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I hope you have fun at the beach! What is your fandom history and how long they have been in fandom?
thank you!!! I’m really looking forward to it it’s been far too long since I put my feet into the ocean and that feeling is one of the simpler joys of life
(I also packed like 5 mystery books. Can’t wait to aspire to read them all and then get distracted with the splash splash sandcastle building chaos)
Fandom history!! Wow well so for Obikin/Star Wars specifically, I watched the prequels Decemberish of 2020 and then started reading fic then before I started writing it in April of 2021! Been here ever since
as for fandom in general, I was reading all sorts of fics on fanfiction dot net in like 2011 and 2012 lol I remember having one of those really really long profile pages that had all the popular quotes and jokes and HTML tricks I had to copy from some how-to because I couldn’t figure it out myself
I’m pretty sure the first fic I ever wrote was for Harry Potter and my second fic was for 39 Clues if people even remember those books?? It was like national treasure for 10 year olds spread out over like 50 books. insane. Both were character studies that I’m sure abused italics and bolded text 100%
after fan fiction dot net days, I lurked in a lot fandoms to read fics but never posted much or wrote fic. Think I created this blog in like 2012 or 2013 and then when I got into Star Wars and started posting fic and got a few comments asking if I had a tumblr I did a quick cleanse of any posts from past fandoms and found a new profile picture of mark hamil in a golden suit 😂
#asks#thank you for asking!!#I always forget about 39 clues#oh wait you know what#I did warrior cats roleplay on neopets dot com messaging boards in like 2009 and 2010#so that was probably the first fandom interaction kind of thing#and also before anyone has any questions yeah no there’s absolutely nothing bad with being a multi fandom blog#or having posts from an older time#on your blog or whatever#I’m just like weird and like clear and separate boundaries for things#probably in a diagnosable way
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/44390266
After reading this thoughts of a part two had my mind running from this prompt
Just a heads up this is going to be all over the place, but won't be too difficult to follow just bear with me, I don't usually write down my maladaptive daydream plots ideas
Either Jason ask
"... so what kind of powers am I going to have?"
Or one of the other bat-fam asks
" So, what kind of powers is he going to develop?"
[Got me thinking Danny would respond like]
"Oh that's easy I finally remembered them all, flight, invisibility, (Danny proceeds to list a crazy long list of powers)"
Or
"....Well there's flight, invisibility, ecto energy like ghost ray and force fields(he could even shoot a small one out for example), intangibility, telekinesis, uh.....increased strength and senses like hearing, smell, sight, then there’s ghost sense, overshadowing, hmm.... oh right duplication, I always forget about that one, there's creating portals but Dani and I had a hard time learning that might take you a while, uh.... did I mention ghost wail yet?.....what? (mouth gaping shock)
[Probably depends if Dani is his sister or daughter]
[And depends if she got her own core type or same ice core]
[the response depends on which bat-fam member responds]
"(shocked and asks what's overshadowing but then stops themselves) we'll go back to that one, who's Danny?
"Dani with an 'i', your sister, oh teleportation forgot that one too
"Tele-I have a sister?!?"
"Yeah older sister and aunts(I'm counting Val as an aunt) and [depends on the ship ex: everlasting trio, just Sam or just Val, I’m leaning towards everlasting trio], I have to introduce you to the rest of the family, actually I have to tell the rest of the family first....”
“You didn't tell them about me”
“No, didn't have time to, I came straight here when I sensed you"
[random bat-fam] "Wait, you said Older sister?! When did you have her?!?"
"Huh? Oh no no no she's a clone”
Or
"Who's Danny?..."
"Oh my sister, one of your aunts”
“You guys are both named Danny/Dani? Doesn't that get confusing”
“Its Dani with an “i” or Elle, short for Danielle and she’s my clone so we make a joke out of it”
"You've been cloned?!?
"Yeah, by my ex evil Godfather... well that's another story, actually he might be able to help you with your duplication better than me when we get there
Oh and Dani has a different core so she doesn't have my full kit, you might develop a different core too, but the base powers won't be different"
[This could either be bad parents or good parents]
But if its good I imagine Maddie and Jack spoiling him with weapons aka ecoto guns
...... writing this I just remembered how Jason even came to be because they kicked Danny out......
Well damn, well Danny could make him guns
Honestly I just see the family trying to spoil him rotten
I would like for him to stick with calling Bruce Dad though he can call Danny GD like in “ The curious case of D. Grayson” for Ghost Dad
And if it's Pharoah tuck and undergrowth Sam
Val could be a ghost zone hunter or a ghost zone bounty hunter/infinite realm bounty hunter
They could be uncle tuck/uncle pharaoh tuck.... aunt Sam and aunt Val/aunt V
don't know what he would call them if its everlasting trio
[Since Danny was 14 when Dani was made, 18 when Jason was born, he how old would he now if Jason became red hood when he was 18-19]
I'll make him 19y for a red hood vigilante foundation, kinda want to make him older but I'll just figure out the math and add on in my mind if I want him older in my daydreams
So Danny would be 37 along with Sam/Tuck/Val
Jazz is 2y+ than Danny so she'll be 39
Danny stop aging at 25
Id say both Sam and Tucker stopped aging like 2-3 years after 25 when they fully took in their liminality powers? Now they're just waiting to die or something, got no clue i just need them to either die and revert or stop aging
What if Danny faked his death and is just waiting for them to die
Or he's just shapeshifting to appear like he's growing older but still waiting for them so he can dip from the mortal realm
I disagree with my previous thoughts now, I still want him and everyone else to have a human identity as long as possible, he could have a bunch of degrees with a job at Nasa or something
Wait…. How old would Bruce be?
So Bruce was 34y when he met Jason at 12y
22y years older than him would make him 41y, not that much older than Jazz and Danny at all especially Jazz, maybe they could be friends [Just friends.] she can help with his family connection problems or something
I high key want Jason to be small boy robin in his ghost form, but i want Danny and Dani to look older, so that would put on the possibility of him being able to change his form to look older
No wait I like it, they all still look the same age they died/were created
No wait….then he’ll appear older than both of them..., I'm just not going to think about this right now
Well at least they're tall as freaks in their human forms, which explains why Jason is the tallest bat sibling, but still shorter than all three Jazz, Danny and Dani
OP daddy Danny
... I got carried away again
#Danny Phantom#danny fenton#dp x dc#dc x dp#jason todd#batfam#jason todd is actually jason fenton#jason is a fenton#danny fenton you are the father!#sheila haywood is a liar#dp x dc crossover#dp x dc writing prompt
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I was inspired by the post about the Starks’s book respective ages and the ages of Game of Thrones actors who portrayed them in the show. Everyone was aged up in the show and we tend to forget how young they are in the books.
I think it’s worth mentioning that Jaqen is also significantly younger in the books. Whenever Jaqen shows up he looks like a very young man. Even when he takes someone else’s face, it’s always a very young man’s face. We learn it first hand from Arya who describes Jaqen as young while at the same time she thinks that 30 year old men are very old. We also can conclude his real age because we meet Pate who is a foil for Jaqen. Pate was born at the same time as Aegon Targaryen, son of Elia and Rhaegar. So, it’s another clue about Jaqen’s true identity and his real age. “Jaqen” is 18 turning 19 in A Feast for Crows.
I know I have mentioned it before in other posts but I think I still need to stress it. It’s not just about his identity but about his personality and his relation to Arya. “Jaqen” is only 7 years her senior. It changes their dynamics and it changes our perception of them. He is barely older than Jon. It’s also mind-blowing to think what this young man is capable of. He is already a pretty powerful assassin at the tender age of 16. He survived the Black Cells. He wanders around Westeros, trying to cross people off his list, hatch a dragon and get the throne back. It’s even more impressive when we know how young he is.
I also think about all those wonderful fans and fanfiction writers who try to overcome the obstacle which is the age gap between Arya and Jaqen. Don’t worry guys, it’s not such a big deal in the books.
Of course, I adore Tom Wlaschiha’s Jaqen. And I love the chemistry Maisie and Tom have. And I think the show dynamics of Arya and Jaqen is also very interesting and the age gap might make it even more fascinating now when Arya is of age. If HBO ever does A/J sequel I want them to cast Tom and Maisie again. But I think we should remember that the show and the books are two different stories.
Jaqen H’ghar, born in late 281 AC or early 282 AC, age 17 in AGoT
Tom Wlaschiha in season 2, age 39.
Tom Wlaschiha age 24. Definitely closer to book “Jaqen” though still 7 years older than “Jaqen” when he meets Arya.
#jaqen h'ghar#Arya Stark#asoiaf#game of thrones#game of thrones vs asoiaf#game of thrones actors#asoiaf meta#asoiaf characters age#arya x jaqen#jaqen x arya#jaqarya#tom wlaschiha#Maisie Williams
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Question 1-30 for kiyo and 31-70 for dai~
Kiyoharu & Daichi
01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Parents passed away a long time ago. At the time it wasn’t the best.
02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?
Dai, when I left to run errands earlier today.
03: Do you regret anything?
Everything, well not everything, mostly not effectively communicating what I really felt and thought to the person who meant the most to me. For letting fear scare me into hiding instead of talking.
04: Are you insecure?
Yes.
05: What is your relationship status?
Divorced
06: How do you want to die?
Surrounded by people I love. Hopefully of old age. Or spontaneous death…..
07: What did you last eat?
Ramen
08: Played any sports?
A little baseball years ago.
09: Do you bite your nails?
Occasionally
10: When was your last physical fight?
3 years ago…..
11: Do you like someone?
Yes.
12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?
Many times
13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?
Yes
14: Do you miss someone?
Always
15: Have any pets?
No
16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?
Conflicted, without purpose.
17: Ever made out in the bathroom?
Yeah sure.
18: Are you scared of spiders?
No
19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Yes
20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?
I don’t remember…… the bridge? The house?
21: What are your plans for this weekend?
Take the kids and visit the zoo.
22: Do you want to have kids? How many?
I have 5 part time. I’m happy with what I have.
23: Do you have piercings? How many?
Yes, several
24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?
History
25: Do you miss anyone from your past?
Everyday
26: What are you craving right now?
Pizza and sushi?
27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
Regrettably
28: Have you ever been cheated on?
Don’t know of any?
29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Yes….. regrettably
30: What’s irritating you right now?
Me.
31: Does somebody love you?
No clue.
32: What is your favourite color?
Purple?
33: Do you have trust issues?
Depends on what it is.
34: Who/what was your last dream about?
The kids mainly Toki playing in the snow.
35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Yuuki?
36: Do you give out second chances too easily?
No
37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Forgive. Memories last.
38: Is this year the best year of your life?
Not quite.
39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?
13?
40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
Yes
51: Favourite food?
Tacos!
52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
I know….. why things happen
53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Orange juice.
54: Is cheating ever okay?
No, but I’ve had compassion for drunken mistakes or blinded moments.
55: Are you mean?
No
56: How many people have you fist fought?
2?
57: Do you believe in true love?
Yes
58: Favourite weather?
Spring
59: Do you like the snow?
Sure….
60: Do you wanna get married?
It’s a little late in life to want it
61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
Depends
62: What makes you happy?
Children laughing
63: Would you change your name?
No
64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
Uh…. Yeah
65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Don’t have one?
66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
No
67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
Emi
68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Kiyo
69: Do you believe in soulmates?
I believe soulmates can be formed
70: Is there anyone you would die for
My family
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4, 19 and 39 for weird writers ask 🫶
ty for sending this in friend!! <3
4. What’s a word that makes you go absolutely feral?
okay i know this is asking for specifics but here we have a category 5 "i've been asked to recall something so naturally my brain forgets everything its ever known" moment. soooo, i'm going to be pretty unspecific probably lol buuuut
any word that implies something tender is happening is my jaaaaam. i mean, tender itself is a word i love a lot. but yeah anything that implies something deeply vulnerable and intimate is so so good. i go coo coo for cocoa puffs about it.
i also fucking love space words - nebula, constellation, supernova, cosmic, celestial, anything to do with the stars, the moon, the sun. i eat that shit UP.
also same goes with words about water!!!
also shout out to my homies irrevocably (which i still associate with that one monologue from twilight but like it kind of went off using this words soooo sdflkds), petrichor (bc that's a fun word and i LOVE rain and the smell of rain so), and also freckles and dimples bc i fucking L O V E mentioning those in anything i write so they are favorites too <3
19. Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going?
ooh so i started writing like officially the summer before my freshman year of college. i had been apart of fandom before that for a while and had definitely been reading fic for quite some time before, and i'd always sort of wanted to do some writing of my own, but i could never like fully commit to anything. which, in hindsight, i'm very glad i couldn't for that first fandom i was in lmfao. let's just say iykyk.
but then i watched skam and i totally and completely fell in love with that show, with that cast of characters, with the stories they were telling. and i wanted to add to it, i wanted to expand that universe, i wanted to put these characters in my own situations and shows how they'd respond! so i did! and i wrote and i wrote and i wrote. to this day it is still the fandom i have written the most fics for (tied with marvel also lmfao, and honestly stranger things is creeping up there, it's getting close and the brainrot has not died, not even close, so it just might pass it up. but the fact that it's stayed number one for like 6 years? crazy).
it absolutely helped that i found a server to join for fans of the show. that was literally the best thing ever. i made so many connections and so many dear friends and, aside from the brief bumps in the road that came with that server (lmaoo), it was such a good environment and it was SO creatively stimulating and SO motivating and SO inspirational. like i had so many people in my corner rooting me on to actually finish writing that first fic!! and i did!! and their support just kept coming and coming for everything after and that was SO integral to my success and my desire to keep writing. so yeah, shout out to skam international, yall were the real mvps and i wouldnt be where i am today if it werent for you all <3
where am i now and where am i going? well, right now im deeeeep in the st brainrot so im riding that wave as far as it will take me for as long as it will take me. and as for the future? i really have no idea! i have no clue what's going to sink it's claws into me next, but i'm excited to find out!
39. What keeps you writing when you feel like giving up?
really truly it's my friends. whenever i'm feeling down in the dumps about my writing they're always so kind and so nice and so encouraging with me, they know exactly what to say. and a lot of them are writers or artists themselves too so like they understand the feeling too, which makes it easier to like talk about it with them and to take a step back from that ledge.
i also like to look at how much i've done already, and how much i have left that i want to tell and that kind of just helps to put things in perspective. like wow i've done so much, i've made it through so much to get to this point - no way can i give up now.
weird questions for writers
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Today’s reading from the ancient books of Proverbs and Psalms
for july 7 of 2024 with Proverbs 7 and Psalm 7, accompanied by Psalm 18 for the 18th day of Astronomical Summer, and Psalm 39 for day 189 of the year (with the consummate book of 150 Psalms in its 2nd revolution this year)
[Proverbs 7]
My son, live according to what I am telling you;
guard my instructions as you would a treasure deep within you.
Stay true to my directives, and they will serve you well;
make my teachings the lens through which you see life.
Bind cords around your fingers to remind you of them;
meditate on them, and you’ll engrave them upon your heart.
Say to Lady Wisdom, “My sister”;
recognize that understanding is your best friend,
And they will keep you from the arms of another woman—
protect you from the enchantress who entices men into her bed.
One day I was at the window of my house,
looking out through my lattice shutters,
And there among the usual crowd of the gullible people
I spotted a naive young man.
He was going down the street near the corner where she lived—that mysterious and evil woman—
taking the road that led directly to her house.
At the end of the day, as night approached
and darkness crept in,
I saw her! A woman came out to meet him.
She was dressed for temptation and devious with her affections.
Here’s what I know about her: she is loud and obnoxious, a rebel against what is proper and decent.
She’s always on the move—anxious to get out of the house and
Down the street; at times in the open,
at others lurking around every corner.
As I am watching them, she grabs him and kisses him,
then shamelessly tells him:
The Immoral Woman: It was my turn to offer a peace offering,
and today I paid my vows,
So now I come to see you.
I really want to be with you, and what luck! I have found you!
You’ll be impressed. I have decorated my couch,
laid colorful Egyptian linens over where we will be together,
And perfumed the bed with exotic oils and herbs:
myrrh, aloes, and cinnamon.
Come in, and we will feast on love until sunrise;
we will delight ourselves in our affections.
You don’t need to worry; my husband is long gone by now,
away from home on a distant journey.
He took a bag of money with him,
so I don’t expect him home until next month.
It worked! She enticed him with seductive words,
seduced him with her smooth talk.
Right away he followed her home.
He followed her like a bull being led to the slaughter,
Like a fool caught in a trap
(that is, until an arrow punctures his liver),
Like a bird flying straight into a net.
He had no clue his life was at stake; everything was about to change.
This is why it is so important that you listen to me, my sons,
and pay attention to all I am telling you.
Do not let your mind wonder about her ways;
do not lose yourself and drift down her path,
For she’s claimed one life after another,
victim after victim, too many to count.
Her house is the gateway to the grave;
every step toward her is a step toward death’s dark chamber.
The Book of Proverbs, Chapter 7 (The Voice)
A note from The Voice translation:
People are forgetful, so we must be reminded constantly of Wisdom and her ways. We don’t always need to hear something new; often we just need to be reminded of what is true. In these proverbs wisdom is found when one not only knows what is right, but acts on that knowledge. Foolishness, on the other hand, means a lack of understanding and wrongdoing.
[Psalm 7]
A song of David to the Eternal regarding Cush, the Benjaminite.
O Eternal my God, in You I seek refuge.
Save me from those who are chasing me. Rescue me,
Or else they will tear me to pieces as a lion devours his prey;
they will carry me off with no one to snatch me from their jaws.
O Eternal my God, if I have done anything wrong to deserve this,
if there is blood on my hands,
If I have mistreated a friend,
or if I have stolen from an adversary without just cause,
Then let my enemy come after me and catch me,
stomping me into the ground, ending my life,
and grinding my honor into the dirt.
[pause]
Arise, O Eternal One, inflamed by Your anger.
Come and counter the rage of my adversaries;
open Your eyes, my God; hear my plea for justice once and for all.
Let the people gather around You.
Return to Your rightful place above them in the high court.
The Eternal will judge the nations.
Judge me now, Eternal One, according to my virtue and integrity.
Please, bring the evil actions of these wicked, wicked people to an end!
But secure the righteous,
For You, righteous God,
examine our hearts and minds.
God is my defender;
He rescues those who have a pure heart.
God is a just judge;
He passes judgment daily against the person who does evil.
If the wicked do not turn from their evil deeds, God will sharpen His sword;
He will bend His bow, stringing it in readiness.
Yes, He has prepared His deadly weapons
with His arrows flaming hot.
See, my enemies are fertile with evil.
They conceive trouble
and give birth to deception.
They prepare a trap, digging a deep pit,
and fall into the snare they have made.
The trouble they plan will return to punish them,
and their violent acts will come back to haunt them.
As a result, I will thank the Eternal for His justice
and sing praises in honor of the Eternal, Most High.
The Book of Psalms, Poem 7 (The Voice)
[Psalm 18]
I love you, God—
you make me strong.
God is bedrock under my feet,
the castle in which I live,
my rescuing knight.
My God—the high crag
where I run for dear life,
hiding behind the boulders,
safe in the granite hideout.
I sing to God, the Praise-Lofty,
and find myself safe and saved.
The hangman’s noose was tight at my throat;
devil waters rushed over me.
Hell’s ropes cinched me tight;
death traps barred every exit.
A hostile world! I call to God,
I cry to God to help me.
From his palace he hears my call;
my cry brings me right into his presence—
a private audience!
Earth wobbles and lurches;
huge mountains shake like leaves,
Quake like aspen leaves
because of his rage.
His nostrils flare, bellowing smoke;
his mouth spits fire.
Tongues of fire dart in and out;
he lowers the sky.
He steps down;
under his feet an abyss opens up.
He’s riding a winged creature,
swift on wind-wings.
Now he’s wrapped himself
in a trenchcoat of black-cloud darkness.
But his cloud-brightness bursts through,
spraying hailstones and fireballs.
Then God thundered out of heaven;
the High God gave a great shout,
spraying hailstones and fireballs.
God shoots his arrows—pandemonium!
He hurls his lightnings—a rout!
The secret sources of ocean are exposed,
the hidden depths of earth lie uncovered
The moment you roar in protest,
let loose your hurricane anger.
But me he caught—reached all the way
from sky to sea; he pulled me out
Of that ocean of hate, that enemy chaos,
the void in which I was drowning.
They hit me when I was down,
but God stuck by me.
He stood me up on a wide-open field;
I stood there saved—surprised to be loved!
God made my life complete
when I placed all the pieces before him.
When I got my act together,
he gave me a fresh start.
Now I’m alert to God’s ways;
I don’t take God for granted.
Every day I review the ways he works;
I try not to miss a trick.
I feel put back together,
and I’m watching my step.
God rewrote the text of my life
when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes.
The good people taste your goodness,
The whole people taste your health,
The true people taste your truth,
The bad ones can’t figure you out.
You take the side of the down-and-out,
But the stuck-up you take down a notch.
Suddenly, God, you floodlight my life;
I’m blazing with glory, God’s glory!
I smash the bands of marauders,
I vault the highest fences.
What a God! His road
stretches straight and smooth.
Every God-direction is road-tested.
Everyone who runs toward him
Makes it.
Is there any god like God?
Are we not at bedrock?
Is not this the God who armed me,
then aimed me in the right direction?
Now I run like a deer;
I’m king of the mountain.
He shows me how to fight;
I can bend a bronze bow!
You protect me with salvation-armor;
you hold me up with a firm hand,
caress me with your gentle ways.
You cleared the ground under me
so my footing was firm.
When I chased my enemies I caught them;
I didn’t let go till they were dead men.
I nailed them; they were down for good;
then I walked all over them.
You armed me well for this fight,
you smashed the upstarts.
You made my enemies turn tail,
and I wiped out the haters.
They cried “uncle”
but Uncle didn’t come;
They yelled for God
and got no for an answer.
I ground them to dust; they gusted in the wind.
I threw them out, like garbage in the gutter.
You rescued me from a squabbling people;
you made me a leader of nations.
People I’d never heard of served me;
the moment they got wind of me they listened.
The foreign devils gave up; they came
on their bellies, crawling from their hideouts.
Live, God! Blessings from my Rock,
my free and freeing God, towering!
This God set things right for me
and shut up the people who talked back.
He rescued me from enemy anger,
he pulled me from the grip of upstarts,
He saved me from the bullies.
That’s why I’m thanking you, God,
all over the world.
That’s why I’m singing songs
that rhyme your name.
God’s king takes the trophy;
God’s chosen is beloved.
I mean David and all his children—
always.
The Book of Psalms, Poem 18 (The Message)
[Psalm 39]
For the worship leader, Jeduthun. A song of David.
I promised, “I’ll be careful on life’s journey
not to sin with my words;
I’ll seal my lips
when wicked people are around.”
I kept my mouth shut;
I had nothing to say—not even anything good—
which came to grieve me more and more.
I felt my heart become hot inside me
as I thought on these things; a fire ignited and burned.
Then I said,
“Eternal One, let me understand my end
and how brief my earthly existence is;
help me realize my life is fleeting.
You have determined the length of my days,
and my life is nothing compared to You.
Even the longest life is only a breath.”
[pause]
In truth, each of us journeys through life like a shadow.
We busy ourselves accomplishing nothing, piling up assets we can never keep;
We can’t even know who will end up with those things.
In light of all this, Lord, what am I really waiting for?
You are my hope.
Keep me from all the wrong I would do;
don’t let the foolish laugh at me.
I am quiet; I keep my mouth closed
because this has come from You.
Take Your curse from me;
I can’t endure Your punishment.
You discipline us for our sins.
Like a moth, You consume everything we treasure;
it’s evident we are merely a breath.
[pause]
Hear me, O Eternal One;
listen to my pleading,
and don’t ignore my tears
Because I am estranged from You—
a wanderer like my fathers before me.
Look away from me so I might have a chance to recover my joy and smile again
before I lay this life down and am no more.
The Book of Psalms, Poem 39 (The Voice)
A note from The Voice translation:
As an individual lament, Psalm 39 grieves over the brevity of life. The superscription recalls David’s appointment of Jeduthun as one of the tabernacle’s leading musicians (1 Chronicles 16:41–42).
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I think you'd like this story: " Produce Latam " by Lara635Kookie on Wattpad https://www.wattpad.com/story/357095090?utm_source=android&utm_medium=com.tumblr&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=Lara635Kookie&wp_originator=sGH2LHfjplHtbKRjko9G5v7vVQyfw39pnpz8XcTMeJLNHTVFHcpdXd61lgoLbA3I%2BRO1hKHX91W%2FribJcgbOIZwM7dlY4IqJuPRLt5GE%2FdNxgIvIOgm%2FzEHn82TC1lpZ
Many people don't know I am a kpop fan since I mostly post about The 39 Clues(Book Series) and Carmen Sandiego(2019 Netflix Original Show), but in this story I will make a reality show with 20 countries from Latam by kpop standards when you can vote for the contestant you like the most. So if you are interested(or if you are from Latin America, like me haha) then you should check it out. I am always down for constructive criticism, so, if you please, don't forget to share, vote and leave a comment on the story, if you want to. Thank you :)
#kpop#kpop story#reality show#girl group#global girl group#argentina#bolivia#brazil#chile#colombia#costa rica#cuba#dominican republic#ecuador#el salvador#guatemala#haiti#honduras#mexico#nicaragua#panama#paraguay#peru#uruguay#venezuela
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Doing this myself simply because I can <3 1. last drink: coke 2. last phone call: my health insurance company calling about one of my medications 3. last text message: making plans with friends <3 4. last song you listened to: I Dreamt We Spoke Again by Death Cab for Cutie 5. last time you cried: a few days ago, friend going through a tough time and I feel for them 6. dated someone twice? sort of? shit's complicated 7. kissed someone and regretted it? nope 8. been cheated on? not to my knowledge 9. lost someone special? not really 10. been depressed? yeah 11. gotten drunk and thrown up? yup
fave colors: 12. pink 13: black 14: silver
in the last year have you… 15. made new friends? not really 16. fallen out of love? sort of 17. laughed until you cried? yeah 18. found out someone was talking about you? I don't know what this question is asking 20. found out who your friends are? I've known that? 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list? no? there's a small chance this is actually yes, I don't use facebook so I forget who's on it and who's not, and I might have kissed my mom and I've got her on facebook lol
general 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl? all of them I don't add people otherwise 23. do you have any pets? nope 24. do you want to change your name? yes! I finally found one that I love and I'm going to be getting it legally changed soon 25. what did you do for your last birthday? I went to visit my mom because we share a birthday 26. what time did you wake up today? 6:36 27. what were you doing at midnight last night? watching a youtube video about chess 28. what is something you can’t wait for? my upcoming vacation to visit my partners <3 30. what are you listening to right now? my dehumidifier 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom? yup, a few 32. something thats getting on your nerves? work 33. most visited website: youtube probably, maybe tumblr 34. hair color: pink! redyeing it later this week 35. long or short hair: long <3 I haven't gotten it cut in ages 36. do you have a crush on someone: crush, no 37. what do you like about yourself: my insight, my introspection, my comfort with myself, my empathy 38. want any piercings? maybe a second ear piercing at some point, but eh, not really 39. blood type: I don't actually remember 40. nicknames: Light and Megan still get used sometimes but mostly no need for nicknames 41. relationship status: in a relationship 42. zodiac: leo 43. pronouns: she 44. fave tv shows: Elementary is my #1 comfort show 45. tattoos: don't have any currently, might get some eventually 46. right or left handed: right 47. ever had surgery: just outpatient, minor stuff, dental and orthodontic 48. piercings: basic ears 49. sport: nah 50. vacation: next week! 51. trainers: pink are the only ones I've got right now, my black ones just gave out recently
more general 52. eating: not at the moment 53. drinking: still got a little bit of coke left 54. watching? Elementary >.< not right this minute but yeah 55. waiting for: vacation! 56. want: executive functions, stable finances, better apartment, boob growth, cuddles 57. get married: did it once, that didn't pan out, might be willing to do it again but not taking it lightly 58. career: literally no clue, fam
which is better 59. hugs or kisses: hugs 60. lips or eyes: eyes 61. shorter or taller: whatever? 62. older or younger: don't care as long as it's not extreme 63. nice arms or stomach: arms 64. hookup or relationship: relationship 65. troublemaker or hesitant: both have their pros and cons
have you… 66. kissed a stranger: I mean I knew their name but met them like 6 hours before that so 67. drank hard liquor: ye 68. lost glasses: nope, always on my face 69. turned someone down: yea 70. sex on first date: nah 71. broken someone’s heart: yeah 72. had your heart broken: yeah 73. been arrested: nope 74. cried when someone died: a few people 75. fallen for a friend: yeah you could say that
do you believe in 76. yourself: yup 77. miracles: I mean, crazy stuff happens sometimes, but I don't think I believe in the type of miracles you're asking about 78. love at first sight: infatuation exists and can develop into love 79. santa claus: nah 80. kiss on a first date: maybe, if both people are feeling it 81. angels: nah
other 82. best friends name: the vast majority of my friends could qualify as best friends 83. eye color: blue 84. fave movie: I don't think I have one? Matrix maybe 85. fave actor: definitely don't have one lol
2 gorgeous cuties known as @onekisstotakewithme and @a-mi-zivi tagged me on this, here we go!
1. last drink: my one and only water 2. last phone call: lmao I called my brother from my room to his room cause he had forgotten something in mine…don’t judge me I was tired. 3. last text message: on the phone: whatsapp group chat with my uni friends; tumblr: onekisstotakewithme 4. last song you listened to: Gold by Jeff and Casey Lee Williams 5. last time you cried: some days ago because of this video that @itbloomedforyourlittlegirl posted some time ago. I’ve only seen it twice and I’ve always bawled. she’s awesome. 6. dated someone twice? I haven’t dated anyone 7. kissed someone and regretted it? I haven’t kissed anyone either 8. been cheated on? no 9. lost someone special? my grandpa, my great aunt. lee thompson young. carrie fisher.
10. been depressed? since about 5 months after my 15th birthday 11. gotten drunk and thrown up? dude I’ve only managed to get drunk once (lasted like 10 minutes) and it was because my friends kept filling my glass. no matter how much I drank it didn’t seem to be working so their objective that night was to get me drunk. I didn’t mind cause I wanted to know what it felt like (I had drunk with them other times, same amount, but nothing ever happened). that one time I didn’t throw up. (S, remember when we talked about that?).
fave colors: 12. green 13: black 14: purple
in the last year have you… 15. made new friends? ya <3 16. fallen out of love? no 17. laughed until you cried? yes 18. found out someone was talking about you? I don’t think so 20. found out who your friends are? I like to think so 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list? lmao I have no facebook
general 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl? – 23. do you have any pets? ask my mom 24. do you want to change your name? the only thing I’d change is the accent on my last name (Bagán). I never write it cause I hate it, I like Bagan better. 25. what did you do for your last birthday? uuuhhh yes I think I went to uni and my friends bought me a cake ^.^ 26. what time did you wake up today? 6:15 27. what were you doing at midnight last night? trying to sleep 28. what is something you can’t wait for? right now? for friday to get here already 30. what are you listening to right now? NCIS’ 2x08 Heart break 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom? no 32. something thats getting on your nerves? noises. I’m super picky on that matter 33. most visited website: take a guess lmao 34. hair color: brown 35. long or short hair: I’m totally in love with long hair but, after 2 years of thorough thought, I have decided to cut it short, below my shoulders. I won’t do it for another 2-3 months tho cause my frrndo aka jubril25 has to braid it first. and do awesome stuff with it. I can’t just cut it, she’s been asking to do that forever and I’m so attached to my hair it’s crazy. 36. do you have a crush on someone: maybe 37. what do you like about yourself: my imagination, my ability to stay in bed/do nothing for hours, my NCIS knowledge regarding s1 and s2, my height. 38. want any piercings? not really 39. blood type: A+ 40. nicknames: you can stop reading if you want cause I feel like sharing them all: minikate, twin, peanut, mcgrandma, frrndo, pollito, pato, cuca, cuddle buddy, (cutie?), sensei. 41. relationship status: single
42. zodiac: taurus 43. pronouns: she/her 44. fave tv shows: still not ready to answer that. I’ll let you know when I wanna have a seizure. 45. tattoos: I want a small K (it’s linked to a lot of things that are important to me), and an earthbending sign. I don’t know when I’ll get them. 46. right or left handed: right 47. ever had surgery: no 48. piercings: just the usual here, my ears were pierced when I was a baby. 49. sport: I’ve played basketball since I was 6. I love watching hockey, athletism, swimming, rugby, american football, waterpolo…but I can’t watch a basketball match unless I know the result, I get too nervous. 50. vacation: somewhere cold. if you wanna come with me you better not make me see more than 2 things in one day. I’m a chill traveller. 51. trainers: black Element ones, and ones that are blue/grey and very comfy. and 2 basketball pairs. 1 running pair.
more general 52. eating: not currently, just finished dinner 53. drinking: water, always. though my cuca doesn’t like it. how, anna, how??
54. watching? NCIS’ 2x08 Heart break
55. waiting for: this friday, next trimester, star wars IX, death 56. want: world peace, sleep, more visible abs and biceps (cause why not?) 57. get married: maybe someday, but first I gotta find my soulmate 58. career: I wanna be a general surgeon
which is better 59. hugs or kisses: hugs, duh 60. lips or eyes: eyes 61. shorter or taller: sorry, but taller. 62. older or younger: I don’t care, as long as he’s mature, geeky, loves me, and I love him 63. nice arms or stomach: stomach, I guess 64. hookup or relationship: relationship. 65. troublemaker or hesitant: definitely not a troublemaker, but not too hesitant cause then we’d never do anything, given that I’m super awkward and socially anxious
have you… 66. kissed a stranger: no 67. drank hard liquor: yes 68. lost glasses: never lost them (I can’t walk around without them/contacts so that wasn’t an option), but I broke 2 pairs 69. turned someone down: technically, yes 70. sex on first date: I’m ace; that’s a no 71. broken someone’s heart: no 72. had your heart broken: no
73. been arrested: no 74. cried when someone died: I was too young when my great aunt died, so no. I cried for my grandpa, carrie fisher and lee thompson young. [[SPOILERS: and kate. and paula cassidy. and pyrrha. and jasper jordan. and lincoln. and when I thought Marcus Kane was dead cause the 100 writers are assholes sometimes. and fred weasley, tonks, and remus. and when orphan black writers decided to dedicate a whole season to beth childs and ended it with her death. and MK. and kendall malone. and S. and lexie grey and mark sloan]] as you can see I get too attached to fictional characters. 75. fallen for a friend: no
do you believe in 76. yourself: no 77. miracles: mmmm more like coincidences (sorry Gibbs, boss) 78. love at first sight: pfff maybe 79. santa claus: no 80. kiss on a first date: if there’s feeling, yes 81. angels: no
other 82. best friends name: omg I hope I don’t forget anyone ayee…cesc, Alex, Judith, Anna, Abi. I love you all, dorks xx 83. eye color: green/brown
84. fave movie: *nervous laughter* 85. fave actor: hmmm…Tatiana Maslany (SHE SHOULD’VE BEEN JYN ERSO. FIGHT ME.). Ewan McGregor. Sasha Alexander. Stana Katic. Daisy Ridley. Jim Parsons.
I tag: @jubril25 @kates-coming-home @dundermifflin-jam @weissschnee-tm? if you wanna do it
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"I thought...I thought something bad had happened to you" pls
mickey (17:54 PM): yo, asshole.
mickey (17:54 PM): where the fuck are you?
mickey (17:54 PM): gallagher.
mickey (17:55 PM): you're out buying lube, not fending off world hunger.
mickey (17:55 PM): the fuck is going on?
mickey (17:55 PM): get back home.
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incoming call from mickey (17:57 PM)
incoming call from mickey (18:02 PM)
incoming call from mickey (18:06 PM)
mickey (18:07 PM): did you lose your phone or some shit.
mickey (18:07 PM): answer it, for fuck's sake
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incoming call from mickey (18:12 PM)
incoming call from mickey (18:13 PM)
incoming voicemail from mickey (18:15 PM) - 0:39
—"Hey, where the fuck are you? It's lube, you can get it wherever, you don't need to go across the world. Come on, we'll use spit if you can't find it, you know I don't mind. I called Lip. Asked him if he was with you, just in case. If you decided to be an asshole and get drinks with him or some shit. Texted the group chat when he said no. It's making me kinda worried, so. Don't be an asshole. Come on, just...ugh, Gallagher, just let me know you're okay. Call me the fuck back."
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mickey (18:16 PM): answer your fucking phone.
mickey (18:17 PM): please.
incoming call from mickey (18:19 PM)
incoming call from mickey (18:21 PM)
incoming voicemail from mickey (18:23 PM) - 0:11
—"Forget the fucking lube, you bitch. You won't be getting any, you fucking asshole. Just call me back or I'm filing for fucking divorce."
incoming voicemail from mickey (18:25 PM) - 0:17
—"Listen, I'm really worried. Just, please, whatever in the fuck you're doing right now, it doesn't matter, just text me back. Please, Ian. I love you."
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mickey (18:27 PM): please just call me back.
incoming call from mickey (18:28 PM)
mickey (18:28 PM): you said you were going to the store. ian, it's been an hour.
mickey (18:29 PM): i'm losing my fucking mind over here
incoming voice mail from mickey (18:30 PM) - 0:08
—"If you don't answer within ten minutes, I'm calling Lip."
incoming call from mickey (18:31 PM)
incoming call from mickey (18:33 PM)
incoming voicemail from mickey (18:35 PM) - 0:06
—"Five minutes, Ian. Five."
incoming call from mickey (18:36 PM)
mickey (18:37 PM): ian.
mickey (18:37 PM): please.
mickey (18:38 PM): this isn't funny.
mickey (18:38 PM): two minutes.
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He was there in one.
Trudging across the doorstep with sweat coating his face and a gauze-covered hand carrying a plastic bag, barely hanging by the tips of Ian's fingers.
Mickey could now breathe.
It didn't matter if something terrible had happened; if Ian had been hit by a fucking car or kidnapped by a cult, the man in question was here, alive, in front of him, nothing more but bandages covering small patches of skin.
Mickey could worry about what in the fuck happened later. Later when there weren't tears of relief pooling in his eyes, the metaphorical hands of Ian's absence finally lifting themselves off of his chest. They had been squeezing and squeezing until he couldn't catch his breath, lungs heavy as he tried so desperately to pull air in.
Ian was only supposed to be gone for ten minutes. Just ten minutes so they could have lube and after-sex snacks Ian would no doubt pick up on his way to the check-out aisle. But he had been gone for an hour.
An hour that Mickey spent biting his fingernails into bloody nothings. They hurt now—the skin was peeled off around it and his fingers were numbing with pain.
But Ian was here. He was home, and he was okay. His eyes were wild and his hair was ruffled but Ian was in one piece and that was all that fucking mattered.
"Hey," Ian let out simply as Mickey finally stood in front of him, rigid and relieved. He dropped the bag onto the floor beside his feet, and the bottle of lube that had been the cause of all this rolled out of it to the side.
Hey?
Hey?
After the immediate relief upon seeing his husband was alive and well, came the familiar feeling of anger.
"You fucking asshole," Mickey let out as tears of frustration, and worry, and relief finally fell across his heated cheeks, the salt burning his eyes. He raised his palms and pushed them against Ian's chest, hard enough to make him sway on his feet, but not hard enough that he wouldn't be able to ball his fists into Ian's shirt and pull him in closer, so he could bury his face into it.
It smelled of smoke. Smoke so heavy Mickey had to pull his head away from the shirt so he wouldn't suffocate on it. He looked up, inquisitive, the tears drying on his skin, and he gazed into Ian's face, guilt-stricken and slightly shocked.
"What happened?" Mickey's voice was a whisper as he picked up Ian's hands that lay against his sides, inspecting the gauze that covered his wrists and palms.
"A fire in the store. A gas pipe burst and somebody was stupid enough to light a cigarette," He chuckled humorlessly. "There was a lady who couldn't get out fast enough, so I went back in to help. Got burned accidentally while trying to get out."
Went back in to help. Why was Ian always so good that he didn't care what happened to him? Why would he risk his life for somebody he didn't even know?
Stupid Gallagher.
Mickey loved him endlessly.
"That why you were gone for so long?"
"I needed to make a statement. Get the burns checked out."
Mickey eyed the hands in his own. He felt slightly nauseous seeing Ian hurt.
Was he in pain?
Please, let him not be in pain.
"Are they bad?" Mickey swallowed heavily.
"They'll take time to heal."
"The woman?"
Ian's eyes were clearer at the mention. Relaxed; proud. "She's good. If I hadn't been there—if I hadn't come back," He trailed off, leaving the obvious words unspoken.
Mickey resisted the urge to pull himself into Ian's chest again. Instead, he lifted a hand to palm his husband's right cheek. "Are you okay?"
"I'm okay, I'm sorry you were worried."
"I thought," Mickey's eyes burned again. "I thought something happened to you."
"Just a small hazardous fire." Ian smiled at him, teasing. "It wasn't life-threatening or anything."
Mickey punched him so hard in the bicep, he knew it would hurt for a while. He felt the rope curl around his throat again.
He had imagined it all.
All the worst possible scenarios had drifted through his mind, the worst being that Ian was lying dead in a ditch somewhere, where Mickey couldn't help him for shit—this was no fucking joke.
Ian had no fucking clue how it was. To be so fucking worried for his husband he felt like he'd vomit at any fucking given moment.
"Ow!" Ian yelped at the impact, clearly not expecting it. Mickey was back to fucking pissed again, tasting the tears again. He could've died.
Ian could've died.
"What the fuck do you think I'd do if something happened to you, huh?" He asked, unable to stop the anxiety from settling itself into his belly, unwelcome. "Do you think I'd be able to live with myself if I lost you?"
Ian's eyes softened.
"You didn't lose me, Mick, I'm here. I'm right here."
And the smoke be damned, Mickey let himself get pulled against his husband's chest, the strong arms engulfing him tightly.
Ian Gallagher, running into the fire, ever the hero.
Ian Gallagher, the love of Mickey Milkovich's life.
How would he ever be able to live without him?
I hope I never find out.
"I'm okay, Mick. I'm okay, it's okay."
Mickey inhaled, the feeling akin to cigarette smoke inside his lungs, burning him.
Ian was here. He was okay.
Fuck.
It would all be okay.
#gallavich#ian gallagher#mickey milkovich#ian and mickey#shameless#shameless us#*ficlet#thank you anon for the ask
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Mission Debrief: Chapter Forty-two
...It's all coming together.
I'm just going to come outright and say it; I had no idea what to write for this review- not because there wasn't anything to discuss, but rather this chapter gave us so much that I didn't know what to focus on first. Chapter forty-two has single-handedly thrown open the doors to a hundred different theories, and believe me when I say that after a whole night of redbull and theorizing I couldn't come up with any clear answers (the folks over at the Strix discord group can attest to that).
So here's what we're gonna do; I'm not going to focus on the chapter itself.
It was cute. Cardshark Anya is hilariously awesome. Damian is a little shit (whom I adore), and the chapters where the kids can just be kids are- in my opinion- the best.
That's all I'm going to say on the matter. For the rest of this review, I want to go over all the facts we know so far about the story and setting. All of the things Endo has been slowly building up in the background and the pieces that we can stitch together from them, starting with this chapter. Two key things stuck out to me.
In the entirety of the story up till this point, this is the first time we have heard mention of a royal anything- and not only that, but this chef is a former royal chef. This of course implies that a) said chef was fired (not likely given that Eden wouldn't likely associate with someone who was disgraced like that) or retired, or b) that there is no royalty anymore. Ostania is a totalitarian state and the main power of the government- from what we've seen- lies with the ruling political party, i.e the National Unity Party, a.k.a Desmond's party. Such a political structure would have no room for royalty in a governing capacity, and therein begs the question; is there still a royal/noble class- albeit in a non-governing sense- or was it abolished sometime in the recent past?
Classical language is not proper speaking and diction like I had originally thought. Classical language is a specific term typically used to describe a dead language or dialect (think Latin, or Hebrew before it was revived). I find this particularly interesting because under no circumstance would a child as young as Anya know anything about a dead language unless- as Loid points out- she was exposed to it as a toddler. It would have had to have been when she was very young, as she herself doesn't realize she knows this information. This would mean she likely learned it from her birth family; Anya was old enough to remember the lab and scientists, meaning she became Subject 007 later on in life- otherwise she would have remembered knowing classical language.
These two concepts are incredibly important to keep in mind, both now and later on as the story progresses. We now know that a royal class plays a factor in the political game that Twilight and everyone else is playing, and we know that Anya knows information that she shouldn't know otherwise (even with her mind-reading powers). So where does that leave us?
Honestly, for the first time...I'm kind of stumped?
Let's look back at the story and see what else we can piece together- maybe there's something in there we can extrapolate for our purposes. Another clue to point us in the direction that Endo is seemingly funneling us towards.
From chapter forty-one
Franklin Perkins was a man who believed in making his country a better place to live. In his eyes and from what he saw, Ostania wasn't going in the right direction- but why? He blames his lack of money for his mother's death, and we see him hold resentment towards the government over socialistic policies. Wealth is something to be shared with others, not hoarded for ones self. That seems to be where Ostania's moral compass is pointing towards, but is that really the case?
From chapter 39
Mr. Green mentions that people have been fleeing to Westalis; from the way he says this it sounds like this is happening currently- not in the past- and people are going so far as to travel through a third country just to get to Westalis. Such a journey isn't without its perils, so anyone attempting to crossover from Ostania would likely be taking a huge risk in doing so. Not only that, but most of what we've seen in the story is Ostanians loathing Westalins...so what would compel people to do this in the first place?
From chapter three As Anya reads the minds of people gathered at a politcal rally near the start of the manga, we see their disgruntled thoughts behind her. There's multiple mentions of losing jobs and not having enough money- some people are even hungry. Most of these people blame Westalis for their troubles, though not the leader of the rally, ironically.
Also from chapter 3
We find out (and often forget) early on that there are multiple political parties in Ostania. Donovan leads the National Unity Party, whereas the political rally we see here is hosted by the Nationalist Party. The latter preaches peace with the west, but many of the people gathered reject this outright. This is important; the N.U.P is the most successful political party in Ostania, which means a majority of the country's citizens approve of their platform. If we're to assume the Nationalist Party's platform is to advocate for peace with Westalis, then we must also assume that the N.U.P stands for the opposite; direct aggression with the west.
From chapter 31 The Zacharis Dossier, though ultimately a bust, hinted at rumors that have permeated East and West since the start of the cold war. We know for a fact that human experiments did indeed take place in Ostania, so it also stands to reason that there is at least a kernel of truth to the claims of P.O.W (prisoner of war) massacres conducted by the west. It's a heinous crime, and also one that leads to another question; why would any country go through with it in the first place? In addition, piggy-backing off the former point;
From chapter 19 While Loid details Project Apple, he uses the word 'regime' to describe the former Ostanian government. The literal definition of a regime is a government, especially an authoritarian one (Oxfrod Dictionary). I won't highlight all the specifics of what is and isn't authoritarianism, but essentially the point I'm trying to make here is that the current Ostanian administration is still very much a regime. Donovan acts as the authoritarian ruler (or would-be ruler; we don't know if he's actively in charge or is looking to usurp power for himself) and continues on the legacy of the former government. We know for a fact that this is the case because Anya is only at most 6 years old, likely even younger. That would mean the experiments being run on her had to have been recent, which fits with the time frame that we established at the beginning of this rabbit hole- it also aligns with what we know about what Donovan has been doing on the back end of things. Those who have kept up with my reviews know what I'm talking about; gloom pharmaceuticals, the truth serum, OSO-R, etc. All of that, which then leads us to...
...right back where we started. So...what then? What can we conclude from all this? At least a few things;
Anya is tied to Desmond- either directly or indirectly.
Anya's past is also Ostania's past; she's familiar with a dead language that's no longer spoken, and there's definitely a reason why no one speaks it anymore.
Ostania is in a period of political and economic turmoil. This also comes on the heels of a (possible) former monarchy, and the struggle of a country willing to embrace authoritarianism so long as it means staying alive.
WISE and Westalis are not innocent in this game of chess with Ostania and the SSS, and more than likely have committed atrocities that may or may not be directly tied to Ostania and- possibly- Anya's past.
And...this is as far as I can go. I've hit a wall, as have other people I've talked to. We're still missing pieces to the puzzle. Endo will of course provide us with more clues and theory fodder as the weeks and months progress, but for now this is as far as I can go on my own. On the one hand I feel defeated because I can't come up with a meaningful explanation for everything and present it in a neat little bundle for you all to read, but on the other hand I'm thoroughly enjoying this. I'm more engaged with this manga and story than any other I've read before; I'm at the edge of my seat every week, and I'm sure most of you are, too. For now, I'll leave the review here. I find it fitting to leave it open ended, just as Endo did with Loid's self-imposed question. Hopefully, like him, we can find answers in the near future.
Also, BONUS...
...No fun panel with a snappy comment this time. Instead, I’m going to humbly ask for your help.
If you have any ideas about where you think the story is going, theories as to how everything fits together, or just really want to discuss the manga with other fans- please check out our forum and share with us. We’d love to hear what you all think; not only that, but a lot more heads makes theorizing both more productive and a whole lot more fun. Check it out if you have the time, or- if you don’t feel like clicking on any links- you can always leave a comment either on this post or send us an ask or message. Anytime, any reason, we’d love to talk SxF.
Again, thanks for reading, and we’ll see you all next chapter!
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CAMP UNUS ANNUS SAFETY RULES!
Rule #1 - Always remember the BS (Buddy System).
Rule #2 - When confronted by a bear (depending on the type of bear), confront it back and make lots of noises. But keep in mind, only do that for Black Bears.
Rule #3 - Bears can't get through the polyurethane of a tent. Plastic repels nature, since it's not of this world.
Rule #4 - The forest doesn't give a damn about you. Arrogance will get you nowhere.
Rule #5 - If you're stuck in a tree alone and two people happen to come across you, they are buddies. Don't just assume because another human life is nearby that they're obligated to help you.
Rule #6 - You help those in need though.
Rule #7 - Communication is key.
Rule #8 - Look, scan, observe, react, run.
How to survive a bear attack:
Rule #9 / Step Number 1 - Evaluate, determine which type of bear it is that it's attacking you.
Rule #10 - If the bear grunts twice it's a Grizzly, if it grunts three times then it's a Polar Bear.
Rule #11 - When dealing with Polar Bears, the biggest thing you want to do is make sure that you're covered head to doe, with as much armor as possible (sleeping bags work just fine).
Rule #12 / Step Number 2 - Try to maintain silence, maybe it'll go away on it's own.
Rule #13 / Step Number 3 - If step 2 fails, abandon all coverage plans, because clearly it's not going to work. However, you don't need to worry, because your tent is safe as long as the bear doesn't claim it as it's own by attracting other bears as competition.
Rule #14 - It is very important that when you go shopping for your tent (or you're finding your tent), you get one that's strong, triple layer made of the highest quality material.
Rule #15 - If the bear attacks with a gun, make sure you cover all of the important parts of your body. The smaller the target the harder it is for a bear to get you.
Rule #16 / Step Number 4 - This is an emergency step, you would never do this unless you were in a extremely dangerous situation... just run. With the help of your buddy (don't forget the buddy system!) you will roll the tent from the inside away from the bear.
Rule #17 - It's important to remember where your tent was when you pitched it.
Rule #18 - At this point the bear should be very intimidated by your skill and athleticism. It may think you and your buddy are now one large creature.
Rule #??? - RAGE, rage against the dying of the light...
Rule #19 - After all that escaping protocol, the bear should be gone by now. But in the case that it's not, just keep going rolling away in the tent.
Rule #20 - Bears are afraid of the sunlight, they can't handle it's intense heat.
Rule #21 / Step Number 5 - And finally, to escape the tent, you have to find it's weakest point and destroy it.
Rule #22 - Nature it's a dangerous place filled with evil, horrible monstrosities that are beautiful in their own way.
How to safely bury your friend:
Rule #23 - Carcasses can attract bears and other wildlife that are opportunistic scavenges.
Rule #24 - For this process you're going to need a shovel and a buddy.
Rule #25 - Don't forget the Buddy System (B.S) or you will DIE.
Rule #26 - The first thing you're going to do is search the area for a proper place for a burial. You want a place with some soft dirt, plenty of open space, and not too near to the campsite.
Rule #27 - Dig six feet down (at the least), so you can put their feet first, then head at the top.
Rule #28 - Your dead body will grow into the environment.
Author's Note: ... I don't trust counselors Mark and Ethan.
Rule #29 - B.D.S.B (Bearing Doesn't Stop Bears)
Rule #30 - You are also going to need a quality shovel that can break through. You want a sharpen blade and a good foot rest.
Rule #31 - Do not, under ANY circumstances, mention the Tactical Shovel to counselor Mark.
Rule #32 - When you're digging a grave you should bring water, remember to stay hydrated!
Rule #33 - You can only absorbe so much sweat you produce. After a while it gets unhealthy, because your body can't filter out the bad water that you produce.
Rule #34 - You piss out of your skin when you can't piss out of anywhere else. So if you drink that, but then you piss it out again, then it becomes Super Piss (and that's not good to consume). But if you drink that then it turns into Ultra Piss, which is very valuable but bad to ingest. It's also incredible dangerous because, while bees can smell fear, they can also see the vapors from the Ultra Piss. So, although rare and easy to sell to a high price, it would attract thousands of bees.
Rule #35 - B.E.C.W.U.B (Be Extra Careful With [the] Ultra B[P]iss)
Rule #36 - The forest is one of the most polluted places, you can't get a breath of fresh air.
Rule #37 - Your buddy is always a breath of fresh air. (Hey, please don't do what Mark and Ethan did on the video, COVID-19 is still a very, very real thing.)
Rule #38 - Once you are done digging the grave, lay the body on a fetal position. Remember to really support the spine.
Rule #39 - If you can, get a standing grave, it's great for the spine.
Rule #40 - You can feel more productive when you are standing.
Author's Note: ... I really, REALLY don't trust counselors Mark and Ethan. I knew that bacon tasted kinda odd-
Rule #41 - Now all that's left to do is lay your friend to rest.
Rule #42 - Now you can go ahead and say words of rememberness, a testament to their life.
Rule #43 - The truth is the nicest gift you can give anybody.
Rule #44 - If you listen closely when your friend is later rest, you can hear their soul whisper their final thoughts.
Rule #45 - Remember to hit counselor Mark with a stick for waking us up at 6 am using a pan.
Rule #46 - Team building is the most important part of being on a camp. Because you may have your buddy, but we are all a team.
Rule #47 - Trust is the very foundation of any team.
Rule #48 - At any moment your buddy can need you. You'll never know when a bear is going to strike, when a chipmunk is going to go rabid, when a raccoon is going to be sneaky. You've got to be prepared for anything. And above all, you need to be prepared to catch your buddy if they fall.
Rule #49 - When you're in the nature, you are going to be climbing on a lot of things. They may be slippery surfaces, you may be not sure of your footing. You've got to be prepared at any time to catch your buddy.
Rule #50 - The higher the fall the greater the trust. Anyone from your team could be falling at any moment, make sure to catch them.
Rule #51 - Trust counselors Mark and Ethan...?
Rule #52 - Your buddy can fall in any direction, you've got to be ready.
Rule #53 - With a trust fall you've got to trust your buddy, but you gotta trust yourself too.
Rule #54 - No better way to exhibit a team than to show your strength together (by making a human pyramid).
Rule #55 - Tug of War, classic team building from earliest man. Get a rope and you pull, but you've got to make two teams so you can compete and defeat their respective enemy (and they need to die).
Rule #56 - Don't forget, it's hot outside, so make sure you wear your sunscreen and drink plenty of water.
Rule #57 - Start in the middle (the knot needs to be in the middle), and whoever gets it to the point where the winner is obvious.... well, wins precisely.
Author's Note: UNUS! UNUS! UNUS! UN- oh, nevermind.
Rule #58 - The next most important part of team-building is sharing. Sharing with eachother is basically bonding. You learn from eachother, you have openness with eachother, and so on.
Rule #59 - The clue to win Three Legged Pace is coordination.
Rule #60 - It's always important when you go out outside to be prepared, and of course, bring water.
Rule #61 - Make sure to keep cool when you're in the wilderness, it is important for survival. And when you're done drinking water, you can play a little football with your friend using the leftover bottle.
Rule #62 - While playing Three Legged Egg Balance, remember to keep a steady "one-two" rhythm.
Rule #63 - FIRE IS NO JOKE. Don't play around with it.
Rule #64 - Knowing how to built a fire is one of the most important skills at Camp Unus Annus. With it you can cook your food, disinfect your water, clean your clothes, stay warm and call grandma.
Rule #65 - And if your grandparents are death, stare deeply into the fire until you see their face swim out of the flames.
Rule #66 - Fire is spelled F-I-R-T. Sorry, I don't make the rules.
Author's Note: Wait a second, are they not Camp Counselors?-
How to built a fire:
Rule #67 / Step Number 1 - Be aware of the current threat level for forest fires. Right now it's midnight. That's B, for Be aware.
Rule #68 / Step Number 2 - Kindling. Be aware, get kindling, find perfect stick (B.A.G.K.F.P.S)
Rule #69 (nice) - Remember, if you want to start a fire get your bag of piss.
Rule #70 / Last Step - Friction. The friction of the stick (zooming around in circles) against the friction of a wooden piece creates smoke signals. The smoke signals will travel to your candling and say "Hey, catch on fire." And in response it will sometimes go "Okay" in an umberwear farm. The umbers are what leads to the fire in an it case of a FIRE. Very important.
Rule #71 - Always have a fire extinguisher (preferably water) just in case something goes wrong.
Rule #72 - Put your prefect stick on your wood base and start rubbing said stick against it.
Rule #73 - Gently blow the base after rubbing the stick, fire needs oxygen to grow.
Rule #74 - If you manage to make a hole through the base, leave the stick there and start spinning it. With the power of insertion, if you get it going fast enough, flames should ignite.
Rule #75 - Fire needs to be seduced.
Rule #76 - To produce the flames you need to sin.
Rule #77 - Satan knows.
Rule #78 - For the love of God, keep counselor Mark away from sharp objects.
Author's Note: ... Does anyone else see the weird man dressed in a black suit outside or it's just me...?
Rule #79 - No matter what goals you may have in life, a little bit of hard work, a little bit of determination, a bit of luck gets you anywhere.
Author's note: Yay escape room! I love those!
Rule #80 - Beware of counselor Evan throwing things at the tents.
Rule #81 - On daytime the bats are squirrels, but on nighttime they are vampires. For this reason you shouldn't be around bats, or they will suck your blood.
Rule #82 - Counselor Mark really loves riddles.
Rule #83 - Stay six feet away from the trees to avoid being attacked by a squirrel.
Rule #84 - The most dangerous things about the deers are their antlers and hooves.
Rule #85 - To survive the snakes you need to: Look, Observe, Scan, React, Run (L.O.S.R.R)
Author's Note: Counselor Ethan is fucking smart, fight me. Also, shout out to counselor Amy because not once have I mentioned her and she's amazing.
Rule #86 - Run away from Mark. JUST RUN.
Rule #87 - Tragically, counselor Mark has turned into the beast called Neanderthalensis Marconius, also known as HeeHoo.
Rule #88 - HeeHoo feeds himself with wild Takis, roaming around the woods butt naked and in solitude...
Rule #89 - If you wish to communicate with the HeeHoo, there are sounds he will react to: Unus Annus.
(And here it is, after nights of work I present to you the -not so official- Unus Annus Rule Manual! This has been a blast, I am so glad I could finally finish it. Camp Unus Annus was absolutely amazing in every sense of the word, thanks Mark, Ethan, Amy and Evan for the experience!)
@tiny-crecher (I am SO sorry-)
@markiplier @crankgameplays
#Unus Annus#Camp Unus Annus#Camp Unus Annus Rules#Rule Manual#Safety rules#rules#camp#markiplier#crankgameplays#youtube#youtubers#list#HeeHoo#memes#original post
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DNP Rewatch: Phil is not on fire 7
Date video was published: 11/29/2015 (X)
DNP Main Channel Rewatch: 291
Time for PINOF again! Back to late November, as all the rest of them will be, so it had been a bit over a year since PINOF 6. Phil asked for questions on Twitter again. Dan posted the Instagram promo photo for the second year in a row.
0:01 - what is this Dan dancing while Phil just stares wide-eyed at the camera
0:04 - I’ve watched these and the bloopers videos so many times that sometimes I’m expecting something different to happen but then I realize that it’s in the bloopers instead.
0:07 - this pun. They try to keep a straight face but the minute they make eye contact they lose it.
0:13 - “your nose has quite a nice texture today” thanks for sharing, Phil. Also what a weird thought to even have, lol.
0:24 - what is Phil even doing. Also, tongue-thing already 😊
0:29 - fringe check! I’m scared of Phil’s “mother” voice
0:37 - Phil is so excited about the prospect of that
0:44 - oh so bad. Phil is so pleased with himself and Dan just looks dead inside
0:48 - I’m already disturbed by Phil’s intense stare.
0:51 - why did they not choose literally any other item. Why is there a jump-cut between “that is” and “your underwear”. Sure.
0:57 - so many bad puns in this one
1:04 - Dan is great at disturbing faces. I love Phil attempting to protect himself.
1:13 - wtf was Phil even doing. He’s laughing so much in this PINOF.
1:18 - the contrast of Phil’s high-pitched “ow” to his “no.” Also, Dan’s expression immediately after the “no” is something.
1:28 - so much disturbing staring from Phil and the tongue is not helping 😳
1:31 - Phil had just shown the stress mushroom in his last video, which is I’m sure why they got tweets about it. Also, I love that Dan doesn’t know what it’s referring to at first, but then when he sees it knows he hates it, lol.
1:35 - you could tell this was going to end poorly
1:41 - Dan is so disturbed 😂 That does look gross though.
1:50 - you can tell they did not bother to drag the good lights in there
1:54 - very creative. Dan is impressed. Though there weren’t many context clues in that sentence.
2:01 - wtf are these poses.
2:06 - love Phil’s self-confidence
2:13 - this is so specific and they are getting very into it
2:21 - “whoever laughs FIRST wins” Phil read that wrong, but I guess that means he wins!
2:24 - they both start barking immediately 😂
2:36 - Dan looks like he’s going to fall over at any second
2:41 - Phil looking at Dan right away for his reaction
2:45 - so many Dan eye crinkles in this one 🥺
2:50 - Phil knew it was coming but was so unprepared
2:56 - did Dan really somehow not notice he had the rubber chicken?!
3:01 - Phil just smiling to himself at this cut-in
3:04 - Phil always just repeats the word over and over and leaves Dan to add the more complicated bits for their little songs. I love it.
3:29 - Dan is SO LOUD. The “sound barrier” thing will become a long-standing argument, particularly on DAPG.
3:39 - why did Dan choose to go with that, lol
3:46 - this time Dan actually did fall over while trying to sit on his feet like that. Right onto Phil.
3:52 - I’m pretty sure Phil had shared that photo to Twitter
3:58 - Dan’s is much more embarrassing. Phil with a huge laugh at that.
4:04 - what is Dan doing
4:05 - REALLY what is Dan doing with that pose 😳
4:08 - no matter what I have the volume set at, I always have to turn it down here. This nacho/salsa fanfic is something else. Dan did not need to go so hard. christ.
4:25 - Phil cannot hold it together by the end. And then his little “stop it” and push.
4:31 - I would like to forget that, thanks
4:35 - Phil had an answer for that one quick
4:41 - the mirroring with the “ayyy” and pointing
4:50 - jesus christ. Phil’s mind has gone somewhere else entirely.
5:05 - where does Phil come up with this stuff, honestly 😂 And the ‘sexy’ music addition just adds to it.
5:10 - Dan did not enjoy that
5:13 - Dan just went straight for joke-face
5:17 - I do not think Phil picked up his grandma’s skills
5:28 - I think they are way too close together for how long their legs are, lol. Also not the last time they will do “friendship” yoga...
5:32 - why did they sepia-tone this part? guess it goes with the “calming” yoga music they added too.
5:46 - yoga during PINOF filming never ends well.
5:56 - Phil already getting into dinosaur-mode there in the background
6:04 - so many bad puns!
6:11 - Dan sounds so scared. And I love Phil insisting that Dan be the one who falls.
6:13 - Phil is smiling so big. And being so encouraging.
6:19 - Dan may be screaming but he is going for it completely. Of course he trusts Phil (even clumsy as he is) to catch him. 🥺
6:24 - Phil looks so happy during this entire part
6:32 - such a big Dan-smile too
6:56 - “the whiskers will return” why does that sound ominous
7:06 - of course that’s the part to slow-motion zoom-in replay
I love this PINOF, though it probably would fall somewhere in the upper-middle if I ranked them. The trust fall is my favorite part, and the “ladders” song.
In early December, Dan posted a bloopers video too.
#dan and phil#dnp#dnpRewatch#amazingphil#daniel howell#phil lester#danisnotonfire#amazingphil videos#Phil is not on fire 7#pinof#pinof7
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For the writer asks, prepare for bombardment!
3, 11, 13, 19, 22, 39
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Thank you so much for the submission @sweetsoundsofignorance! 😭 tumblr hates our love and has refused to let me comment on any of your replies so I will spam your asks later with dumb jokey reflections 🖤
Answers under the cut!
3. What is your writing ritual and why is it cursed?
Cursed or awesome? I spend WAAAAY too much time making myself playlists and picturing scenes for graphic novels, I shirk writing to draw elaborate scenes no one will ever see, I make mood boards, storyboards and folders for reference, I must write at least 70% of a long fic before I publish the first chapter, I have always been aggressively obsessed with schedules, which I am now learning to chill the fuck out. For my own fic, thinking of character names and appearances takes up my whole life, and writing lore can be a job unto itself. I forget time and space exists when I write and will go a whole day without food some times. I get up at any time in the night when inspiration strikes and jot down thoughts like an insane person.
11. Do you believe in the old advice to “kill your darlings?” Are you a ruthless darling assassin? What happens to the darlings you murder? Do you have a darling graveyard? Do you grieve?
Hahahah I kill so many darlings, some of them on whim. I keep a detailed graveyard of darlings, with completely new drafts for each major plot change (of which there are usually 5 = pentagram = devils symbol = cursed) and completely new drafts for major chapter breaks or consolidations. I keep an 'offcuts' chapter that is organised by run scene so I can find content again if I need. I think I have been most ruthless with Undue, and have more deleted text than included text, but it's great because I read it with a vindictive thrill knowing how many darlings I murdered to get to this point. I am at a point with Undue that I had three options for the ending and I wrote myself debating points for each side to see if the one I chose was the strongest. The other two were slaughtered. 🖤
13. What is a subject matter that is incredibly difficult for you write about? What is easy?
I think certain characters are easy than others and certain scenes are easier than others, but I think this is a hard question to answer in entirety because I tend to select stories and plots I find exciting, so I never really work on anything truly 'difficult'. Over time, I pick different things to focus on - Inevitability was a study in how two very incompatible people could be smashed together, Summer Shivers was plot by dialogue (which was weird for me), Viper was extremely detailed mystery, and Undue is plot by emotional spiralling (so much fun!). I find at the moment, in Undue, I have difficulty/joy in expressing exactly what I want to say and how I want to say it, but that's where the enjoyment and learning comes from!
19. Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going?
Answered here!
22. How organized are you with your writing? Describe to me your organization method, if it exists. What tools do you use? Notebooks? Binders? Apps? The Cloud?
I know you think I am really organised, but I don't think I have optimised my system yet so it all feels very haphazard...
I use boards and coloured postit notes to block out the narrative storyboard, including key clues to the character, key clues to the audience, key main character interactions/feelings so I can glare at it for a while to make sure the flow makes sense.
I block out an outline in high-level action/feeling statements, usually dictating where I want to end the chapter (peak mystery or devastating cliffie). I use notes app and actual note books to jot down ideas and flow of chapters, which I then parse into my outline.
For certain technical things (e.g. historic weaponry, detailed lore- or, in the case of Viper Radio - a goddamn 'murder' board) will create step by step folders with colour-coded notes that detail to me what I as the author should know, versus what my characters and readers know. Reading this now seems peak psycho, thank you 🖤
39. What keeps you writing when you feel like giving up?
Other, adjacent creative activities, like research, world-building and art. I love researching and I am a very curious person, so can spiral into aspects of a story trying to get to the bottom of some niche point, or spend hours writing lore and history (complete with timelines, historical figures, religion and present-day myth) or spend hours drawing my poor little meow meows.
Also reading, commenting and drawing fan art helps me too! Appreciating other's work (esp. yours), lore, research and trying to convey that in creepy art is always inspiring!
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NSFW 100 Benny Watts
1. What's the dirtiest thought you've ever had about a total stranger? I don't know, I don't think about strangers all that often I'm usually busy, I think the worst would just be when I kinda get the thought In my head of, Hu. I'd fuck that.
2. Do you prefer sex at night, in the morning, mid-afternoon, or NOW? At night, when the work is done fkr the day, dinners done, and we can go to bed and fuck for a while and go right to sleep after, that's a good evening.
3. What's your favourite way to be seduced? I think we both know it's when people play with my hair, I don't know why, the come here eyes don't do anything, hinting doesn't do anything, you start playing with my hair I'm literally hard in my pants within seconds.
4. What's the dirtiest fantasy you've had at work? That's a good question. Probably just fantasying about beating my aponent and then taking them back to the hotel room and raw fucking them bent over the table, or likewise them beating me and taking me back to the room and riding on my dick for several hours. Either is good.
5. How would you dominate your boss sexually if given the chance? I am my own boss I guess. But if we are saying the people I play against are co workers then yes. Yes I would.
6. What do you do when you get horny in public? It depends why I'm horny. If I'm horny for an actual reason then I'll have to go see who it was causing it, but if it's just like a random everyday boner then no I ignore it, people can't see it though my jeans, can they? If they can great the can look at my dick and be jealous.
7. Have you ever masturbated in a public bathroom? No. I don't masturbate a whole lot and never in public mostly because... Have you seen male public bathrooms? That shit is gross!
8. What's the weirdest thing you've thought about while touching yourself? Chess. Whenever I do actually masturbate it's usually at night, when I'm alone, my works done and I can't get to sleep so I yeah I mess around a little usually while going over chess games in my head, I don't need to imagine anything when I do it I just do it, the touching on its own gets me horny enough, so my head just does it own thing and I usually just think about chess plays.
9. What's the strangest prop you've used to get yourself off? Well pillows. I think that's it pillows and my hand. Or Beth harmon, I'm kidding Beth's great.
10. Do you remember the first time you felt aroused? No I don't. I don't think I ever like had a moment of Hu Im aroused, it just started happening and eventually I noticed to be fair I have been in a constant mood of I wanna fuck things since I was like fourteen. Not sure why? Maybe I'm just really horny and refuse to deal with it?
11. Who gave you your first orgasm? Now that depends because I did it alot in my sleep when I was younger, but the first actual time when I was fully awake and aware what I was doing it was probably Ali, a girl who used to work up at the bar down the street from my apartment, I was having a drink after a championship one or the few times I'd been in there even if the first few times I was underage, and we got talking about this and that and... We went to the bathrooms together, I miss ali, not for the sex but she was always so nice to me. Still I have a better girl now.
12. Do you remember what that first orgasm felt like? Fucking amazing! And now... Now I have a problem because now I wanna do it all the time.
13. Have you ever had sex with someone whose name you never knew? A few times, hotels after championships, airports and the like, I've picked up the odd girl or too I didn't know but it's fine. I think I picked up someone's wife at a competition once?
14. What's your favourite thing about a quickie? How simple it is. With a quickie both people involved know what this is, we both just wanna fuck and get our release so it's very much a simple understanding, sometimes you have sex with people and they assume that means you give a shit? It doesn't we fucked doesn't mean I like you, it means I was horny, you where horny and now it's over.
15. What the most sexually daring thing you've ever done? Airplane sex! That was intense because those bathrooms are not sound proof in the slightest, you have to be dead silent or everyone can hear you fucking your girlfriend.
16. Have you ever fantasized about fucking one of your teachers? Maybe... when I was a lot younger
17. Do you ever mentally strip strangers just for kicks? Sometimes depends on the stranger, but more often people I know, like people I've had sex with before or you know my girlfriend, but to be fair I'm never not mentally undressing y/n?
18. And then imagine, in dirty detail, what it would be like to fuck them? Sometimes, again much more likely people I know and alot less now I have y/n, before her yeah pretty much everyone but now I'll strip some people in my head every so often but only imagine y/n.
19. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex? Yeah, many times, towens is a great kisser, also gives amazing blow jobs.
20. What inspires you to make the first move? Ask them! Literally I do not get all the hinting and the cute eyes and shit just.mm you want to fuck me just ask me to have sex! It's just that simple. Why does it need to be complicated.
21. In your opinion, what does it mean to be good in bed? Making it good for you but also for your partner people forget about that sometimes you not just in it for you they want some too don't be a ick and just get yourself off, you have to make it good for them too, that and consent is important, not just to start the sex but also during, you don't know if she likes spanking, you don't know of she wants like her hair pulled or her boobs felt ext. Ask don't just do it.
22. Have you ever cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend because you just couldn't help yourself? .... Yes. But it was always in relationships that weren't all that serious, or where fairly open anyway, I cheated on beth do I care? No! Because she fucked harry so I kinda think that's fair? It's only in that kinda situation but if I hadn't I would have my sweet y/n, and I'll never cheat on her.
23. Have you ever pushed the boundaries of fidelity to the brink and then retreated just for the rush? No.. that just seems weird.
24. Do you have a go-to masturbation fantasy?
I do not have a go to fantasy, except maybe my little kitten snuggling up with me
25. What kind of porn turns you on?
Not a lot really, because porn isn't... that great at the moment I do not have time do go to like the weird little theatre's that play them, the best bet really is things like hustler and various magazines you can pick up in newsagents... which I admit I am partial too having a flip though sometimes.
26. Have you ever had sex with your eyes closed?
No always open
27. Have you ever blindfolded or handcuffed your partner?
Many times yes, But I have found I much rather be handcuffed, I like when y/n handcuffs me to our bed, I like blindfolding her though, maybe handcuffing her too.
28. Does naughty talk get you aroused?
Sometimes, depends what's said
29. Are you sure about that, my dirty little forest nymph of a sex god?
Yeah? How about we go handcuff you to our bed sugar and see how much whispering in your ear you can take before your dripping for me?
30. What's the dirtiest thing someone's ever said to you during sex?
"Benny, I want you to fuck me Hard! and when we're done don't pull out I want us to fall asleep with you inside me so tomorrow we can fuck again without you ever leaving me, so You can be inside me all night long"
Yeah... that was hot. to be fair I did eat her out and edge her for like half an hour so, I don't blame my kitten for going a little cock crazy.
31. Have you ever watched another couple get it on without them knowing?
Once. Okay if you have sex by a pool you have to accept there might be people in here hotel rooms who overlook the pool who can see you!
32. Have you ever watched another couple have sex with their permission?
Does three ways count? because for some of that I was watching Beth and Clio have sex so... yes?
33. How would you respond if a couple approached you to be their "third"?
Depends who it was? Towens and his boyfriend? yes! Beth and Clio? Yes! Beth and Jolene? Yes! Harry and Beth... Eh I'd think about it? But I guess nowadays We'd be the dirty couple asking for a third? won't we kitten?
34. What's the most flattering thing someone's said about your naked body?
"so Perfect I wish I could have you inside me forever"
35. When's the last time you had a vivid sex dream?
I do not
36. What do you think an orgy would be like?
Ummm very very fun. Would you like that kitten? a nice hotel room? all our chess friends? and getting everyone to have a nice orgy? Well I'd be happy to it would be fun, but... you know I don't share kitten.
37. Have you ever propositioned a total stranger?
Yes many times
38. What does your ideal one-night stand look like?
Uhh maybe a drink, some good sex and then get up in the morning maybe a little spooning, maybe round two if they want to, cup of coffee then fuck off out my house I got shit to do.
39. How long does it take you to get yourself off, on average?
Myself? Uhh About ten minuets? with y/n well usual a good half hour but sometimes my little kitten's mean to me
40. What's the weirdest thing that turns you on?
Hair. Playing with my hair. I don't get why I get hard for it but I do? and... when y/n sticks her tounge out again no clue why just whenever I see her do it it means she being a little brat. Or if she does it unintentionally I can't help looking at it thinking how dirty that tounge of her's has been...
41. Have you ever had a naughty dream about a close friend or family member?
No!
42. Have you ever woken up humping your pillow?
Not woke up humping it. I have been spooning it a lot, and been humping it the previous night but no never woke up humping it
43. When's the last time you orgasmed in your sleep?
Ohh god years ago, I don't do that anymore, well I did actually not so long ago but that wasn't me that was my kitten who was too impatient for me to wake up
44. What's the most embarrassing thing that's happened to you while hooking up?
Moaning the wrong name... yeah I did not live that down. I'm sorry towens! you look a lot like harry from the back, you two have similar hair... and similar asses.
45. Do you like touching yourself in front of the people you sleep with?
Many many times! y/n likes to watch me, but she always strips for me or touches herself too so I've got something nice to watch
46. What's the dirtiest text you've ever sent or received?
Y/n sent me some polaroid's of herself in a park, in a sundress and... nothing else, and I mean nothing, Yellow sundress, striped thigh high socks and nothing... no bra, no panties, fuck I'm getting hard just thinking about those pictures.
I think it was then I really did realize, yeah I love this girl, and I'm going to marry her!
47. Do you prefer professional or amateur porn?
Both are good, they have there draw backs but more likely amateur because I like my kitten.
48. What's your favourite blowjob technique?
Tounge! Need I repeat my weird like of tounges but... when she's licking and swirling it around fuck! I get loud! and god it makes me cum quick.
49. If you had to pick, would you be a dominatrix or a submissive?
Noooo! don't make a me choose!
But I love when my kitten handcuffs me and rides me till she's satisfied!
and I also love bending her over the table and ordering her to cum!
I can't choose! there both soo good...
I guess if I had to. Dominate but only because It's slightly more options of stuff to do and because I like calling her kitten.
50. Is there anything you won't do in bed?
anything with like piss and shit can fuck right off I don't know how anyone is into that! but anything else in the world my kitten want's she can have it just not that.
51. What's your dirtiest sexual fantasy?
Its kinda something I really really want but also really don't want, I like the idea of it but it would be horrible. I kinda have a fantasy about Y/n, inviting some... friends over, and letting them all... have there fun with me? literally like tie me to the bed, y/n, beth, clio, jolene, really anyone else towen's too if he's down, just everyone can just use me as a literally cock slave and I would be so fucking happy I would let everyone fuck me!
But that would not go well, I can't stay hard that long, and the girls would fight, and... it wouldn't be good.
so other then that... Ummmm I wanna take y/n to central park! in that sundress.. see how long we can last before I bend her over and fuck my little kitten.
52. How many people have you slept with?
I have stopped counting.
53. Where's the weirdest place you've had sex?
A Plane bathroom? bar bathroom? that time we did it in a pool? I don't know I've had sex lots of weird places?
54. What's your favourite part of Y/n's body?
Her tounge she knows how much I like it . Her pussy, Ummm her pussy's so sweet I could eat my little kittens pussy for hours, and it feels so good around me I mean I fucked her and never ever want another girl ever again, she turned me! someone who fucked around for fun into a one girl guy would would never dream of cheating on my sweet little wifey.
55. Have you ever had anal sex?
Yes, many times, It's the one thing about being in a committed relationship that I miss being with a girl, I miss anal. But I'm sure we could get a toy so she can still do it.
56. If you could choose what Y/n was wearing right now, what would you choose?
Sundress! I love her little sundress! and nothing else.
57. Where on your body is your favourite place to be touched?
hair... Or my hips, I love when she touches my hips
58. If you could have sex anywhere in the world, where would it be?
Anywhere I don't care.
59. When did you first had sex?
I was sixteen, and it was a bar bathroom. But it was amazing!
60. What's the best sex you've ever had?
The first time I had sex with y/n, the first time that we actually had sex we were in a little hotel in Cali, and it was amazing! she was so amazing, I'd never felt so good in my life!
61. What's your favourite position?
I love from the side, its so good when it's an early morning or, if we're both a little lazy, we start off spooning then have a few kisses and then after a couple of minuets she's screaming for me.
62. Have you ever been caught having sex?
Weirdly never,
63. Do you watch porn?
No! it's hard to find the places, and there always full of perverts.
64. What kind of porn do you watch?
I look at magazines. Or my little kitten. Oohhh we could make a porno?
65. How often do you masturbate?
Not very often, once a month maybe
66. Name a sex position you'd like to try?
I want to try a weird like upside down thing
67. Do you prefer to give or receive?
Give! I love hearing her scream! I love when she does it took but I like taking care of her better.
68. Have you ever been skinny dipping?
Many times, I wish we could more often but it's going to one of the warmer places becuase... new York is too fucking cold for that shit! but last time we where in paris in the summer we went skinny dipping and it's so fun, unfortunately it doesn't last long because one of us breaks and just has sex.
69. What's the most sex you've had in a day?
Oohh I think four times, i do not have the like replenishment ability to do anymore then that.
70. Are you loud or quiet during sex?
Loud! I know I'm loud but I like her to know how good she's making me feel, besides' she's louder.
71. Have you ever tried using food during foreplay?
No, that seems... sticky.
72. What's the first thing that sexually attracts you to someone?
Voice, and looks I guess.
73. Would you say you have any fetishes?
I like calling y/n kitten, and I love torturing her!
74. When it comes to BDSM, how far have you gone/would go?
I think I've probably gone... very very far.
75. What's your favourite toy?
well my little kitten is my toy. But I do enjoy this little toy we got recently that turns me into a little vibrator for her, i like it because well it makes me hard as fuck and she likes it because I slightly vibrate inside her, and it rubs on her clit for me which Is good because sometimes my hands are... preoccupied.
76. Do you ever read erotic fiction?
I've read stories people send into magazines about fucking stewardesses and hotel maids? does that count?
77. Have you joined the mile high club?
Yes I have, I think by now I'm probably like a platinum member?
78. Do you think you could take off Y/n underwear with no hands?
Yes I can. I have tried. Many times. but I can't anymore... my kitten doesn't bother with panties anymore
79. Would you say you're kinky?
Do. do I need to answer this question or does everything else here answer that enough?
80. Do you enjoy shower sex?
Not really no. The water never stays hot, the shower spray means one of you is always cold, it's weirdly dry, it's hard to get the angle, it's just way more trouble then it's worth, I'll wait and just cuddle her in the shower then bend her over the bathtub before she puts her towel on. but! Bath sex? I like.
81. Where's the weirdest place you've ever masturbated?
I don't really do it anywhere then my bed, or the shower.
82. Do you like to be spanked?
Yes I do, It's amazing! I like it a lot. and I also like doing it.
83. Have you ever fantasised about someone else during sex?
Not really,
84. If y/n caught you masturbating, would you stop or would you finish?
I would let her watch of course and likely ask her to give me something to watch
85. Have you ever had an inappropriate crush?
Not really I guess.
86. Have you ever cried or fallen asleep during sex?
Falling asleep afterwards is just a habit, but I have cried several times usually when it feels so amazing your eyes water.
87. Do you prefer eye contact or not during sex?
Eye contact is so good!
88. Do you like to kiss during sex?
sometimes, it depends what position as much as I love kissing during sex but some positions it just didn't really work
89. Do you get tired after sex?
Very I want a nap afterwards.
90. How many positions do you think you've tried?
I think we have tried most of them
91. What's the longest you've ever gone without sex?
About six months I guess, I don't know I don't really pay attention
92. How high is your sex drive?
Fairly high
93. What's a surefire way to turn you on?
Ask me for sex? or wear the sundress!
94. Sex with lights on or lights off?
Lights on! I can't be trying to work in the fucking dark.
95. Do you like dirty talk?
Very very much so
96. Do you prefer one night stands or longer-term sexual partners?
I used to really like one night stands, I liked just the hello, fuck goodbye element to it. but Now I have y/n I'm happy with long term and I don't ever want anyone else.
97. Do you prefer to be on top or bottom?
I like both. Don't make me choose!
98.Rough or romantic?
I guess both we are rough but it's in a romantic way
99. Quickie or marathon session?
I love quickies, allows us to get on with other things later in the day, but one night a week we have a nice long marathon session with the toys, and the handcuffs.
100. What's the best thing about our sex life?
I love how kinky and how rough we can get, but it's because we used to miss each other so badly back when we were long distance, it became out release and to show each other just how bad we had missed one another, but it feels so good and its so amazing to make you feel so good and that you make me feel so good, I'll never need anyone else for the rest of my life now I've got you, I mean you literally made me cry it felt so good the first time we had sex, all your sexy little pictures and letter when we were apart, even if we do go a little crazy on each other sometimes, I really do love you kitten more then anything, and I can't wait for us to get married, and for our honeymoon.
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prompts
hii, you wanna send me an ask, but you don't have a clue on what to say ? here's a bunch of prompts ! choose 2 or 3 or 4 prompts + the character you wanna read, and i'll try my best to write something cool :p
(most of them are not mines, i found them on internet)
fluff
1. « i think i love you. »
2. « can i hold your hands for a second ? »
3. « you're so comfy, you're my new pillow now. »
4. « how about a kiss ? »
5. « it is not morning yet. »
6. « you ramble and it's adorable. »
7. « they're such an idiot. my idiot but still. »
8. « we could run away. »
9. « hum, you're hot. »
10. « i gonna marry you one day. »
11. « just a friend ? really ? »
12. « i want your lips on mines. »
13. « are you jealous ? »
14. « it's always been you. »
15. « i got butterflies in my belly everytime i see you.»
16. « is it okay if i kiss you ? »
17. « you make me happy. »
18. « stay with me. »
19. « have you ever thought how much our lifes would be without each other ? »
20. « your cuteness is making everyone stare. stop it. »
21. « i miss you so much. »
22. « my heart belongs to you. »
23. « you look better in my clothes than i do. »
24. « can i play with your hair ? »
25. « quick, kiss me ! »
26. « you cancelled plans for... me ?»
angst
27. « it was supposed to be fun, and you ruined it. »
28. « is it my fault ? »
29. « are you trying to make me hate you ? »
30. « i don't know how to love you. »
31. « i'm not some toy you can play with ! »
32. « you stole my heart, and i'm not leaving until i get it back. »
33. « i need you. i love you, more than anything. »
34. « if you walk away, don't even think about coming back»
35. « do you think about them when you look at me ?»
36. « nevermind, you're like the others. »
39. « forget about me. »
40. « am i not important to you anymore ? »
41. « i didn't realise i was such an inconvenience. »
42. « stop lying, you're not sorry. »
43. « how many times i'm supposed to forgive you ? »
44. « don't raise your fucking voice at me. »
45. « you're a terrible liar. »
46. « i'm just disappointed. »
47. « i think... i-i never loved you, im sorry. »
48. « get out. »
50. « why did you lie ? »
51. « do you even care about me ? »
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You Can Run... (S2, E11)
My time-stamped thoughts for this episode are below. As always I reference Malcolm’s mental health. A lot. So if that’s going to be a trigger for you, don’t keep reading.
SPOILERS AHEAD:
0:03 - Baby!Malcolm and baby!Ainsley playing together is so cute. <3
0:05 - Malcolm is playing with Batman (the hero) and Ainsley is playing with the Joker (the villain). But Ainsley wants to play with Batman. Coincidence? Foreshadowing? I’m torn.
0:20 - ....I can’t tell if this is regular “kid fake crying to get sibling in trouble”, “bad fake crying because kid actors are still just kids who are learning”, or “Ainsley is a psychopath and she’s never been able to cry properly fake crying”.
0:50 - “I’d much rather stay at home with my favourite guy.” UgH. Excuse me while I cry myself to sleep. No wonder Malcolm has so many Daddy issues. This broke my heart. Malcolm clearly idolized Martin. Martin was his hero. :(
1:35 - “Where are you? Talk to me.” This hurts because it makes sense. Malcolm’s one constant in life was his father’s voice. For better or for worse. It reminds me of anxiety disorders/depression. Part of you doesn’t want to heal. You don’t know what to do without the pain and fear. You don’t know who you’d be. The unknown is scarier than the pain and misery. That’s Malcolm right now. He knows Martin is bad for his mental health but he’s afraid to lose Martin because without Martin’s voice Malcolm has no idea who he is.
1:55 - I can’t decide if I love or hate Ruiz. She’s really combative? Like Malcolm didn’t say “You’re here to take over” aggressively. At all. I respect the hell out of her for being a total badass and good at her job....but she’s also kind of verbally aggressive? And pretending she doesn’t know Martin is Malcolm’s father? Like - I know she was probably trying to break the ice but it was really unprofessional and kind of a dick move? IDK something about Ruiz just kind of rubs me the wrong way (no this isn’t sexism. I’m a woman working in a male-dominated field. I respect the hell out of career-driven women. This is purely just something about her personality that bothers me.)
2:41 - Oh yeah. Gil did not like the joke about Ruiz not knowing The Surgeon = Malcolm’s father. Look at Gil. He’s annoyed but he’s also worried af about what that little comment did to his already mentally fragile profiler.
3:22 - Just how many times has Malcolm played that voicemail since the end of 2x10? It looks like Gil’s already heard it. Dani’s probably heard it. How many times did Malcolm listen to it - desperately searching for clues? This is not good for Malcolm’s mental health. He needs a hug - not to listen to his manipulative serial killer father on repeat (although, that’s kind of the show isn’t it?). Also, where’s the “we’re the same” part of the message? Did Malcolm delete the end of the message? Maybe so he doesn’t become a suspect?
3:32 - Look at how utterly furious and concerned Gil is. Guys. Guys. Papa!Gil is BACK. <3 <3 <3 <3 Oh how I’ve missed him. Seriously though, Gil looks absolutely livid (at Martin) because he can see how upset Malcolm is and he knows it’s all Martin’s fault. Plus the concerned looks he keeps shooting at Malcolm? <3 My heart <3
3:39 - “Of course not.” LIAR. I truly believe this episode is an excellent example of a character “knowing something as fact in their heads but feels the opposite way in their hearts”. Malcolm is still a little boy desperate for his father’s love. Problem is, Malcolm is also a highly educated adult man who knows that his father is incapable of truly caring about him.
3:55 - Gil watching Malcolm’s hand shake. <3 I have no words. Gil looks so concerned. We’re getting so close to a full Malcolm breakdown and I’m here for it. If we get a full on intervention and/or hospital scene I will be the happiest person alive.
4:15 - A couple of things 1) look at how Capshaw is glancing around the room when Gil, Malcolm, and Jessica are talking about how Daryl tried to kill Jessica. Capshaw is showing equal amounts of disdain, envy, and guilt. 2) Gil making a joke just to make Jessica and Malcolm smile is the cutest thing I’ve ever seen. Gil is single handedly, emotionally, holding these two together and it’s the content I’ve been desperate for.
4:42 - <3 <3 My heart is melting. <3 Gil’s little smile when he looks at the picture of baby!Malcolm and baby!Ainsley. Look me in the eyes and tell me Gil isn’t their dad. I’ll fight you.
4:50 - “All the kooks will come out. I know the drill.” Poor Jessica. She’s really been through a lot of crap. :(
4:55 - Did Gil shoot Capshaw that suspicious look because he was about to show blatant physical affection to Jessica or because he suspects Capshaw knows something about Martin? Maybe both?
5:00 - Sooooo Gil and Jessica just flirt openly in front of Malcolm now? ....Look at Malcolm’s reaction to their little moment. That boy has heart eyes. <3 Forget Brightwell - Gillica is the ship I will die on.
5:50 - I promise you. Jessica’s eye roll+huff when Malcolm says he’s going to stay with Capshaw for a minutes is defensive. She’s knows that Malcolm is trying to get information that will help recapture Martin. But right now? She just wants a hug from her son. She wants to keep him in her sight; where she knows he’s safe.
6:12 - soooooo Capshaw is definitely a psychopath and she’s 100% acting in this scene. Look at her. She’s angry but she’s trying to act calm. She’s trying to justify everything she did but it never quite connects. She’s just a little bit....something. Vacant? Insincere? Malcolm seems to believe her though...because she told him exactly what she knew he would sympathize and empathize with...the next two episodes are going to be incredible.
7:00 - Damn. Malcolm looks so destroyed in this scene. He looks scared, sad, angry. This boy is riding an emotional elevator that only goes down. I’m just waiting for it to hit the ground.
7:14 - This is fake. Capshaw’s “crying” here? How completely put together she seems? Fake. She’s trying to act distraught and guilt-ridden but she just seems too put together and angry to make it believable.
7:25 - How much do you want to bet that Capshaw is either 1) after Martin because one of her family members was killed by the Surgeon, 2) some sort of already established serial killer/psychopath who thinks killing the Surgeon will make her a serial killer legend?
7:30 - Malcolm being kind is everything. <3 Ugh. This little cinnamon roll is such a sweetheart. <3
8:12 - I’m on Malcolm’s side. Ainsley can’t think about work? Bullshit. Ainsley is somehow in on this whole thing. Istg.
8:21 - “Dad is out there and I don’t know. I’m just not okay.” ....this whole exchange between Ainsley and Malcolm felt forced? Like Ainsley is really off here. It seems out of character that Ainsley would admit that she’s not okay so calmly. She’s too passionate (generally speaking) to just be this calm right now.
8:24 - Ainsley is way too calm for the daughter of an escaped serial killer. Malcolm looks utterly terrified. Ainsley just looks....indifferent. Sure, maybe she’s processing things different or she’s in some state of shock but I find it unlikely.
8:41 - Awwww. Looks like Gil let a Whitly near his car. <3
8:51 - Awwwww...Malcolm literally jumping into the ambulance is adorable. <3
9:00 - “So it’s official. The Surgeon’s killing again.” THE LOOK. The look that JT, Dani, and Gil exchange everything to me. It’s concern. For Malcolm. For what they know this is doing to him. It’s fear. For what may happen next.
9:19 - “Dude.” Some people think JT is being a dick to Malcolm here. I disagree. Sure, it’s not what Malcolm wanted (or needed) to hear. BUT the way I interpreted that ‘dude’: JT is concerned about Malcolm. JT knows that Malcolm is having a hard time right now and JT is worried that Malcolm is reverting back to ‘scared little boy who doesn’t want to believe his dad is a killer’ instead of his usual ‘profiler-mode’. I don’t think JT is upset with Malcolm. I think this is JT acting like Malcolm’s big brother.
9:26 - “I’m not saying I believe it. But I’m sure he believes it.” Gil isn’t buying that. Look at his face. Gil knows Malcolm is struggling to separate his complex feelings about Martin ‘Dad’ Whitly and Matrin ‘the Surgeon’ Whitly.
9:33 - Again. The phrasing here may have been a little blunt but I think this is JT trying to remind Malcolm that his dad is a monster who doesn’t love him. It’s not a pleasant thing but it is a reminder that Malcolm needed to continue working the case effectively.
9:38 - JT and Dani exchanging looks of concern when Malcolm raises his voice (and again when Gil sends them to canvas the area for missing cars) <3 WHERE IS MY INTERVENTION?!!? <3
10:01 - “You think I’ve lost it.” :( This breaks my heart. It’s not enough that Malcolm has been on a downward mental health spiral this whole season. Now, Martin escapes and Malcolm is so fragile that he can’t tell the difference between concern and disapproval. He genuinely can’t see that Gil, Dani, and JT are concerned about him. He’s interpreting their concern as distrust and disapproval. :(
10:30 - .....where’s Gil’s car? Did he leave it with Dani and JT?
10:45 - “He lived here with my mother before I was born.” Excuse me? What? My brain is short circuiting. I want more details. I find this information utterly fascinating. Were Jessica’s parents alive? Is it a Milton family home or did Jessica and/or Martin buy it themselves?
10:51 - “If my father was a serial killer I may have fortified my house a little better.” .....no. This felt wrong. I don’t like that Gil said this. Why would Malcolm fortify the house more? Martin was literally chained to a wall. PLUS Gil’s been to Malcolm’s place before. If Gil (the cop) was concerned about safety he would’ve said something to Malcolm about it before now.
11:44 - I want to punch that US Marshall in the face. Don’t you dare suggest that Malcolm should’ve seen this coming or that he has anything to do with Martin’s escape. I also love this interaction. It really shows the story of Malcolm’s life: his colleagues don’t trust him because of who his father is. Malcolm’s skill is never enough for the cops/FBI/law enforcement to trust him because Martin is a serial killer. Shouldn’t it count for something that Malcolm is the one who turned Martin over to the cops AS A 10 YEAR OLD? ALSO - WTF did Malcolm have ammo for his antique weapons??!?!?
11:54 - Look at Dani and JT. They look ashamed and concerned. Almost as if they just realized that they’re the only ones in the precinct (other than Gil) who have ever given Malcolm a chance.
12:02 - The hand tremor <3 Damn. Someone hug him. He is so close to a full mental breakdown. I can’t wait.
12:17 - “I’m not fine.” I. Am. So. Proud. Our broken boy just told the truth about his mental state. Look at Dani. She’s shocked and she’s more concerned than ever. Malcolm admitting he’s not fine means he’s really really not fine. This is bad. Malcolm is going to lose it soon.
12:35 - “You were in control” I understand why that would be comforting for Malcolm. HOWEVER, when it’s said like that Malcolm probably draws the parallel between himself and Martin (the manipulative control freak). :(
12:55 - Malcolm expressing his self doubt is shattering. He’s being so vulnerable with Dani right now and I don’t even care about the Brightwell ship at the moment - I’m just proud of him for opening up to someone.
13:03 - “Usually his voice is in my head all the time” Yes. Because even though Martin was chained to a wall, he was still in control. The constant phone calls. The verbal chess games. The traumatic memories. Malcolm has never been able to escape Martin. Ever. Now 2/3 of his regular Martin exposures have disappeared and Malcolm doesn’t know how do go about daily life without the constant harassment.
13:40 - There’s no way Jessica was actually in enough pain to ask for a painkillers. Jess overheard Malcolm and Capshaw talking and she came to ask Capshaw about it.
14:14 - “I feel like I’m in Hell’s waiting room.” “Been there for 23 years.” Ouch. Capshaw is lying through her teeth but Jessica? Jessica is being sincere. My heart breaks for her. Also - the fact that every time we’ve seen Jessica bond with another woman (Eve, Capshaw, Birdie) that woman is a manipulative woman trying to use Jessica’s connection to Martin for her own personal gain is very upsetting. I petition for Jessica to bond with Tally and/or Dani.
14:40 - Look at Capshaw’s face when Jessica mentions Martin’s open casket. She’s hopeful. Like she just found a potential partner in crime. Or at least she just found another reason to justify what she’s about to do to Martin.
15:15 - I can’t anymore. It’s been driving me CRAZY that Dani’s curls are extremely different sizes in almost every other scene this episode. Sometimes the curls are reasonably tight and a little frizzy, Then in scenes like this one her curls are big, loose, and clean. Her hair is gorgeous both ways but the inconsistency is really bothering me.
15:52 - Americans - help me out. Is this a thing? Do your bowling alleys serve alcohol? Specifically wine? My Canadian ass is curious (our bowling alleys serve pop and bottled water. And maybe fruit juice).
15:52 - Look at how cautious Malcolm is as he approaches the boy. He’s afraid. Afraid that he’ll see evidence that the Surgeon is killing again.
16:45 - Who did Pete steal those clothes from? It wasn’t the EMTs.....did he raid Malcolm’s closet?!?!?!
17:15 - Pete was 10 when he found a quasi-sanctuary from his abusive father. So was Malcolm (in the sense that Martin was arrested and physically removed from the home).
17:40 - I love this about Malcolm. Pete helped Martin escape. Pete is a killer. But Malcolm is standing there talking to Pete like they’re friends. Malcolm genuinely empathizes with Pete’s childhood. It’s messed up but it’s also beautiful. Malcolm truly has a good heart.
18:00 - And now Malcolm is scared. He’s just remembered that Pete is a serial killer and he’s in danger.
18:15 - Look, Pete’s a bad guy. But his childhood? Damn. That sucks. :(
18:33 - “Tell me where Martin’s headed.” Not “The Surgeon”, not “Dr. Whitly”, not “my father”. “Martin”. Because Malcolm doesn’t know “Martin”. He’s met his father/dad - the man who loved him and cared for him during the first 10 years of his life. He’s met “The Surgeon” - the man who chloroformed him, manipulated him, and emotionally abused him his entire life. He’s met “Dr. Whitly” - the man who tried to teach him about the human body as a child and the man who gives him valuable medical insight on cases. But Malcolm’s never met this side of Martin Whitly and he doesn’t know what to expect. So he’s calling him “Martin”.
18:56 - Malcolm, you moron. Pete can see that you’re already suffering.
19:07 - I’ll be honest. I was kind of shocked that they killed off Pet like this. I knew Christian Brole was a guest star so obvious something would happen to write his character off the show but....this was intense.
19:16 - “Bright I saw it too.” Thank you, Dani. Calm this boy down. He’s about 10 seconds away from being arrested for being a moron at a crime scene.
19:30 - “It is my job to find my father.” This runs deep. Malcolm isn’t just talking about how it’s his job to profile where Martin might be. This is Malcolm admitting that he’s been subconsciously looking for his father for 23 years. He’s just a little boy who keeps visiting a serial killer in prison because he hopes that one day he’ll find the father that loved him (or at least acted like it). :( Someone hug this boy. <3
19:44 - I found how Malcolm pushes Dani off of him interesting. He’s clearly furious. He clearly is not in the mood to be touched but as soon as Dani starts manhandling him he sort of calms down? He’s not calm but he gains better control of himself. He listens to Dani when she guides him away from Ruiz, (he’s not perfect by any means) but he walks away and you can see his body language relax slightly.
20:11 - I kind of feel bad for JT. Gil and Jessica have blatantly flirted in front of him twice now (2x5 and now). That’s got to be awkward for him. hahaha
20:14 - “Where is Ainsley?” Good question Gil. Malcolm (who is on the verge of a panic attack) is working himself ragged to find Martin. Jessica is terrified and going through old photos to see if she can find anything that might give a clue to Martin’s whereabouts. But Ainsley? Not only is she calm - she’s not reporting on the prison break. She’s not actively trying to find Martin and she’s not terrified. Why? I honestly think (hope) she’s working with Capshaw.
20:20 - That look Gil shoots JT. Yep. Gil definitely suspects that Ainsley’s involved. I’m pretty sure Gil has pieced together what happened to Endicott and now he suspects Ainsley.
20:30 - hahahaha the way that JT stares at Gil as Gil leaves the room. hahahaha. He’s like: “This is awkward. I don’t want to babysit your rich girlfriend (and the Mom of the most annoyingly endearing profilers in existence). I am uncomfortable and I hate that you’re leaving me here alone.”
21:05 - I LOVE THIS SCENE. EVERYTHING ABOUT IT. I love how Dani is slouching in Gil’s chair like she owns it. I love that Malcolm is sitting on the couch like a scolded child. I love that they’re talking about Gil’s birthday.
21:32 - “I’m already drafting an apology letter.” “That’s not enough.” SAY IT LOUDER DANI. This. FINALLY we get someone calling Malcolm on his passive suicidality. Yes, Malcolm is driven and obsessed with the case (any case). But he also risks his life needlessly to solve them. As though he thinks he’s not worthy of saving. As though he believes he deserves to suffer for what he did to The Surgeon and for what The Surgeon did to his victims. Malcolm is passionate and dedicated to his job. But he doesn’t care about his life enough to protect it. That’s passive suicidality in my books.
21:43 - “For a killer who has done nothing but make your life a living hell.....he’s not worth it.” THIS. Malcolm doesn’t hear this enough. People always suspect him of being like Martin. People rarely take the time to realize that Malcolm was just a little boy who was traumatized by the things he found out about Martin. Strangers judge and treat Malcolm like a criminal just because his father is a publicly bad person. It’s been happening for so long that Malcolm believes he’s a bad person who isn’t worthy of happiness.
21:52 - Poor Malcolm. His little face. :( He looks so sad, angry, and scared all at the same time. This is another case of “the logical part of my brain knows I’m acting irrationally but I can’t stop it because the emotions are too big and strong and everything hurts.”
22:05 - “I’m sorry.” MALCOLM WHY THE HELL ARE YOU APOLOGIZING TO DANI?!? Because you yelled at Ruiz and now Dani’s worried about you? Dude. You’re having a mental health crisis and a really really bad day. You don’t need to apologize right now. Dani doesn’t want your apology. She wants you to take care of yourself.
22:25 - “Jury’s still out.” Ouch.
22:32 - Oh look. Another old person with a landline. hahahahha
23:11 - JT being a sweetheart to Jessica. <3 I love this man. This is so cute. I feel like this is the first time JT’s truly seen Jessica as a full human with a personality as opposed to Malcolm’s rich mother and Gil’s love interest.
23:18 - “I get a call like that once a week.” OH HELL NO.
23:30 - I love the fact that Jessica and JT are bonding over the fact that they’re both being harassed and judged for something outside of their control.
23:41 - SOMEONE IS CALLING TALLY?!?! NO. NO. NO. NO. I’M FURIOUS.
24:04 - “I don’t know. Why did you pretend no one was on the phone earlier?” I love this line. Jess didn’t tell for the same reason JT didn’t. They’re independent, strong people. They don’t want bother other people with their problems. They’re embarrassed that this is happening to them and on some level they probably think (wrongfully) that they deserve it.
24:46 - Oh look. All of Malcolm’s worst nightmares are coming true on the same day. The look of pure terror on his face. <3
25:20 - I want more Gil + Ainsley scenes. I find them fascinating. Ainsley looks like she resents Gil (probably because he spent so much time with Malcolm instead of her in the 90s+00s). Gil looks remorseful, sad, concerned, and fatherly. Like, even though he didn’t spend a lot of time with Ainsley - he still loves her. Because he loves Jessica and Malcolm so he loves Ainsley by extension.
25:30 - “People always suspect him” THIS. Ainsley is trying to manipulate Gil into believing she’s innocent by drawing parallels between her actions and Malcolm’s. What Ainsley doesn’t seem to realize (and why Gil is so cold when he says “People always suspect him”) is that Gil watched Malcolm grow up. He watched the cops question him in 98′ because they thought he was a suspect. He watched Malcolm grow up as people bullied him and locked him in closets because he’s the son of a murderer. Malcolm was fired from the FBI for being the Surgeon’s son (and punching a sheriff). Ainsley though? She forwarded her career by televising Malcolm’s mental health issues and proudly announcing that she’s the daughter of a killer. She still has a job. People still treat her with respect. Malcolm wasn’t granted that luxury. Gil knows it. He watched as Ainsley used Martin as a tool for success while Malcolm struggled under the weight of Martin’s crimes and abuse.
25:34 - “Ouch”. Malcolm’s not offended. Look at the little smile he sends toward Dani. <3
25:36 - Ainsley is furious. That’s the look she had in her eyes when she confronted Malcolm about the pig’s blood incident. She has no remorse. She’s pissed that her brother is overshadowing her.
25:49 - “We didn’t plan a prison break.” Who’s the ‘we’. Her and Malcolm? Or Ainsley and Martin? Or all three? Or Capshaw and Ainsley? ....this 3/4 of those options are definitely true. But one of them might be a lie. I think Ainsley was purposely vague to make it harder to Malcolm, Gil, and Dani to tell if she’s lying.
26:17 - Ainsley isn’t scared, stressed, or anxious when she picks up the phone. She seems annoyed but hopeful. I find that interesting.
26:46 - That smile. Ainsley loved talking to her dad. As a girl who grew up without a father - I feel for her. BUT GIRL - he’s a killer and this is not healthy.
27:08 - Malcolm suspects Ainsley. And he’s scared. Bring me my popcorn. I’m here for the show.
27:18 - This must be killing Ainsley. The fact that she knows Malcolm, Gil, and Jessica are a quasi-family unit. It’s probably making her feel more left out than usual.
27:30 - “Maybe I should’ve done more for her when she was growing up.” :( My heart is shattering. This isn’t Gil’s fault but damn, does this hurt.
27:40 - “No matter what we did, all roads led to Martin.” More confirmation that Jessica and Gil co-parented Malcolm. <3 This is amazing. I’m so happy.
27:53 - Really Jess? You’re turned on by the fact that Gil has a secret plan while your daughter is being questioned about helping a murderer escape prison?!?! It’s adorable (especially how Gil starts flirting back with her) but also - not the time.
28:14 - This is why I think Ainsley is somehow involved with Capshaw and/or is a budding serial killer. She’s so cheery. She’s being questioned by the police because they suspect her of committing a crime. Even an innocent person would be a little anxious or defensive. She’s just....numb but also cheery at the same time? Something’s not right here.
28:19 - “This room is under surveillance at all times.” ....but is it under audio surveillance? Is this interrogation going to become a bigger part of the plot later in the season? Because Ainsley verbally questions if she’s like Martin.
29:17 - As much as I hate Martin, I agree with his analysis of Ainsley. She’s high on charm, low on compassion and empathy. She doesn’t have normal reactions to traumatic events. She never appears scared or sad. We’ve only ever really seen Ainsley happy, determined, or angry.
29:20 - ....I fully believe Ainsley is fake crying to manipulate Malcolm during the interrogation.
31:25 - “Do you think I’m the reason he broke out?” Ugh. Ainsley is so starved for parental attention and it’s heartbreaking.....maybe that’s how this killer was made.
32:00 - Gil doesn’t think Ainsley’s a credible source of information. Let’s all just sit on that information for a bit.
32:19 - “It’s not him I’m worried about.” <3 <3 <3 <3 Papa!Gil <3 I’ve missed you. <3 <3
32:34 - YO Gil, Malcolm. Have you two knuckleheads really never watched Criminal Minds?!?! This dude is showing textbook “I’m a hostage” behaviour.
33:19 - Gil calling Malcolm his ‘partner’ is so precious. <3
34:50 - Sooooo 400K is a LOT of money. Did Martin use Milton family money for his murder agenda?!? Did Jessica never notice that much cash missing from their accounts?!? Where did all this money come from?!
35:32 - Ahhhh lovely. Martin had a fake Canadian passport.
35:46 - Excuse me while I cry myself to sleep because Martin put Malcolm’s batman toy in his murder escape bag. It’s so twisted and yet, sweet?
35:50 - “What’s that?” <3 My heart has shattered. Look at the unshed tears in Malcolm’s eyes. Listen to how soft Gil’s voice is. Look at Malcolm’s sad little heartbroken, hopeful smile and Gil’s heartbroken look of concern. <3 I adore this exchange so so so so much. This is the Papa!Gil content I’ve been hungry for.
37:38. -”Bright, she said no.” ....and Gil doesn’t want him going in there either. It’s not safe for anyone. But especially not for Malcolm in his current mental state.
38:25 - “Don’t ever imply Bright doesn’t want to save lives.” YES TELL HER GIL. YES. I’m living my best life. The Papa!Gil fans were FED this episode. <3
38:51 - “They’re going to kill him.” I love this because I get it. My dad was abusive. I don’t like him and I don’t respect him. I think he’s a shitty human being. But I still love him. A part of me always will. Malcolm’s relationship with Martin is a little more complicated but it boils down to the same thing - no matter what a part of you will always love your parents. You might hate that part of yourself. You might try to suppress it. But it’s always there. Whether you like it or not. The idea that Martin will be killed? That’s terrifying for Malcolm because a dead Martin Whitly means he’ll never ‘earn’ his father’s love. It means his chance of finding the father who loved him pre-age 10 is gone forever. And that’s terrifying. Malcolm will grieve what he lost but he won’t grieve Martin as a human being - just who Martin could’ve been for Malcolm.
39:22 - Gil chasing Malcolm <3 I’m in love.
39:55 - Again, where the hell did Hector get these clothes? He sure as hell didn’t steal that plaid shirt from Malcolm’s place or the EMTs.
40:10 - Hector is my favourite killer. I love him and I don’t know why.
40:50 - This sequence is haunting. Watching Gil, Jessica, and Malcolm terrified and concerned in isolating shots. <3 *Chef’s kiss*. AND THE FACT THAT JT is still with Jessica?!?! <3 Glorious. I’m here for it.
41:35 - I don’t like the way Capshaw looked at Malcolm when she said, “He’s your father.”.....it was appraising. Almost like she’s considering killing Malcolm to snub the whole Whitly family of potential killers.
42:17 - That line about karma......holy shit. Capshaw is evil #confirmed. Malcolm is a moron for not spotting it right this second.
42:55 - I have so many questions. 1) how did Capshaw get Martin in the car without anyone noticing? Like, why didn’t the security cameras catch it? 2) ....how much air circulation is in a car trunk? 3) How long has Capshaw been planning this? 4) is it really Martin in the car? Or someone else? ....maybe she had a goon kidnap Martin and take him to a secondary location after he left Claremont grounds? 5) Did Capshaw ever have a romantic interest in Martin? Was it ALL show?
AHHHHH this episode was amazing and I can’t wait for Tuesday. Thanks for hanging out. <3
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