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real talk though, i genuinely love this so much. you can feel the glory of his image simply in how history chose to honour him. and i ADORE the fact that he became so legendary, he almost became a man of myth. all bro wanted was to be remembered, and now he’s just as immortal as he sought out to be 🥹🥹😭😭
HI PAE PAE! 👋👾🙇♀️
how was laith’t (i’m not trusting myself with that spelling) impacted by paeliae’s death?
Great question! It is true that Laith’Tielere highly honoured Paeliae, in the way that any society honours a rare good politician. The caveat here is that Paeliae didn’t just die, he died carrying a peace treaty and ending a war that had been tearing Tielere apart for years. Like genuinely if the treaty didn’t happen, Tielere probably wouldn’t exist today and even now it is much less prominent than it once was.
When news of the Accords came out, Paeliae was treated like a saviour who single handedly saved the lives of everyone who lived in that city, so obviously his legacy was loud and long lasting.
So Tielere became a minor city under the control of Myr, but Myr honoured Paeliae like a god or a folk hero. There were friezes on temples of him speaking to Azhan and statues in all of the major cities of him carrying the treaty. There were a whole bunch of Paeliae cults who would pray to him to end their conflicts or to guide politicians into wise choices.
In the inauguration of new members of the Miras council they would read a section of one of Paeliae’s philosophical writings and would be told to go and serve as well as he did. He was seen as a role model for any politician or leader to base their decisions off. The council also was revered as speaking with Paeliae’s authority.
While most of this was considered legend by the people, his influence did cause democracy to continue in Miras for all of the hundreds of years that it ruled.
It got a little weird but his writings were really important to the development of Myr and likely did more good than harm.
Thanks for the ask!
#thecomfywriter loves pae pae’s stories#pae pae!#AND THE OG PAE PAE#PAELIAE MY BELOVED#MY SWEETHEART#MWAH MEAH#I WOULD RUN MARATHONS FOR YOU#CARRY TREATIES AND PLEDGES#HONOUR YOUR CULT AND IMAGE#I WOULD LEARN TO BE IMMORTAL SO I WOULD BE THE LAST PERSON ON EARTH TO WHISPER YOUR NAME LEST ANYONE FORGOT#I WOULD JEVER FORGET YOU PAELIAE ANS I WOULD NEVER LET ANYONE ELSE FORGET YOUR LEGAXY EITHER#okay i’m done simping lol#this is what happens when you make me a fan of your work by the eay#these are the consequences of your actions#thecomfywriter reblogs#thecomfywriter being dramatic#writeblr#writers on tumblr#writing community#other writers
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Currently thinking about Artemis's will in the code at the bottom of TLG and how it really kinda shows how strained his relationship with his dad still is. Everyone else gets something they're interested in or that Arty thinks they'd like (sound system for Juliet, frozen chicken for Mulch, ethical investments for his mother, etc) and yet for his father he leaves only bearer bonds, despite Artemis I trying to move away from a money-focused enterprise and lifestyle as of TEC. Not to mention it's Butler who would know how to disengage all the booby traps protecting said bearer bonds, further highlighting the difference in trust & familiarity Artemis has with everyone but his father.
#artemis fowl#is this comprehensible? idk#i just think they're a fun relationship to explore#and like i get the reasons why the relationship between the two artemises isn't really elaborated on in canon#and why it exists as it does in the first place but still#your son - whom you had a very businesslike relationship with in his young childhood - talks about money when you are returned to him#after being missing for nearly two years. you tell him you failed and want to be a better father and money isn't all that is important.#a handful of years pass and your son goes missing (and is presumed dead just like you were) and yet returns just like you did#barely a year later though while grappling with his actual death and corpse you find out that no actually nothing had changed#and he still went to his grave with the only bridge between the two of you being money with no interest in other hobbies#what a thing for Tim to experience#from an overthinking and reading too much into things perspective that's heartbreaking#we never hear about Juliet's interest in sports cars or pop music yet that was included in artemis's will for her#compared to like beckett who we know likes bugs and slime and how artemis put that in his will for him#so when we get snippets of Tim's other interests (solar powered planes or his bio-hybrid prosthetic or running marathons or whatever)#and yet Arty didn't include anything about those interests in his will for his father is kinda like... huh.#you never really did change your perception of what would make your dad happy did you#and that would've destroyed Tim
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i’m sure he’s fine
#pokemon#trainer red#champion red#red oak#blue oak#green oak#reguri#gurire#namelessshipping#millidrew#art#my post#no id#millidew holiday queue marathon#unrealistic blue would never go up there without his pokemon#but unfortunately for red nightmares don’t have to be realistic#waves. hi guys i think about this a lot. but not too much or else i feel unbearably depressed#tw death#tw character death#because i talk about icicle blue more ->#(worst part of this is what could happen after btw. the consequences the fallout etc… if he goes down at all)#(or if someone else comes up)#he doesnt Have to stop dissociating. that doesn’t HAVE to be blue. or anyone else he knows. he could be seeing things#it could just be a rock. he should leave it be. he should carry it back home. he should run and find a new side#of the mountain#a new region#away from here#maybe he should talk (you know what i mean) to another person#anyways have you guys read curiosity killed my beia
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Stu: ANGELICAAAA ELIZAAA
Billy, grumpy:
Stu, puppy eyes:
Billy, sighing: AND PEGGY!
They two of them together: THE SCHUYLER SISTERSSSSS
#stu convinces billy to join in on his musical marathons but obviously you gotta sing all the parts#i mean they are dramatic as fuck. would they not be muqsical nerds??? (calling myself out)#stu gets really into playing every character and he sings and dances and runs around the room while billy sits on the bed and grumpily says#WORK or PEGGY and stu is just happy his boyfriend is joining in#stuilly#musical nerds au#stu x billy#billy x stu#stu macher#billy loomis#scream movie#scream 1996#scream#hamilton#hamilton musical#schuyler sisters#broadway#musical nerd#murder boyfriends#they just need a break from killing to watch musical bootlegs
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There are many Things that can be said on the subject of unsolicited criticism of fanfic, but honestly? I want to talk about the bold assumption that everyone writing fanfic cares about improving, or needs to. Like, maybe I just want to write my silly little stories about my favorite cartoon characters kissing and if my writing improves with time and practice, great, but it doesn't actually matter that much because I'm just doing this for fun. It's a hobby I do because it makes me happy, and share so it can maybe make other people happy. Just because I like jogging doesn't mean I want advice on how to train for a marathon, you know?
#I'm disabled in ways that would prevent me from running a marathon regardless but that's beside the point#I promise I'm not mad I'm just talking#I actually haven't gotten much unsolicited criticism myself but I've seen it happen to others so you know. I have Thoughts#respectfully me
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that post that's like "learning social skills helps with social anxiety" applies to dating also btw
#i guess they have a circular relationship because also going on lots of first dates was really trial by fire for me in learning lots lf#new social skills#meeting new people was never my strong suit and i was very afraid of it and would avoid it but like!#when i first tried going on first dates i learned a lot about how to meet people and met types of queer people i'd never met before#and actually it was good for me even though it was often weird and stressful#and it was a lower-stakes way to practice social skills that i otherwise would've just avoided using until they atrophied#anyway whenever i see a dating profile that's like 'i'm afraid of talking to women lol' i'm like ok relatable but what's your plan to learn#i think also just like it doesn't have to be through dating but it is good for you to meet other gay and trans people offline if possible#when i moved to wisconsin i only knew my coworkers who were mostly also twentysomethings who'd been hired straight from college#and it was good for me to meet and make friends with other local gay and trans people who were involved in different stuff#idk i just don't know how many more 'i'm obsessed with romance but scoff at the idea that i should do anything about that' posts i can read#like if i said i wanted to run a marathon but i never practiced running people would fairly be like okay that's prob not gonna happen#idk i know it's no skin off my nose i'm just like. if you never take any steps towards expressing your desires#how do you think they're going to just happen to you#personal nonsense
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special loving shout-out to people who had to give up a hobby, passion, or dream because of their disability/disabilities. its okay to feel disappointed or angry you cant do the things you want to do & i love you all and hope you find the same happiness and comfort in other things soon.
#this post brought to you by my hands being too shaky to knit lately and i tried to play bass again#and my memory fog and hand strength just. isnt there#i used to also love to run. literally would do a full marathon in distance every day practically#and now just standing for over a hour straight makes my legs feel like theyre going to give out on me#and its just. so fucking frustrating. even rn im on my slow laptop because my hands are trembling too much to type on my phone
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Me: *creates an OC*
Me: *heavily implies OC will meet a bad fate*
OC: *meets bad fate*
Me:
(Alternatively, I may have started it, but @katkastrofa enabled me and now I’m losing my mind)
#Kat and Nia and their multiverse of madness#first rule of interacting with Nia: don’t suggest a dark/whumpy/extremely angsty concept to them#they’ll take it and run a marathon with it and next thing you know their own ideas are making them cry#this is just what happens when I start developing an OC during a rough time in my life#happens every time. guess who came up with Summiya’s fall from grace after their college application fell through??#and since Summiya has a more or less completed storyline. it’s now someone else’s turn#namely Jia’s. also Sunat’s but. mostly Jia’s. Sunat is more angst than whump and I’m craving PAIN#I’ve been frothing at the mouth thinking about Jia all day#just.. imagine how terrified she must have been when she was brought before Jusamah. when he said that he’d make her talk one way or another#and if she doesn’t want to obey and confess willingly… something else can be arranged#how her fear got even worse when she was dragged into the palace dungeons. when she saw the whipping post#begging for mercy as she was stripped and tied. swearing on her life that she doesn’t know anything. that she’s innocent#rambling incoherently right up until the first hit lands. after that it’s just screams and sobs and barely audible ‘I don’t know’s#all the while she’s yelled at by a man three times her age who refuses to believe that she truly doesn’t know anything#and she doesn’t. all she did was point Aiza in a direction. she has no proof she even went in it#I don’t want to get to graphic here but let’s just say I read an article on whipping and it’s.. it’s bad#the aftermath is brutal and bloody and passing out from the pain would be a mercy#and afterwards… I do think someone is called to tend to her so she doesn’t bleed to death before they can get a confession out of her#and that person is kind. if a little detached emotionally. and likely her back could have been salvaged if the whipping didn’t repeat#but it did. because they need her to confess. maybe the excruciating pain of reopened wounds will get her to talk…#it doesn’t. she never says anything. and after a while they move on from torture to locking her up and starving her#maybe that’ll finally break her. perhaps she’s still whipped occasionally even afterwards but for the most part she’s just left alone-#in some dark cell and questioned occasionally. it lasts anywhere from weeks to months and yet she never gives out the one detail she knows#because Aiza’s safety depends on it and she knows Aiza’s punishment will be much worse than hers if she’s caught#but anyway. enough of the bloody horror show. instead think about what it must’ve been like for her parents#the town is alight with scandal following the disappearance of Lady Aiza. you know a bit about her since your daughter works for her#you don’t hear from your daughter for a while. eventually someone tells you that she’s been convicted of helping Lady Aiza run away#she’s been under interrogation since. no one’s seen her but rumour has it they’re torturing her. there’s little you can do as a poor family#you request an audience with Lord Jusamah. it takes a long time to to be granted but eventually you’re before him begging for your daughter#apparently she’s proven to be a useless waste of resources so she’s released to you. you barely recognise her. AND I REACHED TAG LIMIT FML
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fyi how long it takes me to post a m*a*s*h update makes it SEEM like i have a lot of self-control and am only watching one episode a day but that is incorrect. i'm watching everything like three times and rolling around in the details like a ferret let loose in the snow. i grew up in the vhs-recording 90s where you'd get two star treks and an x-file every week, and i'd get up at five in the morning to rewatch one of them before school every day AND tune in for every rerun and that has not changed. sometimes i get comments on fic like "wow your dialogue sounds just like them" YEAH it fuckin SHOULD some weeks i hear these people talk more than my own family. this is completely normal and healthy by the way
#not even touching on the fact that my sister and i would have star trek marathons like we were training for the olympics#on weekends she was over here we'd fuckin PLAN we would rest up all week so we could STAY UP and try to beat the record#my dad would come downstairs and make us run around outside in the snow between episodes#and we'd do it in BARE FEET to hype us up and keep us awake for the duration#also normal behavior#i remember being entire adults and going on a double date with some new dudes and both of us being like#:) we watched 30 hours of star trek in a row once :)#that's the most impressive thing you should know about us
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man i know i've made the shoe types to dog harnesses comparison for people to better get the idea of what dog supplies are specialized sports equipment, but i'm getting the feeling i need to make one for dog booties as well.
#dogblr#dog gear#'wah wah my hiking intended dog bootie is rubbing my dog during sports!'#cool i would have terrible rub from my hiking boots if i tried to run a marathon in them#anyways. you cannot expect one size fits all dog equipment#what you use in everyday is not necessarily and NOT OFTEN applicable for sports#if you'd buy sports intentional equipment for a human you can guarantee dog stuff will often work the SAME WAY
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i love love love lou as kingston but it is a little funny when they act like 55 is elderly
#not on the more physical mobility issue side like i love when lou is like I Am Fifty Five Years Old I Will Not Do That#(although obviously there are 55 year olds who could and would. my grandpa was running marathons in his 60s)#but him saying ‘im 55….ive lived a long life….ive made my peace’#i know i know he means made his peace with not having had children#but the tone of resignment is slightly hilarious. sir you are not aged and on deaths door#take a multivitamin and make sure to get regular colonoscopies and you will be fine#ribbits#d20
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shifted gears like alright after the [lucifer the mysteries please] centered approach that found mostly Other Stuff, centering [blade gunnblade please], and already have found something new but in the "possibly inaccurate & probably irrelevant even if otherwise" vein as a review read through the wayback machine says: "perhaps none moreso than the gun toting android Blade Gunblade, perfectly embodied by Asia Kate Dillon. They even get an awesome heart-wrenching backstory." which is so far the singular mention that blade gunnblade is an android, however, reviewers can Just Say Things, so. i believe the blade gunnblade full backstory clip that's available is from pre 2015's run at the pit, & rather a previous run as serials at the flea (and the prop & setpiece differences if it was simply an alex seife understudy performance from 2015 would be: inexplicable) but i have to imagine that blade's peak tragic backstory ft. murdered wife & child would be very similar, & i guess it would be funny if they were just out & about living their ordinary life with a family like that while also an android, but. however i'll also give them that: mentioned a bit more often is that at least at some point kapow-i Becomes part android / referred to as a cyborg, thanks to the same character as in 2015 & prior's tragic backstory. i don't think this fun fact is like super constantly relevant or obvious, so i Could imagine something along the lines of blade getting the same treatment & it also not being particularly more relevant. or else the proximity of such concepts like "kapow-i's a cyborg, the serials run clip seems to refer to like 'we need this specific rando who is now blade to be injected with Ultimate Fighter elixir (& have their family killed. because) & people's whose bodies couldn't handle it are now kind of like funny little robots (cybernetically automated but with some personality)" & like blade we need you to be a fighting machine was thus sort of conflated lol. but maybe they're a cyborg like i think it happens a lot anyways
#blade gunnblade#difficulties: going okay not sure there's as comprehensive a cast list anywhere as the mysteries' program being available#which also wasn't fully comprehensive!#however there is plenty of overlap b/w the mysteries cast & the the pit kapow-i gogo marathon cast#thus some more recent blade gunnblade finds stemming from Looking For Lucifer#and also i have already done some [afaik cast member who Wasn't in both] rifling around for blade material so#but there's still some more digging to do. some [fb &/or ig accounts now deleted or privated] to press f for. got any pics#some ''damn someone who took some relevant production pics was ig tagged but their profile doesn't have their actual name#and also only has like 8 pics & they're all selfies like who are you''#both productions having More production pics out there i knowwww please....i want to See#also shoutout to another archived review's mention of a green strobelight & cowboy bebop's rain.mp3 used in a scene#''for devastating effect'' or impact re: the 2015 run like ya that was the blade gunnblade Devastation we have crucial 8 sec clip of....#filed away as a Maybe. but i don't imagine it would actually really affect things very much at all either way so#finally we understand mafee taylor's bestie like i always knew you were a killbot cyborg sicko....all for a coy lil blade gunnblade ref (:#pausing partway through this post like this can all be briefer....it Could be but i'm writing it. read my posts boy or don't#hmm for example this review also lists a director as ''joel stern'' which i'm 95% sure refers actually to joel soren so#but then also many other names are cited more accurately. yet still the one error there. that's where we're at#kapow-i gogo#asia kate dillon#perfectly embodied by! So true
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#the hand-wringers about Louis’ ‘drug problem’ make me chuckle a bit#it’s completely fine to not smoke weed#but that doesn’t make you an authority on ‘sober’ living#it’s always so very evident that the people who say he’s addicted have never tried the stuff and certainly aren’t habitual users#i’m not going to go into the medical benefits of it#it doesn’t matter#truly#whatever reason he chooses to smoke are irrelevant#I guess my point is…#I - a couch potato to the nth degree - would never dream of telling a marathon runner that the way they run is wrong#it’s literally funny to me
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i like how my parents don't let me have anything until i give up on it then they push it towards me telling me it was something i wanted and i agree but i don't want it anymore and this happens with literally everything i want. i wish i had the money to rebel and didn't have to ask for everything.
#i wanted to run in our local(?) marathon#like i'd do a half or a 10k#and i begged my dad to let me#and he said no and that i was stupid for running because it would wreck my knees#i literally stopped running completely#for a month#and now he calls me one day saying the marathon people are at his work and he's going to sign me up for something#and do i want to do the 10k or the half or 5k#and i'm like. i haven't even run 5k in a month#i can't do anything#and he's like okay well what did you want to sign up for before#and i say the 10k is the longest distance i might be capable of completing rn#i barely have any time or want to train or to participate#now i'm begging him to let me go to the gym and my mom is trying to convince him to let me#and he says the gym makes you fat#because you go for a bit then you stop going then all your muscle droops down as excess fat#and it's so fucking stupid because as soon as i give up on it he's gonna push it towards me when i don't even want it anymore
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DO YOU WANT MORE?

nsfw (18+). includes implied marathon sex, unprotected sex, breeding, breast play, squirting, caleb fucks roughly but still does tender gestures <3, nicknames (pipsqueak is possibly the worst they could've picked for a canon nickname but this is my attempt at making it sound hot). filthy smut from top to bottom. likes and reblogs will be very helpful !!
“C'mon, pipsqueak, raise your hips.”
Caleb squeezes your waist, his thrusts changing from a deep, persistent grind that makes you feel every inch of his cock to a fast-paced pounding. You've long lost feeling in your legs, and the only thing keeping you from sprawling on the bed is Caleb's tight grip on your hips, fucking into you relentlessly from behind.
“Ah...! Wait, Caleb, haah, no more...!”
Each thrust loudly snaps the bedframe against the wall, but it isn't enough to hide the squelching noises between your legs. Slick and cum drip down your thighs, staining the sheets into ruin. They get even messier with a few more thrusts as you gush around his cock unannounced, squirting into the cum-soaked bedsheets.
Caleb groans as your cunt squeezes around him, trying to coax out more of his hot cum. “Fuck, baby, you're so tight... Feels good when your cunt sucks on my cock...”
His hand slides to your squirting pussy, rubbing circles on your clit. More slick jets out of you, soaking his palm. Squealing, you try to crawl away him him, gripping tightly on the blankets that have been slipping off the bed.
The delicious pressure against your clit releases, but Caleb pulls you back to his cock. He straightens your back to press against his chest, bottoming out in a single thrust to hit the deepest spot in your pussy. “Ngh, why are you running away? Didn't you say you'd last longer than me, pips?” He pants against your ear, hand tenderly running along your side to soothe you, yet his hips don't stop their merciless thrusts. “Or are you tapping out now?”
Perhaps hours ago, you would have answered with a vehement refusal. But now, with drool dripping from your lips constantly agape from moaning, your clit too sensitive from his insistent flicking and rubbing, and your thoroughly-fucked cunt filled with his loads of cum, the idea of calling it quits sounds appealing.
“I'll do whatever you want, baby. Just say the word,” Caleb murmurs against your skin, his lips molding over your neck to suck another hickey among the marks he already made. “If you want to stop, I'll run the bath and take care of you. We'll cuddle on the sofa and watch that new movie you've been looking forward to.”
His hips stop, having pulled all the way out, the tip barely brushing against your cunt. “But if you don't want to stop...”
Slowly, his hand travels up your torso, squeezing your tits. He plays with your nipples, evoking another gasp out of you. “I'll make you feel good. Fuck any other thought out of your mind so you'll only think of me.”
You whine as his cock rubs along your wet folds, catching on the strings of cum dripping from your pussy. The tip circles around your clit, teases at your opening, just putting it in enough to make you feel its thick girth, but he pulls out too soon.
“What will you choose, baby?”
Your hazy mind can't come up with clear thoughts, foggy from the pleasure. But forming an answer is the easiest thing to do—it's not like he left you with any other choice, anyway.
“Please fuck me, Caleb,” you sob, clinging at the arm cupping your breast. “Please put your cock inside me. Fuck me even if I tell you to stop. Cum... please cum more inside m- ahh!”
You're roughly flipped onto your back, but he holds your head softly to lay you down on the pillow. It's only at this moment that you get to see Caleb's face, brows furrowed, sweat dripping down his temples, his lip bitten red from the strain of holding back. “Shit... you really do know how to rile me up, pipsqueak.”
He looms over you, muscled arms caging you on the bed, chest heaving up and down as he pants. He fixes his position, resting his weight on his knees, and he uses his hands to spread your legs wider. His eyes are dark with lust while he stares at your abused hole, spilling cum on the sheets below you.
“Maybe this time, I really will fuck you pregnant.”
The statement doesn't even register in your mind because he immediately thrusts inside, pounding at your cervix. You gasp, aimlessly grasping at anything you could hold onto as you lose your mind, a fresh stream of cum soaking his cock.
His abs ripple with each thrust, the dirtiest groans and pants leaving his lips. “Fuck, you're so cute... cumming already when I just put it in.” Caleb leans closer, catching both of your wrists to make you wrap your arms around his neck instead of the dirty sheets. “When did you become such a pervert?” He drops his head to suck at your tits, licking your nipples.
It's your fault, you want to say, but all that leaves your mouth are noises you didn't think you were capable of making until Caleb touched you for the first time months ago, and he hasn't stopped since. You heard couples would be insatiable for the first few weeks of dating, but it feels like you're never going to go past that phase.
“Can't even speak because my dick's too good, huh?” Caleb chuckles, thumb resting on your lips. He rubs the tip of your tongue, pleased when you dart out to lick him. ��You're the absolute cutest...”
The sounds between your bodies are downright lewd. His cum sloshes inside you every time he fucks you to the bed, forming a creamy ring at the base of his cock. He's filled you up so much with his huge cock and cum, that you wonder how you even have the space to breathe.
Caleb's the type to try to be quiet, but he's not holding back his moans now, groaning his pleasure against your ear.
“This feels too good, shit... Feel like I'm gonna cum soon...” He tucks the hair covering your face behind your ear, pressing a gentle kiss at the corner of your teary eyes, so different from the rough fucking he's giving to your pussy. “I'm gonna blow my load inside you. You want that, don't you?”
You nod desperately, leaning your face on his hand that's cupping your cheek. He smiles, nuzzling against you, but the sweet moment lasts only for a few seconds before he thrusts even faster, chasing his release.
“Fuck, here it comes, I'm cumming...” Caleb drives his cock the deepest it can go, his balls slapping against your ass. “Oh, fuuuuck, I'm cumming!”
Thick, hot strings of cum coat your insides once more, crammed into the tight space of your cunt. Your squirt splashes against his pelvis and abs as you moan high and reedy, scratching lines down his back. He hisses at the slight pain, spurting more cum at the feeling, and he collapses on your body, making sure not to suffocate you with his weight.
“Ah... damn... I don't think I've cum that hard in a while...” He ruffles through your hair, soothingly patting your head. “You doing okay?”
“You're too intense,” you say, your voice weak and groggy. You wrap your arms around him, content to fall asleep and let Caleb take care of things from here.
“Hey, don't fall asleep now.” He pokes your cheek, trying to stir you awake. When you open your eyes, you see Caleb smiling, the one that means he's up to no good. “After all that you said, do you really think this will end with just one round?”
#love and deepspace#love and deepspace smut#love and deepspace x reader#love and deepspace x reader smut#lads#lads x reader#lads smut#caleb x reader#caleb x reader smut#caleb x you#caleb
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I've always had chronic fatigue. I remember being twelve, and an adult mentioned how I couldn't possibly know how tired they felt because adulthood brought levels of exhaustion I couldn't imagine. I thought about that for days in fear, because I couldn't remember the last time I didn't feel tired.
Eventually I came to terms with the fact that I was just tired, and I couldn't do as many things as everyone else. People called me lazy, and I knew that wasn't true, but there's only so many times you can say "I'm tired" before people think it's an excuse. I don't blame them. When a teenager does 20 hours of extracurriculars every week and only says "I'm too tired" when you ask them to do the dishes, it's natural to think it's an excuse. At some point, I started to think the same thing.
It didn't matter that I could barely sit up. It was probably all in my head, and if I really wanted to, I could do it.
When I learned the name for it, chronic fatigue, I thought wow, people that have that must be miserable, because I am always tired and I cannot imagine what it would feel like if it were worse.
Spoiler alert, if you've been tired for a decade, it's probably chronic fatigue.
Once I figured that out though, I thought of my energy as the same as everyone else's, just smaller in quantity. And that might be true for some people, but I've figured out recently that it absolutely isn't true for me.
I used to be like wow I have so much energy today I can do this whole list for sure! And then I'd do the dishes and have to lay down for 2 hours. Then I'd think I must gave misjudged that, I didn't have as much energy as I thought.
But the thing is - I did have enough energy for more tasks, I just didn't go about them properly.
With chronic fatigue, your maximum energy is obviously much smaller than the average person's. Doing the dishes for you might use up the same percentage of energy that it takes to do all the daily chores for someone else.
If someone without chronic fatigue was to do all the daily chores, they would take breaks. Because otherwise, they're sprinting a marathon for no reason and it would take way more energy than necessary. We have to do the same.
Put the cups in the dishwasher, take a break. Put the bowls in, take a break. So on and so forth. This may mean taking breaks every 2-5 minutes but afterwards, you get to not feel like you've run a marathon while carrying 4 people on your back.
Today, I had a moderate amount of energy. Under my old system of go till you drop, I probably could have done most of the dishes and wiped off the counter and then been dead to the world for the rest of the day.
Under the new system, I scooped litter boxes, cleaned out the fridge, took the trash out, cleaned the stove, and wiped off the counter and did all the dishes. And after all that, I still had it in me to make a simple dinner, unload the dishwasher, and tidy the kitchen.
It was complete and utter insanity. Just because I sat down whenever I felt myself getting more tired than I already was.
All this to say, take fucking breaks. It's time to unlearn the ceaseless productivity bullshit that capitalism has shoved down our throats. Its actively counterproductive. Just sit down. Drink some water. Rest your body when it needs to rest.
There will still be days where there is nothing to do but rest, and days where half a load of dishes is absolutely the most I can do. But this method has really helped me minimize those, which is so incredibly relieving.
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