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allonsyisabelli · 8 months ago

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My phone did a factory reset out of nowhere and I lost ALL of my drawings. So fuck it, here are the sketches I've managed to recover by screenshotting and sending them to my friends.

#disco elysium #harrykim #cuno #kimharry #kim kitsuragi #harry du bois #I am SO sad right now it's not even funny #I managed to draw this whole comic idea that I thought was so funny and well made #but I didn't post it because I was so scared of flopping and being dangerously upset about it (I'm in a TERRIBLE mental state rn)#so I was like “i'll post it when I feel confident enough”#but autodesk sketchbook is a BITCH that can't save for shit and my phone is a technological disaster #so anyway I'm crying since midnight and accepting every word of consolation + drawing apps recommendations

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aziraphalalala · 1 year ago

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We screech and we laugh and we make gifs. But have you considered how utterly excruciating it is to realise that the one person you trusted to have your back, doesn't? That in the end, for whatever reason, they did not choose you?

If they ever want to be together, an apology dance is so far from being enough it's heartbreaking. Somehow, they need to process their emotions. They need to re-establish a trust that's been broken. They need to convince one another that, given another choice, they would put Us first.

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opens-up-4-nobody · 9 months ago

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#its sort of funny. i think my medication is working pretty well. i feel stable in a way i never really have before #is it the dopamine stablizer or is it my ion channels? whos to say. it doesn't matter. but it also doesnt change some things #the ways i think and react negativly to change. but it makes it easier to deal with. i still experience this strange dispaire on the #weekends or anytime im not working. i think the oddest thing is thst i dont think ive ever been this consistenly sad #not in a depressed sort of way. just a passing thoughts make me tear up sort of way. it doesnt feel out of control. it just feels like a #prelude to grief i guess. bc my mum is still in the hospital and its so hard to kno what that means from halfway across the country #my sisters are both home right now. they both live within 3hrs of where we grew up. one sister lives in the city my mom goes to for #treatment. so they have the opportunity to see her more than me. i dunno if they do tho. we dont really talk. i dont kno if they're as sad #as i am. if im overreacting bc i cant physically see what's happening. what the feeling is in the room. not that she would probably complain #shes the suffer in silence type. my dad keeps texting us pics of our shitty lil sunroom that hes redoing #to make my mum a lil sanctuary. he must be sad too. its his wife. hes staying with her in the hospital rn. i dunno its so weird #when i talk to my counselor she assumes i find out info thru calls or talk to my sisters abt it and i gotta b like nah we dont really talk #i get my info thru text. i havent talked to my parents on the phone in like a month. i dunno we just dont talk. so i dont kno how to reach #out and be like yo so whats up? shoulf i plan on coming home this summer for a bit?? like???#this is the disadvantage of leaving thr place where you grew up. probably when i finish my phd i should move closer to home #somewhere in the Appalachian mountains maybe. somewere in the eastern deciduous forrest. somewhere with thunderstorms.#but thats years from now. who knows what ill b doing. for now im just sad and tired and i dont quite kno what to do in the short or long #term bc im feeling the weight of my mental limitations rather intensely. but maybe im just being self limiting #whatever. i dont have a dead mum yet. shes not even on hospice care. things are just uncertain and dont look so hot #i just dont see how it can get better from here when chemo gave her secondary blood cancer and shes still full of tumors #i dont think im being that dramatic. it just objectively seems not great for survival #unrelated

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dykethang · 9 months ago

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does anyone else feel like this. or is it just me

#cat meows #i wasn't planning to elaborate on the This but like.#so sad all the time no matter what. i think i am fundamentally broken to be fair but like. For why and for what #i don't think i'm depressed and i don't think any sane person would like. disagree with me there.#so i think i'm just messed up forever because i'm so sad all the time lately. even when i'm clowning around #actually especially when i'm clowning around. it's like my level of funny haha guy scales with how Bad I Feel #but i am far too functional to be depressed even slightly so um. hm. whas going on #it's not just like sad. i just dunno how to describe it Other than sad #i know some of the ways i feel right now are like. red flags for me. but i just don't think i'm depressed so Why......#anyway this is what i mean by does anyone else feel like this or is it just me

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buck-yyyy · 1 year ago

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local guy is being gay at 3am because they can’t sleep :(

#sigh #want to SLEEP but CAN’T and my usual going to sleep solutions are making me irrationally irritated #so instead i will write my silly little gay love letters (text messages) and listen to minecraft music to relive gay moments and revel in #the wonder that is being gay and in love #even if everything is really not perfect right now it doesn’t matter. i have the little things #i have a cool amazing beautiful funny sweet girlfriend who i love and who loves me too and i have a soft chicken plushie in my arms #and i have soft pretty music playing and i have happy memories and augh #i have been. very up and down and up and down but right in this moment i am just in love with her and with everyone and with the world #around me #hi alena i’m assuming you’ll see this at some point. not to be gay on main especially after the mild mess that was earlier but i love you so #so so so much #just. so you know #i dunno #am sad but happy at the same time. who knows. i’m going to try to go to bed now bdndbdnd

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thatdude-noah · 10 months ago

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there is something seriously wrong with my brain i need a diagnosis oh my god

#sorry guys sorry sorry #i'm not even sad or anything rn i'm just. in it. i'm so in it.#everything feels great i feel invincible. i want to tell everybody every thought i've ever had.#i want to spill every secret i've ever kept. i want to come out to everybody.#i want to cut everybody off. i want to start a new life.#all of my trauma feels funny and insignificant right now.#(i think i am mentally ill and in need of help.)#sometimes i call someone and start expressing my thoughts that i think are fine and normal #and then they hit me with the 'you need therapy'

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run-down-that-dream · 11 months ago

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#so. funny story bc I want to be a little melodramatic right now and I've earned it #this became one of my favorite songs back in 2018 ? maybe 2019 ? and it has been since #tom was not even a thought in my mind at that point in my life #when I found it. I had no idea #I loved stevie. she led me to tom. but not YET #but there's THIS. mike was right there this whole time akdhjsjs #and sometimes I wonder if we're kinda. Meant to find these people. our favorite people y'know #I didn't get that it was him back then but I figured it out through tom eventually. and you know what?#I couldn't be more grateful #I literally cannot express how grateful I am that I found him lol #so when I'm in the tags like aaaa I love him. and being totally annoying about it. (don't sugarcoat I know I am) it's REAL.#his music has been there for me and is more reliable than anyone I've ever actually met and I love it #and I'm just now realizing how much more his music has been there for me without me even realizing it at the time #ANYWAY. he's also possibly one of the most talented people ever in the world and no I don't take criticism on that #and it makes me sad sometimes that I don't really have a lot of people anymore to share that with #seems like once I stopped posting about tom all the time my blog kinda. died #so. I've been getting a little bit frustrated about it being the tom show around here #and I'm sorry if that ever came across or made anyone uncomfortable. not my intention at all #I just took it all a little too personally when I shouldn't have #kind of an.. isolating experience tho #aaand I don't remember where else I was going with that but enjoy the song akjshdjs #it's really good 💞 proud of my favorite guy #(as always 🙈)#did I mention most talented ever?#ok shhh I'm done

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todayisafridaynight · 2 years ago

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i know i piss on the yakuza wiki every so often but they were goated for putting masato down as ‘regular customer’ for yumeno’s wiki entry instead of ex-girlfriend or something

#snap chats #the one time the yakuza wiki gets relationships right goddamn COUGHCOUGHMINE #yumeno's regarded as his 'ex-girlfriend' on his wiki but point is POINT AND LAUGH #masato being delusional is so sad but so funny at the exact same time #is this the part where i say i think horinouchi and yumeno are cute together #its cause i think theyre both baddies lbr #game framin them as villains and like Ok Maybe Horinouchi Is but like. his wife hot shut up #horinouchi aint ven that bad aside from the whole money embezzling thing that was cringe but he do be a cop so it was only a matter of time #the fuck am i going with this post #oh yeah #anyway lol. lmao even #imagine putting all of your emotional vulnerability on a woman just doin her job BROOO STOPPPP #ITS SO FUNNY #now im forced to remember the beginning of Y7 my fucking god why is his entire segment so cringe #no wonder you wanted to game end your old self my fuckin god

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celestial-sapphicss · 1 year ago

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#so i just finished s1ep2 of the bear (i don't really get it so far but ok)#and there's this scene where the main character calls up his sister and tells her about the mental shit that has been happening with him uk #and like even though this feeling is always there but lile i can't help but feel like my life would have been so much better with a sibling?#like one id have good relationships with uk???#and ik ik found family and forming meaningful relationships outside is an option but like in this capitalistic individualist society? is it?#anyways that's not the point it's that there's always stuff no body in the world would get except people who grow up with you innit?#be it school or hometowns or families and it would have been nice to have someone help me not feel this complete overwhelmness all the time #and without me feeling like im exaggerating or thinking that the person would judge me or having to keep telling everything repeatedly #but then i think would that even matter when I am the one who's the problem and like can't work to form that connection with anyone?????#like i for the life of me cannot share anything beyond the surface level or without making a joke out of it #and it seems funny but i trivialise so much of the fucking shit that happens so obviously no one takes it seriously not their fault right?#and like how fair to my friends that i literally almost always been superficial and lowkey untrue with them in exchange for their honesty???#at this point i feel like i don't even know what i truly feel or truly am because whenever i look back at my past self im like wtf #idk most of the times it just feels like being 'stuck' in a glass container and me not 'letting' anyone in if that makes sense?#ik im being very annoying about it but im just so tierd of feeling like this its been a decade & its way too long to constantly feeling dead #and im so fucking stubborn in my sadness that i won't even go get help after years of crying about wanting it & now finally having resources #it's like this mental block which i can't seem to remove and i feel like even if i do get help ill still be untrue so what's the point!???#yeahhhhh anyways i'll delete this later i don't journal so tumblr will have to make do #vi.txt

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lebrookestore · 2 years ago

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feelings are so complex

#its funny in a way yk #because like on one end of the spectrum theres this person that was supposed to be my best frien #but she ended up manipulating me and doing some really shitty things and will be all nice to my face but talk shit behind my back #and honestly she can be a terrible horrible person and has hurt another close friend of mine really badly #and i want to hate her so badly #and i think part of me does hate her because being around her now just drains me of my energy and i suck at being fake about people #but at the same time i loved her at one point bc she was my best friend and i cant just let that go??#and she's going through a lot so i just feel sad for her #so like i cant hate her if im sympathetic and its just weird idk man #i want to hate her but i cant #like i feel awful ab the shit she's going thru but that doesnt excuse the crappy human being she's being but i feel like a bad person #holding her accountable for that bc of how much she's going thru and like why why WHY is it like this why is it not in black n white #then on the other end of the spectrum there are feelings that like im kind of terrified off but like #i underestimated just how easily those type of feelings can blossom #is this me talking about the L word? yes. 🧍🏻‍♀️#i thought that falling in love per se would be like. way more work way more time etc etc #but apparently not? its oddly simply? but at the same time admitting it is like oh okay what #and therefore its like u gotta take time to figure yourself and it out and then like #like you dont really realize it until you're standing in the midst of it #man i dont even know what this post is lmfao 😭 i quite frankly dont even know what im saying right now i am just putting my thoughts out #into the abyss because i gotta put it somewhere #goodbye and goodnight now #brooke rambles

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bearinabandana · 2 years ago

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@thirteenmyspacegirl

Tumblr cut my tags but um Im not finished actually so Tags Part Two Ellectric Boogaloo ↓

#okay sooooooo where did I stop #okay the experience didn't TRAUMATIZE me but it was funny because I was just trying to think about Anything Else to distract myself #and my brain was like wellllll what do you like what brings you comfort and I was like uhh doctor who steven universe kombis lighthouses #and this sort of stuff #so my brain was like oh cool so doctor who huh? what were the ladt episodes you watched?? oh yeah the one with the pirates lol wouldn't it-#- be funny if they fucking drowned lol #and I was like NO!!!!!!! NO DROWNING!!!!!!!!!!! SKIP DOCTOR WHO!!!! NEXT!#and then brain was like so yea steven universe am I right they live in the beach fucking city wouldn't it be funny if there was an episode-#-in which they all fell to the sea and lol wait there WERE episodes like that I think so funny lol #and then I was like PLEASE PLEASE NO BEACH NO SEA NEXT COMFORT THING GO #brain was like well you know where you find the biggest concentrations of the so called 'hippie' volkswagen furgons known as kombis?#and I was like oh god it's the beach #and don't even GET ME STARTED on the lighthouses #so yea now everything I seeked just reminded me of my miserable experience and this sucks because all the mentioned stuff fucking rule!!#and I was a sad little sore creature going to sleep without thinking of #well #anything #because all made me more miserable #I'm not sure how I slept that night #it's been a week I think #anyway how are you babe how you doin #news from the horsies?

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astrxealis · 2 years ago

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sometimes i think of scenarios in my head with my ocs and then sometimes for happy brain i kinda crossover them with my favorite medias atm and also insert myself in bcs i like being self-indulgent and yeah my brain is so fucked up that i just keep repeating the same first bits and can't get far in thinking and i end up just having my s/i ramble my thoughts and it's hard to explain but yeah but anyways it's interesting thinking about who or what my ocs would like in video games or colors or whatever because all my ocs seem to reflect a certain part of me and i can get into the psychology of that but also its hard to explain my thoughts but also anyways yeah i find it interesting thinking about who my ocs would kin

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#feel free to just ignore me oopsies i am just rambling but yeah i love my ocs so much #sorry besties you are all subject once more to my brainrots and rambles and random thoughts now that i am on tumblr rn #my brain is very interesting to me and the way i think but also i can't properly think in such a way and i find it really hard to explain #and i'm such a mess but also man i don't know and i'm going off-track and god i love vgm so much and i don't want to do homework #but anyways back to the goddamn point !!! so my oc merle. i have little crossover thoughts in my head right and i realize #he's similar with akira and then it makes sense as to why i like characters like akira and it's a little woa fr bcs #the way i imagine merle is really similar to akira actually but with a more purple color scheme (but still dark) and he doesn't wear #glasses (at least. wait. actually. i don't really know anymore) GOD my mind never stops but yeah uhm yeah #i think humans are so unbelievably interesting and it's all just so fascinating and and and #also i've awakened to the fact i really like sharks i think they're very cute! i still prefer dolphins though #people who hurt animals make me really angry and sad... i think about it and already want to cry #i have never had a pet but my grandparents had lots and it's funny how memory works. i forgot they once had a pet turtle #until something in a school group project involved my group involving a pet turtle in our storyline for something #and then i remember that past. my past. once again. and clearly even! and... yeah #but yeah... i know i will never abandon my pet if ever i do get a pet. or pets. i would never do that and i really know this is a fact with #all my heart but what's stopping me from getting a pet is that i need to take better care of myself first and learn how to take care of #pets! i think where i live there's actually an opportunity for me to do so. i'll try to see more about that. and hmm... this is a really #busy year for school. and then the next. and then tbh everything onwards from 2023 so... i don't want to put time to something #i'm not even sure if i can really make time for. but. i think i really do want a pet! a dog esp. but also a cat. but a dog esp #bcs i've always wanted one !! i know when it comes to something i really want i am very dedicated and passionate #like how i already calculated xiv expenses months before actually got the game? and planned how me and lune would do things too #and then because i want to handle money better and take note of all that i yeah and yeah and yeah im tired of typing now BYE #will now disappear again after rambling quite a lot ^__^ maybe? maybe not? who knows!#my thoughts are so. whack. wack? idk. but uhm yeah it went from ocs to sharks to pets to money and idk huh #man w some things i'm really shy about being perceived or asked about. like my ocs. egbhebgjhbjehs ;;;;;#and people being nice to me T__T sorry i rlly appreciate it but i can't really comprehend it and my coping mechanism is avoidance

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indigo6f00ff · 1 year ago

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funny update a couple of months later for People Who Want to Know: i dont have the car that got me into this Incredibly Minor Accident anymore. while after the accident, i did have to get the brakes serviced (wow, they were faulty, who knew!), it proceeded to have Several More Issues, such as: the transmission being fucked up and Trouble With Turns. i still drove it regardless because i needed that shit to get to college but eventually the radiator fan stopped working on it (where it would start overheating if the car wasn't moving (if the car was moving then air could still blow over the engine, cooling it down)) and My Mother deemed it too dangerous to drive. RIP to the shitty 2012 jeep liberty hand-me-down with 200k miles that led to the creation of the Kim Moment(TM).