#I WANT TO TREMBLE AND SHAKE

[lifenconcepts]

sometimes I just wanna be in Las Vegas and get so fuxking high and off the rocks that I’ll be sputtering nonsense and blood across carpets of legality before the fuxking bastards hold me up with a gun because OH GOD ITS SO FUN!

[n3rdy247]

i shifted. I ACTUALLY SHIFTED

IT REALLY WAS THAT EASY??? HHAGAHDHHFH???

[saltpepperbeard]

This is lovely...

[plutonious]

You ask for art requests, here is art request! I humbly ask for something with the boys and their aces, when they are Electik (or however you spell it) and Lampent please. Perhaps with the boys in Depot agent uniforms? Even better, it could be a fuzzy memory Warden Ingo is remembering!!

I like to get carried away with silly things

[introspectivememories]

goddd i just know that tim never takes off that fucking necklace. and you know bear doesn't have that much money so tge necklace was kinda cheap and it wasn't anything the bear meant for tim to wear regularly it was just like a keepsake y'know? wear it on a date or a nice outing. maybe when they're both home together. but tim is practically feral over it. like straight up refuses to take it off. it's turning his neck green at this point and everybody is soo done.

[isolophilian]

the mild panic in Luke's eyes when they say they know who the lightning thief is

[lloydfrontera]

my ideal terminal devotion dynamic is 'one fell first but the other fell harder'. i want damian to quietly pin after rakiel for years, never saying anything because he doesn't dare to ask or even hope for it and is content with just remaining at his side for the rest of eternity. and rakiel to be completely oblivious to everything until one day he looks at damian and realizes 'oh i need to crawl into his ribcage' and being a mess about it.

damian falling in love softly and gently, one kind gesture at a time. and rakiel not really falling as much as faceplanting all at once.

[neonbodyache]

actually fuckedup so bad today i cant believe it

[incesthemes]

literally cannot wait to hear you talk about how supernatural 0103 is just. entirely about john's character

i HAVE made a post on this before: i think that 1.03 dead in the water is actually john's introduction episode, told through the allegorical characters bill carlton, jake devins, and peter sweeney's mother. because the character dean imprints onto and relates to is lucas, but the focus of the character is on the parents, so the attention drifts away from dean and onto john to paint a picture for the audience of who he is in his physical absence.

and the episode reveals a lot of information about john that's confirmed later in the series: that he considers losing his children worse than dying (1.20); that he's aggressive and likes to maintain control over situations (also 1.20); that he will sacrifice himself to protect his kids (2.01); so on, so forth.

but i missed something originally—or rather, i couldn't figure out the true, intended meaning of this particular, poignant line from dean: "you can't bury the truth. nothing stays buried."

it's a pretty big line. it's obvious foreshadowing. but i did my first rewatch of season 1 six months ago while i was half-paying attention and i couldn't remember the finer details, so i moved on. but! this is a line about sam (it's always about sam in the end, isn't it?).

dean says this in response to jake and bill attempting to cover up peter's murder. it happens when sam and dean are literally digging up peter's bike which bill and jake had buried thirty-five years ago. these two men had a secret, and nothing stays buried.

john has a secret, too. he knows about sam's connection to azazel. we don't know how long, exactly, he's known this, but it's safe to say he's known that sam is the target of something evil since the night of the fire, and by the time we get to the mid-season episodes, john has figured out this something is a demon. by 1.21, we know that john knows there's a distinct, unnerving connection between sam and the yellow-eyed demon.

and by 2.01, we know that john knows enough about all of this to understand what sam's destiny is and that he and/or dean are the only people who can prevent it.

he keeps all of this a secret, right up until the moment he dies. but no matter how hard he tries to keep the truth buried from his kids, it leaks out—sam has visions before jess dies; sam has visions of the house he was born in; meg comes after him to lure him away from dean; he finds max and realizes there are others like him; he finds meg again and she uses him as bait to kill john. and then there's the whole of season 2 on top of that.

it's a prophecy. you can't bury the truth. nothing stays buried. john was fighting a losing battle; the truth will always be found, and there was nothing john could do to stop sam from learning it, just like jake could do nothing to stop andrea from learning about the murder he committed three decades ago.

1.03 is about john, and it's about season 1. it's every step john will take from now until his death: from hiding the truth to watching it leak out from between his fingers to sacrificing himself to the monster to save his dying son. lucas is dean, jake is john, andrea is sam, and peter sweeney is azazel killing everyone around john and his kids until he's satisfied, until john offers up himself to bring his kid back from the dead.

[gotticalavera]

I don't know if it could be considered a preference that the lore I have for yaoi ZukAang and straight ZukAang has its fair share of angst and is a slow burn...

While the Yuri ZukAang are doing speedrun and are staying together without any political-social concern involved.

[lyhil]

OC-tober 22 - "The All Seeing Eye of The Commander's Shadow"

Meisi belongs to @cheddargoblin

(tyvm tucking him into my pocket)

[gayteddy]

the battle between "reach out to every new person you see online who seems cool" and "never talk to anyone Ever"

[kijosakka]

insane how evrry single time without fail i turn into a sniveling creature who has heart palpitations every time i hit ‘send’ once i join any kind of Social Server and am still so violently desperate for friends. whats up with that huh

[housewifebuck]

Buck being telepathic, and once him and Eddie get together, Eddie just constantly sends the filthiest, nastiest thoughts towards him while at work or just whenever he can't do anything about it.

STAWPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!

[holylottie]

Rough fingers

Today, I learned that my mom is dying.

Personally, it isn't news, I've been a witness of my mother's mortality ever since I was six years old. She knew sickness before she even met me, and now I'm afraid the disease will be by her side for longer than I.

The doctors don't even know what it is, so there's no treatment, just thousands of pills to ease the pain. My house always felt more like a pharmacy than a home.

The doctors don't know that it is but I do: it's unfair.

It's being eight years old watching your mother shaking; it's being thirteen feelling her faint in your arms; it's being a fifteen years old staying at home to watch your younger siblings; it's being sixteen going through everything alone because your mother already has too much to bare; it's being seventeen years old willing away her tears while learning how to interpret exams results.

It's a lifetime of waiting — and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting — for the worst.

I want her to see me graduate, I don't want to be the one who makes the other hair.

Please Gods, let my mom be strong enough to make a braid.

[ourceliumnetwork]

it's hard to have a good day like, mentally and emotionally but a bad day physically.

it's REALLY hard to do that twice in a row but we're going to try.