#I am a changed man to say the least
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we-are-not-afraid-92 · 4 months ago
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see I thought everyone was kind of exaggerating when they said “total eclipse was originally written for a nosferatu musical” and now here I am looking it up online and learning yes indeed it was and tearing up being like “it’s actually ellen and orlok’s song 🥲🥲”
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bruhstation · 20 days ago
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*Breaks into your house to stare wistfully out the window* Do you ever think that CTHenry is, at least by some perceptions, a corpse being kept alive by gold dust and the whimsy of a goddess whose motives are unknown? I do. *Puffs on bubble pipe* Anyway. I'm still holding out hope for a happy ending for our Miserable Train Gays. Iram gentlemen. Have a good day 💗
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out of sight, out of mind
#asks#sterling-starlight#tw ableism#<— just in case#thomas the tank engine#thomas and friends#ttte henry#ttte gordon#ttte james#ttte thomas#ttte percy#casa tidmouth#senjart#heavily inspired by yellowcake Please be niceys to me.#hooray! the nwr workplace environment that’s true to the early model seasons!#interpreting henry's sudden shape change and the whole thing with the special coal (both its need and obsolesce) in human form--#--with the addition of existential dread AND the panicked ramblings of a man who got his whole life turned upside down#it’s amazing how alive henry looks despite the tiny amount of gold dust left in the shining time world at that time#and how its number dwindled further in present cstm#henry with a forlorn expression wearing a shirt that says ‘’I am god’s favorite soldier’’#is lady here real? or a projection of henry’s inner thoughts towards himself —#�� because he can’t bear the idea that he’s actively mocking his own self and it wasn’t anyone else#(at least not anymore)#and if she’s real is she projecting her own lack of autonomy to someone who’s always hit with one misfortune after another…..#when your entire existence was to make sudrians happy for more than a thousand years#and you remain in solitude watching the humans you tended to come and go#so you bury your curiosity and longing so humanity can be happy#yet you can’t help but just strongly relate to this one poor guy#until the time comes in 1999#also this is as much of a study/character expansion/hc thing as much it is for my outlet for my feelings about my disabilities
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thedawningofthehour · 6 days ago
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Me banging out 1k+ words in like an hour: "oh we are SO fucking back."
Also me: 'proceeds not to write for a week straight'
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animentality · 7 months ago
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a beta reader left a comment on my manuscript that was basically:
"this story is a waste of my time."
and it's like....
i have thick skin and all, since i've been working with beta readers for a long time, but...
ouch.
thanks, i guess. helpful.
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redbootsindoriath · 1 year ago
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Apparently in my absence this post had its 1000-notes-iversary.
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This time we get to see the culprit responsible for ruining our heroes' lives as well.
I've really missed you guys, by the way. I know I've said that already, but I'm serious. Once or twice this year I've been right on the brink of coming back but schedule stuff always keeps me from letting myself commit to that again, and that in turn has kept me from posting anything at all. But I've been in an unexpected drawing mood lately and so if I can get enough stuff to set up a queue we might pretend I'm back for a month or so sometime this year. Maybe. Hopefully. We'll see. No promises though. That's why I'm hiding this paragraph under the cut.
Transcription:
[Beren:] "Uhhh...barkeep...I think he's had enough now..." [Tolkien:] "No, I don't think he has...!"
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elizabeth-mitchells · 3 months ago
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okay you know what. i think. that most if not all of my favorite tv shows either are limited series / got cancelled / i binge watched them long after they aired. yj is the one that i've been so invested in but also gotten to experience it since it came out and now as it goes into s3. so it's really my first time caring enough to hate new characters just because they're new and who do they think they are when they weren't here on s1
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kaeyacollection · 10 months ago
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Yo any Diluc Brainrotters out there?
I wanna make a longer post about Diluc's and Kaeya's dynamic with an interpretation I haven't really seen
Unfortunately the entire thing hinges on if Diluc has ever called Kaeya /anything/ other than his work titles
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king-lena · 1 month ago
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ew i hate looking back on any social media and seeing my old cringe posts (especially on tiktok) like help!!!! that isn’t me anymore don’t look please!!!! 😅 i can barely handle my current cringe posts don’t make me revisit the past please!!!! i am working so hard to constantly keep growing and learning and changing my mindset and becoming a better me every day and i am no longer that version of myself and i do not know her like that anymore. but dang like her reminants are still out there lingering and i do not like it one bit… 😔
#lena.txt#be gone thoughts#mini vent#this is true of real life as well like don’t perceive me in such a way please that girl is long gone#this is the only downside to constantly growing and learning#you get to feel like shit everytime you reflect on the past#like i love knowing better and doing better i just wish i’d always known better#how do you get rid of the shame#how do you stop feeling guilty about the version of you that didn’t know better#at least i have a long life ahead of me to keep learning and growing and becoming the best version of me i can be#i have to remember that#i really do appreciate having my thoughts and ideas challenged bc a lot of times it helps me see from a new perspective#and even learn something new or come to better understanding of where someone else is coming from#bc regardless of whether or not having my beliefs or ideas challenged changes my mind or not i still appreciate it#bc it gives me an opportunity to see something i didn’t see before and reflect on my own thoughts and beliefs#i’ve grown to almost like being corrected when i make a mistake or do something wrong bc everything is an opportunity to better myself#but the shame that comes along with it is something i have yet to unlearn#why am i talking about this now i’ve strayed too far away from the point#this was supposed to be about my old dumb blog posts lol#like i said i love the opportunities to learn and grow and do better#but sometimes it makes me feel like i’m just a blank slate that people project their ideas onto#i know it’s not true and i am passionate in my core values and beliefs but i always assume everyone is smarter than me#i assume everyone else knows better than me and i am always the last to know anything or the last to figure it out#and sometimes i take everything anyone says to me as an absolute truth when they don’t actually know any better than me#and then it becomes ingrained in my head and it’s so hard to get it out and fully reject the idea#all these disorders are driving me crazy man#i hate having bpd and i hate having ocd relating to morality#i wake up every morning and suddenly hate everything i said or did the previous day#like do i even think what i think???#who am i??? where am i going???
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arolesbianism · 7 months ago
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Sometimes I just look at Isabeau and just know that if isat came out and I got into it when I was like 16 he would be my favorite character and I would've gone absolutely buck wild over this man and feel like he was laser targeting me. But alas Odile has a grip of steel on me rn due to her virtue of being a middle aged woman
#rat rambles#stars posting#I feel like the biggest change in my taste in characters as the years have gone by is Im now far more biased towards old ppl lol#although tbf I was also the one person in 2016 who actually liked asgore so maybe Ive always liked parhetic old ppl#but yeah the reason isa is past me bait is because hes an exploration and subversion of the sort of tropes I Hated as a kid#and I still dont like them so isa still appeals to me its just not as much as he would have to a younger me#I do genuinely love all the party very dearly tho theyre all soooo good#I think my favorite part of isabeau is how like. of everyone we get to see the least facets of him but like in a very good way#this is a man who hides and bottles shit hes so fun to rotate#his self image is so carefully controlled compared to everyone else which makes him an incredibly interesting character to analyze#and I love that despite him seeming like the most emotionally stable person here on the surface he still clearly has like. hashtag issues.#like he's in that beautiful zone where its so so fun imagining what it would look like to truly break him#<- normal things that normal ppl say. like me.#I may have my very light beef with alt looping aus as a concept but hes probably the most interesting alternate looper to me#also my light beef exclusively relates to king quest stuff which is why Im a big fan of duo looper aus with sif#but honestly. isa might be the only one that I genuinely think works better as a solo looper even with taking king quest into account#although bonnie comes close. I <3 looper bonnie I <3 seeing fictional children go through the horrors#I think theres a lot of fun to be had with any alt looper au tho I just am a huge king quest fan so I like it when my favorite elements of#it dont have to be handwaved#but yeah the real question is how would younger me feel about mirabelle#because on the one hand: acearo character#but on the other hand: I have always been a little hater abt romance so idk if younger me would rly be able to follow her character well#I wasnt exactly good at character analysis back then lol#except for the instances in which I was but I dont have that sort of faith in my younger self#yknow Im thinking abt my history of favorite characters now and I think me being one of few 2016 alphys enjoyers might have been a prophecy#she was my quote unquote third favorite but in reality she was second#I think she chara and peridot su teamed up to define my taste in fictional characters for the next several years#and somehow that lead to olivia becoming one of my favorite fictional characters of all time#I say somehow as if that isnt a very natural conclusion
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weirdsociology · 7 months ago
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one could have a very boring, reductive take on throne of glass that's basically women need a man
the actual take should be, given proper support, adoration, and respect from a man, Women Can Become Absolutely Fucking Terrifying
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keeps-ache · 1 year ago
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there are a couple changes i would make to the keyboard if i could:
wiggly exclamation mark
bleeding heart emoji
varying snake emojis (more poses would be fun)
question mark with a little heart for the dot bc, well,
more explosions
and that is all thank you
#just me hi#i need these a lot#wiggly bc it makes a lot of sense#i am saying something but with a sort of ~~~~~~ to it!!#/bleeding heart because the other night (it musta been about 3 a.m.) i was looking for an emoji to really get my point across and i sadly#realized that i had imagined the existence of it. the disappointment was immense <//3 hfhs#/SNAKES. need i say more? :>#do i know a lot about them? not yet. am i scared of them? yes. but i love them a lot thanky#/i am asking a question but it's with love#<3#/explosion emoji my beloved#we NEED to diversify hfhsvb#a mushroom cloud would be cool :3 or one that clearly has shrapnel in it#or one with a little heart that's like the exploding head emoji. because it's like that#i'm mentioning hearts a lot bc the heart is willing but the brain is. trying#//anyway in the other newsings i'm remaking those pi.e refs again lmao 👍#ik they're only so many months old but man i changed some of the designs a bit during those months hfhs#funny how i made refs because i thought 'oh i haven't changed their designs in forever - it's not like it'll happen anytime soon yea?'#and then..........#oath's design has changed the most minimally during these - how many ? two‚ three-ish years - so i thought Ahh nothin'll happen#but Then--#aura has morphed So many times - she was at least 3 different people before i actually Got her so hfvhs <3#kinda knew that would happen. but she's actually changed the least so Lollll#hid's usual look has not changed at All - only his actual form‚ which i tweak every second day or something#and i've neglected kira so badly fvfsh - so now i've added and removed and swapped things for her in worldrecord time ! i think i've got he#in a way i like though so :D#but bc of all these changes now i gotta make new refs bc they are Inaccurate#not a big deal. but oh it IS#wonder how long it'll take me this time lol :) only one way to know ehegh#//anywho ciao ! i've got the things and stuffs to be doing.. ooo toodles :33
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clannfearrunt · 1 year ago
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for real though why would they fucking make a bespoke English name for, say, Warabi, but keep shit like "Hohojiro" or "Houzuki" as-is?????
(Sorry I think there were other freshely butchered localized splatband names to pull from that I think is sillier to change but I forgot everyone except for Warabi and Ikkan there are no other stupidly-localized Splatband characters. None at all I'm complaining about the fucking Idol names right now shhhh *averts my eyes*)
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saintspock · 2 months ago
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"spock is allowed to fall in love with women" have you considered he's not. have you considered that. there's someone you forgot to ask - me.
#howies log#this is MOSTLY a joke#as a tos head for the majority of my memorable life#let us just say#i find it increasingly and incredible hard to reconcile myself in anyway that spock would willingly engage in a relationship with a woman#sometimes i think maybe not even men either and that it was only ever jim#i just think its not true like based off evidence#aos i am disgruntled with for many reasons but i think i can forgive that in that it is an alternate timeline etx#etc#but snw idk man im happy uhura is a lesbian cuz she was always fruity to me (at least i think this is the case?)#but otherwise im just like have u considered that i dont believe spock would engage sexually with anybody because of the complicated feelins#he has about himself and his life#and also he is not straight .#it is honestly a fuckng crjme to me#tpring and his relationship being changed bugs me a little too#i like that she has more screentime but thet couldve kept that without chsnging it#i know i sound like a grumpy ridiculous old man#and its like there are many thing i can forgive or forget about#and i love that they keep giving spock ridiculous siblings thats my favourite thing#so its not even that i am particularly resistant to change#it is just the matter of doing this much change to a character who's pretty much like set up already#i would have to actually watch the show to determine how i feel properly#but i honestly dont think i could cope with it not being my spock again u know if that makes sense#and i so looked forward to rebecca romjin (is that how u spell her name) as number one chz i love her#to me doing this to spock .... its idk its a bastardisation of him#like hes hot and we all want to fucj him but come on guys....#but i also in deep seriousness i do understand that people still view straight as default and therefore in their minds spock straight unless#proven otherwise#or they genuinley might just see him as loving women#which is also fine
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vaguehotels · 1 year ago
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had the most braindead repetitive conversation/argument with my parents. buzz cuts are too masculine but if you dye a design on it it become effeminate which is bad because then you look weak and if youre weak then society falls apart (all societies ever that have fallen apart for any reason are actually because of feminine men) and we start sacrificing babies. and also all mental illness is invented because only 4 people had anxiety in the 90s and covid was made up so that we would all become gay and trans and then the government can control us better and be joe biden's little sex slaves. and also i need to keep my hair long because my father finds it attractive. what
#lolaa.txt#what do i even tag this with . my mother wouldn't let me leave and i kept asking for sources and she kept saying 'i'm your mother!!!'#'i wouldnt lie to you!'#okay. say that to someone maybe who doesnt know you lie to them all the time.#its tiring going around in circles with her.my father is better because at least he admits when he doesnt have a reason for feeling some wa#also what got me. she said 'do you own research if you want!! but im right!!!'#yeahh not seeing anything about anything you just said. i think you made that up.#i have a theory that my mother secretly hates herself because she believes all women are weak and must serve strong men#and my father has so so much trauma and anxiety that he cant be that strong man#so now she feels like shes betraying her very biology when she has to step up.#and also because i am stronger than her now and my hair is long and far far denser than hers and i have a younger face#that she feels that im wasting my precious femininity that she could be using. does that make sense.#shes so miserable trapped in her idea of what makes a man and a woman what they are. once you stop caring about what makes someone somethin#you dont have to worry about anyone else.#im queer because i dont really feel that connection to biological and social ideas of gender that my parents seem to#never really have#im not gonna theorize 'ohh shed be happier nonbinary' or stuff like that because it is up to you and you alone to define who you are#if you spend your whole life trying to fit a box for the sake of fitting the box#then when would you have any space for self discovery#youve invented personality traits to go along with your box. now you can never ever change or grow as a person. congrats#and you know what? one day she will die. and that will be the end of that.#and i will live and i will probably shave my head a thousand times. and come up with new names#and new ways to be a better person that makes me feel happy#and i will dress like a boy because its all made up anyways. who cares.#and if you care? that much about what im wearing or how i look?#then thats your problem and i wont be responsible to maintain your happiness.#SORRY RANT OVER.#im just so flabbergasted. what a sad life someone can lead poisoned by jealously and reactive rhetoric.#tw homophobia#tw transphobes
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mistninja · 4 months ago
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Feeling very "fitz-core" right now (spiraling)
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thebloodykarte · 4 months ago
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terminally online complaining in tags for this morning
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