#I LOVE YEARNING WHAT CAN I SAY
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I HAVE FOOD TO BRING!
let’s talk about Craig Boone, and my Courier Six: literal sixth child of a sixth child, ex-Empire of Shi golden child, grizzled, haunted-at-23 May Bells (not her real name, of course.)
(i want money to commission them together PLEASE..also you like angst? you like new beginnings? a couple who don’t realize they love each other? YOU LIKE WONG KAR WAI’S IN THE MOOD FOR LOVE?! you’re in the right place!)
firstly, May Bell’s already got a fleshed-out backstory—but I want to make another post for that, so that’ll have to wait!
all you need to know is that May is difficult. it’s what a difficult life does to you, after all; in broad strokes:
she was born in the Empire of Shi, with parents both influential in the spheres of its government and upper-class society.
her father wanted her to be the heir of his scientific legacy when he realized his two sons were incompetent (not even bad people—he just had extremely high and stifling standards: calm, intelligent, obedient. May only hit the Intelligent mark with that 9 INT stat and was naturally a genius, her tag skills being medicine, melee, and science.)
when she didn’t meet the mold of her father’s expectations, it coincided with the fact that her eldest sister got pregnant by a poor merchant’s son.
her father went berserk, killed everyone in the house except for May and her oldest brother because they were out. this incident happened when she was 17.
May and her brother were tried (mother deemed insane to stand trial) and her brother ran away. May was found guilty because of public clamor, but she managed to escape out Shi and never looked back, working as a mercenary in the California area—using Shady Sands as a base of operations for a few years—before eventually getting that damn courier job.
yes, these are broad strokes. who wouldn’t be haunted?
now, take all of that baggage and give it to a half of an extremely combat-capable duo, the other half of which is convinced he’s only destined for bad things because of all the misfortune that’s happened in his life. both have seen the horrors of death and the loss of life, as well as having a hand—direct or not—in the loss of their loved ones and family, having no power to stop it from happening.
what happens when they realize they realize they’re falling for each other?
it makes for a tragedy in origin, of course.
i originally wrote May independently, as opposed to my usual process of making a character in consideration of someone i want them to end up with, and encountering Boone in Novac as May just made it all click.
they would work so well together: Boone filling in the gaps of May’s small frame and 5 STR stat (she’d like for it to be 8, but alas) and May serving as his new partner as two snipers.
that’s the thing, too: May, for all her inability to be sociable (always had a grumpy expression on her face, quick to dismissive sarcasm and is generally unlikeable upon first impression because she masks her loneliness with being an asshat), finds it easy to care for Boone. She levels up her Survival skill to cook him food. She uses that high Medicine to patch him up after he runs into a pack of Cazadores guns blazing. She always gives him extra smokes, ammo, and the occasional bottle of Nuka-Cola.
in his own way, Boone cares for her, too. she always has a First Recon sniper watching her back behind her. He always takes care of enemies before she can even see them. He takes longer watches when they rest so she can sleep (after a lot of protest). Hell, by Honest Hearts, he watches her sleep just to see her breathing and alive.
And the fact she helps him process Bitter Springs, supportive but not overbearing? The fact that she knows his secrets, and cares for him anyway? it hits him where it matters.
this journey May’s embarking on and the dynamic they’re building reminded me of something as i was looking for inspiration for her story (Asian media): Wong Kar Wai’s In the Mood For Love.
if you’ll remember, Mrs. Chan and Mr. Chow only fall in love because they knew their spouses were cheating on them with one another. it all clicked so much, i’m telling you: what started as an agreement to find who sold Carla eventually led to the both Boone and May trudging against the harsh winds of the Mojave, realizing they had one person they cared about more than themselves—and to the both of them, it was nothing if not dangerous, given how self-depreciating and burdened they are with their past.
but who’s to say they won’t heal?
it’s the possibilities of their relationship that keeps me going, honestly: they’re so perfectly made for one another, and deeply care for one another, but they can’t see that, and it infuriates the people around them: Veronica, Arcade and Raul especially (who becomes May’s close friends) who sees this tension so palpable it wouldn’t have made a difference if Boone bent May over on a roulette table in the Tops and went to town with her knowing she’d let him anyway. that’s how well their chemistry works.
i’ll keep on exploring this, but god, the way the stars align for them even in my writing!!! i will be back for this it’s a PROMISE
#craig boone#fnv boone#fallout new vegas#courier six#fallout#fnv#in the mood for love#veronica santangelo#fnv veronica#arcade gannon#fnv arcade#raul tejada#fnv raul#I LOVE YEARNING WHAT CAN I SAY#and the fact boone hasn’t felt physical desire until he sees may in formal wear OOH#good FOOD!
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orpheus and thanatos 💚
#persona 3#ryomina#ryoji mochizuki#minato arisato#makoto yuki#lizzy does art#HIII EVERYONE :3 happy halloween.... (has been working on this for four weeks off and on)#i've always yearned to see art of ryoji and minato based on thanatos and orpheus!!!#i know that ryoji can be likened to being the eurydice figure which i agree with but I HAVE BEEN THINKING SO HARD ABT THEM LIKE THIS OK.#it was nice to give drawing something more ambitious (for my standards) an earnest try again! i love working with lineless and lighting#and working on this has inspired me to HOPEFULLY start doing some studies of sorts! i want to learn so many things...#all so that i can make ryomina as epic as possible...#also LET ME TELL YOU that thanatos coffins are making me realize i seriously need to do drawabox or something.#trying to put them in perspective is hard... but im pretty happy with what i made!!!#also can i just say i love how shapely orpheus is?? i love orpheus joints etc etc its so nice. very fresh#sighs longingly. i love them very much they make me want to do better at things. i hope everyone has a wonderful week ahead! 💙#very excited to see what people do for ryomina week (<- they haven't made anything 4 it yet bc Busy... but i'll submit smthn late maybe)
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"why would you ship mizu and taigen together they're sooooo toxic ugh taigen is AWFUL and mizu should be with ME instead!!!"
of course they're toxic they're both deranged and terrible and that's why they're perfect for each other.
cuz like omg you think mizu would treat you well? mizu would abandon you. look at how she left ringo multiple times. ringo who treats her so well and is nothing but patient and caring and loyal. if you are insecure she will laugh at you because she has no social tact. look at how mikio said "it's a stupid dream" talking about his ambitions of regaining his honour and mizu straight up chuckles and tells him he's right because it IS a stupid dream. and at this point their relationship was cordial and she was even warming up to him!
like. arguably, taigen would be a better romantic partner (per the ideals of his time and culture of course), or at least he would be on paper. cuz i mean as a husband, as he is now, i think he'd be awful. but i'm talking about if you and him were dating or courting or just seeing each other romantically, he would be good to you. like we saw how he behaved with akemi and he was nothing but sweet and gentle. the very reason akemi wanted to marry him so bad was because she KNOWS without a doubt that he respects women and would treat her well. "oh but he cheated on her with the prostitutes while celebrating his engagement!" yeah but per the norms of the time and place, it was not considered cheating and akemi (as well as any wife or romantic partner of that period) would not have minded or even cared.
and yes taigen IS an asshole and he IS obnoxious but come on. so is mizu, if she is allowed to act like herself around you. mizu will tease you and mock you and challenge you and even poke at your insecurities (see:her goading mikio on even though he clearly did not view her teasing as light-hearted banter and took it all very personally). she would tell you to your face if she thinks you're being annoying (see:mizu rolling her eyes and telling akemi to straight up just "shut up" when she'd believed mizu had killed taigen).
mizu is not merely a hot and talented badass with a sword and the insane hyperfocus on her desire for revenge which literally drives her to withstand like, extreme amounts of damage and survive it. mizu is also flawed and the show does a good job at showcasing this, and showing us that she's not merely a victim but also a multilayered person. we see throughout that mizu is blunt and sarcastic and prideful.
oh what's that? oh right, very similar to taigen, who is also hot and talented with a sword and with insane hyperfocus on his desire to duel mizu and regain his honour. taigen who is also flawed (though, arguably, more so) as he is blunt and sarcastic and prideful.
the only thing that sets mizu and taigen apart is the fact that taigen is a man and is not mixed race, which thus affects their positions in society and how people perceive them. these are external factors. taigen being a boy who is not blue-eyed allowed him to easily mingle with the other kids in the village, all of whom were similarly fed the same prejudiced values which led them to gang up against mizu and bully her.
but take all that away. strip them down to the bare essentials. suddenly it's like they are the same person copy and pasted.
and that's what makes them even more interesting. yes absolutely they would be toxic. whatever souls are made of, mizu's and taigen's are the same (derogatory). and we literally see them fight all the time!!!! but the thing is they are both deranged when it comes to this.
do you get me. they both literally get turned on by sparring. mizu's whole spar with mikio was her way of flirting. just look at how she smirked at him and said "unsheathe it" like it's clear that this is an innuendo of not just unsheathing his weapon but also what's in his pants. then during the chopsticks fight with taigen in the snow, despite mizu literally being injured and taigen trying to attack her, mizu gets attracted to him. meanwhile taigen got a boner after wrestling with her in the forge.
taigen goes around saying he wants to kill mizu to regain his honour but he still literally risks life and limb for her constantly. mizu gives ringo stomach ulcers by going around flinging herself into near-death situations 24/7. she ups and leaves her beloved swordfather with barely a goodbye twice to pursue her batshit far-fetched quest for revenge (against people she doesn't even KNOW btw because she literally starts off with practically No Leads and not even knowing the NAMES of the white men who are her maybe-fathers).
these bitches are crazy and you know what good for them. that shit needs to be contained and quarantined though and that's why in that sense they would be good together.
i want to put them both in a jar and shake it very hard and see what happens. personally i think they will argue and insult each other while working perfectly in sync with each other to break out of the jar and then proceed to kill me and make out sloppy style over my dead body while they're both covered in blood.
like that's it that's the dynamic. send post.
#this is written half in jest btw dont take it too seriously. ppl can dislike what they want and ship x reader if they like#what annoys me is just when ppl are being rude about other ppl's ships like. unprovoked. like girl....#taimizu#taigen x mizu#mizu x taigen#blue eye samurai#im active on twitter again and the algorithm keeps putting bad takes on my tl against my will !!!#also yes i am aware im saying all this while writinf a tender yearning-filled slowburn fic of them#bcs i DO want them to be gentle. definitely i do. but that comes muuuuuuch later after they both wear each other's edges down ykwim#bcs if they get together any time soon they will literally be a flaming hot mess#sexy hot mess tho#but a mess nonetheless#they have the range! love them for that#fandom.rtf#shut up haydar#wank.mp3#kinda#might delete later
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out w these tall clowns 🌲🌸
#who up yume-ing their ocs w characters (me)#yumeship#matsukawa issei#haikyuu oc#hanamaki takahiro#haikyuu#mblue art#self insert#ocsona#or animesona either way its still an oc who may look similar to my sona 🧍#seijohbros au#this thing took too long (can you tell. this was for halloween. it is now 11/5 and i am queueing this)#and i keep taking it out of queue to drafts and putting it back bc im overthinking things and i rlly just need to drop it and move on</3#i love my blorbos sm they look ok in here actually but the process was shinji chair meme worthy i was suffering </3#context is halloween party das it (left is dressed up as that stabby ghostface guy. knife prop and mask not shown)--#--(he may have joked abt stabbing once. maybe a few times)--#--(right is an angel. kinda low effort/simple fit. ironic bc none of the ppl in the friend group are angels /hj)#in the group; ocsona is the closest to these two goofy mfs (not surprising i am in the utmv fandom. lots of goofy skeletons in there)--#--but the one they trust the most is the guy on the left !#((used the yumeship term bc my ocsona (specifically)'s main thing w them is platonic (i love silly shenanigans what can i say)--))#((--even if i sometimes want to rom smooch these dorks))#yearning about f/os (rom or plat) is so nice n fun you guys should do it n have fun n get some more whimsy in ur life 10/10 i recommend
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Something something Percy wishing he loved Nico in the same way because he can't stand the idea of hurting him, even though Nico has never needed Percy to love him in the same way or even to love him at all.
#yes nico yearns but i think he understands that it will always be a fantasy a desire and he's long since been accepting of that#compared to Percy who cares very fiercely and despises the idea of hurting or upsetting someone he cares about even in such a minor way#especially someone he sees himself as a caretaker/protector figure#you know how can he protect nico from harm when his inability to reciprocate those feelings in the same way inherently hurts him#i think nico could explain that it doesn't hurt. maybe it did before. but it doesn't now#and yes he still loves and desires him romantically but he's fine. he knows percy will never reciprocate and that fact is not painful.#but i dont think percy would get it. maybe he'd understand and accept logically what nico is saying. but internally he can't truly accept it#or maybe he just doesn't believe nico at all and thinks he's trying to make percy feel better about it.#either way percy struggles with it. it should be fine. lots of people don't reciprocate another's feelings.#but for percy it just feels like another way in which he has failed nico and that bothers him even if it doesn't bother nico#percy jackson#nico di angelo#happy talks pjo
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the smudge on an otherwise perfect painting, and tears of moss
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#itafushi#fushiita#meguyuji#meguyuuji#MEGUYUUJI YEHAHAAAAAA i’m sorry that ship name is the best one for them nothing compares#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen#megumi fushiguro#itadori yuuji#fushiguro megumi#yuuji itadori#yuji itadori#itadori yuji#i’m realizing i never say yuji oops sorry guys yuuji looks nicer#i drew the megumi one for my friends birthday !!!!! happy birthday to her i love her she’s a real one#so ermmm there is meaning behind this bc i love them a lot#these are both megumi pov/feelings#both are different angles of the same grief/loss of losing yuuji#this can be taken as him losing yuuji in season 1 or post shibuya pre culling game#both of these are supposed to be “perfect” but ruined by something#for yuuji it’s sukuna (or what i like to call sukuna scars)#for megumi it’s emotions/tears and the fact he does not want to address them much#so i tried to go for a moss look on his? that his tears look like they’re eating away at the canvas#might be off abt how i drew it#errrr whatever I LOVE ITAFUSHI YEARNING#fushiguro x itadori#itadori x fushiguro#itafushi fanart#fushiita fanart
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@vulpixisananimal sifstem art jumpscare!! more specifically i got bored and decided to mess around with sif and mal's outfits.
#my art#this is how I think theyd present themselves either in person or in headspace. the slouchers <3#sifs outfit is simple; the boots i always give them (but with star laces for funsies); loose sweater; simple pants#the pants are Meant to be jeans but isat doesnt Specifically Have Jeans so. theyre just Pants.#the sweater is slightly looser bc sif doesnt seem like a Form Fitting Clothes kinda guy to me but hes Trying to be more open#on particularly good days theyll roll the sleeves up or wear a sleeveless one methinks#even if everyone Knows abt the self-harm scars its hard to Look at them.#i also associate them being more open with them not wearing an eyepatch. esp bc hes the only one of the three to go without it#for mal (or 'ami' as i like to call it) i wanted smth reminiscent of a mourning outfit bc mal du pays means homesickness#and i picked 'ami' as a nickname bc ami means friend :] at least according to my basic translator. i dont speak french <3#ami's outfit being dark is also reminiscent of the inversion thing its got going on in canon.#ik the veil is starred in the original but i think ami would want the fewest reminders of home. on account of The Issues#(actually if i can come back to sifs laces sif also has issues with reminders of it bc of the memory loss but the shoelaces are His Choice—#—which gives them a form of control over it and they can keep it subtle or undo it if he wants. which makes it easier)#anyway. i put amis hair in an updo and smoothed the hat bc i think ami wants to be Unremarkable. Unknown. so it keeps its silhouette Simple#(it still keeps the pins. theres smth comforting abt them. they shine like stars and theyre not stars and theyre not Home. but theyre You.)#and i kept the long hair i gave loop. dont ask me why its so long when the canon hair is short. maybe their hair kept growing over the loop#OH and i drew ami in a side profile bc Silhouette and also bc i think itd make an effort to keep people away from its blind spot#andddd i think thats about it? plus i actually managed to keep this one within a reasonable timeframe.#if their hair changes lengths/the proportions change between drawings. no they dont 💛 peace and love and body craft#OH AND YOU FINALLY GET TO SEE WHAT I MEAN ABT SIFS BOOTS BC THESE ARE THE BOOTS I GAVE THEM ON MY REGULAR DESIGN ARENT THEY NEAT#i did actually try to give sif a different font but nothing Works for them like the pixel font. i cant explain it.#i think 'ami' would be a nickname that mira gives it. bc. shes Fantasy French. and its a sort of 'youre more than your yearning/loss' thing#me every time i think abt sifstem: yeah they just rotate in my head. nothing major#me every time i talk abt sifstem: oh hey im almost at tag limit again#au Good what can i say
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And my thing STILL is that as carmen gets a stronger sense of her past and better connections with her friends and allies the need/desire for Gray in her life doesn't decrease and dissapate, it INCREASES and is refined. All while constantly being more sincerely layered in romantic tones as the show goes on.
#red crackle#red crackle thoughts#op watches#imo you actually cant dismiss it as (well thats all VILE propaganda)#when the show said (and those encounters + possible romantic realizations pushed gray to pull his care for her to the surface)#and carmen knew it was a date! never let her off the hook for that! she knew it was a date and yearned to join him at that table!#i dont think a show so proud of its check->czech joke overlooked that framing#+ minor note even how he goes from she's attractive-> much more serious contemplating on who she is and affection#just because gray would in fact never say 🥺um goodness is important doesnt mean you can wholesale throw out what is happening#during the arc#carmen yearns#and she becomes more and more open about it as she stabilizes#as the shows parallels about love/redemption/and desire for reconciliation get stonger too like#hmmm i hate this show#never am i gonna find this specific kind of absolutely wild that leaves me bewiltered that the show does not in fact work in parts shdjflfk#part 1 is complete onto-....oh wait...oh wait yeah netflix ...#....anyway it has to be them#it has to be the girl who left the isle and the boy who found someone he never expected to love this much
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I love it here, I get to see you beautiful souls happily and unapologetically talk about the things that you feel intensely about
#i also love it here in the tags where i can read more of what you guys have to say but didn't want it out in the open#idk im in my feels this morning. i love you all#sautee the yearning#sunshitposting
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Madk's mangaka is one of the few people who truly understands the old adage
Love and hate are two sides of the same coin
#madk#Motsu Akuma to Danshi Koukousei#makoto x jonathan#jonathan x makoto#this was one of the things about the manga that was endlessly beautiful and fascinating to me#often people cannot reconcile the idea of both being true#sure there are exes#people who love or once loved each other while also hating them#but it's not simply about loving and hating someone#and most depictions of this involve hate evolving into love or love evolving into bitter hate#but in madk love and hate are hopelessly intertwined between its main characters#Makoto is driven by his revenge and his hate for J#and yet even as he will not falter in his mission and continues to hate#he recognizes that no one in any realm holds his heart other than J#it's a twisted love#it's a story that admits that this love and this hate cannot be separated#it's a story that says by hating J Makoto has come to love him like no one else#Love and hate equal in obsessio#And it's what makes J's ending so tragic too#This was always going to happen#and it's not only that Makoto was deprived of the perfect resolution of revenge he desired#but it's the realization that after changing so much#after becoming that person you hate and obsessing over them so#they leave you. and now you're all alone. chasing the satisfaction of revenge once more. yearning to be loved and hated and obsessed over to#inflict your pain on someone else so you can feel some semblance of peace#and the cycle continues#Makoto wanted Jonathan dead early on#but when Jonathan died he took Makoto's heart with him🥲#i just be ramblin#madk spoilers
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I feel this needs to be said so
Ofius and Declan, the Giant and the Hallewell both have heavy undertones of worshipful types of love, so let me explain their differences in the most metaphorical way, take your own meanings
Ofius is the lost one who was brought into the light. A keeper of his humans temple. He found this place when he had nothing. The light from inside beckoned him into a fulfilling life there. He keeps the temple clean, repaired, and cared for. He is the gentle worshiper
Declan is the bloodied sinner who carved an altar from stone with claws and fangs. His and the blood of others stains his hands and stone. He would carve out his organs as offerings but will never allow another close enough to see this place. He is the selfish reverence
#letters of yearning#hope this cleares things up#Ofius the Giant#Declan the Hallewell#what can i say i love powerful creatures who act like pious worshipers#love both versions too
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see I don't think we talk about this moment enough
#gigolas#lotr#gimleaf#look i don't think they're in love yet here as they haven't even reached the forest#however#it must be said that Legolas's arms are briefly around Gimli#therefore I think this moment ought to be referenced more when Gimli is pining#and he can think back to when legolas's arms were around him and yearn is what I'm saying#slay
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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible
#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything#i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by#while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi#i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real#problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about#and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real#or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason#i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place#because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk#negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual#i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed#a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO#i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait#and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life#like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it#just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy#i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy#and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation#because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life#anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is#to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck
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trying to sleep but this concept has taken a hold of me … thinking about jb first kiss .. but brienne initiating ! jb doing something and their close to each other. in my head jaime is wrapping her arm with bandage like his gold hand is elevating her arm, his left hand is wrapping gauze while she’s holding the roll with her unoccupied hand so he doesn’t drop it (teamwork!!!) but that seems so complicated but I like the idea of them working together on stuff like that ?? and another scenario I’m thinking of is something similar but instead of bandages jaime is sewing something up his left hand is holding the needle and thread while she’s just holding the thing he’s working on bc between the two of them I like to think jaime would be better at sewing anyway unimportant kind of but I was thinking of jb first kiss where brienne initiates … except she tries to but backs out but like comic panel where their heads are close together and he’s busy with something and she’s just looking at him .. at his lips .. he looks up catches her staring and she looks away flustered wanting to leave bc now she’s embarrassed but she can’t and he’s like ? Ok 😳
#talking about this bc I want to draw it!! but I have no energy rn ..#but what can I say I love yearning!!! bri yearning!!! in her feelings!!! and she’s looking so pained and having the worst stomach ache#known to man because she has a CRUSH. and it’s horrible. devastating even. bri being embarrassed but also can not stop#looking 👀 and watching him and she’s talk about him more if someone brings him up#and jaime is like 👀🧍♂️ KIND of suspects something is going on in his pov she’s the same as ever except her face is going red often#he thinks it’s from annoyance or she’s flustered at his bad jokes and she’s thinking a lot which is . not too different than usual#do not ask how much I’ve listened to kiss the girl btw idk why the tlm soundtrack has a hold on me ..
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My DID-having ass is experiencing so much world-envy for the fictional country of Vaugarde I'm going to throw up
#Didn't realize how much I needed a society built around the concepts if change and reinvention but holy shit I do. I need it so bad.#The legally normal concept of being given multiple names to transition between or change to...#the societally accepted and easy ways to craft a new body...#the traditions built around reinvention and throwing away aspects of your old life that you wish to discard#that also acknowledge that reinvention involves the destruction of something else. & the grief from yourself or others that comes with that#literally have never resonated with anything to this level and I am YEARNING#like. my life would literally be so much easier in that society#the fact Vaugarde also highly values queerness of all kinds only helps#going insane over this world-building tbh konda wanna overthrow my government & rebuild my country in its image tbh#I am Decidedly Not Normal about this fake country#no spoilers if you respond to this btw. Not done with the game#In Stars And Time#hi dev I know you have a tumblr so if you see this: I love you#thank you for creating this world and letting me have a peek into it#they say we can't build a better world if we can't imagine what that world would look like and#now i can. I know what my ideal world looks like.#textpost
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(sorry i saw you post about crocheting and couldn't help myself ily sorry if this is ass forgive me)
Sitting thigh to thigh on the couch next to Sugishita, you tilt your head curiously, putting aside your current project to appraise his. What was once an old t-shirt is about to become something new, the sleeves and collar cut off of it.
You love this about him - practical in nature, a good man with a heart as big as he is. The love inside of you ebbs and flows like a river, keeping you glued to his every movement. You technically started crafting before he did this evening, plopping down with your crochet bag a few minutes before he sat down next to you with crafts of his own in mind. The two of you have worked in peaceful silence but you find yourself drawn to him, unable to look away.
You watch as he precisely ties each of the flaps into a knot, each end pulled tightly to ensure everything will remain secure once he flips the fabric inside out. The tip of his tongue peeks out from between his lips, a loose strand of dark hair hanging down his shoulder despite your best attempts to tie it all off of his face before sitting down to begin working.
Catching yourself exhaling dreamily, you glance away to hide your smile, focusing on the rows of stitches sitting in your lap. Keeping from sneaking glances proves difficult the longer you test yourself though and your eyes gradually drift back to him, trimming the excess off of each of the knots that have built the support at the bottom of the work in progress bag.
“It looks good so far, Kyo.”
He nods, eyes focused on his task. You decide to do the same, finishing the last of the stitches in the row that will officially complete your current project, tying them off just as you feel his eyes on your hands.
“It’s for you.”
You extend the headband in his direction and he takes it with a sheepish half smile, thumb and forefinger rubbing the soft yarn he knows you selected with him in mind. The practicalities of your nature make him feel all the more supported and loved, safe and secure in a place where he can bloom into the man he truly is beneath the tall dark shadow he carries.
“It’s funny you say that because this…” Hee reaches to his side and picks up the bag, bunching it in his hand. “Is for you.”
He smooths out the cotton and flips it inside out, showing you the design on the front of the bag. An ages old shirt designed for a community wide clean up, little pink stains splattered just above the screen printed graphic. You remember the day you first wore this like yesterday, plucking it from his closet during one of your first sleepovers and
“Is that the shirt from…?” You ask and Sugishita nods, chuckling. “Yeah, from that first time eating one of Umemiya’s ridiculous watermelons.”
You lean forward, collecting the tote bag. Taking it between your hands with a grin, you look over the painstakingly perfect cuts and effort put into making it something you’ll continue to enjoy forever, something he created after you fussed at him for making his own life unnecessarily hard.
“Remember how he had to haul it in on his shoulder?”
Kyotaro asks you with a chuckle, sliding the headband you made for him onto his head. It’s a better fit than you expected. The strand that was dangling over his shoulder is tucked back and away, now hanging down his back. Setting the bag aside, you crawl across the sofa on your knees and position yourself on his lap with your calves tucked beneath your knees on either side of his legs.
“I remember what a mess we made eating it.” Tucking a few errant strands of hair beneath the headband, you beam up at him while he nods in agreement. “Stained this shirt so bad you could never wear it again.” His dark eyes dart from the bag back to your pretty face, his hands naturally falling to your hips to hold you in place on his thighs. “Maybe this could be the next best thing.”
Giggling, you lean forward and kiss him, grateful for those big hands to steady you. Another kiss, and another, and just a few more and you have to break away to catch your breath.
“The headband works,” he mutters, leaning in to kiss you again. “Keeps it out of my face.”
There’s a twinkle in his eye that makes your thighs flex on either side of him, itching for comfort and relief, all too aware of what that look means. A few beats pass and you find yourself being gently placed on your back on the couch, thighs spread and pajama shorts pulled halfway down.
“Let’s see who is the messier eater, Nana.” He taunts, hair pulled off of his face and giving you a view at the slope of his nose and the smirk on his face. “Can’t ruin this the same way you ruined that,” he looks upward toward the headband and downward to the bag which draws a giggle from you that is quickly swallowed by a salacious moan when his face dips between your thighs.
Hdnddndjbdudbeudue ueueueueueue KENDALL!!!! What if I sob and cry and whine and wail and yowl and DIE?!?! You can’t just drop this in my inbox, my fragile little heart can’t take all this 😭
I LOVE YOU!!!!!
#I wanna crawl inside this story and never leave :((((#I’m in awe and enamored with your characterization of him!!!!!#and istg my heart fluttered and squeezed and did cartwheels at the passage#describing how he felt loved and cherished and like he could truly become the man he wants to be 😭#I’m yearning for us to craft together side by side - to have those moments where we both bask in each other’s presence without saying a word#stealing glances and waiting to finish so you can share what you did :(((#also the dig at the end!!!! yes I’m a messy eater so what LMAO#letters to nana 💌#strawberrystepmom.ask#suginana ❤️🔥
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