#I am learning new stuff about myself

[sicksucculentz]

welp

turns out I really like bugs! I like millipedes and isopods!

who knew! I thought I was gonna be strictly a small mammals fan!

pleasantly shocked to find I like the spiders at work to! and i'm scared of spiders!

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

Randomly thinking about “tolerate it” (narrator voice: it was not random) and how under the cloak of fiction it is ostensibly inspired by works like “Rebecca” (which Taylor said she read during the 2020 lockdowns I believe?), with the line of “you’re so much older and wiser” indicating that the speaker is significantly younger and inexperienced compared to the person she’s speaking to and a pretty direct reference to the plot of the book.

But I saw something somewhere once that stuck with me about how it might not be referring to relative age between the characters but chronological age as in the passage of time in a relationship. And that made me think about how in a contemporary context, it might not necessarily be referencing an actual age gap between the two characters, but rather a sarcastic or cynical response to the man’s claims that he has matured (“you’re so much older and wiser [than you were before/than you were when we met/etc.]”), which then made me think about that line in relation to the woman. And that it could be taken like, “you act like you’ve matured so much in our time together and like you know everything, while I’m supposedly still stuck as the girl I was when we first met.”

Which then made me think of the “right where you left me” of it all and did you ever hear about the girl who got frozen time went on for everyone else she won’t know it and the bit in Miss Americana where she talks about how celebrities get frozen at the age at which they got famous, and how she’s had to play catch up in a lot of ways not just in her emotional growth but kind of in general. (Which also made me wonder if she’s ever been called out for immaturity/lack of curiosity/lack of education about things in her life…)

Which then made me think about the rest of the song, and @taylortruther’s posts yesterday about “seven” and “Daylight” and the way Taylor idealizes her youth yet contrasts it with an almost sinister reality in its wake, and the line, “I sit by the door like I’m just a kid,” because the discussion raised that her relationship let her recapture some of the childlike joy and wonder she’d lost. So this line is a double-edged sword: the speaker sits by the door with childlike hope that the person will come home and cherish her, but on the darker side, feels like the child dealing with the monsters she doesn’t have names for yet and the feelings of isolation she felt as she aged.

I’m not saying the song is necessarily autobiographical; like most of the songs on folkmore, it’s clearly a fictionalized story based on media she’d consumed and created, but we know a lot of the fictional songs were infused with her own feelings and experiences and… This idea swirling in my head picked up steam and now I kind of can’t stop thinking about it. Sorry but I’m a little obsessed now.

Like maybe it might start to shed light on why she identified so strongly with the novel in the first place…

[fisheito]

yakuya in MY swamp? in MY ecosystem? no . i am still in disbelief. i hope you all know that my particles are bouncing off the everything. i am using periods as punctuation but the state of my mind is naught neareth final.

[demortuis]

looks at my hands. dorian being protective and tactile when it comes to the right people romantic or platonic wait listen i promise

[altruistic-meme]

just applied for a part time job 😔 ough if im being honest

[kil9]

everypony hates me for my complete and utter disrespect of authority

[pardonmydelays]

i also think it's kinda cool how tyler makes me want to learn stuff

[flugame-mp3]

they should NOT let you listen to hozier on your period when u have a significant other. i listened to uiscefhuaraithe and thought about them and nearly cried (i last saw them genuinely about 20 minutes ago and i spent all day hanging out with them and staring at them lovingly)

[c1trvswurld]

Gonna reread the communist manifesto bc I remember reading it in middle school but I don't remember like much sticking to my feeble freshly out of primary school brain. So I'm hoping I can sit down an analyze this shit more thoroughly. Not bc I think I'm a communist (dunno where I stand tbh I just have basic common sense and humanity to guide me [though ig for where I live a lot of my thinking is very socialist heavy/left leaning aligned]) I just like political theory a lot for some reason. Even though it makes my head explode and gives me severe tremors, it's cool.

[pom-seedss]

Old art, new format!

Made a paint by numbers for myself to keep track of which colour goes where because I know I would have messed it up otherwise.

Fun to see how this turns out.... I custom mixed the blues. I think 2 and 3 may end up being too similar, but it should still get the effect I wanted for the most part.

[mortellanarts]

2023 go bye bye

[cappurrccino]

maybe i should try my hand at typesetting/bookbinding with my bang fic from last year... 🤔

[nemotakeit]

i remember the first time ever i listened to SO i was like pfft rap? get out. (i was cringe) and then when i gave it a listen again a few months later i was a changed person... so i binge listened to their entire discography immediately and was genuinely shocked because how could ALL of their songs be bangers, like i couldn't believe it was possible it was surreal........ i wish i could turn back time (lol) to experience that pure shock again

[fair-lead]

textbook mentioned gravitational waves/radiation and i almost imploded in my seat

[neverendingford]

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[pepprs]

discovered miah_pie on t*ktok (<- i don’t have one btw i just stumbled upon her bc someone i follow on ig talked abt her) and her videos make me want to cry so bad. 24 year old dependent moment