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Chapter 18 (Extended Cut): The WIRED Autocomplete Chaos
(Racing Hearts : VOLUME 2)
The extended portion of Mark’s WIRED interview didn’t disappoint—it just got funnier, stranger, and more chaotic. As the questions kept rolling in, so did the reactions from Charles, Max, and Carlos, who were visibly trying to keep it together as Mark navigated some of the weirdest questions the internet had to offer.
Mark (looking at the next question): “Alright, next question—What is Mark Spencer's favorite food?"
Mark: "Well, there are plenty since I love both eating and cooking, but if I had to choose… gotta go with my comfort food: french fries."
Charles (mockingly gasping): "Not a five-star gourmet dish? Shocking."
Mark (laughing): "Hey, I keep it simple sometimes."
Mark (moving on to the next): "Does Mark Spencer watch anime?"
Mark: "Yeah, I do! I just finished watching Kimetsu no Yaiba."
Carlos (raising an eyebrow): "Really? You don’t strike me as the anime type."
Mark: "Oh, I’m full of surprises. I even cry during the sad parts."
Charles (smirking): "Ah, so you do have feelings."
Mark (playfully glaring): "Watch it, Leclerc."
Mark (baffled at the next search): "Is Mark Spencer alive?"
Mark (leaning back dramatically): "Barely. Dude, what is wrong with these people? Are you sure these are actual searches?"
Max (chiming in): "Well, sometimes we wonder too."
Mark (grinning): "Rude."
Mark (squinting at the next one): "Is Mark Spencer handsome?"
Mark (straight-faced): "Not at all."
Charles (snorting): "Right, because you don’t spend half your time looking in the mirror."
Mark (grinning): "Only to check if my abs are still there."
Carlos (laughing): "You checked just five minutes ago!"
Mark (deadpan): "Is Mark Spencer funny?"
Mark (grinning): "As I said, I’m a clown."
Charles (smirking): "That’s the first thing you've said that’s true."
Mark (eyes widening at the next one): "Is Mark Spencer joining Hollywood?"
Mark (shaking his head): "Nah, I’m focused on the grid for now. Gotta keep Max on his toes."
Max (leaning forward, smirking): "You wish."
Mark (jaw dropping): "Mark Spencer leaks?!?!"
Mark (laughing): "Huh, WHAT?!?!? Oh, they’re talking about my old photos. Dude, it sounded like a sex tape for a second."
Carlos (choking on his laughter): "I was about to say, man!"
Charles (facepalming): "Can we not?"
Mark (calmly): "Mark Spencer theatre."
Mark: "Oh, you must be talking about my plays from when I was younger. Some of you may not know, but I was a theater kid for a while. I even used to sing."
Max (teasing): "Sing? We need proof of that."
Mark (nodding): "Just wait, I’ll bring out my guitar at the next after-party."
Mark (smiling at the next one): "Mark Spencer’s favorite movie."
Mark: "Well, there are a lot of them. I really liked La La Land. As for my favorite show… it’s could be Stranger Things , call me basic but i know my choice."
Charles (raising an eyebrow): "La La Land? That explains your drama."
Mark: "Hey, it’s a masterpiece."
Mark (sighing at the next question): "Mark Spencer crash."
Mark (growing serious): "There’s not much to talk about, really. It happens in the sport, you know?"
Carlos (gently): "Yeah, but we know you bounce back quickly."
Charles (nodding): "You’re tougher than you look."
Mark (reading the next one): "Is Mark Spencer good?"
Mark (grinning): "No, Mark Spencer is not good."
Charles (mockingly): "Finally, he admits it."
Mark (laughing at the next question): "Is Mark Spencer fast?"
Mark (winking at the camera): "In some things, yes. In others… no comment."
Max (grinning): "Definitely not on track."
Mark (scoffing): "Is Mark Spencer owner of the Spencer business?"
Mark: "No, I am not. That’s my dad’s gig."
Charles (teasing): "But you wouldn’t mind if they handed it over, right?"
Mark (grinning): "Hey, I’m fine sticking to racing for now."
Mark (rolling his eyes): "Is Mark Spencer mean?"
Mark (sarcastic): "Very mean. Don’t come near me."
Mark (bursting out laughing): "Is Mark Spencer pregnant?"
Mark (sarcastically): "Yes, I’m pregnant. (chuckles) What is going on with these people? How is that even possible?!"
Max (cracking up): "I guess it’s possible for you, Mark. You are full of surprises."
Charles (face in his hands, laughing): "Can we move on?"
Mark (still chuckling): "Mark Spencer could modal."
Mark: "Dude, y’all should really focus on your English. As for the question—yes, I’ve modeled for a few things. Watches, perfumes, even some kids’ products. No idea why, but hey, money’s money."
The laughter among the group was uncontrollable at this point. Even the production crew behind the cameras could be heard snickering. The video wrapped up with everyone in hysterics, and Mark, of course, couldn’t resist throwing in one last wink at the camera.
The comment section blew up again, continuing the chaotic vibe:
Top Comments:
@french_frylover: "Mark’s favorite food being fries? He’s truly one of us 😂🍟"
@anime_weeb: "HE WATCHES ANIME!!! I'M SCREAMING!! Kimetsu no Yaiba, though?! Taste!!"
@ship_chaos: "Mark Spencer pregnant?!?!? The Internet is WILD 😭😭"
@multilingual_mark: "Fluent in 5 languages and can change his accent at will?? Dude’s a whole package 😳"
@f1shippersunite: "Mark knows about the ships!! And the way he laughed about it… we’re not worthy 🙏"
@thespian_mark: "Mark was a theater kid?! We need more of this side of him! Somebody make him sing at the next party!"
@maxsarcastic: "The Max and Mark dynamic is sending me. Those two are chaotic evil together. 😂"
It was safe to say the Internet wasn't ready for this interview. --- (YES this format was different than the previous one)
#carlos sainz#charles leclerc#charles leclerc x male reader#enemies to friends to lovers#enemies to lovers#gay#romance#charles leclerc fanfic#cl16 imagine#charles leclerc x max verstappen#oc#original character#love#gay love#gay men#mlm#mxm#f1 fanfic#f1 fic#formula 1#max verstappen#bisexual#ferrari#f1 x male reader#cl16 x reader#cl16#male oc#charles leclerc x reader#charles leclerc x you
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These are some good points! The number 7 shows up a lot in the show. There is another one that's fairly obvious and shows us that Mike has not forgotten what Will told him. I mean how could he? It was the last thing Will told him before he went missing. Mike wouldn't forget that even if doesn't understand the double meaning (yet).
At the end of season 1 the party defeats a seven-headed monster and then King Tristan hands out the medals of honor to the heroes.
I think it's also noteworthy that in 1983 Will and Mike have been friends for seven years as well.
As you said, Mike needs to figure out what Will said to him on the 6th November in 1983 and he will in season 5. I'm sure of that. It's right under his nose. Like the pen was and the can of 7-up. It'd be funny if it weren't so sad at the same time.
Some discussions on the possibility of Lucas, Dustin, Holly and Nancy being other alters under the cut
As for Dustin and Lucas I am not sure if they are real or not. However I do find it interesting that these two are the ones presenting Will with the option to either protect himself or attack the Demogorgon. Dustin pressuring Will to cast a shield spell and Lucas pressuring Will to attack with a fireball.
(I think it should also be noted that the alarms are already on. As seen in the very first scene in the science lab. The lights are flickering and a man is trying to escape. My guess is that Wills subconsciousness already picked up that the situation can get dangerous due to the looming threat of the (fictional) Demogorgon.)
The big thing with Lucas specifically is that it's him who tells Will that the number doesn't count as long as he doesn't tell Mike. That can just be circumstance as that's what happend in the real world. The dice landed on 7. That's an undeniable fact. However there is for sure also a double meaning behind it as Lucas words can be read as a reminder or even a warning not to spill secrets. As in an alter warning Will that the situation just got dangerous and he needs to be careful. There is also the fact that we don't see Lucas interact with any other member of the Wheeler family. It almost as if he isn't even there.
Same thing could not be said for Dustin though as he at the very least offers Nancy the last piece of pizza they got. This I think might make it more likely that he exists. Neither Lucas nor Dustin interact with Karen though.
I have just thought of this but do you know what would be really depressing? What if both Lucas and Dustin are actually alters and Mike knows about this and doesn't even question it? Like both Will and Mike have been bullied their entire life and don't have any other friends. I don't know if you can play a D&D campaign with only two people and with one of them being the Dungeon Master but I would at least assume that "the more the merrier" also rings true here. What if one day Will brought these two boys along, told Mike he found two friends who can speak through him and Mike just rolled with it and thought it's cool as they can now all play D&D together. If this happened at all both Will and Mike must have been much younger than they were in 1983. All of this is even more speculative than everything else though.
I guess at the very least we can assume that some alters existed before the day Will disappeared as if it's true what you've written in your post, it must have started before the age of 10. Will being seven would fit that criteria.
Back to the Wheelers though.
I agree with you on Holly. She is most likely also another alter. A child one. A little. My guess is that she represents Wills innocence before the ab*se started. In S4 she even has some bunny symbolism surrounding her which does not bode well for her. That toy she has with the lights. She creates a bunny with it.
kaypeace21 made some great points as to what bunny symbolism means in this post. (as you probably already know since I saw that post as a reblog on your blog haha) Still it should be noted that this mostly about Jonathon and not Will although it wouldn't be too far fetched to assume that Lonnie forced Will to do the same thing he forced Jonathan to do.
More speculation on Holly Wheeler but we will be starting S5 in the fall of 1987 and this is just the right time for Holly to be seven (or eight) years old. We also know that someone will disappear in that season in the second episode. I know I'm not the first person to speculate that it might be Holly but I think there is a fair chance she will merge with the system.
Like Sara Hopper who was also child and probably around the same age as Holly before she died of cancer (and merged back into the system)
Bunny symbolism doesn't stop with Holly though. There is Billy Hargrove, Jim Hopper (rabbits do hop) and Janes room in Terrys house had quite a bit of bunny symbolism as well.
And in S4 Nancy also agrees to give Mr. Rabbit away who prior to this was in the attic. (hidden away and out of sight) This is also bunny symbolism but it's different from Holly. Like for Nancy it could mean a loss of innocence she accepts. She is ready to move on from this.
In the first 5 minutes of the show Dustin also notes that Nancy had a shift in personality which Mike denies as "she's always been a real jerk." Is this really just about Steve and Nancy being a sibling to Mike? Or is there something more at play here? The reason why I think it's important is because they spend such a large part of the first minutes of the show to tell us all of this. This is the time before things got weird. Before Will told Mike in a coded manner. It's the time where things are as normal as they can be. I feel it has to mean something but I can't say what exactly. Nancy is just huge puzzle I can't understand.
(I mean yeah of cause she could also be an introject alter which is probably the case but that raises the question as to who the real Nancy is?)
Thoughts?
#tw child abuse#stranger things#will byers#dustin henderson#lucas sinclair#holly wheeler#nancy wheeler#mike wheeler#st meta#i also hope dustin and lucas are real#as well as nancy#but I think there is a fair chance they are not#i'm also in serious need of a rewatch st in general#and will do so with a certain thought in mind#and see if everything will make sense
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My phone did a factory reset out of nowhere and I lost ALL of my drawings. So fuck it, here are the sketches I've managed to recover by screenshotting and sending them to my friends.
#disco elysium#harrykim#cuno#kimharry#kim kitsuragi#harry du bois#I am SO sad right now it's not even funny#I managed to draw this whole comic idea that I thought was so funny and well made#but I didn't post it because I was so scared of flopping and being dangerously upset about it (I'm in a TERRIBLE mental state rn)#so I was like “i'll post it when I feel confident enough”#but autodesk sketchbook is a BITCH that can't save for shit and my phone is a technological disaster#so anyway I'm crying since midnight and accepting every word of consolation + drawing apps recommendations
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We screech and we laugh and we make gifs. But have you considered how utterly excruciating it is to realise that the one person you trusted to have your back, doesn't? That in the end, for whatever reason, they did not choose you?
If they ever want to be together, an apology dance is so far from being enough it's heartbreaking. Somehow, they need to process their emotions. They need to re-establish a trust that's been broken. They need to convince one another that, given another choice, they would put Us first.
#are you in pain?#are you?#because i am#the divorce scene hurts so much because we've all been there#for some reason we weren't chosen by someone we cared about#and it's one of the most painful things in existence#can you tell I'm going through something similar in my own life right now?#haha it's so sad it's not even funny#this fucking show#hits too close to home#good omens#goddamn idiot supernatural beings i will smite both of them#ineffable idiots#good omens 2#ineffable husbands#crowley#aziraphale#aziracrow#crowley x aziraphale#ineffable divorce#poor crowley
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#its sort of funny. i think my medication is working pretty well. i feel stable in a way i never really have before#is it the dopamine stablizer or is it my ion channels? whos to say. it doesn't matter. but it also doesnt change some things#the ways i think and react negativly to change. but it makes it easier to deal with. i still experience this strange dispaire on the#weekends or anytime im not working. i think the oddest thing is thst i dont think ive ever been this consistenly sad#not in a depressed sort of way. just a passing thoughts make me tear up sort of way. it doesnt feel out of control. it just feels like a#prelude to grief i guess. bc my mum is still in the hospital and its so hard to kno what that means from halfway across the country#my sisters are both home right now. they both live within 3hrs of where we grew up. one sister lives in the city my mom goes to for#treatment. so they have the opportunity to see her more than me. i dunno if they do tho. we dont really talk. i dont kno if they're as sad#as i am. if im overreacting bc i cant physically see what's happening. what the feeling is in the room. not that she would probably complain#shes the suffer in silence type. my dad keeps texting us pics of our shitty lil sunroom that hes redoing#to make my mum a lil sanctuary. he must be sad too. its his wife. hes staying with her in the hospital rn. i dunno its so weird#when i talk to my counselor she assumes i find out info thru calls or talk to my sisters abt it and i gotta b like nah we dont really talk#i get my info thru text. i havent talked to my parents on the phone in like a month. i dunno we just dont talk. so i dont kno how to reach#out and be like yo so whats up? shoulf i plan on coming home this summer for a bit?? like???#this is the disadvantage of leaving thr place where you grew up. probably when i finish my phd i should move closer to home#somewhere in the Appalachian mountains maybe. somewere in the eastern deciduous forrest. somewhere with thunderstorms.#but thats years from now. who knows what ill b doing. for now im just sad and tired and i dont quite kno what to do in the short or long#term bc im feeling the weight of my mental limitations rather intensely. but maybe im just being self limiting#whatever. i dont have a dead mum yet. shes not even on hospice care. things are just uncertain and dont look so hot#i just dont see how it can get better from here when chemo gave her secondary blood cancer and shes still full of tumors#i dont think im being that dramatic. it just objectively seems not great for survival#unrelated
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does anyone else feel like this. or is it just me
#cat meows#i wasn't planning to elaborate on the This but like.#so sad all the time no matter what. i think i am fundamentally broken to be fair but like. For why and for what#i don't think i'm depressed and i don't think any sane person would like. disagree with me there.#so i think i'm just messed up forever because i'm so sad all the time lately. even when i'm clowning around#actually especially when i'm clowning around. it's like my level of funny haha guy scales with how Bad I Feel#but i am far too functional to be depressed even slightly so um. hm. whas going on#it's not just like sad. i just dunno how to describe it Other than sad#i know some of the ways i feel right now are like. red flags for me. but i just don't think i'm depressed so Why......#anyway this is what i mean by does anyone else feel like this or is it just me
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local guy is being gay at 3am because they can’t sleep :(
#sigh#want to SLEEP but CAN’T and my usual going to sleep solutions are making me irrationally irritated#so instead i will write my silly little gay love letters (text messages) and listen to minecraft music to relive gay moments and revel in#the wonder that is being gay and in love#even if everything is really not perfect right now it doesn’t matter. i have the little things#i have a cool amazing beautiful funny sweet girlfriend who i love and who loves me too and i have a soft chicken plushie in my arms#and i have soft pretty music playing and i have happy memories and augh#i have been. very up and down and up and down but right in this moment i am just in love with her and with everyone and with the world#around me#hi alena i’m assuming you’ll see this at some point. not to be gay on main especially after the mild mess that was earlier but i love you so#so so so much#just. so you know#i dunno#am sad but happy at the same time. who knows. i’m going to try to go to bed now bdndbdnd
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there is something seriously wrong with my brain i need a diagnosis oh my god
#sorry guys sorry sorry#i'm not even sad or anything rn i'm just. in it. i'm so in it.#everything feels great i feel invincible. i want to tell everybody every thought i've ever had.#i want to spill every secret i've ever kept. i want to come out to everybody.#i want to cut everybody off. i want to start a new life.#all of my trauma feels funny and insignificant right now.#(i think i am mentally ill and in need of help.)#sometimes i call someone and start expressing my thoughts that i think are fine and normal#and then they hit me with the 'you need therapy'
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#so. funny story bc I want to be a little melodramatic right now and I've earned it#this became one of my favorite songs back in 2018 ? maybe 2019 ? and it has been since#tom was not even a thought in my mind at that point in my life#when I found it. I had no idea#I loved stevie. she led me to tom. but not YET#but there's THIS. mike was right there this whole time akdhjsjs#and sometimes I wonder if we're kinda. Meant to find these people. our favorite people y'know#I didn't get that it was him back then but I figured it out through tom eventually. and you know what?#I couldn't be more grateful#I literally cannot express how grateful I am that I found him lol#so when I'm in the tags like aaaa I love him. and being totally annoying about it. (don't sugarcoat I know I am) it's REAL.#his music has been there for me and is more reliable than anyone I've ever actually met and I love it#and I'm just now realizing how much more his music has been there for me without me even realizing it at the time#ANYWAY. he's also possibly one of the most talented people ever in the world and no I don't take criticism on that#and it makes me sad sometimes that I don't really have a lot of people anymore to share that with#seems like once I stopped posting about tom all the time my blog kinda. died#so. I've been getting a little bit frustrated about it being the tom show around here#and I'm sorry if that ever came across or made anyone uncomfortable. not my intention at all#I just took it all a little too personally when I shouldn't have#kind of an.. isolating experience tho#aaand I don't remember where else I was going with that but enjoy the song akjshdjs#it's really good 💞 proud of my favorite guy#(as always 🙈)#did I mention most talented ever?#ok shhh I'm done
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i know i piss on the yakuza wiki every so often but they were goated for putting masato down as ‘regular customer’ for yumeno’s wiki entry instead of ex-girlfriend or something
#snap chats#the one time the yakuza wiki gets relationships right goddamn COUGHCOUGHMINE#yumeno's regarded as his 'ex-girlfriend' on his wiki but point is POINT AND LAUGH#masato being delusional is so sad but so funny at the exact same time#is this the part where i say i think horinouchi and yumeno are cute together#its cause i think theyre both baddies lbr#game framin them as villains and like Ok Maybe Horinouchi Is but like. his wife hot shut up#horinouchi aint ven that bad aside from the whole money embezzling thing that was cringe but he do be a cop so it was only a matter of time#the fuck am i going with this post#oh yeah#anyway lol. lmao even#imagine putting all of your emotional vulnerability on a woman just doin her job BROOO STOPPPP#ITS SO FUNNY#now im forced to remember the beginning of Y7 my fucking god why is his entire segment so cringe#no wonder you wanted to game end your old self my fuckin god
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#so i just finished s1ep2 of the bear (i don't really get it so far but ok)#and there's this scene where the main character calls up his sister and tells her about the mental shit that has been happening with him uk#and like even though this feeling is always there but lile i can't help but feel like my life would have been so much better with a sibling?#like one id have good relationships with uk???#and ik ik found family and forming meaningful relationships outside is an option but like in this capitalistic individualist society? is it?#anyways that's not the point it's that there's always stuff no body in the world would get except people who grow up with you innit?#be it school or hometowns or families and it would have been nice to have someone help me not feel this complete overwhelmness all the time#and without me feeling like im exaggerating or thinking that the person would judge me or having to keep telling everything repeatedly#but then i think would that even matter when I am the one who's the problem and like can't work to form that connection with anyone?????#like i for the life of me cannot share anything beyond the surface level or without making a joke out of it#and it seems funny but i trivialise so much of the fucking shit that happens so obviously no one takes it seriously not their fault right?#and like how fair to my friends that i literally almost always been superficial and lowkey untrue with them in exchange for their honesty???#at this point i feel like i don't even know what i truly feel or truly am because whenever i look back at my past self im like wtf#idk most of the times it just feels like being 'stuck' in a glass container and me not 'letting' anyone in if that makes sense?#ik im being very annoying about it but im just so tierd of feeling like this its been a decade & its way too long to constantly feeling dead#and im so fucking stubborn in my sadness that i won't even go get help after years of crying about wanting it & now finally having resources#it's like this mental block which i can't seem to remove and i feel like even if i do get help ill still be untrue so what's the point!???#yeahhhhh anyways i'll delete this later i don't journal so tumblr will have to make do#vi.txt
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feelings are so complex
#its funny in a way yk#because like on one end of the spectrum theres this person that was supposed to be my best frien#but she ended up manipulating me and doing some really shitty things and will be all nice to my face but talk shit behind my back#and honestly she can be a terrible horrible person and has hurt another close friend of mine really badly#and i want to hate her so badly#and i think part of me does hate her because being around her now just drains me of my energy and i suck at being fake about people#but at the same time i loved her at one point bc she was my best friend and i cant just let that go??#and she's going through a lot so i just feel sad for her#so like i cant hate her if im sympathetic and its just weird idk man#i want to hate her but i cant#like i feel awful ab the shit she's going thru but that doesnt excuse the crappy human being she's being but i feel like a bad person#holding her accountable for that bc of how much she's going thru and like why why WHY is it like this why is it not in black n white#then on the other end of the spectrum there are feelings that like im kind of terrified off but like#i underestimated just how easily those type of feelings can blossom#is this me talking about the L word? yes. 🧍🏻♀️#i thought that falling in love per se would be like. way more work way more time etc etc#but apparently not? its oddly simply? but at the same time admitting it is like oh okay what#and therefore its like u gotta take time to figure yourself and it out and then like#like you dont really realize it until you're standing in the midst of it#man i dont even know what this post is lmfao 😭 i quite frankly dont even know what im saying right now i am just putting my thoughts out#into the abyss because i gotta put it somewhere#goodbye and goodnight now#brooke rambles
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@thirteenmyspacegirl
Tumblr cut my tags but um Im not finished actually so Tags Part Two Ellectric Boogaloo ↓
#okay sooooooo where did I stop#okay the experience didn't TRAUMATIZE me but it was funny because I was just trying to think about Anything Else to distract myself#and my brain was like wellllll what do you like what brings you comfort and I was like uhh doctor who steven universe kombis lighthouses#and this sort of stuff#so my brain was like oh cool so doctor who huh? what were the ladt episodes you watched?? oh yeah the one with the pirates lol wouldn't it-#- be funny if they fucking drowned lol#and I was like NO!!!!!!! NO DROWNING!!!!!!!!!!! SKIP DOCTOR WHO!!!! NEXT!#and then brain was like so yea steven universe am I right they live in the beach fucking city wouldn't it be funny if there was an episode-#-in which they all fell to the sea and lol wait there WERE episodes like that I think so funny lol#and then I was like PLEASE PLEASE NO BEACH NO SEA NEXT COMFORT THING GO#brain was like well you know where you find the biggest concentrations of the so called 'hippie' volkswagen furgons known as kombis?#and I was like oh god it's the beach#and don't even GET ME STARTED on the lighthouses#so yea now everything I seeked just reminded me of my miserable experience and this sucks because all the mentioned stuff fucking rule!!#and I was a sad little sore creature going to sleep without thinking of#well#anything#because all made me more miserable#I'm not sure how I slept that night#it's been a week I think#anyway how are you babe how you doin#news from the horsies?
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sometimes i think of scenarios in my head with my ocs and then sometimes for happy brain i kinda crossover them with my favorite medias atm and also insert myself in bcs i like being self-indulgent and yeah my brain is so fucked up that i just keep repeating the same first bits and can't get far in thinking and i end up just having my s/i ramble my thoughts and it's hard to explain but yeah but anyways it's interesting thinking about who or what my ocs would like in video games or colors or whatever because all my ocs seem to reflect a certain part of me and i can get into the psychology of that but also its hard to explain my thoughts but also anyways yeah i find it interesting thinking about who my ocs would kin
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#feel free to just ignore me oopsies i am just rambling but yeah i love my ocs so much#sorry besties you are all subject once more to my brainrots and rambles and random thoughts now that i am on tumblr rn#my brain is very interesting to me and the way i think but also i can't properly think in such a way and i find it really hard to explain#and i'm such a mess but also man i don't know and i'm going off-track and god i love vgm so much and i don't want to do homework#but anyways back to the goddamn point !!! so my oc merle. i have little crossover thoughts in my head right and i realize#he's similar with akira and then it makes sense as to why i like characters like akira and it's a little woa fr bcs#the way i imagine merle is really similar to akira actually but with a more purple color scheme (but still dark) and he doesn't wear#glasses (at least. wait. actually. i don't really know anymore) GOD my mind never stops but yeah uhm yeah#i think humans are so unbelievably interesting and it's all just so fascinating and and and#also i've awakened to the fact i really like sharks i think they're very cute! i still prefer dolphins though#people who hurt animals make me really angry and sad... i think about it and already want to cry#i have never had a pet but my grandparents had lots and it's funny how memory works. i forgot they once had a pet turtle#until something in a school group project involved my group involving a pet turtle in our storyline for something#and then i remember that past. my past. once again. and clearly even! and... yeah#but yeah... i know i will never abandon my pet if ever i do get a pet. or pets. i would never do that and i really know this is a fact with#all my heart but what's stopping me from getting a pet is that i need to take better care of myself first and learn how to take care of#pets! i think where i live there's actually an opportunity for me to do so. i'll try to see more about that. and hmm... this is a really#busy year for school. and then the next. and then tbh everything onwards from 2023 so... i don't want to put time to something#i'm not even sure if i can really make time for. but. i think i really do want a pet! a dog esp. but also a cat. but a dog esp#bcs i've always wanted one !! i know when it comes to something i really want i am very dedicated and passionate#like how i already calculated xiv expenses months before actually got the game? and planned how me and lune would do things too#and then because i want to handle money better and take note of all that i yeah and yeah and yeah im tired of typing now BYE#will now disappear again after rambling quite a lot ^__^ maybe? maybe not? who knows!#my thoughts are so. whack. wack? idk. but uhm yeah it went from ocs to sharks to pets to money and idk huh#man w some things i'm really shy about being perceived or asked about. like my ocs. egbhebgjhbjehs ;;;;;#and people being nice to me T__T sorry i rlly appreciate it but i can't really comprehend it and my coping mechanism is avoidance
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funny update a couple of months later for People Who Want to Know: i dont have the car that got me into this Incredibly Minor Accident anymore. while after the accident, i did have to get the brakes serviced (wow, they were faulty, who knew!), it proceeded to have Several More Issues, such as: the transmission being fucked up and Trouble With Turns. i still drove it regardless because i needed that shit to get to college but eventually the radiator fan stopped working on it (where it would start overheating if the car wasn't moving (if the car was moving then air could still blow over the engine, cooling it down)) and My Mother deemed it too dangerous to drive. RIP to the shitty 2012 jeep liberty hand-me-down with 200k miles that led to the creation of the Kim Moment(TM).
need to share an experience i had 30 minutes ago
(edit: thanks to @walks-the-ages for providing and reminding me to put alt text, sorry it slips my mind alot lol)
#also i have not had any Kim Moments since. SAD!#very funny to me all the people with systems relating w/ this. unfortunately my brain likes to play with characters like dolls and it will#do this to me sometimes. shoutout to the times when someone would text something to me and then id envision what one of my OCs would respon#with in my head. adhd hyperfixation moment if i can be quite honest.#also i never got a follow up from the other guy that i got into the accident with so im assuming his car is okay. thumbsup emoji#and i havent been in any accidents since so erm... w for me!#(i have only been driving this new car for like 5 days and im Nervous. and ill be driving it more than my old car because im Getting Job#soon.... ough)#i remember the day that My Mother decided the car was too unsafe to drive very clearly. because it happened recently.#for some context: i live 30 minutes away from one of the campuses of my college. but the campus i need to actually attend (because it's the#campus with all of the IT shit at it woo network admin) is a full on hour away and also located inside a big city. thankfully the campus i#live near has a service that sends a bus between those two campuses so i can drive to that campus#and then get on the bus for the remaining 30 mins it takes to get there#now imagine you're me. because of fears developed by having Childhood ADHD i am very afraid of being late for ANYTHING. because i need to#rely on the bus schedule between the two campuses#every day i make sure to leave at least 30 mins earlier than i realistically could. this is both because if i dont i'll be Late To Being#Early but also despite my route not going across any major roads#i live in Suburban Bumfuck Town and the two-lane roads i use to travel are the exclusive lifelines to the rest of Everywhere Fucking Else#so they have a tendency to get backed up when backups happen in Everywhere Fucking Else (could specify more but i dont wanna doxx myself :p#cue The Day. i am Driving to College. i already have some knowledge that my car seems to have some trouble with cooling itself down#but i'm not sure what the cause is or how big of a problem it is yet. unbeknownst to me an Accident has occured on one of the major routes#in my area. as I'm approaching to be about 10 mins away from the campus i start to see evidence of The Traffic because of this.#while being just a dinky two-lane road this shit is practically bumper-to-bumper. moving at a snail's pace#and i imagine it's likely because people are being jackasses about merging onto this road from the people who have had their route#unexpectedly diverted because of the accident.#so im sitting there in the traffic. the car is not moving or it is moving very slowly across short distances.#DING! goes the car. ah crap the engine temp is starting to get high... maybe being stopped is what causes it i think to myself#so now i am Slightly Worried. the car has Dinged. and i might even be Late to School because of the traffic. but surely the cars gonna be#fine driving me the rest of the way right?#advance forward in time about like 5 minutes. i have moved forward but not much. i am near the gas station i usually refill at en route
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#hhhh my body is tired. i couldnt sleep and then my day was upside down and i spent 4hrs transfering algae#i still have 1 work day until i go home. which is to say i will do 2 days of computer work and 1 day of manual labor in the field before i#go home. bc i have to get these fucking manuscripts done#but i guess it was an ok day. it wasnt yesterday where i left the lab by 12 for fear of bursting into tears. sometimes i just cant stand to#work sitting down. its really annoying#but i did have to say goodbye to our visiting phd student today bc she goes back to spain in the new year#which is sad bc shes really cool but she liked to do snail mail so im excited to be pen pals with her#bc ive never done the snail mail thing. shes like 5 to 10 years older than me? like old enough to have fully formed memories of the 90s#hhhh i still have to order Christmas presents. i just. i wish i could stop the present exchange. no body buy me anything so i dont have to#buy u anything. im so tired.#and i still have to make Christmas presents for my parents and sisters. with what time?#ill have to burn away my vacation time for that. hhhh i shoulf just sleep now#but i wont. ill pack bc i might as well while im being unproductive and i wont make time for it later so ya kno#i just wanna be home not doing anything but also i have many things to do and lots of things to prepare before i can do school visits#assuming i get more than one. and oh fuck thats right i still have that last application. tomorrow morning thsts what ill do. god dammit#the 4 hrs of algae transfering was my break and me being unfocused now#just 3 more days and 2 full day of traveling then i can whine at my parents abt how sad i am lol nah ill do that thing where u go#haha yea im in a lot of pain lmao so no one fully takes u seriously even tho ur saying something fucked up#that my mo bc i cant take my pain seriously. part of my brain detaches itself and thinks its all v funny#bleh. brain is goo#unrelated
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