of my problems bc I’m at That point where I have the self awareness and maturity to some extent to see #exactly what’s going on and what’s up with it and the right way to go about things. and still feeling the fucking feelings anyway #18. the weird fucking position I occupy both w queerness and the north/south thing weirdly where I’m gay+northern + surrounded by Not #and neither feel like they belong to me. distinctly Other but not in the right way and both sides see that. always a little off #19. being socially aware enough to see exactly where things are awkward or done badly but not knowing in the moment how to make it Not #20. the way the shit The Asshole said abt my anxiety has stuck with me so much and I still think abt it all the time #21. the way he was my fucking first. a lot. and then did That to me and there’s been nobody since and that’s fine but see point 17 #22. the way shit is slow to fade both with Him and current guy (very different things that are fading) even though both are fucking dumb #23. current guy being the fourth and should know bettering and knowing that’s bullshit too and I hate it. gonna start biting #24. not having the means time or opportunity to meet other people instead. and feeling dumb abt wanting to. and abt not doing some stuff #25. the fact this list is long enough that I’m gonna run out of tags and there’s still more but it’s 4am and I’m done #luke.txt #I’ll be fine once I’ve slept on it all. I should do something abt this probably but idk what right now and I should sleep mostly so. night!!

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explanationpoint · 1 year ago

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#i could be a very reigned in and pleasant thing you know #i’d give up a lot #no weed? i can do that. if you help me taper a bit #(i admit my consumption is higher due to a negative stress cycle)#i won’t play the obnoxious activist. i may even end up changing my opinions if you can make me believe what you say #i don’t want to be greedy and just take every little thing just to take it. i’m not salacious. I don’t throw myself at people #trust that i’ve had the chance too #but at this point i’m not itching for a variety of empty little connections #like what? for brief sloppy idealized sex? that doesn’t mean anything? and probably isn’t even the kind of sex i want?#hilarious that that’s a dealbreaker for me #i’m sorry i’m so sorry but i can’t play dom anymore #well maybe a little. if you really want to #but i need to feel that care. that warmth. that i belong. that i’m truly desired #desired for me and not just what i do #it’s hard to explain it but i felt that way a lot in past relationships #like it was my job to be the one who desires. And pour my desire into attention for my partner #and i mean #every time i tried to talk about it? i got shut down. so i just tried to make do anyway #i mean are you gonna give up your future because she won’t tie you up?#(or even really seem like she wants to touch you. or try to make an effort in conversation or basically anything in my life)#and like also? if it’s very serious? all i need is you to care about it #like you don’t need to give me success. if you give me safety.#call it foolish but i feel like there’s greatness in me. and maybe if the right knobs were tweaked i could manifest it #but it would be enough to do it just for you #if i was loved and safe #i wouldn’t feel like a failure if i could create. And still have a place in this world #that’s my real fear too. that i’ll never get it. that my talent and brain will never be enough to win in this world #at least not without totally throwing away my soul #if say. nothing changes and then my parents die i’m totally on my own. 40hrs of my time for barely anything. potential permanently stifled #i wouldn’t feel that way making art and supporting your household. that’s meaningful. my time wouldn’t be wasted

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yoohyeon · 1 year ago

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Saw that the Tumblr icon on my iPad changed so I went to see what’s up and WE FINALLY CAN REPLY WITH THE BLOG WE WANT !!! THANK YOU !!! Now staff make it so when you block someone it’s block on all sb too thanks I’m tired of blocking 3 times

#I’m tired of forgetting to add this is blah blah main when someone somment something on my sideblog 😭#my phone is sadly too full for the update but at least my iPad is ! I’ll answer on it when someone comment ckdnjdnd #now I’m leaving again !#oh I should update that my mom recognized she fucked up (will she learn a lesson though? only time we’ll tell us)#so she apologize my dad didn’t care but he went to get her at work today and they’ve been talking like nothing happen #since they had to go grocery shopping cause the fridge was empty #idk if they talked or they just decided it was better to not say anything and fight again #so I’m happy again don’t wanna d*e anymore until I look for job at least fkdndjdn #which is what I should do but I’m ignoring my problems reading ncjdndjnd #i waited at least today see if my parents were still on the verge of divorcing or not and they seem okay so I guess i’ll check 🙄#pray that I found something nice 😭#I’m tempted to find something that maybe I could work 4 days a week and not 5 but I’ll never find that #cause honestly I only pay for my phone and Sowon food + litter (and vet if needed) I don’t need that much #I did promise them I would pay for Puppy’s pills if I work though cause it’s like 200$ maybe less maybe more even I can’t remember a month #my mom is struggling bad since he got those pills it’s a lot for her small salary #I’m so lucky that my parents let me be even if they struggle but I feel so bad I need to get diagnose soon cause I’m difinetely anxious #and it’s ruining my life #also had to get check for ADHD and Autism words from my doctor for the ladder I’m personally not sure ? everyone tells me no #but those people knows nothing about autism they only person that says there’s ‘’high chance’#is bestie and she study in psychology a little for her field so I trust her judgement way more ! but maybe it’s just a mix of the other 2 #that make it seem like I may who knows one day we’ll have the answers #okay I’m talking to much now I’ll go don’t know if I’ll come back soon but at least I wanted to tell you I felt better !#we are back at the normal worries only 🤪#alex.txt

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fastandcarlos · 12 days ago

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On The Mend : ̗̀➛ Oscar Piastri

summary: with your lack of presence in the paddock, fans are starting to worry, little do they know that you happen to be a little broken back at home

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oscarpiastri: another successful week of racing, super proud of the whole team to get the car all the way to P2 this weekend 🏆🏎️

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username1: congratulations oscar, such an awesome drive!!

username2: just a shame that yn wasn’t there to see it once again 🙄

landonorris: so proud of you osc 😭😭😭

username3: surely they can’t still be together, she hasn’t shown her face in weeks…

charles_leclerc: mum is very proud that the two of us were on the podium btw

oscarpiastri: @/charles_leclerc it was all thanks to her pep talk ofc

username4: we’ll still support you osc even if yn won’t

mclaren: the whole team is so proud of you, congratulations oscar!

username5: enjoy the celebrations, I’m sure the team will be there for you at least 🥲

danielricciardo: congrats brother, always nice to see you repping for down under

username6: either something must be seriously wrong or yn really just doesn’t care anymore 😭

maxverstappen1: hell of a drive from you, great to see you back where you belong!

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ynusername posted two private stories

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georgerussell63: thanks for reminding everyone I got a penalty yn 😂😂

oscarpiastri: make sure you’re resting, you don’t need to worry about the race sweetheart!!

ynusername: I’ve never missed a race of yours 😩

danielricciardo: why tf are you in hospital and why didn’t you tell me immediately so that I could help!!

nicolepiastri: sending you lots of love sweetheart, sorry we can’t be there to help you 💕

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oscarpiastri: I promise to sneak you in loads of snacks as soon as I’m there 💞

lilymhe: I miss you so much, hope you’re recovering well girlie

landonorris: he’s on the first flight outta here straight back to you 🧡

carmenmmundt: sending you all the healing vibes in the world ❤️

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oscarpiastri: wish me luck on the flight, some weird passenger keeps looking over their shoulder at me 👀

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username7: that poor pilot having to drive these two home lmao

danielricciardo: now you get to experience my struggle before you came along 😭

oscarpiastri: @/danielricciardo idk how you ever did it 🤦🏻

username8: at least oscar has lando to celebrate with even though others have abandoned him

alex_albon: why else do you think we offered to take you home on our plane instead?! 😂

username9: i wonder if he's going home to yn being there or not

charles_leclerc: you're incredibly brave volunteering to travel home with him 👏🏻

username10: yn should be there with him, i really hope that they're okay

username11: what would we do without these two in our lives!?

maxverstappen1: we tried to talk you out of it but you didn't listen 🤷🏻

username 12: i love how all the boys are exposing lando as a terrible travel partner hahah

landonorris: stop trying to make it sound like we're not bffs osc 💔

oscarpiastri: @/landonorris that's because we're definitely not best friends

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oscarpiastri: seeing as some people want to make it their business, we thought we’d share why yn hasn’t been around recently. a couple of weeks ago she had a nasty fall at home which resulted in a broken leg. yesterday I finally got to bring her home and begin helping her with recovery…just call me doctor piastri from now on 🧑🏻‍⚕️💞

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username13: i hope all you losers who thought they broke up are proud of yourselves 🙄

landonorris: you guys know where i am if you need anything!!

georgerussel63: we love you yn, make sure you get plenty of rest ❤️❤️❤️

username14: sending you so much love yn, get plenty of rest

ynusername: apologies in advance for the lack of sleep you're about to get because of me 😂

oscarpiastri: @/ynusername as long as you're healing idc 🥹

username15: can't believe some of you were so stupid to ever think they'd actually break up

alex_albon: glad to see you're back at home where you belong yn

danielricciardo: do i even want to ask how she managed to break her leg??

oscarpiastri: @/danielricciardo if I told you I don't think you'd believe me 😂

username16: poor oscar looks exhausted having to drive and take care of yn too

charles_leclerc: pls tell me I get to sign the cast ✍️

ynusername: @/charles_leclerc i'll save a spot just for you

username17: please make sure you take care of yourself yn and ignore what everyone has to say

carmenmmundt: sending you so many healing vibes yn, we miss you at the paddock

username18: during a time when they need privacy and instead they've been hounded by nosey idiots 🤦🏻

maxverstappen1: can't wait to see all the doctor piastri content from you! 😂

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oscarpiastri: the only way to get her out of the house atm is to bribe her with coffee ☕️

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username19: it's adorable how much oscar cares about her 🥰

lilymhe: tell her im omw with coffee as we speak to get her out again!

username20: it's so good to see yn back up on her feet and moving around again 🤩

alex_albon: i actually forgot what yn looked like stood upright for a moment

username21: why does it feel like oscar is one of those partners who is constantly checking on her making sure she's doing her exercises and following every single bit of advice

maxverstappen1: yn's injury is really making you look like the doting boyfriend rn ❤️

danielricciardo: if yn ever gets bored of being entertained on a walk by you, you know where i am!

username22: i bet yn can't wait for race weekend again to get rid of the nagging doctor 😂

landonorris: wish you looked after me as well as you look after yn

oscarpiastri: @/landonorris just a shame that we're not dating then really huh?!

username23: anyone else noticed how many drivers have been round this week to take yn out and make sure she's staying active too

username24: @/username23 i think she might just be the most popular wag on the grid

ynusername: i hate you but i love you at the same time these days 💞

oscarpiastri: @/ynusername if the doctor says you keep moving, it's my job to make you move 😂

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ynusername: I always knew oscar was secretly boyfriend coded but damn having him look after me is making me fancy him all over again 🔥

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username25: i think i might've just fallen in love with him all over again too 😍

alexandrasaintmleux: make the most of all of the attention you're getting girl

ynusername: @/alexandrasaintmleux oh I am, he doesn't let me lift a finger 😘

username26: soft, doctor boyfriend oscar might just be my new favourite thing

charles_leclerc: if i see many more of these posts from you i might just need a sick bucket 🤮

username27: yn you really are the luckiest having this guy in your life

carlossainz55: i always knew he was a softie deep down 🥺

oscarpiastri: you know i'd do anything as long as it meant getting you better again

ynusername: @/oscarpiastri you're an angel in disguise i swear

username28: i'd break my leg too if it meant oscar piastri was there to look after me 😂

username29: it melts my heart to see how caring oscar has been over the past few weeks

danielricciardo: even i found myself getting a bit excited when i saw these photos yn

username30: everyone needs an oscar piastri in their life

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ynusername posted two stories

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landonorris: you're ruining oscar's image with every post you share these days 😂

oscarpiastri: there's nowhere else that I'd rather be

ynusername: we'll pretend you didn't complain that it wasn't race weekend first thing this morning shall we???

carmenmmundt: hope it's good news, lemme know how you get on!!

alex_albon: praying for you and hoping that it's the beginning of the end now 💕

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danielricciardo: thinking of you guys, tell the doctor if he doesn't give you good news i'll break his leg 💞

ynusername: something tells me you might find a few challenges in doing that hahah

georgerussell63: you're so strong yn, just remember we love you

charles_leclerc: the whole family is hoping for good news for you and oscar ❤️

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ynusername: the moment i've waited for for so long, back in my second home of the garage and back supporting my love during race weekend

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username31: make sure you keep taking care of yourself yn!! 💕

oscarpiastri: cannot begin to tell you how happy i am to have you back with me again ☺️

ynusername: @/oscarpiastri the best feeling in the world being able to cheer you on again

danielricciardo: ik just how much this means to you, welcome back to us yn

username32: it's so good to see you right back where you belong again

username33: it feels like you've never been away, I'm so happy for you guys 🥹

charles_leclerc: on the mend at last, i hope you know just how many people can't wait to welcome you back this weekend

username34: we love our favourite #81 fan 🧡

iamrebeccad: i am hurrying over to that mclaren garage as fast as i possibly can rn ‼️

username35: so happy to see you back on your feet and back with our favourite duo again

username36: this is the content we've been waiting for, it's so good to see you back

landonorris: as much as i hate having to share oscar again, it's a joy to have you back 🙃

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˗ˏˋ 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 ! ´ˎ˗

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kavehater · 2 months ago

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People for some reason always like to tell me that it’s nobody’s responsibility to “save me” which is so fucking stupid to tell me because where have I ever implied that ?! It’s so unfair to hear that because clearly you don’t know shit abt me if you say that. But why am I the only one who gets to hear that ?! Maybe for once I’d like to be saved maybe it’s not a sin to want that, and I think that it is peoples responsibilities to do better but no. The reason it doesn’t happen is because I’m simply not worth it.

#dora daily #I’m overstimulated every day now #death is a far simpler fate than dealing with this #I’m what people would call useless. I don’t understand why I need a use and why anyone needs a use #but I digress #my head is either about to explode on its own or I’ll bash it on the wall on my own accord #nfieeowlskslalak #the day I find peace is the day my existence is erased and my mum never had me #this is why abortions need to remain legal I don’t consent to this shitty existence thanks and no I have to deal with the consequences #now*#the classic rhetoric people like to spew ‘oh ur parents ur mother how would they react’ ‘ur friends etc what about them?!’#I’m proud to say I’m so useless that I make no splash in anyone’s life and frankly I would be replaced (and am already being replaced)#instantly. I wish a lot of things but one thing I’ve wished since as long as I can remember is to not be dispensable. yet life has a way of #working through means to spite me and make me suffer #I am dispensable to everyone. to everyone on here and to everyone irl. why I’ll never truly understand. maybe because the things I talk #about are annoying and my service personality is replaceable with others and my real personality idek what that is but I bet it sucks #I am replaceable to even dahlia so like #what do I do now ?#I wish krilling urself was halal #but since when did I care for halal and haram anyways I can’t even pray properly anymore #I give up.#I have no hope for the future. I should’ve went through with kms at eighteen a few days shy of nineteen #I should’ve overdosed that one time I was planning to I should’ve went through with it #I’m so fucking stupid

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cinnamorollcrybaby · 2 months ago

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Doting

Tags: jjk men as dads, tooth-rotting fluff, comfort drabbles

Synopsis: How the JJK men treat you while pregnant (spoiler warning- they dote on you.)

An: This is my formal apology for writing Nanami angst on the “Baby’s first words” post 😔 it will never happen again (can we stop with the death threats now?)

SATORU • SUGURU • TOJI • SUKUNA • NANAMI

SATORU

Oh, your loving husband is all over you while you’re pregnant. He genuinely has such a cute fascination with all the changes your body is going through. He seriously thinks you’re so strong for carrying his heir.

He loves rubbing your bump. In fact, he will always be touching it in some form or fashion while you two are together. When he’s away on missions, he has you send him pictures and updates on your pregnancy as if anything major has changed in a couple of days.

You best believe he is ready to indulge you on your every craving, no matter how strange. It’s three a.m and you’re crying because you need that specific brand of chicken wings and a can of whip cream? He’s heading to the store immediately to fetch whatever you tell him to.

He genuinely worries about being a good dad. Many nights he lays his head on your bump and talks to you about how teaching didn’t come naturally to him. He wasn’t born knowing how to meet people where they’re at. He use to expect people to be able to meet him on his level. He worries that he may inadvertently put a lot of pressure on his kid, and that’s the last thing he wants due to how he was raised. He just wants his kid to be a kid.

He’s the best, most loving and compassionate dad to your baby, more than you could ever hope for. Even if teaching didn’t come to him naturally, being a father did.

SUGURU

He’s such a “sit down and let me do it for you” while you’re pregnant. He cooks, cleans, works, and tends to you completely throughout your pregnancy.

Suguru gets hyper fixated on your health during pregnancy. He only feeds you the yummiest and healthiest foods while you’re pregnant. He encourages for you to sit on the yoga ball and do (very) light exercises. He just wants the best for you and his baby.

Whenever I said he tends to you, I genuinely mean he tends to you. He’ll gently brush your hair at night time, rub your back when your belly is becoming heavy to carry around, serve your breakfast, lunch, and dinner in bed, carries around emesis bags and breath mints for if you get morning sickness while you two are out.

This man is the king of enforcing your boundaries to people when they don’t listen. That really annoying family member that insists on being there for the birth even though you’ve already explained to them that you want this to be an experience for just you and Geto? Yeah, he’s made it very clear to them that they will not be at the birth if they want to be in your kid’s life.

He is absolutely not afraid to hurt feelings if it means his wife and future child are safe and cared for. He really don’t give a fuck who anyone else is. You and his child are first priority.

TOJI

Toji is definitely the type to express his love and devotion for you in other ways than the most conventional methods.

He is so incredibly gentle while you’re pregnant. He doesn’t rile you up as much or play fight with you anymore. He constantly reminds himself that you’re carrying another life inside you and that you have enough on your plate.

This man… whew does he love seeing you pregnant. Toji’s the type of man to feel so feral when he looks at you heavily pregnant with his kid.

He adores your body. He’ll rub lotion all over you and oils to help your skin accommodate to the stretch of carrying a kid. He massages your body and absolutely worships it while he’s rubbing the lotion and oil on you.

Your breasts are sore? He’ll gently massage them until they feel better. Your back hurts? He’d be the type to lift your bump up and take the weight off you for as long as you ask him to so you can feel relaxed for a few minutes.

And look this is probably TMI but like, if you got a clogged milk duct due to breastfeeding, Toji would unfortunately be the type of man to fix that issue with his mouth. i’m sorry but he would.

Final thing is, you better believe that he doesn’t allow anyone to get too close to you. He is so unbelievably protective over you while you’re pregnant. If he could, he’d lock you up at home to prevent anyone from getting close to you.

SUKUNA

On the outside, he acts very nonchalant and unbothered by your pregnancy. On the inside, he is constantly plagued by the thought that your body may not be able to carry his heir. The thought of losing you or his child haunts him.

He will secretly observe and take notes on your body and how it is changing. If he catches you expressing any sort of short windedness, he will immediately send you off to bed rest. Though, you’re usually able to convince him to take you off of it by the next day.

The only servant he trusts to tend to you is Uraume. No one else in his court is allowed to be anywhere near you unless he gives specific instructions. Still, he hates leaving you in the care of Uraume. He trusts them, but he wants to be the one to take care of you.

He loves holding your body close to him at night. All four arms are wrapped around you and holding you closely. Since he doesn’t need much sleep, he will stay awake rubbing on your tummy all night long. One time, he felt the baby moving in your stomach while you were asleep. He was so intrigued that he woke you up and told you to “make them do it again”.

Now, he will randomly approach you at any given time while you’re heavily pregnant and hold his hand out so he can feel his baby moving around inside of you. It soothes his worry.

During birth, Sukuna was a complete mess. The amount of blood lost during birth fucking terrified him. He was panicking and yelling at anyone to do something to save you, even while everyone was assuring him that you’re okay and this was natural.

After 9 long excruciating months of extreme worry and constant fear, he finally feels peace when he’s cradling a newborn in his arm and a sleeping wife in the other arm. All of his hard work to protect you paid off he thinks.

NANAMI

Oh, to be pregnant by the king of domestic love himself.

Nanami is the type of man to immediately start working on a nursery for you as soon as you reveal to him that you’re pregnant. He immediately changes the guest bedroom into a nursery that you design for your little baby.

He reads up on all the parenting books and articles. He’s constantly compiling things to either do or to not do during pregnancy and even while raising a kid.

Like Geto, he tends to your every need. He is a total house husband all while working 40 hours a week. When he’s at work, he is constantly calling and texting you to make sure that you’re okay and taking care of yourself, but let’s be fr he literally did everything for you before he even left for work (meal prepped for you, set out your clothes for you, put out all your self care items in case you want to bathe).

When you express concerns of your body getting bigger to him, he does everything in his power to show you that he loves and respects your body for creating life. He literally cherishes and worships your body for hours if you let him.

Like Toji, Nanami is protective over you. He constantly has an arm around you if you two are in public, and he watches everyone who dares to get close to you like a hawk. If he gets a bad vibe about anyone, he’s immediately stepping in front of you and taking over the conversation.

Nanami is the best partner to have during birth. His reading of articles during your pregnancy really paid off. He is supportive without being overbearing. He listens to your needs and tends to you without question. Constant praise and encouragement while you’re giving birth. The moment he gets to snuggle with you and the baby is the moment he realizes that he cultivated the life of his dreams. He has the family he always wanted.

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