#I am sorry for being a downer and all that

[squigglywindy]

im in jail but i am sending u so so so many hugs and warm cookies or warm fish patties (those cream cheese fish things i cant remember)

Ty for the cream cheese fish XD <3

[dailydegurechaff]

You don't have to reply to this, but I am very happy to stumble across a non-problematic Youjo Senki fanpage. 💖

Thank you very much!! I'll continue to do my best!

[anewp0tat0]

kinda spoilers for the latest kuro arc if you aren't caught up

honestly, I'm now pretty scared that the next mini arc and series finale will be emotionally disapointing.

it's already obvious that the pacing has been bad for a very long time, and engagement gets lower and lower as we go on. but for some reason, it's never really clicked for me how emotionless I feel while reading recently.

it's probably because of how grim this orphanage mini arc is compared to the last two that it occurred to me: if I read or watched this arc consecutively in the form of a single chapter or episode, well dare that I would cry for these children, eventually. I would be riding the waves of trust and fear, and there wouldn't be enough time for me to process my feelings, leaving me a sopping mess. that's how I like to consume media.

but there's too much time in between, and so I don't... really feel anything. and this arc is sad, just as sad as those orphans during the Circus arc, but I just don't feel or even care for them a lot. to put it heavily.

this isn't a commentary on how I feel in the fandom now or anything, my point here is that so many people, me included, are looking forwards to the next mini arc with Ciel and Sebastian(especially the people who left the fandom until they return) because we're expecting new dark discoveries and emotional turmoil. this applies to the finale as well. blood, death, trauma, a moment of happiness, all that awful stuff will happen! but now I'm worried that the emotional impacts won't hit me at all, and then I'll be.... disapointed.

sad thoughts, sorry. in the end, I'll still be here. it's just weird that I only realize this now.

[iiusia]

i think there is just something fundamentally wrong with my brain that makes it and school not mix

[blu3berrydraws]

I don't want to hear anything about the world anymore thanks

[celadonlonghorn]

running my drawings through glaze to repost them on twitter and wondering if this shit is even worth it anymore

[piplupod]

really want to blow this account up and start fresh but ... i like having the archive of things... i have a very shoddy memory so its nice to have access to a memory-keeping space.... i just feel so unhappy with and embarrassed by the people I've been (though im grateful they got us through all that shit, even though we're not really anywhere good still)

i just. head in my hands. i feel so embarrassed by everything I've ever been and I wish I could hide it all away so people don't see that and carry it with them in their idea of me.

....I think maybe my loneliness is starting to get to me! I am wanting to show people my Best self, but that is not my true self. i just want so badly to be likeable and to have friends 😭

[stinkybrowndogs]

Oh man the hits just keep comin

[gorillaxyz]

i love US because we just go to each others posts and profiles and comment stuff at each other. constant state of "rant rant rant" and "yo check this out." from her and "hi ^_^ hope youre doing well!!! thought youd like this <3" and "omg!!! this is so good. i love how you did that thing." from me. i love being very nice to people

[obnoxiousarcade]

I have a longing to be understood more than anything else i think

[mitamicah]

.

[tvrningout-a]

i know that bc i'm tired and hurting, what i'm feeling is amplified, but i just want y'all to know that i'm not trying to avoid talking to anyone ooc. i really wanted today to focus on messages and plots, if i'm honest! but there's certain things going on right now that are kinda taking everything out of me, and it's just so much easier to make a post and maybe reply to a comment -- even those i haven't been great about. but i promise it's not intentional, and more than likely, i'm excited to talk!! i also just feel very exhausted and funky mentally atm. reaching out or replying to messages seems so daunting when i feel like this.

if you're currently waiting on me, thank you for being patient with me, and i'm sorry to make you wait. these moments always pass, so this one will, too! but i'm sorry if it at all feels like i'm ignoring you in the meantime or like i'm hard to connect with.

[m4niackkyun]

Hi. (Announcement in the tags)

[opalescent-potato]

.

[phagodyke]

coming to terms with having adhd is like wow so my brain has been broken all my fucking life and always will be. and when I felt like everything was unfair + more difficult for me than everyone else thats because it is actually. and it will always be like this forever. hope that helps 👍

[astriiformes]

The winter break loneliness is hitting hard already and while I don't have a good ask meme lined up, if anyone wants to send questions about fic/playlists/cosplay or anything else, they would be much appreciated