#I am just. tired

[scatterbrainedart]

The biggest struggle with ADHD for me is how much time everything takes. A good example of that is schoolwork and writing. I'm a writer, a write a lot. I like it, I'm good at it. Yet, my 500 words long text took me a full weekend to write which included me staying up late pretty much every day to write. I've also been writing the same book for four years now (albeit I did start over after 50000 or so words).

Last book I read was Frankenstein. Loved it, but it took me over a year to finish. Today, my only goal was to finish writing my notes for this one assigment. I wrote four sentences in about 6 hours (after another 4 hours of procastinating). Drawing also takes me a very long time compared to others. And is very much not supported by my short attention span and lackluster motivation.

The fact that it hasn't always been this bad is the worst part, I think. I like school and studying, I like learning things, but things are always too slow or too fast for me. I'm glad I'm a fast learner and can compensate for my attention span and godawful working memory with those streghts I have. But it is not efficiant and it will not work forever, and I'm like 99% certain it's the reason I get so quickly overworked and burnt out.

The second worst part is when people overlook this and think I should be able to handle it just because I'm "old enough to take responsibility" of these sort of things now. Which, yeah, I guess. But I'm also a full-time student who is doing her darndest to balance school, friends, student associations, hobbies and every other responsibility, obligation and commitment that may be thrown her way. Which, realistically, I would be able to handle on their own. Seperatly. Aaaghh. Anyway.

It shouldn't be unreasonable to ask for a bit more time to manage it all. Dropping the ball doesn't mean I'm not trying hard enough. If I could choose between it being easy and it being hard, wouldn't I choose for it to be easy?? Like,, cmon

[gojosbf]

will post about today's episode tomorrow sorry

[lady-tortilla-chip]

I reallyyyyy wish more fics would actually treat Miles like he wasn’t fucking stupid.

[spencecreates]

My identity has always been wrapped up in writing. And I've been doing it a lot less and now I don't know who exactly I'm supposed to be

[eucharistcunningham]

so glad that eucharist is an oc and that there is not an insane fandom out there who sent the actress death threats bc she liked a ship she was part of that was close to being canon. sure glad that never happened huh

[boyquet]

I just want to remind people that it’s 2024 and we didn’t “go thru a pandemic” we are “going thru a pandemic” present tense. It is still happening. People are still get sick, still becoming disabled, and still dying. Covid hasn’t gone away and I beg people to not normalize getting sick with it.

[waveoftheocean]

wahoo finished this in time for superbat week day 5: tired dads!!

[firefrightfic]

to anyone missing my writing please know i am also missing my writing

[epiceneandroid]

some of the people i follow on my twitter (thankfully not mutuals) make me ashamed of being a bisexual nonbinary person who's partially a woman in addition to being partially a man and also both and also neither blah blah because i constantly fear my attraction to men is "straight aligned" when i desire fat men of any presentation which primarily gay men tend to desire

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

I am incredibly serious right now when I beg you all, please, and if you have Twitter or Tiktok or whatever to please spread the word: click on an author's profile on Ao3.

You want to know if an author has written more? Want to know if they're still writing? Want to see more from them? Want to know if they've written a trope or kink or sex scenario you enjoy?

Click on their name. And look at their profile.

I cannot tell you how many times in the last six months someone has read a new or newer fic of mine and said they (a new reader who has read nothing else I've done) "can't wait to see what you do next!" I've written 50+ fics and over a million words already.

"I don't know if you're still writing..." click on my profile. I am. I literally wrote a 128k+ fic for that ship last month.

"Would you ever do X?" "Please do Y!" I already did. Click on my name and look at my works.

Archive of our Own is a library. It's an archive. Not social media. It is your responsibility to fight back against the laziness that corporate algorithms have trained into you.

Click my author name. Just click it. Just click it.

Before you demand more, or ask if a writer will do XYZ, or wonder if the author still writing, or anything - click on their profile. Click on the author's profile.

I'm not trying to be mean or condescending or anything like that. I'm just exhausted. It's disheartening and frustrating to repeat myself ad nauseam, because someone couldn't take thirty seconds to do the tiniest bit of work to see if I've written lately, if I've written more for their ship, or scan my works to see if I've written what they're asking for. Please. Please. I'm begging.

Click the author's name, and explore before you ask.

[notgreengardens]

I kinda hate how the main take away in general seems to be "hahaha I love being a hater, kendrick is the king of being a hater hahaha" or "drake has a secret daughter" and not "there are mysogynist sex pests and pedophiles in the hip hop industry and kendrick used his clout to very publically call out one" like can we please not drop the pedophilia out of this conversation YET AGAIN like the jokes are funny and I also make some but I feel like this should be front and center of the conversation and men in positions of power always get away with this shit

[suntails]

growing up!

[hinamie]

make it vicious, take a stab

[transthatfag]

destiel forehead healing kiss. what more could u want.

[riverthebooknerd]

"but why do you even ship them-" IT BRINGS ME JOY AND WHIMSY!!!!!!!

[joshuamj]

Hero.