#I am going to absolutely destroy him.
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This just in:
Absolute wreck of an oc has been revived after years.
Attack on Titan Oc, Amida Cross. Stay tuned for eventual design posting.
#aot oc#attack on titan oc#oh#ohho#ohhohoho#this poor poor man#I am going to absolutely destroy him.
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Thinking many many thoughts about how Jean was Riko's partner for a YEAR and was still rooming with Goon #3. Because that was how unwilling Riko was to let go of Kevin. And how that implies that Jean was placed as his partner both because of the practicality of Kevin being gone AND as a punishment for letting him go in the first place. Being partners with Jean could actually slow Riko down depending on how often he's hurt (because I don't think Riko was all that exempt from the rules to the point where his partner's performance would completely not matter) and he was still placed there. Riko was just THAT angry at him over Kevin's escape. And all the while he was keeping Kevin's side of room like an altar, even back when he didn't even think Kevin could PLAY, because of an injury he caused.
#'average aftg fan thinks about Kevins side of the room once a day.' factoid. headboard georg (me) is thinking on it at all times#everything about the perfect court makes me so absolutely insane i am chewing on glass#do you guys think that Jean would still have distracted Riko if he knew Kevin was going to leave?#moreover. do you guys REALLY think Jean didn't at least suspect he was leaving#because tsc is probably going to prove me wrong but I think he would and he knew#anyway. i said it before and i will say it again#the kevriko toxic teen girl homoerotic friendship rizz is unparalleled#riko moriyama the man that you are. they could never make me think you're uninteresting I want to use your brain as a saltshaker#I don't think Riko (or Tetsuji for that matter since he prompted it) ever actually realised what Kevin's injury MEANT. like for real#it wasn't putting him in his place it was destroying the very idea of the perfect court. it was DONE#if Kevin hadn't recovered. if the plot of AFTG hadn't happened. how long would it have taken for Riko to realize#that HE killed the very thing he built his life around and was just dragging it behind him like a corpse (Jean)#kevin day#riko moriyama#jean moreau#the sunshine court#all for the game#the perfect court
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The ship takes off and Anakin and Quinlan sit there very politely and as soon as it clears Coruscant they try to kill each other
lmao they’re like two scrappy kids who are taken to the principal’s office because they got into a fight and then the moment you close the door and leave them alone they’re fighting again just as viciously as before.
#asks#hanahaki au#obikin#i do think they may never be able#to get along even when this whole#misunderstanding is fixed#it’s over for them that ship has sailed and caught on fire in the harbor#but see anakin would totally kill vos given the barest slimmest excuse#but vos couldn’t ever kill anakin really cause yeah sure the hanahaki would go away#and he would absolutely deserve it#but he also knows obi-wan would be devastated beyond reason#that losing anakin would#destroy parts of obi-wan in untold ways#meanwhile anakin is like 1) obi-wan would#forgive me for anything.#im planning to murder his friend and also his love interest#but I am not terribly worried because he will be ok because he will have me.#at most anakin entertains obi-wan not forgiving him as an option but not like what he really#thinks will happen
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stoic illiterate unwilling assassin deeply in love with unfailingly kind rich sad gay man almost stabs his crush's brother because the brother cares so much and so genuinely for the gay man that he searched assassin's room out of worry and found knives and a mysterious letter before being interrupted by the assassin who then does not want to show him the letter which seems incredibly suspicious, only for a later scene (after the gay man interrupts them and thus stops any escalation from happening) to quietly reveal that the very sus letter in possession of this illiterate assassin is not in fact a sign he's lying about being illiterate.... it's just two pages of him practicing the gay man's name over and over in neatly spaced lines...... a reveal which he was going to STAB a man over because he doesn't know that the gay man's brother knows the man is gay and loves him with his whole heart and would never ever do anything to hurt him........ i will never get over this, how could i ever get over this, everything else ever is going to be downhill from here
#yeah HI. if you are WONDERING. i am still being absolutely destroyed. utterly torn to pieces. smashed into a million happy little bits. by#to sir with love#it's not even the romance. though the romance is excellent and only getting better (and also hilarious. THE CHONBURI SCENES???)#but the siblings!!!! these brothers!!!!! everything in the world is trying to turn them against each other and every time i hold my breath#and every time!! without fail!!!! without hesitation even!!!!!! they go no. i love him and i trust him and he would never hurt me or i him.#and i CANNOT TELL YOU. how hard that's fucking me up. in the best of ways#it would be SO easy in a hiiiigh drama messy family show like this to go the easy route and just have the two sides of the family#actually fully at war with each other. or to have one of these brothers betray the other / let some misunderstanding fester#and 🤞🤞🤞 because i still have a good deal of show to go but so far. oh my goddddd. they choose each other. they choose each other always#anyway. if anyone reads this and is looking for some very high quality actually good soap melodrama. to sir with love is free on youtube
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haven't been this fucking insanely furious at Williams since they fired Damon Hill halfway through 1996
#this is SUCH a horrible decision for them both#while i think there is a short term chance that Alex may produce a better race result#the car is pretty naff so the chances are low#and now alex has enormous pressure on his shoulders#if he makes another mistake and tbh that's likely because the car is not ideal and he's now in a high pressure situation which he#historically speaking#does not do well in#(also despite the heroics in the first year at williams he actually doesn't get on with Melbourne very well)#but if he does that he looks like an arsehole and the team look like arseholes and the press will call alex a villain#and meanwhile in the medium to long term#logan's just been told the team has so little confidence in him they believe a driver who destroyed his car will do better#which is going to knock anyone for absolutely fuckin six#like if you empathised with alex at red bull you have to empathise with logan here#mr vowles i am booking a fight i am coming to fight you
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i want to see izzy suffer SO badly, i want to see him hurt, put that man through hell
#nothing brings me greater joy in life than to torment my boy#(and then kiss his little head and wrap him in a blanket......)#s2 arc where my boy gets tortured <3#literally there is nothing better than absolutely destroying him (and then gently nursing him back to health)#fndkdkkd sorry im thinking about him and im going to make it yalls problem <3#sometimes... i want him to have a soft life only...... and sometimes i still want him to have softness in his life but it to be given after#he has suffered SO MUCH. break him down so he can accept love + kindness.....#nyxtalks#ofmd#izzy hands#israel hands#why yes i am IMMEDIATELY using my tone indicator banners to post dumb shit what did u expect from me <3
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My brain just hit an old hyperfixation (is this what it's called? I hope I used the word right) and oh dear am I losing my mind now. I need to write a story I think. About this one old guy. He's unhinged. There's so much information about him and yet not enough. I want to explore his character so much. He's definitely a criminal - at least he was one - and I'm 95% sure he can do actual real magic, and he's a musician and an artist and an actor and a magician and a philosopher and a traveler and a conman and so much more and also I think he's some kind of immortal. Maybe he just has a VERY long life. It's strongly implied he was a pirate at some point of his life. He started a cult by accident several times. My conspiracy theories about him include him being a secret god.
He's also a freaking round blue raven. Someone save me from my mind.
#seriously why is he so cool#he's like. a ball.#he's ROUND#if no one stops me I'm gonna make an au and introduce all my mutuals to a russian cartoon that lives in my head rent-free#it has an obviously mysterious old man and an old woman who seems to be very normal but actually has some weird past as well#and they're in love you can fight me on this THEY. ARE. IN LOVE.#there's a disastrous scientist who keeps forgetting to sleep and is kinda cute in a nerdy way#there's a mechanic guy who lives a bit away from everyone surrounded by tech and he's actually unhinged#he's a single father btw. he made a robot baby because he was lonely. it's very important for his character.#I WILL ship the scientist and the mechanic because no one can stop me <3#there's a local farmer who was a famous disco dancer an archeologist and a VERY famous actor in the past. he doesn't care about it anymore.#he was like. Captain America actor kind of famous. or Superman.#and then he just committed a bunch of crimes for his new friends and left to live in a village far away from big cities#all those people with very suspicious past raise a bunch of children together#absolutely inseparable adhd and autism best friends boys who I think are capable of destroying the world#and toxic teenagers couple:#a girl who honestly needs to figure herself out first before dating anyone and a poet boy who is SO deeply in love with her it's not okay#the farmer dude also has a rebellious teenager niece who visits him sometimes#and the mechanic's kid is usually in space but sometimes returns and I am not ashamed to admit that I cried during some of those episodes#I am going to think about them. they are so important to me.#I am going insane.#also yes they are all round animals. if you're wondering.#someone just tranquillise me already or something. it's 5 a.m. and I am losing my sanity
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just realized after sophomore year's article class swap riz would 100% have assassins after him
#not art#fh class quangle#holds head. yeah no it fully makes sense in my brain now. that the kid would be like if you make me deal with typical teenager problems#I am going to Kill you. like that attitude will make him so absolutely insufferable in junior year coupled with the :D#but nobody will be able to say shit bc kid literally has snipers on his ass for whistleblowing#well. nobody except for sklonda and pok who are like. ohhhh. ohh man.#sklonda is destroying every cushion in the flat bc of course she blames herself for saying anything abt tuition#while pok is like hey kiddo. I thought you didn't wanna die like me and leave ur mom alone. what's this#tho to be fair riz would 100% not give a shit abt the assassins hes fully confident in his friends and his own capability as an adventurer#of course this breaks awful for him when the junior year evil plot turns out to be fully Teenager Problems The Plot lmao#all right under his nose as he is too busy contributing child labour to 17 different publications to know anything abt his classmates#tbh I see a potential senior year plot for him too lmao. taking a break from journalism to try fiction writing
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replaying dragon age inquisition is just an exercise in “the rebel mages would not fucking do that”
#da#my posts#specifically the hostile ones hanging out in the hinterlands for no good reason.#at least they gave the crazy hostile templars a motivation. a really weak one but still. At least they have a goal.#‘kill at mages. don’t gaf about anyone else’ ok. fine.#‘kill everyone you see for some reason. we need to steal their belongings I guess????’ insane. what the hell.#the could have at least done some blood magic about it. it would have been a boring repeat of da2 themes but at least there would be themes?#it’s just so STUPID. especially coming off of a fresh da2 playthrough.#like there’s some dumb stuff in da2 to give you an excuse to fight both mages and templars as generic npcs don’t get me wrong.#but not this much. and unlike da2 you and your companions comment on it as if it makes any sort of sense lol#also I hate that they decided that the chantry explosion killed a bunch of people (which is not supported at all by either the environments#or dialogue of da2 btw. the game is mainly concerned about anders murdering elthina not randos lol)#but that will come in later.#anyway. every note I find in the game from the mages is so insane. just found the area where the templars burned down a house with mages#locked inside. but because both sides have to be bad for dai plot reasons#the mages killed the peasants that lived in the house for damn reason lmao. AFTER robbing them on the road earlier.#insane choices from the writing team on this one.#what were you trying to SAYYYY#like I’m ok with the mages being a bit brutal. that happens in war. but there’s like. reasons? usually?#like as much as orsino turning himself into a flesh beast is insane and weird both-sides-ism plot device.#at least they tried to give him a reason (even if it didn’t make sense in the context of hawke and co absolutely destroying the templars he#was so convinced were going to kill them all)#the hinterlands mages genuinely have no reason to attack random passersby.#ESPECIALLY SINCE IM PLAYING A MAGE.#like?????? hello I am one of you. how the hell do you even know I’m not one of the rebels.#sorry anyway I’m upsetti spaghetti.
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#this is what I get for hyperfocusing on a currently airing canon queer ship to cope with life stress#instead of decades-old queerbait/non-canon#i want so badly to be able to focus on Oliver’s quote about wanting a bi hoe Buck phase if Buck and Tommy were ‘on a break’#bc I’m pretty sure that was the interview he said they were filming masks so he should’ve already known?#and it was also the one where he talked about overcoming obstacles in their relationship#and bi hoe Buck phase before getting back together would be#i don’t want to say the only good outcome. I’ll get over the shock and it’ll hurt less and I’ll see other okay options#but it would certainly be the best#but the things Lou is saying. and the way it feels so shoehorned in.#i am not insane (coughs. definitely not vagueing any section of fandom.)#and I’ve also been destroyed by hope twice in three days now. one obviously more globally significant than the other but.#yeah.#sometimes Ted lasso was wrong and it is the hope that kills you#i want to cling to that possibility but in the face of the episode itself I don’t think I can#it was obviously a last-minute thing for absolutely no narrative reason#and there’s no reason to shoehorn that in to create a getting together arc. there’s no reason to do that suddenly and impromptu#from either a narrative or a network perspective#honestly it’s not even entirely the breakup itself for me#i mean don’t get me wrong that sucks so bad on so many levels#but it’s the implication in Lou’s interviews that Tommy’s just gonna disappear now#he was fully enmeshed in the firefam and getting more and more so. he’s Eddie’s good friend!#that was a big part of what made it a good relationship but it was also just. really nice for Tommy#and I love him and I will be particularly devastated if the show just cuts him cold now#and everything Lou said like. makes it make SENSE from his perspective. in a way he obviously had to work for to be able to do it#but it still doesn’t make it a good or narratively satisfying breakup#or rather a good or narratively satisfying conclusion#specifically for Tommy!!! it makes it a decent and justifiable midpoint to a character arc about learning to be vulnerable#which is a really interesting arc you could do with Tommy! actually based on what we know about him!#if you hadn’t told Lou to go back to SWAT!#started typing these in an attempt to get the emotions out and instead I’ve just added irritation
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Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Padmé Amidala/Darth Maul, CC-1010 | Fox/Quinlan Vos, CC-2224 | Cody/Obi-Wan Kenobi, Padmé Amidala & Coruscant Guard Clone Troopers, Padmé Amidala & CC-1010 Fox Characters: Padmé Amidala, Leia Organa, Luke Skywalker, Darth Maul, Obi-Wan Kenobi, CC-2224 | Cody, CC-1010 | Fox, Quinlan Vos, Clone Commander Thorn (Star Wars), CC-5869 | Stone, Mace Windu Additional Tags: sith mind control, Jedi Maul (Star Wars), annoyance to lovers, Recovery, Political Campaigns, Padmé Amidala Lives, chosen family, Fox killed the Chancellor, Ashoka Tano becomes a Jedi again, Galactic war consequences, Force-Sensitive CC-1010 | Fox Summary:
"This is why," he drawled, handsome face ruined by overflowing disdain, "We train children."
#babes. I think I might live here now actually#Padme lives and PADME SNAPS#the very serious consequences of a disaster that almost happened#Maul: I AM NOT A TEACHER#also Maul: you are doing it WRONG CEASE SMILING AND-#in this first chapter we are mostly in grief hell sorry#it had to be done!#is Fizz one of Maul's troopers? yes absolutely#Fox? listen it is a PLOY but the baby Guards are already basically his kids#it takes a village#Quinlan: I get to watch my boyfriend hold babies? fuck over the senate? help a friend? WHERE DO I SIGN UP#yes background very tragic Rex feelings#I just think?#there's basically no way Anakin falls apart that doesn't lowkey destroy him for a while!#Obi-Wan can fall back into being a Jedi#Rex??? Rex's entire life was the war and it turns out his PERSON WAS ON THE WRONG SIDE?#devestation! unhelped by a crush!#Padme just like...has this family she never expected and she's going to keep it if it fucking kills her
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I like to think every chance she gets, Sigewinne holds Wriothesley’s hand. Both bc of touch starvation, but also out of fondness. She’s so proud of who he’s become since he’d first set foot in a then much crueler Meropide and of all the changes he’s made; he is her very best friend, damn near family.
The handholding gets a lot more frequent after the incident with the Primordial water, as a reassurance to herself that he is alright.
#hc; sigewinne#//If handholding is not feasible; like when he’s working; she will burrow into his side#//Like a cat#//Won’t do it so blatantly if at all in front of other people though—they both have reputations to upkeep after all#//Maybe during a patrol after hours; maybe during convos in his office or her infirmary#//Esp if she’s fixing up the straps on his arms and yelling for making them too tight or leaving them on too long ndbdn#//Bruh the fact that [leaks] he is unsure if he’s even Fontanian or not & joking abt finding out the Hard Way STRESS HER TF OUT [end]#//She likes his dark humor but that one is a little too much for her#//Losing her favorite human and best friend would absolutely DEVASTATE her#//Did once tell him if he DID puddle bc of the Water; she would put him in a jar and keep him like a pet bug#//Bc she was snippy about the joke he’d cracked; only to get MORE snippy bc wHY ARE YOU LAUGHING. I AM SERIOUS; WHY IS THAT FUNNY-#//Y’know that bit where Mushu was all ‘My little baby; off to destroy people’? ye that was her abt him when he took over as head of Meropid#//Or whenever he went into the ring to earn credit coupons; bc he most certainly did#//Her favoritism definitely got her a talking to; but did it stop her? No#//Heck I went off topic. Ah well; that’s a good sign my brain is slowly going back to normal ig
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absolutely going the fuck through it rn (:
#haha I'm going to be cheated out of the only future i ever gave enough of a shit about to want!!!! haha 😃#so fucking funny of the world to make me want to die for the first 18 years of my life#and then give me a TASTE of what it feels like to live in color. with my fiancee#give me a preview of what I'd have missed out on if i killed myself#and then after 4 years give me cancer and take it all away (: haha I'm laughing!!#can't miss what you never had you know!! very funny way of mocking me here (:#“man this kid actually wants a future!! he's planning it for the very first time!! make him stop.''#real talk I'm absolutely heartbroken. devastated. i can't even find the words to describe how viscerally destroyed i am.#there's no language that captures it. i just want to wail and scream at curse at god.#if a god exists it fucking sucks and i hope it dies.#IT'S NOT FUCKING FAIR MAN. NONE OF IT IS FAIR.#i don't even know what else to say.#negative#death#audio#Spotify#round 2
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SPOILERS FOR THE GLORY IN THE TAGS
#spoilers#the glory spoilers#idek if enough people know about this show to warrant the spoiler tags but oh well#god. GOD THE FUCKING METAPHORS#DONG EUN TELLING YEO JEONG ABT HER PAST AND HIM SAYING ''ill do it. who should i kill first?''#AND THEN HE GOES TO FIX HER BUTTON AND HE RIPS IT OFF OF HIS OWN SLEEVE LIKE ITS NOTHING#GODD THE METAPHORS#I will destroy myself to sew you back together I will be a vessel for your vengeance I will ruin myself so you might start over again#im literally typing these SECONDS after he ripped that button off so maybe he isn't actually that into it#but god GODDDDD I HOPE HE BECOMES CRAZY#he wants her approval so badly he would kill for her. and he will. gladly. happily#GOD THEY'RE SO FUCKED UP#also dong eun seducing do yeong by being absolutely kick ass at go is so so funny to me#having evil intentions and a rich old man so helplessly wrapped around her finger is so so hot of her#anyways. everyone in this show is fucked up and i will be disappointed if the ending isn't as bloody as im expecting#GODDDDDDD THE METAPHORS THOUGH I. AHXGJSKANSHS#also the way dong eun can only stare while she's being treated nicely. girl i hope you have a happy ending#also btw i haven't finished the show yet so idk if do yeong is like an asshole or not#but if he wants to remarry i am available and very interested#sir i may have zero dollars to my name and be fat and ugly and have no redeeming qualities#but you have a lot of money to give and i would love to receive it xoxo#JAGSHJZJAKAJAJ#edit: ''ill happily be your executioner'' I NEED A PIECE OF LEATHER TO BITE DOWN ON AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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(BOOK OF BILL SPOILERS)
I just finished reading The Book of Bill and I am kindof losing my mind over some of this stuff.
I had wondered if Alex Hirsch might make Bill sympathetic in some way and oh boy I was not expecting him to do it so successfully (and without cheapening Bill's character).
So, we learn that Bill was born into a 2D world... as a mutant who can see into the third dimension. He claims he was absolutely loved by all, but when talking about his powers, he mentions under Pyrokinesis:
"Cipher, Cipher, he's insane / Starting fires with his brain." The kids in grade school could be so cruel. But where are they now, huh? WHERE ARE THEY NOW?
So probably not quite as liked as he was letting on. To add to that, there's the silly straw page, which looks like silly nonsense until you decipher some of the codes:
"EYE DOCTOR OF A DIFFERENT KIND / WHO WANTS TO MAKE HIS PATIENTS BLIND" "THE DOCTOR SAYS / THREE SIPS A DAY / WILL MAKE THE VISIONS / GO AWAY"
I wasn't sure what this meant until I saw someone point out... he was seeing a third dimension that no one else could see. His parents probably took him to the eye doctor to try to "fix" him. Which, speaking of his eye doctor, the coded message in the section about human eyeballs says something interesting:
"MY OPTOMETRIST NEVER SAW IT COMING"
It could be a joke given beforehand he's talking about dissecting a human eye, but given the previous hints of medical abuse, I wouldn't put it past him that he tried to get revenge on his eye doctor.
Oh yeah and the whole thing about him setting his entire dimension on fire? Yeah it turns out it was entirely a mistake (he just wanted everyone to understand the third dimension he was seeing so they could be free of only two dimensions), he was so traumatized by it he blacks out when trying to recall it. He deeply, deeply regrets it, and...
"What? Your ENTIRE home dimension? destroyed? How? By what?" Bill looked distant, more distant than I'd ever seen him. "By a monster."
He sees himself as a monster.
And yet, he's not some innocent, misunderstood being. He still revels in causing pain and chaos. He's terrible in general, but becomes incredibly abusive toward Ford.
"YOU'RE MY PROPERTY. DON'T FORGET IT. The hillbilly abandoned you, your father won't want you returning without millions, you have no friends, and if you died out here in the snow, who would even miss you?"
Which... speaking of him and Ford...
Yes, yes, I know people ship them. But like, whether you see their relationship as romantic or platonic (I see it as the latter), there's some interesting parallels to be made here.
Both Bill and Ford are mutants who were mocked for their being different. (Bill was not physically a mutant, as far as we know, but more in the sense of him having vision stronger than that of everyone else in his dimension, and also having special powers. And he does describe himself as a mutant.) Both became social outcasts, separated from their families but still haunted by them (Ford seeing commercials of Stan on TV and running across old photos of him and his brother, Bill being haunted by his family in some form). Neither could return home for one reason or another. Both more powerful than their peers (Ford intellectually, Bill in terms of actual powers). Both of them isolated and alone. (Yes, Bill does have the Henchmaniacs, but they seem like shallow friends, and only really seem to follow him out of a desire to have a place to party.)
Ford was not aware of most of this, aside from knowing that Bill could not go home because his dimension was destroyed. But Bill absolutely saw himself in Ford. There was no other person he tried to use whom he felt a stronger connection to.
And he actually seems to care about Ford--he actually gave him a birthday present, and when Ford didn't like it, he decided to get drunk and party with him instead to make up for it.
And then when Ford realizes what Bill's plan actually is and refuses to go along with it, and fights back no matter what Bill does, Bill completely breaks down.
After living for trillions of years, he met someone who was like him, and that person rejected him.
He goes berserk, wreaking havoc, being caught by the dimensional authority that he's been taunting for most of his life.
And then after dying and being cast out of hell for being too annoying, he winds up faced with the Axolotl, who sends him to therapy, where he continues to break down further, sending out the book in a desperate attempt to find someone, anyone who will help him break loose and wreak havoc once again.
"You have no friends, and if you died ... who would even miss you?"
I don't know, Bill. Who would even miss you?
In short,
[ID: The front and back of one of Bill's Valentines cards. On the front is a black void with Bill Cipher lying down without his hat, gazing blankly upwards, with the text "I DON'T WANT TO DIE ALONE" above him. On the back is a simple white "TO/FROM" in red, with a red outline illustration of Bill spontaneously growing a mouth and eating a realistic, bloody heart. /end ID]
#bill cipher#stanford pines#gravity falls#gravity falls spoilers#the book of bill#the book of bill spoilers#oh gosh I haven't thought this hard about gravity falls in so long
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Idk I just have no patience for trans men/masculine people who refuse to acknowledge transmisogyny. Like. The worst experience I ever had with transphobia was when I was mistaken for a trans women. In a culinary program, I was cutting bell peppers, and one of the other students, a really big dude in a student leadership position, walks in and accusatory goes "so are you trying to be a woman, or something?" And I'm like. Well I'm trying to small dice these peppers. And I tell him I'm not a she and he says something to the effect of "Yeah I know that much." He makes some comment abt how whatever I'm doing doesn't make sense and he doesn't get it and when I tell him he doesn't have to, that he just has to respect it, he says "I don't have to do shit!" And gets real mad! Like actual threats mad! Tells me he could bash my skull in and to meet him outside for a fight and yeah it was fucking scary! The entire interaction I'm reminding myself that I'm the one currently holding a knife, if he tries anything.
Fast forward a few days later and my period is kicking my ass. Just absolutely destroying me. I'm in the dish pit, and I am visibly struggling, I'm nauseous, I'm in pain and bracing myself against walls. I'm not walking straight. And the same student leadership guy who was so aggressive with me when he thought I was transfem?
He tells me I look like I'm going to pass out. He says it's obvious I'm in pain, I shouldn't be in class, I can go sit down and if nobody can replace me he'll do the dishes himself.
Like. Do you get it yet. It's not just that he felt comfortable openly threatening me in a room full of other people when he thought I was a trans woman. It's that he did a complete 180 and was not only willing to support me, but actually pick up my slack once he knew I wasn't "that kind" of transgender. As soon as one of our classmates confirmed to him that I wasn't the wrong type of trans person I suddenly became someone who actually deserved care and compassion in his eyes. The "bigots think we're all the same and hate all of is equally" rhetoric isn't fucking true. It's just peddled to deny the privilege we have over other members of our community so it's easier to ignore how inhospitable supposedly trans-centric spaces are for TMA people.
#transmisogyny#everyone says solidarity but actual solidarity requires acknowledging intercommunity issues. A lot of you would rather die it seems
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